Saatnya ku berkata
mungkin yang terakhir kalinya
Sudahlah lepaskan semua
kuyakin inilah waktunya
Mungkin saja
kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja
rasa itu telah pergi
Dan mungkin bila nanti
kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku jangan kau coba
tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang kutinggal mati
Seperti hari kemarin
saat semua disini
Dan bila hatimu termenung
bangun dari mimpi2mu
Membuka hatimu yang dulu
cerita saat bersamaku
Mungkin saja
kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja
rasa itu telah pergi
Dan mungkin bila nanti
kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku
jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang kutinggal mati
Seperti hari kemarin
saat semua disini
Tak usah kau tanyakan lagi
simpan untukmu sendiri
Semua sesal yang kau cari
semua rasa yang kau beri
-Peter Pan-
Saturday, December 31, 2005
Andainya aku bersuara
Happy new year guys.....Semoga tahun 2006 lebih memberi erti yang bermakna dalam hidup kita ini.........Love U all......
I swear I wont be taking any seasonal class (read winter or summer class). The hectic is just screwed you up.I need to kick my ass in this quick semester. 2 days or 3 days interval and the exam is on. What I do after the long session day is turn on the TV...watching the real tv from 'Change yourself to cinderella' to 'Next action star'.
Change yourself into cinderella is the programme I immersed most.I admired the result, for at least immersed by what the latest doctors get inside their surgical room,to repair some parts that not beautifully look on human body.Cut,seized some parts in the face,or adding up some silicons in their face. If you see how the operation is, you wont ever want such. Do you know that the doctors tap some iron or let us say metal to here and there in here and there of body part and u can hear the sound of the tapping..(sangat ngilu)...nevertheless the result is superb....All the selected people possess self esteem after the super duper major surgery ( Riak beb muka dah lawa). And even worth, the people who is overweight (Obesity?) would undergo the lipo suction.Worth for them but this is really scarry for me...The doctor cuts the tummy into layer...and sucked the fat under human skin with this special sucker (Am I right for using this word?).And off the lipos and all the fat went.
If Ive been given a choice...I would only choose to undergo only the dental part. To have a shiny miny beautiful glittering teeth is my dream from my high school. Reconstruct the position of teeth, polishing, whitening my teeth and crowning some part would be a bless...hehe....
But this is all a new commercialism America want to influence this world community, at least this is what I discuss with my roomie. These real tv seems very real...They bring you to the fantasy of cinderella..U are kidnapped not into a stink room but into this so called pansion with a swimming pool in da backyard. And you are given choice a f*cking well known merchandizer which suddenly my heart whispered "Aku pon nak gak....pilihlah aku...pilihlah aku"...I want to fell the confidence inside Hillfiger,Armani,Dolce or Zara's outwear whilst this is would be a total dream...not to mention I got only fake Diesel outfits and watch,things I bought when I hang around in the Istanbul's bazaar.
So....let us be thankful for what we have. You should think like this. If everyone do this so called 'plastic mistic lipstick' surgery just for beautifullness...question....For how long will it everlast.Come on...botox aided not that much. In fact it hardened your skin surface and make you hard to smile. In Korea itself you may find two or three film stars having a look alike face.Want me to specificate it? Jangan la...bukak aib jer...Lawa sebab plastic...owchhh
So just be yourelf..U are beautiful....coz 'dirimu sungguh berharga'......Kalau rase cam nak lawa...guna jer L'oreal or SK 11...bile nyer dua company ni nak amik aku jadi jurucakap?hahaha
Itu Zorro lah.... Mengimbau kembali mase first time aku balik Malaysia.Mak aku misunderstand tarikh aku balik. Die fikir aku balik hari Ahad.But aku dah terjojol ari Jumaat. 2 hari awal.Mase tengah tunggu luggage aku call "Mama, Wan dah sampai".... "Ha? dah sampai?" Die cam blank...aku rase dalam hati die mesti cakap ni nak wat surprise ke ape nih?
Mak aku cakap ayah aku pecut kereta pada kelajuan maksimum.Tak sampai berapa minit dah sampai airport.Dalam masa yang sama aku berlegar legar dalam airport.Pergi McD..
Then dari kejauhan aku nampak adik laki aku.Die memula cam tak recognize aku.Coz katanya aku putih macam Cina (jgn muntah...tapi ni exact quote)..Maklumlah aku mase tu wat teknik rebonding kat rambut aku.Lembut dan lurus and bile kat negara sejuk nih pigmen melanin tak aktif so kulit aku agak putih...
Then adik aku bawak gi jumpe mama.Aku dah jalan depan die, tapi die tak acknowledge aku pon.Memang orang pakat tak kenal aku ker mase tu?haha...Then peluk cium semua...Then mama aku kate..."Waa dah tembam wan ni...tapi putih..."
Then balik rumah.Gi umah sedara rapat aku.Diorang cam terkejut dengar suara aku.Semua kerabat pk aku balik ari ahad...Terasa masa tu aku cam antu jer..Orang tengok pelik jer.Macam jelmaan tetiba..hehe..
