The Neon Bible: A Novel
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John Kennedy Toole—who won a posthumous Pulitzer Prize for his best-selling comic masterpiece A Confederacy of Dunces—wrote The Neon Bible for a literary contest at the age of sixteen. The manuscript languished in a drawer and became the subject of a legal battle among Toole’s heirs. It was only in 1989, thirty-five years after it was written and twenty years after Toole’s suicide at thirty-one, that this amazingly accomplished and evocative novel was freed for publication.
“Heartfelt emotion, communicated in clean direct prose . . . a remarkable achievement.” —Michiko Kakutani, The New York Times
“John Kennedy Toole’s tender, nostalgic side is as brilliantly effective as his corrosive satire. If you liked To Kill A Mockingbird you will love The Neon Bible.” —Florence King
“Shockingly mature. . . . Even at sixteen, Toole knew that the way to write about complex emotions is to express them simply.” —Kerry Luft, Chicago Tribune
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- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Utterly different to A Confederacy of Dunces, Toole wrote this when he was only 16 but even though the narrative is in the style of a young boy, the style and quality of writing is amazingly mature. It's a little story but very evocative and effective.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Beautiful little story about a young man's growing up years in an Appalachain-type community where you either fit in or get out, without much in between. David narrates the story of his family's fall from fortune, the church rolls, and thus the good graces of most people in town. His suffering, and the suffering of his mother and aunt at the hands of the various people of trust in town is a sad little tale, culminating in a life changing day for the 14 year old boy. Touching, sad, and gorgeous in its simplicity.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5It's hard to fairly judge this short novel--there are too many caveats. He was 16 when he wrote it for a contest, so it is genius for someone of that age. However, the only other piece of work to compare it to is one of the greatest American satiric novels ever written, standing right next to Twain, Vonnegut, and anyone else you'd like to mention. Tough one. Enjoyable enough.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Neon Bible is a marvelously well structured, sensitive, and knowing account of growing up in rural Mississippi in the 1940's and 1950's. I was admittedly a little apprehensive about reading it after having enjoyed the over-the-top outrageousness of "A Confederacy of Dunces" so much, but my fears were quickly assuaged by Toole's straightforward prose and masterful handling of his young protagonist's making sense of the small-minded small-town South from which he eventually emerges. Wholly satisfying.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5I cannot believe that John Kennedy Toole wrote this when he was 16 years old!! He had such incredible access to human emotions at such an early age. This book is a simple, yet complex telling of a boy's struggle to live amongst ignorance and poverty. Excellent story.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Written when Toole was only sixteen, and it shows in some minor ways, but still better than what most writers churn out. Maybe the saddest book I've ever read.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5It’s stunning to me that this was written by Toole at the age of 16. The prose is simple and spare, and I suppose occasionally a little awkward, but his observations on life and people are fantastic. The violence of childhood from other kids and adults, the hypocrisy of religion, the pathos and transience of life – it’s all here. Toole reminds me of fellow Southerner Carson McCullers in style, at least in this book, and remarkable talent at an early age. I loved his masterpiece, ‘A Confederacy of Dunces’, but had put off reading this one because I wondered how good could it be, from a teenager, and published posthumously by his family, who were litigating over it. I’m certainly glad I read it, and considered tacking on an extra 1/2 star. It also reminds me of just how tragic his suicide at the age of 31, then unpublished, really was.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5I read Confederacy of Dunces four or five years ago - it's one of my wife's favorite books. I wasn't really into it. But since The Neon Bible promised to be a quick read, I gave Toole another go. Judging from the ratings, most people don't agree with me but I thought The Neon Bible was the better work. Sure, there were a few sticky areas with the writing, but this was his first work and written when he was 15. I have to wonder if he made revisions later in life, because if he didn't, he definitely had a level of brilliance and talent very rarely seen.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Its young,simple, honest, and it was finished at sixteen. That's a big kudos to John Kennedy Toole. I wish he were still around to hear people acknowledge his work. He'd have produced many more Southern masterpieces.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5In 1954, when he was sixteen years old and in his senior year in high school, John Kennedy Toole entered a literary contest for which he wrote his first novel. It was "The Neon Bible". He didn't win the contest and he made no effort to revise the novel or to get it published.
