ADHD is such nonsense sometimes. I was worried my PMDD had escalated and was continuing into my cycle and that I’d never know the warmth of sunshine on my skin or the fresh taste of strawberries.
And then I decluttered the bedroom and removed something I’d been meaning to tackle for weeks and ah, I see. I am not in actual fact on the brink of a nervous breakdown, I was just visually overstimulated and my ADHD was doing the nervous system equivalent of a chihuahua shaking itself to death out of sheer nervous existence. As though I don’t have actual Horrors to be overwhelmed by but no, the chair in the corner that had become a dumping ground for all my stuff was my mental limit.
#oh god #and the best part is that you cant see the clutter on the chair #in fact chances are good the chair itself is totally invisible #your brain will not tell you what the problem is #its just standing there barking and youre like #whats that boy timmy fell down the well come on give me a hint #and its like no actually everything is just terrible forever #also you must become the worlds biggest bitch now