(Photo pulled from my Facebook page circa 2014) Welp! After the recent changes of policy from Meta, I’m working on taking more control of my data and the platforms I use moving forward. This platform may go too, but until then. Prepare to be sick of me, because I’m going to use this page more than ever.
(Source: Twitter) It’s Thanksgiving weekend and there have been some changes in my life. First I quit my job and moved out of state to live with my Grandmother and my Dad. I do have a new job I’m working there in the meantime. I’ve also been going to therapy. Why am I telling you all of this? To give you some back story as to why this post is titled “The Ick ” I came back to town for…
(Source: Twitter) I’m a failure! That’s a good thing. Honestly, I don’t know why I didn’t allow myself to fail sooner. For the time being, I’m stepping back from acting. I’ve lost my stride. My past on camera practice, the short film audition, and now a scholarship audition have shown me that I have lost my way. It’s not because I’m bad at acting… it’s because I have suddenly gotten bad at…
(Circa Today) In the name of self-care, I purchased a little treat for myself…a lipstick from Hermés. It’s interesting that I started to take to this brand recently given the history of how the service assistants tend to treat customers with a little bit of melanin to them. However, my social media feed is covered with luxury resales of their bags as well as accessories; some of which wasn’t my…
(Source: Twitter) I’m having a little bit of a breakdown. Right now, I’m typing this while laying in bed. Not because I’m being lazy, but because my body hurts and moving doesn’t help. Lately, I have been applying to jobs that aren’t so physically taxing on my body. Mental stress? Yeah it sucks, but give me that over a sore ankle any day. Don’t get me wrong, I love being physically active.…
(Circa two weeks ago) I wanted to give an update to the former friend who decided to pick apart my comedy set last week. I told them that we had to stop being friends. I also had to point out in an email why that was. I’m not going to share the contents here, but to summarize: Even after blocking them they sent an apology email that disclosed that they should have tried to crack the case on…
(Source: Joanne the Scammer) Hello again. I performed my first comedy open mic this past Monday; and while that was a great milestone, the results were less than stellar. Not because of anything that I did personally. The crowd wasn’t the most attentive to any of the acts there (about 35 people in total.) So it was frustrating not knowing if my jokes truly landed or not. I expressed as much on…
(Source: Twitter) If there’s one thing about my relationship with the Universe, it never wants me to be sad for long. As of right now I’m still in mourning of a lost family member so that sadness will not be shaken off for a bit; but the “woe is me, my life sucks” sadness has shut off for a bit until the next crisis because… I have some important busy work. 1) My stand-up routine is about a…
(Selfie of me a few weeks back, depressed and uncertain.) This is going to be a sad post. Sorry for coming back with depressing news after a long period of time off of here, but life was lifing. So what’s been new with me? Well… The bottom dropped out on my acting career. The availability of work has been less than stellar because of the strikes and COVID so not much has been going on. The…
(Source: Twitter) Watch out now! I may be on the path of healing. Since August I have been taking weekly Zoom acting lessons from an instructor I really wanted to work with for quite some time. I’m happy to report that, as of now, I have seen a great deal of improvement in my craft, but also unlearning bad habits and releasing anxious thoughts. One of the main bad habits in question is…
A Pattern I Have to Start Accepting…
(Source: Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas, Rockstar Games) Welp, once again for the umpteenth time my plans are shot down. I don’t want to go into specifics with what those plans are, but this is a constant pattern featured on this blog and life before it. I’m just going to have to accept that life is in a constant holding pattern for me and I’m not supposed to make headway anywhere. With that in…
On a Whim, but Not Really…
(Source: SpongeBob SquarePants, Nickelodeon.) Soooo… After careful thought and consideration, I have decided to pursue obtaining my paralegal certificate. This seems out of left field, but I have been considering it for a while, especially since I want to get into producing films and understanding contracts is a big part of that. One of the recommendations to be a better producer that I…
(Source: Twitter) If you’ve been following me on this blog for a while now then you know I’m not one to leave money or a resume building opportunity on the table. There’s a first for everything and I had to do just that. A colleague of mine needed a 1st Assistant Director for a film that they are directing. He reached out to me to see if I was available and interested. Of course I’m more than…
All Roads Lead Back to Him…😒
(Cards Featured: Wisdom of the Oracle Deck by Colette Baron-Reid and Fin de Siecle Kipper.) It started with a dream where the former entanglement is trying to hang out with me and chuckle at all the things I’m giggling about. Then I read my horoscope that talked about someone coming back from my past looking for a come up. Now his card has shown up again too, like I predicted back in January it…
An Update to the Cartomancy Prediction…
(Source: Sibilla Oracle U.S. Games Systems) Remember when I posted back in January about bumping heads with the Privileged Lady from the Kipper deck? (Source: Fin de Siecle Kipper by Ciro Marchetti) Well I believe the Privileged Lady and the Dark Haired Woman featured up top are the same person. Not only that, she’s hiding a secret. Let me explain. In addition to being able to read Tarot,…
(Source: Twitter and whomever took this classic photo 🤣) The schadenfreude is very real… Today I got a letter in the mail from a law office and immediately got nervous. “Oh my God am I getting sued?” “I may need to call my uncle for legal advice…” Welp, no need for that because when I opened the envelope and began to read the letter; the squeal I let out was too good. Apparently, I may be…
