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    Di

    arykaSi
    nenhl
    anha
    I
    NSERT1

    Thisi
    satruestoryofay ounggirlwhoshares
    herhar
    dships,joys,
    sor r
    ows,exci
    tements,she
    hasbeenplayed,hurtsomanyt i
    mesi nthe
    nameoflovebutst i
    l
    l bel
    iev
    esinlove.Some
    nameshadbeenchangedf orprotect
    ion.

    Wellmynamei sSi
    nenhlanhl
    a.Iam theonly
    chil
    dathomenotthatmypar entswantedonly
    onechil
    dbutci
    rcumstancesforcedthem and
    theyaccept
    edandmov eon.

    Accordingtomyparents,IWasnotbor
    nalonei
    hadat winbrot
    herbuthepassedawaytwo
    weeksaf t
    erwewer ebornasihavesai
    d
    unfor
    tunatel
    ymymom coul dn'
    tbearot
    herki
    ds.
    Originall
    yI'
    mf rom Mat at
    iel
    e,deepr ur
    alof
    Mat atiel
    ewon' tmentionthevil
    lagenamef or
    protect i
    onandsecur i
    tyreasonsbutmymom
    anddadmov edt oKokstadsincebot hofthem
    wer ewor ki
    ngt herebutwest i
    llvi
    sitmyv i
    ll
    age,
    mygr andparentsandf amilymember saresti
    ll
    therey ouwillgettoknowt hem ast hestory
    unfolds.

    I
    'm averyshyper son,
    don'ttal
    ktoomuchifu
    don'
    tknowmeuwi l
    lthi
    nkthatI'
    mful
    lof
    myselfkant
    i i
    tstheopposite.Athomeweare
    notri
    chneitherpoor.

    Youwil
    llear
    nmor
    eaboutmeast
    hest
    ory
    unf
    olds
    SNE;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    21:
    02]Mca:
    INSERT2

    Wemov edin,intoournewhomebegi nningof


    December ,
    nott hatwewer efr
    om anot hertown
    orwhatwej ustmov edintoabiggerhouset han
    thetwobedr oom housewewer estaying,same
    suburbs.Iwasdonewi t
    hmyexamsonl y
    wait
    ingformyr esul
    ts,welliknewexact lythatI
    passedandhav edisti
    ncti
    ons, t
    heonl yfearthat
    Ihadwast hef earofgoingt oboardingschool ,
    l
    eavingmypar entsbehindandbei ndependent.

    Mypar entssaiditwasf orthebestt hatIgoto


    boardingschoolsot haticanf ocusonmy
    studi
    es,sot heydidapplyformei nsev er
    al
    boardingschoolsbutt hei
    rfir
    stpreferencewas
    Mar i
    azell
    highschool becauseofi tsreputat
    ion
    andthatitwasoutoft own,Ihav ealreadywrot
    e
    t
    heentr
    ytestbegi
    nningofNovembersoIwas
    j
    ustwai
    ti
    ngforthei
    rresponse.

    Onthe5thofDecembermymom cameback
    fr
    om workcar
    ryi
    ngabrownenv el
    op,
    Iwas
    watchi
    ngtvwit
    hAusiNtsoaki
    (Ourhel
    p)shewassohappyandshegr
    eet
    ed
    us

    Mom:
    mol
    weni
    Us:
    ewe
    Me:
    whyar
    eusohappy
    ?
    Mom:
    guesswhat
    ?
    Me:noTotiIdontwannaguess(ohhTot i
    ismy
    motherIcall
    herTotii
    tsf
    rom thewor dKoti
    (Makoti
    )that
    'showmygr andmot hercal
    lsher
    andwhileIwasakidIcouldn'
    tpronounceKoti
    butinst
    eadIcall
    edherToti
    )
    Mom: youhav
    ebeenaccept
    edatMar
    iazel
    lmy
    angel
    Me:
    real
    l
    y?
    Mom:
    youhav
    epassedt
    heent
    ryt
    est
    Me:ofcourseIknew,Ipassed,
    meandMat
    hs
    wearebestbuddiesi
    tlovesmeandIl
    ovei
    ttoo
    andIi
    ntendtokeepitthatway

    Mom: ohhmyangel
    howam Igoi
    ngt
    osur
    viv
    e
    wi
    thoutyou(
    sad)
    Me:
    I'
    m scar
    edt
    ooTot
    i(t
    ear
    yey
    es)

    Shehuggedmeandmydadwal
    kedi
    n

    Dad:
    (hewasworri
    ed)whati
    sgoi
    ngon?Angel
    ar
    eyouk?(Iwascryi
    ng)
    Dad:
    cansomeoneanswermepl
    s
    Mom: (
    smiled)not
    hinghoney,
    ourangelhas
    beenacceptedinMari
    azel
    lIwasjustt
    ell
    ingher
    that
    Dad:whaw,youscar
    edmef orami
    n.Iam so
    proudofyoumyAngel(hecameandhuggedus
    bothandkissedmyhead)

    AusiNtsoaki
    :(cl
    earedhert
    hroat
    )di
    nneri
    s
    ready(
    webr okethehug)

    Wewentt ot
    hedinni
    ng,
    thetablewasset
    al
    ready
    ,weatethenIcl
    ear
    edt hetabl
    eand
    washedthedi
    shes

    Angel
    !(Dadcal
    l
    edmyname,
    theywer
    esi
    tt
    ingi
    n
    thel
    ounge)
    Me:
    I
    Me:
    I'
    m comi
    ng
    Dad:
    comesi
    tonmyl
    ap
    Me:
    hawudaddy
    Dad:
    youar
    est
    il
    lmyl
    i
    ttl
    eAngel
    rit
    e?
    Me:
    (gi
    ggl
    i
    ng)y
    esdaddy
    Mom:wearegoi
    ngoutt
    omor
    rowandwewi
    l
    l
    dosomeshoppi
    ng

    Me:fi
    nebyme(smil
    ed)I'
    m donebei
    ngali
    ttl
    e
    gi
    rli
    nfewweeksIwi
    llbeahighschool
    gir
    l
    Dad:aslongasyoudon'
    tfor
    getthaty
    ouwill
    al
    way sbemylit
    tl
    eangelandrememberNO
    BOYS!!ti
    l
    lugraduat
    ed
    Me:
    (shy
    ly)Idon'
    thav
    eboy
    sdad
    Dad:bet
    terbeother
    wiseIwi
    l
    lhav
    etoar
    restmy
    sel
    fformurder
    Me:
    dad!
    !
    Mom:honeyy
    ekel
    ainganey
    ami
    (leav
    emychi
    l
    d
    al
    one)
    Dad:
    ourchi
    l
    dnoty
    ourchi
    l
    d
    Mom:youbet
    terpr
    epar
    eyour
    sel
    fbecausesoon
    wewi
    l
    lbewelcomingumkhweny
    ana

    Dad:
    (ser
    iousf
    ace)noti
    nmyhousedear

    welaughedathi
    m,hewassoser
    ious.Ist
    ood
    upandsaidgoodni
    tes

    Mom &dad:
    nit
    emyangel
    .(Iki
    ssedt
    hem and
    l
    eft
    )

    Sne;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    21:
    02]Mca:
    INSERT3
    If
    eltsomeoneshaki
    ngmebuti di
    dn'topenmy
    ey
    es( I
    'm sonotamorni
    ngper
    son,it
    salwaysa
    missi
    ontogetup)

    Dad:
    angel
    Me:
    mhmmm
    Dad:
    angel
    (shaki
    ngme)
    Me:
    5mi
    nut
    esdadi
    wil
    lwakeup
    Dad:no,
    doyouknowwhatt i
    mei sitnow?
    we
    needtogobef
    oretheshopsclose
    Me:
    5mi
    nut
    espl
    sdad
    Dad:
    hepi
    ckedmeupandmademest
    and
    Me:
    (mumbl
    i
    ng)i
    hat
    eyou
    Dad:
    lov
    eyout
    oomyangel
    Iwassti
    llhal
    fasl
    eep,iwenttot
    hebathroom,
    tookashowerwrappedabodytowelaroundmy
    bodyandwenttomyr oom andl
    oti
    onedmyself,
    iworemyblackj
    eanpinkt-shi
    rtandpi
    nk
    sandal
    s,i
    letmyhai
    rlooseandwenttothe
    l
    ounge

    Me:
    I'
    m done
    Mom :
    aren'
    tyougonnaeat
    Me:
    iam nothungr
    yTot
    ibuti
    wil
    ltakeanappl
    e
    Dad:
    nowondery
    ouar
    ethi
    sthi
    nyoudon'
    teat
    Me:
    iam nott
    hindadbutasl
    ender
    Dad:whatisthedi
    ff
    erencecasi
    don'
    tseeany
    (hel
    aughed)

    Iwentt
    otheki
    tchenandt
    ookanappl
    eandwe
    l
    eft

    Weekspassedbyandi
    twasti
    meformetogo
    t
    oboardi
    ngschool,
    yer
    riwassoner
    vous,
    iwas
    nev
    erawayf r
    om mypar
    ent
    s,i
    twasSunday
    bef
    oreschoolopens
    Mydadwokemear ound11itwasreal
    l
    ya
    missiontowakeupbutifi
    nal
    lydi
    d,imademy
    bedbathedanddressedal
    lofasuddenihad
    runnystomach

    Wel eftaround12wef i
    rstwentt othegar ageto
    fi
    l
    l upthepet r
    ol thenwehi ttheroadwepassed
    Cedar vi
    ll
    eandi wantedt hebat hroom after
    10mi nwel eft
    , wearriv
    edi nMat ati
    elearound1
    wewentt okfcbecausemom washungr ywe
    ateandt heyboughtabucketofmeatf orme.
    Whenwewer edonewel eft,i
    twasal ong
    j
    our neyevent houghMar iazelli
    snott hatfar
    fr
    om MAt ati
    elesincewewer etraveli
    ngina
    gravelroaditlookedl i
    kewet r
    aveli
    ngt oDur ban.
    Fi
    nal l
    ywear ri
    v ed
    Si
    ster(
    nun)camet
    ous

    Si
    ster(
    nun):
    goodaf
    ter
    noon
    Dad&mom :
    goodaf
    ter
    noonsi
    ster
    Si
    ster
    :howar
    eudoi
    ng?
    Dad:
    goodt
    hanxandy
    ou?
    Si
    ster:
    Ifi
    net
    hanxf
    oraski
    ng,
    iam si
    sterMar
    y
    Dad:I'
    m mrRhadebeandt
    hisi
    smywi f
    emr
    s
    Rhadebeandt
    hisismydaught
    erangel
    Si
    ster
    :nicet
    omeetyou,
    letmeshowy
    out
    he
    waytotheheadmast
    er'
    soff
    ice

    Sheledust otheheadmaster'
    soffi
    cedad
    greet
    edintr
    oducedusblablabladadtookt he
    recei
    ptforthepaymentofboardingfeessigned
    thenecessarydocumentst
    hent hesistertook
    ustothedor mit
    ory,
    ther
    ewer e4girl
    sal r
    eady
    mom anddadgr eetedthem t
    heygreetedus
    back,soi wasshownmybed, mom tookout
    myl i
    nen,pil
    lowsblanketsandduvetandmade
    mybedwhi l
    edadwasbusyunpacki ngmyst uff
    i
    nt helocker

    Mom : gi
    rl
    sI'
    m mr
    sRhadebeandthi
    sismy
    husbandandmydaught
    erangel
    Al
    lofthem :
    nicet
    omeetyoumam andMr
    Rhadebeandyouangel
    Gi
    rl2:
    I'
    m Nosi
    phi
    we
    Gi
    rk1:
    iam Pont
    sho
    Gi
    rl3:
    I'
    m Li
    si
    we
    Gi
    rl4;
    iam Nandi
    pha
    Mom :ni
    cet
    omeetual
    ll
    adi
    es,
    wher
    ear
    eyour
    par
    ent
    s
    Gi
    rl3:
    theyl
    eftal
    ready
    Mymom di
    shedupkfcandrol
    l
    sandgav
    ethe
    gi
    rl
    sandt
    hesist
    erwal
    kedin

    Sist
    er:i
    fyourdaughterhasv
    aluabl
    eit
    emsi
    wouldadvisethatshehandthem t
    ouswewil
    l
    keepthem
    Dad:
    wewil
    lpassbytheoffi
    ceanddr
    opt
    hem
    i
    nonourwayout.Thanky
    ou
    Si
    ster:
    youwel
    come

    Aft
    er5mypar ent
    swer eleav
    ingandthehostel
    wasstart
    ingtofi
    l
    l upindeedmypar ent
    spassed
    bytheoff
    iceandleftmymoneyandsomeof
    myv al
    uablei
    tems, i
    wal kedt
    hem tothecar
    .

    Dad:
    that
    'si
    tkemyangel
    wear
    eleav
    ing
    Me:
    sil
    ent
    Dad:
    makeuspr
    oud
    Me:
    si
    lent
    Dad;
    areukangel
    Me:
    sil
    ent
    Dad:
    Angel
    ??
    Me: (t
    ear
    swer
    efl
    owi
    ngdownmycheeks)i
    nodded
    Dad:
    comegi
    vedadahug

    Iwentt
    ohughi
    myhooLor
    dij
    ustbr
    okedown

    Dad:i
    tskmyangel
    itsonl
    y3mont
    hsthenyou
    wlbehomengoMarchnat
    hiwewi
    l
    lvi
    sityou
    Me: (
    sni
    ff
    ing)i
    don'
    twannabeher
    edadi
    wannabehomewithyouandTot
    i
    Mom : (
    wipedmyt ears,
    shewascryingnay
    e)
    wear enotabandoningyoumybabywe
    broughtyouherebecauseweloveyouandwe
    wantwhat '
    sbestforyouandt
    hisschoolwil
    ldo
    exactl
    ythat.Weloveyoudon'
    teverdoubtt
    hat
    Dad:(huggedusbothandkissedmycheek)do
    i
    tforus,f
    oryoumyangel(hewipedmytears
    t
    hatwerestil
    lst
    reamingdownmycheeks)now
    l
    ookatme, y
    ouknowwel oveyouangi
    thi?
    Me: i
    nodded(st
    il
    li
    nhi
    schest)i
    lov
    eut
    oo
    daddy
    Dad: don'
    tfor
    gettot
    akeyourmedi
    cat
    iondail
    y
    andmakesur eucarr
    yyouri
    nhal
    ersal
    ways,one
    i
    ny ourschoolbag
    Me:
    iwontf
    orgetdad

    Theysaidthei
    rgoodby
    esandt heyl
    eftiwasso
    heartbr
    okenidon'
    twannal
    ie.Ifel
    tli
    keiwasin
    robbenisl
    andevent
    houghihaveneverbeen
    i
    ntorobbeni
    slandbef
    ore,all
    icoul
    dseewast
    all
    t
    rees,mount
    ainsandbuil
    dings.

    Yhal
    i
    fe:
    -(

    Sne;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    21:
    03]Mca:
    INSERT4

    Wewer eshownaroundthenat6:
    00pm thebel
    l
    rangitwasti
    meforsupper,
    wewenttothehall
    prayedandhadsupper
    .

    Wewentbacktoourdor
    mitorywechattedabi
    t
    i
    nfactaboPontsodi
    diwasjustlaughi
    ngto
    t
    hei
    rstori
    es.Af
    tert
    enweslept.

    Fol
    l
    owi
    ngdayi
    waswokenbyani
    rr
    it
    ati
    ngbel
    li
    t
    was5am ohhmyGodt hisplacemaara.We
    wokeupmadeourbeds, wentt oshowerand
    gotready@ 6i twaspray ert
    imeandwewent
    forbreakf
    astthenwelef tforschoolwhi
    chwas
    alsoaround,r
    ememberwewer et
    oleaveatthe
    samet imebecauseduringt hecourseofthe
    daythedor mi
    tori
    esarebei nglocked.

    Wewentt otheassembl
    ywewereshownour
    cl
    asses,whil
    ewewer ewal
    ki
    ngt
    oourclasses
    oneteachershout
    ed

    Teacher:
    heygi
    rl
    ycomeher
    e
    Me:
    mor
    ningma'
    am
    Teacher:
    pleasemychi l
    dgoandgivemr
    Lebenyat
    hisregi
    sterandshel
    eftbef
    orei
    coul
    d
    utt
    eraword.
    Me:(
    ohhmyGodwhoismrLebeny
    a?wher
    eis
    hi
    sof
    fi
    ce?l
    ucki
    l
    yaguyappear
    ed)

    Learner:
    (iguesshewasagr ade12learner)
    hel
    lawhyar eyoustandi
    nghere?ar
    en'ty
    ou
    supposetobei ncl
    ass?
    Me:excusemewher
    ecanIgetMrLebeny
    a's
    of
    fi
    ce?

    Lear
    ner:f
    ir
    stkissmethenIwi
    llt
    ellyou,
    Iwould
    l
    ovetosuckthosecut
    eli
    ps(wandif
    unxa,God
    knowsIhat
    et hat
    )
    Me:
    yekel
    avel
    e
    Learner:hel
    lamtshoba(newcomer)y oudon'
    t
    tal
    ktoy ourseni
    ori
    nthatmanner,any
    wayf i
    nd
    yourwayt oMrLebanya'
    sof f
    ice(
    hethenleft
    )
    Voi
    ce:don'
    tmi
    ndhi
    m hei
    sli
    ket
    hat
    ,howcani
    hel
    pyou?
    Me: (t
    hanky
    ouLord)Iam l
    ooki
    ngf
    orMr
    Lebenya'
    sof
    fi
    ceIneedtogiv
    ehimthi
    sregi
    ster
    voi
    ce: comewit
    hmeIwill
    takey outohi
    sof
    fi
    ce
    andtakeyoubackt
    oyourclasssothaty
    ou
    don'
    tgetlost
    Me:
    thanky
    ousomuchy
    our
    eal
    l
    ysav
    edme
    Voice:anythingformyPr incess,
    Ihadtosav e
    youbef or
    ey ouruinthisgorgeousfaceofy
    our s
    withtears(hesmi l
    ed,ohhhewassobeaut iful
    hleandagent l
    emant oo)

    Me:
    Ibl
    ushed
    Voi
    ce:
    doy
    ouknowt
    hatAngel
    sdonotcr
    y

    Me:
    Ismi
    l
    edshy
    ly

    Wegoti
    ntoMrLebeny
    a'sof
    fi
    ce,
    Igav
    ehi
    mthe
    regi
    sterandhet ookmet omyclassIwasdoi
    ng
    Maths, Physi
    calScience,Biol
    ogy(
    Lif
    eSci
    ence
    now)Agr i
    cult
    ureandl anguages
    v
    oice:
    her
    eisy
    ourcl
    ass
    Me:
    thanky
    ou
    Voi
    ce:
    pleasur
    e

    Igotinmyclasstherewasl otofnoisebecause
    therewasnoteacher,immedi at
    elytheykept
    quit
    eIthi
    nktheythoughti wasat eacher.
    Ohhhhhpleasekeepmaki ngnoi seIhateit
    whenpeoplearelookingatmel uckilyt
    herewas
    afreechai
    r,f
    ir
    stdesk, f
    rontrow.

    Me:
    hi
    Gi
    rl:
    hi
    Me:
    ist
    her
    eanyonesi
    tt
    ingher
    e?
    Gi
    rl:
    no
    me:
    cani
    sit
    ?
    Gi
    rl:
    sur
    e
    Gi
    rl:
    mynamei
    sThabi
    sil
    e
    Me:
    Iam Sne
    Thabi
    :ni
    cet
    omeety
    ouSne
    me:
    li
    kewi
    se

    Aftersomet i
    met heteachercameand
    i
    ntroducedhi m selfasMrLebeny aourclass
    teacherandweal sointr oducedour
    selves,we
    wer egivenbooks, thedaywentbyunt ilbreak
    ti
    meIdi dn'tfeelli
    kegoi ngoutofclasssoi
    decidedt or emainincl ass.ItookanEngl i
    sh
    nov elandr eadit.Allofasuddeni f
    eltso
    uncomf ortabl e,
    itwasl iketherewassomeone
    whowasi nt heroom, Iignoredthefeel
    ingbutI
    coul dn'
    tanymor e.Ideci dedtoli
    ftmyheadand
    yest
    herewasaboystandi
    nginthedoorstar
    ing
    atme,t
    hesameguyswhohel pedmeearli
    er,
    I
    j
    ustl
    ookedathi
    m andlookdownagain

    Sne;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    21:
    03]Mca:
    INSERT5

    Boy(
    clear
    edhi
    sthr
    oat
    )hi
    Me:
    hi(
    looki
    ngdown)
    Boy:
    whyar
    eyoual
    one?
    Me:
    Ipr
    efert
    obeal
    one
    Boy:
    why
    ?
    Me:
    don'
    thav
    efr
    iendsy
    et
    Boy:
    int
    hatcase,
    canIbey
    ourf
    ri
    end?
    Me:
    No!
    !
    Boy
    :cany
    oul
    ookatmepl
    ease,
    Iwannasee
    yourey
    estheyaresobeaut
    if
    ulandsexy,i
    thur
    ts
    whenyoudon'tl
    ookatmewhi l
    eI'
    mtalki
    ngto
    you
    Me:(shy
    ly,
    lookedathi
    m andl
    ookeddown
    agai
    n)Iam sorr
    y
    Boy:
    nhai
    tscool
    ,real
    l
    yy ouhav
    ebeaut
    if
    uley
    es,
    andy
    ouar
    ealsobeauti
    ful
    Me:
    thanky
    ou
    Boy:
    Imeani
    t

    Me:
    (si
    l
    ent
    )
    Boy:ohhIam MusoTeli
    l
    e,Iam doi
    nggr ade12
    butdoi
    ngGeographyi
    nst
    eadofAgricul
    ture
    Me:
    Iam Sne
    Muso:
    justSne

    Me:
    (smi
    l
    ing)Iam sor
    ry,
    Iam Si
    nenhl
    anhl
    a
    Angel
    Rhadebe
    Muso:
    wher
    ear
    eyouf
    rom Sne?
    Me:Kokstadbutor
    igi
    nal
    l
    yI'
    mfr
    om her
    ein
    Mat
    ati
    ele

    Muso:wel
    lI'
    mf r
    om Qhashasneckbutmy
    par
    ent
    srel
    ocatedbeforeIwasborn,
    westay
    ing
    i
    nNewJerusalem now
    Me:
    -ok
    Muso:ohhIbr
    oughty
    out
    his(
    hehandedmea
    canoff
    antapi
    ne)
    Me:
    I'
    m ok,
    thanky
    ou
    Muso:pleaset
    akeitevenify
    ougi
    vei
    tto
    someoneelsebutdon'
    tref
    use
    Me:
    (shy
    ly)t
    hanks
    Muso:
    howol
    dar
    eyou?
    Me:
    Iwi
    l
    lbet
    urni
    ng15ont
    he10Oct
    ober
    Muso:
    ohhh(
    shocked)
    Me:
    ist
    her
    eany
    thi
    ngwr
    ongIsai
    d?
    Muso:no,Ithoughtyouwi
    llsayy
    ouar
    e13,
    you
    l
    ookyoungerthanyourage

    Me:
    sil
    ent
    Muso:
    whydon'
    tyouaskmehowol
    dIam ?
    Me:
    thoughty
    ouar
    egoi
    ngt
    otel
    lme
    Muso:
    askme
    Me:
    no
    Muso:wel
    lIwi
    l
    lbet
    urni
    ng18ont
    he10
    Oct
    ober
    Me:
    youar
    ely
    ing,
    ,
    ,,
    ,Il
    i
    ftedmyhead
    Muso:
    Iam not
    Me:
    whaww,
    OK
    Thebel
    lrang
    Muso:
    (gotup)wi
    l
    lseey
    ouaf
    terschool
    then
    Me:
    ok

    Theschool
    wentonunti
    ltheendoft
    heschool
    .I
    wassoexhaust
    ed.Icol
    l
    ectedmybookswhenI
    wasabouttol
    eaveMusocamei n

    Muso:
    hey
    ?
    Me:
    hi?
    Muso:l
    etsgo(het
    ookmyschool
    bagandwe
    wal
    kedoutoft
    heclass)

    Wewal
    kedt
    oget
    heri
    nsi
    l
    ent

    Muso:
    arey
    oual
    way
    sthi
    squi
    te?
    Me:
    yes
    Muso:
    why
    ?(Idi
    dn'
    trespondt
    othat)

    Me:youneedtogobefor
    ethesi
    ster
    sseey
    ou,
    I
    don'
    twannageti
    ntot
    roubl
    e
    Muso:noIwont
    ,Iwi
    l
    lwal
    kyout
    oyour
    dor
    mit
    ory
    Me:
    (shocked)noy
    oucant
    !!Iwi
    l
    lbei
    ntr
    oubl
    e!!
    Muso:(
    laughi
    ngoutl
    oud)Iam j
    oki
    ng,
    seey
    ou
    t
    omorr
    ow
    Me:
    ok

    Igoti
    nt omydor mitor
    y,Ijustthr
    ewmy selfon
    mybed, Imissedmypar entssobadly,
    thebell
    rangforlunch,wewentt othehallandateand
    wecameback, Iwaslyi
    ngonmybedwi thmy
    eyesclosed,whenIheardsomeonesay ing;
    Person:imi
    tshobayonkey
    abizwangamagqal
    a
    (al
    lthenewcomer sar
    ebeingcal
    l
    edbysenior
    s)

    Whatnow:
    -(

    Sne:
    ;-
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    21:
    03]Mca:
    INSERT6

    Wewer
    eal
    lqui
    te

    Per
    son:
    heyst
    andup,
    Idon'
    thav
    ethewhol
    e
    day
    !!

    Wef ol
    lowedherandtherewer
    eother
    s
    (
    freshers)whowerestandi
    ngt
    hereandseni
    ors
    weremaki ngf
    unofthem Goditwasver
    yhot,
    wedidallthecraziestthingsy oucouldthinkof
    l
    ikesi
    nging,dancingbei nggi venR.5cand
    bei
    ngtol
    dt ogoandbuyj uiceandchocol ate
    andyouhadt ogoandt akef r
    om yourown
    moneyandbuyt hem, youwer enottocome
    backwit
    houtt hoset hi
    ngs:-(.Ireal
    l
    ymi ssed
    home.

    Dayswentbyandt hiscont i
    nuedev erydayaft
    er
    schoolandthesi st
    ers(nun)andt eachersdidn'
    t
    sayanythi
    ngbecauset heybel iev
    edi twasa
    wayofwel comingnewcomer stohi ghschool
    ,
    theboyswer ealsodoingt hesamet hi
    ngbutin
    boyshostel(BH)whi l
    ethinabesiyenzelae
    mzana( GH).Ireall
    yhatedhost eltherewere
    cofi
    s(ghosts)ont heotherhand.Iwant edtogo
    home.

    I
    twasbegi
    nni
    ngofFebr
    uar
    yandseni
    orswer
    e
    busypr epari
    ngf ormissf reshetandIwasnot
    i
    nter estedinent eri
    ngbecauseInev erpict
    ured
    my sel fmodelinginfrontofpeopl e,eventhough
    IknewIhadt hebody ,wel lIwas, andsti
    ll
    beaut ifult
    hatIknow, ver yli
    ghtincompl etion,
    veryl onghair,thinandshor t,
    babyf acey ou
    woul dswearIwas13y earsold,.Iturnheads
    tr
    ustmeev ent houghIam v er
    yshyasf ormy
    eyesIhav ewei rdeyes, v
    erywei rd,Idon'tknow
    howt odescr i
    bet hem butt heylookl i
    keI'm
    drowsywher easIam not, myey esmake
    peopl et hi
    nkI'
    m notbl ackbuty ouwi l
    lknowwhy
    ast hest oryunfolds.

    Sotheot
    heraf t
    ernoon2girl
    scametoour
    dor
    mitor
    y,theycamet omybedandsayIam
    bei
    ngcall
    edinthehallforpr
    act
    ice

    Me:
    whatpr
    act
    ice?
    gi
    rl1:
    msf
    reshet
    Me:
    noI
    '
    m noti
    nter
    est
    ed
    Gi
    rl2:
    wear
    enotaski
    ngy
    oubutt
    ell
    i
    ngy
    ou
    Me:(Iwassoscar
    ed,Iwant
    edtocry
    )pl
    ease
    don'
    tmakemedoi t(
    theygotup)
    Gi
    rl2:don'
    tmakeuscomeanddr
    agy
    ouf
    rom
    t
    hatbed

    Ifol
    lowedthem andwewer eabout15girl
    s,
    theyshoweduswhatt odo,wepracti
    ced.I
    rel
    axedabit,notsurehowbutIwasbi trel
    axed
    andactual
    lyenjoyedthepracti
    ce

    Af
    tersomet i
    met hebel
    lrangi
    twast
    imef
    or
    pr
    ayerthensupper

    Wepr
    act
    icedf
    oraboutaweekandwewer
    eal
    l
    f
    ine.Wewer
    en'
    ttodoext
    remet
    hings
    r
    ememberMari
    azel
    li
    saRomanschool

    ItwasFri
    daybef
    oremsfreshetIwassi
    tt
    ing
    alonei
    nmyclassanditwaslunchti
    meMuso
    camewi t
    htwobananas

    Muso:
    hey
    Me:
    hi
    Muso:
    arey
    ouok
    Me:
    I'
    mfi
    net
    hanxandy
    ou?
    Muso:
    good

    Wewentqui
    te

    Muso:
    (cl
    ear
    shi
    sthr
    oat
    )Sne
    me:
    mhmmm
    Muso:
    (ner
    vous)canIt
    ell
    yousomet
    hing
    Me:
    yha
    Muso:
    Ithi
    nkIl
    ovey
    ou,
    wil
    lyoubemygi
    rl
    fr
    iend?
    Me:
    (Ir
    aisedmyey
    ebr
    ow)
    Muso:
    and?
    Me:
    andwhat
    ?
    Muso:
    aren'
    tyougoi
    ngt
    osaysomet
    hing?
    Me:
    no
    Muso:
    (hewasdi
    sappoi
    nted)soy
    oudon'
    tl
    ove
    me?
    Me:
    no,
    wel
    lIdon'
    tknow
    Muso:
    why
    ?
    me:
    Inev
    erhadaboy
    fri
    endorl
    ovedanyone
    Muso:
    real
    l
    y?
    me:
    yes
    Muso:eveni
    nyourpr
    evi
    ousschool
    orwher
    e
    youst
    ay
    Me:
    no
    muso:
    andy
    ourf
    ri
    ends?
    Me:
    don'
    thav
    eany
    Muso:
    why?
    Me: well
    myf at
    heri
    sv er
    ystri
    ctsohedoesn't
    all
    owmet obeoutwithfri
    endsunlessI
    '
    m going
    toschoolorgoi
    ngforshoppi
    ngwithhim or
    mom

    Sne;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    21:
    04]Mca:
    INSERT7

    Muso:
    yhooy
    ourf
    athermustbev
    eryst
    ri
    ct
    Me:
    sor
    tof
    Muso:
    ser
    iousIdol
    ovey
    ou,
    youar
    eone
    beaut
    if
    ulcr
    eatur
    eIeverseenandwhatIl
    i
    kethe
    mostaboutyoui
    sthatyouaresodowntoear
    th.
    Me:
    thanky
    ou
    Muso:
    atl
    east
    ,cany
    out
    hinkabouti
    t
    me:
    k

    Thebellr
    angandtheclasswentonunti
    lthe
    endoftheday.Iwaswalkingt
    othehost
    el when
    ihear
    dsomeonet ouchingmyshoul
    der.

    Muso:
    whydi
    dn'
    tyouwai
    tforme?
    Me:
    youdi
    dn'
    tsayImustwai
    tfory
    ou
    Muso:
    wel
    ldi
    dyout
    hinkaboutwhatIsai
    d
    me:
    no
    Muso:
    pleasedo
    Me:
    k
    Muso:
    areur
    eadyf
    ort
    omor
    row?
    Me:
    yepbutIam ner
    vous
    muso:
    butt
    her
    e'snot
    hingt
    obener
    vousabout
    Me(
    blushi
    ng)Iwi
    sh

    Wewereaboutt
    ogooursepar
    ateway
    swhen
    Musohel
    dmyhandandstoppedme

    Muso: Iknowt omorrowy ouwil


    ldefi
    nit
    elyt
    ake
    i
    twithnodoubt ,makemepr oud,youare
    beaut
    if
    ul,naturalandyouhav eabodyanda
    ki
    ll
    ersmile,youreyes,
    icangoonf orthewhole
    semester,goodluckPrincess
    Me(
    blushi
    ng)t
    hanky
    ou

    Final
    l
    yitwasSat
    urday
    ,iwassonerv
    ous,fi
    rst
    roundweweretowearuni
    for
    m,thesecondone
    formal andt hethi
    rdonecasual .Whenwegot
    i
    ntost aget hecrowdst oodup, speakingabout
    me, ImustsayIwasbey ondbeaut if
    ul andI
    spottedMusost andingontopoft hechai rwit
    h
    abi gflashcardwr i
    tt
    en" mySne, myPr i
    ncess"
    andIsmi l
    edandal lofasuddenIwasconf i
    dent.
    WhywasI?Iwasn' tMuso' sgirlfr
    iendbutI
    l
    ov edt heideaof'MySne"byaseni oranda
    Presidentoft heschool.Wewentt otop10, t
    hen
    top5, thenthef i
    nal
    sandy es!!Itookit, Iwasso
    emot ionaldidn'
    tbeli
    evemy selfbutIdi dit.

    Aft
    erthatMusocamet omeandgav emeakiss
    onmycheekandwhi spered"youar
    eso
    beaut
    iful
    andcongr
    ats,Iam real
    l
    yproudofy
    ou
    Pri
    ncess"
    me:
    (Ismi
    l
    led)t
    hanky
    ou

    Af
    tert
    hati
    twasmeandmybooksandwe
    spentmostofourl unchbr eakswi t
    hMuso,aft
    er
    missfreshettheattentionIgotf rom boy
    smor e
    especial
    lymatri
    coneswasi rri
    tati
    ngandI
    wasn'tthefavourat
    ef ormat ricgirl
    sbutMuso
    wasal waystheretopr otectme.Iwasso
    gratef
    ultohavehi minmyl ifeasaf ri
    end
    though.MarchandApr ilwedi dn'
    tgohomef or
    Eastersbutmypar entswi llvi
    sitnowandagain.

    Mont hswentbyandt r
    ustmeMat at i
    eleisso
    coldbutifyouhav en'
    tgonet oMar iazellthen
    youknownot hi
    ng,thatpl
    acei sverycol din
    winter.I
    twasnowi nJune,i
    twasourl astdayof
    examsandIwasgoi nghomet hefoll
    owi ngday .
    Iwrot emylastpaperandwhenIwasdoneIsat
    nexttomycl assroom anditwasst i
    llearly,I
    didn'
    twannagot ohostely
    etsoIt ookmynov el
    andr eaditandwhi l
    eIwasr eadingsomeone
    call
    edmyname, Ilif
    tedmyheadi twasMuso.I
    gotupandwentt ohim
    Muso:
    hey
    Me:
    hi
    Wewalkedintoashadowundert
    het
    ree,
    he
    par
    tedaplacenextt
    ohim

    Muso:
    wegoi
    nghomet
    omor
    row
    Me:
    aren'
    tyougoi
    ngt
    oday
    ?
    Muso:
    no
    Me:whynoti
    tsst
    il
    lear
    lyandy
    ourpl
    acei
    snear
    by
    Muso:Idon'
    twannal
    eav
    eyoubehi
    nd,
    Itol
    dmy
    par
    ent
    stopickmeuptomor
    row
    Me:
    ok

    Si
    l
    ent
    Muso:
    Imeanti
    twhenIsai
    dIl
    ovey
    ou
    Me:
    sil
    ent
    Muso:
    ohhherei
    smyhousenumbery
    oucan
    f
    onemeanyt
    ime
    Me:
    ok(
    Itookt
    hepaperf
    rom hi
    m)
    muso:
    pleasegi
    vemey
    our
    s
    me:no,
    IcantIwil
    lfoneyou,
    ,,
    ,Iwast
    hinki
    ngof
    mydadazwenjengifowunel
    wangabafana
    Muso: pleasePri
    ncess,Iwontfoneyouint he
    morningandev eni
    ngIwi l
    lfonebetween9and
    3wheny ourparentsareatwor kandIwill
    ask
    mysistertofoneuf i
    rstt
    ocheckt hecoastifI
    'm
    st
    il
    linint hi
    ssideInormall
    yv i
    sitmyolder
    si
    sterinKokstadngamahol ide
    me: (
    Ismi
    ledshyl
    y)ok,Iwrot
    edownthe
    numberwechatt
    edforabout2hour
    s,hewas
    tel
    l
    ingmeabouthisf
    ami l
    y
    me:
    itst
    imef
    ormet
    ogonow
    Muso: ok,iwil
    lmissyouandIwi
    ll
    fone
    ev
    eryday,,
    ,hestoodupandhelpmegett
    ingup
    wethenshar edahug
    Me:
    byeMuso
    Muso:
    byePr
    incess

    Iam comi
    nghome,
    tel
    lthewor
    ld,
    ,
    ,,
    ,#si
    ngi
    ng
    outl
    oud

    Sne;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    21:
    04]Mca:
    INSERT8

    Iwentt
    ohostelandpackedmystuff,
    thenlat
    eit
    wasDayzoooooooooooooooooi
    oooooifyou
    st
    ayedinhost
    elyouwillknowwhatIam t
    alki
    ng
    about
    ,thefol
    l
    owi
    ngdaymypar
    entscameand
    welef
    taround9am .Ir
    eal
    l
    ymi
    ssedhome
    shame

    Wegothome

    Igr
    eet
    edausi
    Ntsoaki

    Me:
    dumel
    aausi
    Ntsoaki
    Ousi
    :dumel
    aAngel
    (sheki
    ssedmycheek)
    Me:
    howar
    eyou?
    Ousi
    :Iam goodmychi
    l
    dandy
    ou?
    Me:
    greatausi

    I
    tfeltsogoodt
    obehome,
    mypar
    ent
    swer
    eso
    happyandIwasmysel
    f
    Dad:
    howi
    sboar
    dingschool
    ?
    Me: i
    twaster
    ri
    bleatf
    ir
    stbutIam enj
    oy i
    ng
    ever
    ymomentnow, It
    oldt
    hem everyt
    hingfr
    om
    dayonetheywer
    esolaughi
    ngshame

    Wespentt
    hedaysi
    sonkenj
    ekumnandi

    Thefol
    l
    owingdayIwokeupbef
    oremypar
    ent
    s,
    Iwentt
    oknockinthei
    rdoor

    Dad:comein(hewassosur
    pri
    sedtoseeme).
    am Idreami
    ngorwhat?myangelupbef
    oreus
    Mom :weshoul
    dthankMari
    azel
    lforbeat
    ing
    t
    hisi
    ll
    nesst
    hatyouhadsongaf
    unikuvuka(t
    hey
    l
    aughed)
    Me:
    ahhhTot
    ianddad,
    Iwasnotbad
    Dad:yesmyangel
    youwer
    enotbady
    ouwer
    e
    worse
    Me(
    Isul
    ked)canIsl
    eepwi
    thy
    ouguy
    s?
    Mom &dad:
    yesmyangel
    Mom :
    comegeti
    n,Igoti
    nbet
    weenmom and
    dad

    Isl
    eptagai
    n,beaut
    iesofbei
    ngt
    heonl
    ychi
    l
    d

    ItwasMondaymor ningmypar entswereboth


    atwork,ausi
    Nt soaki wentf orshoppingIwas
    alone,
    Isuddenlymi ssedMusobutIdeci ded
    nottofonehim, butImi ssedhi m Iwasaboutto
    goandgetwat erint hekitchenandt hehouse
    phonerang
    Me:
    hel
    l
    ow?
    Femalevoi
    ce;
    hel
    l
    owcanIt
    alkt
    oPr
    incess
    pl
    ease?
    Me:
    whoi
    sthi
    s?
    Voi
    ce:
    Iam Nt
    ati
    Tel
    i
    le
    Me:
    ohhokhel
    l
    owNt
    ati
    ?
    Nt
    ati
    :howar
    eyoudoi
    ng?
    Me:
    goodandy
    ou?
    Nt
    ati
    :gr
    eat
    ,pl
    easehol
    don
    Me:
    ok
    Mal
    evoi
    ce:
    Pri
    ncess?

    Myhear
    tmel
    ted

    Me:
    hel
    l
    ow?
    Muso:
    howar
    eyoudoi
    ng?
    me:
    goodt
    hansandy
    ou?
    Muso:
    greatnowt
    hatI
    '
    mtal
    ki
    ngt
    oyou

    Igi
    ggl
    ed

    Muso: Iwantedtof
    oney oudur
    ingt
    heweekend
    butIwasafraidt
    hatyourpar
    ent
    swerear
    ound,I
    havesomethingtotel
    lyou
    Me:
    what
    sthat
    ?

    Muso: Iam comi


    ngtoKokstadwi
    thmysist
    er,I
    wi
    llstaywit
    hherforthewhol
    e3weeks,
    wear e
    l
    eavinginanhour
    st i
    me.
    Me:whaww?(Iwassoexcit
    edbutIqui
    ckl
    y
    cont
    ainedmy
    self
    )that
    'sgr
    eat
    Muso:
    yepIcan'
    twai
    ttoseey
    ou
    Me:
    saf
    etr
    ipt
    hen
    Iwasexci
    tedIdon'
    twannal
    i
    eIhav
    emi
    ssed
    hi
    m dearl
    y

    Ar
    ound11t
    hephoner
    ang,
    Iwentt
    oansweri
    t

    Muso:
    PrincessI
    '
    m ar
    oundgi
    vemedi
    rect
    ions
    t
    oyourhouse

    Idid,fewmi nut
    eshewasout si
    de,Itol
    dousi
    NtsoakiIwasgoingtothelibraryIwil
    lbeback
    ,,
    ,,
    shewasbackf r
    om shopping,Isawthecarhe
    descri
    bedtome3housesawayf r
    om myhouse.
    Hegotof fandhehuggedmet i
    ghtandgaveme
    akissonmyf or
    ehead

    Muso: wear
    egoi
    ngt
    omypl
    aceIwi
    l
    lbr
    ingy
    ou
    backsoon
    Me:
    areusur
    e?
    muso:
    100per
    cent
    ,tr
    ustmePr
    incess
    Me:
    ok

    Wedr ovet
    ohisplaceandther
    ewasnooneI
    fol
    lowedhimtotheloungehelef
    tandwentto
    thekit
    chenanddidasandwichanddri
    nkfor
    bothofusweateandIwashedt hedi
    shes
    muso:
    fol
    l
    owmepl
    ease
    Me:
    towher
    e?
    Muso:
    youwi
    l
    lsee
    Me:
    (hesi
    tat
    ing)andhesawt
    hat
    Muso:
    trustmePr
    incess
    Me:
    ok

    Ifol
    l
    owedhimtohi
    sbedroom iguessi
    twashi
    s
    casithadf
    ewboyi
    shpi
    cturesandsomeofhi
    s.
    Hecamecl
    osert
    omeandhel
    dmyhand

    Muso:youlookbeautif
    ul(
    Ili
    ftedmyeyesand
    l
    ookedathiseyesit
    swhenIr eali
    zedt
    hatt
    his
    guywasreall
    ybeauti
    ful
    ,sohandsome,li
    ght
    ski
    nandreall
    yhandsome)

    Me:
    youdon'
    tl
    ookbady
    oursel
    fMrTel
    i
    le

    Hepull
    edmeclosert
    ohimt her
    ewasnospace
    bet
    weenusIhaveneverbeensocl
    osert
    oany
    guyexceptmydadofcour
    se

    Muso: Ilov
    eyouPr
    incess,
    pleasejustgi
    veusa
    chance,givemeachancetoprovemyl ovef
    or
    you,Ipromisey
    ouwon'thurtyou
    Me: (
    lowandshakyvoi
    ce)I.
    ..
    ..
    .I
    ..
    ..
    ..l
    ovey ou
    tooo(hi
    seyesli
    ght
    enedup,hesmi l
    edso
    warmlyandhehuggedmesot ightthatIwas
    outofbreat
    h)

    Me:
    Ican'
    tbr
    eat
    hMuso
    Muso:ohhI
    '
    m sor
    ryl
    ovei
    tsj
    ustt
    hatIam so
    happy
    Me:
    pleasej
    ustdon'
    thur
    tme
    Muso:
    Ipr
    omi
    sel
    ove

    Fi
    rstl
    ove♥ :
    -*
    :-
    *

    Sne;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    21:
    04]Mca:
    INSERT9

    Hebenthi
    sheadandr
    eachmymout
    h(hewas
    sot all
    andIwassoshor t
    )wellIneverkisseda
    boybef ore,,,
    howam Igoi ngtokisshim?whatif
    Idoi twrong? whatifIbi
    tehistongue?.Ihad
    thatconv ersati
    ononmymi ndmyey eswer e
    closedIdi dn'tr
    eal
    izethathehadst opped
    kissingme

    Muso:
    Pr i
    ncess,
    (camebackf
    rom pl
    anetMars
    hewaslaughi
    ngatme)rel
    axPri
    ncess,
    onlyi
    fhe
    knew:
    -(
    hestartedkissi
    ngmeagai nandIkissedhim
    back,Idon'tknowhowIdi ditbutImanaged
    well
    ,hebr okethekissagainhelookedatme
    l
    ikehewasst udyi
    ngadr awing,

    Muso:
    your
    eal
    l
    yar
    ebeaut
    if
    ulPr
    incess

    Ismi
    l
    ed
    Theki ssingwentonagai n,heki ssedmesl owly,
    passi onat elythatIf el
    tl ikeIwasf loat i
    ng,he
    startedt ocar essmewi thhi sf inger sthenhe
    didwi thhi st ongue, Iputmyt i
    nyki ssesal l
    aroundhi sneck.Theki sswasget ti
    nghot t
    er
    andhot terIwasi ndreaml and, Idon' tknowbutI
    feltl
    iket her ewer ebutter fl
    iesr ushi ngupand
    downi nmyt ummyandmyspi ne.Weki ssedfor
    aboutf ewmi nut es,Ifeltsodi zzyst i
    llmyey es
    closedIcoul dn'topent hem, hel edmet othe
    bedandsatmedown.Iopenedmyey esandhe
    wassmi l
    ingandIwassoshyIcoul dn'tlookat
    him .Inev erf eltthi
    swaybef ore.Hebl ewsome
    airinmyeart henst artedt oki ssmeagai n,he
    wentbackt omymout hwhi l
    ehi shandswer e
    busyexpl or i
    ngmyupperbodyhecar essmy
    boobsov ermyt shi
    rt,
    ,
    ,,hol dingt hem t i
    ghtly
    undermyt shirt,theywer esosmal lthatthey
    j
    ustdi sappear edinhishands, hecar efull
    ytook
    of
    fmyT-
    shi
    rtcompl
    etel
    y

    Muso:
    Ili
    key
    ourboobs

    Me:
    Ismi
    l
    edandgi
    ggl
    ed

    Hepl
    ayedwit
    hmyni ppl
    es,het
    hentri
    edtotake
    of
    fmyjeanbutIst
    oppedhim.Helookedatme
    wi
    thhi
    soneeyetheotheronewasclosed.

    Muso: trustmeIwon' tdoany thingPr


    incess,I
    knowy ouar enotreadyandy ouar est
    il
    lav i
    rgi
    n,
    soIwon' tdoanything,Ir
    especty ouandIwill
    neverpressureyout odoany thingyoudon't
    feelcomf or
    tabl
    ewi th

    Me:
    Inodded
    Het ookoffmyjeanandt ookoffhis,hewasl eft
    withboxershort
    s,weki ssedagainal ongone,
    hedi r
    ect
    edmyhandswher ehewant edthem to
    be,hestartedmoaning,wedidn'tbreakthekiss,
    hi
    sbr eat
    hingchangedandhekeptonmoani ng
    suddenlyheheldmet ighthespokebet weenhis
    breath

    Muso:
    hol
    dmet
    ightPr
    incess

    Ididasinstr
    ucted,aftersometimehel etgoof
    meandwentt othebat hr
    oom andhecame
    backwear i
    nganotherboxer,Idi
    dn'tbother
    askinghim, hegotdressedandhel pedmeget
    dressedandwewat chedamov ie,Ithi
    nkI
    mighthavedozedof fbecauseIf el
    tMuso
    shakingme
    Muso:
    Pri
    ncessweneedt
    ogobef
    orey
    our
    par
    ent
    scomeback
    me:
    whatt
    imei
    sit?
    (Iwasr
    ubbi
    ngmyey
    es)
    Muso:
    15:
    30

    Igotupwentt othebat
    hroom andr
    insemy
    mout h.WhenIcamebackhewasal ready
    dressedreadytogo
    Muso:
    comeher
    e

    IwenttoMusoandheopenedhi sarms,Iwent
    str
    aighti
    ntohi
    m andbur
    iedmy sel
    fint
    ohis
    chestIdon'
    tknowbutIf
    eltsosafeinhisar
    ms
    hehuggedmeandmademel ookathim

    Muso:
    thanky
    ou
    Me:
    for
    ?
    Muso: f
    orlovingmePrincess,Ipromiset
    olove
    youtil
    ldeathdousapar tandIpromiseIwil
    l
    alwaysprotectyouandnev er,
    notasingl
    eday
    will
    hurtyou

    Inodded

    Wel ef
    tforhomeandhedr oppedmeandwhen
    Igothomeausi Nt
    soakiwassleepi
    ng,
    Iwent
    str
    aightt
    omyr oom andtookanap

    Iwasi
    nlov
    e:-
    P

    Sne;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    21:
    05]Mca:
    INSERT10

    Day
    swentbyi
    twast
    hel
    astweekbef
    ore
    kuvulwaizi
    kol
    e,IwasatMuso'
    splacewewer
    e
    i
    nhi sroom l
    yi
    ngdownwithmyheadonhis
    chestandhewasbrushi
    ngmyhair

    Muso:
    Pri
    ncess
    Me:
    Pri
    nce
    Muso:whawIhav
    eanewnameandIl
    i
    kei
    t(he
    smi
    led)
    Me:
    yougav
    emeonenaweangi
    thi
    Muso:ther
    eissomet
    hingIwannat
    alkt
    oyou
    about
    Me:
    ok
    Muso: Idon'
    tknowhowar eyougoingtofeel
    aboutthi
    s,buti
    nwhateverthathappensknow
    thatIl
    oveyouandthatwil
    lneverchange
    Me:
    youar
    ewor
    ryi
    ngmenow
    Muso:
    nexty
    earIwi
    l
    lbest
    udy
    ingi
    nCapeTown
    atCapePeni
    nsul
    aUniver
    sit
    yofTechnology
    ,I
    haveappl
    i
    edforMechani
    calengi
    neeri
    ng
    Me:
    ok(
    Iwassodi
    sappoi
    nted)
    Muso:
    babyar
    eyouok?
    Me:
    yes.
    ..
    ..
    ..
    mhhh.
    ..
    I..
    .t
    hought
    ..
    butnev
    ermi
    nd
    Muso:
    pleaset
    alkl
    ove
    Me:
    nev
    ermi
    nd
    Muso:
    pleasebaby
    Me:ok,It
    houghtt
    haty
    ouwi
    l
    lbest
    udy
    ingi
    n
    Dur
    ban
    Muso:that
    'swhatIwant
    edbutmypar
    ent
    s
    pr
    efercapetown
    Me:
    nopr
    obl
    em
    Muso:babyIpromiseIwil
    lremainfai
    thful
    to
    you,
    Iwil
    lcal
    levery
    dayandnawewheny ouare
    donewi
    thyourgrade12youcangoandst udy
    i
    nCapetownt henwewill
    bei nsepar
    able
    Me:(Ismi
    l
    ed)Iwasj
    ustbei
    ngsel
    fi
    sh,
    Itr
    ust
    you
    Muso:
    promi
    semeonet
    hing
    me:
    whati
    sit?
    Muso:
    thaty
    ouwi
    l
    lwai
    tformeandnami
    Iwi
    l
    l
    Me:
    iIpr
    omi
    se
    Muso:
    promi
    semet
    hatwewi
    l
    lnev
    erbr
    eakup
    Me: Ipromise,
    ,,
    ,
    ,,
    ,,
    wedidapi nkypr
    omisemy
    heartwastornapartIwasgetti
    ngusedtoMuso
    andtheideaofleavi
    ngforCapeTownwasnot
    anidealonetomebutIt r
    ustedhim.

    [
    08/
    17,
    21:
    07]Mca:
    INSERT11

    IwasonThursdayanditwasver
    ychil
    l
    yIwent
    tobedearl
    yIdi
    dn'tf
    eelOKatall
    mychestwas
    soti
    ghtdadcamet ocheckonme,hesatont
    he
    bednextt
    omeandbr
    ushedmyback

    Dad:
    Angel
    arey
    ouoK?
    Me:
    yesdadj
    ustcol
    d
    Dad:butyourchesti
    ssot
    ight
    ,yourbr
    eat
    hingi
    s
    notnormal
    me: nott
    hatmuchdadbutIwi
    l
    ltakemyi
    nhal
    er
    bef
    oreIsleep
    Dad:
    wher
    eisi
    t?
    Me: i
    nthedr
    essi
    ngt
    abl
    e,l
    eftdr
    awer
    ,thet
    op
    one

    Het ookit.ohhIforgottot el
    lyouthatI
    '
    m
    asthmat i
    csinceIwas6, ,
    , IhaveanAtopic
    asthmasosi ncethenIhav ebeenusing
    Asthventpumpt henchangedt oSy mbi
    cordand
    Singularpil
    lstocontroli
    t.TheasthventIusei
    t
    onlyifmychesti stightt
    hesi ngul
    arand
    Symbicord,
    ,,
    ,It
    akeonepil
    ldai
    l
    yintheeveni
    ngs
    andtwodosesi nthemorni
    ngsandeveni
    ngs.
    SoItookmymedi cati
    onbutsti
    l
    lIwasn'
    tfeel
    ing
    anybetter
    .Mom camei n

    Mom :
    arey
    ouokAngel
    ?
    dad:
    notr
    eal
    l
    yhun
    Mom :theni
    nthatcaseyouaresleepi
    ngwith
    ussothatwecanmoni t
    oryou,y
    ouar eshaki
    ng
    baby
    Me:Iwi
    llbefineToti
    ,Iwi
    ll
    shoutwhenIget
    wor
    se,i
    tsnormal t
    oshakeforsometi
    meafter
    t
    aki
    ngasthventyouknowthat
    Dad:noAngelyousl
    eepi
    ngwi t
    hus(
    hecarri
    ed
    metothei
    rbedroom,hetuckedmeandIdozed
    of
    fimmediatel
    y)

    It
    hinki
    twasar
    ound2am whenIt
    ri
    edt
    osni
    ff
    butIcoul
    dn'
    tbr
    eat
    h,IsatupIcoul
    dn'
    tbr
    eat
    hat
    al
    l,wasaboutt
    owakemydadbuthewasup
    al
    ready

    Dad:
    Angel
    Me:
    I..
    ..
    .ca.
    .nt
    ..
    ..
    .br
    eat
    h
    Dad:
    Sakhe(
    mom)wakeupgetmycarkey
    s

    Theygotupanddr
    essedqui
    ckl
    ymymom t
    ook
    mygown

    Mom :
    Iam f
    oni
    ngt
    heER24
    Dad:
    no,
    theywi
    l
    ltaket
    hei
    rti
    me,
    let
    sgo!
    !

    Hecarri
    edmet othecarandplacedmeint
    he
    backseat,
    Isl
    eptonmymom' slapshewas
    brushi
    ngmyhair,
    suddenlyIf
    eltsohot
    ,Iwas
    suf
    focati
    ngbareinmindIam al
    so
    cl
    austr
    ophobic,i
    tsget
    sworsewhenIhav
    e
    ast
    hmaat tack

    Me:
    opent
    hewi
    ndowsTot
    iit
    'shot
    Dad:
    Iwi
    l
    lswi
    tchont
    heai
    rcon
    Me:
    no.
    ..
    ..
    .wi
    nd,
    ,
    ows!
    !

    Hedi dthat ,myf at hercandr iv


    etrustme. i
    nl i
    fe
    thereisnot hingpai nfulthanhav i
    ngast hma
    attackitslikethebl oodj uststoppedf rom
    mov i
    ng,ever yt
    hingj ustshutdowni fy our
    standingy oumi ghtj ustfallorpassedout
    becauseev erythingj ustst i
    ffenedupf rom head
    tot oe.Wear r
    ivedatt hehospi taldadr ushedt o
    theemer gencysi dewhi cht heyattendedt ome
    i
    mmedi atelyandi Iwasgi vennebul iserand
    drip(mywor stnight mar e)Ihat edripscasIdont
    hav eveinssoIhadt obepr i
    cked20t i
    mes
    befor
    etheygetit,oneofthereasonsIhat
    e
    hospi
    tal
    sfinal
    l
    yt heygotone

    Af
    teranhourIwasst
    il
    lunst
    abl
    e

    Doctor:MrandMrsRhadebewehav
    etoadmi
    t
    herunti
    lshei
    sstabl
    e
    Dad:
    doci
    sshegoi
    ngt
    obef
    ine?
    Doc:yesshewil
    lbefine,wejustneedtotake
    somebloods,
    x-raysandseewhatt ri
    gger
    edt he
    att
    ackitmi
    ghtbeaninfecti
    onsoweneedt o
    putheronant
    ibi
    oti
    csthroughdrip
    Dad:
    nopr
    obl
    em doc
    Doc: Iwi
    l
    laskthesist
    erinchargetocal
    lthe
    wardandarrangedabedf orher
    ,youcango
    homenow, Iam sureyouarewor ki
    ngandit
    s
    al
    ready3am
    Dad:
    wewi
    l
    ldoc
    Mymom wassi tti
    ngnexttomeshewas
    sni
    ff
    ingIsqueezedherhand

    Me:
    Iam f
    ineTot
    i
    mom :
    Ican'
    tl
    osey
    out
    oomyangel
    !
    Me:
    youwontl
    osemeTot
    i
    Mom :Iwontsur
    vive,
    youarethereasonIam
    st
    il
    lbr
    eathi
    ngafterIl
    ostNhlanhl
    a.Ilov
    eyou
    myangel
    me:
    Ilov
    eyout
    ooTot
    i

    Dadwenttohugmymom, heki
    ssedand
    huggedherforsomet
    ime.Iguessheknewhow
    shefel
    tatthatmomentthenhecamet oki
    ss
    myf or
    ehead
    Dad:Il
    oveyouguy
    sandIwil
    ldoanyt
    hingI
    meananyt
    hingt
    oseeyouhappyatal
    lti
    mes

    Welov
    ehi
    mtooshame.Il
    ovemypar
    ent
    sto
    bi
    ts

    Sne;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    21:
    08]Mca:
    INSERT12

    Thesistercamewi thapor t
    er,Iwasmov edt
    o
    themedi calwardwhenIgott heretheytook
    bloodpressure,checkedsugarlevel
    ,Iwas
    stabl
    enowbutmybr eathi
    ngwasst il
    lnotok,
    mypar entslef
    t,mom promi sedtobringme
    cleanpyjamasandt oil
    etri
    esonherwayt owork
    Idozedof f.

    Iwaswokenbyt
    heguyf
    rom pat
    hcar
    ehecame
    totakebloods.Br
    eakfastcameIf ir
    sttooka
    showermymom br oughtmemyt oil
    etri
    esthenI
    atemyf oodandwat chedt v,weweretwoi nthe
    war dali
    ttl
    egalabout9y earsol
    d,shewas
    sleepi
    ngsoIdecidedt osleepnami becauseI
    wasbor ed.Iwokeupar ound12pm Iwasso
    shockedtoseeMusosi tti
    ngnexttomybed

    Me:
    (rubbi
    ngmyey
    es)whatar
    eyoudoi
    ngher
    e?
    Muso:
    hi?
    ,,
    ,,
    ,
    ,hi
    sey
    eswer
    ered
    Me:
    Musowhatar
    eyoudoi
    ngher
    e?
    Muso:
    camet
    oseey
    ou
    Me:
    whendi
    dyouar
    ri
    ve?
    Muso:
    10:
    30
    Me:
    whydi
    dn'
    tyouwakemeup?
    Muso:youweresl
    eepi
    ngsopeacef
    ull
    ythatI
    t
    houghti
    fIdi
    stur
    byouGodwil
    lpuni
    shme
    Me:
    (Ismi
    l
    ed)whot
    oldy
    ouIwasher
    e?
    Muso: keausiNtsoaki,Ifonedthehouse
    l
    ookingforyouasusual butshepickedupand
    tol
    dmey ouwereadmi t
    tedt hi
    smor ning,l
    ucki
    l
    y
    mysisterwasstil
    laroundsoshei nsistedto
    dropmeof fbecauseIwaspani cking
    Me:
    yoursi
    ster
    ?
    Muso: y
    essheknowsaboutyouandthese
    fl
    owersaref
    rom her
    ,shewasher
    etoobutI
    i
    nsist
    ednottowakeyouupshewil
    lcomeagai
    n
    aft
    erwork
    me:
    thans
    Muso: t
    hesist
    ersatt
    herecepti
    ondidn'twanna
    l
    etmei ntheyt
    oldmetocomedur ingthe
    vi
    sit
    inghours,
    IhadtofakethatIwascr y
    ing
    andtheyletmein
    Me:
    bul
    l
    y!!
    !
    Mom camein,
    Iwassoner
    voussowasMuso,
    Musostoodup

    Mom :
    Angel
    Me:
    Tot
    i(sheki
    ssedmyf
    orehead)
    Mom:
    howar
    eyounow?
    Me:
    good,
    Tot
    icanIgohomenow?
    Mom :
    wil
    lfi
    ndoutf
    rom y
    ourdoct
    ori
    fyouar
    e
    okt
    ogohome
    Me:
    pleaseTot
    i

    ShelookedatMusowhowassoner
    vousl
    i
    ke
    hel
    l

    Mom :
    hel
    l
    owboy
    Muso:
    Dumel
    ama'
    am
    Mom :
    howar
    eyou?
    Muso:
    goodma'
    am andy
    ou?
    Mom :
    cal
    lmemom r
    ather
    ,notma'
    am (
    she
    smi
    l
    ed)
    Muso:
    okmom
    Mom :
    Iam Sakhi
    ,Angel
    '
    smot
    herandy
    ouar
    e?
    Muso:Iam MusoTel
    i
    lemom,Pri
    ncess'
    sfri
    end
    ,wegotothesameschool
    butI
    '
    mi nmatri
    c
    mom :
    Pri
    ncess?
    ?Whoi
    sPr
    incess?
    Muso:
    ohhhSneI
    '
    m sor
    ry,
    Ical
    lherPr
    incess
    Mom :ohhIsee(shesmil
    edandbl
    ushed)i
    s
    yourf
    amil
    ystayi
    ngaround?
    Muso: nomhaor igi
    nal
    lywearefrom
    Qashasneckbuttheyrel
    ocatedbefor
    eIwas
    bor
    nwear estay i
    ngatnewJerusalem now,
    its
    myoldersist
    erwhoi sstay
    ingheresi
    ncesheis
    worki
    ngthisside.
    Mom :
    Isee,
    nicet
    omeety
    oumf
    anawami
    Muso:
    li
    kewi
    semha
    Mom :l
    etmegobackt oworkkeIwil
    lseeyou
    af
    terwor
    kPri
    ncess!
    !(shesmil
    ed,shelookedat
    meandthenMuso)
    Me:
    ahhTot
    i(sheki
    ssedme)
    Mom :
    what
    ?by
    epl
    easebehav
    e

    Shel
    eft

    Muso:yourmotheri
    ssoyoung,
    beaut
    if
    ull
    i
    ke
    youandsweetnowonderyouar
    esodownto
    ear
    th
    Me:
    Ismi
    l
    ed

    Wechatt
    edmor e,If
    ell
    asl
    eepaft
    ermymeds
    andwokeupl
    aterMusowassti
    l
    lwithme,
    he
    hel
    pedmet othebathr
    oom whewegotback
    hi
    sf onerang,
    hehadacellphoneIguessher
    si
    sterboughthim one

    Muso: Ausi
    ..
    ..
    ..
    .keshar
    pwena.
    ..
    ..
    .kowar
    dG23
    ..
    ..keal
    eboha

    Af
    ter5mi
    nut
    esal
    adywal
    kedi
    n,i
    nhermi
    d30s

    Lady:
    dumel
    ang
    Me:
    dumel
    aausi
    Lady:
    howar
    eyouskat
    i?
    Me:
    I'
    m goodandy
    ou?
    Lady:gr
    eat
    ,Iam Reat
    il
    e,Muso'
    sol
    dersi
    si,
    you
    mustbePri
    ncess
    Me:
    (Shy
    ly)Iam SneRhadebe
    Rea:
    (shocked)ohhsor
    ryIt
    houghtt
    haty
    ouar
    e
    Pr
    incess,
    Iam sor
    ryagai
    n
    Me: (
    smil
    i
    ng)y
    ounotwr ongIam Snebut
    Pr
    incecal
    lmePri
    ncess
    Rea:
    whoi
    sPr
    ince?
    Me:
    (laughi
    ng)Musoausi
    Rea:ohhh!
    !!f
    orami
    nut
    ethoughtIwast
    aki
    ng
    towr
    ongpeople

    Weal
    ll
    aughed

    Rea: nowonderMusocall
    syouPri
    ncessyou
    real
    lyarebeauti
    ful
    mybabyandhecan'tst
    op
    tal
    ki
    ngabouty ou

    Ibl
    ushed

    Wesat
    ,tal
    kedandl
    aughed,
    shewassosweet
    shamebuttobehonestIwasn'ttal
    kingt
    hat
    muchtheydidthetal
    kingIwasjustsmil
    i
    ngand
    l
    aughi
    ng,theyl
    eft.Musogavemehi scel
    l
    numbertoget
    herwithhersi
    ster
    's

    After4:
    30mypar ent
    scameandtoldmet hatI
    cangohomet hedoctorhasdi
    schar
    gedme,
    yheeaaaah!!Iwasgoinghomethesist
    ercame
    todisconnectthedri
    pthenmymom hel pedme
    getdressed

    Mom: (
    smil
    ed)sowhereist
    hatchar
    mingand
    youngmanthatwasher
    eearl
    ier

    Me:
    clear
    edmyt
    hroat
    Mom :
    Angel
    ?
    Dad:
    whatar
    eyout
    wot
    alki
    ngabout
    ?
    Me:
    Ilookedatmymom andIshookmyhead
    Dad:Iam t
    alki
    ngt
    oyou,
    whatar
    eyout
    alki
    ng
    about
    ?
    Me: not
    hingdad(
    mymot
    hercanbesof
    orwar
    d
    kodwa)

    Ir
    ushedt
    othedoormydadt
    ookmybag
    Me:
    let
    sgoImi
    sshome
    Dad:wearenotdoneherey
    oungl
    adyIneed
    answer
    snotl
    aterthant
    oday

    Ei
    shhhhTot
    inkosi
    yami
    :-(

    Sne;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    21:
    08]Mca:
    INSERT13

    Wewenttot
    hehospi
    talPharmacyt
    ogetmy
    medi
    cat
    iont
    hatwasprescr
    ibedbyt
    hedoct
    or,
    thent otherecept
    ionmyfat
    hersi
    gnedt
    he
    dischargingformsthenwewentt
    othepar
    king
    l
    ott henwedr oveoff.

    Dad:Iam st
    il
    lwait
    ing(
    hel
    ookedatmeont
    he
    rev
    iewmir
    ror)Angel
    Me: Il
    ookeddown,
    Iwassonotgoi
    ngt
    otel
    lmy
    f
    atherthatIhav
    eaboy
    fri
    end
    Mom :It
    hinky
    ouhaveason-i
    n-law(
    ohhear
    th
    pl
    easeopenupandswal
    l
    owme. )

    Dad:
    what
    !!
    !Ist
    hatt
    rueAngel
    !!

    IknewIwasgoi
    ngt
    obeKFCpopsbaba
    akabheny
    wa

    Me:
    qui
    et
    Dad:
    Angel
    ?
    Me:
    qui
    te
    Dad:
    whati
    shi
    sname?
    me:
    qui
    te
    Dad:Angel
    ,youbet
    teranswermebef
    oreIst
    op
    t
    hiscar
    !

    IknewifIcont
    inuekeepi
    ngqui
    temydadwas
    goingt
    owhackme

    Me:
    hisnamei
    sPr
    incebaba
    Dad:(hi
    sey
    espoppedout
    )ishea..
    ..
    Imean
    ..
    ..
    .i
    sheaSout
    hAfri
    can?IWantedtolaugh
    buti
    twasnott
    heri
    ghtt
    ime
    Me:nodad,hi
    snamei
    sMusoTel
    i
    le,
    butIcal
    l
    hi
    m Pr
    ince
    Mom :smi
    led,
    Pri
    nceandPr
    incess(
    thi
    s
    womanmfxmmm)
    Dad:
    smi
    l
    ed,
    wher
    eishef
    rom?

    It
    oldhi
    m

    Wegothomeandwenti nsideausiNtsoaki
    (shewasmysecondmot hertheonlywomanI
    knewasmyothermothersincengaqabuka)she
    cametohugmeandwesati nthelounge

    Dad; t
    ell
    him Iwantt
    oseehi
    mtomor
    row(
    hawu
    baki
    thisi
    sel
    apho)

    me:
    whodad?
    Dad:
    yourboy
    fri
    end!
    Me:
    ahhhh.
    ..
    ..
    ..
    ..
    mhmmm.
    ..
    dad,
    ,
    ,
    Dad:
    tomor
    rowPr
    incess!.
    ..
    .Imeani
    tAngel
    !!

    Webot
    hlaughednomha@ Pr
    incess

    Me:
    Tot
    icanIusey
    ourphonepl
    ease?
    Mom :
    (shesmi
    l
    ed)ofcour
    semyangel

    It
    ookthefoneandwentt
    omyroom andfoned
    Muso,
    itrangandhepi
    ckedupont
    hethir
    dring

    Muso:
    hel
    l
    ow?
    Me:
    sil
    ent
    Muso:
    hel
    l
    ow?
    Me:
    PRi
    nce
    Muso:
    Pri
    ncess!
    !
    Me:
    sil
    ent
    Muso;
    Pri
    ncessar
    eyouok?
    Me:
    yes,
    mydadwant
    stoseey
    out
    omor
    row
    Muso:yhoooo,
    am Ii
    ntr
    oubl
    e?ar
    ewei
    n
    t
    roubl
    e?

    Me:yes,
    ,
    ,no,
    ,
    ,Idon'
    tknowI'
    m scared,
    (Iknew
    mydadwhenitcomestoboyfr
    iendthi
    ngs)
    Muso: don'
    twor
    ryPr
    incessIwi
    l
    lbet
    her
    eat
    1pm t
    omor r
    ow
    Me: ok,t
    hanksandsor
    ryf
    orput
    ti
    ngy
    oui
    n
    t
    rouble
    Muso:nodon'
    tst
    ress,
    Iwi
    l
    lfoney
    oubef
    oreI
    sl
    eep,
    ok?
    Me;okIwi
    llaskmymot
    hert
    ogi
    vemeherf
    one
    t
    henIwil
    lbuzzyou
    Muso:
    Iwi
    l
    lwai
    tfory
    ou,
    ,,
    ,,
    ,.Il
    ovey
    ouPr
    incess
    Me:
    Ilov
    eyout
    ooPr
    ince
    Weatesupperandmom all
    owedmetouseher
    f
    one,
    ofcourseIaskedheri
    nmydadabsence

    Dad:
    ishecomi
    ng?
    Me:
    yesdadat1pm t
    omor
    row
    Dad:good,heki
    ssedmeagoodni
    teki
    ss.Good
    ni
    teAngel
    Me:
    nit
    edadni
    teTot
    i

    IwenttobedandbuzzMuso,hef
    oned
    i
    mmedi at
    ely
    ,wetal
    kedfor30mi
    nutesandI
    dozedoff

    SaturdaymorningIwassoner
    vous,Iwokeup
    brushedmyt eetht
    ookashowerthenlot
    ioned
    mybody ,It
    henmademybed.Iwor eapink
    shortski
    rt,
    whit
    et-shi
    rtandwhi tesandalsIlet
    myhai rl
    ose,pi
    nkandwhi tejustmakeme
    beauti
    fulandi
    nnocentthesecoloursjust
    completemylook.Iam notabr eakfastperson
    that
    'swhyIalwaysfi
    ghtwi t
    hmypar entsIhada
    banana.

    Timej ustfl
    ew, Iwassweati
    ngandprayi
    ngthat
    daddoesn' tscareMusobecauseIlovehi
    m and
    Icouldn'taff
    ordtolosehi
    m.Ther ewasabuzz
    i
    nt hegat eandausi Nt
    soakianswer
    edand
    openedt hegate

    Muso:
    dumel
    aausi
    Ausi
    :dumel
    a

    Hewalkedtothel
    oungehehadbigbeaut
    iful
    bunchoffl
    owersandaboxofchocol
    ates
    Muso:
    goodaf
    ter
    noonMrandMr
    sRhadebe
    Dad:hestoodupandshookhi
    shand,
    howar
    e
    youboy?
    Muso:
    Iam f
    inet
    hanky
    ousi
    randy
    ou?
    Dad:
    good
    Muso:thesear
    efory
    ouma'
    am (
    hehanded
    f
    lower
    st omom)
    Mom :shel
    ookedatmydadandtookthem.
    Thankyout
    heyarebeaut
    if
    ul(
    shesmil
    ed)
    Dad:lookedatmeandmom.Heshookhi
    s
    headandsmile

    Iwassoner
    vous

    Dad:
    takeaseat
    Hecamet
    osi
    tnextt
    ome

    Muso:hehandedmet
    heboxofchocol
    ates,
    ,
    ,
    t
    hesearef
    oryou
    Me(
    shy
    ly)t
    hanky
    ou
    Muso:
    youwel
    come,
    howar
    eyou?
    Me:
    Iam ok
    Dad:cl
    ear
    edhist
    hroat
    .Weal
    ll
    ookedathi
    m so
    howoldar
    eyou?
    Muso:Iwi
    l
    lbet
    urni
    ng18si
    ront
    he10of
    Oct
    ober
    Dad:
    souf
    undakwesi
    phi
    isi
    kol
    e?
    Muso:
    wegot
    othesameschool
    noPr
    incess
    si
    r
    Dad:
    whi
    chsubj
    ect
    sar
    eyoudoi
    ng?
    Muso:Maths,
    Physi
    calSci
    ence,Bi
    ology
    ,
    Geogr
    aphyandLanguagesSir
    Dad:
    good,
    whatdoy
    oui
    ntendt
    odonexty
    ear
    ?
    Muso:Iwi
    l
    lbedoi
    ngMechani
    cal
    engi
    neer
    ingat
    Cputsi
    r
    dad:Ili
    keIlike.Hesmil
    ed.I
    tmakesmehappy
    toseeay oungmanwhoi ssodet
    erminedand
    ambit
    ious,keepupthegoodworkson
    Muso:
    thanky
    ousi
    r

    Iwasgett
    ingateasebutnotcompl
    etel
    ymy
    fat
    heri
    ssounpredict
    abl
    e,,
    ,,
    ,

    Sne;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    21:
    09]Mca:
    INSERT14

    Dad: sowhatareyouri
    ntent
    ionf
    ormy
    daughteryoungmanbecauseIswearify
    ou
    hurthim Iwil
    lki
    l
    lyouwit
    hmybar ehands
    Muso: hel ookedatmeandsmi led,wel
    lsirI
    l
    ikeherinfactIlovePrincess,I
    willnev
    erhurt
    her,fornowwear et
    aki ngbabystepswedon' t
    wannar ushintoanyt
    hingaf t
    erallweareboth
    teenagersandwest i
    llhavecareerstopersuade

    Dad:
    (smi
    l
    es)Il
    i
    key
    oual
    readyboy
    Mom :
    shesmi
    l
    ed
    dad:Iwil
    lgi
    veyout
    hebenef itofadoubtbutif
    anyt
    hingImeanany
    thinghappenstoherory ou
    hur
    therIwil
    lbr
    eakall
    y ourbonessiy
    ezwana!!

    Muso:
    yessi
    r
    Dad:
    andnosext
    il
    lyouar
    emat
    ured!
    !

    Yhooi
    wassoembar
    rassed
    Muso:
    nosi
    rwehav
    en'
    tev
    ent
    houghtabout
    t
    hat
    Dad:
    good.Di
    nneri
    sreadyl
    etsgoandeat

    Weat eandtheywerechatti
    ngandl aughi
    ngI
    thinkmyparentsr
    eall
    yli
    keduMuso.We
    fi
    nishedeati
    ngIwasaboutt ostandupand
    clearthet
    ableandgetdessertbutMuso
    stoppedme

    Muso:don'
    twor
    ryPri
    ncessIwi
    l
    ldoi
    t(my
    par
    ent
    sweresosurpr
    ised)
    Mom :
    arey
    ousur
    e?
    Muso:
    yesmom,
    shest
    il
    lneedst
    orest
    mom: notonl
    yacharmerbutheknowshowt
    o
    t
    reatawoman( shesmi
    led)
    Dad:MusoIam aboutt
    ochaseyououtofmy
    houseseemi
    ngl
    ybothmyladi
    esarefal
    l
    ingfor
    y
    ou(
    hel
    aughed)
    Muso:
    yourbadsi
    r

    Hecl
    ear
    edthetabl
    eanddi
    shoutthedesser
    t.
    Whenweweredonewedidthedi
    shes.

    Musowasl eav i
    nghesai
    dhisgoodbyes,
    hedi
    d
    handshakewi t
    hmydad,huggedmymom andI
    walkedhim out.Wegoti
    ntohi
    scarandhe
    l
    earnedonhi scar

    Muso;yourparent
    sarebothsweetbutyour
    dadi
    sov erpr
    otect
    ive,
    hescaredthehel
    loutof
    meatfi
    rstbutnoonecanresistmycharms

    Ihi
    thi
    schestpl
    ayf
    ull
    y
    muso:
    atwhatt
    imear
    eyoul
    eav
    ingt
    omor
    row?
    Me:
    myf
    athersai
    dat12
    Muso:
    okIguessIwi
    l
    lseey
    ouatschool
    Me:
    yhanhe

    Hehuggedmeandki
    ssedmeonmycheek

    Muso:
    byePr
    incess
    me:
    byel
    ove

    Hedr
    oveof
    f

    Sne;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    21:
    10]Mca:
    INSERT15

    Fol
    l
    owi
    ngday
    ,Iwasgoi
    ngbackt
    oschool
    nothi
    ngmuchhappened, MusoandIwer esti
    l
    l
    toget
    herourl
    ovewasgr owi
    ngeachand
    every
    daybutourmai
    nf ocusthatsemesterwas
    onourbooksandwewr oteourfinalexamsof
    whichMusowaswr i
    ti
    ngexternalpaper

    Ont
    helastdaywespenttheaft
    ernoontoget
    her
    wewer
    echill
    ingi
    nourusualspotchat
    ti
    ng

    Muso:
    Pri
    ncess
    Me:
    lov
    e
    Muso:
    Iwontbeabl
    etoseey
    oukul
    amahol
    i
    de
    Me:
    why
    ?(wor
    ri
    edf
    ace)
    muso:ngi
    yaesut
    hwi
    ni(I
    '
    m goi
    ngt
    othe
    mount
    ain)
    Me:
    ok
    Qui
    et,
    partofmewashur
    tbutIknewi
    t'
    s
    somet
    hinghehadt
    odoasaboyofhisage

    Muso:
    youwi
    l
    lwai
    tformeangi
    thi
    ?
    Me:yesIwil
    l,
    it'
    sonl
    yamont
    handf
    ewweeks
    t
    haty
    ouwi l
    lbegone
    Muso:
    Idol
    ovey
    ou
    Me:
    Ilov
    eyout
    oo

    Wespentaboutanhourchat
    ti
    ngabout
    ev
    eryt
    hingandIwentbacktohost
    elt
    opackmy
    st
    uff

    Iam comi
    nghomet
    ell
    thewor
    ld:
    -)

    Foll
    owingdaymypar
    entscametofet
    chme,
    yeahitwassosadt
    hatIwasn'
    tgoi
    ngtosee
    MusobutIhadt obestr
    ong.Ikeptmysel
    fbusy
    byj
    oini
    ngballetcl
    assesint
    ownandIdidmy
    l
    ear
    nersli
    cense.

    Ont he5thofJanuar yresul


    tscame, Iasked
    Totitot
    akemet otownngi y
    othengaiphepha
    andMusohadpassedwi thNifyoudi dthe
    curr
    icul
    um thatwasbef ore,OBE,NCSand
    CAPSy ouwi l
    lknowwhatN-st andsfor.Itwas
    SthenE, M,NandD.Hepassedal lhi
    scont ent
    s
    ngedisti
    ncti
    onshegotB' sforbothhis
    l
    anguages.Somyboowasgoi ngtodohi sND:
    MechanicalEngineer
    ing,Iwassopr oudofhi m.
    Onthe9t h,
    Iwasathomesobor ed, t
    hehouse
    phonerangIdr aggedmyf eetandwentt o
    answerit

    Me:
    hel
    l
    ow?
    ?
    Cal
    l
    er:
    Pri
    ncess?
    ?
    Me:
    ahhhhh.Iscr
    eamed,
    Pri
    nce!
    !!
    !!
    !
    Muso:
    doy
    oul
    oveme?
    Me:arey
    oudumb?whatki
    ndofaquest
    ioni
    s
    t
    hat?
    Muso:
    comeandshowmet
    haty
    oul
    oveme
    t
    hen
    Me: mustIcomet oMatat
    iel
    e?y
    ouknowmy
    par
    entswil
    lfreakout
    ,,
    Muso:
    noI
    '
    m out
    side

    Ij
    ustt
    hrewthephonedown.Idi
    dn'
    tevenputi
    t
    ri
    ght,
    Ithi
    nkitwasengagedf
    orthewholeday

    Me:ausiNt
    soakingi
    yabuy
    a(Iwil
    lbeback)
    ,I
    di
    dn'
    tevenwai
    tforhertor
    espond

    Isawhi
    m st
    andi
    ngagai
    nstt
    hecar,
    hewas
    wearingaDHj
    ean,DHt -shi
    rt,
    nikesneaker
    s,
    ni
    kecapnePit
    so.Iranintohim andjumpedon
    hi
    m, hehel
    dmetightandkissedthetopofmy
    head.

    Muso:
    Imi
    ssedy
    ou
    Me:
    Imi
    ssedy
    out
    oo(
    Iwascr
    ying)
    Muso:
    don'
    tcr
    yI'
    m her
    enow
    Me:
    it'
    sjustIdi
    dn'
    texpecty
    ou
    Muso:
    comel
    etsgot
    omypl
    ace
    Me:wai
    tforme,
    letmegoandcombmyhai
    r
    ni
    cel
    y
    Muso:t
    omey
    ouar
    ebeaut
    if
    ult
    hewayy
    ouar
    e,
    l
    et'
    sgo
    Me:
    ok

    Wedr
    ovet
    ohi
    spl
    ace,
    Iwassoexci
    tedt
    osee
    myPr
    incewayt
    ooexci
    ted

    Muso:
    Iwi
    l
    lmakesomet
    hingt
    oeatf
    orus
    Me:
    ok

    Muso: l
    etmegi v
    ey out hi
    sf irst
    .Hef ir
    stt ook
    offhi scapandhi sbl ankett henhecameand
    kissmeIki ssedhi m backweki ssedf orabout
    ami nuteandwebr oket heki ss, :
    -*hewentt o
    theki tchenandmadeusf ood, weat eandwent
    tohi sbedroom.Wechi ll
    edont hebed, het hen
    turnedmewi t
    houtsay ingawor d,
    weki ssedf or
    al ongt i
    me.Af terthatwej ustchi lledagai nand
    l
    at eronhet ookmehome, oner easonIl oved
    aboutMuso, ourr elati
    onshi pwasnotabout
    sexbutspendi ngqual i
    tytimet oget her

    Iwasaboutt
    ogetof
    f,hehel
    dmyhand
    Muso:
    Pri
    ncess?
    ?
    Me:
    mhmm
    Muso: canIpi
    ckyouear
    lytomorrow,weneed
    tospendthewhol
    edaytogethercasFri
    dayIam
    goinghomeandSundayI'
    ml eavi
    ngforcape
    town

    Me:
    atwhatwi
    l
    lyoubepi
    cki
    ngmeup?
    Muso:
    10:
    30At
    least
    Me: OK,Iwil
    ltel
    lausi
    Nt soakiIwi
    l
    lbei
    n
    l
    ibr
    ary,
    ,
    ,,
    ,seeyoutomorrowt hen
    Muso:
    Ilov
    eyou
    Me:
    Ilov
    eyout
    oo
    muso:
    Iwi
    l
    lfoney
    oubef
    oreIsl
    eep
    Me:
    Ok
    Igotoff,Ausi
    Ntsoaki
    wasi
    ntheki
    tchen
    Prepar
    ingsupper

    Me;
    dumel
    aoausi
    Ntsoaki
    Ausi
    :dumel
    ababy
    Me:
    needanyhel
    p
    Ausi
    :nokeshar
    pbaby
    Me:
    ok

    Iwatchedt vandmypar ent


    scameback, we
    hadsupper, Iwashedthedishes,packedthem
    neatl
    yandwentt omybedr oom.Iwor emypj s
    thenIdecidedtocall
    Musousi ngmymom' s
    fone,i
    trangtwiceandhepi ckedupont hethi
    rd
    ri
    ng

    Muso;
    PRi
    ncess?
    me:
    PRi
    nce
    Muso:
    missmeal
    ready
    Me:
    don'
    tfl
    att
    ery
    oursel
    fabut
    i
    Muso:
    ouch,
    I'm hur
    t
    Me:
    good
    Muso:
    howar
    eyoudoi
    ngmyPr
    incess?
    Me:
    I'
    m goodheyandy
    ou?
    Muso:
    Iam notatal
    l
    Me:
    why
    ?whathappened?
    Muso:howwi
    l
    lIsur
    viv
    ewi
    thouty
    ouf
    ort
    he
    whol
    eyear
    ?
    Me:
    youwi
    l
    ldon'
    twor
    ry
    muso:
    youknowIl
    ovey
    ouangi
    thi
    ?
    Me:
    yes,
    andIl
    ovey
    out
    oo
    Muso:
    seey
    out
    omor
    rowkel
    ove
    Me:
    ok,
    goodni
    te
    Muso:
    nit
    emyangel

    Sne;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    21:
    10]Mca:
    INSERT16

    Indeedf ol
    lowingday,Musopickedmeupf rom
    home, wewentt ohispl
    ace,
    wewat cheda
    mov ietogetherIguessImusthavefall
    en
    asleepcaswhenIwokeupIwasi nhisbedand
    hewassl eepi
    ngnexttome, onlyi
    nhisboxer
    shorts.Igotupandwentt ori
    nsemymout hand
    whenIr eturnedhewasawake

    Muso:
    maar
    awenababy
    Me:
    what
    ?
    Muso:
    umuhl
    eusuv
    uka
    Me:
    mfxmm
    Muso:
    Imeani
    t
    Me:
    yhay
    hay
    ha,
    younotbady
    our
    sel
    fmrTel
    i
    le
    Muso:
    maar
    awewi
    l
    lmakebeaut
    if
    ulbabi
    es
    Me:
    letmydadheary
    ousay
    ingt
    hat
    Muso:
    youdar
    ehur
    tmychi
    l
    dboy,Iwi
    l
    lki
    l
    lyou
    wi
    thmybar
    ehand(
    hewasi
    mit
    ati
    ngmydad)

    Webot
    hlaughed

    Muso:
    comeher
    e

    Iwentt
    osi
    tonhi
    slap

    Muso:
    promi
    semet
    haty
    ouwi
    l
    lwai
    tforme
    Me:
    Iwi
    l
    llov
    e
    Muso:
    andIpr
    omi
    set
    hatIwi
    l
    lwai
    tfory
    ou
    Me:
    Iam notsur
    eaboutt
    hat(
    Ismi
    l
    ed)
    Muso;tr
    ustme,
    thel
    oveIhav
    efory
    oui
    sver
    y
    st
    rong
    Me:
    Ilov
    eyou
    Muso;
    youhav
    en'
    tpr
    omi
    sedy
    et
    Me:
    Ipr
    omi
    se
    Muso: Iknowy ouverybeauti
    fulandeveryman
    willdoany t
    hingImeanwi ll
    kil
    ltohavey ouby
    hisside,butItrustyou(hehadtearsinhiseyes
    thatmademyey estear
    ytooIwasr eall
    yscared
    thattheywer egoingtotakehimi nt
    erti
    ary)

    Me:pl
    easedon'
    tcr
    yonme,
    youwi
    l
    lmakeme
    cr
    ytoo
    Muso:youdon'
    tunder
    standhowmuchIl
    ove
    youPr
    incess
    Me:
    trustmewhenIsayIwi
    l
    lwai
    tfory
    ou
    Muso:It
    rustyoumyAngel,
    speaki
    ngofwhi
    ch,
    whi
    chcoursedoyoui
    ntendtodo?
    Me:
    Chemi
    cal
    engi
    neer
    ing
    Muso:
    wher
    eexact
    ly?
    me:
    Iwi
    l
    ldoi
    tinKZN
    Muso:
    (sad)
    ahaaaababy
    Me:
    what?
    Muso:
    Ithoughtthatyouwi
    l
    lcomet
    ocape
    t
    ownsi
    nceIwillbethere
    Me:Idoubtmypar
    ent
    swi
    l
    lal
    l
    owmet
    ogo
    t
    her
    e
    Muso:
    butIwi
    l
    lbet
    her
    e
    Me:
    Iknow
    Muso:pleaselov
    econv i
    ncethem,toal
    lowyou
    togotoCapeTownj ustimagineusi
    nthesame
    uni
    ver
    sit
    y,thatwi
    llbegreat
    ,,
    ,awesome!
    Me:
    I'
    m notsur
    ebutIwi
    l
    ltr
    y
    Muso:
    pleasebaby
    Me: hawuudon'thav
    etobegIst
    il
    lhav
    etwo
    year
    st oconv
    incemypar
    ents
    Muso:yhaanhe,
    itj
    ustt
    hatIcantwai
    ttobe
    wi
    thyou
    Me:whenyougetthereyouwil
    lmeetbeaut
    if
    ul
    gi
    rl
    sandyouwil
    lforgetaboutme
    Muso:
    thatwi
    l
    lnev
    erhappen
    Me:
    hmmmm

    Hest ar
    tedki ssingmeandIki ssedhim back, he
    start
    edt ocar essmewi t
    hhisf i
    ngersanddi d
    withhistongue, wer
    eall
    ykissedhard,het ook
    offmyt -shirtIlethi
    m andplayedwithmy
    nippl
    es,hecamebackt omymout h,hegoton
    topofmeki ssingmewi thsomuchpassi on,he
    wentdownmyneckagai nanddownmy
    stomachpl ant edsomelovebites(notthatI'm
    notr omanti
    cbuti don'tli
    kel ovebites)hewent
    downandt ookmyski rtoff,hi sbreathi
    ng
    changedandInot icedt hathisboxer sgrew, he
    didn'topenhiseyes'Il
    ov eyouPr i
    ncess'hesaid
    thatinav er
    ylowandsof tvoi ce.Wewer eboth
    hornyIcouldfeelmyt reasur egoingweti nst
    ant,
    Ifeltsouncomf or
    table.Ist oppedki ssi
    nghim

    Muso:
    Pri
    ncessr
    elax,
    letmepl
    ease,
    ,
    ,,
    ,
    ,,
    ,

    Sne;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    21:
    10]Mca:
    INSERT17

    Me:
    no!
    !Muso
    Muso:Iknowyouarenotr
    eadylove,
    trustme
    wewon'tdoany
    thi
    ngyouarenotcomfortabl
    e
    wi
    th
    Me:(Iexhal
    edi
    nrel
    i
    ef)ok
    Muso: hesmil
    ed, andwel ai
    donourbackshe
    wasstil
    lbi
    g,het ookoffhi
    sboxershor t
    s(Ij
    ust
    fr
    oze,ohhmyGod, i
    twasmyf i
    rstt
    imeseeinga
    nakedmanwi t
    haner ectmanhood, t
    rustmeI
    wantedtorunformylife,
    ,
    ,ican'
    tdealhelooked
    atme).Feeli
    t

    Me:
    mhmmmmm?(
    Ihesi
    tat
    ed,
    Iwasscar
    ed)
    Muso: don'tbescar editwontbi te,j
    usttouchi t
    ,
    het ookmyhandandmademet ouchi t,my
    ey eswecl osed,Ikeptonbr ushingithishand
    wasst i
    ll
    onmet r
    ustmei fremov edhi shandI
    woul dhav eletgoi mmedi atelythesi t
    eofi t
    kindat r
    aumat izedme,af t
    ersomet imedoi ng
    thatamoanescapedf rom hi mfol l
    owedby
    anot herone,wedi dn'tstopki ssi
    ng,hemade
    mei ncreasedt hepace, hisbr eathingincreased
    tremendousl yIgotast rengt htoopenmyey es
    andhi swer ecompl etelyclosed.GodIwasso
    notcomf ort
    able.
    Muso:pleasedoi
    tfast
    erPr
    incesshesai
    dina
    hoar
    selyvoice

    Idi
    dex
    act
    lyasIwast
    old

    Muso: ahhhshi
    tPrincess,,
    ,
    ,,Il
    o,,
    vey,ou(phew
    sies)Ialmostvomited,hewenttot hebathr
    oom
    andcamebackwi ththetowel wi
    pinghimself
    (canthismanwearsomet hi
    ngal r
    eady ,
    hewas
    reall
    ytraumati
    zingme).

    Hedressedhi
    msel
    fandhel
    pedmedr
    essedand
    wesatonthebed

    Muso:
    Ilov
    eyouMashwabada
    Me;
    wher
    edi
    dyoul
    ear
    nthat
    ?
    Muso:
    youwi
    l
    lbesur
    pri
    sed
    Me:
    Iam al
    ready
    Muso:
    Ilov
    eyoumyangel
    Me:
    Ilov
    eyout
    oo
    Muso:
    andt
    hanky
    ou
    Me:
    Iam sor
    ryt
    hatIcan'
    tsat
    isf
    yyourneeds
    Muso:youneednottowor
    rymyangel
    ,Iwi
    ll
    wai
    tforyoueveni
    fIhav
    etowai
    tfor5year
    s
    Me;
    mhhhmmmm
    Muso:
    yes
    Me:
    thanky
    ou
    Muso:
    youwel
    come(
    heki
    ssedmynose)

    I
    twast
    imef
    ormet
    ogohome

    Muso:
    comegi
    vemeahug
    Me:Iwenttohughi
    m,LordIjustbr
    okedown
    andcr
    ied,
    itwassopai
    nful
    thathewasleavi
    ng
    Muso: i
    tsokPri
    ncess,pleasedon'tcr
    y,y
    ouare
    hurt
    ingme.Hemademesi tonhi
    slapIputmy
    headonhischesthewasbr ushi
    ngmyback,I
    cri
    edshameuntilIf
    eltbetter.

    Muso:l
    ookatme,nooneisgonnat
    akeme
    awayf
    rom y
    ou,y
    angizwa!
    !
    Me:
    Inoddedl
    i
    kea5y
    earol
    d
    Muso:nowgivemethePr i
    ncess'
    ssmi
    l
    e(I
    smi
    led)
    .That
    'sthepr
    incessIknow
    Me:
    I'
    m scar
    edPr
    ince
    Muso:
    ofwhatPr
    incess?
    Me:
    ofl
    osi
    ngy
    ou
    Muso:
    Ipr
    omi
    sey
    ouwon'
    tl
    oseme,
    ,Ipr
    omi
    se
    Hehuggedmet
    ight
    ,

    Muso:
    Iwi
    l
    lcal
    lev
    ery
    day
    Me:
    Inodded,
    let
    sgo

    Hedroppedmeathome,weshar edal
    onghug
    thenhel
    eft
    ,justwentst
    rai
    ghtt
    omyroom and
    cri
    edmore

    Af
    teranhourTot
    icamet
    omyr
    oom

    Tot
    i:Angel
    Me:
    Tot
    i?
    Tot
    i:comesupperi
    sready
    Me:
    Iam nothungr
    y
    Tot
    i:y
    ounev
    erski
    ppedsupper
    Me:
    I'
    mjustnothungr
    yTot
    i
    Tot
    i:ar
    eyousi
    ck?
    Me:
    noTot
    i
    Toti:
    t henwhati
    swrong?hecamet osi
    tont he
    bedandt ur
    nedmesinceIwaslyi
    ngonmy
    stomach.OhhmyGodAngel ar
    ey oucr
    ying?
    whyy oureyesar
    esoredandpuff
    ed?
    Me:
    (Ist
    art
    edcr
    yingagai
    n)
    Tot
    i:t
    alkt
    omeAngel
    please
    Me:
    hei
    sleav
    ingTot
    i
    Tot
    i:who?
    Me:
    whati
    fhei
    sgoi
    ngt
    ofor
    getaboutme?
    Tot
    i:Muso?
    Me:
    Inodded
    Tot
    i:i
    fhel
    ovesy
    ouhewon'
    tmyAngel
    Me:heist
    oocutemom, gi
    rl
    slov
    ehim,theywi
    l
    l
    l
    ovehi
    m moreatCputandwhati
    freal
    l
    yhe
    f
    orget
    saboutme
    Toti
    :it
    'sokt
    ofeel
    li
    ket
    hismyAngel,buthe
    seemstobeagoodboyandseem t
    oloveyou
    Me:
    Iam scar
    edTot
    i
    Toti
    :nchoo,
    mybabyi
    sgr
    owi
    ng(
    sheki
    ssedt
    he
    topofmyhead)
    Me:
    mustIbewor
    ri
    ed?
    Toti
    :nobaby(I
    smil
    edshyl
    y)getup,washyour
    faceandj
    oinusbef
    oreyourf
    athercomesand
    getyou
    Me;(
    Ismi
    l
    ed,
    Iknewwhatshemeant
    )okI
    '
    m
    comi
    ng
    Tot
    i:Il
    ovey
    oumyangel
    Me:
    lov
    eyout
    ooTot
    i

    Wewenttothedinni
    ngandhadsupperandI
    di
    dthedi
    shesthenMusocall
    ed
    Me:
    hel
    l
    owPr
    ince
    Muso:
    myPr
    incess,
    howar
    eyou?
    Me:
    Iam goodandy
    ou?
    (Ismi
    l
    ed)
    Muso:
    whyar
    eyousmi
    l
    ing?
    Me: (
    embar
    rassedIgi
    ggl
    ed)Iam smi
    l
    ingat
    you
    Muso:
    butIcan'
    tseey
    ou
    Me:
    u-r
    ight
    Muso:
    Iar
    ri
    vedsaf
    eathomebaby
    Me:
    okkel
    ove
    Muso:
    arey
    ousl
    eepi
    ngal
    ready
    ?
    Me:
    Iam aboutt
    o
    Muso:
    soear
    ly?
    Me:
    yesIam t
    ir
    ed
    Muso:
    buty
    ousl
    eptatmypl
    ace
    Me:
    thatwasnotenough
    Muso:
    yousuchababy
    Me:
    youmeany
    ourbaby
    muso:
    yesmybabyandmybabyonl
    y
    Me:
    hahaaaaaaha
    Muso:
    Ilov
    eyou
    Me:
    yout
    oldmet
    hatal
    ready
    Muso:
    Ilov
    eyou
    Me:
    ok,
    bye
    Muso:Il
    ovey
    ouPr
    incess,
    youdar
    edr
    opt
    he
    cal
    lnj
    e
    Me:
    (Igi
    ggl
    ed)Il
    ovey
    out
    ooPr
    ince
    Muso:
    Iwi
    l
    lgety
    ou
    Me:
    haaahahni
    tekel
    ove
    Muso:
    dream aboutme
    Me:
    noIdon'
    tl
    ikeni
    ght
    mar
    es,
    theyscar
    eme
    Muso:
    ket
    laushapawenaPr
    incess
    Me:
    bye
    Muso:
    byeAngel

    Yhanheet
    hebeginni
    ngofmyli
    fewi
    thMuso
    al
    most2400km awayfr
    om me

    Sne;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    21:
    11]Mca:
    INSERT18

    Musol eftf
    orcapetownandIhadt ogobackt o
    hostel,Iwasgoingtodogr ade11,GodI
    missedMuso, Ihadaf onesoaspromi sed
    shameumunt uwami wasf oni
    ngnowandagai n
    .Istudiedhard.Iwantedt ogetdi
    sti
    nctionsi
    n
    al
    lmysubj ect
    sasIdi dlastyear
    .
    IhadPont shoasmyf ri
    endwest udiedtogether
    andevent hatyearwewer estayi
    ngi none
    dormit
    ory,ngoJuneMusowasnotcomi ng
    back,Iwasst i
    llatt
    endingmybal letcl
    asses
    whenI'm homeIwr otemyexamsf orDecember
    thenIwasdone, Iwenthome, wewer est i
    l
    l
    happyandsof astnoPr incewami andhecame
    backbeginningofDecemberandhespenthi s
    fi
    rstweeki nMatati
    eleIcouldn'
    twai tt
    oseehi m
    .

    Hefinal
    l
    ycamet okokstad,
    eishIwasso
    ner
    vous, Idi
    dn'
    tknowifhewasstil
    ltheMuso,
    myMusoIknow.

    Myf
    onerangaround12Ipi
    ckedup
    i
    mmedi
    atel
    y,i
    twasMuso

    Me:
    hel
    l
    ow
    Muso:
    myPr
    incess
    Me:
    howar
    eyoudoi
    ng?
    Muso:
    notsowel
    l
    Me:
    (wor
    ri
    ed)why
    ?
    Muso:
    casImi
    ssy
    ou
    Me:
    Imi
    ssy
    out
    oo
    Muso:
    thencomet
    oyourPr
    ince,
    I'm out
    side
    Me:
    Iam aqui
    tesoul
    buthey
    ,Icanscr
    eam
    Muso: Pr
    incess,
    youar
    edamagi
    ngmy
    ear
    drum
    Me:
    can'
    thel
    pit
    ,sor
    ry
    Muso:
    yizaphel
    aI'
    m wai
    ti
    ng
    Me:(Idroppedthef
    onetookmybagandl ef
    t)
    key
    at l
    a( Iwi
    ll
    beback)ausi
    Ntsoaki
    (Ishout
    ed)

    IsawMuso,
    hewasst
    andi
    ngagai
    nsthi
    scar
    ,
    wel
    lwellwell
    hewassohandsomeandev en
    morel
    ighteri
    ncompl eti
    on,abitgrownupboy
    ormustIsaymanhel ookedsohandsome
    ni
    nani
    .Iwaswal ki
    ngt owardshim buti
    tfel
    tli
    ke
    Iwastaki
    ng100st epsbackwardsoIj ustr
    an.
    HeopenedhisarmsIj umpedintohim andhe
    hel
    dmeandki ssedme

    Muso:
    youcr
    azyy
    ouknow
    Me:
    ngi
    rit
    e(Iwascr
    ying)
    Muso:
    yini
    Pri
    ncess,
    arey
    ouok?
    Me:
    Inodded,
    Imi
    ssedy
    ou

    Meandmytear
    skodwa,t
    heywer
    est
    il
    l
    st
    reami
    ngdownmycheeks

    Muso:
    notasmuchasImi
    ssedy
    ou
    Webr
    oket
    hehug

    Muso:
    comel
    etsgo

    Wel eftf orhi shouse, heparkedt hecarandwe


    gotinside, hewentt ot hekit
    chenandt ookt he
    traythatwascov eredi nabignapki n(swab)and
    wewenti ntohi sr oom, heputt hetrayont opof
    thedr essi ngt ableandcamet ome, hekissed
    meandIki ssedhi m back, weki ssedhungr i
    ly
    ,
    thent urnedi nt ointoagent l
    ekiss,slowl yand
    passionat ely
    , hewentdownmyneckhe
    focusedont hatf oral ongt i
    me, t
    heonl yt hi
    ng
    thatmat teredwasSneandMuso, itstartedto
    getmor equi ckeragai nandwewer etouchi ng
    eachot herundr essingeachot herbyf or ce,
    touchingandcar essing,heledmei ntobedcas
    hecoul dseet hatIwasst ruggl
    ingt ost andon
    myfeet
    .Iwasleftwi
    thmybraandunderwear
    andhewasinhisboxersonl
    y.Wecont
    inued
    ki
    ssi
    nghebrokethekiss

    Muso:
    Idon'
    twannar
    usht
    hingsPr
    incess
    Me:
    Inodded

    Someti
    mesl
    oveneedssomebi
    tofpati
    ence
    andial
    sodi
    dwannalosemyvi
    rgi
    nit
    yat16

    Weat ethesnackthatheprepar
    edandwe
    spentthedaycuddli
    ngitf
    eltsogoodtobe
    cl
    osertomyangel .Aft
    er3hedroppedmeat
    home.Iwassohappy .

    Wespentthewhol
    eholi
    dayt
    ogetherthenitwas
    ti
    meforustogosepar
    atewaysagainhewent
    backt
    oCapeTownIwentbacktohost el
    Sne;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    21:
    11]Mca:
    INSERT19

    Istudi
    edv eryhardshamer aini
    ngornotI
    neededgoodmar kssot hatIwil
    lbeaccepted
    forChemi cal Engi
    neeri
    ngorAnal yt
    ical
    Chemi stry.Mydadwant edmet obeadoct or,
    mymot herwant edmet obeal awy erbutIwas
    notinterestedinanyoft hetwo,theydidn'
    t
    pressureme, sotheyl
    etmechoosewhatev erI
    wascomf ortablewit
    h,that'
    swhatIl oveabout
    mypar ents

    Iappli
    edinvari
    ousUniver
    sit
    y,i
    ncludingCPUT, I
    wasdonewi thmyexams, Iwascr ossingmy
    fi
    ngersthatt
    heytakemeeCPUT, onedayt he
    postmancameandIi mmediatel
    ytookt hepost
    ther
    ewasal ett
    erfrom Medunsa,UCT
    Univer
    sityofPret
    ori
    aandfrom Cput,
    Ididn'
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    opentheot her
    sIopenedtheonefrom CputI
    wasshaki ngIguessIwassodesperatetobe
    accepted.Thelet
    terr
    eadasfoll
    ows..
    ..

    DearMi
    ssS.Rhadebe

    ACCEPTANCETOSTUDY:
    NDCHEMI
    CAL
    ENGI
    NEERING

    Wearepleasedtoi
    nformy outhaty
    ouhav
    e
    beenaccept
    edtostudyfortheabove-
    menti
    onedcoursef
    or20...
    .

    CONFI
    RMATI
    ONOFACCEPTANCE

    Asonl
    yal
    i
    mit
    ednumberofst
    udent
    scanbe
    acceptedf orthi
    scour se,youarekindl
    y
    requestedt oret
    urntheencl osedconfi
    rmat i
    on
    ofacceptancef orm,indicati
    ngthatyouaccept
    thisoff
    er.Shouldwenotr eceiveyourreply
    withi
    n4weeksoft hedat eatthi
    slett
    ery our
    placewillbeof f
    eredtot henextprospective
    appli
    cant..
    ...
    ..
    ..
    ..
    ..

    Ididn'
    tevenfi
    nishreadi
    ngthelet
    ter
    ,Iwas
    beyondexcit
    ed,Iimmediatel
    yfonedMuso,i
    t
    rangtwiceandheanswer ed

    Muso:
    Pri
    ncess
    Me:
    guesswhat
    ?
    Muso:
    youl
    oveme
    Me:
    aiy
    yymaar
    nMuso
    Muso:
    tel
    lmet
    hen
    Me:
    Ihav
    ebeenaccept
    edatCput
    muso:
    whaww,
    I'
    m sohappyf
    ory
    ouPr
    incess
    Me:
    met
    oo
    Muso:
    hav
    eyouspokent
    oyourpar
    ent
    syet
    ?
    Me:
    no,
    butIdoubtt
    heywi
    l
    lhav
    eapr
    obl
    em
    Muso:l
    etsj
    usthopeso,
    Icantspendanot
    her2
    year
    swi
    thouty
    ou
    Me:
    met
    oo
    Muso:
    Ilov
    eyoumor
    e
    Me:
    lov
    eeeey
    out
    oo,t
    alkt
    oyoul
    ater
    Muso:
    byeangel

    Aft
    er4mypar entscame,Igav
    ethem t
    hepost
    ,
    Iwasaccept
    edi nall
    theUni
    ver
    sit
    ies

    Dad:
    soy
    ouar
    egoi
    ngt
    oMedunsa?
    Me:
    nodad,
    Capet
    own
    Dad:
    butCapet
    owni
    stoof
    armyangel
    Me:
    butIwannagot
    her
    e
    Dad:
    isi
    tbecauseoft
    hatboyofy
    our
    s?
    Me:
    nodad
    dad:ok,thencapet ownis, aslongasy ou
    won'
    tlosef ocus,andnobabi espleaseAngel
    ,I
    woul
    dl ov
    et obeagr andf
    atherbutnotbefore
    youhavey ourdiplomaatleast
    Me:
    Ipr
    omi
    sedad
    Mom :
    Iam sopr
    oudofyoumyAngel
    ,youar
    e
    r
    eal
    l
    ygrowi
    ngeveryday
    Dad: t
    heschool
    sopenont he21Janwhi
    ch
    meanswemustbecapet ownonthe17t
    hen
    wewi l
    lcomebackonthe23i twi
    l
    lal
    sohel
    pme
    checkifmyhousei
    sstil
    li
    nplace.

    Wel
    lmyfatherownsa3bedr oom housein
    Hi
    ghbur
    yinKuilsr
    iver
    .Heboughti
    twhi l
    ehewas
    wor
    kingincapet
    ownbef orehetookatransfer
    t
    oKokstad,hedidn'
    tsel
    lthehouseaccording
    t
    ohimitsundermynamebutIwi l
    lbest
    ay i
    ngin
    r
    es

    Mom :
    sor
    ted,
    lucki
    l
    yIwi
    l
    lst
    il
    lbeonl
    eav
    e
    Me:
    Capet
    ownher
    eIcome

    Yepeeeeeeeeeeee.Ter
    ti
    aryl
    i
    fe

    Iwonderi
    fSneandMusosl
    ovewi
    l
    lconquer
    ter
    ti
    aryt
    emptat
    ions=-
    O

    Sne;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    21:
    11]Mca:
    INSERT20

    Ont
    he6t
    hofJanuar
    yIwentt
    ofet
    chmy
    stat
    ementatschool andy esBoyIgotD, Ididn'
    t
    gother etoplayImeantbusi ness,myteachers
    werev eryproudofme, theywi shedmeallthe
    bestmyPhy sicsteacheral sowant edmet obe
    adoct orbutIt ol
    dhim Iwi l
    l doChemi cal
    Engineeringofwhi chhewashappyhencet here
    arestil
    lfewf emalesi nScienceandEngi neer i
    ng.

    Ispentlastdayswi t
    hmyf amil
    yandi twasti
    me
    forust oleave,
    wedr ovej ustthe3ofuswe
    arri
    vedincapet ownar ound6am Iwassot i
    red.
    Thef ol
    lowingdayweal lwentt oCputdidmy
    regi
    strationgotmyst udentcar dandIwentto
    housingof fi
    cegotmyneccessar ydocument s
    wentt opayandIwentt opapsof f
    icehesent
    someonet ogoandshowust her oom,itwasa
    doubler oom whichmeansIhadt osharewit
    h
    someone.Wewentt ochecki tandmy
    roommat ewastherealready ,
    hernamewas
    Zizi
    pho( Zee)wei nt
    roducedoursel v
    es,she
    wastoof
    orwar
    dandloud,
    Itol
    dherIwi
    l
    lbe
    backont
    he22thenwelef
    t.

    Thentheorientati
    onst ar tedmydadwoul ddrop
    meandpi ckedmel ate.Ont he22Imov edint
    o
    reshadtobuybl anket s, li
    nen,pil
    lows, t
    v,fri
    dge,
    broom,mop, therewasnoneedf orcurtai
    ns
    causeourroomshadbl inds,groceri
    esasi fI
    wascooking,iron,kettle, st
    oveandev eryt
    hing
    thatwi
    ll
    beneededf orr es.(Ther ewasone
    probl
    em umunt uy aziphekel aitsnotlikehostel
    andwellIcouldn'tcook, GREAT, don'tblameme
    blamemypar entsandausi Ntsoaki)

    Thenmypar entslef
    tCapeTown, Itwast i
    meto
    dowhatIcamet odo.Tert
    iar
    ywasnotl i
    kehi
    gh
    school
    ,i
    fy ouarelat
    e,don'
    tattendclassesno
    bodycares,youaredoingi
    tsforyourself.Muso
    wasstayingoutofCampushewasr ent i
    nga
    fl
    ati nBellvi
    lleandhehadacarsoi twaseasy
    togett ocampus, Iwasi nSciencebui l
    ding
    closertot heent ranceopposi t
    et oUWC
    entranceandhewasi nMechengbui l
    dingnext
    tothePent echst ationsoourdepar tmentswer e
    farfrom eachot herbutwewoul dmeeti n
    studentcent r
    ef orourl unchwhi chwascl oser
    forbot hofussomet imeswespentourl unche
    Saccocaf eteri
    a.Wewi l
    lsomet imesmeetI nthe
    l
    ibraryorI T-cent reaf tertui
    tionf orschool
    purposeshewoul dbedoi nghi sthingsandIwi l
    l
    domi ne.Imustsayhav i
    nghim ar oundreally
    kwangi sizangasheshengaj way el
    a.WhenI
    neededsomet hingIwoul djustask,hewoul d
    tellmewher et ogeti tmyboo
    thou.(REMEMBERmusowasdoi ngTHI RDy ear
    sohewasdoi ngINSERVI CETRAI NI NGsohe
    waswor kingheonl ycamet ocampust odohi s
    assignmentori fhehadt oattendhi sl
    ecturesor
    wor kshops)Hegav emehi sf l
    atkey sandthe
    remot etohi scompl exsay i
    ngt hatIcango
    thereanyt
    imeeveni
    fhewasnotthere.He
    didn'
    tli
    ketocometomyroom casIhad
    roommat esohesai
    dther
    ewasnopr ivacy

    Somet i
    mesIwoul dgoandspendweekendsi n
    hisf
    latwewer esoinloveandsoinsepar
    able.
    Hetreatedmelikeanegg.Somet i
    meshewoul d
    cookinhisfl
    atandbr i
    ngfoodformey ouknow
    resl
    ife.Wewerethatkindofcouplesome
    peoplewouldadmi r
    efrom adi
    stance.

    Ithinkitwast owardtheendofOct oberjust


    afterourbirthdayr
    ememberwewer eshar i
    ng
    sameday .Musost art
    edt odri
    ftapartfrom me
    hewoul dn'tpickupmycal l
    satnightandhad
    excusesIguesshewasbusyshamet hirdy ear
    i
    snotachi ldsplay,workingandsubmi tting
    assignmentcanbehect ic.
    Oneni
    ghtIf
    onedhi
    m hi
    sfoner
    angt
    wiceandi
    t
    wasdr
    opped

    If
    onedagai
    n

    Voi
    ce:
    Muso'
    sfonehel
    l
    ow

    Huh?
    ???
    ???

    Sne;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    21:
    46]Mca:
    INSERT21

    Me:
    (hesi
    tat
    ing)hel
    l
    ow
    Gi
    rl:
    whatdoy
    ouwantPr
    incess?
    Me:
    canIspeakt
    oPr
    incepl
    ease
    Gi
    rl:
    andwhoi
    sthat
    ?
    Me:
    ohhMuso
    Gir
    l:heyy
    oubi
    tchstayawayfrom mymani
    f
    youknowwhat
    'sgoodforyou
    Voi
    cebehi
    nd:
    bbywhoi
    sthat?
    Gi
    rl:
    Pri
    ncess
    Muso:
    howdar
    eyouanswermyf
    one,
    let
    hal
    a

    Ijuststoodther
    edi dn'
    tevendropt
    hecall
    .Have
    youev erbeendisappoint
    edbysomeoney ou
    tr
    ustedwi t
    hallofyourheartandsoul
    ?Ifnot
    awazi l
    uthohowIf eltatt
    hatmoment.:
    '
    (

    Muso:
    hel
    l
    ow,
    Pri
    ncess,
    Pri
    ncess

    Hayingi
    yal
    i
    ngwa,Idroppedthecall
    ,,
    ,my
    Pri
    nce?,
    ,myMuso?,Mypr i
    nce?.Hewouldn'
    t
    cheatonme,woul
    dheno! !
    !Nothim maybeI
    dial
    ledwr ongnumberIwentt odi allednumber s
    andchecked.Yesi twasMuso' snumber.
    Ngav el
    engehl angef r
    idge.Ijustbr okedown,
    noti nmi l
    lionyearsIthoughtt hatMusowoul d
    cheatonme.Icr ieduntilngi
    zwangi ri
    te.Iwent
    tobedhear tbrokenNo! !That'san
    under statementmyhear twasi npi eces.Iwas
    fall
    ingasl eepwhenmyf oner angi twasPr i
    nce,I
    reallydidn'thaveenergyf orhim Ij ustignored
    him andansmscamei n" Pr
    incesspl easemy
    Angel i
    tsnotwhaty outhinkitis, letmeexpl ain
    pleasecomet othepar ki
    nglot .Iam out si
    de.

