The Fault in Our Stars
The Fault in Our Stars
The Fault in Our Stars
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Alexis Cpntreras Panty
This scene is typical of coming of age
narratives—two young lovers see each
ANALYSIS
other for the first time, yet Hazel’s
THE FAULT IN OUR STARS
awareness of her oxygen and body
suggests how she sees cancer as a barrier
to such normality. The stare-down during
CHAPTER 1 the prayer suggests that the young
people are more interested in (or
In the Winter Hazel Grace Lancaster’s seventeenth year, her mother The novel begins with mention of Mrs.
distracted by) their blooming sexualities
asks her to go to a cancer support group because she believes Hazel Lancaster’s concern for Hazel,
than religion. The feeling of victory Hazel
is depressed about her cancer diagnosis. Hazel explains that establishing thethe
gets by winning importance
stare-down ofshows
family
in
that she is excited by this kind of that
the novel. Hazel’s correction
depression is not a side effect of cancer, but a side effect of dying.
depression is aitside
attention, and effect
is new of dying
to her.
Hazel explains that she has been staying in the house, spending a lot shows that she is focused on her
of time in bed, reading the same book, titled, An Imperial Affliction, Isaac’s confidence
impending in Augustus
mortality. and
Unlike most
and spending her free time thinking about death. Monica
teenagers,to carry him through
she stays the loss of
in the house
his sightthinking
alone, shows the waydying,
about in which these
depicting
young people depend on each other.
the way in which cancer has denied her
Augustus’ share reveals a lot about his
a normal teenage existence.
Hazel explains that the support group meets every Wednesday in character. He downplays his diagnosis,
the basement of an Episcopal church shaped like a cross. The group and
The will not say
support thatmeeting
group he is there
in for
a
support; he is there to give
building the shape of a cross support. This
meets in a room where the two boards of the cross would meet. The foreshadows the heroism he wishes and
introduces the theme of religion.
leader of the group, Patrick, mentions that the group meets in the strives formention
through ofthecancer
novel and his
Patrick’s patients
heart of Jesus, and how the young people, as cancer survivors, hold philosophies about life and death.
having a special place in Jesus’ heart
a special place in Jesus’ heart. speaks
Hazel’s to one common
sarcasm depicts view of young
the way she
people living with cancer, but
feels about the group. As typical thewith
reader findsshe
teenagers, outisthat this belief
resistant to theisidea
often
notsharing
of sufficient
in afor Hazel,
group, butwho turnsthat,
beyond to
During the support, they sit in the “Circle of trust,” and listen philosophy
she actuallyto understand
finds herand
the clichés illness.
to Patrick tell his life story for the thousandth time, about the way platitudes in conflict with her own
Hazel, and many of the other
his cancer had taken his testicles. Hazel speaks sarcastically about experiences. Her response to
characters, find the support group
how Patrick tells the group he is grateful, although he has lost his Augustus’ fear of oblivion tells the
emotionally and intellectually
wife, is addicted to videogames, is mostly friendless, and waiting for reader something about her
inauthentic. They are facing death in a
philosophy, which she has based on An
the “sword of Damocles” to fall down and end his life. After Patrick very real way, which makes the simple
Imperial Affliction. Her views are
tells his story, the group goes around and introduces themselves: platitudes of the support group seem
nihilistic. She believes life has no
phony. The irony in Patrick’s gratitude
Name, age, and diagnosis. Then the group opens up for discussion. meaning and leads to death with
depicts this, and the “Sword of
The only redeeming element of support group was a kid nothing afterward.
Damocles” reference suggests that
named Isaac. Isaac has lost an eye to cancer, and he has a glass eye even thoughathe's
The names the in
endrecovery, his death
of the prayer,
in the place where the other eye had been removed. Isaac and hazel is imminent. Also, the fact
and Hazel’s response to them showsthat he has
connect during the support group, communicating through sighs lost
that death is a reality for her. Thein
his testicles depicts the way
which theof normal coming of age, which
and sarcasm as they listen to the others share. presence prayers and mantras at the
involves discovering
end of the group shows how one’s sexual
important
drives,
religionisanddisrupted by cancer.
philosophy are to Hazel
those
and Isaac bond
who are dying. through their sarcasm,
showing the way in which being
After going to the support group for a few weeks, Hazel comes to Isaac’s
differentinteraction with the doctor
provides opportunities for
dread going. One Wednesday during a twelve-hour America’s Next shows the way in which these young
connection.
Top Model marathon, Hazel attempts to get out of going to group. people have learned to interact with
Hazel’s
doctors.mother wantsthere
In the book, Hazelareto have
good
She argues with her mom. Mrs. Lancaster explains that she wants the opportunity to be a “normal
doctors and nurses and bad ones, but
Hazel to make friends and be a normal teenager. Eventually, she teenager,” but become
Hazel knows she isofnot
the characters skeptical
agrees to go, not because she wants to, but because it makes her “normal”.
them, especially those who don't her
She goes only to make act
parents happy. mother happy, which becomes
kindly, compassionately, a or
honestly,
theme that continues
with a little through
bit of humor. the
Hazel’s
novel. response shows the way in
facetious
which the characters connect through
humor and use it to get through
difficult situations.
They watch V for Vendetta, which Hazel doesn't really like because it Kaitlyn is the epitome of a “normal
teenager”. She contrasts Hazel because
is a “boy movie”, but agrees is great to she goes to high school, fits her clothes
make Augustus happy. Augustus’ mother takes a seat beside her perfectly, and spends her time thinking
before she leaves and grabs a pillow with the saying, “without pain, about boys, not death. Commenting on
how could we know joy?” She tells Hazel she loves the saying. the fact that Kaitlyn will be surprised she
Internally, Hazel believes it is an old argument for thinking about could attract a boy shows how Hazel's
cancer has lowered her self-esteem.
suffering that could easily be dismantled, but she replies to Augustus’
mother by saying it is a lovely thought. The awkwardness after Kaitlyn's
comment shows how cancer and disease
can make the healthy uncomfortable.
Hazel drives Augustus car home. As they drive, she wonders what his
Things they take for granted, like normal
prosthetic leg looks like. She doesn't want to care about it, but cant figures of speech, take on new meaning
help wondering. She notes that illness repulses, and she suspects in light of Hazel’s cancer, which comes
Augustus feels the same way about her oxygen tank. When they between the two girls. Hazel’s desire to
arrive at Hazel’s house, she puts the car in park. Augustus turns the read Augustus’ book shows that her
radio down and Hazel can only think about kissing him. He says it interest in him is taking on a more
important role than her friendship with
was a pleasure to make her acquaintance, and asks if he can see her Kaitlyn.
again tomorrow. Hazel tells him to be patient and she will call him
after she finishes the book he gave her. Although Hazel’s mother insists that she
have normal teenage interactions, she is
always right there, making Hazel
CHAPTER 3 uncomfortable and unable to realize her
passage into maturity. In this passage,
Hazel’s mother wakes her up at 10am. She tells her mother that sleep fights
she clearly states that her health makes
cancer, and that she was up late reading the book Augustus had given her, her different than others, and has a
which is particularly violent, but somehow enjoyable. Mrs. Lancaster says negative effect on their relationship.
she knows that Hazel likes Augustus and she knew the support group
Although it is not explicitly stated, the
would pay off. Finally, her mother says she has to go to class, gleefully
reason why Augustus likes these violent
adding that it is Hazel’s thirty-third half birthday. Hazel’s mother is thrilled novels begins to become clear. Max
about the occasion, but Hazel is not. Her mother grabs Hazels childhood Mayhem is an indestructible hero, and it
bear, Bluie, from the shelf and asks her what she wants to do to celebrate. later becomes clear that Augustus
She decides to call her friend Kaitlyn and go to the mall. admires his strength and heroics and
builds his philosophy of life off of heroic
models like Mayhem.
After class, Hazel’s mother drives her to the mall. Before meeting Kaitlyn,
Hazel’s reaction to the girl shows that she
she goes to the bookstore and purchases the two sequels to the Price of
is used to these kinds of interactions, and
Dawn. As she waits in the food court for Kaitlyn, she sees two young kids is not afraid to educate people about her
playing on an indoor playground. They are climbing through a plastic cancer. The girl’s mother’s response,
tunnel, and Hazel thinks of Augustus’ existential dilemma over basketball. however, shows the way in which people
are alienated and afraid of illness.
Through the book, Hazel works to
normalize the experience of illness.
