Fic Rec: Baby's first time looking for mpreg, OR, one of the times @dodgerkedavra won me over for a trope I thought I had a squick against

[Podfic] See Me and Live by dodgerkedavra, read by @sweatersinthesummer

Fandom: HP
Ship: Drarry
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: None
Podfic lenght: 3.5–4 hours
Summary: Harry and Draco are roommates. They're coworkers. They're secret boyfriends. And now they're having a baby together!?

I took notes while listening, both in audio form as well as in writing depending on when and where I was listening to this, and yet — where do I even begin this rec post? I guess that's where.

One of my little voice notes starts with:

*maniacal giggles* I love this so much, yes this story is excellent, first of all, I love a Harry, well I love all Harrys but *sighs happily* when he's so confused, when he's so, like, rendered absolutely imbecille by his attraction to Draco, it's so excellent, I love himmmm *laughs while talking* He's so stupid, in this story he's so stupid when he's around Draco, I love ittttt *desperately happy laughter*

And that's pretty much the gist of all of them. Heh. Not very useful in the ways I might have hoped, my little notes. I thought I'd been like. Contemplative and insightful and shit, but nah. I was rendered absolutely imbecille by this fic and you know what, I rejoice in that!

(I swear I'm contemplative and insightful, like, sometimes...)

This podfic filled me with joy that came out in little shrieks, in endless giggles, at times even as tears. There was a moment, somewhere on the wintery roads of Southern Ostrobothnia, where I got so emotional about the pure happiness brought by this story, by Pam's heart-touching, delightful narrating of it, that I had to pause it for a mo in order to cherish the happy. To bask in the happy. To attempt to store the happy. It's making me teary-eyed and so very warmed to think about, just now.

The story is like one treat right after another. From all the ways in which Harry does not quit the Aurors because of Draco Malfoy (but really, really kinda does), through Pansy (THE ICONIC, MY BELOVED) calling in sick because [redacted for anti-spoilery purposes] and ends up faciliating (PLANNING?) Drarry's first date, to all the ways in which Harry's experience of being pregnant is outrageous, is relatable, is so funny. Ron's Healery expertise. Hermione's no-bullshit attitude towards Harry's health scare and the reasons thereof. Every mention of Lucius Malfoy. The, ah, celebrations. The seeings of Draco Malfoy.

It's not been an easy start of year for me, and I've been hard-pressed to find myself in moments of happiness. So. If this rec post is focusing a bit heavily on how much joy this podfic brought me, is still bringing me, that's why. That voice note I transcribed above? It ends with:

I'm so happy. I'm just so happy. *giggles, like, wistfully* Okay. *gathers herself for like three seconds* But I shall continue to listen now because I want more of this happy. Also I don't remember when I've been this happy, so *contemplative pause* Thank you, both to Pammy and Dodger. This is... it's special to me.

So, yeah. Thank you. <3

I am BESIDE MYSELF wanting to hear this voice note 😭😭😭😭 Trippery I do all this to bring you joy and I too am so grateful for @sweatersinthesummer for bringing this story to LIFE the way she did, which is so true to the vibe!! So true!!!! So wonderful!!! THANK YOU FOR THIS GIFTTTTT

Commenter Shout-Out: @froidefille and @pocket-lin

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In general I try (and usually fail) to be chill about receiving comments on fics, but actually I’m not chill at all because I love and treasure them so much and keep them in my pocket and take them out to look at them all day and usually forever afterwards.

So today I am shouting out two people who I always hope will show up in my inbox every time I write a fic. I thought about posting some snippets of their comments but those feel like sacred missives to me, so I decided to hoard them for myself instead 😬

I have a huge amount of trouble remembering names from one platform to another, so there are definitely more people I can and will one day shout out, but today is your day, @froidefille and @pocket-lin! I LOVE YOUR COMMENTS!!! THEY MAKE MY LIFE INCREDIBLE!!!

xoxo Dodger

Creator Rec List: @sweatersinthesummer

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I’m very thrilled to do a creator rec list of some of my fave works by @sweatersinthesummer, who is not just a wonderful podficcer but a kind, hilarious person as well! If you haven’t come across her works, check out some of these!

[Podfic] Ship of Theseus by GallaPlacidia

Gallaplacidia’s fics are so good, so Pajammy’s recordings of them are treasures. Ship of Theseus is one of my personal faves!!

