fucking hate it when the stuff everybody says “actually works” does actually work.
hate exercising and realizing i’ve let go of a lot of anxiety and anger because i’ve overturned my fight-or-flight response.
hate eating right and eating enough and eating 3 times a day and realizing i’m less anxious and i have more energy
hate journaling in my stupid notebook with my stupid bic ballpoint and realizing that i’ve actually started healing about something once i’m able to externalize it
hate forgiving myself hate complimenting myself more often hate treating myself with kindness hate taking a gratitude inventory hate having patience hate talking to myself gently
hate turning my little face up to the sun and taking deep breaths and looking at nature and grounding myself and realizing that i feel less burdened and more hopeful, more actually-here, that i am able to see the good sides of myself more clearly, that i am able to see not only how far i have to grow - but also how much growth i have already done & how much of my life i truly fill with light and laughter and love
horrible horrible horrible. hate it but i’m gonna do it tho
Just reread both stories in Right Beside You. I really love this series of stories so much.
I hope it's alright to ask a timeline question? How long have Rhaegar and Alicent known one another? The first thing Alicent ever said to Rhaegar was that she thinks she might be a lesbian and she knew about him from Laena before meeting him so she knew Laena before Rhaegar, so had Alicent already come out/begun her coming out (twenty-something months before the first story) to Laena before meeting Rhaegar?
Also I can't stop doodling Rhaegar. His suit in the second story is a dream.
— sent by AnonymousHello! First of all: DOODLES? DOODLES!?!?!?!?! *HEAVY BREATHING*
MAY I SEE THEM?
Secondly, it’s super alright! So they’ve known each other a little over two years by this point. Laena and Alicent know each other bc they both teach at the same university. Laena is a Herpetologist. I believe a close reading of the first story informs you that she is currently embarking on a field expedition, Steve Irwin style.
Alicent and Laena were close friends for a few years before Alicent came out, and Laena was like I Am Once Again The Unfortunate Token Straight, you should come meet my extended family, which is mostly composed of queers of every kind and not enough Lizards
(Torrhen from the bedroom: One lizard’s plenty and we’re not getting another!
Laena: say that to my face if you’re so big and strong
Torrhen: I love you and our baby princess lizard and I think she’d feel some rejection if we got another and she had to share space and affection.
Laena:….Okay, I’ll marry you.)
Another question to add on to the previous anon because I also reread the second one recently:
Is Laenor still alive?! I could sworn he was in the first one but the wording of a sentence in the second one has me hella worried
Just reread both stories in Right Beside You. I really love this series of stories so much.
I hope it's alright to ask a timeline question? How long have Rhaegar and Alicent known one another? The first thing Alicent ever said to Rhaegar was that she thinks she might be a lesbian and she knew about him from Laena before meeting him so she knew Laena before Rhaegar, so had Alicent already come out/begun her coming out (twenty-something months before the first story) to Laena before meeting Rhaegar?
Also I can't stop doodling Rhaegar. His suit in the second story is a dream.
— sent by AnonymousHello! First of all: DOODLES? DOODLES!?!?!?!?! *HEAVY BREATHING*
MAY I SEE THEM?
Secondly, it’s super alright! So they’ve known each other a little over two years by this point. Laena and Alicent know each other bc they both teach at the same university. Laena is a Herpetologist. I believe a close reading of the first story informs you that she is currently embarking on a field expedition, Steve Irwin style.
Alicent and Laena were close friends for a few years before Alicent came out, and Laena was like I Am Once Again The Unfortunate Token Straight, you should come meet my extended family, which is mostly composed of queers of every kind and not enough Lizards
(Torrhen from the bedroom: One lizard’s plenty and we’re not getting another!
Laena: say that to my face if you’re so big and strong
Torrhen: I love you and our baby princess lizard and I think she’d feel some rejection if we got another and she had to share space and affection.
Laena:….Okay, I’ll marry you.)
words cannot describe how much i love showering. my wet contemplative box
Hey everyone how’s it going
redownloading grindr was not a mistake. this is poetry
1617:
sometimes home is a person
please don’t say that
hi, a lot of you need a perspective reset
- the average human lifespan globally is 70+ years
- taking the threshold of adulthood as 18, you are likely to spend at least 52 years as a fully grown adult
- at the age of 30 you have lived less than one quarter of your adult life (12/52 years)
- ‘middle age’ is typically considered to be between 45-65
- it is extremely common to switch careers, start new relationships, emigrate, go to college for the first or second time, or make other life-changing decisions in middle age
- it’s wild that I even have to spell it out, but older adults (60+) still have social lives and hobbies and interests.
- you can still date when you get old. you can still fuck. you can still learn new skills, fashionable, be competitive. you can still gossip, you can still travel, you can still read. you can still transition. you can still come out.
- young doesn’t mean peaked. you’re inexperienced in your 20s! you’re still learning and practicing! you’re developing social skills and muscle memory that will last decades!
- there are a million things to do in the world, and they don’t vanish overnight because an imaginary number gets too big
ALICENT HIGHTOWER and GWAYNE HIGHTOWER
2.06 “Smallfolk”
I think there’s something that needs to be said about encouraging readers to leave feedback.
For me it’s not about “tell me my writing is amazing and stroke my ego”
It’s more about “please engage with me so that I can experience your joy secondhand and foster a connection with you”
I understand that not everyone wants this in their reading experience, some people are shy and a million other reasons why maybe someone wouldn’t want to engage and that’s perfectly fine!
But what I’m trying to steer away from is being a passive content creator with passive consumers. What I want to steer toward is fostering a community that is essential to fandom. I want to see your reactions because it makes me feel like I’m a part of something.
On encouraging reblogs —
I understand that not everyone is comfortable reblogging, especially explicit content. This is ok!
But just consider that the only reason you were able to enjoy a fic or fanart is because someone else shared it, and by not sharing it yourself you are potentially robbing someone else of the opportunity to enjoy it as much as you did.
As OPs our reach only goes so far and this website relies on reblogs in order for anything to truly get seen by a wider audience.
So that’s really it! That’s why I encourage these two things at the end of every story I post. Not because I’m trying to be demanding and “make people feel bad” if they don’t do it.
I know most other social media sites encourage mindless content consumption and that’s just the way of the world nowadays, but I am from a time when community was at the heart of fandom and I just don’t want to lose that.
But what I’m trying to steer away from is being a passive content creator with passive consumers. What I want to steer toward is fostering a community that is essential to fandom. I want to see your reactions because it makes me feel like I’m a part of something.
“The old magic persists thanks to it’s unfathomable power.”
No, the old magic persists because the new magic can’t run the legacy spells I need to do my job, and keeps trying to install spirits I don’t want or need onto my orb.
Look, if the new magic didn’t have a personality construct that kept trying to tell me which spells to use, maybe I wouldn’t still be using the old magic.
Yes it had a deep blood cost, but at least it was a one time sacrifice and not this monthly bloodletting nonsense new age magic has
The old magic is robust enough to survive a decade of use and it’s compatible with every wand, staff, scroll, and charm in our collection.
The new magic stops working after three days and every spell uses proprietary runes.
Our preferences, as an archiving institution, should be pretty clear.