    If
    onedhi
    m hepi
    ckedup.

    Muso:
    hel
    l
    ow
    Me: youcancomeupuZeeukwi
    boy
    fri
    end
    yakhe
    Muso:
    oK.Thanky
    ou
    Aft
    erfewminutest
    her
    ewasaknockont
    he
    door,
    Iwenttoopenupforhi
    m

    Muso:
    hi
    Me:
    hi

    Seeinghi
    mjustmadeitwor
    se,
    Ijustcr
    iedand
    cri
    edIwassohurtshamemaybeifitwas
    someoneelsebutnotmyMuso

    Muso: (heheldmet ight,GodknowsIneeded


    that)pleasedon'tcry,it
    snotwhaty out hi
    nkiti
    s
    thatgirlisnotmygi rlf
    riend,wewer edoinga
    projecttogetherthatisdueonMondayy ou
    havet obelievemePr incess, Iwi
    llnev ercheat
    ony ou,Ihav epromisedt hatIwil
    lnev ahurtyou
    andIst il
    lpromisethatIwi ll
    neverhur tyou,I
    l
    oveyouwi thmyhear tandsoul .Ihavemadea
    pr
    omi setoy ourdadt
    hatIwi ll
    pr ot
    ectyou
    pl
    easebelievemewhenIsayshei snotmy
    gi
    rl
    fri
    end.Wecancal lherrightnow.(Hi sey
    es
    werepleading)andwiththatandknowi ngmy
    Muso, ,
    ,
    ,Ibeliev
    edhim

    Me:
    Ibel
    i
    evey
    ou
    Muso: t
    hanky
    ouPr i
    ncess,
    comehere(he
    huggedmeagain)t
    rustmeIwi
    ll
    neverhur
    tyou
    Me:
    Itr
    usty
    ou

    Wespentt
    heni
    tetoget
    her
    .Thenhel
    eftt
    he
    f
    oll
    owi
    ngdayaf
    ter11

    Sne;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    21:
    47]Mca:
    INSERT22
    Wewereokagainunt
    ilt
    hedayIr
    ecei
    vedat
    ext
    smsf
    rom anunknownnumber

    "Bi
    tchstayIawayfrom myman,Ihavewar
    ned
    youbef
    ore,taket
    hisasafinal
    warni
    ng"

    Mfxmm Ij
    usti
    gnoredi
    tthi
    nki
    ngthatmay
    bei
    t
    wasnotmeantforme.Idi
    dn'
    tev
    enaskuMuso
    ngay
    o

    Wewer esohappyshamenomut uwami for


    weeksIguess.Hest art
    edtobecan' ttholakala
    agai n,
    oneFr i
    dayIf onedhim severall
    yti
    meshe
    didn'tpickup,Idecidedtogot ohisf l
    atthe
    followingday,justtocheckifhewasok.It ook
    at axiandwenti ntohisflat
    .Iopenedt hegat eI
    hadar emotethathegav emet ogetherwiththe
    keys,hewasstayi
    ngi nsecondfloor.Iwentup
    andknocked,Idi
    dn'tusethekeycasIcoul dsee
    ther
    ewasakeyi nthedoorf rom insi
    de,well
    to
    mysur pr
    ise,
    atal
    l,beauti
    fulgalopenedthedoor
    weari
    ngoneofMuso' sshi
    rts

    Gi
    rl:
    hi
    Me:
    hi?
    Gi
    rl;
    comei
    n
    Me:
    thanky
    ou

    Babydi
    dyouseemyaftershav
    e..Thatwas
    Musoinhi
    sboxershor
    ts(hewassoshocked,
    hi
    seyesal
    mostpoppedout)
    Muso:
    Pri
    ncess
    Me:
    hi(Iwassocal
    m)
    WhatIhatengamiIcanbecal
    m kumele
    ngi
    casuke.Ihat
    ethewayGodhascreat
    edme

    Muso:
    itsnotwhaty
    out
    hinki
    tis
    Me: ok,
    ,
    ,,
    ,Musohadt hi
    s"i
    t'
    snotwhatyout
    hink
    i
    tis"bengingazamaziwamthat
    hakuphi
    Muso:
    real
    l
    yPr
    incess
    Me:
    oK
    Muso: babysaysomet
    hing,
    itsr
    eal
    l
    ynotwhat
    yout
    hinkitis
    Gi
    rl:
    whati
    sgoi
    ngonher
    e?
    Muso:
    not
    hing
    Gi
    rl:
    don'
    tsayi
    tsnot
    hing,
    whoi
    sthi
    s?
    Muso:
    Pri
    ncess
    Me:whati
    sshedoi
    ngher
    e,y
    ousai
    dyoubr
    oke
    upwi
    thher
    Muso:
    cany
    ougi
    veussomepr
    ivacy
    ?
    Gi
    rl;no!
    !!
    whatpri
    vacy
    ?ifi
    t'
    snothingt
    hensay
    whateveryouwannasayi
    nfrontofme
    Muso:
    stayawayf
    rom t
    hisPhi
    ndi
    l
    e!!
    !

    Tearswer
    estreamingdownmycheeks,Idi
    dn'
    t
    knowwhattosay,Idi
    dn'tknowwhatt
    omake
    outofwhatIwasseeing.

    Me: Ihav
    etogo,
    Iam sor
    ryPhi
    ndi
    l
    etodi
    stur
    b
    youguys
    Muso:
    youar
    enotgoi
    nganywher
    e,Phi
    ndi
    l
    eis!
    !
    Phi
    ndi
    l
    e:Iam notgoi
    nganywher
    e!!
    Me:
    no,
    Iam l
    eav
    ing
    Muso;
    Pri
    ncessy
    ouar
    enotgoi
    ngany
    wher
    e!!
    Me:
    tryme
    Muso:Phi
    ndi
    l
    egoandpacky
    ourt
    hings,
    you
    ar
    eleav
    ing
    Phi
    ndi l
    e:i
    fy outhi
    nkthatIam l eavi
    ngthenyou
    hav
    eanot herthi
    ngcomi ng,lastnit
    ewhi l
    eyou
    werehumpi ngmet ell
    i
    ngme, youlovemeonly
    me,y oudi
    dn'tmentionanythingaboutme
    l
    eavingthi
    sear l
    ysobhut i
    Iam notgoi ng
    any
    wher e!
    !

    Me;it
    sokPhindi
    le,
    Iam l
    eav
    ing,
    anyf
    ool
    can
    seewhati
    sgoingonher
    e

    Iqui cklyexi
    tedthefl
    at,
    Musocamer ushing
    aftermewhenhewasi nf i
    rstfl
    oorher eali
    zed
    thathewasi nhi
    sboxershortsonly,heranback
    Iopenedt hegateandrushedout .Itookat axi
    tothet axiranki
    nBell
    vil
    leandt ookanotherone
    tor es.WhenIgott her
    ehewasal readyinthe
    parki nglot,
    hegotoutoft hecarassoonashe
    sawme
    Me: (Iwhispered)pl
    easeIdon'twannamakea
    scenejustwalkaway, got
    oy ourPhindi
    l
    e
    Muso:
    Iam notgoi
    ngany
    wher
    e

    Ij
    ustkeptonwal
    ki
    ng,
    Iwentt
    omyr
    oom,
    hegot
    i
    n

    Muso:
    Iam sor
    ryPr
    incess
    Me:
    notassor
    ryasIam Pr
    ince
    Muso: don'
    tsayt
    hat,i
    twasamomentof
    weaknessIswearIdon'
    tl
    ovet
    hatgi
    rl
    Me:
    finet
    henl
    eav
    e
    Muso:
    pleasePr
    incess
    Me:
    gobackt
    oyourPhi
    ndi
    l
    ePr
    ince
    Muso: Idon'
    tl
    oveherbel
    iev
    emewhenIsayi t
    wasamomentofweakness, Iam aman
    Pr
    incess,i
    tsbeen3year
    salmost4ngi
    thandana
    naweandwenev ermadelove,notthatIam
    sayi
    ngi
    tsyourfaul
    t,Iwi
    l
    lneverpressuri
    zeyou,
    I
    wil
    lwai
    tforyouti
    lly
    ouareready

    Me:hel
    lyes!!,
    Iwil
    lnotbepressur
    izedbyyouif
    youwannago, t
    hedoorisopen.Iwil
    lhavesex
    whenIam ready!
    !
    Muso:Iknowandt r
    ustmeIwil
    lwai
    t.For
    giv
    e
    mepleasePr
    incessthatwi
    l
    lnev
    erhappen
    agai
    n

    Me:maybeitwasami
    staket
    hatIcamet
    o
    st
    udyt
    hissi
    de
    Muso:
    itwasnot
    ,Il
    ovey
    ou

    Ihav
    ebeenholdingt
    ear
    sandnowt
    heywer
    e
    fl
    owing.Musocametohugme
    Muso:
    nxol
    eleMar
    hadebenceseMashwabada

    Iwassohur tinawaythatIwasaskingmy self


    whatisitthatIam notdoingri
    ght?may beI
    shouldjustsleepwit
    hhim sothathewon'tgo
    andlookf oritsomewherebutIwasnotr eady,
    mustIsacr i
    ficemyprideforaman?y esIloved
    hi
    m wi t
    hal lmyheartbutwashewor thit
    ?

    Sne;
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    21:
    48]Mca:
    INSERT23

    Muso:
    baby
    Me:
    mhmmm?
    Muso:
    Iam t
    alki
    ngt
    oyou
    Me:
    uthi
    ni?
    Muso:
    pleasef
    orgi
    veme
    Me:
    Ihear
    dyoui
    t'
    sok,
    ,
    ,If
    orgi
    vey
    ou
    Muso:
    ser
    ious?
    ??
    Me:y esser
    ious,
    ,
    ,,Ismi
    l
    edr
    eal
    i
    zingt
    hatno
    matt
    erhowmuchMusowashur ti
    ngmeIsti
    ll
    l
    ovedhim
    Muso:
    thanky
    oumyangel
    Me:
    nopr
    obl
    em

    Iwasgoingtogivehim anot
    herchance,cal
    lme
    st
    upidbuttrustmeIlovedthi
    sman, IdoubtI
    woul
    dsur v
    ivewithouthi
    m

    Muso:
    youhav
    eagoodhear
    tPr
    incess
    Me:
    Iknow
    Muso:
    Iam suchabast
    ard,
    Idon'
    tdeser
    vey
    ou
    Me:
    weal
    lmakemi
    stakes
    Muso:
    whatki
    ndofaper
    sonwhowi
    l
    lhur
    t
    someonehel
    oves
    Me:
    amonst
    er(Ismi
    l
    ed)Iam j
    oki
    ng
    Muso:
    Iam amonst
    erPr
    incess,
    Ireal
    l
    yfeel
    bad
    Me:don'
    tbeasl
    ongasy
    oul
    ear
    nfr
    om y
    our
    mi
    stakes
    Muso:
    whydi
    dn'
    tGodgi
    vemey
    ourhear
    t
    Me:
    youhav
    emyhear
    t
    Muso:
    IknowAngel
    andIam sogr
    atef
    ulf
    or
    t
    hat

    Ifor
    gaveMuso, seri
    ouslyIdidbutitwashardt
    o
    tr
    usthim agai
    n,hewast ryi
    nghislevelbest
    shamebutI twasjusthardtotrusthi
    m asthey
    say"tr
    ustisli
    keaglassoncebr okenitwil
    l
    neverbethesameagai n"

    Wewer
    est
    il
    li
    nlov
    enoMuso,
    het
    ri
    edhi
    slev
    el
    best,onedayhedayhei nv
    itedmetohisfl
    athe
    madei tsor omant
    icshame,heboughtmea
    si
    lvernecklacewit
    htwohalveheart
    s,,
    ther
    e
    weref acesofus.

    Iwrotemyex amsf or2ndsemest erandIwas


    donenott hatitwaseasyi twashel lsemest er
    courseisnotachi ld'splayanddr awinggav e
    mechal lengesbutIpulledthroughIwasso
    sureIwasgoi ngtopul lthr
    oughnakwi second
    semest erwithoutadoubt .Iwenthomebef ore
    Muso, hewaswor kingti
    llt
    he15Decemberand
    Ifi
    nishedont he20NovIcoul dn'twaitforhim
    shameImi ssedhomeandmi ssedmypar ents.

    ItookI
    nter
    capeonthe24Nov emberofcourse
    Musowentt odr
    opmei nTygerv
    all
    eywesaid
    ourgoodbyes.I
    twasalongdriv
    eIgotoffku
    N2garageeKokstadfol
    lowi
    ngdaymypar ents
    wer
    ether
    ealr
    eady
    ,whawIj
    ustcr
    iedwhenIsaw
    t
    hem t
    heybot
    hhuggedme.

    Me:
    Imi
    ssedy
    ouguy
    s
    Dad:
    hel
    l
    owmyangel
    Mom :
    hel
    l
    owpi
    ki
    nini
    kamama
    Me:
    ahhaaTot
    i
    Dad:
    Iwassoafr
    aidthatCapet
    ownwi
    l
    lmake
    myangel
    nott
    omi ssus
    Me:
    notbyanychance

    Wewenthome.I
    twasreal
    l
    yni
    cet
    obeathome.
    Igr
    eet
    edausi
    Ntsoaki
    whowasal
    sogl
    adtosee
    me

    Dadwentt
    owork.Mom t
    ookadayoff
    .It
    ooka
    bat
    handwentt
    obedandIdozedof
    f
    i
    mmediatel
    y,af
    ter4hoursIwokeup,
    rinsemy
    mouthandwenttothel
    ounge,mymom was
    t
    here

    Mom :
    hel
    l
    owmyAngel
    Me:
    hel
    l
    owTot
    i
    Mom :
    comesi
    tnextt
    ome

    Iwentt
    osi
    tnextt
    oher

    Mom:tel
    lmehowi
    ster
    ti
    ary#Tot
    icanbeso
    f
    orwar
    d
    Me;
    finewet
    huTot
    i
    Mom :
    anyf
    ri
    ends?
    Me:
    yha,
    notmanyonl
    yone,
    ,
    ,Zee
    Mom:
    Iknowy
    ou
    Me:
    hahaha
    Muso:
    andMusoar
    eyoust
    il
    lok?
    Me:
    (myf
    acechanged)wear
    eokTot
    i,
    ,
    ,Il
    i
    ed
    Mom :
    whoar
    eyouf
    ool
    i
    ngAngel
    ?

    Honestl
    ywedospeakabouteveryt
    hingwit
    hmy
    mom, Ifeel
    comf or
    tabl
    ewi
    thhersother
    ewas
    nopointinl
    ying

    Me:Muso..
    .Hascheat
    edonmeTot i
    ,sever
    all
    y
    t
    imesandIkeeponfor
    giv
    inghi
    m,,
    ,am Iafool??
    Mom :
    nomyAngel
    itsbecausey
    oul
    ovehi
    m
    Me:
    buti
    thut
    sTot
    i
    Mom :i
    tsnor
    mal t
    ohurt
    ,buti
    tsnotnor
    mal
    for
    aper
    sontocheatonyou
    Me:
    may
    bei
    tsmyf
    aul
    tTot
    i
    Mom :
    no!
    !It
    snoty
    ourf
    aul
    tmybaby
    ,nev
    er
    makeanexcuseforsomeonewhoi
    shur
    ti
    ng
    youbecauseaf
    teral
    li
    tshi
    schoi
    cet
    ocheat
    Me:i
    tisTot
    i,maybei
    fIsleepwi
    thhim,
    he
    woul
    dstopcheat
    ing,
    itsbeen4year
    snow
    Mom;
    Sexdoesn'
    tmakepeopl
    est
    opcheat
    ing
    Me:
    whatmustIdoTot
    i?Il
    ovehi
    m
    Mom:
    justbeur
    sel
    f
    Me: i
    tshar
    dTot
    i,It
    houghthel
    ovedmebutI
    doubtnow
    Mom:justdon'
    tdothi
    ngsy
    ouarenot
    comf
    ortabl
    ewithj
    usttomakehi
    m happy
    Me:
    anddaddy
    ,di
    dheev
    ercheatony
    ou
    Mom:yesmyangel ,butIbeliev
    edinourlove,
    menwillal
    way sbement hat'swhyther
    ei sthat
    80-
    20thing.Inwhateverthathappens,don'
    tlet
    amandest royyou,
    youhav eusandwewi ll
    al
    wayslovey ouandwewi llneverj
    udgeyou
    UYEZWA! !
    Me:
    yesTot
    i,,
    ngi
    yabonga
    Mom : good, comehere,shehuggedmet i
    ght
    ly
    andniyamazi uSnengeny embezi
    ,Icr
    iednon
    stop.It
    sokbabyasl ongasy oucr
    yonmy
    shoulder.Icalmeddown
    Me:
    pleasedon'
    ttel
    ldad
    Mom :
    Iwon'
    ti
    tsgi
    rl
    stal
    kvel
    e(wel
    aughed)

    Il
    ovemymom kodwa.Shei
    sjustamazi
    ng

    Yhanhe

    Sne;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    21:
    48]Mca:
    INSERT24

    I
    twasnowJanuary,
    itwastimeformetogo
    backt
    oschool
    ,unf
    ortunat
    elyMusodi
    dn'
    tcome
    homeaspl annedsayingfi
    nancesdidn'
    tallow
    hi
    mt oanywayi twasnotatrainsmashIwas
    goingtobewi thhimthewhol eyear
    .Ijust
    hopedt hattheyearwouldbelesshecticthan
    l
    asty earandlit
    tledi
    dIknowt hati
    twasj ustthe
    beginning.

    Ididregisterandcl assescommenced, Muso


    compl etedhisdiploma, hewasgoi ngtogr adin
    Aprilandhewassupposet ostartonhi snew
    j
    obnge1ofMaybutbecauseofsome
    unforeseencircumst ancest hatoccurred
    emsenenzi niwakhekwamel eaqaleear l
    ier
    , he
    wasgoi ngt oworki nthesamecompanybut
    permanent lynow, hisparentswer epay i
    ngf or
    hisfeesandhi sflat1standsecondy earthe
    thi
    rdy earhepaidf orhisflatsincehewas
    working,wewer est il
    lfi
    nebutIj ustnoti
    cedt hat
    hewasnothi mself .
    Ihavebeenaski
    nghimift
    her
    ewassomet hing
    wrongbuthewouldsayit
    snothi
    nghecan'tfi
    x,
    hewassonothappyshameanditpai
    nedme
    thatIcoul
    dn'
    thel
    p.

    Onedaywewereinmyr oom,yesIwasdoing
    secondy
    earsoIgotasingl
    eroom andZeewas
    al
    sostay
    ingi
    nhersingl
    eroom

    Wewerelyi
    ngont
    hebedonourbacks.Hewas
    soqui
    et,
    hewasdefi
    nit
    elymi
    l
    esaway

    Me:babywhatisgoi
    ngonngempela?and
    don'
    ttel
    lmeit
    snothi
    ngcasIknowsomethi
    ng
    i
    snotr i
    ght

    Muso;
    itsokPr
    incess
    Me:
    no,
    tal
    ktomewhatev
    eri
    tisIcanhandl
    e,,
    ,
    j
    ustt
    ell
    me,
    itpai
    nsmet
    oseey
    oul
    i
    ket
    his
    Muso:Pr
    inces,
    myl
    i
    fei
    samess,
    Iam f
    all
    i
    ng
    apar
    t
    Me:
    how?t
    alkt
    ome
    Muso: Iwon'tbeabletograduat
    eandIdoubtI
    wil
    lbeabletodot hejobIstudi
    edf orandthe
    chancesofregist
    eri
    ngformyB- techthisy
    ear
    arenil
    Me:
    (shocked)Isatup.Why
    ?

    Muso:
    itsal
    ongst
    ory
    Me:
    makei
    tshor
    tPr
    incepl
    ease
    Muso:
    ther
    eisnot
    hingwecandoPr
    incess
    Me:
    eveni
    fther
    eisnot
    hingwecando,
    justt
    alk
    t
    ome
    Muso:
    mymotherf
    onedmengoDecember
    t
    ell
    i
    ngmet
    hatshewon'
    tbeabl
    etopayt
    he
    moneyt hatIoweher ewhi chmeansIwon' tget
    mycer t
    ifi
    cateandy ouknowwhatdoest hat
    meanIwi l
    lhav enothingtosubmi temsebenzini
    wami cast hecer t
    if
    icateisneededt oconfi
    rm
    thatIhavef i
    nishedmydi pl
    omaandasf or
    i
    ndawoy ohlal
    aIdon' tknowwher ewi l
    lIbe
    stayi
    ngbecauseIwon' taff
    ordi-r
    entsot heonly
    wayist ogobackhomendi zameumsebenzi
    from t
    heresot hatIwillbeablet
    opayt he
    moneyIoweher e.

    Heexhal
    edi
    npai
    n

    Wewer esoqui
    te.YeshehashurtmebutI
    di
    dn'
    twishhim anyt
    hingbadandhei
    ssucha
    br
    il
    li
    antguyt
    ojustsitaround

    Me:
    whatabouty
    oursi
    ster
    ?
    Muso:sheismarr
    iednow,
    shehas
    r
    esponsi
    bil
    i
    ties
    Me:
    Iam sur
    eyourpar
    ent
    scandosomet
    hing
    Muso: t
    rustmethereisnothingtheycando,
    theyareindeepdebtsthemoneyt hatIsaved,i
    t
    allwenttoNtatisschoolf
    ees, youknowOxf ord
    i
    nternati
    onalandtheirf
    ees,andal soTapelo's
    feessoIdon'thaveanymoneyl eftandIdon't
    knowt hattodo.Ithi
    nkIwil
    l beleavingnext
    Thursday.

    Yhoo

    [
    08/
    17,
    21:
    46]Mca:
    INSERT25

    Muso: Iwast
    hinki
    ngofsell
    ingmycarbutI
    don'
    tknowhowl ongwi
    lli
    ttaketogetabuy
    er
    Me:
    no!
    !,
    don'
    tsel
    li
    tyouwi
    l
    lneedi
    tforwor
    k
    Muso:
    I'
    mleav
    ingnextweekThur
    sday
    Me:
    no,
    youar
    enotgoi
    ngany
    wher
    e
    Muso:
    Idon'
    thav
    eachoi
    cePr
    incess

    Ikeptqui
    te,
    webot
    hdi
    d

    Me;
    Iwi
    l
    lhel
    pyou
    Muso:
    no!!Pr
    incess,
    youcan'
    tasky
    ourpar
    ent
    s
    t
    opayformyfees
    Me:
    Iwon'
    t
    Muso:
    mhmmm?
    ??
    Me:
    letmehel
    pyou
    Muso:whereareyougoi
    ngtogetthatmoney
    caswearelooki
    ngatabout18000incl
    udi
    ng
    myregi
    str
    ationfort
    hisy
    ear.
    Me:
    letmehel
    pyou
    Muso:
    howPr
    incess?
    Me: Idohav emoney ,
    Ihav esav edal ot
    ,
    rememberIhav etwobur sari
    es, topbur sar i
    es
    soitsonlyonet hatispayingformyt uit
    ionf ees
    andresandaf tertheyhadpai dIwi llbest i
    lll
    eft
    withal
    mostR42. 000andt heygi veme
    all
    owancemont hlyandtheot herbur sarydoes
    nothi
    ng.Itonlybuybookssot hemoneyj ust
    goesstraightintomysav ingsandt heyal sogi v
    e
    memont hlyall
    owance, andf orthisy eart heywill
    payinamont h'st i
    me.

    ThemoneyIgotf rom t
    hedepar tmentf or
    gett
    ingdisti
    ncti
    onsi nallmysubj ectsitssti
    l
    l
    ther
    emypar entsdidn'
    ttakeittheysaidi twas
    mineandt heyst i
    l
    lgivememont hl yal
    lowance
    andmyeducat i
    onal i
    nvestmenttheymadei t
    avai
    labl
    et omesodon' tstr
    essaboutmeas
    l
    ongasy ouwi llgetyourcerti
    fi
    cat e,gr
    aduate
    anddoy ourB-tech
    Muso: (hewascr
    ying)t
    hisi
    ssonotri
    ght
    ,I
    can'
    ttakeyourmoney,y
    ouworkedhar
    dfori
    t
    Pri
    ncess
    Me: ifitwill
    makey oufeelr
    ight,t
    akeitasa
    l
    oanwheny ouaredonewithev er
    ythi
    ngt hen
    youcanpaymeback, butr
    ememberIdon' t
    wanty out opaymenecent .AllIam doing,Iam
    doingoutofl ovecasIknownawe, i
    fitwasme,
    youwoul dhavedonethesameandr emember
    evenify ouwannaleavemey oudon'tneedt o
    payme.Genui ne

    Muso:Idon'
    tdeserveyouPri
    ncessaftert
    he
    pai
    nthatIhavecausedyou,thebetr
    ayalyou
    sti
    l
    lseethebesti
    nmeandy oustil
    lbel
    iev
    ein
    me.Thankyou(hewasst il
    lcryi
    ng)
    Me:youdon'
    thavetocryother
    wisey
    ouwil
    l
    makemecrytoo,
    Ifeltt
    earsmakingt
    hei
    rway
    outal
    ready

    Muso: Iam sorr


    yPrincess,
    youdon'thav eany
    i
    deawhaty oujustdidforme,Ithoughtthatmy
    l
    if
    ewasov er,thi
    salmostkil
    ledme, Icouldn'
    t
    pi
    ctur
    emy selfsi
    tti
    nghomedoi ngnot hi
    ng
    Me:bei
    ngamandoesn'
    tmeanthatyoumust
    actl
    i
    kesuper
    man.Wheni
    syourregi
    str
    ati
    on

    Muso:
    nextweekTuesday
    Me: goodt hengi vemey ourbankaccount ,Iwil
    l
    dot het r
    ansfer,thenyoucanpayandgety our
    resultstomor rowandr egister,t
    omor r
    owIhav e
    nocl assesIwi ll
    goanddeposi tmoneyf oryour
    rentIwi l
    lpay6mont hsadv ance,thatwil
    lgive
    yout imet oplanandhel py ourparents
    fi
    nanci al
    ly.
    Muso:Idon'
    tknowwhatt
    odoandsay ,y
    ou
    r
    eal
    lyar
    eablessingi
    nmyli
    fePr
    incess
    Me:
    andy
    ouar
    eal
    soonet
    ome

    Wehugged

    Ididt
    hetransferR12600forl
    astyear
    sfees,
    R2200forregist
    rat
    ionandR6000forhispocket
    moneybyt hewayhewasgoi ngtostart
    worki
    ngsoonandgetpai dsohewi l
    lsurvi
    ve
    thenIwaslefttogoanddeposithi
    srentmoney

    Ansmsbeepedi
    nhi
    sphone

    Muso:Pri
    ncess!
    !!
    !Thi
    siswr ongwhati
    sthi
    s
    moneyfor?Youweresupposetodeposi
    t
    R14800notR20800(hewasshocked)
    Me:IknowR6000i sfory
    ourpocketmoney
    f
    rom nowti
    lly
    oustartworki
    ng,r
    ememberyou
    musthavepet
    rol
    ,foodandblabl
    abla
    Muso:not
    hisi
    stoomuchIcan'
    tasky
    out
    odo
    t
    hatt
    oo
    Me:
    wel
    lyoudi
    dn'
    t,Ij
    ustdi
    ditv
    olunt
    ary
    Muso:
    thanky
    ou
    Me:
    youwel
    come

    Hethenfonedhismother
    ,heputthef
    oneon
    l
    oudspeaker,
    itr
    angandshepickedup

    Muso'
    smom :
    mrat
    uwawaka(dar
    li
    ng)
    Muso:
    dumel
    ama(
    hel
    l
    owmha)
    M.
    m:howar
    eyoubaby

    Hecr
    ied.NchoooIbr
    ushedhi
    sback
    M.m:IknowboyandIam sosor
    ry,
    Ifail
    edy
    ou
    asamother
    ,wefai
    ledyouaspar
    ents.
    ..
    Muso:
    mom
    M.m:Iam sor
    rymyboyIhopeonedayy
    ouwi
    l
    l
    f
    orgi
    veme
    Muso:
    mom!
    !
    M.
    m:whenar
    eyoucomi
    ngback?
    Muso:mom, Iam notcomi
    ngback,
    Iam goi
    ng
    tor
    egi
    stert
    omorrowandpaythemoneythatI
    owe
    M.
    m:how?
    Muso:Pri
    ncessgavemethemoneyandshei
    s
    goi
    ngtopayrentf
    ormyfl
    at,soy
    oudon'
    thave
    towor
    ry
    M.m:Pr
    incess!
    !!
    ,mymakot
    i(mydaught
    eri
    n
    l
    aw)
    Muso:
    yesmom,
    yourmakot
    i
    M.m: auwuModimu(
    ohmyGod)wher
    edi
    dshe
    getsuchmoney
    Muso: shetooki
    tfr
    om herbur
    sary
    ,shehas
    beensavingsoshej
    ustdeposi
    tedR20800i
    nto
    myaccount
    M.
    m:umaka(
    youar
    ely
    ing)
    Muso:
    kannet
    e(r
    eal
    l
    y?)
    M.m Modi muwher edi
    dy ougetsuchay oung
    babyyetsomat ureandsoconsi der
    ateand
    beauti
    fulheartkodwa, tel
    lherIwill
    forev
    erbe
    grat
    efultoherf orwhatshedid,Idoubteven
    yourbloodsistersorbrother
    swoul dhavedone
    whatshedi d,sheissuchanangel .
    Muso;
    tel
    lhery
    our
    sel
    f,y
    ouar
    eonl
    oudspeaker

    Wewerenott
    hatcl
    osenomhakaMuso,y
    esI
    hav
    espokent
    oheronthef
    onesev
    eral
    l
    yti
    mes,
    sheseemst
    obeani
    ceandsweetper
    son

    M.
    m:makot
    i(mydaught
    eri
    nlaw)
    Me:
    hel
    l
    owmha
    M.
    m:nganey
    ami
    kunj
    ani
    (howar
    eyoumychi
    l
    d)
    Me:
    ngi
    khonamhawena(
    fi
    nemommyandy
    ou)
    M. m: ngikhonanami ,youjustsavedmychi l
    d
    from beingal aughingst ockofthesestreet
    smy
    chil
    d,y ousavedmychi ldf r
    om drugs,f
    rom all
    theev i
    l t
    hingswitht hatIwillf
    oreverbegratef
    ul
    Mar hadebe, y
    our eallyhaveagoodhear t
    Me:
    soi
    syourchi
    l
    dmha
    Mm :akukhokuhl
    enezePri
    ncessbutassoon
    asweareokwewi ll
    payy
    oumychi l
    d
    Me:
    youdon'
    thav
    etomha
    M.
    m:wehav
    etomychi
    l
    d
    Me:
    ok,
    let
    'ssayMusowi
    l
    lpayi
    twhenhei
    sok
    M.
    m:hahhaaha,
    thanxagai
    nmyangel
    Me:
    thanxmha,
    byemha
    M.m: byemyangel,
    Muso, ukenjeugange
    ngal
    onganeuzongazi(
    ifyoudaremesswi t
    hher
    ,Iwil
    ldealwi
    thyou)notafterwhatshehas
    doneforyou,
    uyangi
    zwa!!

    Muso:
    yebomha(y
    esmom)
    M.m: good,ngi
    yani
    thandakenganezami
    (Il
    ove
    youbabies)
    Musoandme:si
    yakut
    handanat
    himha(
    we
    l
    oveyout
    oomommy )

    Hedr
    oppedt
    hecal
    l

    y
    hanheeukut
    handamaar
    a
    Sne;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    21:
    49]Mca:
    INSERT26

    Muso:
    mymom l
    ovesy
    ou
    Me:
    Iknowt
    hat
    Muso:
    ifangezwawhatIdi
    dshewi
    l
    lki
    l
    lme
    Me:
    argghmaar
    nyoudon'
    tneedt
    ofeel
    bad
    Muso:
    butIdo
    Me: r
    eal
    l
    yyoudon'
    thav
    etoi
    tsal
    li
    nthepast
    now

    Hespentt
    heniteatmypl
    ace,
    itwasgoodt
    o
    seehi
    m happyagai
    n

    I
    twasbusi
    nessasusual
    ,Iwasdoinggreat
    Musohadr
    egist
    ered,
    Ipai
    dhisrent,
    hehad
    gr
    aduat
    ed,
    hewasnowwor kingandhewas
    earningalottr
    ustme, het
    ri
    edtostartpayi
    ng
    offthemoneyIgav ehimimmedi at
    elybutI
    refused,Iwant
    edhimt ohelphermotherfi
    rst
    thenwhenhei sokhecanpaymebackbut
    honestlyIdi
    dn'twanthimtopayitbackbut
    men' sego.

    OldMusowasst ar
    ti
    ngtocropupagain,Iwoul
    d
    call
    him andhewoul di
    gnoremycall
    sandhav e
    excusesinthemorningbutasusualIt
    hought
    hewasj ustbusyandti
    red,maybehewas
    workinghard

    OneSaturdayIfonedhimitwas2weeks
    si
    ngasabonani.Hepickedup

    Muso:
    Pri
    ncess?
    Me:
    hi,
    howar
    eyoudoi
    ng?
    Muso:
    goodt
    hanxandy
    ou?
    Me:
    Iam gr
    eat
    ,youar
    esoscar
    ce

    Si
    l
    ent

    Me:
    Imi
    ssy
    ou,
    cany
    oupi
    ckmeuppl
    ease
    Muso:
    nol
    ove,
    Ican'
    t
    Me:
    itsf
    ineIwi
    l
    ltakeat
    axi
    then
    Muso:Iam notwel
    lPr
    incess,
    Iwi
    l
    lhav
    ean
    ear
    lyni
    te
    Me:
    ohhgetwel
    lthenandgoodni
    te
    Muso:
    nit
    epr
    incess
    Me:
    Ilov
    eyou

    Hedr
    oppedt
    hecal
    l
    .Ohhk?
    ???
    ?:-
    (
    ThenZeecamei
    naf
    tersomet
    ime

    Zee:
    Pri
    ncess?
    Me:
    hey
    Zee: pl
    easebereadywear
    egoi
    ngtol
    ong
    str
    eetmyf ri
    end,
    Ichomi
    ekaPhumzawil
    lpi
    ck
    usjustgir
    lsmaybeIwil
    lal
    someetmyPri
    nce
    charming
    Me:
    nomyf
    ri
    endIdon'
    tfeel
    li
    kegoi
    ngout
    Zee:
    yesyouar
    egoi
    ng,
    ber
    eadyIwi
    l
    lbeher
    ein
    30mint
    ime
    Me:
    doIhav
    eachoi
    ce?
    Zee:
    no!
    !
    Me:
    mfxmm

    Iwentt
    otakeashower
    ,cameback,
    lot
    ioned
    mysel
    fandworemyshort,
    nott
    hatshortj
    ust
    abov emykneesr eddr ess,Il
    ovef oschi ni
    dressest heyareverysimpleyetsophi st i
    cated.
    Youwoul dsweartheywer edesignedf orme, I
    putmybl ackheelohhIlovestil
    lettosat least
    zi
    y abuf
    ihlaubufushanebami .Icombedmy18
    i
    nchBr azili
    anweav eandIletitloose, putabi t
    ofmakeup, Iam notamakeupper sont hough
    andIf i
    nishedthelookbyappl yi
    ngal ipgl oss.

    Zeecamei
    nnoPhumza

    Zee:y
    hoomyfr
    iendar
    ey ougoi
    ngf
    oranawar
    d
    cer
    emony,
    youl
    ookstunning
    Me:
    thanky
    ou
    Zee:
    let
    'sgo

    Phumzasfriendwasal
    readyi
    nthepar
    king.We
    goti
    ntohercarandgr
    eetedher
    Her
    :hi
    guy
    s
    Phumza: guy
    sthi
    sisOdwa,
    Odwa,
    thi
    sis
    Zi
    ziphoandSne
    Odwa:
    nicet
    omeety
    ou
    Us:
    li
    kewi
    se

    Wegott herear ound8: 30Idon' tli


    kecl ubscasI
    don'tdr i
    nkbutIdon' tmi ndgoi ngwithgal s.We
    l
    ookedf orat abletositwef oundone, we
    orderedourdr i
    nks,theyor deredt heirst uf
    fIjust
    orderedgr apetizer
    ,wechat tedandwewer e
    l
    aughi ngandenj oyi
    ngourl adi esnitej ust
    acrossust herewer e2guy sdr i
    nkingt heirstuff
    ,
    theot herguykeptonl ooki ngatme, Ijust
    i
    gnor edhi m buthisey eswer epierci
    ngt hrough
    myski n,Iwassouncomf ortablebutIi gnored
    him,Ihav emyMusomi nawhatev erhei s
    thi
    nkinghemustj ustgetl ost ,hecalledawai t
    er
    thent hewai tercamet ous
    Wai
    ter:
    excusemel
    adi
    es
    Zee:
    canwehel
    pyou
    Waiter:t
    hatguyov ert
    here(hepoi
    ntedthe
    sameguywhohasbeent r
    yingtomurderme
    withhiseyes)
    ,sentmet ocomeandt el
    lyou
    thatyoucanorderanythi
    ngy ouwanthewil
    lpay

    Ianswer
    edf
    ir
    st

    Me:
    no!
    !Tel
    lhi
    m wear
    efi
    ne
    Zee: nononomy f
    ri
    end,bhut
    iwewi
    ll
    order
    ,
    theyagainorder
    edthei
    rstuf
    fand1more
    grapeti
    zerf
    orme
    Thewai
    terl
    eft

    Thesameguyst
    oopupandcamet
    oourt
    abl
    e.
    Yhoohewassof i
    ne, damm Ni gga,Musoi s
    beautif
    ul,butthi
    sisbeaut i
    ful
    ,theconfi
    dence
    whenhewal ks,i
    zigwegwe, yhoosomel adies
    areblessedshame.Ladi esy ourememberI dri
    s
    ElbainDaddysl it
    tlegalsandl ongwalkto
    freedom.Yeshi sbody ,hi
    sst r
    uctureexcept
    thatthi
    sni ggawasl i
    ghteri
    ncol ourand
    beautif
    ul

    Hi
    m:l
    adi
    es
    Zee:
    hi
    Hi
    m:howar
    eyout
    hisev
    eni
    ng
    Zee:
    goodt
    hansandy
    ou
    Hi
    m:gr
    eat
    Zee:thansforthedri
    nkshopewedi
    dn'
    tgo
    deeperi
    ny ourwall
    et
    Hi
    m:any
    thi
    ngf
    ory
    oubeaut
    if
    ull
    adi
    es
    Hi
    m:canIst
    eal
    thi
    sladyf
    orf
    ewmi
    nut
    es
    Iwasonmyf
    onewhenZeecal
    l
    edmyname

    Zee:
    Sne

    Il
    i
    ftedmyhead

    Me.:
    heeee
    Hi
    m:canIt
    alkt
    oyouf
    orf
    ewmi
    nut
    espl
    ease

    IwasabouttoanswerwhenMusowal kedi
    n
    wit
    hagirl
    ,thesamegir
    l,Phi
    ndil
    ehewas
    holdi
    ngherwaistt
    heywerel
    aughingandso
    cosy
    Me:
    Muso?
    ?(l
    owv
    oice,
    Isai
    dthati
    ndi
    sbel
    i
    ef)
    Yhooooo:
    -(

    I
    NSERT27

    Everyonelookedatmeandint
    hedir
    ecti
    on
    whereIwasl ooki
    ngat
    .Hesawusandletgoof
    Phindi
    le,
    hecamet ome

    Muso:
    Pri
    ncessIcanexpl
    ain
    Me:
    (Iwassocal
    m)noneed

    It
    ookmyf
    oneandcal
    l
    edacab

    Muso:
    Pri
    ncesst
    hisi
    snotwhaty
    out
    hinki
    tis
    Me:
    ok
    Muso:
    pleaseAngel
    Me:ok!
    !!
    !Ifel
    tstupi
    dhowcoul
    dIt
    rustMuso,
    howcouldIbel
    i
    ev ehi
    m
    Muso:
    canwet
    alkpl
    ease
    Me:
    no!
    !
    Muso:
    pleaseAngel
    Phi
    ndile:
    overmydeadbodyIam sickandti
    red
    ofyouandt hi
    sbi
    tch,
    itsal
    way
    sPrincessthi
    s
    ,Pr
    incessthat
    Me: Musocany
    oul
    eav
    e,y
    ouar
    emaki
    nga
    scene

    Muso:
    canwet
    alk
    Me:
    no!
    !

    Thecabguyf
    onedat
    hiusemny
    ango

    Me:
    ladi
    esseey
    ou,I
    '
    m sor
    ryf
    orspoi
    l
    ingy
    our
    ni
    te
    Zee:
    arey
    ougoi
    ngt
    obeok?
    Me:
    yesdar
    li
    ngIwi
    l
    l
    Muso:
    canIt
    akey
    ouhome
    Me:
    youwoul
    dn'
    tdar
    e

    Iwalkedouthetri
    edtofol
    lowmebutPhi
    ndil
    e
    grabbedhim,Iam gl
    adshedid,
    Iwal
    ked
    st
    r ai
    ghti
    ntothecab,andt
    heguywhobought
    usdrinkswasfol
    lowingme

    Guy
    :letmet
    akey
    ouhomei
    t'
    sthel
    eastIcando
    Me:
    not
    hanx
    Guy
    :noonehasev
    ert
    urnedmedown
    Me:
    Iam notev
    ery
    one!
    Guy:canIhavey
    ournumberpl
    easesot
    hatI
    canchecki
    fyouareok
    Me:
    bye

    Heopenedt
    hedoorf
    ormeIgoti
    ntot
    hecab
    andl
    eft

    Iwassoheartbr
    oken,
    Icri
    edsilent
    lyal
    ltheway
    fr
    om Capet
    ownt oBel
    lvi
    l
    le.Ipaidt
    hecaband
    wenttomyroom

    Musot r
    iedt ocallmet hatnite.WhenIwokeup
    Ihad30mi ssedcal l
    sf rom him and3smses
    from him Ijustdel etedt hem wi t
    houtev en
    readingthem.Af terthatMusonev ercal
    ledor
    sms, itwasf inebymebutImi ssedhi mjudge
    mebutIl ovedt heguywi t
    hev erythingIhad,
    besideshi sot hersidehewasanangel ,
    so
    l
    ov i
    ngandsodownt oear thper sonshame
    AweekpassedbyIcoul dn'ttakeitImissedhi
    m
    sobadly,Iwantedtocal
    lhimt ellhi
    m Il
    ovehim,
    Ineedhim butIdeci
    dednott o.Wewer enowin
    secondweek, sti
    l
    lnocal
    l.Finall
    yIrecei
    veda
    cal
    lfrom Muso

    Me:
    Pri
    nce?
    Muso:
    Pri
    ncess
    Me:
    howar
    eyoudoi
    ng?
    Muso:
    goodandy
    ou?
    Me:
    great
    Muso:
    canwemeetar
    ound1:
    30
    Me:
    yes,
    wher
    e?
    Muso:pr
    efer
    abl
    einaqui
    tepl
    ace,
    Ineedt
    otal
    k
    t
    oyou
    Me: okmeetmeeBel
    l
    vil
    l
    ekebehi
    ndBel
    l
    vil
    l
    e
    l
    ibr
    ary
    Muso:
    ok,
    seey
    out
    her
    e

    Iwassoexci ted,Iwasnotangr yany moreallI


    want edwasmyMuso.Hef i
    nallygoti nt
    ohis
    senses, Iwentt obath,gotdr essed, Iwason
    point.Itookmybag, tookat axigott herebefore
    him.Iwentt osi tinoneoft hechai rsthatare
    there.Ilovethatplaceitjustremi ndedmeof
    myv i
    ll
    ageithasasmal lriv
    erorast ream (li
    ke
    uml anjana)r
    unni ngsoIsatt hereaf ter10
    minut esIhear dsomeonet ouchi ngmyshoul der

    [
    08/
    17,
    21:
    51]Mca:
    INSERT28

    It
    urnedt
    ofacehi
    m

    Me:
    Pri
    nce?
    Muso:
    Pri
    ncess
    Iwentf
    orahug,
    hehuggedmebutitwasver
    y
    COLDthenmymooddroppedf
    rom 100-0%or
    mustIsay0º
    C

    Muso:
    canwet
    alkI
    '
    mrushi
    ngsomewher
    e
    Me:
    ok(sodown)

    Muso: whateverthatIam goingtosayplease


    knowt hatit
    snotaneasydeci sionbutIhaveto
    andtrustmei tsbestforbothofus.SneokSne?
    IneverheardMusocal l
    ingmet hatinmyli
    fe,,
    ,
    ,,
    ,
    ,,
    'i
    tsoverbet weenus',Iam wit
    hPhi ndi
    l
    enow
    andIlov ehersomuch

    Me:(Iswallowedhard)ar
    eyoudumpingme?
    noi
    tcan'tbe,noPri
    nce,wemadeapromise(I
    wascr
    ying)doy our
    ememberourpinky
    pr
    omi
    se,
    why
    ?whathav
    eIdone?

    Muso:
    promi
    sesar
    emeantt
    obebr
    okenSne

    Me:
    pleasedon'
    tdot
    hist
    ome,
    tous

    Muso:
    Idon'
    thav
    eti
    mef
    ort
    his,
    itsov
    er
    Me:(Iwentcl
    osertohi
    m, Ihel
    dhishand,
    I
    wascr
    yinghar
    dernow).Pl
    easepri
    nce
    Muso: letgoof
    fmyhand,
    ,,
    ,
    ,,hey
    ankedmy
    handsocol d,t
    henPhi
    ndi
    l
    ecamet ousIguess
    sheknewIwasgonnabedumpedandshewas
    i
    nt hecar

    Phi
    ndil
    e:babyI'
    m surey
    oudone,l
    et'
    sgowe
    wil
    lbelat
    eforourappoi
    ntment
    Me:
    Pri
    nce?
    Phindi
    l
    e:heybi
    tchy
    ourt
    imei
    supnow,
    letgo
    offmyman

    Me: Pr
    inceafterever
    ythi
    ngwehavebeen
    thr
    oughtogether,,
    ,Iwascry
    ingl
    i
    keamad,
    despar
    ategir
    l
    Phindi
    l
    e:hayibit
    chdon'tcomeupwitht
    hose
    bl
    ackmail
    s,,
    themoneyy oulenthi
    m,wasnota
    ri
    nggetoveryoursel
    f!
    !!
    Muso:
    Iwi
    l
    lpayy
    oubackal
    lyourmoneySne

    Me:areyoudumb?itwasagif
    t,Idon'
    tneedit
    ,I
    wasnott
    alki
    ngaboutmoney
    ,justdon'
    tbreak
    upwit
    hme

    Muso:Iwon'tchooseyouov ermybaby
    (whoo!!
    !!Phi
    ndil
    eispregnant,myheartsank)I
    l
    ovethi
    swoman, Il
    ovemybabyt hatisgrowing
    i
    nsi
    deher(hetouchedhert
    ummy
    !Thatbr
    oke
    meint
    oTri
    ll
    ionpieces)

    Ij
    usthadt
    ocol
    l
    ectmysel
    fIwi
    pedmyt
    ear
    s.

    Me: wel li
    nthatcase, youar efreet ogoMuso,
    yesIlov edyouIst i
    l
    l do, Iguesst her ei
    snothing
    Icandot okeepy oual lIwi l
    lbel eftwithi
    sjust
    memor i
    esandIchooset okeept hebestones.I
    don'tregretl
    ovingy ou,y oubr oughtnot hi
    ngbut
    l
    ifeandhappi nessint omyl if
    ethemostoney ou
    all
    owedmet obemysel fandf ort hatIwil
    l
    foreverbegratefultoy ou, Iguessourl ov
    ewas
    notst r
    ongenought oov er comewi ndsand
    storms.

    Don'tev
    ernotevenonesecondwor ryaboutme
    yesI'
    mv erysmal
    landshortbutt
    rustmeIam
    str
    ongerthanst
    orms,yesIam hurtIdon'
    t
    wannal i
    ebutIwi l
    l getov erthisti
    meheal s,as
    hardasi tisbutev entuallyIwi l
    lmov eon( tear
    s
    weref lowingdownmyr edcheeks)Iwi shy ou
    nothingbutt hebestandcongr atulati
    onson
    yourbabyIam sur ey ouwi llmakebeaut if
    ul
    babies(Ismi l
    ed).Iwoul dn'tsayIdon' thatey ou
    ri
    tenowbecausei thur t
    sbutt hel oveIhad, sti
    ll
    havef oryoumakesi teasyf ormet osayagai nI
    wishy ounot hi
    ngbutt hebestf orbot hofy ou.I
    rat
    herbemi serablethant oseey ousadand
    unhappyt hatishowmuchIl ov eyouPr ince.

    (IfacedPhindi
    le,Ismi l
    edf ai
    ntly)pleasetake
    goodcareofhim nev erhur thi
    m pl ease,heisso
    cut
    ewhenhesmi lessopl easekeephi m
    smili
    ng,andpleasesuppor thim hemust
    completehisB-tech,Mast ersandPhD, Iam
    sur
    ehewi llmakeagr eatfather.Youcango
    guysIwillbefi
    ne.Iwi l
    lnev erforcemysel fint
    o
    hi
    sl i
    febecauseifMusor eall
    yknewmywor t
    h
    hewoul
    dhav
    ecr
    eat
    edone.Wi
    shy
    oual
    lthe
    best
    .

    Theywerebothqui
    te.Musowascr yi
    ngeven
    thoughhehidi
    tfr
    om Phindi
    l
    ehequi ckl
    y
    wipedchi
    stear
    .Iwalkawayfrom t
    hem and
    wenttositont
    hechairandtheyl
    eft

    IcriedsilentlyIneededtol etgoof fmyanger,


    disappoi nt
    mentandabov eal lIneededt ol
    etgo
    offMusoandmov eon.Wi l
    lIbeabl etomov e
    on?t ol ovesomeone?whatgoti ntoMuso? ?
    Whatwast her ef
    ormei nlifewithoutMuso?he
    hast urnedi ntosomethingIdon' tknow.I
    neededt oletgoof fhi
    m, Ineededt ocl
    osethat
    chapt erandopenanewoney esItwon'tbe
    easybutIwi l
    l.It
    ookofft henecklaceopened
    thehear thay ikei
    twaslikeIj ustopenedi t
    ap
    i
    sekudal ay afunuv ul
    waf l
    oodsoft ears
    str
    eameddownmycheeks.Wangat
    hiyi
    ngelosi
    kul
    aphotoIcl
    osedi
    tandt
    hrewi
    ntothest
    ream.
    Icri
    edagai
    n.:
    '(

    Idon'tknowwher edidthi
    spersoncomefrom I
    wasnotsl eepi
    ngbutIguessIwasi ndeep
    thoughtsthatIdidn'
    tevennot
    icehi
    m mayefi
    ka,
    Ijustheardhim sekekhul
    umaduzenami

    Per
    son:
    hi

    Sne;
    -
    )
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    17,
    21:
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    INSERT29

    Thisoneisf
    oruAYANDAAMAHLUBIG.I
    ts
    ti
    mef ory
    outoknowwhyIl
    ovey
    ourname.
    Me:
    goaway
    Per
    son:
    Iam notgoi
    ngany
    wher
    e
    Me:
    thenshutup

    Hekeptqui
    te

    Wesatt
    her
    esi
    l
    entandhewat
    chedmecr
    ying

    Person: Iwouldli
    ketoseethefactor
    ywho
    createdyou,Ineverseensuchanuglybaby,
    andacr ybabyy ouli
    keeziwayzeengcosi
    endidlangozi
    bukelamandinesi
    yalu

    Me: (
    Ismi
    led,l
    ooki
    ngatthi
    smanobukel
    aI
    car
    toons)
    ,Iwassti
    l
    lcr
    ying
    Person:yhoo!
    !y oucancryIthi
    nkSABC
    shouldcr
    eateatalentshowcall
    ed"soy
    ou
    thi
    nky oucancry
    ".Iam sur
    eyouwi
    l
    ldef
    ini
    tel
    y
    getfi
    rstposi
    ti
    on

    Icoul
    dn'
    thel
    pmy sel
    fbutIl
    aughed.Mf
    xmm
    uqhamukakuphi
    lomuntu

    Person:
    shelaughed,
    hal
    lel
    ua,
    ladi
    esand
    gentl
    emenshecanlaugh

    (hest
    oodupandshout
    ed)

    Me:
    sitdowny
    ouar
    edr
    awi
    ngat
    tent
    ion
    Person:
    foramomentIt
    houghtt
    hatyoucan'
    t
    tal
    k,smi
    let
    heonl
    ythi
    ngyoudoistocry

    Ismi
    l
    ed
    Person:
    y er
    rjoey
    ouarereal
    l
    ybeaut
    if
    ulwhen
    yousmile,uzi
    moshel
    ani
    ngokhal
    a

    Ismi
    l
    edagai
    n

    Per
    son: byt
    hewayIam AyandaKhumal
    o,
    umtungwafrom Cof
    imv
    abaandyouyoung
    l
    ady,
    ,,y
    ouare..
    .
    Me: (
    Ismil
    edshyly
    )Iam Si
    nenhlanhl
    aRhadebe,
    Iam f
    rom Kokst
    adbutor
    igi
    nall
    yfrom Mat
    ati
    ele
    Ay
    anda:
    soy
    ouar
    eZul
    u?
    Me:
    no,
    Hlubi
    Ayanda:ohh?sotel
    lmewhatdidt
    hatboydo
    toyouthatmakey
    oucryl
    i
    kethis?
    Me:
    stor
    yforanot
    herday
    ,butIam f
    ine
    Ay
    anda:
    yhar
    it
    eyouar
    e
    Me:
    Iam r
    eal
    l
    y
    Ay
    anda:
    your
    efusedmyl
    i
    ftt
    heot
    herni
    ght

    Il
    if
    tedmyheadasIwasl ookingdown(Iwas
    soshocked,
    Ilookedathi
    m, y
    hathiswasthe
    guywhoboughtusdrinksatl
    ongstreet
    )

    Ikeptqui
    te

    Ay
    anda:
    youar
    ereal
    l
    ybeaut
    if
    ul
    Me:
    thanky
    ou
    Ay
    anda:
    Imeani
    t

    Wasthi
    sguyst al
    ki
    ngmeorwhat?Ibecameso
    uncomfor
    tabl
    e,Iguesshesawt
    hatIwasnot
    comfor
    tabl
    e.

    Ay
    anda:
    yes,
    Iwasst
    alki
    ngy
    ou,
    eversi
    nceIsaw
    youthatni
    ghtIfol
    l
    owedy ouandIsawthatthe
    cabdroppedyouatCputeversi
    nceIhavebeen
    fol
    l
    owingy ouev
    ent oday
    ,Icamejustaf
    tery
    ou
    came.

    Me:
    howdi
    dyouknowIwascomi
    ngher
    e
    Ayanda:Isawyoul
    eavi
    ngt
    hecampusandI
    haveeyesever
    ywher
    e
    Me:
    mustIbewor
    ri
    ed?
    Ayanda:
    no,
    notatal
    l
    ,Iwon'
    tdoany
    thi
    ngt
    ohur
    t
    you
    Me: youknowthel
    astper
    sonwhosai
    dthose
    wordsjusthur
    tme2hoursagosoIwon'
    t
    bel
    i
    evet hat

    Wesatt herei
    nsil
    ent,Iwassoafr
    aidtogetup,
    whatkindofapersonwhost al
    kspeople
    engabazi,i
    twasgett
    inglat
    eandIstar
    tedtobe
    col
    d

    Ay
    andabr
    oket
    hesi
    l
    ence

    Ayanda:
    let'
    sgoi
    tsget
    ti
    ngcol
    dnowy
    ouwi
    l
    l
    cat
    chaf l
    u
    Me:
    noIwi
    l
    lbef
    inedon'
    twor
    ryaboutme
    Ayanda:l
    ikehel
    l
    ,Iam notl
    eav
    ingy
    ouher
    e,
    comelet
    '
    sgo
    Me:
    noI
    '
    mfi
    ne
    Ayanda:youhav ebeensit
    ti
    ngherefrom 1and
    i
    t'
    s5now, Iam sur
    ey ouarehungr
    ylet'
    sgoto
    Tygerv
    all
    eyandgr absomet hi
    ngtoeatIwil
    l
    dr
    opy ouincampusaf t
    ert
    hat.
    Me:
    noI
    '
    m nothungr
    y
    Ayanda:
    youbet
    ternotarguewi
    thmey oung
    l
    adycasIdon'
    ttakenoforananswer
    Me:
    ok,
    let
    'sgoIwasr
    eal
    l
    yget
    ti
    ngcol
    d

    Hepickedmewi
    thonehand(li
    kereall
    ynow?
    ?)
    andheputmeonhisshoul
    derandtookmybag
    thatwasont
    hechai
    r
    Me:
    putmedownpl
    easeungi
    buki
    sangabant
    u
    Ay
    anda:
    bar
    it
    e
    Me:
    yadi
    kay
    azi

    Final
    l
    yhegotintothepar
    kinglotandheopened
    thedoorf
    ormeandsatmei nthepassenger
    's
    seatandbuckl
    edmyseatbel t(real
    l
    ythi
    sguy?
    )hewenttohissideandgotin
    Me:
    Iam notababy
    Ay
    anda:
    youar
    ebhabha
    Me:
    Iam not
    Hewar
    medmyseatat
    leastIwasget
    ti
    ngwar
    m.

    Ay
    anda:
    get
    ti
    ngwar
    mer
    ?
    Me:
    yes,
    thanky
    ou
    Ay
    anda:
    let
    'sgo

    Wedr
    ovei
    nsi
    l
    ent

    Ay
    anda:
    arey
    oual
    way
    sthi
    squi
    te?
    Me:
    arey
    oual
    way
    sthi
    sloudandi
    rr
    it
    ati
    ng?
    Ay
    anda:
    heywenabhabha
    Me:
    Ilaughed

    Wegoti
    ntoTy
    ger
    val
    l
    ey.Iwashungr
    ymany
    ani

    Ay
    anda:
    itscol
    dletmewar
    myou(heputhi
    s
    ar
    msar
    oundmywai
    st)
    Me:
    no,
    Iam ok!
    Ay
    anda:
    youknowIdon'
    ttakenof
    orananswer

    Me:
    mfxmm y
    adi
    ka
    Ay anda:l
    et'sfi
    rstfi
    ndyousomet hi
    ngtowear
    i
    tscol d,wewentt owool worths,Iboughta
    j
    ackett hatmatchedmydr essitwasabout
    R699, mfxmm Ist il
    lhavetheabl uejacketI
    didn'thaveapr obl
    em inpay i
    ngf orit,
    Ihada
    wool worthsaccount,wewentt opayIt ookmy
    car dandpay ,
    het ookthecardf rom thecashi
    er
    andpai dincash
    Me:
    andt
    hen?
    Ayanda:
    Iam t
    hemanher e,
    youaret
    heladyor
    mustIcanacrybaby
    ,Ican'
    tlety
    oupay
    ndi
    khonait
    smyjobtodoso.
    Me:
    youar
    enotmymanandi
    t'
    snoty
    ourj
    ob
    Ay
    anda:
    don'
    twast
    eyourener
    gybecause.
    ..
    .

    Bot
    hofus:
    Idon'
    ttakenof
    orananswer

    Webot
    hlaughed

    Ay
    anda:
    heywenabhabha

    Ij
    ustt
    ookof
    fthepr
    icet
    agandwor
    emyj
    acket

    Me:
    thanky
    ou
    Ayanda:
    youwel
    come,
    whatdoy
    ouf
    eel
    li
    ke
    eati
    ng
    Me:
    any
    thi
    ng
    Ay
    anda:
    howaboutme?
    Me:
    argghgr
    oss(If
    rowned)
    Ay
    anda:
    am It
    hatbad?
    Me:
    youar
    e

    Sne;
    -
    )
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    17,
    21:
    53]Mca:
    INSERT30

    Ay
    anda:
    spurt
    hen
    Me:
    ok

    Wewentt ospurandor der,weor dered600gof


    ri
    bs,quart
    erchickenandst eak.(Ningothuki
    I
    ai
    n'tthegir
    ledlaamahlahlamay ikwidateIeat
    meatandu- spurakangisut
    hisi)whil
    ewewer e
    waiti
    ngforourorders,heorderedwi neandI
    order
    edf r
    uitcocktai
    l

    Ay
    anda:
    sowhi
    chy
    earar
    eyoudoi
    ngatCput
    andwhi
    chcour
    se?
    Me:Ithoughty
    ouknowev
    ery
    thi
    ngaboutme
    al
    ready
    Ay
    anda:
    hesmi
    l
    ed,
    ,
    ,,
    notev
    ery
    thi
    ng
    Me:Ismil
    edtoo,Iam doi
    ngmysecondy
    ear
    ,
    Chemical
    Engineer
    ing
    Ayanda:y
    ouarenotj
    ustapr
    ett
    yfacebuty
    ou
    havebrai
    nst
    oo
    Me:
    (Ismi
    l
    ed)
    ,It
    ry
    Ay
    anda:
    soy
    ougoodi
    nMat
    hsandSci
    ence
    Me:
    sor
    tof
    Ay
    anda:
    whi
    chsy
    mbol
    sdi
    dyougetkwi
    mat
    ri
    c?
    Me:
    Igotdi
    sti
    nct
    ioni
    nal
    lmysubj
    ect
    s
    Ay
    anda:
    (hel
    ookedshocked)y
    ouar
    eki
    ddi
    ng
    me?
    Me:
    I'
    m not
    Ay
    anda:
    damm Iwi
    shIwer
    eyou,
    Ihat
    edMat
    hs
    becauseIdi
    dn'
    tunder
    standi
    tandi
    that
    edme
    too
    Me:(Il
    aughedsohardhowcanMat hshat
    e
    umunt
    uengamazi)Mathsdoesn'
    that
    eanyone
    Ayanda:sohowmanyar
    eyouf
    rom y
    our
    parent
    s?
    Me:Iam t
    heonlychi
    ld,
    weweretwobutmy
    t
    winbrot
    herpassedaway2weeksaf
    terwe
    wer
    eborn
    Ayanda:yhooIam sor
    ry,
    sowhydi
    dn'
    tyour
    parent
    str
    yagain?

    Ourf
    oodcame

    Me:theywantedt obutt
    her
    ewere
    compli
    cat
    ionsafterwewerebor
    n,mymot
    her
    coul
    dn'
    tbearkidsanymore
    Ay
    anda:
    that
    'shect
    ic
    Me:
    wenani
    bangakhi
    kini
    Ay
    anda:
    wear
    e4,
    all
    boy
    s
    Me:that'
    sni
    ce,
    Iwoul
    dlov
    etohav
    ebr
    other
    s
    andsi
    ster
    s
    Ayanda:y
    oucanbet
    hesi
    sterwenev
    erhad
    ekhaya
    Me:
    hahaha,
    uwi
    sh
    Ay
    anda:
    real
    l
    yyouwi
    l
    lbet
    hel
    astbor
    n
    Me:sobesi
    desst
    alki
    ngpeopl
    ewhatdoy
    oudo
    f
    orl
    i
    v i
    ng?
    Ay
    anda:
    Iam at
    axi
    owner
    Me: t
    axiowner!
    !!(i
    tcameoutwr ongthe
    problem i
    shewaswayt ohandsomeandy ou
    canseehel ookedafterhi
    sbody, hi
    scologne,
    clotheshewaswear i
    ng, damnhiscarIdidn'
    t
    thinkofhim asataxiowner:(
    Ay
    anda:
    yha,
    whynot
    ?
    Me: Iam sorry,Ij
    ustdi dn'
    tpict
    ureyouasat axi
    ownery ouknow, youl ookyoung,decentand
    veryneattobeat axiowner,nooffensebutwe
    areusedkwabot axiowner sabanezisuezi
    khulu
    abangazihoyangay ouknow
    Ayanda:
    (hesmiled)
    Iunder
    standbuther
    eIam
    andIam ataxi
    owner
    Me:yhanathimhlampemelesiqal
    aushintsha
    ucabangathatootaxi
    ownermelebabebadala
    bangazi
    nakekeli
    Ay
    anda:
    yhanhe
    Me:maaraaren'
    tyouafrai
    dofbei
    ngat
    axi
    owner
    ,Ihear
    dstorieszobakuy
    ali
    wa
    somet
    imes
    Ay
    anda:
    Iusedt
    ouqal
    akwam butnotany
    mor
    e
    Me:
    yhoo,
    sohowmanyt
    axi
    sdoy
    ouhav
    e
    Ayanda:8.2iv
    ecost
    hatar
    eforl
    ongdi
    stance,
    therestar
    etaxi
    s
    Me:
    yhoot
    hat
    'sal
    ot
    Ayanda:sobhabhabesi
    desbei
    ngast
    udent
    ,do
    youhaveakid?
    Me:
    no
    Ay
    anda:
    whynot
    Me: y
    oujustsawmebeingdumpedt oday(I
    smil
    ed)anywayam st
    il
    lstudy
    ing,
    mypar ent
    s
    wil
    lki
    llmeandtobehonestIdon'
    tli
    kekids
    Ayanda:y
    hoo!!y
    ouar
    ehear
    tl
    ess,
    whydon'
    t
    youlov
    ekids
    Me:
    Idon'
    tknow
    Ay
    anda:
    mnaIwannahav
    e6ki
    ds
    Me:
    6!!
    !Howmanydoy
    ouhav
    enow?
    Ay
    anda:
    none,
    butIwant6
    Me:
    yhoIdon'
    twi
    sht
    obey
    ourgi
    rl
    fr
    iendorwi
    fe

    Hesmi
    l
    ed
    Ay
    anda:
    sohowol
    dar
    eyou?
    Me:
    Iwi
    l
    lbet
    urni
    ng19ont
    he10t
    hofOct
    ober
    Ay
    anda:
    buty
    oul
    ookl
    i
    key
    ouar
    e16
    Me:
    ahaaa,
    andwenahowol
    dar
    eyou
    Ay
    anda:
    Iwi
    l
    lbet
    urni
    ng26ont
    he28Oct
    ober
    Me:
    ok
    Ay
    anda:
    canIasky
    ousomet
    hing?
    Me:
    yes
    Ay
    anda:
    canIbey
    ourf
    ri
    end?
    Me:
    youmeanf
    orcedf
    ri
    end?,
    ,
    ,,
    Ismi
    l
    ed
    Ay
    anda:
    whyar
    eyousay
    ingt
    hat
    ?

    Me: Idon'
    thaveachoicedoI ?i
    fIdon'
    tagr
    ee
    youwi l
    lstal
    kme, soIr
    atherbeinafor
    ced
    f
    riendshipthanhavi
    ngast al
    ker
    Ay
    anda:
    wel
    lIguessy
    oudon'
    thav
    eachoi
    ce

    Isul
    ked

    Ay
    anda:
    youbeaut
    if
    ulwheny
    oudot
    hat

    Ismi
    l
    ed

    Ay
    anda:
    mor
    ebeaut
    if
    ul
    Me:
    pleasest
    opi
    t
    Ayanda: y
    oureall
    yar
    ebeauti
    ful
    ,Iguessyourex
    boyfr
    iendisgay
    ,Iwouldki
    l
    ltohaveagirl
    like
    youbymysi demna
    Me:well
    hei
    snot,
    canwenott
    alkabouthi
    m
    pl
    ease
    Ay
    anda:
    fai
    renough
    Wef
    ini
    shedeat
    ingandwechat
    ted

    Ayanda:
    tel
    lmewhatwer
    eyoudoi
    ngi
    nthecl
    ub
    i
    fyoudon'
    tdri
    nk?
    Me:
    Iwasoutwi
    thf
    ri
    ends
    Ayanda:sowenayouj
    ustgotheret
    ohav
    e
    gr
    apeti
    serandwat
    chthem dr
    ink
    Me:
    yesi
    sther
    eany
    thi
    ngwr
    ong?
    Ay
    anda:
    noIj
    ustadmi
    rey
    ou
    Me:
    Iam t
    ir
    ednowcanwel
    eav
    e

    Hesett
    ledthebi
    ll
    andwel ef
    t,Idon'
    tknowwhy
    butIj
    ustfel
    tcomfor
    tabl
    ewithhim

    GOODNI
    GHT-
    INII
    NSERT31WHENIHAVETI
    ME
    AGAI
    N♡♥
    Sne;
    -
    )
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    17,
    21:
    54]Mca:
    INSERT31

    Wel
    eftandhetookmet or
    esandwearri
    vedat
    t
    heresandhegotofft
    ooandwalkedmetomy
    r
    oom andIopenedt
    hedoorhewalkedi
    n,

    Ayanda:don'
    ttr
    ytohangy our
    sel
    fwhenI'm
    goneother
    wiseIwil
    lcomeandkickthesebut
    t
    ofyour
    sevenifyouaredead
    Me:
    hahahaha,
    Ipr
    omi
    seIwon'
    t
    Ayanda:comehere,
    letdaddygi
    veuagood
    ni
    ghthugbhabha
    Me:
    Iam noty
    ourbhabhaAy
    anda
    Ay
    anda:
    heywenabhabhanzakuf
    akai
    sihl
    angu
    Me:
    mfxmm (hehuggedmesot
    ight
    lyt
    hatI
    r
    eal
    l
    yfel
    tsosaf
    e)
    Me: Icl
    earedmythroat,
    heletgo,,,
    ,
    ,,
    goodnight
    thenandthankyouverymuchf orever
    ythi
    ng,
    may beIwouldhav
    ekill
    edmy selft
    hewayIwas
    hurt
    ing
    Ayanda:pleasure,Icoul
    dn'
    tl
    etaninnocentand
    beauti
    ful
    soul gotowasteandbei
    ngt hesushi
    forant
    sandwor ms
    Me:
    (Il
    aughed)t
    hanxagai
    n
    Ay
    anda:pleaseber
    eadyar
    ound12t
    omor
    rowI
    wi
    llpi
    cky
    ouup
    Me:
    arey
    ouaski
    ngmeort
    ell
    i
    ngme?
    Ay
    anda:
    bot
    h
    Me:
    yousuchabul
    l
    y
    Ay
    anda:
    Iknow
    Me:
    ok,
    Iwi
    l
    lber
    eadyt
    hen
    Heleft
    ,Ididn'
    teventhi
    nkaboutmeandMuso,I
    j
    ustthoughtaboutthewonderf
    uldayIhadwi
    th
    AyandathenIdoz edof
    f

    Iwokeupat10andbat
    h,gotdressed,Ial
    ways
    dresst
    okil
    lkemnanat
    odayIdidthesame,
    Ayandacal
    l
    edathi
    ukwipar
    king,Il
    ockedthe
    doorandwentt
    ohim

    Hegotoffandopenedhisar
    ms(
    Ihuggedhi
    m.
    Ngat
    hinzatyebazezi
    hugs)
    Ayanda:whaw,Idon'
    tknowwhatt
    osay
    ,you
    l
    ookbeauti
    ful
    Me:Ibl
    ushed,
    ,
    ,,
    ,t
    hanky
    ou,
    younotbady
    our
    sel
    f
    MrKhumalo

    Hewaswear
    ingapol
    ot-
    shi
    rt
    ,awhi
    teshor
    tand
    pushi
    nzeni
    ke
    Ayanda:wearegoi
    ngt
    oKi
    rst
    enboschnat
    ional
    botani
    cgar
    dens
    Me:
    Ihav
    enev
    erbeent
    her
    ebef
    ore
    Ayanda:good,andIam v
    erygoodi
    nreadi
    ng
    peopl
    e'
    smi ndsandIwasbor
    ntoimpr
    ess
    Me:
    eshhe(Ihi
    thi
    sar
    m pl
    ayf
    ul)

    Wedrovether
    eandwhenwearri
    vedhesetupa
    pi
    cni
    cItookoffmysti
    l
    ett
    osandsat,mydress
    wasshorti
    tmadeAyandaabi
    tuncomfor
    table
    Ayanda:canIgiveyoumyt -
    shi
    rtjustt
    ocov
    er
    yourthi
    ghs,
    Ireal
    lycan'
    tthi
    nkstrai
    ght
    mawev el
    ekanje
    Me:
    ok,
    Iam sor
    ry
    Ayanda:
    noprobl
    em.(
    Hetookof
    fhi
    st-shi
    rt
    andhewasl
    eftwit
    hhi
    svest
    )
    Wesatt here,talkedaboutr andom things, we
    enjoyedt hegoodi eshebr ought ,wetookphot os
    usinghiscamer a.WhatIl ikedngoAy andaev en
    thoughhewasol dy athandaudl al
    aandIl oved
    i
    tkal okundi khulendindedwasoudl ala
    kwakunqabi le.Itsbor i
    ngt opl ayalone.We
    playedar oundsi leqana.Itwasf un,Ihadf un.
    Latewewentt oNandosf orsupper ,weor dered
    andwentt osi tdown, heexcusedhi msel fand
    wentt othebat hroom.Iwasbusyonmyf one
    whenaguycamet ome

    Guy:
    hi
    Me:
    hi?
    Guy:
    whatar
    ey oudoinghereal
    lal
    onebeaut
    if
    ul
    ,doyoumi
    ndifIjoi
    ny ou?
    BeforeIcoul
    dansweravoiceresponded,IDO
    MIND, i
    twasAyanda,hi
    sfaci
    alexpressi
    onsaid
    don'tf
    uckwithmefool

    Theguyl
    eftandhesatdown

    Ay
    anda:
    whatdi
    dthatf
    ool
    want
    ?
    Me:
    Idon'
    tknow
    Ay
    anda:hebet
    ternotf
    uckwi
    thme,
    other
    wiseI
    wi
    llki
    l
    lhi
    m

    Ikeptqui
    te

    Weat
    eandhet
    ookmet
    ores

    Wewer espendi
    ngmoreti
    menoAy andange
    weekendshewill
    takemeoutdur
    ingtheweek
    hewi l
    lgowithmeay ondibukel
    amandiyodancer
    .
    Ij
    oinedthedancecl asseszaseCputand
    l
    uckilysasi
    dancel
    akwi f
    ir
    stfl
    oorj
    ustabove
    studentcent
    resowonkeumt uwayeneaccess
    ofunaubukelawhil
    epr acti
    zi
    ngwayezi
    bukelel
    a.
    Hemademef or
    getaboutMuso, andIwas
    happyatleastIwasSingleandhappy,
    ,,
    ,
    ,

    [
    08/
    17,
    21:
    55]Mca:
    INSERT32

    Itwas2: 00am Ijustfi


    nishedstudyingbecauseI
    waswr iti
    ngat estat8:30, i
    twassomet hi
    ngI
    wasusedatt estaftertestasmycour sewasa
    semest ercourseoneoft hereasonspeople
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    s
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    ficul
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    ,,it
    'sli
    keanyot hercourseit
    needsy out i
    meandcommi tment.Iwasabout
    tosleepwhenIhear daknockont hedoor ,I
    thoughtIwasmi staken,Ikeptquit
    ebuti t
    persi
    sted,
    inobawuba?atthistime?Iwasso
    confusedatleasty
    ouexpectthatnge
    weekendsnotngolwesi
    that
    hu

    Voi
    ce:
    bhabha!
    !
    Voi
    ce:
    bhabhapl
    easeopen

    Ayanda??
    ??ThansGodCputwasnotstr
    ictasi
    t
    i
    snowi nter
    msofukungenakwir
    es.Ir
    ushed
    i
    ntothedoorandopened

    Me: Ayandawhatar
    eyoudoinghereatthi
    s
    ti
    me?doy ouknowwhattimeisit?what
    happenedtoyou?areyouawarethaty
    ouwi l
    l
    getmei nt
    otr
    oublei
    fPapsseesyou?
    Ay
    anda:
    onequest
    ionatat
    imebhabhapl
    ease
    Iexhal
    ed

    Me:
    arey
    oudr
    unkAy
    anda?
    Ay
    anda:
    canIcr
    ashher
    eforf
    ewday
    spl
    ease?
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    No!
    !Whathappenedt
    oyourhouse?
    Ay
    anda:
    pleasebhabhaIhav
    enowher
    etogo
    Me: Iam sur
    etheBnBsandhot
    elsar
    enotal
    l
    f
    ull
    Ayanda:pl
    easebhabha(Il
    ookedathi
    st-
    shi
    rtI
    t
    hadbloodstai
    ns)
    Me: Ayandawhati
    sgoingon?whyishir
    tlakho
    l
    inegazi?wereyoui
    nvolv
    edinanaccident?
    Ayanda:
    nobhabha,
    ,
    ,hewasascool
    asa
    cucumber

    Iexhal
    edagai
    n
    Me: didy
    ounoticethatIhaveasinglebedi
    n
    myr oom?wherearey ougoingt
    osleep
    becauseIdon'
    thaveanext r
    amat t
    ress
    Ayanda:thi
    sbedcanfitbot
    hofus,it
    snotthat
    smallandbythewayyouaretoosmallnawe
    masisondel
    elanawewil
    ldef
    ini
    tel
    yfi
    t(he
    smil
    ed)youcansleepevenontopofme
    bhabha

    I
    shef
    orr
    eal
    l
    ymf
    xmm

    Me: y
    oucr
    azyIam notsl
    eepi
    ngwi
    thy
    oui
    none
    bed
    Ay
    anda:
    youhav
    enochoi
    ce
    Me:
    no,
    Idohav
    eachoi
    ceandy
    ouar
    eleav
    ing
    Ayanda:pleasebhabha(hiseyeswer e
    pl
    eading)Ipromi
    seIwon' tdoanyfunny
    busi
    nesses, wearefr
    iendsandit
    hi??Andbyt
    he
    wayIhav
    eaf
    iancée
    Me:good!!andnowyouaregoi
    ngtoyour
    fi
    ancéehousebecausey
    ouarenotsl
    eepi
    ng
    here
    Ay
    anda:
    shei
    soutoft
    own
    Me: Godhel pmeIam abouttokil
    lthi
    sman
    (helaughed).OkyoucancrashanywayIcan'
    t
    keeponar guingwit
    hyouit
    salmost2:30andI
    am writ
    ingtomorrowIneedtorest
    Ay
    anda:
    thanky
    oubhabha
    Me: doIhav
    eachoi
    ce.Iam sogoi
    ngt
    oregr
    et
    t
    his

    Het ookoffhi
    sjacketandhist-shirt
    .Yhooo!!
    !
    Someguy sbadesigni
    wetrustmehisbody
    well.
    ..Hi
    sbodymademet hinkofMusohehas
    abodybutwel lthi
    swasamazi ng.Imissedhi
    m
    though.Isnappedoutofmyt hought
    shei smy
    fr
    iendrit
    e?het ookoffhispantsandwasl ef
    t
    withhisboxershorts,wel
    lhegoti ntobed.I
    hesit
    atedtogot obedbutIcoul dn'tsl
    eeponmy
    onthechair.Iwasaboutt otakeof fmygown
    whenIr emember edthatIwaswear i
    ngashort
    pjsoIdecidedt ochangeint
    oal ongone

    Ay
    anda:
    whyar
    eyouchangi
    ngy
    ourpj
    ?
    Me: Ij
    ustf
    rownathi
    m(r
    eal
    l
    y)cany
    ousl
    eep
    al
    ready?

    Igoti
    ntobed,andmybedwastoosmallIhad
    nochoicebuttocomecl
    osert
    ohim,
    Ifacedthe
    wall

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha?
    Me:
    (Iwasf
    all
    i
    ngasl
    eep)mhmmm?
    ?
    Ay
    anda:
    doy
    ouhav
    eanot
    herpi
    l
    low?
    Sne;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    21:
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    INSERT33

    Me:
    why
    ,ar
    eyounotcomf
    ort
    abl
    ewi
    tht
    hatone
    Ayanda:
    no..Yes.
    ..Hmmm.
    .It
    hinkuMt
    ungwa
    j
    ustwokeup
    Me:(Icoul
    dn'
    thel
    pbutl
    aughed)i
    nthe
    war
    drobe

    Het
    ookt
    hepi
    l
    lowandputi
    tinbet
    weenus

    Ay
    anda:
    that
    'smuchbet
    ter

    Il
    aughedagai
    n.Poorguyzabast
    rongo
    Hedozedof fimmediately
    , Itr
    iedtosleepbutI
    coul
    dn't,
    whywasher unningawayf rom his
    house?theblood?
    ? ?Washei nsomebi g
    tr
    ouble?Mymi ndracedbutdi dn'tmanaget o
    geti
    ntothefini
    shi
    ngpoi ntasIhadmor e
    questi
    onsthananswer s,If i
    nall
    yfel
    lasleep

    Myal arm wentoffat6:30Iwaswr i


    ti
    ngat8: 30.I
    wentt otakeabathandcameback.Il ot
    ioned
    mybodyandmybodyt owelwasstil
    lwrapped
    aroundmybody .Ayandawasstil
    lfastasleep,
    wellIthoughtso.Iwor emyunder wearand
    tookof fmytowel Iwasabouttotakemybr a

    Ay
    anda:
    shi
    t!
    !!Ay
    andaswor
    e

    Iqui
    cklypi
    ckedupmytowel
    ,Iwasaboutt
    o
    wrapitonmybodyagai
    n
    Ayanda:youhav
    esmallboobs,
    ,,
    ,
    ,don'
    tcov
    erup
    Ihaveseenever
    ythi
    ngal
    ready

    Iwassoembar
    rassedshameIdon'
    twannal
    i
    e,,
    ,
    mfxmm t
    heper
    vert!

    Me:
    youar
    ever
    yrude!
    Ay
    anda:
    shi
    tyourbodyi
    stodi
    efor
    ,,
    ,
    ,,
    ,
    ,

    If
    rownedathi
    m andcont
    inueddr
    essi
    ngup

    Me:
    Iwi
    l
    lshowy
    out
    hebat
    hroom bef
    oreIgo
    Ay
    anda:
    atwhatt
    imear
    eyouwr
    it
    ing?
    Me:
    8:30
    Ay
    anda:
    goodl
    uck
    Me:
    thanky
    ou
    Ay
    anda:
    doy
    ouhav
    ecl
    assesaf
    tert
    hat
    ?
    Me:
    noi
    tsat
    estweekandt
    hisi
    smyf
    inal
    paper
    Ay
    anda:
    good,
    canIasky
    ouaf
    avour
    ?
    Me:
    shoot
    Ayanda: Idon'
    thaveclothes,toi
    let
    ri
    esandI
    can'tusemycardsy et,
    Iwi l
    laskoneofmyboys
    totakeyout oTyger
    v al
    l
    eyanddoshoppi ngf
    or
    me
    Me:
    yhoo,
    ok
    Ayanda:IknowwhatIam aski
    ngfrom y
    ouis
    toomuch,youhav
    ehelpedmeal r
    eadyand
    thankyou
    Me: didIhaveachoi
    ceandseemi
    ngl
    yIdon'
    t
    hav
    ei tevennow
    Ay
    anda:
    thanky
    oubhabha
    Me:
    fine
    Iwonderwhyhecoul dn'
    tusehiscards,who
    wast hi
    smanr eall
    y?,It
    houghtofgivi
    nghim
    thekeystomyhousei nKuil
    sri
    verbutagainI
    didn'
    tknowhimt hatmuchwhatifhewasa
    corn,butIwasnotgoingtoaskhim whatwas
    goingon,,
    ,,
    itwasnoneofmybusi ness

    Hequi
    ckl
    ymadeacal
    l

    Ayanda: hei
    taboy. .
    .Grandwena..Yhaa. .
    Li
    stenIneedy outocomet oCputaround12.I
    needsomecl othesandsomecash, Iwi l
    lask
    bhabhat ogowi thyou..
    .Heesaninof unny
    businessnotev entouchi
    ngother
    wiseIwi ll
    sendy ouinheav eninabrownenvelope...
    ..
    Surekent wana.Pleasecomewi t
    hVi doIneed
    himt otakethiscar.
    ..
    .Sure.
    Ay
    anda:
    itssor
    ted
    Me:soIwill
    gotoTygerv
    all
    eywi
    thy
    ourf
    ri
    end
    someoneIdon'
    tknow.
    Ay
    anda:
    ngumj
    i
    tawam
    Me:
    buty
    oudon'
    ttr
    usthi
    m
    Ay
    anda:
    Itr
    ustnoonebhabha

    It
    ookanappl
    e,Iwasaboutt
    oleav
    e

    Ayanda:
    arey
    ounotgoi
    ngt
    ohav
    ebr
    eakf
    ast
    fi
    rst?
    Me:
    Iwi
    l
    l(Il
    i
    ftedmyappl
    e)
    Ay
    anda:
    Imeandecentbr
    eakf
    ast
    Me: Idon'tdobreakf ast,
    Idohavenew
    t
    oothbrushinmyt oiletr
    ybagandnewt owel
    sin
    t
    hesecondshel f,t
    her estyouwil
    lfi
    gurei
    tout
    your
    self.Unfor
    tunatelyIdon'
    thaveunderwear
    s
    andboxerseveni
    fIhadt
    hem theywouldn'
    tfi
    t,
    fr
    idgeandcupboar
    darer
    ighti
    nf r
    ontofyou.
    Bye?

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha?
    Me:
    Ayanda?
    Ay
    anda:agoodl
    uckhug

    Hest
    oodupandhuggedme,andplant
    edaki
    ss
    onmyfor
    ehead'
    Goodluckbhabha'
    Me:
    thanky
    ouIsmi
    l
    edandl
    eft
    .

    Iwrotemyl
    astpaperandwell
    Idi
    dwel
    l
    ,I
    st
    udiedsoi
    twaseasypizzy

    Aft
    erIwasdoneIwentbacki
    ntomyr
    oom.I
    hear
    dvoicescomi
    ngfrom myr
    oom,mal
    e
    v
    oicesIknockedandAy
    andaopenedt
    hedoor
    .

    Ayanda:bhabhawam?Ay andawasget t
    ing
    usedandgetti
    ngcomfort
    ableincal
    li
    ngme
    bhabhaIdi
    dn'tknowwhyIjustguessedit'
    s
    normalmostCapetoni
    ansusethiswordof t
    en.
    Me:
    hi

    Hehuggedmeandpl
    ant
    edt
    heki
    ssonmy
    cheek

    Ay
    anda:
    howwast
    hepaper
    ?
    Me:easypi
    zzy
    .Istudi
    edandthanxGody
    ou
    camewhenIwasdonestudy
    ing

    Ayanda:ohht
    hisi
    smyboyMsimel
    elo,
    wecal
    l
    hi
    m Msir
    a.Msirat
    hisi
    smyAngel
    Msira:wellwellwel
    lIdi
    dn'
    tknowyouweret
    his
    beauti
    fulIthoughtt
    hatTaAylawas
    exaggerati
    ng.Nicetomeetyouma'am.

    Heshookmyhand, hekeptonshakingmy
    handlooki
    ngstr
    aighti
    ntomyey es.Idoubthe
    real
    i
    zedthathewasst i
    l
    lshaki
    ngmyhand

    Ay
    andacamet
    oremov
    ehi
    shandf
    rom mi
    ne

    Msi
    ra:
    ohhIam sor
    ryma'
    am
    Me:
    nopr
    obl
    em
    Ayanda:yestherei
    saprobl
    em Msi
    rayou
    bett
    ernotother
    wiseyouwil
    lbei
    nheav
    enin2
    minutes

    Msi
    ra:hadeTaAy
    la,
    ,
    ,,
    let
    sgoma'
    am
    Ay
    anda:
    nxamel
    ephi
    sani

    Iputmyschool baginthewar drobeandI


    wantedt ochangeintosomet hingmor e
    comfortabl
    esi nceitwashot.Itookmyshor t
    andwentt obat hr
    oom andchangedi t.Iwent
    backtomyr oom andwentt oputmyj eaninthe
    wardrobeandpuf fedaperfume

    Me:
    let
    'sgo

    Ay
    anda'
    smoodj
    ustchangedal
    lofasudden

    Ay
    anda:Msi
    racanIt
    alkt
    obhabhaf
    orf
    ew
    mi
    nutes
    Msir
    a:noprobl
    em Taay
    la,
    ma'
    am Iwi
    l
    lwai
    tfor
    youi
    nthecar
    Me:
    Snepl
    ease

    Hel
    eft

    Ayanda:(pul
    l
    edmeintobedandmademesit
    nexttohi
    m)bhabhayouarenotgoi
    ngt
    owear
    thatpl
    easechangei
    tint
    osomethi
    ngel
    se,
    the
    j
    eanwasok
    Me:
    hhawu,
    chabandl
    aIam f
    inewi
    tht
    his
    Ayanda: (heraisedhisv oi
    ce)Sinenhl
    anhla!!
    wellt
    hiswast hef i
    rsttimehecal ledmyf ul
    l
    name.Hesawt hatngethukile'BhabhaIam
    sorr
    yIdidn'tmeant or aisemyv oiceit
    sjustthat
    Idon'
    ttrusttheseboy satl easti
    fIwast here,
    pl
    easewearaj eanr at
    her '
    Me:
    ok

    Ichangedi
    ntomyj
    eant
    henhehuggedmeand
    gavemeapi l
    eofcashthenIlef
    t.Igotint
    ot he
    par
    kingl
    ot.MsirasawthatIwaslookingforhi
    m
    si
    nceIdi
    dn'tknowhiscarsohehoot ed.

    Igoti
    nandwel
    eftf
    orTy
    ger
    val
    l
    ey

    Sne;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    21:
    57]Mca:
    INSERT34

    Msi
    ra:
    soy
    ouar
    eTaAy
    la'
    sgi
    rl
    fr
    iend?
    Me:
    no,
    wear
    ejustf
    ri
    ends
    Msi
    ra:
    TaAy
    ladoesn'
    tdof
    ri
    ends
    Me:
    wel
    lmay
    beI
    '
    mthef
    ir
    st
    Msi
    ra:
    sohowdi
    dyoumeet?
    Me:
    itsal
    ongst
    ory
    Msi
    ra:wher
    ear
    eyouf
    rom ma'
    am
    Me:Snepl
    ease,
    ,
    ,Ir
    eall
    yhatedt
    hema'
    am t
    hing
    asIdi
    dn'
    tknowwhereitcamef
    rom

    Msi
    ra:
    Ican'
    t
    Me:
    why
    ?
    Msi
    ra:
    wedon'
    tcal
    lTaAy
    la'
    sfi
    rstl
    adybyname
    Me:
    Iam nothi
    sfi
    rstl
    ady
    Msi
    ra:
    sowher
    ear
    eyouf
    rom?
    Me:
    Kokst
    ad
    Msi
    ra:
    KZN?
    Me:
    yes
    Msi
    ra:
    youar
    eZul
    u?
    Me:
    noHl
    ubi
    Msi
    ra:
    ohhIsee

    Ir
    eal
    l
    ydi
    dn'
    tfeel
    comf
    ort
    abl
    eatal
    landsono
    upt ochitchatsbutt heguywasni ce.Wegot
    i
    ntomal l.Ibought2pol oshirts,2t-shirts,2
    chinotrousers,2guessj eans, 3pairsofshoes
    (Ididaskf orhisshoesi zeandt rousersize)
    .
    Wewentt oWool wor thsandIbought2packsof
    underwear s,
    2packsofboxershor t
    s, socks,
    vests,4pjs,toil
    etri
    es, hi
    scol ogneandwewent
    tospurandor deredtakeaway .Iwast i
    redI
    neverboughtcl othesf oramanbuti twaseasy
    becauseMsi rawast hereandheknewwhst
    Ayandal i
    kes.

    Iwasst
    andi
    ngi
    nthequeuewhenAy
    andacal
    l
    ed

    Me:
    Ayanda?
    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha
    Me:
    hi?
    Ay
    anda:
    arey
    ouok?
    Me:
    yeswear
    e
    Ay
    anda:
    Iam aski
    ngy
    ou.(Amen)
    Me:
    okIam f
    ine
    Ay
    anda:
    whenar
    eyoucomi
    ngback?
    Me:
    aft
    er6atl
    east
    Ay
    anda:
    what
    !!Why
    ?
    Me:
    Iam st
    il
    lhav
    ingf
    unwi
    thMsi
    ra
    Ay
    anda:
    heywenabhabha.Don'
    ttestme
    Me:
    am I
    Ayanda:bhabhayoubet
    tercomebackbef
    oreI
    tur
    nedthi
    scityupsi
    dedown
    Me: t
    helastti
    meIcheckedyougr
    ounded
    your
    selfsohowar
    ey ougoingt
    odothat?
    Ay
    anda:
    don'
    tunder
    est
    imat
    emebhabha
    Me:
    hahaha,
    seey
    ouat5
    Ay
    anda:
    youngl
    adydon'
    ttestme,
    ,
    ,,honest
    ly
    bhabhawhenar
    eyoucomi
    ngback?Imi
    ssy
    ou
    Me:
    wear
    ejustwai
    ti
    ngf
    orouror
    dergr
    andpa
    Ay
    anda:
    good

    Ourordercameandwel
    eft
    ..
    .Wewer
    ebot
    h
    qui
    te

    Msi
    ra:
    soma'
    am

    qui
    te

    Msi
    ra:
    areuhappywi
    thhi
    m?
    Me:
    who?
    Msi
    ra:
    TaAy
    lamaam
    Me:
    Idon'
    tunder
    stand
    Ireal
    l
    ydidn'
    tunder
    standbecauseasfarasI
    knewIwasnotinar el
    ati
    onshi
    pwithAyandawe
    werejustf
    ri
    ends

    Msi
    ra:
    nev
    ermi
    ndmaam.

    Wegotint
    or esandMsiracar
    ri
    edshoppi
    ng
    bags.Weateourlunchandhelef
    t.

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha
    Me:
    hi?
    Ay
    anda:
    Ineedi
    nter
    net
    ,Ineedt
    obookacar
    Me:
    let
    'sgot
    oIt
    -cent
    re
    Ay
    anda:
    wil
    lIbeabl
    etogeti
    n?
    Me: y
    esIwi
    ll
    askZeetogivemeherst
    udent
    car
    dandyouwil
    lusemine
    Ay
    anda;
    arey
    ounotgoi
    ngt
    obei
    ntr
    oubl
    e?
    Me:Iam alr
    eadyar
    en'tI
    ?Youstay
    ingwi
    thme
    ofwhi
    chyouarenotsupposet
    osowemi ghtas
    wel
    ldothi
    s
    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha?
    Me:
    hel
    l
    ow?
    Ay
    anda:
    thanxf
    orev
    ery
    thi
    ngMar
    hadebe
    Me: f
    ine,
    ifmyfat
    hercanheart
    hatIdosuch
    t
    hingshewil
    lki
    l
    lme

    Hel
    aughed

    Me:
    itsnotf
    unny
    .Let
    'sgo

    Wewentt oZee' sroom igotherst


    udentcard
    thenofft
    oI t
    -centreandweusedt heground
    computers.Iloggedin,hebookedacarfrom
    Fir
    stcarr
    ent alandtheyweregoingtodel
    iveri
    t
    fr
    om airpor
    t,somet
    hingshockedmehedi dn'
    t
    usehisdetail
    stobookthecar,Iwonderl
    icar
    d
    andli
    censekabanilezi
    becausedefi
    nit
    ely
    i
    bingasozakhebutagai
    nIdecidedtokeepmy
    mouthshut

    Wewentbackt
    ores

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabhadoy
    ouhav
    eal
    i
    cense?
    Me:
    yes
    Ay
    anda:
    howol
    disi
    t?
    Me:
    almost2y
    ear
    s
    Ay
    anda:
    good
    Me:
    why
    ?
    Ayanda:youwil
    lbeaco-dri
    veri
    ncasey
    ou
    wannausethecarubei
    nsur
    ed
    Me:
    ok
    Af
    teranhourhi
    sfonerangandheanswer
    edi
    t
    wathet
    hanecal
    l
    erthenhedroppedt
    hecal
    l

    Ay
    anda:
    let
    'sgo,
    youal
    soneedt
    osi
    gnt
    oo
    Me:
    ok.

    Wesignedandcamebackitwasaround6pm
    andAyandadeci
    dedtogoandtakeabathther
    e
    wasaknockinthedoorIwentt
    oanswerthe
    door

    OhhmyGodwassonoti
    nthemoodf
    ort
    his
    uni
    nvi
    tedguest

    Sne;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    21:
    58]Mca:
    INSERT35
    Muso:
    canIcomei
    n?
    Me:
    yes
    Muso:
    hiPr
    incess
    Me:
    hi?
    Muso:
    howar
    eyou?
    Me:
    goodt
    hansandy
    ou?
    Muso:
    notsogr
    eat,
    Imi
    ssy
    oui
    nmyl
    i
    fe

    Iwassonotgoi
    ngt oenter
    tai
    nhi
    m butpar
    tof
    memissedhim andsti
    ll
    lovedhi
    m

    Me:
    whyar
    eyouher
    e?
    Muso:t
    hat
    'snott
    hePrincessIknow,
    Pri
    ncessI
    knowi
    scar
    ingandlov
    ingnotcold
    Me:
    whatdoy
    ouwantMuso?
    Muso: y
    oumusthat
    emeubaungazeungi
    bize
    ngegamalami
    Me:
    (Iwassocal
    m)whatdoy
    ouwantMuso?

    Muso: mhmm. .
    ..Ibroughtyout hese,he
    handedmeapaperbagwi t
    hmypj sandmy
    books.(Il
    eftthem ef l
    ati
    niyakhe, somethi
    ng
    wasnotr i
    ghtngoMuso, Iam notsur ewhatit
    wasbuthewasnothi mself
    .AsmuchasIhat ed
    himitpai
    nedmet oseehi ml ikethat,Iwant
    ed
    tohughimt el
    lhimt hatwhat everitwasits
    goingtobeok)

    Me:
    youshoul
    dhav
    ethr
    ownt
    hem awayorbur
    nt
    t
    hem
    Muso:Phi
    ndi
    l
    ealmostbur
    ntt
    hem t
    wicebutI
    managedt
    osavet
    hem
    Me:
    youshoul
    dn'
    thav
    ereal
    l
    y
    ThenAyandawal
    kedi
    n,,
    hal
    fnakedshowinghi
    s
    muscl
    es,wit
    hatowel
    wrappedaroundhi
    swaist

    Muso:
    whoi
    sthi
    s?
    Me:
    whatdoy
    oumean?
    Muso:
    whoi
    sthi
    sPr
    incess?
    Me:
    noneofy
    ourbusi
    ness
    Muso:i
    tsonl
    ytwomont
    hsandy
    ouhav
    e
    movedonal
    ready

    Ideci
    dednott
    oanswerhi
    m

    Me: asIsai
    d,youshoul
    dhavejustburntmy
    st
    uffbutanywaythanxf
    orbr
    ingingthem
    Muso:howcouldIbur
    nbooksknowi
    ngt
    hat
    youwi
    l
    l needt
    hem
    Me:
    Iboughtnewones
    Muso:
    youhav
    en'
    tanswer
    edme

    Ngazengav el
    elwa,
    bengiv
    ivi
    nywa,,,
    Iwasso
    pr
    ayingthatAyandakeepshiscoolbecause
    whateverMusowasdoi ngbengazoyimel
    aandI
    st
    il
    lcareforhimtoseehim get
    tinginafi
    ght
    wi
    thAy anda

    Me:
    whatwasy
    ourquest
    ion?
    Muso;
    Iaskedy
    ouwhoi
    sthi
    s?

    Ayandawasst andi
    ngagainstthedoorwit
    hhis
    ar
    msf oldedandhiseyeswer ehal
    fopened,he
    di
    dn'tsayanyt
    hingbutIcouldtel
    lhewas
    pi
    ssed
    Me:
    noneofy
    ourbusi
    ness(
    cal
    mly
    )
    Muso:
    don'
    tfuckwi
    thmePr
    incess!Uy
    ajol
    a
    Me:
    ok,
    youneedt
    oleav
    e(cal
    mly
    )
    Muso:
    Iam notgoi
    ngany
    wher
    eunt
    ily
    out
    ell
    mewhoist
    his
    Me:youneedtoleav
    e(Iwasreal
    lygett
    ing
    i
    rr
    it
    atedbyMusoandhist
    housandquesti
    ons)
    Me:youhav enori
    ghttocomeher eand
    demandanswer s,
    youaretheonewhodumped
    meremember ?whatmor edoyouwantf r
    om
    me?Uf unanikahl
    ekahleki
    miPrince?
    Ngi
    thi
    ninuzeubonayouarehurti
    ngme
    Muso:
    wemadepr
    omi
    sesPr
    incess
    Me: ohhpromises??Ihaven'tbrokenanyof
    thosepromisesbutyoudid.(Iwascr yi
    ng,I
    l
    ov edMusowi t
    hallmyhear t
    , butwhathedi
    dto
    mewaswayt oomuch, Ineverlovedanyone
    excepthim:'
    (butafterwhsthedi dIknewIwas
    nev
    ergonnal
    ovehi
    m agai
    n)
    Muso:
    Iam sor
    ryPr
    incess,
    pleasef
    orgi
    veme
    Me: youneedt ol
    eaveandstopbudginginmy
    room anyti
    mey ouwant,
    Iam tr
    yingveryhar
    dto
    acceptthatyoudumpedmeandmov edonso
    don'tcomehereandrubiti
    n, i
    t'
    snotfairMuso,
    ,,,
    ,
    ,
    Muso:
    Pri
    ncessIneedy
    ou
    Me: bye,real
    l
    yifyoucomehereagai
    n
    unannouncedIwil
    lgetapr
    otect
    ionor
    der
    Muso:
    ist
    hathowmuchy
    ouhat
    eme?
    Me: yesno,
    ,,
    ,
    ,Idon'
    tknowpl
    easel
    eav
    e,,
    ,
    ,,
    ,
    ,by
    e
    (Iopenedthedoorforhi
    m)
    Muso: i
    tsnotov
    er,
    Iknowy
    oust
    il
    ll
    oveme
    Pr
    incess

    Hel
    eft
    .
    Ijustbr okedown, howcoul dMusodot hist o
    me.Howcoul dhe, ,
    ,
    ,YesIl ovedhi m wasst il
    l
    deepl yinlovewi thhim buthecan' tkeepon
    hurtingme, Ayandaj usttookmei ntohisar ms
    andcomf ortedme, Icr i
    eduncont rol
    lableit
    reallyhurtt othecor eofmyhear t.Inev erloved
    anymanbesi dehim.Ay andaletmepourmy
    hear toutt hroughcr yi
    ngunt i
    lIwascal m.Ithink
    Imi ghthav efall
    enasl eep, hewokemear ound
    21h30andsupperwasr eady, ,,
    ,
    ,shamehe
    cookedpoorguy, weat einsilentandIchange
    i
    nt omypj sandgoti ntobeddi dn'tfeelli
    ke
    wat chingt vandt alki
    ng.

    Ayandai
    ssot
    alkat
    ivel
    i
    kei
    rr
    it
    ati
    ngbutt
    hatday
    hewassoqui
    te

    Hegoti
    nbedandhel
    dmef
    rom behi
    nd
    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha?(l
    owv
    oice)
    Me:
    mhmm?
    Ay
    anda:
    Iam sor
    ry
    Me:
    itsok
    Ayanda:it
    snot,youknowifIwasn'
    thereI
    wouldhavepanelbeat
    edthatbast
    ard,hehas
    hurtyoual
    ready
    ,Iwon'tal
    l
    owhimt ohurtyou
    again(hewasbreathi
    ngheavy)

    Me:
    itsokhonest
    ly,
    Icandeal
    wit
    hPr
    ince
    Ay
    anda:
    Iam her
    efory
    ou
    Me:
    Iknowandt
    hanky
    ou
    Ay
    anda:
    doy
    oust
    il
    ll
    ovehi
    m?
    Me: partofmedoesbutnott
    hewayIdid
    bef
    ore.HehashurtmebutIkeptonf
    orgiv
    ing
    hi
    m, IguessnowIcar
    edforhi
    m morethanI
    l
    ovehi
    m
    Ay
    anda:
    youhav
    eagoodhear
    tbhabha
    Me:
    butpeopl
    eseem t
    obet
    aki
    ngadv
    ant
    ageof
    i
    t
    Ayanda:howlonghaveyoubeendati
    ng,that
    dayyousaidi
    tsalongst
    oryforanot
    herday
    Me:yhanhee.YouknowAyandaInev
    er
    t
    houghtIwi
    llsur
    viv
    ewit
    houthi
    m
    Ay
    anda:
    andy
    ouar
    edoi
    ngwel
    l
    Me: wel
    lIguesshav
    ingaf
    ri
    endl
    i
    key
    our
    eal
    l
    y
    hel
    pedme
    Ayanda:arey
    our
    eadyt
    otel
    lmet
    hewhol
    e
    st
    ory?,
    ,,
    ,
    ,,
    ,,

    Sne;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    21:
    59]Mca:
    INSERT36
    Me:
    doy
    oumi
    ndi
    fwesi
    tup?
    Ayanda:no,
    notatall
    ,heputacontinent
    al
    pi
    ll
    owbehindhisbackandsatup,hemademe
    l
    ayonhischestandIwon'tl
    ieIf
    eltsosafei
    n
    hi
    schest

    Me: wel l
    her egoesmyst oryf oranot herday, I
    metuMusoi nhighschool (
    Mar iazel lhigh)I
    wasdoi nggr ade10andhewasdoi nggr ade12
    wewer esogoodt ogethersoi nl ove, wewoul d
    spendourt i
    met ogethernangamahol ide
    becausehersi sterwasi nKokst adt hent he
    foll
    owingy earhecamet ost udyher eanddi d
    hisfi
    rstyearandsecondy ear,thenIcameher e
    l
    asty earandhewasdoi ngthi r
    dy earast he
    mat t
    eroff acthewast heonewhobeggedme
    tocomeandst udyhereandj ustbecauseI
    l
    ov edhim andIt houghtwewer ei nsepar abl
    eI
    convincedmypar enttoallowmet ocamet hi
    s
    sideandt heytrustedhim andl i
    kedhi m.
    Ay
    andawasl
    i
    steni
    ngant
    ent
    ivel
    y

    Weweresoinlov
    eAyanda,
    soinlovethen,
    whatwentwr
    ong?(Iwascry
    ingIguessIlov
    ed
    hi
    m somuch)

    Ayanda:y
    oucanstopbhabha(hewas
    brushi
    ngmyback)i
    tbr
    eaksmet oseey
    oul
    i
    ke
    thi
    s
    Me: i
    t sok(Iwi pedmyt ears)thenhest artedto
    drif
    tapar twhenIcal ledhi m mostlyatnightI
    woul dn'tgetholdofhi m, al
    way shav eexcuses.
    ThenonedayIcal ledhimi nthemor ni
    nganda
    girlpickedupandt oldmet oleaveherman
    alone.Iconf r
    ont edhim andheapol ogized, I
    forgav ehim andt womont hsdownt helineI
    wentt ohisplaceandf indhim halfnakedanda
    girlwear i
    nghist-shi rt
    .Ialmosthada
    br
    eakdownbutagai
    nIfor
    gavehi
    m.Hetr
    iedso
    muchtomakeituptome, wewer
    efi
    neagai
    n

    Thenbegi nningoft hi
    sy earhehadf i
    nanci al
    problems, hi
    spar entscouldn'
    taff
    ordt opayf or
    hi
    sf eesandhewasnotgoi ngtograduat eand
    gethiscert i
    ficatewhi chheneededt osecur e
    hi
    snewj ob, Icouldn'tlethi
    m suff
    erngi khona.I
    l
    ov edhim Ay anda, IguessIst i
    l
    ldo.Iwoul ddo
    any t
    hingtoseehi m successfulandhecoul dn'
    t
    affordrentsohewasgonnabehomel ess
    unlesshewoul dgobackhome.SoIj umpedi n
    andhel ped

    Ayanda:
    howbhabha?andhowmuchdi
    dhe
    owe?
    Me:heowedR12600f orhisfees,
    thenhehad
    t
    oregist
    erforhi
    sBtechngeR2200, Ipayed6
    monthrenti
    nadvancedthenIgavehim R6000
    aspocketmoney
    Ayanda: butwhydi
    dn'
    thesel
    lhi
    scari
    fhewas
    thatdesperat
    e?
    Me: hewantedt
    obutIsaidhemustnot,
    he
    neededi
    tforworkpur
    poses
    Ayanda: soyoumeanhei sst
    ayi
    ngi
    naf
    latwi
    th
    anothergir
    lthatwaspai
    dbyyou
    Me:Idoesn'
    tmatt
    er,
    Ididn'
    tdoi
    tbecauseI
    want
    edhimtostaywit
    hme
    Ay
    anda:sodi
    dyourpar
    ent
    sgi
    vey
    out
    he
    money
    ?
    Me:
    not
    heydon'
    tknowabouti
    t
    Ay
    anda:
    wher
    edi
    dyougett
    hemoneyt
    hen?
    Me:I
    twasmysav i
    ngsfrom mybur
    sar
    ies,
    mont
    hlyal
    l
    owances..
    ..

    Ay
    anda:
    whaw,
    your
    eal
    l
    yhav
    eagoodhear
    t,I
    r
    especty
    ouandt
    henwhathappened?

    Me; wewer efi


    neagainandev er
    ythinggotback
    tonor mal nott
    hatIwasbuyinghisl ov
    eIdidit
    outofl ove,hewantedtopayitbackbutI
    refused.Wewer efineagai
    nunt i
    ltheotherdayI
    fonedhi m andhesaidhewasnotf eel
    ingwell
    hewi ll
    hav eanearlyni
    ghtal
    ltoseehi mina
    clubwi thhisgi
    rl
    fr
    iend.

    Ay
    anda:
    ohht
    hedayIf
    ir
    stsawy
    ou
    Me:
    yesIsmi
    l
    ed

    Me:
    thel
    astst
    rawwasont
    hatdayi
    nBel
    l
    vil
    l
    e
    Ay
    anda:
    whywer
    eyoucr
    yinghonest
    ly?
    Me: hecametotellmethatitwasover,
    Imust
    notsmshim,orf
    onehi m,heloveshi
    sgirl
    fr
    iend
    andthathewon'
    tleavehisbabyformeandI
    mustmoveon.Appar
    ent
    lybabymom i
    s
    pr
    egnant
    .

    Ay
    anda:
    yhoo!
    !That
    shect
    ic
    Me: Ibeggedhi
    m Idi
    dn'tbel
    i
    evei
    twasmy
    Pri
    ncestandi
    nginf
    rontofmesayi
    ngal
    lthose
    thi
    ngsandheleftme

    Ayandawassqueezi
    ngmyhandsohar
    dthati
    t
    hurt
    sandhewasnotaware

    Me:
    Ayanday
    ouar
    ehur
    ti
    ngme
    Ay
    anda:
    sil
    ent
    Me:
    Ayanda!
    !Youar
    ehur
    ti
    ngmyhand
    Ayanda:shi
    t!!Iam sor
    rybhabha,
    (hebanged
    thewoodenbedside)thatbastar
    dheisgoing
    topayforwhatheputyouthrough
    Me:
    it'
    sokr
    eal
    l
    y
    Ay
    anda:
    youst
    il
    ll
    ovehi
    m
    Me: no,
    honest
    lyIam ov
    erhi
    m butIst
    il
    lcar
    e
    abouthi
    m
    Ay
    anda:
    good,
    nowondery
    ouwer
    ecr
    yingt
    hat
    much
    Me:
    yhanhee,
    let
    'ssl
    eepnow
    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha?
    Me:
    hey
    Ay
    anda:
    lookatme
    Me: no(het
    urnedmeandIwascr
    ying)Iam
    sor
    ry
    Ayanda: heheldmet i
    ghtwhi
    lebr
    ushi
    ngmy
    back,IdozedoffcaswhenIwokeupi nthe
    morningIt r
    iedt
    omov ebutIcoul
    dn'
    thewas
    hol
    dingmesot i
    ght.It
    ri
    edtoremovehishands
    buthehel dme
    Ay
    anda:
    nobhabhasl
    eep
    Me:
    Ican'
    tbr
    eat
    h,y
    ouar
    esuf
    focat
    ingme

    Ay
    anda:
    ndi
    rit
    e
    Me: honest
    lyy
    ouar
    e,hel
    oosenupbuthewas
    st
    il
    lholdi
    ngme
    Ayanda:
    let'
    ssl
    eepagai
    n,heki
    ssedmyhead
    andweslept

    Sne;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    22:
    00]Mca:
    INSERT37

    Iwasf
    astasl
    eepwhenAy
    andashookme

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha?
    Me:
    no
    Ay
    anda:
    hay
    ibhabhav
    ukai
    ts11al
    ready
    Me:
    5mi
    nut
    espl
    ease
    Ayanda:Nobhabha,
    wakeupl
    et'
    sgoandhav
    e
    br
    eakfast
    Me:
    5mi
    nut
    es
    Ayanda:no,
    bhabha.(Het
    ookmyblanket
    s,
    yer
    rIhadnochoi
    cebuttowakeup)

    Wegotreadyanddr
    ovetoCanalwal
    kandhad
    br
    eakf
    astatwimpyandwentforamovi
    e

    Ayanda:
    undenzaweakmaar
    nbhabhamen
    don'
    twat
    chromanti
    cmovi
    es
    Me:
    theydoandt
    hatwasacomedy
    Ay
    anda:
    noonl
    yweakmenandgay
    s
    Me:
    whi
    chmeansy
    ouar
    egay(Il
    aughed)
    Ay
    anda:
    heywenabhabhasundi
    phambani
    sa.
    (Hehadthi
    sser
    iousf
    acet
    hatmademe
    l
    aughedhar
    d)

    Hereachedf ormeandpul l
    edmecl oserinto
    him,wewer esocl oserthatwewer ebreathing
    sameair.Ireall
    ydon' tknowwhathappenedbut
    myhear t
    ,yayibethangai zophuma.Remember
    wewer estandingj usti
    nfrontofUrbandegr ee
    shopourey eslockednobodysai danythi
    ngwe
    j
    uststoodther eforgetti
    ngthatwewer einthe
    busi
    estmal lnothingmat ter
    edonl yus.Icleared
    mythroathel etgo.Wewal kedintothepar king
    l
    otinsil
    ent.

    Saf
    ikaer
    esi
    mmediat
    elysi
    qedakuf
    ikaZeeand
    Pumzacametomyroom.RememberuZeeshe
    i
    sloud

    Zee:
    heymrhot
    ty,
    youar
    eher
    e.Hi
    Sne
    Me:
    hiZee
    Zee:wecametochecki
    fyoudon'
    twannago
    wit
    hustoLongst
    reet
    Me:
    noZeeIwi
    l
    lpass
    Zee:hayi
    bowhenl astdi
    dy ougother
    e,but
    evenmyselfIwouldn'
    tgoifIhadcompanyfrom
    aguyli
    kethis.(Shetr
    iedt
    ot ouchhi
    schin)
    Ayanda:(heremovedherhand)*
    ser
    iousf
    ace
    *Idon'
    tl
    ikeloudbi
    tches
    Zi
    zi
    pho:
    yhoo,
    seey
    oul
    atermyf
    ri
    end
    Me:
    ok,
    Zee
    Pumza:
    yaphaphanaweuz
    ahambaupoxwa

    Sotheylef
    t.Ay
    andast ayedwithmefor2weeks,
    sometimeshewoul dleavengeeveni
    ngsabuye
    ngabo2ekuseni.Ididn'
    tmindthoughbecause
    hi
    slif
    ewasnotmyconcer n.
    Hewentbacktohisplace.Iguesswhatever
    madehimrunawayf r
    om hishousewassor t
    ed
    andIwasgladIhadmyr oom tomy sel
    f.

    Hewoul dcomeandv i
    sit,
    t akemeoutIr eal
    l
    y
    enjoy
    edspendi ngt i
    mewi t
    hhi m.Therewas
    somethingthatwor ri
    edmengoAy andahewas
    toooverprotectiv
    ewayov erpr ot
    ectiveofme.
    Hewoul dbeangr yifamanl ooksatmeort ryt
    o
    makeaconv ersati
    on,butot herthanthathe
    wasacool guyshame.

    OnesatIr
    eceivedacallearl
    yinthemorni
    ngI
    answer
    edwithoutcheckingthecal
    ler
    .

    Me:
    hel
    l
    ow?
    Cal
    l
    er:
    bhabhav
    uka
    Me:
    no!
    Ayanda:
    yesIam comingt
    here,wegoi
    ng
    somewhereandpl
    easewearajeanandfl
    at
    shoe
    Me:
    Iam sl
    eepi
    ng
    Ay
    anda:
    heywenabhabhav
    uka
    MeandAy
    anda:
    5mi
    nut
    es

    Wel
    aughed

    Me:
    mfxmm,
    yadi
    ka

    Iwokeup,mademybedandwenttobath,
    l
    oti
    onedmybody,t
    hent her
    ewasaknockwhi
    l
    e
    Iwassti
    l
    lget
    ti
    ngdressed

    Ay
    anda:
    vul
    abhabha
    Me:
    doy
    ouhav
    etobesol
    oud?
    Ay
    anda:
    yesi
    tsabeaut
    if
    ulday
    Me:
    yer
    rry
    arasa

    Iwasr eadyt henwel ef


    tanddr ovetot able
    Mount ain.Wet ookacabl ecartot able
    mount ain,sinceIwasast udentandIhadmy
    studentcar d, Ididn'
    tpaythewhol efee.Weat e
    breakfastatTabl emount aincafeandwal ked
    around.Wewer ehav i
    ngfunt aki
    ngf otos.Cape
    townr eall
    yl ooksni ceandbeaut ifulwheny ou
    areupt here.Remembert herearet hose
    sti
    ckerst hatsay"pl easedonotf eedani mals"I
    hadlay sthatIwaseat i
    ngIwasst andingont op
    ofthest onenott hatbigandIt hrewonel ay
    tryi
    ngt ofeedt hebirdstheywer e3.