At 3:32 Kaitlyn shows up. She greets Hazel enthusiastically in a British
accent, saying, “Darling…How are you?” She is wearing big sunglasses, and
Hazel identifies with An Imperial Affliction
a coat that fits her body perfectly. She tells Hazel she wishes she still went because it speaks to her experience honestly.
to high school with her because the boys have become “downright edible.” She bemoans cancer clichés that make sick
She asks Hazel about her health. Hazel tells her it’s good, and wants to tell people’s character seem different than
healthy people, but An Imperial Affliction
her about Augustus because she knows it will surprise Kaitlyn that anyone pushes back against clichés. She bases her
as disheveled as her could meet a boy, but she does not say anything. philosophy of life on the ideas in the novel,
which allows her to accept cancer as a basic
Hazel and Kaitlyn then go shoe shopping. Kaitlyn is particularly picky side effect of life without any of the
about shoes, and Hazel notes that she is the only person she knows with metaphorical resonances that are common in
cancer narratives and harmful to those living
toe-specific dysmorphia. Kaitlyn then grabs a pair of “strappy hooker with cancer.
shoes” and says, “Is it even possible to walk in these? I mean, I would just
die—”, she pauses then and looks at Hazel as if to say “sorry.” Kaitlyn Hazel likes the ending of the novel
because it rings true with her
continues shopping while Hazel sits on one of the benches. She wants to
understanding of death and dying. By
read Augustus’ book, but decides that would be rude. When Kaitlyn is done ending mid-sentence the novel depicts
she suggests they go to another store, but Hazel says she is tired. the way death happens suddenly, leaving
nothing behind are tied up. Her interest
in what happens to Anna’s family after
she dies stems from Hazel’s fear of what
Hazel calls her mother and tells her to pick her up at six. She notes that her
will happen to her family after she dies.
“perpetual nearness” makes her feel uncomfortable. Her relationship
with Kaitlyn also makes her uncomfortable, like there is a distance Hazel’s interest in Augustus’ impression
between them. Hazel states that normal social interactions are just of the book show that she cares what he
thinks, revealing her blooming affection
depressing because it is so obvious that others feel awkward and self- for him. Although she and Augustus met
conscious around her. through their cancer—the thing that
makes them different than their peers—
Hazel finds a bench and sits down to read The Price of Dawn. The main they are beginning to connect through
character of the novel, Max Mayhem, is constantly killing enemies and things beyond their illness, showing that
saving good guys. By the end of the novel, Mayhem is shot seventeen times even though they are sick, they are still
while trying to save a blond, American hostage. Hazel knows that the series, normal teenagers.
however, will go on because Mayhem’s cohorts will continue his legacy. In Because Hazel's cancer alienates others,
the end, however, Mayhem lives. she finds companionship in her mother
who works to understand her cancer.
Again, their shared intrigue with An
Imperial Affliction becomes the place
As Hazel finishes the book, a young girl comes up to her and asks her what where their relationship and experiences
is in her nose. Hazel explains that it is called a cannula, which gives her in the rest of the novel unfold.
oxygen to help her breathe. The little girl’s mother swoops in, mortified by
When Monica leaves Isaac, he begins to
her daughters questions. Hazel explains that its alright for her to ask and
experience a normal part of coming of
offers the girl if she wants to try the cannula on. The girl tries the cannula age. Because of his cancer, however, this
on, and without it, Hazel feels the burden of her lungs. The girl thanks her normal part of coming of age is
and her mother takes her away. particularly harmful. It is different for him
than other young people. He knows that
CHAPTER 4 he will soon be blind, and is depending on
Monica’s support. And, it is implied, she
That night, Hazel gets into bed and begins reading An Imperial Affliction. is unable to cope with having to be such
She explains that the novel is about a girl named Anna who is dying from a support. Their understanding of pain,
cancer. Hazel loves the book because it is not sentimental. Most cancer derived from An Imperial Affliction, is
books involve a character starting a charity, or doing some other noble act part of the philosophy they have
while dying. Anna is honest about dying, claiming that “cancer kids” are just developed to cope with life, death, and
struggle.
essentially side effects of the mutation of life on earth.
Augustus lives vicariously through his
In An Imperial Affliction, Anna’s mother falls in love with a Dutch man, video games. The game allows him to act
referred to as The Dutch Tulip Man. The Tulip Man has eccentric ideas heroically. His focus on heroism is
connected to his desire to be
about curing cancer, but Anna thinks he is a con artist. Just as Anna is about
remembered after death. His response to
to start a crazy treatment, the book ends mid-sentence. Hazel likes this Hazel's comment about temporary
ending, but wonders what happens to the characters that are left behind. salvation shows a difference in their
She has tried to write Peter Van Houten about what happens after the novel philosophies. His response also alludes to
ends, but Van Houten is a known recluse and has not responded. his own salvation, which is temporary,
and cut short later by the return of his
cancer.
As Hazel reads An Imperial Affliction, she wonders what Augustus had Isaac learns an important lesson through
his breakup with Monica about the
thought of it. She texts him, stating that The Price of Dawn had too many
realities of love and relationships in the
bodies and not enough adjectives. He asks her to call, so she does. When adult world. The difference is that he is
she asks Augustus if he likes it, he tells her he will withhold judgment, but also dealing with his cancer, which is
is wondering about the Dutch Tulip Man and whether he is a con artist. ultimately the force that came between
Augustus asks when he can see Hazel again, and she tells him that they can them. His questions with regard to the
see each other when he finishes the book. She knows she is flirting with nature of love are an essential part of
coming of age.
him, which is new to her, but she enjoys it.
These young people are feeling immense
After school the next day, Hazel’s mother picks her up and they see a movie pain, which as Augustus mentions,
together. During the movie, Augustus texts Hazel, saying, “Tell me my copy “demands to be felt”, and they are left
is missing the last twenty pages.” He, like Hazel, begins to wonder what trying to figure out how to express it.
happens to Anna’s mother and the Tulip Man after the book ends. Unable to deal with the pain in a mature
way, Isaac begins smashing things,
showing the extent to which he is
harmed, but also his lack of ability to
When Hazel gets home she calls Augustus. As they talk, she hears sobbing cope with the loss. Augustus takes part in
in the background. Augustus tells her that it is Isaac crying the catharsis of Isaac’s destructive
behavior by allowing him to smash the
because Monica left him. He invites Hazel over to his place. At Augustus’
trophies. His lack of attachment to them
house, Hazel finds Augustus and Isaac playing video games. Isaac is crying shows he is moving away from that part
while he plays, refusing to look at Augustus or Hazel. In the game the two of his childhood. During the scene, he is
are running through a battlefield, firing machine guns at the enemies. more interested in Hazel and An Imperial
Augustus asks Hazel to share any female advice she might have for Isaac. Affliction, showing the way his focus has
Hazel says his response is normal, to which Augustus replies, “Pain changed as he matures.
demands to be felt,” a line from An Imperial Affliction.
As they play the game, they approach a schoolhouse full of children being
taken hostage. Suddenly a grenade is thrown, and Augustus dives on it,
sacrificing himself to save the children. Augustus is happy to have saved
the children. Hazel reminds him that he has only temporarily saved them,
but Augustus replies that all salvation is temporary. He bought the children
a minute, which might lead to an hour, which might lead to a month or a
year.
After they are through with the game, Isaac says that Monica dumped him
because she didn’t want to have to break up with him after he was blind.
Isaac says she couldn't handle being with him. Hazel reminds Isaac that she
doesn't have to “handle it” the same way that Isaac does. Isaac says that
after she broke up with him he just kept saying “always” to her, which was
their way of promising to always be together. That’s what love is, Isaac says,
keeping a promise. He reveals that he believes in real love, but Hazel is not
sure she does.
Hazel becomes aware that her parents
Suddenly, Isaac begins hitting the gaming chair and had a life before her, but now that she is
sick they must put all of their energy into
beating Augustus’ pillows. Augustus encourages him to lash out in anger.
taking care of her. Hazel feels guilty
During Isaac’s freak out, Augustus asks Hazel about An Imperial Affliction. about the amount of time her parents
Hazel reveals that Van Houten is living in Amsterdam, and she suspects he must spend caring for her, the way her
is writing a sequel to An Imperial Affliction that reveals what happens to impending death warps their life.
the family after Anna’s death. As she talks, Augustus approaches Isaac and
tells him to stop beating the pillow and break something. Isaac grabs a
trophy and holds it over his head. Augustus gives him permission to smash Hazel’s health is a constant source of
it. After the trophies have been smashed, Isaac sits down. Augustus asks concern for her. She tries to focus on the
moment, but the immensity of the
him if he feels better. Isaac says no, and Augustus again says that pain
thought of dying makes this a difficult
demands to be felt. task and takes her focus from living now
and being happy like other kids.
