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Turbulence by Thandiwe Mwelase
Chapter 1
*Thule*
"He's car is outside Midrand sir and he doesn't look sober" I
don't get it .
I don't understand wether life is unfair on him for taking his
daughter or me having to baby him for two years when
everyone has told me to let him be.
"I'll be there in a few seconds sisi thank you" I hang up .
I already don't have petrol money and leaving here will mean I
won't be able to return because of security .
Mnotho will be the death of me.
The drive to Midrand is shorter because I'm conflicted wether
to drive fast, or slow . Which one will save petrol ?
He's sitting outside the car leaning on the car wheels .
See even with all this money he's still a drunkard , take
billionaires seriously when they say money doesn't buy
happiness...I still want that money though .
"Asambe bhuti..."
"Ah . You again..." He clicks his tongue.
Even with all the disrespect my heart will never allow me to give
up on him .
I still have a picture of him fetching me from school and fighting
most of my battles. I know somewhere underneath this
drunkard is my big brother .
I help him get up and out him on the passenger seat .
Of course we not using my car because petrol increases
everyday in SA . The cost of living is too high .
"Don't- don't touch my car wena" I ignore him .
"I hope you won't sell my car for a few cents hahaha..." This is
what it always comes down to.
He takes out his wallet and throws a few notes on my face .
"Buy yourself some proper clothes atleast to hide your poor
ass" he laughs loudly .
"I hope when you wake up and realise that I'm all you have left
it won't be too late because I'm sick of being an older brother to
my older brother Mnotho" I turn to look at him and he's snoring
.
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*Sabatha*
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"Eh sisi Vuka!" I shake her and push her off my chest .
Why in this planet would she think it's ok to rest on my chest .
Some women are brave .
She roughly rubs her eyes and looks at me blinking her eyes .
Atleast she looks beautiful .
I didn't even get to properly look at her last night .
"Hey baby"
"Baby? Hay sisi take your things and go..." I get up , put on my
boxers and grab my wallet .
"This is for Uber" I give her R400 .
She gasps and frowns at me .
"Oh so I'm guessing you think of this money as prostitution ...
it's fine give me back my money and cleanse your conscience "
she holds onto it a bit too tight and I chuckle.
"Good grab your things and go , I have to go to the studio." I
move to the ensuite bathroom and grab a quick shower while
whistling to my new song .
This is my life .
Party. Music. Booze. Girls. Oh and maybe my family when my
father feels like we're off the rails which happens most of the
time.
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*Mabutho*
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She stares at me with a wide grin on her face .
I can never understand women .
I don't get these creatures.
"I don't know about a lot of things but one thing is for sure . I'm
not ready for a baby" her smile slowly disappears, she looks
hurt .
"I'm also not ready Butho but we're here now and this is the
card we're dealt with.." I just give her a looks and groan in
frustration.
I can't believe something as little as a sperm can stress me like
this argh.
"I know it wasn't planned Mabutho . It was one huge mistake
but..." Speaking of mistakes
"Luckily we live in a country that allows us to fix mistakes" she
gives off a deadly frown .
"I hope you're not saying what I think you're saying..."
"Come on . Think about it Sena we're both not ready for this
baby."
"Uyinja Mabutho uyangizwa . Uyinja!!" She roars and throws
her phone at me .
It hits me on my arm .
"Calm down sthandwa..." I see her face soften a bit . Here's the
thing about women.
Women fall in love with what they hear.
Make them giggle and call them with all these romantic names
and they're already gone .
Senselessly in love .
Their thinking cap magically disappears when they're in love.
"Ng'lalele mama" she huffs and throws herself on my bed .
"We're not ready for a baby yet. Tomorrow I'll bring you a pill
from work and we'll sort this out ok?" I guess being a doctor is
proving to be good afterall.
She nods and throws herself on the bed.
My phone rings.
Damn I thought it was on flight mode
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if I ignore it Sena will be paranoid.
I clear my throat and excuse myself to the bathroom.
"Sawubona mkami" she sighs
"Baba aren't you coming back? I cooked for you and I miss you"
"I miss you too mkami . I had to operate a patient and you know
how I get so I couldn't drive" she huffs again .
I know she's probably pouting with her beautiful round face .
"You'll be back at what time tomorrow?"
"As early as 6:00"
"Ok baby . I love you"
"I love you too" no like I really do .
Sena is....I don't know . I guess it's just greediness and knowing
that I can get any girl I want .
I don't know why Ze has been staying after what I've done to
her but ke she's still here.
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*Mbuyiseni*
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https://youtu.be/RzAcf_XMQlY
"I can imagine my mother's proud smile right now and I know
her husband is rolling his eyes as I receive this award ..."
"I don't have a lot of people to thank but my weird family . I'm
thankful to my psychotic brothers for standing in my corner and
believing in me regardless of my disability.
I officially lost my sight when I was around 10 years old..." I
know mom is probably rolling her eyes
"I still have a vivid picture of my crazy brothers , mysterious
father and beautiful mother . The issue of my sight is still a
mystery but we're not there . When I told my mother I want to
venture into television and actually be in front of the camera .
She lost it . She went weeks without talking to me and my
father because he had taken my side..." They laugh
"Yea she's that dramatic. Anyway she ended up agreeing
because believe me I wouldn't have done all of this without
her... and my father" I say when I remember that dad can just
call me right now to remind me that I'm he's sperm . **Rolls
eyes**
"My point is the greatest enemies of your path to destiny won't
be the people who hate what you do but it'll be people who
love you . Here's the tragedy , they will try to stand in your path
because they don't want you to suffer."I hear people clap their
hands and I nod and Pat besides me to looks for my assistant's
hand .
As soon as I find her hand she gracefully holds my hand and we
walk off .
"That was beautiful Mbuyiseni . But it wasn't in the script"
"When have I ever followed the script?" She giggles
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*Mnotho*
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At first I feel like I'm dreaming but no actually I am drowning .
I scream loudly and gasp .
My "wife" stands there with a jar of water in her hands .
"What is it now Enhle?" she folds her hands .
I don't know what happened to the woman I married .
She used to be so humble , down to earth and God fearing but
now....
"Wake up and go to work Mnotho!! Be useful for one" tighten
my jaw .
I can't even lay my hands on her, my mother would kill me .
"What do you mean for once? You wouldn't be anything
without me? No fancy car . Not designer shoes . So when you
feel like wearing pants in this house just remember that all of
this can be gone in the snap of my finger for you" he opens and
closes her mouth attempting to say something and then closing
her mouth .
"Good" I go take a shower and rush to the office .
On my office I can see the opposite building , where Thule's
company is at .
There's been talks that he's bankrupt , I know it's false because
he would've come and look for my help right?
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*Mabutho*
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"Sthandwa sami" I hug her and she looks at me weirdly .
"You smell like a woman Butho" she blinks her tears away .
Flip! I forgot to bath .
"The patient I was operating died and I had to console his wife
because she was all alone . Poor woman!" Judge me!! Yes
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judge me!!
"You're lying Mabutho" time to bring out the big guns
"I know I've made mistakes before but I'm sick of this home
feeling like I'm in court. Everything I say is questioned!!" I roar
and she looks at me remorsefully.
"Ok. I'm sorry baba..." I click my tongue and move to the
bathroom .
As soon as I close the door I heave a sigh .
<Baby I'm working a night shift tonight so you probably won't
get ahold of me tonight and tomorrow morning . I love you>
Living a double life is the pits . I really don't know how I found
myself here but here I am.
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*Sabatha*
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"Bafo I'm performing in Durban tomorrow , I can't" he huffs . I
hate letting him down and he knows .
"Kodwa Bhuti I'm begging you. Please . I'll never ask anything of
you" how many times has he said that?
"Ay Mbuyiseni uyahlupha" he screams .
Who knew one day I would be interviewed by my own brother
in a show he produced? Life is amazing .
He's out there doing big things and I couldn't have been more
proud of him.
"I promise I won't dig into your hoe life bafo" I scoff
"Ay phela ngzoyeka" he chuckles
"Ngzok'bona" he hangs up . I can never get his obsession with
not saying goodbye.
Mbuyiseni would never say goodbye to you . Never!!
"Yo' Sab dog you're performing in a few..." My manager shouts
from outside .
Honestly as much as I love the life of hoes throwing themselves
at me and the money...I hate the noise!!
Actually I miss uMfazi kaNathi right now .
She brings me peace .
I guess the noise is the price I have to pay .
<Ma wami . Ave ngik'khumbule sthandwa sami>
I send her a text . For a few seconds I bring it closer to my chest
and pray she responds .
My phone beeps...lucky me
<I miss you too mntakaNathi . You know I'll always be there
fanozi>
Oh how I hate that name.
<What can I bring Ntombi kaNathi?"
<A car. Ubab'wakho promised me a car kodwa uyamazi ke>
Yhuu hay that's the thing about my mother . You'll ask her what
she wants expecting her to be a normal mother and request a
chocolate or stuffed animal from you kanti nooo...not my
father's girlfriend.
She once requested a house from Mnotho and my poor brother
had to buy it.
Her excuse to dizzy requests would be "eey phela ngazala mina"
.
My mother is a lot .
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*Mnotho*
"Sam can you organise a meeting for me with my brother?" She
nods and excuses herself .
"So we request meetings to see each other now?" He asks with
a bored expression.
You can never really know what happens in Thule's head .
"Aw I thought you'd be busy or something bafo" he nods and
walks in with his hands in his pocket.
He looks put together to me .
Those were definitely speculations.
"Mmmhm" he goes to the window and stares at the busyness
of Joburg .
As hectic as everything looks from up here but the view is
nothing but soothing .
I pour a shot of whiskey and he shakes his head at the sight .
"I don't need your judgemental stare right now Thule" he
brushes in between his eyebrows using his thumbs and the
sighs .
"Umdala Mnotho. You're supposed to be the big brother...lead
by example not lead us into temptation" on a normal day I
would've laughed at his stupid statement.
"Fuck being a big brother Thule I'm human too . Aren't I allowed
to break down?" I snap and he looks at me unfazed.
"2 years Mnotho! 2 years you've been breaking down! Everyone
has problems but we face them head on . I don't know this
coward that hides behind alcohol" he turns and walks towards
the door .
"I'm selling my company and going in the taxi industry." I turn
my head so fast and frown
"Uyanya Thule. You're endangering everyone's lives . You know
the taxi industry is dangerous..."
"If you weren't so self centred you'd know danger is better than
poverty" he says and exits .
Wtf is happening with my brothers?
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*Mbuyiseni*
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"Mami" she giggles
"Yellow bone lamama"
"Aw kodwa ma" she giggles .
It's coming.
"Yin? You're supposed to be thanking me for my light skinned
beautiful Ngcobo genes ngabe uyilahle njengoThule . Ngibonge
futhi ng'lalele" she always requests this from me .
"Ngiyabonga Ma wami for your light skinned beautiful genes. I
wouldn't he alive without them"
"Mxm" she sulks .
Making my mother mad is the worst thing under the sun . The
mood just becomes sombre whenever she's mad . No one
smiles . No one chuckles until she's fine.
My father can bead to the point of burning the whole house
down and we wouldn't even care because he always forgives
anyway but uMa...namagqubu uSisi
"Awu Ma wami ..."
Silence .
This woman likes being praised
"Sthandwa Sami ungithukuthelele?... Ngiyadlala nje Themba
lam . Mamazi lami. Mphathi wenhliziyo yami. Bambo lwami.
Ngixolele Mashiyamahle..." She giggles and my heart melts
"Awume maarn baby"
"Baby!?" I hear my father's voice roar in the background and my
mother giggles sweetly
"Who's making my wife blush at this time of the night?"
"U-number 5 baby ." Yea sometimes we are just numbers . Fuck
our names! My parents are quite interesting.
"Mbuyiseni why is my wife blushing because of you?"
"Ngoba uMa wami nami" I hear him chuckle
"So Wena baby uvuma ukukitazwa oMbuyiseni? Ama-yellow
bone?"
"I've always preferred light skinned men until you came along
Mwelase" ayke ngiyayiqala
"Hehe yazi I'll remind you what dark skinned men can do
ekamereni" aybo.
"What can they do baby?" My mother's voice lowers . She
sounds far.
"Ma!!" She giggles .
Aybo nge-airtime yami?
God gave me the wrong parents.
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*Thule*
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.
.
I officially signed over my company to William K.