Then, second time aku balik...berderet deret sepupu sepapat...nenek..atuk adik adik semua datang(minus adik pompuan aku...she got class)...Meriah Inchon airport tu dengan kerabat aku...haha..
But....maybe kali ni, Mak aku tak dapat jemput aku kat airport.Die ader kursus kat Terengganu...2 minggu lak tu die takde kat rumah..Waaaa.....nak makan ape....aku akan jadi chef sepenuh masa lah ni..
And semalam tipon nenek
Aku: Nenek, nanti Wan balik nak pakai seluar itam,baju itam,beg itam,kasut itam ngan spek itam. Nenek: Semua itam ker? Itu Zorro tu....Wan nak jadi Zorro ker? And aku dah tergelak sampai keluar air mata.Gelak lagi dan lagi untuk 2 minit...Up to date tol nenek aku ngan cite cite terkini...Entah entah die fan of Antonio Banderas tak..Ker Salma Hayek...nenek nenek..wa sayang sama lu...
Love for seniors...Bertemu dan berpisah adat manusia biasa
Semalam ader graduation party for foreigner student organized by ISO. So got pelajar from China,Japan,Uzbek..and pelajar Msia yang happening. Tak ketinggalan kakak kakak dan abang senior dari Korea University yang bersama sama memeriahkan sessi party ini.
Tema nya amat simple...dengan hiasan ringkas Merry Christmas di dinding cukup menghangatkan Christmas eve.
Tapi sayang...agak hambar majlis ini.Tidak ramai yang menghadirkan diri. Suasana hambar itu dapat aku rasakan ketika aku buat persembahan lagu 'Nirmala'. Aku yang beria ia membuat latihan vokal dan menari di rumah turn out dengan pitching tak sampai dan lost some coreography balance during the performance. Amat malu ketika sampai part tinggi nih "Nun dari sana telah turun berbicara sang kesuma bidadari syurgawi". Pitching for 'syurgawi' tergelincir...I cant hold the note tight..membuatkan tindakan refleks untuk menjauhkan mic. Bile tengok balik rakaman...baru realize teruk nyer dance aku...Banyak perlu diperbaiki.Lagi satu lagu ni sepatutnye penuh dengan penari. Kalau ramai dancer, aku rase lagi meriah.
Takpe la next year aku try jadi dance coreographer since ramai dak dak junior yang bakal masuk.Aku suke organize persembahan..organizer jer la...nyanyi menari tu soh dak dak ni wat.So..for budak budak junior yang akan masuk Hanyang ni..bersedialah untuk kerahan dari Abang Kuzer
But bile seseorang kata cam ni "Kuzer..ko sporting la.Tak kesah pon buat performance sensorang." Terus terbakar semangat balik...Time kasih pada orang yang mention tu.She is an Iron lady in Hanyang...So it is something for me, I think.
Aku pon even ber'skirt' (read as bersongket)..tapi amat active semalam...berlari lari ke sana ke mari...Mengambil gambar dengan pose yang pelbagai(kamera bau kedai lagi la katakan).Nasib baik skirt tak teretas.Kalau tak malu sajer....
So nak study sikit la....aku amik English Grammar syntax for winter class ni.Agak complicated but somehow interesting....
Yesterday my mom call and asked me to get ready packing.Seems that everybody in my family excited to see me in da airport.My brother ask for a cap.My grandma insist of a brooch 'yang bentuk daun lingkar lingkar'.My dad?My sister?Anip?It made me 'garu kepala'.My bank accounts getting minus under par.And What I can do is...Tak yah beli ape apejust give the warmest smile in da airport.K?
Doughnut (or lebih tepat kuih gelang or kuih keria) dibuat semalam...setelah lama mengidam kuih dari Malaya.....maka terhasillah ia dengan kerjasama kami kami semua....masak nyer berjam jam tapi dihabiskan dalam 5 minit..Alhamdulillah rezeki tuhan
Dan inilah ahli ahli yang makan doughnut semalam....pendek kate...semalam is.....happy with snow and kuih gelang....
Dan kini aku berdebar sebab esok ader show kat graduation day for senior...dikerah untuk menyanyikan salah satu lagu Siti....waduss....bagaimana kesudahannye...sama sama kite saksikan
Snow turun so amik gambar sat ngan cik JT...depan kedai ikan...semua ceria dengan digicam masing masing...aku lagi la senyum meleret..semalam baru beli digicam tengok tengok ari nih snow...
Ni lah Jingkom dari dekat Hanyang...famous tau...ni budak dalam gambar ni aku suruh pandang kamera tak nak...cewah...free style la konon nya tu...eh dak dak kat belakang tu cam kenal la..sape ek..
Owh ni rupenyer model kite ari ni...waaa lawa muffler cik JT...pinjam boleh? Eh sape pulak yang amik gambar tu...dan siapa pula yang amik gambar orang yang tangkap gambar dan model itu?