Two weeks later, Van Houten has still not replied to Hazel’s email. On
Wednesday during class, Hazel gets a text from Augustus telling her The young people with cancer in the
that Isaac is officially NEC, which means no evidence of cancer. novel are treated differently than healthy
Unfortunately, however, he is completely blind. children, as shown by the “cancer perks”
and “wishes” they receive. They know
Hazel goes to visit Isaac at the hospital. When she walks in she says hello, that these perks are given through a
but Isaac mistakes her for Monica. He asks Hazel to come closer so he can sense of pity. Augustus gives Hazel a hard
examine her face with his hands, “and see deeper into [her] soul than a time because Disney Land is an
sighted person ever could.” The nurse says he is joking, and Hazel quickly inauthentic experience that strays from
their search for truth and meaning in
replies that she knows. Isaac tells Hazel that Monica has not even visited
their lives and deaths.
and it hurts. He reaches for the pain pump and hits the button sending a
shot of narcotics into his arm. The nurse condescendingly tells him not to
worry. She says the fourteen months he was with Monica was not that long
in the scope of things. They joke about the characteristics of a good nurse,
then Isaac becomes depressed again, saying this everyone deserves to Augustus hits it off with Hazel’s parents,
experience true love, but he has been short changed by Monica. Then the which is a big step in their relationship
medicine kicks in and he falls asleep. and part of a young man’s experience
when courting a young woman. Hazel’s
Hazel goes down stairs to the gift shop and buys some flowers for Isaac. desire to keep the flowers for herself
When she gets back upstairs, Isaac's mother has arrived and is holding his speaks to the way she feels about
Augustus and the way that she wants
hand. She shares that she feel guilty for leaving him, but she had to pick up
their relationship to be mature and not
Isaac’s brother from school. Hazel assures her that he did fine, and then she involve her parents.
leaves.
Mr. Lancaster’s concern for Hazel shows
The next morning Hazel wakes up and finds an email from Van Houten. In that although she and Augustus are
the email he tells Hazel he is unable to share what happens in writing working toward a mature relationship,
because that would constitute a sequel to An Imperial Affliction. He does, they have not completely entered that
realm. Hazel’s illness causes her father to
however extend an offer to discuss what happens after the novel’s end if
feel immense concern for her, which
Hazel is ever in Amsterdam. Hazel immediately knows that a trip to leads to a sense of overprotection that
Amsterdam is out of the question. When she tells her mother about the inhibits her ability to live out a mature
letter and invitation to Amsterdam, her mother says they don’t have the relationship with Augustus.
money. Mrs. Lancaster, knowing how important it is to her, offers to talk to
Even though she is going on a date with
her father about it, but Hazel tells her not to spend any money on it, Augustus, Hazel can’t help thinking about
knowing that she is the reason they have no money in the first place. the PET scan which will determine if her
cancer has returned, showing the way in
Hazel calls Augustus and reads him the letter. He asks if she has used her which her illness interrupts her life.
“wish” referring to an organization that gives one wish to dying kids called Augustus’ cigarette shows that whatever
the Genie Foundation. She says that she used her wish, not knowing that he is planning for Hazel makes him
the Phalanxifor bought her some time. Augustus gives her a hard time for nervous and in need of a feeling of
control.
using her wish to go to Disney Land, which he considers cliché. Hazel
explains that she was thirteen. The children playing on the skeleton
metaphorically speak to Hazel and
Augustus’ situation—they are still young,
like the kids playing, yet they are
constantly confronting the issue of death
embodied by the skeleton. The Dutch
themed picnic shows that Augustus has
put a lot of thought into it, suggesting he
really cares about Hazel’s happiness.
On Saturday, Hazel is with her mother at a farmers’ market when her Augustus’ affection for the statue speaks
phone rings and Augustus tells her he is at her house. When Hazel gets to his philosophy about life and death,
home, she sees Augustus sitting on the front steps with a bouquet of orange like the cigarettes and heroic video
tulips. He asks her if she wants to go on a picnic. Augustus and Mr. games he likes the act of confronting
Lancaster begin talking about basketball and Hazel goes inside with her death. Subconsciously, Augustus’
decision to bring Hazel to Amsterdam is
mother. Mrs. Lancaster asks Hazel if she wants to put the flowers in a vase,
his attempt to do something heroic for
but Hazel wants to put them in her room because they are her flowers, not her, something that he will be
meant for everyone in the house. remembered for.
When Hazel comes back from her room, her parents are talking Although she doesn't know it, Hazel pulls
to Augustus about his recovery from cancer. He tells them he has been NEC away instinctively because she doesn't
for 14 months. Mr. Lancaster tells Augustus that he should know that Hazel want her death to hurt Augustus. She
feels like accepting is setting Augustus up
is still sick, and that she needs to take it easy. Hazel emerges and intercepts
to get hurt, but Augustus has more
the conversation, and they leave. experience with death than Hazel
because of his relationship with Caroline
Augustus drives because he wants their destination to be a surprise. As he Mathers, so he knows on a deeper level
jolts on the breaks, Hazel feels the tightness in her lungs and can’t help but what he is getting into.
think of the PET scan she needs to get. As they approach their destination,
Hazel thinks of the cemetery down the road. Augustus pulls out
a cigarette and puts it in his mouth. Augustus cryptically asks what they are
missing in Indianapolis. Hazel lists a number of things, finally landing on
the fact that Indianapolis is missing culture. Just then, they arrive at a park
behind the museums where a bunch of artists had make sculptures. Her mother is concerned that Augustus
and Hazel are moving too quickly with
They sit before a large sculpture of a skeleton. There are kids climbing on their relationship, that Augustus is still a
it, jumping from bone to bone. Augustus tells Hazel it is called Funky stranger to them and his offer is too
Bones, created by Joep Van Leishout. Hazel notes that the name sounds much. Hazel, like a good teenager, then
Dutch. Augustus tells her it is as, just like the name on the jersey he is manipulates her mom to get what she
wants (though like the best
wearing. He produces an orange blanket, a pint of orange juice, and some
manipulators, she does it with the truth).
sandwiches. Hazel asks what all of the orange is about, and Augustus
replies that it's the national color of the Netherlands. Once again, Hazel’s health gets in the
way of her ability to seize the
They eat their sandwiches, watching the kids play on the opportunities other young people take
sculpture. Hazel begins to suspect that Augustus has something up his for granted. Her mother’s familiarity with
sleeve that involves Amsterdam, but she feels to awkward to ask him. her cancer shows how devoted Mrs.
Lancaster is to her daughter, and her
Augustus tells Hazel that he loves the sculpture because its composition
worry about Mr. Lancaster shows that
makes it irresistible for kids to play on. Eventually, Augustus begins a she is concerned for the wellbeing of the
“soliloquy” about the shame of using one’s “wish” on a theme park. He entire family.
reveals that he never used his wish, and the Genies have agreed to send him
Hazel finally consciously realizes the
and Hazel to Amsterdam.
reason she pulled away from Augustus is
because she does not want to cause
Hazel is elated, but as Augustus reaches out to touch her face, her body
harm. She feels like she is using Augustus
tenses and she recoils. She tells him he really doesn't have to use his wish for the trip, and eventually she will just
to take her to Amsterdam. Augustus tells her that he really does have to harm him. Because she does not have
take her because she is his wish. experience with love she cannot
understand why Augustus would want to
be with her, or love her, despite her
health. Kaitlyn’s advise helps Hazel, even
though the stakes in Kaitlyn’s breakup
with her boyfriend are much lower than
Hazel, who will likely have to leave
Augustus because of her death.
CHAPTER 6
Reading the posts on Caroline’s wall just
When Hazel gets home from the picnic, she explains that the Dutch reinforces her belief that she will harm
themed date had led up to Augustus’ proposal to take her to Amsterdam. others through her death. Hazel begins to
associate love with pain, which makes
Her mother says she can’t—it’s too much to accept from a stranger. Hazel
her hesitant to engage in her relationship
says that Augustus is not a stranger, that he is easily her second-best with Augustus.
friend. When her mother asks is Kaitlyn is her first best friend, Hazel says
that her mother is her first best friend. Her mother tells her she will have
to check with Dr. Maria. Hazel attempts to calm herself by
reminding herself that worrying won’t
Dr. Maria says that the only way Hazel can go is if an adult goes with her. help, but the reality of her situation
Hazel asks her mother to go, knowing that her mother is informed about makes being with her family in the
her cancer more than her father, and even more than some oncologists. moment difficult.
Her mother says that she couldn’t because Hazels father would be too
Hazel’s health interferes with her ability
lonely, but Hazel assures her that he would love a few days with the house to engage with her family. Her mother
to himself. accuses her of acting “teenager” even
though she has been telling Hazel to be a
At home, Hazel goes upstairs to lie down. As she rests, she thinks about teenager. This moment shows the way in
the picnic with Augustus, focusing on the moment he tried to touch her which her parents want her to mature,
and she tensed up. Hazel realizes that she wants to kiss him, but she feels but also want to hold onto her youth—a
guilty because of the fact that he is taking her to Amsterdam, and that time in which she was healthy. Hazel's
seems prostitutional; like she is kissing him in exchange for the trip. She metaphor of a grenade to describe
herself in relation to others speaks to her
then realizes that his gesture was not even sexual. She decides to
belief that letting people get close to her
call Kaitlyn for advice. Kaitlyn remembers him and goes on about how will cause them harm.
gorgeous he is and how Hazel would be crazy to turn down his advances.