A part of me still feels like I gave in too quick .
Bleak doesn't even begin to describe my future right now .
I brought two taxis with the money I got...imagine .
I poured all my life savings into that company and look at me
now .
Atleast Malum'Mningi offered me a place to sleep. I'll be
crashing at his house until I find a way forward .
I sure as hell ain't going back home . No!!
So today is officially my first day at "work".
I was shown my routes yesterday and my taxis are under the
Indlovu taxi association .
This road is about to get bumpy . I can just feel it .
I'll be transporting commuters from MTN rank to Randburg.
I just get sick just thinking about MTN rank .
Someone save me .
From a Founder and CEO of a small company to a taxi
driver/owner ...Look at God!
But let's do this again and avoid making similar mistakes .
Mangi : "Lalela ke ndoda . Whoever sits next to you must count
the money . Whenever they get into arguments because
commuters seem to think they know everything but taxi
maths... don't get involved. I repeat DON'T GET INVOLVED.
When they're done fighting uzicelele imali yakho iphelele" his
name is Mangi. He's actually the first person that welcomed me
here with my other driver . He said I look like someone he used
to know.
Fakazi : "And the door...akudlalelwa emnyango ..." Fakazi my
driver adds..since when does he know what happens in the taxi
industry?
I raise my brow and he shrugs .
Mangi : "Ungahleki nabo . Plus lobumnyama bakho will work in
your favour. Akekho ozohleka nawe" eh? I'm a dark chocolate
mna, angikho mnyama...well that's what my momma said .
Mxm .
Let's see what this complicated industry has in store for us .
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*Mabutho*
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Me :"Hey baby" I greet Sena and she gives me a death stare .
Me :"Just think about why we're doing this Sena ... We're both
not ready . I work crazy hours and you also have work . Who will
raise this child?" I hate what I'm doing but I won't be raising no
bastard child mina . I won't lose my marriage because of
follicles.
She wiped the tears on her cheeks and takes the abortion pills I
had placed in front of her .
Sena :"I'll never forgive myself for this" I'd be lying if I say that
didn't move something in me but the only thing in my mind is
saving my marriage right now .
Me : "We'll go through it together baby . Just drink the pill" I say
calmly hiding my impatient tone .
She swallows the pill and drinks water with her eyes closed and
tears on her cheek.
I let out a breath of relief.
Sena : "I love you" she says . Yhu...
Me : "I- i- yea you too"
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*Mnotho*
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Mnotho : "What the fuck do you want from me Enhle? Tf do
you want?" She groans and then smashes the glass on the walls
Enhle : "I want you to man the fuck up Mnotho! You bitching
around and getting drunk ain't helping anybody . Grow up!" She
bangs the door on her way out .
This is what our lives have come to .
We fight like cat and dog and she ends up leaving to wherever...
*Huff*
I go to the kitchen and all I see is my daughter playing around .
This kitchen reminds me of her .
She died two years back...food poisoning at school.
I think that's when I lost my wife .
We both started living different lives .
She started having new friends and my only friend was the
bottle .
It's been a dreadful two years and the cracks in our marriage
are evident . Sometimes I wonder if they can be fixed .
My phone rings and I grunt looking at the ID .
I love my mom... believe me I do but ay this woman...heh eh.
Mnotho : "Mami"
Mami : "Nywanyi yokunuka. You better collect all your brothers
and get your ass over here by tomorrow when the clock hits
13:00 ok?" Akasalwi .
Mnotho :"But Ma uSabatha has a performance lined up in PE
tomorrow, Mabutho works i-day shift and Mbuyiseni has a gig
he has to MC" I lower my voice
Mami : "What did I say that makes it seem like ngiyanicela?
Angeke ngzale ingane engzophinde ngiyincenge. Now I'll say this
for the last time . Be here by 14:00 pm . Not a minute later . I
want the five of you in this roof . Nihlale khona lapho
maningafuni" that's my mother for you ... She's always
reminding us ukuthi akasincengi and then emotionally blackmail
us at the end .
Mnotho : "Kodwa Ma you're being unreasonable-"
Tu Tu Tu.
Did she just drop the call? This woman is unbelievable.
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*Thule*
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Thule : "Aybo I'm at work mina Mnotho . I can't make it there"
Mnotho : "Call her and tell her you won't be able to come.
Angizingeni" he hangs up leaving me frustrated . My mother
never insists we come unless they did something .
They messed up now we must stop living our lives and sort out
a mess each one of them create as if our lives aren't already a
mess mxm. Isdina nxn.
I get inside the taxi and bang the door scaring the lady next to
me .
I start the ignition and the lady handles the money and she's
pretty fast at counting . I know I would've struggled .
When she's done she gives it to me and puts her ear phones on
.
She opens the window and the cold wind blows towards my
face.
Thule : "Cela ungvalela ntokazi" she removes her earphones
and I repeat .
Girl : "Hay bhuti kuyashisa" I roll my eyes because of the
attitude laced in her tongue when she says this .
Thule : "Sisi wena ushiswa izono zakho awuvale lelo window"
she frowns and rolls the window up .
Girl : "I can't believe I'm using so much energy to roll a window
up when some cars have buttons for this" I roll my eyes again
Thule : "yet you don't have a car" she tries to respond and I just
increase the volume of the radio .
Ain't nothing as refreshing as UKhozi FM on a Sunday afternoon
Argh .
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FOLLOWING DAY
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As soon as I get out of the taxi all three of them run to me, open
the door and sit inside .
Me : "and then?"
Mnotho :"uMa uthe singangeni sishoda so we were waiting for
you"
Me :" . Uphi uMbuyiseni?"
Sabatha : "his "assistant" said they'll be here in a minute" I nod
Me :"let's go" they all look at me with furrowed eyebrows
Me :"senenzeni manje" they all shrug and I get out and walk
towards the door .
The cars parked on the drive way do catch my attention for a
second but I quickly brush them off .
I walk in and my brothers slowly follow me with their heads
bowed down .
I chuckle a bit .
This is how you walk like when you know your parents have
nothing on you...well except for the taxi business .
We move to the lounge .
There are two women sitting on the couch and the other one is
on the floor with her face bowed down .
I walk in and they all turn to look at me .
Mami : "Ziphi izihlama zakini?" My mom roars. Izihlama ? And
what happened to these three?
Me : "Ma I'll be back . They were behind me just now" honestly
my brothers are clowns .
I go back and they're right outside the taxi.
Me :"manje nina?"
Mabutho : "no we're just waiting for Mbuyiseni" on que
Mbuyiseni's G Wagon parks right opposite my taxi .
He gets out with Sab his guide dog...yes he did name his dog
after his brother .
Sabatha :"over here" he whispers and Sab comes to us .
Mbuyiseni :"manje nithi zishani?" He doesn't greet nor does he
say goodbye .
Me :"your brothers keep chickening out, that's what's
happening"
Mbuyiseni :"nenzeni kanti Nina?"
Sabatha :"lutho!" He shouts . A little louder than necessary
making me wonder if we're not here be because of him .
Mnotho :"ok magenge . Makushiwa langaphakathi sisha sonke
right?" We all nod .
Sabatha :"don't you guys think we should pray before going in?"
we all give him a bored look and he shrugs
Walking in we all grab chairs in the dining room and move to
the lounge .
When sitting we make unnecessary noise with the chairs...I
think it's because of habit really .
We used to do this to annoy mom.
When we finally settle down opposite our parents mom just
blurts out
Mami :"aw izinja zikaMdeva madoda"
Bafo(baba) : "ey'nkulu" ok this is not looking good. They don't
even have smiles on their faces
Mami : "ay get away from the bosses . Suk'emabhozeni" on any
normal day I'd find this hype funny but today it makes the
tension in the room thicker .
Mami : "I'll start with you Sabatha . Come forward please"
Sabatha gets up and moves to the centre with his chair .
We're kind of used to this .
It's going to be a looong afternoon . I just need snacks to
accompany it.
Bafo : "Sabatha do you know this girl?" He points at the girl with
his head
The girl raises her head and looks at him with a smile .
Sabatha : "yena she looks familiar nyana"
Girl : "we met at your album launch Sab."
Sabatha : "oh yea I remember you . Sorry I was wasted on that
day . It was an ill party"
Mami : "so great that you remember her . Umumithisile?" We
all gasp and Sabatha dramatically holds his chest .
Sabatha : "aybo Ma I don't even know how to have sex mina let
alone how to kiss" the four of us burst into laughter much to my
mother's annoyance .
She shoots us a look and the noise gradually dies down to
accomodate Mbuyiseni as well bc he didn't see the look .
Mami : "it's him mama . He'll pay the damages" my mom says
to the woman with the maroon shawl.
Sabatha : "ay ay ay mama cela ungangiphi izingane engingazazi .
I know how to use a condom mna . I always have one" thought
he said he doesn't know how to have sex....
He gets up and takes out his wallet .
He takes out three unused condoms
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and two others on his pocket .
He goes towards the woman with the maroon shawl and we all
look at him confused .
Sabatha :"sorry ma" the woman shifts a bit and Sabatha takes
out a bunch of unused condoms under the couch .
Sabatha :"See? I always have them. I have some in the car , in
my kitchen , bathroom , bedroom , lounge . Everywhere"
Mami :"Sabatha why do you have condoms in my house?" My
father bursts into laughter
Bafo :"the way I'm so proud of calling you my son" oh its going
to be a long night. Might as well get comfortable.
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*Sabatha*
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Mami :"Sabatha why do you have condoms in my house?" My
father bursts into laughter
Bafo :"the way I'm so proud of calling you my son" oh its going
to be a long night. Might as well get comfortable.
Mami : "why are you encouraging him Nathi?" My father's smile
instantly disappears . Only my mom can make him like this . It's
so funny to watch .
Bafoza : "I'm not my love . I'm just proud that he listened when I
told him to play it safe . That's all" my father shrugs making my
brothers giggle behind me. Mxm .
Me :"so Sisi who is your child's father because it definitely
wasn't me" she keeps her eyes on the floor.
Sisi : "uwena nje Sab" my brothers giggle . That sound is so
annoying . I thought uMnotho said masisha sisha sonke? Mxm
Me : "that's where my brother who's a doctor comes in .
Mabutho can you help us with DNA tests" He clears his throat
and I turn to look at him .
He nods .
The girl quickly looks at me with her eyes popped out .
Anonymous : "D- D- DNA?"
"Yes!!" Me and my brothers chant at the same time frightening
her .
Bafoza clears his throat and asks the important question , "Sisi
who's the father of this child?"
Her eyes water and my mother clicks her tongue
Aunt : "Lele how could you send us here knowing he's not the
father?" The woman scolds this girl who's trying to make me a
father .
Imagine...me? Fathering a child? Yhu some girls are brave .
Mami : "Can you discuss that outside my house . I have a lot of
things I need to sort out" I turn to look at my brother's and take
my tongue out .
Hehe one by one sise-court .
Mbuyiseni is literally the only chilled one . He always has his life
in order .
They get up with a tail in between their legs .
Bafoza : "Woza Mr Millionaire . Mr CEO . Mr 7 figures . Mr M4 .
Bhuti Sdakwa thath'indawo yakho"me and Mnotho exchange
seats
He sits with his jaw clenched .
Immediately his wife descends the steps .
I really don't know what he saw in this girl . He annoys me to be
honest. Flippin' ironing board.
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*Mnotho*
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As soon as my eyes laid on her I just knew she had ran to my
parents about our issues like she always does . It's frustrating
because whenever she tells my parents things they don't have a
choice but to get my side of the story and then it comes off as if
they're minding my marriage . Mxm .
She sits on the couch where the women were sitting on .
My mother huffs and rolls her eyes .
Mami : "what did you say the problem was Enhle?"
Enhle : "Mama Mnotho doesn't spend nights at home. He
comes back later elethwa ubhut'Thule drunk . I can't handle it
mina . I understand that he's grieving but-"
Bafo : "Mnotho follow me" the biggest part of me wants to
know what followed that "but" but at the same time I know it
would've given birth to another fight and I don't want to subject
my brothers to that .
My father leaves and we move towards the cottage outside the
house where me and my little family lived before we moved .
I haven't been here in ages .
There are cars parked next to it but my eyes are too focused on
the tree house and the swings we had made for uThingo . Those
were happy times.
When I'm in the lounge I realise the can of worms I've just
opened .
