The Perfect Wife by JP Delaney
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You’re having that dream again, the one where you and Tim are
in Jaipur for Diwali. Everywhere you look, every doorway and
window, there are lanterns and candles, firecrackers and fairy
lights. Courtyards have become flickering pools of flame, their
entrances surrounded by intricate designs of coloured rice paste.
Drums and cymbals throb and sizzle. Surrendering to the din
and confusion, you surge with the crowd through a market, the
stallholders urging platters of sweets on you from every side.
On an impulse you stop at a stall where a woman decorates skin
with beautiful Hindi patterns, the smell of sandalwood from her
brushes mingling with the acrid, savoury cordite from the fire-
crackers and the aroma of kaaju, roasting cashew nuts. As she
paints you, deft and quick, a cluster of young men dance past,
their faces painted blue, their muscular torsos bare, then they
come back, dancing just for you, their expressions deadly serious.
And then, the final touch, she paints a bindi on your forehead,
right between your eyes, telling you how the scarlet dot marks
you out as married, a woman with all the knowledge of the world.
‘But I’m not,’ you protest, almost pulling away, fearful you’re
going to offend some local sensibility, and then you hear Tim’s
laugh and see the box he produces from his pocket and, even
before he goes down on one knee, right here in the midst of all
this noise and mayhem, you know this is it, he’s really going to
do it, and your heart overflows.
‘Abbie Cullen,’ he begins, ‘ever since you erupted into my life,
I’ve known we have to be together.’
And then you’re waking up.
Every part of you hurts. Your eyes are the worst, the bright
lights searing into your skull, the ache in your brain connecting
with the stiffness in your neck, soreness all the way down your
spine.
Machines beep and whirr. A hospital? Were you in an accident?
You try to move your arms. They’re stiff – you can barely bend
your elbows. Painfully, you reach up and touch your face.
Bandages encase your neck. You must have been in an accident
of some kind, but you can’t remember it. That happens, you tell
yourself groggily. People come round from crashes not remem-
bering the impact, or even having been in a car. The important
thing is, you’re alive.
Was Tim in the car as well? Was he driving? What about Danny?
At the thought that Danny or Tim might have been killed, you
almost gasp, but you can’t. Some change in the beeping machine,
though, has alerted a nurse. A blue hospital uniform, a woman’s
waist, passes at eye level; she’s adjusting something, but it hurts
too much to look up at her.
‘She’s up and running,’ she murmurs.
‘Thank God,’ Tim’s voice says. So he’s alive, after all. And right
here, by your bedside. Relief floods through you.
Then his face appears, looking down at you. He’s wearing what
he always wears: black jeans, a plain grey T-shirt and a white
baseball cap. But his face is gaunt, the lines deeper than you’ve
ever seen them before.
‘Abbie,’ he says. ‘Abbie.’ His eyes glisten with tears, which fills
you with alarm. Tim never cries.
‘Where am I?’ Your voice is hoarse.
‘You’re safe.’
‘Was there an accident? Is Danny OK?’
‘Danny’s fine. Rest now. I’ll explain later.’
‘Have I had surgery?’
‘Later. I promise. When you’re stronger.’
‘I’m stronger now.’ It’s true: already the pain is receding, the
fog and grogginess clearing from your head.
‘It’s incredible,’ he says, not to you but the nurse. ‘Amazing.
It’s her.’
‘I was dreaming,’ you say. ‘About when you proposed. It was
so vivid.’ That’ll be the anaesthetic, you realise. It makes things
richer. Like that line from that play. What was it? For a moment
the words elude you, but then, with an almost painful effort, a
clunk, you remember.
I cried to dream again.
Again Tim’s eyes fill with tears.
‘Don’t be sad,’ you tell him. ‘I’m alive. That’s all that matters,
isn’t it? We’re all three of us alive.’
‘I’m not sad,’ he says, smiling through his tears. ‘I’m happy.
People cry when they’re happy, too.’
You knew that, of course. But even through the pain and
the drugs, you can tell those aren’t everything’s-going-to-be-all-
right-now tears. Have you lost your legs? You try to move your
feet and feel them – slowly, stiffly – responding under the blanket.
Thank God.
Tim seems to come to a decision.
‘There’s something I have to explain, my love,’ he says, taking
your hand in his. ‘Something very difficult, but you need to know
right away. That wasn’t a dream. It was an upload.’
Your first thought is that you’re hallucinating – that this, not the
dream about him proposing, is the bit that isn’t real. How can
it be? What he’s saying to you now – a stream of technical stuff
about mind files and neural nets – simply makes no sense.
‘I don’t understand. Are you saying something happened to
my brain?’
Tim shakes his head. ‘I’m saying you’re artificial. Intelligent,
conscious . . . but man-made.’
