this time it won't fix

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you made me feel nauseous 
i keep getting sick
can't remember where it started 
can't forget all that you did to me
you tasted so bittersweet 
i still see you every time i sleep
i gave you every part of me 
i bet you couldn't tell
i fall in love with narcissists,
don't care about myself
i just go through sedatives
keep fucking up my health 
what's the point of heaven,
i already live in hell

it's not easier 
i'll lie and say it is 
i gave up on getting better 
it's just the way it is
i've been feeling numb ever since i was a kid 
i don't wanna die,
but i don't wanna try and live

i said that i loved you 
(save me)
i gave you the blood from my skin
i tried everything
admit it
it's hard but i did it
you left me too damaged 
this time it won't fix

[heylog]
i'm calling for you 
are you with someone else
the pics on my phone
are nowhere to be found 
would it surprise you 
if i took myself
i might just die here
when no ones around
but i made a choice 
that i regret 
stomp out the house
from what i said
and now it's too late to apologize
fumbled my words,
i guess this is goodbye 

i wish i did better 
thinking all the time 
baby it's whatever
see you in the next life
i'm trying to forget her 
but god it feels impossible
now she's just a number 
floating in my phone
i wish i did better 
thinking all the time 
i don't make any sense
and it makes me wanna cry 
but i look like im stupid
and she say that it's fine 
girl you're pretty funny 
tell another lie

it's not getting easier (w/ heylog) (prod. caves & irby)

produced by me ^^ <3

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Lyrics -
i just don't understand
i left it in your hands
you left my heart tainted, don't know where i am
but i ain't fuckin' healed yet
but you act like you don't see it

you don't deserve the praise
you didn't wanna change
you gave it all up for a little bit of fame
and i just don't wanna feel shit

i just don't really need this, no

late calls
i didn't wanna text you
too long
that i didn't really see you
won't lie yeah, i've changed a lot
spent the summer with myself and all of my thoughts
bring another bottle
i could really use one
but it's something that i never really talk about
never really saw the same
never really felt the pain

i just don't understand
i left it in your hands
you left my heart tainted, don't know where i am
but i ain't fuckin' healed yet
but you act like you don't see it

you don't deserve the praise
you didn't wanna change
you gave it all up for a little bit of fame
and i just don't wanna feel shit

i just don't really need this, no

i just watch u cry
you do it all the time
i'm here cause i like you
it ain't a lie
focus how to breathe
i need u for some venting
look at me i'm worth
more than i really think
knock me down until it hurts
i'm omw to brink
i'm omw to edge
i'm omw to learn
i'm omw to death 
i don't wanna make this turn, no
i don't wanna make this turn
i don't wanna hit the dirt
i don't wanna make it worse

i just don't understand
i left it in your hands
you left my heart tainted, don't know where i am
but i ain't fuckin' healed yet
but you act like you don't see it

you don't deserve the praise
you didn't wanna change
you gave it all up for a little bit of fame
and i just don't wanna feel shit

i just don't really need this, no

late calls (feat. heylog)

produced by hiraeth and heylog <3

You’ve got nothing to say to me
I’m drowning in the ocean
Always complain to me
I’m dealing with my own shit
Filling my vacancy
(Just breathe)
If I died tomorow I bet nobody’d even notice

harder to breathe
when ur around I’m losing focus
Trying to speak, the words can’t seem to leave my vocal
Getting likes on ig
cause ur half naked in the photos
I’m dying to sleep, if I wake up im meeting god bro

Stay closer to me
I swear that nobody can touch you
if they tried
I’d grit my teeth and fight them all for you
I’m tryna hide, stop tryna reason what I been thru
It’s not my time, I’d kill anyone laying next to you

never should've went for u
and i ain't know your friend exists
if that was the case i would restart and go for her instead
what a shame
u let your life to pieces
who's to blame
(you)
you're the only reason i can't focus
got me losing sleep
and shit oh how i own it
tell that b-
she can drink bleach
you let it out there in the open
u show yourself no respect
and i wonder if u know this

i'm tired of preaching cus babe it really-
babe it hurts from underneath
all the wasted memories
don't go down, get off your knees
it's not the time for any pleasing