I want to get out of here...run and never look back . Run as far
away as my long legs can take me .
I shake my head reversing to the door and my father grabs my
hand .
Bafo : " Stop running and face things head on . You running out
of here won't make these memories disappear. Running won't
make your problems disappear Mnotho" I nod and he leads me
to her room .
As soon as he opens the door ,tears just flow .
Honestly I've never taken time to grieve her death. I've used
alcohol to block it and then when it gets out of my system I
want another drink .
Instead of alcohol helping me with my pain it gave birth to
another problem I have to deal with... alcoholism .
I take the human size teddy bear at the corner of the room and
hug it for a few second while crying .
She used to cuddle with it whenever her mother had made her
mad or something .
My princess.
UThingo kababa.
Bafo :"grieving and finding healing is a process just don't lose
yourself Mnotho. I'm not saying act as if everything is fine but
don't try to escape the pain so much , fake happiness hurts . Let
it hurt so it can heal..." He throws the teddy bear across the
room and hugs me .
My father is very affectionate for some reason .
Some people might find it a bit odd that sometimes he calls me
to tell me he loves me and actually kisses my forehead
sometimes, I just draw the line when he has to kiss my lips .
We've heard a lot of things since childhood to make us believe
that our father's lips have been around sies!
Bafoza : "Uyeke nokuba yisdakwa . Millionaire enjani Yona le
edakwa kangaka?" He frowns making me laugh through my
tears.
He wipes my tears roughly . Now I miss my mom with her soft
hands.
Foza :"it seems like things are tense with you and Enhle over
there. Are you fine?" I keep quiet for a second and then shake
my head .
Me :"honestly I don't know baba . She's suddenly so violent and
has a sharp tongue. I don't know bafo" I shake my head again
Bafo :"don't you think that maybe that's her way of crying for
help? I mean you used alcohol afterall. Don't underestimate the
healing power of tears..." He shrugs
Me : "maybe"
Bafo :"do you still love her?" Do I? She's the mother of my child
.
Me :"I don't know . I do love her it's just-"
Bafo :"stop answering things I did not ask you . Do you love her
Mnotho? If you don't and you only staying because you feeling
sorry for her you're only hurting yourself"
Me :"I love her" it goes quiet for a bit.
Bafo :"why was your brother staying at the basement in his
offices when all 4 of you have houses?" Hayke.
Me : "which brother? This is the first time I'm hearing of this"
Bafo :"uThule . UAdvocate State Secrecy ke loyo. Everything
about him is a mystery ."
Me :"I didn't know. He didn't tell me"
Bafo :"what do you mean he didn't tell you? Of course he won't
tell you, it's your duty to know . Mnotho I won't live forever .
One day you'll be the head of this house and you have to take
care of your mother and brothers."
Me :"I hate it when you talk like that. I'll check up on him"he
shakes his head.
Bafo :"don't . Let him do his thing... whatever it is he's doing
."he rolls his eyes .
Bafo :"let's go and sort out another brother of yours . If I don't
die because of Mabutho then I'm the strongest father under the
sun" ayke who doesn't like people's gossip.
Me :"what did he do now?"
Bafo :"he's girlfriend is outside in that blue car . Your mother
requested she gives us space so we can sort out uNumber 4."
This number business can be a bit confusing .
Me :"why is the girlfriend here again?"
Bafo :"I don't know. She said she has something to tell us .
Apparently she didn't know he was married" yhu hay Mabutho .
I really want to help Mabutho with this one but no he'll never
grow up if I keep on sheltering him.
We walk in and all their tired half shut eyes run to us .
My father rolls his eyes .
I'm not going back to that seat mina .
Bafo :"Advocate Condom kambe what is a bitch called in your
hip hop language?" My father is weird .
Sabatha :"a thot bafo"
Mami :"a thought?"
Me :"yes Ma that."I just want us to get to the freshest gossip.
Bafo :"Can Doctor Thot take a seat ."
Mami :"UDoctor Hoe . It's so ironic that you're breaking hearts
yet you're a cardiologist yazi" we all giggle
Mami :"Sabatha go fetch that lady on the car outside" he thinks
of protesting until he sees the look Mami gives him .
After a few seconds he comes back with...a Goddess.
It's like I'm seeing the first of her kind.
My eyes stay on her small lips that are moving but I can't seem
to hear the sound .
She has cut a fade and has little or no make up but her lips
appear a bit darker than her skin tone
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I wonder why . Maybe it's that black pencil Enhle sometimes
uses.
I move my eyes from her face and examine the body .
She has a long neck, collar bone , small tits and petite body .
She looks like those that stress on following a certain diet .
All in all she has-
"Mnotho!"I blink a couple of times and look at Sabatha
Sabatha :"don't even think about it ndoda . Yizibe lento
ekutshela ukuthi ufebe. Yizibe " he whispers and I chuckle .
She greets and sits down on the couch .
My eyes move to Thule and he has a packet of snacks .
I really want to get to Thule's level of chill. He has what I yearn
for...peace . So ironic...
He passes the snacks to us and I give them to Mbuyiseni who
thanks me with a smile .
His optimism is infectious.
Mabutho :"Se- Sena what are you doing here?" She wipes her
tear and focuses on my parents . I have this big desire to jump
to her and hug her or maybe kiss her dark lips . She probably
smells like strawberry or something .
Sena :"I'm here to defend my child Mabutho" she even has a
deep hoarse voice, I don't know wether that is caused by crying
too much but either way I love it .
Wait wait ...what child?
Mami :"what child are you talking about ntombazane?" She
turns to look at Mabutho who bores holes on the floor
Sena :"are you just going to keep quiet Mabutho? Aren't you
going to tell your parents about the child you convinced me to
abort ? Our child Mabutho?" There are a number of gasps the
room . Yea no this I didn't expect .
Mami :"abortion Mabutho?" I see her eyes water and my father
clenches his jaws at the sight of my mother's teary eyes .
Butho :"mama I didn't have a choice I swear"
Mami :" so you convinced her to have an abortion? Didn't I ask
you if you're ready for marriage Mabutho? Angikubuzanga?"
Bafo :"let's go talk Butho . After this talk you're getting the hell
out of my yard and go tell your wife about your thot ways" it's
actually very disturbing that my parents think it's ok to use this
word.
My mother sniffs and exits the room . I guess this hits her more
than all of us for some reason .
Butho follow Bafo out and I just know he'll be battered when he
comes back .
Sabatha :"so sis all along you didn't know you were bonking a
married man?" Bonking?
Sena :"no . I swear i didn't know" I see panic in her eyes . I
wonder what she hoped to accomplish by coming here .
Mbuyiseni :"don't worry . It's not your fault"
.
.
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*Thule*
.
.
.
Enhle has been staring at Mnotho who is totally oblivious to the
stares because of focusing on this mysterious Sena .
Poor Sena better stay away , this woman is as crazy as they get .
I slowly get up and go squeeze myself next to Mamiza on the
couch in her room.
Luckily it accommodates the two of us .
I hug her tightly and he sighs .
Mami :"did I do something wrong when raising you guys Thule?
Did I shelter you guys so much that you're scared of taking
responsibility?" She asks
Me :"Ma you did everything right . You can teach us all these
morals and principles but you can't go out there and live our
lives . You can only go as far Superwoman" she chuckles and
pulls out of the hug .
Mami :you worry me Thule . You're secretive..." I fight the
desire to roll my eyes.
Me :"I'm not secretive . You guys just don't ask" I shrug
Mami :"Why don't you ask your brothers for help kanti you
know they'd-"
Thule :"cha Ma . Just because they are my brothers doesn't
mean they owe me . No one owes me success but myself and
mama I will do it , I will buy you that house in Midrand and that
M4 at my own pace . Even if it takes me 20 years but we will do
it . It may not take me as long as you expected kodwa impilo
iyancengwa . Bear with me Sthandwa Sam" I pull her in for a
hug and she giggles .
Mami :"don't do it for me . Do it for yourself Thule . Do it to
prove to yourself that anything worth having doesn't come
easy."
Thule :"believe me I know that . I'll be successful for you mama .
I also want to take you to spas and buy you a house . You're the
sole reason I wake up and want to grind sal'kwazi Sam" she
pushes me off
"Sal'kwazi isiphongo sentombi yakho nxn" she laughs sweetly
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*Mbuyiseni*
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.
.
Me :"why am I here kanti?" I hear chuckles .
Sabatha :"moral support hau"
Me :"I'm sooo tired of supporting y'all's asses mna"
Sabatha :"then you're tired of being our brother because you'll
do that until you kick the bucket"
The minute I get up Sab is on my feet .
"Relax boy I'm just sitting next to your twinnie over there" I
brush him a bit and just lightly kick my way to the couch .
Fortunately for me mom brought new furniture which is softer
and there aren't any glasses in sight so I don't get hurt when my
guard dog isn't nearby .
I throw myself right next to Sabatha roughly and he groans .
Sabatha :"you could've just asked me for help instead of
fracturing my rib man" mxm. I lean on the back of the couch
and I feel his arm wrap around my shoulders .
Sabatha :"so where's that hot P.A of yours?" He has always had
a crush on Lindy it's not even funny.
Me :"is she really that cute?" I hate that I can't even testify to
her beauty but it could've been worse.
Sabatha :"she's cute and she wants you"
Me :"naah man . She's probably feeling sorry for me "
Sabatha :"now you're just feeling sorry for yourself and that's
not my brother" he lightly punches my shoulder
Me :"how does she look?" He chuckles .
Sabatha :"freckled. Has a cute gap teeth and a dimple on only
one side . And her body....damn. But I'll let you explore it if you
take the chance" I chuckle and relax in his arm .
.
.
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*Sabatha*
.
.
.
Mbuyiseni is probably the most annoying human being under
the sun.
The minute his ass gets comfortable , he sleeps . Nxn .
This Sena lady excuses herself and we all fall in loud silence . I
think each one of us wants to know what's happening on the
other room .
Enhle gets up and disappears to the kitchen .
<There's a mansion party in North Cliff. Pull through bro>
One of my friends text me . There's nothing happening here
anyway .
Mnotho :"I hope you're saving money njalo Sabatha" he
reminds me for the hundredth time . I don't understand why he
thinks saving is the solution.
INVESTMENTS!!
Saving is thinking for tomorrow but investments may be
generation , depending how you look at it .
I want to leave a legacy that'll outlive my mortal existence and I
don't see how saving has anything to do with it but yea I am
saving and looking for good investments.
Me :"I am bhuti." He looks at Mbuyiseni . I think he's looking
through him because he's deep in thought .
Me :"Sena?" I whisper and he chuckles .
Mnotho :"not really but maybe 75% of my brain is stuck on her"
manje what does 'not really' mean ? Mxm
Me :"get drunk or something . That girl has already been
through enough. She doesn't need Hurricane Enhle hitting her
life" he nods .
Me :"Ayke ayhlukane ingaze iywayelane amasimba" I get my car
keys
Mnotho :"ayxabene" ay I know the mother will call and scold
me for something later on so let me give her a reason.
.
As soon as I park my car there are a number of people trying to
take pictures with me and some waiting for me to leave so they
can take pictures outside my car . I'm used to it now .
All I have to do is constantly smile ,put my hands wherever the
hoes are at so they don't get too close .
One time this guy asked me for a picture after taking a shit and
even hand shakes me . I gave up on South Africans on that day .
I walk in and spot Trey( a friend of mine) by the bar . I'm literally
the only person in my family who has friends. My brothers have
never been interested. My father said friends are trouble.
We greet and do a bro hug .
He then leads me to what looks like an office .
There are people separated in groups and quite a lot of noise.
Luckily the people here know me so making conversation and
having fun is not really that hard .
After an hour or two of great conversation, I think I'm getting a
bit tipsy now .
They all gather around in a group and take turns in bending and
then whipping their head up .
It's like a pattern ... Bend and then whip your head up . Weird .
All of them do this and then look at me .
I walk towards the desk and what I see leaves me shocked.
Me :"no. No. No..." I shake my head and I see DJ Zon take his
head and roll his eyes .
DJ Zon :"just take a whiff man and have a good time" he hands
me the note that's been rolled into a pipe .
I bend slowly contemplating whether to do this or not .
The second I place the money on my nose I remember my
mother telling me she trusts me .
She told me to take care of Mbuyiseni because the world
wouldn't hold back when it comes to him.
