Journey
Journey
Journey
even shiny white spaceships were coming true, it was odd how the human spirit
still seemed as deep and mysterious as the vastly uncharted universe itself – and
equally as borderless. So, setting out with great hope to find the secret source of
happiness and success, I began my journey to the centre of the unknown. There
were certainly lots of puzzles to solve.
Like a lot of kids, I had many questions that could not be easily answered.
Looking enquiringly around at this wild new world into which I had landed, the
road of life was obviously not without certain pitfalls and dangers; the Second
World War had just ended and millions of people had been killed - but for what?
Sometimes, staring out of the window into the vastness of the deep black night I
would wonder, 'Where does the sky end?' The thought of death frightened me.
'What came afterwards?' My mind could not penetrate beyond the veil of
darkness. Was I alone?
But now behold, in the quick forge, and working house of thought, how London
doth pour out her citizens
(William Shakespeare)
Like galaxies, bright and sparkling with life, for me, it was like that being born at
the heart of London’s Theatre district, the West End, a sort of ‘fantasy land’ full of
coffee bars, shops, theatres and cinemas. Observing the world was like looking
through a store window, glittering with stardust. At one end of my road stood
Piccadilly’s Eros, a symbol of that whirling, colourful scene of vibrant activity.
Opportunities were all around me.
Perhaps, like most new-borns starting out in life, I felt I was the centre of the
universe. But there were serious problems facing me. My identity was still rather
unclear: my Father was from Cyprus, my Mother was from Sweden, and our
dominant culture at home was British. To add to that, my mother was originally
from a Baptist background, my Father was Greek Orthodox, and I went to a local
Roman Catholic School in Drury Lane. So I was forced very early on to be open-
minded.
I remember looking at the choices given to me. Religion was constantly making
me feel guilty, warning me about immorality and dangers of this fleshly life. These
were represented in clear pictorial terms by the Devil, depicted with two horns;
the temptation of Adam and Eve and the forbidden fruit; and Jesus suffering on
the Cross, representing the key to salvation. But balancing those kinds of fearful
images with the zappy, fun-filled entertainment that was taking place outside the
doors of the Church, well…the centre of the universe for me was not in Religion -
it was probably closer to the city streets and arcades.
My father was a hard-working man; at the end of every day, he would stand at
the café’s old baroque till, counting the pounds, pennies and halfpennies. He
taught us the value of having enough food on the table and discouraged waste.
Dad had come a long way from his native village, Tala, situated on a hill
overlooking the ancient coastal city of Paphos in Southern Cyprus. He grew up in
a household where even a pair of shoes was considered a luxury, but my father
was never ashamed of his humble background. 'Money doesn't grow on trees!'
he never tired of reminding us.
Dad gave me a job in the Restaurant after school as a waiter, so I learnt to earn
my pocket money from the tips given by customers. It was also here that I first
realised - like my father must have done - that serving the public well can often
be highly rewarding.
“And they've been working all day, all day, all day!”
Up at eight, you can't be late
For Matthew & son, he won't wait.
Watch them run down to platform one
And the eight-thirty train to Matthew & son.
Matthew & son, the work's never done,
there's always something new.
The files in your head, you take them to bed,
you're never ever through.
And they've been working all day, all day, all day!
There's a five-minute break and that's all you take,
For a cup of cold coffee and a piece of cake.
Matthew & son, the work's never done,
there's always something new.
The files in your head, you take them to bed,
you're never ever through.
And they've been working all day, all day, all day!
He's got people who've been working for fifty years
No one asks for more money cuz nobody cares
Even though they're pretty low and their rent's in arrears
Matthew & son, Matthew & son,
Matthew & son, Matthew & son,
And they've been working all day, all day, all day!
MATTHEW & SON
Rise above time and space, pass by the world, and be yourself your own world.
(Shabistari)
My best friend, Andy, and I would often play together around the bombed ruins
that littered parts of the city, frequently strewn with broken glass, mud and
smashed bricks. But our favourite escapade was to go out late evenings and
dangerously scale the local buildings, climbing high up onto the rooftops. From
those heights we'd gaze at the noisy city below, undeclared secret champions of
London's skyline.
Everything in this society was geared towards 'making it'. The American image of
the good life was projected everywhere: films and television were just flooding in.
The emphasis was to be on top: get rich, be young, healthy, wealthy and street-
wise. Indeed I was - and roof-wise as well! I wanted to be an artist, a cartoonist.
Then I found out that Van Gogh, one of my favourite painters, died poor and
earless, and I realised that perhaps this wasn’t quite the life for me. There was a
need for something a little bit more instant – a fast track.
Suddenly there came the big music boom of Merseyside and the Beatles - British
Pop had arrived. Gravity had shifted; it was now in U.K. Suddenly there was a big
window of opportunity for us youngsters. So I picked up a guitar, chose the name
Cat Stevens, and started writing. It wasn't long before I had my first couple of hit
records; my name and photo was splashed all over the media and I was on the
road - at the grand old age of eighteen!
