dreampop and shoegaze world

hello. i've been really struggling these past few months. its been 4 months and ive still been unable to find a new job to replace the old one that fired me for being transgender. ive been depressed and paranoid and my psychosis has not been making it easier on my suicidal ideation (and easier on securing a job). i don't have many people who can help support me in this city and i need money for meds, food, and rent. i'm dangerously low on funds. i understand that im not really anyone to you but if you can afford to slip me a buck or two i'd deeply appreciate it. thank you. https://venmo.com/u/Lonestatus

PLEASEEEE help penny!!!! she means the absolute world to me

one of my favorite parts about transition is being able to be emotional and like. get excited about stuff. i spent two decades becoming morose and silent. and finally getting a release is. astounding. happiness begets happiness😁exponential joy exponential zest and excitement and love and wonder and cherishing and beauty and yay and haha yeah🫶

also honorable mention to CRYING!!!!!!!!!!!😁🫶💜

every time a baby laughs for the first time the Laughpig gains a new wound

nobody has looked at the Laughpig for at least seven hundred years. squeals still somehow emerge from the old old barn it was locked inside.

when the sunbeams stream through the petrified planks lining the ancient structure, you can almost see the Laughpig's snout curl into a smile. flowers bloom. childrens' cries hush. birds roost. the earth takes one deep breath, and releases a giggle.

the charlotte brand is global

every day i live in fear of finishing a book. im so sick of finishing books. it can never happen again. i need to keep buying 600+ page books that i will never finish but rather live in each of their worlds in turn periodically throughout the rest of my life. and i will die 20 pages from finishing infinite jest and it will be perfect

when the reading list is insurmountable 😍🫶😁💜

this was genuine btw i really sincerely hate finishing books..... why would u ever want to finish a book because then the story ends..... ill kill you

its crazy how elections happen more often the older you get. the obama administration lasted from about 1179 bce to 633 ce

how its going

That is the wettest sounding bat I've ever heard. :')

imagine you go to the club and they make you into the mounted head above the fireplace

imagine going to the club and they laugh at your scawny build in the locker room

imagine going to the club and they lose your luggage

imagine going to the club and you dont escape the trap in time

imagine going to the club and getting sleep paralysis

imagine going to the club and losing the blue ribbon to a clearly inferior hog

imagine going to the club and getting stuck at the top of the ferris wheel

hey I think we shouldn’t go to the club anymore

imagine you go to the club and they make you into the mounted head above the fireplace

imagine going to the club and they laugh at your scawny build in the locker room

imagine going to the club and they lose your luggage

imagine going to the club and you dont escape the trap in time

imagine going to the club and getting sleep paralysis

imagine going to the club and losing the blue ribbon to a clearly inferior hog

imagine going to the club and getting stuck at the top of the ferris wheel

imagine going to the club and seeing the mayor there when you have an overdue essay

imagine you go to the club and they make you into the mounted head above the fireplace

imagine going to the club and they laugh at your scawny build in the locker room

imagine going to the club and they lose your luggage

imagine going to the club and you dont escape the trap in time

imagine going to the club and getting sleep paralysis

imagine going to the club and losing the blue ribbon to a clearly inferior hog

imagine going to the club and getting stuck at the top of the ferris wheel