Austin Clarke
AUSTIN CLARKE (1934–2016) was one of Canada’s foremost authors, whose work includes ten novels, six short-story collections, three memoirs, and two collections of poetry. His novel The Polished Hoe won the 2002 Giller Prize. Clarke was appointed to the Order of Canada, held four honorary doctorates, and was awarded the Commonwealth Writers’ Prize, the W. O. Mitchell Prize, the Casa de las Américas Prize, and the Martin Luther King Jr. Award for Excellence in Writing, among others. In his fifty-year career he worked as a journalist, a professor, and a cultural attaché in Washington, D.C.
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IN THIS CITY
Austin Clarke
Introduction by
DAVID CHARIANDY
Publishers of singular Fiction, Poetry, Non-fiction, Drama, Translations and Graphic Books
Library and Archives Canada Cataloguing in Publication
Clarke, Austin, 1934-
In this city / Austin Clarke ; introduction by David Chariandy.
(Exile classics 10)
ISBN 978-1-55096-106-5
I. Title. II. Series.
PS8505.L38I5 2008 C813'.54 C2008-906128-4
Copyright © 1992, 2008 Austin Clarke
Introduction copyright © 2008 David Chariandy
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CONTENTS
Introduction
Gift-Wrapped
Initiation
Letter of the Law of Black
I’m Running for My Life
Trying to Kill Herself
A Short Drive
Naked
Sometimes, a Motherless Child
Questions for Discussion and Essays; Related Reading; of Interest on the Web
INTRODUCTION
Austin Clarke has earned much critical acclaim for his novels, especially The Polished Hoe, which won the Giller Prize in 2002, and the International Commonwealth Writer’s Prize in 2003. But Clarke is also a lifelong and demonstratively accomplished author of short fiction, a fact that might too easily be overlooked. Admittedly, several of Clarke’s stories, such as When He Was Free and Used to Wear Silks
and Canadian Experience,
continue to be anthologized and discussed to this day; and an anthology of Clarke’s stories, selected from throughout his forty-five-year career as a writer, has now been published. However, until this very moment, each of Clarke’s five short story collections have been out of print, denying readers, old and new, the rewarding experience of encountering Clarke’s stories in their original arrangements and historical moments. Exile’s re-release of In This City – indisputably one of Clarke’s finest collections – is thus a very timely and happy event. For here, in peculiarly intense prose forms, we can find all of the wit, formal innovation, and trenchant social criticism that have made Clarke one of the most important writers of Canada and the Caribbean.
Austin Clarke was born in 1934 in Barbados. Although he came from a poor and single-parent household, Clarke managed to find his way into academic institutions that, historically, had been unwelcoming both openly and systematically to people of his background. He won a scholarship to study at the prestigious Harrison College in Barbados, and, thereafter, a scholarship to study economics at Trinity College in Toronto. Clarke arrived in Canada in 1955, and since has lived a life that the words hectic
and productive
can only begin to evoke. From 1965-73, he worked as a journalist and broadcaster covering social issues, especially the civil rights movement. From 1968-74, he served as visiting professor at Yale, Brandeis, Williams, Wellesley, Duke, and the universities of Texas and Indiana while assisting in the development of Black studies programs at Yale and Harvard. In 1974, he became cultural attaché of the Barbadian Embassy in Washington, and, from 1975-77, he served as general manager of the Caribbean Broadcasting Corporation in Barbados. From 1973-76, he served as advisor to the Prime Minister of Barbados, and, from 1989-94, he was a member of the Immigration and Refugee Board of Canada. Clarke has been writer-in-residence at several libraries and universities in Canada, and, in 1992, he was honoured with a Toronto Arts Award for Lifetime Achievement in Literature. In 1997, Frontier College in Toronto also granted him a Lifetime Achievement Award. In 1998, he received the inaugural Rogers Communication Writers Trust Prize for Fiction and, in the same year, he was invested with the Order of Canada. In 1999, he was awarded Canada’s W.O. Mitchell Prize for producing an outstanding body of work, as well as the United State’s Martin Luther King Junior Award for Excellence in Writing. He has received four honorary doctorates and numerous honours for his individual works. He has also, of course, managed to do a bit of writing: no less than 11 novels, five short-story collections, four non-fiction books, and a plethora of shorter prose works. At 75 this year, Clarke shows no sign of slowing. The publication of his 11th novel, most appropriately entitled More, has just been released.
