Totally not a supervillain

About me

Feel free to call me Goshi for short or Rune. I’ll answer to both. If you like my work, you can also find me on ff.net or AO3. And I promise I don’t bite… well, I don’t bite much.

Dunno why you’d want to know, but I’m just a normal person who likes to write in her spare time. And I’ve dealt with way too much drama over the past few years.

Interests include: sweets, Asian food, cats, folklore, toxicology, weaponry, criminal psychology, and various fandoms - the more actiony the better.

We were discussing my allergy to sulfites at work today - mine is SEVERE.

I cannot have grape wines or most grape products and I have to be very careful in general with pickled fermented foods.

Everyone is baffled by the idea I can’t have wine, so we had this interaction today:

I swear I’ve had similar conversations multiple times over the years because the concept of someone not being able to drink wine is beyond comprehension.

And today I found out that all the weird BS that I've gone through so far in my life and all the BS my dad has gone through in his life haunts some of the people I know.

It's normal for me, so I shrug it off.

Example of convo:

me: -talking about family member who pissed someone off enough to warrant having a pipe bomb put on their porch-

friend: that's not the only bomb your family's dealt with

me: no?

friend: when you were in England

me: oh! No, the IRA (Irish Republic Army) threatened to bomb Windsor Castle while I was in it

friend: no, there was another time where there was an actual bomb

me: you mean when they found dynamite next to the railroad tracks when I was in Edinburgh? That was from an old construction site.

other friend: it's wild that we have to specify to find out which time that happened

So, I’m super happy I’m starting a new job in just over a week much closer to home.

Why? Well, in 5 months, I’ve been in 3 separate situations that could have easily resulted in serious harm or injury during the commute.

So, yeah, I’m glad I won’t be driving that anymore. I’m gonna end up dead

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Honorable mention since it wasn’t my car, I wasn’t driving, and I wasn’t on that road:

Friends and I were driving to a convention the next state over. Friend had a catastrophic tire failure - her tire exploded and then escaped. (I have a photo of it lying on the shoulder in front of us).

We were fine. A state trooper came to help since we were on a turnpike (we found out that day that AAA - a roadside service in the US - isn’t certified to help on turnpikes/certain toll roads), and of course, he got to see me in cosplay. (march 23)

I just saw a post giving a what-if Bruce, instead of removing Jason’s portraits after his death, had an artist paint in 15 year old Jason to family ones (of course prior to being revealed to be alive).

Now, my brain being my brain, immediately went to the concept of Victorian death photography which was were the recently deceased were photographed, often alongside living relatives.

But, Bruce wouldn’t quite do that, but he might do the thing that was sometimes done in paintings to suggest a family death by having an object representing Jason covered in a black shroud (this was usually done with cribs in such paintings).

Why would he do something like this? Because the man likes to make himself suffer.

When he comes back, Jason isn’t sure if he’s touched or freaked out by them.

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I can also see Tim messing around with photos the one day to see if he could replicate the ‘ghost photos’ where a dead loved one looks like they are in the photo (very popular in the US in the mid to late 1800s. I know it’s a double exposure trick, but photography isn’t my strong suit).

He was trying to do this to cheer up Bruce, Dick, and Alfred. But it just made all of them upset so he never tried it again.

Or, if you want to go super spooky, maybe he did catch Jason’s spirit on film and no one else believed Tim.

I didn’t get to post my 3am thoughts at 3am because work kicked my ass yesterday. So many stairs 😵‍💫

But I want to know what industrial strength odor eater superheroes use.

I mean, come on. These guys are wearing either the same costume or cycle between a few day after day/night after night. Those costumes probably aren’t washed regularly unless they’re made from normal fabrics.

And a good chunk of them get horrifically filthy due to whatever or whoever they might be fighting that day.

I can see some of the richer heroes having decontamination chambers and whatnot, but the rest of them… just how badly do those costumes stink on a good day?

Don’t get me started on the ones that kill. Blood has a distinctive smell. And if they use guns, there’s also the smell of gun powder. And cigarettes mixed with strong body odor is personally a scent I can’t tolerate.

Just, I don’t know. My brain decided to tell me that encountering a superhero would likely be a massive affront to your olfactory

5am (almost 6am) thoughts that have been brewing for hours:

I wonder if Jason had some of the same reactions I did in the aftermath of the traumatic neck injury™️ in the wake of the batarang to the neck.

All anyone needs to know about what happened to me was that I received 2 puncture wounds high on the neck, missed the jugular vein by less than half an inch (half inch is ~1.27cm), ended up in shock, and needed stitches. And I was fairly young.

The things I remember most about this was not being able to feel my body. I could perceive my surroundings (kinda. No visual memories until the shock started wearing off, but I can tell you how I was positioned, what I heard, etc).