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabhadon'
    tdot
    hat
    Me:
    Iknowbutt
    heyar
    esocut
    e

    Outofnowher easqui r
    rel cameandj umpedon
    met ryi
    ngt ogr abthel ayst hatwereonmyhand.
    Iwasnev erbeensoscar edi nmyli
    fe,Ialmost
    peemy self,
    sincethest onewasmov ing,I
    sli
    ppedandboom phansi kwaphelaukwazi I
    tri
    edtogetupandr unandboom If ellagai
    n.
    Ayandacamer unning.Boyhel aughedatme
    thatIfelttearsthr
    eat eningmyey es,wesat
    thereforabout30mi nut esIwascal mingmy
    selfdownkal okuIalmostpeemysel f
    kukothuka.

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabhaIwar
    nedy
    ou
    Me:
    youdi
    dwar
    nmeaboutsqui
    rr
    els
    Ay
    anda:
    Iam sor
    rybhabha
    Hewasst
    il
    ll
    aughi
    ng

    Me:
    let
    'sgoIdon'
    twannabeher
    eany
    mor
    e

    It
    ri
    edtostandupbutIcoul
    dn'
    tmyankl
    ewas
    sosor
    e,i
    twasstart
    ingtobeswol
    l
    en,

    Ayanda: youneedt ogot othedoct


    or,hesaid
    thatpicki
    ngmeupandcar r
    ymet othecable
    car,Ifel
    tli
    keababyandsost upi
    dpeoplewere
    l
    ooki ngatus,Ihat
    ei t
    ,Ihateatt
    enti
    on,
    remembert herearenochai r
    sinthecabl
    ecar,
    youjuststand.SoIhadt ostandbutitwasn'
    t
    thatbadcashesuppor t
    edme

    Fi
    nal
    lywearr
    ivedandhecar
    ri
    edmet
    owher
    e
    heparked
    Ay
    anda:
    whi
    chhospi
    tal
    iscl
    oseby
    ?
    Me:takemet
    omedi
    cli
    nici
    nOr
    anj
    ezi
    chtmyGP
    i
    sthere.
    Ay
    anda:
    okl
    et'
    sgo

    Myankl
    ewassoswol
    l
    enandshi
    nny

    Hedr
    ovet
    omedi
    cli
    nic

    Me: got oemergencyside.Hepar kedj ust


    i
    nfrontthedoor.Hegotof fandcar riedme
    ukuyangaphakathi.Iwasattendedimmedi at
    ely
    whilehewasst i
    ll
    busyatt hereceptionf i
    ll
    i
    ng
    theform eneedamydet ai
    l
    sIgav ehi m my
    medi cal
    aidandI'
    d.Af t
    erhewasdonehecame
    andsatnexttome.
    Thedoct ort
    hensuggestedthatIgof oranX-
    raytocheckifmyankl ewasspr ained,
    disl
    ocatedorbroken.TheportercameandI
    waswheel edinawheel chai
    rtot heX-r ayr
    oom
    andAy andawasst i
    llbymyside.Hewas
    worri
    edshame.Idi dt heX-rayandcameback.

    For t
    unatel
    yIonlyspr ainedit
    .SoIwasgivena
    prescri
    pti
    on,anoi ntmentthatIneededt
    oapply
    andpainkill
    ers.Iwasal sogiveonecrut
    cheto
    use.Thedoct orstressedthatIneedtor
    elax
    anddon'twalkar oundkakhulu.Wewentt othe
    pharmacyandboughtmedi cati
    on.

    Onourwayt
    ores

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha?
    Me:
    hmmm?
    Ayanda:Idon'
    tthi
    nkit
    swisefory
    out
    ost
    ayi
    n
    reswhil
    eyourankl
    eisli
    kethat
    .

    Sne;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    22:
    01]Mca:
    INSERT38

    Me:
    Iwi
    l
    lbef
    ine
    Ayanda:nobhabhaber
    eal
    i
    sti
    cnowandst
    op
    bei
    ngstubbor
    n
    Me:
    Iwi
    l
    lbef
    iner
    eal
    l
    y
    Ayanda: noIwon'tall
    owi tbhabha,youhaveto
    walktothebathroom ,yourroom isupstair
    sso
    howar eyougoingtomanageIcanev enask
    usisil
    olokoezocleanaahlaleti
    llubengcono.
    PleasebhabhaitstheleastIcandoaf ter
    undincedekangakaungandazi nondazi.Pl
    ease
    don'tsayno
    Ay
    anda:
    youwi
    l
    lbest
    ayi
    ngwi
    thmet
    il
    lyouar
    e
    f
    ine
    Me:
    no
    Ayanda: heywenabhabha,andi
    kuceli
    ,you
    don'
    tcooky oueatf
    oodfr
    om cafet
    eri
    a,sohow
    areyougoi ngtomanagewalki
    ngfrom yourres
    toFreedom Square,MGRorSaccotobuyf ood?
    Me:
    Zeewi
    l
    lhel
    p
    Ayanda:t
    helastt
    imeIcheckedy
    ousai
    dshei
    s
    al
    way swi
    thherboyf
    ri
    end
    Me: mfxmm Ihat
    eitwheny
    ouareri
    ght.OkkeI
    wil
    lst
    aywithyouonlyf
    ewdaysIam sur
    eIwil
    l
    befi
    nebythen
    Ayanda:
    whatev
    er.Youar
    eav
    eryst
    ubbor
    n
    l
    ady.

    Wewentt oresandhepackedmyclothesand
    toi
    let
    ri
    esandtookmybooksandwel eft.We
    drovetoTabl
    eviewandhestoppedoutsidet
    he
    gateandopeneditwi
    thhisremot
    e,wegoti
    n
    andhecamei nt
    omysi deandopenedf
    orme
    thencar
    ri
    edmei ntot
    hehouse.

    Me:
    Iam ok!Icanwal
    kbymy
    sel
    f
    Ay
    anda:
    Iknow
    Me:
    ngehl
    i
    sephel
    a
    Ay
    anda:
    youl
    ate

    Wepassedt heloungeandwentst r
    aightto
    upstai
    rsheopenedoneofther oomsusi nghis
    foot
    .Whawi twasbig,ni
    ceandspot l
    ess.Heput
    mei nbedther
    ewassomet hingfunnyabout
    thi
    sbedroom i
    thadamal elook, t
    hepor t
    rai
    tsin
    thewall

    Me:doyouputsuchi
    nal
    lofy
    ourspar
    e
    bedr
    ooms
    Ay
    anda:
    that
    'st
    hemai
    nbedr
    oom,
    mybedr
    oom
    Me: Icannotsl
    eepinyourbedr
    oom,Iwannago
    andsleepinthespar
    eroom.Whatwill
    your
    fi
    ancéethinkswhensheseesmeinher
    bedroom
    Ayanda: don'tworryaboutthat,
    itssor
    ted,
    I
    won'tal
    lowy out osleepi
    nthosespar e
    bedrooms, kudlel
    waezibit
    chkuzo, (ouch,t
    his
    mani srudet hough)whyarey oulooki
    ngatme
    l
    ikethat
    ?
    Me:
    youar
    erude
    Ayanda: eversinceIboughtt hi
    shouseay ikho
    i
    ntombazanay akheyal
    alakul ebedi Ial
    way s
    val
    ueitIdon'tknowwhy ,yesIbr oughtplentyof
    gir
    lsbutIalway susesparebedr oomsIhav e
    thi
    sthingthatonlymywi f
    ewi llsleepinthi
    sbed
    andinmybedr oom notlamant ombi owachola
    emjaiv
    eni sebecimbayabat handa.
    Me:
    butIam noty
    ourwi
    fenam
    Ay
    anda:
    Iknow
    Me: aslongaswaziIam notshar
    ingmybed
    wit
    hy ouwhichmeansyouwi l
    lsl
    eepinaspar
    e
    bedroom
    Ay
    anda:
    youmeanmybed(hel
    aughed)
    Me:
    mfxmm whatev
    er
    Ay
    anda:
    Iwi
    l
    lgoandgety
    ousomet
    hingt
    oeat

    Hel
    eftandl
    atercamebackwi
    thsupper

    Ay
    anda:
    Iwi
    l
    lfeedy
    ou
    Me:
    usuy
    ahl
    any
    akemanj
    e
    Ay
    anda:
    Iwi
    l
    l
    Me:
    no!
    !
    Ayanda:comeopenyourmouth,mfxmm,he
    fedmeandwewer ebotheat
    ing,
    thenhet
    ook
    thetr
    aydownstai
    rs
    Me:
    Iam goi
    ngt
    otakeabat
    h
    Ay
    anda:
    Iwi
    l
    lbat
    hyou
    Me:
    (ey
    esout)u-daki
    we

    IwenttotakeashowerthenIlot
    ionedmy sel
    f
    andworemypj sAyandarubbedmyankl eand
    bandagedmeagain.Igotunderblanket
    sandhe
    tr
    iedtotuckmein
    Me:
    don'
    tdar
    e!!
    Ay
    anda:
    don'
    tshootmef
    ort
    ryi
    ng
    Me:
    goodni
    te
    Ayanda:Iwi
    ll
    watchy
    out
    il
    lyouf
    all
    asl
    eept
    hen
    Iwil
    lgoandsl
    eep
    Me:
    youar
    ecr
    azy
    Ay
    anda:
    soIhav
    ebeent
    old
    Me:mfxmm,pleasedon'
    tswi
    tchof
    fthel
    i
    ght
    wheny
    ouleav
    e
    Ay
    anda:
    why
    ?
    Me:
    ngi
    yesabamakumny
    ama

    Ayandalaughedatmemfxmm Ir
    eal
    l
    yhav ea
    phobiayol
    alakumnyamawor
    semangindedwa
    endl
    ini

    Idoz
    edof
    f

    It
    hinkitwasaround12am whenIf el
    tthebed
    mov i
    ngandf el
    tsomethingcol
    dgetti
    nginbed,I
    j
    umpedandscr eamedtheroom wasdarkandI
    wassoaf r
    aid.Ifor
    gotthatmyankl
    ewasnotok

    Me:
    ouchhhh,
    ouchhhhh
    Ayanda:i
    tsmebhabharel
    ax(hequi
    ckl
    y
    swit
    chedonthesi
    delamp)
    Me:whatareyoudoi
    nghere!!
    !youalmostgav
    e
    meaheartatt
    ackandungi
    thunuki
    lekemanje
    Ay
    anda:
    sor
    rybhabha
    Me:
    whyar
    eyouher
    e?
    Ayanda: Icoul
    dn'
    tsl
    eepIwasj
    usttossi
    ngand
    tur
    ning.Ijustr
    ememberedt
    hedayswewerein
    yourroom
    Me:
    mfxmm

    Hepull
    edmecl
    oserandcuddl
    edmef
    rom
    behi
    nd
    Me:
    youcr
    azyy
    azi
    Ay
    anda:
    Iknow,
    howi
    syourankl
    e
    Me:
    sor
    eandt
    hanst
    oyou
    Ay
    anda:
    Iam sor
    rybhabha

    Wesl
    eptpeacef
    ul
    Sne;
    -
    )
    [
    08/17,22:01]Mca:Iam suchamonster
    Mommy ,
    whatkindofamot heroy
    ekel
    a
    i
    zi
    nganezakhezi l
    ambil
    et hewholeday.
    Ngi
    yaxoli
    samynunusr eallyhadahecti
    cdayat
    wor
    k.ngiyaxoli
    sa

    Sne

    I
    NSERT39

    Iwaswokenupf
    oll
    owi
    ngdaybyAy
    anda

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha
    Me:
    nongi
    l
    ele
    Ay
    anda:
    uhl
    eli
    bhabhauy
    athet
    hanj
    e
    Me:
    goaway
    Ay
    anda:
    bhabhapl
    ease
    Me:
    5mi
    nut
    es

    Hel
    aughed

    Ay
    anda:
    wakeupIhav
    emadebr
    eakf
    ast
    Me:it
    snotfunnyit
    ssundayhawu,Iwokeup
    andwenttobrushmyt eet
    handcameback.
    Ayandamadet hebedandwehadbreakfast

    Ay
    anda:
    Goandbat
    hwegoi
    ngt
    oWat
    erf
    ront
    mnaIm done.
    Me: t
    helastti
    meIcheckedthedoctorsai
    dI
    mustsleepti
    l
    l1pm ifIwantmyankletobe
    heal
    edandallIgether
    eistobewokenby4am.
    SoifIdon'
    thealyouwil
    lberesponsi
    ble
    Ayanda:
    (hel
    aughed)bhabhai
    ts11am not4
    am
    Me:
    howam Igoi
    ngt
    ogoar
    ound?
    Ay
    anda:don'
    tworryIwi
    l
    lcar
    ryy
    ouorputy
    oui
    n
    at
    rol
    ley(hel
    aughed)
    Me:
    (Isul
    ked)angi
    dlal
    inawe
    Ay
    anda:
    youar
    emybabyandi
    thi
    ?
    Me:
    Iam not
    Ay
    anda:
    youar
    e
    Me:
    mfxmm
    Ay
    anda:
    heywenabhabhandi
    mdal
    akuwe
    Me:
    rit
    e
    Ay
    anda:
    trol
    l
    eyi
    tist
    hen.(Hel
    aughedhar
    d)
    Me:
    Ihat
    eyou
    Ay
    anda:
    lov
    eyout
    oobhabha
    Mfxmm, hewentdownst ai
    rst
    oputthetr
    ay .I
    bathedthenloti
    onedmybodyandIj ustwor ea
    guessjean,guesst-shi
    rtandani
    kepushi nsto
    accommodat emyankl e.Thenweleft
    .

    Hedr ovet oWater f


    ront,Wespentt hedaydoi ng
    nothi
    ngbutwast i
    ngmoneyAy andaj ustbought
    mecl othesIswearhespentaboutR4000onl y
    onclothes.Ilov
    ecl othespeopl e,
    butIdon' tli
    ke
    i
    twhenamanof f erstobuymesomet hing,I
    beli
    eveei t
    hermypar entstheybuyt hem f orme
    ofIbuyt hem my self,butt
    hemor eIr ef usedku
    Ayandat hemor ehebought .Hewi l
    l j
    ustpoi nt
    entweni andsaybhabhat hatwi ll
    lookgood
    kuweandhewon' tev enwai tformet oanswer
    hewi l
    lgoandpayf ori t
    .Mf xmm.Hehasat aste
    thoughImustsay .

    Wewentt
    oTasha'
    srest
    aur
    antandweor
    der
    ed
    Me: howdoyouknowt
    hatt
    hesecl
    otheswi
    l
    l
    sui
    tmystyl
    e?
    Ayanda:Ihav
    ebeenobservi
    ngy ouwhatyou
    l
    ikeandwhatyoudon'tl
    i
    ke,Iknowyoursi
    ze
    i
    ncludi
    ngthesizeofy
    ourshoes
    Me:
    aren'
    tyougaykodwa?
    Ay
    anda:
    heywennabhabhasundi
    gezel
    a
    Me:
    sor
    rydar
    li
    ng(Isai
    dngal
    avoi
    ce)
    Ay
    anda:
    heywennabhabha

    Il
    aughedhar
    d

    Me:yhaIgoty
    ouangit
    hiekuseni
    ubuneme
    ungi
    gcona,
    nowit
    syourtur
    n
    Ay
    anda:
    bhabhaut
    het
    haey
    iphi
    Ilaungage
    kanyekanyebecauseit
    snotXhosaandy
    ou
    sai
    dy ounotZul
    uut het
    hanj
    efunny
    Me: t
    here'
    snothingfunnyaboutmylanguageI
    speakHlubiandbitofZul
    ubutmyZul uisnot
    uptoscratchngubabanoTot iwhospeakZulu
    fl
    uentl
    y
    Ay
    anda:
    whoi
    sTot
    inow?
    Me: mymot herIcallherToti
    ,uKhul
    u(my
    grandmother)bembizaKot ifr
    om maKot
    ithen
    bathimi
    naIcouldn'tpronounceKoti
    Ay
    anda:
    ohh(hel
    aughed)y
    afananawel
    ont
    o
    Me:
    mfxmm kant
    i
    Ayanda:mnaar eyouabl
    etocal
    lmyname
    i
    ngathindi
    dlangov
    authiYandanj
    e.(He
    l
    aughedhard)
    Me:
    (Isul
    ked)angi
    dlal
    inawe
    Ay
    anda:
    youar
    esocut
    e(hel
    aughedagai
    n)
    Me:
    ont
    hesecondt
    houghtIt
    hinkYandawi
    l
    l
    suityouper
    fectl
    y.Tshonagamadl
    ebeamade(I
    wassonotgoi ngtolethi
    m wint
    hisnj
    e,I
    thoughthewil
    lhatethenameYanda)
    Ayanda:asthematt
    eroffactIwoul
    dlov
    etobe
    cal
    ledYandamoreespeci
    all
    ybyyou(hesmil
    ed)
    Me:
    Ifr
    owned(mf
    xmm,
    Igi
    veup)

    Wefi
    nishedeat
    ingandheset
    tl
    edt
    hebi
    l
    land
    wewenthome.

    Wewer
    ewat
    chi
    ngt
    vint
    hel
    ounge.

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha
    Me:
    Iam noty
    ourbhabha
    Ay
    anda:
    youar
    e
    Me:
    mfxmmm
    Ay
    anda:
    comeher
    e(wewer
    esi
    tt
    ingonat
    hree
    seat
    ercouch
    Me:
    noAy
    andai
    t'
    shot
    Ay
    anda:
    ify
    oudon'
    tIwi
    l
    ldr
    agy
    ou
    Me:
    mxf
    mm
    Ayanda:comet
    omepl ease.Iwanty
    out
    o
    sl
    eeponmychest.(Hepull
    edmei nt
    ohi
    m
    befor
    eIcoul
    danswer)
    Ay
    anda:
    Sinenhl
    anhl
    a
    Me: y
    hooy
    ouhar
    dlycal
    lmyf
    ull
    name,
    what
    '
    s
    up?
    Ay
    anda:
    canIsaysomet
    hing?
    Me:
    whati
    sit
    Ay
    anda:
    Ilov
    eyou?
    Me:
    lov
    eyout
    oo(Il
    aughed)
    Ay
    anda:
    (ser
    iousf
    ace)Iam ser
    ious.Il
    ovey
    ou
    Me:(real
    lyIt
    houghtthathewasjoki
    ng)No
    Ay
    anda,,
    ,,
    don'
    t,
    ,,
    ,don'
    tspoil
    thi
    sforuspl
    ease.
    (I
    satup)
    Ayanda:butwhatmustIdo,becauseIl
    ovey
    ou
    andIam ti
    redofpr
    etendi
    ng
    Me:
    pleaseAy
    anda!
    !
    Ayanda:
    Iknowy
    ouhav
    ebeenhur
    tbef
    orej
    ust
    gi
    vemeachance
    Me:
    No!
    !!Andl
    et'
    sdr
    opt
    hisr
    eal
    l
    y

    Westayedther
    esil
    entl
    yanditwassoawkward
    butIwassonotgoingtobei
    nar el
    ati
    onshi
    p
    shame.Ihadenoughofdramaezanamadoda

    Ay
    anda:
    Iam sor
    rybhabha
    Me: i
    tsokasl
    ongaswedon'tt
    alkaboutthi
    s
    agai
    n,real
    l
    yIl
    i
    keyouasafr
    iendandlet'
    skeep
    i
    tthatway
    Ay
    anda:
    yesma'
    am,
    poi
    ntt
    aken,
    Hewassodi
    sappoi
    ntedbutzabast
    rongo

    Sne;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    22:
    02]Mca:
    INSERT40

    Ifinall
    yt ol
    dTot ianddadt hatwewer eno
    l
    ongert ogethernoMusobutst il
    lIdi
    dn'ttel
    l
    them t hewhol estory.EventhoughMusohas
    hur tmebutIwant edmypar entstoknowhim
    asMusonotasMusowhohasbr okenmyhear t
    .
    Ijusttoldthem wedi dn'
    twor koutandIjustlost
    i
    nt erestkuyekuphel a.

    Iwastalkingtomypar entsdai
    ly.Theywoul
    dn'
    t
    sl
    eepwi thoutknowingthatIwasok, r
    emember
    ndi
    ngulowou- ast
    hmaticsotheywor r
    yal
    ways
    butsomeoft heconversat
    ionbetweenusIj
    ust
    ski
    ppedt
    hem.

    Ist
    ay edwithAyandaf or4day shewastaking
    met oandf rom school,
    andIt ol
    dhimthatIwas
    l
    eavingonSat urdayofwhi chbengi
    zoqeda
    i
    sontoi nhishome.Hedi dn'
    twantmet oleav
    e
    butIwasnotgoi ngt oli
    stentohim.Myankle
    wasf ine.

    I
    twasThur sdayandIhadacl assat13:
    30
    Ayandat ol
    dmehewaspi ckinguphisbrot
    her
    fr
    om airportappar
    ent
    lyway egoduki
    leto
    Easter
    nCape, Ayandabezobuy aat12thentake
    met oschool

    Iwokeuparound10madethebedandbathed
    theweat
    herwasfinei
    twassunnysoIdeci
    ded
    togoshort
    .
    Iworemyshor twhi
    tedress,itwasnott hat
    ti
    ghtbutitj
    ustshowedmybeaut i
    fulbody,I
    woremyr edandnudest i
    let
    tosfrom Aldo,I
    combedmyweav enicel
    yandIl eti
    tloose,Iput
    ali
    tt
    lebitofmakeupandmygl oss.Itookmy
    bagandIwasr eadyforschool.

    Idecidedt ogoandwai tforAy andadownst airs.


    AsIwaswal kingdownIhear dumsi ndo
    wabant ucomi ngint
    ot hel ounge, def i
    nitelyi t
    mustbeAy andaandhi sbr othert hef r
    ontdoor
    opened, Ay andacamei nwi th3guy st heywer e
    l
    aughi ngIwasst i
    llwalkingdownt heysuddenl y
    stoppedandl ookedatme.Ial mostt ri
    ppedbut
    myconf i
    dencedi dn'tall
    owt hat .Ihatei t
    , Ihat e
    i
    twhenpeopl earelookingatme, thewayt hey
    were,y ouwoul dsweart heywer eont hatadv ert
    i
    set v-i
    niyeki tkatit
    hi i
    fgr avitycant akeabr eak
    ..
    ..Finall
    yIgoti ntothel astst air.
    Me:
    sani
    bonani
    (lowv
    oice)

    Al
    lqui
    te,Iwassoner
    vous,
    Ijustst
    oodt
    her
    eI
    di
    dn'
    tknowwhattodo

    Oneguybr
    oketheicehecametomeand
    l
    ookedatmeform headt
    otoe

    Guy:
    soy
    oumustbeoneoft
    hem?
    Me:
    Irai
    sedmyey
    ebr
    ow
    Guy:
    oneofmybr
    other
    'sbi
    tches

    Iswal
    l
    owedhar
    d

    Ay
    anda:
    Mawande!
    !!St
    opi
    t,shei
    snotwhat
    y
    out
    hinkshei
    s,l
    eav
    eheral
    one
    Mawande:ohhhIcanseethi
    sbi
    tchhas
    war
    medy ourbedal
    ready
    Ayanda: Mawandef uckyou,whothefuckdo
    youthinkyouare?Isaidl
    eaveheraloneort
    ake
    yourblackassandleavemyhouse(hewasso
    angry)

    Mawander
    anupst
    air
    s.Ir
    eal
    l
    yfel
    tsost
    upi
    d

    Msi
    ra:
    hel
    l
    owma'
    am
    Me:
    Sne
    Msi
    ra:Iam sor
    ryaboutyourankl
    eTaAy l
    atol
    d
    mebutIwasinMossel bayngomsebenzi
    Me:
    thanky
    ou
    Ayanda:t
    hisi
    sVuy
    o(Vi
    do)
    ,Vi
    dot
    hisi
    s
    bhabha
    Vi
    do:
    (qui
    te)
    Ayanda:Vido!!
    !Val
    uml
    omokwedi
    nibef
    oret
    he
    fl
    i
    esfartonit

    Hecamebackt
    opl
    anetear
    thandt
    heyl
    aughed
    athi
    m

    Ayanda:arey
    our
    eadybhabha?
    ,,
    ,damm y
    ouso
    beauti
    ful
    Me:
    yesIam andt
    hanky
    ou
    Ay
    anda:
    canIhav
    eawor
    dwi
    thy
    ou?
    Me: ok,hehel
    dmyhandandwewentupst ai
    rs
    heclosedt
    hedoorandcamerushi
    ngtomehe
    huggedmesot i
    ghti
    nawaythatIcoul
    dn'
    t
    breat
    h

    Me:
    AyandaIcan'
    tbr
    eat
    h
    Hel
    etgoofme

    Ayanda:Iwil
    lki
    l
    lanymanwhot
    hinkshecan
    takeyouawayfr
    om me
    Me:
    uhhhhuu?
    ??

    Kanti
    lobhut
    iusey
    asangana?
    ???Real
    l
    ywhati
    s
    wrongwithhi
    m

    Ay
    anda:
    asambeke

    Hedr
    oppedmeatschool

    Ay
    anda:
    atwhatt
    imedoesy
    ourcl
    assend?
    Me:
    at3
    Ay
    anda:
    Iwi
    l
    lbeher
    e

    Iat
    tendedmyclassandasIwaswal
    ki
    ngoutof
    cl
    ass,Siphecametome

    Si
    phe:
    Sne,
    youar
    escar
    ce
    Me:
    hiSi
    phe,
    kant
    ingi
    khona
    Si
    phe:who'
    sthatguy
    ,whodr
    oppedy
    ouear
    li
    er
    i
    nfactt
    hewhol
    eofthi
    sweek
    Me:
    afr
    iend
    Siphe:af
    riendmhmm ,
    Iwi
    l
    lnev
    ergi
    veupon
    youuyazi
    Me:
    *igi
    ggl
    ed*u-r
    ight
    Si
    phe: t
    her
    e'syour"
    guy"hepoi
    ntedi
    nthe
    di
    rect
    ionwhereAyanda'
    scarwaspar
    ked

    Hehuggedmef
    oral
    ongt
    ime,
    Icl
    ear
    edmy
    t
    hroat
    ,hel
    etgo

    Si
    phe:
    Ilov
    eyou
    Me:
    bye

    IwalkedintoAy anda'scar,hegotof fand


    openedt hedoorf orme,hedidn'tevengr eetme,
    maar athisguyisv er
    ygrumpyorshoul dIsay
    scary.Hewenti ntohissideanddr oveof f
    withoututter
    ingawor d.Ikeptquitemy self.We
    droveintohisplace,wegotof ftheguy swer e
    sti
    llt
    here.Igreetedandwentst rai
    ghtupst air
    s.
    Ayandaf oll
    owedme, i
    nfactIdidn'
    tknowhe
    wasf ol
    lowingme.Ij ustthrowmybagont he
    couchwhenIt urnedAyandawasst andingby
    thedoor

    Ay
    anda:
    whatt
    hef
    uckwer
    eyoudoi
    ngwi
    tht
    hat
    boyi
    nfr
    ontofme?
    Me: i
    nfr
    ontofy
    ou?whatdoy
    oumean?he
    huggedme
    Ayanda:sonow,
    yougoar
    oundhuggi
    ngboy
    s
    i
    nfrontofme
    Me:whatwasIsupposet
    odo,
    wear
    eint
    he
    samecl
    ass
    Ay
    anda:
    howcomeIdon'
    tknowhi
    m?
    Me:
    excuseme?
    Ay
    anda:
    howcomeIdon'
    tknowhi
    m?
    Me:
    becausey
    ounev
    ersawhi
    m
    Ay
    anda:
    tel
    lhi
    m nott
    ofuckwi
    thme
    Me: Godcanyoucutdownont
    heF.
    ..Wor
    d
    pl
    ease,youar
    ereal
    lymaki
    ngmedi
    zzy
    Ayanda:mfxmm.Youdon'
    tgeti
    tbhabha!
    !!You
    don'
    tgeti
    t!!
    !
    Hest
    ormedout

    Lor
    dwhati
    sgoi
    ngonher
    e?

    Sne;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    22:
    24]Mca:
    INSERT41

    Idecidedtotakeanap, Iwassonotgoi
    ng
    downst ai
    rsandbeinginsul
    tedbyMawande
    again.Aft
    eranhourAy andacamebackhewas
    cal
    m nowandhi seyesweresored

    Ayanda:bhabhaIam sorrythatIshoutedat
    you,Ij
    ustl
    ostitwhenIsawy outhi
    smor ni
    ng,
    youweresobeautif
    ulthatIfeltl
    i
    kehidingyou
    somewhere,wherenoonecanseey ouexcept
    meandwheny ouhuggedt hatboyit
    sjustkil
    l
    ed
    me.Iam sosorrybhabha
    Me:
    itsok
    Ay
    anda:
    aren'
    tyougonnashoutme
    Me:
    no,
    forwhat?
    youapol
    ogi
    zedangi
    thi
    ?
    Ay
    anda:
    (hesmi
    l
    ed)Idon'
    tdeser
    vey
    ou
    Me:
    yhar
    ight(Il
    aughed)
    Ay
    anda:
    heywenabhabha

    Ayanda:bhabhaonaser
    iousnot
    eIt
    hinki
    ts
    ti
    meIt el
    lyouthet
    rut
    haboutme
    Me:
    youdon'
    thav
    eto
    Ayanda:
    youhavet
    rust
    edmeandy
    ouneedt
    o
    knowwhoIam f
    orreal
    Me.:
    ok,
    Iam l
    i
    steni
    ng

    Isatup
    Ayanda:wellasItol
    dy ouIam Ay anda
    Khumalowear e4athomeal lboy sandIam the
    l
    astborn.Wegrewupi nCof i
    mv aba,we
    att
    endedourprimaryther
    e,mymot herwasa
    housewifeyouknowbackt henhowwomen
    weretr
    eated,soshewasst ayingwi t
    husno
    makhulunotamkhuluandmyf atherwast he
    onewhowaswor ki
    ng,hewoul dcomehome
    ngeweekendssincehewaswor kingintown.

    Iwasonly9whenhedeci deduy ohlali


    sana
    nomhlol
    okazi (awi dower )kwaphael ali
    ni
    kumziokufutshanenasekhay a.Hel eftus
    bhabhawhatki ndofaf atherdoest hattohis
    famil
    y?(Hest artedcr yi
    ng)y hoooIr eall
    ydidn'
    t
    knowwhatt odo.Inev erimaginedAy anda
    sheddi
    ngtear sletaooneasi ngletearIjust
    huggedhim wi t
    houtsay i
    nganywor d.Myfather
    neverl
    eftussoIr eall
    ydidn'tknowhowhef elt
    andwhattosayal lIhadt odowast ogivehim
    myshoul
    dert
    ocr
    yon.(Hecont
    inued)

    Thingsst art
    edukubanzimawhengr anddad
    passedaway ,kwamelesij
    ongekwi pensionka
    makhulusonke.Mymom woul dgoay otena
    emiziniizit
    enazodaka,ayogudul
    aizindl
    u,
    ayohlambai mpahlajusttogetmoneyy oba
    sil
    alesidli
    lesometi
    mesabuy enokudlakulemizi
    .
    Imaliyepensi onwasnotenoughf orall
    ofus

    Nasesgelasasibonakal
    asisukaendlal
    eni,we
    woul dwearthornshoes,t
    horntr
    ousersbutmy
    mot herandgrandmotherwantedust ostudy
    sizophuculaubomibethunobasekhaya.What
    wassowor seutat
    awam wasdoi ngev er
    y t
    hing
    forabantwanaabangasobakheey ekeabakhe.
    Ev er
    yterm makuvulwaizi
    kol
    otheywoul dcome
    toschool weari
    ngnewshoesandnewuni f
    orm
    anduswewoul dbewear i
    ngthornones.
    Thel astti
    meIhadChr i
    stmascl othesitswhenI
    was8, onChr ist
    maswewoul dwat chot her
    s
    dressedf orChr i
    stmasanduswewoul dwear
    school uniform.Mymot herwoul dbuyschool
    uniform sot hatatl eastnextyearwewoul d
    havenewuni formi twouldn'
    tl
    astnony aka
    becausey ayicheap, asmuchasI thurtcasafter
    allwewer eki dswel earntoaccepti t
    .

    Heexhaled.(Ihel
    dmyt earsIhadtobest r
    ong
    forhi
    m )eishsomedadsmydadwoul dkil
    lto
    havemanybabi esbuttheycan'
    tnoTot i
    and
    herewasthisfatherwhowasbl essedwit
    h4
    kidsanduyabalaxaza.Whykantiuli
    feuso
    unfai
    r.

    Me:i
    tsokYanda,
    itsok.(
    Isaidthatcuppi
    nghi
    s
    f
    acewit
    hbothmytwosmal lhands)
    Ay anda: t
    hingsgotf rom badt owor se
    somet imeswewoul dsleepsi sel enjengamanzi .
    Thenumamawast akenbyomny eusi si
    wasel al
    iniwayosebenzaaphaekapawat hi
    umf umanel eumsebenzi ekhitshi ni
    .Thenshe
    l
    ef teyosebenzel aenyeindoday ayi
    ty ebi l
    e
    way eyidivor
    cee, soshecamet owor kf orhim
    andIt hinkalongt hewayhef ell inlov ewi thher,
    thenbat handana.Het hentookusi nt ohi s
    home.Iwas10y earsthen,west ayedwi thhim,
    hewasni cetousIdon' twannal iebutt hings
    startedtochange, hewoul dbr inggi rlsal al
    e
    nawoendl i
    niumamaekhonaandhewoul dbeat
    mymot herinfrontofus.WhatIhat edt hemost
    mymot herwoul dchoosehi ssi denobaseke
    wrongo.Shewi llgoext r
    ami lest opl easehi m
    andnegl ectus.Hewoul dbeatusi nfr ontofour
    mot herandshewoul djustkeepqui t
    e.Oneday
    hebeatmymot herwophukai mbamboshewas
    admit
    tedandshewasi ncommaf or3weeks.
    Wegrewupi nthatenv
    ironmentofwat
    chi
    ngmy
    motherbeenbeateneverydayandwegotused
    toi
    t.

    Onedayhecamehomedr unkandwewer
    ein
    t
    helounge,hemadeuswatchashet
    ri
    edto
    r
    apeher,(hecr
    iedhar
    der)

    Me:
    ohhmyGod!
    !
    Ayanda: wewer eallther
    e,butIcouldn'ttakeit
    bhabhaIcoul dn'
    twat chmymot her
    pl
    eadi ng,beggingthatmonst ertoatleastnott o
    doi nfrontofusIcoul dn'
    ttakeitanymor e, Iwas
    only15t helastbornmybr otherswer eallquit
    e.
    Itookav aseandt hrowitonhi m hefellIwent
    straightintohim andbeatt hehelloutofhim,
    mymot herstoppedmeIwant edt okil
    lhim
    bhabha.Imanagedt osav emymot herfrom
    thatmonster.That
    'swhenIranawayf rom t
    hat
    placeweoncecal l
    edahomebecauseIknewhe
    wasgoingt okil
    lme.Iwasi ngrade9then.I
    meetanotherguy ,
    TaSirahheisdeadnow, he
    tookmei nhewasr ichandhewasadr ug
    dealert
    henhemademesel ldrugsIdidthat
    becauseIhadnoot heropti
    ons.Icar
    ri
    edon
    withschoolthenIpassedgrade9

    Thefol
    lowingy earIwas16Iboughtmysel f
    materi
    alandbui l
    tmysel fashackinNy anga,
    wit
    hthemoneyt hatIgotf r
    om t
    aSirahf or
    sel
    li
    ngdrugsf orhim,Iboughtabed, small
    thi
    ngsthenwhenmyshackwasonpoi ntItook
    mymot herandbr other
    si n.Westayedtherei
    t
    wassmal lbutatleastwehadpeaceofmi nd.

    Theywereal
    ldonewi
    thgr
    ade12mymot her
    di
    dn'thav
    emoneytocont
    inueandt
    hatbast
    ard
    di
    dn'twantt otakethem t
    oUni v
    er sit
    y.I
    conti
    nuedsel l
    i
    ngdr ugsandsomet i
    meswe
    wouldr obAtm' sandsododgywor ks, ,
    ,
    ,,butwe
    weref ocusi
    nginheistsmostoft het i
    meup
    unti
    lIwasi ngrade12.Iwast hebr eadwi nneri
    n
    awaybecauseXhant iandNdumi sower e
    workingassecur i
    ti
    essothemoneyt heyearned
    wasnotenoughi twasforthei
    rtoiletri
    esand
    tr
    anspor t
    .Mawandewasnotwor king.

    Myl astmissi
    onswi thTaSi rahi nf
    actunderTa
    Sir
    ahwaswhenwer obbedl amot oyemal iand
    thebigheistyemot ohegav eusourshar esand
    Idecidedtodol i
    cense, Igotit.WiththemoneyI
    hadIdecidedt otakeXhant i,Ndumi soand
    Mawandebackt oschool .Theywer eall
    accepted.Isacri
    fi
    cedmysel fIhadtobet he
    fat
    herwenev erhadthoughIwast heyoungest
    one.XhantiandNdumi sower eacceptedat
    UWCandMawandeatCputi twasPent echthen.
    Xhantididhi
    sBcom Account i
    ng,Ndumiso,Bcur
    i
    nnur si
    ngandMawande: ND;Informat
    ion
    TechnologyIpaidforallt
    hei
    rstudiesl
    ucki
    ly
    theyallgott
    heirdegrees.
    Aftertheywer edoneIdecidedtobuymy sel
    fa
    taxithenfrom ther
    eIneverlookedback
    becauset hetaxiIboughtgotmet hesecond
    onenj al
    onj al
    ountil
    Iownedt he8thone.

    Ihatethosebastar
    ds, myf at
    herandMcebisi
    (hismot her
    'sboyf
    riend),Ihatethem wi
    th
    passionbutIalsothankthem thattheymade
    mest rong

    YouknowInev erhadasisterbhabhabutIwi l
    l
    doanything,Imeanany t
    hingtoprotectyou,
    anyt
    hingt oseeyouhappy .Whatmymot her
    wentthroughIdon'twishittoanygirloutther
    e
    evenmywor stenemy.Iam notperfectIknowI
    havetoomanyf l
    awsbutIam tr
    ying.Ihave
    angerissuesIknow,I
    'mruthl
    essbutIwi l
    lnev
    er
    Imeannev erlaymyhandsevenaf ingerona
    l
    ady

    Heexhal
    ed

    Me:
    sowher
    eisy
    ourf
    ather
    ?
    Ayanda:lanjagothispensi
    onandbuil
    tabi
    g
    houseforlanj
    akaziy
    akheisophel
    aimal
    i
    bamgxotha,usekhayangokustay
    ingwi
    thmy
    grandmotherakanayonixx
    Me:
    soawukamxol
    eli
    ?
    Ayanda:ndi
    yathet
    hanay
    emandi
    sekhay
    abut
    heisnot
    hingtome
    Me:
    yhoo
    Ayanda:soar
    ey ougoingt
    ol eav
    eme, nowthat
    youknowIam fr
    om brokenfamilyandIdi
    d
    t
    hingsIam notpr
    oudof
    Me:
    no,
    Iwon'
    t.Fr
    iendsangi
    thi
    ?.
    Ayanda:(hehel
    dmev
    eryt
    ight
    )thanky
    ou
    bhabha
    Me:
    sowher
    eisy
    ourmot
    her
    ?
    Ayanda:sheisstil
    lst
    ayingi
    nNyanga,
    Ijust
    conver
    tedtheshackintoahousecasMamzo
    athi
    akafunikusukaeNyanga
    Me:
    Yhanhet
    hathect
    ic

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha
    Me:
    hey
    ?
    Ay
    anda:
    promi
    semesomet
    hing?
    Me:
    what
    ?
    Ay
    anda:
    thaty
    ouwon'
    tl
    eav
    eme
    Me:
    Iwi
    l
    lnev
    erl
    eav
    eyou,
    ,
    ,,t
    hatIpr
    omi
    se
    Ay anda: Iknowsomet i
    mesIcanbeadogbut
    pleasebepat ientwi thme.YouknowwhenI
    mety ouIknewy ouwer ediffer entt haty ouwi ll
    bringl ighti ntomyl ife.Youar enotev enmy
    girl
    friendbutIcanf reelyconf idei ny ou, you
    knowwhatIt oldy ouInev ert oldany one.For
    thef i
    r stt i
    meIf indsomeonewhocar esf orme
    whol ov esmenotbecauseofmymoney, you
    knowbhabhaf orallmyl i
    feInev erfeltlov ed
    andcar edf or,allpeopl eIt oldmy selftheyl oved
    met heyl eftme, t
    heyl eftmebhabhaIwas
    youngIneededt obel oved, tobecar edf or,to
    bet oldt hatev erythingwi llbef i
    ne.( Hest arted
    cryingagai n)Ij usthel dhimt iteshamemaar ni
    t
    brokemet oseet heMi ghtAy andal ikethat .
    Theyl eftmebhabhadi dn'tIdeser v
    et ol eavea
    nor mal li
    fel i
    keanyot herkids?I nsteadI
    becomeaf athert omybr ot her sahusbandt o
    mymot heri thur t
    sbhabhai thur t s,
    Me:
    Iam her
    enowandIam notgoi
    ng
    any
    where(ndazi
    vasendi
    tshi
    l
    o,Idi
    dn'
    tknow
    whatt
    osay)

    Me:y ouneedtoseeapsy
    chol
    ogi
    stkodwa,
    unomsindoomninzi
    Ayanda:
    youmeanashr
    ink?Her
    aisedhi
    s
    ey
    ebrows
    Me:
    yes
    Ayanda:hay
    ibhabhawakewayi
    bonaphii
    ndoda
    yomXhosauyochazai
    nxaki
    zay
    okomny eumtu
    Me: buty ourangerisgoingtodest royyou,the
    sooneryoudeal wit
    hi tt
    hebetter.Youhav e
    madei tthisfarYanda, keepgoingy oualmost
    ther
    edon' tletyourangerdestroywhaty ouhav e
    buil
    t,sweatandwor kedfor,y
    our eal
    lyneedhelp
    yazisomet i
    mengi yakwesabamawunomsi ndo
    youjustturnintosomet hingelse
    Ay
    anda:
    uyandoy
    ikamany
    ani
    bhabha?
    Me:
    yesIdosomet
    imes
    Ayanda:whi
    chmeansIreal
    l
    yneedhelpIdon'
    t
    wantyoutobescar
    edofmet hat
    '
    sthel
    ast
    thi
    ngIwant
    Me:
    thengethel
    p
    Ay
    anda:i
    fIgetashr
    ink,
    wi l
    lyoupl
    easecome
    wi
    thme,
    I'
    m scar
    edIcan'tdoital
    one
    Me:
    hay
    iYanda!
    Ay
    anda:
    pleasebhabha
    Me:ok,okIwi
    l
    lcomewi
    thy
    ouasl
    ongasy
    ou
    wi
    l
    lgethel
    p
    Ayanda:thankyousweet
    cheeks.(Hesmiled
    thatpai
    nfulsmi
    l
    e.Youknowwheny ouar
    e
    hurti
    ngbutubeufunausmil
    e)
    Me:
    itsgoi
    ngt
    obeok,
    yezwa?
    Ay
    anda:henoddedl
    i
    kea5y
    earol
    dshame
    maar
    n.
    Ayanda: hayimaarnkodwasweet cheeks
    undenzandibeweakInev ercri
    edmnabutnow
    ndihl
    alandil
    i
    la.Kodwandiyakuthanda
    Sweetcheeks,youbri
    ngthebestkul ent
    wana
    yakwaMt ungwa( hesmil
    ed)

    Sne;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    22:
    24]Mca:
    INSERT42

    Ayanda:nowenoughwi
    thtear
    slet
    'sgo
    downstai
    rsamaj
    it
    aayabr
    aai
    Me:
    nhaIwi
    l
    lpass
    Ay
    anda:
    pleasesweet
    cheeks
    Me:
    hay
    imaar
    nYandast
    opcal
    l
    ingmet
    hat
    Ay
    anda:
    andi
    thi
    nawey
    oucal
    l
    ingmeYanda
    Me:
    okngi
    zoy
    ekake
    Ay
    anda:
    No!
    !!Don'
    tIl
    ovei
    t
    Me: heey
    ousuchababy(ngabambai
    zi
    dlel
    e
    zakhe)
    Ay
    anda:
    heywenabhabhazondenzaweak

    Webot
    hlaughed

    Ay
    anda:
    let
    'sgosweet
    cheeks
    Me:real
    l
    yIwil
    lpass.(
    Real
    l
    yIcoul
    dn'
    tst
    and
    Mawande'si
    nsul
    ts)
    Ay
    anda:
    arey
    ousur
    e?
    Me:
    genui
    ne
    Ay
    anda:
    ok,
    then.

    Helef
    tIdeci
    dedtowatcht
    v.Wehadbr
    aaif
    or
    di
    nner,
    Iwasgladthatt
    hef
    oll
    owi
    ngdayIwas
    goi
    ngbacktores.
    Around8pm Ay andacame, hechangedf r
    om a
    shortandwearabl ackguessjean,bl
    ackt- shir
    t,
    blackhooderandbl ackmi
    li
    taryboots.Idecided
    tokeepquite,hewasol denoughIdi dn'
    task
    wherehewasgoi ng.

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha
    Me:
    hi
    Ay anda: Iam goi
    ngsomewher e,bakhuphei-
    taxi yam ontherout
    ewithoutt
    ell
    i
    ngme, t
    hey
    aref ucki
    ngwi t
    hthewrongperson.I'
    m sure
    baf unandibuyi
    seubunj
    abam.

    Ij
    ustkeptqui
    te

    Ayanda:Iwi
    l
    lbebackbef
    orey
    ouknowi
    t
    bhabha
    Me:
    ok(hepl
    ant
    edaki
    ssonmycheek)

    InevermindwhenAy andawentt odohi sthings,


    butthatdayIjustcouldn'tsleepIwast urni
    ng
    andtossingthewholeni ght.Ihavewai t
    edf or
    hi
    m butnot hi
    ng.Iwasget t
    ingwor r
    iednowand
    i
    twas4am , Ideci
    dedt owakeup, Imadet he
    bed,Itookabath,thencamebackl ot
    ionedmy
    body.Thatiswhenmyphoner ang,i
    twas
    Ayanda

    Me:
    Yanda?
    Cal
    l
    er:
    ma'
    am
    Me:
    Msi
    ra!
    !
    Msi
    ra:
    arey
    ouawake?
    Me:
    yes,
    why
    ?
    Msir
    a:pl
    easegetready,
    Iam comi
    ngt
    opi
    ck
    youupTaAyl
    aisinhospi
    tal
    Me:
    what
    !!Whathappened?i
    sheok?
    Msi
    ra:
    fornow
    Me:
    okI
    '
    mready

    MsiracameandIt ookmybagandwel eftfor


    hospit
    al,andAy andawasatMedi cl
    ini
    ci n
    Durbanvi
    lle.Wegott hereMawandeandVi do
    weretherewi ththepoli
    ce.Rememberi fa
    pati
    entisadmi tt
    edabeebedut yulwekumel e
    kwazisweamaphoy i
    sakungathi kanti
    eber obber
    orubulel
    eumunt uabeuy af
    unwa.Sot heywer e
    ther
    eandMawandewasbusymaki ngt he
    stat
    ement .Goodt hi
    nghewasshotbef orehe
    couldevenr eachtheplacewherehewasgoi ng.
    Therewer edonewi t
    ht hepoli
    ce

    Me:
    wher
    eishe?whyar
    ewewai
    ti
    ngt
    hisl
    ong?
    Vi
    do:
    hei
    sint
    heat
    ret
    heyar
    est
    il
    lbusyt
    ryi
    ngt
    o
    r
    emov
    ethebul
    l
    ets
    Me:
    bul
    l
    ets?
    ??Whati
    sgoi
    ngonkant
    i?
    Vi
    do:
    hewi
    l
    ltel
    lyouwhenhei
    sawake

    Wewai
    tedf
    orhour
    sandf
    inal
    l
    ythedoct
    orcame.

    Mawande:
    howi
    shedoct
    or?
    Doct
    or:
    Goodmor
    ningmr.
    ..
    .
    Mawande:MrKhumal ohisbrot
    herandmiss
    Rhadebehi
    sgi
    rl
    fr
    iend,,
    ,,andgir
    lf
    ri
    end??
    ?Habe
    Iwasn'
    tany
    one'
    sgirl
    fr
    iendmine
    Doct
    or:
    Iam doct
    orHer
    bst
    Mawande:
    howi
    smybr
    otherdoct
    or?
    Doctor: wemanagedt oremovethebul
    l
    etsbut
    hiscondit
    ionisverycr
    it
    ical
    .Wehavedoneall
    thebestallisl
    eftnowisforyout
    oprayforhi
    m.
    Hewi l
    lreall
    yneedthat
    .
    Me:
    whatdoy
    oumeanexact
    lydoct
    or?
    ?
    Doct or:fortunatel
    yt hebull
    etsdidn'
    thitthe
    spinalcor d,onlythef r
    acti
    onoft heaxonsar e
    damagedbutt heycanber etrai
    nedt odot heir
    wor kagai n,thener vesmightbeabl etoheal
    themsel vesv eryslowlybutt heywil
    l.It
    'sstil
    l
    earlytot ellwest i
    llneedtodomor etests.But
    youmustpr eparey oursel
    fforthewor stIi
    fthe
    condi t
    ioni swor sethanwet hinkitis,hemi ght
    haveneur ologicaldamagebuti fnothemay be
    asympt omat i
    c.

    Me:
    simpl
    eEngl
    i
    shpl
    easedoct
    or

    Doctor:t
    hismeanshemi ghtexperi
    encebrai
    n
    damageandhemi ghtnotwalkagain.Buti
    f
    real
    l
    ythebull
    etsdi
    dn'
    thitthespinehemaybe
    asymptomati
    cwhichmeanst herewon'tbeany
    sympt
    omsofbr
    aindamageorpar
    aly
    zed.Buthe
    hasl
    ostt
    oomuchblood

    Me: canweseehi
    m doct
    or?(t
    ear
    sjust
    st
    reameddownmycheeks)
    Doctor:notnowatleastwaitunti
    lthenight
    shi
    ftpeoplehandovertothemor ningshif
    t,he
    i
    sinICUwhi chmeansnursesst i
    l
    l needtobath
    pat
    ientswhentheyaredonet heny oucansee
    hi
    m.
    Me:
    thanky
    oudoct
    or
    Doct
    or:
    pleasur
    e,Ineedt
    ogo,
    best
    rong
    MeandMawande:
    thansdoct
    or(wechant
    ed)

    Ijustf
    eltsodizzy
    .If
    eltsosuff
    ocat ed,
    itcan'
    t
    beIcan'thav
    eanasthmaat t
    acknotnow
    Ayandaneedsme.Mawandasawt hatIwas
    st
    ruggl
    ingtostandhequickl
    ypickedmeand
    carr
    iedmet ot hechai r
    .Ir eall
    ycouldn'tbreath
    heshoutedforanur seandt heyquicklycame
    formeIwast akent othewar dandwasgi vena
    nebuli
    ser,
    aftersomet imeIwasst able.Msi r
    a
    andVidower ebymysi det heylookedso
    worri
    edshame.Iwentt other eceptionand
    fi
    ll
    edtheformt heymadeacopyofmyI 'dand
    medicalai
    dcar d.Isi
    gnedt hepapersandwent
    backtoICU.Itwas8: 30whenwewer ecalledin
    butonly2peopl ewereallowed.Soi twasme
    andMawandeIhat edMawandebutIdi dn'
    t
    haveachoicef orAy anda'ssake.

    Wewenti nandsatnextt ohim hewassopal e,


    tubesconnectedinhim, t
    heOxgy entank,the
    dri
    ps.Isowi shedIcouldtakethepainforhim
    butIcouldn'
    t.Mawandel eftandIstayedther
    e
    forabout2hour sandleft
    ,,
    ,whywasci hurt
    ing
    thatmuch, ,
    ,
    ,Ididn'
    tknowbutIwasr eal
    lyhur
    t,
    ,,,
    ,
    Sne;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    22:
    28]Mca:
    INSERT43

    Iwassti
    l
    lstay
    ingatYanda'shousebecausei
    t
    waseasyformetovisi
    tAyanda.Msirawas
    taki
    ngmetoandfrom school
    .

    Afteraweekhegai nedconsci
    ous, Iwoul dvi
    sit
    him andst ayedwi thhim al
    mostthewhol eday
    wor seMonday sIdidn'thav
    eclassesatal leven
    thenur sesdidn'tbotherchasi
    ngmeaway .
    Unfortunatelyhislowerpartwaspar al
    yzedbut
    thedoct orsaiditsonlytemporarysoonhe
    woul dbeabl etowal k,sohehadt ouseawheel
    chairtowal karoundandhewasat tending
    physiotherapy
    Hewasf inall
    ydischar ged, Mrgr umpywas
    alway smoody, hewoul dthrowt antrums, thr
    ow
    thingsar ound, hewasv erymoodyandal way s
    angr y.Iguesshecoul dn' ttakethef actt hatthe
    mi ghtyAy andawasi nawheel chair.Hechased
    meIt hink20t imeset hi hedoesn' tneedmeI
    mustgoandbef riendwi thpeopl ewhocanwal k.
    Ididn'tlisten,al
    lIknewwasheneededal lthe
    suppor thecoul dget .Itwasami ssiont obat h
    him changehi sclot heshenceher ef usedpoi nt
    blankt ohav eanur seev enamal enur se,soI
    hadt odoi t.Hewasmor ecomf ortablewi thme,
    hewoul dn'tevenal lowu- Mawandet obat hhim.
    Eyy ywhenIappl iedt oCputIdi dn'tappl yt obea
    nur seyaseTabl ev i
    ew, butIhav eal r
    eadymade
    apr omi set hatIwi l
    l neverl eaveu-Ay anda.

    Igotusedi nhel
    pingAyandabutt
    ouchi
    ngu
    Mt ungwawhenbat hi
    nghim andl
    oti
    onedhi
    m
    reall
    ytraumati
    zedme.Msi r
    awouldhel
    pme
    shamet ot
    akehi mtobathandtobedandhe
    seem comfortabl
    ewithhi
    mt hanhisbrotherbut
    hewouldstressthatImustnotlethim see
    umtungwawakhe.Ei shhMENandt hei
    regos.

    OnTuesdayIhadclassesbutIdeci dednott o
    gosinceVidowasatwor kandMsi r
    awasgoi ng
    topickupAyanda'solderbrotherXhanti
    f r
    om
    air
    port,hewasworkingandst ayingi
    nPr etor
    ia.
    IbathedAyandaanddr essedhim.Allofa
    suddenMrgr umpywaqal aamamoodsakhe

    Ay
    anda:
    Sinenhl
    anhl
    a!!(heshout
    edmyname)
    Me:hayingi
    namadl
    ebe,
    ngi
    l
    aduzenawe
    angi
    thi
    ?
    Ay
    anda:
    Sinenhl
    anhl
    a!!
    Me:
    hey
    Ay
    anda:
    don'
    theyme,
    whyar
    eyouher
    e?why
    don'
    tyoujustl
    eavemet hefuckaloneandlet
    medie,whydon'tyouleavejustl
    i
    keev eryone
    whohasleftme,Ican'
    twalkforheavensake,
    whyareyouherereal
    ly
    ?(hewasshout ing)
    Me: Iam herebecauseIwannabehereandI
    am notgoinganywheredl
    alanj
    engeskhathi
    sakho
    Ay
    anda:
    leav
    emeal
    one!
    !
    Me:
    youar
    est
    uckwi
    thme
    Ayanda:helandi
    thi
    phumaendli
    niy
    am ,Idon'
    t
    needyou,don'
    twantyouandy
    ourpit
    ti
    ness!
    !
    Me:
    uri
    ghtphel
    e,butangi
    hambi
    Ayanda:whatareyouwait
    ingf
    or?
    didn'
    tyou
    rej
    ectmewhileIwassti
    ll
    walki
    ngnowwhyar e
    here?goandbewiththemenwhocanwal k,
    whocanmakey ouhappy.(Hewasshouting
    andcryi
    ng,l
    oud)
    Me:
    naboGast
    ryandsuper
    manbay
    akhal
    anha,
    Idi
    dn'
    tknowandyoulooksougl
    ywheny
    oucr
    y
    ngat
    hiukudl
    akwengulube
    Ay
    anda:
    yini
    ingul
    ube?
    Me:
    api
    g
    Ayanda:heywenabhabha(hel
    aughed
    i
    nbetweenhist
    ears)
    Me:ladi
    esandgent
    lemen,hal
    lel
    ujahhecan
    l
    augh(Iimi
    tat
    edhim)helaughedharder

    Me: (
    Isatnextt
    ohi
    m andhuggedhim)its
    goi
    ngtobeok, wear
    einthi
    stoget
    her.Iam not
    goi
    nganywhere

    Hesmi
    l
    ed

    Ay
    anda:
    promi
    sebhabha
    Me:
    promi
    secomel
    et'
    sdopi
    nkypr
    omi
    se
    Ay
    anda:
    heywenabhabhazandenzaImof
    fi
    e

    Webot
    hlaughed

    Ayanda:whatdi
    dIdot
    odeser
    vey
    ou?
    ,,
    ,,
    You
    ar
    esokind
    Me:
    younotbady
    oursel
    fMrgr
    umpy

    Ayanda: Iam sorr


    ybhabha, i
    tsjustt
    hatI'
    m
    usedinpeopleleavingmeIjustgotscaredthat
    youwi l
    lalsol
    eavemesoIj ustthoughti
    fI
    chasey oubeforeyouleav
    emei twi l
    lbebetter
    thanIfyouleavemeIwon' tsurv
    iveit
    sweetcheeksIwon't
    Me: youneednottobescaredyouarest
    uck
    withme.Yhoousali
    lanangoku,
    sowuzandenzel
    ainci
    li
    ki
    thingal
    ezi
    nyembezi
    zakho
    (Il
    aughed)

    Ayanda:heywenabhabha(hel
    aughed)
    yadel
    elayazi
    Me: nowMrgrumpywi pethosetearsory
    ou
    wantyourbr
    othert
    hinkthatIam abusi
    ngand
    mist
    reat
    ingyou
    Ayanda:Iwil
    ll
    eavethem sothathecansee
    thaty
    ourarehear
    tl
    essandy oudon'tl
    i
    stent
    o
    me(hewasl aughi
    ng)
    Me:
    nchoomybaby
    Ay
    anda:
    heywenabhabha!

    Wewer
    eint
    err
    upt
    edbyt
    heknockont
    hedoor

    Me:
    comei
    n
    Ayanda:
    heywenabhabhaIam st
    il
    ltheman
    here
    Vi
    do:
    ma'
    am
    Me:
    Sne

    Anotherguycameinhelookedexact
    lyl
    ike
    Ayandabutabitol
    dert
    hanhi m andMawande

    Guy:
    sani
    bonani
    Ay
    anda:
    Xhant
    i
    Xhant
    i:mt
    akamama
    Ay
    anda:
    njani
    ?

    Theyhugged.Shame.

    Xhant
    i:whathappened?
    Ay
    anda:
    itsal
    ongst
    orybhut
    i
    Xhanti
    :youmustbebhabha,
    ,
    ,sawubona
    (walul
    aisandl
    asakhe)
    Me:
    yebo
    Xhant
    i:howar
    eyou?
    Me:
    goodandy
    our
    sel
    f
    Xhant
    i:gr
    eat,
    Ihav
    ehear
    dal
    otngawe
    Me:(Ismiled)excusemeIwil
    lgoandgety
    ou
    br
    eakfastanddon'tf
    orgety
    ouhavephy
    soat12
    Ay
    anda:
    yesma'
    am

    Iexit
    edt hebedr
    oom, Imadebreakfast
    ,itwas
    readybyt hewayIputiti
    natray,i
    twasEngl i
    sh
    breakfast,madefr
    uitsal
    adandappl ej
    uice

    Iwasaboutt
    owal
    kinwhenIhear
    dXhant
    i
    say
    ing.
    ..
    .
    Sne;
    -
    )
    [08/17,22:
    40]Mca:Itwil
    lbesoinhumanofme
    i
    fIwi l
    ll
    etmybabi esstar
    vethewholeweekend.
    SoMI NIforthedaymaybe1mor einser
    tbef
    ore
    Isleep

    I
    NSERT44

    Xhant
    i:damnsheissogorgeous,
    Iswear
    ndi
    yendavukel
    waumbonakwam ,andif
    unanga
    nom-huggerIwasgoi
    ngtoembarrassmyself
    .
    Ayanda:yhat
    hat
    'smyfl
    oweri
    nfactmywif
    e,
    souncedeX-manugci
    neimi
    cabangay
    akho
    emdaka
    Xhant
    i:ar
    eyoudat
    ingnow?
    Ayanda:no,
    notyet,
    shehasbeenthr
    oughalot,
    Idon'
    twannatakeadvant
    ageofher,
    sheisnot
    r
    eadysoIwi
    l
    lwai
    tev
    eni
    fitt
    akesadecade
    Xhanti
    :you!!
    !Umel
    aint
    ombi
    that
    '
    snew
    usaphi
    li
    lekahl
    enj
    e?
    Ayanda:
    yhaasyoucanseeandi
    phi
    l
    anga
    ndi
    kwiwheel
    chai
    r

    Theyl
    aughed

    Xhant
    i:don'
    twai
    ttool
    ong,
    wewi
    l
    ltakeher
    Ayanda:tsekXhant i
    ,,
    ,,youar emybr ot
    herbut
    zazii
    ntozodlala,Iknowwenangot handa
    amacherry.Buttrustmey outouchherorsay
    anyt
    hingtoherIwi l
    lkil
    ly ou,ngokuungubrot
    her
    wam Ipromisey out hat'sthemot herofmykids,
    ndakuyekangoZi masawal al
    anayeIdidn'
    tdo
    anyt
    hingbecauseIdi dn'tloveherandshewas
    l
    oosebuty oudot hesamekubhabhanzaku
    bhodisaandy ayaziImeani t
    Xhant
    i:di
    dyouknowaboutmeandZi
    masa?
    Ayanda:yhabutIkeptqui
    tebecauseungubhuti
    wam bythewayndandingamncanywalamtana,
    butwit
    hbhabhay awul
    alaubali
    weand
    ngumtanalowaXhantit
    oev enthi
    nkaboutthat
    .
    Yandonyanyi
    samaarn.
    Xhant
    i:ndi
    yadl
    alamaar
    nbabybr
    other
    .Ihav
    e
    gr
    ownup
    Ay
    anda:
    youbet
    terbe
    Xhant
    i:yhaaIseewhyumthandakangaka,
    she
    i
    ssodiff
    erentsodowntoeart
    h
    Ayanda:yhaat
    hati
    ssot
    rue.Il
    oveher
    andi
    zenzi

    ThenIwal
    kedi
    n,'
    her
    eyougo'

    Ay
    anda:
    comef
    eedme
    Me:
    chaAy
    andasut
    etema
    Ay
    anda:
    younor
    mal
    l
    yfeedmenj
    e
    Me:(Ismi
    l
    edshy
    ly)noti
    nfr
    ontofy
    ourbr
    other
    hawu
    Ay
    anda:
    please(puppyf
    ace)
    Me: t
    hatwon'twor
    kMrKhumal odon'
    teven
    thi
    nkabouti
    t.Zidl
    eleIwannagiv
    eyousome
    spacetobond,Iwil
    lbedownstai
    rs
    Xhant
    i:nol
    astbor
    ndon'
    tmi
    ndme
    Ay
    anda:
    yev
    ake,
    comepl
    ease
    Me:
    ok(r
    oll
    i
    ngey
    es)

    Ifedhi
    m unt
    ilhewasf
    ull
    thenwewentt
    ohi
    s
    physi
    o.

    Iwant
    edtoleav
    ebehindsi
    ncehi
    sbrotherwas
    her
    ebutYandaref
    usedpoi
    ntbl
    ankathiuMsir
    a
    mustt akeabreak.Inobay i
    mi ekumele
    ngingaphumuli
    .Af terhisphysioXhantit
    ook
    anotherdir
    ect
    ionf r
    om theonegoi ngto
    Ayanda'shousewej oi
    nedR300t henN2
    str
    aighttoNyanga.Theywer echatt
    ingand
    l
    aughingIwoul djustsmi l
    ekwezondawo

    Ay
    anda:
    Iwanty
    out
    omeetmymot
    her
    Me:
    doIhav
    eachoi
    ce?
    Ay
    anda:
    no!

    Wegotof fandhelpedAy anda, satonhis


    wheelchai
    rthenXhant i
    wheel edhi mintothe
    house.Wegotin.Awomanar oundher50s
    wassitti
    ngther
    ewat chi
    ngt vwi thachick,who
    j
    ustsmi l
    edwhenhesawAy andaandXhant i.I
    am notsurewhethershewassmi li
    ngatAy anda
    orXhantinha.
    Xhanti:molomha(hewenttohughermom )
    andAy anda'
    smotherst
    oodupandhugAyanda
    toothenshelookedatme'
    molontombi
    '
    Me:
    yebomha
    Ayanda:uf
    unani
    loapha(
    ebej
    ongekul
    osi
    si
    si
    fi
    keepha)
    Ayanda'
    smom:
    hay
    iAy
    anday
    indl
    elay
    othet
    ha
    l
    eyo
    Ay
    anda:
    ndi
    yabuzauf
    unani
    ?
    A.mom :wawudi
    benenay
    eehl
    alaaphanam
    andi
    thi
    Ay
    anda:
    akanat
    shomi
    kant
    iyena?
    A.
    mom :
    ungambuzi
    njewena?
    Ay
    anda:
    andi
    naxeshal
    othet
    hanezi
    febemna
    A.Mom :
    Ayanda!
    !!
    !!
    !Noti
    nmyhousey
    andi
    va!
    Ay
    anda:
    sor
    ryMamzo
    Sothegi
    rlstart
    eduncokol
    anoXhanti,
    buthe
    seemedratheruncomfor
    tabl
    eorannoyed

    Gal
    :soXhant
    iuf
    ikeni
    ni?
    Xhant
    i:namhl
    anj
    eekuseni
    Gal
    :howi
    sJozi
    ?
    Xhant
    i:good
    Gal
    :Iam happyf
    ory
    ou

    Xhanti
    start
    edchatt
    ingwit
    hhermother
    .I
    wonderwhowast hi
    sgirlengaf
    unwakangaka
    ziKhumalos

    A.
    mom :
    soXhant
    iandi
    kaz
    obanomol
    okazana?
    Xhant
    i:hay
    imamzo
    A.Mom :ndiyagugaXhant
    i,ooNdumi
    sono
    Ayandauthibazat
    hathani
    niwenaomdal
    a
    ungekat
    hathi

    Ay
    anda: hay
    isunut
    het
    hangam.Iam get
    ti
    ng
    marr
    iedsoonmna
    A.Mom :
    umf
    azi
    zabeumf
    umenephi
    ?
    Ayanda: nanguumfazi
    wam (hebrushedmy
    backashewassi tt
    ingi
    nt hewheelchai
    rnextt
    o
    thecouchIwassitt
    ingin.Iwasso
    embarrassed)
    A.M :
    Ithoughty
    ouwer
    egoi
    ngt
    omar
    ryZi
    masa

    Ohht
    hisi
    sZi
    masa

    Ay
    anda:
    noMamzo,
    uwer
    ewr
    ong
    Zi
    masa:
    ohhsoAy
    anday
    oudeci
    dedukuj
    ola
    nabant
    wanangoku
    Ay
    anda:
    yes(hef
    akedasmi
    l
    e)
    Zi
    masa: sowhi
    chgr
    adear
    eyoudoi
    ng?(
    she
    l
    ookedatme)

    Ay
    andar
    espondedbef
    oreIcoul
    danswerher

    Ay
    anda:
    shei
    sdoi
    nggr
    ade10
    Zimasa:sointangazakhoziphel
    il
    elentouleqa
    ezet
    huintanga.Phof
    undili
    ndelentonini
    njalo
    bant
    wanabasehi ghschoolngothanda
    amadodanemal i
    .

    Ouchhh

    Sne;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    22:
    44]Mca:
    INSERT45
    Ayanda:sowenawhati
    syourpr
    obl
    em
    becausei
    tsnoty
    ourmoney
    Me: Ij
    ustf
    eelsor
    ryf
    ort
    hem casbazi
    usi
    zi
    sa
    ngamadoda.#chacl
    aponce#
    A.m:kant
    ikengeubuyel
    akuZimasauy
    eka
    abant
    wanaabafunanj
    eimal
    iyakho

    Onet
    hingInot
    icedumhakaAyandadidn'
    tl
    ike
    mebutIdidn'
    thaveapr
    obl
    em wit
    hthat

    Ayanda:ev
    enifshewasthelastper
    sonon
    eart
    hsozendamtshat
    aletal
    oneujol
    anaye.

    Aft
    erthatwest ay
    edtheresi
    mamel euAyanda,
    Xhant
    i bephoxananoZimasaandAy anda's
    mom def endi
    ngZimasa.Fi
    nal
    lysazesahamba.
    Xhant
    ist
    ayedabout2weeksbecausehetooka
    l
    eaveheoff
    eredtotakemet oandfr
    om school
    sosometi
    mebendidrotswanguyeoruMsira.
    Xhant
    iwentbacktojoburg,

    .
    ..
    ..3mont
    hsl
    ater.
    ..

    Ayandawasgetti
    ngstr
    ongerandstr
    ongerin
    facthewasfi
    ne,hewaswal ki
    ngpr
    operl
    yand
    wasbackatbeinghimsel
    f.Iwassoexhaust
    ed
    shameithadbeenthehecti
    c3months

    Wewer
    echi
    l
    li
    ngi
    nthebednoAy
    anda.

    Me:
    Yanda
    Ay
    anda:
    sweet
    cheeks
    Me:
    Iam goi
    ngbackt
    orest
    omor
    row
    Ay
    anda:
    what
    'st
    her
    ush?
    Me: hawuIwassupposet
    ostayfewdaysonl
    y,
    doyousti
    llr
    emember?ButIendedupst
    ayi
    ng3
    months
    Ay
    anda:
    Iam usedi
    nyoubei
    ngher
    e
    Me:
    wukukhi
    pit
    aphel
    alokho
    Ay
    anda:
    whati
    sthat
    ?
    Me:
    umasi
    hlal
    i
    sane
    Ayanda:
    fri
    endsazi
    hlal
    i
    sani
    ,wakeway
    ivaphi
    l
    onto
    Me;
    mfxmm daki
    wewena
    Ay
    anda:
    heywenabhabha
    Me: maar
    aIdidn'
    tevengohomengoJune
    YandaImissmyparents
    Ay
    anda:
    let
    'sgoandv
    isi
    ttoget
    her
    Me:
    usuy
    ahl
    any
    akemanj
    e,mydadwi
    l
    lki
    l
    lme
    Ay
    anda:
    ngubani
    ohl
    any
    ayobhabha
    Me:
    mfxmm i
    t'
    syou

    Het
    ickl
    edme

    Ayanda:
    uthi
    mf xmm kubani
    bhabha(he
    ti
    ckl
    edmeharder)

    YhoIhatetobet
    ickl
    ed.Il
    aughedv
    eryhar
    dI
    evencr
    ied

    Me:
    stop.
    ..
    .Ya.
    ..
    ..
    nda
    Ay
    anda:
    yit
    hipl
    easedaddy
    Me:
    daki
    we
    Ayanda:sayi
    t,
    (het
    ickl
    edmehar
    der
    )hewas
    ontopofme
    Me:
    pleasedaddy.
    ..
    (Ir
    anoutofbr
    eat
    h)

    Hel
    etitgo.Iwasbr
    eat
    hingsohar
    dthathewas
    sof
    ri
    ghtened

    Ay
    anda:
    arey
    ouokbhabha?
    Me:
    Inoddedt
    ryi
    ngt
    ocat
    chabr
    eat
    h

    Youknowwhati swrongwi t
    hast hmaticpeople
    whent heyfeeloktheystoptaki
    ngt hei
    rinhal
    ers
    dai
    lynotknowi ngthattheyarecreati
    ngsome
    sortofresi
    stance.ThisiswhathashappenedI
    hadstoppedt aki
    ngmymedi cat
    ion5mont hs
    backbecauseIf eltok

    Ay
    anda:
    whyuphef
    uml
    akabuhl
    ungu?
    Me:
    Iam ast
    hmat
    ic
    Ay
    anda:
    shi
    t!!Youshoul
    dhav
    etol
    dmebhabha
    Me:
    itsok
    Ay
    anda:
    ikuqal
    eni
    ni
    Me:
    att
    heageof6
    Ay
    anda:
    Iam sor
    rybhabha,
    Ireal
    l
    ydi
    dn'
    tknow
    Me:
    becauseInev
    ert
    oldy
    ou
    Ay
    anda:
    youshoul
    dhav
    e
    Me:
    younev
    erasked.(Ismi
    l
    ed)
    Ayanda:
    letmet
    akey
    out
    ohospi
    tal
    then.(
    He
    st
    oodup)
    Me: y
    ouar
    ebeingdr
    amati
    c,Iam okr
    eal
    l
    yjust
    passmemyinhal
    eri
    tsi
    nmybag.

    Het
    ookmyi
    nhal
    erandgav
    eitt
    ome

    Ay
    anda:
    arey
    ouok?
    Me:
    yhaIam cool
    Ay
    anda:
    whenar
    eyoucl
    osi
    ng?
    Me:
    thatf
    ri
    day
    Ay
    anda:
    doy
    ouhav
    ecl
    assest
    omor
    row?
    Me:
    no,
    Idon'
    t
    Ay
    anda:
    socany
    ouaccompanymet
    omor
    row?
    Me:
    towher
    e?
    Ay
    anda:
    IwannagoanddoanHI
    Vtest
    Me:anHI
    Vtest?whyar
    eyousi
    ck?
    Ayanda:noloveIam notIj
    ustwannaknowmy
    st
    atusthat
    'sal
    l
    Me:Ineverdi
    danHI
    Vtestnami
    soIguessI
    wi
    l
    lalsodoit
    Ayanda:t
    hankyou,
    aboutyougoingt
    ores
    tomorr
    owcanyounotgotomorr
    owandgo
    whenwecomeback
    Me:
    comebackf
    rom wher
    e?
    Ay
    anda:
    itsasur
    pri
    se
    Me:
    whenar
    ewel
    eav
    ing?
    Ay
    anda:
    mawuv
    ala
    Me: yhoowhichmeansIwil
    lbestuckwi
    thy
    ou
    foranother3weekst
    hat
    'snotay
    oba(Imadea
    sadface)
    Ay
    anda:
    heywenabhabha
    Me:
    yaf
    undekel
    a
    Ay
    anda:
    andi
    yont
    angakho
    Me:
    yhay
    haGr
    umpy

    Hehitmewi t
    hapil
    lowIhi thim back,hewas
    abouttohitmeagainwhenIst oodupandhe
    ranaft
    erme.Hegotmeandhehel dmywai st
    andpulledmecloserintohim, therewasno
    spacebetweenus,Ilookeddown, Icouldn'
    tlook
    athim phel
    amude, heli
    ftedmychi nwithhis
    fi
    nger.Ilookedathim mybl oodstartedboil
    ing
    up.

    Ayanda:
    (sof
    tl
    y)youhavebeaut
    if
    uley
    es,t
    hey
    ar
    esosexyngathiuy
    ozel
    a,
    ,,y
    ouaresobeaut
    if
    ul
    Me:
    thanky
    ou
    Ay
    anda:
    Ilov
    eyouSi
    nenhl
    anhl
    a

    Myheartbeatsofasty
    angat
    hii
    zokhahl
    ela
    i
    sif
    ubasami i
    phume

    Ayanda: Il
    ov edy out hef i
    rstdayndi kubonae
    l
    ongst r
    eet, Idon'tregr etfoll
    owingy ou, I
    tbroke
    met oseey oucr yingt hatdayi nBellvi
    ll
    e.Itold
    myself
    ,Iwasgonnabey ourher o,t
    heshoul der
    tocryon,thepi l
    lary oucanal way srelieon,and
    whatyoudi df orthepastf ewmont hsIwi ll
    for
    everbegr ateful.Iowey oumyl ife.Justgive
    meachancet olov eyoupl easeMar hadebe
    (Tear
    sjustst
    reameddownmycheeks)

    Ay
    anda:
    pleasesaysomet
    hing,
    ,
    ,
    Me:Iam scar
    edtolov
    eanyi
    ndi
    vi
    dual
    ,whati
    f
    youwi
    ll
    alsohurtme?
    Ayanda:t
    rustmeIwil
    lneverdosuch,
    justsay
    youlov
    emepl easebhabha
    Me:
    (Il
    ookedathi
    m)Il
    ovey
    out
    oo
    Ayanda:j
    ustmakemet
    hehappi
    estma.
    ..
    .What
    di
    dy ouj
    ustsay
    ?
    Me: (Iqui
    ckl
    ylookeddown)Il
    ovey
    out
    oo
    Yanda

    Helookedatmel i
    kehewassearchi
    ngfor
    somethi
    ng,tear
    sstar
    tedt
    obuildupinhi
    seyes.
    Atearescapedfor
    m oneeyeandstr
    eamed
    downhi scheeksbeli
    ngathial
    ingxamanga,I
    start
    edshaking,didIsaysomet hi
    ngthat
    offendedhim,thathurthi
    m,,,
    ,
    ,

    Heexhal
    ed.

    Ayanda:
    thanky
    oubhabha(wi
    thav
    erysof
    t
    voi
    ce)

    Heslowlybentandreachedf ormymouthhe
    ki
    ssedmeandIki ssedhim back.Welli
    twasso
    softandtenderi
    twasliketheclockhad
    stoppedti
    ckingwhatmatteredwasSneand
    Yanda.Helift
    edmeupandspunme

    Ay
    anda:
    thanky
    ou
    Weki
    ssedagai
    n

    Ay
    anda:
    shi
    t!
    !Lookatu-
    Mtungwa

    Ismi
    l
    edshy
    ly

    Wechangedint
    opjsandgotunder
    coverand
    ki
    ssedgoodni
    ghtki
    ss,wecuddl
    edtosleep

    Sne;
    -
    [
    08/
    17,
    22:
    51]Mca:
    INSERT46

    Foll
    owi ngdaywewokeupandbat hed,had
    breakfast,andwewentforHI
    Vtesti
    ng.Iwas
    dri
    vingev ersi
    nceYandawasshothewasl az
    y
    todriv
    eandIdi dn'
    tminddri
    vi
    ng.
    Yanda:
    sweet
    cheeks
    Me:
    sweehear
    t
    Yanda: y
    errbhabhawhenyousaythat
    shukumisau- Mtungwa,
    kwakuni
    nindi
    l
    indeuze
    undibi
    zekanjal
    o.
    Me:
    arey
    oubl
    ushi
    ngorndi
    bonawr
    ongo
    Ayanda:
    heywenabhabhazandenzai
    mof
    fi
    e
    i
    ndodaayi
    blush

    Hesmi l
    edrev
    eali
    nghi
    swhit
    eandbeaut
    if
    ul
    teet
    h.GuysmhleuYandamonadownmhle
    ekwati
    le

    Me:
    yanda
    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha
    Me:
    canIasky
    ousomet
    hing?
    Ay
    anda:
    whati
    sitbhabha?
    Me:whi
    leIwasbathi
    ngIr
    emembered
    somet
    hingyouoncement
    ionedt
    ome
    Ay
    anda:
    whati
    sit
    ?
    Me:
    yourf
    iancéewher
    eisshekant
    i?
    Ay
    anda:
    whatf
    iancée?
    Me:
    theoney
    ousai
    disoutoft
    own
    Ay
    anda:
    ohhht
    hat
    Me:
    yest
    hat
    Ayanda:therei
    sandt
    her
    ewasnof
    iancée
    kwasekuqaleni
    Me:
    whydi
    dyoul
    i
    etomeYanda?
    Ayanda:
    tel
    lmebhabhaifIdi
    dn'
    tli
    ewerey
    ou
    goi
    ngtoshar
    eabed,sameblanket
    swit
    hme
    Me:
    No!
    !!
    Ayanda:exact
    lyIhadtoli
    esothatyouwoul
    d
    beateasesoIhadt opret
    endasifIwas
    engaged
    Me:
    youar
    esohear
    tl
    ess
    Ay
    anda:
    sodoy
    ou
    Me:
    whatdi
    dIdomna
    Ayanda:howdidyousleeppeaceful
    lyt
    hatni
    ght
    Iaskedforapi
    l
    lowumboni l
    euMt ungwa
    wayephumaizi
    thuba.
    Me:
    way
    ekuy
    ala(
    ser
    vedy
    ouwel
    l
    )
    Ay
    anda:
    yhooy
    anci
    shana
    Me:
    ngi
    ri
    ght
    Ayanda:y
    hool
    ontoI
    '
    m str
    ong,i
    twasnoteasy
    toshar
    eabedwit
    hyoubutIhadto.
    Me:
    zabast
    rongo

    Webot
    hlaughed
    Ay
    anda:
    yebhabha,
    whot
    aughty
    out
    odr
    ive
    Me:
    mydad
    Ay
    anda:
    babakhol
    i
    ginsa?
    Me:(Ichokedonmysal
    i
    vaandcoughed)chaa!
    !
    Yanda
    Ayanda:Itaughtt
    hatl
    i
    ginsacaswenaudr
    iver
    ngathi
    uli
    ginsakaz
    i
    Me:
    hay
    iYanda
    Ayanda:seri
    ous,Ihavebeenwatchingyou,
    dr
    iverngat
    hiuli
    gint
    sakaziorunoteksi
    Me: i
    gintsakazi
    Iam notbutunoteksi
    kaziIam,
    aren'
    tI?
    ?I '
    mi narel
    ati
    onshipwit
    hunot eksiso
    thatmakesmeunot eksikazimaybegi
    nsakazi
    too
    Ayanda:(helaughedsohar
    d)heywenna
    bhabhasugeza
    Me:
    Iam noty
    iqi
    nisophel
    a
    Ayanda:
    Ili
    kei
    tandi
    tssosexy
    ,Il
    i
    kemy
    womantobestr
    ong
    Me: Iam notsureaboutthat
    ,theper
    sonwho
    t
    aughtmeur oughindri
    vi
    ngsoIt hi
    nk
    wandosulel
    a
    Ayanda: sowhi
    chcarar
    eyougoi
    ngt
    obuyas
    yourfi
    rstcar
    ?
    Me:
    don'
    tl
    aughpl
    ease
    Ay
    anda:
    ist
    hatbad?
    Me:
    Yanda
    Ay
    anda:
    okIwon'
    tl
    augh
    Me:
    BMW,
    X1
    Ay
    anda:
    wit
    hthi
    sbodyofy
    our
    s
    Me:'t
    hisbodyofmine'
    isdri
    vingyourcarnow
    andIt
    hinkit
    s3timesbi
    ggerthanX1
    Ayanda:yer
    rwawut
    hat
    hwaphi
    youal
    way
    shav
    e
    answers
    Me: ndandi
    that
    hwakulafactor
    yyouwantedt
    o
    seeyenzaabantwanaababinabal
    i
    launon-st
    op
    remember??

    Hel
    aughed

    Ayanda: Ithi
    nki twi
    ll
    suityouperf
    ect
    ly,wi
    th
    yourtaxitendencydri
    vingufanel
    weyimoto
    enkuluungaziginqaezinci
    nciandX1bodywise
    i
    tsnott hatbigyetheavy.Umfaziwam ne
    choicekodwa
    Me:heywenabhabhaandi
    ngomf
    azi
    wakho
    (i
    mit
    ati
    nghisv
    oice)

    Yhoongamqedahel
    aughednonst
    op.

    Ay
    anda:
    Am It
    hatbad?
    Me:
    yesl
    ovey
    ouar
    e.
    Ay
    anda:
    sowhi
    chcol
    our
    ?
    Me:
    blackandt
    int
    ed
    Ay
    anda:
    that
    'sscar
    yforagi
    rl
    Me: Idon'
    twantpeopl
    etoseeudr
    iverl
    i
    lady
    bangazuyohl
    utha
    Ay
    anda:
    yhaai
    tst
    rue
    Ayanda:
    Iwannabuyanot
    hercarbutIdon'
    t
    knowwhichone
    Me: hayibhabha, y
    ouhav eenoughcars,
    you
    don'
    tneedacar .Ezinyezeziunazoyouhardl
    y
    dri
    vethem.Justi nvestyourmoney,
    buyshares
    orbuypropertyratherthancar
    s
    Ayanda:ahouset
    hat
    snotbad,
    Ili
    ket
    heway
    youthi
    nk
    Wear r
    ivedecl
    icksthensayakweli
    cal
    ali
    ne
    si
    ster
    .Icouldseehewasner v
    ousandhonest
    ly
    Iwasn't,t
    hesi
    sterpri
    ckedbothofuswe
    wait
    edf or15min.That15mi nhewasupand
    paci
    ng, t
    henwewer ecal
    ledin.

    Nusre:doyouwantmet
    ogi
    vey
    ourr
    esul
    ts
    separ
    atel
    y?
    Us:
    no
    Ay
    anda:
    canIhav
    ewat
    erpl
    ease?

    Thenursestoodupandtookapapercupand
    pouredwaterfr
    om t
    hetapibi
    kwal
    aphaendli
    ni.
    Ayandadrankiti
    nonce

    Ay
    anda:
    thanky
    ou
    Nur
    se:
    youwel
    come
    Thenur
    secont
    inued

    Nur
    se:
    whatev
    ert
    her
    esul
    tsmay
    be.
    ..
    ..
    ..
    Ay
    anda:
    resul
    tspl
    ease!

    Yhooooo

    Nur
    se:
    congr
    atul
    ati
    ons,
    youar
    ebot
    hnegat
    ive

    Ay
    andaexhal
    edi
    nrel
    i
    ef.Ij
    ustsmi
    l
    edathi
    m

    Nusre:
    butr
    emembery
    oumustcomeback
    af
    ter3mont
    hs
    Me:
    wewi
    l
    lthanky
    ousi
    ster
    Nur
    se:
    andpl
    easebesaf
    e
    Us:
    wewi
    l
    lthanky
    ou
    Nur
    se:
    letmegi
    vey
    ouaboxofcondoms

    Ayi
    iay i
    iIwassonotgoi
    ngt
    oleavether
    e
    carr
    yingaboxofcondomsminachaaabant
    u
    bengakakwacli
    cks

    Ay
    anda:
    thankssi
    sterbutwewi
    l
    lbuyt
    hem
    Nur
    se:
    ohhokt
    hen.Hav
    eani
    ceday

    West
    oodupandAy
    andahuggedme.

    Ay
    anda:
    Thanky
    ou
    Me:
    forwhat?
    Ayanda:forchangi
    ngu-
    Ayandaandmaki
    ng
    hi
    m aresponsibl
    eman
    Me: don'
    tgi
    vemet oomuchcredi
    tyouar
    e
    doi
    ngityour
    self
    .It
    scal
    ledgr
    owingupand
    makingri
    ghtchoi
    ces
    Ay
    anda:
    arey
    ousur
    eyouar
    e18?
    Me:
    nobabyI
    '
    m 81
    Ay
    anda:
    heywannabhabha

    Il
    aughed

    Me:
    hif
    ivebr
    other

    Wehi
    ghf
    ived.Il
    ovemyni
    ggapeopl
    e.

    Wehadlunchatspurandwenttohispl
    ace
    t
    her
    ewasMawandeandMsi ra,
    theywere
    wat
    chi
    ngsoccer
    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    22:
    55]Mca:
    Lastonef
    ort
    oday,
    ,
    ,

    I
    NSERT47

    Wewokeupfoll
    owi
    ngday.Iwentt
    or i
    nsemy
    t
    eet
    handhefoll
    owedandri
    nsedhis.Hehol
    d
    mefr
    om behi
    ndandki
    ssedmyneck.

    Muso:
    thanksPr
    incessf
    orl
    astni
    te
    Me:
    Ismi
    l
    ed
    Muso:
    howaboutmor
    ninggl
    ory
    Me:
    noi
    tst
    il
    lhur
    tsIcan'
    t
    Muso:
    Ilov
    eyouPr
    incess
    Me:
    Ilov
    eyout
    ooPr
    ince
    Muso:
    Ihav
    etogo
    Me:
    gowher
    e?
    Muso:
    mysonandPhi
    ndi
    l
    eneedme
    Me: soy ouusedmePr i
    nce,
    youusedme(I
    wascrying,Iwassoangr
    y)howcouldyou?how
    coul
    dy ou?Igaveyoumypr i
    deandthi
    sisal
    lI
    get?
    Muso:
    butIcan'
    tl
    eav
    ethem Il
    ovet
    hem,
    ,
    ,
    Me: l
    astnightwhenyoucameherecr
    ying,
    declari
    ngyourlovetome,yousai
    dyouarenot
    togetheranymore
    Muso:youknowIwi l
    lal
    waysl
    ovey
    oubutI
    real
    l
    ylovethem andt
    heyneedmeatl
    easty
    ou
    haveAyandanow
    Me:youknowIhav
    ebet
    ray
    edAy
    andabecause
    ofy
    ou.Ihat
    eyou
    Me:
    Iknowdeepdowny
    oudon'
    tmeant
    hat
    Me:
    getout
    !!
    Muso:
    Pri
    ncess?
    Me:
    Isai
    dgetout!
    !

    Hewentt othebedroom andgetdressedand


    heleft.Ngav el
    engehlangescabha.Icr
    iedmy
    l
    ungsout .Howcoul dhe?Iam suchaf ool.Aft
    er
    whathedi d, If
    orgav
    ehim andIhav egi
    v enhi
    m
    thelastthingthatIval
    uedthemost ,mypride
    myv ir
    ginit
    y .

    Ther
    ewasaknockont
    hedoor

    Voi
    ce:
    bhabha

    Igotupandrushedi
    ntothesi
    nkandwashed
    myf acet
    henwenttoopenthedoor
    Ay
    anda:
    bhabhaIhav
    easur
    pri
    sef
    ory
    ou.

    Hepaused,werey
    oucryi
    ng?,
    ,
    ,ar
    eyoucr
    ying?
    ,
    ,,
    bhabhawhati
    swrong?

    Ijustbr
    okedown,
    howwasIgoi
    ngt
    otel
    lhi
    m
    thatIsl
    eptwi
    thMuso,
    how?

    HeyninaziAngels,
    didyoureal
    lyreadt
    his.
    ..
    ..
    ..
    Gotyou.IwishIcanseeyourfaceswhil
    e
    readi
    ngthi
    s

    Lov
    eyoual
    l
    ...
    ..

    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    22:
    58]Mca:
    Lastonef
    ort
    oday,
    ,
    ,
    I
    NSERT47

    Wewokeupfoll
    owi
    ngday.Iwentt
    or i
    nsemy
    t
    eet
    handhefoll
    owedandri
    nsedhis.Hehol
    d
    mefr
    om behi
    ndandki
    ssedmyneck.

    Muso:
    thanksPr
    incessf
    orl
    astni
    te
    Me:
    Ismi
    l
    ed
    Muso:
    howaboutmor
    ninggl
    ory
    Me:
    noi
    tst
    il
    lhur
    tsIcan'
    t
    Muso:
    Ilov
    eyouPr
    incess
    Me:
    Ilov
    eyout
    ooPr
    ince
    Muso:
    Ihav
    etogo
    Me:
    gowher
    e?
    Muso:
    mysonandPhi
    ndi
    l
    eneedme
    Me:
    soy
    ouusedmePr
    ince,
    youusedme(I
    wascry
    ing,
    Iwassoangr
    y)howcoul
    dy ou?how
    coul
    dyou?Igav
    eyoumyprideandt
    hisisal
    lI
    get?
    Muso:
    butIcan'
    tl
    eav
    ethem Il
    ovet
    hem,
    ,
    ,
    Me: l
    astnightwhenyoucameherecr
    ying,
    declari
    ngyourlovetome,yousai
    dyouarenot
    togetheranymore
    Muso:youknowIwi l
    lal
    waysl
    ovey
    oubutI
    real
    l
    ylovethem andt
    heyneedmeatl
    easty
    ou
    haveAyandanow
    Me:youknowIhav
    ebet
    ray
    edAy
    andabecause
    ofy
    ou.Ihat
    eyou
    Me:
    Iknowdeepdowny
    oudon'
    tmeant
    hat
    Me:
    getout
    !!
    Muso:
    Pri
    ncess?
    Me:
    Isai
    dgetout!
    !
    Hewentt othebedroom andgetdressedand
    heleft.Ngav el
    engehlangescabha.Icr
    iedmy
    l
    ungsout .Howcoul dhe?Iam suchaf ool.Aft
    er
    whathedi d, If
    orgav
    ehim andIhav egi
    v enhi
    m
    thelastthingthatIval
    uedthemost ,mypride
    myv ir
    ginit
    y .

    Ther
    ewasaknockont
    hedoor

    Voi
    ce:
    bhabha

    Igotupandrushedi
    ntothesi
    nkandwashed
    myf acet
    henwenttoopenthedoor

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabhaIhav
    easur
    pri
    sef
    ory
    ou.

    Hepaused,
    wer
    eyoucr
    ying?,
    ,
    ,ar
    eyoucr
    ying?
    ,
    ,
    ,bhabhawhati
    swr
    ong?

    Ijustbr
    okedown,
    howwasIgoi
    ngt
    otel
    lhi
    m
    thatIsl
    eptwi
    thMuso,
    how?

    HeyninaziAngels,
    didyoureal
    lyreadt
    his.
    ..
    ..
    ..
    Gotyou.IwishIcanseeyourfaceswhil
    e
    readi
    ngthi
    s

    Lov
    eyoual
    l
    ...
    ..

    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
    [
    08/17,23:
    01]Mca:Hahahahahahahahaha.You
    gott
    olovemybabieskodwa.Thisistheright
    one#dead#

    I
    NSERT47
    Ay
    anda:
    fel
    as
    MawandeandMsi
    ra:
    Hei
    ta
    Me:higuys(Msir
    arespondedbutMawande
    di
    dn'
    t,Iwonderwhatdi
    dIdotoMawande)

    Iwentt
    osi
    tinaonesi
    tt
    ercouch
    Ay
    anda:
    uyaphi
    Me:
    ndi
    yohl
    alaphansi
    Ayanda:
    suphapha,
    (don'
    tbef
    orwar
    d)comesi
    t
    here
    Me:
    no,
    Iam f
    ineher
    e
    Ay
    anda:
    don'
    tmakemecomeanddr
    agy
    ou
    Mawande:Shhhhhhhh,
    niyaf
    undekel
    a(youar
    e
    maki
    ng)noi
    sewear ewatchi
    ngsoccerher
    e
    Ayanda:
    hay i
    don'
    tshushus,
    thi
    sismyhouse,
    yi
    yakweyakho.Comebhabha
    Ist
    oodupandwenttosi
    tonhi
    shislap.
    Yat
    handaundenzaumt
    anauAyanda

    Ay
    andacl
    ear
    edhi
    sthr
    oat

    Ay
    anda:
    Ihav
    esomet
    hingt
    otel
    lumaj
    i
    ta
    Msi
    ra:
    whati
    sitTaAy
    la?
    Ayanda:
    bhabhaandIar
    eof
    fi
    cial
    l
    yacoupl
    e
    now.
    Me: (
    Ibl
    ushed)
    .Hawuyouarebeingdr
    amat
    ic.
    Ngazeut
    huli
    seabant
    ufort
    hat.Yougay
    Ay
    anda:
    heywenabhabhaandi
    yont
    angakho

    Il
    aughed
    Msi
    ra:
    itsaboutt
    imeTaAy
    la
    Ayanda:yhay
    hayhabhabhawasmaki
    ngi
    t
    di
    ffi
    cul
    tformetol
    oveher
    Msi
    ra:
    nowIcansayma'
    am angandi
    j
    amel
    i
    Mawande: Iwonderwhattookhersolongtobe
    oneofyourbit
    chesbecausedefi
    nit
    elybekuf
    una

    Ev
    ery
    onekeptqui
    te.Ist
    oodup.

    Me:
    Iwi
    l
    lbeupst
    air
    s
    Ayanda:youarenotgoinganywhere,
    Mawande
    whatisyourpr
    oblem?whatdi dsweet
    cheeksdo
    toyouthatmakey ouhatehersomuch
    Mawande: Idon'
    tl
    ikebitchesl
    i
    keher
    ,
    pret
    endi
    ngtobeallinnocentwher
    easthey
    haveanagenda
    Ay
    anda:
    youdon'
    tknowhersost
    opt
    alki
    ng
    nonsense
    Mawande:
    soIam t
    alki
    ngnonsense?
    Ay
    anda:
    yesy
    out
    alki
    ngshi
    t!

    Godt
    heywer
    eshout
    ing

    Mawande:
    don'
    tfor
    getIam y
    ourbr
    other
    Ay
    anda:
    thenbehav
    eli
    keone
    Mawande:
    soy
    ouchoosi
    ngabi
    tchov
    erme!
    !
    Ay
    anda:
    ifIhav
    eto,
    Iwi
    l
    l,makenomi
    stake!
    !

    Mawandest
    ormedoutandwentupst
    air
    s

    Vi
    dowal
    kedi
    n.

    Vi
    do:
    mol
    weni
    ,Iam hungr
    y
    Ayanda:whydi
    dn'
    tyoueati
    nyourhouse
    kwedini
    Vi
    do:
    youknowTaAy
    lamycooki
    ngsucks
    Ay
    anda:
    goandchecki
    ntheki
    tchen
    Msira: y
    oul
    ookreal
    l
    ygreatnowTaAyl
    a,Inev
    er
    thoughtuwi
    llbeabl
    etowalkagai
    naf
    terl
    a
    accident
    Ayanda:andthankstothi
    syoung,str
    ong, sexy
    andbeauti
    ful
    lady,shemadeitpossi
    ble.(He
    l
    ookedatme)
    Me:
    (Ismi
    l
    ed)
    Ayanda:Imeani
    tfi
    rstl
    ady
    ,whaty
    oudi
    dIwi
    l
    l
    neverf
    orget
    Me:
    itsnot
    hing
    Msira:l
    ontoyoureall
    ystrongma'am,youl
    ook
    youngandsmallbutthingsyoudoare
    i
    ncredi
    ble.Wamnyamezel auTaAy l
    a
    someti
    mesndandi y
    endi mrhal
    elengempama
    may
    esev
    ukwezi
    ntozakho
    Ay
    anda:
    wawuzakakakwedi
    ni

    Weal
    ll
    aughed

    Me: kanj
    ani
    wawukwi
    wheel
    chai
    ryenaehamba
    ngenyawo
    Ay
    anda:
    yandi
    under
    est
    imat
    erbhabha
    Me:
    mustIbescar
    ed?
    Msi
    ra:
    hemeansi
    tma'
    am
    Me:
    ohhh
    Msir
    a: f
    oraper
    sony oudi
    dn'
    tknowthatmuch,
    hayi
    Itakemyhatofffory
    ou.(Hest
    oodupand
    bowed,mfxmm t
    hisoneiscr
    azy)
    Ayanda:Iam bl
    essedtohav
    eheri
    nmylif
    e,
    that
    'swhyIwil
    lki
    llanymanwhowi
    llt
    ryt
    otake
    herawayfrom me
    Vi
    dol
    ookeddown.Hewasal
    lqui
    te

    Msir
    a: Iwi
    shIcanhav
    esomeonewhocando
    whatyoudidkuTaAyl
    a
    Ayanda:t
    heyar
    efewntwanat
    rustmeand
    bhabhai
    stheonl
    yver
    sion

    Hekissedme,andwespentsometime
    chat
    tingandl
    aughi
    ng.Wehadsupperandwent
    tobed

    Me:
    Igoi
    ngt
    otakeashower
    Ay
    anda:
    Iwi
    l
    ljoi
    nyou
    Me:
    no!
    !
    Ay
    anda:
    Iam notaski
    ng
    Me:
    youar
    esuchabul
    l
    y
    Ay
    anda:
    yourbul
    l
    y
    Me:
    mfxmm
    Ay
    anda:
    heywenabhabha,
    sundi
    phambani
    sa

    Wetookourfi
    rstshowertoget
    her,wewere
    pl
    ayi
    ng,l
    aughi
    ngandki ssi
    ng,thenwefi
    nished.

    18LSN

    Iworemypj sandhewor eonlytheboxershort


    .
    Whil
    eIwasst i
    ll
    tyi
    ngmyhai rhetur
    nedmeand
    mademef acehim.Helookedatme, hethen
    bentdownhi sheadtoreachmymout hour
    mouthslockedandweki ssed,i
    twassosof t
    ,
    sl
    owlyandv erypassi
    onatel
    y.Helif
    tedmeup,
    makingmewr apmylegsaroundhiswaisthe
    pl
    acedmei nbedmakingmel ieonmybackHe
    startedtocar essmybody , hekissedmyneck
    sendi ngchill
    sdownmyspi ne.Hetookof fmypj
    topandusedhi shandst oexpl oremybody .
    Histonguebr ushedt hedelicateshellofmyear ,
    hebl ewal ightbr eat hovert hemoistspot,andI
    shivered.Hewaski ssi
    ng,touching,bi
    t i
    ngand
    explor i
    ngev eryinchofmybodywi thhismout h,
    tongueandhi shands.Not hinginmyexper ience
    prepar edmef ort hisnewsensat i
    on.Hewent
    backt omymout handhi sl ipsdevouredmines
    histongueexpl oredmymout h,myneckandmy
    ears.Hi steethf oundmybr eastsandmy
    nipples.Icouldn' thelpbutmoani npleasure,his
    tonguekeptt orturingmyni pplesunti
    lImoaned
    i
    nneed.Het ookof fmybot tom pjandmy
    under wear.

    Withamov ementt
    hatstar
    tl
    edme,heslowly
    openedmylegswit
    hhisstr
    ongarms,cupped
    mybuttonsinhi
    shands,
    helif
    tedmyhipsto
    meethi smout h,wi thagent l
    edel icatefli
    cksof
    histonguehest artedt oeatmeupwi t
    hhis
    tonguelikeahungr yli
    onev ent houghInev er
    sawahungr yonemyey esrolledback.Myl egs
    becameweakerandweakert heywer ef ai
    li
    ng
    meIt ri
    edt obest rongbutt hemor eItri
    edt he
    mor etheyweref aili
    ngmeIwasshi veri
    nghar d.
    "Comebhabha"( hesai dthatinav eryhusky
    voice)Iobeyedhi m andcame, ,,damn!!!
    .I
    expectedhimt ot akeat owel andcl eanedme
    butGodheusedhi st onguetocl eanme.
    Pheww.

    Hecont inueddoinghist hi
    ng.Hebr oughtme
    cl
    osertot heedgesomanyt i
    mes.Hemov ed
    myfingerstot hesoftheadofhi serect
    ion
    whereIletthem li
    ngerandexpl oreumt ungwa
    ashegr ewhar dandhar derinmyhand.Het hen
    i
    nsertedhisfingerImoanedandt hesecond
    one,
    Icoul dn'
    tholditbutIscreamed.Hewent
    backtomyt reasur
    ewit
    hhistongue.Hi
    seyes
    wereclosedandheopenedthem.Theywer
    e
    ver
    ysmal landsored

    Ayanda:ar
    ey our
    eady
    .(Hi
    svoi
    cewassosof
    t
    andseduct
    ive)

    Inodded

    Ay
    anda:
    arey
    ousur
    e?
    Me:
    yes

    HesawIwast
    ensed,
    andr
    eal
    l
    yIwas.
    Ay
    anda:
    rel
    axbhabha

    Inoddedagai
    n
    Heposi t
    ionedhim sel
    fandtr
    iedtoinser
    thim
    sel
    fbuty hooIcouldn'
    thel
    pitIscr
    eamedGod
    hetri
    edagai nandIscreamedagain.Phel
    a
    ubhutihawuchaabandl abel
    ayi
    shil
    e

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabhaar
    eyou?
    ..
    .hmmm

    Inoddedwit
    hmyey
    escl
    osedandt
    ear
    swer
    e
    str
    eamingdown

    Ayanda:
    shit!
    !!Bhabhawhydidn'
    tyout
    ell
    me?
    doyousti
    l
    lwantmet oconti
    nue?

    Inooded

    Het
    ri
    edent
    eri
    ngagai
    n,andt
    ri
    edsev
    eral
    l
    y
    ti
    mesay hiayhi
    ithistimeItwasli
    ke
    ngiyadabukaatlasthewasi n.If
    eltl
    i
    ke
    stoppinghim butIthoughifIdohehastogo
    fr
    om t hebegi
    nningagai nhawucha.Hedidn'
    t
    mov ehewasst i
    l
    linside

    Ay
    anda.:
    bhabha
    Me:
    hmmm
    Ay
    anda:
    thanky
    ouMar
    hadebe

    Inodded

    Hestartedmov ingslowlyIjustwai tedf


    orthe
    paintoturnintopleasure.
    "Relaxbhabha"he
    said.Hawu, howdoIr el
    axkubuhl ungusoIwas
    si
    lentl
    ycrying.Igotusedt oithay ikemfana
    wakwamt ungwadi dhisthingallIcouldfeel
    waspleasur eandy espleasure,
    hewentf ast
    er
    andf asterhekeptonhi t
    ti
    ngtheG-spoty ou
    knowkel adieswhenuhav ebeenhitt
    her
    ekut hi
    hlanyaIt hi
    nkIcame4t imesandsuddenlyhis
    breathingincreasedt
    remendously
    .Hestarted
    call
    ingmynamesandcur si
    ng

    Ayanda:fuckbhabha, f
    ucksweetcheeks,
    enkosiMarhadebe,shit
    tt
    tt
    ttt
    ttt
    thecoll
    apsedon
    me.Wet ri
    edtocat chabreath,
    aft
    ersomet i
    me
    hethentookat owelandcleanedbothofus,
    mylegswer estil
    lshaki
    ng.

    Ay
    anda:
    thansbhabha
    Ismi
    l
    edt
    henwecuddl
    edt
    osl
    eep♡♥ ,
    ,,
    ,,
    ,

    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    23:
    03]Mca:
    INSERT48
    Bengisal
    elekamnandi t
    il
    l ngiv
    usway intot hat
    wasmov ingemat hangeni ami.Atfi
    rstIt hought
    thatIwasdreamingbuti tpersist
    ed.It r
    iedt o
    turnwhenAy andaheldme.Hewasbr eathing
    heavy

    Ay
    anda:
    masi
    ngav
    uki
    Me:
    hay
    ibhabha
    Ay
    anda:
    khondi
    phebhabha
    Me:
    udaki
    we
    Ay
    anda:
    pleasebhabha
    Me:
    hay
    iYandapl
    ease
    Ay
    anda: y
    ivanj
    e.(Hetookmyhandandmade
    metouchumtungwa.Hewashard
    Me:
    hawuuzobast
    rongo
    Ay
    anda:
    Ican'
    tbest
    rongbhabhakubuhl
    ungu.
    Me:
    sor
    ry.Iki
    ssedhi
    sfor
    ehead.
    AsIstoodupgoi ngt
    ot hebat hr
    oom, Ispoted
    thatt
    hesheethadbloodstai n.Iwasso
    embarrassed,wasIonperiods? ?Howbecause
    Iknownor mall
    yIwouldhav eper i
    odpains.I
    wassoconf used.Ayandasawt hatandheput
    meatease.

    Ayanda: i
    tsnor
    mal bhabha,y
    ouwer
    eav ir
    gin
    al
    oku.Thissimplemeansy ouar
    eawomannow
    whichmeansy oucanbearmemy6ki ds.(He
    smiled)

    Iexhal
    ed

    Me:mfxmm y
    ouar
    ecr
    azywena.Iam goi
    ngt
    o
    t
    akeashower
    Ay
    anda:
    Iwi
    l
    ljoi
    nyou
    Me:
    nhaIr
    athert
    akei
    tal
    one
    Ayanda:
    y ouknowmebet
    tersoy
    ouar
    e
    wasti
    ngyourti
    me
    Me:becausey
    oudon'
    ttakenof
    orananswer
    .
    Mf
    xmm

    Wegoti ntoshower,andshower edtogether


    whi l
    eplay
    ingandAy andawoul dst ealsome
    kisses,hewasinagoodmood, Iwasnotatal l
    bendizi
    mamel el
    eipainsphel adownt hereitwas
    painful
    nalamanzibengathi enzawor se.It
    ried
    towashmyt r
    easurey er
    r,Iscreamed

    Ayanda: hesmil
    ed.Iam sorr
    ybhabha,
    letme
    takealook,hewentdownonhi skneestry
    ing
    toopenmyl egsngezandla
    Me:
    udaki
    wee!
    !!Youar
    enotdoi
    ngt
    hat
    Ay
    anda:
    yhooo(
    hesul
    ked)
    Wef i
    nishedandgotdr
    essed.Hehel
    pedme
    changedt hel
    i
    nen

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha
    Me:
    Yandaaaa!
    !!
    Ay
    anda:
    enkosi
    Mar
    hadebe
    Me:
    ngani
    Ayanda: fortr
    usti
    ngme, forseeingthebesti
    n
    mef ortrusti
    ngmengepr ideyakho,IknowIam
    notasai ntandIwil
    lneverbeasai ntbutI
    promiseIwi l
    ltr
    ymyl ev
    elbesttobet hebest
    man, bestboyfri
    endkuwe.
    Me:
    itsok.
    Ay
    anda:
    let
    'sgoandhav
    ebr
    eakf
    ast
    .

    Say
    aedownst
    air
    sbr
    eakf
    astwasr
    eady
    ,the
    t
    abl
    ewasset
    .Msi
    ra,MawandeandVidowere
    t
    her
    eeat
    ingwegr
    eet
    edthem andsatdown.

    Ay
    anda:
    whomadebr
    eakf
    ast
    ?
    Msi
    ra:
    itsmeTaAy
    la
    Ay
    anda:
    kuzekwat
    hini
    wenawonke?
    Msir
    a: Icoul
    dn'
    tsl
    eepthewholenite,
    beni
    fundekel
    aokondiv
    ukelwengenxayenu,y
    ou
    woul
    dsweary ouwerebreaki
    ngsomeone's
    vi
    rgi
    nit
    y
    Ayanda:Iwasntwana,
    owam umf
    azi
    ndi
    mf umenee-pur
    e

    Ichokedonmyf ood.Ist
    art
    edcoughi
    ng.Ij
    ust
    coughednon-st
    op

    Ay
    anda:
    u-r
    ightbhabha?sel
    anansi
    idr
    ink?
    Me:InoddedIt
    ookasipaft
    ersomet
    imenga
    r
    it
    e.WasYandacrazyhowcoul
    dhesaythat

    Mawande:
    bebenz
    ani
    Msi
    ra
    Msir
    a: bekukubi
    izi
    ncwi
    na,
    zizi
    khal
    o,
    yi
    migqumo.TaAy l
    ayoumeanuma' am ser
    ious
    ubel
    iv.
    ..

    Icl
    ear
    edmyt
    hroat

    Ay
    anda:
    yhant
    wanam sundozel
    ela

    HawuIj ustlostappet
    it
    e.Iexcusedmyself
    ndayaupst air
    s.Iwassonotgoi ngt
    oli
    stento
    them bethethaububhanxandil
    apha.Tothem
    thetopicseemedexciti
    ngbutf ormeitwas
    embar r
    assingmf xmm men
    Al
    lIneededwast osl
    eepandIdozedof
    f
    i
    mmedi at
    elyaf
    tersometi
    meYandawandiv
    usa

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha
    Me:
    mhmmm
    Ayanda:wearegoi
    ngt
    owoodstocknoMsir
    a
    andVidosi
    yabuy
    abutMawandeakazi
    var
    it
    e
    Me:
    ok
    Ay
    anda:
    ikhonai
    ntoozay
    ifunandi
    zobuy
    anazo?
    Me:
    nol
    ove(heki
    ssedmycheek)
    Ay
    anda:
    lov
    eyou
    Me:
    lov
    eyout
    oo

    Hel
    eft
    .Wentbackt
    osl
    eep
    Ndavukaaft
    ert
    wohours, Iwashungry,Ir
    insed
    mymout handwentdownst ai
    rs.Mawandewas
    watchi
    ngtvandItol
    dmy selfIwasnotgoingto
    ut
    terawordtohim.Idi
    dt hesandwichndava
    et
    hetha
    Mawande:
    cel
    aundenzel
    enam
    Me:
    ok

    Hest oodupandIdon'tknowwhathappenedhe
    j
    usthol dhischesthetr
    iedtostandbuthe
    couldn'
    thewasl i
    keudizzyt
    hehandwasst i
    ll
    in
    hischest.Iranint
    ohim andtr
    iedtohelphi
    m
    satont hecouch

    Me:
    kwenzakal
    ani
    ?
    Mawande: mychesti
    ssopainful
    Ican'tbr
    eat
    h
    andIam sodi
    zzy.Pl
    easetakemet ohospi
    tal
    ,
    hewassweati
    nghisfacestar
    tedtobepale
    Me:noitst
    oori
    sk,l
    etmecall
    ER24.It
    ookhi
    s
    f
    onethatwasonthetabl
    e.

    Idi
    all
    edt
    henumber
    .

    Me:hell
    ow, Ineedanambulanceatno11.
    ..
    ..
    ..
    I
    nTableView,mybrotheri
    sstruggl
    i
    ngtobr
    eath
    ER24:
    wear
    ecomi
    ngma'
    am andIam t
    alki
    ng
    to,
    .
    .
    Me:
    msRhadebe
    ER24:
    arey
    oual
    one?
    Me:
    yes
    ER24: besi
    desbei
    ngbr
    eat
    hless,
    whatel
    secan
    youspot?
    Me:
    hei
    ssweat
    ing,
    dizzyandhei
    ssopal
    e
    ER24:
    thi
    sisnotgooddoy
    ouhav
    easpi
    ri
    ns
    Me:
    yes
    ER24: gi
    vehi
    m onetoswal l
    owwithwaterso
    thatthebl
    oodwon'tcl
    oththeambulancewil
    lbe
    thereinf
    ewminutejustkeepcal
    m

    Iranupst air
    sst rai
    ghtint
    omybagandt ook
    aspiri
    nsandr usheddownst ai
    rsndagalela
    amanzi eglassinwentt oMawande.Hewas
    real
    lystruggling.Isathim upr
    ightandmade
    him swallowt heaspir
    ins,Igav
    ehi m 2.Iputhi
    s
    headonmyl apandbr ushedhisback

    Me: j
    usthanginthere,t
    heambulanceis
    comingyouwil
    l befi
    nejusthanginther
    e.(God
    thi
    sambulancebetterbeheresoon,Mawande
    can'
    tdieonmyl ap)
    Mawande:
    henodded
    Hav ey oueverbeeninasituati
    onwher eby
    abant uabangafunanibengenachoicebut
    kumel ebasizane,t
    hatwasmeandMawande.
    Theambul ancecameIopenedf ort hem andI
    drovewi thMawandet othehospital,hewas
    holdingmyhandl i
    keIwasgoi ngtodi sappear
    onhi m hewasr ushedintoemergencyandt he
    doctorat t
    endedhimimmedi atel
    y.ThenIf oned
    Ayanda

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha
    Me:pleasehur
    rytomedicl
    i
    nic,
    Mawandehas
    beenadmitt
    ed.Iam her
    enami wai
    ti
    ngf
    ort
    he
    doct
    or
    Ay
    anda:
    okI
    '
    m onmyway

    After30minAyanda,Vi
    doandMsi racame
    rushing.Ij
    ustwentstr
    aighti
    ntoAyanda'
    s
    armsandheknewIneedt hosearmshehugged
    met
    ight
    lyandt
    hedoct
    orcame

    Ay
    anda:
    doct
    orhowi
    smybr
    other
    ?
    Doct
    or:
    yourbr
    otheri
    sfi
    neMr
    ,,
    ,
    Ay
    anda:
    Khumal
    o
    Doct
    or:hehassuff
    eredf
    rom whati
    scal
    l
    ed
    Pul
    monaryEmboli
    sm
    Ay
    anda:
    whati
    sthatdoct
    or?

