I found this sketch I’d done few weeks ago earlier for isozyme’s fic you’re not a religious person (but) on ao3. This has got to be one of my favourite gomens fics of all time I literally cannot express in words the emotions 😭😭
The speech bubble is supposed to say “Then it is love, and love cannot be wrong” (a quote from the fic) but my v’s look a lot like r’s lmao.
(I’m realising now that Crowley’s looking past Aziraphale, I forgot to draw the table properly, I have no idea what is going on with Azi’s clothes, and ohmygod the hands I hate them)(I also can’t remember how long Crowley’s hair was in the fic sorry 😭)
wow fanart for my fic!!!!!!!!!!!! omg!
(if i specified how long crowley’s hair was in the fic i don’t remember either, it’s up to artists interpretation)
“Hey, Leon?” Tkachuk says. Leon turns his head. “Go hug him, idiot.”
“There’s people,” Leon points out.
Tkachuk makes such an unimpressed face that Leon’s ears burn and he hurries to his feet before Tkachuk can call him a piece of shit for caring about looking soft in front of the boys when Connor needs somebody. Needs Leon in particular, maybe, given the way everyone keeps pestering him about it. Leon’s heart does a weird flip about that and he tells it to sit still. There’s a job to do.
Where did that she’s a rebel mtk19 edit go? I can’t find it anywhere unless tumblr is being stupid again :( ofc if you deleted it the just ignore this ask I completely understand!
Tumblr fucking borked me for copyright and removed ALL of my matthew tkachuk vids, but twitter didn’t so here’s a list:
it’s not the point of this poem to make you think of rivers behind houses, but that’s what it does to me. the creeks and culverts and wide muddy shallow things with gravel banks or tall grasses on either sides. it makes me think of being thirteen instead of thirty-three, and all the rivers I leapt into, waded into, fell into out of canoes, things I wouldn’t allow myself to do now, on a whim, if my backyard had a river. and my father, sixty-three, covered in drywall dust from finishing the walls of the half-farmhouse half-shack my parents bought, jumping into the pond to rinse off instead of taking a shower.
I'm having a really rough week (as I think so many of us are) and it would mean so so much to me (and while I don't know for sure I think it's a safe bet to many, many others as well) if you would post chapter nine of Let Me Look At You sooner than two days. Any shortening of the interval would be like a drink of water in the desert. Your readers are perishing. I am barely clinging to life.
OK BYE
sorry i have to do revisions on it first!!! it’s not ready yet!
while my regular schedule might make it appear that i have the whole thing laid out, ready to hit post, but chapter 8 has stuff in it that i wrote literally yesterday. i’ve spent the past week and a half writing a bunch of extra little scenes and snippets that need to go in, fixing names and gratuitous paragraph breaks and weird phrasing
sit tight! you can make it! chapter 9 can be a treat for getting to the end of the week <3
I'm so fucking excited to read the next chapter when you post it!!!! I usually have trouble finding someone with a writing style I really love but yours is so much fun to read and I can't wait for more ❤❤
thank you! this fic has been so fun to post, the response has been great and definitely motivates me to keep on posting on schedule
isozyme, would you ever consider doing a director/author's commentary for any scenes in 'let me look at you'? it feels like there's so much going on under the hood that i want to pick apart in every chapter which makes it such an engaging read
if people want that, i could try! definitely after i finish posting because i think it’d be tough to do while trying to watch for spoilers, but maybe i can open my inbox up for requests for a bit once i’ve posted chapter 10! i can also post some extras like the chart i used to keep track of everybody’s emotional progression because it was not easy to hold all of their bullshit in my brain at the same time
The fact you would write a woman who has been publicly cheated on by her partner as an abuser is horrible. I understand it’s a story important to you but you could have just made up a person connor McDavid was marrying to. Instead of associating a real woman with some horrible things. Especially a woman who gets publicly dragged by the internet on the daily.
I did think about making up a different wife for Connor. Ultimately I decided against it because it felt dishonest to write Lauren out of existence just to replace her with an crueler carbon copy of herself.
To me, rpf is an exercise of What If that relies in some ways on the characters having real-world counterparts. What if the smiling couple in the beautiful Insta photos is falling apart? What if a WAG isn’t a perfect, supportive piece of an NHLer’s charmed life? What if she too is a difficult person trying to get what she wants, instead of a patient victim of her husband’s infidelity? I don’t think it’s inherently sexist to explore these questions, although I’m aware it opens me up for criticism, some of which may be valid.
In the fic I do my best to give my Lauren character agency and complexity. While she’s not a nice character, she’s an important one. The POV characters view her through a heavily biased and sexist lens, which naturally affects her portrayal. My Connor character isn’t innocent either - he’s still a cheater and a shitty husband. If it mollifies you at all, I think the relationship I’ve written between Connor and Lauren is more dysfunctional than abusive. In the story she makes Connor unhappy and sometimes says things that are mean and controlling. It’s a commentary on the gender dynamics of emotional abuse, not necessarily a direct depiction.
Unfortunately I can’t control if people reading my fic are unable to separate something very clearly marked as fiction from their real-life opinions on Lauren. The best I can do is state that it’s explicitly against my wishes for anyone to show my fic to Lauren or anyone connected her or to send Lauren hate because of me.