But I also remember how calm I was during the drive to the hospital - I had no idea how bad the injury was and since my mother was panicking, my young brain decided I was dying. Yet, I was the one comforting my mom, and saying it was okay if that happened. (That injury was thankfully not life threatening. My dad was trying so hard not to laugh at my dramatics)

But after getting the stitches I remember my parents treating me to a milkshake and me having trouble trying to drink through a straw. I just couldn’t get the drink to pull through the straw.

I remember the weight of my head and stiffness of my neck the next morning. It was so bad my mother had to help me move as I was waking up (that could be from my body trying not to jostle the injury in my sleep). This lasted for a couple days.

Even 15+ years later, the area is still sensitive. And the wrong sensation will trigger panic responses.

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In the aftermath of Jason’s injury, I can picture the stiffness after waking up and realizing it really did happen. He nearly bled out, which in his case would likely also cause weakness and possibly some disorientation.

I can picture him having trouble eating and drinking, and feeling that strange thick sensation as he tried to swallow anything.

I can picture him being afraid to move too fast or sharply, but being desperate to hide as to keep himself away from Bruce as he healed and figured out what to do next.

And maybe, in the moments after the injury and the explosion, he felt himself just existing with no real perception of anything until a sound or sensation grounded him.

And maybe, he still gets uncomfortable or jumpy if the wrong thing touches too close to the injury, even after it’s long since healed.

You know… I honestly wonder how long it would take Bruce to notice if Jason just decided to cut ties and left without telling anyone.

With him already operating independently a great deal of the time and the tension between the two, I’m not sure if Bruce would notice anything. I mean, in the timeline before it switched to N-52, they lost track of him for 1-2 years after the events of Under the Red Hood, with the exception of him just popping up to cause problems in Bludhaven and Star City.

Yet, we also see Bruce keeping tabs on him to an extent in Rebirth after the issue Bruce nearly kills him and kicks him out of Gotham. Though arguably, Jason wasn’t exactly overtly hiding afterwards as he makes his way through the Midwest. But I doubt Bruce had any idea what Jason was doing when he found that compound while looking for clues about his father’s death prior to coming back to Gotham.

And yet, we also know that in RHatO (I’m pretty sure 2016 version), that Jason was being tortured for 1-3 months out of the country and none of the Bats came to help him.

I don’t know… I just feel like it would be something fun to explore. Because it really feels like this would be the conversation after 6-12 months:

A while later, after getting reminded that no one had seen/heard from Jason:

Mind you, I’m specifically talking about the mainline comic books. The relationship between Jason and the rest of the family isn’t great in the majority of them. First, it’s due to Jason’s own actions. But, even after Jason starts trying to redeem himself in their eyes, he often times becomes an annoyance and mostly metaphorical punching bag (sometimes it’s physical).

If we look at other media, that distance usually isn’t anywhere near as bad.

Edit: I forgot Bludhaven was destroyed during Brothers in Blood. Dick was in NYC

So, thing happened yesterday that sent my paranoia up to 11. Don’t worry about it. Nothing dangerous, just falls into my weird ass luck and tickles some bad memories.

Before bed I sent my friend the following statement:

Got asked how that went, and this was my response:

The good news: nothing happened. The bad news: still paranoid.

I get hit with weird and fascinating thoughts late night.

Not entire sure what even brought up this thought, but I realized that after coming back to himself after the Lazarus Pit dip he might not even recognize his own voice.

It seems like, on average, a guy’s voice stabilizes in pitch around 17/18. This is around when Jason’s thrown in a Lazarus Pit, so it’s possible he never really got to naturally adjust to the change.

I mean, he died at 15 and spent the next 2-2.5 years (maybe 3) either dead or catatonic. He missed most, if not all, of that time frame, depending on when he started puberty.

Another plot bunny that I thought of last night but forgot to post:

In parts of Europe, there used to be a type of road referred to as a ‘Corpse Road’ which could only be used when transporting the dead to a cemetery for burial.

I was thinking for this plot bunny that perhaps spiritual versions of these roads exist around the world. For those who died and came back, sometimes they can still transverse these roads, but they have to be very careful about it.

Just imagine Jason, when he first appears as Red Hood using these to move around the city, not only without detection, but also at great speed. And, I can imagine him literally disappearing from the “mortal plane” when he steps onto one.

Long after things are better between him and the other Bats, I could see, if the need arose, Jason teaching Damian about them and how to safely use them. (I’m debating if Cass and Steph would be able to see/interact as while yes, they both also died, it was rather brief amount of time compared to Jason and Damian).

Today on plot bunnies on crack…

I just had this weird idea that instead of going the route he did in Under the Red Hood, maybe Jason decides to go for something less violent but not subtle:

He puts up missing posters of himself around the city with a picture of him when he was fifteen and an “aged up” photo of what he currently looks like.

Bruce, understandably upset, focuses on trying to find where the flyers originated, and Jason, purposely making it worse, allows himself to be caught on CCTV a few times to allow for identification by Babs with her software, but not stick around long enough for Bruce to get to him.

Jason is thoroughly enjoying watching Bruce suffer while trying to find him