Kaitlyn tells Hazel about a boy that dumped her preemptively because he
didn't see their relationship going anywhere. After hearing this, Hazel
realizes that she pulled away from him because she was afraid to hurt Hazel is aware of the ways in which her
him. health is hard on her parents and feels
guilty about it. Like most teenagers,
Hazel experiences existential dilemmas
surrounding the meaning of her life, but
After hanging up with Kaitlyn, she goes online and looks up Caroline her situation makes these musings
Mathers. She realizes that Caroline looks like her. Thousands of people particularly difficult because she is facing
had left condolences for Caroline after she died. She reads through some her impermanence in a very real way.
of the messages, which read that her friends miss her so much, that they
were all wounded in her battle, and that they love her.
Because of her health, Hazel feels unable
to engage in a normal relationship with
Augustus. The very nature of her
Her parents call her down for dinner, and at the table Hazel begins feeling condition prevents her from partaking in
pain in her shoulder and head. She tries to focus on the moment, and this natural part of coming of age.
reminds herself that imaging the cancer in different parts of her body
would not change the reality of what was really going on inside of her.
Because Augustus is a cancer survivor
Hazel’s parents notice that something is not right with her and begin to and someone who has been in a
ask if she is okay. Mr. Lancaster asks her if she is excited about relationship with someone who has
Amsterdam, and she replies yes, but is too concerned with her health to passed from cancer, he understands her
concern. Their interaction with “okays”,
engage with them. Hazel is short with them, and Mrs. Lancaster says she
however, suggests that Augustus will
is acting very “teenagery”. Hazel responds by saying that is what her continue to pursue Hazel, even though
mother has wanted. Her mother says they are happy she is becoming a she is unable to see their relationship
teenager and going on dates, which Hazel refutes. When her mother again without thinking about her death.
asks what is wrong, Hazel says she is like a grenade, and at some point she
By handing Hazel her childhood stuffed
is going to blow up and harm those around her. animal, her mother attempts to hold
onto a part of Hazel’s youth. Her parents
continue to support her, and her father
tells her that she hasn’t had the
opportunity to love, so she can’t
She goes into her room and tries to read, but she can hear her parents understand the way they feel about her
talking downstairs. She hears Mr. Lancaster say that her situation “kills as a daughter. By using the word
"apocalyptic" to describe her pain, Hazel
him”. She puts on some music to block out her parents and goes back
suggests that she feels close to the end of
to Caroline Mathers’ tribute page. The comments on the page her life.
make Hazel worry that after she dies she will only be remembered for her
heroic fight against cancer, not about the life she had lived. She also sees
posts from Caroline’s parents about how the brain tumor had changed
Caroline’s personality.
Hazel returns once again to the moment in the park with Augustus. She
realizes that she tensed up because to be with him meant she would
inevitable hurt him. As he reached out for her, she knew intuitively that
she was committing a violent act against him, just because of the reality of
her condition.
Hazel sends a text to Augustus apologizing because she can’t kiss him. He
texts back “okay” to which she responds with an “okay”. He tells her to
stop flirting with him. Augustus texts back moments later telling her that
he understands. She pictures Augustus at her funeral, and texts “sorry”.
Later, as Hazel tries to go to sleep her parents come into her room. Her
mother grabs Bluie from the shelf and hands the stuffed animal to Hazel.
They reassure her that she is not a grenade. Mr. Lancaster tells her that
she is amazing, and that she can’t understand the way they love her
because she does not have children. He tells her that the joy she gives Although Hazel is inexperienced with many
them is greater than the sadness of her cancer, and then jokingly says that adult issues, such as love and life, she is very
familiar with pain, as shown by her knowledge
if she brought them more trouble than joy they’d drop her off at the of how to cope with it. By attempting to enter
orphanage. After her parents leave, she cuddles up with Bluie and falls a place before the big bang, she attempts to
asleep until 4am when she awakens with an “apocalyptic pain fingering find a place before consciousness, which she
earlier related to death. Even though she is
out from the unreachable center of [her] head.” courageous, with the pain she experiences,
death would be an easier option.
Hazel takes another nap, and when she wakes up she finds a letter
from Lidewij saying that their trip to Amsterdam was all set up. Hazel
calls her mother into the room. Mrs. Lancaster appears wearing a towel,
and says that she was just trying to take a bath for five minutes. Hazel
asks her to call the Genies and tell them the trip is off. Her mother then
reveals that the trip is still on, but she was going to wait until her father The outcomes of the different group
got home to tell her. Hazel is ecstatic, and texts Augustus. She is thrilled members show the challenges and
tragedies faced by these young people on
that if she can just stay alive for a week she will finally find out what
a daily basis. It's only been a short time
happens after the end of An Imperial Affliction. She whispers to her lungs, since Hazel went to the support group
“Keep your shit together.” last, but a lot has happened among the
members. Isaac’s arrival with his mother
shows his new dependence now that he
is blind, and the loss of Monica. Hazel
also gets another glimpse of how much
Augustus cares for her here.
When Hazel and her mother arrive at Augustus’ house, they get out of the Hazel admires Augustus’ decision to eat a
burger as it shows their mutual refusal to
car and go to the front door. Before they can knock, they hear someone
think inside the box. The attendants
crying inside. Hazel realizes it is Augustus, and Mrs. arrival with the new tank makes Hazel
Lancaster immediately turns her back toward the car. Hazel texts the center of attention, highlighting the
Augustus, who texts back that he just can’t figure out what to wear. way that she is different than the other
people in the waiting area. When
At the airport they go through security. Hazel chooses to go through the metal Augustus is running late, Hazel assumes
detector, as opposed to getting searched by hand, and takes her nubbins out and the worst—having cancer makes every
pushes her air tank to the side. She notes that walking through the metal detector moment potentially perilous.
was the first time in months she’d gone without her oxygen, and it feels good. She
feels a freedom she hasn’t felt in a long time. After walking through, however, she
feels pain in her lungs and must sit down. Again, Hazel's cancer makes her feel
gawked at and set apart from others, as
At the gate, Augustus notes that Mrs. Lancaster is a particularly punctual a product of those others trying to make
person. She tells Augustus that she isn’t very busy, so that her life easier. Hazel’s tank, nubbins, and
helps. Hazel chimes in saying that she is busy, and quickly realizes that Augustus’ limp, serve as external markers
most of her mother’s time is spent taking care of her, and the rest of her of their difference from others watching.
She projects her concerns around death
time was spent helping her father who was clueless when it came to many
onto the people watching.
things.
Metaphorically, by taking the middle
Augustus leaves to grab a burger. Before he leaves, Hazel notes that she is seat, Hazel is between her adult life and
glad that he does not want scrambled eggs, which are the stereotypical love of Augustus, and her childhood
breakfast food. While he is gone an airline attendant shows up with a embodied by her mother. Hazel’s belief
fresh tank of oxygen for Hazel. She feels embarrassed as the attendant that eggs should not be considered
special because of their fragility mirrors
attaches the new tank, feeling like people are watching her. She texts
her belief that cancer kids should not be
Augustus, but he does not reply. She begins to worry that some treated differently because of their
“Amsterdam-ruining fate” like arrest, injury or mental breakdown has cancer. By admitting that the line wasn’t
struck Augustus. that long, Augustus reveals he is still self-
conscious about his cancer, even though
he always appears confident.
Hazel thanks Augustus for the trip, but immediately thinks that she Hazel is unable to see past the fact that
doesn't want to be a grenade. She immediately realizes that Augustus the trip is a cancer perk, showing the
difficulty she has seeing past her cancer.
knows what he is getting into, and it was his choice. Augustus asks her to Also, the fact that Augustus is wearing his
recite the line she recited on the airplane. She recites a different line funeral suit to dinner shows the way in
about human voices waking the speaker of the poem, and then drowning. which death is always present for them,
and also foreshadows Augustus’
impending death.
Lidewij begins crying and quits her job, but Hazel is not harmed. She Augustus attempts to cheer Hazel up by
telling her he will write the epilogue
reveals that she has spent plenty of time in hospital beds thinking of the
himself, showing the way in which he
most harmful ways to imagine her illness. Hazel steps up to Van Houten, attempts to be a hero, but he doesn't
calling him “douchpants”, and demands to know what happens realize Hazel is not as upset about not
to Anna’s mother. He tells her he can’t tell her because he doesn't know. getting the answers as she is about
Something inside of Hazel wells up, and she smacks the glass of scotch wasting his wish. By “wasting his wish”
from Van Houten’s hand. Van Houten immediately asks for another drink. she feels like she has caused harm, which
is one of her biggest fears.