Clarke is a writer of international importance, and contextualizing his work is no easy task. The challenge mounts when one recognizes that Clarke is one of those rare writers who have done much to create the very fields in which their work is now commonly placed. Perhaps the first thing that ought to be noted is that Clarke is one of the last major and actively practicing members of the first wave
of contemporary Anglo-Caribbean writers, which included such formidable talents as V.S. Naipaul, George Lamming, and the late Sam Selvon (Clarke’s personal friend). These writers rose to prominence in the 1950s and 1960s amidst major shifts in the social and cultural fabric of the English-speaking world. At the time, almost all of the first wave
writers were based in London, England, then the indisputable capital of Anglo-Caribbean writing. But Clarke, of course, was based in Toronto, Canada; and he has contributed more than any other prose writer to the possibility, recently articulated by the late E.A. Markham, that the global capital of Anglo-Caribbean writing (outside of the Caribbean itself) has shifted now to Toronto.[1] Another thing that ought to be noted is that Clarke has had a deep and sustained engagement with Afro-American cultural debates as they have shifted through civil rights, Black Power, and more contemporary iterations or moments
– a fact that can readily be observed both through a perusal of Clarke’s writings and his extensive professional experience in the U.S. But In This City, as well as a great many of Clarke’s other books, makes clear the fact that Clarke has always been particularly attentive to the challenges faced by West Indian immigrants and their descendants in Canada and especially Toronto. Here again the sheer scope of Clarke’s life-experience is important to grasp. When Clarke first arrived in Toronto in 1955, it was more than a decade before the revised Immigration Act of 1967, which, for the first time in Canadian history, allowed qualifying non-whites relatively unrestricted entry into Canada. In other words, Clarke first arrived in an urban space that was multicultural (as it always had been), but not nearly as racially
diverse as it is now. Clarke’s first major prose accomplishment, the novels comprising the Toronto Trilogy ( The Meeting Point, Storm of Fortune, and The Bigger Light), were all originally published between the years of 1967 and 1975, and they focused on the experiences of working-class West Indian immigrants in the lonely and occasionally hostile contexts of a largely white city. But by the time Clarke had published In This City (in 1992), Toronto’s black and Caribbean populations had grown immensely. Indeed, it is most telling that the first story of In This City, Gift-Wrapped,
concerns a young woman from the small town of Timmins who comes to Toronto and cannot help but notice the parade of West Indians,
although she ultimately finds this phenomenon, perhaps as an indicator of city life writ large, too new, too rich, too diverse in colours and in rhythm for her to dare to be closer to it.
