Reality shifting vent

Hello everyone. I’ll just cut to the chase. I’m using this as a vent because I’m slightly frustrated and… tired. I started shifting for 3 years and I still haven’t fully done it. I’ve tried everything I could have to get to my DR but no matter what I do it’s never successful or I would have close calls which happens rarely. I definitely believe in this, 100%, but my patience is running thin and I don’t want to be those people who’ll shift after more than 3 years. I keep hoping that this isn’t a sham and that I’m wasting my time on this but I don’t want to think that. At times, I want to completely give up and just stop and move on but can’t because part of me still believes that I’ll get there eventually. Now I’m sincerely thinking ‘is this even real?’ ‘What if it’s a lie?’ I don’t want to give up but I’m tired. I just want to see the people I love. See amazing things I can’t see here. Have adventures. I just want to shift already.