Dimming the Day: Evening Meditations for Quiet Wonder

Praise for Dimming the Day

"Jennifer Grant’s Dimming the Day is a gift to an anxious world. From dandelions and redwoods to ginkgos and beehives, Grant uses the natural world as a springboard for spiritual insights. Keep this lovely book on your bedside table for reassurance and inspiration."

—Lori Erickson, author of Near the Exit and Holy Rover

"In Dimming the Day, Grant invites us to view the world through eyes of wonder. It is as if a kind friend has offered to tuck us in for the night, guiding us into glorious sleep."

—Shemaiah Gonzalez, writer

Grant writes beautifully in a way that only someone who lives beautifully can do. This book is a rare antidote to the anxiety of our age.

—Jon M. Sweeney, author of Feed the Wolf: Befriending Our Fears in the Way of Saint Francis

Jennifer Grant’s reflections on creature and place in this bedtime companion intentionally settle the reader. It’s an invitation to lay aside life’s hustle and bustle and turn to a time of rest. Don’t be surprised, though, if whimsical butterflies, dandelions, hummingbirds, and such enter your dreams.

—Traci Rhoades, author of Not All Who Wander (Spiritually) Are Lost: A Story of Church

"This gently penned, innovative collection of twenty evening meditations is an invitation to worry less about tomorrow and wonder more about the beauty of this earth and the great God who made it, in whose arms we can safely and securely fall asleep. Dimming the Day is destined to find a place on many a bedside table, including mine."

—Glenys Nellist, children’s author of the Love Letters from God, Snuggle Time, and Little Mole series

"Into this chaotic and anxious world, Dimming the Day shows up as a soothing balm. Every word of this book has planted seeds for healing in my own weary heart, and I know it will do the same for others."

—April Fiet, author of The Sacred Pulse: Holy Rhythms for Overwhelmed Souls

"Exploring with obvious affection a marvelous breadth of created beings and creative artists, Grant has produced a piece that will induce both wonder and peace, inspiration, and calm. Dimming the Day is a book I can imagine keeping close at hand, to return to time and again."

—Rosalind C. Hughes, author of A Family Like Mine: Biblical Stories of Love, Loss, and Longing and Whom Shall I Fear? Urgent Questions for Christians in an Age of Violence

A flood of adrenaline-sparking bad news coming at us through our screens shouts most of us to sleep each night. Jennifer Grant offers us an alternative in this book of wonder-filled reflections and grace-filled practices designed to gentle our souls as each day draws to a close.

—Michelle Van Loon, author of Becoming Sage: Cultivating Maturity, Purpose, and Spirituality in Midlife

Author Jennifer Grant has an idea: Could we quiet our anxious thoughts by ending each day with awe and wonder? Weaving together nature, literature, faith, and daily life, Grant has produced a book of meditations and bedtime stories well worth keeping on your nightstand.

—Catherine McNiel, author of All Shall Be Well: Awakening to God’s Presence in His Messy, Abundant World

What an amazing, whimsical, informative, calming book! Although it’s meant for an end-of-day read, it’s perfect for any time you want to feel part of nature and centered. I’ll be buying copies for family and friends.

—Dale Hanson Bourke, author of Embracing Your Second Calling

"Dimming the Day is an enchanting book by the immensely talented Jennifer Grant, who has the heart and soul of a poet. This is a book to savor, to muse upon, and to smile about as you drift off to sleep, dreaming of misty redwood groves, magical whale songs, and other deep and beautiful mysteries of our universe."

—Susy Flory, New York Times bestselling author or coauthor of 16 books, and director of West Coast Christian Writers

"In chapter after lovely chapter, Grant leads readers throughout the natural world, pointing out wondrous things and deftly connecting them to spiritual thoughts and practices before guiding us home and to rest. Dimming the Day is the perfect nightly companion for these wearying and perilous times."

—Alison Hodgson, author of The Pug List: A Ridiculous Dog, a Family Who Lost Everything, and How They All Found Their Way Home

"So many of us crawl into bed at night with our thoughts scrolling as fast as our news feeds. No wonder sleep eludes us. Jennifer Grant invites us to do things differently. A delicious blend of science and spirituality, this collection of reflections gently directs our gaze toward the marvelous complexity of the natural world. Dimming the Day is not only good for individual readers; it is good for our world."

—Laura Alary, author of Breathe: A Child’s Guide to Ascension, Pentecost, and the Growing Time

This small book goes deep and wide. Grant’s soulful reflections and calming practices immerse us in the wild and winsome wonders of nature—a forest of mangroves, a murmuration of starlings, a solid ginkgo tree—to center our spirits before bed in a loving world and a loving God.