Me :"Nah man I can't do this" he groans obviously frustrated
Zon :"what's so hard about this?"
Me :"hay do you know my mother wena? Has that woman ever
given you a death stare. Has my father ever choked you . My
eldest brother's clap can send you straight to ICU so please
nje..." I collect my shit and get ready to leave
"He's just a pussy ass nigga" one of them say but I don't turn to
look at who it is . Yhu I'm scared of my parents mna .
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FOLLOWING DAY
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*THULE*
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.
.
I think listening to commuters tell their different stories on an
early Monday morning has to be the funnest thing because
sometimes you have to keep a still face no matter how funny
something is.
This woman has been telling this story to his neighbour I think
ever since we left the rank and bear in mind it has been quiet
but the lady , remember the rude one who kills taxi maths?
She's been groaning and rolling her eyes ever since.
The woman :"Ngyaktshela mkhozi phela mina I helped him with
my lobola since he wasn't working . Aybo ngiyiphipha indoda , I
was feeding him , dressing him , engena lutho ..." She gets
disturbed by two people who want to be dropped off at Esando
I don't wish to be them right now .
She continues , "five months down the line I help him get a job .
You know, trying to make sure he gets to live a better life kanti
ngyazimoshela . Two months working . TWO MONTHS mkhozi
he's telling me that yena he has met the love of his life and
wants to marry him . Aybo ngangakholwa, nganga-believe...." I
see the lady groan and roll her eyes again .
Since I don't know her name let's call her... sis'Samu . Her aura
kind of reminds me of my grandmother, very aggressive and
abrasive .
sis'Samu :"Uyithathaphi lento oyenzileyo? Who taught you that
rubbish? Why on earth did you help him with your lobola?
These are the results of your damn actions mntase .
Awumncedisi umfana ngokhupha ilobola . You don't do that
tshiini" she then looks forward and puts on her ear phones
leaving all those who wanted to chip in their comments
nodding their head and mumbling unaudible things .
Finally I reach the rank in Kempton park and they all get off .
I leave my taxi in the que and go grab a bite in Chicken Licken .
When I come back my taxi hasn't moved , I groan . I'm not
spending another minute in this rank . The only thing that's
being talked about is enema . It's taking every peace of my
manhood not to actually roll my eyes.
According to these taxi drivers man's clinic is for whites, enema
is number one and imbiza yakhona ithengiswa e-rank . I didn't
even know that. Mxm Zulu men and thinking they have a herbal
solution for everything .
I bid farewell and get into my taxi .
When I exit the rank something catches my eye near KFC and it
seems like all the fellow commuters are quite excited by it too .
Sabatha's eyes wonder around until they find my taxi . He
shouts something looking back and all my brothers come into
view carrying boxes of KFC .
They jog towards my taxi with San the dog leading
Mbuyiseni...oh wait the pretty assistant is here too. She looks a
little lost and out of place but she keeps a brave face ...
probably for Mbu . Qt.
Me :"what are you guys doing here?"
Mnotho :"we're here to help you rank for the whole day"
Me :"aybo wena Mr CEO? Who's running your company ?" He
rolls his eyes .
Mnotho :"I have more than 60 workers mina" this time it's my
turn to roll my eyes .
They hop in and we make way to MTN rank .
Along the way I've been stopping Sabatha from hooting and
calling commuters to the taxi . This one will be the death of me .
.
Spending the whole day with my brothers and letting them in
on what will be my life for a year max and them not having
judged me is kind of nice . Having your family's support and
them cheering you on has to be the most underrated thing and
honestly I'm grateful that my family doesn't take that lightly .
We're back in Kempton park and this is really the last time I'm
coming here for the day . Sabatha is the one that's counting
money, he's the only one who holds an accounting degree in
the family . I wonder how he went from being a Chartered
accountant to a rapper ...imilingo .
After dropping the commuters off we turn and bump into
sis'Samu who doesn't ask a lot of questions but opens the door
of the front seat and rolls her eyes when he sees Sabatha there
.
Sabatha :"yhu Mbuyiseni bro how I wish I was you right now"
yes we do make jokes about Mbu's blindness sometimes .
We've lived with it for more than 10 years now so... *Shrugs*
She folds her arms and looks at Sabatha with a death stare. He
then looks at me with a smirk.
Me :"aybo ngazelaphi mina? This isn't her aunt's taxi . Sisi get in
the back like everyone else when there isn't space in the front
seat"
She bangs the door and opens the one on the the back. She
gets uncomfortable a bit when she sees my brothers but relaxes
when her eyes land on Lindy .
So sad being a woman .
I start the car .
Sabatha :"So Sisi what's your name?"
She's been so caught up trying to untangle her earphones and I
think this is some sort of disturbance to her .
sis'Samu :"Funeka...Funeka Fakude"
Mbuyiseni :"Oh Funeka...Funeka Fakude where do you work" I
hear chuckles
The lady who I now come to know as Funeka turns to look at
Mbuyiseni .
Funeka :"what did you say your name was again?" Why is she
frowning like that?
Mbuyiseni :"Mbuyiseni... Mbuyiseni Mwelase" she nods .
Funeka :"well Mbuyiseni where I work is really none of your
business." Sabatha bursts into laughter and Mbuyiseni
dramatically gasps
Mbuyiseni :"Sisi uphoxa impumputhe?" This line has always
guilt tripped people . They always fall for it every fucken time .
Funeka :"mxm . Xayiphapha ndiyithini kemna... currently I'm
unemployed" she shrugs and shoves her earphones in her bag
Mnotho :"where did you work Funeka Fakude?" He's way too
nice for his own good. People always say I'm soft but Mnotho...
he's compassionate and generous on top of being soft . It's just
his tough and dark exterior that makes it seem like he's not.
Funeka :"I was doing PR for Tulip , a lodge that's closing down
mxm ." She grunts .
Mnotho :"you can contact me if you're looking for a job or
anything" he hands him his business car and she smiles .
Funeka :"thank you but I really am not looking for a job right
now . I want to have a career . I don't think after this I want to
work for anyone" Mnotho looks at her impressed . Atleast we
have one thing in common . I'd never work for anyone .
She fiddles with her phone for a bit and them shoves the
business card outside the window making Mnotho gasp in
shock.
Mnotho :"yho sisi that's my money" she just shrugs and relaxes
.
.
We had to drop her off at her house because we really weren't
on our way to the rank and she kind of hijacked our ride.
.
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*Mnotho*
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.
.
I park my car and groan just thinking about going in that house .
Argh .
I walk in and my eyes fall to the rose petals carefully placed on
the floor leading our bedroom through the stairs . I follow them
slowly and get to the destination .
She's wearing a red lacey lingerie and it hugs her plain body
nicely lol . Enhle isn't exactly gifted in the booty and hips
industry .
I think it's her confidence that makes it seem like she has all
these things on lockdown .
Me :"wow babe you...you look so sexy"
Enhle :"I know daddy . Want to undress me?" She asks
seductively.
I guess it's one of those days where we aren't fighting and let
me take advantage of it because when we do all gloves are off
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*Mabutho*
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.
.
This is the hardest thing I've ever had to do .
She looks at me expectantly . How do I break her heart like
that?
Ze :"what's wrong baby . Talk to me" I blink my tears and grunt
Me :"baby just know I didn't mean to break your heart ok?" She
frowns and nods reluctantly .
Me :"last year I went to Durban for that work conference
remember?" She nods again
Me :"I met someone there and... and we started hanging out."
She's in a trance...just blinking .
I continue , "we... we kind of had a relationship . She didn't
know I was married." Her tears fall
Ze :"How many times have we been here Mabutho ? How many
times must I forgive you? Am I not sexy enough for you?" She
breaks down with each question .
Me :"I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry baby please I can't lose you" I
move towards her and I'm stopped by the lightning that strikes
in my cheeks .
Damn!
Ze :"is this what I get for loving you Mabutho? Is this what I get
for staying faithful and ditching my life for you? You can't even
stay faithful? How could you do this to me Butho?"I come closer
and try to hold her .
She punches me through the hug until she allows my arms to
wrap around her and she weeps on my chest .
The fact that she's on my arms mean a lot to me .
.
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*Zenande*
.
.
.
I want to shout at him . I want to curse him but I'm so broken.
I know even my words will never make this man faithful .
Here, in his arms I decide I'm done.
I'm going to choose me .
Me before him .
So weird how he's the one the breaks me and is able to calm
me down again . Totally mind baffling.
I calm down and pull out of the hug.
Me :"why now? You've cheated on me before why do you want
to come clean now?"
Butho :"Uhm i- i-"
Me :"Khuluma man Mabutho!!" I snap
Butho :"I impregnated her and asked her to do an abortion"
right then I realise I don't know the man I've married . I don't
know this animal in front of me .
I push him off
I can't stop the look of disgust in my eyes .
He repulses me .
Me :"uyinja Mabutho . I don't want anything to do with you" I
grab the key that was next to the mirror and run out.
When I'm in the car I hurry to the one woman who has become
a mother and a friend to me .
I put aside the fact that she is Butho's mother and actually sped
to her house.
I ring the bell and it goes quiet . I ring it again aggressively.
"Akunamuntu hau" that has to be my father in law.
He's a clown . It's a pity today I'm not up for the jokes .
Me :"baba can I talk to uMa."
Baba :"Ze what are you doing here at this hour?" Really ? When
I'm outside the gate?
Me :"I need to talk to umama please" the gate opens and I drive
in .
The minute I Nsingizi appears in the door wearing a very short
silky gown .
Of course they were bonking.
I don't know such adults mna .
I run to her arms and she shushes me and pulls me in the
house.
Mami :"everything will be just fine sthandwa sami" she brushes
my back until I calm down .
Mami :"now tell Dr Phil what's going on" Dr Phil?
Me :" he cheated on me mami . Again . This time he
impregnated her and practically forced her to have an abortion"
her eyes pop and she gasps .
I thought she would've known . This family is rather tight.
The guys always run to one of the parents... it's cute
sometimes.
Mami :"unamanga wena?" She clasps her mouth
Me :"I wish"
Mami :"lenja yengane" she gets up and exits to the kitchen .
I relax on the couch and face the ceiling.
There are footsteps and I don't even bother checking who it is .
After a few seconds there are whispers coming from the kitchen
.
Baba :"aybo now who will keep me warm hau?"
Mami :"there's an electric blanket baba kaMnotho" she giggles
sweetly
Baba :"I didn't pay lobola to an electric blanket mina . I want my
wife's ass"
Mami :"aybo baba a child is in the other room" she giggles
again .
Baba :"we'll keep it down hau" sawbaweli lomshado . You can
honestly count the number of times they fight. It's so cute.
Me :"I can hear you guys , you know" I roll my eyes and mami
run back to the lounge with a tub of ice cream and a bottle of
wine.
Baba walks in carrying two glasses and another bottle of wine .
Baba :"yea wena ngane" I giggle . I can't believe I have the
energy to even smile , I'm just amazed by the fact that he greets
me like this because of ass.
Me :"sawubona baba" he rolls his eyes
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puts the things on the table and leaves .
I lean on the couch and put my head on Mami's shoulder .
Baba comes back with a blanket and shoves it at the both of us
making us laugh then he leaves .
She pours a bottle of wine and we fall into comfortable silence .
We watch Me before you and ends with both of us in tears.
TEARS .
That's exactly what I need .
She opens the second one . I'm quarter past tipsy .
Mami :"so what are you going to do now?"
Me :"I'm leaving . I'm tapping out" she nods
Mami :"don't take a decision from the top of your head. Did you
think it through?" I nod
Me :"ma you know we've been here before and it's quite clear
that he'll never change" she nods again.
Mami :"I promised your father I'll love and protect you like my
own . I wouldn't want my child to stay in a marriage like this .
You deserve happiness Ze and if my son isn't serving then
sekphelile" she shrugs . She's been supportive from day one
and I'm grateful she wasn't biased .
Mami :"where to from here? You're still young phela Ze" I shrug
Me :"I don't know ma I'd planned my whole life around him.
Didn't even continue with studying because of him" she shakes
her head
Mami :"you're a little naive Ze . That's your problem. You see
good in everything and stay oblivious to the bad ." I groan . Not
because I disagree but because she's right . Who in their right
mind ditches varsity because a man's career is at it's peek?
Mami :"I'll pay for your lawyer fees and here's what you'll do..."