[Podfic] The Last Coffee by kbrick

Sad but hopeful AKA CHEF’S KISS (plus Pajammy’s voice 🥹)

[Podfic] Hoppípolla by Moonflower_Rose

I love this title so much, listen to it

[Podfic] Move, move by MaesterChill

I like fics about dancing……….. SUE ME

[Podfic] Happy Returns by toomuchplor

“I swear to Merlin, if you don’t ask him out soon, I’m going to murder you both,” says Neville.

Need I say more??

Anyway, thanks for lending us your voice, Pajammy! Everyone, go listen to these podfics!!

God of All Comfort

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“You,” says Malfoy, his fingers still tight around Harry’s wrist, “are hungry. You are overtired. And if those things weren’t enoughand make no mistake, Potter, they areyou’re having one of your days, and I will—”

“My da—” 

Malfoy pulls before Harry can finish saying days. It’s nothing. A tug, maybe, if that. But Harry blinks, and when he opens his eyes again, he’s inches from Malfoy’s face, Malfoy’s eyes on his, flashing like sunlight on a sword.

“I will not watch you bleed out again. I will not. You can lie to yourself about the state you’re in, but you cannot lie to me, and I will not stand by and let you hurt yourself.”

Harry is speechless. This feeling is—this feeling is like nothing he’s ever felt. He’s never been so bloody offended in his life, and Malfoy has said things about his parents beforeHis dead parents. 

“I don’t,” he finally forces out. “I don’t do it on purpose. I’ve never done it on purpose.”

Malfoy narrows his eyes.

“The pub was different. That was—I wasn’t trying to—that’s not what I was—”

“I am not leaving you.” Every word out of Malfoy’s mouth is a razor. He’s so close. So quiet. “I am staying with you. Here’s what we’re going to do, Potter. You will eat. Drink some tea, if you fancy it.”

“But—”

“When you’re finished, you’ll take down your jeans and pants and bend over my lap. I will hold you there and spank you until you tell me it hurts, after which—”

The sound that comes out of Harry’s mouth starts out as pure shock and indignation, but it changes into something else entirely. He has never been so aware of his own cock before. His battered, worn-in jeans are a cage.

“—after which I will continue until you’ve had enough. And then I shall wipe away all your tears and pet you until you are prepared to resume the assignment.”

“Assignment?” Harry’s mind scrambles to sort through everything Malfoy’s just said. “You didn’t put in for a transfer? We’re still partners?”

Malfoy leans in another inch. “Yes.”

Read God of All Comfort on AO3

A kinkuary fic! With lots of kinkuary in it!

Writer Interview

for @arminaa8 who tagged me!!

how many works do you have on ao3? 56

what’s your total ao3 word count? 965,580

your top 5 stories by kudos

Now I Know In Part

If You Miss It, Try Again

Good For You

Lover, Where Do You Live?

In The Presence of My Enemy

do you respond to comments? I really, really try to respond to all the comments. But then I got sad for a year. Or maybe two years. So I’m very behind :/

what’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending? Like, where they don’t end up together? They always end up together in my fics. Even if that might be…in heaven. Oh, wait—I did write one where Petunia is very sad in the end. So I would say it’s The Winds Forbid.

what’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending? All of them? But shout-out to See Me and Live

do you write crossovers? Sometimes, if the need arises, I do:

Starlight in the Void

Love Will Abide

have you ever received hate on a fic? Mostly just nonsense, but I’m generous with my comment deletion and will do it at the hint of an upsetting vibe

do you write smut? So much

have you ever had a fic stolen? If I have, I don’t know about it

have you ever had a fic translated? Yes!! I have had four fics translated into Portuguese by @moonletterss, including my two longest fics so far (Former Things Come to Mind and Go Up to Gilead)

have you ever co-written a fic? Not yet!

what’s your all-time favorite ship? DRARRY

what’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will? I’m going to finish them all (except maybe the Dramione one)

what are your writing strengths? This is not for me to say

what are your writing weaknesses? Probably how long it takes me to figure things out

dialogue in other languages in a fic? Does Draco speak French? Then of course

what’s a fandom/ship you haven’t written for yet but want to? Ronsy, and I have active plans for their background stories from other fics

what’s your favorite thing you’ve ever written? Filled with the Spirit, and…something I’m secretly writing rn

I don’t want to bother anyone LOL

[H/D Owl Post] Filled with the Spirit

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The moment Draco tries to pull his fingers out of Harry’s mouth, Harry bites.