—Heidi Haverkamp, Episcopal priest and author of Holy Solitude: Lenten Reflections with Saints, Hermits, Prophets, and Rebels

This book was a much-needed soul gift during a very difficult season. As each day dimmed, I found myself looking forward to the bright light of Grant’s words and the stories in these pages.

—Rev. Tracey Bianchi, preaching pastor and adjunct seminary faculty

"In Dimming the Day, Jennifer Grant reminds me that to mark time by the sunset rather than my smartphone is to synchronize my spirit with the pulse of awe and wonder that beats at the heart of all creation."

—Milton Brasher-Cunningham, author of The Color of Together: Mixed Metaphors of Connectedness

"As someone who’s struggled my entire life with sleep (and now has children who struggle too), Dimming the Day is what I’ve needed in ending the day with reassurance, gratitude, and awareness of God’s presence as close as breath. I experienced Grant’s beautiful stories and images as a calming, holy hug from the miraculous world itself, finding healing for my anxious heart and hope for my fragile soul. I will never look into the eyes of my child or taste honey or hear a red-winged blackbird the same way again."

—Rev. Arianne Braithwaite Lehn, author of Ash and Starlight: Prayers for the Chaos and Grace of Daily Life

Dimming the Day

Dimming the Day

Evening Meditations for Quiet Wonder

Jennifer Grant

Broadleaf Books

Minneapolis

DIMMING THE DAY

Evening Meditations for Quiet Wonder

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Antonio Machado, Last Night, as I Was Sleeping, in Times Alone: Selected Poems of Antonio Machado. Translation © 1983 by Robert Bly. Published by Wesleyan University Press and reprinted with permission.

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Print ISBN: 978-1-5064-7119-8

eBook ISBN: 978-1-5064-7120-4

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For Astrid,

with love

Love all God’s creation, the whole and every grain of sand in it. Love every leaf, every ray of God’s light. Love the animals, love the plants, love everything. If you love everything, you will perceive the divine mystery in things. Once you perceive it, you will begin to comprehend it better every day. And you will come at last to love the whole world with an all-embracing love.

—Fyodor Dostoyevsky, The Brothers Karamazov

Contents

Introduction

1 Eyes: A Hundred Universes

2 Dandelions: The Miraculous in the Common

3 Humpback Whales: A Mystical Outcrying

4 Mangrove Forests: The Roots of Love

5 Hummingbirds: A Glittering, a Shimmer, a Tune

6 St. Paul’s Rocks: A Wildly Wonderful World

7 Honey: A Beehive Here inside My Heart

8 The Overview Effect: The Backdrop of the Universe

9 Montserrat Mountain: My Senses Quicken and Grow Deep

10 Ginkgos: The End of a Long Dream

11 Elephant: Which Forgets Itself in Its Greatness

12 The Kadupul: A Prayer like Incense

13 Patterns: The Infinite Complexity of Created Things

14 Red-Winged Blackbirds: The Heart Finds Its Morning and Is Refreshed

15 Murmurations: By Analogy, Their Author Is Seen

16 Redwoods: To Bathe in Her as in a Sea

17 Clouds: A Safe Lodging and a Holy Rest

18 Crown Shyness: The Great Operations of Nature

19 Pacaya Volcano: What Is Far Off and What Is Near

20 The Moon: How It Moves in Silence

Acknowledgments

A Prayer

Notes

Introduction

Sometimes anxiety is a restless toddler, overtired and squirming in your lap. Knocking up against you, it grips your shoulders with tiny fists. You try to speak calmly to it, but there’s no reasoning with anxiety. You shift its weight; your arms ache from carrying it for so long. Rocking, you try to soothe it, try to help it relax. You want to ease it into sleep. You want to sleep.

But being in anxiety’s clutches and getting a good night’s sleep aren’t compatible: it’s one or the other. And many of us spend many unhappy nights in anxiety’s company. While we toss and turn in bed, disappointments, mistakes, and failures play over and over in our minds. The future is full of uncertainty, and we catalog everything that could possibly go wrong in our lives and in the wider world. Doom scrolling through headlines in the middle of the night, we bear witness to hatred, inequality, and environmental ruin. And just when things seem to be calming down or improving, our world is shaken up again. It’s like we’re living in a snow globe, a storm of sorrow and injustice ever swirling around us. We’re holding on