Saatnya ku berkata
mungkin yang terakhir kalinya
Sudahlah lepaskan semua
kuyakin inilah waktunya
Mungkin saja
kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja
rasa itu telah pergi
Dan mungkin bila nanti
kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku jangan kau coba
tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang kutinggal mati
Seperti hari kemarin
saat semua disini
Dan bila hatimu termenung
bangun dari mimpi2mu
Membuka hatimu yang dulu
cerita saat bersamaku
Mungkin saja
kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja
rasa itu telah pergi
Dan mungkin bila nanti
kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku
jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang kutinggal mati
Seperti hari kemarin
saat semua disini
Tak usah kau tanyakan lagi
simpan untukmu sendiri
Semua sesal yang kau cari
semua rasa yang kau beri
-Peter Pan-
Wednesday, August 31, 2005
Before and After When I was away from here,(read as when I was in my abroad vacation) I can feel the self esteem,confidence,and heart to try new things.And my ability skill to negotiate become more powerful and my speaking skill also seemed to be better.
I remembered vividly this situation.When I first reached Turkey where I was all alone.How bizarre it is to be in a new place and surrounding u is the people using other language and when u speak english u su*k.Too much depression as before that there are friends among u and suddenly u are all alone in the new world.
But,the loneliness vanished when I reached the Bazaar.Shopping places...happening thing and try to make the 'muamalah' with local sellers.In Turkey,it is a heaven for shopping.U would spend at least 2 days to finish all over the places in Bazaar.To shopping around bazaar was somehow a hard task becoz u really need to negotiate for the price...And it is not about one or two Liras but u should beg for half of the price.Great seller and great liar...haha...Once they know u are not a native....u finished....Until one time,I'm scared to conversate in English...I just make the signal of hand...or using some Turkish word I knew such as 'su' for water...
Hmm I would really like to post what I wrote in my journal when I was in Turkey...It must be ridiculous becoz I wrote and condemn and just wrote wut I feel at the moment...It works.Becoz journal is the only means to put off the stress..Try it...haha
These are some pictures when I was in Turkey...Really beautifoolllll...ihiksss
It is time to go back to school which means Library...hectic...assignment and all the study thing will *interfere* our routine back.I hope this semester will be less in stress and pressure,not assembling the way I felt last semester with bunches of not-know things and those inferiors.
I hope I can istiqamah with the solah jamaah the way I practice during my stay in Irbid,Jordan...I miss Masjid Jamiah and the happening things along the street called "syari' Jamiah."
When I put personal setting as "I misz Syari' Jamiah" some of my friend message.Who is Syari' jamiah in stead of Where is the Syari' Jamiah.Well...keep those memoirs aside.I am here now in Korea,so let be real...
But deep inside my heart,there come one unknown spirit that encourage me to make Umrah at Baitullahil haram.When I saw my friend in Jordan in their pictures of wearing those ihram,my heart whispered hard to walk through Kaabah.Most of them has gone for Hajj,Alhamdulillah...
Last Saturday I made a phone call to my grandma...and suddenly we talk about going for umrah together and she also long to make umrah after doing the hajj at 2002.She wanted to come to Korea before but I think it is better a gathering at Sacred Land of Saudi....I cant imagine to see my grandma ride the subway and stand all the way in the bus here.Too hectic at least for my cute little chubby grandma...
I pray to God for him to ease my way back to middle east...To Kaabah and to kiss the sacred hajar aswad insyaAllah.....
Jordan...Till we meet again.... Finally...I am here.Dah sampai Korea.About one month aku di middle east.Di Jordan and Turkey...Amat menarik percutianku...Di samping kawan kawan yang amat best and mudah bergaul....Sampai rase tak nak balik Korea pulak...hehe...Thanks guys....And I insist want to list their name here....Kawan kawanku di Jordan....
Roomie yang baik hati...memasak and kasi tempat berteduh...Ibrahim aka Bayam and Akmal.... Kawan ku yang happening dan sentiasa latih vocal bersama: Faiz and Aizat... And juga kawan kawan yang sentiasa berborak dan bertegur sapa: Saifullah,Anhar,Amin,Mutawali,Raden,Nuek,Firdaus aka Sin Chan,Reejal,Nuraizat, Kawan sebatch iaitu Fazly,Fird,Che Mie and Syafi Abang abang yang memberi tunjuk ajar: Abg Zamri,Abg Rahhim,Abg Nahar...dan abang abang yang lain (terlupa pula nama) And tak lupa juga kepada Bani and also the one who completes another side of me Keym.....
Actually macam macam aktiviti kitorang wat kat sana...Makan dinner sama,makan pizza,makan ice cream kat Golden Spoon,Celebrate birthday,Swimming day,BBQ day pon ader...terasa macam kat hometown pula...I am missing those things...and picture worth a thousand words and I had 4 cds of pics....haha....selamat melihat gambar...
Di Umm Qaisy...Ba Ba Chak
Di puncak Ajlun Castle
Me and Keym at Dead Sea....
Aku and Haji Faiz (amat alim and sporting)
Aku dan Haji Amin (juga amat alim)
A nite for Pizza
An evening for BBQ...Sedap beb..ayam and sausage...haha
After solat jumaat di Masjid Jamiah...berdiri dari kiri,Abg Rahhim,Aizat,aku,Abg Nahar,Amin dan Nuek...kudus tak aku pakai jubah namanya nus kum...amat alim...