(7)
Gift-Wrapped
is both an attractive and unusual way to open In This City. In many respects, the story exhibits themes and circumstances that have fascinated Clarke for decades: an individual arrives in a big city dreaming of success and of escape from the past, but soon experiences social isolation and learns how, for many, the goals of urban happiness and security are inaccessible. But Gift-Wrapped
is also striking in that there is strong if not absolutely conclusive evidence that the protagonist is white, or, at the very least, most unlikely of Caribbean background. Gift-Wrapped
reminds us that people of very different backgrounds – even the dominant group – can experience the anomie of the city,[2] and that Clarke intends his fiction, even when focusing on people of African-Caribbean descent, to speak to broader social issues and experiences. However, it is also clear that most of the stories in In This City focus on Afro-Caribbeans (and particularly immigrant Barbadians) as they negotiate their lives and aspirations with others. Gift-Wrapped
is immediately followed by Initiation,
in which a relatively conservative university professor
of Barbadian background encounters youths living in Toronto’s notably black
Jane and Finch corridor, but using the language of black power as if [they were] in Harlem and not Toronto
(30). Clarke’s depiction of the youths is largely satirical, of course; and this echoes Clarke’s own life-long interest in, but also critical detachment from, American black nationalism (see, for instance, his famous interview of Malcolm X). But it would be a mistake to interpret Initiation
as reflecting a dismissive attitude, on the part of Clarke, towards those youths (or even more experienced folk) who have identified, to greater and lesser degrees, with the theories, postures, and aesthetics of black pride. It is perhaps no irrelevant matter that, today, at 75, the occasionally self-proclaimed conservative
Dr. Clarke appears able to sport both cuff-links and dread-locks, sip martinis and reverently prepare pigs’ tails and bread-fruit, with magisterial confidence and no apparent sense of contradiction.
In fact, each of the stories in In This City resists hasty answers
or summations, as good fiction always does. However, a few more points might be ventured. In A Short Drive,
Clarke offers his learned Toronto-dwelling West Indian protagonist a direct and highly palpable encounter with American blackness and race relations. But the protagonist soon learns much more than he might have anticipated about the dualism
of identity in general. Of course, many of Clarke’s other stories in In This City are very clearly about the immigrant experience. In Letter of the Law of Black,
Clarke explores the sorts of thoughts and emotions – the textual care packages
and remittances
– that can be sent and received by close relatives living apart. Here, a father advises his son, who is studying in Canada, to take heed of the virtual pot-pourri of nationalities
that the nation now exhibits, but also to beware the dangers of sponsors, fools and liberals
– advice that is instantly familiar to anyone with conservative Caribbean-born parents (56, 60). In I’m Running for My Life,
Clarke returns to one of his oldest themes, the complex and sometimes perilous circumstances that can be faced by female domestic workers in Canada (see, for instance, his novel The Meeting Point); and in Trying to Kill Herself
and Naked,
Clarke delves deep, once again, into the sometimes grim interiority of Black immigrant life. But in Sometimes a Motherless Child,
Clarke pairs, for one of the first truly notable times, his life-ong interest in West Indian immigrants with his effort to understand the children of these immigrants, and their own complicated identities and aspirations. Sometimes
joins a handful of texts by other Caribbean-Canadian writers that have begun to explore, with greater depth, the urgencies of second-generation
immigrant life, and the particular stories and psychologies that emerge when one is born in this city,
but remains marked as other.
Once again, Clarke proves himself to be engaged most passionately with the latest shifts in Canada’s social and cultural fabric, and Sometimes
ends up being one of Clarke’s fiercest articulations of protest against this city’s
– any city’s – violent wasting of its youth.[3] As such, the final story of In This City serves as an indispensable introduction to Clarke’s ambitious depiction of youth culture and generational rifts among Caribbean immigrants in his latest novel More.
David Chariandy
September 2008
David Chariandy lives in Vancouver and teaches in the department of English at Simon Fraser University. His first novel, Soucouyant, was nominated for ten awards of regional, national, and international scope. His second novel, Brother, is forthcoming.
[1] Markham makes this claim in his introduction to The Penguin Book of Caribbean Short Stories. He refers to the huge colony of Caribbean writers in Canada
(xv), including Dionne Brand, the late Louise Bennett-Coverley (‘Ms. Lou’), the late Sam Selvon, Cecil Foster, Ramabai Espinet, Claire Harris, Makeda Silvera, Olive Senior, M. NourbeSe Philip, Rabindranath Maharaj, Dany Laferriere, Rachel Manley, and Lorna Goodison, to name only a few. Markham explicitly suggests that outside the Caribbean, the ‘West Indian Literary Capital’ has shifted from London to Canada
( Penguin Book Caribbean Short Stories footnote xliv).