Soon I became aware of my own mortality and the inevitability of death. Lying
there, in a Sussex hospital deep in the country, surrounded by doctors, a lot of
important questions came into my mind. That was a very important stage of my
life. At that time there was a great interest in things eastern, things
transcendental: so I turned towards Peace and Flower Power. Somebody had
given me a copy of a Buddhist book called 'The Secret Path'. That was the
beginning of my ardent search for answers - clear answers, about the meaning of
our existence and where it was all leading.
I started meditating; and so the centre of the universe at that time was levitating
somewhere around the proximity of my belly button. I covered all the mirrors in
my hospital room with paper and tried to forget the outwardness of this world and
focus on my inner self. It wasn’t long before I had grown a beard.
The world is a place of transition, full of examples; be pilgrims therein, and take
warning from the traces of those that have gone before.
(Jesus Christ)
Those who have once begun their heavenward pilgrimage may not go down
again to darkness and the journey beneath the earth, but they live in light always.
(Plato)
My second career took off in a way we never expected, especially in the States.
This happened at a time when there was a broad appreciation for more gentle,
reflective songs. These were the blossoming 70's, and the whole thing suddenly
skyrocketed. Throughout the whole experience, one of the most important
aspects - emphasised in my lyrics, particularly - was a sense of ‘journey’.
Religious images were still very strong in my mind. I knew there was a difference
between right and wrong, but was passionately opposed to ritual and dogma; I
didn’t like the idea of being told exactly what to do and I was looking for a more
flexible, spiritual way. Then I wrote ‘Peace Train’. Where it would actually end
up? No one knew. The train was just rolling on ‘the edge of darkness’. That was
the peace movement; the spiritual track many of my generation and I was on.
I started studying different religions: I looked into Zen Buddhism, Hinduism and
other forms of eastern mysticism. As time went on I decided to look back into my
Greek heritage and came across Pythagoras. Perhaps, I suspected, he had the
right answer and everything can be worked out through some formula; it is all just
one amazing mathematical puzzle. After all, scientists always looked for
correlations and sequences to explain and predict events in the world of
existence.
A simple nomad was once asked, “What is the evidence of the existence of a
Supreme Being?” He answered, “Droppings indicate the existence of camels;
footprints are evidences of a walker; and yet when a heaven with constellations
and an earth with mountain passes is presented before us, is this not evidence of
an Exalted and All-Powerful God?” There are indications everywhere; the truth
might be screaming out, but the noise of daily life makes it difficult to hear.
I’d looked at Astrology; and threw the I-Ching, everything that you’d expect from
those kinds of days and that kind of era. But I still wasn’t satisfied; there were still
major doubts. Later I came in touch with Sufism and read some poems of the
Muslim poet, Rumi:
I was very impressed, but still wasn’t there. In a rather strange way, I was trying
to find out the truth and shrink my ego whilst still being projected as an icon.
That, of course, wasn't easy. But music was clearly illustrating my journey.
Think that you suffer a great punishment when you obtain the object of corporeal
desire; for the attainment of such objects never satisfies desire.
(Sextus, the Pythagorean)
One of the most dominant views of man is the material view. The motto of this
concept is ‘Eat, drink and be merry.’ The problem was that I had eaten, I had
drunk – but still wasn’t merry.
Living a fairly recluse existence; after playing to 40,000 fans in massive sports
stadiums, I would return to a hotel room or fly back to my bare, unfurnished flat in
Rio. The more success I achieved, the more I tried to hide myself away,
frightened of losing that most precious gift, that mysterious lamp that was guiding
me along the unseen path.
In Rio I lived alone, unable to even converse with the lady who cooked and kept
the place clean; she only spoke Portuguese. I really felt isolated and it hurt for a
long time, recalling the loneliness back in the beginning when I was trying to be
Cat Stevens – the Star! The guy that was incredibly famous, lucky and wrote
smart things. But basically, I still hadn’t discovered who I was and my earth-time
was running out.
Hark, O drop, give thyself up without repenting, that in recompense for the drop
thou mayst gain the ocean.
(Jalaluddin Rumi)
Each day mankind nervously discovers a new secret in the structure of material
universe: another clue to the ever-enlarging picture of life; yet another
confirmation indicating the existence of Unseen Intelligence behind the intricately
mysterious worlds and galaxies he observes. Nevertheless, each day man is
easily upset by little incidents beyond his control, he still feels hurt if someone
pushes him; human weaknesses have not changed in the slightest. The ultimate
mystery remains; the question of death evades man’s logic and he is left waiting
at the station without so much as a timetable.