She shifts a bit on the couch to find a comfortable position .
Mami :"take him to the cleaners" my eyes pop.
She shrugs , "what? Take him to the cleaners hau . Your heart is
broken and he must compensate it" is she serious ?
Me :"aybo ma" she rolls her eyes
Mami :"nywanyo ma Ini Zenande? Uzohlala klomshado uhlalele
izinyembezi?" I shake my head
Mami :"mawuphuma ke kmele uphume ngevosho" I laugh
lightly
Mami :"ok seriously . Take everything from him and let's see if
he'll still be attractive to his hoes . Without you supporting him
he wouldn't have that house and those two cars so take them .
Take what's yours hau . I'll help you pay the fees for the lawyer.
Take him to the cleaners and use that money to go back to
school and fetch your life" she winks at me. She's amazing .
.
.
.
*Lindy*
(Unedited)
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.
.
I can't believe I forgot to book that flight .
I've been so focused on sending out my CV that I forgot about
my job.
I quickly book a flight for five . That's how we always travel .
Him , me , his manager and his "entourage" . Have never seen
an entourage of two people but that's how he wants it .
He's quite picky I may say .
After booking the flight I hurry to Sunninghill .
Use my key and walk in.
As expected he's still asleep .
I take out his clothes and prepare a bath for him .
I'm basically responsible for his style with the help of his
brothers of course .
That's what I do and that's how my day usually starts .
Me :"Mbuyiseni!" I shake him a bit and he groans . Like he
always does.
Me :"Vuka hau" I shake and remove his blanket from his upper
body . I don't want to faint .
He gets up and stratches his body exposing his caramel body.
Mbuyiseni :"uyahlupha kodwa Lindy" I love the way he says my
name . I like the sound of his voice . I live the way he smells .
That's the sole reason I want a new job . I'll never get to have
him and fighting my emotions seems to be too much of a
mission .
Me :"yea yea . Go bath" he exits to the ensuite bathroom . he's
done so well for himself even with his disability. It's so amazing .
After a few minutes of him bathing I walk into his walk in closet
and take a peek at his watch collection.
There's nothing here that is than R70 000 .
I squile when I see this really quite grey one .
It is engraved with his name at the back .
Even if he wanted he would've give me this one, he was flexing
on his brothers the other day . Apparently it is worth R100 000.
I know his finances and I also can't get over how accomplished
he is . It confuses me even more that they allow his brother to
be a taxi driver .
"Leave my watches alone Lindani" he brings me out of my
thoughts. Wait .
Me :"what? can you see me?" He giggles .
It always breaks my heart when I see his medical aid statement
from his optometrist that he still doesn't know what's
happening.
Sometimes I rip them off and don't even tell him until he forgets
.
He chuckles
Mbuyiseni :"unfortunately I don't. It doesn't need rocket
science to know you'd be there"
He's fully dressed .
He moves towards me. Isn't he supposed to be blind?
Mbuyiseni :"I'm following your scent" like he read my mind .
He stands next to me ...too close . God damnit he smells nice.
Smells like money and sheer power .
Mbuyiseni :"you smell like flowers...lilies in particular" he's
sense of smell is quite sharp .
Me :"tha- tha-" *clears throat* tf is wrong with me . "Thank
you" he chuckles .
Mbuyiseni :"can I touch your face"

🧠 : You don't even have to ask baby

Me :"oh yes you can" I turn to face him and his hands travel to
my cheeks .
Haybo I'm on could nine. I can't feel my feet . Aybo God has
sent angel Gabriel .
He moves his hands to my nose and brushes it lightly .
Mbuyiseni :"Sabatha said you have freckles" I nod and then I
remember he can't see me
Me :"I do" he moves it to my lips . He moves his hands to my
lips and brushes them lightly .
He better net be brushing my lips like that and not kiss me .
Angangivuseli uhlevane yer.
I move them slowly to his and he chuckles then drops his hands
.
Mbuyiseni :"there's a lot more I want to explore I'm in no hurry"
he turns and exits .
Those CVs... What a waste of time. Angiyi ndawo mina
7
*Mabutho*
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.
Me :"Mamiza she left me" I cry with my head on her lap . My
father would say I need a double dose of masculinity but I don't
care right now.
Mami :"uyalayeka kodwa fanozi kamama" she says brushing my
head with a smile .
Who's mother is she? Is it even legal to say this to your child?
Me :"Ma how can you say that?" I say in between my sobs . Ok
maybe that's a bit melodramatic but who cares? I'm
heartbroken.
Mami :"Just stop acting like a victim . You were out there
hoenessing and you forgot about your wife . I asked you if you
were ready for marriage because I knew deep down you're you
grandfather's clone nx" she keeps on poking my head with each
sentence .
Me :"Ma please..."
Mami :"hay Mabutho I won't be sitting here and sugar coating
the truth . I wouldn't be doing my duty as a parent. You didn't
do right by that girl . Sooner or later she was going to leave and
I'm glad it's now . I expected her to do it sooner but ke , better
late than never" she shrugs. Isn't she supposed to have my
back?
Me :"ma I really love her . I didn't mean to do all that to her . It
was just ..."
Mami :"just selfishness" she continues
Me :"yea that" she keeps quiet and plays with my ear .
Mami :"have you checked on that girl?" I was secretly hoping
she wouldn't ask that .
I shake my head and she chuckles... bitterly.
Mami :"I expected batter from you Butho kamama. I really did"
her voice breaks .
I can't get myself to remove my head and look at her . I've failed
her, Ze and Sena . For what?
Me :"I'm sorry mami . I really am" I tilt my head to look at her
and she has tears in her eyes .
Mami :"your marriage reminds me of this story I once heard." I
properly put my head on her lap and get comfortable .
Mami :"it's a story of a young naive girl . She was 22 years old I
think . Grew up with everything . She met a guy... Let's call him
Sbusiso . She met Sbusiso back in varsity and they were quite
tight . A few months later Sbusiso abruptly leaves without
telling anyone . This young girl continues with her life but a few
months down the line nangu uSbusiso. Right then she decided
that he's not letting him pass her like that. He didn't even court
her but because she was already head over heels she let it pass
. Sbusiso started telling her what to wear , if she didn't follow
his rules there'd be punishments...." She stops and takes a deep
breath . This girl must've been really close to her for her to look
like this.
She continues ,"At some point he'd rape her but she stayed .
How stupid" really stupid
Mami :"She got pregnant eventually and guess what they guy
did?"
Me :"married her?" She chuckles .
Mami :"He fooled her into thinking he wants this baby and put
abortion pills on her drink" that's sad .
Me :"she ended up leaving him right?" She chuckles and nods .
Mami :"I saw myself in that girl's eyes . Broken and putting up a
front for the public. You....you remind me of him"
Me :"don't compare me to that coward. What- what do you
mean Sena reminds you of yourself ? Are you the girl in the
story?" She chuckles and continues brushes my head while
humming Sabrina Claudio's rumours .
Me :"Ma!" My father walks down the stairs with a frown .
Bafo :" we didn't go 50/50 on that lobola . You don't just shout
at my wife" I want to roll my eyes but I'm already in the dog box
so I keep quiet .
Bafo :"why is this one here MaNgcobo?"
She chuckles and pushes me off her lap.
Mami :"I was just telling him ukuthi kuyanyiwa kwa-For better
or for worse . They thought it was a game" she falls in Bafo's
arms and giggles .
They make marriage look so easy.
I wonder how Bafo did it? Being faithful and shit
*Sabatha*
I fall on top of her after a massive orgasm .
After a few minutes of gathering up strength I get up to the
kitchen . She better be prepping herself for round three.
I grab a bottle of water and down half of it.
I grab another one for....her. She said she is Anita or Tamika or
something . I don't know .
When I open the door to my room she's in her underwear .
Disobeying the second rule of my bedroom.
The first one being DON'T WEAR SHOES INSIDE MY BEDROOM .
My carpet is expensive . I brought it in India . Shit is
irreplaceable .
Natina (ok forgive me I really don't know her name ) :"Sab I was
thinking we should catch a movie" movie? Uyadlala
Me :"gather your strength . Remove that underwear" she
giggles and removes her underwear.
Natina :"you have Netflix right?"
Me :"yea I do but this isn't a cinema. Dunusa" her eyes pop .
I jerk my penis looking at her.
Natina :"You don't really have to make it that obvious that I'm
here for sex" I roll my eyes until they touch the brain.
Me :"Askies . Get out of my house keh" she frowns and quickly
covers it up with a seductive smile .
Natina :"come on daddy"
Me :"good . Umdidi phezulu" I say pointing at the bed .
"Bhuti" I greet him and his eyes stay on that paper .
Me :"hay phela Mnotho" I grab the paper and he groans .
A lot of boys out there don't have people to look up to but I
have my brothers and my father .
Mnotho is all types of goals when it comes to making
money...not so much when it comes to women .
Mnotho is an alpha male and Thule is kind of the opposite yet
still a bit intimidating . Me...I fly with the wind.
And Mbuyiseni is a plain beta . Not intimidating at all . Very soft
spoken and understanding .
I actually started selling my music because of Mnotho . Started
writing people's songs and billing because of Mnotho . Doing
everything for money because of him .
Mnotho is an economist . He has to benefit in everything he
does .
People pay to have lunch with him .
People pay for his advise when it comes to business and he
happens to be my brother.
Wouldn't you be proud as well?
Mnotho :"what do you want Sabatha? Don't you have a gig or
something to do?"
Me :"nope .not really. Only have a meeting with my manager
later on" I shrug and sit on the visitors chair .
Mnotho :"couldn't you bother Mbuyiseni? You know I work
with time Sabatha" I roll my eyes and he frowns . See? He's so
intimidating.
Me :"come on just spare an hour for your handsome brother?"
Mnotho :"who? Thule?" Mxm .
I study the work on the page for a second earning me frown .
Me :"these don't balance bafo"
Mnotho :"I know . I've been cracking my brain with that" he
gives me another page .
I fix the imbalance and spend the next 15 minutes showing him
where the mistake is and how he can avoid it .
Mnotho :"I don't get it Sabatha . Explain it slower this time. Like
you're talking to a preschooler" I huff. I've beeen explaining this
.
Me :"I'm very sorry to say this kodwa uyisdomu shame bhuti
yhu . I've been explaining this hau" he gives me a death stare
making me clear my throat .
Me :"ok keh sorry . But I expect a cheque after this" he gives me
an annoying smile .
Mnotho :"hau bhuti wami." I shake my head
Me :"hay Bafo . I'm expecting R7 500 before the end of business
day"
Mnotho :"Uthanda imali Sabatha" Usfumbu ubona uqhaqhazela
. I roll my eyes at the irony .
Me :"ok but I want my money"
Mnotho :"you're a natural at this Sabatha . Numbers are your
thing . You love working with numbers" there he goes .
Me :"I don't love numbers . I'm fine where I am"
Mnotho :"There are so many companies like us in need of your
services . Think about it . You do this effortlessly . Imagine doing
it for the rest of your life" I'd die . I don't like working with
numbers . It's something that's as natural as breathing. You
don't have to like it but you do it anyway.
Me :"I'll think about it. Let's go out for lunch" he groans and
rolls his eyes. If only people knew the big shot self-made
millionaire rolls his eyes they'd never believe me .
Mnotho :"time Sabatha . Time" he points at his Hublo watch.
Me:"have lunch with me then I cancel that cheque" he smiles
and grabs his car keys .
Me :"we're using my car" he frowns
Mnotho :"no way . I don't want that scrap of a car to get stuck
in the middle of freeway yhu" RS5 coupe a scap? This one is
mad crazy .
Me :"don't start Mnotho" he follows me to the parking lot and
he groans when he sees me next to the car .
Mnotho :"if I dare die because of that skorokoro of yours
uzonya" he gets in the passenger seat sulking. He's such a girl .
Getting a table at Southern Sun is so much easier when you're
Sab the rapper and your brother is Mnotho Mwelase .
When we walk in people turn to look at...Mnotho.
I see drool on the ladies and envy in the men .
I turn to look at Mnotho and his dark self has a serious face and
a little frown . He walks and passes people like his oblivious of
all these stares , like they don't affect him at all .
The lady comes and takes our order staring at Mnotho . Aybo
he's wearing a ring I'm the one who's not .
She leaves .
Me :"how do you do it? You're literally so intimidating and
women still want you ." He chuckles .
