ex!seungmin who thinks about you when he receives his diploma during his graduation in law school because he couldn’t have done it without you, and it breaks his heart that while he’d reached his dreams, you couldn’t be there to see him make it.

• he’d remember the countless sleepless nights you’d stayed up with him to review for his tests
• or when you’d urge him to get some rest or eat his meals when he’d forget sometimes
• you were there to help him realize he could do it, coming with him to apply for numerous universities
• you were there from the beginning, so why couldn’t you be there to see him reach the end?
• and it was a mutual decision—the breakup. but he finds that, as he reaps the rewards of his efforts, it doesn’t feel right that you aren’t in the crowd
• that night, seungmin ponders over whether to call you or not
• instead, he sends a few text messages
• he doesn’t think he could talk to you without crying, doesn’t think he’s ready to hear your voice again
• seungmin (9:57pm): i graduated today haha
• seungmin (9:58pm): i just wanted to say thank you. i know that things are over between us, but it’s undeniable the influence you had on me while i was in law school. i don’t know if i’d be able to make it this far if you hadn’t believed in me the way you did. thank you. i can’t say it enough.
• seungmin (10:01pm): there’s so much i want to tell you, but i guess i don’t really have the right to do that anymore. still, i hope you realize how much you’ve changed the way i looked at life (for the better, i can hear you complaining already)
• seungmin (10:03pm): oh, and i found this letter i’d written back when i was still in my 1st year. it’s addressed to you, and i vividly remember telling myself to give it to you on the day i graduate. haha, somehow i’d thought we’d still be together when today would come. lmk if you still want it or if it’s too awkward then that’s okay too
• seungmin (10:06pm): alright that’s it. sorry if these messages freaked you out a little. i’m not even sure this is still your number
• seungmin (10:07pm): thanks again, (name). you are the one person who made me believe i could make it and i did :) thank you