    Doctor:i
    tisacl ot
    ht hataf fectsthelungs.Itcan
    damagepar tofthelungduet orestrict
    edblood
    l
    ow, decr
    easeoxy genl ev el
    si nthebl oodas
    well
    asdamageot heror gans.Lar geormul ti
    ple
    bl
    oodclotscanbef atal.Thebl ockagecanbe
    l
    ifet
    hreateningbutimmedi at eemer gency
    tr
    eatmentgr eat
    lyi
    ncr easey ourchances
    avoi
    dinglungdamage.Sowewi llkeepMr
    Khumalof orfewday s.Hemustt hankGodt hat
    whenthi
    shappenedhewaswi t
    hsomeoneand
    theaspi
    ri
    nshewasgivenpl
    ayedavi
    tal
    rol
    e.
    Fewpeoplesur
    viv
    etheseat
    tack.

    Yhoooo.

    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    23:
    05]Mca:
    INSERT49

    Wewenti
    ntoMawande'
    swar
    d.Hewasl
    yi
    ngi
    n
    t
    hebed

    Ay
    anda:
    bhut
    i
    Mawande:
    mtakamama
    Ay
    anda:
    ugqi
    rhaut
    hiphant
    sewaboda
    Mawande:
    yahet
    oldmet
    oo
    Ayanda:It
    houghtezi
    zi
    ntozenzeka
    kumangamlaonl
    y
    Mawande:
    timehaschanged

    Iwassi
    tti
    ngonthechai
    rthatwaspr
    ovidedi
    n
    thewar
    df orv
    isi
    tor
    sandbusyonmyf one

    Mawande:t
    hedoct
    orsai
    dhewi
    l
    lkeepmeher
    e
    f
    orfewday
    s
    Ayanda:
    IhateIhosibutsomet
    imesi
    tsgoodt
    o
    l
    ist
    entothesenonsense

    Mawande:Sne,Il
    ookedathim atl
    eastli
    yeki
    le
    i
    gamalam banguBit
    ch.Enkosi
    Mar hadebe(he
    sai
    d)
    Me:
    nopr
    obl
    em
    Mawande:
    Iam sur
    eyouhat
    eme
    Ayanda:hateIdoubtl
    i
    khonael
    ogamakwi
    vocabul
    arykabhabha
    Mawande:Imeani
    tthanky
    ouandIam sor
    ry
    f
    orever
    ythi
    ng
    Me:
    all
    for
    got
    ten
    Mawande:
    comegi
    vemeahugt
    hen

    Iwentt
    ohughi
    m honest
    lyIwasn'
    tangr
    yatal
    l
    .

    Ayanda:l
    ethergonowhay
    iumncamat
    hel
    e
    kakhul
    u.

    Weal
    ll
    aughedandl
    etgo

    Mawande:
    yerrneskhwel
    ekwedi
    ni.Idon'
    t
    bl
    ameyoukodwa
    Me:
    canIusey
    ourcarYanda?
    Ay
    anda:
    for?
    ?
    Me:Ithi
    nkMawandewil
    lneedt
    oil
    etr
    iesandpj
    si
    ncehewil
    lbeher
    eforf
    ewdays
    Ay
    anda:
    nzohambanawesi
    yozi
    l
    anda
    Me: chaYandaIwi
    l
    lgoal
    one,
    yourbr
    other
    needsyou
    Ay
    anda:
    letmef
    oneuMsi
    raahambenawe
    Me:
    chaaAy
    andaIam notababy
    Ay
    anda:
    okke20mi
    nut
    es
    Me:
    50mi
    nut
    es
    Ay
    anda:
    heywenabhabhandi
    kukhabeke

    Igi
    ggl
    ed

    Mawande:
    pleasebr
    ingmesomet
    hingt
    oeat
    Me:
    ok
    IleftandpackedMawande'soverni
    ghtbag
    toil
    etri
    esandt hewentpassedthemall
    .I
    thoughtIwil
    lbequicksoIparkedkwidisabl
    ed
    parkingwhenIcameoutt hecarwasclamped,I
    wasaboutt ofoneAyandawhent heoff
    icer
    came.

    Off
    icer:
    ma'am i
    sthi
    syourcar
    ?(Ngazomt
    hol
    a
    l
    oakhot i
    ki
    til
    ant
    ola)
    Me:
    yessi
    r
    Off
    icer:
    arey
    ouawar
    eyouar
    enotsupposet
    o
    par
    khere
    Me: (ngabuyelakwengaxhaphakangalaeKapa
    i
    -language)ngi y
    axoli
    sabandla,i
    khandalami
    l
    ihl
    angahlangene
    Of
    fi
    cer:
    yhooi
    voi
    cey
    akhoi
    mnandi
    (I
    '
    m donewi
    thy
    ou)

    Me:
    ngi
    yabonga
    Of
    fi
    cer:
    wher
    ear
    eyougoi
    ng?
    Me: Iam droppi
    nganoverni
    ghtbaglae
    medicli
    nickwisi
    stery
    amishejustgav
    ebir
    th
    andathiulambil
    emaaraakaf
    uniukudl
    a
    kwasesbhedlel
    a
    Of
    icer:
    letmeuncl
    ampt
    his.
    Me: ngi
    yabongakakhul
    u,unkul
    unkul
    uaku
    busi
    se
    Of
    fi
    cer:
    any
    thi
    ngf
    ory
    oubeaut
    if
    ull
    ady
    .

    Heopenedt
    hedoorf
    ormeandIgoti
    n

    Of
    ficer:nkosazanacanIhav
    eyournumber
    pl
    ease,Iwouldlovetoknowyoubet
    ter
    .He
    gavemehisfoneandIdial
    ledmynumberand
    gavehi
    m hisf
    one.Hediall
    edmynumberIt hi
    nk
    hewantedtochecki
    fIgavehimt hecor
    rect
    numbernha.I
    trangonceway i
    dropper

    Me:
    okt
    hensal
    ekahl
    e
    Offi
    cer:wil
    lfoneyou.(Daki
    wewena
    yakukhabaundizeuYanda)

    Justaf
    tert
    hatmyf
    oner
    ang,
    itwasAy
    anda

    Me:
    Yanda
    Ay
    anda:
    hourphel
    i
    le
    Me:
    5mi
    nut
    e
    Ay
    anda:
    heywenabhabha

    Il
    aughedanddr
    oppedt
    hecal
    l
    .Igotof
    fand
    wenti
    ntot
    hewar
    d.

    Ay
    anda:
    whatt
    ooksol
    ongy
    ajol
    angoku?
    Me:t
    hecarwascl
    ampedbendi
    par
    kekwi
    ndawo
    ewr
    ongo
    Ayanda:howmuchdi
    dyoupaysot
    hat
    ndi
    zokuni
    ka?
    Me:
    not
    hing
    Ay
    anda:
    bay
    ikhul
    ulenj
    ani
    ke
    Me:
    Sne'
    smagi
    cs.Ij
    ustsmi
    l
    edandwhal
    l
    la
    Ayanda:
    tell
    mey oudi
    dn'
    tdowhatIt
    hinkyou
    di
    d(Icouldseehewasangr
    ybuthekepthis
    cool
    )
    Me:hewantedmynumberandIgav
    eitt
    ohi
    m
    heuncl
    ampedthecarandIl
    eft
    Ay
    anda:
    heyw.
    ..
    ..
    Hewasi
    nter
    rupt
    edbymyf
    one.Ipi
    ckedup

    Me:
    hel
    l
    ow
    Cal
    l
    er:
    gor
    geous
    Me:
    whoi
    sthi
    s?
    Cal
    l
    er:
    theof
    fi
    cer
    Me:
    ohhof
    fi
    cer
    ,howcanIhel
    pyou?

    Ay
    andat
    ookmyf
    oneandansweri
    t

    Ayanda:heyfutsekwena, of
    ficeryokuny
    a
    hl
    ukananomf aziwam, wafownel akul
    enumber
    againnzakufumanai l
    angal i
    ngekapheli
    nzakubulal
    auny e!
    !!Off
    icerOfficermyass.

    Hedroppedt
    hefone.Amen.Iwasaboutt
    osay
    somethi
    ngwhenhegavemet hel
    ookthatsay
    DON'TDAREsayany
    thi
    ng.Il
    ookedaway
    ndaz
    incokol
    i
    sanoMawande

    Me:
    sohowdoy
    ouf
    eel
    ?
    Mawande:
    bet
    tert
    hanemi
    ni
    Me:good,
    youbet
    tert
    akecar
    eofy
    our
    sel
    ffr
    om
    nowon
    Ay
    anda:
    Iwi
    l
    l,andagai
    nthanky
    ou
    Me:
    youhav
    ethankmeal
    ready
    Mawande:Ifeell
    i
    keit
    snotenoughaf
    terhowI
    t
    reat
    edyouifbungomnyeumtuyouwouldhav
    e
    l
    eftmether
    e
    Me:
    ther
    eisnohumanwhocandot
    hat

    Ay
    andawasal
    lqui
    te.

    Mawande:
    Ayandaar
    eyouok?
    Ay
    anda:
    yhaa.I
    '
    mtr
    yingt
    ocal
    m down.
    Mawande:Ay andangumt
    anau-
    Sneezi
    nye
    i
    zi
    ntoakazi
    cingi
    Ayanda:Iknowbhuti
    ,,
    ,bhabha,
    ungaphi
    nde
    uy
    enzelentooyenzi
    l
    ezakufakainbi
    gshit
    Me:
    okandIam sor
    ry
    Ay
    anda:
    izakudaddykesweet
    cheekszam

    Iwentt
    osi
    tonhi
    slap.Heki
    ssedme

    Mawande:
    heykwedi
    nindi
    mdal
    ayekani
    lont
    o
    Ay
    anda:
    tsekusi
    sgul
    ane
    Me: Yandapl
    easetel
    lyourbrot
    hernextt
    imehe
    wantstobesickhemustdoi ti
    nmyabsence
    andi
    zukwaziumphakamisiyasi
    nda

    Weal
    ll
    aughed
    Mawande: ndi
    kubet hekeSne,enant
    obuli
    la
    apha.Hanginthere,plsdon'
    tdi
    eonme, t
    he
    ambulanceiscomi ng,hangint
    here(hewas
    i
    mitati
    ngmyv oice)

    Theylaughedatmeunt
    ilt
    ear
    sthr
    eat
    enedmy
    eyes

    Ay
    anda:
    xol
    okesweet
    cheekszam.
    Me:
    Ihat
    eyoubot
    h
    Ayanda:yabonakeMawandeit
    sy ouwhocame
    upwitht
    hehat ewor
    dusweetcheeksbengal
    azi
    .
    Mawande:
    hademt
    akama

    Theyl
    aughedagai
    n
    Mf
    xmmm aba.

    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    23:
    08]Mca:
    INSERT50

    Mawandest ayed4daysinhospitalwewoul
    d
    vi
    sithi
    m noYandaafterschoolthenhewas
    di
    scharged.Onewouldsayu-Mawandewas
    meanandhear tl
    esswhatIdiscover
    edwashe
    wasasof t
    ythanuAy andaandwegotal ong
    nawe.West ar
    tedtobev er
    yclose.

    Itwast hursdayaft
    ernoonitwasr aini
    ngand
    cold.Iwentdownst airsIwantedt omaket ea
    andandal sowat ch7del aanandMawande
    wassi t
    tingont hecouchcoveringhi m sel
    fwi
    th
    afleece.
    Me:
    hey
    Ay
    anda:heyl
    astbor
    n,It
    houghthambeno
    Ay
    anda
    Me:
    noIwassl
    eepi
    ng
    Ay
    anda:
    wher
    eishe?
    ?
    Me: utheyoj
    ongathedr
    iver
    sinBrackenfel
    l.
    (AyandahasahouseeBr ackenf
    ell
    ibi
    hlala
    odr
    iverbakhebonke.
    )

    Mawande:ok.Yi
    zazongenaengubeni
    kuy
    abanda
    Me:
    hay
    ingi
    ri
    te
    Mawande:
    comeIwon'
    tbi
    te

    It
    ookof
    fmysl
    eeper
    sandt
    uckedmy
    sel
    fin

    Mawande:
    lastbor
    n
    Me:
    hey
    Mawande:
    Iam wor
    ri
    edngawe
    Me:
    why?
    Mawande:
    yout
    rusteasi
    l
    y
    Me:
    yhat
    hat
    'sme
    Mawande:
    becar
    eful
    ,youwi
    l
    lgethur
    t
    Me:
    Iwi
    l
    l
    Mawande:
    canIt
    ell
    yousomet
    hing?
    Me:
    yes
    Mawande:uAyandangowasekhay
    adon'
    tlet
    hi
    m bul
    l
    yyou,y
    ouar esweet,
    youngbutdon'
    t
    l
    ethi
    m bul
    l
    yyou, y
    oumuststandyourgr
    ounds
    Me:
    whyut
    sho?
    Mawande: Isawy outheotherdayehosi.I
    knowumsi ndokaAy andaungakubulal
    a
    ngezandl
    amay enomsi ndobecauseumtaka
    mamat rustmeuneangeri ssuesandnedlel
    a
    esi
    khul
    engay
    o
    Me:
    Iknow
    Mawande: Icanseehelov esyouandreall
    y
    l
    ovesy oueversi
    ncehemety ouhehas
    changedbutmywor ryi
    sf orhowlong.Ayanda
    usedtobeapl ay
    erebefakaintombiemva
    kwenyeandt hewordcommi tmentbengayazi
    mywor ryi
    sifebuyel
    akuzouzosur vi
    verna
    Me:
    youar
    escar
    ingmenow
    Mawande:
    Iam notIam j
    ustpr
    epar
    ingy
    ou.
    Me:
    thanky
    ou

    Wewentqui
    te

    Mawande:
    Sinenhl
    anhl
    a
    Me:
    yebo
    Mawande:
    canIbehonestandt
    ell
    yout
    het
    rut
    h
    l
    i
    keI
    '
    m dy
    ing
    Me:
    whati
    sit?
    Mawande:
    thet
    rut
    h,t
    her
    easonwhyIi
    nsul
    ted
    you
    Me:
    youapol
    ogi
    zedal
    readyangi
    thi
    Mawande:
    not
    het
    rut
    h
    Me:
    ok

    Heexhal
    ed

    Mawande: Ayandatoldmeabouty oulong


    beforeImety ou,It
    houghthewasj ustbei
    ng
    sil
    ly,Ithoughtnawenj engamanye
    amant ombazanawakhei zophel
    ai ntoyenu.But
    thatdayIsawy oundi f
    ika, It
    houghtt hatmaybe
    uqhwesheezul wini
    .(Ismi l
    ed)Youwer eso
    beautif
    ul,soinnocent.Icouldn'
    twat chit,
    I
    couldn'twatchAyandaekudl agqibeakushiye
    l
    ikeot hergirl
    s.Ifellinl
    ov ewi t
    hy oui nst
    antly
    .I
    want edtoprotecty ou,totakey ouawayf rom
    Ayandaandhi deyou, Iwant edtor unwi t
    hy ou,I
    want edtoflywithy ou,farwher eAy anda
    couldn'tgetyoubutIcoul dn'tdoi tyouwer e
    alr
    eadyher e.Ihadt ohidet hatfeelingandt he
    onlywaywast opr etendlikeIhatey ou.I
    thas
    beenhar dformei tsst i
    lli
    s.ToAy andagi r
    ls
    werel i
    kesocks.Lucki l
    yhehasmoneysogi r
    ls
    j
    ustt hrowthemsel veskuy e.

    Iknewy ouwer ediff


    erentthat
    'swhyIwant edto
    protectyou,buthedidtheopposi tei
    nsteadof
    beingadogasusual hesur pr
    isedme.Ial most
    diedofheartattackwhenhesai dhewai t
    edfor
    youf or7mont hsAyandanev erdidthattoany
    girl
    .Iwaswat chinghim cl
    oserthatIfhedare
    mi st
    reatyouIwasgoi ngtobeatt hehelloutof
    him
    Coul
    dn'
    thel
    pitbutIbur
    sti
    nlaught
    er.

    Youar eablessinginhisli
    felastbor n, y
    ouhav e
    changedhisl i
    feforbet
    terinashor tperiodof
    ti
    met hat'
    swhywhatev erfeelingsIhav ef ory
    ou
    Iwil
    lkeept hem tomysel fyesIl ovey oubutit
    doesn'tmat t
    erandIknowy ouwi l
    lneverlove
    mebutI '
    m glady ouarepartofmyl i
    fethrough
    mylit
    tlebrother.Justbepat i
    entwi t
    hhi m heis
    farf
    rom beingper f
    ectbutwi thy oubyhi ssideI
    knowhei sheadi ngtotherightdi r
    ection.

    AllIwantedtosayisIam sorr
    yformist
    reat
    ing
    you, Iwasacowar dandtakecareofmy
    brother,
    ,
    ,youhurthi
    m, youhurtme.Hehurt
    s
    you, hehurt
    sme.

    Me:
    hawuul
    i
    lul
    wani
    kant
    i
    Mawande:no,j
    ustgoty
    ourbacks,bothofyou
    hei
    smybr ot
    herandyouarel
    iket
    hesisterI
    nev
    erhad,
    lastbor
    n.Ngobaumncinci

    Thent
    hedooropenedi
    twasAy
    anda.

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabhawam
    Me:
    hey(heki
    ssedme)
    Ay
    anda:
    bhut
    i
    Mawande: hayisukaqal
    angomt
    anagqi
    bel
    a
    ngam sosuyeka
    Ayanda:yakhwel
    eta,
    awunol
    enzai
    xesha
    kubhabha
    Mawande:
    mfxmm ay
    isacace
    Ayanda:
    hay
    iphumaaphowasezingubeni
    no
    bhuti
    wam.Comesither
    e.Guesswhere,yesi
    n
    hi
    slap
    Me:
    kuy
    abandaYanda
    Ay
    anda:
    hay
    isukaIwi
    l
    lmakey
    ouwar
    m
    Mawande:y i
    zongenakuthi
    kemawufunau-
    bhabhawakhokuyabandamany
    anizagodol
    a
    l
    omt ana

    Ayandatookof
    fhi
    sjacketandt
    ookof
    fhi
    s
    shoes.

    Ayanda: letmegoandt akeabi gbl


    ankete
    sparebedr oom,wewer esi tt
    ingkuthreesit
    ter
    coucht hethreeofus.Of cousebendiphakat
    hi
    rest
    ingmyheadonAy anda'schestandmyf eet
    onMawande' sl
    apbonabel engi
    seinyawo
    phansi.Badalaphela

    Nchooo.Khumal
    o'st
    heygotmyhear
    tkodwa.
    [
    08/
    17,
    23:
    11]Mca:
    INSERT51

    Truthbetol
    dbendihl
    ali
    sananoAyandabuti
    na
    verydi
    plomati
    cwaywhenl astdi
    dIgotomy
    room er
    es.Idon'
    tknownami

    Onet hursdayIwokeupandAy andawasnot


    there,Imadet hebed,tookashowerandgot
    dressed.Iwasr eadyt
    ogot oschool
    .Iwent
    downst air
    s,Vidowastheremakingacereal

    Me:
    mor
    ningVi
    do
    Vi
    do:
    mor
    ningma'
    am
    Me:
    Sinepl
    ease,
    Ihat
    ethatma'
    am t
    hing
    Vi
    do:i
    tcomeswi
    tht
    hebenef
    it
    sofbei
    ngi
    mai
    d
    kaTaAyl
    a
    Me:
    butIhat
    ethatr
    eal
    l
    y,ukuphi
    uAy
    anda
    kumel
    engi
    beseskol
    eni
    Vi
    do:
    hel
    eftear
    ly,
    sout
    hendi
    kuseesgel
    a
    Me:
    okt
    hen,
    Iwi
    l
    lwai
    tfory
    ou
    Vi
    do:
    I'
    m al
    mostdone
    Me:
    nopr
    obl
    em t
    akey
    ourt
    ime,
    I'
    m st
    il
    lear
    ly
    Vi
    do:
    sur
    e

    Heatehiscer
    eal,t
    henwashedhi
    sbowl
    ,Iwas
    wat
    chingmorningli
    ve

    Vi
    do:
    let
    '
    sgo
    Me:
    ok,
    Itookmyschool
    bag

    Wel
    eftandwedrovei
    nsil
    ence,Vi
    doseemed
    t
    obethequi
    teguyIpr
    eferMsi
    rakunay
    e
    Vido:doyoul
    ovehi
    m?(Ithoughthewasnot
    tal
    kingt
    omesoIkeptqui
    te)
    Vi
    do:
    ma'
    am?
    Me:
    Vido
    Vi
    do:
    doy
    oul
    ovehi
    m?
    Me:
    who
    Vi
    do:
    TaAy
    la
    Me:
    mustIanswert
    othat
    ?
    Vi
    do:
    I'
    mjustaski
    ng
    Me:
    yes
    Vido:butIcanmakeyouhappymoret
    hathe
    doesyesIdon'thav
    ethemoneyhehasbut
    makingyouhappyIguarant
    eeyou

    Ithi
    nkthisisther
    easonwhyAyandadoesn'
    t
    tr
    usthisfri
    ends,t
    heyaret
    rai
    tor
    s.Iwasstar
    ti
    ng
    tohatethem
    Me:
    whatar
    eyout
    alki
    ngaboutVi
    do?
    Vido:Il
    oveyou,Il
    ovedyout
    hedayIf
    irstsaw
    you,Iwaspr
    ayingthaty
    oust
    ayedbei
    ngf r
    iends
    ungaj
    oli
    naye
    Me: i
    sthi
    ssomeki ndofaj
    oke?didAyanda
    sendyou?
    ,,
    ,,
    ,
    ,,Ididn'
    tknowwhattobel
    i
    ev efir
    st
    i
    twasMawandenowVi doaphi
    amagirlf
    riend
    wabokahlekahle.

    Vido:nonotatal
    l,
    hemustnotfi
    ndoutt
    hatI
    hadthiski
    ndofconver
    sat
    ionwi
    thyou
    other
    wiseIwil
    lbedead
    Me:
    whatdoy
    ouwantf
    rom meVi
    do?
    Vi
    do:
    justl
    oveme
    Me:
    arey
    ououtofy
    ourmi
    nd?
    Vi
    do:
    yescr
    azyi
    nlov
    ewi
    thy
    ouma'
    am
    Me: Idon'
    twannaruinyourrel
    ati
    onshi
    pwith
    AyandaVidosoIwillkeepquit
    eforpeacesake
    butyouarever
    ydisrespect
    ful

    Vido:Ihavet
    ri
    edtohidemyfeel
    i
    ngsbutIcan'
    t
    anymoreangaskeaboneuTaAylaubaundi
    thi
    ni.
    Idoloveyou
    Me:Iam nothav
    ingt
    hisconv
    ersat
    ionwi
    thy
    ou
    mi
    na

    Wear r
    ivedatCput,hegotoffandcamet oopen
    mydoorandIgotof f,
    Iwasabouttocl oseithe
    heldmyhand,Ilookedathim, oureyesl ocked
    samet i
    mehecamecl osertome, Wewer eso
    cl
    oset oeachother'Il
    oveyou'hesaid.Her an
    hisfi
    ngerdownmycheek.Hebentf oraki ss,he
    ki
    ssedmymout handpul l
    edmev erycloserinto
    him wi
    thhishandthatwasar oundmywai st.He
    t
    ri
    edtofrenchki
    ssedmethat'
    swher
    eIr
    etur
    ned
    t
    oplaneteart
    h,Isl
    appedhi
    m

    Me:
    arey
    oucr
    azy
    ?
    Vi
    do:
    yesasIsai
    dcr
    azyi
    nlov
    ewi
    thy
    ou

    Me:
    hlukananami
    !!
    Vido:
    youwantmeasmuchasIwanty
    ou,
    and
    tr
    ustmeIwi
    llwai
    tpat
    ient
    ly
    Me:
    Idon'
    tbel
    i
    evey
    ou,
    youknow!
    Vi
    do:
    Iwi
    l
    lpi
    cky
    ouupaf
    terschool
    Me:
    don'
    twor
    ryIwi
    l
    ltakeat
    axi
    Vi
    do:
    soy
    ouwantTaAy
    lat
    oki
    l
    lme
    Me:hewill
    bedoingallofusafavour
    ,makeno
    mi
    stakeIwil
    ltel
    luAyandawhatyoujustdi
    d
    Vi
    do:
    pleasedon'
    t(hi
    sey
    eswer
    epl
    eadi
    ng)
    NxaunjaniuVidovel
    eIattendedmycl assesI
    deci
    dedtogot otheli
    brar
    y.Istudiedanditwas
    5;
    30thenIreceiv
    edacal l
    from Ayanda.I
    i
    gnoreditandwalkedoutoftheli
    br ar
    yhecall
    ed
    agai
    n

    Me:
    Yanda?
    Ay
    anda:
    sweet
    cheeks,
    wher
    ear
    eyou?
    Me:
    atschool
    Ay
    anda:
    thi
    slat
    e?
    Me: yesIdeci
    dedt
    ogot
    othel
    i
    brar
    yaf
    termy
    cl
    asses
    Ayanda:areyoudonenow?Iam onmyway
    fr
    om SomersetI'
    m stuckinatraffic,t
    her
    eisan
    acci
    dentbefor
    et heSpineroadof frampsoIwill
    belat
    e,Iwil
    lcall
    Vidotopicky ouupbecausehe
    sai
    dhecamet opickyouupaf teryourcl
    asses
    buty
    oudi
    dn'
    tpi
    ckupy
    ourf
    one

    Me:nodon'
    tcal
    lhi
    m,Iwi
    l
    ltakeat
    axi
    !!(Isai
    d
    t
    hatdef
    ensi
    vel
    y)
    Ay
    anda: nowi
    feofmei
    sgoi
    ngt
    otakeat
    axi
    .I
    wi
    llcal
    lhi
    m
    Me:
    no!
    !!Pl
    ease
    Ayanda:whybhabha?whatisgoi
    ngi
    nkant
    i?
    di
    dVi dodosomethi
    ngtoyou*

    Me: notatall(Isai
    dcal
    ml y)Irat
    herwaitfor
    you,
    sot hatyoucanpickmeup.Any wayImiss
    you,youleftearl
    y.(Atl
    easttheli
    brar
    ycloses
    at10pm)
    Ayanda:
    okkebhabha,
    giv
    eme20mi
    nIwi
    l
    lbe
    ther
    e
    Me:
    ok
    Ay
    anda:
    lov
    eyoubhabha
    Me:
    lov
    eyout
    ooYanda

    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    23:
    12]Mca:
    INSERT52

    Ay andapickedmeupf r
    om schoolandwewent
    viadebonai r
    s,weorder
    ed4boxesoft r
    ipl
    e
    decker,chickenandmushr
    oom pizza(my
    favorat
    e)thenwewenthome.

    Mawande, VidoandMsi rawereallthere


    wat chi
    ngr ugby ,wegreet
    edandIwentupst air
    s,
    tookof fmyshoesandwor eslippers.It
    hen
    wentt otheki tchenwashedmyhandsand
    dishedupf oreveryone.Igavethem theirpl
    ates.
    Theguy sbebezi khul
    umelanjebehlekawhi l
    e
    eating.Itookmypl at
    eandj oi
    nedtheguy s.
    Ay
    anda:
    sweet
    cheeks
    Me:
    hey
    Ay
    anda:
    comesi
    ther
    e,hepoi
    ntedhi
    slap
    Me:
    changi
    yadl
    aYanda
    Ay
    anda:
    don'
    tmakemecomeanddr
    agy
    ou
    Me:
    chawongi
    yeka,
    yidl
    aukudl
    akwakho
    Ay
    anda:
    heywenabhabhay
    izapha
    Me:
    yar
    asa

    Hest
    oodupandcar r
    iedmeli
    keasav
    iet
    tehe
    t
    ookmetothecouchwherehewassit
    ti
    nghe
    t
    hensatmeonhislap.Mfxmmm

    Me:
    yadi
    kay
    azi
    Ay
    anda:
    Iknow(het
    ookabi
    tef
    rom mypi
    zza)
    Me:
    kant
    iubuzongi
    dlel
    a
    Ay
    anda:youaresmal
    lmeleudl
    ekanci
    nci
    and
    mnaIneedl
    echeesel
    otofi
    t
    Me:
    mfxmm

    Hepull
    edmyf
    aceandki
    ssedmeIki
    ssedhi
    m
    back

    Msi
    ra:
    yer
    rTaAy
    lagetar
    oom
    Ay
    anda:
    yangxol
    akwedi
    ni

    Theylaughed,Vidowaslooki
    ngatmengat
    hi
    uzongit
    akelaangif
    akei
    mpama.Udaki
    welo

    Ayanda:(hewhi
    sper
    edonmyear
    )umt
    ungwa
    uv
    ukile
    Me:
    Ibur
    sti
    nlaught
    er
    Ayanda:sul
    arhabhabha,
    ubungambona
    yaf
    uthuza,
    heisabouttopopout
    Me:
    hay
    ingi
    yekemi
    nauzenzi
    l
    evel
    e
    Ay
    anda:
    khondi
    phe
    Me:
    hay
    ibhabhawej
    ustat
    ezongi
    phal
    azi
    sa

    Judgemeguy sbutaf
    tert
    hatni
    ghtIwas
    avoi
    dingIsexi
    mnandiyonabutei
    shIcan'
    tdeal
    nepainehambanayo

    Hel
    i
    ckedmyi
    nnerear
    Me:
    chaYanda
    Ay
    anda:
    I'
    m hungr
    y
    Me:
    youj
    ustat
    eYanda
    Ay
    anda:
    ImeanMt
    ungwa'
    sfood
    Me:
    sihl
    ezi
    nabant
    uladon'
    tber
    ude
    Ay
    anda:
    let
    'scal
    li
    tanear
    lyni
    ght
    Me:
    no
    Ay
    anda:
    please
    Me:
    ok,
    ok
    Ayanda:pleasedon'
    tst
    andup,
    Iwi
    l
    lcar
    ryy
    ou,
    kubingal
    akuMt ungwa,
    Me:
    Ibur
    sti
    nlaught
    eragai
    n
    Ay
    anda:
    guy
    swer
    ear
    ecal
    l
    ingi
    tani
    ght
    Me:
    isi
    tyasami
    phel
    a
    Ay
    anda:
    leav
    eit
    Msi
    ra:
    don'
    tmakenoi
    sepl
    ease
    Ay
    anda:
    yiy
    akwakhosani

    Hecarr
    iedmeupst ai
    rs,wegotint
    othe
    bedr
    oom ,hekissedmyneck, hestoppedand
    l
    ookedatme,Icouldn'tl
    ookathim,Ij
    ustlooked
    down.
    Ayanda:lookatme(Idon'tknowwhybut
    al
    way swhenIlookatAyanda'
    sey esndivel
    e
    ndi
    khophozebutthatni
    ghthiseyeswer ehalf
    opened,so,i
    twaseasyformet ol ookathi
    m.)

    Ayanda: youaresobeautif
    ul.(Hesaidthatina
    ver
    ylow, hoar
    selyandsexyv oi
    ce)hekissedme
    hungril
    yandIresponded,helaidmeont hebed
    andunbut t
    onedmyshi r
    tIlethim heuncl
    ipped
    mybr a.

    Ayanda:
    Idon'
    tseethereasonwhyy
    ouweara
    br
    abecauseyourboobsaresosmall(he
    smil
    ed)

    Her eachedformybr east


    ssl
    owlyplay
    ingand
    ki
    ssi
    ngmyni pples.Hewentdownt omyt ummy
    usi
    nghi stongue,all
    Icoulddowast omoanin
    pl
    easure.Het ookoffmyundies.Heplayedwit
    h
    mycli
    tor
    ishesl
    owlyopenedmylegsandhayi
    kehi
    stonguewasdoingmagicsdownther
    ein
    mytr
    easure.mylegsstart
    edtotr
    emble

    Ayanda: br
    ingt
    hem bhabha,br
    ingt
    hosejui
    ces
    andindeedngathobel
    aumthethoandIcame.
    Hecleanedmewi thhi
    stonguetaki
    nghisti
    me.

    Hetookapil
    lowandplacedi tatthebackofmy
    wai
    st,heposit
    ionedhi
    m selfhewasaboutt o
    i
    nserthi
    mselfwhenIstoppedhi m

    Me:
    Yanda
    Ayanda:bhabha.(Hesaidthati
    nav erysexy
    voi
    ce,yayi
    ngathiasonguy
    elodlangothiHey
    wennabhabha)
    Me:
    condom pl
    ease
    Ay
    anda:
    nobhabha
    Me:
    chaAy
    anda

    Hef
    iddl
    edi
    nthesi
    dedr
    awerandputi
    ton.

    Heinser tedhi mselfandhay inj


    eIscreamed,
    wangif akaul i
    mi samet i
    me, Ithi
    nkthatwasa
    wayt osi l
    enceme, hetri
    edagain,nganyukane
    headboar d, fi
    nallyhewasi n.Wedi dourthi
    ng
    andIcamekani nz i
    final
    lywebothcame.
    Ladieshav eyouev ersquirt
    edandy ouknow
    howembar rassingitismawungekay azi
    yenziway i
    ntoni.Ifi
    thappensy oumustknow
    youar ebl essednotal lmencangety outhere.I
    squirt
    ed, ,
    ,andhecol l
    apsedonmyt hinand
    smal lbody

    OnethingfunnyaboutasthmaifurunorwalkII
    di
    stancanyanasometimesy av
    alekabutwheni
    t
    comest osexudancer,ubil
    ebemanzi ni
    xx
    ast
    hmani
    eubangumqemana#l
    ol#

    Hecl
    eanedusandhepul
    l
    edmeont
    opofhi
    m
    andweslept
    .

    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    23:
    14]Mca:
    INSERT53

    Iwasdonewr i
    ti
    ngmyt est s, y
    esIwasst ayi
    ng
    withAy andabutwheni tcomest omyst udies
    theycamef i
    rstIdidn'
    tfor getwhyIcamet o
    CapeTownandhewasv erysuppor t
    ive,he
    wouldn'tall
    owmet oskipanycl assl
    etal one
    beinglate,hewasv er
    yst rictshamewi t
    ht hat
    .I
    wouldn't'
    tpasswi thdistinctionsinhighschool
    andnotgetcum l aude, Iwant edsummacum
    l
    aude.
    Itwasthedaywewer eleavi
    ngforl
    asupr i
    seka
    Ayanda.Ididn'
    tknowwher ewewer egoingbut
    besi
    hambake.Wewokeupandbat hedandhe
    suggestedthatwegof orshoppi
    ngandwe
    wenttoCanal walk.Ij
    ustlov
    eCanal walkit
    s
    easytogetwhatev eryouwant.Sinceitwas
    thebeginni
    ngofOct oberweboughtlightand
    spri
    ngclothes.
    Wefi
    nal
    lywenttoQueensparkandhebought
    meafor
    mal dressandst
    il
    ett
    osandhebought
    hi
    msel
    fasuit.Mydressmatchedhi
    sti
    e.

    Iguessinwhateverpl
    acesiy
    akuyobesi
    zoya
    nakwifunct
    ion,
    thenwehadlunchthenwent
    backhome, wetookourstuf
    finsi
    deand
    Mawandewasi nthekit
    chenwashingdi
    shes

    Mawande:
    lastbor
    n
    Me:
    hi
    Mawande:
    njani
    ?
    Me:
    goodt
    hanxandy
    ou?
    Mawande:
    great
    Me:
    washi
    ngdi
    shes,
    that
    'st
    hef
    ir
    st
    Mawande:
    don'
    thav
    eachoi
    ce
    Me:
    yekel
    angi
    zi
    qedel
    ele
    Mawande:
    nha,
    itsokl
    astbor
    n
    Me:
    okt
    hen
    Mawande:
    whenar
    eyoul
    eav
    ing?
    Ay
    anda:
    in2hour
    sti
    me
    Mawande:
    okenj
    oy
    Ay
    anda:
    isev
    ery
    thi
    ngi
    nor
    der
    Mawande:
    yha,
    rel
    ax,j
    ustf
    ocusont
    his,
    ev
    ery
    thi
    ngi
    ssort
    ed.
    Ay
    anda:
    sur
    ekebhut
    i,babyl
    et'
    sgoandpack
    Wewentupst ai
    rs,ei
    shwhenitcomesto
    packingI'
    m hopelessbutwepackedourstuf
    f
    besizohl
    alathewholeweekthencomebackon
    Saturdaycasitwasmybi r
    thdayIwastur
    ning
    19..Yep19!

    Ayandat ookoursuitcasesandhel oadedt hem


    i
    nt hecarandwesai dourgoodby esandwe
    l
    eft.Het ookN1t henR300of ftoN2t o
    Somer setwestthenGor don'sbaywal andel a
    l
    omgwaqouhambaphezukol wandle,trustme
    thatroadmakesmedi zzy,everytimendi hamba
    kuwondi cingazonkeintoezi mbi ,onemi stake
    youlosecont rol
    ofyourcarngaqenqel eka
    thewukenent abayotshonael wandlewor se
    mncinci anduneshar pcur ves,Ireall
    ydon'tlike
    i
    t.

    Sahambakesi
    zi
    ncokol
    elaupunt
    ilKl
    einmond,
    thenimmediat elyhesawaboar dethiArabell
    a
    hesloweddownIt hi
    nkaf ter1km wangenakwi
    turneser
    ightunt il
    siyongenakwi par
    kinglot.We
    madeourwayt other eception, t
    hebookingwas
    madeal r
    eady, mhhhmm Iwasi mpressed, we
    gotthekeyst hent hesecur i
    tyt ookourbags,
    wellwewer eina5st arhot el,ARABELLAgol f
    estat
    e,hotelandspa.

    Wewentupst ai
    rsanditwasbreat
    htaki
    ng,I
    can'
    tdescri
    beitbutitwaswhaaw.Thesui
    te
    wasincredi
    ble,itwasadoubl
    esuit
    e,wi
    th
    si
    tti
    ngroom, ki
    tchenandbat
    hroom.

    Ineededt otakeashowersi nceitwashot,Ij


    ust
    tookoffmycl othes,ohhlordkwathikant
    iIwas
    givi
    ngAy andaachancey ocabangamdaka, he
    bit
    ehislowerl ipsseductivel
    yandcamet ome
    heheldmef rom t hebackandbitemyear
    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha
    Me:
    mhmm
    Ay
    anda:
    khondi
    phebhabha
    Me:
    hay
    iYanday
    huuIam t
    ir
    edmi
    na.
    Ay
    anda:
    pleasebhabha

    Guy
    sAy
    andal
    ovessex
    ,okonel
    iani
    nai
    dea

    Ay
    anda:
    pleasebhabha.

    Hest ar
    tedki ssingme.Iwast i
    redhonestlyandI
    tol
    dmy selfIwon'tlethi
    m buteli
    menemene
    l
    omzi mbawami j
    ustgavei
    n.hestar
    tedt oki
    ss
    meandhel i
    ftedmeupIwr appedmyl egs
    aroundhi swai st,
    Hewasaboutt oinsert
    himselffrom thatpositi
    onwhenIst oppedhim
    Ay
    anda:
    yini
    bhabha,
    Me:
    condom
    Ay
    anda:
    hay
    ibhabha
    Me:
    yesbhabha
    Ay
    anda:
    asi
    nazo
    Me:
    wedol
    ove
    Ay
    anda:
    kuphi
    Idi
    dn'
    tbuyt
    hem
    Me: Idi
    d(Iwasnotgoi ngt
    owaitforhi
    m
    azit
    henge.Havingababywasthel
    astthi
    ngon
    mymi ndsinceIwasnotoncontr
    acepti
    vesthen
    Ihadnochoi cebutt
    omakesurethatIbuy
    them)
    Ay
    anda:
    ziphi
    ke
    Me:
    myt
    oil
    etr
    ybag,

    Hel
    aidmeont
    hebedandt
    ookt
    hecondom
    fr
    om thetoi
    l
    etr
    ybagthatwasont
    hecouchand
    openedit
    .Hegaveittome

    Ayanda:putiti
    n,Idi
    d,withhishel
    pandwe
    greet
    edAr abel
    l
    ainYandaandSne' sway,then
    wewentt otakeashower,webot hworeshort
    s
    becauseitwashot,wejustchil
    l
    edonthebed

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha
    Me:
    Yanda
    Ay
    anda:
    Iwantachi
    l
    d
    Me: Ipr
    etendedasi
    fangi
    zwanga(l
    et'
    sgoand
    eat
    )
    Ay
    anda:
    bhabhandi
    yat
    het
    ha
    Me:
    uthi
    ni?
    Ay
    anda:
    Iwantachi
    l
    d
    Me:
    hambomenzaphel
    a
    Ay
    anda:
    ndi
    funaumenzanawe
    Me:
    hay
    iAy
    anda,
    Idon'
    twantachi
    l
    d
    Ay
    anda:
    why
    ?Don'
    tyoul
    oveme?
    Me:
    Iam 18andIam st
    udy
    ing
    Ay
    anda:
    so?
    Me:arey
    ouok? howam Igoi
    ngt
    otakecar
    eof
    achi
    l
    dngingasebenzi
    ?
    Ayanda: y
    ouknowver
    ywellthat
    'snotani
    ssue,
    Iwil
    ltakecar
    eofmychil
    d,f
    inanci
    all
    yandi
    n
    ever
    yway .
    Me: Ican'
    ttakecar
    eofachi l
    dYanda,angazi
    nj
    enobaugez wanj
    ani
    ,evenifIcanhaveachil
    d
    IdoubtIwil
    llovehi
    m /herthewayI'
    m suppose
    to
    Ay
    anda:
    youwi
    l
    l
    Me:
    hay
    iYanda
    Ay
    anda:
    Iam notget
    ti
    ngy
    oungerbhabha
    Me: urightbuhlal
    el eniungabi
    nangane,cha
    Yandaangi zi
    ngeni njeandnextyearI'
    m goi
    ng
    foraninser v
    icetrainingIcan'
    tbeworking
    ngibengisi
    ndwai -si su
    Ay
    anda: t
    hinkabouti
    t,Iwon'
    tpr
    essur
    izey
    ou,
    I
    wi
    llwai
    tti
    llyouar
    eready
    Me: asl
    ongasy ouknowIsti
    ll
    wannadomyB
    Tech,Mast
    ersandDoctor
    ateswit
    houtachi
    l
    d
    Ayanda:bhabhay ouarebeingunfairkodwa. ,
    ,
    ,,
    youdon'
    tunderstandhowmuchIl ovey oui fit
    meansIwi l
    lhavemyf i
    rstchil
    dndina78l etitbe
    ,Iwil
    lwaitforyoutober eady.Youaret he
    motherofmychi l
    drenandi twil
    lst
    ayliket hat.
    (Hehadtear si
    nhiseyes)
    Me: 78!
    !Ibursti
    nlaughter.Byt
    hatti
    me
    yawubesekengavukiumtungwandaske
    ndi
    kuphat
    helaamal ahl
    e
    Ay
    anda:
    tsekbhabha,
    butImeani
    t.Il
    ovey
    ou
    Me:
    Ilov
    eyout
    oo
    IdoloveYandadearlybutachi
    l
    dNo! !IIwanted
    tost
    aychildl
    essforatl
    eastf
    orthenextcoming
    3years.Zabastr
    ongo

    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    23:
    15]Mca:
    INSERT54

    Wehadf uninArabell
    awedr ovear
    ound5day s
    seemedl iketwodays,wewentforwinetast
    ing
    Ayandawasgoodi nthatasformeIjustgot
    ti
    psyngingekatastenjeandtobehonestIdi
    d
    knowt hediff
    erence,t
    heyweretal
    ki
    ngabout
    l
    egs,Iwassonoti nt
    erest
    edbutIpret
    endedto
    beenjoyingitforYanda'
    ssake.

    Wewentt
    oTopquadsScenict
    ours,
    wetook
    wal
    ksi
    nthebeach,
    Ayandawant
    edustogofor
    hi
    ghl
    andst
    rai
    lbutIwoul
    dn'
    tdarefl
    owers,
    trees
    andmedon'
    tmeetlet
    'sj
    ustsayALLERGY!
    !!!

    Wewentt omyf av our atepartatoverstrand


    Equest riancent r
    e,f orbeachr i
    des.Ay andawas
    surprisedt hatIcanr ideahor sebymysel f,y
    es
    IcanI 'm ar uralgirlr
    ememberandmygr and
    fat
    herunawoamahasheanddonkey s, Ican
    evenr ideadonkey .I
    fy ouarear ur
    al personyou
    wil
    l knowwhatIam t al ki
    ngabout ,
    sor idinga
    horsei sami nort ome.UYandabengakwazi
    uli
    gibelashameandIcoul dseehef eltdefeated
    andAy andaakaf unikwehl ulwabutt hisoneI
    woni tf airandsquar e.Beautiesof
    ubangowasez if
    ama#l ol#don'thate.

    Itwasfr
    iday,daybefor
    esi
    zohamba.Itwashot
    kwasekuseninje,ar
    ound12wedecidedtogo
    tothepool,
    Iwor emybabyblueswi
    mwearand
    ngathi j
    wi itowel t
    ocov ermymy selfwhi
    le
    walkingar oundpeopl eandYandawor eashort
    andwewentt ot hepool .OkI '
    m goodwi t
    h
    horsesbutwi t
    hwat erhay injeIam hy dr
    ophobic
    ngiphelelanj elaeduze, Idon'tgodeeperand
    whatscar esmet hemostt heysaypool sare
    mor edanger oust hanul wandl ebutmost
    yabant ut heyt hinki t
    st hewayar oundsonj e
    angidlaleli emanzi ni,andboyAy andawasgood.
    Bendizifakel enjeiny awoemanzi niwhentwo
    whiteguy scame.Thegr eetedandmadesome
    smal ltalks.Bebez ikhulemel anjeumbhedoand
    l
    aughi ngatmemangi thingiyesabaungena, I
    couldseeAy anda'smi ndwasnoti nwhathe
    wasdoi ngany mor e, wezaki mi wangena
    phakat hi kwemi l
    enzey ami .Hecamet okissme,
    andt rustmeIknowowami umunt u.

    Ay
    anda:
    comengi
    zokuguga
    Me:
    chay
    ougoIwi
    l
    lwat
    chy
    ou
    Ayanda:f
    unushiy
    ekanalamakhwenkweabe
    ej
    ongeamathangaomfaziwamithatwon'
    t
    happen
    Me:
    hay
    iYanda
    Ay
    anda:
    doy
    ouseet
    hewaybakuj
    ongangay
    o
    Me:
    no,
    youwr
    ong
    Ay
    anda:
    ndzababhodi
    sabazenj
    e

    Amen

    Theot
    herguy:don'
    tyouwannaj
    oinustoni
    te
    wewil
    lbecel
    ebrat
    ingmybrot
    her
    'sbi
    rt
    hday
    Ay
    anda:
    nowehav
    epl
    ans
    Me:
    Ijustkeptqui
    te

    Me: l
    et'
    sgobhabha,Ididn'
    twannabether
    e
    any
    wor e,
    Iknewifnj
    etheseguysbesho
    somet hi
    ngbazadibananenqi
    ndikuAyanda,
    thi
    sguyr eall
    yneedstoworkonhisi
    nsecuri
    ti
    es.
    Wewentf oramassagenomuntuwam wehad
    funthereumz imbawam wasreal
    lyr
    ejuv
    inat
    ed
    uthetshanje.

    Lateev ening,Ay andat oldmeImustwearmy


    dressandhewor ehissui tohhboyy ouknowu
    missRhadebeshedr essest okill
    ,ev enonthat
    dayIwasout standi ngandherYandawas
    whaw.Mhl eni nani uYandawami Iwasso
    j
    eal ousIdon' twannal ie.Ineversawhi m kwi
    suitsot hatev eni nghewasabomb, Ij
    ust
    pray edthatwher eev erwewer egoi ng
    kungabi kholadi esonl ymenori zalukaziezi
    mbi
    ezigugile#lol#ndl elabendi mosabi selangayo,
    wewer ereallycut ebat hongYandanoSne
    wakhe.Wegoti ntoar esturanttherewepeopl e
    most l
    ywhi t
    ecoupl esnabodr essedni cel
    y.The
    room wasr atherdi mv eryr omant i
    cf ordi
    nner.
    Wegoti nandwewer eshowni ntoourtable.
    Weor der
    ed,ateandsincokol akamnandi .We
    fi
    nishedeat i
    ngandor deredIdesser tsthenwe
    chi
    lledheor der
    edIr edwi neandgr apetizerfor
    me.Sahl al
    asizincokolel
    abekukhal aumcul o
    softl
    ykwi backgroundandal l
    ofasuddent he
    musi cstoppedandoneguyebenxi beIsui tnaye
    butwi thanamet agIguesshewast he
    managery er
    esturantwacel aourat t
    ention.We
    al
    llookedathi m (Iwasf acingt hesi
    deoft he
    guy)

    Guy:goodeveni
    ngl adi
    esandgentlemen,I
    hopeyouareenj
    oyingy ourst
    ayandmost l
    yyou
    areenj
    oyi
    ngyourfood(hel aughedli
    ght)t
    her
    e
    i
    ssomeonewhowant stosaysomething

    Weal
    ll
    ookar
    ound,
    Ukubonemawucur i
    ousuf
    unubonangubani
    kanyel
    o,ngokuungamazi
    nomazi.Bekunjal
    o
    ke.

    '
    Sinenhlanhl
    aRhadebe'.(Ilookedovermy
    shoulderbecausethatwasAy anda'
    sv oi
    ceand
    bendimzelengomv aaloku.Hewasonhi sknee.
    Uguqeni niuAyanda)
    Me: i
    nhli
    zi
    yoy
    am y
    aphansey
    ama.Wenzani
    phansi
    ?

    Peoplewerel
    ookingatusohhhtherecomesa
    tr
    oubleamehl
    owabant u,ohhhHeaven,tel
    l
    Eart
    htoopenupandswal l
    owme, Ihat
    e
    att
    enti
    onthel
    ightswerenotdim anymore,
    bri
    ghtasever
    ,everyonecouldseeus,my
    handswerewetngumbi l
    o
    Ay anda: SinenhlanhlaRhadebe, bhabhawam
    ,sweet cheekszam (hesmi ledbutebonakal a
    uner vous)whenImety ou,Iwasnot hing,Iknew
    not hi
    ngaboutl ovebuty out houghtmet hatlove
    i
    spat i
    ent,thatloveiskind, youtaughtmet hat
    beaut y,money ,st
    atusdon' tmakeaper sonbut
    l
    ov ecanmakey ouaper son, abett
    erone.You
    l
    ov edme, whenIwasnotabl etowalk,whenI
    gav eupi nlif
    e, youlovedmeungandazi .Iwant
    yout obet her easonIwakeupev eryday,
    pleasemakemet hehappi estmani nthisplanet
    mar r
    yme.(Het ookoutar ingf r
    om hispocket
    yesui tleingaphakathi,whendi dhebuyt his??
    Andy esitwasadi amondr i
    ng)

    No,no,noIcan't,Iam young,Iam st
    udy
    ing,
    I
    am notready,
    Ican' t,
    notnowmaybewhenI 'm
    25,
    ,notnow, tearswer est
    reamingdownmy
    cheeks,noIcan't,Ishookmyhead
    Ayanda: pl
    easesaysomet
    hingbhabha,
    Idon'
    t
    knowhowi tistobeamarri
    edmanbutIwanna
    exper
    ienceitwit
    hyou,soy
    esnam Im scar
    ed.
    Iwasaboutt
    osaysomet
    hingwhensomeone
    sai
    d

    Ol
    dwhi
    tewoman:
    thi
    siswhatIcal
    ll
    ove
    Ol
    dman: (Iguesshewasherhusband)y
    ouar
    e
    maki
    ngnoise
    Ol
    dwhi
    tel
    ady
    :ohhshutupol
    dman

    Icoul
    dn'
    thel
    pbutl
    aughed

    Me:
    InoddedYes,
    yes,
    yesIwi
    l
    lmar
    ryy
    ou.

    Hesl
    idedownther
    ingonmyfi
    ngerandkissed
    myfi
    ngerandmytear
    s.Ohhhmyli
    tt
    lef
    inger
    yayingat
    hiyasi
    ndwanayi
    leri
    ng.Hestoodup,
    huggedmeandspunme.Ev eryonecheer
    ed
    otherswerewipingt
    hei
    rtears.

    Ay
    anda:
    Ilov
    eyoubhabhaandt
    hanky
    ou
    Me:
    lov
    eyout
    ooMt
    ungwa

    Wehuggedandwewer ebothsni
    ff
    ing,wewere
    cr
    ying.Si
    bethwewunabi
    ???Akekho..
    ..I
    zil
    i
    ma
    zi
    kathi
    xoshame.

    Ihear
    dsomeonesay
    ing'
    Youngl
    ove,
    theyar
    e
    socute'

    Yesengaged. .
    ..
    .Themusi
    cwasbackpeopl
    e
    congratul
    atedus.Wesatt
    her
    eandchat
    tedand
    cal
    leditanite.
    Ayandanamachambapeople.Masi
    hambahe
    pi
    ckedmeupandcar riedmeli
    kea5yearol
    d.
    Peoplewoul
    dn'
    tstoplooki
    ngandsmil
    i
    ngatus.
    Thi
    smanl ov
    esattent
    ionmaara

    Ay
    anda:
    Iwi
    l
    ldi
    efory
    ou
    Me:
    Iwi
    l
    lki
    l
    lfory
    ou

    Wegi
    ggl
    ed

    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    23:
    17]Mca:
    Mbal
    iWendy
    ,thi
    sonei
    sfor
    y
    oumyAngel
    .

    I
    NSERT55
    Wegotint
    ooursui
    teandheputmeont
    hebed
    andki
    ssedme.

    Ay
    anda:
    Mfaz
    iwam
    Me:
    Yanda
    Ay
    anda:
    Ilov
    eyou
    Me:
    met
    oo
    Ay
    anda:
    yout
    oowhat
    Me:
    Ihat
    eyou
    Ay
    anda:
    heywenabhabha

    Wegoti nt
    obedIwasr eal
    l
    yti
    redi
    tsbeenalong
    day.Iwasdrif
    ti
    ngtoThongol
    andkamnandi
    whenhewhi sper
    edinmyear.

    Ay
    anda:
    sweet
    cheeksl
    ambi
    l
    e
    Me:
    yidl
    akal
    oku:
    (eat
    )
    Ay
    anda:
    Idon'
    tmeanf
    ood
    Me:Isatupkwaphelanobobuthongo,areyou
    f
    orr
    eal?I'
    mtir
    edmi na.Youreal
    lyneedt osee
    t
    hedoctor
    .Yoursexdriveyakhoit
    'sr
    idicul
    ous

    Ay
    anda:
    undi
    phakamnandi
    njebhabhandi
    thi
    ni?
    Me:
    leav
    emeal
    one
    Ay
    anda:
    nzaf
    akakanci
    nci
    Me:
    hay
    i!
    !!

    Hesul
    ked

    Hay
    iangay
    ozi
    l
    engi
    sanj
    e,changekenj
    e.

    Ay
    anda:
    canIpar
    kinsi
    deke?
    Me:
    noYanda!
    !
    Ay
    anda:
    please
    Me:
    ok,
    ok.Yhooo(hesmi
    l
    ed)
    Ay
    anda:
    comesl
    eepont
    opofme.

    Idi
    dandhepar kedinsi
    de,'
    njeumoverkayione'
    Iwi
    llgetoffngiyozel
    ami naandheli
    stened,
    l
    et'
    sjustsayforf ewseconds,hest
    art
    ed
    moving.(Ili
    ft
    edmyhead) .

    Ay anda:Ican'
    thelpi
    tbhabha,i
    tshoti
    nther
    e,I
    can'thelpi
    tpleasedon'
    tshout
    .(Hi
    seyeswere
    pleading)
    Me:Godhelpme!!Butnami t
    obehonestI
    coul
    dn'
    tresi
    sthi
    m, Iendedupgoi
    ngwitht
    he
    fl
    ow.
    Me:
    condom

    Heputoneandpl acedmeont opofhi m again,


    heshowedmehowt or i
    dehi m.Inev erDI Ditso
    i
    twasmyf i
    rstti
    me, atfi
    rstitwasnoteasy,
    l
    adiesy ouknow, forthefirsttimei t
    'snoteasy
    torideyourman, butsomet imesy ouf eel l
    ike
    giv
    ingupbuty oujustcan'tf oryourpar tner'
    s
    sakeandi t'
    srathercomf ortableifhei st heone
    showingy ouormustIsayi fyoudoi ttogether
    i
    nsteadofhi m goingoutt her eandgetsome
    angashot hathewant sy out odoi tbutat lastI
    gotitri
    ght,damnIr odehi m Imov edi ncircles
    hecouldn'tstopmoani ngandIknewIwas
    doingitri
    ght, Imovedf asterandf ast er

    Ayanda:bhabhadon'
    tmov
    efast
    er
    zondi
    chamisa
    Ididn'tli
    stenIwant edhimt ocome,funul
    ala
    minakhat hele.Imov edfaster
    ,hehel
    dmywai st
    withbot hhandsanddeept hrust
    ,damnI
    screamedl oudandIsqui rted.Icont
    inued
    mov ingf aster,Icouldseehewashol di
    ng
    himsel ffrom comi ngbutdamnIwasnotgoi ng
    tolethi m.

    Ay anda:fuckbaby,
    ..
    ..
    ..Fu.
    .ck.
    ..Bhabha,
    fu,
    ,,,
    c,
    ,,
    k,Iwascomingt oo,
    webot hcame.He
    fl
    ippedmequi ckl
    y

    Ayanda:
    shi
    tbhabha,
    ubomamel
    amandi
    thi
    yi
    ma
    Me:
    mhmmm
    Ayanda:undenzaweak.Idon'
    tl
    iket
    obe
    defeat
    ed,Iam t
    hemanher e
    Me:
    Ilaughed
    Ayanda:yer
    ryougood,f
    ort
    hefir
    stti
    me
    undenzendi
    beweakkanj
    e,youaresomet
    hing
    mfaziwam
    Me:
    mfxmm

    Waphumaandt ookofft
    hecondom, wecl eaned
    upsalala.Ay andanomkhubawondi l
    ali
    saphezu
    kwakhe.Isl eptont opofhim,i
    tsbetterkodwa
    thansleepingnextt ohim casyakuqamangela
    andndi basuf f
    ocatedmina

    Wejustgotengagedpeopl
    esowehadt
    o
    cel
    ebr
    ateinYandaandSne' sway
    .
    >>>>>>>>>>

    Foll
    owingdaywehadbr eakfastt
    henstart
    ed
    packingbesi
    zocheckoutat11:30,thenwe
    checkedoutanddroveback,hayi
    nipeopl
    eit
    wasmybi rthdayandAy andadidn'tev ensay
    happybirthday .Ireceiv
    edcal l
    s,smsesandhe
    sai
    dnot hing,mf xmm nzomf umanaey akhe
    i
    duzenay o28.Yi nihewassohear tl
    ess.He
    keptonlooki ngathi sfoneandf inall
    yhisf one
    beeped,itwasansms, hereadit,smiledand
    putitbacki nhispocketmf xmm.I nobay ajol
    a
    mhlampeeuf umenei ntombazanaphay a
    engandihoy anganj e.Dayafterourengagement .
    Iwassocr ossshameandhear tbr oken.

    Wegothome, wegotoffhel
    eftt
    hesuit
    cases
    behind,onnowImustcarryt
    hesuit
    case,y
    hoo
    kumnandi ubaengagedmossawuhoywa
    nzaskendiphi
    ndi
    selori
    ngmina

    Me:
    iisui
    tcasebaby
    Ay
    anda:
    no,
    Iwi
    l
    lcomebackf
    orzona
    Me:
    cany
    out
    akemet
    oooZeepl
    ease?
    Ay
    anda:
    ok,
    letusf
    ir
    stgr
    eetooMawande

    Heopenedt
    hedoor

    Surpri
    se! !!
    !!
    !Peoplechant ed, hayi
    bot hehouse
    wasf ulluZee, PhumzaandPhumza' sf ri
    end
    Odwa, Siphe, Mawande, Vido, Msiraandot her
    guysIdi dn'tknowbezenamagal fr
    iendwaboI
    guessbi zifri
    endszooAy anda.Thehousewas
    full
    .Theyal lsanghappybi r
    thdaysongf orme
    andMawandecamewi thabi gcake.I twast wo
    piecesonewi thuoneoy i numbert heot herone
    was9soi fyoucombi nedt hetwongu19
    wr i
    tt
    en" happybirthdaybhabha" andonl ytwo
    smal lcandles.Iwasaboutt oblowt hecandl es
    whenYandast oppedme

    Ay
    anda:
    canIbl
    owt
    heot
    herone?
    Me: Inodded(Ibl
    ewel i
    nyeandheblewt he
    ot
    herone, whosebi
    rthdayisthi
    skanti
    ?).They
    al
    lcamet ohugme, IlookedatAyanda

    Me:
    thanky
    ou,
    hewi
    nkedatme
    Ay
    anda:
    pleasur
    e

    Ayanda:ladi
    esandgent
    lemanpleasecome
    wit
    hmet hepartywi
    ll
    beinthegarage.Heheld
    myhandandwewentdownst ai
    rsi
    ntothefir
    st
    garage,
    heopenedthegarageallt
    hecarswere
    outsi
    detherewasonecoveredinacarcover

    Me: youboughtacar ,whichonedidy ou


    choose.Iknewhewant edtobuyanothercar
    .
    CongratsIjumpedonhi m andhuggedhi m.
    OpenitIwantt oseeitsinceyoudidn'
    tknow
    ufunaeyiphi.Iwasr
    eall
    yhappyf orhim.
    Her
    emovedt
    hecov
    er,
    myj
    awsdr
    oppedi
    nto
    myf
    eet
    .

    Ay
    anda:
    happybi
    rt
    hdaybhabhakaYanda!

    Ij
    ustst
    oodt
    her
    endamat
    ha

    Ayanda:Iwantedtopersonali
    zeitbutIknew
    youwouldsay."HayiYandaIdon'tli
    ke
    att
    enti
    on"heimitat
    edmysmal lvoi
    ce.SoI
    deci
    dedtoleaveit(Everyonelaughed)

    Ay
    anda:
    her
    e!Hef
    lashedt
    hekey
    s.I
    tsy
    our
    s!

    Yes!!I
    twasanX1BMW,
    black,
    tint
    edwi
    ndows
    thewayIl
    ikei
    t.
    Iwant
    edtosaysomethi
    ngbutmyv oi
    cejust
    di
    sappear
    edonme.Peoplestaredatme, I
    di
    dn'
    tknowwhethert
    otakei
    t,rejecti
    t,orcry.

    Ijustwentstrai
    ghti
    ntohi
    sarms,heopened
    them andIjustburi
    edmysel
    fli
    kea5y earol
    d
    kubabakhe.
    Me:thankyouYanda,thati
    sthebestpr
    esentI
    ev
    ergotinmyentir
    eli
    fe.
    Ay
    anda:
    any
    thi
    ngf
    ormywi
    fe
    Me: t
    hankyouMtungwa,Khumal
    o,Ndl
    ovu.
    ThankyouYandakabhabha

    Ayanda:(hewhispered)pl
    easedon'tcr
    y,you
    wil
    lmakemecr ytoo.Idon'
    twantthesefools
    seethatIcancr
    y,pleasebhabha
    Ibur
    sti
    nlaught
    er

    Ay anda:lastl
    yladi
    esandgent lemen,t
    hislady
    youseer ighthereissoontobemywi fenotthat
    shei snotnowbutof fi
    cial
    ly,
    heshowedmy
    fi
    nger, every
    onecheer edandwi sheduswell.
    OoZeenoMawandecongr at
    ulatedme
    bendilokondizi
    ncwebakanci nciphel
    aayika
    sinklentothatI'
    m engaged.

    Thepar
    tybeganbi
    ngekhokwasegar
    agebut
    endl
    i
    nii
    twasanactkuAy anda.

    Mawande:
    congr
    atsbabybhut
    iandwel
    come
    l
    astbor
    n
    Ayanda:thankyousomuchbhut
    ifor
    or
    ganizi
    ngev er
    ythi
    ng
    Mawande:
    pleasur
    e
    Me:
    didy
    ouor
    gani
    zei
    tal
    one?
    Mawande:
    no,
    noMsi
    ranaboZi
    zi
    phoandher
    f
    ri
    ends
    Me:
    thanky
    ousomuch

    Wehugged

    Myhusbytobe,wayenguncaabost
    ickuSne
    wakheengat
    hizobi
    wa.

    Il
    ovet
    hisni
    ggamaar
    a.

    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    23:
    17]Mca:
    INSERT56

    Iknowy
    oumi
    ghtbewor
    ri
    edandaski
    ng
    questionsas, whenlastdi dIspeakt omy
    parents,asIsai dbeforeIdi dt al
    ktot hem on
    dailybasesbutIwon' tbor ey oungesmal l
    tal
    ks
    becausekukubuzangi njani ,howwasschool .If
    Icanwr it
    eaboutt hosesmal lt
    alksyouwi l
    lbe
    boredsoIwi l
    lmentiont hem kwi ntothatIsee
    youneedt oknowaboutbecauseev enmy
    grandpar entsIdidtal
    kt ot hem butf ornow
    anizobabonaupunt ilcertaint i
    me.Justwant ed
    toclearthat.YesIloveuAy andabutIwi l
    lnever
    puthim bef or
    emypar ents.

    Thepart
    ywentont illear
    lyhoursofsundaybut
    wehadt okeepumcul odownsopeopl ewer e
    j
    ustther
    ebeziphuzelaabanyebej ol
    aabany e
    bencwasanai fndi
    ngay i
    bekangolohlobo.
    Wherewear estayi
    ngmusi candnoi seisnot
    al
    lowedaf t
    er10tobel oud.Whitesabadlali
    they
    don'
    ttal
    kt omuchy oujustseeamaphoy i
    sa
    bezoni
    xelel
    athatneighborsarecompl ai
    ning
    aboutnoise.I
    'm sur
    eyouhavebeenther
    eand
    mosty enutheyknowlomekoyomakhelwana
    ungasozeubakhombenobasodibananabo
    becausetheyhidebehi
    ndthosetal
    lwall
    s.

    Iwassoexhaust edbutIdi dn'tcompl ai


    nshame
    Ihadt hebestti
    meandt hebestgi ftbutthe
    problem washowwasIgoi ngt otel
    l mypar ent
    s
    thatamanboughtmeabr andnewcar, y esmy
    mot herknewIwasdat ingagai n,butmyf ather
    woul ddieofheartatt
    ackzaci ngaherdaught er
    gother sel
    fsugardaddyinCapeTown..Ay anda
    drankbutwasst il
    linsoberstat esowewentt o
    sleepwonkeumunt uesehambi l
    e.Wegoti n
    bedar ound4am ofcour seIsl eptonmybi g
    strongbed, ontopofmyhusbandt obeandwe
    dozedof f.

    I
    twas6:
    30whenmyf
    oner
    ang,
    Iwasl
    azyt
    o
    pi
    ckupIl
    etitr
    ang, y
    aphi
    ndamfxmm Ipi
    cked
    upwi
    thoutchecki
    ngthecal
    l
    er

    Me:
    hel
    l
    ow?
    Cal
    l
    er:
    Pri
    ncess

    Iqui
    ckl
    ysatup

    Me: Pr
    ince,
    IlookedatAy
    andahewaswi
    de
    awake
    Muso:pleasedon'
    thangup,
    Ineedt
    oseey
    ou,
    Ineedt
    ot al
    ktoyou
    Me:
    Ic.
    ..
    ..(Ay
    andat
    ookt
    hef
    one)
    Ayanda:y
    ekwedinisukwenzai
    kaka,del
    etal
    o
    numberorzal
    alaubal
    iwesani
    .Fut
    sek!

    Hedr
    oppedt
    hecal
    l
    Me:
    thatwasunnecessar
    y!
    Ayanda: whati
    sunnecessary?,hemustback
    offel
    akheixeshal
    aphelaakazosolokoebuy
    ela
    kuweifintoazi
    hambiri
    ghtzisobarit
    eanye
    akushi
    ye.Youareminenow.Iwi ll
    kill
    himI
    swearbhabha
    Me:
    cany
    ounotcur
    sepl
    easeungenzel
    aisi
    yezi
    Ay anda:
    Imeanitbhabha,hebett
    eradl
    alel
    e
    kudenaweorheavenhelpsmenzay i
    bulal
    ala
    nja.Hestoodupandwenttorinsehi
    steeth

    AsmuchasMusohur tmebutIwasnothappy
    thatbengekhor
    it
    eanduAy
    andaumphendule
    olahl
    obo

    If
    oll
    owedhim suddenlymymoodchanged.I
    wenttor
    insemyt eet
    h.Hetouchedmefr
    om the
    back

    Me:
    (Ibr
    ushedhi
    m of
    f)wongi
    yeka
    Ay
    anda:
    hay
    ibhabha
    Me:didyouhav
    etober
    ude(t
    ear
    sthr
    eat
    ened
    myeyes)
    Ay
    anda:
    ufunut
    hini
    bhabha
    Me:youdon'tknowuMusosostayaway,and
    l
    amathreat
    swakhoaseyangi
    nyany
    isa.Il
    efthi
    m
    st
    andi
    nginthebathr
    oom

    Iwenttobedandgoti
    n.Ay
    andacameback,
    he
    cuddl
    edmef r
    om t
    heback

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha
    Me:
    hee
    Ay
    anda:
    lookatmepl
    ease
    Me:
    Itur
    ned
    Ay
    anda:
    arey
    ouangr
    ywi
    thme?
    Me:
    no
    Ayanda: whydoIf eellikey oust i
    lll
    ov e
    l
    ankwenkwe, melengenzeni bhabhat oshow
    thatIlov ey ou,mel engenzeni Mar hadebeI '
    m
    try
    ingmyl evelbestbutst il
    lngisacompet or
    nalankwenkwe.Uzozeundi khululeleni ni
    i
    nhl i
    ziy
    oy akhoy onkebhabha, youhav emi ne
    canIal sohav eyours,andi f
    uni kuyi shara.Ihate
    sharingbhabhaandImeani tIwillkil
    linja
    ecingai zokuf umana.( Hebr eathed)Whyu
    Musoenel uckykanjeyenaumt handaseke
    kushiyil
    e.Youar emyf iancenowbuty out aking
    hissideal r
    eady.Givemeachancebhabha.Iam
    notper fectbutcany oul ovemewi t
    hmy
    i
    mper f
    ect ions.Jongangokuwhatt hatboyhas
    doneasi mpl ecallandt hinasi yaxambul isana
    forwhat ,ishewor thit.Wesupposet obe
    happywej ustgotengagedbhabha., y
    azi
    undenzandibenefearthatonedayy ouwil
    l
    l
    eavemef orhim.Iwon' tsur
    vivebabypeopl
    e
    havelef
    tmeIwon' tsurviveushiy
    wanguwe
    Marhadebe.Pleaselov
    eme.

    Itr
    eal
    lyhurtmet oseemyYandaliket
    hatmay
    beIwassel f
    ishkanci
    nciorIwasbei
    ngunf
    air
    kuyehonestl
    yhewast ry
    ing.
    Icuppedhi
    sfacewi
    thmyhandsandki
    ssedhi
    s
    mouth.

    Me: YandaIdon' tlov


    eMusohonest l
    yIdon't
    butIt hi
    nkIst i
    llcareabouthi m baworse
    may engathiakekhor i
    ghtIjustgetwor ri
    ednot
    thatngisamthanda.For giv
    emeMt ungwawam
    i
    fngi kwenzewaf il
    asmal lkunay engiy
    axoli
    sa
    Ndlov uwami .Idolovey ouwi thall
    myhear tand
    l
    ov eonlyyouandIassur ey ounoonei sgoing
    totakemeawayf rom you, that'
    sanassurance
    andIam notgoi
    nganywher
    e.Ri
    ght
    !!
    Ayanda:henoddedl
    i
    kea5y
    earol
    dhet
    hen
    smil
    e.ShamemyYanda

    Wecuddlednomuntuwam,Ideci
    dedt
    ocall
    my
    mom.I tr
    angIt
    hink5ti
    mesandshepi
    ckedup,
    Iputheronl
    oudspeaker
    .

    Tot
    i:Angel
    Me:
    sawubonaTot
    i
    Tot
    i:hel
    l
    owmybaby,
    isev
    ery
    thi
    ngok?
    Me:
    I'
    mfi
    neTot
    iandy
    ouguy
    s
    Toti
    :werear
    efi
    nemyangel,
    bengi
    thuki
    lenj
    e
    kubauf
    ownasoear
    ly,
    justmi
    ssi
    ngy ou
    Me:Imissyoutoo, al
    lofasuddenIbecame
    emoti
    onal(Isni
    ff
    ed)Iwonderngubanibethe
    mandi
    ngagodukibendi
    nevekiyonkendakhet
    ha
    uhoy
    aindoda.
    Tot
    i:ncesekal
    okuMar
    hadebewemi
    ssy
    out
    oo
    Me:
    Imi
    ssy
    ouwher
    eisdad?
    ?
    Tot
    i:hei
    shere,
    hecanheary
    ou,
    youar
    eon
    l
    oudspeaker
    Dad:
    angel
    kababah
    Me: hear
    inghi
    svoice,
    Ijustbr
    okedown.
    UMtungwaway eduzenam engibr
    usher
    i
    hlombe.ShameuYandakodwa
    Dad:
    ncesekal
    okuMar
    hadebe
    Me:
    Iwannacomehomedad
    Dad:
    whataboutschool
    ?
    Me:
    just3day
    sdadi
    ncl
    udi
    ngweekend
    Dad:ar
    en'
    tyougoi
    ngt
    obebehi
    ndwi
    thschool
    work
    Me:nodad(Ir
    eal
    lymissedmypar
    entscal
    l
    s
    woul
    dn'
    thel
    pIneededtoseet
    hem ,
    bengi
    bagcinengoJanuar
    y,didn'
    tgohomengo
    March,JuneandSeptember
    )
    Dad:
    ok3day
    s
    Me:
    dadt
    her
    e'ssomet
    hingIwannat
    ell
    you
    Dad:
    arey
    oupr
    egnant
    ??
    Me:
    qui
    te
    Mom :
    babyar
    eyoupr
    egnant
    ?
    Me:
    qui
    te
    Dad: y
    oubett
    erspeaky
    oungl
    adyot
    her
    wiseby
    9am Iwil
    lbet
    here

    Ay
    andaal
    mostbur
    sti
    nlaught
    er.Ipokedhi
    m
    wi
    thmyel
    bow

    Me:
    nodaddy
    ,Iam engaged
    Dadandmom :
    (chant
    ed)what
    ??
    Dad:
    whendi
    dthi
    shappen?
    Me:
    daybef
    orey
    est
    erday
    Dad:
    andy
    ousai
    dyes
    Me:
    yesdad
    Dad:
    andschool
    ?
    Me:
    Iam st
    udy
    ingdadar
    en'
    tI?
    Dad:fi
    rstbeindependentwhi
    chmeans
    completeyourstudi
    esandgetajobIdon'
    twant
    achil
    dofmi netobedependentendodeni
    .Iam
    surehecanwai t,what'
    sther
    ushandne
    rel
    ati
    onshipyenuisnoteven6monthsold
    Mom :butbabyy
    ouar
    eyoungat
    leastwai
    tunt
    il
    youar
    e25
    Me:
    haa25Il
    ovehi
    m,Iwannabewi
    thhi
    m
    Dad: whatdoyouknowaboutlov
    e,youar
    est
    il
    l
    youngmyangel atl
    easti
    fubut
    hiy
    ouarei
    na
    rel
    ati
    onshipnotengaged
    Me:
    butIl
    ovehi
    m dad
    Dad:
    doeshel
    ovey
    ou?
    Me:
    yesbaba
    Dad:
    yinkwenkwey
    aphi
    le
    Me:
    Cof
    imv
    abababa
    Dad:
    forheav
    ensakey
    ouar
    eonl
    y19angel
    Me:
    Iknowbaba,
    all
    Ineedi
    syourbl
    essi
    ng
    Dad:i
    fthat
    'swhaty
    ouwantt
    heny
    ouhav
    eour
    bl
    essi
    ngsmyangel
    Me:
    thanky
    oudad
    Dad:
    wher
    eishenow?
    Me:
    athi
    spl
    acedad

    Wangijamel
    auAy anda,
    hawuIwassonot
    goingtosayangi
    khoseresngikwaAyanda
    bezabaseCapetownimpel
    ango9am ubaba
    apheli
    senal
    oengagementanimazikahl
    e.Yhaa
    thi
    ngswedoi
    ntheabsenceofourpar
    ent
    s,si
    be
    sazi
    wasi
    ngongcwel
    ekazi

    Me:
    songi
    zogi
    bel
    akeFr
    idayaf
    ter
    noon
    Dad:okkeIwil
    lbooky
    ouabusandgi
    vey
    ou
    t
    herefer
    enceemini
    Me:
    thanky
    oudad,
    youar
    east
    ar
    Dad:
    any
    thi
    ngf
    ormydaught
    er
    Mom :
    ber
    ightkeangel
    kamama
    Me:
    Ilov
    eyouguy
    s
    Them:
    lov
    eyout
    oo
    Dad:tel
    llonkwenkweyakhoyakuhlukumezanj
    e
    ngi
    zoqhanekaihashel
    ami ngi
    belapho
    ngi
    zoyif
    akaisbhaxu

    Ay
    andabursti
    nlaught
    erandIdroppedthef
    one
    masi
    nya,mfxmm sisl
    i
    mauAy anday azi
    ,no
    babai
    sadr
    amaKi
    ngnj
    e

    Ayanda:yhoomnandi
    zozi
    melavel
    e
    ezi
    nyembeziezi
    vel
    ezi
    qhamkeesi
    thubeningat
    hi
    Iwannachangemymind(hewaslaughing)
    Me:
    khet
    hil
    ekhet
    hil
    ebabah

    Wecont
    inuedcuddl
    i
    ngnoMt
    ungwawami

    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
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    I
    twasSundaywhi chmeansIhadaweekt hen
    ndi
    yeekhayaatleastt hefol
    lowingMondayI
    di
    dn'thav
    eacl asst henbengizolovaTuesday,
    Wednesdaythenngi gibel
    eThur sdayngi
    fike
    Fri
    dayinthemor ningandattendmycl asses
    t
    hendocat
    chupngeweekend

    Ay
    anda:
    soy
    ouar
    eleav
    ingmef
    oraweek
    Me:
    yep
    Ay
    anda:
    let
    'sgot
    oget
    her
    Me:
    noYanda
    Ay
    anda:
    mfxm
    Me:
    rightbackaty
    ou
    Ayanda:l
    etmebooky
    ouaf
    li
    ghtbhabha,
    itwi
    l
    l
    saveyout
    ime
    Me: nobhabhanotnowmyf atherwi
    l
    lbeangr
    y
    thatyouaredoi
    ngever
    ythi
    ngformekube
    kusekutsha.
    Ay
    anda:
    butsoony
    ouwi
    l
    lbemywi
    feangi
    thi
    ?
    Me: IknowloveandI'
    m gr
    atef
    ulf
    orevery
    thi
    ng
    thatyouaredoingf
    ormebutubabam asmuch
    ashei sst
    il
    lyoungbuthei
    stootr
    adi
    ti
    onal.
    Ayanda:okkebhabha,
    butI
    '
    m nothappyt
    hat
    uzohambangebus.

    DayswentbyitwasFr i
    dayIr
    eal
    lyt
    ookabus
    fr
    om Tygerval
    l
    ey,Ayandawandi
    hambisa.Il
    eft
    andarr
    ivedathomeonSat ur
    dayaf
    ternoon.I
    wassotiredasusualmyparent
    spickedmeup
    egar
    age.

    Mom:
    Angel
    Me:Ir
    ushedi
    ntot
    hei
    rdi
    rect
    ionandhugged
    t
    hem
    Dad:
    howi
    smyAngel
    ?
    Me:
    goodt
    hanksandy
    oudad?
    Ay
    anda:
    great
    Mom :
    tel
    lmeI
    '
    m dr
    eami
    ng,
    ist
    hiswhatIt
    hink
    i
    tis?shewaslooki
    ngatmyfingerwi
    thher
    mouthopened.UTotingomsindomaar
    a.
    Me:
    yesTot
    i,I
    '
    mfi
    net
    hanksandy
    oursel
    f?
    Mom:sorrymybabynget huki
    lenj
    e,i
    sthisboya
    Bi
    l
    lGates,shewassti
    llholdi
    ngmyf i
    nger(yes
    mybi
    gr ock,f
    lashi
    ngonmyf i
    nger
    )
    Me: noTot
    i,hei
    sAy
    andaKhumal
    oasIt
    old
    you

    Webot
    hlaughed

    Mom :
    I'
    mjeal
    ous
    Me:
    don'
    tbe
    Dad:whatdoest
    hisboydof
    orl
    eav
    ing?(we
    weredr
    ivi
    nghome)
    Me:
    busi
    nessmandad
    Dad:
    andhi
    sbusi
    nessesar
    elegi
    t?
    Me:
    yesdad
    Dad:bet
    terbeangi
    nanganey
    am i
    zoshadane
    cor
    n

    Weal
    ll
    aughed.

    Dad:
    Imustsayunet
    aste(hewasl
    ooki
    ngat
    meonther
    earmir
    ror
    ,andhesmil
    ed)

    Wearr
    ivedathomeandausiNt
    soakiwast
    her
    e,
    Igr
    eet
    edandhuggedher,
    Ireal
    l
    ymissedhome.

    YouknowmeandmyTot ingomgosi ,
    sagobhozaaboutever
    ythi
    ng, Itol
    dherfrom
    dayoneIbrokeupwi t
    hMusot i
    l
    l mybirt
    hday
    neyemoto,shewasi mpressedbutey emotoI
    neededtoputiti
    nagoodwayt hathebought
    meacarasaf i
    ancénotasagi rl
    fri
    end,uMrs
    Advocateasmuchasasey oung,shewastoo
    tr
    adit
    ional
    .Iwashappyekhayahonest
    ly.

    Sundaywewenttochurchsonkethenaround
    2pm werewer
    ehav i
    nglunchwhenmyf one
    rang,i
    twasAyanda,Iexcusedmysel
    fandwent
    outsi
    de

    Me:
    Yanda
    Ay
    anda:
    fir
    stl
    ady
    Me:
    howi
    smyboo
    Ay
    anda:
    greatandy
    ou
    Me:
    goodngat
    hikunomoy
    akul
    endawoukuy
    o?
    Ay
    anda:
    yep,
    ndi
    l
    aphaeai
    rpor
    t
    Me:
    uyakuphi
    Ayanda:
    ndi
    zeemf
    azi
    niwam.(Myhear
    tal
    most
    st
    opped)
    Me:
    heeeee?
    ???
    Ay
    anda:
    ndi
    l
    aphaeSi
    pingoAi
    rpor
    t
    Me: eSipingo!!
    !(Forthosewhodon' tknow
    befor
    e2010Dur banairportibi
    seSi pi
    ngowhi ch
    wasconv ertedint
    ot oyotafactorynow,
    mawudlulaaphokwakuy iai
    rportyouwi l
    lsee
    toyot
    acar s, t
    hatwasbef or
    ei twasmov ed
    ngaseVer el
    lem ,KingShakai nternat
    ional
    air
    port
    .Dur bani
    answi llknowbet ter)
    Ayanda:y
    haabhabha,
    I'
    m wal
    ki
    ngt
    oAv
    iscar
    rent
    als
    Me:
    Amen,
    hay
    iYanday
    ouar
    ejoki
    ng
    Ay
    anda:
    whywoul
    dIj
    okengent
    oenj
    e
    Me:
    Idon'
    tknow
    Ayanda:beli
    evei
    tnowwhenIsayIcannot
    surv
    ivewithoutyou,
    Fri
    dayi
    stoof
    ar.
    Me:
    youar
    ecr
    azyYanda?
    Ay
    anda:
    yesabouty
    oubhabha
    Ay
    anda:
    Iwi
    l
    lbet
    her
    ein3andhal
    fhour
    s
    Me:
    ok

    Idi
    dn'tknowwhethert
    obehappyorf eelsad.
    Yandaisreal
    l
    ycrazybathong,
    butIcouldn'
    twait
    toseemyPr i
    ncecharming.

    Ngo5hef onedafunaamadi r
    ecti
    ontomy
    house,Isenthim at
    hiusaphumli
    lekwiguest
    houseabookerkuy ozozalat
    e.Isenthim
    di
    recti
    ons

    Ibi
    ngathi
    ali
    tshoni
    nelanga.Wehadsupperand
    everyonewenttobedmyf onerang,Ipicked
    upandhewasout side,Isneakedout.Ihugged
    myYandahehuggedmesot i
    ghtandkissedme
    andwewenti ntot
    heguesthousewher ehe
    bookedinwhichwasar oundthetown.Wewent
    viagarageandboughtcondoms, wedancedour
    danceandwewer esatisf
    ied,Iwas,Idon'
    tknow
    aboutAy anda,heisf oreverhungr
    y.Ihadt ogo
    home, hedroppedmear ound12am , Iopened
    thedoorkancaneandt ookof fmyshoes, Iwas
    wearingAy anda'sbigjacketcasitwaschill
    y,
    kanyewhenIwasi nthemi ddl
    eoftheroom.

    Voi
    ce:
    Usukakuphi
    ?
    Me: myhear
    tal
    mostst
    opped,
    het
    urnedont
    he
    l
    ight
    s
    Dad:
    uqhamukakuphi
    ngal
    esi
    sikhat
    hiAngel
    Me:
    dad?
    ?
    Dad:
    uyangi
    zwaangi
    thi
    !
    !
    Me:
    yebobaba
    Dad: phendul
    ake!
    !(wasondel
    aduzenami)
    aveinguweubuthiy
    ouareengagednowyouare
    sneakingnamanyeamakhwenkwe.Si
    seyi
    phi
    manj
    ekomkhul
    u?
    Me:
    ngi
    sukakuAy
    andababa(l
    owv
    oice)
    Dad:uhl
    angenekuphi
    noAy
    anda,
    nini
    ngoba
    uf
    ikei
    zol
    onje
    Me:
    u-Ay
    andababamyf
    ianceer
    emember
    Dad:sungi
    hlany
    elaAngel
    ,av
    eesekapau-
    Ayanda?
    Me:
    yesbaba,
    hear
    ri
    vedi
    zol
    olat
    e
    Dad:
    uzof
    unanani
    la?
    Me:
    athi
    bengi
    khumbul
    ababa,
    ,
    ,Il
    ookeddown
    Dad:
    uyahl
    any
    alaekhanda?
    Me:
    chababa
    Dad:ni
    yasangananinanganezamanje.Yi
    ni
    manj
    eengafikel
    angala,ngobausezoba
    wumkhwenyanawami angit
    hi?
    Me:chabababesi
    ngazi
    ,besi
    ngaf
    uni
    kukwey
    isa
    baba
    Dad:
    ukuphi
    manj
    e?
    Me:
    ukwi
    guesthousebaba
    Dad:usezobangumkheny
    anawami angit
    hi,
    umtshenekeacheck-out
    eruzazal
    akithi
    Me:
    yebobaba
    Dad:
    hambauy
    olal
    a

    I
    zinganezamanj
    e.Hegoti
    ntohi
    sbedr
    oom.

    Yhooooowakewabanj
    wauv
    elot
    aka.
    ..

    Iwenttomybedr
    oom ngat
    hingi
    thel
    wenge
    bhakedey
    omdokoandimmediat
    elymyfone
    rang

    Me:
    Yanda
    Ay
    anda:
    Vuy
    olwam,
    usul
    ele
    Me:
    cha,
    angi
    kal
    ali
    ,ubabaungi
    bambi
    l
    e
    Ay
    anda:
    shi
    t!!Ar
    eyouok?
    Me:
    sor
    tof
    Ayanda:whatdoy
    oumeanbhabhamawut
    hi
    sortof
    Me: ubabaut
    hiyoumustcheckoutkwi
    guest
    houseuzohl
    alanat
    hi
    Ay
    anda:
    hay
    iVuy
    olwam andi
    zimna
    Me:
    youdon'
    thav
    eachoi
    ceYanda,
    ,
    ,,
    ,

    Sne;
    -
    )
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    19]Mca:
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    Ayanda:ndi
    yal
    osabai
    -t
    aimal
    akho(
    I'
    m af
    rai
    dof
    yourfat
    her)
    Me: welluzozakebecausezocabangayeyi
    sa
    (youmustconebecausemydadwi l
    lthi
    nkyou
    ar
    edisrespecti
    nghim)
    Ay
    anda:
    atwhatt
    ime?
    Me: any
    timeaft
    er10,
    bazoy
    aemsebenzi
    nit
    hen
    bazobuyaaf
    ter4
    Ay
    anda:
    ngi
    zol
    alanaweangi
    thi
    ?
    Me: daki
    we,
    I'
    m sur
    euzol
    alae-cot
    tagel
    eise
    back

    Remembermyhomei ngu3bedr oom onlybut


    ebackkunecot tagei ner oom ezi
    y i3notthatbi
    g
    andashowernet oil
    etpl usasmal lkit
    chen.I
    thinkt hehousey ayihlalaabelungusot he
    cot tagewasf orinanny ,umtuosebenza
    engadi ni,
    theirtoi
    letandki t
    chenseparately
    from t hei
    rs.Idon'
    tknowndi ci
    nganj al
    osomy
    par entssimpleconv ertedi ti
    ntoi-guestrooms
    i
    ncasekugcwel eendl ini.Sou-Ay anda
    way
    ezol
    alakhona.

    Ayanda:andi
    zike,ci
    mbandi
    zol
    alangendl
    ala
    ndi
    zeall
    thewayf orwena
    Me:
    cany
    oubeser
    iousf
    oronce?
    Ayanda:I
    'mjoki
    ng, Iwi
    l
    lpickyouupngo9si ze
    apha,t
    henwecheckedoutngepast11, thenwe
    gosomewhere,sibuyel
    ateandif
    uniabazal
    i
    bakhobaf
    ikendikwabo
    Me:
    okt
    hen,
    goodni
    te
    Ay
    anda:
    aren'
    tyouf
    orget
    ti
    ngsomet
    hing
    Me:
    what
    '
    sthat
    ?
    Ay
    anda:
    thaty
    oul
    oveme
    Me:
    Ilov
    eyouYandawam
    Ay
    anda:
    lov
    eyout
    ooVuy
    olwam
    Me:
    goodni
    teke
    Ay
    anda:
    andi
    funul
    alanj
    e
    Me:
    ndi
    yozel
    amna
    Ayanda:okl
    alakebutdon'tdr
    opt
    hecal
    l,I
    wannaheary
    oumawur honqa
    Me: oknit
    eke,Iputt
    hef
    onenextt
    omeand
    sl
    eptinst
    antl
    y.

    Iguesswayi
    dropa,causewhenIwokeupi
    nthe
    morningi
    twasoff.

    Myf
    atherwal
    kedi
    n,i
    twasar
    ound7:
    00.

    Dad:
    mor
    ningangel
    Me:
    mor
    ningdad

    Hecameandki
    ssedmyf
    orehead
    Me:
    hay
    ibaba,
    ngi
    mdal
    amanj
    e
    Dad:youmi
    ghtbeengagedbuty
    ouar
    est
    il
    lmy
    baby
    Me:
    hawungi
    yozengi
    khul
    emakut
    heni
    kant
    i?
    Me:
    yawuhl
    alauy
    iAngel
    kimi
    Dad:
    uyi
    fumenel
    enkwenkwe?
    Me:
    yebobaba,
    uzozamaseni
    buy
    il
    e
    Dad:
    good,
    siy
    ahambake
    Me:
    okdad,
    nibenosukuol
    uhl
    e

    Mymom wal kedinnayeez oval


    eli
    sanayealso
    ki
    ssedmyf oreheadandtheyleft
    .Ayandafoned
    ngabo9at hiuphandle,
    Iwasr eadyandsayakwi
    guesthouse,y ouknowAy andakepeople,I
    wantedhimt oo.

    Wet
    ookashowerandhecheckedout
    ,we
    deci
    dedtodr
    ivetoPortShepstone,
    Iwantedto
    showhimtheKZNside, whenwegott her
    e,
    ther
    ewasnothi
    ngint
    eresti
    ngwedr oveagain
    andweendedupat"PlaceofcowWhal es"
    UMKOMAASandwechi l
    ledthere

    Ay
    anda:
    Iwantt
    obuyahouset
    hissi
    de
    Me:
    uzay
    ithi
    nicasuhl
    alai
    nCapet
    own
    Ay anda:wewil
    lusei
    tforourhol
    iday
    s, mase
    sinefamil
    y,me,youandour6kids,t
    hissi
    deis
    verynice
    Me: (
    udakiwelo,6ki
    dsandif
    uni
    kwal ouyi1)
    .I
    j
    ustbrushedthatof
    fcasIknewiyakuphi
    .We
    needtogobackhome.

    Wedrovebackhome,safi
    kaaround6:
    30, Tot
    i
    anddadwereint
    helounge,Il
    edtheway ,
    shamemyYandawasner vousashell
    ,that
    Mi
    ght
    yYandauneshor
    iwasgone.

    Me:
    sani
    bonani
    Dad:
    yeboAngel
    Ay
    anda:
    mol
    weni
    Dadandmom :
    sawubona
    Dad:
    hlal
    aphansi
    (youmaysi
    t)
    Ay
    anda:
    ninj
    ani
    tat
    ahowar
    eyoudad)
    Dad:si
    khonasi
    yabongaunj
    ani
    (I'
    mfi
    net
    hanks
    andy
    ou)
    Ayanda:hay
    isi
    yancengat
    ata,
    kunj
    ani
    mama
    (I
    '
    m ok,,
    ,howar
    ey oumom)
    Mom :si
    khonasi
    yabongaunj
    ani
    wena(wear
    e
    f
    inet
    hanksandyou)
    Ay
    anda:
    kuhl
    emha(can'
    tcompl
    ain)
    Dad:
    niv
    elaphi
    ?(Wher
    ehav
    eyoubeen)
    Me: besi
    seMkomaasbaba, bengi
    boni
    sau
    AyandaindawozangaphainuMkomaasbeach
    dadIwasshowingAy andaaround)
    Dad:
    nonwabi
    l
    eke(di
    dyouenj
    oy)
    MeandAy
    anda:
    yesdad
    Dad:
    kuhl
    eke(good)

    Ayandawasplay
    ingwit
    hhisfi
    nger
    s,kukubi
    el
    okoendit
    hij
    eqendi
    jongeleIwasnervous
    myselfmydaduwunomazi

    Dad:
    ehhhny
    anangubani
    isi
    bongosakho
    Ay
    anda:
    ndingowakwaKhumalotat
    a,ngu
    Ay
    andai
    gamai khay
    ali
    secof
    imvaba
    Dad:uMtungwa,uNdl
    ovu,ohhsi
    yev
    akeny
    ana,
    sowheredidyoumeetuAngel
    Ay
    anda:
    (Iwascr
    ossi
    ngmyf
    inger
    sangat
    hie
    LongStreet
    ,ot
    her
    wiseIwoul
    dbedead)e
    Bell
    vi
    ll
    etata
    Dad:ohhhsi
    yev
    a,ar
    eyouawar
    ethatAngel
    is
    onl
    y19andsheisst
    udyi
    ng
    Ayanda: ewebaba,Iam awar
    eandIloveher
    andandizumphazamisakwizi
    fundozakheIwi
    ll
    suppor
    theralltheway

    Dad:sowhatdoy
    oudoforli
    vi
    ng?(Iknewmy
    dadwasgoi
    ngtoaskt
    hatquest
    ion)
    Ayanda:
    Iowntaxi
    s,ownarest
    aur
    antandhav
    e
    somefewbusi
    nessesi
    nCapeTownbaba
    Dad:
    andschool
    ?
    Ayanda:Ihavegrade12baba,Icoul
    dn'
    tfur
    ther
    mystudiesbecauseIhadtol
    ookaf t
    ermy
    br
    othersndi
    baseeskolweni
    .
    Dad:t
    hat
    'sgoodbutyoumustt
    ryandgoback
    t
    oschool
    y ouar
    esti
    ll
    y oung
    Ay
    anda:
    yebobabangi
    yezwa
    Dad: Iwon' tli
    eIam nothappywi ththedeci si
    on
    thatyoubot hmade, butifyouar ehappyt henI
    won'tstandi ny ourwayasl ongasy our espect
    eachotherbutwhatIwon' tt olar
    atekuba
    uthat
    hei nganey amilaingadi ngi
    ntoy onwabi l
    e
    thenuyoy i
    hlukumeza.Youhav eourblessi ngs
    andwear eher eanytimef orbot hofy ou,y ou
    arepartoft hefami l
    ynow, yesnotof f i
    ciallybut
    youare.Iwi shy ounothingbuthappi ness, but
    kwediniy oumesswi thmydaught er, Iwill
    comeaf tery ou.Shei smydaught erandt he
    onlychil
    d, andthatmakesy oumysonnowand
    myonl yson.Wel comendodana.Hest oodup
    andwentt ohandshakeAy anda.

    Ayandast
    ooduptheyhandshookandAy
    anda
    huggedhi
    m andmydadhuggedhimtoo.
    Nchooooo.Icouldseet
    earst
    hreat
    eni
    ng
    Ayanda'
    sey es.MyHeroshame.

    Mymom al
    sost
    oodupandhuggedhi
    m

    Mom :youaremychi
    ldnownotmy
    umkhwenyana(soni
    nlaw)
    .Yezwa

    Ayandajustbrokedownninani
    Icouldn'
    thel
    pit
    butIwenttohughim.I'mtheonlyonewho
    knewthereasonbehindul
    i
    lakwakhe.

    Dad:hekwedi
    nii
    ndodaayikhal
    iunj
    ani
    kant
    i,
    worsephambi
    kwabafazi
    Mom :hayiy
    ekainganey
    ami
    ,wenanj
    ebaul
    i
    la
    phambikwam nj
    e
    Dad:
    hay
    imaanmf
    azi
    ufunut
    hini
    ezi
    nganeni
    Weal
    ll
    aughed.

    Me:
    kant
    ibabaukeul
    i
    le?
    Ayanda:
    hayimaanbhabhaizibeexhol
    i
    we
    el
    i
    hlweniubaba,
    butumhaizibeengabonanga
    Dad:
    baxel
    elendodana

    Welaughedshamesaqhubekasi
    ncokol
    aubaba
    ebal
    i
    sazonkeizi
    ntoezi
    .

    Lov
    emyf
    ami
    l
    ykodwa

    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    23:
    19]Mca:
    INSERT59
    Dinnerwasr eadyIhelpedausi Ntsoakidi
    shed
    up, weate,dadandAy andajustcli
    ckedthey
    weretalki
    ngandl aughing,Iguessher eal
    lysaw
    afatherinmydadandmymot herwasadmi r
    ing
    them ,Iguessshealsowant edaboy

    Weweredoneeati
    ngandIt
    ookthedi
    shest
    o
    washt
    hem Ayandaof
    fer
    edtohel
    p.

    Mom :
    noAy
    andal
    etherwasht
    hem
    Ay
    anda:
    Iinsi
    stmha
    Mom :
    okt
    hen

    Wewer ewashi ngthedisheswhenAy anda


    engit
    helangamanzi ,ngamthel
    agem yam hay
    i
    kesathelana,besi
    manzi andthefl
    oorwaswet
    too.Wedi dn'
    treal
    izethatweweremaki ng
    noiseandwedi dn'
    tev ennoti
    cethatmydadand
    Tot
    iwer
    est
    andi
    ngr
    ighti
    nthedoor

    Dad:hel
    l
    aanizaqedani
    nini
    bangaumsindonj
    e.
    (Wewerebot
    hshockedt oheardad'
    sv oi
    ce,
    wetur
    nedandlookathi
    m)
    MeandAy
    anda:
    siy
    axol
    i
    sababa
    Dad:konangumzionj
    anil
    onizowakha
    ni
    ngabhadl
    angakanj
    e.Ncincinci
    .Hel
    aughed
    Mom :y
    ekaizinganezami.Ningi
    sizeke
    mani
    qedaudlalanicl
    eaneiki
    tchi
    lami
    Me:
    yebomna

    Webot
    hgi
    ggl
    ed

    Wecont
    inuedwashi
    ngdi
    shesandwewentt
    o
    t
    hel
    oungekubabanoToti
    .
    Tot
    i:Angel
    goandpr
    epar
    eIbedf
    oru-
    Ayanda
    Me:
    wher
    eist
    hekeyf
    ort
    hecot
    tage?
    Dad:ngubani
    ozal
    ala(
    whoi
    sgoi
    ngt
    osl
    eep)e-
    cot
    tage
    Me:
    Ithoughtt
    hatAy
    andauzol
    alakhona.
    Dad: zol
    alakwisparebedroom u-Ay anda
    angi
    thiasi
    setyenzi
    swamunt u.Ay andaf ornow
    ni
    ngekashadithatwil
    lbeyourbedr oom
    usungunyanawami phela.
    Me: chababaakazi
    l
    ungi
    sel
    ekei
    fusengowal
    a
    ekhaya
    Dad:
    Sinenhl
    anhl
    a!!
    Me:
    hawubabangi
    khat
    hel
    enami
    Dad:
    ngi
    kuf
    akei
    sbhaxukemi
    na
    Me: that
    'snotfai
    ru-Ay andahl
    elzyena.(I
    draggedmyf eetintot
    hesparebedroom, akho
    nentoibi
    funulungiswatheroom andbedwas
    cl
    ean)
    Ayandacamei
    nandhuggedmef
    rom t
    heback
    andbit
    emyear.

    Me:
    chaAy
    andababazongena
    Ay
    anda:
    can'
    tIki
    ssmywi
    fe
    Me:
    wif
    etobe

    Weremovedpil
    l
    owsbengazi
    zisebenzi
    sau
    Ay
    andathensabuy
    elael
    ounge.

    Dad: Angel
    nowthaty
    ouar eher
    eIthi
    nkmele
    uyobonaooKhul
    uandtel
    lthem t
    hegoodnews
    Me:
    chadaddy
    ,I'
    m notgoi
    ngt
    oezi
    l
    ali
    ni
    Mom :
    usukuol
    uny
    eal
    i
    zukubul
    ala
    Me:
    yamazi
    njeuKhul
    uTot
    i
    Mom: youcant
    akeuAyandawithazobona
    umkhwenyanawamiomuhle(heeuToti
    yaphapha)

    Ay
    andabl
    ushed.

    Me: buti
    motokaAy
    andaay
    izokwazi
    hamba
    kwezandl
    ela
    Dad:i
    lungi
    siwei
    ndlelaAngelbythewayyou
    cant
    akemycart henIwillusehi
    spolobut
    makesureyoudon'tscr
    atchmycar .
    Me:
    wepr
    omi
    sedad
    Dad:chaangi
    khul
    umi nawebutnoAyanda,
    wenayouarenotgoi
    ngt odr
    ivemycar

    Isul
    ked.
    Wewenti ntoourseparat
    eways,
    mom anddad
    wentint
    ot hei
    rbedroom,meinmybedr
    oom and
    Ayandainthesparebedroom.

    Ayanda:(whisperedwhi
    lewewereexit
    ingt
    he
    l
    ounge)ungawuv al
    iumnyango,
    uci
    menel i
    ght.
    (Ihatesl
    eepi
    ngebumny amenimandi
    lel
    e
    ndedwa

    Igi
    ggl
    ed

    Ar
    ound12mybedmov
    edi
    twasYanda

    Me:
    youwi
    l
    lgetusi
    ntot
    roubl
    e
    Ayanda: IknowbutIcan'
    tsl
    eepal
    oneI'
    m used
    i
    nsl eepi
    ngnexttoyou,t
    hat'
    sther
    easonIcame
    here.
    Me:mf xmm,youar
    ecrazywenapl
    easesett
    he
    al
    arm babay
    avukango5.
    Ay
    anda:
    ok

    Wekissedabi tandcuddl
    ed,
    helef
    tat4:00.I
    wonderifubababengenendi
    lel
    ephezukwa
    Ayanda.

    Thefol
    lowingdayitwasTuesday,wewokeup
    andausiNtsoakiwasdonewithbreakf
    ast
    ,we
    bat
    hed,ateandleftf
    orMatati
    ele

    Wepassedbyizit
    olo,weboughtsomegoodies
    umngenandli
    niphelamawusezil
    ali
    niawuy
    ioko
    et
    own,Ayandapaid.

    Wedr
    oveanddr
    ove
    Ayanda: hay
    ibobhabhakant
    iar
    ewegoi
    ngt
    o
    Lesotho
    Me: (Il
    aughed)no!!*iknowhowitfeels
    emtwiniongazangaayengaphay
    a, kukude
    shame)weal mostther
    e
    Ay
    anda:
    buti
    nhl
    eindawoy
    angaki
    ni
    Me:
    Iknow

    Wef inall
    yarri
    vedathome, mygrandmom and
    dadwer esi
    tti
    ngint heverandaemzi ni
    omkhul u.
    Guy sforthosewhodon' tknowruralareasi t
    s
    unli
    kei ntown,onegett oownay ardasbi gas
    hewi shes.Inoney ardyoucanbui l
    d8t own
    housesandapar kf orkidssoathomekune
    khayakhul u,mydad' shomeandnomzi katat
    a
    i
    nt hesameYar d.Sozonkei ntozesint
    u
    zenzelwaekhay akhul u
    Wegotof
    fthecar
    .

    Me: bepr
    epar
    edkemakhul
    uisgoi
    ngt
    oki
    ss
    you
    Ay
    anda:
    hay
    ibhabha,
    Iwon'
    tdot
    hat
    .
    Me:
    "iny
    ourmout
    h

    Bef
    orewecouldev
    engr
    eett
    hem mygr
    and
    motherst
    oodup

    Ohhhkwasukal
    okho.Oneoft
    her
    easonsI
    di
    dn'
    twannacomehere.

    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
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    17,
    23:
    19]Mca:
    INSERT60
    Grandma:ngobani
    naaba.Angel
    kamakhul
    u,
    yi
    zamakhul
    uaphuze

    Ihuggedherandsheki
    ssedmeonmymout
    h
    *phewww*

    Me:
    mol
    omakhul
    u,mol
    otamkhul
    u
    Grandma:
    mol
    ozukul
    wanakamakhul
    u,nj
    ani
    nosisi
    Me:
    phi
    l
    il
    emakhul
    uwena
    Gr
    andma:
    ndi
    khonanosi
    si
    Me:
    tamkhul
    uu-phi
    l
    il
    e
    Grandpa:phi
    l
    il
    emzukul
    wanangaphandl
    e
    kwembalel
    a(yawn,j
    oki
    ng)nj
    eesi
    gqibel
    a
    i
    mf uyoni
    nani
    vukanj
    ani
    .That
    '
    smygr andfat
    her
    foryou
    Me:
    siphi
    l
    il
    enat
    hit
    amkhul
    u

    Makhul
    u; ngubani
    kel
    omhl
    euhambanay
    e,
    molonondoda
    Ay
    anda:
    (hesmi
    l
    ed)mol
    omakhul
    u
    Makhul
    u:yi
    zakumakhul
    uazoncami
    sa,
    mawungumhlobokaSi
    nenhl
    anhl
    a
    ungumt
    anawam (heki
    ssedhi
    m eml
    ony
    eni
    )

    Il
    aughed.

    Tamkhul
    u:hayi
    Nosicel
    ozakwenza
    l
    enkwenkwei
    mathe

    Webot
    hlaughed

    Me:
    hlel
    iemat
    hil
    e
    Ay
    anda:
    heywenabhabha(hewhi
    sper
    ed)

    Me:makhul
    unguAy
    andakhumal
    olo,
    wase
    Cof
    imv
    aba.
    Makhul
    u:udi
    banaphi
    nomt
    uwakudekangaka
    Me: ekapamakhulu.Undi
    cel
    i
    lendi
    mtshat
    e,I
    showedhermyr i
    ng.

    Hay
    ikemygr
    andmot
    herst
    oodupandst
    art
    ed
    t
    oulul
    ate

    Makhul
    u:hal
    ahal
    ahal
    a
    Gr
    andpa:
    yaf
    undekel
    aNosi
    cel
    o
    Makhul
    u:hayiy
    ekaumona, y
    izanondoda
    ancami
    seezozi
    dlel
    eumakhul
    u.

    Wewer
    esupposet
    ogobackt
    hesamedaybut
    theyref
    usedsaendaphasi lal
    a.Kufuyi
    weke
    ekhaya,nkomo, mbuzi,
    gushaandamahashe.
    Soasheepwassl aughter
    edf orus.Wesat
    kumnandi kuncokol
    wabebuzay onkei
    nto
    oomakhul uthenwewentt obed.Wesl ept
    ekhayakwat atai
    nmyr oom together,
    hawu
    oomakhul ubebengazukwazibutwedidn'tdo
    anythi
    ngthanxGodt herewerenocondoms.

    Fol
    lowingdaywewokeupar
    ound7,
    webat
    hed
    andatebreakf
    ast
    .

    Me:
    YandacomeIwannashowy
    ousomet
    hing
    Ay
    anda:
    whati
    sit
    ?
    Me:
    comeIt
    ookhi
    shand

    SayaesbayeniandIaskedubhut
    ana(ubhut
    i
    bel
    usa)andiqhanekel
    eamahashe.Hedi
    d
    Me:
    comegi
    bel
    a

    hehesi
    tat
    ed

    Me:
    gibel
    aal
    i
    zukuwi
    sa
    Ay
    anda:
    zangendaqabel
    aihashendi
    ndedwa
    Me:
    gibel
    aal
    i
    zukuwi
    sa
    Tamkhul
    u: y
    ekwedi ni
    awukwazi
    noqabel
    a
    i
    hasheukhul
    elephi
    kanti?
    Ayanda:ndi
    yakwazit
    amkhulu.(I
    '
    m sur
    e
    wayenamahl
    oniothi
    akakwazi)
    Me:gi
    bel
    aubambeumkhal
    aal
    i
    zukuwi
    sa.Iwi
    l
    l
    showy
    ouli
    miswanj
    ani

    Wagibel
    ael
    akhenam ngagibel
    ael
    am sakhupha
    i
    gushasazi
    khaphel
    abesit
    hechuandhewasat
    easeassihamba,sakhaphel
    asabuy
    a.Her
    eal
    l
    y
    enj
    oyedthat.Mf
    xmm ngobengafuni

    Me:
    yint
    oni
    ebi
    nzi
    ma?
    Ayanda:not
    hing,
    kumnandi
    aphacanwel
    eav
    e
    onFriday
    Me:
    hay
    iYanda,
    Ineedt
    ogobackt
    oschool

    Wehadf unezil
    ali
    nitaughthimfewt hings
    angazazi
    yozasezil
    ali
    ni,t
    henwel eftlat
    eof
    courseneny
    amal otsandl ot
    sofit.Wedr ove
    backtoKokstad.Wear ri
    vedat19: 30.Wehad
    di
    nnerandwecl eanedup.

    Me:
    daddywear
    eleav
    ingt
    omor
    row
    Dad:Iknowmyangel
    ,Iwi
    l
    lbooky
    oui
    busf
    ir
    st
    t
    hingtomorr
    ow
    Ayanda:nobababesengi
    bookil
    eIfli
    ghtbackt
    o
    Capetownizohambaat20:15sozosukaapha
    kusasaat14:00casndi
    sezophi
    ndisel
    anemoto
    kwaAv i
    s.
    Dad:giv
    emey ourbankaccountt
    hen,
    the
    t
    icket
    swill
    beonme
    Ay
    anda:
    nobabai
    tsokr
    eal
    l
    y
    Dad:youaremykids,andIcan'
    tl
    ety
    oupayf
    or
    yourt
    icket
    sngi
    khona
    Ay
    anda:
    akhopr
    obl
    em many
    ani
    baba
    Dad: ngi
    wubabawenuAy
    anda,
    let
    hal
    obank
    account.

    Hegaveitt
    odadwenzai
    transf
    erandi
    twas
    sor
    ted.

    Dad:
    nizobuy
    ani
    nikemanj
    e
    Me:
    whenI
    '
    m donewi
    thmyexams
    Dad: y
    ouAy anda, t
    hisisyourhomet oo,you
    cancomeany ti
    mey ouwant, youareourson
    nowandwecoul dusewi t
    hi nganearoundour
    homengobau- Angelngathisefunausil
    ahl
    a
    manje.(Myparentsreall
    yloveduAy anda,Iwas
    star
    ti
    ngtogetjealous,don'tblamemeI '
    m used
    i
    nbeingt heonl
    ychild)
    Ayanda:t
    hanxbabaIwil
    ll
    etyouknowwhen
    butdef
    ini
    tel
    ybef
    oreagqi
    baubhal
    au-bhabha.
    Dad:
    good.Let
    'spr
    aysi
    zol
    ala.

    Wepr
    ayedandwentt
    obed.

    Fol
    lowingdaywewer el
    eavi
    ngwepassedby
    mymom' soff
    iceandsai
    dgoodbyesthenmy
    fat
    her'
    sandwel ef
    t.
    Wedepar t
    edat20:15andl
    andedat22:10we
    were5mi nut
    esearly
    .Mawandepi
    ckedusfrom
    air
    por
    t.Yhawewer ebacki
    nCapetown.Ihad
    todocatchupsinceexamswereappr
    oachi
    ng.

    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
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    Itwasaweekbef or
    eAy anda'sbir
    thday28
    Oct ober,Ididalotofcat chuponmyst udies
    wi t
    ht hehelpofSiphe, Iwasr eadyforexams.
    Wewer echill
    ingkwaAy andai nthepool wi
    tchis
    rightattheendoft hequar ters,i
    twast oohot
    andi twasjustmeandhi m.Iwaswear ingmy
    swi msuitandhewaswear ingaboxershort,
    swi mmi ng,bengizi
    fakelenjeinyawozami
    emanzi ni.
    Hisfonerang,i
    twasanunsavednumberwaza
    duzenami andanswer
    edthecall
    whichwason
    theseat

    Ayanda:what!!
    !Whathappened.
    ..
    .Wher
    e,,
    ,
    ,,
    ,
    okI'
    m coming.

    Hedr
    oppedt
    hecal
    landwaphumaemanzi
    ni

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabhalet
    'sgoandgetdr
    essedu
    Mamzoi
    sinhospi
    tal
    Me:
    whathappened?
    Ayanda:Idon'
    tknowt heysayshecol
    l
    apsed
    andshewasr ushedint
    ohospital
    uqul
    eki
    l
    ebut
    sheisnotser
    ious.Let'
    sgobhabha
    Me:no,bhabha,
    goandseeher,Iwi
    l
    lcome
    l
    atewi
    thyouduri
    ngvi
    sit
    inghour
    s.
    Ay
    anda:
    okkei
    tsf
    ine.

    Hewentupst
    air
    sandcamebackdr
    essed.

    Ayanda:Ihav
    etogobhabha,
    Iwi
    l
    lbeback
    befor
    eyouknowit
    Me:
    ok

    Heki
    ssedmycheekandl
    eft
    .

    Igotboredanddeci
    dedtogoinsidesinceIwas
    al
    oneIsimpletookabodytowelandwr appedi
    t
    aroundmybodyandwenttowat chtv.Iwas
    abouttogoupstai
    rswhenthedooropened.
    Vidowalkedin.

    Vi
    do:
    heyma'
    am
    Me:
    heyVi
    do
    Vi
    do:
    howar
    eyoudoi
    ng?
    Me:
    fi
    net
    hansandy
    ou?
    Vi
    do:
    great
    Me:Iam goi
    ngupst
    air
    s,seey
    oul
    ater,
    Ayanda
    i
    snother
    e
    Vi
    do:
    Iknow
    Me:
    ohok?

    It
    ookonest
    airandhegr
    abbedmyar
    m

    Vi
    do:
    whyuzul
    i
    sanj
    e?
    Me:
    letmegoVi
    do
    Vi
    do:
    don'
    tpr
    etendasi
    fyoudon'
    tl
    oveme
    Me:Idon'
    tl
    ovey
    ou,
    uzwakuny
    enani
    kant
    i
    wena?
    Itr
    iedt
    obr
    ushmyhandof
    fhi
    m buthehel
    dme
    fi
    rm.

    Me:ngiyekel
    eVido,
    kant
    iungenwey
    ini
    vel
    e
    (whatgotint
    oyou?)
    Vi
    do:uy
    azindi
    funani
    (youknowwhatIwant
    ),
    l
    ovemeSinehl
    anhl
    a
    Me:
    youcan'
    tfor
    cemet
    olov
    eyou
    Vi
    do:
    youwi
    l
    llov
    emewhet
    hery
    oul
    i
    kei
    tonnot
    Me:
    wongi
    yekake(
    leav
    emeal
    one)bef
    or.
    ..
    Vi
    do:
    bef
    orewhat
    ?bef
    orey
    out
    ell
    Ayanda?
    Me:
    yesandt
    hist
    imeIwi
    l
    ltel
    lhi
    m
    Vido:(helaughedsarcasti
    call
    y)whenwilly
    ou
    gettheti
    met otel
    lhi
    m, whereishenow?hei s
    nothereri
    ght?itsj
    ustmeandy ou.(Hesaid
    thatbr
    ushingmycheekwi thhisfi
    nger.Iwanted
    t
    opukedebusweni
    bakhe(
    inhi
    sface))
    Me:
    ngi
    yeke(
    leav
    emeal
    one)pl
    easeVi
    do
    Vi
    do:
    whycan'
    tyoul
    oveme?why
    ?
    Me:
    Ilov
    eAy
    anda

    Hecamev er
    ycl
    osert
    ome,Itr
    ieduzi
    susakuye
    buthehel
    dmeroughl
    yandpi
    nnedmeont he
    wall
    .