Mnotho :"I don't know"
Me :"come on Mnotho . I also want to walk like the world is on
my feet"
Mnotho :"but it is. It is all in your head" I roll my eyes .
He continues
"Look Sabatha , you dress like a boy , you smell like a teenager
and those dreads on your head are unattractive. Your image is
so influenced by the society making people your source of
confidence. Everyone has had a piece of you and that will
reflect badly on you, I'd never respect someone who doesn't
respect himself . That stupid walk you have going on makes me
want to puke . And fuck stop with that stupid skrr skrr accent
it's not attractive" my jaw is on the floor .
Me :"why didn't you tell me all these things?"
Mnotho :"damn I've been wanting to tell you all of this . I feel
like some weight has been lifted off my shoulders" he
dramatically sighs
Me :"uyinja Mnotho" he giggles . The lady brings the food still
looking at Mnotho .
Me :"aybo sisi i-ring le" I shove Mnotho's left hand on her face
and she remains unfazed .
Waitress :"I don't mind" he gives her a dead stare and she
scurries off .
Me :"ok dude I get your point" he chuckles
Mnotho :"Dress like your age . Meeting you should be an
experience, you smell like Sta Soft thanks to Gloria . Your
clothes? Oh God . Attend those Durban July things . Events that
allow you to explore when it comes to fashion , keep things as
simple as possible . Why the hell is your back slurched when
you walk? Stop speaking so much Sabatha . Speak when spoken
to . Let your eyes do the talking . And for the love of God stop
sleeping with the fucking nation" he says and grunts .
Me :"me? Don't start with me"
Mnotho :"ok when last did you have sex?" Do I have to lie
Me :"last month" a little lie here and there never killed anyone.
Mnotho :"who did you sleep with?"
Me :"An- Nal- Nalitha. Along those lines"
Mnotho :"see? Everyone's had a piece of you Sabatha . In
lighter terms uyi-hoe" mxm. I eat while sulking .
His phone rings .
"Hello....who am I speaking to?....oh yes I've been expecting
your call....set up a meeting with my assistant then we'll
talk....uuhm ok I'll send them to you just now.... Goodbye" he
drops the call and frowns .
Mnotho :"this is weird" I raise my eyebrows in a questioning
manner.
Mnotho :"remember that girl we lifted using Thule's taxi..." I
nod , "she says she doesn't want a job but wants Thule's
numbers"
Me :"and you promised her that? You know how much he hates
that . He's going to kill you" he rolls his eyes and fiddles with his
phone
8
*Mnotho*
.
.
.
A few ladies giggle when we pass . Automatically I turn to look
behind me and catch Sabatha imitating my walk .
He seems a bit frustrated that it's not the same ,making me
chuckle .
Me :"lift up your chest , make sure your shoulders are aligned
and push your butt out" he follows all my instruction and we
walk to the car.
I check the time and it's already 18:30 so going to the office will
be pretty useless .
Sabatha :"I'm sleeping over today"
Me :"you're asking or?" He just rolls his eyes and focuses on the
road .
Me :"just don't start arguments with Enhle" he grunts and rolls
his eyes again.
Sabatha :"only if she stays out of my way" it's no secret that
Sabatha doesn't like Enhle...him and my mom
so I try to minimise the time they spend together.
We walk in and bump into Enhle in the kitchen .
Me :"baby unjani?" She gives me a death stare and clicks her
tongue .
There it goes .
Enhle :"where are you coming from Mnotho?" She folds her
arms in her chest and narrows her big eyes .
Me :"ngihambe ngithe ngiyaphi kanti?" I put my laptop bag on
the counter and fold my sleeves .
Enhle :"work and when I called the office kthiwe uhambe nalo?"
She points at Sabatha who quickly wears a frown.
Sabatha :"ngangijwayeli kabi mina sisi. Nxn zongikhulumela
uthuvi" he clicks his tongue one more time and goes up the
stairs.
I know he probably doesn't want to be here anymore because
of the sudden tension but I'm grateful he does...Enhle can push
a human being's buttons .
Enhle :"so you will let your brother speak to me like that
Mnotho?"
Me :"Enhle please not today . I had a really great day with my
brother and I don't feel like ruining it" I huff
Enhle :"what were you doing with him?"
Me :"he is my brother are you listening to yourself?"
Enhle :"a brother who's well known for being with hoes all the
time Mnotho"
Me :"I don't have time for this . Let me grab a shower" the
minute she faces my back she groans
Enhle :"run Mnotho. Run like the little boy you are. That's what
you always do anyway" I quickly turn .
Me :"Uthini?"
Enhle :"I'm saying maybe it is your masculinity that must be in
question . Maybe you're not so much of a man" I charge
towards her and the second I raise my hand Sabatha is holding
it tightly.
Me :"Ngiyeke Sabatha . Let me show her how much of a man I
am . Angithi kukhulunywa ngenduku kuye"I try to yank him off
but his grip is even tighter.
I'm boiling with anger .
And what does she mean my masculinity should be questioned?
So I don't satisfy her in bed?
Sabatha :"she's not worth it man . Go catch some air and have a
conversation when both of you are calmer" he puts his car keys
in my hand and I turn to leave .
Sabatha :"welcome to Singleville the land of the salt . The broke
land . The catch a taxi land because the millions are gone with
the divorce land" he says to Enhle and giggles. He never ceases
to amaze me .
.
.
I've been seating at this bar for a good 45 minutes and my mind
is still as fuzzy as it was when I walked in .
"Maybe you're not so much of a man" it keeps replaying in my
mind .
Did she mean sexually?
I keep on asking myself questions and obviously I wasn't getting
an answer or maybe it's because I didn't want to believe the
answers I was getting.
When I'm consumed with my thoughts I get a whiff of a very
sweet vanilla scent .
See I'm very big on scent and this one is very hard to ignore .
I turn and my eyes fall on her .
She looks as bad as I feel if not worse .
Me :"can I join you?" She moves her eyes slowly towards me .
Her face remains expressionless but her eyes are burning with
anger.
Sena :"Get the fuck out of my face" she looks like she'll slit my
throat .
She attempts to get up and I hold her wrists gently .
Me :"please . I just need company" I order a bottle of Hennessy
and we down it in complete silence .
We're both drowning our sorrows in alcohol the difference is
she's crying and I'm not.
Me :"life sucks" he chuckles for the fist time . I can't get over
her bold voice , my batman lol.
Sena :"tell me about it" I pour her another shot and she downs
it quickly . This girl is a man .
Sena :"your brother fucked me up ." She says randomly. It's
probably the alcohol .
Me :"I know . I'm sorry" she shakes her head and let's her tears
fall .
I've learnt that some people don't need you to tell them stop
crying and convincing them that everything will be fine .
I've learnt that there are some holes that can only be filled with
tears so I let her cry .
Sena :"what's up with you?" I chuckle
Sena :"I mean you really don't look like the type that just breaks
down"
Me :"what does my type look like?"
Sena :"you look like you have your shit together"
Me :"so do you"
Sena :"I know . So what's up?"
Me :"Marriage. Psychotic wife. Feel like a weak bum" yeap that
sums it up .
Right then her eyes move to the platinum ring on my ring finger
and she raises her crescent shaped eyebrows .
Sena :"sorry" we both giggle .
After finishing the bottle it's safe to say both of us are
downright sloshed .
Sena :"let's go. Let's go to the park" ok that's a crazy idea and
I'm all for crazy .
I get up and stumble a bit . She giggles.
Barman :"ma'am . Sir. I don't think either one of you is sober
enough to drive right now" we look at each other and burst into
laughter .
Sena :"wadlala kancane aw barman ..."
She dances and wiggles her head .
The barman ends up laughing with us and takes our keys.
When he turns we run out to the park of hers .
Thank God for these parks that have street lights around it .
We play the marry go round and the swings until both of us are
tired.
Sena :"you're so childish"
Me :"I'd say the same about you"
We giggle .
I lie down and use the rock as a pillow . Kubi la .
She lays on my chest and taps on my chest each time my heart
beats .
I stare at the star invaded sky and the beautiful moon totally
oblivious of all problems and expectations .
Am I allowed to call this moment perfect?
.
.
.
*Thule*
.
.
.
Me :"no . No. No. Angfuni. Boredom really plays with your
mind"
Funeka :"I swear I'll just seat in the front and keep quiet"
Me :"you've never kept quiet since we met . No."
Funeka :"we've met two three time Thule hau" she rolls her
eyes reminding me of my mom .
Me :"ok. If I hear even a word from you. I'll drop you off
wherever I see fit" she wiggles her tiny little body and jumps in
the car . I hope I don't regret this .
I walk off to uMam'Jaca , she sells fruits .
I buy some fruits for me and her as well.
When I come back Funeka's hands are on her waist and she's
giving this other lady a deadly stare, the lady is equally mad .
Lady :"aybo sisi yaz ngokshaya"
Funeka :"ay sisi suzibhanxa" commuters giggle and I huff in
frustration .
Me :"what's going on hear ?" I ask with a stern voice almost
shouting.
Lady :"ok driver I..."
Funeka :"He's name is Thule not driver" she raises her brows
and folds her arms. Cute !
What am I thinking?
Me :"ok . What's going on?"
Lady :"nxn yazi lo. I get here ngibuza ukuthi ngingawathola ama-
taxi ayeIsando and she says nayi yithathe . Eyakho ." Who in
their right mind says that? I want to laugh but that'd be a bit
inappropriate of me .
Me :"Mama Funeka is sorry . Angithi Funeka?" She rolls her
eyes and nods with a bit of attitude .
Me :"this is the taxi ma'am" I lead her in .
Ma'am :"first written warning." She grunts and walks in the
taxi.
It's such my luck that she counts the money faster than all my
passengers usually do .
A minute after she's done a commuter brings forward a R200 .
Funeka :"who's money is this?" The attitude in her voice makes
me thankful I wasn't the owner of that R200 .
A teenager shouts "eyami" . She frowns and rips the money into
two and returns it to the passenger. People gasp and she looks
forward ignoring everyone . Who's child is she?
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*Thule*
.
.
.
I'm tired of this girl . I actually can't wait for her to get the fuck
out of my taxi .
Right now she's playing fashion police with a look of disgust on
her face .
Funeka :"I don't know why your brothers allow you to leave the
house dressed like that"
Me :"what's wrong with me?"
Funeka :"why in this planet are you dressed like black Boer .
Those shorts aren't in fashion bruh and your big shirts aren't a
thing" she rolls her eyes and sips her juice one more time .
Me :"you said you'll keep quiet" I say with a blank stare and she
rolls her eyes .
Funeka :"don't say I didn't tell you though" she goes and stands
next to Mangi .
After a few minutes I join her as well .
Funeka :"I'm telling you . Umjolo is the land of the rich . A lot of
the things being done to keep a girl need money" of course
she's the one talking.
Mangi :"so we can't date because we don't have money?"
Funeka :"no . Even if you really don't have money but iR2 for a
lollipop never hurt anyone. Imali is very important to me when
it gets to a relationship. You don't have to be rich"
Me :"there are men who have families to feed..."
Funeka :"I'm not disputing that hence I won't date them" aybo.
Mangi :"let's say this guy is your dream guy . He's got all these
qualities you want in a man but doesn't have money..."
Funeka :"he's not my dream guy . I want me a rich man"
Mangi :"bufebe"
Funeka :"this is about preferences. If you prefer dark skinned
girls with thick curves and beautiful ass I'm sure I'm allowed to
prefer a financially stable man . There is something about rich
men that poor men don't have . Confidence oozes out of them .
From the way they walk and talk...." She grunts while closing
her eyes . That is dramatic .
Thule :"all I'm saying-"
"Cela ama-taxi ayeZola"
(Where can I find taxis to Zola)
Funeka :"so you won't greet us because?" I swear Funeka can't
handle peace . She's always trying to fight someone.
Lady :"I'm in a hurry so please . Where can I get the taxi"
Funeka :"the one behind us" but that taxi's going to Sandton .
Mangi chuckles .
The lady gets in the taxi and puts on her earphones . Yhu shame
.
When the taxi's full we both hop in .
Funeka :"stop staring at me and fix your Nike eyebrows" she
says to a passenger who attempts to seat in front with her.
After dropping off the commuters at the Kempton park rank we
decide to chill a little there by KFC .
She's quiet and that rarely ever happens. For as long as I know
her , her mouth has verbal diarrhoea.
