I don't really know why I drew this. Guess I wanted to vent some feelings. Everything feels out of my control. Like 2024 is wild yknow. Mr Beast got cancelled. I wanted to support him for as long as possible because he was kinda a ray of hope to me in all this darkness. When the world looks like it's gone to absolute shit, his stuff would cheer me up. And with all the uncertainties, the wars, AI, climate change, he was kinda the motivation for me that if you work hard enough, or smart enough, you could be successful and make a difference. I really loved his philanthropy videos and I was willing to give him the benefit of the doubt through everything. But I was naive I guess. Or I was just so hopelessly miserable that I clinged unto him, because there was really nothing else that gave me security. But I guess I'm finally ready to move on. The world would still slowly march on to a better future with or without this man. I think in spite of all my hopelessness, I guess I'm still here somehow. I don't need some messiah or some concept to save me. I'll just exist one day to another, figuring it out as I go along. Although I don't necessarily feel great right now. I'm worried about the upcoming presentation on Tuesday, will we have time to compile everything, all the in-game animations, and the environments for layout, which we're still not given yet. I'm overthinking future events. And me lead continues to hate on everything the Illustrators did. It's small but I get affected by negativity easily. And I hate that I get emotional easily. Over things like the Mr Beast drama. I've cried it out and let my emotions flow out, so I am ready to let go now, but damn I just feel restless sometimes. I feel like it's bad to let these things get to me, because it reduces my productivity, and how do you even explain to people why you're upset to begin with? Nobody cares and it just looks like I have too much time on my hands to care about stupid things. But I do care. And I hate denying it for the sake of being productive. I hate that I feel like I can't belong in the workplace because I need time to handle my emotions over stupid things like this. But I'm trying. I know I have too much unresolved emotions/anxiety that anything could really set me off. Anyways I'm gonna go to bed now. Just thought I'd write all my emotions out to kinda get over them.
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Gender Male
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