    Me:
    ngi
    yekebandl
    a,y
    ouar
    ehur
    ti
    ngme
    Vido:whatmustIdot
    oshowy
    out
    hatIl
    ove
    you?
    Me: (Iwascr
    ying)Iwi
    l
    lnev
    erl
    ovey
    ouVi
    do
    ngi
    yekele
    Vido: y
    ouwilll
    ear
    ntoloveme,Ihav
    eplanned
    this,
    thecal
    lAyandagot,
    itwasasetupandhe
    didn'
    tsuspectany
    thi
    ng.Hethi
    nksheowns
    ever
    y one,cancontroleveryoneandev ery
    thing.
    Youar eminenowandmi neonly,
    everythi
    ngi s
    wellorgani
    zed,wear eleavingCapetown, no
    onewi l
    lknowwher ewear e,wehavenewI 'ds
    andpasspor t
    s.Event hemi ghtTaKil
    lerAKA
    Ayandawon' tknowwher ewear e.

    Yhoyangat hi
    ungifake200sharpknivesinmy
    hear
    t.Icriedlouder.Thethoughtofnotseei
    ng
    mypar ent
    sandAy anda,t
    houghtofthem not
    knowingaphongi zobakhonajustkil
    l
    edme.

    Me:I
    'm st
    udyi
    ngVi
    do,y
    oucan'tdot
    hatt
    ome,
    mypar
    entsandIl
    oveAyanda.
    Vido:youwi l
    lnevermentionthatnameagai
    nin
    mypr esence,uyeva!(
    Doy ouhearme!)(He
    pinnedmehar deronthewal lst
    rangl
    i
    ngme)
    youwi l
    ll
    ovemeSi nehlanhla!
    !
    Me: Ican'
    tbreathVido,
    letgooffme,Iwas
    real
    lyoutofbreath,
    (thefooldi
    dn'
    tknowIwas
    asthmati
    c)
    Vido:
    youwilll
    oveme,thi
    snonsenseofyou
    andAyandaendsnow!r
    ighthere!
    ,youwi
    lll
    ove
    meSinenhl
    anhla!
    (hewasstil
    lhol
    dingmyneck)
    Iwasoutofbreat
    h

    '
    Youmustbef
    uckenki
    ddi
    ngme,
    inmyhouse!
    ,
    st
    rangl
    i
    ngmywif
    e!'

    Vidoquickl
    yletgooffme, ngavelengehl
    a
    nebondaumqal am ubuhlungu,Icoughednon
    stoptr
    yingtocatchabr eath.Ayandaquickl
    y
    cameintomeIwasst il
    lcryinguncont
    rol
    labl
    e,,
    ,
    ,,

    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
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    Ay
    anda:
    bhabhaar
    eyouok?

    Iwasst
    il
    lcr
    ying

    Ay anda:whatdidthatbastar
    ddot oyou,l
    ook
    aty ourneckit
    ssor edandithasbrui
    ses,he
    pickedmeupandcar riedmeupstair
    s,hedi
    dn'
    t
    l
    aymeont hebedinsteadwangiguga,Iwas
    sobbi ng,
    herockedmef or
    wardandbackwards,
    Ihat edVidowit
    hallmyhear t
    .

    Iwasbetter,
    Ayandamademesi tonthebed,he
    di
    dn'tutt
    erawordbuty oucoul
    dseehewas
    abouttokil
    lsomeonethewayhewassopi ssed.
    Hetookhisfonefrom hisj
    eanandmadeacal l
    .

    Ay
    anda:
    sani
    ji
    kel
    angaphanow.(Andhe
    dr
    oppedt
    hecal
    l
    )

    Hecameandsatnextt
    ome

    Ayanda: bhabhat
    ell
    mewhathappened?what
    di
    dt hatsonofabit
    chdot
    oyou?

    Itol
    dhim ever
    ythi
    ng,
    ever
    ythi
    ng,
    hegotupand
    punchedthewall,

    ouch!
    !!

    Ay
    anda:
    wasi
    tthef
    ir
    stt
    imedoi
    ngt
    his?
    Me:
    no
    Ay
    anda:
    what
    !!
    Ikeptqui
    te

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha!
    !
    Me:
    don'
    tshoutpl
    ease
    Ayanda:Iam sor
    ry,
    pleaset
    alkt
    ome,
    when
    di
    dithappen?
    Me:
    thedayhet
    ookmet
    oschool
    Ay
    anda:
    thedayy
    our
    efusedhi
    mtopi
    cky
    ouup
    Me:
    yes,
    het
    ri
    edt
    oki
    ssme
    Ay
    anda:
    damm bhabhawhydi
    dn'
    tyout
    ell
    me?
    Me:Ididn'
    twanttor
    uinyourfr
    iendshi
    p,I
    t
    houghtthathewasgoingtost
    op
    Ayanda:howam Igoi
    ngtopr
    otecty
    oui
    fyou
    don'
    ttel
    lmeever
    ythi
    ng?
    Me:
    Iam sor
    ry
    Ayanda:(
    Hekickedthebed.
    )Thatsonofa
    bi
    tchhasgonetoofar

    Af
    tersomet
    imet
    her
    ewasaknockont
    hedoor

    Ay
    anda:
    comei
    n

    Msi
    rawal
    kedi
    n

    Ay
    anda:
    findVi
    doandbr
    inghi
    mtomeALI
    VE!
    Msi
    ra:
    sur
    eTaAy
    la

    Hewal
    kedout
    .

    Imusthavedozedof
    f,becausewhenIwokeup
    Ayandawasnotwit
    h,Ir
    insedmymouth.Iwas
    hungrysoIdecidedtogodownst ai
    rsandmake
    my sel
    fasandwich,Iwasst i
    l
    lbusydoingi
    t
    whenIheardl oudmoansandnoi seinthe
    basementit'
    snoteasytohearnoisefrom t
    he
    basementsinceitsunder
    groundbutIcould
    hearthem,Iwalkeddownt hestai
    rstothe
    basement.

    Myhear talmostst opped, Vi


    dowasont hefl
    oor,
    hisfacewasswol l
    enezeengat hiugreen,one
    eyewascompl etelyclosed, hehadbloodall
    overhim, Ayandawashol di
    ngasi l
    encergun
    pointi
    ng(GodIhat edguns, Iwasaf r
    aidevent
    o
    holdone)atVi do, Vidowasbeggi ngAyanda
    nottoshoothim.Ij ustst oodthereandakwazi
    kwamov er.Msirasawmet herewerealso3
    guysthatIdidn'tknowhecl earedhisthr
    oatand
    call
    edAy anda
    Msi
    ra:
    TaAy
    la
    Ayanda:(helookedup)shit
    !!
    !Andqui
    ckl
    yhi
    de
    thegunbehindhiswai
    st,i
    twastoolat
    eIsawit
    alr
    eady.

    Ay
    anda:
    Msi
    rat
    akecar
    eoft
    hisr
    ubbi
    sh

    Hecamet
    ome.

    Ijustranupst air
    sandAy andaf ol
    lowedme.I
    ranintot hebathroom anddisgorged,Inever
    vomi t
    edt hatmuchi nmyl if
    e, Ivomit
    eduntil
    I
    couldf eeltherewasnothingleftinmystomach
    exceptmyi ntest
    ines

    Hewashedhishandsandcamet obrushmy
    backunt
    ilIwasdone.If
    lushedt
    hetoil
    etand
    ri
    nsedmymout h.
    Me:
    youwer
    egoi
    ngt
    oki
    l
    lhi
    m angi
    thi
    ?
    Me:
    nobhabha
    Me:
    thenwhatwer
    eyoudoi
    ngngegun
    Ay
    anda:
    Iwasj
    ustscar
    inghi
    m
    Me:
    Iam notaf
    ool
    Ayanda
    Ay
    anda:
    real
    l
    ybhabha?
    Me: youwer
    egoingt
    okil
    lhim,her
    e?inthi
    s
    houseandpret
    endasi
    fnothi
    nghashappened,
    whoar ey
    oureal
    ly
    ?
    Ay
    anda:
    nobhabha
    Me:
    howmanypeopl
    edi
    dyouki
    l
    lher
    eAy
    anda?
    Ay
    anda:
    nonebhabhaIpr
    omi
    se
    Me:buty
    ouwer
    ereadyt
    oki
    l
    lVi
    do,
    umbul
    alel
    e
    l
    aangi
    thi
    ?
    Ay
    anda:
    nobhabha
    Me: Iam goi
    ngbacktores,y
    ouareaki
    ll
    er
    Ayanda,acol
    dbloodedkil
    l
    er,r
    it
    enow y
    ou
    di
    sgustme
    Ay
    anda:
    bhabhapl
    easedon'
    tgo
    Me: noIam l
    eav
    ing,besi
    desbei
    ngaki
    ll
    eryou
    areali
    ar,y
    oucan'tf
    acemeandt el
    lmethe
    tr
    uth.

    Ayanda: ok!!Ok!!YesIwasgoi ngtoki l


    lhi m
    bhabha, It
    oldyouIwi l
    l pr
    otectyou, nooneI
    meannooneev enmyf amilywil
    l mistreaty ou,
    threatensy ouandl i
    v etotellt
    het al
    esnoone,
    Vidohasgonet oof ar, str
    angli
    ngy ou!
    stranglingmywi feinmyf uckenhouse!no
    bhabha!I fbendi
    ngaf i
    kangangekwenzeni !You
    knowt hatboynday icholaingenayoni xnow
    sey i
    zi
    bonaubacl everkunam (t hatboyIt ook
    himf rom thestreetandnowhet hinkshei s
    smar terthanme) .Angay enzayonkei ntoumt u
    nott
    ouchi
    ngmywi
    fe.

    Iwascr yi
    ng.YesIlovedYandaandIknowhe
    wil
    l doanythi
    ngt opr
    otectmeandseeme
    happybutki l
    li
    ngpeople,Iwasnotgoi
    ngt
    o
    entert
    ainitatall
    .Hecameandhel dmeIj
    ust
    buriedmysel fi
    nhischest.

    Hel aidmeont hebed.Andfel


    lasl
    eepangi
    cuddli
    shile.Lat
    ehewokemeupandwehad
    dinner,t
    hatwast helastt
    imeIsawuVi doI'
    m
    notsureifusaphilaorAyandaorMsir
    akill
    ed
    hi
    m.Ist il
    l wonder
    ,,,
    ,

    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
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    23:
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    Af
    tert
    hati
    nci
    dentkaVi
    do,
    Ayandabecame
    moreoverprot
    ecti
    ve.Hehadnoi
    deat
    hathe
    wasreal
    lysuff
    ocat
    ingme.

    Day swentbyitwast hedaybef or


    eAy anda's
    bir
    thday, Ir
    eal
    lydi
    dn'tknowwhatt obuyf orhim
    ashi spresent
    ,hehasev eryt
    hingIcouldafford
    minasoIdeci dedtobuyhi m awat ch,nott
    hat
    hedi dn'
    thavecoll
    ecti
    onoft hem butitwast he
    thoughtthatcountedany waybehlezi
    ngizayit
    hengangemal iyakhe(Iwasgoi ngto
    usehi smoneyt obuyit)
    .

    AftermyclassesIwentt
    oCanalwal
    kjust
    beforeIcoul
    djoinN1toCanal
    walkmyfone
    rang.ItwasAyanda

    Me:
    Yanda
    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha,
    that
    'snott
    hewaybackhome
    (Inor
    mallyusedN2from CputtoTabl
    eView
    then,
    i
    twaseasyrouteformesince
    bengi
    ngekabi
    khofamil
    iari
    ndriv
    inginCape
    Town)
    Me:
    Iknowl
    ove
    Ay
    anda:
    wher
    ear
    eyougoi
    ngt
    hen?
    Me:
    Canal
    wal
    k
    Ay
    anda:
    alone?
    Me:yeboi
    khonai
    nki
    nge(
    yes,
    ist
    her
    eany
    pr
    obl
    em?)
    Ayanda:youknowIdon'tl
    i
    kei
    tmawuhamba
    wedwa,nextt
    imejustl
    etmeknowf
    ir
    st,ok!
    !
    Me:
    ok,
    Iwi
    l
    l
    Ay
    anda:
    Imeani
    tbhabha
    Me:
    ngi
    zwi
    l
    e
    Ay
    anda:
    don'
    tbet
    ool
    ongke
    Me:
    Iwon'
    t
    Ay
    anda:
    lov
    eyouVuy
    olwam
    Me:
    lov
    eyout
    ooYandawami

    Idr
    oppedt
    hecal
    landl
    ookedf
    orpar
    king.

    Iwentt oWol fBr


    osandboughtawat chand
    askedt hem towrapitnicelythenIwentt o
    Woolwor ths,Iboughtreddi nnercandles, red
    fl
    eece,somegoodi esf orli
    ttl
    epicnic-anyana
    for2ey asebedroom, t
    hingsl i
    kestrawber ries,
    whipcr eam,abottl
    eofwi ne,grapetiserforme
    andev erythi
    ngweneeded.It henwentt o
    Lasenzal i
    ngeri
    ashopandboughtl acel i
    nger i
    a,
    redandbl ack.Il
    overedatni ghtubawayt oo
    romant i
    c.Iwantedtogiv ehim abirthdayi n
    advancedbecauseIknewt hefoll
    owi ngdayI
    wasn'tgoinggetachance.Iboughtpi zzaand
    wentbackhome.
    Ayandawasathomeonhislapt
    op,Igr
    eeted
    hi
    m andwenttoki
    sshim,heputthel
    aptop
    asi
    deandmademesi tonhi
    slap.

    Ay
    anda:
    howwasy
    ourday
    ?
    Me:
    goodandy
    our
    s?
    Ay
    anda:
    bor
    ing,
    Imi
    ssedy
    ou
    Me:
    hawuIwasonl
    ygonef
    or5hour
    s
    Ay
    anda:
    IknowbutIr
    eal
    l
    ymi
    ssedy
    ou
    Me:
    Iboughtpi
    zza,
    aren'
    tyouhungr
    y?
    Ayanda:Iam bhabhaandthanx,butweneed
    total
    kfi
    rst
    .(Hehadaseriousface)
    Me: ohh, Imovedt
    ryi
    ngt
    ogetof
    fandsatduze
    nay
    e( nexttohi
    m)
    Ay
    anda:
    nour
    ightl
    a
    Me: yi
    nikant
    i,uy
    anget
    husa(what
    '
    supy
    ouar
    e
    scar
    ingme)
    Ayanda: Ij
    ustspokentomyuncl esandba
    readytogoandmeety ourfamil
    yandst artwi
    th
    thelobolanegot
    iat
    ions,sotheytol
    dmet hey
    needt owri
    tealett
    ertoy ourf
    atherbachaze
    siyeza.
    Me: (
    Iswall
    owedhard,wasIr
    eadyfort
    his?I
    doubtIwas)alett
    er??Whybengaf
    owniv el
    e
    andwhat'
    stherush??
    Ayanda: y
    habhabhabat hi i
    lett
    erit'
    s
    appropriatethanfoning.Bhabhawear est
    aying
    togethernowf ul
    lti
    meandi tsnotr i
    ghtwebot h
    knowt hat,ifyourfather,ourdadcanf indout,
    wewi llbeindeepshi t,l
    etusdot hingstheri
    ght
    waybhabha, yourpar ent
    shav egivenme
    nothi
    ngbutl ovethatmypar entsfai
    ledtogiv
    e
    mesoIdon' twannadi sappointthem.

    Me:
    itsnotaboutt
    hem,
    itsaboutus
    Ay
    anda:
    youar
    eri
    ghtbhabha,
    itsaboutusand
    Iwasr
    eadyt
    hedayIpr
    oposedt
    oyou
    Me: Icangobacktoreskeifthat
    '
    sapr
    obl
    em
    kukuhl
    alasoy
    itwosi
    ngashadil
    e
    Ay
    anda:
    bhabhadon'
    tyoul
    ovemekant
    i?
    Me:
    Idobutwhat
    '
    sther
    ushr
    eal
    l
    y?
    Ayanda:
    Iam notr
    ushi
    ngtoanyt
    hing,
    Ijust
    wannabewi
    thmywi f
    ethat
    'sal
    l
    Me:
    okkedoi
    t
    Ay
    anda:
    youdon'
    tl
    ookhappyt
    hough
    Me:
    Iam
    Ayanda:younotbaby,
    Idon'
    tseeasmi
    l
    ein
    yourface
    Me: Ismi
    l
    edf
    aint
    ly.(Het
    ickl
    edme)hay
    i
    Yanda
    Ay
    anda:
    sayIl
    ovey
    ouYanda
    Me:
    Ishookmyhead
    Ay
    anda;
    sayi
    t,hewasst
    il
    lti
    ckl
    i
    ngme.(I
    l
    aughedhar
    d)
    Me:
    Ilov
    eyouTaAy
    la
    Ay
    anda:
    andi
    ngoTaAy
    lakuwe
    Me:Il
    oveyougrumpy.(Hetickl
    edmekakhul
    u,
    i
    nyembezi
    bezehl
    akuhleka)
    Ay
    anda:
    heywenabhabha
    Me:
    Ilov
    eyouMt
    ungwa
    Ayanda:Il
    oveyouMar
    hadebeandt
    hanky
    ou
    foragr
    eei
    ngtobemywife.
    Me:
    Ijustsmi
    l
    ed.
    Ayanda:yousuchababyngohl
    ekanj
    eizi
    dlel
    e
    sezipi
    nkkanj
    e.Yi
    zadaddyazi
    phuze
    Me: mf
    xmm nezakhozi
    pinksoI
    '
    m notthe
    onl
    yoneher
    ewhoisthebaby#Idi
    dtongue
    out
    #
    Ayanda:heywenabhabhaandi
    yontangakho.
    Onlyi
    fyouknowhowmuchIl oveyou
    Mar
    hadebe
    Me:
    IknowbhabhaandI
    '
    m gr
    atef
    ult
    ohav
    eyou.

    Wet henkissed, hishandswenti nt


    omy
    breaststhendowni ntomyunder wear ,
    Iwas
    wear i
    ngaski r
    tsoi twaseasyf orhimt oreach
    formyundi es.Hesl idhisfi
    ngerintomy
    treasur
    e,wedi dn'tbreakthekisshet hensli
    d
    thesecondone, Imoaned, het r
    iedtotakeoff
    myunder wearbutIst oppedhim.

    Ayanda: bhabhapl
    ease,
    Iwon'tdoanythi
    ng
    mfaziwam, all
    owmet ofi
    nishwhatIhave
    st
    arted.(Hespokebetweenkisses)

    Inodded

    Hepl
    acedmeni
    cel
    yont
    hecouchonmyback
    andtookof fmyundi es,hepul l
    edupmyski rt
    andslowl yopenedmyl egsandhewenthead
    onme, li
    ckingmyt reasureal lIcoul
    ddowast o
    moan, heat emeupwi t
    hhi stongue.Mylegs
    werest ar
    tingtofailme, t
    heywer egett
    ing
    weakerandweaker ,theyst art
    edshiver
    ingI
    real
    lycouldn'thol
    dmy self.Itr
    iedtoholdon
    ontothecouchbuti twassl ipperyandtri
    ed
    scatt
    ercushi onstheyseemedsosmal l,I
    neededt oholdont osomet hingIfoundhis
    head, hewasbusywi t
    hwhathewasdoi ngand
    Icame.

    Myhusbandt
    obe,
    cleanedupmyj
    uiceswi
    th
    hi
    stongue

    Ayanda:t
    hanky
    oubhabha,hesai
    dthat
    hel
    pingmeweari
    ngmyunderwear
    .
    Me:
    (Ismi
    l
    ed)Imustt
    hanky
    ouMrKhumal
    o
    Ay
    anda:
    I'
    m her
    etopl
    easemadam Khumal
    o

    Ayanda:Iwoul
    dli
    keust
    ogetmar
    ri
    edngo
    Februar
    ynexty
    ear
    Me:Februar
    y!!
    !Hay
    iYandahowar
    ewegoi
    ng
    t
    opl
    anaweddi ngwit
    hin3mont
    hsthat
    '
    s
    i
    mpossibl
    e
    Ay
    anda:
    wewi
    l
    lgetaweddi
    ngpl
    anner
    Me:
    okkeYanda,
    any
    thi
    ngf
    ormybhabha
    Ayanda:Ilov
    eyou,hesai
    dthatinav er
    y
    seduct
    iveway,bi
    ti
    nghi
    slowerlips,
    damnhe
    wassosexy ,
    hehel
    dmywai standbroughtme
    cl
    oserint
    ohim.
    Ay
    anda:
    Ilov
    eyouVuy
    olwam
    Me:
    lov
    eyout
    ooMt
    ungwawami

    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    23:
    31]Mca:
    INSERT64

    Itwasaround5Ineededt ogetAy andaoutthe


    housesot hatIcansetupourbedr oom pi
    cni
    c.
    Theonlywaywast ocal
    l Mawandesot hathe
    couldt
    akehi m anddi
    stracthi
    mf orfewhours.

    IfonedMawandeandhepi
    ckedupaf
    terf
    ort
    h
    ri
    ng

    Mawande:
    lastbor
    n
    Me:
    War
    a
    Mawande: ndi
    kuqhwabekeqal
    eni
    niundi
    biza
    kanj
    alo(si
    ncewhendoy oucal
    lmethat)

    Igi
    ggl
    ed
    Me:
    kant
    ingabat
    heni
    abakubi
    zakanj
    alo
    Mawande:notwenal
    astbor
    n,ndi
    ngu
    t
    atomdal
    angoku
    Me:
    youwi
    sh
    Mawande: Idon'
    tlastbornsoonzay
    eka
    undi
    bizangegamaei t
    heruzothi
    bhut
    ikaYanda
    andyourkidsbazondibi
    zatat
    omdalasothe
    sooneruzi
    qheli
    sathebetter
    Me:
    hay
    ikant
    iuser
    ious?
    Mawande:
    yhal
    ast
    bor
    n
    Me:
    yhoookwanzi
    makel
    okho

    Webot
    hlaughed

    Me:
    unj
    ani
    kebabomdal
    a
    Mawande:
    good!
    !ndi
    khonal
    astbor
    nwena?
    Me:
    I'
    m good
    Ikeptqui
    te

    Mawande:
    arey
    ouok?di
    dAy
    andahur
    tyou?

    Ikeptqui
    te

    Mawande:
    I'
    m comi
    ngr
    it
    enow
    Me:
    weokbabomdal
    a!Ij
    ustneedaf
    avour
    ,,
    ,
    Mawande:youaregoingtogi
    vemehear
    t
    at
    tackndi
    mncinci
    lastbor
    n.ShootI
    '
    mli
    steni
    ng
    Me: IwantyoutotakeAy andaforfewhours2
    max, Iwannasurpri
    sehim ngebedr oom pi
    cni
    c
    forhi
    sbirt
    hdaylet
    'ssayadv ancedonesoIcan't
    dothatearound.Wi l
    lyouhelp?
    Mawande:wi
    thnodoubt,mhhhhowIsowi sh
    i
    bindi
    mlowo,
    whatwil
    lyoubeweari
    ng?,
    ,
    ,,
    justa
    cl
    ue
    Me:
    sies,
    Iai
    n'
    ttel
    l
    ingy
    out
    hatgr
    oss!
    !

    Mawande:(
    Helaughed)okkel
    ast
    bor
    nletme
    cal
    lhi
    m now.
    Me:
    thanky
    oubabomdal
    aIowey
    ou
    Mawande:
    bigt
    ime.Enj
    oykedon'
    tov
    erdoi
    t
    kodwa.

    Igi
    ggl
    ed

    Me:
    bye
    Mawande:
    bye

    Onesor
    ted.Af
    ter10mi
    nut
    esAy
    andacame.
    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha(hecameandsatnextt
    ome)
    Me:
    hey
    Ayanda:uWaraathi
    ngivel
    eedl
    adl
    eni
    lakhe,
    awufuni
    sihambasoyit
    wo
    Me: chababah,
    ngikhathel
    emnaaf
    tert
    he
    pl
    easureyouhavegivenmeumzimbawami
    needauphumla
    Ay
    anda:
    arey
    ousur
    e?
    Me:
    yep
    Ayanda:
    comeandlockthedoor
    ske,
    Iwon'
    tbe
    l
    ong.Hekissedmeandl
    eft.

    Missi
    onnumbert wost ar
    ted.,
    ,,
    Iwenttotakea
    bathalongone,cleanedthebath.Andj
    ustwore
    mygown, Il
    oti
    onedmysel f,woremyli
    ngeri
    a,
    di
    dmyhai r,abitofmakeupandwor emy
    gownagainontopofmyl ingeri
    a.
    Iplacedt hefl
    eeceont hef l
    oor,l
    ightont he
    candlest heywere20i ntotal4bigonesand12
    smal lonesalloverthebedr oom then4i nthe
    bathroom.Iputt hewinei cebucket, putsome
    i
    cebl ockandwi neinsideaswel lasmy
    grapetiser,pl
    acedtwowi neglasses,
    strawber r
    iesandcream.I twasal lset

    Mawandef onedathiuAyandawasonhi sway


    back.It
    hankedhim.Imadei tapoi
    ntIleavemy
    keyemny angoazoknockaorri
    ngthebell
    .Iran
    abubblebathforhim andwentdownst ai
    rs,
    ther
    ewasaknockIwentt oopenthedoor.

    Ayanda:whydi
    dyoul
    eav
    eyourkey
    esi
    chabheni
    lov
    e?
    Me:
    ngi
    sikhohl
    i
    we
    Ay
    anda:
    yabonandi
    kusokol
    i
    sil
    engoku.
    Me:
    nopr
    obl
    em bendi
    l
    aphav
    ele
    Ayanda: Mawandeundi
    biz
    elai
    nonsensei
    nto
    engavakali
    yo
    Me:
    ncedendangahambamoss
    Ay
    anda:
    hel
    ookedatme,
    ,
    ,,
    ,youl
    ookbeaut
    if
    ul
    Me:
    hay
    ibondi
    kwi
    gownonl
    y?
    Ay
    anda:
    letmet
    akei
    tfory
    ou
    Me:
    NoBhabha!
    !
    Ayanda:l
    etmegoandt
    akeof
    fthi
    sjacketand
    shoesthen
    Me:comeher efi
    rst
    .It
    ookmydookontopof
    t
    hekitchencount
    erandbl
    indf
    oldedhi
    m.Do
    youtr
    ustme? ?
    Ay
    anda:
    yesbhabha
    Me:
    comewi
    thmet
    hen
    Ay
    anda:
    towher
    e?
    Me:
    youwi
    l
    lsee,
    don'
    tpeekpl
    ease
    Wewentupst
    air
    sandpassedt
    hebedr
    oom i
    nto
    t
    hebat
    hroom.

    Me:
    don'
    tpeekpl
    ease,
    standst
    il
    l.
    Ay
    anda:
    ok.

    Itookof
    fhisjacketf
    ir
    standal
    l ofhi
    sclot
    hes
    andpooledthem onthefl
    oor,hedidn'
    tpr
    otest
    shamehewasl ef
    twit
    hnothi
    ng.

    Il
    edhi
    mint
    othebat
    htub.

    Me:
    ngenauhl
    ale,
    Ihel
    pedhi
    m.Wahl
    ala.

    Ir
    emov
    edt
    hedook.
    Ayanda:(helookedar
    ound)damnbhabhat
    his
    i
    ssor omant
    ic,
    Me:
    itsj
    ustt
    hebegi
    nni
    ngMrKhumal
    o
    Ayanda:hee???hehalfclosedhiseyesandbi
    te
    hi
    slowerli
    ps.Pleasehelpmebat h,Idi
    dandhe
    dr
    ainedwaterafterwewer edone.
    Iqui
    ckl
    yexitedthebathroom andwenttothe
    bedr
    oom andt ookoffmygownchangedmy
    sl
    eepersint
    oredheel andsatonthefl
    eece.He
    cameintothebedroom andthelookinhi
    sf ace
    waspri
    celess

    Me: comehereloverboy,Isaidthati
    nav
    ery
    seducti
    vewayandgav ehim myhand.Hecame
    rushi
    ng,heki
    ssedmycheekandmymout hhe
    wentforfr
    enchkissbutIstoppedhim
    Me:
    notnowbhabha

    Wesatt heredippi
    ngthestrawberr
    iesonthe
    cream feedingeachother
    , pl
    ayi
    ngwi t
    hcream
    andsigcobhozanangay ot
    henl i
    ckeditaway
    fr
    om emzi mbeni y
    ethu.Dr
    inki
    ngourdr i
    nks.

    21LNS

    Istoodupandl edhimint
    ot hebed.Imadehi
    m
    l
    ayont hebedonhisback.Iwasabouttogi
    ve
    himt heblowjob.OhhGodhelpme.I twasmy
    fi
    rsttimephela.

    Goingdownony ourmani sthebiggestgif


    ts
    youcanofferhim whetheritist
    ocelebratehis
    bir
    thday
    ,apr omotionatwor korj
    ustar andom
    actofspontaneouslove,gi
    v i
    nghim greathead
    canbeani mport
    edwaytolav
    ishhimin
    pleasur
    eandlethi
    m knowyoucareabouthi
    s
    sexualsat
    isf
    act
    ion.Sol
    adi
    esthi
    nkaboutit.

    Ibentdownonmykneeswi
    thmybut
    tsup.

    Ayanda:yousur
    eaboutt
    his?y
    oudon'
    thav
    eto
    doitbhabha
    Me:
    I'
    m sur
    e

    Itookadeepbr eath,Lordhel
    pme.Ist art
    ed
    slowlymaintai
    ningeyecontactwit
    hhim asI
    begant omov emyhandupanddownku
    Mt ungwa,t
    heysay ,nothi
    ngaboutblowjob
    shouldbefasterhemustsav orit,
    andIwanted
    tomakehi m squirm,soIstar
    tedslowl
    ygrazi
    ng
    mymout hagainstuMtungwaasIcont i
    nued
    movingmyhandupanddownwhi lelubri
    cati
    ng
    Mtungwabymysal i
    va.Hewasnotenti
    rel
    y
    er
    ect,hi
    serect
    ionst
    artedt
    oebbandincreased
    asIconti
    nued,
    Iaddedhistemper
    etur
    emabom
    nj
    ebyaskingandteasi
    nghi m,

    Me:
    mustIst
    op?
    Ayanda:damm nobhabha!
    !hi
    sey
    eswer
    e
    complet
    elycl
    osed

    Itookitinchbyi nch,Imov edf asterandf aster,


    Itookhim deeperhemoanedl ouder,Istarted
    gagging, Ikeptonthroati
    ngmysel f, Iusedall
    thecombi nati
    onIhav e,mout h,tongueand
    hands,hewascur si
    ng, andIknewIgothi m,I
    ti
    ghtdrippedont hebaseofuMt ungwaand
    wrappedmymout hjustbelowt renulum and
    mov edmymout handhandi nar hy
    thmi c
    mot i
    on.Hehel dmyheadandt hrustedst r
    ongly,
    Ial
    mostchoked,hewascur
    sing,
    fucksweet
    cheecks,
    fuckbhabha

    Itookabreak,andusedmyhandtobr usht
    he
    headofuMt ungwaagainstt
    heout
    li
    neofmy
    l
    ipstaki
    ngtheheadonmymout hjustto
    l
    ubricat
    e.

    Ifl
    ickedthetrenulum withthetopofmytongue
    andt henincir
    cletheheadofumt ungwaslowl
    y
    stoppingeacht i
    meIhi tthepleasur
    espot.He
    wasmoani nguncontroll
    able.

    Ithenli
    ckeduMtungwalikeanicecr
    eam cone
    whichbroughthi
    m morepleasur
    e,Il
    ookedat
    hi
    m hiseyesweresti
    l
    lclosed

    Me:
    Yanda
    Ay
    anda:
    b,,
    ha,
    ,
    bha
    Me:
    lookatme
    Ayanda:
    hedi
    dwi
    thhi
    sey
    eshal
    fcl
    osedand
    red
    Me:
    Ilov
    eyou

    Iwasjustspi
    tt
    inghi
    myat
    handauy
    enzanay
    e
    l
    onto

    Bef
    orehecoul
    danswerIt
    ight
    enedt
    hegr
    ipof
    mymouth

    Hescr
    eamedi
    npl
    easur
    e,f
    u..
    ckkkbhabha

    I
    fyouar
    enotgoodinthi
    s,don'
    ttr
    yitl
    adi
    es.
    Youwi
    ll
    hur
    tinganeyomuntu
    Igentlygli
    dethesur f
    aceofmyt eet
    hal ong
    uMt ungwat r
    aili
    ngi twithmytongue, Ithen
    rol
    ledont hebedandt ookandi ceblock
    ngay i
    fakaemlony eniandwentbacksucki ng
    him.Heshi vered, Ikeptongaggi ng,Isawhe
    wasaboutt ocl i
    max.Il ight
    lyhi
    gonhi stest
    icl
    es
    andqui ckl
    ywentt oMt ungwaandt rustmet hat
    sentYandast raightintotheedge

    Ayanda:m.
    .o.
    .v.
    .ebha..
    bha(heremov
    edmy
    headwit
    hhi
    shands, ,,
    ,
    ,f
    u..
    ..
    ck.
    ..

    Phew.
    ..Mi
    ssi
    ont
    woaccompl
    i
    shed

    Ithenwenttori
    nsemymout handbr
    ought
    towelandwipedhi
    m cl
    ean.Iwassonotgoi
    ng
    tocleanhi
    m ngol
    imil
    am chaa
    Hewasstil
    ll
    ayi
    ngonthebedonhi sbackwith
    hi
    seyescl
    osed.Iwenttokisshi
    smout handhe
    hel
    dmet i
    ghtandIcol
    lapsedonhischest
    .

    Ayanda:
    shi
    tmt
    anandi
    niwher
    edi
    dyoul
    ear
    nal
    l
    ofthi
    s?
    Me:
    (Il
    aughed)mysecr
    et
    Ayanda:
    Iwill
    kil
    lyoubhabhai
    fungenzal
    ent
    o
    kwenyei
    ndodaIswearIwil
    lki
    l
    lyou!
    Me:Igi
    ggl
    ed,
    happybi
    rt
    hdayi
    nadv
    ancedMr
    Khumal
    o
    Ayanda:
    youareunbelievabl
    e,youknow,t
    hank
    youmyQueent hatwasthebestgif
    tIev
    erget
    i
    nmyentirel
    yli
    fe.
    Me:
    yakopababy
    .
    Ay
    anda:
    Imemor
    izedt
    hatl
    i
    nebhabha
    Webot
    hlaughed.

    Hef l
    i
    ppedmeandhewasont opofme, ohh
    boyhedi dhisthingwi thhist ongueandmout h,
    Icamesev eraltimes, hethenposi ti
    oned
    himselfandent eredmedamnwehadast eamy
    roundbesibalekaamanzi ,heexitedandst ood
    upandgav emehi shandandIf oll
    owedhi m,he
    mademebentandwi t
    hmyhandst ouchedmy
    feet,heopenedmyl egsabi tandi nsert
    ed
    ouchGodwi thoutmov i
    ngIcoul dfellhehitmy
    G-sport,Imoaned, hedi dn'tmov e,itwasmy
    fi
    rstti
    medoi ngdoggyst yle.

    Ay
    anda:
    arey
    ouokbhabha
    Me:
    yesbaby

    Hest
    art
    edmov
    ingy
    errl
    ucki
    l
    ywewer
    eal
    onei
    n
    thehouse, Iscr eamedbot hinpleasureand
    pain,
    Idon'tknowbekuy eyi
    phikonakona, he
    deepthrustme, hay ikengascr eamakakhuluit
    waspainful Icouldn' ttakeitatal
    l,hechange
    theposit
    ion, wangi bekaont heedgeoft hebed
    mybut t
    swer eflyinghi gh,hewasst andi
    ngand
    heputmyl egsst raightonhi sneckandhe
    bangedme, Icameandshor tl
    yhest ar
    ted
    moaning, Icoul dt ellhewascomi nghedeep
    thr
    ust
    Ayanda: sh,
    ,
    ,i
    t!!Bh,
    ,
    abh,
    ,
    ,aandIcoul
    dfeel
    his
    warmj ui
    cesembr aci
    ngmyinnerpar
    tandhe
    col
    lapsedont hebed.

    Ayanda:damni
    tmustbemybir
    thdayever
    yday
    i
    fndizof
    umanathi
    ski
    ndoft
    reat
    ment .

    Ngqondozabuy
    a
    Me:
    Yandaaaaaaaa!
    !Ohhmygoodnesss!
    !!
    !!

    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    23:
    31]Mca:
    INSERT65

    Ay
    anda:
    yini
    bhabha
    Me: condom !
    !!
    !Wedidn'
    tuseacondom Yanda,
    whatifI'
    m pr
    egnant
    .
    Ayanda:andyouarepr
    egnantbhabha,
    Ican
    feel
    itndi
    kuchani
    l
    e.
    Me:
    howcany
    ousayt
    hat
    !!,
    Iwasgoi
    ngi
    nsane.
    Ayanda:comeher
    e, heputmeontopofhi
    m,I
    wantedt
    oslaphi
    m, howcouldhebesocal
    m?.
    Me: wear
    enotr
    eadyf
    orachi
    l
    d,Idon'
    twanta
    chi
    l
    dbaby!!
    Ayanda:
    wearebhabha,
    wer eadyandweare
    goi
    ngtolov
    eourf
    ir
    stborn,
    damnt hischi
    l
    dis
    goingtobeabomb, uzobamhl esweetcheeks
    umt anet
    huwenzi waoutofl oveandt hebest
    presentfordaddy
    , t
    hebestIcoul deverasked
    for,wewilll
    oveourbeautif
    ul gi
    rlbhabha

    Icoul
    dn'
    thel
    pitbutsmil
    ed,Ayandahadhi
    s
    wayofmakingmef eel
    atease.

    Me:
    whyezobay
    igi
    rl
    Ayanda: Il
    ovegirl
    sbhabhasikhul
    esizi
    boys,I
    wouldlovemyf i
    rst2kidsbabezigir
    lsthen
    boys.Icanfeel
    itwejustmadeagi rlan
    adorabl
    eone.

    Me:
    youcr
    azywenaIai
    n'
    tpr
    egnant.
    Ay
    anda:
    wewi
    l
    lseeaboutt
    hat
    Me:
    letmegetdr
    essedt
    hen
    Ayanda:don'
    twearyourpj
    spl
    easeweart
    hat
    l
    ingeri
    eyouwereweari
    ngdamnyousosexyi
    n
    that

    Igi
    ggl
    edandwor
    eit
    .

    Ayanda: onaseri
    ousnotebhabhathi
    sisoneof
    thereasonswemustgetmar r
    iedngoFebruar
    yI
    don'
    twantumt anam azal
    wengaphandl
    eko
    mshado.
    Me:
    I'
    m notpr
    egnantYanda!
    !.
    Ay
    anda:
    inobaut
    hingi
    chamaamahewuwena.

    Me:
    (Il
    aughed)awubhadl
    angawena

    Wecuddl
    edsal
    alanoMt
    ungwawami
    .
    Foll
    owi
    ngdayitwasmyman' sbi
    rthday ,my
    al
    arm wentof
    fIwokeupat00: 00am , Ishook
    Ayandaandsanghappybirt
    hdaysongf orhim,
    nchooohewasallsmil
    ey.Il
    ov emyni gga
    kodwa

    Me:
    happybi
    rt
    hdaymt
    ungwa
    Ay
    anda:
    thanky
    ouVuy
    olwam
    Me: Icannotbuyyouacar,ahouseoranythi
    ng
    expensi
    v ebutonethi
    ngIcangiv
    eyou,thatI
    havegivenyouitsmyhearti
    tbel
    ongstoyou.
    Ayanda:Idon'
    twantexpensiv
    egift
    sbhabha,
    al
    lIneedisyourl
    oveandrightnowIam
    sat
    isfi
    ed
    Me:
    ify
    ouar
    ehappyt
    henIam happynami
    .

    Irol
    l
    edonthebedandopenedt
    hesi
    dedrawer
    ,
    andtookoutawr
    appedboxandgav
    eitt
    ohim
    Ayanda:heopenedi
    t,shi
    tbhabha!!Kennet
    h
    Colecol
    l
    ecti
    on,howdidyouaffor
    dt hi
    s?
    Me:youaskedt
    oomanyquest
    ionsMr
    Khumal
    o
    Ayanda:it
    sbecauseIdon'
    twantyout
    ouse
    yourmoneybhabha.(I
    fbuyazi
    Iusedyour
    money)thankyousomuchVuy ol
    wam.He
    ki
    ssedme
    Me:
    youwel
    comeYandawami

    Wetalkedaboutr
    andom thi
    ngsandfel
    lasl
    eep
    agai
    n.Wewokeupupar ound8am, weri
    nsed
    ourmouthswashedourfacesandwentbackto
    bed.

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha
    Me:
    hey
    Ayanda:Imeantt oaskyou,nowthatyouare
    mywi f
    e,Iwouldlovetogiveyoumonthly
    al
    lowancei
    nsteadofgetti
    ngitfr
    om your
    parent
    sandinst
    eadofgivingyoungeloxesha
    Me:butmyparentdon'
    thav
    eaproblem and
    wonthav
    eaproblem t
    oconti
    nuesuppor
    tingme
    Ay
    anda:
    youar
    emyr
    esponsi
    bil
    i
    tynow
    Me:
    butr
    eal
    l
    ymypar
    ent
    swon'
    tmi
    nd
    Ayanda:
    pleasebhabhaitwi
    l
    lmakemel
    esser
    ofamanifIdon'
    tdoit.
    Me: okke,
    itsf
    inewi
    l
    ltal
    ktomypar
    ent
    s,
    bay
    eke
    Ay
    anda:
    thanky
    oubhabha

    Ay
    anda:
    todaywegoi
    ngt
    ogr
    oov
    apar
    k
    Me:
    youwi
    l
    lcel
    ebr
    atey
    ourbi
    rt
    hdayt
    her
    e?
    Ay
    anda:
    yesbhabha,
    youcani
    nvi
    tey
    our
    f
    ri
    endsnoWar
    abay
    eza.
    Me:ok,Ihav
    eneverbeeni
    ntoKay
    eli
    shabef
    ore,
    l
    etmefoneooZeeke

    Idi
    all
    edZee'
    snumber

    Zee:
    Pri
    ncess
    Me:
    hay
    iay
    il
    ogamal
    akhoel
    o
    Zee:
    mfxm hl
    eli
    ndi
    mzondanomni
    kazi
    wal
    o
    Me:
    hei
    snott
    hatbadwet
    hu
    Zee:mf
    xmm aloser,I
    '
    m glady
    ouarewit
    hTa
    Ayl
    anow,hei
    stherealmanhayil
    ant
    oiweak
    Me:li
    stenbabys,i
    tsAyanda'
    sbi
    rt
    hdaytoday
    soheisinv
    iti
    ngyounaboOdwa,wegoingto
    gr
    oovapark.
    Zee:yabonakethat
    'st
    hemanI
    '
    mtal
    ki
    ngabout
    .
    (Shescreamed)
    Me:
    hawuZeemyeardr
    um pl
    ease
    Zee:ok,oky
    ouar
    egoingtopi
    ckusangit
    hi?
    ?u
    Odwaphumenomsebenzi
    ,sowedon'
    thavei
    tr
    ans
    Me:
    letmeaskAy
    andat
    hen.

    Me: YandaooZeet
    heydon'
    thav
    eit
    ranspor
    t,
    canIpickthem?
    Ayanda:
    hay
    ibhabha,
    Iwi
    l
    laskMsi
    rat
    opi
    ck
    them
    Me:butIcanpi
    ckt
    hem nj
    eangi
    thingi
    nemot
    o
    manj
    e??
    Ayanda:hay
    ibhabhauzohambanami
    sobuy
    a
    ebusuku
    Me:
    mfxmm
    Ayanda:
    heywenabhabhandi
    zakuf
    aka
    i
    mpama
    Igi
    ggl
    ed.

    Me:
    ok.

    Me:
    zee,
    Msi
    rawi
    l
    lpi
    cky
    ouupguy
    s
    Zee:
    maar
    awhyungasi
    l
    andi
    ?
    Ay
    anda:
    Yandaat
    hisobuy
    alat
    e
    Zee:yadi
    kanalendodayakhomf xmm maar
    a
    uri
    ghtnoMsir
    angi yamf
    unav el
    e
    Me:
    hay
    iZee,
    uneboy
    fri
    endphel
    a
    Zee:
    itwon'
    tki
    l
    ltohav
    ear
    oll
    onwet
    hu
    Me:
    Xol
    awi
    l
    lki
    l
    lyou,
    umumcheat
    ela
    Zee:
    loy
    ohl
    ezi
    ebusyofl
    atel
    y
    Me:hayi
    angi
    zi
    ngeni
    nje,
    byeZeeseey
    oul
    ater
    kel
    olo
    Zee:
    okkePr
    incess.(Shel
    aughed)
    Me:
    hay
    imaar
    nZee,
    bye

    Idr
    oppedt
    hecal
    l

    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    23:
    31]Mca:
    INSERT66

    Me.:
    let
    'sgoandhav
    ebr
    eakf
    astI
    '
    m hungr
    y
    Ay
    anda:
    andmet
    oobhabha,
    hebi
    tmyear
    Me: ohhohh,chaangi
    khul
    umi
    lokhoukul
    amba
    (notthat)comewakeup.
    Ayanda:youandbreakf
    ast
    ,that
    '
    sst
    range,
    you
    don'
    teatbreakf
    ast.
    Me:
    Idon'
    tvel
    endenzel
    awenaMrFool
    Ay
    anda:
    heywenabhabha,
    Wegotupandmadet hebedandt ookashower
    andwegotdr essed,wehadbreakfast,
    sacleana,tobehonesthewast heonewhowas
    doingallthework,ubezi
    thandashameu
    Ayanda, cleani
    ngandcookingwashi sthi
    ng.

    Het
    henf
    oneduWar
    abezay
    othengaut
    ywal
    a

    Ididn'
    tknowoZeebaselanikahl
    akahl
    e,Ihad
    tofoneheragai
    nandasked, wabal
    akeint
    o
    zabo.Iwaswrit
    ingdown.IgaveuAyandathe
    paper

    Ay
    andaa:
    let
    'sgobhabha
    Me:hay
    iAyanda,
    hamba,angit
    hiv
    eleuhamba
    noMawandenoMsir
    a,Iwill
    bebored
    Ay
    anda:
    hay
    iIam goi
    ngwi
    thy
    ou
    Me: no.Angi
    hambi
    ,nzabengi
    l
    ungi
    sai
    nto
    zogcoka.
    Ay
    anda:
    ok,
    comeandl
    ockt
    hedoorke.

    Iwenttolockthedoorandkissedhi
    m,hel
    eft,
    I
    cont
    inueddoingmyt hi
    ngs.

    Aft
    er2hour stheywal kedinAyanda, Msira,
    Mawandeand2l adies.Iguessonewas
    Mawandesgi rlfr
    iendandanot heronewas
    Msira'
    s, t
    heygr eeted, Igreet
    edt hem backand
    bebephaphil
    e, hayikabi butIdon'tli
    keabantu
    abal
    oud.

    Ayanda: l
    adiesthi
    sismywife,SneIcal
    lher
    bhabha,sweetcheeksandVuyol
    wam.Bhabha
    thi
    sisNony ameko,Mawande'gi
    rl
    fr
    iendand
    Buhle,Msira'sgirl
    fr
    iend
    Buhl
    e:ni
    cet
    omeety
    ouSne,
    shecameandhug
    me
    Me:(ohhhugs,
    Ihuggedherback)l
    i
    kewi
    se
    Buhl
    e
    Nyame:ni
    cet
    omeety
    ouSne(Ny
    ami
    eseemed
    nott
    oli
    keme)
    Me:
    nicet
    omeety
    out
    oo
    Nyame: Idi dn'
    tknowyouhav
    eawi f
    e,whywas
    Inotinv
    itedTaAy l
    aoruSnengaba
    bazi
    tshatisayo?

    Ok,
    Ijustsmi
    l
    ed,
    Idi
    dn'
    tl
    ikehert
    oo

    Ay
    anda:wearenotmarriedy
    etNomyameko,
    wear
    eengaged,
    heflashedmyri
    ng)

    Buhl
    e:(
    scr
    eamed)t
    hat
    'sbeaut
    if
    ul,
    shehugged
    meagai
    n.Iwi
    shbi
    ndi
    mloSne,
    congr
    atssi
    si
    Me: t
    hanxBuhle,
    don'twor
    ryitwi
    l
    l bey
    ouone
    day
    ,IlookedatMsir
    a, hej
    ustsmi
    led
    Nonyameko:
    don'ty
    out hi
    nky
    ouarer
    ushi
    ng
    t
    hings,y
    ouguyshardl
    yknoweachot
    her
    Ay
    anda:
    andwenahowl
    onghav
    eyouknown
    Wara
    Nony
    ameko:
    almost3y
    ear
    s
    Ayanda: that '
    stheproblem ,if
    akeszoDoct or
    Philar ethel asttogetmar ri
    edbecauset heyare
    busyanal yzi
    ngot herpeople'srel
    ati
    onshipsand
    theyf orgetaboutezi zabozingasaexistno
    exista.IfIwer ey ou,
    Iwi l
    lbewor r
    ieduphuma
    i
    mi bimbi yingugo(wr i
    nklesarestart
    ingtoshow
    upi ny ourface) .Whatdoy ouhav e?(Hewas
    wayt oocal m)sobackof f,
    ifIwanteddoct or
    Philngekudal andayomkhangel acasdefinitel
    yI
    canaf fordhi srates.
    Yhoooweal
    lwentqui
    te.

    Nonyameko:sowhenl astdidyouseeorspeak
    toThembisa,youreal
    lylov
    edmycousi nshame.
    (Akagiv
    aphilosisi
    ,Iguessthatwassaidt
    o
    makemej eal
    ous)

    Mawandecl
    ear
    edhi
    sthr
    oat

    Ayanda: (hewasstil
    lcool )t
    helastt
    imeI
    fuckedherndangachami nochama,thr
    ewher
    outofmyhouseandcal ledacabf orher,Idon't
    fuckcorpses,If
    uckpeopl e,
    youshouldtellher
    tocomeandaskf orsomet i
    psfrom mywi fe,
    casshei sabombi nbed(Ichokedonmy
    sali
    va)uThembi sawasl ikeshehasbeenl ivi
    ng
    i
    nAnt arct
    icafor40years, whatwasIgoingt o
    dowi t
    hacor pseabantubekhona, andhowdo
    youknowIl ovedhercasIonl yknewherf ora
    week,backof
    fandst
    opt
    alki
    ngaboutshi
    tyou
    don'
    tknowabout.

    Msi
    raandMawandebur
    sti
    nlaught
    er

    Mawande: y
    hoAy l
    aeAntar
    cti
    caboy
    ,phela
    l
    aphonefishkut
    hwaazisur
    viv
    ecasIice
    yakhonai
    tsunbr
    eakabl
    e.
    Ayanda: yayibandalabi
    tchmhlampene
    Antarct
    icaingconoandher engiphet
    heu1000
    000degr eescelcius.Hestoodupandmademe
    stoodupandhol dmywai standbitmyl
    owerl
    ip.
    EesheeuAy anda.

    Ifeltsor
    ryf
    orNy
    ami
    ebutnay
    eyat
    handa
    uziphoxi
    sa

    Me:
    let
    'sgoandgetdr
    essed
    Ayanda:don'
    twaitf
    orusguys,uma'am has
    spokenanduMtungwahasresponded
    Me:
    hay
    imaar
    nYanda,
    siy
    ogcokakuphel
    a

    Hepickedmeupandcar
    ri
    edmeupst
    air
    sand
    l
    aidmeont hebed

    Ay
    anda:
    uMt
    ungwauv
    uki
    l
    ebhabha
    Me:
    hay
    iYandasi
    yahamba
    Ayanda:
    ubuhl
    ungubhabha,
    jonga,
    kanci
    nci
    nj
    e
    Me:
    no!
    !Gcokanazi
    ingubozakho
    Ay
    anda:
    pleasebhabha,
    yandi
    vi
    mbamany
    ani
    .
    Me:
    ewev
    ele,
    gcokake.

    Hewascomingtomydirecti
    onwhenhesaw
    whatIwasgoi
    ngtowear,itwasnotabum
    shor
    tperserbuti
    twasshor
    tandv
    eryshor
    t

    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
    [08/
    17,23:32]Mca: Thereisthisdollofmi ne
    whoinboxedmei zolo,Ij
    ustreadheri nboxnow,
    coul
    dn'thelpitbutlaughed,won'tment ionher
    namethough.Thanxbhabhawam I 'm gladyou
    arebothenjoyingitnobabekhay a.Hahaha.
    Yoursupportismuchappr eci
    ateddolls.

    SindyByhisgrace,
    thansnawebhabhawami ,I
    havecorrectedthenumberi
    ngIskipped65but
    i
    tssortednow.Muchl ov
    emynana.

    I
    NSERT67

    Ayanda:nowi
    feofminei
    sgoingtowearthi
    s
    shi
    teyakwezi
    zi
    bat
    hywazeli
    kapaezi
    hlel
    inj
    e
    zi
    l
    indeuwi
    na
    Me: naweusisonjeangi
    thi
    ?(IwasjokingandI
    thoughthewasjokingt
    oo).Iwasabouttoput
    onelegandwor ei
    t.
    Ayanda.:
    hegrabbedit,heywenabhabha
    ngandi
    phambanisi
    .(Hewentintothecl
    oset
    andcamewithascissorandcutiti
    ntopi
    eces,
    whendidyoubuythis?
    Me:
    yest
    erdayi
    nCanal
    wal
    k
    Ayanda:y
    ouarenotgoingt
    oweart
    hisshi
    t,
    ,
    ,,
    ,
    hethrewi
    tinadustbi
    n
    Me:
    mfxmm whyar
    eyoucut
    ti
    ngi
    tint
    opi
    eces?
    Ayanda:mhlampeandi
    vakal
    iyouwi
    l
    lnev
    er
    wearlanonsense.
    Me:
    mfxmm
    Ay
    anda:
    sut
    himf
    xmm bhabha
    Me: mf
    xmm it
    sfi
    nekengi
    zohambangezinqe
    kecasandi
    nay
    oint
    oyogqoki
    sa.(Iwasreall
    y
    pissedbutIhatearguing,Ayandaalwaystel
    l
    mewhatt owearandnott owearforgodness
    sakeIwasonl y19, mustIwearIbum shorts
    andt hatwasnotabum shor tinev
    erworeonei
    wasnotaboutt ostartonthstdayorwasi
    supposet owearshortsat59)
    Ay
    anda:
    ndi
    kukhabeke
    Me: wat
    chmeI 'mleav i
    ng,(
    Iwasonl yweari
    nga
    bl
    uegolfpol
    ot -
    shir
    t,Itookmyf oneandwalked
    i
    ntothedoor,Iwasaboutt oexitthebedr
    oom
    andwalkdownst ai
    rs,hegrabbedmyar m and
    pul
    ledmecloserint
    ohi m
    Ay
    anda:
    wher
    edoy
    out
    hinky
    ougoi
    ng?
    Me:
    siy
    ahambaangi
    thi
    ?
    Ay
    anda:
    awuzunxi
    ba?
    Me:no!!Angi
    thi
    youdeci
    dedt
    ocutmyshor
    t
    i
    ntopi
    eces
    Ay
    anda:
    Idi
    dn'
    tknowy
    ouar
    ethi
    scr
    azyy
    azi
    (
    hesmi
    l
    ed)whataboutooWar
    aabasezansi
    Me:abawazi
    amat hangabona.Iwi
    l
    ltel
    lthem I
    don'
    thav
    eanythi
    ngtowear
    Ayanda:bhabha,butIbuyclot
    hesalmost
    ever
    yday,doyouwannat el
    lmezinci
    ncior
    zi
    yezar
    ekazankul
    u.
    Me:
    ndi
    funat
    hatshor
    t
    Ayanda: bhabha, whateverI'
    m doingI'mtry
    ing
    toprotectyou,youhav eneverbeent here
    before,youarever ybeaut
    if
    ul andtrustmey ou
    tur
    nheadswear i
    ngt hatwil
    lmakei tworse,you
    knowmyi nsecuri
    ties,Iwon'ttol
    erateamany e
    amadodal ookingaty ouli
    keapi eceofsteak,
    zawundenzandi funeubulalaumt u
    Me: y
    hoohay ibuty
    our
    eal
    l
    yneedt
    owor
    kon
    youri
    nsecur
    it
    ies
    Ay
    anda:
    Ilov
    eyou
    Iwasst
    il
    li
    nhi
    sar
    ms.

    Me:
    Ihat
    eyou
    Ay
    anda:
    heywenabhabha
    Me:(Il
    aughed)Il
    ovey
    out
    oo.Ngi
    bhekel
    eint
    o
    engi
    zoy
    igcoka

    Hewenti nt
    ot hecl
    osetandcamebackwi tha
    guessjean,Iworeitwi
    thablueheel
    .Ibrushed
    myhairandappl i
    edli
    psti
    ck.Iwasst
    il
    lhot
    though

    Ayanda:
    yer
    ryoust
    il
    lhotngokusowunxi
    beI
    j
    ean
    Me:
    mfxmm

    Hewashothi
    msel
    f.
    Ay
    anda:
    ngal
    i
    ngeusukeduzekwam
    Me: hay
    ibhabhasiy
    aemj aiv
    weniphayanot
    uyot
    handanahawu,bythewayIwi l
    lbewit
    h
    ooZeeanditwontki
    llt
    owi ndowshop(I
    l
    aughed)
    Ay
    anda:
    heywenabhabhandi
    zakukhaba.

    Weweredonewewentdownstai
    rs,Mawande
    whi
    stl
    ed,y
    hooNyameewangat
    hiuzongidl
    a
    ngi
    l
    ihl
    aza.
    Imustadmi
    tweweregr eatnomunt
    u
    wami

    Ayanda:zabay
    imof
    fi
    ekut
    heni
    wandi
    khal
    i
    sel
    a
    i
    khwele
    Mawanda:don'tfl
    att
    eryoursel
    fbabybr
    o,it
    sfor
    l
    astbor
    n,y
    oubet terkeephercl
    osertoyou
    ot
    herwi
    sezathathwa
    Ayanda:zabul
    alai
    njaekey
    asondel
    anj
    e
    emfazi
    niwam
    Mawande: anywaywhatt
    ooky
    ousol
    ong?
    si
    fununxi
    l
    at hi
    na.
    Ayanda:
    besi
    phana.(Hewi
    nkedatme,
    I
    l
    ookedaway)
    Mawande:
    nihl
    ambi
    l
    eke
    Ay
    anda:
    fut
    sek
    Me:
    let
    'sgoguy
    s

    Sosi nceMsi racamewi thhi sgi


    rlf
    ri
    end, mnano
    Ay andawehadt opickuZee, Phumzaand
    SipheeCput ,thewedr ov etogroovapark, i
    t
    wasmyf irstti
    megoi ngt hereanditwaspacked
    al
    r eady.Capet ownguy sbay adri
    vershame
    anginamonaal i
    khohlobol wemot obelungekho
    event helatestsatt
    hatt i
    meandgi rl
    swer eall
    dressedup.Wel ookedf orindawoy oparka
    thenMsi r
    aandMawandewentt oor dermeat,
    theguysst arteddri
    nkingnoZee, ansms
    beepedinMsi ra'
    sfone,themeatwasr eady
    andsazi offeri
    shanoBuhl etogoandt akeit.
    Wej ustcrossedt heroadcasbesi parkengapha
    komgwaqo.Wewer esti
    llwait
    ingtobeat tended
    castherewer epeopl ephambi kwethu.Ther e
    werealsot hreeguysbebel i
    ndil
    e.

    Guy1:
    hil
    adi
    es
    Buhl
    e:hi
    Guy1:
    ani
    sebahl
    engat
    hiani
    ngobal
    apha
    Buhl
    e:t
    hans

    Guy1:Iam Lwando,
    thi
    sisMbul
    eloand
    Si
    yabul
    ela
    Buhl
    e:Iam Buhl
    eandt
    hisi
    smyf
    ri
    endSne
    Lwando:
    canwebuyy
    oudr
    inksl
    adi
    escasIsee
    y
    ouar
    esor
    tedeny
    ameni
    Buhl
    a:not
    hans,
    wear
    efi
    ne
    Lwando:pl
    easeladi
    es, soSnehowabouty ou
    j
    oinusguyssi
    hlel
    iphaya, wakhombaimoto
    bebehambangayotherewere2mor eguys
    bebemengasebootini
    yeGTI
    Me:
    chasi
    -r
    ight,
    siy
    abongaany
    way
    Lwando:
    ohhy
    ouar
    enotf
    rom her
    e(Cape
    town)
    Me:
    ngi
    ngowal
    a
    Mbul
    elo:
    no,
    asi
    thet
    hikanj
    eaphaekapa

    Ij
    ustsmi
    l
    ed

    Lwando:yerrbabyyoursmi
    l
    e,i
    fungangowam
    ndi
    ngayekanozapha.
    Wel
    aughednoBuhl
    e

    Lwando:I'
    m ser
    ious,
    Iguessuzewedwacasi
    f
    IwasyourmanIwouldn'
    tlety
    ououtofmy
    si
    ghtendawenienj
    e.

    Voice:
    y haasaniuri
    te,
    that'
    swhyIam her
    e.(I
    tur
    neditwasAy andast
    ading2mm awayfrom
    me)

    Lwando:
    TaKi
    l
    lerl
    ongt
    ime,
    unj
    ani
    grootman.

    (NB: thi
    swast hesecondtimeIhear
    dsomeone
    call
    ingAy anda,TaKill
    erf
    ir
    sti
    twasVidonow
    thi
    sguy, neededt oaskhi
    m whypeoplear
    e
    theycall
    inghimt hatcasi
    twasscary
    )
    Ayanda:ri
    tesani
    .Ani
    kaat
    tendwerbendi
    bambe
    fr
    om theback
    Me:
    no
    Ay
    anda:
    let
    'sgoBuhl
    ezazanay
    o
    Me:
    hay
    iYandaIwon'
    tl
    eav
    euBuhl
    eyedwa
    Buhl
    e:Iwi
    l
    lbeokSne
    Me:
    arey
    ousur
    e?
    Buhl
    e:y
    esdear
    .
    Me:
    byeguy
    s
    Them :
    (chant
    ed)by
    eSne

    Sawal
    kert
    oemot
    weni
    noAy
    anda.

    Ayanda:soy
    azi
    funaezant
    wana?(Ebet
    het
    hel
    a
    phansi
    )
    Me:
    (Iwasshocked)ut
    hini
    ?
    Ay
    anda:
    yazi
    funa,
    whyar
    eyousoni
    cekuzo?
    Me:
    ok.

    Mfxmm Iwasnotgoi ngtoentait


    ainhi
    s
    i
    nsecuri
    ti
    es.Can'
    tIhaveadecentt al
    kwit
    h
    ot
    herguys?Anywaybengi v
    alel
    isakubocasI
    wasjustbei
    ngpoli
    te.Ideci
    dedt okeepqui
    te.

    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    23:
    32]Mca:
    INSERT68

    Iwasstil
    langrywit
    hAy andabutf
    unnypar tyou
    wil
    lnevernoti
    cemangi angry
    ,Ij
    ustkeepqui t
    e,
    eventhenIjustkeptquit
    e,t
    heywer edr
    inking
    besi
    hlel
    ikwicampchai r
    smoss.Ay andabeloko
    endi
    bamf xmmm.
    Mawande:
    lastbor
    n,whyar
    eyousoqui
    te?
    Me:
    not
    hing
    Mawande:
    don'
    tsayi
    tsnot
    hing,
    youar
    enotok.

    Ukubonemawunesi gqukrukubekukhona
    l
    omnt uokubuzaubaur it
    euv eleakwenze
    wor se(hav ey ouev erbeeni nasi tuati
    onwhen
    youhav eal umpi nyourthroatbuty outell
    your selfthaty ouwon' tcryandt her ewouldbe
    theper sonwhokeepsaski ngi fyouar eoknot
    knowi nghei smakingmat t
    er swor se),thi
    sis
    exact l
    ywhatMawandedi d,Ifelttears
    threateni ngmyey es.Iwasnotgoi ngtocry
    i
    nfrontofpeopl e.Idecidedt ogoar oundthecar
    Iopenedt hef r
    ontdoorasi fIwasl ookingfor
    somet hingt hat'
    swhenInot icedt herewasa
    garagenotf arfrom wher ewepar ked.Ilef
    tmy
    fonei nt hecarIhav eheardst oriesnge
    Kay eli
    sha, soIwasnotgoi ngt or i
    skngihambe
    nefoniyami.Iwalkedthere,ndizi
    thelechu,
    I
    boughtdentynesnott hatIneededt hem I
    wantedt obeawayf rom Ay anda.Onmyway
    backmandi velel
    akubo, AyandanoMawande
    bebemengeny awobebhekabheka, Iguessthey
    noti
    cedbengi ngekhoandIl eftmyf oneint
    he
    car,j
    ustbeforeIcouldreacht hem someone
    cal
    ledmyname.

    Voi
    ce:
    Pri
    ncess!
    !

    Me: ohhGod,l
    etitnotbeMuso, Ireal
    lycannot
    deal
    wi t
    hhim.(Ipret
    endedasi fandimv a,
    maybekhwazaomny euPr
    incessv eleakho
    muntuungazi
    yola)
    Voi
    ce:
    Sne!
    !
    Me:(Il
    ookedint
    hedirecti
    onwheremyname
    wascal
    led)Lungi
    saNdl el
    a,y
    es!!Doyou
    r
    emembert heMar
    iazel
    lguywhowasrudeto
    mendif
    unaIoff
    icekaMrLebeny
    a,y
    est
    heone
    andonl
    yinf
    lesh
    Lungi
    sa:Si
    nenhl
    anhlaRhadebe,Missfreshet.
    Whatasmallwor
    ld.(Hewascomi ngtowar ds
    meencumeubhutiza,theguywasreal
    lyfine,
    ndamli
    ndahewasev erfi
    nebutf
    orward)

    Ij
    ustsmi
    l
    ed

    Lungi
    sa:heyPr
    incessusemhl
    elant
    oindal
    a,
    (hecameandhuggedme, GodndafanguMr
    Godzi
    ll
    aunguAyanda)
    Me:
    heyLungi
    sa,
    Ihuggedhi
    m back
    Lungi
    sa:
    unj
    ani
    babes,
    ,
    ,babesIhat
    epetnames
    Me:
    goodt
    hanxandy
    our
    sel
    f?
    Lungi
    sa:great,whaw,awushi
    ntshi
    insteady
    ou
    areglowi
    ng.(Helookedatmefrom topto
    bott
    om andturnedme)
    Me:(Ibl
    ushed)inobayi
    Kapanol
    wandl
    elwal
    o,
    kal
    okueMatat
    iel
    ealukho
    Lungi
    sa:(hahaha)damnletmegetanother
    hug(hehuggedmeagain)whereisMuso? i
    s
    healsoher
    e? areyouguy
    sstil
    ltoget
    herphofu?
    Me: (
    andafunauyenzandecauseuMrGodzil
    l
    a
    ebesefol
    derhisarmsreadyt
    oswall
    owany
    i
    nsectedl
    uladuzekwakhe)let'
    sgosi
    hlezi
    l
    aphaya

    Wewal
    kedi
    ntot
    hecar
    .

    Lungi
    sa:
    sani
    bonani

    Other
    sbav
    umaexceptformyMrGodzil
    la
    mfxmm.Ayandacanbeapai
    ninabuttkodwa
    someti
    mes
    Me: guysthisisLungisaNdl ela,
    besifunda
    sonkeeMar iazel
    l butyenabekwi mat ri
    c
    mandi fi
    kamnandi senzaugr ade10.Lungi sa,
    thisisAyandaKhumal o,myf iancé,Mawande,
    Ay anda'sbi gbrother,Msimelelo,Ayanda' s
    fri
    end, Nyame, Mawande' sgirl
    fr
    iend,Buhle,
    Msi melel
    o' galf
    riend,Zizi
    pho, Phumzaand
    Siphemyf riendsf rom Cput.

    Lungi
    sa:
    ngi
    yaj
    abul
    aunaz
    inonke
    Mawande:
    sur
    ebr
    o
    Lungisa:
    whaw, missFr
    eshet,
    youdi
    dn'
    ttel
    l
    mey ouareengaged

    (Hesmi
    l
    ed)

    Me:Ij
    ustt
    oldyounowandr
    ememberwej
    ust
    meti
    nfewminutes
    Lungi
    sa:
    truei
    tis.Agai
    nngi
    yaj
    abul
    aunazi
    .
    Ay
    anda:
    li
    kewi
    se.(Fi
    nal
    l
    yMrGodzi
    l
    lacant
    alk)
    Lungi
    sa:mangi ni
    shi
    yeke,Pr
    incessgi
    veme
    yournumberplease,weneedtocatchup.(I
    wondersat
    hethangani.CasIknowhimthrough
    Musoandhisrudeness)
    Me:
    rat
    hery
    ougi
    vemey
    our
    s

    Il
    ookedformyfone,y
    abei
    ngaphakat
    hi
    emotweni
    ,Ayandagavemehi
    sphone.

    Ay
    anda:
    usemi
    nebhabha
    Me:
    thansl
    ove,
    Idi
    all
    edt
    henumber072.
    ..
    got
    i
    t

    Ididn'
    tsav
    eit
    ,Isi
    mpl
    edi
    all
    edi
    tanddr
    opped
    thecall
    Lungi
    sa:
    sal
    ani
    kahl
    eke
    Them :
    sur
    e

    Lungi
    sal
    eft

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha,
    Ilookedathi
    m
    Me:
    yes
    Ayanda:comesi
    ther
    e,behl
    eli
    phezukwecamp
    chai
    rangit
    hi
    Me:
    hay
    isi
    zof
    aesosi
    hlal
    o
    Ay
    anda:
    yizakesi
    zohl
    alaaphaemot
    weni
    Msir
    a:niqal
    i
    lekenina,
    sizanxi
    l
    asodwakodwa
    Ibi
    rt
    hdayyeyakhoTaAyl
    a
    Ay
    anda:
    ndi
    khumbul
    aumf
    azi
    wam ndi
    thi
    ni
    Msi
    ra:
    nangonj
    eduzekwakho

    Wav ul
    aisicabhawahl
    alawalengi
    sai
    nyawo
    phandlethenngangenaphakathi
    kwemil
    enze
    yakhe

    Ayanda:Iam sor
    rybhabha,
    indl
    elaendi
    thet
    he
    ngayokuweearli
    er
    Me:
    ok,
    nopr
    obl
    em
    Ayanda:Imeanitbhabha,
    Ishoul
    dn'
    thav
    e
    spokent
    oy oui
    nthemannerthatIdi
    d
    Me:
    don'
    tst
    resshonest
    ly
    Ayanda: bondif
    akanempamasomet i
    mes
    mandiqalwezezi i
    nsecuri
    ti
    eszam caszibe
    ungenzanganto,youarejustbei
    ngpoli
    tendim
    l
    ongaz i
    thembiyokuwe.Itsli
    kesomeonebet t
    er
    thanmewi llcomeandt akeyouawayfrom me.
    I
    'mt r
    ulysorrybhabha
    Me: nextt
    ime,
    Iwi
    l
    landasIsai
    dI'
    m notgoi
    ng
    any
    wher e
    Ay
    anda:
    comegi
    vedaddyaki
    ss

    Iki
    ssedhi
    m onhi
    sfor
    ehead

    Ay
    anda:
    hay
    imaar
    nbhabha
    Me:
    her
    e,Iki
    ssedhi
    m onhi
    scheek
    Ay
    anda:
    no
    Me:
    her
    e,Iki
    ssedhi
    m onhi
    schi
    n
    Ay
    anda:
    kunendawooy
    idul
    i
    le
    Me: Iki
    ssedhi
    m eml
    ony
    eni
    andweki
    ssed
    i
    xeshaeli
    de.

    Ay
    anda:
    Ilov
    eyoubhabha
    Me:
    Ilov
    eyout
    ooYanda
    Wewentbackt oothersandsincethenbesingu
    ncaanobabywam, basel
    a,badakwa
    abadakwayo,nevoicesbesezi
    phezulu.Wesang
    Ayandahappybi r
    thdaysong,Idon'
    tknowhow
    manyt imes,butwehadf unaround8we
    orderedanot
    hermeatsadl athenwel ef
    taround
    11:30,Iwastheonewhowasdr ivi
    ngonour
    wayback.Wedr oppedooZeet henwenthome.

    Wesl
    epti
    nst
    ant
    ly

    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    23:
    32]Mca:
    INSERT69

    KwicompaniesthatIhaveappl
    iedkuzoformy
    i
    nservi
    cetr
    aini
    ngbezingakandi
    phendul
    i,
    Iwas
    st
    art
    ingtogetworri
    ed,theexamshadstarted
    bendizogqi
    bange13t hNovemberubhala,
    abantubakuloAyandabebeyaekhayange24
    Novwhi chsimpl
    emeantmangi qedakubhal
    aI
    neededt ogohomeeny enenyezoyi
    bonaubuya
    kwami

    Iwrot
    emyex amsngaqeda.Iwasgoinghome
    onthe18th,nge16thNov,Irecei
    vedacall
    fr
    om anunknownnumber,Ianswered

    Me:
    hel
    l
    ow
    Cal
    ler:hel
    l
    owma' am ,canIspeakt
    oMi
    ss
    Rhadebe,Sinehl
    anhl
    aRhadebe
    Me:
    yesma'
    am,
    speaki
    ng?
    Call
    er,youspeaki
    ngtoTshego, I
    'm call
    ing
    fr
    om ..
    ..
    .Regardi
    ngyourappl
    icati
    on, Ibeli
    eve
    youaredueforyouri
    nservi
    cetrai
    ningnexty ear
    Me:
    yesma'
    am
    Cal
    l
    er:I'
    m gladtoinfor
    my out hatyouareone
    oft
    hecandidatesthathavebeenshor tli
    sted,
    sot
    hepanel wouldlovetoseey ouont he30th
    Novemberat12:30f oranintervi
    ew.
    Me:
    30t
    hNov,
    12:
    30
    Cal
    l
    er:yesma'
    am,
    wearesor
    ryforr
    espondi
    ng
    sol
    ate,
    wehadmanyappl
    i
    cati
    ons
    Me:noprobl
    em ,
    Iwi
    l
    ldef
    ini
    tel
    ybet
    her
    eand
    t
    hankyousomuch
    Cal
    ler:pl
    easur
    e,seey
    ouont
    he30t
    hthenmi
    ss
    Rhadebe,by
    e
    Me:
    bye

    I
    ntervi
    ewy hooo!
    !!Iwasneverbeenint
    oa
    for
    mali nt
    ervi
    ewexcepttheonesformy
    bursar
    ies.

    Ical
    l
    edAy
    andawhowast
    aki
    ngashower
    Me:
    Yanda!
    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha
    Me:thepeoplef
    rom.
    ..
    .Call
    edbat
    hingi
    zekwi
    i
    nter
    viewsnge30thNovember
    Ayanda:whaw!!That'
    sgr
    eat,
    zisweet
    sezo
    kuwe,youwil
    laceit
    Me:I
    'm scar
    edkodwa,GodknowshowmuchI
    r
    eal
    l
    ywantt oworki
    nthatcompany
    Ayanda:withyourr
    esul
    ts,
    theywi
    l
    lbef
    ool
    sif
    theydon'
    ttakeyou
    Me:
    Iwi
    l
    ljustcr
    ossmyf
    inger
    s
    Ayanda:comeherebhabha(heki
    ssedme)I
    am real
    l
    yproudofyoubhabha
    Me:
    Ismi
    l
    ed

    »
    »»»
    »»»
    »»»
    »»
    Ont he18t hIfl
    ewdownt oDur ban, tookacab
    totown, thentookataxitoKokst ad.Ay anda
    want edtohireacarformef r
    om eai rpor t
    , butI
    refused,YesIwasengaged, anduAy anda
    bey azi
    waekhay abutebengekaloboli.Iwasnot
    goingtodi sr
    espectmyparents, ngafikaekhay a
    around3.Mypar ent
    swer esti
    llatwor ksi nceit
    wasmonday .Bekukhouausi Ntsoaki Igreet ed
    hersahuggenaandt alkaboutrandom t hings.U
    AyandanoMawandebebez adri
    verWednesday
    toCof i
    mv aba.

    Myparentscamel at
    e,wesharedhugs,
    wehad
    di
    nnerthenjustchi
    ll
    edelounge.

    Mom :
    Ist
    il
    lcan'
    tbel
    i
    evey
    ouar
    eget
    ti
    ng
    mar
    ri
    ed
    Me:
    Ijustsmi
    l
    ed
    Mom:
    arey
    our
    eady
    ?
    Me: Idon'
    tknowTot
    i,I
    '
    m scar
    ed,
    Isowi
    sh
    bengihambanawe
    Mom :(shel
    aughed)t
    her
    eisnowaykemy
    Angel
    Me: whati
    fthewholef
    amilydoesn'
    tli
    keme,
    casIknowforthef
    actYanda'
    smot herdoesn'
    t
    l
    oveme.
    Mom : y
    ouwi l
    lbefinemybaby ,justbey oursel
    f,
    i
    ft heyarepushingy outotheedgej ustkil
    lthem
    withkindness,don'tgi
    vethem thesat i
    sfacti
    on,
    abant uabadal
    anobabeshoni don'trespond,
    theywi l
    lcomear ound,buttheymustnotmake
    yout hei
    rmat .
    Me: Isowi
    shther
    ewasamanualToti
    ,ngazi
    if
    kwenzekat
    his,
    Iknowwhi
    chbut
    tontoturnor
    swi
    tch.
    Mom: (shel
    aughedagain)unfor
    tunatel
    yay
    ikho
    keAngelasl
    ongasy ourhusbandlovesand
    support
    syout
    hat
    'swhatmat
    ter
    sandIt
    rustu
    Ayanda.

    Dayswentbyi twasFr i
    day,
    wel eftforMatati
    ele,
    ubabaubesekhona, whenIsayubabaImean
    mydad' stwin, nobabomdala,t
    heyar efour
    kowabonodabsubekhona, beshadile.
    Eshadel
    eeMal uti
    soshecamewi thher3kids,
    Nceba,Tumeloandl astbor
    nDi makat soabout
    sameageasme, babomdalanobababebez e
    nomha, nomomkhul ubebebashiyil
    eabantwana
    babo.Ubabauphangel aePinet ownsone
    famil
    yyakheipha, babomdalaeMpumal anga
    nayefamil
    yyakhei phaya

    Wegotof
    fthecar

    Me:
    kant
    iTot
    isi
    zeemgi
    dini
    vel
    e
    Toti:
    obababakhoareneededforlobol
    a
    negoti
    ati
    ons,
    ubabakhocan'tdothem al
    one

    Wegr
    eet
    edev
    ery
    onekwahuggwana

    Myf av
    ouratewoman,
    Iwentt
    oherbehl
    eli
    ecouchini
    .

    Grandmom:kut
    sununukamakhul
    u,y
    iza
    umakhul
    uaphuze
    Me:
    haamakhul
    u
    Makhul u:(sheki
    ssedmeeml onyeni
    nasezidlel
    eni)
    .Heekuthenizaskezapink
    kangakazonaezi z
    idl
    elenje,awuzithwal
    anga
    njezukulwana?(aren'
    tyoupr egnant?)
    Me:(Ichokedonmysal
    i
    va)haamakhul
    u
    andi
    nanto
    Makhul u:yi
    zapha(comeher e)
    ,wandij
    ikel
    ezi sa
    wandi vezaizandla(sheturnedmear ound,
    l
    ooki ngatwhatGodknowsi nmyhands) ,
    wal i
    ftakencincii
    topy am ngaphambil
    i.(Bar ein
    mi ndbekukhoooTot i,mhanomamkhul u, no
    Dimakat so)Dimakatsolaughedatme, makhulu
    didn'tsayany t
    hingwancumanj e)hl
    alaapha
    caleni kwamakhul ukezukulwana(conesi tnext
    togr andmA) .
    Me: mf xmmm Iwassoembar r
    assed
    i
    nyembezi were5t oziphume.Ndaqamela
    ngomakhulu,Ijustdozedoff.Ndavukal
    ater,
    we
    haddinnersonke, kuhlekwa,cabangoku
    ndi
    lelekuxhel
    iwebekwenzel waabakhongi
    fol
    lowingday.Sayolal
    a

    Afterl
    antokamakhulu,Iwassoemot i
    onal,
    I
    neededtohearYanda'sv oi
    ce,Ical
    l
    edhi mit
    rang,rangaandrangingabanj
    wa.Idiall
    ed
    againheansweredimmedi at
    ely
    Ayanda:bhabhagi
    veme10minut
    es,
    ndi
    qgibezel
    anotat
    omnci
    nci
    Me: ok,Idr
    oppedthecal
    l
    ,Igoti
    ntobed.Iwas
    dri
    ft
    ingtothongol
    andwhenmyfonerang, I
    answered

    Me:
    Yanda
    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha
    Me:
    unj
    ani
    ?
    Ayanda:
    ndi
    khonabhabha,
    whyar
    eyouso
    down.

    YouknowuSnekepeople,Icr
    iednonstop,
    whywasIcr yi
    ng,
    don'
    tasknamiangazi
    .Icr
    ied
    unt
    ilIf
    eltIwasok
    Ay
    anda:
    tal
    ktomebhabhakwenzekani
    Me:
    Imi
    ssy
    ou
    Ay
    anda:
    Iwi
    l
    lbet
    her
    enj
    etomor
    row
    Me:
    Ineedy
    oungokumna
    Ay
    anda:
    Ipr
    omi
    se,
    Iwi
    l
    lbet
    her
    ekwaear
    ly
    Me:
    ok
    Ayanda:awul
    il
    i
    swakukundi
    khumbul
    akuphel
    a,
    Iknowyou,kwenz
    ekanit
    alkt
    ome
    Me:
    ngumakhul
    u
    Ay
    anda:
    (hel
    aughed)wenzeni
    umakhul
    u
    Me:(ndaqal
    elandal
    i
    la)howcany oulaugh
    umakhul
    uengihl
    ambalazeebant
    wini
    Ayanda: sorr
    ykebhabha(Icoul
    dhearhewas
    st
    il
    llaughing)wenzeni
    umakhulu
    Me: at
    hingi
    khul
    elwemi
    na,
    ungi
    hlubul
    i
    se
    phambikoToti
    Ay
    anda:
    youar
    enj
    ebhabha
    Me:
    mfxmm,

    Idr
    oppedt
    hecal
    landcr
    ied

    Mymom wal
    kedi
    nI'
    m sur
    ebezot
    higudni
    te.

    Tot
    i:Angel
    ?
    Me:
    Tot
    i
    Tot
    i:ngat
    hiuy
    ali
    l
    anj
    ebaby
    Me:
    chaTot
    i
    Tot
    i:chauy
    ali
    l
    a,y
    ini
    ndaba

    Shecameandhuggedme

    Tot
    i:kwenzenj
    ani
    Me:
    makhul
    uTot
    i,Il
    ovehersomuchbutdi
    d
    shehadtodowhatshedi
    dinf
    rontofev
    ery
    one.
    I'
    m notpr
    egnantmi
    na
    Toti:don'tmi
    ndherAngel
    ,sheisj
    ustol
    d,she
    didn'
    tmeant oembarr
    assyou,y
    ayazi
    yakuthandaangi
    thi
    i?
    Me:IknowTotiangazi
    nami
    ngi
    l
    il
    elani
    .Iknow
    shemeantwel
    l
    .

    Myfonekeptri
    ngi
    ngitwasAy
    anda,
    Ijust
    i
    gnoredi
    t,Iputi
    tonsil
    ent

    Tot
    i:phendul
    auAy
    andaphel
    a
    Me:
    chaangi
    funi
    khul
    umanay
    e
    Tot
    i:y
    ini
    wenzeni
    yena?
    Me:ungihl
    eki
    lemangi
    thi
    umakhul
    u
    ungi
    hlambal
    azi
    le
    Tot
    i:y
    ouar
    ebei
    ngchi
    l
    dishAngel
    Me: noToti,I
    'm not,Imisshim Tot
    i(Ist
    art
    ed
    cry
    ingagain,hayiamen)andazinoba
    bendistr
    eswayil
    ezakwenz ekakusasabutt
    hat
    ni
    ghti ny
    embezibeziphakwakimi
    Tot
    i:(shewipedmyt
    ear
    s,)Angel
    canIasky
    ou
    something
    Me:
    whati
    sitTot
    i
    Toti
    : ar
    en'
    tyou,,
    ,
    ,,ar
    ggg,
    nev
    ermi
    ndbabyl
    ala,
    uzovukauri
    teyezwa
    Me:
    Inodded
    Tot
    i:ni
    tekemyAngel
    Me:
    nit
    eTot
    i
    Tot
    i:l
    ovey
    ou,
    sheki
    ssedmyf
    orehead
    Me:
    lov
    eyout
    oo

    Myfonekeptonfl
    ashing,Ichecked,
    Ihad28
    mi
    ssedcall
    sallf
    rom Ayandaand1sms, Ir
    ead
    i
    t

    "Bhabha, I'
    m sorrymyangel ,Ididn'tmeanto
    makey ouangry, Iwasj oki
    ngwi t
    hmywi fe,
    sincendimazi umakhul uunj
    ani.Pleaseforgi
    ve
    meMar hadebe, pleasedon'tsleepwi t
    hout
    talki
    ngt ome.Iwon' tbeabletosl eepwelli
    f
    ndaz iusakwati
    le.Ilov eyou".

    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    23:
    32]Mca:
    INSERT70

    Atthatmomental l
    Ineededwast otalktomy
    Yanda, forhimt oholdme.Ineededhi mlike
    yesterday,t
    hefunnypar tIl
    ov edAyandabutt he
    feel
    ingIwasf eelingatthatmomenti twas
    unex pl
    ainabl
    eIwasgoi ngcr azy,
    ,,
    ,,
    ,,madly
    i
    nlovewi thhim Ineverfel
    tthatwaybef or
    e.
    If
    onedhi
    m andhepi
    ckedup.

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha
    Me:
    hey
    Ayanda: ndi
    yaxolisabhabha,bekungamelanga
    ndi
    kuhlekil
    e,nxoleleMarhadebe(I'
    m sor
    ry
    bhabhaIshoul dn'
    thavelaughedatyou).
    Me: ngi
    ri
    tebabywami ,
    ngi
    yaxol
    i
    sanami
    (I'
    m
    sor
    rytoo),
    Ioverr
    eact
    ed
    Ay
    anda:
    undi
    xol
    elekeMar
    hadebe(
    am If
    orgi
    ven?
    )
    Me:
    Inodded
    Ayanda:ayhi
    ii
    maarnbhabha,
    I'
    m notnextt
    o
    yousunqwalaandi
    kuboni
    Me:
    mfxmmm y
    adi
    kay
    azi
    Ay
    anda:
    uyay
    azi
    tomor
    rowatt
    hist
    imezabe
    ungumf
    azi
    wakwaKhumal
    o
    Me:
    Iknow
    Ayanda:justhangi
    ntherekebhabha,
    udaddy
    zakubonatomorrow,uyeva.
    Me:
    ok
    Ay
    anda:
    Ilov
    eyou
    Me:
    lov
    eyout
    oo
    Ay
    anda:
    sleept
    it
    ekebhabha
    Me:
    nawe

    Foll
    owingdayndi vukesekudal akwavukwa
    (whenIwokeupev erybodywasup) ,
    Ay anda
    fonedathibasendlelenii
    binguye,Mawande,
    nobabomncanebakheababi l
    inobabakhe, but
    yenaebengaz ungenaebez abadropanjesince
    i
    nguy ewaziyoekhay athenay oli
    ndasomewher e.
    I
    nmycul t
    ureumkheny anaakazinegoti
    ateli
    ,and
    hemustnotbeseem unt i
    lezakwaziswa
    offi
    cial
    lyother
    wiseifebonwat hefamily
    yakulontombihasther i
    ghtyombambat hen
    azikhul
    ulengenkomoorwhatev erezabe
    i
    funwadependi ngont hefamil
    yley o.

    Babethebazafikango1baendupbef ikango2,
    normall
    yabakhongi bafi
    kaekuseni.Idon't
    blamethem shameCof i
    mv abatoMatatiel
    e
    kukude.Ijustpeekedthroughthewindow, ohh
    myniggawasf ineasalwaysbutzangeehle
    kwangathi ndi
    ngascreama,hedroppedthem
    waji
    ka,thenhef oned.

    Me:
    Yanda
    Ay
    anda:
    Imi
    ssy
    ou
    Me:Imissy
    out
    oo,
    can'
    tIseey
    ounobay
    i5
    mi
    nutes
    Ay
    anda:
    notnowbhabha,
    may
    bemabegqi
    bil
    e
    Me:
    mfxmm
    Ay
    anda:
    hay
    ibhabhasubaf
    ani
    Me:
    ndi
    thi
    nikeumungangi
    funi
    Ayanda:hay ibhabhasubaunf ai
    r,youknowI
    wouldjumpf oreverychanceendingayi
    fumana
    ri
    ghtnowt obewi thyou,wej ustneedtobe
    pati
    entkudlul
    el ethenaft
    erthatwewi l
    lbe
    toget
    herforever
    Me:
    okke.

    Ihear
    dabantubakuloAyandabekhahl
    ela
    i
    zit
    hakazel
    ozasekhayabeyongenaegat
    ini
    .

    Man: ehhhRhadebe,Shwabada,
    owashwabadelainkomonempondo,
    Maf
    uza,
    ,
    ,,
    ,
    ,
    Tamkhulu:
    niy
    afundekel
    ani
    l
    atenobal
    ate,
    ngenani
    Icouldn'
    thel
    pitbutl
    aughed.Tamkhul
    umaar
    a
    Hahahahaha.
    :-
    ):
    -)

    Inegot i
    ationsbezi zokwenz el
    waendl inienkul
    u
    whichi skuRondav el thent heywer echanneled
    there,bahl alaabout2: 30hour s,bendipanica
    shame, atl astIwascal l
    ednoDi makatso.
    Bebuzwaubangomphi kany ebazekuy e
    ndakhonj wakeMawandedi d,againinmy
    cult
    uredur ingnegot iationsmakot i
    akabonwa
    ngabakhongi butAy anda' sfatherandhi suncles
    askedi ftheycanseeme, nami ngabuzwai fI
    doknowt hesepeopl ebasukapha, Ianswer ed
    thatIknowt hem theyar etheKhumal os,
    bendinov alot hough, theysmi l
    ed,greetedthen
    ndakhul ul
    wa.

    Af
    tersomet
    imedadcameaphobesi
    hlel
    i
    khona
    nomomkhul
    unoomakhul
    u.

    Dad:Irespectt
    hosepeopl
    etheyhavepai
    d
    ever
    ythi
    ngImeanev er
    ythi
    ng,
    abasioweni
    x
    Makhulu&mamkhul
    u:bal
    i
    li
    zel
    a,ohhGod
    ababamamakodwa
    Dad:bakhuphenenkomoyomqhomiso
    (umbiki
    biki
    )ori
    nquthu(mother
    'scow),
    i
    nkomokaSakhi (mymother)
    Makhul
    u:hal
    alal
    ahal
    alal
    a,si
    yabonga.
    Mom :
    hayibowasther
    eaneedf
    ori
    tift
    hey
    hav
    epaidever
    ythi
    ng
    Dad:theyinsisteduyi
    kupha, apparentl
    y
    ngumkhweny anaony anzeli
    sil
    ebayikhuphe
    si
    nceintombi yethuedibenenayoiseyint
    ombi
    nto(v
    irgin)
    .

    Iwassoembar
    rassed:
    -\
    ,nowev
    eryoneknew
    sendenzai
    ntozabant
    uabadal
    a.Mf
    xmm,
    Ayandamaara:
    -*

    Makhulu:hal
    alal
    ahal
    alal
    a,kunj
    alouzi
    phat
    ha
    kakuhl
    ezukul
    wana
    Dad:I
    'm sopr
    oudofyoumyAngel
    (ngangi
    fi
    le
    ngamahl
    oni)Ij
    ustsmi
    led:
    -*

    Dad:mama, ut
    at aebecingasi
    nce
    umkhwenyanaelaphaandbegqibi
    leyonkeint
    o
    asoseesamkel
    waenzel weimfunozakhe.
    Makhul
    u:kungakuhl
    eoko.

    IndeedAyandawascall
    edwangat hikade
    eli
    ndil
    e,3goatsweresl
    aughtered,ekhayake
    amasikosiwenzangembuzi,amanye
    ngegusha.FIRSTonewas, I
    longwe(f or
    accepti
    ngcowszakuloAyanda, whi
    chwas
    money .SECONDonewasf orukucol a
    abakhongi (signofaccept ance)LASTonewas,
    i
    mv uma(i twast oacceptuAy andaof fi
    cial
    lyas
    umkheny ana, wagcot yi
    swai nyongo)Idi dn't
    knowt hoset hingsunt i
    lthatdaymakhul u
    expl ai
    nedi ttome.YhooIdi dn'
    tknowkant i
    yintoendekanj e.Si nceitwasl atetheysl ept
    ov er.Balungiselelwaemzi niomkul u.Ev eryone
    bet himay ebabi zaabant ubakul oAy anda.
    "Abant ubomzi wakhoAngel "real
    ly? ??
    Ibingasinkkakuhl etu.UMawandenoAy anda
    bezol al
    aekhay a.Mf xmm Iwasnotgoi ngt oget
    achancet osneakoutbecausebekugcwel e.
    Ay andabezol alanoMawande.Mnano
    Dimakat sobesi zolalainmybedr oom.Iwasso
    notgoi ngt osleepndi ngakangendi benoYanda
    wami njehawuphel aesel oboli
    leangithi??

    Wet ookadri
    veebusukunj
    aloandpar
    ked
    somewhere.Ir
    eal
    lymissedmyhusbandt
    obe
    andbengi khumbul enaye.Wekissedsohungr i
    l
    y
    foral ongti
    me, Iwascr yi
    nginbetweenthose
    kissesIreall
    ymi ssedmymanpeopl e.I
    ttook
    Ay andaisi
    khathiesideungithul
    i
    sabutIf i
    nal
    l
    y
    did.Iwasget ti
    ngwor ri
    ednami ubawhyIwas
    soemot i
    onal.Wedi dn'
    tdoany t
    hingexceptf
    or
    kissingandromanci ng,thensabuya.

    Theylefti
    nthemorni
    ng, besi
    zoji
    kaTuesday
    sonketoCapetown,bendineint
    ervi
    ewmnaon
    the30th.Sobengi
    zogibelait
    axitoMtatathen
    bangi
    pickupkhonanoMawande.

    [08/
    17, 23:
    33]Mca: Happybirt
    hdaytomybaby .
    ANDILECHARI SMANTOMBI YASONDI NI
    BUTHELEZI ,maytheLor dabovegiveyoumany
    morey earsandenjoyy ourdaynana.Youare
    shari
    ngabi r
    thdaywi t
    hubhabhawami Ay
    anda.
    I
    NSERT71

    ThinawelefttoKokst
    adar ound6oobaba
    bebezaphangelaf
    oll
    owingday .Istay
    edMonday
    athomet henTuesdayIleft
    .IndeedImetoo
    AyandainMt at
    abesebel i
    ndil
    ev el
    e,wear
    riv
    ed
    i
    nCapet ownngo2am t hef oll
    owingday.

    >>>>>>>

    DayswentbyIwentf ormyi nt
    ervi
    ew,which
    Ayandaaccompani edme, Iwassoner v
    ous,I
    fel
    tlikevomit
    ingbutf unnyt hi
    ngIdidn'
    teat
    anythingint
    hemor ning, andIsuddenlyhad
    runnystomach.Ireall
    yneededsomeonet o
    calm mynervesandAy andawasthere.Iwas
    donewi thmyinter
    viewwhi chIbel
    ieveIdidwel
    l
    i
    twasnotasbadasIt hought.
    Not hingmuchwasgoi ngt obedoneont his
    sidehencet heweddi ngi bizobasekhay a,deco,
    cake, tentandev erythingi bizokwenziwangu
    Tot i
    ,mhaandmamkhul uandt wof r
    iendszi ka
    Tot iusi sGcinanoma' am Jaca.Theywer e
    wai t
    ingf ortheweddi ngt hemeandcol ours,I
    hadnotdeci dedy et,
    Idi dn'tknowwhi chcol ours
    tochoosebutIwant edt obeourcol ours
    Ay anda' sfavourat ecolourandmi nes,thedr ess,
    bride'smai ddresses, sui t
    sbesi zozihoyaon
    thisside.Bendi ngekaqal inixandi twast heend
    ofnov emberwhi chmeantwehad2mont hs
    only,Iwassot iredIdon' tknowwhybutIf el
    t
    drainedal lIwant edwast osl eep,sl
    eepand
    sleep.

    Ayandakeptonpester
    ingthatweneedt ogo
    andbuyrings,
    seetheweddingplannerbutI
    wasjustsoexhaust
    edf ort
    hat.Ikepton
    post
    poni
    ngupunt
    ilt
    hedaysi
    xabana.

    I
    twasear
    lyi
    nthemor
    ningar
    ound9whenhe
    wokemeup

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha
    Me:
    yini
    manj
    e?What?
    Ay anda:v
    uka(wakeup),weneedt obath
    si
    y ofunai
    ri
    ngsatleastkubekhonaesi
    yenzi
    l
    e,
    (i
    n16day swear eleavi
    ngandwehav en'
    t
    startedwi
    thanyt
    hing)
    Me:
    notnow,
    ngi
    sal
    ele
    Ay
    anda:
    hay
    ibhabhav
    uka,
    yini
    ngawev
    ele
    Me:ongi
    yekapl
    ease,
    ngi
    funul
    ala.OoTot
    iwi
    l
    l
    doev
    eryt
    hing
    Ayanda:Ir
    ingszezethubhabhamel
    ezikhet
    hwe
    si
    thiandooTotihavedoneenoughandther
    e's
    al
    otmel
    ebakwenze
    Me:ay
    hii
    ngikhat
    hel
    emi
    naf
    unul
    ala(l
    eav
    eme
    al
    oneI
    '
    mt i
    red)
    Ayanda:
    bhabhaal
    lyoudol
    atel
    yist
    osl
    eep,
    sl
    eepandsl
    eep

    Me:
    ist
    her
    eanypr
    obl
    em wi
    tht
    hat
    ?
    Ayanda:Yes!
    !Imeanno!butthat'
    snotheal
    thy
    ,
    hav ey
    ounoti
    cedphof
    uy ouaregaini
    ngweight
    kulent
    oyol
    alaoko,uf
    unuthiut
    shataubesowu
    roundngathiuy
    owatermelo.
    ..
    ..

    Zangealigqi
    be.Istart
    edcr yi
    ng, Istor medoutof
    thebedroom andwentt obr ushmyt eeth,It
    ook
    myshowercapngay igcokisaIgoti ntot he
    showerIjuststoodtheretear sstreami ngdown
    mycheeks, IthinkIstoodther eforabout10
    minuteswaterwasst i
    llrunningt hroughmy
    body ,Iwassohur t
    ,y esIhav enot i
    cednam uba
    ndibar oundyezidleleni butdi dhehadt or ubit
    i
    n.Icr iedsil
    ently,Itriedt ostopbutbezi zehlel
    a
    njeinyembezi .Ihear dtheshowerdooropenedI
    didn'tmov ebendi ngekaqal ikwakuhl ambaoko.
    Ay andagoti nandhehel dmef rom theback,
    hehel dmev eryti
    ghthedi dn'tsayany thingI
    wassobbi nghewashedmybackt henmy
    whol ebodyIj uststoodt heremot ionless, he
    swi t
    chedof famanzi andwentoutoft he
    shower, t
    hencamebackwi t
    habodyt owel
    wr appedmybodyandcar ri
    edmei ntot hebed.
    Hewentbacki ntotheshoweraf tersomet ime
    waphuma.Wewer ebot hquit enooneut tereda
    wor d.Idri
    edmybodyandl otionedi t
    .Hewas
    busyl oti
    oninghim sel f.AllofasuddenIneeded
    mymanIwentt ohi m andhel dhimf rom t he
    back, het urnedtof aceme, ourey eslockedwe
    ki
    ssedsosof tbengat hiwewer ebot ht i
    redallof
    asuddeni tbecomesor ough, helift
    edmeand
    car r
    iedmei ntothebedandl aidmeont hebed
    onmyback,
    wedi
    dn'
    tbr
    eakt
    heki
    ss.

    Havey ouev erbeeni nasi tuat


    ionwher eyou
    makel oveinyembezi ziflowdowny ourcheeks
    ungayaziulil
    elani.I
    twasl i
    kethat,butIenjoyed
    eachandev er
    ymomentofi t
    .Notiny embezi
    kodwa.webot hcameandhecl eanedme.He
    wipedmyt earsandki ssedmyf oreheadand
    wecuddl ed.Imi ghthav efall
    enasl eepbecause
    whenIwokeupYandahadmademef rui
    tsalad
    besekuar ound12pm.

    Iwenttor
    insemyteethngadl
    a.Hewasbusy
    makingkebed.Iwenttohughi
    m

    Me:
    Yanda
    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha
    Me:
    real
    l
    y,whati
    swr
    ongwi
    thme?
    Ayanda: Idon'
    tknowbhabha, Ireall
    ydon' t
    know,I'
    mr eall
    yrunningoutofideas, youare
    gett
    ingwor sedaybyday .I
    tsl
    ikendi m owenza
    yonkelento.Oflat
    elyndosabanot hethanawe
    becausey onkeint
    oendiyit
    het
    hay oy akuli
    l
    isa

    Me: i
    tsnoty
    oubhabha,andI'
    m sor
    ryMt
    ungwa,
    Idon'
    tknowkwenzakal
    aningam
    Ayanda:wewill
    bef
    inebhabha,
    wehav
    eeach
    ot
    herangit
    hi?
    Me: Inodded,I
    'm sor
    ryMtungwa
    ngokukuphathi
    sakakubi
    Ayanda:
    younotbhabha,
    I'
    mjustwor
    ri
    ed
    ngawe
    Me:
    sodoI
    Ay
    anda:wewil
    lgett
    hroughthi
    s,butbhabha
    weneedt
    oseethedoctor
    ,youarenotf
    ine.
    Me:
    ok(Iknewi
    fndi
    thi
    hay
    indi
    ri
    te
    way
    ezongi
    bel
    esel
    a)comeki
    ssmeke
    Ayanda:hesmi
    ledseducti
    vel
    y,l
    ont
    oske
    wandit
    handaMarhadebe
    Me:
    kudal
    andakut
    handa
    Ayanda:Iknowbutl
    atel
    yuno70%ext
    raom
    add-i
    l
    eyo.
    Me:mustIremov
    elo70%pl
    usnomny
    eu95%
    behl
    eli
    ekhona
    Ay
    anda:
    nobhabhaandi
    khal
    azi
    ndi
    yancoma.
    Me:
    ohhh

    Me:
    babyIt
    hinkwecangosi
    yof
    unaamar
    ingke
    Ay
    anda:
    ser
    ious
    Me:
    yes
    Ayanda:t
    hankyouLor
    d, besendi
    bayouhave
    changedyourmi
    ndaboutus,aboutget
    ti
    ng
    marri
    ed.
    Me:(Ismiled)Icanst
    il
    lchangemymi
    nd,
    andi
    katshoIdo
    Ayanda:
    thatwi
    l
    lbet
    hedayungandi
    bul
    ala
    ngayo
    Me:
    yousuchababyy
    azi
    Ay
    anda:
    heywenabhabha,
    andi
    yont
    angakho.

    Webot
    hlaughed.

    Me:
    letmet
    akeaqui
    ckshowerke
    Ay
    anda:
    ok.

    If
    ini
    shed,wegetdressedandwentto
    Water
    front,
    Idi
    dn'tseeanythi
    ngIl
    i
    ke.Thenwe
    dr
    ovetoCanalwalk.

    Hay
    ikabi
    ladi
    esbutmnaangazi
    Iri
    ngi
    t'
    sjusta
    ri
    ng.IwantedIringbetween8000and15000
    nothingmoreafterall
    it'
    sjustajewel
    l
    ery,
    Ihat
    e
    i
    ntoendenzalaamehl obutMrKhumal o
    besingaci
    ngingendlel
    aey ione.

    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    23:
    33]Mca:
    INSERT72

    Wegott heringseventhoughIwasnothappy
    witht
    hepr i
    cezazobutbendi zot
    hini,
    Iwasnot
    theonewhowaspay ingforthem.Iwill
    giv
    ey ou
    thedet
    ailsofourri
    ngsl at
    er.Wewentback
    homeatl eastbesi
    yenzil
    eeny eyeendl
    essli
    st
    andallt
    hanst oYanda

    Wef inal
    l
    ygotsomeonewhowasgoingto
    designedmydressandf
    orbride'
    smai
    d'
    s
    dresses,sui
    tsf
    ort
    heguys.HernamewasVer
    a
    av eryst rangel adyi nhermi ddl e40sor i
    ginall
    y
    shewasf rom I talybutbeseshadel engapha, her
    Englishl et'sjustsayi twas. ..Butsheknewher
    j
    ob.Sheshowedmet hecat alogandt her ewas
    thi
    sdr esst hatIj ustf el
    l i
    nl ov ewi th,i
    twasnot
    whi t
    ebutv erybeaut iful(wi ll showy out he
    colournoty onkekodwa) .Shet ookthe
    measur ement sandaf t
    ert hatIcal ledAy andain,
    hewasnotgoi ngt oseemydr essaloku.Hi s
    bestmanwasMawande, thenXhant i
    bezobakhona, Ndumi sobezobuy aforhi sleave
    andMsi ra.I fyounot i
    ceev ersi nceImetu
    AyandaIdon' tment ionuNdumi sothatmuch,
    atthatmomentbendi ngekadi bani nayenam
    bendi ngamazi onl yonf otos.Ay andaat hi aft
    er
    compl eti
    nghi sBcurhewor kedi nSomer set
    hospi talfor2y earst henaf tert hathewentt o
    Taiwani nAsi aandwor kedt hereasa
    professi onal nur sebutbebekhul umaef ownini
    nowandagai n.Forme, ibizobanguZee,
    Phumza, Dimakat soandmycousi nNj abulo.
    Waqal
    akeuVer
    awi
    thherj
    ob.

    Day swentbybesi zohambange17December


    ugodukai twasconf i
    rmedt hatnge28Decwas
    goingtobemyTeaPar ty(br i
    dalshower)we
    calli
    tamabhasot hina.Ibizobaearli
    erbecauseI
    wasnotgoi ngtogetachancet ocomebackf or
    i
    tbef oremyweddi ng.Ndi l
    i
    hlubikazikeguysif
    thereisanyhl ubi
    orhl ubikazihere,ingel
    engel
    e,
    youwi l
    l agreewit
    hmeont hisone.Kuy endi
    swa
    kwahl ubi moreespeciallyifumkhweny ana
    i
    bhadel ekonke.

    Asumshakazi mandif
    ikaemzinindif
    ikanento
    zami endisukanazoekhay afr
    om cut l
    eryto
    bedroom suit.Mawuf unauphekay oumustnot
    ask"ngizowut holakuphiumese"yawuphoxwa
    worseifawut handwa, youmustnotaskwher e
    arethecupsi fy ouwannamakecof f
    eeortea
    forabant u, youusey ourownt hi
    ngs.Wewent
    homeont he17t handAy andarefusedugoduka
    sowahl alaekhay aandspentt heChr ist
    mas
    ekhay a, wewer eal onebecausemymom and
    dadbebesezi l
    ali
    ni.Ont heChr i
    stmasev e
    MawandeandMsi racamet oo,wespent
    Christmasj ustthef ourofust henl at
    ewedr ov
    e
    toMat atiele.Everyonebebuy i
    leitcanbehect i
    c
    masi buy esonkeekhay aabout22i nt ot
    albut
    kumnandi .OoAy andadi dn'thav eisi
    thukut
    hezi
    becausemycousi nbr ot hersbebekhonanabo
    almostt hesameage.Bebezoj ikalatenge26
    butkwal iwaekhay at hent heyendedup
    begodukange27l at etheyhadf unImeanf un.
    Hahahaha.I biseyingabant wanabasekhay a
    wethut heywer et reatedl ikeone.Cas
    mabephekaooMncedi si(mycousi ns)bepheka
    nayeuAy anda, hleliekut handav el
    eupheka.
    Theywer enott reat edasi zi
    vakashi,which
    madet hem beatease.
    The28y afika.Yerrbanemaliabant
    uoutthere
    neverbel
    iev eumunt umay et
    heakanamali
    namanga.I '
    m sorryI'
    m abouttoboreyounge
    det
    ailsbutIhav etotelly
    out hi
    s,whatIgotas
    mygi f
    tsfrom diff
    erentpeople.

    Igotii
    ngobozo,ucant
    si(grassmat),amaphi
    ni,
    enamel di
    shes,i
    zit
    hebe,(
    grasstr
    ay)3legged
    potssize4,10and14(hahahaha)theygotto
    bekiddingme.Yeswear eleavi
    ngint
    he
    modernday sbutmyf amil
    ysti
    ll
    kepti
    siko
    l
    wasekhay a.

    Igotcut
    leryyonke,kett
    le,
    ironkonkeokwase
    ki
    tchen,
    linen,bl
    ankets,duvet

    Dabsboughtmel
    eat
    herwashi
    ngbasket
    ,swabs
    andPr
    esl
    esbeddi
    ngandal
    eat
    hert
    ray
    .

    Momkhul
    uboughtmeDi
    nni
    ngr
    oom sui
    t,

    babah(mydad'
    stwi
    n)nomhaboughtme
    couchespl
    ust
    hei
    rcof
    feet
    abl
    e.

    Abakul oToti
    .Boughtmebedroom suit
    : base
    bedwi thheadboard,ki
    st,
    chestofdrawerand
    dressingtabl
    enesidelamps,afri
    dge,
    micr owaveandwashingmachine(mal umekazi
    stressedthatsheboughtmeawashi ng
    machi necassheknowshowl azyIwas)ev er
    y
    onel aughedatme,andawadr obe.

    Tamkhul
    uboughtisi
    gqokosi
    kababakaAy
    anda
    ,oot
    amncinci
    bakhe,i
    ngubozabo.
    MakhuluwagqokisamamakaAy andano
    makhul
    uwakhe, dabswakhe,nomamomncane
    bakhef
    rom headtotoenetyal
    inengubozabo.

    Icol
    leagueszikaToti
    nobababr
    oughtv
    oucher
    s
    ,zakosheetst r
    eet
    ,boar
    dmans,
    @home,
    woolworths.

    Guy sningothukii
    mi shadoinqabil
    ephela
    ezil
    ali
    ni,soy oucani maginetheexci
    tement ,
    andbar einmi ndz i
    yabuyazonkeezizinto.
    Ziyabhalwaphant sievery
    thingthaty
    ougetasa
    presentmakwenzi waumgi dikul
    omzi buyi
    phiwe
    khonay ayibuyi
    sa.

    Hayibomypar ent
    sbebezothenganibona,
    nothingabsolutel
    ynothi
    ng,theyhadtobuy
    sui
    tsf orbabakaAy anda,babomncanebabo,
    Ayanda, Xhanti,NdumisoandMawande, t
    hey
    alsoboughtt wobedroom suitsekababa
    kaAy andaandhi smothernekamakhul uka
    Ay andasinceleyayi
    velakuloTot
    iwasOur s.
    Zonabazi thengeaft
    ertheteapartysebeboni
    le
    kushodai ni.

    Kwadl
    i
    wakwamnandi
    kwal
    alwa.

    Foll
    owingdaytheywerepackednicel
    yegarage
    castherewasnospaceluckil
    yezi
    ny e
    zazi
    seziboxi
    nizazo,
    andtheywerereadyforthe
    dayIleavehome.

    NgenewYear sevewewenttoDurbanandoo
    Ayandawerether
    esaqalaePoi
    ntanditwas
    packedbuthehadfunsabuy
    aonthe3rd.

    >>>>>>>>>
    Ont
    he6thwewentbackt oCapetowncason
    t
    he12thbendizoqal
    aemsebenzi
    niandIhad
    r
    egi
    str
    ati
    ontoo.

    YeppIwasgoi
    ngt
    odoTHI
    RDy
    ear

    Hay
    ini
    guysi
    tsmyhusband'
    sbi
    rt
    hdayseey
    ou
    t
    omorrow

    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    23:
    34]Mca:
    INSERT73

    Iregist
    eredatCputasat hir
    dy earst
    udent,and
    gotmyst udentcard.Icancel
    ledmyr oom eres,
    therewasnousei nhav i
    ngitcasIwasnot
    usingitanyway.I
    twasgoi ngtobewor senow
    t
    hatIwasget
    ti
    ngmar
    ri
    edi
    namont
    h'st
    ime.

    Ever
    ythi
    ngwasgoi
    ngwel
    lthepr
    epar
    ati
    onsf
    or
    thewedding.

    Myal
    arm wentof
    fat5:
    30,
    kwat
    himandi
    fe.

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha
    Me:
    mhmm
    Ay
    anda:
    wakeup
    Me:
    mhhhmmmmm
    Ay
    anda:
    wakeup.(Heshookme)
    Me:
    5mi
    nut
    es
    Ay
    anda:
    hay
    ibhabhav
    uka
    Me:
    5mi
    nut
    esnj
    e
    Isl
    eptf
    orabout10mi
    nut
    eshewokemeup
    agai
    n.

    Ayanda:
    hay
    ibhabhav
    uka,
    youar
    egoi
    ngt
    obe
    l
    ate
    Me:
    mfxmmm.

    Iwokeup, bathedandgotdr essed, Iworea


    whitedr esswi t
    habl acklinenblazeral l
    from
    Queenspar k,andabl ackheel,thenIt ookmy
    l
    abcoatbecauseIwasgoi ngtoneedi t.Ay anda
    wasawakenay e, hewasgoi ngtodr opmeat
    wor k,whatwast hepoi ntofhav ingacari f
    ndidrotswa.Wedr ovetowor kandIr eportedat
    7:15,Iwasear l
    yany way.Iwasshownwhatt o
    dowhi chdepar tmentIwi llbewor kingat
    unfortunatelyduet omyheal thcondi ti
    on
    (asthma)If ail
    edmymedi calt
    est ssowasnot
    goingt owor kinther ef
    inerybuti nanother
    departmentwel li
    twasgoodby etoshift
    sand
    wor ki
    ngboot s,i wasshowwhom t or epor
    tto
    blablablat henwentt oHR.Iwasgoi ngtostart
    offi
    cial
    lyfollowi ngday,soIwasdonengabo
    12:30.Ithenf onedAyandat opickmeuphe
    cameandwewenthome.UWar anoMsi ra
    bebesendlini bedlaIpizza,
    myf avour
    at etr
    ipl
    e
    decker,chickenandmushr oom

    War
    a:heyl
    astbor
    n
    Me:
    heybabomdal
    a
    War
    a:howar
    eyoudoi
    ng?
    Me:
    I'
    m goodt
    hanxandy
    our
    sel
    f
    Wara:I
    '
    m good,
    iti
    smeorwhat
    ,whyupi
    nk
    so?
    areyouokmanyani
    ?
    Me: (Ismi
    l
    ed)Iam okbabomdal
    a,hay
    ibooko
    ndanje
    Msi
    ra:
    nam War
    andi
    bonal
    ont
    o,l
    ookather
    cheeks,
    theyar
    eyel
    l
    owandzi
    ntumnt
    um
    Me: onesay
    sI'
    m pinkandanot
    heronesay
    smy
    cheeksar
    eyell
    ow,whichi
    swhichkant
    i?
    War
    a:bot
    h

    Ayandatookapizzaformei
    nthemi
    crowave
    andcamet osi
    tnexttome.Thesmel
    lofi
    t
    savel
    esangihl
    uthi
    sa

    Me:
    nobabyIdon'
    tfeel
    li
    keeat
    ingpi
    zza
    Ayanda:buti
    tsy
    ourf
    avour
    ate,
    that
    '
    swhyI
    boughti
    t
    Me:
    nobhabha,
    letmedoi
    greensal
    ad
    Ay
    anda:
    sitke,
    Iwi
    l
    ldoi
    tfory
    ou
    Me: t
    hanxbhabha,pl
    easeputmorevi
    negarand
    br
    ingmet heNandosspice,
    Iwanti
    thot
    Ay
    anda:
    buty
    ouar
    enotsupposet
    oeatper
    i
    per
    irememberyourdoct
    orsai
    dint
    oezi
    babay
    o
    wil
    lcompr
    essyourchest
    Me:
    justf
    ort
    odaybhabha

    Hefini
    sheddoingitandgav
    eitt
    ome, Iv
    inegar
    i
    bingavakal
    i,Ist
    oodupngayoyi
    thel
    a.