After his tragic death, by suicide, in 1969, his mother, Thelma Toole, found the manuscript of his second novel, "A Confederacy of Dunces", and began a relentless campaign to get it published. With the help of the novelist Walker Percy, it finally was published, and in 1981 it won a posthumous Pulitzer Prize for its author.
Thelma Toole also found the manuscript of "The Neion Bible", but she didn't want to publish it because she resented the claims to her son's literary estate made by her late husband's side of the family under Louisiana's Napoleonic Code. She died in 1984 and "The Neon Bible" was finally published in 1989, 35 years after it was written and twenty years after the death of the author.
"Kenny" Toole had spent some time in rural Mississippi visiting the relatives of his best friend in high school, Cary Laird, and his experiences among the country folk apparently inspired much of "The Neon Bible". Toole was a New Orleans Catholic. of less than devout faith, and he was fascinated by the Calvinistic form of Protestantism he saw in the rural South. In his novel, his narrator, David, is riding on a train through the night as he recalls the story of his boyhood and his coming of age.
Toole was fairly sophisticated for his age, but he writes Dave's story as a convincing account told by a kid of limited education living in a cultural backwater. He's a lonely and strange child, a boy smart enough to know there's more to life than the town preacher or the visiting evangelist have to offer. He's closest to his Aunt Mae, a former dance hall girl who is the worldliest person he knows, but even she seems to be trapped in the mind-numbing banality of their little town.
There is a dramatic turn of events at the end. We learn why Dave is on the train. Ten years later, John Kennedy Toole wrote his masterpiece, "A Confederacy of Dunces". It is a work of genius and a joy to read. In contrast, you can tell that "The Neon Bible" is written by an adolescent, but there aren't many sixteen year old novelists who could craft a story so well. - Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5I want to give this four stars, but the writing is choppy I think. You can tell he wrote this as a teenager. At times I feel like the editor could have touched it up and other times I feel like he didn't fully write this book. The plot reads like Toole's other book, but the writing doesn't. It's sad he died so young and didn't write anything else.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Neon Bible opens with seventeen-year-old David two or three hours into his very first train ride—begun just as the sun is beginning to set—and ending the next morning as the sun's "up full." In between, David tells his life story, beginning when he was three and got a toy train for Christmas, before his father lost his job and they had to move into the rickety old house at the top of the hill outside town.
David lives one of those lives that just slowly moves from bad to worse, too slowly for him to lose hope or even notice that things are as bad as they are. As things turn out, the best thing that ever happened to any of them was when Aunt Mae came to live with them, though no one thought so at the time.
John Kennedy Toole's A Confederacy of Dunces is in my Top Ten Favorite Books. The Neon Bible isn't quite that good, but it's one of those books that gets better as you think about it. It has qualities of Salinger's Catcher in the Rye, probably because they both are narrated in the first-person by a teenage boy. And it has qualities of To Kill a Mockingbird, mainly, I think, because Toole's teenage boy often sounds about the same age as Harper Lee's Scout.
Toole was sixteen years old when he wrote The Neon Bible. At thirty-one, about the age that Salinger was when he published Catcher in the Rye, Toole committed suicide. Though he suffered depression, his devoted mother was convinced that it was the failure of A Confederacy of Dunces to find a publisher that was responsible for his death. It was her persistence, and the help of celebrated novelist Walker Percy, that finally resulted in the book's publication by Louisiana State University Press eleven years after his death. And in 1981, Toole's master work received the Pulitzer Prize for fiction.
The Neon Bible and A Confederacy of Dunces are two very different books, each quite brilliant in its own way. Toole dismissed his early work as "immature," which it is . . . and also why it is so good. As the fruit of an immature mind, it is incredibly honest. - Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Toole's Confederacy of Dunces has long been one of my favourite books; this, his only other work (published posthumously in 1989 but actually written at the age of sixteen) is a totally different style, but very readable.
Narrator David is a quiet only child in a small town of the American South. Father is violent and abusive, Mother increasingly strange; and Aunt Mae, who lodges with them, an erstwhile performer and good time girl. As the story opens, David is on a train...but he takes us back through his1940s childhood. Violence, brutality and poverty seem frequent features; teachers, good and bad; a first date; the War. And the local society, deeply entrenched in Christian revivals and conformity.