‘But I’m fine,’ you insist, baffled. ‘Look, I’ll tell you three
random things about myself. My favourite meal is salade niçoise.
I was angry for weeks last year because my favourite cashmere
jacket got eaten by moths. I go swimming almost every day—’
You stop. Your voice, instead of reflecting your rising panic, is
coming out in a dull, croaky monotone. A Stephen Hawking voice.
‘The damage to that jacket was six years ago,’ Tim says. ‘I kept
it, though. I’ve kept all your things.’
You stare at him, trying to get your head around this.
‘I guess I’m not doing this very well.’ He pulls a piece of paper
from his pocket. ‘Here – I wrote this for our investors. Maybe
it’ll help.’
FAQ
Q: What is a cobot?
A: ‘Cobot’ is short for ‘companion robot’. Studies with proto-
types suggest the presence of a cobot may alleviate the
loss of a loved one, providing solace, company and emo-
tional support in the aftermath of bereavement.
There’s more, much more, but you can’t focus. You let the sheet
fall from your hand. Only Tim could imagine that a list of factual
questions and answers could help at a time like this.
‘This is what you do,’ you say, remembering. ‘You design artificial
intelligence. But that’s something to do with customer service –
chatbots—’
‘That’s right,’ he interrupts. ‘I was working on that side of it.
But that was five years ago – your memories are all five years out
of date. After I lost you, I realised bereavement was the bigger
need. It’s taken all this time to get you to this stage.’
His words take a moment to sink in. Bereavement. You’ve just
realised what he’s trying to tell you.
‘I don’t believe you,’ you say. You feel weirdly calm, but the
conviction sweeps over you that nothing he’s saying can possibly
be true, that your husband – your brilliant, adoring, but undeni-
ably obsessive husband – has gone stark raving mad. He’s always
worked too hard, driven himself right to the edge. Now, finally,
he’s flipped.
‘I know it’s a lot to take in,’ he says gently. ‘But I’m going to
prove it to you. Look.’
He reaches behind your head and fiddles with your hair. There’s
a sucking sound, a strange, cold sensation, and then your skin,
your face – your face – is peeling away like a wetsuit, revealing
the hard, white, plastic skull underneath.
You can’t cry, you discover. However great your horror, you can’t
shed actual tears. It’s something they’re still working on, Tim
says.
Instead you stare at yourself, speechless, at the hideous thing
you’ve become. You’re a crash-test dummy, a shop-window man-
nequin. A bundle of cables dangles behind your head like some
grotesque ponytail.
He stretches the rubber back over your face, and you’re you
again. But the memory of that horrible blank plastic is seared
into your mind.
If you even have a mind. As opposed to a neural net, or what-
ever he called it.
In the mirror, your mouth gapes silently. You can feel tiny
motors under your skin whirring and stretching, pulling your
expression into a rictus of dismay. And, now you look more
closely, you realise this face is only an approximation of yours,
slightly out of focus, as if a photograph of you has been printed
onto the exact shape of your head.
‘Let’s go home,’ Tim says. ‘You’ll feel better there.’
Home. Where’s home? You can’t remember. Then – clunk – a
memory drops into place. Dolores Street, in central San Francisco.
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Tim’s age, but more thickset, with long, straggly hair, is hurrying
after you.
‘Not now, Mike,’ Tim says warningly.
The man stops. ‘You’re taking her away? Already? Is that a
good idea?’
‘She’ll be happier at home.’
The man’s eyes travel over you anxiously. His security pass,
dangling round his neck, says Dr Mike Austin. ‘She should be
checked out by my psych team, at least.’
‘She’s fine,’ Tim says firmly. He opens a door into a large open-
plan office area. About forty people are sitting at long, communal
desks. No one is pretending to work. They’re all staring at you.
One, a young Asian-looking woman, raises her hands and, ten-
tatively, applauds. Tim glares at her and she quickly looks down
at her screen.
He guides you straight through the office towards a small
reception lobby. On the wall behind the front desk is a colourful
street-art mural framing the words IDEALISM IS SIMPLY LONG-
RANGE REALISM! Something about it seems familiar. You want to
stop, to look more closely, but Tim is urging you on.
Outside, it’s even brighter. You gasp and shield your eyes as
he steers you past a polished steel sign saying SCOTT ROBOTICS,
the initials S and R like two upended infinity symbols, towards
a waiting Prius. ‘The city,’ he tells the driver, while you struggle
to fold your unresponsive limbs into the back. ‘Dolores Street.’
Once you’re both in and the Prius is moving off, his hand
reaches for yours. ‘I’ve waited so long for this day, Abbie.
I’m so happy you’re finally here. That we’re together again,
at last.’
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