Hazel tells Van Houten that he promised to tell her, but he only asks her
why she cares so much. Before the altercation can go any Hazel is determined not to let Van
further, Augustus grabs Hazel’s arm and leads her out. Houten to get to her, so she decides to
go. This decision is her way of resisting
On the walk back to the hotel, Augustus apologizes and tells her that he what she feels a normal person with
will write her an epilogue himself. He pulls Hazel into him and lets her cry cancer would do.
into his shirt. Hazel feels guilty that she spent his wish on Van Houten, but Hazel’s expectation of Van Houten as an
Augustus reminds her that she spent it on being with him in Amsterdam. author who would be kind, wise and
As they talk, Lidewij approaches them from behind. insightful, was incorrect, mirroring the
way in which expectations and clichés are
often wrong. He, like Hazel and Augustus,
is ill (emotionally) and his illness has also
When Lidewij catches up to Hazel and Augustus, they notice her mascara separated him from his family,
is running down her face. She invites them to the Anne Frank house. connecting his situation to others in the
Augustus doesn't want to go, but Hazel insists, noting that she doesn't novel.
want to waste her last two days in Amsterdam by letting Van Houten ruin Hazel feels a connection to Anne Frank as
them. a young person whose life is being cut
short. Her connection to Anne Frank, and
the fact that she is still living makes her
feel she owes it to Anne Frank to
As they drive, Lidewij apologizes, telling them that Van Houten is very persevere up the stairs.
sick. She says that she thought his meeting
with Augustus and Hazel would help him. She tells them that Van Houten
is rich because of a family fortune, but he is a disgrace to his family in
America. Lidewij says that his circumstances have made him into an evil
man.
Hazel thinks about Otto not being a
father anymore because she worries
about her mother after she dies. Hazel
Inside the Anne Frank House, Hazel struggles to climb the stairs, but identifies with all of the names that have
perseveres, making it to the attic. As she makes her way up, she feels been forgotten in the book because she
worried that she is holding everyone up below her. Hazel continues feels the possibility of being forgotten. By
through the attic rooms, going up eighteen more steps because she feels pledging to pray for them, she attempts
she owes it to Anne Frank because she was dead and Hazel wasn’t, and to counteract this. This is a philosophical
change for Hazel, who has held a nihilistic
she wanted to see the world that Anne Frank had lived in for years.
philosophy up until this point.
She almost passes out, but finally arrives in the place where Anne Frank
spent years hiding. Lidewij tells Hazel that the only member of the family
who survived was Anne’s father, Otto. Hazel thinks of Otto not being a
father anymore after his children died. At the end of the hall, there is a Augustus’ dream of bringing Nazis to
justice reflects his desire to be
book listing all of the names of the people from the Netherlands who had
remembered for doing something heroic.
died in the Holocaust. Hazel is saddened by the fact that there are Hazel again connects herself to Anne
thousands of names, but nobody remembers those people the way they Frank as a young woman who died early
do Anne Frank. She resolves to pray for those who will not be in life. Although the Anne Frank House is
remembered, noting that she does not need to believe in a “proper and somber in nature, their kiss brings an
omnipotent” God to pray. element of youthful joy to the place,
which is a reminder that during the time
Anne Frank lived in the house there were
happy moments, moments of love, too.
Ant the crowd responds to the positivity
Hazel and Augustus bring to the
melancholy atmosphere.
Hazel goes with Augustus into a room with a video of Otto Frank playing This scene is a major passage for both
in it. Augustus wonders if there are any Nazis still out there he could bring Hazel and Augustus in their coming of
age. Augustus’ concern over his scar
to justice. He says that he and Hazel should team up and fight injustices in
shows that he is self-conscious, but
the world. Hazel turns to Augustus and wants to kiss him. She thinks that Hazel's touching his scar is a gesture that
Anne Frank would like the fact that two young broken people shared their tells him that she accepts him. Their first
love there. Hazel and Augustus begin to kiss. As she kisses him, she notes sexual encounter is complicated, but
that she really likes her body, despite all of its imperfections. As they kiss, since they both understand the struggles
Hazel opens her eyes and realizes other tourists are there. She is afraid of cancer, they laugh it off together. The
moment is both realistic and romantic.
they will be insulted, but they all begin clapping, and shouting “Bravo!”
Part of coming of age is realizing the
reality about the adult world. Hazel had
built up her first sexual experience in her
When they arrive back at the hotel, they go to Augustus’ room together. mind, but found out that it wasn't what
Before undressing, Augustus warns Hazel about the scar on his leg. She she thought it would be. The love letter is
tells him to get over himself, and they crawl into bed together. They Hazel’s way of telling Augustus that she
struggle to get comfortable with one another. Hazel’s oxygen tube makes has accepted his love, and that being
it difficult to get on top of him, and then her shirt gets tangled in it as different does not prevent one from
having normal experiences
Augustus attempts to take it off, but they laugh about it together. Finally
Augustus takes off his pants and his leg. Hazel runs her hand down his
thigh onto the stump. Then they make love.
Hazel notes that the experience was not what she’d thought it would be. It
wasn't particularly painful or ecstatic. There were some problems with
the condom, but beyond that it was slow, patient, and quiet. Hazel and Augustus choose to tell the
Afterward, Augustus falls asleep. Hazel writes him a love letter in which Van Houten story in a humorous way to
avoid ruining their memory of the trip,
she draws a big circle and writes virgins in it. Then she places a little
this idea however, connects to Hazel’s
circle right on its edge with an arrow pointing at it, and writes, “17-year- telling of her story in The Fault in Our
old guys with one leg”. Stars. She has the ability to choose how
to remember Augustus and their time
together.
Hazel explains a typical day with Augustus in the late stages of his cancer. Augustus wants Hazel to have the
She goes over to his house after he has eaten and puked his breakfast. He answers about what will happen to her
family after she dies, but he does not
is no longer muscular and gorgeous, but he still smiles and smokes his
know the answer for the same reason as
unlit cigarettes, and his eyes are still alive. Hazel—they are still living. Augustus'
parents constant stares show the depth
of their sorrow and fear of losing him.
Augustus tells Hazel he wants to write her a sequel to An Imperial Augustus is still attached to the idea of
being remembered after death, but
Affliction, but he is too tired all of the time. Hazel says it is okay, he can
Hazel’s change in perspective lets her see
just tell it to her. Hazel asks about Anna’s mom, but Augustus says he that he will live on through those who
hasn't figured it out yet. Hazel notices his parents are constantly staring at love him, and she feels like that is
him. Augustus tells Hazel he wants to write a memoir so he will survive in enough.
the minds and hearts of “an adoring public”. Hazel asks why he needs the
Augustus’ desire to have the swing set
minds and hearts of others when he has her heart. back shows that now faced with death he
longs for his childhood—when he was
healthy. Augustus’ comment about dying
suggests that he knows he will not
After lunch, Hazel and Augustus go into the back yard. Augustus says he
survive, but his comment while holding
wishes he had Hazel’s childhood swing set they’d given away. He says that Hazel’s hand shows that he doesn't
his nostalgia is so strong he is missing a swing set he never used. Hazel regret the life he's lived.
says that nostalgia is a side effect of cancer, but Augustus corrects her and
says it's a side effect of dying. He grabs her hand and says it is a good life. Like Augustus, his parents long for a time
when he was healthy as shown by the
videos they watch. Augustus has become
completely dependent on them. The
When they go inside, Augustus takes his medication and zones out. description of H and A sleeping in an
His parents watch videos of him as a boy playing basketball. entanglement of tubes and bodies
symbolizes how cancer is intertwined in
Augustus asks to go downstairs, and his parents bring him down their lives and relationship.
there. Hazel and Augustus lay in bed together listening to music.
Eventually they fall asleep in an “entanglement of tubes and bodies.”
Through the video game, Hazel provides
Augustus the opportunity to act
heroically. The encouragement speaks to
When Hazel and Augustus wake up, they play video games together. the idea that even after his death,
Hazel notes that she sucks at video games, which is actually a good Augustus will continue to live on through
Hazel and their love and friendship will
thing because it gives Augustus the opportunity to die beautifully,
continue through her and his other
take bullets for her, and sacrifice himself for a good cause. friends.
Eventually, Augustus’ father comes down and calls Augustus
upstairs for dinner. He and Hazel kiss under an encouragement that
says, “friends are forever”, and she goes home.
