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Jeremy would totally roll around with Jab in the floor and dramatically act like Jab is winning their game of tug of war with his shark toy even though it’s canon that Jab is a very small dog

the golden raven ☀️ spoilers & theory;;

there’s something so interesting about jean starting to text renee about jeremy. she mentions it’s been for the last month at the end of the book, and I firmly believe that nora told us the first time it happened without telling us.

page 298: jean was sitting cross-legged in the center of his bed, phone in his hands but gaze pointed across the room at nothing.”

this is after jeremy comes back from being with faser and jean has had his outburst, for context.

jean moreau is the type of person to only pick up his phone with the intent to use it. and every person who he would have a reason to be texting or reaching out to at such a late hour had just been present… except for renee. who we know jean can and will text any time of day.

to me, this is canon. I know it never really will be until nora either tells us or doesn’t, but nora sakavic never tells us anything for no reason. so why was this little detail dropped in here? why would jean have his phone? playing tetris? no.

I firmly believe jean was talking to her about jer.

and if I’ve done the calendar end of it right, the banquet was roughly a month or so before the end of the book. so when renee says “this past month” she’s talking about from the banquet on, more or less. and that was just…

wow. in about twelve hours, jean sat with his celebrity crush and taught him some french, including a phrase in case he needed to get the hell outta the event. jean nearly took someone’s nose off for trying to press jeremy’s emotions too far, watched jeremy go off with some man and come back bruised, and jean was livid. this boy went thru it, all because of jeremy.

so I mean, if his nerves were kind of rubbed raw that night, I get it. but the insinuation that from then on jean started texting renee more and more about jeremy? jean texting renee instead of jean asking her “tell me something” and then waiting for her to fill in the silence? what?

jean started breaking his own long-running habit of just needing renee to tell him something to get him out of his own head. this habit he’s had since back before he was nearly beaten to death in the Nest.

because apparently he wanted and/or needed to talk about jeremy, and who would be safer than someone who isn’t present like the Trojans are? who would tell? not renee.

jean really starts talking to someone about his sunshine captain and then, it’s implied, just can’t stop. what about? no clue. nora, my b-day is in september. drop even just one text. please.

and it’s just so… lovely. like three out of every five? dang jean, are you down bad or what? it’s even funnier/sweeter when you consider this is probably including the regular check-ins and “gossip” about all the drama going on. other things to talk about, and jean still ropes it back to jeremy more often than not.

it’s just… I dunno. this was such an expected bomb to drop at the end of the book. jean had told us everything else under the sun except for this and then nora slung it at us like “haha, chew on this for the next year, suckers.”

and we will. I will, anyway. I love stuff like this.

and I love love love that jean has apparently been falling more in love with jeremy than we ever realized, but behind the scenes. it was a good shock for us and it gives a lot to look forward to in the next book.

(I also want to point out that at the shelter, it’s said that jean had missed a string of texts from renee and cody. makes me wonder if our favorite in-canon jerejean shipper has somehow been looped more into things than we know.)

Playing Neil Newbon's run of Baldur's Gate 3 just so I can sit here and listen to Astarion's voice while doing work. How deep in the trash would we say I am

Okay but I think it's hilarious that Neil keeps putting everything they find that's of any importance at all in Astarion's inventory because his player character is "a bit of a dummy" and he's pretty sure they'd somehow lose it or fuck it up.

Astarion voice: Run along now, dear. I've got this. ^.~

Not a bad way to play 😂

God I hope he romances himself. I'm addicted to this now.

My husband just came out of his office because he thought he heard me crying, but I'm actually just laughing so hard it sounds like I'm crying.

Neil jumps in a hole.

Neil sets vases on top of pressure traps, fails the sleight of hand roll, blows up the room, covers the floor in some sort of grease. Shadowheart falls down in the grease. Tom says, "Oh no, Shadowheart has fallen down!" Neil is already up ahead, setting off all sorts of other traps that I didn't even know existed when I was in there. Fire everywhere.

Neil, over and over and over again: Oh fuck. Oh fuck me. *MANIACAL LAUGHTER* Mayhaps this. Mayhaps that. Oopsie daisies!

Neil: I should kick the squirrel

Tom: You're a DRUID

Neil: *gets disapproval from Astarion* *Reloads*

Tom: I broke my oath so that you can... reload... and romance... YOURSELF?

Neil: *maniacal laughter*

i used to be so good at writing strong, thoroughly-researched, thoroughly-edited essays.

as a kid in hs, my teacher literally came up to me, holding my 40 page essay on the intersection of the European witch hunts and capitalism/exploitation/gender roles (it was supposed to be 7 pages...whoops) and went like "this is literally a master's-degree level thesis. what are you doing?? you could literally use this as your final dissertation in a master's program, what the fuck."

NOW??? NOW?? you'd think I'd be oh so skilled. but alas. i can barely piece together two ideas. adhd skill-regression is so so real. im SOBBING

The skill can come back and it often does. It is not unusual for it skill recedes during stressful and painful times. Maybe you just need more stability/safety/kind people around you.

I have been through something similar a few times in my life with writing, yoga, studying...

Admittedly, my life is always financially and socially precarious, so my notion of stability currently just means "enough money to pay the rent and food for the next few months."

It is hard to hold onto anything when you have to fight for survival all the time, either materially or emotionally.

Wow, uh. Okay, I'm gonna need a minute to process "It is hard to hold onto anything when you have to fight for survival all the time...". You're genuinely rewiring my brain is we speak.

Thank you, this means a lot to hear. <3

Thank you as well. We have to help each other in this hellscape whenever we can.

jeremy/cat/laila who find out about the poisson d'avril tradition and decide to do it for jean.

jean, who hasn’t seen one of those little paper fish since his last year in France with Elodie.

jeremy, cat and laila who can’t figure out why jean was so quiet all day instead of laughing along like they’d hoped he would…

jeremy's beige flag is that he brought a yo-yo as his only form of entertainment to an airport at the ripe age of 22 but his green flag is that he FAILED to do anything with it

I need Jean to use French for evil against Jeremy in tsc3.

"Maybe Laila isn't as good with her tongue." "I have nothing to be defensive about." That's cute and all Jeremy but what are you gonna do when Jean realizes you go crazy for him speaking French and he starts murmuring terms of endearment to you in the language when you step off the court after good game. What are you gonna do when he looks you in the eye and says "tu es très bon" (you're very good) after practicing your French accent with him. What are you gonna do when you start to understand enough of the language that you realize everything Jean has been saying to you in French over the past few months was him dropping hints that he's equally as in love with you as you are with him....

Jean is so good at tanking all of Jeremy's wild comments; I need to see how Jeremy loses it when Jean finally starts flirting back 🙏

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