rip pili 2 o7

I love the yellow kingdom

c!pili is just reverse itzsubz on low key send tweet

soooooooo todays lifesteal stream ami right guys ? ha ha ha ha haaa

i do find it interesting that for someone who wants to be zam’s teammate so bad derap did Not give up the exploits despite it clearly causing her distress…. derap asks zam what she would’ve done if she was the one to find the prot4 bug and she says she would’ve burned the armor on the spot . he hears this but keeps the armor equipped, keeps four backup sets in his shulkers, and has a handful of sharp 5 swords to spare

it's dog motif sheep motif Saturday everybody 🧍‍♂️

saying that devotions fans want to isolate zam from everyone except mapicc is so ?????? because no. we just want her to break up with derap specifically. we have no problems with most of her other relationships.

and like. even if we did want her to be with mapicc and mapicc only? what about it? he's one of the few people who treats her like a person and doesn't try to "fix" her while still actively trying to help her be better. bffr.

saying that devotions fans want to isolate zam from everyone except mapicc is so ?????? because no. we just want her to break up with derap specifically. we have no problems with most of her other relationships.

"jealous controlling boyfriend on mapicc's behalf" would make an insane blinkie. i need it

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People on twt acting as if Zam needs "fixing" and Derap will heal him if it weren't for Zams paranoia and the chatters who want Derap to be evil... every time anyone tries fixing Zam, it just ends up being so controlling, trying to mould him into the person you want him to be. Sure, being self-destructive is objectively bad when you're not considering mcrp, but can you not say that about literally everything else that happens on lifesteal? It would be nice to see him grow and change past it, but is 'fixing' him by lying to him and manipulating him and desperately keeping him by your side really the way? Kab tried doing the same thing, and Zam, uncomfortable with the lengths she went, all the manipulation, etc, cut ties with her. Derap witnessed it first hand, encouraged it to happen. He should know what will happen this time around, too.

You can pretend Derap is some saviour, but he's not. He just desperately wants Zam alive, loving him and by his side, and he has a hero complex about it all. He needs to be the hero who saves Zam from himself. But does Zam need saving? Does he want saving? On this server, especially this season, where everything you do can come to nothing and no matter how hard you try you often barely leave a dent, self destructive behaviour from someone whos whole goal is never giving up, feels like an inevitability. To 'fix' zam, derap may need to change who zam is. I wonder whether or not zam will be entirely comfortable with that?

I wonder if people think that a part of Zam being self destructive is him ruining relationships with people around him, that fixing Zam will cause zam to see reason and stay by deraps side because leaving deraps side means hurting himself. But with the way things are looking, with Zam simply settling for derap and letting him control him and lie to him, really can't you argue this in in itself is also self-destructive?

Going against his nature, to survive and fight until you have nothing left, is that not also self-destructive?

And just to add on, who do we know who let's Zam be completely himself no matter what. Mapicc will judge him, give him advice, nudge him in one direction, but ultimately only reacts to and enables whoever Zam is currently. Mapicc doesn't try 'fixing' Zam. He doesn't try controlling him. He doesn't lie to him. If Zam does something he doesn't like, he gets angry about it, or leaves to fill the role of being his enemy, or deals with it because that's what they do, they accept each other.

Does Zam want to be fixed? Does he want criticism of his character? Something he's had to deal with from everyone since forever? Or does he want acceptance?

vod watching the bacon zam talk and realizing they have no idea of why subz did what he did 2 seasons in a row was because of subzs relations with his teammates and the intricate yet heavy responsibility placed on him by them and their adjacent allies

the importance talks with vi and red that no one will ever know about

the way he was demeaned to his pvp therefore having him contorted into becoming only for his pvp which made him able to throw sand in the face of those who reach for him again

the deals he made with vi, his respect towards certain players, his revenge plans that carried seasons over, the way he argued about saving jumper to vi when he wasn’t her teammate, he wasn’t vi’s teammate yet he had to help to prevent her from being spawn killed, the way he was dragged into reds ideals in both seasons from clowns deal to fighting mane to being almost thrown into helping the phantoms

the silencing and blatant ignorance to his opinion, for his skills to be devalued yet he was expected to give

for his only wish to finally be allowed to lose hearts and let himself lose yet every teammate forbade him from it, always wanting him to live

to live with no happiness but to be covered in blood, hunted regardless and opinions placed for him to follow blindly

oh subzs pov is so precious to me even if it’s known through whispers and background tales to others

the way willerhide on lsn vowed to not hurt him even if they were no longer teammates, to allow him to stay there in his base and do nothing with full access to everything and refused to kill him even if it was a joke and had no meaning, the respect he held for him and anger in his voice for the hurt he went through from others

the way that standard he had for others were never appreciated or acknowledged at all until he was on lsn

gawd the lsers won’t know and probably will never know cause the time has passed for them

to be used as a weapon, to be seen as a weapon to those closest and the second he leaves he finds players whos baseline of care is beyond anything anyone else had in words and action

he was hurt and he cared, he cared way too much for his own good that he didn’t even recognize it

he has his legacy written, poured through many seasons with many other players, s6 does not define him, all it did was confirm him being used and than once he left his feelings/motives for his prior actions were questioned

gawd

I’m glad zam clocked the main parts tho, with getting the server to care about spawn even if they didn’t clock the trying to move to the next season part with an unfixable and miserable spawn

oh I mourn sun shield but they only properly exist to me in s4 and that’s where my mind will lay for them with no expectations going forward

I hope he rests well away from the hell it is on the priv server