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fatima aamer bilal, from so this is all i will ever be?
[text id: how did i grow old so young? / how did i forget to live before i lived at all?]
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fatima aamer bilal, from so this is all i will ever be?
[text id: how did i grow old so young? / how did i forget to live before i lived at all?]
fatima aamer bilal, excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘days where my whole world is my bed’.
Why don’t you publish work as a book that can be bought?
thank you so much for your interest—it truly means the world to me. as for publishing a book, i’ve thought about it, but at the moment, there aren’t any concrete plans. i don’t believe this kind of work has a particularly large audience, so i doubt any publisher would be interested in taking it on, which also complicates the idea of self-publishing.
secondly, i feel that introducing a business element into something so personal might harm the quality of my work. i have a deep love for this craft, and i worry that adding external pressures could affect my ability to create authentically.
i also feel that sharing these pieces this way makes it more accessible and open to a wider audience without any barriers. however, if one day i feel more confident in my ability to take on such a journey, then perhaps i will consider it. for now, i’m grateful to share these pieces here and connect with readers. thank you for asking this question. have a great day ahead!
hello !! i love your poetry so i was wondering—how did you get into the craft? what were your first poems like? have you ever considered writing outside of poetry (like a novel, etc?)
hello, thank you so much for your kind words; it truly means a lot that you enjoy these pieces. as for how i got into it, i think it started as a way to process my thoughts and emotions—it felt like a safe space to untangle everything i was feeling. initially, my poems were very scratchy rhymes, almost like a poorly written song meant to match a beat. you can still find them if you scroll all the way down, although i wouldn’t recommend it. that said, they still did the job—i very much appreciated being able to get certain emotions out safely on paper without completely shattering the world outside those confined cornered edges. over time, though, i do think i’ve become more capable (if not entirely) of expressing my thoughts and feelings in a way that feels more intentional.
as for writing outside of poetry, i’ve thought about it. there are two plots in my mind that i’ve even written poems based on—one is ‘the heart beats for two’, and the other is ‘sweet saturn. sweeter titan’. i really enjoy thinking about these stories. i haven’t penned them down entirely because, to me, they feel more like a cinematic experience, almost begging for visual representation rather than just text. but for now, poetry is all i have, and it’s where i feel most at home.
thank you again for your thoughtful question—you have truly made my day.
Wow I’ve been seeing snippets of your writing for a while now and always thought you were a published poet. In my mind, your poetry was up there with siken, vuong, abdurraqib etc (truly yearning with the best of them) but I never saw any of your books in stores so I thought you were just super underrated. I usually like buying my books in person, without planning to, just like a serendipitous moment if I find an author or poetry collection I’ve heard of while browsing and I always kept your name in the back of my mind but never found anything. Well I finally caved and googled and was surprised to find out you’re solely on tumblr. Anyways, just wanted to say, love your writing. The snippets I’ve seen were always very resonant, and I’m excited to read them in their entirety.
thank you so much for your kind words. it truly means a lot to hear that my writing resonates with you. being mentioned alongside poets like siken, vuong, and abdurraqib is something i can hardly digest, as i see my writing as purely diary entries.
i completely understand the joy of finding books serendipitously, and i’m grateful that you kept my name in mind. thank you for reaching out to me.
hello! i've known about your writing for a while, but i never actually went through your blog to go through it, and i'm so happy i did. i don't think i have ever seen anything more comforting ; i do not know why exactly it is comforting to know, but seeing how someone else can put my feelings to word better than me is comfort i have not felt before. while i may not be as good of a writer as you are, i feel very understood seeing something so similar to how i perceive and know things. i just wanted to thank you, and, as the others, hope you are doing well. please have a lovely rest of the year!
hello. thank you for writing to me and sharing your thoughts. it’s heartening to know that my words resonate with you and provide comfort in expressing your feelings. your support means a great deal to me. wishing you a reflective and fulfilling rest of the year!
Hello!!! I am not good with words but I really really wanted to say that your poetry has beyond resonated with me right now, ive been trying to memorise them as a comfort!! In class today a teacher asked me who my favourite poet was, and I said you! Your skill with words is truly incredible!! Im super excitedly awaiting the pdf :D
oh wow, this just made my entire day! i can’t believe you said that in class. i’m happy to know my words resonated with you, and that you find comfort in them. the fact that you’re even trying to memorize them? i’m truly speechless! thank you for your kind words; it means the world to me. as for the pdf, i’m still working on it, i hope i can share it soon.
fatima aamer bilal, excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘the exhaustion in existing and the hunger for heed’
I've been seeing your poetry rolling around for a long time now but I never knew you were posting on tumblr. I spent an after searching your name on Google because I was convinced that this writing ought to be from a celebrated published writer and where the hell can I get a book! I love your style and your words, I don't know if you wish to publish one day but please know I'll be the first to buy!
hello, thank you so much for your message. i’m truly grateful for your kind words, and it’s amazing to hear that you see my writing as publishable. while i don’t have plans to publish right now, i would definitely consider it if the opportunity arises in the future. i really appreciate your support—thank you again for your sweet words.
fatima aamer bilal, excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘the exhaustion in existing’.
[text id: the monster under your bed does not lurk, / it hides / from what you have become / a familiar specimen]