CHAPTER 18
One night, Hazel wakes up to her phone ringing. She notices that it
is 2:35am and she immediately thinks Augustus has died. She Her fear before answering the phone
shows the depth of her concern for
answers the phone and is relieved to hear Augustus’ weak voice on Augustus. The fact that Augustus is stuck
the other end. He tells her he is at the gas station, and he has done at the gas station and needs to call for
something wrong with his G-tube and can’t take his medication help shows the extent to which he is
because of it. Hazel says she is calling nine-one-one, but Augustus unable to care for himself anymore.
tells her no. He begins crying. Hazel grabs her oxygen and leaves for Although he wants and tries to do things
on his own, his health makes it
the gas station.
impossible. This helplessness contrasts a
typical coming of age in which an person
As Hazel drives to the gas station she wonders why Augustus had becomes more independent.
gone there in the first place. She thinks maybe he is hallucinating
Augustus has gone from a strong,
because of his medication. When she arrives she finds Augustus
intelligent, and vivacious person, to a sick
sitting in the drivers seat covered in vomit. He shows her his and helpless individual who arouses pity
stomach where the G-tube was attached. His stomach is red, warm, in Hazel. The fact that he wanted to buy
and it looks infected and she needs to call for help. Augustus tells cigarettes shows that he is attempting to
her that he wanted to buy a pack of cigarettes because he lost his feel control over his situation, but the
fact that he failed to buy them shows that
pack. He says he wanted to buy another pack on his own. Hazel
he has finally lost control.
apologizes and calls nine-one-one
While she waits for the ambulance, Hazel looks down at Augustus,
noticing that a “desperate humiliated creature” had replaced the
boy she had fallen in love with. Augustus begins crying and asks Even in his dire situation, Augustus is still
fixated on being remembered for
where his chance to be somebody’s Peter Van Houten, meaning he
something. Hazel apologizes because she
to create something that someone will remember him for. Hazel is mature enough to realize that life
kneels down beside him and apologizes, telling him that she wishes doesn't work that way. By realizing that
life was like the movies, with good guys and bad guys, but cancer is life isn’t like the movies, full of brave
not a bad guy, it just wants to be alive. She promises to get him warriors and dangerous battles, she
suggests that cancer is not good or bad,
his cigarettes. He asks her to read him something, so she recites
but just a fact of life. This change of
William Carlos William’s Red Wheelbarrow. She adds lines to the perception is continued when Hazel
poem for Augustus until the ambulance arrives. recites William Carlos William’s poem,
which is known for its deep focus not on
the heroic but the real world.
CHAPTER 19
When Augustus comes home from the hospital a few days later he is
in worse shape than ever. He is taking more pain medication and he
must sleep upstairs in a hospital bed by the living room window.
At this point, Augustus has lost all self-
One day while Hazel is with him, he points to the laundry basket sufficiency. His comment about his
and tells her that he can see his “last shred of dignity” beside it. dignity shows that he is aware of the loss.
The next day Hazel visits. She does not ring the doorbell, but walks
right in to find Augustus’ family. Augustus’ sisters are there with
their husbands and children. The kids want to know who Hazel is,
and one of the boys says, “Gus has a girlfriend.” One of the boys By walking right in, Hazel shows that she
points to her tank and asks why she has it. She tells them it helps has become an accepted part of the
family. The kids descriptions of her point
her breathe. When she asks if Augustus is asleep, one of the out both her difference and her status as
children says, “no, he’s dying.” Augustus's girlfriend. The boy's comment
about Augustus dying suggests that in
words he understands what's happening,
but for his young mind the reality of it is
still an abstraction.
When she enters the living room, she finds the family sitting
with Augustus. His sisters hug Hazel. One of his sisters is sitting
beside Augustus talking to him as if he were an infant. Hazel says,
“What’s up, Augustus?” trying to model the appropriate way to talk Augustus’ sister treats him differently
now that he is sick. Hazel dislikes this
to him. action because it suggests that the illness
makes him fundamentally different as a
After a while, Augustus wakes up and asks if they can go outside. His person, instead of him being the same
family kneels around him, barraging him with compliments and person who happens to be sick.
questions. When one of his sisters tells Augustus how smart he The family continues to treat Augustus
is, Hazel says that he’s not smart; he’s just good looking. They go back differently based on his cancer. Hazel
and forth, joking about Augustus’ looks and how he literally took pushes back by joking that Augustus is
Hazel’s breath away. Augustus’ dad eventually says enough joking, not good looking, showing the way in
but immediately puts his arm around Hazel and kisses her head. He which it is alright to joke with a sick
person. Augustus’ dad’s gesture shows
tells her that he thanks God every day for her.
Hazel that the family accepts her as one
of their own. Augustus' father's faith in
God has not been shaken by Augustus'
CHAPTER 20 relapse. While Hazel doesn't share his
belief, she can share his love for his son
Hazel states that one of the worst clichés about cancer is that every cancer
and accept his love for her.
kid gets “The Last Good Day”, where the sufferer finds herself in a moment
of reprieve form the pain of cancer. She says that the hardest part of this
cliché is that one can never know what day is the Last Good Day, as opposed Hazel continues to push back against
to just another bearable day. cancer clichés. She seems to think the
cliché of “The Last Good Day” has some
truth to it, but it doesn't matter because
one can never truly enjoy the last good
Hazel takes a day off from visiting Augustus because she is not feeling well day, because one never knows when it
herself. Augustus calls that day and asks Hazel to prepare a eulogy. He tells has arrived. This idea offers another
her he loves her and then hangs up. When Hazel tells her parents that she existential conundrum Hazel confronts in
needs to go see Augustus that night, they tell her that they feel like they the novel.
never see her anymore. Mr. Lancaster takes a hold of her wrist, which In the midst of worrying about Augustus,
makes her feel like a two-year-old. She argues that Mrs. Lancaster was the Hazel forgets about her own poor health
one who didn't want her to be a homebody. She tells her mother that she and gets run down. Her parents also
notice how much energy she is putting
doesn't need her like she used to. She tries to leave, but her father has her
into caring for Augustus, so they try to
wrist. She notes that all she wants is am “old-fashion teenager walkout”, get her to stay home. The scene that
but she is unable to because she can’t breathe. unfolds shows the struggle of a young
person’s demand for independence,
even though they are not completely
ready yet. Her cancer gets in the way of
Hazel eventually goes to her room and writes Augustus’ eulogy. She this process, because she is unable to do
struggles to find the right words, and at 7:40 she realizes she will be late if the things normal teenagers can do, like
she doesn't leave. As she tries to leave, her father tells her she cannot leave storm out of the room.
without his permission. She tells him Augustus wanted her to write a
Again, Hazel’s health and situation with
eulogy, and when he is dead she will be home every night. After this, her Augustus makes her coming of age
father is quiet, and she leaves. different than a normal teenager’s. While
a normal teenager’s parent might have
At the church, Hazel waits for the elevator. When she reaches the bottom been more authoritative in this situation,
floor, she finds the support group chairs arranged as usual, but as she walks Hazel is leaving for a serious reason, and
in she only sees Augustus, thin and sitting at the center of the circle of uses this as leverage to get her dad to
chairs in his wheelchair. Isaac is there, standing at the lectern. Augustus comply.
tells Hazel that he wanted to attend his own funeral, and asks her then if Augustus' desire to attend his own
she will speak at his real funeral. He says he hopes he can attend his funeral funeral resembles Hazel’s desire to know
as a ghost, but just in case wanted to have a pre-funeral. what happens at the end of An Imperial
Affliction—he wants to know what will
happen after he dies. Augustus is mostly
concerned with the question of whether
he will be remembered, and he believes
listening to Isaac and Hazel’s eulogies will
Isaac begins his eulogy by saying that Augustus is a “self-aggrandizing give him insight into whether he will be
bastard.” He notes how Augustus was constantly thinking metaphorically remembered.
about everything in his life, and how he was so vain. He finishes by saying
that even if scientists could five him his eyesight back, he wouldn't want it
because he’d have to see a world without Augustus, but then having made Even in does
Hazel the somber
not environment,
want the deep Isaac
his rhetorical point, he would take the eyes because they would probably relationship she had with Augustus to his
uses humor to get through the pain of be
eulogy. His with
interfered comment about who
by people x-ray didn’t
vision
include x-ray vision to see through girls shirts. After he is finished, shows know
the way
really himinaswhich like Her
she did. a typical
post
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interested
attempts truth inabout
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Isaac notes that only Augustus would edit his own eulogy. even though
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andis blind.
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interested to know
in her philosophy, how
because
Then Hazel takes her turn at the lectern. She says that she will not share he will
they are be
moreremembered
interested in after death.
assuaging
their love story because it should die with them. She turns to math, stating Augustus’
their own personality continuesAugustus.
pain than honoring to show
that there are infinite numbers between 0 and 1, and that there is an even through,
Van despiteidea
Houten’s his illness, which pushes
that writing buries
larger set of infinite numbers between 0 and 2. She says she is thankful back against
returns to the theideacancerthatclichés
there Hazel
is a
hates.
difference between a representation of a
for each little infinity she was able to spend with Augustus.
thing and the actual thing. This idea
The fact that Hazel wants to keep the
reflects the reason why Hazel gets upset
love story to herself shows how special it
with the posts, which “bury” the real life
is to her. Instead, she turns toward Van
CHAPTER 21 Augustus lived.
Houten’s strange ramblings on Zeno’s
paradox to think about their relationship.
Eight days after the pre-funeral Augustus dies. His mom By thinking about the infinities between
calls Hazel at 3:30 am to tell her Augustus is gone. Her parents two number, Hazel is able to make the
come in and hold her, and as they do, Hazel knows that they are most out of the time they have had
terrified that they will experience her death soon too. She together.
calls Isaac who curses God, and when she hangs up with him, she
realizes there is no one else to call, and the only person she wants
In the despair of having lost Augustus,
to talk to about Augustus’ death is Augustus himself. Hazel notes
Hazel can’t help but think of her own
that the last days they’d spent together were in recollection, but death and the way it will impact her
now the even the pleasure of remembering is gone because there is parents. Isaac curses God, which depicts
no one to remember with. his anger, but also reveals that he has a
belief in God. Hazel begins to experience
Hazel remembers the nurses in the hospital asking her to rate her the loss of the person she loved. In this
moment, she realizes she is losing more
pain on a scale of 1 to 10. One time when she was experiencing than just Augustus, but also all of the
immense pain that could have been a ten, she held up nine fingers. memories they shared.
