acceptance is not going to hurt.
there are no quests. no moral choices. no divine prophecies. your worthiness is not questioned by your suffering . . . yet, you are still trapped. you are in your own cage.
why are you treating shifting like a quest? as if you are the hero in this greek myth, encountering gods and magical objects, evolving and understanding the world by completing a task who looked bigger than you. and your reward? is going back home.
but, it can be easy. and you are not used to this.
it looks like enemy territory. when people around you seemed to have it simple and you had to put twice of their effort to even accomplish something. it feels like everything you did in life is not worthy; simple tasks required hours of your time, and something as . . . whimsical as shifting, is simple? you are holding on your past experiences because that’s all you know. at the end you still accomplished those tasks, so with shifting is going to be the same.
but what if it’s the holding that it’s hurting you? accepting to let go is not a cruel joke. the cruelty is staying in a situation that is not helping you . . . and everything you accomplished in your life is not going to disappear because you acknowledged that something can be easy. acceptance doesn’t ask you to forget. it’s healing your suffering. it wants to make you understand that your cage is not everything that exists in the world.
accept it. the cage is open. you can walk away.