The unfortunate events build to a sudden crescendo, and we find out what David's doing on that train...
A book that portends a great writer in the making. - Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Absolutely loved this story. Incredibly tragic, yet telling and truthful story where the main character, David, has done nothing to deserve any of his misfortune.
If you don't mind the kind of book that is more of a streaming story with minimum plot, and also don't mind a story which is sad throughout, then go ahead and emotionally invest in The Neon Bible.
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The Neon Bible - John Kennedy Toole
The Neon Bible
The Neon Bible
JOHN KENNEDY TOOLE
Introduction by
W. KENNETH HOLDITCH
Copyright © 1989 by W. Kenneth Holditch, Marion Toole Hosli, Sharon H. Muniz, Althea Toole Farley, and Mary Toole McGuire
All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced in any form or by any electronic or mechanical means, or the facilitation thereof, including information storage and retrieval systems, without permission in writing from the publisher, except by a reviewer, who may quote brief passages in a review. Any members of educational institutions wishing to photocopy part or all of the work for classroom use, or publishers who would like to obtain permission to include the work in an anthology, should send their inquiries to Grove/Atlantic, Inc., 841 Broadway, New York, NY 10003.
Published simultaneously in Canada
Printed in the United States of America
Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data
Toole, John Kennedy, 1937-1969.
The neon bible / by John Kennedy Toole.
p. cm.
ISBN-10: 0-8021-3207-3
ISBN-13: 978-0-8021-3207-9
PS3570.054N46 1989 88-26074
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Introduction
The novel you hold in your hands represents the culmination of a strange and ironic chain of events. Almost twenty years to the day before its publication, John Kennedy Toole parked his car in a secluded spot near the Gulf Coast town of Biloxi, Mississippi, ran a length of garden hose from the exhaust pipe into the rear window, locked himself inside, and closed his eyes upon a world to which he had been acutely perceptive and sensitive but in which he was apparently unable to survive. It was March 26, 1969, and the New Orleans native was only thirty-one.
The circumstances and coincidences that have led to The Neon Bible’s being in print at all partake of the very substance of Victorian romance: the tragic death of a promising young writer; the implacable determination of a grief-stricken mother whose faith and devotion were finally justified when her beloved lost son achieved posthumous fame; and a subsequent tangle of lawsuits involving legacies and publication rights.
Following John Toole’s death, his estate was appraised at $8,000 by a lawyer’s inventory that made no mention of the typescripts of two novels. His mother, Thelma Ducoing Toole—product of a typical New Orleans ethnic potpourri, original Creole French settlers and nineteenth-century Irish immigrants—found herself at sixty-seven managing a household, caring for an invalid husband, and enduring an immeasurable share of grief. The loss of any child is agonizing for a caring parent, but the suicide of an only child made her suffering all the more intense.
The darling,
as Thelma referred to him, born when she was thirty-seven and had been assured by doctors that she would never have a child, was from the beginning exceptional. Bright, creative, talented in music and art, John skipped two grammar school grades and later attended Tulane University and Columbia graduate school on scholarships. During two years in the army in Puerto Rico, he completed A Confederacy of Dunces, a boisterous, picaresque novel about his New Orleans, a uniquely diverse city more Mediterranean than American, more Latin than Southern. In 1963 he submitted the work to Simon and Schuster, where it came to the attention of editor Robert Gottlieb. For two years, encouraged by Gottlieb, John made revisions, gradually growing more and more depressed, until he finally abandoned hope.
Meantime he was teaching at a New Orleans college, pursuing a Ph.D. in English, and living at home, where his salary relieved strained financial circumstances. His father was incapacitated by deafness, and the private elocution lessons with which Thelma had for years supplemented their income were no longer fashionable. Always rather reserved, even secretive, despite his marked skill at mimicry and his wry comments on people and events around him, John revealed little of his personal life to anyone. Only a few friends even knew that he was a writer, much less that he had submitted a novel to a publisher. During the 1968 fall semester, colleagues noticed a growing paranoia, and in January 1969 John disappeared from the college and his home. His family heard no more of him until that fateful March day when policemen came to tell them their son was dead by his own hand. He had left a note addressed To my parents,
which his mother read and then destroyed.