[2] Note, however, that the obvious counterpart to Gift-Wrapped
is Clarke’s Canadian Experience,
which was first published in the collection Nine Men Who Laughed. Like Gift-Wrapped,
Canadian Experience
features someone who migrantes from rural and relatively ‘unsophisticated’ circumstances to the city. The protagonist in Canadian Experience
also hopes to become an executive in a downtown business. However, unlike Gift-Wrapped,
the protagonist in Canadian Experience
comes from Barbados; and, in the end, he neither lands a job nor gets reunited with his family, but dies as a result of suicidal despair or a fatal moment of disorientation.
[3] It is most important to know that the two principal characters in Clarke’s latest novel, entitled More, are a youth named BJ
and his mother, who are wrestling with circumstances very similar to those first addressed in Sometimes a Motherless Child.
GIFT-WRAPPED
When she went to look at the apartment, the sun was shining in the pools of water left back by the street-cleaning van. The street looked like slate or like slag that came out of mines and was piled into banks of snow all during the winter, and later into small hills of grey. And the pink impatiens in the stone boxes at the ornate front door of the building, one on each side and sitting squat and solid in front of the sheet of glass that gave each square of stone its imposing reflection so that it appeared to her as if they were four boxes of the pink flowers instead of two, and when she turned the corner from Bay Street, taking in the untidy, noisy garage of buses at the Gray Coach Terminal that went all over the country, and walked up the imitation granite slabs in the walkway to Midtown Mansions, she felt a little sick to her stomach. She was on her lunch hour, a break of forty-five minutes from the office where she worked in the heart of that section of the city she heard them call the Financial District; her first job following university in London, Ontario. And when she turned her glance to hear the announcement of departing buses, starting and stopping and puffing smoke and causing small congestions of traffic, with the West Indian taxi drivers refusing to move and give up their places in the unmoving queue and who would not accommodate the huge buses trying to turn, she remembered it was two months ago that she had arrived, excited, into this city, fatigued and ragged from the midnight Toronto express journey that began in Timmins, her home town. When she had stepped out of the cool bus and onto the dirty tarred road in the Gray Coach Terminal, amongst the renovating clutter of planks and bulldozers, the smell of cigarette butts and of oil and gas fumes, and the humidity in the air that hugged her, she was dizzy and had the same nausea in her stomach. She was dizzy on that Saturday night also, from the success of her escape from the small, friendly town of Timmins. Now, on this Monday afternoon, her dizziness turned to agitation, and was caused by her indecision about taking the apartment, and by the imposing appearance of the apartment building itself. Midtown Mansions. In Timmins, she had for all those twenty-five years, except summers for the three she had spent at the University of Western Ontario, lived in a small house on McKelvie Avenue, smack in the trough of snow piled higher than the two-storey clap-board house, with father, a miner at the Hollinger Mines; mother, nurse’s aide at the Timmins General Hospital; brother, now seventeen; brother, number two, fifteen; and sister, thirteen, all in high school, there in the three-bedroom house.
The advertisement proclaimed that she was going to inspect a bachelor’s suite, and it said that it was suitable for a young career executive; male or female; in the heart of Toronto, with downtown luxury living, close to everything; no car needed and no parking problems as a result, or to suffer through, for the TTC was there and ran all night; close to the Eaton Centre, Massey Hall, the Thomson Hall, within sight of the CN Tower, and from your window, you can see Sky Dome.
She grasped the copy of Chatelaine so tightly in her hand, making it smaller, into a tube, that the print came off in her palm. Her palm was hot. She fixed the long strap of her black shiny handbag in the crux of her shoulder, and tried deliberately not to let her heels strike the walkway like bullets. She stopped and passed her hand, that with the tube of Chatelaine in it, over the pleats in her cream summer frock. She saw herself in the glass, reflected smaller than her five feet two inches, made small in the mirrored portrait framed by the huge entranceway.