    Ay
    anda:
    don'
    tyout
    hinkt
    hat
    'st
    oomuch
    Me:
    nobhabha.

    Wef
    ini
    shedeat
    ing,
    Ifel
    tsot
    ir
    ed,
    Ist
    oodup
    Me:
    I'
    m goi
    ngt
    otakeanapguy
    s,seey
    oul
    ater
    Ay
    anda:
    ok,
    Iwi
    l
    ljoi
    nyoushor
    tl
    y
    Me: ok,
    Idozedof
    fimmedi
    atel
    yngav
    uka
    ngi
    l
    ambe
    Iwenttori
    nsemymout hngayaekitchen
    Ayandawastherecookingweari
    nganapr on
    ubacutekeowam umt umayeinapr on.Idi
    dn'
    t
    feell
    i
    keeati
    nganythi
    ngexceptforgreensalad,
    eyonantobendi
    yif
    unaibiy
    ivi
    negar.

    Ay
    anda:
    nott
    hatagai
    nbhabha
    Me:
    I'
    m hungr
    y
    Ay
    anda:
    butay
    ihl
    uthi
    sil
    ont
    o

    Iat
    emyf
    ood,
    butIwasf
    arf
    rom f
    ull
    .

    Me:
    andi
    hlut
    hangabhabha
    Ayanda:I
    '
    m al
    mostdone(hewascooki
    ngi
    beefst
    ew)
    Me:
    Idon'
    tfeel
    li
    keeat
    ingmeat
    Ay
    anda:whatar
    eyougoi
    ngt
    oeatt
    hen?
    Me: Idon'tknow,al
    lIknowisIam hungry.
    (Everyt
    hingbinamafuthai
    bindenzanaar
    i
    ndi
    ngekasondelikuyo)
    Ay
    anda:
    let
    sgoandbuychi
    pske
    Me:nobhabha,andi
    funi
    kwant
    oinamaf
    utha,
    l
    etmetr
    yIfrui
    tsalad
    Ay
    anda:
    Iwi
    l
    ldoi
    tfory
    our
    elax
    .
    Me:
    justdon'
    taddy
    oghur
    tpl
    ease

    Hedidit
    ,ithadst
    rawber
    ri
    es,banana,
    appl
    eand
    pi
    neappl
    e, t
    henhegavei
    ttoomeandpour ed
    mei kr
    ushmangoj ui
    ce

    Me:
    thanky
    ou
    Ay
    anda:
    pleasur
    e

    If
    ir
    stat
    eIpi
    neappl
    e,kwat
    hikant
    indi
    yi
    moshi
    l
    e,
    thesmellofitj
    ustki
    l
    ledme, Ir
    ushedt
    othe
    nearestbat
    hroom,andpuked.

    Ayanda: bhabha,youneedtoseethedoctor
    honestl
    yandt hist
    imeandizuv
    angawesiyaya
    Satur
    daymor ningIappoi
    ntmenti
    zakwenzi
    wa
    ndi
    m, youar enotwell
    Me: I
    'mfi
    neYanda,Ithi
    nkyiny
    ongonje,
    kade
    ngagci
    nauhambisa,
    Iwil
    lpassbythePharmacy
    tomorr
    ow
    Ayanda:
    bhabhaakhobubhanxabePhar
    macy
    uy
    akuboy ouwi
    ll
    seethedoctorandt
    hat
    'sf
    inal
    !
    Me:okthen,
    (Ir
    insedmymout
    handwentt
    o
    t
    heki
    tchen
    Ay
    anda:
    atl
    eastdr
    inki
    jui
    ceke
    Me: Icoul
    dn'
    tevendr
    inki
    t,Ir
    ani
    ntot
    he
    bat
    hroom agai
    n.
    Mf
    xmmm Igav
    eup.Isl
    eptndi
    ngadl
    anga

    Iwokeupf ol
    lowingdaywenttowor k,Ay
    anda
    droppedme.Al lofasuddenIf
    eltl
    ikeeat
    ingeat
    -sum -mor.Iwentintothecaf
    eter
    iaand
    boughtthem ,Ialmostatet
    hewholepacket,
    atl
    eastzahl
    ala

    Iboughtanot
    herpacketonmywayout
    .

    Ayanda:di
    dyoumanaget
    oeatsomet
    hing
    bhabha?
    Me:
    yesl
    ove
    Ay
    anda:
    whatdi
    dyoueat
    ?
    Me:
    eat-sum -
    mor
    Ay
    anda:
    (hel
    aughedatme)
    Idon'
    tknownobabendi qeqa(l
    osi
    ngmymi nd)
    nabutumtuobehlekaintoendi
    yit
    hethayo
    bevel
    eandi
    li
    li
    se,Icri
    edandIcried,Ayandahad
    topul
    lofft
    heroad,wajikel
    aonmysi de

    Ayanda:
    bhabhawhati
    sgoi
    ngonkant
    i,why
    unj
    e?
    Me:
    whydoy
    oual
    way
    shav
    etol
    aughatme
    Ayanda:Iam sor
    rybhabha,
    hecameand
    huggedme.

    HayiIwasreal
    l
    ysi
    ck,
    somet
    hingwasdef
    ini
    tel
    y
    wrongwit
    h

    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
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    WegothomeandIwentst
    raightupst
    air
    s,I
    tookof
    fmyshoesandmyclothesandworepj
    s
    andgotunderbl
    anket
    s

    Dayswentbyi twasFri
    daymor ni
    ng,asusual
    ,I
    wokeupanddi dmydail
    yroutine,t
    hedaywas
    normall
    ikeotherdays,besendiqheli
    le
    emsebenziniandIenj
    oyedev erysingl
    eminut
    eI
    spentt
    here,IwasdoingwhatIl ove.

    LaterAyandapickedmeupwhi l
    ewewer e
    dri
    vinghomeIf el
    tsohot, It
    ookof fmyj acket,I
    gotworse,heturnedont heai
    rconthen
    kwangcono.Mywhol ebodywast i
    rednje, we
    gothomebutsomet hingwasdefinit
    elynotright
    aboutme, Ihadshor t
    nessofbreathbutIt ri
    ed
    tohideitf
    rom AyandacasIknewhewasgoi ng
    tosay"HOSPITALBHABHA"wewenti nside,he
    wascar ry i
    ngmypur seandmybagandwe
    walkedupst airssi ncokol anje, buthay i
    ndohl ulekaIcoul dn'tbr eath, Ifel
    tlightheaded,
    Iheldmychestbutbekubuhl ungu,Itriedso
    hardt obr eathbutIcoul dn'
    t, Itri
    edt ost andon
    myownbutIwasweak, IthinkAy andasawt hat
    cashewaswal kingbehi ndme,hedr oppedt he
    bagsandpi ckedmeupwasosewandi ngeni sa
    i
    nt hebedr oom, hei mmedi at el
    ydialledt heER
    24, lucki l
    yt heydi dn'ttaket ool ong.Ay anda
    wehl amabat hi theyweout sideway ov ula
    egatini,af terfewmi nut es,2whi t
    eguy scame
    withat ankofOxy genandnebul i
    ser.Iwas
    givennebsbutIdi dn'tr espond, theyputadr ip
    foramaant i
    biot i
    csaf tersomet ime
    ndingabi khor it
    e, theydeci dedt ot akemet o
    hospi tal,Iwasadmi tted.SinceIwasst ayingi n
    TableVi ew, theyt ookmet oMedi clinici nstead
    ofNet car ehospi t
    al whi chwascl osert han
    Medi clinicAy andacamewi thme, hedi dn' t
    dri
    v ebutwaswi thmei ntheAmbul ance, Iwas
    attendedimmedi at ely,thent hePhy siciancame
    andheaskedmeal l t
    hequest ionshewant edto
    know, whichIanswer edt hem , t
    henIt oldhim
    formymedi calhistoryhemustcont actmy
    Phy si
    cianinMedi clinicCapet own, bloodswer e
    takenthenAy andaaskedi fIcangetapr ivat
    e
    room cashewant edt osl eepinbuthewast old
    thatmymedi calaiddoesn' tpayf orthatifI
    wantapr i
    vatewar d, ther ewasanext raR250
    perdayIneededt opayandhewasgoi ngtopay
    R300f orthecouchhewasgoi ngt osl eepin
    (ibinguonesi t
    ternal ocouch) .Heagr eedtopay
    soi twasallsorted.Hef onedMawandet opi
    ck
    him ayolandamyt oiletr
    ies.Mawandei ndeed
    pickedhim.

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabhamustIbr
    ingy
    ousomet
    hing
    Me:
    yesbhabha
    Ay
    anda:
    ndi
    zenani
    Me:you, ohhmymanungcol
    i
    lekodwa(hehad
    t
    hatseducti
    vesmi
    l
    e)
    Ay
    anda:
    mustIal
    sobr
    inguMt
    ungwa
    Me:
    ayhi
    imaar
    nAy
    anda
    Ayanda:
    seeyoumasi
    nyakebhabha.(He
    ki
    ssedmeandlef
    t)

    Theycamebackboy i3i
    twaspast6sahl al
    a
    bancokol
    aaboutrandom t
    hingsngil
    alel
    ebona.
    Theylef
    tngo9sebexhoshwav i
    sit
    inghours
    bezi
    phelango8vele

    Ihadsupperwhi chwasanappl eonly.Heslept


    ont hecouchandear l
    yinthemor ni
    nghehel ped
    mebat hcasmyot herhandibi
    nedripandI
    didn'twannaspoilmylineknowingthatIhave
    thinv ei
    ns.Hel
    otionedmeandIchangedi nt
    o
    cleanpj s.,
    her
    insedhisteethandwashedhi s
    f
    aceonl
    y.

    Ar
    ound8mydoct
    orcame

    Hegr
    eet
    edusandwegr
    eet
    edhi
    m back

    Doc:mi ssRhadebe, allyourbloodresult


    scame
    backnegati
    ve,wedi dn'tfindanyinfect
    ionthat
    mightcauseshortnessofbr eath,
    howev erwe
    needtoknowwhatt riggeredit
    Me:
    thatmeansIwon'
    tbeabl
    etogohome
    Doc:noty et
    ,yourr ecordswit
    hy ourPhy si
    cian
    showst hatyoual sohav ePostnasal dr
    ipsinus,
    weneedt ot
    akey ourswabs, (Ihateswabs
    worsethoset akent hroughnose)Iwi l
    lsend
    peoplefrom pathcaret odothem , under
    normalconditions,wewer egoingt odoX-r ays
    butinyourcondi t
    ionwecan' t
    Ayanda:whatar
    eyoutal
    kingaboutdoctor?
    ?
    Helookedatme,Ishr
    uggedmyshoul ders,
    I
    wantedtoknownami
    Doc: t
    heX-raymi
    ghthar
    mthebaby,
    more
    especi
    all
    yift
    heX-
    rayi
    stobedoneonthe
    chest,l
    u..
    .

    Ay
    andadi
    dn'
    tev
    enwai
    tforhi
    mtof
    ini
    sh

    Ay
    anda:whatbabyareyoutal
    ki
    ngabout?i
    s
    mywif
    epregnantdoct
    or??
    Doct
    or:(l
    ookedatus)youdidn'
    tknow,
    the
    bl
    oodsshowthaty
    ouarepregnant
    Ay
    anda:
    arey
    ousur
    edoct
    or?
    Doct
    or:yesIam,congr
    atul
    ati
    onmrKhumal
    o
    andmissRhadebe
    Ayanda:
    mrandMrsKhumal
    odoc
    (y
    aphambanal
    o)
    Doc:
    myapol
    ogi
    es
    Ayanda:
    (cametome,hesqueezedt
    hel
    i
    feout
    ofme)Enkosi
    Marhadebe
    Me:
    Ican'
    tbr
    eat
    h
    Ay
    anda:
    ohhsor
    rybhabha

    Heandt
    hedocl
    aughed

    Doc: Iwi
    ll
    ar r
    angethatyouseeoneofourgood
    gynaecol
    ogist,DrGart
    hernerthi
    saft
    ernoon,
    so
    thathecancheckifeveryt
    hingisok
    Ay
    anda:
    thanky
    ousomuchdoc
    Doc:pl
    easure,Iwil
    lcomeandcheckyouagai
    n
    bef
    oreIl
    eave,congr
    atul
    ati
    onsagai
    n.
    Mf xmmm , congr atulati
    onsmyf ootIjustsat
    thereemot i
    onless, pr egnant ,Ir
    eallydidn'
    t
    knowhowt of eel,Ijustgotunderbl anket
    sand
    cov ermyselfandcr ied, hay iIdidn'twannabe
    pregnantmnaat19NO! !!Thi swasnothowI
    plannedmyl ife,bendi ngalal anga, Ijustdi
    dn'
    t
    feel l
    i
    ketal
    kingt oany one, justthet hought
    mademewannav omi t, Irushedi ntot he
    bathroom andt hrewout .Mf xmmm

    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
    [
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    17,
    23:
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    Ayandaf
    oll
    owedme,Ihat
    ednal
    oAy andahe
    wassuff
    ocati
    ngme,
    bekumeleandi
    l
    andeleoko.

    Aft
    ersometi
    meaport
    ercamewit
    hawheel
    chai
    randIwast
    akentoDrGar
    ther
    ner'
    sroom,
    Iwaitedinthereception,wewer eabout5all
    pregnant,GodIcoul dn'tpicturemyselfwi
    tha
    bi
    gt ummy, Iwasinstructedt ogoandpeeona
    small cont
    ainer
    .Iwai tedf ormyt ur
    nandMr
    Godzillawasbymysi de.Ourt urncameandI
    st
    oodupandwal kedintot hedoctor'
    sroom

    myGy
    naewasanol
    dwhi
    teguyandv
    eryni
    ce.

    Doc:
    goodmor ni
    ngKhumal
    os(Iwant
    edt
    osay
    MsRhadebe)
    Ay
    anda:
    goodmor
    ningdoct
    or
    Doc:pleaset
    akeaseat(Ayandawandi
    tsal
    ela
    i
    sihl
    alondahl
    alanay
    ewahlal
    a),howar
    ey ou
    t
    oday?
    Ay
    anda:
    wear
    efi
    nedoct
    ort
    hansandy
    our
    sel
    f?
    Doc:good,MrsKhumal
    o,DrDeBr
    uint
    oldme
    youar
    epr egnant
    Me:Ishruggedmyshoul
    der
    s(t
    hist
    opi
    cwas
    r
    eal
    boringme)
    Doc:come,l
    aythere,(It
    ookof fmyunderwear
    ,
    Iwastol
    dto,Ayandatri
    edtohelpint
    othebed,I
    j
    ustgavehi
    mt helookthatsaysDON'TDARE,
    uci
    mbakewandi hoya,hehelpedmeany way
    )

    Drappli
    edav er
    ycoldgelonmytummyand
    mov edt
    hetransducerandwehear
    dthehear
    t
    beatofthebaby
    Doc:congr
    atul
    ati
    onsthi
    sshowsthatyouare
    12weekspregnant
    ,,
    ,,
    that
    'st
    heheartbeatof
    l
    it
    tl
    eKhumaloandit'
    sgood

    Thel
    ooki
    nAy
    anda'
    sfacewaspr
    icel
    ess

    Doc:
    doy
    ouwantmet
    omakeapr
    intout?
    Ay
    anda:
    pleasedoct
    or
    Hetookatoi
    l
    etpaperandwi
    pedmyt
    ummyand
    cl
    eanedt
    hetransducer

    Ayanda:whenwi
    l
    lwebeabl
    etoseet
    hegender
    ofourbaby
    Doc: i
    t'
    ssti
    l
    learl
    ytotel
    l,bet
    ween18and20
    weeks,youwil
    lbeabl
    etoknowbutital
    so
    dependsonhowwel l
    thebabyall
    owsustosee

    Doctormadet
    woprintouts,onewit
    ht hebaby
    andonewitht
    heheartbeatandgaveitto
    Ayandasi
    nceIwasstil
    ll
    yingonthebed

    Doctor:Ial
    soneedt otakeapepsmear,not
    thatyourar
    eatrisksinceyouarebel
    ow35but
    j
    usttobesaf e,
    (hemademehol dawarm bott
    le
    andtoldmet ocoughwhi chIdi
    dheinser
    ted
    somethi
    ngonmytreasur
    easi
    fhewastaki
    ng
    somethi
    ngandhewasdone)t
    herewego,do
    youseehoweasyi
    tis

    Ijustnoddedandsmi l
    e.IsatupandAy anda
    helpedmendehlaembhedeni thenhel
    pedme
    wearmyunder wear
    ,thenIwentt osi
    tont he
    chair

    Doc: yourar
    est i
    lli
    nt hefir
    stt ri
    mest erwhi chis
    verycri
    ti
    cal,mostwomendon' tmakei ttot he
    secondone, whichmeansy ouneedt otakei t
    easyasmuchasy oucan.Att hisstagey ouwi l
    l
    experi
    encemor ningsickness.Youwi l
    lfell
    nauseatedevendur i
    ngt hecour seoft heday
    sometimes,youwi ll
    beemot ional,hav ebi gger
    bell
    yandboobsast imegoesby ,visiblevei ns,
    cravi
    ngs,don'
    tbescar edit
    snor mal .Whaty ou
    needtodoi stoeatheal thydiet, l
    ikef ruit
    s,
    veggi
    es,wholegr
    ainanddair
    yproduct
    .Iwi
    l
    l
    alsopr
    escri
    bemultiv
    itami
    nsforyou.

    Ayanda:
    doct
    orisvi
    negarsafefort
    hebaby
    ?
    Casmywifei
    tsal
    lsheeatslat
    ely
    Doc: y
    es,
    vinegarwon'
    tdoanyhar
    mtot
    hebaby
    butshemustnotoverdoit

    Doc:DrBr
    uinal
    sot
    oldmey
    ouar
    east
    hmat
    ic
    Me:
    yesIam doc
    Doc: Iwouldlov etoseey ouoften,weneedt o
    monitoryourpr egnancy,yourbabyismor eat
    ri
    skofdev elopingasthmaorbr eathi
    ng
    probl
    emssi ncey ouar easthmaticatleastifi
    t
    wasthef ather.Keepont akingyourinhalers,
    theyarehar mlessont hebaby, weneedt o
    stabi
    li
    zeitasmuchaswecan.Iwi ll
    also
    i
    ncreasey ourintakeofSy mbicordto320
    i
    nst
    eadof160

    Me:ok, doct
    or.Doct
    orcanIasky
    ou
    somet
    hing?
    Doc:
    any
    thi
    ng,
    Iam her
    efort
    hat
    Me: (Iwassoembar rassed)i
    sitnormal
    to..
    .
    Ehhh..
    ..Imeanto,,
    ,
    ,Ial waysf
    eell
    ikemaking
    l
    ovetomyf iancée,i
    st hatnor
    mal:
    -*

    GodAyandal
    aughedoutl
    oud,
    thedocl
    aughed
    al
    sobuthetr
    iedt
    ohideit
    .

    Hayiboanjaniamadodavele.Iregr
    etba
    ndi
    buzelenibutIneededtoknowcas
    bendimfunaokouAy anda,Inyembezizazi
    sehl
    a.
    Bendiyi
    zondaindl
    elabendingayohonestl
    y.
    Doc: here(hehandedmet i
    ssues)y esi
    tis
    normal andy oucanhavesexasmuchasy ou
    canjustav oi
    ddeepandv i
    gorouspenet r
    ati
    on
    andonlyi ndulgei
    ngentl
    elovemaki ng.Don't
    worrymostoft het
    imeyouwi l
    lfeel
    overwhelmedandv er
    yemotionalbutastime
    goesbyi twillgoaway.

    Me:
    thanky
    oudoct
    or.(West
    oodup)
    Doctor:pl
    easedon'
    tfor
    gettomakean
    appoint
    ment,itmustbein4weekst
    ime.
    Ay
    anda:
    okdoct
    hanky
    ou.

    Wemadeanappoi ntmentandwenttosi
    tdown,
    ther
    ecepti
    oni
    stfonedthewardtosendapor
    ter
    andtheydi
    d.Iwastakenbacktothewar
    d

    Ar
    ound4t
    hedoct
    orcameandexpl
    ainedt
    hatI
    hadanasali
    nfecti
    on,Ii
    nhal
    edsomethi
    ngthatI
    wasal
    ler
    gicto,not
    hingmajor,
    hepr
    escri
    bed
    amaanti
    biot
    icsanddischar
    gedme.

    Wewenttobuymedicat
    ionandwewenthome,
    Iwasbi
    tti
    redIwentt
    ositinthecouch,
    Ayanda
    tookmyover
    nit
    ebagupstair
    sandcameback.

    Ayanda:bhabha,lookatthi
    st hi
    ng,i
    tcantel
    l
    thesi
    zeofthebaby ,
    theheartbeatandthedate
    ofbir
    thofthebaby,yer
    rIcan'twaitf
    ormy
    pri
    ncess,ourPri
    ncessbhabha
    Me:
    cany
    oust
    opt
    alki
    ngaboutt
    hisal
    ready
    !
    Ay
    anda:
    hay
    ibobhabha,
    aren'
    tyouhappy
    ?
    Me:happyforwhat?thatIwi
    llhav
    eachi
    l
    dat
    t
    heageof20, t
    hatsoonIwil
    lhaveabi
    g
    t
    ummy ?aggh
    Ay
    anda:
    yini
    kant
    ingawe?Awumf
    uni
    lomt
    ana
    orwhat
    ?
    Me:
    angi
    funenganemi
    na!
    Ayanda:wel
    ltoughl
    uckkecaswear
    ehav
    ing
    thi
    sbaby
    Me:
    mfxmm
    Ayanda:heywenabhabha,ungandi
    phambanisi
    ,
    ufunandit
    hini
    ,goandmakeachil
    doutsi
    de,i
    s
    thatwhatyouwant?
    Me:
    Idon'
    tcar
    e,whyungahambi
    manj
    epho?
    Ayanda:Iam notgoinganywhere,
    unfor
    tunat
    elyyouarestuckwit
    hme
    Me:
    getout
    !
    Ay
    anda:
    ngi
    yephi
    !
    Me:
    nobakuphi
    Idon'
    tcar
    ejustgetout
    !!

    Hecameclosert
    omeandhel
    dmyhand,
    Ijust
    br
    ushedi
    toff.
    Me:
    getout!

    Ayandawenttositdownandt
    ookhi
    sfoneout
    ofhispocket
    ,Idon'
    tknowwhohewasfoni
    ng
    andIcouldn'
    tcar
    eless

    Someoneanswer
    edi
    twasonl
    oudspeaker

    Voi
    ce:
    Ayandasawubonamkul
    u

    Tot
    i??
    ???

    Ay
    anda:
    sawubonaTot
    i
    Mom :
    howar
    eyoudoi
    ng?
    Ay
    anda:
    notsogoodTot
    i,notsogoodatal
    l
    Tot
    i:whati
    sit,
    arey
    ouok?i
    sAngel
    ok?
    Ay
    anda:
    yes,
    no,
    Idon'
    tknowTot
    i
    Tot
    i:t
    alkt
    omekwenzakal
    ani
    Ay
    anda:
    Tot
    iIam sor
    rysi
    moshi
    l
    e
    Tot
    i:Iknow
    Ay
    anda:
    youknow?
    ???How?
    Tot
    i:mha(makhul
    u)t
    oldme
    Ayanda:yesTotiwear
    epregnant,
    and
    ngi
    yaxol
    i
    sa, Iknowasi
    kashadi
    Toti
    :whatt
    ookyousol
    ongtot
    ell
    me?Ihave
    beenwai
    ti
    ngfory
    ouguys,
    howfarar
    eyounow?
    Ay
    anda:
    sazi
    namhl
    anj
    eTot
    i,12weeks
    Toti
    :siy
    abongahle,
    nodon'
    twor
    ryaboutus,
    usul
    oboli
    leandi
    namonth'
    sti
    me,youwill
    be
    marri
    ed
    Ay
    anda:
    siy
    abongaTot
    ingongasi
    ngxol
    i
    si
    Tot
    i:wher
    eisangel
    ?
    Ay
    anda:
    that
    'st
    her
    easonwhyIam f
    oni
    ng
    Tot
    i:whatisgoi
    ngonAy
    anda(Icoul
    dhearshe
    wasworri
    ed)
    Ayanda:Tot
    iubhabhaat hiakamfunuumtana,
    Ihavebeenbegginghertocalm down,butuy
    a
    ref
    userandakandif
    uniduzekwakhe
    Tot
    i:gi
    vehert
    hef
    one,
    ,
    ,,
    ,
    ,.

    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    23:
    35]Mca:
    INSERT76

    Ay
    anda:
    youar
    eonl
    oudspeakerTot
    i
    Tot
    i:Angel

    Ikeptqui
    te
    Tot
    i:Si
    nenhl
    anhl
    a!!
    Me: (
    ifshecal
    l
    smeSi
    nenhl
    anhl
    aIknowI
    '
    min
    t
    roubl
    e)Toti
    Tot
    i:unj
    ani
    myAngel
    !
    Me:
    I'
    mfi
    net
    hansandy
    ou?
    Tot
    i:I
    '
    m good,
    kwenzakal
    ani
    ?
    Me:
    akhoni
    xTot
    i
    Tot
    i:y
    ouar
    egoi
    ngt
    ospeakt
    omeangi
    thi
    ?
    Me:
    yeboTot
    i
    Tot
    i:t
    alkt
    omeke
    Me:
    angi
    funenganemi
    na,
    ,,
    ,Ist
    art
    edcr
    ying
    Tot
    i:ohh
    Me:
    yeboTot
    iangi
    funengane
    Tot
    i:sol
    eni
    yenzi
    l
    eyoi
    thi
    ni
    Me:
    angazi
    Tot
    i:l
    i
    stenandl
    i
    stent
    omev
    erycar
    eful
    ,young
    l
    ady ,angithiimil
    enzeuyivul
    euthanda,i
    f
    ubungaf unengani ngeucabangengecondom
    beforeuv ulaamat hanga(mymom keshei sa
    str
    aightt alk)
    ,li
    keitornotyouaregoingtohav
    e
    thi
    schi l
    d, nimenzeothandweniangit
    hi?

    Me:
    yeboTot
    i
    Tot
    i:sowenauzomt
    hini
    ,uzombul
    ala
    Me:
    cha
    Tot i
    : t
    henst opbeingchi ldi
    shke, youareno
    l
    onger9andst opbei ngselfishuyi
    cabangele
    wedwa, youwi llbethemot hersoon,Godhas
    blessedy oungepr eciousgift,(
    sheExhaled),
    thinanobabakhowewi l
    lki
    lltohaveitwena
    umi l
    eut hinyweny weny we, doyouknowhow
    l
    uckyy ouare, doy out hi
    nkGodhasmadea
    mi st
    akebypl anti
    ngt hatinnocentsouland
    maki ngitgrowi nsidey ou.Whyungekho
    gratefulkaso?y esy ouar eyoung, y
    esmaybe
    youar enotreadymyAngel , maybeyouar e
    scared, maybey ouareov erwhel medmay be
    younotsur eifyouarecapabl eofbeinga
    mot herandmay bey ouarenotsur eifyouare
    goingtol ov
    et hi
    schildthewayy ouar esuppose
    to,wel l
    myAngel ononepr eparesyout obea
    mot herbutIknowy ouwi l
    l bet hebestmot her
    andy ouwi l
    lbothbet hebestpar ents
    kul
    ey ongane.

    Youaresoluckyyouhav euAyandawhol oves


    youandcaresfory ouwhowannabet her
    ewi t
    h
    youallt
    heway ,
    doy ouknowhowmanygi rl
    s
    andwivesabakhalelatohav eIpartnersl
    i
    ke
    uAyanda,giv
    enthechancet ohav eamanl i
    ke
    Ayandatheywil
    lcheer i
    shhim.Ay andacares
    aboutyouandyourpr eciousgif
    twenaandy our
    ungrat
    eful
    nessufunauy ihambisay onkel
    onto.
    Don'ty
    ouloveuAy anda?
    Me:
    Ilov
    ehi
    m Tot
    i
    Mom :wil
    lyoubef
    inei
    fahambaayomit
    hisa
    phandl
    eakushi
    yel
    aphoendl
    i
    ni,wi
    l
    l y
    oube
    happy?
    Me:
    noTot
    i,Iwon'
    t
    Toti
    :angit
    hiumkhi
    phelangaphandle,i
    f
    ahambaafunyanwengomny eungasamthol
    a
    uzot
    hini
    ,will
    youbehappy?
    Me:
    cha
    Tot i
    :thengr owupmyAngel ,t
    hatbaby
    growingi nsideyouneedsnot hi
    ngbuty ourl
    ove,
    thi
    si sy ourfir
    stpr
    egnancyy ousupposet obe
    enjoyingitandy ouhaveAy andawhosuppor ts
    you100per centandungali
    bal i
    itsnotaboutyou
    i
    tsaboutbot hofyou,noAyandaunemi zwaso
    stopt reati
    nghi ml
    ikeuyi
    tshenguwewedwa
    onemi zwa, hei st
    ryi
    ngandst opbeingselfi
    sh
    siyezwana?
    Inodded

    Tot
    i:si
    yezwana?
    Me:
    yeboTot
    i,ngi
    yaxol
    i
    sa
    Toti:
    I'
    m nott
    heoneyousupposet
    oapol
    ogi
    ze
    to,
    khulumanendoday
    akho

    Ididevennoticet hatIwascr yi
    ng, Ay anda
    stoodupwangi khelelaamanzi thenwangi nikaI
    noti
    cedhi seyeswer er edtoowhi chmeanswe
    werebot hcryi
    ngwhi l
    eTot i wastalking.MaybeI
    wasabi tself
    ish, yesi twashar dt oacceptthat
    Iwaspr egnant, Ididn'tevenasi ngleday
    thoughtIwaspr egnantbutt hefacti s,Iwas
    pregnantandt hesoonerIaccept edthebetter.

    Il
    ookedatAyanda,ir
    respecti
    veofwhatIhav
    e
    puthi
    mthrough,Ihavemi st
    reat
    edhi
    m hestil
    l
    hadasmi leonhisface.Il
    ookedathimthe
    thoughtofthedayweconceivedourbabymade
    mesmi le,mademel ovemybaby, i
    twasreal
    l
    y
    agiftbecauseshe/hewasconcei v
    edon
    bir
    thdayevekaAy anda.Ismil
    edback

    Me:IloveyouMtungwaandI
    '
    m sor
    ryf
    or
    ev
    ery
    thingNdlov
    u
    Ayanda: i
    tsokbhabha,
    Iunderst
    andasinguwe
    nguli
    ttl
    ebhabhaloukwenzaubenje,
    I'
    m scared
    nam ,butonethi
    ngforsur
    eIloveyoubothguys
    Me:
    wel
    ovey
    out
    oobhabha
    Ay
    anda:
    wozani
    kubabakeancami
    se

    Voi
    ce:heyi,
    hey
    i,ngisekhonazi
    nanikant
    i
    l
    ezi
    ngani,
    Goshwef orgottodr
    opthecall

    Webot
    hlaughed
    Us:
    sor
    ryTot
    i
    Tot
    i:ngi
    zoni
    shay
    ani
    na,
    takecar
    eof
    umzukul
    wanawami
    Me:
    whataboutme?
    Ay
    anda:
    andme?
    Toti
    :ni
    gugul
    ephel
    a,ngi
    yani
    thandanani
    zi
    nganezami
    Us:
    wel
    ovey
    out
    ooTot
    i

    Wedr
    oppedt
    hecal
    l

    IcuppedAy
    anda'
    sfaceandki
    ssedhi
    m
    Ay
    anda:Il
    ovey
    ouMar
    hadebeandl
    i
    ttl
    e
    Makhumal
    o
    Me:
    wazi
    njani
    ubangumi
    ssKhumal
    o
    Ay
    anda:
    Iknowbhabhandl
    elaesamenzangay
    o
    Me:
    mfxmm ,
    yadi
    ka,
    Ilookedathi
    m

    Ay
    anda:
    yini
    Me:
    makel
    ovet
    ome
    Ay
    anda:
    no
    Me:
    hawu,
    yini
    don'
    tyouwantme?
    Ayanda:no,
    (tear
    sst
    art
    edt
    othr
    eat
    enmyey
    es
    ,Ireal
    l
    ywantedhi
    m)
    Me:
    awuf
    uni
    Ayanda:don'
    tcryplease,nganel
    ezi
    nyembezi
    fort
    hedayngiyadl
    ala(hebitemylowerl
    ip)
    wangif
    unqul
    asay aebedroom.
    Me:
    ngi
    zokut
    hol
    a(Ispokei
    nbet
    weenki
    sses)

    WedancednoMtungwawami,andwenttotake
    ashower,
    Ideci
    dedukengi
    zi
    jongisi
    se,
    Istood
    i
    nfrontofami r
    rorndinaked.Godmyboobs
    besezi
    qalaubankulu,macheekswerer
    eall
    y
    roundndinazonezinqana,mytummy
    i
    bingekabonakali
    .

    Ayanda:Il
    oveyouguys,youar
    ethebestt
    hing
    thathasev
    erhappenedtome(hecuppedmy
    fl
    attummyandkissedit
    )
    Me:
    wel
    ovey
    out
    oodaddy
    Ay
    anda:
    let
    'sgoandeatgi
    rl
    szakadaddy
    Me:
    zosenzel
    aIgr
    eensal
    adangi
    thi
    ?
    Ay
    anda:
    ofcour
    se

    >>>>>>>>>>>>

    Idon'
    twannali
    eIwasreal
    lyst
    arti
    ngtoenj
    oy
    mypregnancy,Tot
    iinawayknockedsome
    sensesint
    omet heot
    herday.Ay
    andamade
    every
    thi
    ngsoeasy ,hetr
    eat
    edusl i
    kewewere
    queens,ofcoursewewerehisQueensbut
    somet i
    mesheannoy edmecasbendi t
    reat
    er
    l
    ikeIwasdi sabl
    ed

    Guys(MawandeandMsi ra)event hough


    bebefi
    kangesoskhathial sobebendi treaterli
    ke
    aneggbendi yil
    astbornmany ani.Iwoul dget
    footmassage, getever
    ythingIneededf ormy
    cravi
    ng,eat-sum -morandgr eensal ad, fi
    rstin
    theli
    sti
    bi worseeyakwaNandosIgr eensal ad
    thei
    rsaladdressingwast odiefor.

    Itwastowar dtheendofJanuar
    yIwasatwor k.
    Iwasgl owingandbecauseofmysmal lbody
    bendingekabonakal
    i.I
    twasduri
    nglunchtime
    whenanunsav ednumberappear
    edonmy
    screen.Itwasalandli
    nenumber021...
    ..I
    answer
    ed.

    Me:
    hel
    l
    ow
    Voi
    ce:
    Pri
    ncess?

    OhhLor
    dhel
    pme,
    ,
    ,,
    ,

    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    23:
    36]Mca:
    INSERT77

    Me:
    hel
    l
    ow?
    Voi
    ce:
    Pri
    ncess?
    Me:
    Muso?
    Muso:pl
    easedon'
    thangup,
    Ineedt
    otal
    kto
    you,
    ,
    Me:
    ufunani
    ?
    Muso:
    pleasePr
    incess
    Me:
    ufunani
    ?
    Muso:
    Ineedt
    oseey
    oupl
    ease
    Me:
    needt
    oseeme?
    Muso:
    yes,
    unj
    ani
    phof
    u?
    Me:
    ufunani
    ?
    Muso:
    pleasePr
    incess,
    okwempi
    l
    oke
    Me:
    ngi
    theMusouf
    unani
    ?
    Muso:
    ithur
    tswheny
    oucal
    lmeMuso
    Me:
    kant
    iuwubani
    ?
    Muso:
    Pri
    ncekuwePr
    incess
    Me:
    wasPr
    ince,
    nowy
    ouar
    eMuso
    Muso:
    thathur
    tsbutIdeser
    vei
    t
    Me:Musowhatdoyouwantcasdef
    ini
    tel
    yyou
    di
    dn'
    tfonemet
    otel
    lmethat
    Muso:
    cany
    out
    alk?
    Me:
    Iam t
    alki
    ngangi
    thi
    ?
    Muso:
    no,
    Imeanar
    eyoual
    one
    Me:
    yes
    Muso:
    Pri
    ncessIam i
    nhospi
    tal
    Me:
    ok,
    ndi
    thi
    nimna?
    Muso:
    Pri
    ncesspl
    ease
    Me:
    ndi
    thi
    nikal
    oku?
    Muso:I'
    minKeni
    lwor
    thcl
    i
    nicPr
    incess,
    depr
    essi
    oncl
    i
    nic
    Me, what?why?whathappenedPr
    ince?
    (ndavasendi
    tshi
    l
    o,Iwasshockedr
    eall
    y)
    Muso:itsal
    ongst
    ory
    ,wi
    l
    lyoubeabl
    etocome
    andvi
    sitme?
    Me:
    Iam atwor
    kMuso
    Muso:
    Iknow:
    aft
    erwor
    kthen
    Me:
    noIcan'
    t,
    ,
    ,
    Muso:Pl
    easePri
    ncess,
    y ouknowIhavenoone
    her
    einCapeTown,Ihardlygetv
    isi
    tor
    s
    Me:
    hay
    iboPhi
    ndi
    l
    eukhonanj
    e
    Muso:
    pleasePr
    incess

    Ir
    eal
    lyf
    eltf
    orhim.Ir
    eal
    l
    yki
    ckedhi
    m whi
    l
    ehe
    wasdownalready
    .

    Me:
    ok,
    Iwi
    l
    lcomeaf
    terwor
    k

    OhhLordpl
    easefor
    givemeforwhatIam about
    t
    odo, It
    henfonedAyanda.

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha
    Me:
    heydaddy
    Ay
    anda:
    banj
    ani
    oobhabhabakadaddy
    Me:
    theyar
    ebot
    hgr
    eat
    Ay
    anda:
    Imi
    ssedy
    oual
    ready
    Me:
    wemi
    ssedy
    ounat
    hi
    Ayanda:
    Iwillbehomebef
    ore6,
    mustIbr
    ing
    yousomethi
    ng?
    Me: nobhabhadon' tworr
    y, t
    her
    easonwhyI
    cal
    led,Iwill
    bel at
    e, Iwi
    l
    ltakeuZeeto
    Kenil
    worthafterworkbhabhasoImightbe
    homear ound7
    Ay
    anda:
    kwenzenj
    ani
    ?isy
    ourf
    ri
    endok?
    Me:
    noshei
    sfi
    ne
    Ay
    anda:
    okt
    hen,
    don'
    tl
    etherbul
    l
    yyou
    Me:
    Igi
    ggl
    ed,
    shewon'
    t,by
    ebaby
    Ay
    anda:
    hay
    iar
    en'
    tyouf
    orget
    ti
    ngsomet
    hing
    Me:
    nip
    Ay
    anda:
    Hay
    ibhabha
    Me:
    Igi
    ggl
    edagai
    n,Il
    ovey
    ou
    Ay
    anda:
    lov
    eyout
    ooAngel
    s

    Iexhaled, thi
    swast hefi
    rstti
    meIl i
    edku
    Ay andabekungathiI'
    m nakedgoshuMuso
    ungenzani kodwa.Igotbackt owor k,Itr
    iedto
    concent rat
    ebutIjustcouldn'
    t,Ikepton
    wonder ingwhathashappenedt oMuso, yes
    wangi zwiswaubuhlungubutIf or
    gav ehim and
    mov edonnol i
    fewami butakuthethiukuthiI
    didn'tcarengaye.

    At4It ookmybagsandwentt othepar ki


    nglot
    anddr ovet oKeni l
    worth,Istoppedemal land
    boughthi m Kf ctwist
    er(sweetchi ll
    i)itwashis
    favourate,Iwentt opi
    cknpayandboughtj ui
    ce
    , y
    ogur t
    ,fruits,chi
    ps,sweetsandt wobi g
    l
    ucoz ades.Iknowhowi tfeel
    st obei nhospit
    al,
    youdonot hinguy adl
    anjekuphel a.Idrove
    st
    rai
    ghti
    ntot
    hecl
    i
    nic.

    Iwentt
    ot herecept
    ionandaskedforMuso
    Tel
    il
    e,t
    hel adywhowast her
    ewajongakwi
    computerandfoundhisnameandt hewar
    d.

    Iwalkedintothewar d,hewassi t
    tinginachai r
    readi
    nganewspaperandt herewer e2ot her
    guys.Igotin, theshockIhadwhenIsawhi m,
    hehaslostsomuchwei ght,hewasnott he
    MusoIusedt odat e.Ndaqinaisi
    bindi,Igreeted
    theguysandt heygreetedback,hest oodup
    andcamet ohugmeIhuggedhi m back, Idon'
    t
    wannalieitpainedmet oseehi mliket hat.:
    -(

    Me:
    hey
    Muso:
    Pri
    ncess,
    hehuggedmeagai
    n
    Ukubonemossl ashoriubanay omaumt uwaku
    dumperandudi bananay engathikade
    evut
    hulul
    way i
    qhwanezi chot
    houbewena
    ngat
    hikadeuhlambangemel rose.Itf
    eelsgood
    butminadidn'
    tfeelgoodjustfeltsorr
    yfor
    Muso.

    Me:
    Ibr
    oughty
    out
    hese(Ihandedt
    hepl
    ast
    ic
    t
    ohi
    m)
    Muso: t
    hankyousomuch,youhav
    enoi
    dea
    ndi
    dikwenjani
    kukudl
    akwal
    apha
    Me:
    pleasur
    e

    Hepl
    acedtheplast
    icnextt
    ohi
    sbed,
    andt
    ake
    t
    hepaperbagyakwaKf c

    Muso:Iwil
    laskt
    henur
    sel
    atert
    oputt
    hesei
    n
    t
    hefri
    dge
    Me:
    ok
    Muso:
    let
    '
    sgoandsi
    tint
    hegar
    den

    Wewal kedtot
    hegardenandsatont
    hechair
    bezi
    pha.Webothkeptqui
    teIdeci
    dedtobr
    eak
    thesi
    lence.

    Me:
    howl
    onghav
    eyoubeenher
    e?
    Muso:al
    most3weeksbutbay
    andi
    dischar
    ger
    onFr
    iday
    .
    Me:
    ohh
    Muso:
    youl
    ookgood
    Me:
    thanky
    ou
    Muso:real
    l
    y,y
    oul
    ookst
    unni
    ngandy
    ouar
    e
    gl
    owing
    Me:
    Ismi
    l
    ed
    Muso:
    Imessedupdi
    dn'
    tI
    Me:
    yha,
    youdi
    d

    Hel
    ookeddown.

    Muso:
    ist
    her
    eanychancet
    hatungangi
    xol
    ela.
    Me:
    Ifor
    gav
    eyoul
    ongt
    imeagoMuso
    Muso:
    Ireal
    l
    ymessedupPr
    incess
    Me: i
    tsal
    linthepastdon'
    tworry
    ,if
    bendi
    ngakuxolel
    angangendi
    ngekholapha
    Muso: it
    sfunnyhowli
    feis,t
    heonlyperson
    thatIhurtt
    othecor
    e,nguyewhoishereright
    nowgi vi
    ngmesupport.
    Me:
    MusocanIasky
    ousomet
    hing?
    Muso:
    any
    thi
    ngPr
    incess
    Me:
    whyar
    eyouher
    e?
    Muso:
    li
    fePr
    incess
    Me:Iknowthatforsur
    ebutthereal
    reasonand
    whydi
    dy oucal
    lmenotPhindil
    e
    Muso:(heexhal
    ed)PrincessIwi
    shIcoul
    dtur
    n
    backt
    heclock,youknow
    Me:
    Idon'
    tknow
    Muso: (hesmil
    edf
    aint
    ly)i
    twasal
    lal
    i
    e
    Pr
    incess,ali
    eandIf
    ellf
    orit
    Me:
    whatar
    eyout
    alki
    ngabout
    ?
    Muso:
    thebaby
    ,,
    ,,
    ,
    ,

    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    23:
    36]Mca:
    INSERT78

    Me:
    nganey
    ani
    ?
    Muso:
    Phi
    ndi
    l
    e'sbaby
    Me:ohh!YhooIforgotmanj
    eusuwubaba,
    how
    ol
    disyourbhabhanow?
    Muso:
    itwasal
    lal
    i
    ePr
    incess
    Me:
    kahl
    ekahl
    eukhul
    umangani
    ?

    Muso: Phi ndil


    et r
    ickedmePr incess, thebaby
    wasnotmi ne, afterhewasbor nsomet hings
    j
    ustdidn'taddup, astimegoesbyIbecameso
    suspi
    ciousoft hebaby, butshekeptonsay i
    ng
    hewasmi ne, j
    ustl ookedatmeandmy
    complexionsonkeekhay awear el i
    ghtin
    complexionandasy ouhav eseenuPhi ndile
    sheisnotdar keithersot herewasnoway
    besi
    zozal ainganeedar kkaso.Ideci dedt odo
    apaternitytestengazi y
    enaandmyf earswer e
    confi
    rmed, Iwasnott hemat chnakanci nci.I
    confr
    ont edher ,sheadmi t
    ted, athishedi dn't
    wannal osemecasshesawhowmuchIl ov ed
    youandat hibabawenganebengazukhonaum
    supporterasIdi d.Byt het i
    mengi hl
    ukananawe
    Iwasnotsur eifthebabywasmi neornotbutI
    convi
    ncedmy selfbangowanicaswehadsex
    twicewi t
    houtusingprotection,everytime
    ngikhulumangawebev elaangi threaten-
    ishe
    ngobauzohambanenganengi ngay iboni.I
    didn'twantinganeyami ikhuleingandazi
    Princess.shesaidshet houghtIwon' tfi
    ndout,
    ungenzengaphansengakhul i
    sailahlePrincess

    Me:
    don'
    tcal
    li
    nganet
    hatMuso
    Muso:
    I'
    m sor
    ry
    Me:
    nopr
    obl
    em

    Muso: Itri
    edtobest r
    ongPr i
    ncessbutthe
    thoughtofwhatIlostbecauseofherwasj ust
    unbearable,y
    ouhav etrustedmePr i
    ncess,y ou
    havelovedmeuncondi tional,y
    ouhav e
    sacri
    fi
    cedsomuchf orme, youhav ebeent her
    e
    formewhenmyf ami l
    ycoul dn'
    tevenbet her e,
    youwant ednothi
    ngbutt hebestf orme, y
    our
    l
    ov ewasunconditi
    onal butIwasaj erkinstead
    ofbeinggr atef
    ulngibey inja, t
    rustmei fIcould
    tur
    nbackt heclockIwi l
    l.Youknowwhatmy
    mom andmysi sterssaidwhenIt oldt hem
    aboutt hebabysagat hi
    ng, theysai dIdeser ve
    everythingt hatwasandst i
    llcomi ngonme,
    bathiziny embezi zakhonobusel fishbami ,
    I
    mustnotbl ameany onebutmy self,Iwasangr y
    kuboatf ir
    stbutngokundi l
    aphaIr ealizedthey
    werer ight.Icouldn'teat, sleepandper f
    orm
    wellatwor k,sl
    eepingpi l
    lsdi dn'thelpatal l,
    everytimeIcl osedmyey esal lIcoul dseewas
    youcr ying,beggingmenott obr eakupwi thyou,
    butwhatdi dIdo, Mrbi gCowar dchooset he
    easiestwayhechoseashor tcutandy ouknow
    what ?theeasywaygoti nt oadeadendsoon, I
    wasseei ngmydoct ortwi ceaweekt hat'
    swhen
    heref erredmet ot hisplace

    Me:
    arey
    ouget
    ti
    ngbet
    ternow?
    Muso:
    Ifeel
    bet
    ternowPr
    incess,
    Iwasr
    eal
    l
    ya
    mess
    Me:
    Iam sor
    ryhey
    Muso:
    notassor
    ryasIam
    Me:
    sout
    het
    heywi
    l
    ldi
    schar
    gey
    ouonFr
    iday
    Muso:
    yes
    Me: ok,soi
    sther
    eanyonewhoi
    sgoi
    ngt
    o
    f
    etchyou?
    Muso:
    no,
    mycari
    secompl
    exi
    ni,
    Iwi
    l
    ltakea
    cab
    Me: i
    tsok,Iwi
    l
    lfet
    chy
    oudur
    ingmyl
    unch
    at
    leasti
    tsanhour.
    Muso: t
    hansPri
    ncess,I'
    m sogl
    adt
    hatubunj
    a
    bamizangebakushint
    shawhoyoureal
    l
    yare
    Me:
    yhane
    Muso: doyousti
    l
    lrememberourol
    ddayszase
    Mari
    azelli
    nourspotphansi
    komthi
    ,i
    bif
    ana
    nal
    endawo
    Me:
    yep
    Muso:
    doy
    our
    ememberourpi
    nkypr
    omi
    se
    Me:
    noMusopl
    ease
    Muso:
    fai
    renough
    Me:
    Ineedt
    ogo,
    itsget
    ti
    ngl
    ate

    Ist
    ooduphehel
    dmyhand.Andl
    ookedati
    t

    Muso:
    andt
    his?
    Me:
    what
    ?
    Muso:
    whati
    sthi
    s?
    Me:
    itsar
    ing
    Muso:
    yekabani
    Me:
    itsmi
    ne,
    isemnweni
    wami
    angi
    thi
    ?
    Muso:
    forwhatPr
    incess?
    Me:
    what
    '
    swi
    tht
    he3r
    ddegr
    eequest
    ions?
    muso:
    Ijustwannaknow
    Me:
    Muso,
    I'
    m angaged
    Muso:engaged?
    ?(hel
    aughed,
    het
    houghtI
    wasj
    oking)
    Me: yes,I
    'm get
    ti
    ngmarr
    iedonthe27Febr
    uar
    y
    thi
    syearinfacti
    n4weekstimeekhay
    a
    eMatati
    ele

    Hi
    sjawsi
    mmedi
    atel
    ydr
    opped

    Me:
    get
    ti
    ngmar
    ri
    ed?
    ?
    Me:
    yes
    Muso:
    ohh
    Me:
    Ishoul
    dgetgoi
    ngnow
    Muso:
    ok
    Wehuggedandsai dourgoodbyes.Idr
    ove
    home,Iarr
    ivedat19:35myhusbandt obewas
    athomeshamecooki ng,hecametohugme
    andki
    ssedmeonmyf or
    ehead

    Ayanda:
    that
    'snotmycol
    ogneesemphahl
    eni
    zakho
    Me:it
    sZee'scousi
    n,hehuggedme
    masi
    hambasincebehuggeruZeeIguesshe
    wasj
    ustbei
    ngpolit
    e.(Ir
    eall
    yfel
    tsobadfor
    l
    yi
    ngtoAyanda,Iknowhowi tf
    eel
    stobelied
    on)

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha,
    lookatme

    Ijustcoul
    dn'
    tlookathi
    m soIfakedufunu
    vomi t
    a,Ir
    ushedtothebat
    hroom andpret
    ended
    topukeandf l
    ushedimmediat
    ely.Iwentt
    ori
    nse
    mymout
    h.Ay
    andacamei
    n

    Ay
    anda:
    arey
    ouokbhabha?
    Me:
    yesIam baby
    Ayanda:comel
    etmer
    uny
    ouabat
    hugeze,
    uzodl
    auphumul
    e
    Me:
    whatdi
    dyoucook?
    Ayanda:Iboi
    l
    edv
    eggi
    esonl
    y,nomeat
    ,I
    pr
    omi se
    Me:shamebhabhawhatabouty
    ou?(Iknow
    Ay
    andangenyama,yi
    ndodayomXhosaphel
    a)
    Ayanda:don'
    twor
    ryaboutme,
    Iam abigboy
    aslongasmytwogir
    lsareokt
    hendaddyisok
    too

    Hehel
    pedmebaththenIwor
    emypj sandwe
    wentt
    othel
    oungeandwaphaka.Hereal
    l
    y
    boil
    edbr oncholi,cauli
    flower,sweetcor n,baby
    carrots, babymar rows, mixedv egandey enze
    withmygr eensaladofcour se.Ay andadoesn't
    l
    ikev eggi es,buthemadei tapoi ntuzi
    dlanami ,
    thelooki nhi sfacemay ezigwinyawaspr i
    celess
    andmi nabengi zienjoyer,Icouldn'thel
    pbut
    l
    aughed, shamemaar n.Ut handaumunt umaar a
    Wef inishedeat ingandIwashedt hedishes
    sayolala

    Iwassl
    eepi
    ngont
    opofhi
    m,hewasbr
    ushi
    ng
    myback.

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha?
    Me:
    Yanda?
    Ay
    anda:
    youwi
    l
    lnev
    ercheatonmeangi
    thi
    ?
    Me:
    ofcour
    sel
    ove
    Ay
    anda:
    youwi
    l
    lnev
    erl
    i
    etomeangi
    thi
    ?
    Me: (Iswall
    owedhar
    d)yesbhabha.(GodI
    wassogl adwewerei
    nthedarkotherwi
    set
    he
    gui
    lt
    yonme, myhear
    tracedasifi
    zophuma
    ngomlomo)
    Ay
    anda:
    Ilov
    eyou
    Me:
    lov
    eyout
    oobhabha

    Wef
    ell
    asl
    eep

    >>>>>>>>>>

    OnthursdayIfetcheduMusoanddr oppedhi
    m
    i
    nhisfl
    att henwentbacktowork.Thefoll
    owi
    ng
    dayIwentt oworkandmydaywasnor malas
    theot
    herday s,whenIwasabouttoleavework,
    MusophonedandIanswer ed
    Me:
    Muso?
    Muso:
    Pri
    ncess,
    howar
    eyou?
    Me:
    goodt
    hanxandy
    ou?
    Muso:
    good,
    wher
    ear
    eyou?
    Me:
    aboutt
    oleav
    ewor
    k,why
    ?
    Muso:
    cany
    oupl
    easemeetmei
    nTy
    ger
    val
    l
    ey
    Me:noMuso,
    Iam goi
    ngst
    rai
    ghthomeI
    '
    m
    t
    ir
    ed
    Muso:
    5mi
    nut
    espl
    ease
    Me:
    ok,
    Ok,5mi
    nut
    esonl
    ythen
    Muso:
    let
    '
    smeetatVi
    daecaf
    fe
    Me:
    ok.

    Idrov
    eallthewayt oTyger
    val
    l
    eyandhewas
    al
    readythere.HestoodupandhuggedmeandI
    huggedhim back,wesatdownandIorder
    ed
    hotchocolate
    Muso: Pri
    ncessIknow,Ionl
    yhave5mi nut
    esof
    yourti
    meandIwon' twastei
    t,Iwi
    l
    ljustgo
    str
    aightt
    othepoint
    Me:
    goodcasI
    '
    mti
    red
    Muso:Isti
    l
    llov
    ey ou,
    thet
    rut
    hisInev
    er
    st
    oppedlovi
    ngy..
    ..
    Me: stopr ightt
    hereMuso, Imighthaveasof t
    spotf ory ou, i
    nfactIknowIdohav easof tspot
    fory ou, Imighthav eforgi
    venyoubutIwi ll
    nev erfor getwhaty oudidtome, ifyoutruly
    l
    ov edmeMusongeungazangeucheat erkwa
    sekuqal eni soangifunekuy i
    zwanje,Idocar e
    abouty ouandIwi l
    lalwaysdobutl ovi
    ngy ouI
    willnev erloveyouagai ndon'tconfusethetwo.
    Iwillreal l
    yappreciateifuyekalenonsense
    Muso:Iam sor
    ryPr
    incess,
    Iwasr
    eal
    l
    ya
    cowar
    d
    Me:
    Muso,
    Ilov
    eAy
    andanow,
    Ihav
    ecl
    osed
    thatchapterofusl astyearallourmemor i
    esI
    havethrownt hem i
    nt hatstr
    eam siseBell
    vil
    le
    wandi dumpelakuso, sodon'tcallmeifuzal
    oko
    undimelangondithanda.Wedonemnanawe.

    Muso:
    Pri
    ncessIknowy
    oudon'
    tl
    ovehi
    m
    Me: Musothat'
    syourmist
    ake,Il
    oveAyanda,
    asIsai
    dtoy ou,wearegett
    ingmarri
    edandwe
    ar
    epregnant
    Muso:
    arey
    oupr
    egnant?
    ?
    Me:
    yes
    Muso: thatbabyissupposedtobemi ne
    Pri
    ncessnothis, IcanandIwilll
    ovethebaby ,
    rai
    sethebaby ,l
    oveher/him asmineonlyifyou
    cangivemet helastchancetoloveyouplease.

    Istoodup,
    hebentohhi
    skneeandcuppedmy
    fl
    attummy.
    Muso:IcanloveyoubothPri
    ncess,justgive
    methelastchance,pl
    easePr
    incess,justcal
    l
    of
    ftheweddingpleasemyAngel.Il
    ovey ou
    wi
    thall
    myhear t.

    Iwasaboutt
    osaysomet hi
    ngwhenIsaw
    Ayandast
    andingngasemnyangokwa
    Woolwort
    hsjustfewmm awayf r
    om us,
    hol
    ding
    abunchofbeauti
    fulf
    lower
    sandacut et
    eddy
    bear,
    goshIwishedeart
    hatthatmomentwould
    openupandswal l
    owme.

    Me: Musost
    andup!
    !(Isai
    dthati
    nal
    owv
    oice
    butbol
    d).

    Ayandajustl
    ookedatus,shookhi shead,
    the
    l
    ookinhisfaceibi
    fananayelangahefound
    Vi
    dostrangli
    ngme.Hewal kedi nt
    otheent
    rance
    wi
    thoutut t
    eri
    nganyword, beforehecoul
    d
    reacht heent r
    ance, hethrewthefl
    ower s
    toget herwiththeteddybearinthebi nand
    wal kedout .Igrabbedmypur seandr ushed
    afterhi m buthewassof asthegotintohiscar
    anddr oveoff,Iwant edtogobackandpi cked
    upt hosef lowersbutt i
    mewasagai nstme.

    Lordwhathav
    eIdone,t
    hewaybendif
    rust
    rat
    ed
    ngayo,Iev
    enfor
    gotwhereIpar
    kedmycar,I
    foundi
    t.Musowasfol
    l
    owingme

    Muso:
    Pri
    ncess?
    Me:
    notnowMusopl
    ease!
    !!(Idr
    oveof
    f)

    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
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    08/
    17,
    23:
    37]Mca:
    INSERT79
    Traff
    icjam madei tsodi f
    fi
    cultformet oget
    homef aster,
    ev ent hought hehousewasnot
    thatfarnotcloserei t
    herbutIt ookabout30
    minutes,thewayt ojoinN1f rom Ty gerval
    ley
    drovemenut sbecauseoft her obots.Ikepton
    ngil
    aqazaubamhl ampeIwi l
    lseeAy anda'scar
    Iguesshet ookt heWi llowbri
    dger out eI
    wouldn'tknowi tthenwasst i
    llnewi ndr i
    vi
    ng
    CapeTownandYandaknewev erycornerof
    CapeTown, t
    hequest ionwasi fIsawi t
    ,wasI
    goingtojumpoutoft hecarkul atraf
    ficibi
    njey
    a
    nami ngiaddt oit.

    Final
    lyIgothome, Ay andawashomeal readyhe
    wassi tt
    inginthecouchwat chi
    ngtvbuty ou
    couldseei twaswat chinghiminstead.Idi dn'
    t
    knowwhet hertogreethim ornot,Iputmybags
    togetherwithmyf oneont opoft hekitchen
    counterandst oodthere.Iwasl i
    teral
    l
    yshaki ng
    l
    ikeal eaf.
    Me:
    heybhabha(shakyv
    oice)

    Hekeptqui
    te.Iwentt
    osi
    tnextt
    ohi
    m

    Me:heybhabha(amen,hayi
    kenesi
    neke
    angi
    nasonj
    esokuncengaumunt
    u)

    Hekeptquiteagai
    n,myfonerang,
    Ileti
    trang,
    yayekabendosabonophakamaok,i
    trang
    againnon-stop

    Ay
    anda:
    answert
    hatdamnf
    one!
    !

    Istoodupmandifi
    kaitwasMuso,Idi
    dn'
    tknow
    whethertoanswerornot,
    nayeuMusoune
    scefeufunani
    eboni
    leuAyandawasangrywhen
    hel
    eftus.

    Itr
    angagain,Ayandast
    oodup,grabbedit,
    checkedthecal
    lerandhet
    hrewitacrossthe
    wall
    ,yhooyathi
    saa.

    Ayanda:ndi
    yany
    elwaaphamoss!
    !Hegr
    abbed
    hi
    scarkeysandwalkedt
    othedoor
    .
    Me: wher
    earey
    ougoi
    ng?(Isai
    dthati
    nav
    ery
    shakyvoi
    ce)
    Ayanda:Iam goi
    ngtodowhatIshoul
    dhav
    e
    donelongti
    meago,don'
    twai
    tup.
    Me:
    whi
    chi
    s??
    Ayanda: noneofy ourdamnbusiness!
    !wena
    youjustsityourasshereandmakesur e
    umtanawam udl il
    eandusaf e.
    Yhooobekumel
    eaber
    udeol
    ohl
    obo.

    Me: soit'
    sgoi
    ngtobel
    iket
    haty
    ouwil
    lj
    ustgo
    andleavemehereal
    onewenahambe
    ukut
    handakwakho.Ndi
    buzi
    l
    ebhabhawher
    eare
    yougoing?
    Ayanda:
    heywenabhabhaf
    okofmaar
    n!!(He
    st
    ormedoutandsl
    ammedthedoor)

    Thathurts.Iheardthecarihamba.Iwent
    upst
    airsasIr eachedthelaststair,Ir
    emember
    something, Irusheddownanddi aledthe
    numberf rom thehousefone.Itrangtwiceand
    hepickedup

    Muso:
    hel
    l
    ow?
    ?
    Me: Muso,getoutofyourf
    latNOW!!
    !!Goand
    skwatt
    ernobakukwifr
    iendyakho,
    butjustget
    outoft
    hatpl
    ace!
    !
    Muso:
    whyangi
    yindawo(hewassocal
    m)
    Me:
    Ayandai
    scomi
    ngt
    her
    e,j
    ustgo!
    !
    Muso:angi
    yindawoPr
    incess,
    ngi
    zoy
    ibal
    ekel
    a
    nt
    onieny
    eindoda
    Me:don'tbeafool
    wena!
    !Ayandai
    sgoi
    ngt
    o
    ki
    l
    lyouifhefi
    ndsyout
    her
    e.
    Muso:
    Iam notgoi
    ngany
    wher
    e.
    Me:heyMuso,
    Idon'twantyourbl
    oodbei
    n
    myconsci
    ous,
    justgooooo
    Muso:
    ok,
    ok,
    Ihear
    dsomeshuf
    fl
    ing
    Me: sav
    ethi
    snumberifi
    tfonesy
    oulaterdon'
    t
    answerwazi
    nguAyandacasdefi
    nit
    elyhewil
    l
    knowIhavefonedy
    ou.
    Muso:
    thanksy
    ouPr
    incess
    Me:
    justgo!
    Ihangup.Iwai t
    edf orAy andaandIwaspr aying
    thatakamf umanangauMuso, Iwentupstair
    s
    andwor emypjsandgoti nbed.Aft
    eranhour
    or2, Ihear
    dthedoorhandl etur
    ned,hewal ked
    i
    n,thewaybephef umul angay o,
    itwasli
    kehe
    wasr eadytokil
    l.Ididn'
    tdar eopenmyey esI
    pretendedtobef astasleep.

    Ay
    anda:
    youbet
    terwakeup!

    Ikeptqui
    te

    Ayanda:heywenaSi
    nenhl
    anhl
    avuka.Theway
    bekememezangayoIhadnochoi
    ce.

    Iwokeupandsatup
    Ay
    anda:
    doy
    oul
    ovehi
    m?
    Me:who?(Isai
    dthatwi
    thoutev
    enl
    ooki
    ngat
    hi
    m)
    Ayanda:(heturnedmyfaceforcef
    ull
    y)hey
    wena!don'
    tfuckenaskmestupidquesti
    ons!I
    haveaskedyouaquesti
    on,phendulake.

    Ikeptqui
    te

    Ay
    anda:
    Iwon'
    taskagai
    n
    Me: No!
    !!Idon'
    tl
    ovehi
    m.Besengi
    khat
    hel
    e
    nay
    il
    emibuzo
    Ay
    anda:
    whoi
    sthef
    ool
    her
    e,y
    ouorme!
    Me:
    noone
    Ay
    anda:
    Sinenhl
    anhl
    adon'
    tfuckent
    estme!
    Me: I
    'm nottest
    ingyou(hav
    eyouev erbeenso
    scar
    ediny ourli
    fethaty
    oucan'
    thearnalent
    o
    uy
    iphendul
    ayo)

    Ayanda:di
    dyouf
    onehi
    m andt
    ell
    him Iwas
    coming.

    Ikeptqui
    te

    Ayanda:zawundi
    phendula!
    !!
    !!(OhhGodIhate
    shouti
    ng,onethi
    ngaboutme, tal
    ktome,don'
    t
    shoutmecauseoncey oushoutmeundenzai
    cheeky.

    Ikeptquit
    esti
    ll
    .YesIknowIwr ongedhi
    m by
    l
    yingbutwhybengathethi
    nam askeandishout
    e.
    Istoodup.Thedist
    ancebetweenus
    i
    bindenzel
    aicreeps.
    Ayanda:Sinenhlanhl
    aRhadebe, youarereal
    l
    y
    pushi
    ngmeandy ourcheekyizakukhabi
    sa
    ngam,youbet t
    eranswerme.(Hesai dthati
    na
    ver
    ypolit
    eway, butyoucouldseehewas
    becomingmor eangrier)
    .

    Me: cany
    oustopshouti
    ngandtal
    knormal
    ,
    youaremaki
    ngmedi zzyanduy
    arasa
    Ayanda:whatdidyoujustf uckensay,ndiy
    a
    rasamandif
    unukwaziinyani.(Hecamecl oser,
    GodIwasconcent r
    ati
    ngonhi shands,God
    knowsifangandi
    fakainqindindingafai
    nter
    )

    Ashewascomi ngcl
    oser,Iwast akingsteps
    backunti
    lIreachedthewall,t
    hewasnowayI
    coul
    dmov eback.Hescaredt heSHI Toutof
    me,,
    ,,
    ,Ayandabekungathiy
    isil
    wane, Ayandacan
    beadarli
    ng,sweet,l
    oving,caringand
    ever
    ythi
    ngbuthehast hisdarkev ilsideand
    angerthatIfear
    edthemostandt
    hatone,
    trust
    mey oudon'twannaknow.

    Ay
    anda:
    didy
    ouf
    onel
    akaka
    Me: bendi
    zoy
    ifownel
    anganiwophuleif
    owni
    yam mfxmm yabubuzaububhanxanawe,f
    unu
    l
    alamina.

    Yhoooy angat hiIjustadded20l itr


    esofpet rol
    emlil
    weni buhl el
    iuv utha.Yahlalayaphelela
    i
    mpama.Al lIcouldseewasst ars,havey ou
    everbeeni nasi tuationwher ebyubet hwa
    ngumt uongazangeumcabangeubahecanl i
    ft
    evenasi nglef i
    ngerkuwe.Il ookedathi mi n
    di
    sbelief, ndili
    gwalanj ezangekwehl anotev en
    asinglet ear, ngav elengehlanebonda.He
    grabbedmewangi misangeny awo, GodI
    couldn'tst andonmyown, myf eetwer eshaking,
    mycheekwasbur ning, heformedhi sfistbeli
    za
    kum t ata,al
    lIcoul
    ddowast oclosemyey esI
    didn'tev enprot
    ectmyf aceifbel
    izoshayakuphi
    bengi zobonangalesoskhathi
    .Istoodthere,he
    hitthewal lbehi
    ndme, damnwi ththatmyjaws
    woul dhav ebeenreportedBROKEN! !

    Ayanda:shit!!
    !!
    !!Whydidyouhavet ol
    iet
    ome
    bhabha,yi
    ntoniendi
    ngakwenzeliyona,
    tel
    lme?
    am Inotsati
    sfyi
    ngy ou?am Inotgoodenough
    foryou?Tel
    l me.

    Iwasst i
    l
    lstandingthereshaking,bendosaba
    nomov er,letaloneuphendula.I
    f
    wawungandi bonaatthatmomenty ouwoul d
    swearIwasast atuesakwaTr uworthsreadyto
    bedressedupandadv ert
    isewhatev eroutfi
    t
    bendi
    yibekelwe.

    Hecar
    ri
    edmeandt
    uckedmei
    nbed,
    he
    brushedmecheek, andhewat chedmeasIwas
    dozi ngof f
    , Idon'tknownobabendi lal
    i
    swa
    zipainezi zikwi cheeky am orbendozel av eleI
    don' tknow.Hest oodup, tookhi scarkey sand
    l
    ef t.Af terhel eftbaphel any anobobut hongo.
    Wher ewasAy andagoi ngatt hatt i
    meoft he
    night ,wabet hau10, 11, 12,1and2am, hayibo
    ,tr
    ustmewhenIsai dIcoul dn' tcareaboutt he
    paint hatwasonmycheekany mor e,whatIwas
    wor riedabouti twasAy anda, Iwentdown
    stairs, Ididn'tseet her easonf ormet osleep
    cast hebedwascol dwi thouthi m andIwasnot
    fall
    ingasl eepany way .If onedhi m ngel andl i
    ne
    buti twentst r
    aightt ov oicemai l
    .Isatthekwi
    couch, Iwascol dbutIcoul dn' tcareless.
    Around3am, Ihear dt hekeyt urnedesi cabheni,
    i
    tt ookhi m al most5mi nut est oopenbutf i
    nally
    hedi d.Ist oodup, Gosht heshockIhad, Ay anda
    wasdr ank, yesy aphuzabutnev ersawhi ml i
    ke
    that ,hewasst umbl ingbekunzi manohamba,
    howdi dhedr iveinsuchast ate? .Il
    ockedt he
    doorandhelpedhimt othecouchandwentto
    thekit
    chen.Imadehi m astr
    ong,Imeanstr
    ong
    blackcoff
    ee.Igav
    ei tt
    ohim, het
    ri
    edtosipi
    t
    butwatsha.IwantedtolaughbutIf
    eltf
    orhi
    m, I
    tookitf
    rom hi
    m andwentt oaddcoldwater
    .

    Ngamphuzisabecausebezi
    thel
    a,ir
    respecti
    ve
    ofwhatIst
    ill
    lov
    edhim, yeshehadnor ightt
    o
    sl
    apme, andGodknowsIdi dn'
    tdeserveitbut
    hewasmyhusbandt obebengi
    samthanda.

    Ayanda:uyay
    ithandakodwaindodayakho
    bhabha,hesaidthatasIwashelpi
    nghim dr
    ink
    hi
    scoffee

    Me:
    Ismi
    l
    edf
    aint
    ly

    Ay
    anda:
    Ilov
    eyout
    ooMar
    hadebeandIam
    sor
    rybhabhaf
    orsl
    appi
    ngy
    ou.Iam r
    eal
    l
    ysor
    ry.

    Hef
    ini
    shedt
    hecof
    fee.

    Ayanda:Enkosibhabha.Hetr
    iedt
    oholdmy
    handbuthesaw t hefeari
    nmyeyes,
    hhawu
    yashay
    anaphelau-Ay anda

    Ayanda: whatIdidtoyoubhabhawaswr ong,


    I
    hatemy self
    ,Ihatemyself,whatki
    ndofaman
    am I,
    Ihav emadeapr omi set
    hatnoba
    sekut
    heni Iwil
    lneverl
    if
    tmyhandkumt u
    wesif
    azane.I'm suchacoward.Iam r
    eal
    lya
    coward.I'
    m sorryMarhadebe,
    ,,
    ,,
    ,
    ,,
    ,
    .

    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    23:
    37]Mca:
    INSERT80
    Me: asl
    ongasyouwon'tdoi
    tagai
    n,Idon'
    t
    wannabeinSAstati
    sti
    cssef
    emaleswhoare
    bei
    ngabusedbythei
    rpart
    ner
    s.
    Ay
    anda:
    Ipr
    omi
    se

    Ismi
    l
    ed.

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha
    Me:
    yesl
    ove
    Ayanda: Il
    ovey oumfaziwam, comesithere,
    hemademesi tonhislap,phewwwwt hesmel l
    ofalcohol,Ist
    oodupandr anintothe
    bathroom andthrewout.Ifl
    ushedthetoil
    et.
    Ayanda:l
    et'
    sgoupst
    airssothatIcanri
    nsemy
    mouthIcanseel
    it
    tl
    ebhabha,doesn'tl
    i
    keit
    whendaddysmel
    lsalcohol
    .
    Igi
    ggl
    ed

    Hecar
    ri
    edmeupst
    air
    s.

    Me:
    changi
    yekel
    aYanda,
    zongi
    wisa
    Ayanda:youdon'
    ttr
    ustme,
    Imightbedr
    unk
    butIcansti
    l
    lcar
    rymytwogi
    rl
    s.
    Me:
    ok,
    ify
    ousayso.

    Hewentt
    ori
    nsehi
    smout
    handwashedhi
    sface.

    Ayanda:
    bhabha,
    lookatme(bendi
    l
    ungi
    sa
    i
    micamelo)

    Il
    ookedathi
    m
    Ayanda:
    pleasef
    orgi
    vemef
    orwhatI
    '
    m about
    tosay

    Iswal
    l
    owedhar
    d

    Ay
    anda:
    Idi
    dn'
    tonl
    ygot
    othecl
    ub
    Me:
    ok
    Ayanda:Iwashur
    ti
    ngbhabha,
    whaty
    oudi
    d
    real
    l
    ybrokemeint
    opieces
    Me:
    khul
    umaAy
    anda
    Ayanda:
    Ijustwant
    edsomethi
    ngt
    onumbmy
    pai
    nandtheboozewasnotdoi
    ngi
    tforme.
    Me:
    khul
    umahl
    e
    Ayanda:for
    giv
    emeMar hadebe(helooked
    down,GodIwonderwhatdidAyandado, but
    whateverhedidi
    twashuge)
    Me:
    AyandaKhul
    uma!
    !!
    !
    Ay anda: whil
    eIwasdr inkinginthecl ub, Isaw
    thisgirl
    , (helookeddownagai n)Iboughther
    onedr inkandwewentt oherpl acenay e
    afterwar ds,Iwasst i
    llsoberbhabhabuthur ting,
    Ijustwant edt of uck,Ithoughtmay bemypai n
    willease.Wegoti ntoherpl ace,weki ssed.(I
    wasal l quite)wehadcondomsbhabha, she
    l
    aidont hebedwewer ebot hnakedIwasi nmy
    boxershor tandshewasonherbr aand
    under wearonl y.Ifiddledf oracondom i nmy
    wal l
    et,whenIwasaboutt oopeni t, Ijust
    couldn'tdoi tbhabha(hewascr ying)Icoul dn't
    bet r
    aymywi fe,Icoul dn' tbetrayourlov e.Il eft
    andwentbackt ot hecl ubanddr ownedmy self
    i
    nal cohol .Thet houghtofmeal mostbet raying
    youj ustat emeupt hat'swhyndi f
    ikendi nje.I
    am sor rybhabhaf orbei ngt hecowar d,please
    forgivemebhabha.Il ov ey ouandIdon' twanna
    l
    osey ou.
    Iwascryingmy sel
    f,nam Iwasnotasai
    nt.IfI
    di
    dn'tent
    ertai
    nu-Musononeoft hi
    swouldhave
    happened.

    Me: y
    ouwon'
    tlosemeAy
    anda,
    j
    ustst
    op
    doubt
    ingy
    our
    self
    Ayanda:
    butbhabhaungenzandizidoubter,
    Musowasy ourf
    ir
    stlover
    ,Iam al
    waysscar ed
    thaty
    ouwil
    lgobackt ohi
    m.Pleaselet
    'sget
    i
    ntobed,i
    tscold,youwil
    lcat
    chaf l
    u.
    Me: t
    rustmewhenIsayIwi llnev
    ergobackto
    Muso.IstoppedlovingMusothedayhe
    dumpedme, ngethembe,Ij
    ustcareabouthi
    m
    l
    ikeanyotherperson.

    Wegoti
    ntobedandIwasontopofhi
    m.
    Rememberwedi
    dn'tsl
    eepandi
    twasaround
    4am al
    ready
    .

    Ayanda:
    tel
    lmet
    het
    rut
    hbhabha,
    doy
    oust
    il
    l
    l
    ovehim?
    Me:
    nobhabha,
    Idon'
    t
    Ayanda:di
    dy ouf
    onehimizol
    o?(Ihadt
    o
    honestamangaarej
    ustr
    uini
    ngus)
    Me:
    Ifonedhi
    m Yanda
    Ay
    anda:
    why
    ??
    Me: Yandayoupromi
    sedthatyouwi
    ll
    nev erki
    ll
    anyone.Idon'
    tknowwhatyoudidkuVido,butI
    j
    ustcouldn'
    tl
    etyouhaveanot
    herbl
    oodiny our
    hands,i
    twil
    lbr
    ingusnothi
    ngbutbadl
    uck.
    Ayanda:EnkosiMarhadebe,honest
    lyi
    fyou
    di
    dn'tf
    onehim wabaleka,Iwasgoingtoki
    ll
    l
    akaka.
    Me:
    buzokwazi
    njani
    aphoahl
    alakhona.
    Ayanda:(hesmil
    edl
    i
    ghtl
    y)Iknow,
    bhabha
    pr
    omi semethaty
    ouwil
    lnev
    erli
    etomeagain
    pl
    ease.
    Me:Ipromise.(Pinkypr
    omise,
    Ilookedathi
    m
    andl
    aughed,casIknewtheanswertothat)
    Ay
    anda:
    heywenabhabhazandenzai
    -mof
    fi
    ee
    Ayanda:
    bhabha,Iknowthatdayyousai
    d
    uhambanoZee,youwereatKenil
    worthCl
    ini
    c
    andonFri
    dayyouwentthereagai
    nandtoMuso
    'scompl
    exandyouwentbackt owork.

    Ichocked,
    Icoughedandcoughed.

    Ay
    anda:
    arey
    ouok?
    Me: y
    esbhabha,I
    '
    mf i
    ne,i
    fImayaskhowdo
    youknowzonkeezi
    zi
    nto?
    Ayanda:thet
    rackeri
    ny ourcar,t
    ell
    sme
    exact
    lyaphoudri
    verkhona,aphoumisekhona
    andt
    hespeedy
    out
    rav
    eli
    ngatev
    ery
    thi
    ng.
    Me:Iam sorr
    ythatIl
    i
    edtoyou,t
    rustme
    t
    her
    e'snothi
    nggoingonbet
    weenmeandMuso.
    Ayanda:IknowthatandIt r
    usty oubhabha,its
    meIdon'ttr
    ustbutbhabhadon' tpushmet oa
    l
    evelwhereIwil
    ldosomet hingIwillr
    egret,t
    rust
    mewhenIsayIwi llki
    llany
    onewhot hi
    nkhecan
    haveyouanddon'tyoudarel etanymant ouch
    mybabyagain,Siveyana?
    Me:
    notev
    enmydoct
    or

    (Igi
    ggl
    ed)

    Ay
    anda:
    I'
    m ser
    ioust
    hen.
    Me:
    yesSi
    r
    Ayanda:yazi
    whenIsawl anj
    aibambe
    umtanam,Iwantedtobl
    owt hewhole
    Tygerv
    all
    eybutIdeci
    dedtokeepitcool
    ,that
    '
    s
    whatyoutaughtme(hesmi led)andforthe
    fi
    rstt
    imeIfeltli
    keahuman.Ifbendi
    yendaya
    kunungendinibul
    elenoy
    itwongezandlazam.
    Me:
    I'
    m gl
    ady
    our
    eal
    l
    ykepty
    ourcool

    Itol
    dhimt hewhol
    et r
    uthngoMuso,
    from hi
    s
    fi
    rstcal
    lti
    l
    l t
    hatni
    te.

    Ayand: bhabha,IknowyoucareforMusobut
    hecan'tkeeponr unni
    ngtoyoueveryt
    imeheis
    i
    nt r
    ouble.Heneedst ogrowup.Naweyouhave
    yourourresponsibi
    li
    ti
    esnow,me(hepoi nt
    ed
    him )andlit
    tl
    eKhumal o.
    Me:
    Iknowbhabha
    Ay
    anda:
    nomor
    eli
    es
    Me:
    promi
    se
    Ay
    anda:
    comegi
    vedaddysomel
    ove
    Me:
    chaangi
    kagezi
    uml
    omo
    Ay
    anda:
    so?
    ?Her
    aisedhi
    sey
    ebr
    ow
    Me: hayi
    Ayanda(heshovedhi
    stongueonmy
    mouthohhhayike)weki
    ssed,Ial
    sowanted
    hi
    m sowedancednobhabhawam.Theycallit
    morningGLORY.Wedozedofft
    othongol
    and.

    Ireal
    l
    yhadtostopenter
    taini
    ngMuso,
    hebr
    ings
    nothi
    ngbutpr
    oblems...
    ..
    .

    Wewokeupar ound11am andt ookashower, I


    wenti nt
    othemirr
    or,Ihadf i
    ngermar ksonmy
    cheek.HaaaaaphelaAy andawasnotsuppose
    toslapmengizengibenje, Itouchedmycheek,
    Iguessbekumangi t
    hukut hela.Istar
    tedcry
    ing.
    Ay andacame,heheldmef rom behindand
    kissedmycheek.
    Me:
    don'
    ttouchme!
    !
    Ay
    anda:
    I'
    m sor
    rybhabha
    Me: don'tt
    ouchme, y
    ouareaMonst er,a
    Godzill
    aAyandaKhumal o(Isawthatjustwent
    str
    aightint
    ohisheartyahl
    aba.hawunay e
    ungizwiseubuhl
    ungu)
    Ayanda:bhabhausungazeundibizengo
    Godzil
    l
    a.(Hesaidthati
    nav er
    yl owtone)t
    hat
    hurt
    sbhabha,Iknowngimoshil
    ebutGodzil
    la
    I
    'm not
    .
    Me:youar
    e,whatkindofahumanwil
    lsl
    ap
    umunt
    uabenjenaexceptf
    orGodzi
    l
    la
    Ayanda:I'm sorr
    ybhabha, hetri
    edt oholdme, I
    foughthim buthewasst ronghehel dmev ery
    ti
    ght.Icr
    iedonhi m harder.(That
    'smeand
    umsindowami ,y
    awut hiabantusebelibel
    ekube
    ngonauvuka)Iam sor r
    ybhabha, Iknow
    kungonaubanomsi ndoandy ouhav etheright
    tobe,whatIdi dwaswr ong.,,
    ,,
    ,
    Icriedndonel a.
    Me:
    Ihav
    eaheadache
    Ay
    anda:
    Iwi
    l
    lbr
    ingy
    oupanado
    Me:
    canIhav
    eGen-pay
    nepl
    ease?
    Ayanda:nobhabha,
    younotsupposet
    otake
    those.
    Me:mfxmm,hebr
    oughtmepanadoandwat
    er
    andIdr
    anki
    t.
    Ayanda:
    lal
    akancanekebhabha,sot
    hatwe
    cangoandbuyyourfonemawuvuka
    Me:
    noI
    '
    m notgoi
    ng
    Ay
    anda:
    why
    ?
    Me: areyouafoolordumb?howdoIgoout
    ndineminyweyakhoonmycheek?
    funungi
    bukisangabant
    u?
    Ayanda:fakaezazint
    ozenu,awuzubonakal
    a,
    ay
    ibonakalikakhul
    u.Funuhambanomf aziwam
    mna
    Me:youslappedmecasbewaziyouwi
    llsayI
    mustputonthemakeup.(Ist
    art
    edcry
    ing
    agai
    n)
    Ayanda:
    nobhabha,Idi
    dn'
    tmeani
    tthatway,
    xol
    okeMarhadebe
    Me:
    Iwon'
    tbegoodcompanyany
    way
    Ay
    anda:
    funuhambanawenj
    ena
    Me:
    hay
    iAy
    andahamba,
    funi
    fowni
    yam mi
    na
    Ay
    anda:
    arey
    ougoi
    ngt
    obeok?
    Me:
    yes
    Ayanda:Iwon'tbet
    oolong,wi
    l
    l t
    akey
    ourI
    '
    d
    tooforr
    ica.WhatmustIbri
    ngyou?
    Me:
    eatsum mornegr
    eensal
    adkwaNandos
    Ayanda:butyouhaveeatsum mori
    nthe
    cupboar
    d.Ibought8boxesWednesday.
    Me:
    Iat
    ethem
    Ay
    anda:
    zonkebhabha?
    ?
    Me:Inodded(hebur
    sti
    nlaught
    er,
    mfxmm t
    he
    f
    ool
    )
    Ayanda:uGodzi l
    langat
    hinguwekulendl
    u(he
    wasstil
    ll
    aughing,uAyandahadawayof
    makingmef eell
    ikeIwasuzili
    tt
    le(
    fool
    )
    someti
    mes)
    Me: am IaGodzill
    at oyouAy anda?nowthat
    I'
    m pregnant
    ,youdon'tfi
    ndmesexyany more,
    ungibi
    zangoGodzi l
    la.(It
    sfunnyhoweasyy ou
    call
    omny eumt ungoGodz il
    labutmakubizwa
    wenangay euyazwelamasi nya)

    Ay
    andawasst
    il
    ll
    aughi
    ng

    Ayanda: Imeanyouaregoingtobemarri
    edt
    oa
    Godzil
    la( mebhabha,
    etshoyena)noty
    ou.He
    di
    dn'tstoplaughi
    ng.
    Ij
    ustopenedmytapoft
    ear
    sandcr
    ied,
    he
    cameandhuggedme

    Ayanda:youwil
    lnev
    erbeaGodzil
    l
    abhabhabut
    si
    nceyouaregoingt
    obemar r
    iedt
    oMrGodzil
    la
    automat
    ical
    lyy
    ouwillbeMr
    sGodzil
    la
    Me:mfxmm,angi
    sonai
    sli
    maAy andaIknow
    yout
    ryi
    ngt
    omakemef eelbet
    ter
    .
    Ayanda:Il
    oveyouMrsGodzi
    l
    la,
    heki
    ssedmy
    for
    ehead,l
    ovey
    outoomissKhumal
    ohekissed
    myt ummy.
    Me:
    Ithr
    ewapi
    l
    lowonhi
    m
    Ay
    anda:
    seey
    ousoon.

    If
    ell
    asl
    eepagai
    n.
    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
    [
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    17,
    23:
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    INSERT81

    Day swentbyi twasaweekbef oremyweddi ng,


    i
    twasgoi ngtobeonSat urday27Febr uar y.I
    wasnotgoi ngt owor kt hatweekcasIhadt o
    submi tmyassi gnment s, soIdidn'thav et oask
    foraper missionatwor k.Ididmyassi gnment s
    priorthensubmi tt
    edt hem bef oretheduedat e.
    IleftonMondaymor ning.Ay anda, Mawande,
    Xhant i,Ndumi soandMsi r
    awer egoingt o
    l
    eav eonwednesday ,theywer ewai ti
    ngf or
    Ndumi soandXhant i whower egoi ngt ol andon
    Tuesdayni ght.Thepl anwasbazokwehl a
    ngemot oeziy
    i two, ekaAy andanekaMawande, I
    want edu- Mawandet odr iv
    emycari nst eadof
    hisbutMrGodzi ll
    ar efusedat hiakhomot o
    yomf aziwakhei zodr iverngomuny eumunt u.So
    Ay anda,Xhanti andMsi rabebezobabonke,
    MawandeandNdumi soboy itwo.
    IIvecozi kaAyandabezi hl
    eliziyaeECThur sday
    nabantuzoy it
    woosot heguy sbazidri
    veyo
    bebezobuy aSundaybel ay
    ishil
    et houghasusual ,
    sobezi zot r
    ansporterabantuf r
    om Cof i
    mv aba
    toMat atiel
    e.Ivecoswer enotgoi ngtobe
    enoughsohedeci dedzehlezonkei taxizakhe.
    Tranpor ttoMat at
    ielewassor ted.

    Forrehearsal weonl yattendedt wosession,we


    weret ol
    dwhi chsi detheGr oom'smenmust
    standast heycomedownt heai sl
    eandwhi ch
    si
    det heBr i
    de' mai dsmustst and.
    Responsibil
    iti
    esofaBestmanwhi chwas
    Mawandeandr esponsi
    bili
    tiesofmat r
    onof
    honorwhi chwasZee, Ihav echosenZeecas
    sheunder stoodmebet tert hanmycousi ns
    NjabuloandDi ma.Thef lowergi rl
    andring
    Bearerwer egoi ngtobeNj abulo'stwi
    ns, t
    hey
    wereabout4y earsold.
    Mydr ess,bride'smai ddr essesbendi zokwehl a
    nazo.Ay andawasgoi ngt opickupt heirsuits
    Tuesdaysi nceey ionebebengekaqedi ngayo.
    Mydr ess,ofcour setherewer ealterati
    onst hat
    neededt obedonesi nceIdeci dedt ocreate
    l
    itt
    leKhumal o, soIhadt ogobackt oVer awho
    wasnoti mpr essedAtal lsheshout edmenoti n
    abadwaybuyl it
    tleKhumal obendi qeqisa.You
    mightthinkI'm exaggeratingthingsbutumt u
    bendihl
    ekanondi shoutayoubev eleandenze
    ndibengathiandinangqodo, nakuVer akeIcr i
    ed
    non-stopwaj i
    kawabomv ushameuml ungu
    wabant uengazi nobaat hini.Hehadt ocall
    Ayandawhowasi nthecarandheexpl ained
    thatshemustnotwor ryaboutme, it
    'sthe
    pregnancy .

    Ay
    anda:nextt
    imewhenyoucomebacky ou
    wi
    llbeMr
    sKhumalobhabha.Hesai
    dthataswe
    wer
    eint
    hequeuet
    ochecki
    n.
    Me:
    (Ismi
    l
    ed)Iknowbhabha

    Wesai
    dourgoodby
    es.

    Igothomet histi
    mei twasdifferentthatwas
    myl asttimeIwoul dbecalledSi nenhlanhl
    a
    Rhadebeasf rom the27,Iwasgoi ngtobe
    call
    edSi nenhlanhlaKhumalo,t hatreall
    ybroke
    myhear t
    .OoTot iwereonpointwi ththe
    preparationsforthewedding,tobehonestI
    didn'tdoany t
    hingexceptforfi
    ttingsand
    choosi ngcolourtheme.Toticamebackf r
    om
    wor kandwehadgi r
    lst
    alk.

    Tot
    i:howi
    sthel
    i
    ttl
    eone?
    Me: gr
    owi
    ngTot
    i,Isawmygy
    nael
    astweek
    Fr
    iday
    Tot
    i:wenahowar
    eyou?
    Me:amessToti,
    thi
    spregnancyi
    staki
    ngal
    l
    myener
    gy,I
    '
    mf or
    evercr
    yingit
    sli
    keI'
    mlosi
    ng
    mymindTot
    i.
    Toti:younotmyangel don'tworryitwi l
    lpass.
    Youknowwhenmhat oldmey ouwer epregnant,
    Iwassoscar edkungathikanti
    y oucar ryi
    ng
    twinsphel
    alaekhenukunehi storyyet wins,
    ubabomkhuluwakhoul il
    o,nobabakhoangi t
    hi
    uli
    l
    oandbukanoNj abulovelewabel ethawona.
    Iprayedsohard,angicabangiukuthi umzimba
    wakhousuf ull
    ydevel
    opedt ocar r
    ytwi ns.
    Me: l
    ucki
    l
    yit
    sonlyonebabyontheway ,
    phela
    i
    fbebeyit
    wobengizof
    aToti
    .Kunzi
    makul o
    oyedwabutl
    ucki
    l
    yAy andai
    sverysuppor
    tiv
    e.
    Tot
    i:Ir
    eal
    lyfeelf
    oringaneyabant
    uphel
    awena
    ubudemandingnal
    akithihowmuchmorekuye.
    Ngi
    yamzwela.
    Me:
    haaTot
    iI'
    m nott
    hatbad
    Tot
    i:y
    ouar
    emyAngel
    trustme
    Me:
    (Isul
    ked)
    .
    Tot
    i:wozaphel
    angi
    bonei
    nguboy
    omshado.

    Wewentt omybedr oom.Totiul


    oudyerrIdon'
    t
    knowngifuzebaningi
    nyabekanj
    e.She
    screamedasay i
    bona.

    Tot
    i:mybabyi
    sgoi
    ngt
    obebeaut
    if
    ul
    Me:
    IknowTot
    i,y
    ekel
    aubangaumsi
    ndo
    Tot
    i:I
    '
    mjusthappyhhawu
    Me:
    subangaumsi
    ndophel
    a.
    Tot
    i:ar
    eyour
    eadyAngel
    ?
    Me:
    I'
    mfarf
    rom bei
    ngr
    eadyTot
    i
    Toti: j
    ustbey oursel fAngel,andav oidufaka
    umut uwesi thathuemshadweni wakho,xazulul
    a
    i
    nkingezenunoAy andanotnomunt u
    wesithathuunl essy ouwi l
    lbeseei nga
    psychologi st.Abant ubasemzi niaredif
    ferentke
    myAngel butt r
    eatt hem equal lynobabaf undil
    e
    nobaabaf undi l
    ethet r
    eatmentmustbet he
    same.Anot herthingy ouneedt olearntocook,
    youcan' texpectAy andatocookf oryou.
    Mawukul oAy anda, Ayandawi llbefarfrom you
    kumel eabant ubomuzi wakhobebhekwenguwe,
    soy oucan' tsayIcan' tdot hat.Lastl
    ynev er
    speakkakubi ngabant ubomzi wakhoi nthe
    presenceofAy andanobabekwenzeni l
    ethi m
    seet hem noty out elli
    nghim whatt heydid.

    Me:
    that
    'snotf
    airTot
    i
    Toti
    : l
    i
    feisnotfai
    rmyAngel ,
    butrememberour
    doorswil
    lalwaysbeopen,youdon'thav
    etoput
    upwithshitnobasekungamelanga.
    Me:
    haaTot
    i
    Tot
    i:i
    tst
    ruev
    ele.

    >>>>>>>>>>>>

    OnWednesdaywewentt oMat at
    iele,the
    weddingwasgoi ngtot akeplaceesont weni
    l
    ami whichwasabout700m f rom home, the
    r
    eceptionibizobasekhay a.Wehad2, 3pole
    t
    entsbezihlangani
    siwe, bezenzel
    wei ncaseit
    r
    ains,duri
    ngFebr uaryitsstil
    lrai
    ninginEC.

    Makhul uwasf
    ir
    sttocongr atul
    ateme, shewent
    ontel
    lingmethedosanddont smawupr egnant
    .
    IwastiredmnaallIwantedwast osl
    eep, as
    dayswentbyububelebebuy abuphelakum,
    whil
    eot her
    swererej
    oici
    ngt heyhadt hat
    weddingv i
    bet
    hingmnaIj ustfeltnumb, I
    '
    m not
    surenobaIwasgetti
    ngcoldfeetorwhatIdon'
    t
    know.Ayandawouldfonenowandagai n
    shamecheckinghi
    stwogirls.(Accor
    dingt
    o
    him).

    Fri
    day,besekugcwal anj
    e.Ayanda'sfamily
    arr
    ived,IthinkbabezeneCofi
    mv abayonke
    hhawu,bekuy i
    yizel
    waitwasall
    noisynje.MinaI
    waskeptinmybedr oom si
    nceWednesday
    whenIar r
    ived.

    SisJencamear ound3pm , shewasgoi ngt


    odo
    myhai r,nai
    lsandmakeup.Idi dabunconrows
    withpearls,
    thebunwaspar ti
    cul
    arlyformyvei
    l
    ,
    yavel
    ey angathiIwas12.Idi dmynai ls,
    Idi
    d
    them shortwithnailart
    .Si
    sNcebsi eandher
    crewwer ebusyi nthechur
    chent enteni
    bebezonkwenzai nt hemorning.
    OoAy andabesebef ikilenabobutbebezol ala
    eMatat i
    ele,
    Roy alhot el,Ir
    eallymi sseduAy anda
    hlebathong, l
    ate, ooZeef onedbat hibaset own
    thenTot iwenttof etcht hem, theyflewt o
    Durban, f
    rom airportt heytookacabt otown
    thentookat axi t
    oMat ati
    ele,sincebot hdidn't
    havelicenses.Alreadyt heweddi ngv i
    be
    i
    biseyi
    ngamandl a,thegi rl
    sar ri
    vedhay i
    ke,
    bebebangaumsi ndononst op.Wechat tedbut
    mymi ndwaswasnott here, Iwasmi ssi
    ng
    Ayanda, sobadlyt hatIwant edtocr y,Idecided
    tofonehi m, Iwentt ot hespar ebedr oom and
    call
    edhi m.

    Ay
    anda:
    madam

    Hear
    inghi
    svoi
    ceatthatmomentr
    uined
    ev
    ery
    thi
    ngngal
    i
    lanj
    e.
    Ayanda:hay
    ibhabha,
    youwi
    l
    lgetsi
    cky
    il
    ent
    o
    uy
    enzayo.

    Ikeptoncry
    ingmnabendingamamelanga
    yonkelebeyi
    thet
    ha.Bendi
    mthandi
    swashameu
    Mtungwawam

    Ayanda:Iknowy
    oumissmebutit
    sonl
    yfew
    hourst
    henudaddywi
    l
    l bewi
    thy
    ou
    Me:
    Imi
    ssy
    ou(Isai
    dthatst
    il
    lsni
    ff
    ing)
    Ayanda:Iknowbhabha,namindi
    yani
    khumbul
    a,
    j
    usthanginther
    esweetcheeks

    Inodded

    Ay
    anda:
    hay
    ibhabhaandi
    kuboni
    Me:
    mfxmm
    Ay
    anda:
    daddyl
    ovesy
    ouni
    yev
    a
    Me:
    yebo,
    wel
    ovey
    out
    oo

    Whoev ercameupwit
    htheideathatthegroom
    i
    snotsupposetoseethebr
    idebeforethe
    weddi
    ngdayhayishameway enzanj
    ei nt
    o
    ebuhl
    ungu:-
    (

    LaterIwascal l
    edkwi bedr
    oom kaToti,i
    twas
    Makhul u,momkhul u,mha(baba'
    swife)and
    Toti.Ndalaywa,ndalay
    wa,ndal
    aywa, yhoo!
    !!
    theywer econfusi
    ngmebabekhi phanalezi
    besengizizwil
    e.

    Bathebeqeda,Iwassneezing,cold,my
    stomachbesiupset
    ,bekukubinje.Real
    ly
    bengiqal
    augul
    a,makhulumademear emedy,I
    di
    dn'tknowwhatwast her
    ebuti bi
    mbi nj
    eand
    athiitwassafeforthebaby,butbefor
    e
    ngiyolal
    abesengibanconobutuvalo
    belusekhona.

    SnekaYanda.
    ;
    -)
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    17,
    23:
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    INSERT82

    Iwasreal
    l
    yscar ed,
    kunal
    ebel
    ieforamy t
    hthat
    peopl
    eabashadangewhitewedding,theydon'
    t
    l
    ast,Iwasscared,whati
    fIwasinvit
    ingukum
    l
    ooseruAyanda.Ifell
    asl
    eepanyway.

    >>>>>>>>>>>>>

    Foll
    owingdayasear l
    yas4besekuv uki
    we,
    sekunomsindovele,bekuy
    iyi
    zelwa,
    kubekwa
    amabhodwewokudl aphansi.Inrur
    alareas
    cater
    ingandinv
    itati
    onsdon'tworknjecas
    ev
    ery
    onei
    swel
    comed.

    Iwokeupar ound8andbat hooZeewer edone


    alr
    eadybekuz oqal waat11casl atewewer e
    l
    eav i
    ngt oCof i
    mv aba.Ayandaf onedbutI
    refusedtoanswercasIknewi fIhearhisv oi
    ceI
    wasgoi ngt ocr y .Whoev ercameupwi t
    ht he
    i
    deat hatagr oom i snotallowedt oseehi sbri
    de
    beforetheweddi ngI'm surebey i
    sishumane.I
    reall
    ymi ssedYandaIgav eZeemyf oneandask
    hertotellAy andaIwasf i
    ne,Iwi ll
    talkt
    ohi m
    l
    ater.Ireallymi ssedhimt hough.

    Callmeboringbutthat'
    smeIl i
    kequit
    ecolours
    notthatI
    'mloudmy sel
    f.SoblueisAyanda's
    fav
    ouratecolourIalsoli
    kebluebutIli
    kenude
    col
    oursowesi mplecombinedourcolours,but
    wedecidedt ousepowderbl ueinst
    eadofblue
    andtaninsteadofr eal
    lynude.
    Formen, t
    heirsui
    tswer
    etan,
    powderbl
    ue
    waistcoat
    s,powderbl
    uebowti
    esandwhit
    e
    shi
    rts.

    Forladi
    esitwas,powderbl
    uekneelength
    dressesandpowderbluehi
    ghheelsthathad
    nudecolourngezant
    siandpai
    rofnudet opaz
    eari
    ngs.

    Theflowergi
    rlhadami ni
    ofmydr esswhich
    wasnotwhi t
    ebuti v
    orywit hapowderbl uesor
    t
    ofabeltwit
    hsilvergli
    tt
    ersi bi
    hambaphezukwa
    mabeleami t
    henf ormedabi gbowtieatthe
    back.Ial
    sohadnudeheel s.

    Ther
    ingbear
    eral
    sohadmi
    nisui
    tyebi
    gboy
    s.
    Atthechur chnot hingwasdonet hatmuch
    exceptforabl uecar petthatwasplacedfrom
    emny angot i
    l
    llaphobesi zomakhonat hatwas
    formydr essof cour se.sisNcebsiedecidedto
    keepitpowderbl ueandwhi teonl
    yinchurch.
    Chair
    sbezi whitev elezasesontweni wit
    h
    powderbl ueandwhi teball
    oons.

    Forr ecepti
    on,itwasnudemet alli
    cchai r
    sthat
    didn'tneedanycov ers, powderbl uetable
    clothes,nudegl asswar eandv ases, t
    heyused
    squar etabl
    esbazi hlangani sathreethatcater
    ed
    18peopl epert able.Whi t
    enapkins, anude
    colourwasaddedi nf lower s,i
    twasa
    combi nati
    onofr osesr enunculusofdahl i
    asand
    l
    ightbl uedelphiniums, carnat
    ion, bl
    uebells,
    orchidsandcal lalilli
    es.

    Cakewasa6l
    ayercake,
    anudecol
    our
    ed
    caramelfr
    osti
    ng,
    withti
    nybluedet
    ail
    sas
    fondantf
    lowers,
    perspex,
    caketoppersandi
    t
    hadmi ni
    cakebunti
    ng.

    Forl
    adi
    esweal
    lhadbabybr
    eat
    hbouquet
    .

    Wewer ereadyt hev i


    deomanwast her
    ef r
    om
    thestartsigqokaandot herone, bekoAy anda.I
    t
    wast i
    mef ormet ogoandmeetmyhusband.
    Mostpeopl ewer egoneal r
    eadyt ochurch.It
    wasonl yme, mybr ide'smai d,Totishewas
    dri
    vingus, dadandsi sJen.Wewer edone.I
    wasr eall
    ycuteandbeaut ifulpeoplebut
    bengathiiyandisindanalolokhwe.Thatwast he
    fi
    rstti
    meIsawmydadcr ying.

    Dad:uzi
    phat
    hekahl
    eMar
    hadebe,
    I'
    mreal
    l
    y
    pr
    oudofyou.
    It
    ri
    edtosaysomet
    hingbutmyt
    hroatwentdr
    y.
    Ij
    usthuggedhi
    m.

    Wel
    efti
    ntwocar
    sTot
    i,my
    sel
    f,Zeeandt
    wins.

    DadwahambanoDi ma,PhumzaandNj abulo.U


    AyandanoMawandewer einsi
    dealr
    eady,Msi r
    a
    ,Xhanti
    andNdumi sower eoutsi
    debeli
    ndeI
    bri
    demaids.Wegotof f,Iwassonervous.Zee
    hel
    pedmewi thmydr ess.That
    'swhenImetu
    Ndumisohehadresembl anceyooAyandaube
    ni
    ceshamenay e.

    Hegr
    eet
    ed.

    Ndumi
    so:Ihav
    eheardubizwangol
    astbor
    n.
    Soni
    cetomeettoy
    oulastborn,
    Ismi
    l
    ed

    Ndumi
    :your
    eal
    l
    yar
    ebeaut
    if
    ul
    Me:
    ngi
    yabonga.

    Xhant
    icamet
    oki
    ssmycheek.

    Xhanti
    :howar
    etheKhumal
    os?congr
    atsl
    ast
    born
    Me:
    ngi
    yabonga.

    Wereachedumnyango.OhhGodndi
    ngaf
    aint
    i.
    Tot
    iwentinnosi
    sNcebsie

    Xhant
    iwal
    kedi
    nnoNj
    abul
    o,f
    oll
    owedby
    Ndumi sonoDi mat henMsi ranoPhumza
    bay omaphambi li
    .ThenZeewal keddownt he
    aisleay edwacasMawandewaswi thAy anda
    already .Twinswal kedi nflowergal wit
    hconf etti
    athelai mbal iphant si.Theysayi tsymbol izes
    thebr idenewchosenpat hinli
    fe.UBoywas
    car ry
    ingpillowwi thr i
    ngsbutt heywer efake, i
    n
    caset heygetl ost, ther eal onesbezi ku
    Mawandeepokot hweni .ThenIf oll
    owednodad
    ever yonest oodup, Ay andal ovesl ocalke.
    bekudl alaingomakaKur tDar r
    en, Standingon
    theedgeofmyl ifei bidlalasosof t.Inev ertook
    not i
    ceoft hissongev ent houghAy anda
    bet handauy i
    dlalaunt ilthatday .

    Ther
    e'st
    hispar
    tthatsay
    s,,
    ,
    ,,
    ,

    Wel
    comet
    othebestofmywor
    ld
    Wel
    comet
    other
    estofmyl
    i
    fe
    Wel
    comet
    othebestofmywor
    ld
    Wi
    thy
    ouasmywi
    fe

    Ihav
    ebeendy
    ingj
    ustt
    ogety
    ourl
    ove
    Ipr
    omi
    senott
    oteari
    tapar
    t..
    ..

    I
    twentonandonIwal keddowntheaisl
    ewi t
    h
    mydad, Ayandawasr eall
    ywelcomingmet othe
    bestofhisworl
    dandl ifeashi
    swi f
    e.Bencume
    uMtungwawam Ij ustwantedtoletgooffmy
    dadandr anstr
    aighti
    nt ohi
    sarms.

    Wewal keddownt her


    ebesendizi
    nyembezi
    al
    readykebethuna,sayof
    ikakuyeandmydad
    ki
    ssedmyf oreheadandhandedmekuy e.

    Dad:
    uyi
    phat
    hekahl
    einganey
    ami
    kwedi
    ni,
    ,
    ,,
    ,he
    t
    henhuggedhi
    m

    Ayanda:Iwil
    ldad,
    (helookedatmehehad
    tear
    yeyes,
    )youaresobeauti
    ful
    Marhadebe

    Ismi
    l
    ed.

    Therewasnoneedf orhi
    mt oremov emyv ei
    l
    casbengingambozwangaveleandit
    hi
    ngakhet
    haubhakaamakhekhengi ngashadil
    e.

    Dadwentt osi
    tdown,groom'smenandbride'
    s
    maidsalsosatdown.ZeeandMawande
    bamelakude.IhandedmybouquettoZee.We
    faceduMfundi
    siholdi
    ngbothhands

    Hedi
    ddef
    ini
    ti
    onofmar
    ri
    aget
    heni
    twas
    weddi
    ngv
    ows.

    I
    twasmef
    ir
    st.Iexhal
    ed

    Me: Ilovey ouAy andaKhumal o,Iknowt haty ou


    l
    ov emet oo,Ihav epray edt hatGodwoul dl ead
    met oHi schoicenotmi nesandIam conf i
    dent
    thatHi swilli
    sbei ngf ul
    f i
    l
    ledt oday ,t
    hrought he
    pressur eofthepr esentanduncer tai
    ntiesoft he
    future,Ipromi set obef ait
    hful toyou.Int he
    presenceofGod, thesewi tnesses, ourf ami li
    es
    andf ri
    ends, Ivowt olov e,cheer ishandcar ef or
    you, It
    akey ouwi thal lyourf aultsandy our
    strengthasIof f
    ermy selftoy ouwi thall my
    faultsandst rengt hs, Ichoosey ouasaper son
    withwhom Iwannaspendt her estofmyl i
    fe
    withandIpr omi sey out hisf rom myhear tforall
    theday sofmyl ife.Ilov ey ouMt ungwa.
    Ayanda: Sinenhlanhla,bhabha,Vuy ol
    wam
    Rhadebe, youar ethemostgener ous, l
    ov i
    ng
    unsel
    fishper sonIev erknow.Inev erbeli
    evedin
    l
    oveatf i
    r stsi
    ghtuntilImety ou.Ijustfel
    lin
    l
    ovewi thy ouinstant
    ,t hemomentIsawy ou
    wit
    hy ourf ri
    ends(GodIwaspr ayi
    ngangat hi
    eLongst reet)youwer esoshy, your ef
    usedmy
    dri
    nksandy our ef
    usedmyl i
    ft,butItoldmy sel
    f
    Iwil
    lnev ergiveupony ou.

    Thi
    smar ri
    agemeansev erythi
    ngt
    ome, you
    havealr
    eadygivenmet hemostpreciousgift
    s
    whichisyourhear
    tandl i
    tt
    leKhumaloforthatI
    wil
    lalwaysbegratef
    ul.

    (Ismi
    l
    ed)

    Ifeelsofor
    tunat
    ethaty
    ouhavechosento
    shareyourl
    ov ewi
    thmeandthatIgett
    ogrow
    oldnawe, bhabha,todayIchoosey outobemy
    wife,
    Ipromi setolovey ouuncondi t
    ional
    ly,
    to
    honoryouf rom thi
    sdayt obefait
    hfulin
    si
    cknessandi nhealt
    h, i
    ngoodt imesandbad
    ti
    mes, injoysandsor rows, Ipromiseto
    supportyout orespecty ou,tolaughwi t
    hyou
    andtocr ywithyout ocher i
    shyouasl ongaswe
    bothshallli
    ve

    Idon'twishtochangeany t
    hingaboutyou,
    aboutourrelati
    onshi
    pexceptforinyembezi
    phel
    ay ouhav eaZambesi ri
    ver,
    Ijusthopewe
    wil
    lleavetheZambesi r
    iverhere

    (peopl
    elaughed,Iwascr
    yingal
    readyandIf
    elt
    soembarrassed)

    Ijusthopewewi
    l
    lstaylovi
    ngeachot
    her
    .Fr
    om
    t
    hemomentIsawy ou,Iknewyouweret
    heone
    wit
    hwhom Iwant edtosharemyl if
    ewi th,your
    beauty,
    heartandmindinspi
    redmet obet he
    bestpersonIcanbe,youarey oung, yetyou
    havebuiltamaninme, youinsti
    ll
    edv alues,
    moralsthatInev
    erhadbeforejustinshor t
    peri
    odoft i
    me.

    Iwill
    nev erfor
    gett hedayy ourli
    ttl
    efri
    end
    (squi
    rrel)jumpedony ouifunailays
    ubuziphethe(webot hgiggled)thefearinyour
    eyes,yangenzandaf unat obey ourher o
    everyday,toprotectyou,tocherishyoubuty ou
    madei timpossible,youmademewai tfor9
    mont hsitwasr eall
    yat ort
    urerbhabha
    besendifunauy akwaal lyouneedi slovehoping
    thatuzobanamahl oniungiqome.

    (Peopl
    elaughedagai
    n)
    WhenIgr ewupInev erdream orhadanv ision
    ofmyweddi ngday ,howmyf ut
    urewifewi l
    l l
    ook
    l
    ikeinfactInev erdream ofhav i
    ngast able
    rel
    ati
    onshi puntilt
    hedayImety ou,Itol
    dmy
    sel
    fthat16y earoldgirlsitti
    ngther
    engumf azi
    wakwaKhumal o,wakwandl ovu,
    wakwaMt ungwa, youcreat edahumani nme,
    youmademewhoIam t oday(ungenzaweak
    kodwabhabha)hewhi sper ed,youtaughtme
    howt oloveandbehumanf ort
    hatIwi l
    lforever
    begratefulMar hadele.Ilove
    you.
    ..
    ...
    ..
    ..
    ...
    ..
    ...
    (Onet earescapedhi sey e
    makubendi mosuleleuAy andaninani.Hewi ped
    i
    tquickly.
    )

    Declarat
    ionofmarriagewasdoneMawande,
    gaveAy andamyr i
    ngandZee, gavemeAy anda'
    ri
    ngIhadt wosetsofrings,abluecushi
    oncut
    saphirediamondhaloring,
    ,,
    theotheronewas
    ti
    tanium i
    nlaybay
    .itwasengr aved"MyYanda"
    ngaphakat
    hi
    EkaAyandawasal
    soabl uesapphi
    reband
    Tit
    ani
    um abal
    onei
    nlaybayalsoengr
    aved"my
    Sne"

    Thedaysi
    yozi
    l
    andatheywerenotengrav
    ed,
    I
    don'
    tknowzaengr
    averni
    nibutclear
    lyMr
    Godzi
    ll
    ahadti
    metoengravedthem

    Priest:
    ifanyonecanshowj ustreasonwhy
    thesemaynotbej ointt
    ogether,Iwil
    ll
    ett
    hem
    speaknoworf or
    ev erhol
    dtheirpeace.

    Justaf
    tert
    hatt
    hedooropened.

    OhhmyGod,
    thi
    sisnothappeni
    ng!
    !!
    !
    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
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    Everyonet ur
    nedandlookedint hedir
    ecti
    onof
    wheret hepersonwasstanding.Ay oungman
    walkedi n,wear
    inganavysuit,navywaistcoat,
    whiteshi r
    tandpowderbluetie,hereall
    ylooked
    fi
    nethanl astti
    meIsawhi m.Yesi twasMuso,
    thenal adyaround40swal kedi nwit
    hagi r
    l
    around14- 16.

    Ay
    anda:
    ufunani
    lo?
    (hewhi
    sper
    ed)

    Ishr
    uggedmyshoul
    der
    s.

    Musowal
    keddownt
    oourdi
    rect
    ionbutwat
    hol
    a
    i
    ndawoy
    ohl
    alawahl
    a,andl
    adi
    est
    oo.

    Bekuthul
    ewonkeumtu,bebukelenj
    e,wewere
    sti
    l
    lholdi
    nghandsnoYanda.Ijustsmil
    ed,
    Yandalookedpi
    ssedt
    hough.Thepr i
    est
    conti
    nued.

    Priest:
    Byt hepowerv est
    edinmebyt hechur
    ch
    ,Inowpr onounceyouMrandMr sKhumal
    o,
    youmayki ssthebride.Ayandaki
    ssedmea
    l
    ongone, mydadcl earedhisthr
    oatandwe
    brokethekiss.

    Theguest
    sstar
    tedtoappl
    audandZeegav
    e
    backmybouquet.

    Ayanda:
    (hewhi
    sper
    ed)bhabhauMt
    ungwa
    vuki
    le
    Me:
    hay
    imaar
    nAy
    anda
    Ayanda:
    ndi
    thi
    nikeul
    ambi
    l
    e,i
    tsbeenaweek
    now.
    Me:
    yagul
    awena.

    Af
    terweweredone,wesignedt
    hepaper
    sthat
    weneededtobesi
    gnedsaphumawi t
    hthe
    cr
    owdsingi
    ngbehindus.

    YesIwasMr sKhumal o.Wehadtot


    akef otos
    fi
    rst
    ,butevent houghmyv i
    l
    lagei
    nhl
    ebutf or
    event
    slikethisibi
    ngenazoi
    ndawoezir
    it
    ef or
    zonaso, asortofstudi
    othi
    ngwascreatedby
    theguysbebev i
    dori
    ser
    I
    twasus, Br
    ide'
    smai ds,Groom'smen,t
    wins,
    Toti
    ,dad,Ayanda'sfather,
    Ay anda'
    smom ,
    baba,babomncane,bonabomncanekaAyanda.
    Wet ookasmanyaswecan.Wewentback
    homef orsomespeeches,af
    tert
    hatwetook
    ourfir
    stdanceasMrandMr sKhumaloof
    course.Ihadt
    othrowmybouquetandAy anda
    tookoffmyweddinggarter,
    whil
    ehewas
    taki
    ngit(hewhisper
    ed)

    Ayanda:i
    fbekungekhobantuabadal
    a
    ngendi
    yi
    khulul
    angamazinyo.

    Ij
    ustsmi
    l
    edathi
    m.

    Hethent hr
    ewi t
    .Andwewentt ochangeint
    o
    tr
    adi
    tionalcl
    othes.Weateandi twasti
    mef or
    metosaygoodby etoMat
    ati
    eleandhell
    owt o
    Cofi
    mv aba,notthatIwasl
    ookingfor
    wardtoit.

