Random Thought(bites)

I called it in my little mind, I did! Well, its not exactly rocket science, right? Its the
way a significant amount of (fictional) stories develop: X admits liking Y, Y says we
should stay friends, X gets angry, then Y has a near death experience and realizes that
X is actually a good catch, they make out, yada yada yada But, despite the
predictability of the pattern, it is always satisfying to actually watch it happen,
especially if you really like the characters. So, even though Alex Danvers has known
Maggie Sawyer for only 5 episodes, they are hooking up! Thank God Chyler Leigh and
Floriana Lima have good chemistry on screen, otherwise it would have been painful to
watch. And, I know that the writers deserve props for actually writing a meaningful
coming out story, but people, Chyler Leigh makes it all worth your while. So, next to
Wynonna Earp, Supergirl is (for the moment this is the CW after all) giving us a good
queer storyline to follow.

Man crushes
Prince Eric from The Little Mermaid He was my first man crush ever. Black
hair, blue eyes, a huge dog as a companion, had his own ship (the ship was way
more important than the fact that he was a prince and had a castle, by the way).
Ralph Fiennes dear God is there an even more perfect specimen of a man out
there?
Lady crushes

So, heres the deal: I realized something today that made me sad; maybe even a little
mad, but I dont really know if I have the right to feel mad. So, lets stick to sad for the
moment. The realization was this: over the past years, I have been obsessing over good
stories (in film, TV, opera and literature) that include or revolve around siblings. I am
an only child. But my father is not. In fact, he is one of six. My mother is an only child,
but the reasons behind that are completely different (or maybe she has a half-sibling
somewhere out there, but she clearly does not want to find out, because that would stir
some really painful memories I guess). Anyway, the point is, I know that I would have
been infinitely more balanced in my life, if I had a sibling preferably a sister, but I
guess this is no longer pertinent. I do recall asking my parents at least once, if I would
ever get a sibling. I do not remember their answer. Then again, I must have been a
handful. I dont know why my parents decided to stick with just the one, when all the
other brothers and one sister of my father each had two children (thank God for my
cousins even though they are older than me). They must have had a reason. But for
me that was a bad choice, I think. I am not going to blame my parents for not giving
me a sibling. But I know that this is a void I will always carry inside me. All you people
out there who have brothers and sisters, even if your relationships arent the best, you
are lucky because no matter what, you will never be alone. Being an only child is
great. But sometimes, it can get lonely, especially if you are as socially awkward as I
am

I love Disney movies. I mean, who doesnt? And I know, I know, there is a lot to discuss
about the old ones were somewhat one-dimensional portraits of women and how
essentially the whole story revolved around the Prince being able to save the girl; or,
how they did some serious changes in actual historical events to bring their story to life
(looking at you Pocahontas); or how essentially the whole of The Lion King is just a
glorified version of carnivores were the poor grass-eating mammals have to bow down
to their killers (you kind of forget that though, watching that glorious opening, right?)
But, I grew up with Disney movies and despite their many shortcomings (there will
never be a perfect Disney movie, although Zootopia came pretty close) I always return
to them and their music and songs. And if there is one song that I absolutely can relate
to, is Part of Your World from The Little Mermaid. When I was a kid, I used to watch
this movie all the time. It was a VHS and it was the German version (to this day, I dont
think I have seen the original English version!) I knew every bit of dialogue by heart
and of course I could sing along to every song. At the time, I never understood why
Part of Your World (or, as the German title goes Ein Mensch zu sein) meant so much
to me. But, in retrospect and after years of soul-searching and all kinds of realizations
about who and what I am (no, not a mermaid) I finally understand. I am an outsider,
just like Ariel is when she sings this song. I am looking in on that world and I do want
to be a part of it, but, unlike Ariel, I am afraid. The one trait that Ariel possesses that
makes her who she is, is that she is fearless even in Ursulas cave, when she makes
the deal, she never loses sight of her goal and never looks back. I would never be able
to do something like that, because I am terrified of that world I so desperately want to
be a part of. It is crazy, I know, but my sense of wonder and amazement seizes the
moment I get too close. Still, Part of Your World was, is and always will be a song that
touches me deeply, even if, in the end, I dont make it to the other side

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Heres a funny thought: In the CWs iteration of Supergirl, Kara has a sister, which is not
in the original comics. And Alex is a human. But she is supposed to look out for the Girl
of Steel! I mean, cmon, I think that this is the most ridiculous, yet at the same time
wonderful idea the producers could come up with! The most powerful woman on Earth, an
alien, still needs her sister to take care of her! With whatever ramifications that brings for
the both of them. I really love this idea.

So, I went to the shrink today for the first time. The uni offers free counseling to students
and I thought I might give it a shot. Obviously they dont counsel you forever, especially
if you have serious trouble, but its a start and they can give you some assistance. Anyway,
two things: I realized that I actually needed that to understand that I have no idea who I am
without the umbrella of my family name to guide me and when she asked me if there was
anything I missed from Greece all these years, the first thing I blurted out without giving it
a seconds thought, was fresh fish. She, of course, wanted me to say if I missed any people,
but no, my first thought was fresh fish. My second, was the sea. I guess that says a great
deal about me right there, doesnt it?

Subject: Nationality (13.02.2017)

Mel Brooks admitted in his 2017 BAFTA acceptance speech that he forgot his passport,
because he doesnt think of England as a foreign country; [] just a vast Brooklyn
that speaks better.
Last week, I had to renew my (German) passport. When filling out the application, the
clerk asked: Do you possess any other nationalities? I answered: Yes, I am also
Greek. To which he replied: Yes, I thought as much, seeing the birthplace on the old
passport.
I am once again reminded of one of my favorite films (which I strongly maintain is
NOT just about love, but mostly about nations):

Hanna: Theres a man downstairs. He brought us eggs. He might stay.

Almsy: Why? Can he lay eggs?
Hanna: Hes Canadian.
Almsy: Why are people always so happy when they collide with someone from the
same place? What happened in Montreal when you passed a man in the street? Did you
invite him to live with you? []
Hanna: Theres a war! Where you come from becomes important.
Almsy: Why? I hate that idea.

Maddox: Its ghastly! Its like a witch hunt! Anyone remotely foreigner is suddenly a
spy. [] We didnt care about countries, did we? Brits, Arabs, Hungarians, Germans,
none of that mattered, did it? It was something finer than that!

Hanna/Katherine Clifton: We die We die We die rich with lovers and tribes, tastes
we have swallowed, bodies we have entered and swum up like rivers. Fears weve
hidden in like this wretched cave. I want all this marked on my body. Were the real
countries. Not the boundaries drawn on maps with the names of powerful men. I know
youll come and carry me out to the Palace of Winds. Thats what Ive wanted: to walk
in such a place with you. With friends, on an earth without maps.

As if Maggie is in a position to go against Kara, when she suggests she do something

nice for Alex! I mean, cmon, Kara is Supergirl and Maggie knows this; she could roast
her with her heat vision, if she hurt Alex! And the Winn-Lyra pairing is adorable and
extremely relevant. Yet again, Supergirl is proving to be a socially poignant show

I literally can find no fault with Handels Ariodante. It is absolutely perfect in every
way. Sad, but perfect! And Sonia Prina is KILLING it (again) as Polinesso tonight!
Joyce too, obviously (30.04.2017, Carnegie Hall)