I cannot buy those
Dinosaur earrings because
What about groceries?
All these bills to pay
Sterling silver diplodocus
Is not in the budget
& I'm not really worth it
That voice in my head
Leaves me like
A bruised peach
Soft and rotting
So shrill and so sharp
I know where the knives live
I have stored them
In every mistake
It's been so long that I don't even remember what it feels like to have a crush.
All of those pleasant feelings from youth have faded into an empty void
Now all that's left is to press on regardless
Of how I feel
I need to get through everyday
Second by second
Minute by minute
I just push through
Barely surviving
Numbing through
Icy chilliness
And sweltering heat
The flickering light
From the green spring fields
Has long faded
Into pitch black stream
I think you're never too old to have a crush. Just look at those nursing home romances and people getting married in their twilight years. The brain forgets but the heart remembers. I hope you find your light, if not your crush. ❤️
My crush on myself will be greater than anyone else, but you my dear friend have made me fall in love with myself over and over again through your reflection. You inspire me, give me clarity.
And I know it confuses you because you lack the self love to return it, but angel there is no need.
The love we have created it perfect in its own right, and you are a gift, even if you remain just a dear crush.
"To fall in love with yourself is the first secret to happiness."
-Robert Morley
Seriously though, it brings me so much joy to see someone put themselves first. I love that you love you, friend. <3
Stillness gently covers me in the night
While loons are calling in their graceful flight
A raven is watching up on his perch
Dark is my heaven, the forest my church
The sky is magnetic, I can't help but look
Nestling down in Elysium's crook
The cold brackish water tickles my feet
I let out a squeal but make no retreat
I am illumined, I'm brighter inside
A nervous knot is coming all untied
My body a smile, my face is a kiss
& I am a garden of blossoming bliss
I feel so welcomed here, I feel so free
This is the place where I feel the most me