For Thelma the weeks of agonizing over John’s whereabouts now stretched into years of unrelenting maternal sorrow over his suicide. She felt abandoned, even betrayed, the son to whom she had devoted the past three decades dead, her husband isolated in his deafness. Life seemed to stand still, mired in a swamp of despair, until one day she came across the typescript of A Confederacy of Dunces and found a new purpose. There followed five more years of frustrating grief during which her husband died, her own health declined, and eight publishers rejected the novel. Every time it came back, I died a little,
she was later to recall. Whatever message John’s suicide note had contained, she convinced herself that it was the rejection of the novel that had made life unbearable for her darling.
In 1976, through a happy circumstance, she learned that Walker Percy was teaching a creative writing course at Loyola University. One day she appeared in his office, thrust the novel into his hands, and dramatically announced, It’s a masterpiece.
Though understandably reluctant at first, Percy was so impressed by her adamant determination that he agreed to read it. Pleased and amazed by what he found in those worn and battered pages, he convinced Louisiana State University Press to publish A Confederacy of Dunces. In 1981 the novel received the Pulitzer Prize and to date has been translated into more than ten foreign languages.
Fame came too late for John Kennedy Toole, but with the genius of her son officially certified, his mother began to see people again and to grant interviews. In public performances she dramatized scenes from the novel, discussed her son, played the piano, and sang old songs such as Sunny Side of the Street,
Way Down Yonder in New Orleans,
and Sometimes I’m Happy.
Inevitably at some point in the program she would announce in carefully enunciated English, a result of all those years of studying and teaching elocution, I walk in the world for my son.
It became her signature, her justification for whatever pleasure and satisfaction she derived from her long-delayed moment in the spotlight.
It was at the time of the publication of Confederacy that, through another sequence of the coincidences with which the story of John Kennedy Toole abounds, I became a friend of Thelma’s. As a student in Walker Percy’s 1976 creative writing class, I heard firsthand his initial impressions of that remarkable woman and her son’s remarkable novel. After my early review of Confederacy was published, Thelma called to thank me for my praise of the novel and to invite me to visit. We discovered that we lived only three blocks apart, and during the period when she emerged from the shadow of heavy grief that had shrouded her for a decade, we met once or twice a week to discuss literature, theater, opera, the life and career of her son, and her hopes for a movie based on the novel. In cramped, old-fashioned script she composed numerous letters and a memoir of John, which I typed. Though she rarely left home, since any movement required her to use a walker, one memorable evening a group of us escorted her to Baton Rouge for the premiere of a musical based on Confederacy. She was ecstatic over the performance and the attention she received from the director, actors, and audience.
During these years she recalled the existence of an earlier novel and located among John’s effects a typescript entitled The Neon Bible. When he was fifteen and had just learned to drive, he had invited her to ride with him to Airline Highway to see something amusing. He parked in front of a monolithic concrete building and pointed to an enormous neon sign shaped like an open book, with the words Holy Bible
on one page and Midcity Baptist Church
on the other. Together they laughed at its tacky ostentation, but she did not know then that he had found the title and inspiration for his first sustained creative effort. About the same time he spent a few days with a classmate visiting relatives in rural Mississippi, the setting for The Neon Bible.
When Thelma suggested publishing The Neon Bible—"after Confederacy has had its share of glory"—lawyers reminded her that under Louisiana law (that same Napoleonic Code in which Stanley Kowalski instructs Blanche DuBois in A Streetcar Named Desire), half the rights belonged to her husband’s brother and his children. They had surrendered their share in Confederacy prior to publication, but it seemed unlikely that they would do the same for another potential best seller. Her letters of protest to the governor, the state supreme court, and Louisiana congressmen were ignored, and finally, unable to circumvent the antiquated and illogical inheritance law, her strength depleted by fatal illness, she made the painfully paradoxical decision to prevent publication of what she considered another masterpiece created by her darling. When she pleaded with me to see that her wishes were not violated after her death, her intense emotional commitment so moved me that I agreed to be the novel’s guardian,
to use her term. Shortly before she died in August 1984, she altered her will to that effect.
When her lawyer called to inform me that Thelma had died, he also notified me that she had bequeathed The Neon Bible to me in trust.