bleach ft. heylog

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lyrics - 

give the kinda love that i need right back
kinda on the fence but i'll take my chance
tired of the mistakes making me sad
can't get the thought of you outta my head

where do i go?
who can i trust to leave me alone
put on a show then go home
dying to know
i hate and i loathe
written in stone the words saying
'love you'

i'm missing all the memories
i can feel your soul slowly making less of me
safe to say it hurt to watch you leave
now there's no one left to help me here

you're feeling alone on a friday evening
try to hold on love i'm trying to see you
i know you're hurting, you stumble bleeding
i'll keep you whole
you're scared 
you can hold my hand
we'll walk alone, no light to guide
but i know where your heart is
and i know how you're feeling now

let go don't cry just

you're sick to death of me
you hoped i feel the same but it's
just too much to leave here
i'm dealing with the shame of it
thinking that you loved me
i cry and medicate
it's just too much to intake
i'll try my fucking best i
didn't wanna calm down
i'm tryna come to terms with it
molded my emotion
to feel like you're controlling it
so what's it gonna take right now?
gotta keep my feet on the ground

now that love has washed away
contemplating life and i’m sure you can relate
and i’ve seen better days
recently been bitter what’s the point if i ain’t gonna make it in life
i’m always stuck by your side
and can you do me the same
and stay close to mine

don’t leave now i still haven’t kissed you
when you walk out my house i already miss you
let’s snuggle here in the back of my car
our eyes meet the galaxy, we’re counting the stars
my dad says i need to be home before eleven
but she does not want me leave, “logan stay a second” 
a couple hours isn’t very long to spend that time with you
and i finally got the gut to lean in and kiss you

mistake w/heylog

@heylog @oc 

// geist
say you’ll change
words are worthless
baby you’re a fake
and i’m not for it
snakes stay in the lake
so go join them
don’t talk to me
i’m not your friend
darling

can’t stand to hate myself
need to fix my health
so i put the bottle down
and hit the gym instead
you gave it all for wealth
how do you face yourself?
you’re so caught up in your media
it’s so unwell

i don’t want to see your face
i swear show up and you will die.
put that bitch back in her place
can’t tell her ego from her pride
love to talk about your problems
but your life is such a lie
you’re not fooling anybody
swear to god i meant goodbye

// heylog
i was not afraid to tell her that she was being delusional
cause all her little friends just encourage her to be a hoe
well it's not hard to find someone who isn't modest
and with that i feel my brain slowly rotting
don't know why you gotta constantly talk over me
i used to let that go, now i say shut up when i speak
it's like you never have respect for anything i say
you try to lead me on, i can't be weak
i can't be weak

spotify

weak w/ heylog [oc]

prod by me :) <3

lyrics -
ur telling me to hold on
i don't really think u see the best in me
'cos i know
if u really want it you'd make it work
oh i can see the end of us
can't believe that the wall was breached
god i don't wanna go
but you've been pushing me out for a while now
oh no

i hide my face when she laughing at it
cant lie, i dont care, cause shes going nowhere
told ur boy if he wanna back it, come out on the street but hes going somewhere
she getting cold now
pulled out, undercover when she come round
whole streets on the floor, what she know now
tears ready on the floor when she go out

breaking loads of bottles again
got a problem when you talk on ya friends
you want to tell me how she loves me
take you to dance
say you want to trust me I can’t relax
taking all you pour out
i don’t want the door down
7 milli foreign with the Roley got me iced out
in my dreams you know I’m having it
i can barely breathe when all these problems keep on happening

my nose red, blood is pouring out fast
i sit down, think i need to relax
she start her month say, "let's go to the bath"
she look at me when i cause her to gag
after i'm done i gotta leave ur house
cus i don't got time for any cuddles now
a kiss goodbye but she pulls me down
she told me she wanna go another round

couldn’t get enough, ignore the other side
I’ll tell it from the front
you speak about love, that’s never been us
these doors stayed shut
keep your facade
laid out-
knowing it was dormant
a few years and I’m back to this torment
is it really that important?
you know it better than me
you couldn’t let it at peace
this whole story was about me
I’ve got you right on your knees
the only thing that I need
is to make you forget at least…

the end of us (feat. hiraeth, erxn, heylog & xona)

produced by sinxi

Oh
What's the problem, baby?
Oh
Am i not like your fantasy?
Oh
What's the problem, baby?
Oh
Am i not like your fantasy?