    Makhulu,
    Toti
    ,mha,
    momkhul u,baba,
    dad,
    nabany
    eabant
    uabafewbebezohambanathi
    angit
    hibekumel
    engiy
    ocathul
    akhaboAy anda,
    toget
    herwithr
    emovaltr
    uckbeloaderi
    nto
    bengendi
    swangazo.

    Ayandawenttot
    akemybagandloadedi
    tin
    thecart
    henwewenttosaygoodby
    es.Onour
    waytoendl
    ini
    .Musocametous.

    Muso:
    hey
    Me:
    hey
    Muso:
    howar
    eyou?
    Me:
    goodandy
    ou?
    Muso:
    great,
    congr
    atsPr
    incess
    Me:
    thanky
    ou.

    JudgemebutIwantedtohugMusof ort
    hel
    ast
    ti
    me,thesadnessi
    nhi
    sfacejustbr
    okemebut
    howwasIt
    odot
    hatwi
    thAy
    andanextt
    ome.

    Muso:
    congr
    atsbr
    a
    Ay
    anda:
    sur
    e

    Shamemaar
    n,bekuzwel
    ahonest
    ly.

    Me:
    thanky
    ou

    Hehandedmeagi ftbag.Iopenedi t.Itwasa


    bigalbum welldet
    ail
    edandwel ldesigned.on
    thecov eri
    twaswr i
    tten,SneandAy anda"our
    Memor ies"ithadsomeofmyf otosalready
    zasehighschool ,
    siseKokst ad,Cputezinye
    bendingenazoshame, al
    lmyphot osthatwere
    takennguMusot heywer etheremi neonly
    though.
    Me: t
    hankyou(tearswerestar
    ti
    ngtothr
    eat en
    myeyes,itwasverycute,
    thi
    naallwehadt odo
    wastocomplet
    eituntil
    wegetol dcasi
    binkulu
    shame)
    Muso:
    pleasur
    e
    Ayanda:(Ayandabengekhorit
    eatal
    lbuthe
    tr
    iedhi
    slev
    elbestt
    okeepi tcool)

    Ihuggedhi
    m.

    Muso:ther
    eisonel
    astf
    avourIwannaasky
    ou
    pl
    ease.
    Me:
    ok
    Muso:
    mymot
    herwant
    stogr
    eety
    ou
    Me:ok,wher
    eisshe?Youdon'thav
    ea
    pr
    obl
    em mossbhabha.Il
    ookedatAyanda
    Ayanda:notatal
    lmf
    aziwam.Heki
    ssedmy
    cheek.(Di
    dhehadtorubi
    tinkuMuso,
    mfxmm Ayanda)

    Musowentt
    ogethermot
    herandhersi
    ster
    babuy
    a.

    Muso: Pri
    ncessmeetmymot herandt
    hisis
    Ntat
    i(theli
    tt
    legalwhousedtofonemef i
    rst
    t
    heni coastmayicl
    earani
    keuMuso)mom t his
    i
    sPrincess

    Muso'
    smom : Dumel
    ahleMakotiwaka,
    umut
    lesokant
    i,okae.(Yaphaphakeumhaka
    Muso,yaf
    ananoToti
    )
    Me:Dumelamohwenadi
    ,kephel
    ahant
    le,
    wena
    ophel
    ajoang?(Ismi
    l
    ed)
    M.
    M:andshyt
    oo,
    your
    eal
    l
    yar
    ebeaut
    if
    ulmy
    baby
    Me:
    thansmom
    M.
    M:mor
    adumel
    a
    Ay
    anda:
    (rai
    sedhi
    sey
    ebr
    ow)excuseme?
    M.
    M:ohhsor
    rymybaby,
    howar
    eyou?
    Ay
    anda:
    I'
    m goodmamaandy
    ou?
    M.M :greatmybaby
    ,reaol
    ebohel
    ahl
    e
    Pr
    incess
    Me:
    keal
    ebohamme
    M.M.: Ibr
    oughty
    outhi
    sIdi
    dn'
    tknowwhatto
    buy.(Shehandedusawool
    wort
    hsvoucher
    Me:
    real
    ebohamme.

    Ay
    andabedi
    kwef
    ini
    shshame.

    Ay
    anda:
    Idon'
    tmeant
    ober
    udemamabutwe
    havetosaygoodby es,
    Ithi
    nkt
    heyar
    ewai
    ti
    ng
    forusngaphakat
    hi.

    M.
    M:ofcour
    set
    hansf
    ory
    ourt
    ime
    Me: ni
    cetofi
    nal
    l
    ymeety
    oummeandy
    ouNt
    ati
    ,
    sal
    anihant
    le
    M.M:thankyouPr
    incess,
    tsamay
    anghant
    le
    hl
    e,al
    lthebest
    Me:
    beseni
    dli
    l
    ekodwa
    M.
    M:y
    ebosi
    sut
    hi
    Me:
    badumedi
    sekohay
    e

    Wel
    eft

    Me:
    didy
    ouhav
    etodot
    hat
    ?
    Ay
    anda:
    what?
    Me:
    uqhawul
    emamabant
    uet
    het
    ha
    Ayanda:I'
    m notgoodinpret
    endingbhabha,
    soI
    won'tactasifI
    'mfine,andi
    yi
    funil
    akakaand
    gi
    vemet hat(t
    hegiftf
    rom Muso)
    Me: hayi
    boAy
    andai
    tsj
    ustagi
    fty
    ethuandi
    ts
    beauti
    ful
    Ay
    anda:
    wedon'
    tneedi
    t
    Me:
    Idomi
    na
    Ay
    anda:why?
    ?Casi
    sukakul
    akaka,
    don'
    ttest
    mebhabha
    Me:
    no!
    !Buti
    nef
    otezami
    Ayanda
    Ayanda: heywenabhabhadon'tmakemebl
    ow
    l
    anja,t
    rustmeI'm capabl
    eofsendi
    nghi
    min
    heavennow.
    Me:
    whati
    swr
    ongngawe?i
    tsj
    ustanal
    bum
    Ayanda:al
    bum wedon'
    tneed.Whydoy
    ou
    wannakeepthi
    shonest
    ly?
    Me:
    ithasmyf
    otos,
    someoft
    hem Idon'
    thav
    e
    Ayanda:youar
    etesti
    ngmebhabha,
    youknow
    i
    t,wejustgotmarr
    ied,canwedr
    opt
    his?
    Me:
    youst
    art
    edi
    tangi
    thi
    ??

    Hejustkeptqui
    te,Iknewt
    hiswasf
    arfr
    om
    ov
    er, hewasjustbei
    ngpol
    it
    ecassi
    sebant
    wini

    Wewer ewal ki
    ngtowar dendl i
    niandwewer e
    talki
    ngpol i
    t el
    y.Wewentpasst helounge
    greetingpeopl ewhower et hereandwent
    strai
    ghtt omybedr oom,bengi yol
    andaIf one
    andmypur se.hecameaf t
    ermeandcl oset he
    door, hepi nnedmeagai nstt hedoorand
    kissedme, wekissed, hetracedhi shandson
    myboobs, heundidmyt opandsuckedt hem,
    hishandwentdownt omyt r
    easure, heinser t
    ed
    hisfinger,Iwasaboutt omoanwhenheki ssed
    me, heinser tedthesecondone.Ir eal l
    ywant ed
    hi
    ml i
    keyest
    erday
    .Hethenletgoandl
    i
    ckedhi
    s
    fi
    nger
    s,hehadanaughtysmil
    e.

    Ay
    anda:sundi
    qhel
    iamasi
    mbabhabha,
    I'
    mthe
    manher
    e, mandi
    ngat
    het
    hiut
    het
    henawe
    Me:
    andnow?
    Ay
    anda:
    what?
    ?
    Me:
    uyay
    ekakanj
    alo
    Ay
    anda:
    whatmustIdo?
    Me:hay
    oboAyanda(Iwasbur
    ning,
    Ireal
    l
    y
    want
    edhim)
    Ay
    anda:
    kunabant
    uaphanj
    e
    Me:
    kanci
    nci
    ke
    Ay
    anda:
    hay
    ibhabha

    Walungi
    sahist
    rouserandl
    eftmet
    her
    e.
    Kwangathi
    mandi scr
    eamer
    .
    Mf
    xm

    Wesaidourgoodbyesandwelef
    t.Xhantiwas
    dri
    vi
    ngAyanda'scarandwewereattheback
    seatnomyeniwam.Itwasr
    eal
    l
    yal ongjourney

    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
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    Wear r
    ivedkul oAy andaaround9pm l ate,my
    famil
    y, shownwher etheywer egoingt osl
    eep
    andmi naIwasgi venagi r
    ltolookafterme,
    walkmear oundwhenIwant edgot ot hetoi
    let
    andhelpwi tht hi
    ngst hatIneeded,remember
    bendi
    ngekaphakant yi
    swaasuMakot iand
    bengi
    ngekacat hulu,soIwasnotal l
    owedt o
    walkegcekeni lakaboAy anday et.AllIwant
    ed
    wast
    osl
    eepi
    thasbeenav
    eryl
    ongday
    .

    Zi
    masa.(Ayanda'
    sex)ormustIsayXhant
    i'
    s
    exwasther
    etoo,Iguessshecamedownwith
    Ayanda'
    smotherfr
    om CapeTown.

    Iwast oldthatIwasgoingt
    osleepi nAyanda's
    room whi chwasoutsi
    dethemai nhousewi t
    h
    thegirlbutAyandaref
    usedpointblank.Hi
    s
    mot herwamshout awancamasomewher e
    somehowwehadt obreakourcult
    ure.Wewent
    tosleep, hebr
    oughtamanziogeza, weboth
    bathedt hengotint
    obed.

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha
    Me:
    Yanda
    Ay
    anda:
    yit
    himy
    eni
    wam kal
    oku
    Me:
    chaAy
    andangi
    yozel
    a
    Ay
    anda:
    khondi
    phe
    Me:
    ngi
    l
    ele
    Ayanda: kanci
    nci
    bhabha,hegotont
    opofme
    andkissedme, Ij
    ustkeptst
    il
    l.
    Me:
    youmustbeki
    ddi
    ngme,
    I'
    mti
    redmi
    na
    Ay
    anda:
    hay
    ibhabha
    Me:
    mov
    e.
    Ayanda:bhabhayiva(hemademetouch
    umtungwa)uMt ungwauqini
    l
    e,yi
    niMarhadebe
    yekaubaheart
    less
    Me:
    mov
    eAy
    anda
    Ay
    anda:
    bhabhabuhl
    ungut
    orhoMar
    hadebe

    Kadeengi
    nci
    ki
    sel
    elanay
    eemi
    ni.I
    twasmyt
    urn
    nami.

    Ipushedhi
    m asi
    deandcov
    eredmy
    sel
    f,i
    twas
    reall
    ymyt ur
    n,ungizwisil
    eubuhl ungunaye
    angithi
    .Iknowheal sowant edmeemi nibuthe
    madeanexcusey abantu.Wheni tcomesto
    Ayandai fhewant stogety ouhemakesi ta
    pointthathedoes, event hattimei twasaway
    ofpunishingmebecauseoft hatalbum butina
    verydiplomaticway .Eyabant uwasj ustan
    excuseandheknewexact l
    yt hatIwantedhim
    sobadl y,soIalsowant edt opuni shhim nami.

    Ay
    anda: t
    hisi
    sourfi
    rstni
    ghtashusbandand
    wi
    fe,don'
    tyouthi
    nkweshouldcelebr
    ate
    Me:
    no,
    I'
    mti
    red
    Ayanda:heblewsameai rinmyear ,
    hebi teit
    andwentdownonmyneck, Godknowst he
    eff
    ectYandahasonme, Iwaswetal ready.Iso
    wantedtoholdmyselfbutbengohlul
    eka.Hegot
    undercoverandwentdown, heopenedmyl egs,
    Il
    ethim,Iwaswearingav eryshortl
    ightnight
    dress,
    hetookoffmyunderwearandsl
    idehi
    s
    fi
    nger,amoanescaped,hesl
    i
    dethesecond
    one.Imoanedinneed.

    Ay
    anda:
    mustIst
    op
    Me:
    nobhabha!
    !!
    !

    Hepl
    ayedwi
    thmycl
    i
    tor
    is

    Me:bhabhacanweskipthestar
    ter
    sandgo
    st
    rai
    ghtt
    othemaincourse.:
    -\

    Hecont
    inuedwi
    thwhathewasdoi
    ng

    Me:
    bhabha!
    !!
    Ayanda:mfazi
    wam, hestar
    tedtosuckme
    (GodAyandadoesn'
    tli
    stenkodwa)
    Me:
    Ayanda!
    !

    Hegotoutofthecover
    ,hewashardasever
    ,he
    wassti
    l
    lonhisboxershort
    s.Hegotupand
    wentt
    oswitchoffthel
    ight

    Me:
    andt
    hen?
    ?
    Ay
    anda:
    what?
    Me:
    whati
    syourpr
    obl
    em kant
    iAy
    anda?
    Ay
    anda:
    Idon'
    thav
    eany
    Me:whati
    swr
    ongwi
    thy
    ou,
    youcan'
    tl
    eav
    eme
    l
    iket
    his
    Ay
    anda:
    yousai
    dyouar
    eti
    redangi
    thi
    ?

    Yhohay i,
    Ireal
    lycri
    ed,Iwassodesper
    atetobe
    serv
    icedpeople,heledmeontoleavemelike
    that
    ,Ireal
    lywantedhiminsi
    deme,Icri
    ed,I
    knewAy andaalsowant
    edmeandhewasdoi ng
    thati
    ntenti
    onal
    ly.Hewant
    edtoseeme
    beggi
    nghi m,IknowuAyandahewasst
    il
    langry
    ngendabay eal
    bum.

    Me: Ay andal etmegoandsl eepnaboToti


    then,i
    fy ouar egoingtopunishmet hi
    smuch.I
    cannott akeit,t
    hisisreal
    lykill
    ingme, youare
    real
    lybei ngcruel
    ,Iwasnotl iket hi
    sAyanda
    unti
    l y
    oumademepr egnant.Please
    accompanyme, I
    '
    mt ir
    edoft hiscrazi
    ness
    yakho,y esmay beIwaswr ongngeal bum butI
    don'tdeser vethi
    streat
    mentAy anda.

    Istoodup, Iwasreall
    ysobbi
    ng,howcouldhe
    deprivemeofsomet hingheknewbengi
    ngena
    controlov
    erit.Hestoodupquickl
    yandcameto
    me.
    Ay
    anda:xol
    obhabha,
    Iwasj
    ustki
    ddi
    ngy
    ou
    mfazi
    wam
    Me: udl
    alanj
    ani
    ngent
    oenj
    e,doy
    ouknowhow
    pai
    nfuli
    tis.
    Ayanda:Idobhabha,Idi
    dn'
    tknowbutnowI
    cansee,
    xoloMarhadebe,pl
    easelet
    'sgot
    obed,
    xol
    oMashwabada.Iwasr eal
    lycr
    ossshameI
    don'
    twannali
    e.

    Hel
    aidmeont
    hebedandst
    art
    edki
    ssi
    ngme.

    Me:
    pleaseAy
    andanotnow!
    !

    Hesmi l
    edandt ookoffhi
    sboxershor ts.Yer
    r
    esisi
    dengesendoda,hewasst il
    lhardallal
    ong
    adlal
    auhideandseek.Hei nserted.Godknows
    howmuchIl ongedforuMt ungwa, hethen
    stoppedandlookedatmewi t
    hhi seyeshalf
    cl
    osed,
    hewasaboutt
    osaysomet
    hing.

    Me:
    DON'
    TDARE!
    !Umel
    eni

    Hesmi l
    ed,hedi
    dhisthinguNdl ov
    uandt r
    ust
    me,withAyandayouwillnevergounsat
    isf
    ied.
    Webot hcameandhecol l
    apsedonmeand
    l
    atergotupandcleanedus.Webot hlai
    donour
    backs.

    Ay
    anda:
    wel
    comekwaMt
    ungwamf
    azi
    wam
    Me:
    (Ismi
    l
    ed)y
    adi
    kaYanda
    Ayanda: udeulil
    ekangakabhabha,
    yesI
    wantedt opunishyoukanci
    ncibut
    bendingathandinam.
    Me:mfxm,youwer
    eenj
    oyi
    ngeachandev
    ery
    momentofi
    t
    Ay
    anda:
    real
    l
    yubuzoy
    akuTot
    i
    Me:
    yes
    Ay
    anda:
    andsaywhat
    ?
    Me:
    Iwasgoi
    ngt
    otel
    lhert
    het
    rut
    hAy
    anda
    Ay
    anda:
    hay
    ibhabha
    Me: tr
    ustme, IknowTotiubezozal
    aendi
    za,
    at
    hi nj
    e'ungal
    okothi
    ugangengenganeyami,
    yi
    nikelokuekudi
    ngayo'
    Ay
    anda:
    andt
    hati
    s?
    Me:uMtungwaphel
    a,youdounder
    est
    imat
    e
    uTot
    iwena,aspadei
    saspadekuye
    Ay
    anda: Ihav
    enoti
    ced,
    xol
    oagai
    nbhabha.I
    wi
    llnev
    erdoitagai
    n.
    Me:
    mfxm,
    I'
    m st
    il
    lcr
    osst
    houghYanda.

    Webothlaughedandwecuddl
    edanddozedof
    f
    t
    othongoland.
    Foll
    owingdaymyal ar m wentof fat6: 00andI
    wokeup, Ayandawokeupt ooandbr ought
    water,webothbathedar ound7,t hei twast he
    bigdayyocathulabuti wasn' tonmyweddi ng
    dressbuttr
    aditi
    onal clothest hengi ftswer e
    exchanged(kwendi swa)Iwassot iredt henthe
    ceremonycont i
    nuedt il
    l l
    atehour s.Fol lowing
    dayIwascal l
    edngagqoki swa, itwasst il
    learl
    y
    butitwashotalready, amadaki awadl ali
    ,
    i
    dukweel i
    mny amaandi t
    yalimadei twor se,I
    fel
    tli
    kescreaming.Agai nnday alwaf rom
    abantubasekhaya.Ay anda' smom , ebegcwele
    i
    sigezoqhuy ena,omamomncanenodabs
    bakaAyandabandiyal anabo.Thenl astlyitwas
    makhulukaAy anda.

    Makhulu:mz ukul
    wanausungumfazi
    walapha
    kwaKhumal o,bef
    oreutat
    omkhuluwoAy
    anda
    passedon,wathiumfaziwokuqal
    a
    wabazukulwanabakhenobangokabani athi
    ywe
    i
    gamael i
    thi.SI
    MANYE(br i
    ngingpeople
    toget
    her),
    sokemzukulwanael al
    aphaemzi ni
    i
    gamasi kunikal
    onganguSimany e,kodwake
    nam mzukul wandi
    nal
    oelam endifunaukuku
    nikal
    onaintoethet
    haubasizawasebenzisa
    womabini.Mnandikuni
    kaeli
    thiINGANATHI

    Ay
    andawascal
    l
    ed.

    Makhul
    u:Ay andamzukulwananankukeu
    Si
    manyeumf aziwakwaKhumaloasingowakho
    wedwakengowakwakhumal o,el
    i
    ny ekei
    gama
    l
    akhenguInganathi,
    usungahambake
    mzukul
    wana.

    Ayanda:Enkosimakhulu,thewayhesaidi
    t,I
    knewhewassmi li
    ng, Iwantedt
    olookathi
    m
    but,
    Ihadtorespectandlookdown,phel
    a
    ngangi
    hlezi
    esi
    cambeni
    ,thenngadl
    i
    swauTsi
    ki

    SnekaYanda;
    -
    )
    Si
    makaYanda;
    -
    )
    I
    ngakaYanda;
    -
    )
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    08/
    17,
    23:
    52]Mca:
    INSERT85

    Theywer edonewi thmeIwast ol


    dt ogoand
    helpot herMakot i
    s.Sinceitwasst i
    l
    lint
    he
    mor ningwehadt oser v
    ecoffeesincemost
    peoplesl eptover.Iwenttothekitchenand
    greetedoosi sithatwer et
    here.Youknowkeoo
    sisimakot iabadala,t
    heywer e6andal lol
    der
    thanme.

    Me:
    mol
    weni
    Si
    si:
    mol
    onono
    Ikeptqui
    teaf
    tert
    hat
    .

    Sisi:
    comeandhel pmeher enana.Ijustfel
    li
    n
    l
    ov ewit
    hlosisishame.Ubeseqinil
    enjeimpela.
    Shewasdoi ngteaforotat
    aesibayeni.Bat
    hi
    ungubanikeigamalakho(shet ouchedmy
    cheeksezidl
    ali
    sa,Ifel
    tli
    ke2year sol
    d)she
    wasbubblyandf ul
    lofli
    fe
    Me:
    ndi
    nguI
    nganat
    hisi
    si
    Si
    si:
    Paror
    ojee,
    li
    mnandi
    igamalakho,
    ndi
    nguNomkhuseli
    kemnananawam
    Me:
    okkecc
    Sel
    i:howol
    dar
    eyouke?
    youl
    ooksoy
    oung
    Me:
    I'
    m 19si
    si
    Sel
    i:wher
    edi
    dyoumeetAy
    anda?
    Me:
    inCapeTown.
    Sel
    i:her
    ekenanawam, (shegav
    emeat
    ray
    wit
    hcups,si
    sakot
    ata.
    Me:
    hay
    isi
    sikut
    hiweandi
    ngeni
    esi
    bay
    eni
    .
    Sel
    i:(shelaughedatme)Iknownanawam
    si
    zaphelel
    aaphaebaleni
    ,si
    zawukhwaza
    umfanaazozi t
    hatha.

    Weexi
    tedt
    hekit
    chenandi
    ndeedwakhwaza
    umf
    anawazozi
    that
    ha.

    IjustthoughtIwasgoi
    ngtoseeuAy anda,I
    reall
    ymi ssedmyhusband,
    bingekesi
    nkikahl
    e
    l
    ekamyhusband.

    Wewentbackt otheki
    tchen,
    Justbef
    orewe
    ent
    eredabasi
    sibashi
    yekebethet
    hangam
    mfxm .
    Si
    si1:
    Ihear
    dhersay
    ingshei
    s19
    Si
    si2:
    shei
    sly
    ing,
    shei
    s16
    Si
    si
    :1:
    ungxamel
    eni
    emnci
    nci
    kangaka
    Sisi3:asiyil
    emali i
    leqwangababant wana.
    Ay andaisrichzonkeezi t
    axiziphandl
    ezezakhe,
    Ihav eheardnasekapaunePal aceu
    Nonkululekout hiuhlalakwezi ndawozabel
    ungu
    anduowneraf ancyr estaurantandimali
    kuthway adili
    kaemf aneniyambonanawe.
    (Mf xm palacemyl ef tfoot)
    Sisi
    1: bayadikaababant
    wana, nam
    bendingasozendimyeke,nasekapakut
    hwa
    uhambangomny onyovawemot oawuthengel
    we
    kwanguloAy anda
    Sisi2:Ifamil
    yy akhekuthay onai
    bizei
    nhl
    oko
    yetr
    ainforil
    obola,ebekhalazauLomzikumama
    phaekhay abeforeumt shato
    Sel
    i:ni
    yadikabeni
    ngenol
    indaahambeumt ana
    bant
    u,ni
    ziphet
    hekakubiunenzeni
    ,mani
    funu
    kwazi
    kut
    heni
    ningabuzi
    kuI
    nganat
    hinj
    e.

    Voi
    ce:
    babuzent
    oni
    ?

    Weal
    ll
    ookedi
    nthedi
    rect
    ionwher
    ethev
    oice
    camefr
    om.

    Sel
    i:hay
    ibomol
    oAy
    anda
    Ay
    anda:
    babuzent
    oni
    kuI
    nga?
    Sel
    i:askt
    hem
    Ayanda:whati
    sgoi
    ngonkant
    ikubuzwani
    ku
    I
    nganathi
    ?
    Si
    si1:
    not
    hingbhut
    i
    Ayanda:
    andi
    yobhut
    iwakhounobhut
    iongaka
    wena.
    Ay
    anda:
    kubuzwani
    kuI
    nga
    Si
    si2:
    besi
    buzanangemi
    nyakay
    akhe.
    Ayanda:ni
    zay
    enzani,
    hlukanani
    nomfazi
    wam
    ni
    bekauxwebangathiani
    gcobanganj
    e.

    YhooIwantedeart
    htoswall
    owme, t
    rustme,
    Ayandacanbeveryrudemayef
    unaworse
    makuyakumfaziwakhe.Ay
    andacametokiss
    mycheek.
    Sel
    i:heyAy
    andasi
    badal
    aay
    enzi
    wal
    ont
    o
    Ay
    anda:
    khumbul
    amf
    azi
    wam nj
    esi
    si
    Sel
    i:hay
    iboyousleptt
    oget
    her
    ,it
    sst
    il
    l9am and
    al
    readyyoumissi
    ngher
    Ayanda:shei
    smyotherpar
    t,Idon'
    tfunct
    ion
    welli
    fndi
    ngamboni
    .
    Seli:uwhooohay
    indi
    yal
    osabaol
    ulweni
    uthando.
    Ay
    anda:
    awundi
    khumbul
    iwenabhabha
    Zi
    masawal
    kedi
    n.

    Ij
    ustlookeddown, haaaIwasnotgoingt osay
    Imisshim bengi
    namahlonikasisiSel
    ikodwa
    deepdownImi ssedhimterri
    bleshame.
    Ay
    anda:
    lambi
    l
    ebhabha

    Myey espoppedout,
    Ithoughtt
    hatut
    shooku
    kwakheuAy anda,
    kumdaka.

    Zi
    masa:
    Iwi
    l
    lmakey
    ousomet
    hingt
    oeat

    ShestoodupandmadeAy andafood.Iwassti
    l
    l
    busywithsisi
    Selimakingcof f
    eeforogogo.
    Zimasagav eAyanda,
    hisf ood,myarrogant
    husbandjustl
    ookedatt hefood
    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha,
    I'
    m hungr
    y
    Zi
    masa:
    hay
    iboYandaIhav
    emadey
    ouf
    ood
    nj
    e.
    Ayanda:undehlewena,ifIwant
    edfoodf rom
    youIwouldhaveasked,andI'
    m notYanda
    kuwesundiphaphel
    a.Bhabhalambil
    emf azi
    wam
    Zi
    masa:
    yhoooy
    oudi
    dn'
    thav
    etobesor
    ude
    Ayanda:uvulel
    oml omoagai
    nndakukhaba
    unye,uf
    unanikakadeapha,don'
    tyousee
    abantuabal
    aphabonkebanamadoda,wena
    yeyi
    phil
    euyincathamel
    eyomtu.
    Seli
    :it
    soknana, hoyaumy eniwakho(I
    wonderwhyAy andadidn'
    teatesibayeni
    namanyeamadodacasooXhant iatether
    e.I
    madehimf oodandheat e,wadlawakugqiba
    shame, myhusbandwasr eall
    yhungr yni
    nani
    Ay
    anda:
    enkosi
    Mar
    hadebe
    Me:
    youwel
    come

    Heki
    ssedmyf
    oreheadandl
    eft
    .

    Sel
    i:y
    ouhav
    eal
    ovi
    nghusband

    Ij
    ustsmi
    l
    ed.

    Zimasa:Ij
    usthopet
    heywil
    ll
    ast
    ,(Ichosenot
    toanswercasIdi
    dn'
    tknowwhyshesai
    dthat.

    Wefini
    shedservingcoff
    ee.Andwashedcups
    pl
    usdishessincecoff
    eewasservedwithbr
    ead
    andusu(tri
    pe)tothosewhowantedit.
    Bezi
    ngaphel
    iatall
    .
    Justaf
    terwef i
    nishedthemeatwasr eady
    nokudl
    a,andwehadt oser
    vefood,GodI
    wantedtoscream, wedidt
    hatandf i
    nall
    y
    ever
    yonehadeat en,i
    twasonlythosewho
    camelateroneort wo.

    Aft
    ersomet i
    meIwascal
    l
    ed,myfamil
    ywas
    l
    eaving,
    theywant
    edt
    osaygoodbyes.

    Wewal kedt hem t otheircars,wewer etal


    king
    kukuhlenjeooNdumi sower etheretoo,t
    hey
    sai
    dt heirgoodby esandl eft.Iwasleftbehi
    nd
    noAy anda, thepr oblem start
    edwhent hey
    huggedme, thereisnot hi
    ngpai nfult
    hanseeing
    yourparent s, y
    ourl ovingfami l
    yleavi
    ng,and
    l
    eavingy oubehi ndi nanewhome, withpeople
    youdon' tknow, whodon' tknowy ou,don'
    t
    understandy ou,Icriedsohar dl i
    kea4y earold
    i
    twasr eal l
    ypai nful ,t
    heytriedtocalm medown,
    Ij
    ustcoul dn'
    tbearthefactthattheywer ereall
    y
    l
    eaving.Af t
    ersomet i
    meIgotbet ter,
    the
    sadnessi nAyanda'sface,Idon'tknownoba, i
    s
    i
    tbecauseAy andais7y earsolderthanmeor
    unosizindaloorunesoftspotkum ,but
    akadibaninondibonandil
    il
    aorndi khathazekil
    eif
    i
    twasf orhim hewouldlovetoseemesmi li
    ng
    andhappyeachandev er
    ysecondf ort herest
    ofmyl ife.

    Hewasst andi
    ngbymysi deshameasi fIwas
    goingtopassoutordi
    sappear,af
    terIhugged
    them,Il
    eanedonhim.

    Toti:pl
    easet
    akecar
    eofmyAngel
    Ayandaand
    takecareofy
    ou
    Ay
    anda:
    Ipr
    omi
    seIwi
    l
    lTot
    i
    Tot
    i:Il
    ovey
    oubot
    h
    Us:
    wel
    ovey
    out
    ooTot
    i

    Shecameandhuggedusbot
    h.

    Ay
    anda:
    comebhabha,
    het
    ri
    edt
    ocar
    ryme
    Dad:yekwedinieyenzi
    walontoezi
    l
    ali
    ni
    bazat
    hini
    abantu,mehli
    se(lucki
    l
    ybesi
    ngapha
    kwegate)
    Ay
    anda:
    shei
    snotf
    inenj
    edad
    Dad:sheisgoi
    ngtobeok,
    giv
    eherwat
    erwhen
    yougeti
    nthehouse

    Baval
    eli
    saandt
    heyl
    eft
    .Wewal
    kedbackt
    othe
    house.

    Ay
    anda:
    youl
    ookbeaut
    if
    ulmf
    azi
    wam.
    Me:
    Enkosi
    myeni
    wami
    .
    Iwassotir
    edall
    Ineededwastosleepbutwho
    sl
    eepsat3pm emzi
    nienaonedayefiki
    l
    e.
    AyandagavemeaglassofwaterandIdranki
    t.

    Ayanda:
    comebhabha,y
    ouneedt
    oli
    eabi
    t,
    l
    ookubovukanj
    ani
    ebusweni
    Me:
    noI
    '
    m okYanda
    Ayanda:younotbhabhaandther
    eisnopointi
    n
    argui
    ngwithmecasy ouknowIwon'tt
    akeno
    forananswer

    Ismiled,justaft
    erthatAy anda'smot herwalked
    i
    nnonci ncikaAyanda.Ot herladies
    bebeseloungedrinki
    ngt heirdrinksbezif
    ihl
    i
    le
    kodwa.I gamal i
    kaAy anda' smom ngu
    Noxhant i
    l
    omz ihenceherf ir
    stsoni s
    Xhanti
    lomzi ,Iwasaboutt ost artwashing
    di
    shes.

    Lomzi :Si
    many e,y enzel
    aoogogoikofuendl
    ini
    enkulu.(Yesingaphingokubebephungil
    enje
    ekuseni,yhoo)
    Me:
    yebomha
    Ay
    anda:
    hay
    imamzo,
    Ingai
    snotok
    Lomzi
    :shel
    ooksv
    eryf
    inet
    ome
    Ay
    anda:
    shei
    snot,
    shei
    sti
    red

    Shecl
    appedher
    ehands.

    Lomzi :
    hebant ubaseMacirheni
    ,kusemzini
    aphaasinaxeshalalont
    o,ifubuzaziuli
    qanda
    ngeuhleli
    namaqandaungezi ematyeni
    .(Ireal
    ly
    di
    dn'tunderstandwhatshewast ryi
    ngt osay,l
    o
    mamamyf amilyi
    snotevenhalfwayt o
    Mat
    ati
    elesekesenzaso)

    Iwasal
    lqui
    te,
    busymaki
    ngcof
    fee.

    Ayanda:andi
    namfazimnazasebenzat
    he
    wholedayngat
    hisi
    slave,
    andIngaispr
    egnant
    .
    Lomzi :
    hehay i
    udli
    siwewena,kuyaqaleka
    umithangoSimanyelent
    oumzamt otosa,ngoku
    bekukhutshwail
    obol
    azangebakhalazaabantu
    bakowabo.

    Mymom tol
    dmet okeepqui
    te,
    Iwasnotgoi
    ng
    t
    oanswerorsayany
    thingmi
    nawor
    sethey
    wer
    enottal
    ki
    ngtome.

    Ayanda:awungeni ndawokekwi ntoyel


    obola
    ngobaibi
    yi
    mal iy
    am , nobabebefuneumhlaba
    wonkebendizakhuphanelastcentinmybank
    account
    sformywi
    fe.
    Lomzi
    :hay
    iinkul
    ulent
    ouy
    idl
    i
    siwey
    o.

    Iwasdonemaki ngcoff
    ee, Ical
    ledforAyanda
    tohel
    pmebendonqenauy osokoli
    saabany e
    oomakotinott
    hattheyl
    ikedmewor seafteru
    Ayandaebaphoxi
    leandsisiSeli
    mdal anoko.

    Me: Yandacanyouhel
    pmewiththeket
    tl
    e
    pl
    ease(itwasthosebi
    gket
    tl
    es)
    Lomzi :wakeway i
    vaphikel
    euyenzayo,i
    ndoda
    i
    phat hi
    swaIket i
    le,ni
    yabonaAyandaezi
    zi
    nto
    nisi
    phathelazona.(Yhooay abi
    buhl
    ungu
    i
    nhliziy
    oyam, lomamasengazeangi bi
    zengent
    o,
    Ikeptquitesti
    ll)
    Nci
    ncikaAy anda:ndandibuzi
    levelebekuphel
    e
    amant
    ombazanal entoAy andaey of
    unaintombi
    l
    eeLesotho.(HeeI'm notfrom Lesothomina)
    I
    thur
    tst
    hough.

    Ayanda:oneshi
    tagainfr
    om bothofy
    ou
    ngomfaziwam,IswearIwil
    lshutl
    omilomo
    yenu
    Lomzi:
    ukuqgibi
    l
    elomtanai
    fukwaziut
    het
    ha
    kanj
    esi
    ngonyoko,ndi
    nguny
    okoAyanda
    Ayanda: t
    henactlikeone,nowonderl a
    ndodakhoy akushi
    yayayakulanopatazana,y
    ou
    arebi
    tterukwenzeniuInga.(Het ooktheket
    tle)

    Ay
    anda:
    let
    'sgobhabha

    Idi
    dn'tknowwhattodoortosay,Ij
    ustfol
    l
    owed
    Ayandanetraywi
    thcupstokurontaoonogogo.
    Ijustcoul
    dn'twai
    tfort
    hedayt
    oendatl
    east
    f
    ollowingdaywewer el
    eav
    ingt
    oCapeTown.

    [
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    17,
    23:
    52]Mca:
    INSERT86

    Weser vedoogogo, honest


    lyIj ustwant ed
    Ayandat ocarr
    ythekettl
    eformet ot he
    rondav el,
    Iwasgoingt oservethem al oneafter
    alltheywer eonly5buther efusedsohehel ped
    meandIknewi tbett
    ertoar guewi thAyanda.
    Aftertheywer edone,Iwentt ocollectthecups
    andwashedt hem hewasj ustsi t
    ti
    ngt herewith
    meandwewer echatt
    ingaboutr andom t hi
    ngs.

    Ayanda:bhabhacome,
    Iwannashowy
    ou
    somethi
    ng
    Me:
    YandaI
    '
    mti
    red,
    whati
    sit
    .
    Ay
    anda:
    come,
    Ifol
    l
    owedhi
    mtohi
    sroom,
    we
    gotinsi
    deandhel
    ockedthedoor,pul
    l
    edmei
    n
    thebedandmademesi tonhi
    slap.

    Ayanda:Il
    oveyoumfazi
    wam,
    Idon'
    tcar
    ewho
    sayswhat,
    Ilov
    eyou

    Guy sIwast iredandIwasst il


    lhur ti
    ngshame
    from whatt hoseladi
    esincludi ngAy anda's
    mot hersaidaboutmeear lier,Imi ssedmy
    par ents,Iwant edtohol
    dmy selffrom cr yi
    ng, i
    want edtobest r
    ongbutIjustbur sti ntears.
    Ay andaj ustbur i
    edmyfacei nhischest .Itreal
    ly
    hur ts.Hemademef acehim, andki ssedmy
    forehead, all
    ofasuddenIj ustf eltlikehav i
    ng
    myman, judgemebutIr eal lywant edhi m.

    Me:
    myeni
    wam
    Ay
    anda:
    mfazi
    wam
    Me:
    makel
    ovet
    ome
    Ayanda:hesmil
    edseduct
    ivel
    y,
    ,,
    ,
    ,ul
    i
    ttl
    e
    Khumalousef
    unaudaddy

    Inoddedshy
    ly

    Ay anda:comet odaddyt hen,helaidmeont he


    bed, onmyback, hel i
    ft
    edamadaki andwavula
    myl egs,hethent ookoffmyunderwearand
    startedt
    oeatmyt r
    easurewit
    hhistongue.Guys
    akaunder st
    anduAy andawhenIwant edhim,
    foreplaywasj ustdelayi
    ngme.

    Me:
    bhabha
    Ay
    anda:
    mhmm
    Me:
    please
    Ay
    anda:
    whatl
    ove?
    Me:
    IwantuMt
    ungwanoty
    ourt
    ongue

    Hesmi l
    edandgotintobusi
    ness,Iwas
    sat
    isfi
    ed,hewenttofet
    chwaterngasul
    anj
    e.
    Besengikhohl
    wenangoLomzi.

    Peoplelef tanditwasonlyus(theKhumal o'


    s)
    andZi masaofcour se.Makhulucalledusall
    .
    Wewer eal lsi
    tt
    ingi
    nthelounge,mf xm Iwas
    sit
    ti
    ngesi cambeni (
    grassmat )
    ,Ayanda
    bekungat hiangagwinyaumuntu,butIhadt o
    respect,anywayi twasonlyforti
    mebei ng.

    Makhul
    u:sobazukul
    wanawhenar
    eyou
    pl
    anni
    ngtogobacktoCapet
    own
    Ay
    anda: meandI nga,
    wear el
    eav
    ingtomorr
    ow
    makhul
    u,I'
    m notsureaboutmybrot
    hers.
    Xhant
    i:I
    '
    m al
    sol
    eav
    ingt
    omor
    rowmakhul
    u
    si
    nceIdon'
    thav
    eacarIwi
    l
    lgowi
    tht
    hem.
    Mawande.:int
    hatcasewearealll
    eav
    ing
    makhulucasweneedtogobacktowor kno
    Msi
    ra,andIdoubtNdumisouzof
    unaushiyeka.
    Ndumi
    so:
    ofcour
    seI
    '
    mleav
    ingnani
    .
    Makhul
    u:sosoon,bendisani
    buka,Ay
    andaar
    e
    youawar
    euInganathikusameleehot
    il
    e?
    Ayanda:y
    esmakhul
    u,butI
    nganat
    hihasschool
    andwork.
    Makhul
    u:ohhit
    'sunder
    standabl
    e,butyouneed
    t
    ocomebackassoonasy ougetchanceeveni
    f
    i
    tsforaweek.
    Ayanda:thatwon'tbeapr obl
    em makhulu,we
    cancomebacki nthatweekofGoodFr idaypl
    us
    ezansukuthatareaftergoodFri
    day.
    Makhul
    u:good
    Lomzi:i
    fuI
    nganathibesaziuy
    afunday
    int
    oni
    emenzewa-
    rush-
    elautshata
    Ay
    anda:
    urushi
    swendi
    m
    Lomzi:doyouseewhatyouhavedone,nowwe
    mustcompromiseamasi
    kowethujustt
    o
    accommodateher.
    Ay
    anda:
    mustshedr
    opschool
    ?
    Lomzi :Idi
    dn'
    tsayt
    hat
    ,yousai
    dInganat
    hii
    s
    pregnant
    Ay
    anda:
    yeswear
    e
    Lomzi
    :ar
    eyousur
    ethebabyi
    syour
    s?

    Ichokedonmysal
    i
    va,
    Ireal
    l
    ycoughedand
    coughed.

    Ay
    anda:
    hay
    iuy
    abhanxakengoku
    Lomzi
    :I'
    m aski
    ng
    Ay
    anda:
    buzaububhanxa
    Zi
    maza:
    youcan'
    tspeakt
    oyourmot
    herl
    i
    ke
    thatAyanda,youchoosingthatt
    hingov eryour
    mot her(shedi
    dn'
    tjustcal
    lme"thatthing")I
    don'tknowwhenAy andastoodupbyt het i
    meI
    l
    iftedmyheadi bi
    seyi
    hlel
    ii
    mpamakuZi masa
    Ayanda:Iwar
    nedyoubef
    orethati
    fuphi
    nde
    wavulal
    omlomoyakhowanya,Iwi
    l
    lshowyou
    st
    ars(hewasstr
    angli
    ngher)

    NdumisoandMawandetri
    edtopartcompany
    t
    hem butAyandawastoost
    rong,uXhant
    i
    wancedi
    sa.Heletgo,
    shestar
    tedcoughi
    ng.

    Ay
    anda:Iwil
    lki
    l
    lyoubi
    tchi
    fawuzazi
    int
    o
    mawuzi
    thet
    he
    Ndumi
    so:
    cal
    m downAy
    anda
    Ayanda:don'
    tfuckent
    ellmetocal
    m down,
    bendi
    buzi
    lefunanil
    enj
    akazi
    apha
    Makhul
    u:Ay
    andaakwenzi
    wakanj
    e
    mzukul
    wana
    Lomzi
    :Itol
    dhim al
    readyt
    hatudl
    isi
    we,
    umt
    uo
    nor
    malakabehavel
    ikeyouAyanda
    Ay
    anda:
    souf
    unaut
    hini
    ,I'
    m notnor
    mal
    ?
    Lomzi :y
    entombazanandini(shewasl ooki
    ng
    atme)hav eyounoti
    cedthateversinceyouset
    yourf oother
    etherei
    snopeace, youbrought
    nothingbutbadluck,
    evenmysonhast urned
    againstme.

    Ayanda'sdadwasallqui
    te,Idon'
    tbl
    amehi m,
    namiifIwasinhi
    sshoesIwoul dhav
    edonet he
    samephelahiswifekiSEFOFANE(airpl
    ane).

    Ididn'
    tunderst
    andAyanda'
    smot her,honest
    ly
    whatdidIdot ohert
    hatmadehertohat eme
    thatmuch.Inhl
    izi
    yoyamii
    bidadaegazini
    .I
    knowLomzi want
    edAyandatomar r
    yZi masa
    butwasitmyf aul
    tthathemar
    ri
    edmei nst
    ead
    ofher
    ,butstil
    lshewasmymot her-i
    n-law,I
    hadtorespecther.

    Ayanda:bhabhagoandpackyourt
    hings,
    we
    ar
    eleavi
    ng,wewill
    sleepi
    nQueenst
    ownand
    l
    eavetomorrow.

    Ij
    ustkeptqui
    te,ir
    respect
    iveofwhatIdi
    dn'
    t
    wannaleaveAyanda'shomengalendlel
    a

    Ay
    anda:
    Inga!
    !!Let
    'sgo

    Ikeptqui
    test
    il
    l

    Ay
    anda:
    Inga!
    !Iwon'
    trepeatmy
    sel
    f
    Ir
    eal
    l
    ydi
    dn'
    tknowwhatt
    odo.

    Makhul
    u:Ay
    andahay
    imzukul
    wanaakwenzi
    wa
    kanj
    e.
    Ayanda:whatmustIdot henmakhulu!si
    tmy
    asshereandli
    stentoMamzoi nsul
    ti
    ngmywif
    e
    forwhatgoodsil
    lyr
    easons?

    Ayandacameandpul ledmengengal o,
    ever
    yonewassoqui te,Ayandacanbesweet
    butsteponhist oesubadi f
    fer
    ent, whenhei s
    angryangakugwi nya,wewal kedintoourr oom ,
    hetookhissuitcaseandmi ne, hejustthrew
    ourstuf
    finwithoutev enpacki ngthem.Idi dn'
    t
    comekul oAyandat ocauseanyt rouble,Ihadto
    dosomet hi
    ng,Ihadt ost opAyandaf rom leavi
    ng,
    Iwentclosert
    ohi m eventhoughIwasaf r
    aidof
    hi
    m butIhadt o.
    Me:
    (shakyv
    oice)bhabha
    Ay
    anda:
    arey
    oudone,
    didy
    out
    akeev
    ery
    thi
    ng
    Me:
    myeni
    wam
    Ay
    anda:
    uli
    ndeni
    Inga!
    !
    Me: Mtungwa,Ireachedforhisfaceashewas
    tr
    yingtocl
    osehissuitcasethatwasonthebed,
    Icuppedit
    ,bhabhawer earenotleavi
    ng
    Ay
    anda:
    suphambanaI
    nga!
    !!
    Me: wearenotleavi
    ngbhabha,
    notint
    hisway
    ,
    thi
    sisyourhome, ourhomeMtungwa,we
    can'
    tleav
    eliket
    his.
    Ayanda:whatmustIdoI
    nga?Icannotstand
    Mamzoi nsul
    ti
    ngy
    oueachandeverychance
    shegets.
    Me: i
    tsokbhabha,shewil
    l comearound.
    (Ndandi
    thet
    haububhanxanami shewill
    come
    ar
    oundmakut heni
    ,akandi
    funiqhapointblank)
    Ay
    anda:
    whatpi
    ssesmeof
    fngawey
    awuzeut
    hi
    i
    tsOK!I
    TSOK,
    !
    whi
    l
    eit
    snot
    .
    Me: reall
    yiti
    s,I'
    m okmi
    na,(
    Iwasfarf
    rom
    bei
    ngok)r emembermakhul
    usti
    ll
    needsto
    tal
    kt ousandy ouneedt
    ogobackand
    apologizekuye.
    Ay
    anda:
    apol
    ogi
    zef
    orwhat
    ?Iwasnotwr
    ong
    Me:
    yes,
    youwer
    emy
    eni
    wam
    Ay
    anda:
    okIwi
    l
    lapol
    ogi
    ze
    Me:
    nakumha
    Ay
    anda:
    Inga!
    !!Youar
    epushi
    ngnow
    Me:
    yesy
    ouwi
    l
    lYanda

    Ay
    anda:
    Ok,
    yer
    rrI
    nga.
    Me:
    nawey
    errbhabha

    Ay
    anda:
    heywenabhabha
    Me:
    comel
    et'
    sgo
    Ayanda:comeher
    efi
    rst
    ,(heki
    ssedme)I
    '
    m so
    l
    uckytohaveyoui
    nmylife.
    Me:
    notasl
    uckyasIam.

    Wewentbackt othelounge,everyonewas
    surpri
    sedtoseeuscastheyt houghtwewere
    l
    eav i
    ng.Iwentt
    ositdownandAy andasaton
    thecouchandheclearedhisthroat.

    Ayanda:makhuluIam heretoapol
    ogi
    ze,f
    or
    mybadbehav i
    or,Ishoul
    dn'thav
    espokenthe
    wayIdid.Iam sor
    ry.
    Makhul
    u:It
    '
    sokmzukulwana,i
    ttakesareal
    mantoseehismi
    stakes,
    youareforgi
    ven.
    Ayanda:nawemamzoIam sor
    ryt
    hewayIhav
    e
    spokent
    oy ou.
    Zi
    masa:
    mna,
    aren'
    tyougoi
    ngt
    oapol
    ogi
    ze
    kum f
    orst
    rangli
    ngme,
    Ishoul
    dhav
    egoneand
    hadyouar
    rested.
    Ay
    anda:
    whyar
    eyoust
    il
    lher
    ethen.
    Makhulu:Zimasamychi l
    d,wil
    lyouexcuseus
    forf
    ewmi nutes,wewil
    lcal
    lyouwhenwear e
    done,weneedt odi
    scusssomepr i
    vat
    emat t
    ers
    asafamil
    y .

    Sheexi
    tedt
    helounge.Isomi
    ssedmy
    dramal
    esshome.

    I
    ngakaYanda;
    -
    )
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    17,
    23:
    52]Mca:
    INSERT87

    Makhulut
    alkedt ousall
    ,shewassortofusil
    aya,
    wewereallli
    steningt
    oherattent
    ivel
    yincl
    udi
    ng
    LomziandAy anda'sfat
    her.
    AfterthatIhadt ogoandmakesupper, y
    aqala
    i
    nkat hazo!!AtlastIreall
    yhadsomet hi
    ngt o
    giveuLomzi .HowwasIgoi ngtocookfor
    almost10peopl ewhileInev ercookedforone.I
    reall
    yneededt ostartlearningtocookassoon
    asIar ri
    vedinCapet own.Foodf orumgidi was
    sti
    llt
    her e,f
    orsomeonewhoi sagoodcooki t
    wasgoi ngt obeeasy ,i
    twasj ustthematterof
    addingt hi
    sandt hatbutf orme, itwasl
    ike, I
    hadt oclimbMtKi li
    manj aro.

    Iwasst
    il
    lst
    andi
    ngint
    hemiddl
    eoft
    heki
    tchen
    whenNdumisowal
    kedi
    n.

    Ndumi
    so:
    lastbor
    n
    Me:
    babomdal
    a.
    Ndumi
    so:
    whyar
    eyoust
    andi
    ngi
    nthemi
    ddl
    eof
    t
    her
    oom.
    Me:
    Idon'
    tknowwhatam Igoi
    ngt
    ocook.
    Ndumie:
    (helaughed)y
    oumeany
    oudon'
    t
    knowhowtocook.
    Me:
    Idohhabe
    Ndumie:whoareyoufool
    i
    ng,
    Ayl
    atol
    dmey
    ou
    can'
    tevenboi
    lanegg.
    Me:
    it'
    sbecauseIdon'
    teateggs.
    Ndumie:(hel
    aughedhar
    d)comelet
    'scook
    t
    ogether,
    Iwil
    lshowyouoneort
    wot ri
    cks.
    Me: no, Iwi
    l
    lbefi
    ne,Iwasthinki
    ngofLomzi,i
    f
    shefindsNdumisocooki
    ng,shewil
    lsayIhav
    e
    giv
    enl ov
    eporti
    ontoall
    hersons.

    Ndumi
    etookoutv
    eggi
    esf
    rom t
    hef
    ri
    dge.

    Ndumi
    e:peel
    these.I
    twasoni
    on,
    tomat
    oes,
    pepper
    sandcar
    rot
    s.Hest
    art
    edcooki
    ng.

    Ay
    andacamei
    n.

    Ay
    anda:
    arey
    ouguy
    swi
    nni
    ng?
    Ndumi
    e:wear
    eal
    mostdone.
    Ay
    anda:
    wher
    ecanIhel
    p?
    Ndumie:westil
    lneedtocookpap,
    youcan
    st
    artwi
    thit
    ,forsolong.
    Ay
    anda:
    sur
    e

    Guysirr
    espect
    iveofthesi
    tuat
    ionbendi
    fi
    kel
    e
    kuyokaLomzi,mybr ot
    herinl
    awsandmy
    husbandwerereal
    lysweetheart
    sandvery
    support
    iveofil
    astbornyaki
    bo.

    Wecooked,
    sihl
    eka,
    inf
    actt
    heywer
    elaughi
    ng
    atme, becauseoft henoi set heywer emaki ng,
    Mawande,Msi raandXhant i
    leftabant u
    abadal aeloungeandcamet oj oinus,
    rememberIwasnotal lowedt olaughoutl oud
    ast heydid, oneoft hedi sadv antagesofbei ng
    umakot i
    .Zimasacamei nt oo, shet ri
    edtoj oin
    thecr ewbutt heyj ustignor edher .Wef inished
    cookingi nfacttheyf ini
    shedcooki ngcasIonl y
    peeledoni on.Wedi shedupandser vedt he
    elders,thinawest ay edi nt heki tchensadl ela
    khona, onepr obl em sol ved.Xhant iand
    Mawandeof feredt ododi shesandwewer e
    done.OoMakhul uwentt osl eepandwe
    remai nedi nthel ounge, wepl ayedcardswhi l
    e
    theywer edr i
    nki ng.Zi masaway enguncaa
    bost i
    knoNdumi so.

    Ndumisot
    ri
    edtoi
    gnoredherbutebengazwil
    e
    nj
    engoNdumiewakhe,i
    twasNdumi ethis,
    Ndumi
    ethat
    .Onethi
    nkIhavenoti
    cedabout
    Ndumi soheisasweet heart
    , kubobonke
    kowabo, veycal
    m, humbleandnott al
    kati
    ve.
    Zimasakeptonpest eri
    ngNdumi so.Ndumiso
    cameandsatnextt omeandAy anda,wewer e
    i
    na3seat ercouchbutmeandmybody ,i
    twas
    l
    ikekuhleziuAy andaandNdumi soonl
    y.(phela,
    theelderswerenotar ound, Iwassonotgoi ng
    tositesi
    cambeni ngidli
    seizi
    nqezami zihl
    eli
    zingekho)

    Ndumiso:y
    erry
    andi
    irr
    it
    aterl
    omt
    ana(hewas
    whi
    speri
    ng)
    Ayanda:xel
    elai
    sif
    ebeesi
    sihl
    ukanenaweor
    yamosaba.

    JustafterthatZimasacameandsatnextto
    Ndumi so.Icouldn'
    thel
    pbutIbursti
    nlaught
    er,
    their
    ri
    tationinNdumiso'sf
    ace,shamezaba
    str
    ong.
    Mawande:
    Zimasaf
    uckof
    fmaar
    nkuNdumi
    so.
    Zi
    masa:
    whosai
    dI'
    m af
    terhi
    m.
    Mawande:signsar
    eal
    lther
    e,uskewangat
    hi
    unempene.

    Ay
    andaki
    ssedmehay
    ibendi
    phel
    i
    lemnay
    insi
    ni.

    Zi
    masa:
    ohh,
    rat
    herat
    hat
    hwenguI
    nganat
    hi

    Wewereal
    lastoni
    shedaboutwhatZimasaj
    ust
    sai
    d,weal
    lkeptquit
    eandlookedather
    .

    Zimasa: don'
    tl
    ookatme,IsawhowInganathi
    l
    ookedatNdumi so.(
    Shet
    henlookedatmein
    disgust
    ,lont
    oawunamahl
    onint
    ombazanandini,
    youjustgotmarri
    edi
    nfewdaysnowy ouar
    e
    af
    tery
    ourhusband'
    sbr
    othersi
    es.

    Iwasnotevenangr
    y(hay
    ishamel
    osi
    si
    bengandi
    va)

    Weal
    ll
    aughed.

    Ayanda:hayiIgi
    veup,ul
    i
    pet sanali
    kamtyhol
    i
    (horseordonkey'
    sbaby)
    ,ingathiwenzel
    wa
    i
    sikongempukanewena.
    Mawande:
    goandsl
    eepZi
    masaudaki
    we.
    Zi
    masa:I'
    m notgoi
    nganywhere,ungay
    inj
    e
    wenamakucacauty
    hwalabuyakuphambani
    sa.
    Mawande:
    ndi
    kuny
    isekemna.
    Zimasa:don'
    tbebi
    tt
    erbecausezange
    ndakuf
    una.
    Guysbur sti
    nlaughter,t
    heyreal
    lylaughedather
    ,
    besengingasat
    handi nami.Shestormedout
    wayolala.Wecontinuedplayi
    ngcar dsand
    chatt
    ing.

    Me:
    bhabha,
    ngi
    phel
    ezel
    engi
    yol
    ala
    Ay
    anda:
    lal
    alaki
    mi
    Me: hay
    ibhabha,
    Iwannagoandsl
    eepi
    nthe
    bed
    Ayanda:Iwi
    l
    l nev
    erletyousleepinthatroom
    al
    onekukholamthakathiunguZimasa, i
    f
    ey
    ukukhamelaphayandizothi
    ni.
    Me:
    youar
    ebei
    ngdr
    amat
    icYanda
    Ay
    anda:
    rat
    hersaf
    ethansor
    ry.

    Iendedupgoingtothekitchenandpr
    eparea
    snackfort
    heguy s,Iputpeanut
    sandlaysina
    tr
    ayandgav ethem t
    heystil
    lhada2li
    tercoke
    bebedashe-
    rngay
    o.

    Ay
    anda:
    enkosi
    mfazi
    wam
    Xhant
    i:weknowt
    hatal
    ready
    Ayanda:don'
    that
    ebut
    i,Idi
    dn'
    tsayy
    iba
    yi
    mpohla.
    Xhant
    i:asingomfaziwakholokwedi
    ni,
    ngowakwaKhumal oy oumustknowthatu
    I
    nganathingumfaziwethu.
    Ayanda:kunganyi
    wa(hehadaser
    iousf
    ace,
    hhawubakit
    hiXhant
    iwasj
    oki
    ng)
    Xhanti
    :heybabybhut
    iloosenup,
    I'
    m ki
    ddi
    ng
    you.
    Ay
    anda:
    youbet
    terbeX-
    man.

    Aft
    er1:
    00am,wewenttosl
    eep,
    besendi
    phel
    i
    le
    shame,
    Ayandawandi
    tet
    a.Wedozedoff
    i
    mmedi
    atel
    yat5:
    30myal
    arm wentof
    f.

    Me:
    bhabha
    Ay
    anda:
    mhmm
    Me: pl
    easeaccompanymet
    otheki
    tchen,
    I
    needwatert
    obath.
    Ay
    anda:
    ndi
    l
    elebhabha,
    lal
    akusekuseni
    .
    Me:
    hay
    ibhabhav
    uka.
    Ayanda:20minut
    esbhabha,
    wewi
    l
    lwakeup,
    hewrappedhi
    slegsar
    oundme.
    Me:
    Ayanda!
    !!
    Ayanda:y
    hooonecannotsl
    eeppeacef
    uli
    nthi
    s
    house.
    Me:
    wakeup.
    Ayanda:
    finebhabha,
    Iwil
    lfet
    chwat er,hewoke
    upandwenttothekit
    chen,af
    tersomet imehe
    br
    oughtwaterandwebathedtogether.Iwasso
    notgoi
    ngtothekit
    chenal one, begisesabaso
    sayasoyit
    wonoAy anda.Iboi l
    edwat erforu
    Makhulu,
    babaandLomzi ,Ifi
    rstwentt ogive
    makhuluherwat
    ertobat h, t
    omysur pri
    se
    makhuluwasawakealready ,hhawukant i
    abant
    ubalaphavel
    ebav ukani ni.Iknocked.

    Makhul
    u:comei
    n
    Me:
    sawubonamakhul
    u.
    Makhul
    u:mol
    ozukul
    wanakamakhul
    u.
    Me:
    howar
    eyoumakhul
    u?
    Makhul
    u:goodt
    hansandy
    ou?
    Me:
    I'
    mfi
    nemakhul
    u.
    Makhulu: y
    oudidn'thavetowakeupthisearl
    y
    zukulwana,don'
    tforgety
    ouarepregnant,
    uzotsi
    banemi moyaemdaka, whi
    chmi ghtharm
    thebaby.(Granni
    esandt hei
    rsuper
    sti
    ntions)
    Me:
    changi
    rit
    emakhul
    u.
    Igavemakhul
    uherwat
    erandaskedf
    orher
    towel
    s,sheshowedmenensi
    pho
    ngamuni
    keza.

    Makhulu:I
    nganat
    hisanal
    wami
    ingat
    hiul
    i
    bel
    e
    somethi
    ngnje.
    Me:
    chamakhul
    ukonkekul
    a
    Makhulu:Icanseezukulwana,butt
    her
    eis
    somethi
    ngthatyouforgot(shesmil
    edatme)I
    l
    ookedaround,t
    herewasnot hi
    ng.
    Me:
    ther
    eisnot
    hingt
    hatIf
    orgotmakhul
    u.
    Makhul
    u:andi
    tshol
    aendl
    i
    nizukul
    wanal
    akuwe.
    Me: Iwassoconfused,ohhhmyGod! !
    Ngaphumangindiza,IpassedAy andai
    nthe
    ki
    tchenngat
    hiangimboni,nokosabakohamba
    ngendwaegcekenikwaphelanya.
    Ayandarushedaf
    terme,I'
    m sur
    etheonl
    y
    personhecouldt
    hinkofwasLomzi.

    Ayanda:
    bhabha,whati
    swr
    ong?
    (bet
    huki
    l
    e
    shameumyeniwam)
    Me:idukweekhandabhabha,
    ngil
    ikhohl
    iwe,
    whydidyoul
    etmegot othekit
    chenwi t
    houti
    t.
    Ayanda:Idi
    dn'
    tnot
    icebhabha,(hewas
    l
    aughingandIwasnot.Justi
    maginei
    f
    bendi
    bonwenguLomzi )
    Me: comehelpme, bendi
    ngazinobawenzi
    wa
    nj
    ani,onet
    hingIknew, i
    tmustcov ermyf
    ore
    headphel
    aizolobebendi
    thwal
    isi
    le.

    Wef iddlednomyeniwami andi


    ncedi
    sauntilwe
    gotitright
    .Amahloniobuyel
    akumakhul u,butI
    hadto, Iwalkedbacktoherbedroom and
    knocked.
    Makhul
    u:comei
    n
    Me:makhul
    u,I
    'm sor
    ryforwhathappened,
    I
    r
    eal
    l
    ydidn'
    tmeantodisr
    espectyou.
    Makhul
    u:Iknowzukul
    wanawam,
    don'
    twor
    ry,
    shesmi
    ll
    edwarmly.
    Me:
    Iam r
    eal
    l
    ysor
    rymakhul
    u.
    Makhulu:Iknowitwasanhonestmi stake,
    rememberitsonl
    yyester
    daythatyoubecamea
    wifeandmakoti,
    soitwil
    ltakesomet i
    met oget
    ezi
    nyeizi
    ntori
    ght.
    Me:
    Ipr
    omi
    semakhul
    uthatwon'
    thappenagai
    n.
    Makhulu:shesmiledandcamet okisst
    het
    op
    ofmyhead.Don'teverrunliket
    hatagain
    rememberyouarepr egnant,whatifyou
    sli
    ppedandfel
    l?
    Me:
    Iwon'
    tdoi
    tmakhul
    uandt
    hanky
    ou.
    Makhul
    u:pl
    easur
    est
    handwasam.
    Ei
    shhhhhhh:
    (

    I
    ngakaYanda.
    ;
    -)
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    17,
    23:
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    Iwenttogiv
    ebabaandLomzi amanzi wabo,I
    alwaysavoi
    dedtal
    kswit
    hLomzi ,Igreetedthen
    ngabani
    kaamanziandafterthatIexi
    tedthe
    room.Iwentbacktot
    heki t
    chen.

    Ndumi
    socamei
    n

    Ndumi
    so:
    mor
    ningbhut
    i
    Ay
    anda:
    bro,
    howzi
    t
    Ndumi
    so:
    sur
    ent
    wana,
    bhabha
    Ay
    anda:
    ayobhabhakuwe
    Ndumi
    so: (
    helaughed)doyoual
    way
    shav
    eto
    besopr
    otecti
    ve,l
    astborn
    Me:
    babomdal
    a
    Ndumi
    so:
    howar
    eyou?
    Me:
    I'
    m goodt
    hanxandy
    ou?
    Ndumi
    so:
    great
    ,kudl
    i
    wani

    Ishr
    uggedmyshoul
    der
    s

    Ndumi
    so:
    hay
    ibo,
    whoi
    smakot
    iher
    e?
    Me:
    cany
    oudobr
    eakf
    ast,
    Iwi
    l
    lhel
    pyou.
    Ndumi
    so:
    doy
    oumeany
    ouwi
    l
    lwat
    chme.
    Me:
    no!
    !Ofcour
    sewewi
    l
    ldoi
    ttoget
    her
    .
    Ndumi
    so:
    countmeout
    .
    Me:
    fort
    hel
    astt
    imehl
    ebabomdal
    aand
    rememberI'
    mthel
    astbor
    nher
    e,bekumel
    e
    ngisal
    ele
    Ndumiso:noIai
    n'
    tdoi
    ngt
    hatandyour
    bl
    ackmail
    won'twor
    konme,hurr
    yupke,I
    '
    m
    hungr
    y.

    Isul
    ked

    Ndumi
    so:
    thatt
    oowon'
    twor
    klastbor
    n.
    Me:
    please(puppyf
    ace)
    Ndumi so:ei
    sh, y
    ouaresuchabull
    ybaby,
    AyandaIfeelforyoumtakat
    atahowdoyou
    surv
    ive.
    Ayanda:bhabhaal
    way
    sgetawaywi t
    hthe
    murder,
    whenshedoesthat
    ,Ij
    ustf
    inditso
    di
    ffi
    cul
    ttosayno.
    Ndumiso:youar
    einbigt
    roubl
    ebabybhut
    i,
    honest
    lyIr
    eal
    lyf
    eelf
    oryou.
    Ay
    anda:
    yhanee.
    Me: hel
    l
    ow? ?
    ?I'
    m sti
    ll
    here,
    ify
    oudobr
    eakfast
    babomdala,Ipromisewhenwegett
    oCape
    town,Iwil
    ltakeyouout.
    Ndumi
    so&Ay
    anda:
    ngemal
    ikabani
    ??
    Me:
    eyenuv
    ele,
    nit
    hingi
    zoy
    ithat
    hakuphi
    imal
    i
    Ay
    anda:
    youwor
    kingbhabha
    Me: no,I
    '
    m not,
    I'
    m studyi
    ngandIhavea
    husband,youwi
    llpaybhabhaangi
    thi
    ?
    Ay
    anda:
    yer
    r,Iwi
    l
    lnev
    erhav
    emoneykuwe.

    Isul
    ked.

    Ay
    anda:itwon'
    tworkt
    hist
    ime,
    ,
    ,het
    ri
    edt
    o
    makeaseri
    ousface

    Isul
    kedagai
    n.
    Ayanda:ok,
    ok,
    Iwi
    l
    lpayNdumi
    sopl
    easedo
    br
    eakfast
    .
    Ndumi
    so:
    int
    hatcaseIwi
    l
    ldoi
    twi
    thpl
    easur
    e.
    Ay
    anda:comeki
    ssmet
    hencasy
    ouoweme.

    (Ismil
    edandwentt
    ohi
    m andIki
    ssedhi
    min
    hi
    sfor
    ehead)

    Ay
    anda:
    heywenabhabhaandi
    yont
    angakho.
    Me: phel
    amelengi
    hloni
    pheangi
    thi
    kunobabomdal
    ala.
    Ndumi
    e:makumelendi
    kuphekel
    eandi
    nguy
    e,
    mawuf
    unucashangam ndi
    nguye
    Ay
    anda:
    yizaphawenabhabha

    Igi
    ggl
    ed
    Me:
    bhabha,
    youknowIl
    ovey
    ouangi
    thi
    ?
    Ay
    anda:whatdoy
    ouwant?
    Me:hhawu,
    am Inotal
    l
    owedt
    otel
    lmyhusband
    t
    hatIl
    ovehi
    m.
    Ay
    anda:
    whatdoy
    ouwantbhabha?
    Me:okke,whenwegettoCapeTowncan
    yout
    eachmehowtocook.
    Ayanda:Iknewit,
    yesIwilldothatwi
    th
    pl
    easurephelaI
    '
    mt i
    redkushiswazimbi
    za
    ndedwa
    Me:
    yousuchaGodzi
    l
    la
    Ay
    anda:
    heywenabhabhauzol
    i
    la.
    Me:(Igi
    ggledagai
    n)don'
    twor
    ryIwi
    l
    lal
    so
    t
    eachyouhowtobake
    Ay
    anda&Ndumi
    e:cany
    oubake?
    ?
    Me:
    yesIcan.(Honest
    ly,
    event
    houghIcoul
    dn'
    t
    cookbutIcanbaker
    eal
    l
    ybakef
    rom bi
    scui
    tst
    o
    cakes)
    .
    Ay
    anda:
    howcomeInev
    erseey
    oubaki
    ng.
    Me:
    I'
    mlazy
    Ayanda:whaww, I
    'mimpressed, y
    ouneedt o
    teachmebaby ,
    Iwon'tbuyacakef oryouand
    formyangelthi
    syearandit
    hili
    tt
    lebhabha(he
    touchedmytummy )daddyisgoingtobakey ou
    acake.(Theexcit
    menthehad, Ay andaisr
    eall
    y
    crazy)
    Me:
    heysl
    owdown,
    shei
    snotev
    en5mont
    hs.
    Ayanda:
    Iknowbhabha,
    Ijustcan'
    twai
    ttohol
    d
    her
    Ndumi
    so:
    youknowbaby'
    ssexal
    ready
    Me:
    no,
    noty
    et.
    Ayanda:yes,
    nobutIknowi
    tsagi
    rl(hesmi
    l
    ed
    ,abig,f
    atsmil
    e)
    Ndumi
    so:
    sosi
    ncey
    ouar
    est
    udy
    ingl
    astbor
    n,
    ar
    eyougoi
    ngt
    ohi
    reananny
    .
    Me: Iwast
    hinki
    ngoftaki
    nghert
    oKokstad,
    I'
    m
    sur
    emypar ent
    swon'tmindr
    aisi
    ngher
    .
    Ayanda:
    not
    hatwon'
    thappen!
    !!(Il
    ookedat
    hi
    m)
    Me: y
    esYanda,howam Igoi
    ngt
    olookaftera
    babybecauseI
    '
    m worki
    ngandnextyearIsti
    l
    l
    needtodomyBTech.
    Ay
    anda:
    nobhabha,
    youwon'
    t,
    Iwi
    l
    l
    Me:
    huh?
    ?
    Ndumi
    so:
    you
    Ayanda:
    yes,I
    '
    m notwor ki
    ng,
    Iwil
    lbelooki
    ng
    af
    termychi
    ldi
    nfactaf
    teral
    lmychi
    ldr
    en.
    Ndumiso:whatdoy
    ouknowaboutt
    aki
    ngcar
    e
    ofachil
    d.
    Me:
    Iwannaknowt
    oo
    Ay
    anda:
    Idon'
    tbutIwi
    l
    llear
    n,Iwi
    l
    lrai
    sedmy
    ki
    ds.
    Me:
    youcr
    azy
    Ay
    anda:
    Iknow
    Me: areyouser
    ious?(hay
    ibol
    endodawas
    ser
    ious)
    Ay
    anda:
    deadser
    ious

    Iknewhemeantev
    erywor
    d.

    Me:
    canwet
    alkaboutt
    hisl
    ater
    Ay
    anda:
    no!
    !!
    Me: butIst
    il
    lthi
    nkweshouldt
    akehertoTot
    i
    atl
    eastausiNt
    soakii
    sther
    eandsherai
    sedme
    qui
    tewellorel
    sewecanhireananny
    .
    Ayanda:NoInga!!Iwilll
    ookaft
    ermychi
    ld,
    y ou
    wi
    llgotowor k,conti
    nuewithyourst
    udi
    es,Iwil
    l
    l
    ookafterherandisebenziv
    elendi
    zot
    hi
    ndi
    msel
    ani
    eKokst
    ad.

    Iknewbettert
    hanargui
    ngwithmyhusband,
    he
    hasmadehi smindandther
    ewasnothi
    ngI
    coulddo.

    Ayanda: speaki
    ngofwhich,doyoust
    il
    l
    remembert hecarIsaidIwannabuybutI
    wasn'tsurendif
    unayiphi
    .
    Me:
    yes
    Ayanda:Iwil
    lbuyVI
    TO,
    afami
    l
    ycarphel
    a
    ndi
    funa6kids.
    Ndumie:youcr
    azyAy
    la,
    6ki
    dswhowant
    s6
    ki
    dsinthi
    scent
    ury
    ?
    Ayanda:
    Iknow,I
    '
    m cr
    azyaboutmywi
    fe,
    my
    ki
    ds,MYFAMILY
    Ay
    andai
    scr
    azy,
    real
    l
    ycr
    azy
    .

    Justaf
    tert
    hatIjustf
    eltl
    i
    ketherewer
    e
    butt
    erf
    li
    esmovinginmyst omach.

    Me:
    ahhhh

    Ay
    anda&Ndumi
    elookedatme

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabhaar
    eyouok
    Ndumi
    e:l
    astbor
    n,whati
    sit
    .

    Theycamecl
    osert
    ome

    Me:
    Idon'
    tknowwhatj
    usthappened
    Ay
    anda:
    whyar
    eyouhol
    dingy
    ourst
    omachi
    sit
    painful?isthebabyok? (mf xmm howwasIt o
    knowi fthebabywasok, wasIt hedoct or
    ? )as
    muchasIknewAy andal ovedmebutIwas
    starti
    ngt obej ealous,eversi ncehef oundoutI
    waspr egnant, i
    twast hebabybef or
    eme, call
    mecr azybutIgr ewupast heonl ychildandIm
    usedi nget t
    ingAy andaf ullattenti
    ont he
    thoughtofdi v
    idi
    ngi twithmychi l
    dhur t
    s.hear
    meoutpeopl enott hatIdidn'tlovemychi ldI
    reall
    ydi dwithallmyhear t,butwhywasshe
    takingmypl aceengekazal wanozal wa.Does
    thatreallymakemeabadmot her
    .

    Me: somethingfunnyj
    usthappenedYanda,I
    j
    usthadt wi
    tchesinmystomach,Idon'tknow,
    i
    twasl i
    kemyst omachwast umbli
    ng,itwas
    ver
    yweird.
    Ay
    anda:
    comewegoi
    ngt
    othehospi
    tal
    now.
    Me:
    I'
    m okbhabha
    Ay
    anda:
    bhabhaIwon'
    trepeatmy
    sel
    f!!
    !

    Mf
    xmm

    Ndumie:(hesmi l
    ed)cal
    m downbabybro,l
    ast
    bornj
    ustexper
    iencedt
    hefir
    stmovementoft
    he
    baby.
    Ayanda:what??Areyouser i
    ous?doy oumean
    mylit
    tl
    ebhabhajustki
    cked?het ouchedmy
    stomach.(Si
    sdengeuAy andakodwa,be
    ncumengathiwojel
    weinyoningekhandlel
    a)
    Ndumie:it
    sstil
    lear
    lyf
    orkicks,
    itsonl
    yfl
    utt
    ers,
    It
    hinkyourangelwast
    ell
    i
    ngmommyt hatshe
    i
    sok.
    Ayanda:sheheardt
    hatshei
    snotgoingto
    Kokstadshewil
    lbest
    ayi
    ngwithdaddy,
    that
    'sa
    real
    l
    yKhumalo
    AhhhhhhhhhKhumal o!!Ndlovu!!
    !Mtungwa!!
    !!
    !
    (HeeAy andawabongel aumtanangat hi
    ngumuntuomdal a.Hewaswayt ooexcited
    shame.Icouldn'
    thelpitbutsmi l
    edandadmi r
    ed
    thel
    ovemyhusbandhadf orhisfamil
    y.

    Everyonewasupwehadbreakfastandcleaned
    thehouse,andi
    twastimeforustoleav
    e, we
    gatheredi
    nthel
    oungeforaprayer
    .Wesai dour
    goodby esandl
    eftar
    ound11am.Xhant iwas
    withus.ThenNdumie,MawandeandMsi ra.

    Bendihl
    alel
    eulokondibuzwanguAy andami na
    ubaIhaven'thadthosetwit
    chesagain.God
    akukudeeCapeTownul okondiphendul
    aone
    questi
    onafter30mi nut
    es.Unfort
    unatel
    y,i
    tjust
    happenedonce.
    I
    ngakaYanda;
    -
    )
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    17,
    23:
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    INSERT89

    Wear r
    ivedinCapetownaround9pm late,Iwas
    sot i
    red, t
    heguysdecidedtosl
    eepoveratour
    place,anywayXhant i
    andNdumisower egoing
    tostaywi thusti
    ll
    theygobacktothei
    rwor k
    places.Myf eetwereswoll
    en,Iwasti
    red,you
    wouldswearIwast heonewhowasdr ivi
    ng.

    Ayanda:bhabha,
    mustImakey
    ousomet
    hing
    toeat?
    Me:
    no,
    I'
    mfi
    nebhabha.
    Ay
    anda: y
    ouhaven'
    teat
    enanyt
    hing,
    thi
    s
    morni
    ngyouonl
    yhadanapple,
    youcan'
    tst
    ave
    mychil
    d.
    Me:
    hay
    iAy
    andawongi
    yeka.
    Ay
    anda:
    bhabhasudi
    kwamf
    azi
    wam,
    I'
    mjust
    wor
    ri
    ed.
    Me: whatmustIdoYanda, l
    ookatmyf eet,
    they
    areasbigasanel ephant,(Istart
    edcryi
    ng)I
    wast i
    red.Lookatme, myf eetarebig,
    my
    cheeksarer ound,
    myt ummyi sbigandwena
    youstil
    lwantmet oeat.Inobauf unandil
    i
    ngane
    nehippopotamust henuzobahappyangi thi
    Ayanda.

    Ay
    anda: noti
    nthatwaymfaziwam, Ijustwant
    mytwobabiestobefi
    ne,don'
    tcrykaloku
    Marhadebe.
    Me:Iknowbhabha, Ijusthatetheway
    engi
    feel
    angay oofl
    ately,someofmyclothes
    don'
    tfi
    talr
    eadyandy oumi ghtnotbeat
    tract
    ed
    tomeany more.
    Ayanda:evenifyoucanbeasbigast
    hishouse,
    youwil
    lsti
    l
    l bemyHippopot
    amusandIwi l
    lst
    il
    l
    beyourGodzil
    laandi
    thi
    .(Hewipedmytears)
    Me: youar
    ejustt
    ryi
    ngt
    omakemef
    eel
    good
    Yanda.
    Ay
    anda:
    isi
    twor
    king.

    Inodded.

    Ayanda:comeletmer unyouabathaf
    tert
    hatI
    mustsoakyourfeetemanzini
    anet
    yiwa
    zi
    zoyekauvuv
    ukala.

    Ireall
    ytookabat h,andi ndeedmyhusband
    soakedmyf eetandwesl ept.At6:30myal arm
    wentof f,Ifeltl
    i
    kescr eamingmyl ungsout,but
    heyIhadt ogot owor k.IwasawakebutI
    want edAy andatowakemeupsoIl etthealarm
    yazikhal
    ela,bendinochukunj epointblank.
    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha
    Me:
    qui
    te
    Ay
    anda:
    bhabhav
    uka
    Me:
    5mi
    nut
    es.
    Ayanda:
    hayimaar
    nInga!
    !Youwi
    l
    lbel
    ate,
    you
    knowyoutoosl
    ow.
    Me:
    mfxmmm
    Ay
    anda:
    heywenaI
    nga,
    ndi
    kukhabeke.
    Me:
    Igi
    ggl
    ed,
    atl
    easthewasawakenay
    e.

    Iwenttotakeashower, Iloti
    onedmysel fI
    tr
    iedtowearmybl ackdr essitdidn'
    tfi
    t,It
    ri
    ed
    twomor etheyweret ootight,It
    hentri
    edmy
    kneelengt
    hgr eendresswi thwhitestr
    ipesat
    l
    eastitwasbet t
    er,
    Iwasst art
    ingtoshowup
    andmydr esseswer etightdressesIwas19
    phela,
    itwasreall
    ytight.
    Ay
    anda:
    youar
    enotwear
    ingt
    hat
    .
    Me:
    whynot
    ?
    Ayanda:
    awubonil
    ont
    oit
    stoot
    ight
    ,doy
    ou
    wannaki
    llmychi
    l
    d.
    Me:
    howam Igoi
    ngt
    oki
    l
    lher
    .
    Ayanda:izomfut
    hanisel
    alont
    o.(OhhmyGod,
    i
    sAy andaforr
    eal??
    )
    Me:
    Idon'
    thav
    ecl
    othest
    owearnj
    e.
    Ay
    anda:
    hay
    ibobhabhakwezi
    mpahl
    azi
    ngaka.
    Me:theydon'
    tfi
    tAy anda,
    theyar
    eli
    ket
    his
    dr
    essthatI
    'm wear
    ing.
    Ayanda:ok,wearitonl
    yfortoday
    , wewi
    ll
    go
    andbuyclot
    hesafterwork.(Thelooki
    nhis
    face,
    sai
    ditall
    thathewasnothappyqha)
    Me:Iwil
    lwearmyMakot
    iat
    ti
    rebhabha,
    except
    f
    ori
    tyal
    iandascar
    f.
    Ay
    anda:
    arey
    ousur
    e.
    Me: y
    es,I'
    m sure.Ir
    eallydi
    dn'
    tcarewhosai
    d
    what,atl
    easti
    tdidn'tshowoffmyt ummyandI
    wasgoingtobeabl etoputmyl abcoat,
    any
    waybehl el
    ii
    dukwendi zal
    it
    hwala.
    Ayanda:okkebhabha, aslongasyou
    comfort
    ablewit
    ht hat.(Mf xmm,asifhewas
    nothappyabouttheidea, Idi
    dn'
    twanthim
    angi
    blameathingikhamei nganeyakhe
    ngengubo,eventhought hatwasimpossibl
    e.)
    Me:
    Iam
    Ayanda:bhabhaasfr
    om t
    odayIwil
    lbet
    aki
    ng
    youtowork.(Ther
    egoesuAyandaagai
    n
    mfxmm)
    Me:
    Iwi
    l
    ldr
    ivemysel
    fAy
    anda,
    thanky
    ou.
    Ayanda:
    hayibhabha,
    yourfeetandl
    egswer
    e
    swoll
    enl
    astni
    teandnowy ouwannadri
    ve,
    wakewavaphiumtuokhul
    elweedriv
    er
    Me: okAyanda,dowhatevery
    ouwannadoand
    whateverthatwil
    lmakeyouhappy
    .
    Ayanda:Ingasubawr
    ongo,
    itsf
    ort
    hesakeof
    thebaby
    .

    Me: Ayandaevery
    thingnowisabouttheBaby,
    Babyandbaby ,
    doy ouevert
    hinkof
    Si
    nenhl
    anhla,Si
    nenhlanhl
    aandSinenhlanhl
    a.
    Ayanda: comeher e,hemademesi tonthebed
    duzekwakhe, bhabha,nothinghaschanged
    mfazi wam,youarest i
    ll
    mybestgal ,andyou
    wil
    lalwaysbe, i
    tssimplethatnowy ouare
    carr
    yingourangel,yesImi ghtseem asi
    fI'
    m
    toofussyaboutthisbabybutt rustmeyouboth
    meant heworldtome.Uy evamf azi
    wam.

    Me: Inodded,I
    'm sorr
    ybhabha,
    itssimplet
    hat
    offl
    ately,I
    '
    mjustamessmybodyont heot
    her
    handy enzaey
    ayo, I
    '
    m gai
    ningweightkuyal
    ena
    l
    e.
    Ayanda:it
    sokbhabha,I
    'm sorr
    ynamii
    fI'
    mt oo
    hardonyou, thi
    sismyf
    ir
    sttimebei
    ngafather
    I
    'mjustscared.
    Me: Iunder
    standandt
    hanky
    ousomuchf
    or
    yoursuppor
    t.
    Ay
    anda:
    anyt
    hingf
    ormyt
    wobeaut
    if
    ull
    adi
    es.

    Wel eftforwor kandhedr oppedme, Igreeted


    andpeopl econgr atulatedmeandi twas
    busi
    nessasusual .At4pm, Ay andacameand
    wewentt oCanal wal k,Ayandawentt oCher r
    y
    melon, t
    heiroutfit
    swer einamat ernityform
    butveryst y
    lish.Ayandamademengenza
    i
    grocer yyempahl a, hepaidt henwewentt o
    AckermansIdi dn'
    tknowbesi yof unani butmy
    husbandwentt oical alabant wanaandhe
    boughtsomebabyst uffs,
    v ests, jumpsui t
    sall
    pi
    nk, wewentt oWool worths, hewant ed
    sleepersformengokushokwakhewebought
    them andagainhewenttobaby'
    sdepar t
    ment
    andIt hi
    nkhegotcarri
    edawayandt histimeI
    j
    oi nedhim weboughtsomebaby'sclothesthey
    wer esocuteshame,waytoocute.

    Ayanda:bhabhaj
    ustimaginemyangel
    wear
    ing
    thi
    sdresswit
    htheseshoes.
    Me: hay
    ibhabhathat'
    senough,
    whatifsheis
    thi
    nli
    kemeorwhati fshewil
    lbechubby,we
    mustnotbuymanycl ot
    hesnow, t
    heseare
    enoughupunti
    labekhona.
    Ay
    anda:
    Iknowbhabha,
    I'
    mjustt
    ooexci
    ted.
    Me:
    sodoI
    .

    Hekissedmycheek,andIj
    ustblushed.Wepai
    d
    andwenttoOceanbasket,
    heor der
    eda
    sol
    emat epl
    att
    erf
    orooXhanti
    ,theylovesea
    food, meandmyhusbandsi zidlel
    ainy amanje,
    seaf oodhhawucha, andiyi
    thandi i
    fi
    shi mbala,
    crabsandoy sterIdon'
    twisht ot r
    ythem ,call
    meaf ar
    m girl
    ,Ioncetri
    edPr awnngehl ul
    eka.
    Wewentt oNandosandor deredwhol echicken,
    roll
    s,chi
    psandgr eensaladwi th2l i
    terofcoke.I
    wassor tedmygr eensaladwast herebuthe
    orderedextr
    agr eensaladandwel eft.Whenwe
    arri
    vedathomeooNdumi ewer einthel ounge
    watchingsoccer.

    Me:
    sani
    bonani
    Them :
    yebo
    Xhant
    i:wer
    eyoubuy
    ingf
    ort
    hewhol
    eCape
    Town.

    Ishr
    uggedmyshoul
    der
    sandl
    ookedatAy
    anda.
    Ayanda:don'
    tl
    ookatmeIdon' thav
    eevena
    si
    nglethi
    nginthesebagsnotevenasock.
    Me:
    who'
    sfaul
    tisi
    t
    Ay
    anda:
    your
    sofcour
    se
    Me:
    youcr
    azy
    Ay
    anda:
    yescr
    azyabouty
    ou.
    Me:
    mfxmm.

    Wewentupst ai
    rsandputthebagsont
    hefl
    oor
    andIchangedintopj
    sandputthegownont op,
    thenIwentdownstair
    s.Ndumiewasbusy
    dishi
    ngsupper,
    MsiraandMawandecamet oo,
    weat eandMsiradi
    ddishes.

    Ndumi
    e:l
    astbor
    n
    Me:
    babomdal
    a
    Ndumi
    e:howar
    eyourf
    eett
    oday
    ?
    Me:
    swol
    l
    enbutnotl
    i
    key
    est
    erday
    Ndumi
    e:wozangi
    kut
    hobe
    Ay
    anda:
    Iwi
    l
    ldoi
    tbhut
    i,don'
    tst
    ress.
    Ndumi
    e:y
    izanamanzi
    Ayandawi
    thsal
    t.

    Hestoodupwezanawo, wangi
    thobau
    Ndumiso,hethenmassagedme, Imi
    ghthave
    f
    all
    enasleepcaswhenIwokeupIwasi nbed,i
    t
    wasdarkandIwasont opofAyanda,It
    ri
    edto
    movedbutheheldmet i
    ght.

    Me:
    bhabha,
    Ineedt
    opee

    Ayandast
    ret
    chedhisar m andswi
    tchedont
    he
    si
    delamp,Iwenttopee,rinsemyhandsand
    cameback.Isleptnexttohim.
    Ay
    anda:
    sundi
    qhel
    aubul
    elephi

    Mfxmm Imovedandwentbackt
    ohi
    m.We
    dozedof
    fagai
    n.

    I
    ngakaYanda;
    -
    )
    [
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    17,
    23:
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    INSERT90

    Foll
    owingdayIhadanappoi nt mentwithmy
    Gynae,andev er
    y t
    hingwasst i
    llfi
    ne,thebaby
    wasf i
    neandgr owing.NchooAy anda's
    expressi
    onwhenhesawherhands, feet,
    they
    wereclearandmuchbi ggerthanlasttime,he
    camecl osertot hemoni t
    orandt ouchedi t
    ,I
    guessbeseci ngahewast ouchingourAngel ,
    mfxmm Ay andat hough.Yest hedoctor
    confir
    medt hatourbabywasagi r
    lcasthere
    wasnosi gnoft
    otosi(l
    it
    tleMtungwa)hayike
    moregoodnewsf ordaddy.Thatwasallwe
    coul
    dtalkabout
    ,babythi
    sandbabyt hat,
    bendi
    yi
    thandamnakuqal aIangelyami
    .Iwas
    dueonthe30July.

    WewentbackhomeandIcooked, yesIcooked
    forthef i
    rstt i
    meandi twasf orr eal.Ndumi so
    togetherwi thAy andahel pedme, Icooked
    spaghet t
    i andmi nce.ImustsayIexcel l
    edf or
    thefir
    sttime, yesICOOKEDandgoti tright.Til
    l
    todateIenj oycookingt hatmeal ,it
    seasyt o
    cookunl i
    kecooki nguphut huf oramasi ,ti
    ll
    todayandi kakwazi kuli
    phekaIal waysgeti t
    wrong.Idi shedandwasheddi shes.YesIdi d
    wifel
    ydut iesandt r
    ustmei tfeltsogoodev en
    thoughAy andawasnothappywi ththef actthat
    Iwoul dgot owor kandcookaf terthat,butIhad
    nochoi cet hesoonerIl earntt ocookt hebet ter
    .
    Ididthatal mostev eryday, butsomet imes
    Ayandawouldr
    efusepointbl
    ankmore
    especi
    all
    ywhenmyf eetwereswol
    l
    en.

    >>>>>>>>>

    ItwasTuesdayi vekiyeGoodFr idayev eryt


    hing
    wasst i
    llfi
    ne,I'
    m suremybabywasgoi ngtobe
    beauti
    fulcast hewaybengi muhl engakhona, I
    wasreal l
    ycutewi t
    hroundy ell
    owcheeksandI
    wasst art
    ingtobechubbykancane, fr
    om si ze
    28to32andmyt ummywasst il
    lsmal lbut
    sesi
    bonakal aandCher ryMeloncl othesmade
    meev enmor ecutebutmostoft het i
    meIwas
    onmyMakot iscl
    othes.YesIwasv erycloset o
    Ayanda'sbrothersandt heywer eso
    understandingandsuppor ti
    vebutIr espect ed
    them,Ididn'twannaov erst
    ept heirgenerosi t
    y.I
    wasuMakot i
    wakwaKhumal oCapeTownorno
    CapeTown.
    Wewer eleavi
    ngf orEast erncapeandas
    ussualt
    heKhumal oswer eal l
    leaving.Itwas
    Ayandaandmy self
    ,MawandeandXhant i
    ,
    NdumieandMsi r
    at hereasonf or3carsi t
    s
    becauseLomzi andZi masabebezobuy anathi
    sothethi
    rdcarwast oaccommodat et hem.We
    wenttobedasear l
    yas9pm, onet hingthatI
    havenoti
    cedMsi rawasal way sgoingwi thoo
    Ayandawhent heywer egoi ngt oCof i
    mv aba
    andhewasal way saroundourhousei fnotin
    hi
    sapartment,Inev erhear dhim ment i
    onhi s
    homeorhiswher eabout, hisfamily.

    I'
    mt hi
    skindofapersonwhohatesdiggi
    ng
    ul
    if
    ewabant ubutIhadtoaskuAyandacasI
    wasconfusedhonestl
    y.

    Me:
    Yanda
    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha
    Me: wher
    eareMsi
    ra'
    spar
    ent
    s,f
    ami
    l
    yand
    ungowaphi
    .

    Heshi
    ft
    ed.

    Ay
    anda:
    weal
    ldon'
    tknowbhabha
    Me:
    how?
    Ayanda: t
    heonlyhomeheknowsl elal
    apha
    ekhayaeNy anganasecof
    imvaba,nott
    hatwe
    werefrequenti
    ngecofimvabasi
    yengoku
    sesi
    badala.
    Me:
    whathappenedt
    ohi
    spar
    ent
    s?
    Ayanda: apparent
    ly,hi
    smotherlefthi
    m
    kuncinci
    (aunt/li
    ttl
    esist
    ertohermot her)
    wakhe
    eSiteC,sheleftathiuyaemful
    eni vi
    sit
    inga
    fr
    iendandshenev ercamebackt henbezwa
    kuthi
    washel efttoNorthWestneny eIguyshe
    wasdat ing, Msi rawas11mont hsthen,hewas
    rai
    sedbyhi sauntupunt i
    lheranawayf rom
    homeay ohl alaest r
    adini.Imethi m mnawhi l
    eI
    wasst i
    llagangst er,
    Imethi mt hroughTaSi rah
    theguyIt ol dy ouaboutIwaswor kingfor.At
    fi
    rstIthoughthewasy oungert hanme, yousee
    mossMsi r
    a' sbodykant i
    uy i
    ntangaka
    Mawande.Seemi nglywhi lehewasst ayingwi t
    h
    hisauntbebengamphat hangakakuhl e(they
    wer emist r
    eat inghim) ,hewasbeat enup, they
    l
    efthimt ost arve,hewasst udy i
    ngat
    NtlanganisoHi ghbyt hen.Hedr oppedoutat
    grade10, It ookhi mi nandhecont inuedunt i
    l
    grade12t henwentt oPent echanddi d
    I
    nfor mationTechnol ogyaf terMawande.He
    graduated, gotaj obandboughthi m selfa2
    bedroom f latleahl alakuy ongokuandacaras
    youseehi m now.

    Me:
    yhoo,
    soakakazeay
    ekuAunt
    ywakhe
    Ayanda:Ihavebeggedhi
    mtogoandv
    isi
    thi
    s
    auntbutakaf
    uni
    Me:
    andhi
    sdad?
    Ay
    anda:
    hedoesn'
    tknowhi
    sdad
    Me:
    soor
    igi
    nal
    l
    ybabesukaphi
    Ayanda:eTsomobhabha,buthedoesn'
    tknow,
    zangeay
    easIsaid,waziekhayakuphel
    a.
    Me:yhooothat'
    stoobad,
    nowondershame
    ekur
    espect
    at hi
    smuch.
    Ay
    anda:
    hei
    sagoodguybhabha.

    Wedozedof fandwokeupat3: 00am, we


    bathedandwewer ereadyt ol
    eave.Weleftfi
    rst
    stopwasi nLai
    ngsburg,Beauf
    ortwest,Graaf
    f
    rei
    netthenQueenstown,wedidgroceri
    esf or
    everyt
    hingweweregoi ngtoneednotforgett
    ing
    groceri
    esformyEat-sum -moor s.Wegot
    homear ound2pm everyonewasthere,makhulu,
    l
    omzi ,babaandZi masaofcour se.AsMakoti
    ,
    asmuchasIwast ir
    edbutIneededtogoand
    dohousechor es.Iprepar
    edasnackf orev
    ery
    one, t
    henIstartedwithsupper,
    justar
    ound
    5pm itst
    art
    edr aini
    ngnotthatmuchandi t
    stopped.Iwentout sidet
    ofetchwaterint
    he
    tank,t
    hesmel lofthesoil
    justmademe
    ndafunauwudla.

    Idismissedthethought
    ,whoeatsthesoil
    ,but
    thecravingwasstrong,Iwasabouttobend
    andlickitAyandaappeared.

    Ayanda:bhabhal
    etmehel
    pyouwi
    tht
    he
    bucket
    Me:
    thanksbhabha.Uh.
    .Mhmmm.
    .Bhabha?
    Ay
    anda:
    yini
    Inga?
    Me:
    Ifeel
    li
    keeat
    ingt
    hesoi
    l
    Ay
    anda:
    uphambeneI
    nga
    Me:
    I'
    m notbhabha
    Ay
    anda:
    comei
    nsi
    de,
    uyekeuphambana.

    Wewenti nsideandhadsupper ,
    wewentt oour
    room andbat hed, wedozedof fimmediatel
    y,I
    wokeupi nthemi ddleoftheni ght,
    thesmellof
    thesoilwasst i
    llt
    hereIreal
    lywant edit
    .Iknew
    Ayandawoul dn'tl
    etmeandIwasaf rai
    dtogo
    outsi
    dealone.Ist art
    edsnif
    fing.

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabhaar
    eyouok,
    hesatup
    Me:
    itdoesn'
    tmat
    ter(Iwasst
    il
    lsni
    ff
    ing)
    Ay
    anda:
    bhabhawhati
    swr
    ong?
    Me: yourefusedubangi
    dleumhl
    aba,
    nowI
    can'
    tsleep.I'
    m cr
    avi
    ngfori
    t.
    Ay
    anda:
    lal
    aInga!
    !
    Icr
    ieduncont
    rol
    l
    abl
    e

    Ay
    anda:
    fokofI
    ngal
    ala
    Me: Ican'
    tsl
    eepYanda,
    omncanengi
    yacel
    a
    bandla
    Ayanda:l
    alaI
    ngaorndizakufakaimpama.
    Ungumsundul
    ulu.(Eart
    hwor m)ngoku,wadl
    a
    umhlabawakeway i
    vaphiabantuabadl
    a
    umhlaba.
    Me:
    omncaneYanda
    Ayanda:thathaumt anam umbekeecal eni
    Inga
    thenwenaudl eumhl abake.Andinamtana
    uzadl
    aumhl abamnaI nga.YouknowIcango
    overseasjusttogetwhatev eryoucraveforbut
    eyomhlaba,Iwon'tentert
    ainitatal
    l.

    Icr
    ied,
    Iwasr
    eal
    l
    ygoi
    ngcr
    azy,
    Ayandadi
    dn'
    t
    hav
    eanyi
    deai
    i
    crav
    ingszi
    kwenzani
    .

    Ayandastor
    medoutaft
    erfewminuteshecame
    backwit
    hMakhul
    u, Iwassti
    l
    lcr
    ying.

    Ayanda:nankuMakhuluundi
    xaki
    l
    e,mbuze
    ul
    i
    lelani
    beforendi
    mfakaimpama.
    Makhul
    u:ndikufakei
    mpamauphambaneke
    mnaAyanda.(Shecameclosert
    ome)
    mzukul
    wanaxelelaumakhul
    ukwenzekani
    .

    Ikeptonsni
    ff
    ing

    Makhul
    u:t
    alkt
    omeI
    nganat
    himychi
    l
    d.
    Me:
    itsAy
    andamakhul
    u
    Ay
    anda:
    whatdi
    dhedo?
    Me:
    Ifeel
    li
    keeat
    ingsoi
    lmakhul
    ubuthewon'
    t
    l
    etme,Ican'
    tsl
    eep,Ihav
    etri
    edt
    oav
    oidi
    tbut
    t
    hesecr
    avingar
    estr
    ongforme.
    Makhulu:shamekhutsununukamakhul
    u,
    Ayandayiy
    aemv akorondeval
    wher
    ewe
    normall
    ygetumhlabawokwenzakuronder
    val
    ,
    i
    tsclaysoi
    lnotl
    oam andgetit.
    Ayanda:
    makhuluakhoI
    ngauzadl
    aumhl
    aba,
    andi
    namtanauzadl
    i
    swaumhl
    abamna
    Makhulu:nowAyanda!
    !BeforeIsl
    apyou,
    ubuzat
    hinii
    fbef
    unaudl
    aitoil
    etyamagundwana.
    Hambake.

    Hemumbledsomet
    hingandwentout
    ,aft
    er
    someti
    mehecamebackwithi
    tandgaveitt
    o
    makhul
    u.
    Me:givei
    ttoy
    ourwi
    fe,i
    tsnotharmf
    ulmost
    pr
    egnantwomendocrav
    eforsoil
    .
    Heputi
    tont
    opoft
    hesi
    dedr
    awer
    .

    Ay
    anda:
    makazi
    that
    hel
    emakhul
    u.

    Eshokubani
    .Itookonepieceandateit,
    itreal
    l
    y
    tast
    edsogreat,It
    ookt hesecondone,i
    twas
    real
    lyni
    ce.Ihavestoppedcryi
    ngandenjoy
    ing
    mysoi l
    .

    Makhul
    u:t
    her
    eyougo,
    arey
    ouokkest
    handwa
    sam.

    Inodded,
    sheki
    ssedmyf
    orehead

    Makhul
    u:l
    alakest
    handwasam,
    seey
    ou
    t
    omorrow.
    Me:
    thanky
    oumakhul
    u,andI
    '
    m sor
    ry
    ngokuv
    usaebusuku.
    Makhul
    u:nopr
    obl
    em.

    Ay
    andaaccompani
    edherandcameback.

    Ayanda: (Iwasst i
    llenjoy
    ingmysoi l,hecupped
    myt ummywi thhishandsandbr ushedi t)
    maKhumal o,don'tmakemommyeatsoi l
    my
    angel,i
    tsdirtyandunheal thyanddaddydoesn' t
    understandez i
    zinto,somet i
    mesIt hi
    nkmommy
    i
    scraz ywher easshei snot,Ij
    ustshout edher
    nowandIr egret,pleasebhabha, daddywi lldo
    anyt
    hingf orbothofy oubutthesoilthing,itki
    l
    ls
    me.Sopr omisemey ouwon'tmakemommy
    eatsoilagain.AndI '
    m sorrymommy .(He
    l
    ookedatme)

    Me:
    I'
    m notcr
    azyYanda.
    Ay
    anda: IknowbhabhaandI'
    m sor
    ry
    MarhadebethatIshout
    edy
    ou.
    Me:
    itsok.
    Ayanda:butI
    'm notokwiththesoi
    lthi
    ngbut
    whatcanIsaymybabi esgetwhattheywant
    anddaddylov
    ebot hofyou.
    Me:
    wel
    ovey
    out
    oodaddy
    .

    Ay
    anda'
    sey
    espoppedoutandhesmi
    l
    ed.

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabhadi
    dyouf
    eel
    that
    ?
    Me:
    yesIdi
    d(Ismi
    l
    edt
    oo)
    Ayanda:myangel
    justki
    cked,y
    essheki
    cked,
    hekissedmymouth,phi
    ndabhabha,
    doi
    tagai
    n
    fordaddy.

    Yesourangel
    kickedagai
    n,asl
    i
    ghtki
    ckt
    hough.
    Ayanda: yes,
    yes,yes.Hepul l
    edmypj topup
    andkissedmyt ummy ,bencumeumy eniwam
    ngathiugcadelweunogwaja(hare)nge
    teaspoon.Atl
    eastwewer ebothhappy,Igotmy
    soil
    ,daddy'sgir
    lki
    ckedfordaddy,weslept
    peaceful
    lyandhappy.

    I
    ngakaYanda.
    ;
    -)
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    17,
    23:
    53]Mca:
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    Lomzi wasstil
    lonmycasebutIdi dn' ttakeher
    seri
    ous,Ij
    ustbr ushedherof fnemi cabango
    yakheemdaka.Iguesswhatmadeev erythi
    ng
    easywast hefactt hatIjustignoredher ,she
    wouldsayallthosehur tful,
    painful thingsandI
    wil
    l j
    ustswall
    owandhel dmyheadup, phelaI
    wasr ai
    sedbyal adynotast raatmat e.Irefused
    toletLomziturnedmei ntosomet hingIwasnot .
    Whatwaswor seshesawt hatAy andawasby
    mysi deal ltheway, soshewoul dwai tunt i
    lwe
    wereal oneandashowhatev ershewant ed,I
    wil
    l j
    ustl i
    stenandkeptqui te.Ialway s
    remember edwhatTot isaid,inwhatev ermy
    i
    nlawsdot omeAy andamustnothearf rom me
    butmel ebazi bonel eorbazi zwel e.Makhul uand
    babar eall
    yl i
    kedme, Ithinktheyl ikedmy
    sconesandmuf fi
    nst hemost: )Iwoul dwakeup
    asear l
    yas5: 30andshamemyhusbandwoul d
    wakeupwi thme, accompanymet ot hekitchen
    andst ayedwi thme, wewoul dbaket ogether
    andher eall
    yenj oy edbaki ngasheal soenj oy
    cooking.Si ncei twasendofMar ch, mornings
    werest il
    ldar k, wewoul dmakescones
    fol
    lowingdaymuf fins.Mabev ukawewoul dbe
    donenoYanda, not hi
    ngbeat sf r
    eshmuf finsin
    themor ningwor seezenzi weot handweni .

    Onemor
    ning,
    Iwaswashi
    ngdi
    shesi
    nthe
    ki
    tchen,
    itwasaft
    erbr
    eakfast,Ayandaand
    guyshadlef
    tfort
    own.Lomzi wal
    kedin.

    Lomzi
    :whyar
    eyoust
    il
    lher
    e?
    Me:
    mha
    Lomzi :
    I'
    m noty
    ourmotherSi
    many
    e!Iwi
    l
    l
    neverbeyourmother
    !

    Ikeptqui
    te.

    Lomzi :don'
    tgett oocomf ortabl
    ent ombazana,
    uyahambaaphakwaKhumal o,eli
    yezat haty ou
    havegiventomysonl izaphelasoon, uyahamba
    Simanye, t
    herei sonl
    yonedaught eri nlawIwi l
    l
    acceptkulomzi nguZimasanotabesut hu
    ndingabazibabaleki
    sway iniendaweni zabo,
    abekhoabaf anakulandawoy akho?Iwi llnever
    acceptyoundi f
    ungaamaCi r
    haephel ele.
    Fort
    hefi
    rstti
    meatearescapedf
    rom myeye,
    whatdi
    dIreal
    lydokul
    omamaengizongakanj
    e?

    Ayanda:kant
    ikeshei snotgoi
    nganywher
    e
    owam umfazikuzaskekuhambewena.
    Lomzi
    :howl
    onghav
    eyoubeenst
    andi
    ngt
    her
    e.
    Ayanda:longenoughthatIhear
    dy ou
    thr
    eateni
    ngmywi f
    engoZimasa,youareaf
    ool
    i
    fyout hi
    nkIwil
    lleaveI
    ngaforZimasa.
    Lomzi:
    didn'ty
    ougot
    otownnooXhant
    il
    omzi
    kant
    iAyanda?
    Ayanda:Idi
    dn'
    tgo,theydid,youknowwhatcas
    Iknewyouwill
    beonmywi fe' scase.Ihav
    e
    beenwatchi
    ngyouinsult
    ingInga,Ikeptqui
    te
    andnowI'mreall
    ypi
    ssed.
    Lomzi:youseewhatshehasdonet
    oyou,
    you
    can'
    tev
    engowi t
    hothermen,usemv
    akwakhe
    oko.
    Ay
    anda:
    youknowwhy
    ?
    Lomzi:
    becauseshehasgi
    veny
    out
    hel
    ove
    por
    ti
    on.
    Ay anda: I'
    m afraidtoleav eherwit
    hl emonst er
    i
    nguwe, it
    shar dly5mi nutesandy ouar ealr
    eady
    i
    nhert hroat.Thisisnott hefir
    stti
    me, several
    ly
    ti
    mesIhear dy ouswear i
    ng, i
    nsul
    ti
    ngherandas
    theper sonshei suI ngashekeptqui t
    eshe
    didn'tevent el
    lmecasshewaspr otecti
    ngour
    relati
    onshipwel lnowI '
    m get ti
    ngpissednguwe
    andshi tisaboutt ohappen.Phumakuy ekeor
    youwi llcursethedayy ougav ebir
    thtomeI
    meani tmamzophumakuy e!

    Ididn'
    tevenl i
    ftmyheadup,Iconti
    nuedwith
    di
    shes, tearsweresti
    l
    lstr
    eamingdownIcried
    si
    lentl
    y,Ididn'
    twantAyandatoseethatIwas
    cryi
    ng,theyshoutedeachother,
    Idecidedt
    o
    blockt
    hem.Itwasal
    lshout
    ing,shout
    ingand
    shouti
    ng,
    aft
    ersometimetheywereallqui
    te.

    Ay
    anda:
    Inga!
    !(Isnappedoutofmyt
    hought
    s)
    Me:
    bhabha(Idi
    dn'
    tev
    enl
    ookathi
    m)
    Ayanda:makhul
    uist
    alki
    ngt
    oyou(Idi
    dn'
    tev
    en
    seehercomi
    ngin)

    Ikeptqui
    te,whatwasIt
    osaycasIdi
    dn'
    tev
    en
    hearwhatshesaid)

    Hecamet
    omeandl
    i
    ftedmyf
    acewi
    thhi
    sindex
    f
    inger
    .

    Ayanda: bhabhayouhav
    ebeencryi
    ng.I
    coul
    dn'thelpedi
    tanymoreIcr
    ied,
    myheartwas
    sobroken.
    Ay
    anda: makhuludoyousee,f
    orhowlongI
    nga
    mustputupwiththi
    sshi
    tforhowlongmakhul
    u?
    Makhulu:Noxhanti
    lomzi,
    ar eyouhappynow,
    areyouhappythatumtanomt uunjezinyembezi,
    areyouhappy?whatisitthatshehasdonet o
    you?sheisnothi
    ngbutasweet ,
    humbl eandan
    i
    nnocentchi
    ldwenaumel enenay e,wena
    ukhonaumtuwakewakuphat hakanjeufika
    khakhoapha?phuuuuuzi phethekakubi.

    Shecamet
    ome.

    Makhulu:uxoloMar hadebe,xolomzukul wana


    wam, (
    shekissedmyhead, Iwassobbi ng,Ij
    ust
    missedmygr andmot hersobadly)Ay andatake
    hertoyourr
    oom, sheneedst orest,si
    m upset-
    i
    leandthebabyal ready.Wemustr eal
    l
    ybe
    ashamedofour selves,AbantubakwaRhadebe
    gaveusthei
    rdaught er,thei
    ronl
    ydaught er
    becausetheytr
    ustedus,
    bazothisi
    ngabantu
    abanjanii
    ftheycanfi
    ndoutubauhlezikanj
    e
    umtanawabo.Aninamahl
    oni.Noxhanti
    l
    omzi.

    Ayandawal kedmet oourroom,


    Iwasso
    drai
    ned,Ireall
    yhadenoughofLomzibutwhat
    wasItodo.Iv owedtosti
    ckwit
    hmyhusband
    i
    nsicknessandi nheal
    th,i
    ngoodandinbad.I
    l
    aidabitthengotupandwentt opr
    epare
    supper.

    Imustsaymyst aywasaf rui


    tfulone.Makhul u
    taughtmehowt omakeamaHewu( soft
    porri
    dge)ebenzi
    waphansi nt
    angaeml i
    l
    weni
    andAy andawouldwatchmeasi fIwasgoi ng
    togetinthatbi
    gpot,swim andbur ntmysel f
    mf xmm I'
    m marr
    iedt
    oaf r
    eakyy,notthatIli
    ke
    amahewu, I
    '
    m usedt
    oi nqodi(
    umdoko)mna
    notamaHewubutabant ubengi benzel
    ar eal
    ly
    enj
    oy edt
    hem.Shet aughtmehowtomake
    Afr
    icanbeer,hay
    isureIwasbecomi
    ngabiggal
    andthejoyinmyhusbandwhenhet ast
    edmy
    afr
    icanbeerwaspricel
    ess.

    Ayanda:youar
    enotj
    ustpret
    tyf
    aceMar
    hadebe,
    I
    'm sopr
    oudofyoumfaziwam.

    Ij
    ustsmi
    l
    ed

    Ay
    anda:
    comeher
    e.(Heki
    ssedmycheek)
    .

    Idi
    dev ery
    thingwi t
    hdi gni
    ty,humblenessandI
    thi
    nkthat'
    ssomeoft hereasonsmakhul uli
    ked
    mesomuch, sowasbabashame.Hewoul d
    cal
    lmeat hi ngimenzeleamahewuori t
    iye.
    Ayandadidn' tli
    kei
    tthoughbutIt ol
    dhim
    angizi
    ngeni.Iwasj ustamakot iwhoneededt o
    respectall
    themember softhefamil
    y,Iwasnot
    goingtohateAy anda'sfat
    herbecauseofwhat
    hedid.Ireall
    yenterednowher eandasfor
    AyandaIwasnotgoi ngtoforcehi
    mt oloveand
    forgi
    vehisfather.I
    twasgoingt obeoutofhis
    choiceandhiswi ll
    .

    Zimasahaschangedabitaboutme,atleastwe
    weretal
    kingl
    ikeadul
    tsandwewouldlaugh
    sometimesanddocookt oget
    her
    .IguessIalso
    neededsomeonet otal
    kto,awoman.

    I
    twasWednesdaynight
    ,anightbeforewewere
    goi
    ngbacktocapeTownandwewer ecuddl
    i
    ng
    noAyandat
    alki
    ngaboutrandom t
    hings.

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha
    Me:
    Yanda
    Ay
    anda:
    what
    'supwi
    thy
    ouandZi
    masa?
    Me:
    not
    hing
    Ay
    anda:
    not
    hing,
    real
    l
    y??
    Me:
    yes:
    shei
    snotasbadasshel
    ooksy
    azi
    .
    Ayanda:ohhh,
    howandwhendi
    dyouf
    indout
    aboutt
    hat
    Me: wehav
    ebeenchat
    ti
    ng,
    shei
    ssweet
    shame.
    Ay
    anda:
    Inga,
    stayawayf
    rom Zi
    masa.
    Me:
    hay
    iYandacany
    oust
    opbei
    ngdr
    amat
    ic
    Ayanda:Inganat
    hiKhumal
    o!!St
    ayawayf
    rom
    Zimasa,
    youdon'tknowZimasa,shei
    supto
    somethi
    ng.
    Me:
    youhav
    etr
    usti
    ssuesYanda.
    Ayanda:bhabhayazioneday,youwil
    l gethurt
    ,
    youhaveagoodhear tbutonedayitwilll
    and
    youinbi
    gtroubl
    e.Zimasawi l
    ldoanythingto
    getbackt
    ome.
    Me:
    shei
    sov
    ery
    oubhabha
    Ay
    anda:
    that
    'swhatshet
    oldy
    ou
    Me:
    yesandIbel
    i
    eveher
    Ayanda:I
    nga, youst
    il
    lhaveal
    ongwaytogo,
    agai
    nIrepeat,
    stayawayfr
    om Zi
    masaifyou
    knowwhat'sgoodforyou.
    Me:
    yha,
    whatev
    ermrGr
    umpy
    .
    Ayanda:ImeanitInga,i
    fanythi
    nghappensto
    mychil
    d, Iswear,
    y ouwi
    llcur
    sethedayyou
    metmecasIknowwhatt hatwit
    chiscapabl
    e
    of
    .
    Me:
    ok,
    okcanwesl
    eepal
    ready
    .

    I'
    mthemor ni
    ngIdi
    dbr eakf
    ast
    ,thenprepared
    l
    unch.Idi
    damaHewucasbesewephel aand
    Zimasacameandhelpedme, sawapheka
    avut
    hwa,whil
    esiwaphekawewer echatti
    ng.
    WhenweweredoneIbr
    ought1l
    i
    terschool
    bot
    tl
    engawat
    hel
    akhona.

    Zi
    masa:howar ey
    ougoi
    ngt
    odr
    inkf
    rom t
    hat
    bot
    tl
    eeshushu
    Me: noitsforendl
    eleni
    nzowafakaef r
    idgini
    sothisi
    hambaabeebanda, I
    ndeedIputitinthe
    fri
    dge.Iwenttopackandbathed.Wewer eall
    readytoleave.Wegatheredf
    orprayerandl ef
    t
    around4:30pm.

    Iwasdrivi
    ngwithAyandaandNdumi e,
    Mawandewi thLomzi andZi
    masaandMsi r
    a
    withXhanti
    .Ourfi
    rststopwasinQueenstown,
    wewentt oKfc,wesatandtheyate,
    Ionlydrank
    amaHewuwami nothingmore.Wethenhitthe
    road.
    I
    ngakaYanda;
    -
    )
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    17,
    23:
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    Aswewereapproachi
    ngLai
    ngsburgIhad
    cr
    ampsnotsevereonesj
    ustl
    ight
    .

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabhaar
    eyouok
    Me:
    I'
    mfi
    nebhabha

    Justaf
    terwepassedWor
    stert
    heystar
    ted
    agai
    n,sti
    l
    lli
    ght
    .Ihel
    dmysel
    fbutNdumisosaw
    that
    .

    Ndumi
    e:l
    astbor
    nyounotok
    Me:
    Iam babomdal
    a.
    Ndumi
    e:noy
    ounot
    .
    Me:
    trustmeIam.

    Ayandaj
    ustpul
    l
    edof
    fandr
    ushedt
    omysi
    de,
    he
    openedt
    hedoor.