Later the nurse told her she was a fighter because she called a ten a
nine. She says that she was saving the ten, and that Augustus’ death
was it. She describes the pain as a waves tossing her against the Through her description of the pain as a
rocks again and again, leaving her face up in the water, un- 10 on the scale, Hazel reveals that losing
drowned. Augustus is the worst pain she’s ever
experienced. Hazel uses the image of
drowning to describe the pain she feels,
Later, she calls Augustus’ phone and lets it ring until it goes to continuing the symbol of water as it
voicemail. After the message begins recording, she listens to the relates to Hazel’s suffering. It also
silence wishing for the secret “third-space” she used to experience connects to Augustus’ last name, Waters,
while talking to him. She goes on his wall page where people are because he has become the source of her
greatest pain.
already writing messages to him. The messages from healthy
people frustrate her. One of the people who posted wrote, “I bet you The silence as she wishes for their “third
are already playing ball in heaven.” Hazel imagines Augustus’ witty space” metaphorically represents the
responses to the post, and notes that the posts say more about the fact that Augustus is gone and the
emptiness Hazel feels because of it. The
people posting them than they do Augustus.
messages frustrate her because healthy
people are unable to understand what
dying of cancer is really like. Hazel
suggests people are posting for their own
sake to feel better about themselves,
rather than out of a true love or
understanding of Augustus.
Augustus’ parents call Hazel to tell her the funeral will be in five
days. She doesn't want to go because she imagines the room full of
people who didn't really know Augustus, but she knows she has to
go. After the phone call she goes back to his wall and writes a post
about the way in which Augustus had not died after a lengthy battle
with cancer, but had died from a battle with human consciousness. She waits for people to respond,
but nobody does. As she waits, she remembers Van Houten’s letter, in which he states, “writing does
not resurrect. It buries.”
CHAPTER 22
When Hazel arrives at the Literal Heart of Jesus Church for Augustus’ funeral, she sits in back of the visitation
room. She notices that there are about eighty chairs, but one third of them are empty. She watches people walk
to his coffin, some cry, others just say something to him. Each person touches the coffin, too afraid to touch his
body. Hazel notes that no one wants to touch the dead.
When Augustus’ parents notice Hazel, they shuffle over and both give her a big hug. She notices they both look
old and tired. Augustus’ mother tells Hazel that Augustus really loved her,
which Hazel already knows. As she talks to them, she says it feels like
By waiting in the visitation room, Hazel reveals
stabbing and being stabbed. When Augustus’ parents begin talking to Mrs.
that she feels alienated at the funeral. The
Lancaster and Mr. Lancaster, Hazel decides to go to Augustus’ coffin. empty chairs suggest that even though
Augustus wanted to be remembered and
As she approaches the coffin, Hazel pulls the oxygen tube off and hands it famous, he will never get that wish. The
to Mr. Lancaster. As she walks to the coffin, she tells her lungs quit people touch the coffin, but are afraid to touch
Augustus body. The fact of her own impending
complaining, that they are strong and can do this. When she death makes Hazel notice this and adds to her
sees Augustus, she notices that his hair is parted and his face plasticized, sense of alienation.
which he would have hated, but she knows it is “[her] lanky, beautiful
Hazel notices the toll Augustus’ death has
Gus.” He is wearing the same suit he wore to Oranjee.
taken on his parents, reminding her of
her own fears for her parents after she
Hazel kneels beside his coffin and places her hand on Augustus’ chest. She
dies. The stabbing pain stems from this
says, “I love you present tense,” and that it is okay that he has died, idea, she is suffering due to Augustus'
although she is not sure whether he can hear her. She opens her clutch death, but she is also going to cause pain
purse and pulls out a pack of cigarettes. She then slips them into the by her own death.
coffin. She whispers to his body that he can light them; she won’t mind.
By taking the cannula out, Hazel shows
that she wants to see Augustus for the
last time without the symbol of their
When the funeral starts, the minister walks to the coffin and talks about illness between them, as their love was
not based on their shared illness, but on
how courageous Augustus was during his fight with cancer, and how his
the people who they are. The suit works
valiant battle had inspired everyone in the room. When the minister says, to show that their love always existed in
“in heaven, Augustus will finally be healed and whole,” Hazel lets out a the duality between life and death.
sigh of disgust. Immediately afterward, she hears a voice behind her say,
By telling Augustus that she loves him
“what a load of horse crap, eh, Kid?” She turns to find Peter Van
"present tense," Hazel refuses to "bury
Houten sitting behind her. When the minister says it’s time to pray, Hazel him". She keeps the promise she made to
hears Van Houten say, “We gotta fake pray.” Hazel tries to forget about Augustus at the gas station to get him
Van Houten and pray for Augustus. cigarettes, but in a metaphorical sense,
the cigarettes are a gesture to let
Augustus know that he doesn’t need to
worry anymore.
The minister then calls up Isaac to deliver his eulogy. In the eulogy, Isaac
talks about a visit he received from Augustus in the hospital just after Hazel is disgusted by the minister’s words
having his eye removed. When Augustus arrived, he said, “I have because they posit that Augustus was not
whole while living and that he is better
wonderful news! You are going to live a good and long life filled with great
off in heaven. Hazel does not believe in
and terrible moments that you cannot even imagine yet!” After telling the heaven, and knows how cancer clichés
story, Isaac is unable to go on, so he sits down. are harmful to those with cancer. Hazel is
not excited to see Van Houten because of
the way he treated them in Amsterdam,
she would rather pray to something she
doesn’t believe in, than acknowledge Van
Houten’s presence.
As Hazeleulogy
Isaac’s looks not
intoonly
the mirror
shows she the way
has an in
After another one of Augustus’ friends talks about how Augustus was a which Augustus
existential awakening
was a dedicated
about thefriend,adult
great basketball player and teammate, the minister calls Hazel up to but that he awakening
world—an was a person thatwho is thought
part of
speak. He says, “now we will hear a few words from Augustus’ special about life
coming of with
age. aHerdifferent
understanding
perspective is
than most.
nihilistic, stating
He wasthat there
excitedis nofor joy
Isaacin
friend, Hazel.” His choice of words bothers Hazel, so when she gets up she
because
being an headult,
hadwhichthe opportunity
is undoubtedly to
tells the minister, “I was his girlfriend.” She begins by reciting one of the experience
based in herlife in
suffering
new ways, fromwhich
Augustus
is how
encouragements that hangs in Augustus’ house, “without pain, we Augustus
death. Theconfronted
loss of lovehis cancer
is partandof the
her
couldn’t know joy.” She continues her Eulogy, spouting “bullshit loss of his leg.
experience in coming of age, and without
encouragements” for the audience, as she has decided funerals are for the any additional experience after losing
Hazel wants
love, she is it to with
left be clear that sheview
a nihilistic was hisof
living. girlfriend because that's what they were.
life.
Cancer did not make their relationship as
When the speakers finish, the congregation says a prayer for Augustus. boyfriend
Mr. Lancaster andsuggests
girlfriend
that somehow
now that
While they pray, Hazel remembers their conversations in Amsterdam different
Hazel has or
experienced
"special." love
Hazelandusestheone
deathof
when Augustus had told her that he didn't believe in mansions and harps thea loved
of encouragements
one, she is able fromto understand
Augustus’
in heaven, but he did believe in something with a capital S. Hazel can not parents,
how theyandfeeleven
aboutthough
her, sheand thinks
how they
it is
quite convince herself that they will be together again. She knows that she "bullshit,"
will surviveshe
her death.
has begun to see some
truth in it. The pain that she experiences
will go on accumulating loves and losses, and Augustus will not. She
through Augustus’ death allows her to
realizes in that moment that Augustus has once and for all “been demoted develop new perspectives.
from haunted to haunter.”
Although Augustus believed in
They leave the church and head toward the cemetery to something after death, Hazel does not
bury Augustus. Hazel tries to talk her way out of going; she doesn't want believe in an afterlife or feel Augustus’
to see Augustus parents in pain, or her own parents knowing that they presence in any way. Hazel is more
concerned with whether life has
will bury her someday. Mrs. Lancaster, however, insists they go.
meaning, and if so, what it means. By
After the burial is over, Van Houten approaches Hazel and asks if he can calling him the haunter, however, Hazel
speaks to the fact that he will continue to
hitch a ride out of the cemetery. Inside the car he introduces himself as
haunt Hazel for the remainder of her life,
“Novelist Emeritus and Semiprofessional Disappointer.” Van Houten takes living on in her memory.
out a bottle of whiskey and takes a swig. He offers it to Mr. Lancaster, who
refuses, and then hands it to Hazel to takes a swig, despite her mothers Hazel wants to avoid facing the fact that
her own death will damage her parents,
scolding.
so she resists going and seeing Augustus’
Van Houten tells Hazel that he and Augustus corresponded after their trip. parents in pain.
owes a debt to everyone who no longer gets to be a person, or who hasn’t Hazel and Isaac listen to the Hectic Glow,
been born yet. Augustus' favorite band, as a way to
remember him and cope with his death. She
realizes the permanence of his death as she
realizes he will never hear the album.