Eight hundred a month,
the man said. Of course, you pay two months in advance, and so on and so on.
He seemed as if he had other things to attend to. When she walked with him to the door of his apartment, the door was ajar, and amongst the furniture which was too much for the room, an easy-boy sprawled with nobody in it; a large low coffee table piled with newspapers; and the television set, the largest piece in the room, bright and loud and with the natural colours of summer in it, she could see a million faces laughing and countless eyes looking up to heaven, while a voice said, "Oh boy, oh boy! It’s hit-a-ton! There she goes! A home run for George Bell!" The announcer said how many home runs he had hit, but she missed that. Slowly, the man was moving towards her now, all the time looking back at the stream of faces; and then he closed the door.
And in truth, she could see the tall spire of the CN Tower, and the top of Sky Dome, and the haze-like thin clouds in the distance; and the lake and some sails like white pages of paper tacking in the steady breeze on the lake, and the buildings high in the sky, glistening in the sharp, blinding light. She looked at her watch: fifteen minutes more before she was due back at her desk in one of those tall buildings that were surrounding her, as she stood tantalized by the beauty of Toronto, and in two minds about the cost of the rent.
She had been living with a girlfriend, also from Timmins, in a one-bedroom apartment in a basement in the Annex, a stone’s throw from the university where her friend was doing graduate work in library science. They had got along well: had been friends since high school; had gone on double dates to dances at the Schumacher Legion Hall; but now in this city, she found herself spending from Friday night until Sunday in the dark basement which sweated, and whose walls harboured little things that crawled and moved imperceptibly slow, so slow that at times she thought it was the movement of ideas in her head that caused her to imagine that there were bugs crawling in the apartment. The books that her friend brought from the three libraries on campus were scattered throughout the small one-bedroom apartment and printed her friend’s life with a more important intellectual effect and priority, and she was left to sleep on the couch in the living room. She could almost follow the books, marked at pages with ballpoint pens, facing downwards like collapsed tents, and imagine them as the tracks she would follow each moose-hunting season in the bush just outside Timmins, as she walked scared beside her father, gun in hand, gathering meat for the long burying winter. And the basement seemed to her to be too similar to that dimness beneath the tall trees in the bush, and too similar to that smell of damp decaying leaves and shrub, that even the smell of cigarettes her friend smoked, and the incense that she bought outside the Eaton Centre from a black man dressed in white, in a robe that looked like her grandmother’s nightgown, nothing could eradicate the fragrance of the ground, of being buried, the smell of fresh mould in a grave just prepared.
The feeling of power that came with the height at which she was now standing, looking towards the lake, and the exhilaration of the seventeenth floor, and the clean smell of the silk wallpaper on three sides with its pattern of spring flowers she had never seen, the large expanse of glass in her three windows, since she has this corner apartment, so clear, so transparent that standing before all this glass, the city came right up to her and she felt she was suspended, cut off from the people in her past. The glass was so clean from the Windex the man had used on it that there seemed to be no glass at all, as if it was not there to prevent her from the fall seventeen flights down to the hard granite in the walkway, so far in her drop on the two white boxes of crusted stone, like coral, the size from this height, of two shoe boxes. In Timmins, all through grade three, she kept her dolls in two shoeboxes.
It was exhilarating. She looked down, and in the seconds her gaze took to reach the pink impatiens, she imagined what it would be like to fall.
Her hand trembled as she held the pen and guided it over the paper of the contract; it was recycled; and over the blue cheque, and in the small space in the short line where she recorded all her charges and credits that affected her chequing account. Above the line she was writing now was $139.50 for her Visa; and above that, two days earlier, she had recorded the Bay (dress), $80.00.
At the end of the line, in the column for her balance, she had made the calculation, $13.85. But she did not write it in. When she was finished she had $13.84 – a slight mistake with a penny – left in her account. Her next payday was eleven days to come.
But the skies were blue all of July; and the two stone boxes were multiplied by five, as