    Ay
    anda:
    Ingawhati
    swr
    ongbhabha?
    Me:
    I'
    mfi
    neYanda.
    Ayanda:Inganat
    hiKhumalo!
    !Don'
    tfuckent
    ell
    mey ouareokwhileyounott
    hat
    'smybabythat
    i
    sthere.
    Ndumiso:Ayandawhydoy oualwayshavet
    o
    swearcan'
    tyouseelomtanaisafr
    aidofy
    ou
    casyoualwaysswear,
    justcal
    m down.
    Ay
    anda:
    okI
    '
    m sor
    ry,
    bhabhawhati
    sgoi
    ngon.
    Me:
    Ihav
    ecr
    amps
    Ay
    anda:
    zikuqal
    eni
    ni
    Me:
    Lai
    ngsbur
    gzay
    eka,
    zay
    aphi
    ndaagai
    n.
    Ay
    anda:
    let
    'sgot
    othehospi
    tal
    now.
    Me: bhabhacanyoustopoverreacti
    ng,
    rememberthedoctorsai
    dIwillhavethesekind
    ofcrampsnowandagai naslongast herei
    sno
    bleedi
    ng.
    Ay
    anda:
    andy
    ouar
    enotbl
    eedi
    ng
    Me: noIcheckede-
    bat
    hroom 10mi
    nut
    esago
    ngokubesimil
    eeWorst
    er.
    Ayanda:ok,I
    '
    m nothappythoughunenkani
    kodwaIngaIt
    oldyoutost
    opwor ki
    ngyoursel
    f
    thewayyoudi
    dekhaya.

    Af
    tert
    hatr
    eal
    l
    yIdi
    dn'
    texper
    ienceany
    .

    Wear ri
    vedathomearound3am andwent
    str
    aighttobedandyesther
    ewasnobloodin
    mypant yl
    iner
    .UMawandehadtogoanddrop
    Lomzi andZimasaeNyangaandcameback,
    no
    Msi
    rasl
    eptov
    er.

    Fri
    daywasahol i
    daysowewer enotgoi
    ngany
    where,wewokeupar ound9am, wemadet he
    bed,tookashower ,gotdressedandwent
    downstai
    rsforbreakfast
    .Ndumi sowasinthe
    ki
    tchenbusywithbreakfast,t
    heotherguys
    bebesedini
    ng.

    Me:
    sawubonababomdal
    a
    Ndumi
    e:l
    astbor
    nhowar
    eyou
    Me:
    I'
    m goodandy
    ou
    Ndumiso:gr
    eat,
    Ihav
    emadebr
    eakf
    ast
    ,goand
    si
    tdown.
    Me:
    thansbabomdal
    a

    Iwentt
    ojoi
    ntheguy
    s.Igr
    eet
    edt
    hem andt
    hey
    gr
    eet
    edback.

    Wesatandat
    e,Ij
    usthadaj
    uiceandanappl
    e.

    Ndumi
    so:
    lastbor
    nawudl
    itu.
    Me:
    Idi
    d
    Ndumi
    so:
    youdi
    dn'
    t.
    Me:maybemissKhumal
    owant
    stohav
    e
    mommy'sbody.
    Msi
    ra:kant
    iti
    ll
    whenezobangumissKhumal
    o
    orl
    i
    ttl
    ebhabhanizamt
    hiy
    ani
    nii
    gama.
    Xhant
    i:uzot
    hiy
    wangubabomdal
    aphel
    a.
    Ay
    anda:
    andwho'
    sthat
    Msi
    ra,
    Xhant
    i,Ndumi
    eandMawande:
    (chant
    ed)
    me
    Me:
    hay
    ibokahl
    eni
    Ay
    anda:
    yinganey
    ami
    le
    Them :
    (theychant
    edagai
    n)y
    eyet
    hu.
    Me: howabouty
    ouallcomeupwi
    thnames,
    onenameperpersont
    henwewil
    ldeci
    del
    eli
    phi
    el
    ir
    it
    e.
    Msi
    ra:
    goodi
    dea
    Ay
    anda:
    noEngl
    i
    shnamespl
    ease.

    Istoodupandwentt
    otakeapenandapaper
    ,I
    satdown.

    Me:
    okl
    et'
    sgo.
    Xhant
    i:I
    minat
    hi
    Me:
    chababomdal
    aal
    mostt
    hesameasmi
    ne.
    Xhanti
    :lookatmeandLomzi ,sheis
    Noxhanti
    LomziandmnasinceI'mtheboyI'
    m
    Xhanti
    l
    omzi.Sonawekelastbornyouare
    I
    nganathiandyouarecar
    ryi
    ngababygal
    ,
    I
    minathiwil
    lbestsui
    ther
    .
    Me:
    oknowi
    tmakessense.
    Ndumi
    e:howaboutSal
    i
    zwa
    Me:
    Sal
    i
    zwa?Thet
    hut
    hini
    .
    Ndumie:weneverhadagalathomeandGod
    bl
    essedusngaweway i
    l
    astbornyasekhay
    aand
    nowHeisblessi
    nguswithanothergal
    .
    Me:
    whow.Ok.
    Mawande: Lungako,t
    hesignofyourlove,you
    havebeent hroughalotal
    readybutyourlov
    e
    haven'
    tshakenabi tandLungakhowillj
    ust
    complet
    et hepuzzleofyourlove.
    Me:
    hay
    ini
    youar
    emaki
    ngmeemot
    ional
    ,
    Ayanda:pleasedon'
    tst
    artbhabha,r
    emember
    ndandi
    theIZambesiri
    versiy
    ishi
    yaphay
    a
    ecaweni.
    Weal
    ll
    aughed,
    mfxmm Ay
    andanj
    e.

    Msira: Ovay o.Ithi


    nkGodhashear dallyour
    cri
    esTaAy la,youhadnot hi
    ngbutahect icchil
    d
    hood, y
    oual way ssaidtomemasi ya
    kwezami ssionszet huonlyifGodcangi vey oua
    family,ahumbl e,andlovingwifeandkids,
    moneywi l
    lnev ermat t
    ertoy ou.AndIthink
    uThixouy i
    vileimithandazoy akho,youhav e
    suchacar ingandl ovi
    ngwi f
    ewhodoesn' tcar
    e
    onlyforyoubutf oreveryonewhoi saroundher
    andhehasbl essedyounangoOv ayo.

    Icoul
    dn'
    thelpmyselfbutcry.Iwentsositon
    Ayanda'
    slapengangibi
    zangat hi
    sti
    meand
    buri
    edmy sel
    fonhischest,heheldmev ery
    ti
    ght.

    Ay
    anda:
    minei
    ssi
    mpl
    e.SangeKhumal
    o.She
    broughtnothingbuthope,
    lov
    e,peaceinme,
    andbecauseofherIknowwewi l
    lriset
    o
    superior
    it
    yfrom test
    sanddif
    fi
    cult
    iesofli
    fe
    nomf aziwam.

    Msi
    ra:
    andy
    oul
    astbor
    n
    Me:noguyslawenuaenoughandit
    hiYanda
    want
    s6kidssowearesorted.Kuboboyi6.
    Ay
    anda:
    soy
    ougoi
    ngt
    ogi
    veme6ki
    dsbhabha.
    Me: whynot
    ,IfIr
    efuseIwon'
    twi
    nanywaybut
    notnow
    Ayanda:weareinnorushmf azi
    wam , weare
    st
    il
    lyoungwehav eal
    ltheti
    meweneedt o
    makebeauti
    fulbabi
    es.EnkosiMarhadebe,he
    ki
    ssedme.
    Xhant
    i:heykwedi
    nigetar
    oom.

    Igi
    ggl
    ed.
    Iclearedthetableandwentt owasht hedi shes.
    Iwant edtogoandt akeanap.Iwasst i
    llti
    red,
    rememberweonl ysleptfor6hours.Somet hi
    ng
    wasnotr i
    ghtdownmyabdomen, i
    twasl i
    kein
    anhour stimeIwasgoi ngt obeonper i
    ods.I
    wentupst air
    s,Ifi
    rstwentt opee.Itookof fmy
    under wearandsatont hetoil
    etsi
    t,Ispot ted
    thatmypant yli
    nerhadbl ood, It
    ooktoiletpaper
    andwi pedmy self,hay i
    boIwasonPERI ODS.I
    fl
    ushedt hetoil
    et, woremyunder wear ,
    rinsed
    myhandsandr ushedoutoft hebedroom.I
    didn'tgodownst air
    s, Ical
    ledforAyanda.

    Me:
    Ayanda!
    !Ay
    anda!
    !
    Ay
    anda:
    I'
    m comi
    ng,
    her
    anupst
    air
    s

    Iwal
    kedbacktothebedroom ,Ij
    ustdidn'
    tknow
    whatt
    odo, whattot
    hink.Ayandawalkedin
    ekhef
    uzel
    a.

    Ayanda:
    whatisi
    tbhabha,
    (tearsj
    ustst
    reamed
    downmycheeks)bhabhay
    inital
    ktome.

    Ij
    ustpull
    edmyunder
    weardownwi
    thoutsay
    ing
    anyt
    hing.

    Ayanda: shi
    t!!Come, (Ij
    ustst
    oodthere,he
    helpedmewi thmyunderwear ,
    hethengrabbed
    mybag, (
    hecan'tleav
    emybagmyi nhalersare
    there)
    ,hi
    scarkey sandcarri
    edmedownst ai
    rs)
    .

    Al
    ltheguy
    sst
    oodupassoonast
    heysawus.

    Xhant
    i:Ay
    anda,whatisgoingon,
    (wamphonsel
    athecarkeys,Xhant
    idi
    dn'
    task,
    wedr
    ovet
    ohospi
    tal
    )bal
    andel
    anooNdumi
    so.

    Wewer eal
    lqui
    te,
    Ayandawasbr
    ushi
    ngmy
    back.

    Ay
    anda:
    justhangi
    nthemf
    azi
    wam.

    Iwasquit
    e, Iwasmakingashor tpr
    ayert
    oGod,
    haveyoueverwatchedthatmov i
    eethi
    LETTERSTOGOD, sowasI,Iwassendingmy
    pray
    erstoGodt osavemychild.Idi
    dn'
    teven
    knownobauzafikanabutIjusthopeduzafi
    ka.

    Wegotinhospi
    talandwewer eat
    tended,
    si
    ster
    scameandt hedoctor,
    Ayandaexplai
    ned
    whatheknew,t
    heyaskedwhowasmyGy nae
    l
    uckyenoughhewasi nt
    hesamehospi t
    al.
    Someonef r
    om pathcar
    ecamet otakemy
    bloods, Iwonderwhatisitwi
    thbloodskwi
    priv
    at ehospit
    alsabawaphosit
    u.Thebl eedi
    ng
    hadi ncreased,Iwasgiv
    enapad, Icouldn'
    t
    holdmy selfwhentheychangedmypadIj ust
    screamedmyl ungsout.

    Me: bhabha,
    Ican'
    tl
    osemybaby,
    Ican'
    tl
    ose
    herYanda.

    Ayanda: wearenotlosingherbhabha,(the
    pai
    ninhisey es,thesadnessinhisface,I
    guessifhewasal onengeway el
    il
    abutshame
    poorAyanda,hadt obest r
    ongforme, hehad
    toputhisfeeli
    ngsasideandnursedmi nes)
    .

    Theportercame, IwastaketomyGy nae's


    room ,
    Iwasst i
    llbl
    eedi
    ng, heavybleeding.Ok,I
    wasnotadoct orbutatthatti
    me, Ididn'thav
    e
    togoandst udyfor7yearstofi
    gureoutwhat
    wasgoi ngon, defini
    telyIwasmi scarryi
    ng.We
    gott her
    eandt herewer epeoplebeforemebut
    theywer easkedt oletmebeat tendedbef or
    e
    them asmycasewasofemer gency .Doctor
    mademel i
    eont hebedonmybackandt ook
    offmypad, Goditwasal sofull,
    het hrewit
    away .Iknewal readyhewasgoi ngt osayI
    mi scarr
    ied,t
    earsdidn'tstopfl
    owingdownmy
    cheeks.Heappl iedthegel andmov edt he
    transducer.

    Doct
    or: thisi
    sami racl
    e,af
    teryouhavelostso
    muchbl ood,ther
    ei sst
    il
    lahear
    tbeat,thebaby
    i
    ssti
    llaliv
    e, t
    hereismissKhumalo,sheisal
    ive,
    t
    hisi
    sr eall
    yami racl
    e.

    Ayandasqueezedmyhandandki
    ssedmy
    for
    ehead
    Ay
    anda:
    arey
    ousur
    edoct
    or?
    Doctor: posit
    ive,
    (atearescapedAy anda's
    eye).Somet hi
    ngjusttoldmet hi
    swasnotover,
    Iwassupposet obehappyt hatmychil
    dwas
    st
    ill
    alivebutmybodyr efusedt obehappy
    .

    Doctor:Iwil
    ladmi
    thersothatwewi l
    lmonit
    or
    her.I
    'm goi
    ngtogi
    veherthepil
    lthatwi
    ll
    stop
    thebleedi
    ng.
    Ay
    anda:
    thanky
    oudoct
    or.
    Doct
    or:pl
    easur
    e,Iwi
    l
    lcomeandcheckher
    bef
    oreIgohome.
    Ay
    anda:
    thanksagai
    ndoct
    or.

    Iwastakentothemat er
    nit
    yward.Wesatthere
    nooNdumisochat t
    ingIcoul
    dseeeventhough
    theyweret
    ryi
    ngt ocheermeupnoAy andabut
    theywereworr
    ied.ThansGodthebl
    eedinghad
    stopped,atleastmychi ldwassafeandali
    ve.
    Theydi dtheultrasoundagainandshewas
    i
    ndeedf ine.Theyl ef
    taround7andAy anda
    wentt otakemyt oil
    etr
    iesandhebookeda
    couchagai nwhi chhedi dn'
    tev
    enusecashesat
    ont hechairnextt omeunt i
    lIf
    ell
    aslee

    I
    ngakaYanda;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    23:
    53]Mca:
    INSERT93

    Bonusf
    ort
    heday
    .

    Aft
    er12am, Iwaswokenupbypains,theywere
    cer
    tainl
    ynotcr
    ampsbutpainsasifIhadperi
    od
    pai
    ns.Ayandawasupalr
    eady,Iguesshedidn'
    t
    sl
    eepshameumy eniwam ,
    hewaswat chi
    ngTV
    hol
    dingmyhand.
    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha,
    arey
    ouok?
    Me:
    Ihav
    epai
    ns.

    Hei
    mmedi
    atel
    yrangt
    hebel
    lthesi
    stercame.

    Si
    ster:
    issheok?
    Ay
    anda:
    no,
    shei
    scompl
    aini
    ngaboutpai
    ns.

    Thesistercamet omewav ulainguboand


    checkedmypad, Isti
    llhadoneev enthought he
    bleedi
    nghadst opped, justaft
    erIsawmypad
    ndasit
    shoisikhal
    o, trustmeont hatdayIthink
    wonkeumnt uway esesibedlel
    andamv usa.

    Ayandajumpedofft
    hechairsincehewasstil
    l
    ther
    e,andwhenhesawt hebloodhejustcl
    osed
    hiseyeswit
    hbothhandsandlookedup.
    Me:YandaIam notl
    osi
    ngmybabyangi
    thi
    ?(I
    wasst
    il
    lcr
    ying)
    Ayanda:
    Idon'
    tknowbhabha(hecamet
    ome
    andhuggedme)
    Me: t
    ell
    meI'
    m notl
    osi
    ngmybabyAy
    anda,
    I
    can'
    tl
    oseher,
    Ican'
    tAyanda.
    Ayanda:
    itsokbhabha,
    (hewasbr
    ushi
    ngmy
    back)
    Me: don'ttel
    lmeitsok, Ay
    anda,itsnot,I
    'm
    supposet ocarrymychil
    dfullt
    erm, whyGod
    gavemeheri fheknewhewasgoi ngtotake
    herngingekamboni ,whyAyanda?
    Ay
    anda:
    bhabhapl
    easedon'
    tdot
    hist
    oyour
    sel
    f.

    Thebleedinghadincr
    easedtr
    emendousl
    y,
    ever
    ytimeIcoughed, hugebl
    oodcl
    othswoul
    d
    comeout .Idon'
    tknowhowmanypadsIused.
    Thesistergavemet hepi
    ll
    again,t
    heoneIwas
    gi
    venbyt hedoct orandIalsotooki
    tbef oreI
    sl
    eptbutt hi
    st i
    mei tdi
    dn'
    twork.Luckil
    yt he
    si
    sterwhowast herewasanol dwhiteladyv er
    y
    sweetshame, shesaidIshareabirt
    hdaywi th
    herlastborn,sameday ,monthandyear .She
    wasv eryfondofmeshame.Shewasal sot her
    e
    hol
    dingmyhand.

    Thepai nswer eunbearable,Inormal getperi


    od
    painsdur i
    ngmyper iodsbutt hosepai nsIhad
    wer eoutofthisworld.Itri
    edt orubmyl ower
    abdomenhopi ngthatthepai nwillgowaybut
    thesistersaidImustnotdot hat,shegav eme
    painki
    ll
    ersthroughdr i
    p,theydidn'twor k,she
    gavemepai nkil
    l
    ersorall
    ystillt
    heydidn' twor
    k.

    Ayandadidn'
    tknowwhatt
    odo,Iwastossi
    ng
    andtur
    ningkubuhl
    ungunj
    e.Thebl
    eedi
    ngdidn'
    t
    st
    op,
    sowasmyt
    ear
    s.

    Asearlyas5am, Ay andaandthesist
    erhelped
    met ookashower ,asIwasstandingabig
    bl
    oodcl othcameoutf ol
    lowedbyothers,the
    si
    sterrushedoutandcamewi t
    hmyf olderhe
    wrotesomet hingandaf t
    erthatshecameback
    andcont i
    nuedbat hingme.Myf acewasbur ni
    ng
    becauseoft ears.

    Aft
    er8am,Iwastakent
    omyGynae'sroom
    agai
    nandasusual
    ,mydoct
    orwasther
    e
    smil
    ing.

    Doct
    or:
    mor
    ningKhumal
    os
    Ay
    anda:
    mor
    ningdoct
    or
    Doct
    or:
    howar
    eyoudoi
    ng
    Ay
    anda:
    notsogooddoct
    or,
    notsogood
    Doct
    or:
    letmesee

    Ay andacar ri
    edmef r
    om thewheel chai
    rtothe
    bedandl aidmeonmyback, t
    hedoct orapplied
    thegel andmov edthetransducer,God,Ijust
    closedmyey es, Iwantedtoclosemyear st oo
    butitwast oolate,ther
    ewasnohear tbeat, I
    forcedmyey esopened.Iwant edtoseewhat
    wasl eft,itwasonl ythereddi
    sht hi
    ng,Iguess
    i
    twasbl ood.

    Doct
    or:
    I'
    m sor
    ryMr
    sKhumal
    o,y
    oumi
    scar
    ri
    ed
    t
    hebaby.

    Ij
    ustl
    aidtherest
    il
    l ,
    emot i
    onless,notthatit
    di
    dn'
    tcrossmymi ndbutIwashopi ngforbett
    er
    news,ever
    ythi
    ngjustshut down.Idon'tknow
    whathappenedafter.Ididn'
    thearany t
    hingthe
    doct
    orwassay i
    ng,nott hatIwasn'tthere,
    Iwas
    therebutIdi
    dn'twannahearanythi
    ng.Iwas
    takenbacktothewar d,
    Igotinbedandfaced
    theothersi
    degi v
    ingAyandamyback.Ididn'
    t
    utteraword,Ij
    ustkeptquit
    e.

    Inmyl ifeInev erl ostanyonecl osert ome,


    honest l
    y, Ididn'tknowt hepai nofl osingany one
    closertomeunt i
    lthatday, Idi dn'tjustlosemy
    relati
    ve, Ilostmychi l
    d, myf ir
    stbor n,my
    Princess, myf lesh, myblood, theysaywhen
    youl osey ourPARENTSy oul osey ourPAST,
    wheny oul osey ourPARTNERy ouar elosing
    yourPRESENTbutwheny oul osey ourCHI LD
    youar elosi ngy ourFUTUREt hisiswhatIwas
    l
    osi ngMYFUTURE.Myhear twasl ikeithas
    beenst abbed100t imesbyav eryshar pswor d.
    Ay andat riedtomakesmal l
    t alksbutIj ustkept
    quite.
    Hetookhi
    sfonef
    rom t
    hechar
    gerandmadea
    cal
    l

    Ayanda: sur ebhut i,


    ,
    ,,notsogoodatal lwel ost
    thebaby ,,
    ,,shei snott alki
    ngt ome, shei sjust
    quit
    e, ,
    ,
    ,,,
    yhakunzi mabhut ibutI'mt r
    y i
    ng,,
    ,
    ,,she
    i
    sgoi ngt ot heatreat1pm, theyar etakingher
    forevacuat i
    on,theyar egoi ngt or emov et he
    remainpr oduct st hatarest il
    lleftint hewomb, ,
    ,
    ,
    Iwil
    l,
    ,,(allofasuddenIhear dAy anda
    snif
    fi
    ng, Ay andadoesn' tjustcr y,hewasst i
    ll
    on
    thefone, Icouldn'tseehi sf acecashet urned
    andgav emehi sback) ,,
    ,,i
    thur tsbhut i
    butIhav e
    tobest rongf orInga,shei snotcopi ngatal l.
    ..
    .
    Okkeseey outhen.

    Hedroppedt
    hecall
    .Iwantedt
    oreachoutfor
    myhusband,butstandi
    ngupf
    rom thebedwas
    goi
    ngtobeami ssi
    on.
    Me: Yanda(inashakyvoice,
    heturned,
    Iguess
    hewasshocked,Iguesshedidn'
    texpectto
    hearmyv oi
    cesi
    nceIdecidedtoshuthim down)
    Ayanda: bhabha,(
    hecametome, hi
    seyes
    werered,ithurt
    sme,Iact
    edsel
    fi
    sh,Ifor
    got
    thatAyandawashur t
    ingt
    oo)

    Me:
    I'
    m sor
    rybhabha
    Ayanda:
    hay
    ibhabha,
    don'
    tsayt
    hati
    tsnoty
    our
    faul
    t.

    Isatupandhehuggedme.

    Me: (Ist
    art
    edcry
    ing)i
    tsmyf aul
    tYanda,
    I
    f
    ail
    edt ocar
    ryy
    ourchil
    dful
    lterm,If
    ail
    ed.
    Ay
    anda:
    itsnoty
    ourf
    aul
    tIngast
    opsay
    ingt
    hat
    Me: whatki
    ndofamotherandawi
    feam I,
    I
    f
    ail
    edmybabyAy anda.
    Ayanda:bhabhast
    opit,
    itwasGod'
    swil
    land
    heisgoi
    ngtoblessuswit
    hmanymorebabi
    es.
    Me:
    butIwon'
    tgett
    oknowandt
    oseet
    hisone.
    Ay
    anda:IknowMar hadebebutt
    her
    eisnot
    hing
    wecando,ithur
    tsbutweneedtobestr
    ong.
    Me: maybeGodi spuni
    shingmeAy anda,at
    fi
    rstIdi
    dn'tt
    akei
    twelli
    ntoyobaIwaspregnant
    ,
    butIwasshockedAyanda,Ireal
    l
    ylovedmy
    babyngikhol
    weYanda.

    Ayanda:Idon'
    tbel
    i
    evethatyoul
    ovedourbaby,
    IKNOW youreal
    lyl
    ovedourAngelbhabhawi
    th
    al
    lyourhear
    tandsoul.
    Me: maarawhyGodt ookherawayf
    orm me
    Ayanda,
    ishepuni
    shingme, fort
    hefactt
    hatI
    gr
    ewupsay i
    ngthatIdon'twi
    shtohaveki
    ds
    andthatIdidn'tlov et hem, andt hatIsaidI
    won'tmindev eni fIdon' thav ekids.Iwantmy
    babyAy anda, IwantmyAngel Ayanda,Iwant
    toholdher,tonur tur eher,togi veherallthe
    l
    ov eIhaveforher , Iwantt oseeherf ir
    stsmile,
    herfi
    rststep,herf irstcrawl ,hercall
    ingme
    mommy ,Iwantt oseehergoi ngtoschool f
    or
    thefi
    rstti
    me, gr
    aduat i
    ng,singingforherdaddy,
    Iwantmychi ldAy anda.

    WhyGodi ssounf ai
    r, whyengat hathangami na
    keinstead,whyengangenzangangi bey ibarr
    en,
    atl
    eastIwouldn'tsufferthispainofseei ngmy
    chil
    daphumai npi eces.Ay anda,notsol ong,I
    sawherhands, herfeetnowIwi llneversee
    thoseagain.(Iwascr y i
    nguncont roll
    abl
    e, i
    t
    real
    lyhurt
    s,trustmei fyouhav enev erl
    osta
    chil
    d,youdon'tknowany thing,
    thepai ni
    s
    unbearable.WhileIwasst il
    lcarr
    y i
    ngherIhad
    thoseimaginati
    onsofmydaught er ,
    playingwit
    h
    herdad,pl
    ayi
    ngwit
    hus,usgoi
    ngforshoppi
    ng
    j
    ustthethr
    eeofusbutGodhast
    akenher
    i
    nstead)
    .

    Ayanda:Godi sgoi
    ngtoblessuswit
    hmor e
    beauti
    ful
    babiesbhabha,t
    heywil
    lneverr
    epl
    ace
    ourAngelbutwewillhav
    ekids.
    Me: whati fthatwast heonl ykidangi ngakunika
    yonaAy anda, whatifIwi l
    lnev erhav ekids
    again,whati fIwil
    lbel i
    keTot i Ayanda, forsure
    youwi l
    lleavemecaswenauf unai zingane
    angit
    hi,leavenowAy anda, goandnev erlook
    back,goAy anda,
    it
    sbet terifngi zwaubuhl ungu
    nowbudl ul
    ebonkekunobauzophi nda
    ungizwiseobuny eafteray earort wo.Leav e
    Ayanda.

    Ayanda:I
    'm notgoi
    ngany
    wher ebhabha,Il
    ove
    youMarhadebewithorwi
    thoutki
    ds,yesIwoul
    d
    l
    ovetohavekidsbutifuThi
    xoengasi
    phangalet
    i
    tbe,butIknow uzosi
    phaabantwana,wewill
    haveki
    ds.OnethingyoumustknowIdon'tl
    ove
    youngobandif
    unaabantwanakuwe, Il
    oveyou
    ngobaumgumf aziwam.

    Me: GoAyanda!!Go(It
    riedt
    otakeof
    fmy
    weddingr
    ings,buthest
    oppedme)
    Ayanda: I
    ngasuphambana! !Iam notleavi
    ng
    younotnow, nottomorrownoteveruy andi
    va!!
    Wear einthi
    stogetherMarhadebetil
    ldeathdo
    usapartandit
    hi??(Wewer elooki
    ngateach
    other'
    seyeshewashol dingbothmyhands
    cryi
    ng)

    Ikeptqui
    te

    Ay
    anda:
    andi
    thi
    Vuy
    olwam.
    Inodded

    Wehuggedshamei ziARAM zi kaThixowecried


    oneachot hersshoulder, yhaitwasbackat
    beingjustthet woofusi thurtsshameIdon't
    wannal i
    e.Icr i
    edupunt i
    l ndi
    vandonele.Ayanda
    playedmet heKur tDarrenSong, Standi
    ngon
    theedge, ef owniniyakhe, hewasbrushingmy
    hair.Imighthav efall
    enasl eep.

    "Oneofthehar destinsertskuzozonke,I'
    m
    sorryi
    finalotsofmi stakes,bengingaboni
    kahlei
    zinyembezi,itjusttookmebackt othe
    placeI
    'm alwaysscar edtogobackt o:'(:'
    (

    DON'
    TBELI
    EVETHI
    SSTI
    LLMAKESMECRY,
    ,
    ,,
    I
    ngakaYanda:
    '
    (:'
    (
    [
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    17,
    23:
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    INSERT94

    Ndivuswezivoi
    ceszabant
    u,Iopenedmyeyes,
    ItwasAyanda,Xhanti,
    Ndumie,Msir
    aand
    Mawande,theykeptqui
    tewhentheysawIwas
    awake.

    Msi
    ra:
    Lastbor
    n
    Me:
    hey(i
    nal
    owv
    oice)
    Msi
    ra:
    howar
    eyouma'
    am (GodIhat
    ethat)
    Me:
    Sne,
    Msi
    ra
    Msi
    ra:
    (helaughed)Iknewyouwi
    l
    lsayt
    hat
    .
    Howar
    eyouonaser iousnot
    e.
    Me: f
    inebabomdala.(Aft
    erwhatAyandatol
    d
    meaboutMsi r
    aIdecidedtocal
    lhi
    m
    babomdalanaye,
    hewasf amil
    yinaway )
    Msi
    ra:
    good.I
    '
    m gl
    ady
    ouok.(Ismi
    l
    ed)
    Me:bhabhacanyouhel
    pmeplease,
    Iwanna
    got
    othebathroom.(Hest
    oodup)
    Ndumi
    e:l
    etmedoi
    tbabybr
    o
    Ay
    anda:
    noi
    tsokbhut
    i.
    Ndumi
    e:Ii
    nsi
    st,
    phuml
    a
    Me:No!!Thanksbabomdal
    a,Ipr
    eferAy
    anda
    si
    nceI
    '
    m stil
    lbleedi
    ng.
    Ndumie: sowhati
    swrongaboutbleeding?
    ?,I
    am aprofessi
    onal
    midwif
    elastbor
    n, Idealwi
    th
    theset
    hingsondail
    ybasi
    s.

    Il
    etgo, butIwasembarrassed,hef i
    xedmy
    gownandcar ri
    edme, l
    uckil
    yIwascl ean, Itook
    anextrapadinthedrawerincaset heotherone
    neededtobechanged.Thebat hroom wasj ust
    mm awayf rom mybedwandi bekaphansi and
    broughtmysleeper
    s.
    Ndumiso:shoutwheny
    oudone,
    hel
    eftand
    cl
    osedthedoor.

    Ipee,changedmypad, f
    lushedthetoi
    letand
    washedmyhands.It r
    iedt owalkout,Icl
    osed
    thebathroom doorandtriedtowalktothebed,
    Ndumi estoodupassoonashesawme, Ij
    ust
    fel
    tdizzy,her
    eachedmebef oreIcoul
    df al
    l.

    Ndumi
    e:unenkani
    yazi
    lastbor
    n,whaty
    ouar
    e
    doi
    ngi
    swaytoodangerous.

    Ij
    ustsmi
    l
    ed.

    Ay
    andawasst
    il
    lnextt
    ome.
    Ay
    anda:
    arey
    ouokbhabha?
    Me:
    no,Ij
    ustf
    eel
    dizzyYanda.

    Ay
    andaimmedi
    atel
    yrangt
    hebell
    ,af
    terfew
    mi
    nutest
    hesi
    sterwal
    kedi
    nwithmyGy nae.

    Si
    ster:
    youaresol
    ucky
    ,thedoct
    orwasonhi
    s
    waytoseeyou.

    Ismi
    l
    ed.

    Doct
    or:MrandMr sKhumal
    o,canItal
    ktoyou
    i
    npri
    vate.(Hel
    ookedatmeandAy andat
    hen
    kooXhanti
    .
    Me:nodoctor
    ,theyar
    eall
    mybr others,t
    hey
    ar
    efami
    ly,
    youcanspeak.(Iwassoner vous,
    whyhewantedtotal
    ktouspri
    vately
    ,inwhat
    everhewasgoingtosay,IwantedooNdumie
    toheari
    t,Iwasscar
    ed,we(Ay andaandmysel
    f)
    wantedal
    l t
    hesupportwecouldget
    Xhant
    i:wecanwai
    tout
    sidel
    astbor
    n
    Me: No!!Babomdala,Ithi
    nkinwhateverthe
    doctori
    sgoingtotell
    me, Iwil
    lneedy
    our
    support
    .(Iwasshakingkukosaba,Ayandaheld
    myhandandNdumi ewasbr ushi
    ngmyback, I
    wassosur ehewasgoi ngtotel
    lmethatIwill
    neverhavekidsagai
    n.)

    Xhant
    i:ok
    Doct
    or:
    unf
    ort
    unat
    elyIbr
    oughtmor
    ebadnews.
    Ayanda: wel i
    steni
    ngdoc,(Ican'ttakebadnew,
    tear
    sst art
    edt ostr
    eam downmycheeks, Ij
    ust
    coul
    dn'ttakemor eofbadnews, t
    hatwas
    enought hatIlostmyAngel,Iwantedtoclose
    myear s,Ijustcoul
    dn'
    ttakeanymor ebadnews,
    Iwantedt ostandup,runasf arasacould,I
    wantedtogoandt hrewmyselfinadeepocean
    whereIwouldneverbeseenagain,Iwant
    edto
    goandshotmy selfanddiesothatIwoul
    d
    neverf
    eelanypain.Ireal
    l
    ywantedtodieonce
    andforal
    l.Ayandaheldmev er
    ytit
    e)

    Doct or: MrsKhumal oyourbloodpr essureis


    extremel ylow70/30, yourorgansar estarti
    ng
    toshutdown,asIsai d,
    y ouwillbetakent o
    theatref ordi
    lati
    onandev acuationat1pm t he
    anest hesiol
    ogistwil
    lbeher eanytime, wejust
    needt oremov etheremainsiny ouruterusand
    trytost opthebleedingandst abil
    izeyourflui
    ds.

    Ayanda:i
    sitt
    her
    easonwhyshef
    eltdi
    zzy
    earl
    i
    erdoct
    or.
    Doct
    or:yes,andbecauseshehaslostsomuch
    bl
    ood,sheneedsemer gencyt
    ransf
    usionat
    l
    east2unit
    s, r
    ightnowtherei
    snotimefor
    complet
    ionofcompat
    ibi
    l
    ityt
    esti
    ng,ant
    ibody
    scr
    eenandcrossmatch,Iwi
    ll
    giveher
    emergencybl
    ood.

    Ay
    anda:
    ismywi
    fegoi
    ngt
    obef
    inedoct
    or.
    Doctor:y
    esMrKhumalo,
    ther
    ear
    etwomor
    e
    t
    hings,badnewsag,
    ,
    ,,

    Ididn'twaitf
    orhimt ofini
    shIcouldn'
    thelpitbut
    Iscreamed, t
    hat'
    sshar pscream esi
    vele
    si
    zot shoezantsi
    kwesi su,Icoul
    dn'tt
    akei tany
    mor e,thewayIscr eameditmadeal lguys
    stoodup.Iwasf eedupofl ivi
    nghonest l
    y,who
    getst orecei
    veallbadnewsi noneday .

    Me: Ayanda,Ijustwannadie,Idon'twanna
    l
    iveanymore, Ihatemyself,Ihatemyl i
    feand
    Ihat
    eeveryt
    hing, Iwannadi
    eAy anda,Idon'
    t
    wannaliveanymore.(Howcouldonegonefr
    om
    superhappytosupersour,Iwantedt
    odie.I
    wasjustnotstr
    ongf ort
    hat
    )

    Ayanda:bhabhahayiMarhadebe,don'tsaythat
    ,
    pl
    ease,t
    hisshall
    passInga,i
    tshallpassmf azi
    wam.Hebur i
    edmyf aceonhischest .YesIwas
    cr
    yinguncontr
    oll
    abl
    ebutIcouldfeelhewas
    cr
    yingnaye.

    Me: I
    'm notstr
    ongforthi
    sAy anda,I
    '
    m not,I
    'm
    notcopi
    ng, Ihavebeenstr
    ongbutthisoneis
    toomuchf orme, Iwannadie,Iwannadienow
    Yanda.

    Ayanda:
    letmebest
    rongforyouMar
    hadebe,
    l
    etmebest r
    ongf
    orbothofus,wewi
    llget
    thr
    ought
    his,may
    benotnowbutonedaywe
    wil
    l.
    Xhant
    icame,
    andhuggedus

    Xhanti
    :lastbor
    n,Iknowyouhurt
    ing
    Marhadebebutakwenziwakanj
    e,xolakal
    oku
    Mashwabada.

    Ijustkeptonsobbingt heyreall
    ydi
    dn'tknow
    whatIwasgoi ngthrough, Icri
    edunt
    ilIhad
    hi
    ccups, anadul
    twithhi ccupsyest
    hisishow
    painf
    ulitwas.

    Mydoctor,bengazi
    nobamakathi
    nishame.
    Umtanomlungubamelweyi
    mata.Xhanti
    tri
    ed
    hi
    slevel
    besttocalm menoAyanda,fi
    nall
    yI
    di
    d.

    Doct
    or:
    Icancomel
    aterMr
    sKhumal
    o.
    Me:
    nodoct
    ori
    tsnowornev
    er.
    Doct
    or:
    arey
    ousur
    e?
    Me:
    yes.
    Ay
    anda:
    bhabhaar
    eyousur
    e?
    Me:
    yesYanda

    Doctor.Yourironlevel sofy ourbodyar every


    l
    ow, i
    tisduet othef actthaty oul ostt oomuch
    blood,i
    fy ourbodydoesnotgetenoughi ron,
    youcannotgetenoughoxy genandwel li
    nyour
    casethatwi l
    lbemor edanger oussi ncear e
    asthmatic,butIwillprescribey ouAut rinpil
    l
    st o
    take,t
    heywi ll
    uppery ourir
    onl evelsandy ou
    needtoeatf oodl i
    kechi ckenl ivers, beetroot
    andspinach.(Wel lIdon' teatspi nach)

    Ayanda:Iwi
    llmakesureshetakesherpil
    lsand
    eatspi
    nach,
    chickenl
    i
    versandbeetrootdoc.
    Doct or:good, l
    ast
    lyMrsKhumal o, yourbl
    ood
    resultsshowst hepresenceofMi soprost
    olin
    yoursy stem anditwasov erdozed, weare
    definit
    esur eitwasthereasonfory our
    miscar r
    iage.

    Me:
    huh?
    ?(Isatup)doct
    orwhati
    sthat?
    Ndumiso:Mi
    soprostol
    ???
    ?wher
    edi
    dyouget
    misopr
    ost
    oll
    astborn.
    Ayanda:
    cansomeoneexpl
    aint
    omewhati
    s
    goi
    ngonhere
    Doct
    or:
    misopr
    ost
    oli
    sapi
    l
    lusedf
    orabor
    ti
    on.
    Me:
    abor
    ti
    on?Howdi
    ditgeti
    ntomysy
    stem
    Ayanda:
    whati
    sgoi
    ngonher
    e?Ubudi
    banaphi
    nal
    onto?
    Me:
    Iam sur
    pri
    sedasy
    ouar
    e.
    Ayanda: haveyoutakenanypil
    lInga,except
    theSingulart
    hatusi
    ngforasthma, whichIknow
    fort
    hef actit
    ssafefort
    hebaby
    Me: youknowIhar dl
    ygetsi ckbhabha, thelast
    ti
    meIt ookapi l
    li
    twas5weeksbackwhenIhad
    aheadacheandy ougav emeapanadoaf t
    er
    thatInevertookany, i
    tsonlyt hesingularwhich
    yougivei tt
    omeev er
    ynitengokwakho.(Make
    nomi stake,withmyast hmat r
    eatment
    (Singul
    arandpumps)r ainingornotAy anda
    makesi tapoi ntItakethem ev erynit
    e,hemade
    i
    thisdut ysinceIhadat endencyofski pping
    them ).
    Doctor:youmighthav
    etakenthem wi
    thout
    yourknowledgeMrsKhumalo.

    Me:nodoct
    or,
    Imeanit,
    thel
    astt
    imeIt
    ooka
    pi
    l
    lwas5weeksback.
    Doct
    or:
    thi
    sisv
    eryst
    range
    Ayanda:doct
    ordoest
    hatmeansomeone
    del
    iber
    atel
    ymurder
    edandki
    ll
    edmybaby.

    Ay
    anda:whatdi
    dyoueatordr
    inkbhabha?
    Me: nothi
    ngbhabha,
    Ionlydrankj
    uicei
    zol
    oin
    themorningi
    twassealediv
    ulweyimiandate
    anapple.
    Ayanda:Cingi
    sisabhabha,
    daybef
    ore
    yest
    erday
    ??

    Ayandawaspacingupanddown, i
    twasnotmy
    AyandabuttheoneIfeart
    hemost, t
    heone
    angakugwi
    nyaumile.TheGodzi
    l
    laone.

    Ayanda:ndi
    fungaamaKhumal oephel
    ele,
    shiti
    s
    aboutt
    ohappen, kuzanyi
    wa.Ilostmychil
    d
    al
    mostlostmywi fengenxay omtuoyenze
    mabom.Kuzany i
    wa.( Hegrabbedhisj
    acketand
    key
    sfr
    om t
    hechai
    randwal
    kedt
    owar
    dthedoor
    )

    Xhant
    ihel
    dhi
    m.

    Xhanti
    :suphambanaAyanda,
    uInganeedsy
    ou,
    sheisgoi
    ngtotheat
    rei
    n30mi nti
    mewena
    uyaphi
    .

    Hepunchedt
    hewal
    l
    .

    Doct
    or:
    Iwi
    l
    lseey
    oui
    nfewmi
    nut
    e.

    Iwouldhavedonet
    hesamenam i
    fIwast
    he
    doct
    or, r
    anformyl
    if
    e.Ay
    andabevut
    ha
    amalangabi
    .
    I
    ngakaYanda;
    -
    )
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    Isignedtheconsentform,thatIunder
    stood
    whyIwast akentotheat
    re,t
    hent he
    Anesthesiologi
    stcame,sheintr
    oducedherself
    andaskedmef ewquestionsaboutmymedi cal
    histor
    y,whichIanswered.

    Iwasbi thungr
    y,t
    helastti
    meIhadf oodwas
    yester
    dayat9am andi twasonlyanappleand
    j
    uice.Iwasnotallowedtoeatany t
    hingaf
    ter10
    pm, si
    nceIwasgoi ngtotheat
    re.

    Aft
    er20mi nutes,Iwastakentot heatr
    e,
    becauseofmysmal lv
    eins,Ihadabl ueli
    nedrip
    andintheatr
    et heywantedapi nkone, sothey
    usedamaskt osedatemei nsteadofsedating
    met
    hroughadr
    ip.

    Doct
    or:
    MrsKhumal
    o,howol
    dar
    eyou?
    Me:
    I'
    m 19doct
    or
    Doct
    or:
    whobr
    oughty
    oui
    nhospi
    tal
    yest
    erday
    ?
    Me: myhusb...
    ...Af
    tert
    hatIdon'
    tknowwhat
    happened,bythet i
    meIwokeupIwasi nthe
    recov
    eryroom, Iwassti
    lldr
    owsy,t
    hepict
    ures
    werenotclearenough.

    Si
    ster:
    MrsKhumal
    o
    Me:
    myhusb,
    ,
    ,and
    Si
    ster:
    MrsKhumal
    o,cany
    ouhearme?
    Me:
    myhusb,
    ,
    ,and
    Ayanda:I
    'm her
    ebhabha,I'
    m her
    eMarhadebe,
    youhavebeensleepi
    ngforanhourandhal
    f.
    Iwant
    edtowakeup,butmybodywasf
    ail
    i
    ng
    me,atl
    astIwokeup.

    Me:
    bhabha
    Ay
    anda:
    ndi
    l
    aphamf
    azi
    wam
    Me:
    I'
    m sor
    ryMt
    ungwa
    Ay
    anda:
    Ilov
    eyouMar
    hadebe.
    Me:
    Ilov
    eyout
    oobhabha.

    Iwast akenbacktotheward,
    thedoctorcame
    toexplaint
    hatevery
    thi
    ngwentwellandthati
    fit
    wasn'tforthet
    ransf
    usionhewasgoingto
    dischargemebuttheyneededtomonitorme.

    Iwouldsometi
    mesf or
    gett
    hat
    ,Iwasnol
    onger
    pregnantandt
    ouchedmytummy.
    Ayanda:weneedtof
    oneubabanoToti
    bhabhaandt
    ellt
    hem wel
    ostt
    hebaby
    .
    Me:
    nott
    odaypl
    easeYanda.
    Ayanda:Iunder
    standandIwil
    lnotpr
    essur
    ize
    you,whenyouarereadyMarhadebe.

    West ayedt hereinsilent,Ayandawasbr ushing


    myback, Iwasdr if
    ti
    ngni celytoThongoland
    whenabooXhant iwal kedin.Banomsindoke
    mabebonke, theybroughtpl ayi
    ngcardsandwe
    pl
    ayednay onechess.Honest l
    ythei
    rpresence
    mademef orgotaboutmymi sery
    ,Iwil
    lforever
    begratefulkobhut ibami .Thesupporttheygave
    mewasi ncredibleandi twasoutoft hi
    swor ld.
    Weplay edkamnandi andmyf onebeeped,it
    wasansmsf rom anunknownnumber .

    "
    Howdoesi
    tfeel
    toabor
    tyourownbaby
    "
    IwassoshockedbutIdidn'
    twannashowi
    t,I
    di
    aledthenumberbutIwentst
    rai
    ghti
    ntov
    oice
    mail.Ohhh!
    !!

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha,
    arey
    ouok?
    Me:
    yesl
    ove,
    Iam
    Ay
    anda:
    arey
    ousur
    e?
    Me:
    yesbhabha.

    Wecontinuedpl
    aying,
    butitr
    eal
    lybother
    edme
    i
    ntoyal
    asms, ngubanil
    o,whatdoesshe/he
    wantfr
    om me, wheredidhe/shegetmy
    number,howdidhe/sheknowImi scar
    ri
    ed?

    Itwasti
    meforooXhantitol
    eave,
    theyl
    eft
    around9:30babexol
    elweshame
    nasesibhedl
    ela.Idozedof f
    .MyYandashame
    wasont hechair
    ,Ireall
    yfel
    tforhi
    m,hereIwas
    sl
    eepingcomf or
    tableinbedandyenawas
    sl
    eepingi nthechair.

    Wewokeupat5: 30,AyandabathedmeandI
    changedi
    ntocleanpjs,ther
    eisnothingIhat
    e
    thanubaudokotelaafi
    kengingekagezi
    .Iwent
    backtobed.

    Around8: 30mydoct orcameandIwas


    discharged,Ijustwant edtogohome, hospi
    tal
    s
    reall
    ymakemesi ck.Thedoct oremphasized
    thatImustnothav esexat l
    eastfor3to4days,
    wellIwasnotpl anningt ohavesexinthenext4
    comi ngmont hs.Wear r
    ivedathome,guyswere
    stil
    lhavingbreakfastitwasaround10am.

    Ndumi
    e:hay
    ibo,
    wewer
    epl
    anni
    ngt
    ogoand
    v
    isi
    tyou.
    Ay
    anda:
    wel
    lyouar
    elat
    e.
    Ndumi
    e:unj
    ani
    lastbor
    n.
    Me:
    finebabomdal
    aandy
    ou?
    Ndumi
    e:gr
    eat
    .
    Ay
    anda:
    I'
    m sohungr
    y
    Xhant
    i:comeandhel
    pyour
    sel
    f
    Me:l
    etmegoandchangei
    ntomor
    e
    comf
    ort
    abl
    ecl
    othes.
    Ay
    anda:
    letmewal
    kyouupst
    air
    sthen.
    Me:hayiYandaeatf
    ir
    st,
    Iwi
    l
    lbef
    ine,
    Iwi
    l
    ltake
    anap,I
    '
    mt ired.
    Ayanda:
    foodcanwai
    t.Imustf
    ir
    stmakesur
    e
    thaty
    ouaresaf
    e.

    Wewalkedupst
    air
    sandIchangedi
    ntopj
    sand
    goti
    nbed.Hemadeitapoi
    ntIwas
    comf
    ort
    abl
    e.

    Ayanda:Im goi
    ngtoeatbhabha,
    thent
    akea
    showerandjoi
    nyou.
    Me:
    ok.
    Ay
    anda:
    Vuy
    olwam
    Me:
    Yanda
    Ay
    anda:
    Ilov
    eyouMar
    hadebe
    Me:
    Ilov
    eyout
    ooMt
    ungwa
    Ay
    anda:
    youar
    est
    rongMar
    hadebe.
    Me:
    I'
    mtr
    yingbhabha.
    Ay
    anda:
    wewi
    l
    lgett
    hrought
    his.

    Inodded.Hewentdownst
    air
    s,t
    ookashower
    ,
    hegotinbedandweslept
    .
    Wewokeuparound3pm,inobawewerer eal
    l
    y
    t
    ir
    ed,Ist
    oodupandwentt
    or i
    nsemyteeth,
    whi
    leIwasint
    hebat
    hroom myfonebeeped.

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha,
    youhav
    eamessage.
    Me:checki
    tbhabha,I'
    m sur
    eit
    sTot
    i,Ihada
    mi
    ssedcall
    from herear
    li
    er.

    Ir
    insedmyt
    eet
    handwi
    pedmymout
    h.

    Me:
    uthi
    niuTot
    ibhab,
    ,
    ,,

    Ili
    ft
    edmyhead, Ayandawasst
    andingr
    ighti
    n
    thebat
    hroom door
    ,holdi
    ngmyfone.

    Ayandaj
    ustf
    reakmeoutsomet
    imes,
    Itook3
    st
    epsback.
    Me:
    bhabhawhati
    swr
    ong?
    Ay
    anda:
    yout
    ell
    me
    Me:
    tel
    lyouwhat?
    Ay
    anda:whatist
    hisI
    nga?Hi
    sfacewas
    wr
    itt
    enI
    '
    m goingt
    oswall
    owyounow
    Me:
    what
    ?

    Ay
    andahandedmemyf
    one.

    I
    ngakaYanda.
    ;
    -)
    [
    08/
    17,
    23:
    54]Mca:
    INSERT96

    "UPHIUMTANAWAMABHONGO?cr awlbackt
    o
    thecavewher
    eyoucamef
    rom BI
    TCH,hahaha
    ha".
    Me:angiyazi
    njei
    ndabay
    alomunt
    uukut
    hi
    ungi
    funani
    .
    Ay
    anda:
    whatdoy
    oumeanI
    nga?
    Me:
    not
    hing
    Ayanda:Nothi
    ng!!Ngandi
    phambanisi
    I
    nganathi
    !!Whati
    sthis?
    ?Don'tsayi
    tsnot
    hing.
    Me:
    Idon'
    tknowYanda
    Ayanda:forhowl
    onghav
    eyoubeenr
    ecei
    vi
    ng
    thesesmses?
    Me:
    sincey
    est
    erday
    Ayanda: y
    ester
    day!
    !!Uphambene!
    !youdi
    dn'
    t
    gi
    veaf ucktotel
    lme

    Ikeptqui
    te.

    Ay
    anda:
    ziphi
    ezi
    nye
    Me:
    onmysav
    edsmses

    Ayandayathandaushout i
    sa.Ihateumtu
    oshout
    isay
    o, undenzadi zzyhonestl
    y,mnathe
    wayIwasr ai
    sedbendi ngashoutwa,yesmy
    motherwouldgivemeahi di
    ngnowandagai n
    asanykidemoshi l
    ebutshout ing,sheneverdid
    i
    ncludi
    ngmyf ather,whenI '
    m wrongtheywill
    tal
    ktome.KuAy andaitwast heopposit
    e.

    Her
    eadt
    hepr
    evi
    oussms.

    Ayanda:
    andy
    oudi
    dn'
    tseeanyr
    easont
    otal
    k
    tome?
    Me:
    andsaywhatYanda?
    Ayanda: youdidn'tt
    hinkt
    hatIneededt
    oknow
    thatkunenjaekuthumelel
    aIsmses.Ungaf
    a
    ndikhonamossI nganathi
    !.
    Ikeptqui
    te.

    Ayanda: I
    nganat hifokofI'
    mt al
    kingtoyou! !
    (thewayakat shongay ondothukahay i
    nje
    kancinci
    ,Iclosedmyear s,hewentpassme
    way ohl
    ambaubusoesi nki
    ni,
    Ijustranoutoft he
    bathroom,andr andownst ai
    rsaspai nf
    ul asit
    wasdownt herebutIdi dn'
    twannaexper i
    ence
    yetanotherhotcl apyaAy anda.,ooXhant iwere
    watchingTV, theywer eshockedwhent heysaw
    me.Isatnextt oNdumi sowithmyheadonmy
    kneesandIcl osedmyear s.

    Mawande.:
    whati
    sgoi
    ngonLastbor
    n?

    Ikeptqui
    te,
    sti
    l
    lmyheadonmyknees.
    Mawande:
    lastbor
    nwhati
    s,,
    ,

    Ay
    andacamedownshout
    ing.
    ..

    Ayanda:Inganat
    hiKhumalo!
    !Youbett
    eranswer
    menow.(OoXhant iwerestandi
    ngandlooki
    ng
    atAyanda, whowascomingtomydirect
    ion,
    I
    stoodup,ranandhi
    debehindXhant
    i.

    (HowwasIt oanswerkuAyandangesmses
    endi
    ngazaziyo,
    buti
    nwhateverthatwas
    happening,
    Ididn'
    twannabenexttohim
    mayenjeya,call
    mecrazy,Ayandaonce
    sl
    appedme, howwasItoknowi fakazophi
    nda)

    Xhant
    i:fokofAyanda,uyaf
    undekela, whati
    s
    goi
    ngonkant i,
    can'tyouseeyouar escari
    ngu
    I
    nganathi
    ,awukwazi kut
    hethakakuhle?
    Ayanda:Iwon'tdoanyt
    hingtoIngaXhanti,
    she
    i
    smywi f
    e,Iwil
    lnotl
    aymyhandonheragai n,
    yayazi
    nayelonto(yahl
    anyalondiy
    azelaphi
    )I
    j
    ustwannat al
    ktomywi fe(heloweredhis
    voi
    ce)

    Xhanti
    : y
    ayaz
    i,y
    ayazi
    ,doyouwannatel
    lmeif
    beyazi
    ,shewoul
    dbestandi
    ngbehi
    ndmeright
    now.
    Ayanda:Iwon'
    tdoanythi
    ngtoher,
    bhabha
    ndi
    kholweMarhadebe,
    Iwon'
    tdoanyt
    hing.
    Xhant
    i :
    thenwhyarey
    oushout
    ing,
    awukwazi
    kut
    hethakakuhl
    e.
    Ayanda:bhabha,comeher emfazi
    wam ,I
    '
    m
    sorr
    ythatIshout
    ed,ndi
    shiy
    wengumsindo,I
    meantitwhenIsaidIwi
    llneverl
    aymyhandon
    you.
    Me:
    I'
    mfi
    neher
    ebhabhaandapol
    ogyaccept
    ed.
    Ay
    anda:
    pleaseI
    nga,
    I'
    m notanani
    mal
    .

    Hecamecl
    oser,
    Ihel
    dont
    oXhant
    iver
    yti
    ght
    .
    Ayanda:it
    sokMar hadebe, (
    hereachedt ome
    andbroughtmecloser,heputmyheadonhi s
    chestandkissedt
    het opofmyhead, )I'
    mr eal
    l
    y
    sorr
    ybhabha.Juststophidi
    ngizint
    ot hatI
    'm
    supposedtoknowaboutt hem bhabha.

    Inodded

    Onethi
    ngIhavenoti
    cedngoAyanda
    mayenomsindohecancr
    asheveryt
    hing
    ephambikwakheinf
    ewsecondsandar egr
    et-
    e
    kwangoku,
    ayiinj
    eumsi
    ndowakhe.
    Xhant
    i:cansomeonet
    ell
    uswhati
    sgoi
    ngon
    her
    e.

    Ayandahandedthef
    onetoXhant
    i,her
    eadit
    andpasseditt
    oNdumie,
    thenMawandeto
    Msira.

    Msi
    ra:howlonghav
    eyoubeenr
    ecei
    vi
    ngt
    hese
    smsesl
    astborn?
    Me:sinceyest
    erdaybabomdal
    a,whi
    l
    ewewer
    e
    pl
    ayi
    ngcardsinhospit
    al.
    Msi
    ra:
    andy
    oukeptqui
    te
    Ay
    anda:
    yil
    ent
    oindi
    caphuki
    sil
    eyoMsi
    ra.
    Xhant
    i:di
    dyout
    ryt
    ofonei
    t.
    Me:
    Idi
    dbabomdal
    a.
    Xhant
    i:and?
    ?
    Me:
    itsonv
    oicemai
    l
    Ay
    anda:War
    adoy
    oust
    il
    lhav
    eIbel
    l
    aszi
    ka
    Mpumezo
    Mawande:
    yhaa
    Ayanda:f
    onehim,andi
    chekel
    e,Ir
    egi
    ster
    ed
    underwholenumber.
    Mawande:
    sur
    e.

    I
    ndeedMawandefonedMpumezoandhe
    dr
    oppedt
    hecall
    whenhewasdone.

    Ndumiso:whomi ghtbet
    hisper
    sonandwhyi
    s
    he/shedoingt
    his.
    Ay
    anda:
    Iputmymoneyononeper
    son.
    Ndumi
    so:
    andt
    hati
    s?
    Ay
    anda:
    Zimasaofcour
    se
    Me:
    Zimasawoul
    dn'
    tdot
    hat
    .
    Ay
    anda:
    andhowdoy
    ouknow?
    Me:
    hay
    iboAy
    anda,
    whywoul
    dshedot
    hat?
    Ayanda:ncincinci
    , I
    '
    m sogladI'
    m notl
    i
    vingi
    n
    yourwor
    ld,usemncincibhabha.

    Mawande'sfoner
    ang,hepressedtheok
    but
    tonandputi
    tonloudspeaker.

    Mawande:
    sur
    ent
    wana
    Mpumezo:
    doy
    ouhav
    eapenWar
    a
    Mawande:
    yabossbi
    zanj
    e.
    Mpumezo:
    itbel
    ongst
    oMel
    i
    khay
    aMj
    eza

    Ay
    anda:
    whot
    hef
    ucki
    sthat
    ?
    War
    a:nev
    erhear
    dofhi
    m.Mj
    eza?
    Mpumezo:
    yhahi
    ssur
    namei
    sMj
    eza
    Mawande:
    andy
    oudon'
    thav
    ehi
    saddr
    ess
    Mpumezo: I
    'm notsupposetodothatWar a,
    si
    sonkasam esindigambli
    shangaso,butIwil
    l
    gi
    veitt
    oy ousi
    nceinguwenj ayam.
    Mawande:
    Iowey
    oubi
    gti
    me.
    Mpumezo:
    hisaddr
    essi
    sNY,
    ,
    ,,
    ,i
    nGugs
    Mawande:
    thansmj
    i
    ta,
    wewi
    l
    ltakei
    tfr
    om her
    e
    Mpumezo:
    youowemeWar
    a
    Mawande:
    bigt
    ime.
    Mpumezo:
    sur
    ekenj
    ayam.
    Mawande:
    sur
    eboss.

    Hedr
    oppedt
    hecal
    l
    .

    Ayanda:
    whoi st
    hisMeli
    khay
    a,bhabhadoy
    ou
    knowanyonebythenameofMeli
    khaya?
    Me:no,neverhear
    dofhi
    m ev
    eni
    sbongoesi
    thi
    Mj
    ezandiy
    aqalausi
    va.
    Msi
    ra:
    wai
    tami
    nut
    e,wher
    edi
    dMel
    zst
    ay?
    ?
    Ay
    anda:
    whoi
    sMel
    z,Msi
    ra?
    Msi
    ra:l
    amj
    i
    tandandi
    yoml
    andaepolicest
    ati
    on
    maar
    nTaAyl
    aebethei
    mai
    dy akhey
    ambophisa.
    Ayanda:DamnIknewit,Iknewit,Mel
    i
    khay
    a,
    Zimasa'scousi
    nbrot
    her,(hebangedt
    he
    coff
    eetabl
    e)
    Mawande:
    buthei
    sdead,
    hewasshot2y
    ear
    s
    ago.
    Ndumiso:doest
    hatmeanZimasaisst
    il
    lusi
    ng
    hi
    sfonenumberukwenzaherdi
    rt
    ywork?
    Ay
    anda:
    any
    thi
    ngi
    spossi
    blekul
    anj
    akazi
    .
    Msi
    ra:butwedon'
    tknowi
    fit
    sherwhosentt
    he
    smses,
    howarewegoingt
    ofindout
    ?
    Ay
    anda:
    ther
    eisonl
    yoneway
    ,hest
    oodup
    Xhant
    i:wher
    ear
    eyougoi
    ng?
    Ay
    anda:
    I'
    m comi
    ng,
    (her
    anupst
    air
    sandcame
    backwi
    thhi
    scarkeyandhi
    sfone)

    Iwasal l
    qui
    te,Idi
    dn'tcar
    ehonest
    ly,whoever
    sentthosemessageswhetheri
    twasZimasaor
    not,t
    hatwasnotgoingtobri
    ngmychildback.

    Msi
    ra:
    I'
    m comi
    ngwi
    thy
    ou.

    Theyleft,
    Ijustwentt
    ot hesparebedroom and
    tookaf l
    eeceandcameback, Isl
    eptont he
    couch,atthatmoment ,
    Iwasj ustnumb, Idi
    dn'
    t
    feelanyt
    hing,myheartwasj ustnumb, Ireal
    l
    y
    didn'
    tcareubauAy andauy ephiuyokwenzani
    i
    biyeyakheleyonotmybusi ness.Icoveredmy
    selfanddozedoffimmedi atel
    y.

    I
    ngakaYanda;
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    23:
    54]Mca:
    INSERT97
    Iwaswokenbynoi
    sey
    abant
    u.

    Ndumi
    so:
    Ayandaar
    eyoucr
    azy
    ?
    Ayanda:whatwasIsupposetodo?l
    enjakazi
    i
    bulel
    eumtanam,shealmostki
    ll
    eduIngaand
    ubeneshor
    izokut
    hiumbulel
    evel
    e.
    Ndumi
    so: Msi
    ra,
    youj
    ustwat
    chedhi
    m enza
    l
    amanyal
    a.
    Msir
    a:whatwasIsupposet
    odo?youknow
    uTaAyl
    a,asi
    fwenaibi
    khonai
    ntoubuzay
    enz
    a.
    Ndumiso:
    yesesAyanda,
    youmakemesi
    ck,
    youar
    eananimal
    .
    Ayanda:Ihaven'
    tdoneanyt
    hingtothisbi
    tch,
    ndi
    zamthenaephil
    a,Iwanthertosuff
    er,she
    wil
    lpayforwhatshedidtomyfami l
    y.
    Xhant
    i:hayiAy
    anda,y
    ayi
    baxa,
    whydon'
    tyou
    j
    ustki
    llheri
    nst
    eadcasIknowyouwi
    l
    l.
    Ayanda:tr
    ustmeI'm goi
    ngtokil
    lherbutIwant
    toseehersuf
    ferfi
    rst
    .Iwanthertodiesl
    owly
    butver
    ypainf
    ul.
    Ndumi
    so:
    Ayandaj
    ustst
    o,,
    ,
    ,
    Ay
    anda:
    heyf
    okofwena!
    !

    Iwantedtoclosemyear s,
    Ididn'
    twannahear
    anythi
    ng,Idi
    dn'twannaseeuZi masaatal
    l,t
    he
    thoughtofseeingherwasgoi ngtoki
    llme.ButI
    neededclosure,i
    fshewast heone,whokill
    ed
    mybabyIneededt oknowwhysheki l
    l
    edher
    andwhyshehat emet hatmuch.

    SlowlyIremov edmyf leece,GOD!!WhatIsaw


    thatevening,Iwi ll
    nev erforget,
    inhli
    zi
    yoyam
    hlezii
    ncane, Irushedt othebathroom and
    threwout, non-st op.If l
    ushedthetoil
    et.Ij
    ust
    stoodtheret earsr oll
    i
    ngdownmyf ace,
    honestlyngishadei ni?Amonst er?Ihaveheard
    thatAyandai
    shear
    tl
    essbutIdi
    dn'
    tknowhewi
    l
    l
    got ot
    hoseextr
    emes.

    Therewasaknockonthedoor,
    Ikeptqui
    te,
    it
    persi
    sted,Ij
    ustst
    oodt
    her
    e.Mawandeopened
    thedoor.

    Mawande:
    lastbor
    n

    Ijustwentstrai
    ghti
    ntohi
    sarms, t
    hatwas
    reall
    ytoomuch, heheldmet i
    ght
    ,Icri
    edhar
    der
    .
    Hej ustkeptqui
    teandkeptcomfort
    ingme.

    Me:
    Ican'
    tdot
    hisany
    mor
    ebabomdal
    a,Ican'
    t
    Mawande:
    youhav
    etol
    astbor
    n,y
    our
    eal
    l
    y
    hav
    eto.
    Me:
    whatki
    ndofaper
    soni
    sAy
    anda,
    tel
    lme
    ngi
    shadei
    ni?
    Mawande:r
    emember ,Iwar
    nedy
    oungoAy
    anda
    l
    astbor
    nbutubangcono.
    Me:
    doy
    oucal
    lthatubangcono?
    Mawande:
    heactedoutofangernam Iwoul
    d
    hav
    edonethesame.

    Iwal
    kedbacktothelounge,Iwantedtothrow
    upagai
    n,Ir
    ushedtothebathroom andthrew
    out,
    Ifl
    ushedthetoi
    l
    etandcameback.

    Zimasawasamess, shewasmoaninginpains,
    Idon'
    tknowwhatheusedi nherf
    acewhet heri
    t
    wasabl adeoraknif
    ebutubemphazi
    lenje.Her
    bl
    uet op,youwouldsweari
    twasredincolour
    becauseofblood.
    Ay
    anda:
    Msi
    ra,
    let
    'sgoandki
    l
    lthi
    srubbi
    sh.
    Me:
    noy
    ouwon'
    t.
    Het
    urnedandf
    acedme,
    asIwaswal
    ki
    ngi
    nto
    t
    hel
    ounge.

    Ay
    anda:
    whatdi
    dyouj
    ustsay
    ?
    Me:
    youar
    enotgoi
    ngt
    oki
    l
    lher
    Ay
    anda:
    say
    swho?
    Me:meAy anda,y
    ouarenotgoingtoki
    ll
    her
    ,
    don'
    tyout
    hinkshehassuf
    feredenough?
    Ayanda: sheki
    l
    ledmybabybhabhaanduf
    una
    ndi
    my eke.
    Me: sowenayouar
    eGod,yougoi
    ngtoj
    udge
    her
    ,aftery
    ouki
    ll
    edher
    ,whatar
    eyougoi
    ngto
    gai
    n?
    Ayanda:Iwil
    lhavepeaceknowingt
    hatthe
    bi
    tchwhoki l
    l
    edmybabyi sdeadandthatshe
    wi
    llneverharm myf
    ami l
    yagai
    n.Let
    '
    sgoMsi ra.
    Me: IswearAyandaonmymot her
    'sl
    i
    fei
    fyou
    dar
    eki l
    lZi
    masabynoont omorr
    ow,wewi
    llbe
    di
    vorced.(Iwascalm asev
    er)
    Ay
    anda:
    whatdi
    dyouj
    ustsay?
    Me: ungizwi
    leAyanda.Idi
    dn'tmar
    ryathug
    Ayanda,butImarri
    eduAy andaKhumalowho
    pr
    omi sedtonevertakeanyone'
    sli
    feagai
    n.
    Ayanda:ndi
    thi
    nibhabhaj
    ustl
    etherl
    i
    veaf
    ter
    shekil
    l
    edmybaby .
    Me:
    yes,
    whynot
    ?
    Ayanda:f
    aneleutshol
    ont
    ovel
    eubungamf
    uni
    umtanam andi
    thi
    ?

    Iswal
    l
    owedhar
    d.

    Ayanda:youaregladsheisdeadandit
    hi?
    bungamfunivel
    e.(Yhooooithur
    t,howcould
    Ayandasaythat
    ,thatwentstrai
    ghttot
    hecore
    ofmyhear t
    .ButIdeci
    dedtosacrif
    icemysel
    f
    forZimasa,rat
    herangizwi
    seubuhlunguu-
    AyandathanhavingZimasa'sbloodinhi
    s
    hands)

    Xhanti:yehkwedini
    thet
    hai
    kakakengoku
    nzakufakaishl
    anguunyemna,
    yini
    leuyi
    thet
    ha
    kuInganathi.

    Ayanda:shewasallpr
    etendi
    ngtolovemychi l
    d
    whereasdeepdownshehat edher.Iwarned
    herngoZimasabutbecauseshewant edtoki
    ll
    mychildshedeci
    dedtobefri
    endher.Areyou
    happynowInganat
    hi?areyouhappythatufi
    le
    umtanam?

    Idecidedtokeepquite.Youknowmostofus
    wet endtolookatiabuseonlykwel
    i
    calala
    physical,
    whatisgoodngephy si
    calabusei
    t
    l
    eav esyouwithbrui
    sesandastimegoesby
    theyfadeandfadecompletel
    y.Butwit
    h
    emot i
    onall
    yabuse,t
    hescaresstayf
    orever
    .You
    cannotr ev
    ersewhatyousaidnobasowufuna
    kangakananina..

    Asmuchasi thur tIdeci


    dedtobrushitof
    f,and
    that
    smeIdon' treactimmediat
    ely,but
    kuyawuzekuthikonwot y
    iwekubengonandi
    kubuyaever
    ything.

    Me: Ayanda,Iknowy oudon'tmeanwhaty ou


    aresay i
    ngifyoumeani t
    ,youar ewrongabout
    memy eniwam, Il
    ovedmychi ldwithal lofmy
    heart.Yes,Iwoul dlovetoseeZi masasuf f
    er
    fortherestofherl i
    feforwhatshedi d, butwhat
    arewegoi ngt ogetbykill
    ingher, whymustwe
    stoopt oherlevel,i
    fyouki l
    lhersohlukakanj ani
    kuye.Wewi l
    lallbekil
    l
    ers.Thisisnott hewayI
    wasrai
    sedAyandaandIrefuset
    obechanged
    ngumtuwasemhlabeni
    .Ir
    efuse.

    Wej ustl
    ostababyAy anda,whetheritwasnot
    God'swill
    buthewast here,maybebyt akingour
    chil
    dtheressomet hinghewant edtoshowus
    may behewant edtochanget heanimal inyou.
    AyandawhatdoIt ellmyki dsmasendi mdala
    abouttheoneIl ost, mustIsayubel ewe
    ngumt uebezondaumhawabo, i
    fbebuzauphi
    yenawhatmustIt ellthem.MustIt ellt
    hem that
    yourdadkill
    edher, Iref
    useAy anda.Irefuse
    Mtungwa.

    Iwi
    llnev
    erforgi
    veZimasabutumbulal
    ait
    snot
    anopti
    on.Ungaskeubul
    alenamike.

    Iwenttohershewasreal
    l
    yinpai
    ns.Ir
    ushedto
    thebat
    hroom andcamebackwit
    hfi
    rstai
    dkit
    ,I
    tookgl
    ovesandworethem,
    Itookadi
    sinf
    ect
    ant
    andtri
    edtocl
    eanher.

    Ayanda:heywenaI nganat
    hi!
    !Yeka
    obobubhanxaubenzaapho

    Idi
    dn'
    tst
    op,
    IlookedatMawande.

    Me:
    babomdal
    apl
    easehel
    pme
    Mawande:
    andi
    zi
    ngeni
    njel
    astbor
    nmakaf
    eif
    yaf
    a.
    Me:
    babomdal
    a,Il
    ookedatNdumi
    so.
    Ndumiso:hay
    ilastbor
    n,Ican'
    tbet
    raymy
    br
    other.
    Me:wel
    l,I
    '
    mt akinghert
    ohospi
    tal
    ,sheneeds
    medi
    cal
    attent
    ion.
    Ay
    anda:
    umsangey
    iphi
    imot
    o
    Me:ngeyam ,
    lengayi
    thengel
    wangumyeni
    wami,i
    fawufuningay
    oIwi l
    lcal
    lacabYanda.
    Me:i
    sther
    eany
    onewhoi
    sgoi
    ngt
    ohel
    pmet
    o
    t
    hecar
    ?

    Theyal
    lkeptqui
    te.

    Me: wel li
    fitmeanskumel engimhudul
    e( dr
    ag
    her),l
    etitbe,butI'
    mt akinghertohospit
    al ,
    I
    won'tletherdieinmyhands.Iwentt otakemy
    carkey sandwor eatr acksuit,r
    ememberIj ust
    gotfrom hospitalandndi ngul
    oungenayone
    Ir
    oni -enoughbutatt hatmomentZi masa
    neededmyhel pbecauset heKhumalo'
    bebev uki
    njebovu.Icameback.

    Msi
    ra:
    arey
    ouser
    iousaboutt
    hiskant
    i.
    Me:
    I'
    m notaki
    l
    lerandsoi
    smyhusbandmay
    beAy
    andawasbutnotmyhusband.

    Iopenedt
    hedoorIwasaboutt
    odr
    agher
    .

    Ayanda:yerr
    ,Inganat
    hi,
    wawuzofunani
    emhlabeninj
    e.Howdoy ouhel
    pumtuokuv
    ise
    ubuhl
    unguso.

    Me: I
    'm nothel
    pingherYandabutmy selfmyeni
    wam, Iwannageti-closurengenganeyam, my
    consciouswil
    lbeclear,yawushi
    yekel
    ay ena
    yedwa.

    Ayanda: l
    etmehel
    pyou.YerrIhat
    eevento
    touchthi
    sbit
    ch,
    butnzat
    hini
    Idecidedtomarr
    y
    I
    ngelosi.
    Me:
    uzongi
    phel
    ezel
    a?.

    Ayanda:Iwon'tl
    ety
    oudri
    vealone,younotf
    ine
    naweandIknowy ouwon'
    tbackoffsoIdon'
    t
    haveachoice.

    Me: l
    et'
    stakehertoGroot
    eSchurrhospi
    tal
    then,Idoubtshehasamedical
    aidandItrust
    shewillbetakencar
    eof.

    Wedrov etoGrooteSchuurandshewas
    admit
    tedandIhadt olieandsaysimcoshe
    ezi
    tr
    adinizaseNyangaenj eya,maybeberojwa,
    Iwassonotgoi ngtosayul i
    mazwengumy eni
    wami andIwassur eshewoul dn'
    tdaresayi
    t
    wasAy anda.Aft
    ersheset tl
    edweleftatl
    east
    shewasgoi ngtobefineey emarks
    ezi
    sebusweni i
    twasbey ondmycont rol
    .
    Wearri
    vedathome, guysbabekhona,
    Ijust
    wentupst
    air
    s, tookashowerandmypi l
    lsand
    goti
    nbed.Ay andatookashowerandcamet o
    bedhecuddledmef rom back.

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha.
    Me:pleaseAyandanotnow,
    wewi ll
    tal
    kint
    he
    mor
    ninglet'
    ssleepnowI'mt
    ired.

    Heki
    ssedt
    het
    opofmyhead.
    Ay
    anda:
    goodni
    ghtbhabha

    Ij
    ustkeptqui
    te.

    I
    ngakaYanda:
    -(
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    08/
    17,
    23:
    54]Mca:
    INSERT98
    Iwokeupinthemiddleoftheni
    ght,It
    riedto
    sl
    eepbutIj
    ustcouldn'
    t.Whendi
    dIgett osleep
    ontopofAyanda?Itri
    edtomovefrom him but
    hehel
    dmet ight
    .

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha,
    sleep.

    Ikeptquit
    e,It
    ri
    edsohar
    dtosl
    eep,
    Ijust
    couldn'
    t

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabhawhati
    swr
    ong?

    (Heswi
    tchedont
    hesi
    del
    amp)

    Me:
    Ican'
    tsl
    eep.
    Ay
    anda:
    why
    ?Ar
    eyousi
    ck?
    Me:
    no,
    Ikeeponseei
    ngZi
    masa'
    sface
    Ay
    anda:
    itsokbhabha,
    canwet
    alkabouti
    tnow.
    Me:
    no,
    Yanda
    Ay
    anda:
    pleaseI
    ngamf
    azi
    wam,
    tal
    ktome
    Me:
    andsaywhat
    ?
    Ay
    anda:
    any
    thi
    ng
    Me:
    Ihav
    enot
    hingt
    osayAy
    anda
    Ay
    anda:
    ndi
    shout
    ekeat
    least
    .
    Me:
    forwhatgoodsi
    l
    lyr
    easons?
    Ayanda:Iknowndi
    kumoshil
    eMarhadebe,
    whatIsai
    dt oy
    ouwasself
    ishandcruel
    .
    Me:awundimoshangaAyanda,
    youj
    ustsai
    d
    i
    ntoesenhl
    i
    ziy
    weniyakho.
    Ay
    anda:
    Idi
    dn'
    tmeanwhatIsai
    dInga
    Me: okuhl
    enj
    eyousaidi
    tandt
    her
    e'snoway
    youcantakei
    tback.
    Ay
    anda:
    pleasemf
    azi
    wam.
    Me:
    it'
    sokkal
    oku.
    Ayanda:don'tsayi
    t'
    sokbhabhawher
    easwe
    bothknowitsnot.
    Me:
    canwedr
    opt
    hispl
    ease.
    Ayanda:nobhabha,
    weneedtotal
    kaboutt
    his,
    youkeeponbottl
    i
    ngthi
    ngsupandthatr
    eal
    l
    y
    worri
    esmebecauseonedayazi
    zuphumari
    ght.
    Me:
    I'
    mfi
    nehonest
    ly,
    canwesl
    eepal
    ready

    Ay
    anda:
    Inga
    Me:
    bhabha
    Ay
    anda:
    I'
    m sor
    ryMar
    hadebe.
    Me:
    ok,
    bhabha
    Ayanda:canyoushoutatmeorslapmeatleast
    maybeIwillf
    eelbet
    ter
    ,okwangokuwhaty
    ou
    ar
    edoingit'
    skil
    l
    ingme.
    Ijustsmil
    edandkissedhismouth,Iwasreall
    y
    notreadytot
    alktoAy anda,
    buttobehonestI
    wasr eal
    l
    yangry,
    andv er
    yangr
    ywithAyanda.At
    thatmoment,Iwassonotupt osay i
    nganythi
    ng.

    Me:
    Ilov
    eyou.
    Ay
    anda:
    thanky
    ouI
    nga.

    Wef el
    lasl
    eepagain,whenIwokeup,Iwas
    alonei
    nthebed.Istoodupandwenttotakea
    showermandibuyaAy andawasbusymaki
    ng
    thebed.

    Ay
    anda:
    mor
    ningsweet
    cheeks
    Me:
    hey
    Ay
    anda:
    Imadebr
    eakf
    ast
    Me:
    I'
    m okbhabha
    Ayanda:I
    ngay ouneedtoeat
    ,remembery
    ou
    havemedicat
    iontotake.
    Me:
    ok,
    Iwi
    l
    ltr
    ycer
    eal
    then.

    Il
    oti
    onedmyselfAy
    andacameandhelpme, I
    gotdr
    essed,
    itwasMondaybutIdi
    dn'tgoto
    work,
    Iwasgiv
    en3day sof
    fbythedoctor
    .

    Wewentdownst airs,Xhanti
    andNdumiso
    bebesedinni
    ngroom eat i
    ng,Mawandeand
    Msirabebengekho,theylef
    tforwor
    k.Xhant
    i
    wasleavi
    ngonWednesday ,Ndumiewasgoing
    backendofApr i
    l.

    Igreetedandtheygreet
    edback.Iwenttosi
    t
    down.Imadeacer ealandat
    e, Iwassoqui
    te
    thatIdidn'
    tev
    enhearbebethethangani
    ,Iwas
    r
    eal
    l
    ydeepi
    nthought
    s

    Ndumi
    so:
    Inganat
    hi!
    !

    Isnappedoutofmyt
    hought
    s.

    Ndumi
    so:
    lastbor
    n,Iam t
    alki
    ngt
    oyou
    Me:
    I'
    m sor
    rybabomdal
    a,Idi
    dn'
    theary
    ou.
    Ndumi
    so.:
    unci
    ngani
    .
    Me:
    not
    hing
    Ay
    anda: wewer
    ethi
    nki
    ngofgoi
    ngt
    o
    Water
    front
    .
    Me:
    ok,
    youcango.
    Ay
    anda:
    youar
    eal
    socomi
    ng.
    Me:
    nobhabha,
    Iwi
    l
    lpass
    Ay
    anda:
    arey
    ouokbhabha
    Me:
    yesIam (If
    akedasmi
    l
    e)
    Ayanda:don'
    tdot
    hat
    ,ungamqhat
    haomny
    e
    umtunotme.
    Me:
    I'
    m goi
    ngt
    oseeZi
    masa
    Ay
    anda:
    excuseme,
    why
    ?
    Me:
    nje
    Ay
    anda:
    Inganat
    hiKhumal
    o!!
    Me:yi
    ni,akanat
    oil
    etr
    ieswhereshei
    s,akana
    pj
    sandakanampahla,mayephumauzogqokani
    .
    Xhant
    i:y
    oumustbeki
    ddi
    ngme
    Me:
    I'
    m notbabomdal
    a.
    Xhanti:youhavedoneenoughInganathi,y
    ou
    savedherlif
    eyi
    nienyefut
    hi,don'
    tforgetshei
    s
    thereasonfory
    ourmiscarr
    iage.
    Me:
    Iknow
    Xhant
    i:and?
    ?
    Me:
    Ijustwannaseei
    fshei
    sok.
    Ay
    anda:
    why
    ?
    Me:
    IwannaseeherAy
    anda.

    Ithenkeptquite,weweredoneIwentt owash
    thedishes,Ayandawascleani
    ng,wef i
    nished.I
    wentupst ai
    rsandtookmybag, keyandcame
    back.

    Me:
    Iwi
    l
    lseey
    oul
    ater
    Ay
    anda:
    wher
    ear
    eyougoi
    ng?
    Me:
    I'
    m goi
    ngt
    ohospi
    tal
    .
    Ay
    anda:
    wer
    eyouser
    iouskant
    i.
    Me:
    deadser
    ious
    Ayanda:Yer
    rInganathi
    .Fi
    newai
    tforme,I'
    m
    comingwit
    hyou, Ican'
    tl
    etmywi
    fedriv
    ealone.
    (Hewentupstair
    sandIwenttositi
    nthe
    l
    ounge,hecamebackandwel ef
    t.)
    Ifi
    rstwentt ochecker s, Iboughthert oi
    letr
    ies,
    j
    uice,yogur t,sweet s,chipsandf rui
    t.Ithen
    wentt oMrPr iceandboughthersl i
    ppers,2pjs,
    underwear s, br
    as, tr
    acksuit,sandalsandat -
    shirt
    .Ay andawasal lquite,justfoll
    owingme.I
    wasqui temy self
    .Wewentt obuyquar ter
    chickenandr oll
    satNandosandwel eftfor
    hospital.Whenwear r
    ived,shewasawakeand
    betterthany esterday.

    Me:
    hi
    Zi
    masa:
    hiI
    nganat
    hi
    Me:
    howar
    eyou?
    Zi
    masa:
    goodt
    hansandy
    ou?
    Me:
    great
    ,howar
    eyouf
    eel
    i
    ng?.
    Zi
    masa:
    I'
    m get
    ti
    ngt
    her
    eandbet
    tert
    hanl
    ast
    ni
    te.
    Me:
    I'
    m gl
    ad,
    webr
    oughty
    out
    hese.
    Zi
    masa:
    thanksguy
    s.
    Ayanda:don'
    tthankme,t
    hankI
    nganat
    hi ,I
    don'tgi
    veaf
    uckngaweasthematt
    eroffactI
    sti
    l
    lwantyoudead.

    Shel
    ookeddown.

    Zimasa: I
    nganathi(shest
    art
    edcry
    ing)I'
    m
    real
    lysorrysi
    si,whatIdi
    dwasreal
    lyinhuman,
    I
    hatemy self,
    I'
    m sorr
    y.
    Me:
    didy
    our
    eal
    l
    yki
    l
    lmybaby
    Zi
    masa:
    eweI
    nganat
    hi(shel
    ookeddown)
    Me:
    whyZi
    masa?,
    whatdi
    dIdot
    oyou?
    Zimasa:Iwasjeal
    ousofyou,ofyourmarr
    iage,
    thewayAyandaworshi
    pedyouasi fyouwere
    theonl
    ygali
    nthisworl
    d.Ayandaneverl
    oved
    met hewayhel ovesyouthedayIhear dyou
    wer epregnant,Igotmorejeal
    ous.ThewayI
    plannedi t
    ,Iwantedtomakesur ethatnoone
    suspectme, i
    bengathi,y
    ouwantedt oabort
    yourchild.IknewAy andawasnotgoi ngto
    forgiv
    ey ouifavakuthway ouabort
    edhi schi
    ld.

    Ayandaj
    umpedoffhischairandwentstrai
    ght
    i
    ntoherneck,
    hewasaboutt ostrangl
    edher,I
    l
    ookedathim,heletgo,luckyenoughthe
    ot
    herpati
    entwassleepi
    ng.

    Me:sobythet
    imebuzenzangat
    hiy
    ouwer
    eok
    wi
    thme,youwerepr
    etendi
    ng.
    Zimasa: y
    esIwant edtobecl osert
    oy ouso
    thatyouwill
    trustmeandt hatwasn'tdif
    fi
    cult
    forme,youmadeev er
    ythi
    ngeasyf orme
    ngenhli
    zi
    yoy akhoenhl
    enet hembayo.I'm sor
    ry
    I
    nganathi.
    Me:
    sohowdi
    dmi
    sopr
    ost
    olgeti
    ntomysy
    stem
    Zimasa:bytheti
    me, yousai duzofaka
    amahewuef ri
    dgini,
    IknewIwasdonewi t
    hyou.
    Igri
    ndedthepil
    l
    sndazifaka.Youf orgot
    amahewuwakhomasi hamba, andsinceIwas
    putt
    inganeyeony ou,Imadei tapoi nt
    ndiy
    akukhumbuzauwat hathe.

    Ay
    anda:
    yer
    r,ukukuny
    aZi
    masa
    Me:
    thansf
    orbei
    nghonest
    .
    Zi
    masa:
    I'
    m sor
    ryI
    nganat
    hi.
    Me:
    soar
    eyouhappyt
    hatIl
    ostmychi
    l
    d.
    Zimasa:Iwil
    lregreti
    tfortherestofmyli
    fe,
    whatIdidwascr uel
    .I'
    m sorr
    yInganat
    hiand
    thankyouf
    orsav ingmylif
    e.
    Me: Idi
    dn'tdoitf
    oryoubutIdi
    ditformy
    husband.Idon'
    twantyourevil
    spiri
    ttohaunt
    hi
    mf ortherestofhi
    sli
    fe,
    butrestassur
    ed
    Zimasamychil
    d' sspir
    iti
    sgoingtohauntyou
    fort
    herestofy
    ourl i
    fe,i
    twil
    lbri
    ngyounothing
    butcur
    seandmi seryinyourl
    if
    e.
    Zi
    masa:
    pleasef
    orgi
    vemeI
    nganat
    hi.
    Me: Iwi l
    lneverforgiveyouZimasa,yout ook
    awayt hemostpr ecioust hi
    ngtome, mychi ld,
    yourobbedmeonechanceofbei ngamot her ,
    fort
    hatIwi llnev
    erf orgiv
    ey ou,Iwil
    lprayfor
    youthaty ousuffereachandev er
    yday, Iwi sh
    younot hi
    ngbutapai nfull
    if
    eand, al
    if
    ef ullof
    misery(Iwascr y i
    ng),andZi masatr
    ustme
    uzokwehl el
    wazintoezi buhl
    unguzodwa.

    Neverunderesti
    matet hepowerwithi
    nt ear
    sof
    amar r
    iedwoman, becausetheyholdmany
    possi
    bili
    ti
    es.nezami keIknewzazingazowela
    phansi
    .

    Me:
    Idon'
    twi
    sht
    oseey
    ou,
    andi
    funi
    nixesuka
    kuwenotev enI'm sorr
    y,Thankyou,nomololo.
    Zimasay ouar enot hi
    ngbutadev i
    l
    .Inanansi
    i
    maliy amhlauphuma, it
    sforthecab.(Igav
    eher
    R250,00),andt hefoodIbrought,i
    ts
    misoprostol f
    ree.(Istoodup).Let'
    sgoYanda.

    Ay
    andast
    oodupandl
    ookedatZi
    masa.

    Ayanda:bongauInganat
    hi,
    ot her
    wise
    ngendi
    kufakei
    bul
    l
    etwany aizolo.

    Iwascl
    osi
    ngt
    hatchapt
    erkaZi
    masa,
    forgood.

    I
    ngakaYanda;
    -
    )
    [
    08/
    17,
    23:
    55]Mca:
    INSERT99

    Wel
    eftandwedr
    ovei
    nsi
    l
    ent
    ,wear
    ri
    vedat
    homear ound3pm, ooXhantiwerepl ayingplay
    stati
    on.Iwenttositdown,Iwashungr yatleast
    thenauseawasgoneandal sothecr avings.I
    stoodupandwentt omakeasmoot hie, Idi
    dit
    whenIwasdone, ngathel
    elawonkeumt u
    ngabanikeza.Wesattheresincokolasonke, not
    thatIwaspay i
    nganyat t
    enti
    ont otheir
    conversati
    on,Ihadmyownconv ersation
    engqodweni yami.

    Iguessal l
    thepainwasst ar
    ti
    ngt okickin,the
    pai
    nofl osingmybaby ,t
    hepainofwhatAy anda
    sai
    dy esterday,t
    hepainofZimasaki l
    li
    ngmy
    chi
    ld.Ididn'treal
    izeIwascryi
    ngkut hekanti
    whil
    eIwasbusywi t
    hmyconv ersat
    iontears
    werestreami ngdownmycheeks.

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha
    Me:
    bendi
    mvabutbengat
    hiukude,
    Idi
    dn'
    t
    r
    espond
    Ay
    anda:
    bhabhat
    alkt
    omepl
    easemf
    azi
    wam,

    Ij
    ustsatt
    her
    est
    il
    l,
    iny
    embezi
    didn'
    tst
    op.

    Ndumi
    so:t
    alkt
    ousl
    astborn,
    weunderstand
    t
    hepai
    nyougoi
    ngt
    hroughbuttal
    ktous.

    Ayandatri
    edtoshakemebutIjustsatst
    il
    l,t
    he
    echoesofhisvoi
    ce."
    Youaregladsheisdead
    andit
    hi?Velebungamfuni
    umtanam"Iclosed
    myey es.

    Me: Il
    ovedher
    ,Idi
    dn'
    tki
    l
    lher
    ,Iwoul
    dn'
    tdo
    such.
    Ay
    anda:
    Iknowbhabha
    Me:
    Idi
    dn'
    tki
    l
    lherAy
    anda.
    Ay
    anda:
    shhhhh,
    Ingadon'
    tdot
    hist
    oyoursel
    f.
    Me: Iwoul
    dhav
    edoneany
    thi
    ng,
    any
    thi
    ngt
    o
    pr
    otectmybaby
    .
    Ayanda:IknowMarhadebe,I
    '
    m sosorry
    bhabhat
    hatIsai
    dyoudidn'tl
    oveSange.
    Me: GodknowsIlovedmyangel,
    (Iwascr
    ying
    uncont
    rol
    labl
    e,uAyandabengi
    gugi
    le)

    Me: whyl i
    feissounf airAyanda,Ipraydai ly
    ,I
    dothankGodev er
    ydayngent ozonkeangenzel a
    zona,Idogot ochur ch,Ineverhurtany one,let
    al
    oneswear ,Iam alway stryi
    ngmyl ev
    el bestto
    doizi
    ntongendl el
    a,maar awhyGoddi dn' t
    prot
    ectmychi l
    dfr
    om Zi masa.I '
    m 19Ay anda,
    whyezandenzai ntoebuhl ungukangaka, how
    am Igoingtocopewi ththispain,youbl ame
    me, Iknowy oudo, Ialsoblamemy selfYanda,
    i
    fIdidn'tbefr
    iendZimasamay bemychi l
    d
    wouldhav ebeenstillali
    ve.
    Ay
    anda:
    Iam notbl
    ami
    ngy
    oubhabha
    Me:
    Ibl
    amemy
    sel
    f,howcoul
    dIbesocar
    eless.
    Ayanda:youdidn'
    tknow,youhav
    eagood
    heartMarhadebe,
    souli
    ndel
    awonkeumt
    u
    afanenawe.
    Me:
    I'
    m sor
    rybhabha
    Ay
    anda:
    don'
    tsayt
    hatbhabha.

    Itr
    iedtostopcry
    ingbutthemor eItri
    edtostop
    themoreiziny
    embezi zam bezi
    sizangamandla.
    Iwantedtoletgoofthepain, l
    etgoofthe
    anger.Icr
    iedmy sel
    ftosleep.

    WhenIwokeupitwasl
    ate,
    bengi
    esembhedi
    ni,
    Ay
    andawasnexttome.
    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha
    Me:
    hey(Ir
    ubbedmyey
    es)
    Ay
    anda:
    howdoy
    ouf
    eel
    ?
    Me:
    Ihav
    eaheadache,
    whatt
    imei
    sit
    .
    Ayanda:9:30,fi
    rsteatsot
    haty
    ouwi
    l
    ltake
    yourmedicat
    ion.

    Inodded

    Hewalkedoutandcamebackwit
    hmyf ood,
    it
    waschickenl
    i
    vers,
    spi
    nachandbutt
    ernut
    .

    Me:
    bhabhaIdon'
    teatspi
    nach
    Ayanda:hay
    iInganat
    hi,
    Iboughtt
    hesespeci
    al
    foryou.
    Me:
    real
    l
    yIdon'
    teatspi
    nach
    Ay
    anda:
    youhear
    dwhatt
    hedoct
    orsai
    dangi
    thi
    .
    Me: yeboAyandaandnami
    angi
    phi
    ki
    sel
    utho
    butIdon'
    teatspi
    nach.
    Ayanda:I
    nganat
    hindi
    kuf
    akei
    mpamamna,
    uzawudl
    a.
    Me:bendingaf
    uniphi
    ki
    sananoAy
    andabutI
    don'
    teatspi
    nach.
    Ayanda:
    faneway
    engezel
    i
    saamehl
    oyouwi
    l
    l
    eat.
    Me:
    Ijusthopey
    ouwi
    l
    lbef
    ineaf
    ter
    .

    Hefedme,unti
    lIwasful
    l,
    Itookmypil
    lsand
    aspi
    ri
    ns,
    Iwenttopeeandcameback.Igoti
    n
    bed.

    Me:
    nit
    ebhabha
    Ay
    anda:
    yal
    ala
    Inodded.

    Ay
    anda:
    howi
    stheheadache?
    Me:
    nott
    hatbad,
    nit
    e.
    Ayanda:ni
    tebhabha,canIgetakisspl
    ease.
    (Wekissedkanci
    ncinjeandIdozedoff
    .

    Foll
    owi
    ngday,Ifel
    tmuchbett
    er,
    Itr
    iedt
    omov
    e
    fr
    om Ayandabengicuddl
    i
    shi
    l
    e.

    Ay
    anda:
    yaphi
    bhabha,
    lal
    a
    Me:
    Im goi
    ngt
    ohangmy
    sel
    f.
    Ay
    anda:
    (hesatupqui
    ckl
    y).Ut
    hini
    ??
    Me:
    Igi
    ggl
    ed,
    goty
    ou,
    I'
    m goi
    ngt
    opee
    Ay
    anda:
    ndi
    zakut
    hol
    a.
    Andwhalamyf acewasswol
    l
    enandmywhol
    e
    bodyhadrash,
    SPINACH!!

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha,
    youar
    eswol
    l
    encomeher
    e.
    Me: y
    ouforcedmet
    oeachspi
    nachwhi
    l
    eIt
    old
    youIdon'
    teati
    t.
    Ayanda:shi
    t,It
    houghtthaty
    il
    entoyakho
    yongaf
    unuukudla,
    I'
    m sorr
    yMarhadebe.Let
    '
    s
    bathkemfaziwam si
    yekwagqirha
    Me:nodon'tst
    ressIwil
    ltakeall
    ergexpi
    ll
    s,
    i
    zozi
    phel
    elabutnextt
    ime, l
    ist
    entomer ather
    t
    hanassuming.
    Ayanda:
    Iwi
    l
    lli
    stenbhabha,
    andI
    '
    m sor
    ry
    agai
    n.

    Hel
    etgo,Iwentt
    obathr
    oom ,
    pee,
    rinsedmy
    t
    eet
    h,andcameback.
    Ay
    anda:
    giv
    edaddysomel
    ove
    Me:
    angi
    funi
    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha
    Me:
    siesgoandwashy
    ourmout
    h,y
    anuka
    Ay
    anda:
    heywenabhabha

    Heti
    ckl
    edme,Ilaughed,
    hecont
    inued,
    I
    l
    aughedhar
    der

    Me:
    bhabha
    Ay
    anda:
    saydaddy
    Me:
    angi
    funi
    Ayanda:ohh(hecont
    inuedt
    ickl
    i
    ngme,
    Iwas
    l
    aughinguncont
    rol
    l
    abl
    e)
    Ay
    anda:
    sayi
    tvuy
    olwam
    Me:
    okGodzi
    l
    la
    Ay
    anda:
    usageza
    Me:
    pleasemrGr
    umpy
    Ay
    anda:
    andi
    zukuy
    eka
    Me:
    pleasedaddy
    Ayanda:that
    smybaby ,
    bephezukwam, he
    st
    oppedforami nute, helookedrit
    est r
    aight
    i
    ntomyey eshekeptqui te,hewasl ooki
    ngat
    melikehewasst udyingapor tr
    ait
    ,Ilooked
    away.Heslowlyturnedmyf aceusi
    nghi sindex
    fi
    ngerandmademel ookathim.

    Ay
    anda:
    yat
    handwakodwaMar
    hadebe
    Me:
    yat
    handwanaweMt
    ungwa.
    Ayanda:youbri
    ngt
    hebestkulent
    wanay akwa
    Khumalo,
    Iknowandikabi
    yil
    entouyi
    funayobut
    onedayIwil
    l.
    Ismi
    l
    ed.

    HekissedmeandIki ssedhim back,the


    ki
    ssingwenton, weki ssedslowlybutver
    y
    passionatel
    y,hewentdownonmyneck.Hi s
    handsf i
    ndbybr easts,hethenwentt omy
    ni
    pples.Iwasr eall
    yhor nybutIhadtostopit.
    nosex.

    Webr
    oket
    heki
    ss.Wewer
    equi
    tef
    orsomet
    ime.

    Me:
    bhabha,
    I'
    mreadyt
    ocal
    lmypar
    ent
    s.
    Ay
    anda:
    arey
    ousur
    ebhabha?
    Me:
    yes,
    Iam
    Ay
    anda:
    now?
    ?
    Me:
    yesbhabha.
    Hetookhisfoneandf
    onedmymom, itr
    ang
    andshepickeduponthef
    ir
    thr
    ing.Heputi
    ton
    l
    oudspeaker.

    Tot
    i:Ay
    anda,
    sawubona
    Ay
    anda:
    yeboTot
    i,ni
    njani
    Tot
    i:f
    inet
    hansandy
    ou?
    Ay
    anda:
    fine,
    wef
    i,
    ,
    ne,
    I'
    m notsur
    eTot
    i
    Tot
    i:whati
    swr
    ongAy
    anda?
    ?
    Ay
    anda:
    Tot
    i.
    ..We.
    ..
    uhmm
    Tot
    i:Ay
    andakhul
    umakwenzakal
    ani
    .
    Ay
    anda:
    wel
    ostt
    hebabyTot
    i
    Tot
    i:awuuJehov
    a,when?How?Wher
    eisAngel
    ?
    Ay
    anda:
    nanguTot
    i
    Me:
    sawubonaTot
    i
    Toti
    :sawubonamyAngel
    ,ohhi
    nganey
    ami
    ,
    kunj
    anisi
    si
    Me:
    I'
    mfi
    neTot
    iandy
    ou
    Tot
    i:wecomi
    ngt
    oCapet
    ownonFr
    iday
    Me:
    ther
    eisnoneedTot
    i,I
    '
    mfi
    ne,
    wear
    efi
    ne.
    Tot
    i:chasi
    yezanj
    e,y
    oubot
    hneedus
    Me: Ayandai
    sgivi
    ngmeal
    lthesuppor
    tIneed
    Tot
    i.Honestl
    yI'
    mfine.
    Tot
    i,ay
    iimyAngel
    ,si
    ngabangabazal
    iabanj
    ani
    i
    fsi
    ngangezi
    ,Ay
    andaal
    soneedsupportAngel
    .
    Me:
    wef
    inet
    oti
    Toti:whoar
    ey oufool
    i
    ng, Ihav
    ebeent her
    e
    remember,Iknowhowdoy ouf eel
    rightnow.
    Siy
    ezanjeFri
    day,Iwil
    ltal
    kt oyourfatherwhen
    Igethome,angif
    unexoxisananawe.
    Me:
    okkeTot
    i
    Tot
    i:whathappenedmyAngel
    ?
    Me: Imiscarri
    edToti,
    ngiqal
    wezi cr
    amps,after
    thatIstartedbleedi
    ng.(Iwassonotgoingto
    hangmydi r
    tyl
    inen,noteventomymot her
    ,she
    tol
    dmewhathappensemzi niwakhost
    ays
    there,nami keIwaspr ot
    ecti
    ngowami umuzi)
    Tot
    i:ohhmyAngel
    ,I'
    m sor
    ryMar
    hadebe
    Me:
    itsokTot
    i
    Tot
    i:l
    lov
    eyou
    Me:
    lov
    eyout
    ooTot
    i
    Toti:
    ubest
    rongokeMashwabada,
    sani
    bona
    Fri
    day
    Me:
    Iwi
    l
    lTot
    i
    Tot
    i:Ay
    anda
    Ay
    anda:
    Tot
    i
    Tot
    i:wenahowar
    eyounganey
    ami
    Ay
    anda:
    akhol
    ulaTot
    ibutI
    '
    mtr
    ying
    Tot
    i:wewi
    l
    lgot
    hrought
    hissonkesi
    yev
    ana?
    Ay
    anda:
    yeboTot
    i
    Tot
    i:best
    rongkezi
    angel
    szam
    Ay
    anda:
    siy
    abongaTot
    i
    Tot
    i:Il
    ovey
    oubot
    h.
    Us:
    wel
    ovey
    out
    ooTot
    i

    Hedroppedthecal
    l,
    Ijustburi
    edmy selfon
    Yanda'
    schestandhehel dmev er
    ytite,Idi
    dn'
    t
    wannacry,Iref
    usetocry,Iwasdonecr yi
    ng.

    Ay
    anda:
    itsokbhabha
    Me:Iwon'tcr
    ybhabha,
    I'
    m abi
    ggi
    rl
    ,bi
    ggi
    rl
    s
    don'
    tcr
    yangit
    hi?

    Hel
    ookedatmeandsmi
    l
    ed.
    Ay
    anda:
    I'
    m sopr
    oudofy
    ouMar
    hadebe.

    Ij
    ustsmi
    l
    ed

    I
    ngakaYanda.
    ;
    -).
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    08/
    17,
    23:
    55]Mca:
    INSERT100

    Wewer
    est
    ill
    inbedandhonest
    lyIwasget
    ti
    ng
    t
    her
    eemot
    ional
    ly
    .

    Me:
    Yanda
    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha
    Me:
    weneedt
    ogot
    oNy
    anga
    Ay
    anda:
    anddowhatt
    her
    e.?
    Me:weneedt
    ogoandt
    ell
    mamat
    hatI
    mi
    scar
    ri
    ed.
    Ayanda:yamaziumamzobhabhaandi
    funi
    akuvi
    seobunyeubuhl
    ungu.
    Me:shewon'
    tYanda,
    aft
    eral
    lshei
    sourmot
    her
    ,wetol
    duTotinay
    eshedeser
    vest
    oknow.
    Ay
    anda:
    ongaact
    ili
    keone.
    Me: kukuy
    ebhabha,butfornowIwi l
    lactl
    i
    ke
    herdaughteri
    nlawunt
    ilat
    hiakandi
    funiemzini
    wakhe.
    Ay
    anda:
    Ijustdon'
    twanty
    out
    obehur
    t.
    Me: Iknowbhabhaandthanky
    ouf
    orcar
    ingbut
    honestl
    yshedeser
    vestoknow.
    Ay
    anda:
    asi
    fshewi
    l
    lgi
    veadamn.
    Me: i
    tdoesn'
    tmat
    terbhabhaasl
    ongaswet
    ell
    her
    .
    Ayanda:let'
    sgonaboXhant ikeat l
    eastangazo
    focusakuwe,caszandonyanyisa,butyoumust
    knowI'm nothappywit
    hlentoof unasiyenze.
    Iki
    ssedhi
    m.

    Me:
    let
    'swakeup
    Ay
    anda:
    nobhabha,
    itsst
    il
    lear
    ly
    Me:
    bhabha!
    !
    Ayanda:what
    ?Ist
    il
    lwannaspendt
    imewit
    hmy
    wif
    erememberonThursdayy
    ouaregoi
    ngback
    towork.

    Wecuddlednomyeniwam.Wewokeupar ound
    11am ,webathedandIworemywholemakoti
    att
    ir
    ephelabengi
    yakumamazal
    a.Wewent
    downstai
    rsnoAyanda,ooNdumiewer
    ethere.

    Ndumi
    e:wakhet
    hakodwababybr
    o
    Ay
    anda:
    Iknowbhut
    i,(heki
    ssedmycheek)
    Ndumi
    e:y
    oul
    ookst
    unni
    ngl
    astbor
    n,
    ndi
    kugqi
    bel
    ekudal
    akwezoi
    mpahl
    azi
    phel
    ele.
    Me:(Ismi
    l
    ed)ngi
    yabonga,
    phel
    angi
    yaku
    mha
    Xhant
    i:Lomzi
    ??
    Me:
    yebo
    Xhant
    i:ar
    eyousur
    e?
    Me:
    Yes,
    whynot?
    Xhant
    i:Ay
    andaut
    hini
    ?
    Me:
    yav
    uma
    Ay
    anda:
    I'
    m nothappybutuy
    ainsi
    st-
    er.
    Xhant
    i:ar
    ey ousurel
    astbor
    n,y
    ouhav
    ebeen
    thr
    oughalotal
    ready.
    Me:I'
    m sur
    e.(Iknewwhywasheaski
    ngall
    t
    hosequest
    ions,hewasj
    ustwor
    ri
    edaboutme)
    Ayanda:masiyeni
    sonke,
    wor
    sey
    ouwi
    l
    lbe
    l
    eavingsoon.
    Xhant
    i:nopr
    obl
    em.
    Weat ebreakfastandlef
    t,Ir
    eal
    lydi
    dn' tcar
    e
    whatLomzi wasgoi ngtosayordo, yesshe
    wasmymot herinlawandIwasgoi ngt ogive
    hertherespectshedeservesfr
    om adaught erin
    l
    aweny enenyewasupt oher.Wefirstwentto
    Tygervall
    eymallanddosomegr oceries.

    Wear r
    ivedatNyanga, ooAy andat ookgrocery
    i
    nside,Lomziwasal one,wegr eetedandshe
    gr
    eetedback.AsMakot i
    ,Ididn'tsitdown, I
    wenttopackgr oceriesandsi ncewewer e
    pl
    anningtohaveluncht here,Istartedcooking,
    Ndumisocameaf tersomet imeandhehel ped
    me.Wewer echat t
    ingwhi l
    ecooki ng.

    Ndumi
    so:
    I'
    m goi
    ngt
    omi
    sst
    his.
    Me:
    what?
    Ndumiso:spendi
    ngt
    imewi
    thf
    ami
    l
    y,wher
    eI
    am i
    tsonl
    yme, meandme.
    Me: shame,that
    'showIfeltbef
    oreImet
    Ayanda,i
    twasme, meandme, growi
    ngup
    al
    oneeishit
    ssomet hi
    ngelse.
    Ndumi
    so:
    yhaIcani
    magi
    ne.
    Me: andnowIhaveabigfamil
    yIneverdream
    ofwhenIgrewup, Ihav
    ebeauti
    ful
    ,car
    ingand
    support
    ingbr
    other
    sandhusband.
    Ndumiso:andnaweyouaresuchadar
    li
    ng,
    sweetandcut
    ebabysisi
    .
    Me: honest
    lyI
    '
    m sol
    uckyandbl
    essedt
    ohav
    e
    youguys.
    Ndumi so:
    wegoty ourbackl
    astborn.You
    knowI'mthinki
    ngofcomingback,Idon'
    tthi
    nk
    I'
    m happythereany
    more.
    Me: IdoubtIwil
    lsur
    viv
    emnawi
    thoutmy
    par
    entsandAy anda.
    Ndumi
    so:
    your
    eal
    l
    ylov
    emybr
    otherl
    astbor
    n.
    Me:
    Idobabomdal
    a.
    Ndumi
    so: Icanseethewayy
    oubl
    ushwhen
    youment
    ionAy anda'
    snameandt
    hewayyou
    l
    ookathi
    m.
    Me:
    bungi
    bonakuphi
    .
    Ndumi
    so.Nj
    alonj
    ewhenyouar
    etoget
    herand
    somet
    imesIgetj
    eal
    ous
    Me:
    youdon'
    thav
    eto
    Ndumiso:Iknowandreall
    ymybr
    otheri
    s
    bl
    essed,IwishIcanhav
    eawifel
    ikeyouone
    day.
    Me: I
    '
    mt heonewhoi sbl
    essedtohav
    eAyanda
    babomdala.Hhawuonedaynotnextmont
    h,
    phel
    angikhathel
    enj
    euniphekel
    a.

    Webot
    hlaughed.
    Ndumi
    e:ei
    shhhl
    astbor
    nI'
    m notl
    uckykosi
    si.
    Me:
    kuzol
    ungaonedaybabomdal
    a
    Ndumiso:uy
    evakenawey ousayonedaynot
    nextmont
    h.Idoubtkodwalastbor
    n.
    Me:y ouwi
    l
    lsee,
    uzozi
    gezai
    zi
    tyamasi
    qeda
    angi
    thi.
    Ndumi
    so:
    hay
    ilastbor
    n,andi
    ngomf
    azi
    .
    Me:
    nami
    I'
    m not,
    I'
    mjustababy
    .
    Ndumi
    e:noy
    ounot
    Me:
    yesIam ,
    (Isul
    ked)
    Ndumi
    so:
    ehyI
    nganat
    hidon'
    tdot
    hat
    .

    Isul
    kedagai
    n

    Ndumi
    so:
    ok,
    ok,
    Iwi
    l
    ldot
    hem,
    yousucha
    bul
    l
    y
    Me:
    Ilov
    eyoubabomdal
    a(Igi
    ggl
    ed)
    Ay
    anda:
    uthi
    niI
    nganat
    hi!
    !
    Me:
    Ilov
    ebabomdal
    a(Il
    aughed)
    Ay
    anda:
    didy
    ouj
    ustsayy
    oul
    ovemybr
    other
    Me:
    yesl
    ove.
    Ayanda:sundiqhel
    ikakaI
    nganat
    hi,
    wenza
    l
    entokantial
    lalong
    Me:
    hmhhmm (Ir
    aisedmyey
    ebr
    ow)
    Ayanda:don'
    tsaymhmmm,
    yaj
    olangokuno
    Ndumiso

    Amen.

    Ndumi
    so:
    arey
    ouf
    orr
    eal
    nowAy
    anda?
    Ay
    anda:
    mywi
    fej
    ustsai
    dshel
    ovesy
    oui
    nfr
    ont
    ofme.
    Ndumi
    so:
    so?
    Ay
    anda:
    soni
    yaj
    ola
    Ndumi so:can'tyouseeI nganathiisj
    oking,y
    ou
    reall
    yneedhel p,whywoul dIdosuch?Whatdo
    yout akemef or?ForGodsakeI nganathi
    ngumt ana,
    ev enifyoudon'ttrustme, whydon't
    yout rusther?Youdi sgustmeAy anda.(He
    threwt hespoonhewasusi ngont hesinkand
    l
    eft)

    Ay
    anda:
    Inganat
    hi,
    mfazi
    wam
    Me:
    ayi
    iAy
    anda,
    notnow.
    Ay
    anda:
    I'
    m sor
    ry
    Me:
    ok
    Ay
    anda:
    Iknowy
    oudon'
    tmeant
    hat
    .
    Me:
    itsnotmey
    oushoul
    dapol
    ogi
    zet
    obuty
    our
    br
    other
    .
    Ay
    anda:
    nakuwebhabha
    Me: apol
    ogyaccept
    ed,
    nowcanIf
    ini
    shwhat
    I
    'm doi
    ng.

    Ay
    anda'
    sinsecur
    it
    ieswer
    ereal
    l
    yget
    ti
    ngonme.

    Ay
    anda:
    bhabha
    Me: notnowhl
    eAy
    anda,
    goandapol
    ogi
    zeku
    babomdala.
    Ay
    anda:
    sukwat
    akal
    okubhabha
    Me:
    I'
    m not
    .

    Helef
    tandaft
    ersomet ime,hecamebackwit
    h
    Ndumiso,
    seeminglytheysort
    edout
    l
    omsanganokaAy anda.Ireal
    lyl
    ikeduNdumi
    so
    ,hewasav er
    yhumbl eandadecentguy.
    SaphakanoNdumi sothenwesatdownandat e.
    Ndumi sor
    eall
    ydidthedishesngazesula,
    we
    thenwenttojoi
    nabanyeel ounge.Ayanda
    clear
    edhisthr
    oat.

    Ay
    anda:
    mamzosi
    cel
    anj
    eumzuzuwakho.
    Lomzi
    :whati
    sit
    ?
    Ay
    anda:
    Inganat
    hil
    ostt
    hebabyLomzi
    .
    Lomzi
    :I'
    m notsur
    pri
    sed

    Idon'
    twannal
    i
    eIwasshocked.

    Ay
    anda:
    whatdoy
    oumean?
    Lomzi :whatdi
    dyouexpect,usi
    l
    andel
    a
    abesuthuleushi
    yaamantombazanaamaXhosa
    ,ucingeleazakuzal
    ela,
    youareafool
    .
    Ayanda:whatdoyoumeanndi
    shi
    ya
    amantombazana.
    Lomzi :washi
    yauZimasaaphaandi
    thi
    ,nge
    sekakuzal
    elaumtana,ul
    ibel
    ezi
    zi
    nto
    ezi
    nezibel
    ekoezi
    loose.

    Iswal
    l
    owedhar
    d.

    Ayanda: whatdidItellyouI
    nga?Ukunya
    andikut
    hethikemna.Ul iqwi
    rhaf
    uzelaZimasa
    wakhomamzo, I'm outofhere,Iwon'
    tl
    ist
    ento
    thi
    snonsense.Ingal et
    'sgo.
    Me:
    noYanda.
    Ayanda:fokofI
    nganat
    hi,
    phakama
    ndi
    ngekakukhabi
    Me:
    I'
    m notl
    eav
    ingAy
    anda
    Lomzi:hambanalomf
    azanawakhowena,
    and
    angaphi
    ndeawubekeowakheumlenze
    kul
    owam umzi
    ,andi
    namol
    okazanaunguy
    emna.

    Ij
    uststoodup,t
    ookmybagandwal
    kedst
    rai
    ght
    i
    ntothedoor.

    Ay
    anda:
    wel
    lmamzoy
    ouj
    ustl
    ostason
    Lomzi:y
    ouwi l
    lcomebackmasel
    i
    phel
    i
    le
    el
    oyezal
    alont
    o.

    Xhant
    iandNdumisocamewithus,wewereal
    l
    qui
    teal
    lthewayf
    rom NyangatoTabl
    evi
    ew.

    ImeantitwhenIsaidIwasdonecr y
    ing.We
    gothomebekungathiwej
    ustrecei
    vedumpanga.
    Ayandacametomeandhuggedmet ight.

    Ismi
    l
    edbutbekubuhl
    ungushame,
    onet
    hingI
    l
    iked, It
    ri
    ed, It
    ri
    edtoreachoutf
    orLomzi
    ,to
    respecther.ButIwasnotgoi
    ngtofor
    cemyself
    onher .

    Me:
    I'
    m okbhabhadon'
    twor
    ry.
    Ay
    anda:
    arey
    ouokr
    eal
    l
    y?
    Me:
    yes.
    Ayanda:mybabyi
    sgr
    owi
    ng,It
    houghtt
    hatyou
    wil
    lbecry
    ingt
    hewhol
    emont
    hbecauseofwhat
    Lomzisai
    d.
    Me:lif
    emademest
    rongYanda.nomor
    etear
    s
    angi
    thi
    .
    Ay
    anda:
    I'
    m sor
    rybhabha
    Me:
    noi
    tscool
    bhabha
    Ay
    anda:
    IguessIj
    ustl
    ostamot
    hert
    oo.
    Me:youdon'thav
    etobhabha,j
    ustsor
    titout
    l
    ent
    onami Iwil
    lbackof
    f.
    Ay
    anda:
    nobhabhaI
    '
    mti
    red
    Me:remember,
    yousti
    l
    lhaveTot
    iandbababut
    your
    eall
    yneedt
    osorti
    zint
    owit
    humha.
    Ay
    anda:
    andIst
    il
    lhav
    eyou.
    Me:
    yesandme

    Us:
    til
    ldeat
    hdousapar
    t.

    Hehuggedmeagai
    n

    I
    ngakaYanda;
    -
    )

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