Having promised to abide by her wishes, however imperious and uncompromising they might appear to others, I was for the next three years involved in various lawsuits brought against her estate. The final outcome, of course, was the defeat of Thelma Toole’s attempt to control the fate of her son’s first novel from beyond the grave. In 1987 a New Orleans judge ruled for partition of the novel, which in effect would have put it up for public auction if the litigants could not reach some settlement. Rather than allow such a spectacle, I conceded the defeat of Thelma’s wishes and my desire to respect them, and The Neon Bible was freed for publication.
The novel you are about to read is the extraordinary creation of a teenage author whose life, which should have been full and rich, ended by his own choice, for reasons none of us perhaps will ever know, fifteen years after The Neon Bible was written. His story naturally promotes speculation and nagging questions. Were there other works by John Kennedy Toole? What might he have accomplished had he only lived longer? The question of his unfulfilled promise remains unanswered, of course, as the cause or causes of his wasteful suicide remain unknown. As to the existence of other written works, when we went through Thelma’s effects—her papers, the cherished foreign editions of Confederacy, the gifts and mementos from more than eight decades of life, and, most important of all to her, the carefully treasured possessions of her son and his letters to her—no manuscripts were found save for an unimpressive poem written during his army days and numerous essays and examination papers from his college career. Whatever fiction John may have written in the decade between The Neon Bible and A Confederacy of Dunces he must himself have destroyed, since it is unthinkable that his mother, given her conviction of his genius and her devotion to his every word and deed, could have disposed of or lost any document.
Thus the legacy of John Kennedy Toole is confined to his two brilliant novels, one a broad satirical view of the modern world, the other, this sensitive and remarkable portrait by a very young author of a small, claustrophobic world oppressed by narrow religious bigotry. The Neon Bible, written thirty-five years ago, is powerfully relevant to a world in which such bigotry has not been frustrated by reason and tolerance but rather seems to have grown stronger. Only two novels, but in their breadth and depth, they constitute testament to a genius.
W. KENNETH HOLDITCH
New Orleans, Louisiana
The Neon Bible
One
This is the first time I’ve been on a train. I’ve sat in this seat here for about two or three hours now. I can’t see what’s passing by. It’s dark now, but when the train left, the sun was just beginning to set, and I could see the red and brown leaves and the tanning grass all along the hillside.
I feel a little better the further the train gets from the house. The tingling that has been running up and down the inside of my legs is stopping, and my feet feel like they’re really there now, and not like two cold things that don’t really belong to the rest of my body. I’m not as scared anymore.
There’s a colored fellow coming through between the seats. He’s snapped off every one of the lights over the seats. There’s just a tiny red one glowing at the end of the coach, and I’m sorry it isn’t bright here anymore by my seat, because I start to think too much in the dark about what’s back in the house. They must have turned the heat off too. It’s cold in here. I wish I had a blanket to throw over my knees and something to put over this seat so the plush wouldn’t scratch the back of my neck.
If it was day outside, I could see where I was. I’ve never been this far from home in my life. We must be almost two hundred miles away now. With nothing to see, you have to listen to the click-click-click of the train. Sometimes I hear the whistle sounding far ahead. I’ve heard it plenty times, but I never thought I’d be riding with it. And I don’t mind the clicking. It sounds like the rain on a tin roof at night when it’s quiet and still and the only thing you can hear is the rain and the thunder.
But I had a train of my own. It was a toy one I got for Christmas when I was three. That was when Poppa was working at the factory and we lived in the little white house in town that had a real roof you could sleep under when it rained, and not a tin one like the place on the hill had that leaked through the nail holes too.
People came to see us that Christmas. We always had some people in the house, coming in blowing and rubbing their hands together and shaking out their coats like it was snowing outside. But there was no snow. Not that year. But they were nice, and brought me things. I remember the preacher gave me a book of Bible stories. But that was most likely because my mother and father were paying church members then, with their names on the rolls and both of them in the Adult Study Class that met every Sunday at nine and Wednesday night at seven for a social. I was in the Pre-School Play section, but we never played like the name said. We had to listen to stories some old woman read to us out of a grownup book that we didn’t understand.
Mother was very hospitable that year I got the train. Everybody got some of her fruitcake that she was proud of. She said it was