When Hazel gets home from the support group she argues with her
As Hazel attempts to share in the group,
mother about eating. Mrs. Lancaster says she can’t just stop eating she realizes that her stock answer is no
because Augustus died. She tries to walk away, but her mother grabs her, longer sufficient, which suggests she is
telling her she needs to eat to stay healthy. Hazel lashes back, saying that having a change of perception with
she is not healthy, and she is dying. She tells her mother she is going to regard to life and death. She begins to
suspect that the meaning of life is to
leave her alone in the world and there is nothing she can do about it. Her
recognize the universe and remember
mother realizes that Hazel heard her say that to Mr. Lancaster in the and honor those who are no longer here
hospital. She apologizes and tells Hazel that even when she dies she will or haven’t been born yet. This moment
still be her mother. She asks Hazel if she has stopped loving Augustus shows a drastic shift in her philosophy,
since he died. Hazel shakes her head no. and the idea that living life may be the
meaning of life.
The conversation continues and Hazel tells them that she is worried that
her parents will not have a life after she dies. Her mother tells her that she Her family continues to celebrate
obscure holidays, viewing them (like
is studying to be a social worker; she wants to counsel families dealing
Hazel’s half birthdays) as an opportunity
with cancer. Hazel thinks it is a great idea. She begins crying, and thinks to celebrate with Hazel while she is still
of Anna’s mom. Later, while watching television as a family, Hazel asks if alive.
they will stay together after she dies. They swear to God they will stay
The ruins suggest that sometimes
together. representations of reality can assume their
own sense of reality, which mirrors the fact
that An Imperial Affliction represents Van
Houten’s experience with his daughter’s
death. Her comment about the children
suggests that she still believes the universe is
CHAPTER 25 indifferent to humans, but her dedication to
noticing the universe provides some meaning
The next morning, Hazel wakes up in a panic because she had a dream in to her life. Her comment at the end suggests
that she is open to other possibilities with
which she was without a boat and in the middle of a huge lake, regard to life and the universe.
surrounded by water. Her mother comes in with the phone, telling
her Kaitlyn was on the other line. Kaitlyn apologizes to Hazel for her bad Hazel still does not feel any connection to
Augustus in the afterlife, but she does
luck. Kaitlyn asks what it was like being in love with Augustus. Hazel tells put the flag in the ground in attempt to
her it was interesting. Hazel tells Kaitlyn he was not perfect. Kaitlyn asks make him appear heroic, showing that
if she has any letters from him. Hazel says no, but there may be some his legacy is still important to her and she
writing somewhere out there. When Hazel tells Kaitlyn about the missing wants to be a part of sharing it while she
pages, Kaitlyn suggests maybe they weren’t written for her, but sent is still alive.
to Van Houten. Hazel tells Kaitlyn she is a genius, and hangs up. By not having anything to add, Van Houten—
who in the past has always had some
She writes an email to Lidewij, asking her if any writing pretentious and cryptic thing to say—suggests
from Augustus had arrived. Lidewij writes back, telling Hazel that she will that Augustus has said everything he needs to
say on his own in his letter. Van Houten’s
be going to Van Houten’s house in the morning to look for the letter. She decision suggests he has had arepresents
change in
Hazel’s dream symbolically
wonders why Augustus had written to Van Houten and not her before he perception
the way she about
feelsAugustus,
about the Hazel,
loss his
of
died, but she figures he was asking Van Houten for a sequel. It makes daughter, and his resentment toward their
Augustus and the deterioration of her
cancer.
sense to Hazel that he would use is terminality to make her dream come own health. Water is a symbol of her
true. suffering,
The fact thatandhe the
wrotefact
thethat
letterthere is no
despite his
health
boat suggests
stands as athat
true heroic
there act.
is no
Van escape
Houten
did
fromnother
feel suffering.
the need to When
help Augustus
Hazel write
tells
Hazel’s
Kaitlyneulogy, showing that
that Augustus he feels
was not Augustus
perfect,
As Hazel waits for Lidewij to respond, she thinks about Amsterdam and words are sufficient in telling Hazel how he
she avoids glorifying him because of his
feels about her. Augustus’ words suggest a
misses the future she knew she would never have with Augustus. She cancer, maintaining the fact that he was
change of heart during his death. He realizes
realizes she will never see the ocean again from an airplane, and that the just a normal
that leaving person—a
a mark normal
on the world out ofperson
vanity
sheactually
is loved—who
a violenthappened
act, but someto die of a
of these
ambitions of all humans are never satisfied by dreams coming true,
common
marks illness.
are unavoidable, and done out of love.
because there are always thoughts that if might have been better and is
possible to do over. Because Augustusthan
Hazel is different wasAugustus,
so intent on
as she
does not
leaving care about
behind a legacy being remembered.
and being a hero,
Augustus
it makes sensebeginstotoHazel
realize
thatthat
hebeing
would loved
use
deeply is more important that
his cancer as a way to get Van Houten being loved
to
widely.
write a He suggests
sequel. He that
usedpain
his is unavoidable
dying wish to
in
getlife,
Hazelbuttoa Amsterdam,
scar left by loving someone
but because it
While Hazel is pondering these ideas, Mrs. Lancaster comes into the room deeply is warranted, and necessary.
didn't come off well, it makes sense that His
and tells her that it’s Bastille Day. She pulls two French flags from behind wish to leave a mark on the world is fulfilled
he would continue on his mission.
because he left a mark on Hazel that she will
her back and begins waving them. Her mother tells her that she has
carry forward, allowing him to live on after
scheduled a picnic with her and Mr. Lancaster. death. Through Augustus’ letter, Hazel is
Hazel
able tobegins to realize
communicate withthe himpermanence
after death
The day is beautiful, and Hazel and Mrs. Lancaster meet Mr. Lancaster at and feel his presence,
of Augustus death aswhich she ismisses
something
the
the park. They sit beside “the ruins”, a rectangular model of Roman ruins she
future she will never have with since
has been struggling with him. Shehis
in the middle of the field. Hazel notes that the model ruins have been death.realizes
also By tellingthathimher
she own
is happy thatwill
death he
left a scar on
prevent herher,
fromshows that she recognizes
experiencing many
neglected, and have sense become actual ruins. She notes
the importance
things. of pain in
Yet her cancer andliving
thelife fully and
impending
that Augustus and Van Houten would have liked them. Hazel hears the her acceptance
death she facesthatalsothose
giveswhoherlove her will
clear-eyed
screams of children playing, and notes they are learning to live in a world feel the
insight. same way about her as she does
not made for them. Her father asks her if she misses playing. She tells him about Augustus.
sometimes she does, but she is more focused on noticing every little thing. As she watches, she suddenly thinks,
“who am I to say that these things are not forever?”
After lunch they go visit Augustus’ grave. Hazel notes that she still doesn't feel like Augustus is present, but she
takes a French flag and puts it in the ground at the foot of the grave. She thinks maybe passersby will think he
was a member of the French Foreign Legion or some other heroic and important figure.
That evening, Lidewij emails Hazel. She tells Hazel that they found a letter from Augustus, and she
convinced Van Houten to read it by saying that he owed it to his daughter to read a letter from another dead
child. Van Houten told Lidewij to send it to Hazel; he had nothing to add. Lidewij scanned and attached the
letter in the email.
When Hazel opens the attachment, she realizes by Augustus’ handwriting and the changing color of the ink that
he had written it over the course of several days in varying degrees of consciousness. The letter is from
Augustus to Van Houten. In the letter he asks Van Houten to help him write a eulogy for Hazel. He writes that
everyone wants to leave a mark on the world, but what bothers him is that he will be another unremembered
person. But the problem with leaving a mark is that the marks humans leave are scars. In an attempt to survive
our own deaths, we cause wreckage.
Augustus then writes that Hazel is different; she does not care about being remembered. What’s important is
that she was loved deeply, and did little harm to other people. He thinks that Hazel is a hero because she notices
things and pays attention to the universe. He reveals that he snuck into her room while she was in the hospital,
and while there, he wished she would die before him so she wouldn't have to be harmed by knowing he was
going to die, but his death had left a scar. He finishes by saying that you don't get to choose whether you get
hurt in this world, but you do have some say in who you get hurt by. He says he is happy that he chose Hazel,
and hopes that Hazel is happy too. The novel ends with her telling Augustus that she is happy with her choice.