Oh no
How the fuck could you just leave me alone?
You saw the way i gave you my all
You want me there then tomorrow you don't
I'm getting sick of you so give me a call
It ain't the drugs this time i promise i'll talk
The perfect ending to our mess of a world
Making up and in a blink we'll be gone
'Cos i didn't wanna die being your enemy

I know maybe i don't understand
But i just want you to be alright
And i know that it takes some time

Baby lately i don't know
Feel a little heavy in a shattered soul
Try to be consistent but it never goes
The way i really want and i guess it's shown

And i don't mind if you look inside my mind
'Cos when i reminisce, you say that i tried
We both know you can't stay
Leave me to decay
Leave me to burn
Break my heart
Turn me to stone
The less that we know
Take my time
Take my heart

Oh
Am i not like your fantasy?
Oh
What's the problem, baby?
Oh
Am i not like your fantasy?

enemy

Prod @heylog

I’m dreaming in rem
Wake up I’m still asleep
This nightmare is horrible
Following me
Cause I try my hardest 
All for me to think
That you’re getting bored of me
Hate when I leave 
Eyes laying heavy 
Got no sleep last night
Cause im day dreaming about me by your side 
I know that’s it’s horrible 
I wouldn’t lie
You’re all that I’ve really got in my life

So ashamed of me
Feel my body limp
I was sat wondering
What I’ve ruined again
If part of me listens 
The other half’s dead
I was waiting in the corner 
I was rotting in my bed

I see waves come in
I see oceans rise 
You were there for it
Fractions of my life
I wouldn’t spend this 8th with anybody else
Know I saw through it
Puppet on a screen 

I’m dreaming in rem
Wake up I’m still asleep
This nightmare is horrible
Following me
Cause I try my hardest 
All for me to think
That you’re getting bored of me
Hate when I leave 
Eyes laying heavy 
Got no sleep last night
Cause im day dreaming about me by your side 
I know that’s it’s horrible 
I wouldn’t lie
You’re all that I’ve really got in my life

limp

lyrics💕

The suns out 
Im in full bloom 
Survived another night
Of not knowing what to do
Telling me it’s critical 
And I don’t have a clue 
Hearts etched into our wrists 
We made a pact between us two 
(You take a piece of me
And ill take a piece of you) x4

I’m so worried to keep these curses sealed 
It’s so toxic how come you never asked me how I feel
My mind a maze how could you ask me to hold still
I’m feeling nauseous
Except when im counting up dollar bills 
When you 
Realize that I never would hurt you
Diamonds in my eyes when I think about you
So many things 
So many things 
That die 
By my love will never 
say goodbye~

✨mei🪽 

im feeling so blue something is not alright
idk what to do, tell me how do i fight
but when youre next to meee
and when im next to youuu
i really felt like something came to my mind

cuz i know that with you im gna be alright
i really feel like its true
my heart is speaking to you that i wont let you go
naaaahhh

(i wanna be with u i wanna be with u)

sometimes yaa i feel dumb
sometimes i dont wanna laugh
sometimes yaa i feel dumb
but with you im always in lovee aaa

The suns out 
Im in full bloom 
Survived another night
Of not knowing what to do
Telling me it’s critical 
And I don’t have a clue 
Hearts etched into our wrists 
We made a pact between us two 
(You take a piece of me
And ill take a piece of you) x4

heart shaped holes + angelicxmei (XTASANE)

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you thought it was a game all along
till i just sang this song
you thought i was stupid all along 
oh but i know what was going on
and i won’t let you lead me on
so i’ll burn away up in the sun
cause i know you’ll never treat me like i’m one

girl if i say it’s over then it is over
i can’t believe i shared my heart with you
was any if it even true
how the hell did i spend my time with you
if everything was all just fake
so i will walk away
from everything 

so i will walk away from everything
from everything
from everything 
from everything
from everything

walking away (okmax + bino)

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