Not hard enough to break the skin, but hard enough that a delicious little stripe of pain digs into the bone above Draco’s knuckles.

Draco might have been born at half-past eleven at night, but it wasn’t last night. Harry’s baiting him, but in cases like these—a long day, deep involvement with the curse, a near-miss—it’s less conscious brattiness than a compulsive need for reassurance.

Reassurance Draco is prepared to provide. He’s still got his off-hand at Harry’s throat, ready to squeeze, and squeeze he does.

Harry gasps, gagging a bit on Draco’s fingers. His pupils blow even wider. They’d already been quite wide, what with the breaking, but the Killing-Curse green thins out. His chin tips up another fraction, and his eyelids flutter, and finally—just when Draco’s going to have to let him breathe—Harry laps at Draco’s fingers with his tongue.

That’s the only apology he’s in any position to give. Draco waits a moment more, then slides his hand from Harry’s neck to his hair.

“Is that all you’ve got in you?” he asks.

Harry shakes his head.

Draco presses down onto his tongue, and Harry takes his cue to suck, his dark eyes on Draco’s face. 

Of course, Draco is no wide-eyed ingénue. He’s well aware of the glints in Harry’s eyes like the tiny points of flame spreading into the pews from the Paschal candle. Let us lift our eyes to him. The Muggles will be looking at a bronze baldacchino a hundred feet high during the Mass tonight, and beyond it, the Cathedra Petri.

They’ll look, but they won’t see. Not at first. The Mass begins in darkness, so the altar and the throne and Bernini’s Dove of the Holy Spirit will be rendered in shadow. There is nothing to do but wait for them to return. To trust they still exist. Faith, not sight.

Read Filled with the Spirit on AO3

An @hdowlpost gift for @maraudersaffair featuring curse-breakers Drarry and also the Vatican!

10 people I want to get to know better

@arminaa8 tagged me and I am always quietly shocked when I get tagged because I have the belief that people don’t think of me when I’m not there 🙃

Last song: Greek Tragedy - The Wombats

Favorite color: Heavy white snow is coming down on evergreen branches outside my window–probably that evergreen color at this moment

Last movie: Conclave

Last TV show: I am at this very moment watching Sister Wives

Sweet/spicy/savory: Sweet

Relationship status: MARRIED

Last thing I googled: Shakespeare’s birthplace, because I just finished reading Hamnet and I need to know more about everything

Current obsession: Hamnet. Hamlet. Switching places. Stories. There’s something in all of this, maybe, some central thing, but I don’t know what it is yet

Looking forward to: Finishing some WIPs that I started when I was sad and couldn’t do at the time. New stories. Learning how to draw, but also just having fun doing it? Whatever the world is going to put in front of me next, or soon

@froidefille @its-the-allure @vukovich @kamaela @itsphantasmagoria I don’t know who to tag, LOL SORRY

No specific theme for this reclist, but here's some fics that I've really enjoyed. I think a lot of us could use it today.

Perennial Blooms by @dodgerkedavra (5,000 words, rated E)

The flowers keep coming back.

With Love in Her Luminous Eyes by @starquestingfordrarry (30,153 words, rated T)

The Demiguise lived in Grimmauld Place, and she lived all alone.

At Night All Birds Are Black by @veradubhghoil-blog (51,843 words, rated E)

Harry loves being an Auror—the long hours, adrenaline-fuelled chases, and even the paperwork. But when a haunting leads to his suspension, he’s forced to continue his investigation in secret. As he unravels the murder of a young girl, he turns to the one person he never expected he’d need: Draco Malfoy.

When Times are Dire by @aibidil (130,309 words, rated E)

Magical Britain is screwed, and it's once again up to Harry to save it. This time, by marrying Draco Malfoy.

Cut from the Sky by @mallstars (150,289 words, rated E)

"I'm stuck in a time loop, reliving November 2nd. This is the 111th time I've lived through today."

Draco stilled. His moody eyes, the tension in his hands where he gripped onto his umbrella, the careful mask of blankness flickering over his face — everything about him was so difficult and so very dear to Harry.

"Ah," said Draco, "and?"

The Star Splitter by @oflights (219,001 words, rated E)

On a routine time travel assignment to the past, Draco stumbles upon 7-year-old Harry Potter and witnesses his neglect and mistreatment by the Dursleys. In the moment, there is only one solution, even if it goes against all his training as a Time Agent: he has to bring Harry back to the future with him.

In which Draco burns his life down for the sake of his former school rival.