Me :"what's on your mind Funeka...Funeka Fakude?" She
chuckles and takes a sip of the coke .
Funeka :"I want to start a business" lol just like that? How easy .
Me :"so what's stopping you?"
Funeka :"I need start up capital" I chuckle a bit .
Me :"if you need funding to start that business then you better
quit before you even start . Entrepreneurs need money to
eccalarate their businesses . Not to start them" she chuckles
again
Funeka :"I will have to dip into my savings and find a job in the
mean time ."
Me :"that's a bit risky don't you think"
Funeka :"girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do" she shrugs
Me :"What type of business do you want to go into?"
Funeka :"logistics"
Hehe as if buying a truck is pap and vleis
Me :"I'll help you register and then save some money for the
first truck buuuut after that you'll have to find people who will
fund your business"
Funeka :"why don't you help me ? I mean you were in business
once" look how that ended
Me :"naah I'm fine"
Funeka :"come on Nqobethule . I'll give you half of the
business"
Me :"55%?" Her eyes pop
Funeka :"that's exploitation but ok" we shake on it and she
giggles
Funeka :"road 'bout to be bumpy . Have my back?"
Me :"always" we fist bump .
.
.
.
*Sabatha*
.
.
.
The drama in this home is something beyond me , such a pity I
can't leave while things are like this .
I'm afraid Mnotho might do something to his ironing board .
I don't think they even know what they're fighting for now .
Mnotho came back in the early hours of the morning
apparently he was smelling like a girl .
Good for him .
Now madam ironing board is mad at everything that exists even
the tea cups .
Me :"good morning" I shout from the bottom of the stairs
Enhle :"please . Not today Satan" I giggle and make my way to
her while whistling.
Me :"it's a beautiful day . Why are you so grumpy or is it your
everyday face?"
She ignores me and continues making breakfast .
Mnotho comes to the kitchen with a huge smile on his face...
haven't seen that one in ages . Nigga rarely ever smiles for no
reason .
Mnotho :"Good morning family" I giggle and Enhle clicks her
tongue .
She shoves the breakfast to the both of us and leaves us
giggling .
Mnotho :"I'm not eating that food mina"
Me :"can't relate . I'm hungry. If I die , I die" he chuckles and
seats down .
I eat a spoonful of the scrambled eggs .
Me :"I swear it tastes better with the poison" he bursts into
laughter and shakes his head .
Me :"you're happy today"
Mnotho :"aren't I always?"
Me :"no . Today you're extra happy . So unusual"
Mnotho :"ok . We'll visit Thule and I'll tell you what's up" ah he
fucked up . The only reason he'd need Thule's brains is because
he fucked up . Thule is the wise one
maybe it's because of staying with Malum'Mningi for so long
but it really comes naturally . He's the calm one in all of us .
"SABATHA!!!" Ayke no one calls me like that besides my mother
. Angfuni umuntu azongisanganela .
Mnotho chuckles and eats his food .
Enhle comes downstairs with her eyes popped out looking at
her phone.
Enhle :"dude you're trending"
Me :"aren't I always ?"
Enhle :"No not like this . Mnotho your name is mentioned as
well because he's your brother"
Me :"do I have to ask you what's being said?"
Enhle :"erh Uhm- uh" I grab the phone and my eyes land on the
most trending tweets , #you'reNotAlone and #SabathaIsTrash .
I scroll down and there are a number of girls I don't know
claiming I sexually harrassed them.
Njani?
Me :"TF!!" Mnotho grabs the phone and his look is deadly as
well .
Mnotho :"you know any of these people?" His voice is stern and
full of authority.
Me :"I don't bhuti..."
Mnotho :"this is fucked up" my phone rings ...my manager.
Me :"yo' Trey dog"
Trey :"TF is going on bro?"
Me :"man I don't know"
Trey :"how can you not know . One of these ladies has a picture
of you naked and she's been going around showing it to the
media as evidence" oh my God .
Me :"are you serious?"
Trey :"like a heart attack man. It's not looking good . The people
are against anything that's got to do with you " how does my
life just change overnight?
Me :"that's not true bruh and you know it"
Trey :"I know but the people don't and that's where our money
comes from"
Me :"TF do you mean?"
Trey :"Muzo(the recording company) would like to have a
meeting with you urgently" Fuck!!
Me :"Trey i-"
Tu Tu Tu .
He hung up on me .
In a split second my phone is crashing on the wall and Mnotho
us hugging me from behind .
Mnotho :"come on Ntwana. Don't lose it now we'll sort this
out"
Me :"how Mnotho? How? My reputation is being dragged
through the mud"
Mnotho :"right now I need you to remember who you are.
You're Nsingizi's son . You don't back down , you don't run when
things get tough" I chuckle because that's what uMa used to say
each time we were going through something .
Mnotho :"let's go" he grabs his car keys and we leave with
Enhle following us . Angmazi uyaphi
(I don't know where she's going)
Mnotho's car is one hell of a beast with four pipes .
In a second we're at home . We're stopped at the gate by a
number of journalists and a bunch of women with plac cards
written #SabathaUyinja .
When I read those plac cards that's when it dawns on me that I
am being accused of raping not only two but four women .
Wow .
The minute I walk in I throw myself in Nsingizi's arms . She
brushes my back and whispers "it'll be ok Lwandle ."
Me :"Ma I didn't do it . I swear"
Mami :"I know . I know sthandwa sami ."
The door violently opens and Thule walks in with...Funeka .
They didn't get along last time I checked . Funeka remains at the
door making us face her back . She seems excited about
something happening outside .
Thule :"awungene phela" he says at Funeka rolling his eyes
(Get in)
Funeka :"Green isn't a nice colour on you . Who's car is that?"
She asks facing us . Did she even realise that they didn't greet ?
Does she care?
Mnotho :"mine" he says proudly .
Mami :"that car is a waste of money . 1,2 million on a car?"
Funeka :"Drive your car wena Mnotho . No one was interested
in knowing what type of car Elijah was driving in the Bible ,
maybe it's that M4" Thule huffs .
Me :"hello . Can we all remember what we're here for? Me?"
My father's phone beeps then he grunts .
Bafo :"Mabutho can't get past the gate because of those
journos"
Funeka :"do you guys have a horse pipe ?" She asks looking at
my dad .
He nods.
Funeka :"is it long?"
He nods again and he shows her where it is .
She then does unimaginable . She pours water at the journalists
through the gate . Some leave their equipments and some get
inside their cars .
This one is a keeper.
10

*Lindy*
.
.
My mind don't allow my eyes to leave him .
For the first time ever I'm actually grateful that he can't see me .
All my stares would actually make me come off as a serious
stalker .
"It won't make him notice you"
Me :"huh?" I turn and it's the crazy Funeka . She's eating a
banana with the most bored expression .
Funeka :"Ukumjonga okwesibhanxa soze imenze akunotice tu
wethu"
-(gawking at him like a stalker won't get him to notice you)
Me :"who says i want to be noticed?" I say stuttering and acting
confused .
Funeka :"khayeke kuzibhanxa, it doesn't look pretty on you . Go
get your man girl"
Me :"it's just-"
Funeka :"tell him how you feel and still consider his feelings . If
he doesn't want you...his loss . You're too beautiful to be staring
at guys like you don't have options"
she winks at me and leaves . Funeka has such a small body you
wouldn't be able to tell she's an adult....with a sharp tongue.
Very midgety (if there's such a word) with small boobs and an
ass. Looking at them right now they'd look so cute together if
they didn't argue the way they do .
Thule gets frustrated by the littlest things that Funeka does and
says. It's so funny .
We have a quiet dinner with Sabatha looking like a mess .
I don't blame him, his "friends" turned against him overnight
and his career seems like a long shot right now .
Mam'Nsingi :"are you guys sleeping over?"
Bab'Nathi :"NO. No they're not . They have houses hay" he
shouts leaving all of us shocked and laughing .
Thule :"even me mami?" It's no secret that they have a really
tight relationship . I think he's a favourite even though he really
doesn't have much .
Mam'Nsingi :"No not you my boy" I see all the other four roll
their eyes .
Mnotho :"it's fine . We know he's your favourite child" they all
giggle .
Bab'Nathi :"I don't care who's the favourite kodwa no one
sleeping in my house unless they have earplugs and they will
stay in their room"
Funeka :"aybo ziyabuya mos apha"
-(things get down in this house moss)
Bab'Nathi :"even in that table" everyone drops their cutlery and
looks at Nathi with a look of disgust . Of course his wife is still
eating like he didn't say anything .
Bab'Nathi :"what? That was the first step into making all of you"
Mnotho :"baba . We really don't want to know"
Nathi :"mxm"
Sabatha suddenly grabs his car keys and leaves .
Everyone is in a trance and then there's mayhem .
In a second all three men in the table have disappeared leaving
us in silence .
My eyes can't help but move to Mbuyiseni.
His face is facing the table but I can easily tell how frustrated he
is .
I think it's moments like these where he can tell that he is
disabled.
He slowly gets up to the gym they have .
It's one huge room with a boxing ring in the middle and a few
machines on the side .
Funeka :"is your family this dramatic or is it a new thing?"
Who's child is she?
Enhle :"an everyday thing. This is actually level two drama . It
can get worse"
Mam'Nsingi :"Where did my son find you?" She asks throwing
daggers at Enhle .
Funeka shrugs and sips her juice .
Mam'Nsingi :"Wena? When will you confess how you feel to
Mbuyiseni? The both of you look like fools"
Me :"both?"
Mam'Nsingi :"I know my son Sisi . Shoot your shot, you
wouldn't be the first one . Nathi sishadile nje ukushela" we both
look at her shocked .
Mam'Nsingi :"long story" I've never done this before because
I've never seen the need to .
I get up slowly leaving the three of them in comfortable silence
.
Me :"you okay?" I ask and move slowly towards him .
His shoulders move and he groans not loud enough for the
person on the next room to hear.
Me :"hey hey Mbuyiseni..." I crouch in front of him and lift up
his chin to look at me .
His red cheeks and nose makes him look funny but we're not
about that right now .
Mbuyiseni :"I hate this . I hate being disabled . I hate it . I hate
that I can't live my life the way I want because of being
different. It's moments like these that remind me that I'm not
so normal afterall" I actually don't know what to say to him so I
bring him close .
As soon as his hands are on my back I get goosebumps .
Aybo am I dreaming? He brings me closer to his chest making
me crawl to him .
Ok this has nothing with comforting him now.
I know this sounds wrong but can he break down everyday .
The man just smells so god damn nice , he smells like a sin.
Ok I might just jump on him right now if I don't stop myself so I
pull out from the hug .
His hands don't leave my waist .
Haibo ngibanjiwe guys
I'm being held .
His one hand moves to my neck and he brings my face closer to
his .
Mbuyiseni :"Can I kiss you?" He lets out a warm breath that
sends all the right signals to my forbidden land.
I nod. I don't care if he can see or not but right now I can't seem
to find the right words .
I might just open my mouth and say things that'll make the kiss
not to be done .
He brushes his lips against mine .
His hot breath has me in a daze .
He gives me a loud perk and then pulls out .
Me :"Mbu-" before I finish his lips are lip locking with mine
creating a beautiful symphony.
He kisses me slowly and for a second there I forget that I have
my sister's fees to pay . I forget I have my mother's medical fees
to pay .
I forget all about my problems and get lost in his lips .
I feel someone pat my shoulder .
I obviously I pull out and Funeka is looking at us with her head
tilted smiling .
She gives me two condom packs and exits the room .
Mam'Nsingi :"when I said shoot your shot I didn't mean have
sex in my house hau" we're all disturbed by the door opening
and footsteps coming from the lounge.
We rush off and all of them look equally frustrated .
Mam'Nsingi :"Nathi where's my son?" I think this is the first I
hear her calling him by name . It's always "baba kaMnotho" or
Sthandwa Sam . Bab'Nathi calls her Themba lam or Bambo
lwami . It's so cute .
Bab'Nathi :"Uhm lalela mamakhe..."
Mam'Nsingi :"Mnotho where's your brother?" She looks mad .
It's kind of weird that she's mad at them but what do I know?
Mnotho :"we couldn't keep up Ma . You know how he is behind
the wheel" she raises her brows looking at them
Mam'Nsingi :"Thule why are you back here without your
brother?" He just stares at the floor without an answer.