Eh bebudak ni..happy sangat ker snow turun...yang budak baju kiri tu excited nyer...Lompat tinggi betul..jgn tergelecek dah la....Tak pasal terpeleot kaki tu nanti
Eh takkanlah nak balik dah....Sekejap nye main snow....Harap snow turun lagi la yer....Amin
This is my first snap with my new Digicam...Kodak Easy share V530...I want to assign my special thanks to Juned for the accompany....Love U buddy sampai ke akhir nyawa....Credit to Fet also for the accompanion...And kepada semua yang terlibat secara langsung dan tidak langsung...Waa bunyi cam dapat anugerah jer..
I wanna watch this movie tomorrow. I long to see Reese Witherspoon and her cute smile. Did I mention I re-watching Legally Blonde 1 and 2 for 7 times...I really like her in the movie.But I prefer Legally Blonde 1 rather than the sequel....
I watched the trailer. I think the plot of this story has something in common with The 6th sense.Dead people who doesn't really know or at least they cannot accept their death. Same like Ghost huh....The one with Demi Moore and this guy..I dont know his name...
Owh tomorrow...Again Chong Gye Chon? For the seventh time huh...haha....
Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine. You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you. A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down. But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible.
Maybe my teddy bear collection influences this test...err not to forget my handbag...I should buy some boy's stuff to earn back at least 60 percentage of boyish portion...haha....malu I dapat percentage cam ni...
The first debut for "Memoirs of a Geisha" will be in this January... but I insist here this is the memoirs of Kuzer during his stay in Irbid....I should make this a song...a song so called "My stay in Irbid"....
I like this pics...As I browsing back my travel album...I found this one. I think it is the best pic among all...
Hata...tetiba rasa nak mempopularkan ko di blog aku...japs..Ini aksi SESWATUH ka...this is not seswatuh ok..this is what we call 'Art Hand of upside and down'. Jika anda scan betul betul gambar ni..aksi tangan hata adalah palm ke dalam..but Aizat punyer palm ke atas...(BTW aku dah suruh dua dua buat palm ke bawah...angle tak betul..ihikss)..
Since aku dah takde kamera...aku akan upload gambar lama dari masa ke masa....Hata...still banyak lagi gambar ko kat aku....hehehehe....gambar aku dah takde kan kat komputer ko....but jgn risau..aku hanya akan memaparkan gambar yang manis manis jer...ihiksss...
From mak budak to anak anak ronggeng atas snow...huwaaaa..sampai mati ingat this memory Rawk it genggg.....hahaha....senyum pon tak abis...sejoookkkkkk
Picture in picture..weih Adi u are captured also la
Kuz...and Kuz is me lorrrr
Picture worth thousand words....Really happy last night for it is snowing....but me in dry heart (hati kering) only wears thin sweater and a thin track bottom....but a pairs of glove is a must for the ice fighting.....holaalluuoohaaa....I'm happy....like tomorrow there is no exam....hahahahahah
Just now it snows cats and dogs...aku terus bermain salji bersama rakan rakanku...Kalah budak kecik...yer la kan...setahun sekali jumpe snow...amik gambar baring baring atas snow..buat snow man...atau lebih tepat lagi tak buat pon snow man,but bergambar dengan snow man yang orang Korea wat.Nak wat tangan sejuk...so kitorang hanya bermain baling baling ais yang maha sejuk itu......chincha best malam ni...
Salji yang putih gebu itu...kupijak.....kupijak tapi sayang...tapi kupijak jua kerana langkahku tidak boleh berhenti...dan kupijak berhati hati...kalau salah pijak boleh tergelincir....jatuh berdebuk bagai nangka...
Terus nak riak sebab kat Irbid tak turun snow lagi sambil menjeling kepada seseorang,atau tepat lagi Hata....ahaha.....terus nak menohmah.....kekeke
Langkah kaki kananku Di kala ini aku berada di lab bangunan humanities. Ahli kumpulan aku semua sedang bertungkus lumus membuat mask yang akan digunakan pada theater performance itu nanti.Aku jugak yang dah siap (read as: Kuzer is a well-organized person..ahaks).
Tadi mase rehearsal aku cuba all out.And they said I've did good job'.Sebelum rehearsal aku cubit pipi and tumbuk tumbuk muka aku.Kasi feel sakit so aku leh buat sedih.And at last jadi jugak.Tapi masa performance nanti kena pakai topeng,so voice projection played a major part.Hari Rabu depan ader dress rehearsal.Mase tu la nak pakai baju semua....Waaa nak bawak ker baju aku ek...baju aku amat lah simple and basic.Hanyalah jubah dan songket...malah aku terasa jadi raja Melayu pulak..haha..wutsover la labu...
Sebenarnye ari ni happy coz aku dah dapat ticket balik.Dapat dari New president PPMK tadi.Terus rasa dah sampai kat Incheon, gi counter F dan check in...."Miss I want a window seat please"....Waaa terus terasa dah naik flight.....amik paper utusan free sebelum masuk pintu pesawat.....Dan disapa...Selamat pagi coz flight dari Korea ke Msia semua pagi..Waaaaa..dah tak sabar dah ni....God...cepatkanlah masa....I feel that Time really made a rathe slow crawl now.....
Oppss kumpulan aku cam dah siap jer.....wokes......need to go