And then that amazing thing happened. My elder brother visited Jerusalem; he
bravely went into the Mosque of Al Aqsa situated at the centre of the Holy City,
opposite the Golden Domed Mosque. Inside, he felt something very special.
When my brother came back to UK in 1976 there was a Festival of Islam taking
place in London, everywhere were books about Islam. He saw the Qur’an in the
bookshop and he said ‘That’s the Bible of the Muslims’. So, he decided to buy it
and give it to me as a gift.
When I started to read the Qur’an, the first thing that I did was to try and keep an
open mind because there were so many preconceived images already built up
within me. Many are the times I’d visited my favourite spiritual bookshop in LA,
called the Bhodi Tree, but never had I even bothered to look at the Islam
bookshelf before. Perhaps that was because my father belonged to a Greek-
Cypriot culture and, therefore, anything connected to Muslims was hostile to me.
But the more I read the Qur’an, the more it struck me, deep down. This was not
quite that foreign religion which I had come to expect. First and foremost it was
talking about belief in God, the Master of the universe; talking about humanity as
one family. It mentioned many prophets, Moses, Jesus and Muhammad included,
being brothers equally teaching the same message of unity to mankind, and all of
us being the offspring of Adam and Eve.
After a while I read the chapter called ‘Joseph’ (Yusuf). My life seemed to melt
into a mirror of this story. Up to then I too, like Joseph, had passed through many
stages and been sold in the market. The section of the story that really shook me
was when his brothers, who had thrown him down the well, were face to face with
him. Unaware that Joseph was in front of them, they were talking badly about
him, slandering him. But he kept it within himself. God! Something resonated
inside me, perhaps it was those words I wrote in Father and Son: “All the times
that I’ve cried, keeping all the things I knew inside”. At that point, I wept. That
chapter opened my heart.
On a winter Friday in 1977, I took that dramatic step and walked to the Mosque in
London’s Regent’s Park to declare my faith. Out of the greenery of the trees,
there shone this golden dome which was never there before. That was in a way
the epitome of everything that I was now discovering: suddenly it was there –
where it wasn't there before.
I was still making records but - like Moses and the magicians - the Truth
ultimately had to win. Interestingly, there wasn’t anything in the Qur’an directly
mentioning music; it didn’t say music was forbidden. But there were many things
that were forbidden or clearly immoral such as fornication, drunkenness, false
idols, competition, greed and selfishness among other things. Then I started to
analyse. ‘Hang-on,’ I thought to myself, ‘the music business is full of that stuff,
how can you really develop and get closer to the Angels if you stay in that kind of
an environment?’ For me, I found it very difficult.
At last, when I got a chance to escape from the limelight - I grabbed it. The only
real regret I have, is that the link that existed between those who listened to my
songs and me ceased to exist. For a long time I lost that privileged link of
communication by cutting myself off from the music business. But it was very
difficult to stay on the straight path, firmly on your feet amidst all the
commercialism and the hype of rock star existence.
And those who disbelieve say of the Truth when it has come unto them,
‘This is naught else than plain magic!
(The Qur'an, Sheba)
In 1980 I had the privilege to fulfil one of my Islamic obligations, to visit Makkah
during the blessed month of Pilgrimage. Lo and Behold! I had come to the Centre
of the Universe, where the physical and metaphysical worlds meet. I was floating
in that wonderful sea of humanity, turning like stars in a galaxy, around the house
of God, built by Prophet Abraham and his son Ismail - submitters to God - two
and a half thousand years ago. The central monolithic structure, the ‘Ka’bah’,
was a sublimely simple cube shaped building made of rough stones. And it was
empty. God Almighty can not be fitted into a house! I had at last found that
dimension where human existence ceases to be held by the gravitation of
sensual and worldly desires, where the soul is freed in an atmosphere of
obedience and peaceful submission to the Divine Presence: La Baik, “Here I am
O God, Here I am.”
God is the Light of the heavens and the earth. The similitude of his light is
as a niche wherein is a lamp; the lamp is within a glass; the glass is as
were a pearly white star, lit from a blessed olive tree neither of the east nor
west, whose oil would almost glow forth of itself, though no fire touched it.
Light upon Light, God guides to his Light whom He chooses. And God
propounds to mankind parables. And God of all things is Knowing.
(The Qur'an, Al Noor)
I discovered that the human soul does not live only by means of material success
and acclaim, it needs contentment, which actually requires a person to be normal
sized. Stardom is not normal; everything has to be bigger and be better, you
have to be competitive. Getting out of that race, quite frankly, is what I did. I was
given a chance to find my own way to happiness; each person must choose
whichever road he or she wishes to follow. But if people knew more about this
particular path to the Centre of the Universe, then I believe that there would be
much more understanding and unity in this world.
Be indifferent to the life of the world and God will love you; and be indifferent to
what people possess and the people will love you.
(The Last Prophet Muhammad pbuh)
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