They exit the house slowly and I see Funeka leave with them .
Enhle :"Uhm this is kind of now fair. I mean you saw him leave
..." Nsingizi cuts her off with one cold stare .
Mam'Nsingi :"My son are one . Their bond goes beyond the
word family . It goes beyond the liquid in their veins. They will
not go to sleep not knowing how one of them is doing .
"Whenever you need me , especially when you don't" , that's
the mantra in this family. Loyalty is everything . I don't expect
you to understand"
Ok that was a bit shady or am I reading too much into things?
.
.
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.
*Funeka*
.
.
.
I haven't had so much drama around me in ages.
The way Nsingi insisted they leave reminded me of how I never
had that . How I never had someone so overprotective of me .
I've had to fight my way through things .
Learnt how to talk back so people don't treat me like a door
mat and there's a mother who does that for her kids? Puts her
kids first? It's new to my eyes .
"You ok?" I nod and bite my lip while looking outside the
window .
The taxi stops still in my thoughts .
I turn and they're all staring at me .
Only then do I notice my surroundings.
We already at my house.
I slowly get off the taxi without even saying goodbye. I'm just
tired .
The second I'm in my house I throw myself in my couch . Maybe
I should move into a cheaper house if I'm g-
A knock desturbes my thoughts .
Not today. Not today devil.
"Funeka!" He calls out with his sinful voice .
Didn't he leave with his brothers?
I open for him and he looks at me....like no he just looks at me .
Me :"how can I help you brother man?"
Thule :"no I wanted to check up on you, you didn't look ok in
the taxi"
Me :"Ndiyagowa wethu but I'll be fine" he looks confused like I
just asked him about periods .
Thule :"where are you going?" There's a trace of panic in his
voice but it's probably misplaced .
Me :"never mind. Why are you here ? ngeyokhangela
umninawa wakho"
-(go look for your brother?)
Thule :"aren't you going to let me in?" He walks in . His bow legs
are hard to ignore not to mention that scar on his forehead .
Makes him look sexy and mysterious . Ok cancel sexy but uhm
yea...
I close the door and he looks around then nods impressed .
Me :"welcome to my humble abode" I say after a second long of
awkward silence .
I doubt he even recognises awkward this one.
As long as it's quiet , his good .
Me :"phofu bendisayohlamba . Phunga i-coffee uphold apha e-
head office. Feel at home" it's like his been waiting for me to
say this because in an instant his chilled on the couch with his
feet on the coffee table . How nice .
I take a quick shower with Thule invading my mind for some
reason.
Lotioning my body is faster than it usually is today .
Now I don't know which pyjamas i should wear.
Ok this big comfy night dress will make it seem as if I'm a
magogo .
This short one...a hoe . Who dresses up for bed?
I settle for the silky pj pants and tops . People wear these ones
on red carpets .
Why do I even bother ?
That person dresses like his going to take a walk outside every
single day .
Should I put on make up? Ok Maybe that'll be a bit too much so
I settle for Ponds and lip balm .
.
Yea no his really at home .
He has a packet of chips in his hands watching the comedy
channel . So funny that even Trevor Noah doesn't make this guy
laugh .
Why watch the comedy channel ID you're not going to laugh ?
I settle next to him with nail polish on my hands.
When I settle he offers me a packet of chips and I decline then
he shrugs . Mxm .
I bring my one legs closer to my chest to neatly put the nail
polish famously known as cutex .
Thule :"can I help you?" He opens his hands .
Me :"no it's fine" he raises his eyebrows his hand still open .
Me :"ok fine. Thatha" I give it to him and out my legs on his lap .
This is the closest I've ever gotten to him .
Whenever we're together I'm always talking or we're arguing .
He lays the nail polish so neatly and in silence .
He looks so cute with his focused face on .
Me :"who taught you how to do this?" He smiles impressed by
his work .
Thule :"Mom. She taught us how to do all these things . Said
we'll thank her one day" he shrugs .
Thule :"so why were you sad?"
Me :"I feel lonely" my mouth spits before I can even stop myself
. The hell is wrong with me?
He looks at me confused a bit .
Thule :"why? Why do you feel lonely?"
Me :"i-" I'm stopped by my phone whistling ...Twitter . Normally
I don't care about this app but I just wanted to ignore his
questions and what I see here shocks me .
Me :"uh Uhm Thule your brother is trending again"
He shoves my feet off him . Rude!
Thule :"What's going on?"
Me :"he tweeted something"
Thule :"Khuluma man Funeka!!" Why ulwa ?
< The past few hours have come with a lot of lessons . One that
really stood out is how much of a myth friends are . Today I
stand here accused of rape and the only people I have are
family . The only thing I'm guilty of is thinking that women are
nothing but sex objects . I'm sorry that when I saw a woman I
saw a tunnel deep enough for me to bury myself in . I'm sorry
that I didn't see my mother in the women I slept with. I'm sorry
I put their value on what they have inside their thighs. I'm sorry
that I judged you by what you wear. I'm sorry I approached you
because of how short your dress is and the amount of skin you
show . I'm sorry i thought it was ok to throw you out after sex.
MaNgcobo... Ngyaxolisa Mfazi kaBafo . Your lessons on
respecting woman are questioned today and I'll forever be sorry
Themba lam . #SabathaUyinja
#SabathaIsTrash >
"Shit!" He cusses and gets up.
11
*Enhle*
.
.
.
The amount of drama in this family is something beyond my
existence.
Some are poor and hiding it well from the public eye,some are
low-key drunkards , some are rapists ,some are serial cheaters
and some are blind . It's all in here .
Speaking of the rapist... That one decided to up and leave
Joburg life .
Apparently he had bought a piece of land in Mooi River and he
fled there for "piece of mind" away from this whole thing .
So I decided to chill with my girls a bit and escape the whole
family drama .
Me :"I'm telling you Lami something is different about him , I
just can't put my finger on it"
Lami :"aren't you supposed to be glad that he's no longer
drinking?"
Musa :"yea but what pushed him to it?" Lami and Nomusa have
been my friends for almost two years now . We met in one of
Mnotho's gala dinners he forever insists I come with .
Me :"one time he came back early morning smelling like a
woman and he was happy . I haven't seen him smile like that
since Thingo passed"
Musa :"uyafeba" Lami shakes her head looking at Musa
Lami :"hay Musa . Did you ask him about it?"
Me :"he keeps on denying . Saying that he was hugging some
client blah blah blah"
Musa :"that's the oldest excuse in the book . Uyafeba loyo" she
sips her wine .
Lami :"kodwa Enhle if he was cheating , do you blame him?
You're always on war and ain't no man wants to come back to
court instead of a home . Stop fighting with him and fight for
him . You vowed that man a warm and happy home and you've
broken one of your vows. In my eyes niyafana" she shrugs
Musa :"hah ah mngani that doesn't give him leverage to cheat .
Ayi-cheat(isi) nje leyo. Even if you kept that home warm , how
would he notice this because he's forever drunk?"
Me :"I don't know but I feel like I'm losing my husband . He was
invited to the PIB awards , apparently he'll be getting an award
and he didn't tell me like he normally does when invited to a big
event like this one."
Lami :"how did you know about that?"
Me :"I saw it in his emails and then I asked him about . Said
something about taking Thule with him so he can network and
all that rubbish . So he suddenly cares that he's poor...he wasn't
bothered all along moss"
Musa :"something will happen in that event mngani I'm telling
you . I heard these businessmen usually take young pieces of
meat to high social events and then sleep with them"
Me :"Mnotho is not like that . Nsingi would kill him" honestly
I've come to accept that that woman comes first . They don't
care much about their father but the mother ...they worship
that woman . It's kind of... annoying.
Musa :"You never know . All I'm saying is be careful . There's
always some slimey bitch willing to take a man like Mnotho .
He's moneyed and everyone wants a piece of that"
Lami :"all I'm saying is sit Mnotho down and tell him about the
changes you see . Communication is one of the foundation in
any relationship Enhle . You'll lose your husband I'm telling you"
yhu hay Mother Teresa .
.
.
.
*Sena*
.
.
.
I don't understand why my brother drags me to these awards
they are pretty annoying.
The long boring business talks and fake smiles from housewives
when they find out you aren't married are pretty exhausting .
Luckily our table is at the far end , and the attention wouldn't
really be onto us , I can just nap here...if my brother would
allow me .I don't get his sudden interest in business .
I just want three bottles of wine and my bed .
Apparently this is his best way of cheering me up... Making me
wonder what his worst is .
Atleast there's champagne though.
Yey Bonang pulled through on BNG yhu . This things goes
down.
Wait isn't that...the wife? Why is he sitting with us the
commoners?
Seeing her reminds me of Saturday... Ok this is wrong so I
remove my eyes from her and focus on the screen since I can't
even tell who's speaking .
I take another glass of champagne and I can see these stupid
housewives giving me snide looks .
Yey I make my own money mna .
Me :"ning'bukani?" I gulp the glass and they move their focus
from me . Good .
Mbuso :"Sisi look they're about to call him . I'll be like him ,
you'll see. He is a lion in the business world, they call him The
Fixer . He-"
Me :"ay Mbuso awume kancane" I brush him off . His only 19
years old , I don't even understand how he got this invitation.
These awards are boring, uphi uDJ Tira kanti?
"He is a South African entrepreneur and venture capitalist .
Studied corporate finance emphasis on advanced evaluation .
Did a post graduate diploma in business administration from
Gordon institute of business science , top 3 student .
He also went on to do management advanced program which
he passed with cum laude at the university of Witwatersrand
...." Ngingafa fi if I had to study that much mina . Anghlanyi . You
go to school once bese uyazibona. Yes his education is crazy but
this person has my attention . Who in their right mind would
study like this?
The MC continues
"at the age of 22 he was offered a position at a corporate
finance company. He refined his skills in corporate finance .
2015 he was appointed non-executive director of RBA Holdings
Ltd .
2016 he successfully turned Amib holdings into a 360 turned
business making more than 40 million rands a year .
2017 he founded Fix Ltd , a specialist consulting services agency
which Mnotho serves as the Managing Director .
He is currently the Chief executive officer of Fix and Co. , And
his about to add PIB's businessman of the year to his Bio .
He is estimated to be worth US $ 550 million , maybe if we're
lucky enough he'll tell us how much is in his back account.
He is the youngest director on the JSE listed company having
made his first million when he was only 23 years of age . What
were you doing when you were 23? Come on you know who I'm
talking about? Ladies and gentlemen this award for the
businessman of the year goes to Mnotho Mwelase" (these are
some of Vusi Thembekwayo's achievements cause you know
how crazy I am about his road to success, if you don't . Now you
know)
Honestly I need to reevaluate my relationship with the man
upstairs . I can't be kneeling and getting knee burns only for him
not to answer my prayers .
All I asked for is to not see this man and his family for the rest of
my living days . That's it .
It's really not that much.
Do I have to move to Mars ?
People give him a standing ovation , I swear my little brother is
clapping the loudest making all of this so surreal .
He gets to the stage and nods in acknowledgment of the claps
then they stop .
Finally . Some peace .
His eyes roam around and I hide myself with the glass of
champagne . Ok maybe this alcohol has done it's cause .
Mnotho :"Good evening ladies and gentlemen" his voice is still
as sexy as the last time I remember it . He wasn't that serious
though.
There's not even a trace of a smile on his face .
I see his wife turn and leave . Why weren't they sitting on the
same table . Without even realising it my glass is on top of the
table . Arhaa Voetsek I don't care .
Mnotho :"Before I start I'd like to ask my brother to get up for a
second . Sukuma bafo bakbone..." A few black people laugh and
the other brother gets up slowly . His dressed a bit more formal
today . He looks so much like Mnotho but his two shades darker
and oh God his skin . I think they said his name is Thule or
something, I'm not too sure.
He continues , "I want you to remember this face cause he will
be standing here in a few years to come . Maybe it won't be
next year but he will. This one is for us bafo...." He then goes on
talk about how he started his business and thanking his
partners .
When he finishes I've already fucked him and had an orgasm in
my head .
He then leaves the stage and people clap for him . I wonder
what he said .
The awards ceremony proceed and some people leave . I don't
understand why he's still here .
Mbuso :"Sisi let's go. Let's go to him..." What?
I'd rather shit on my hands and clap than go to him . Ngeke .
Mbuso violently pulls me towards his table.
He's with his partners and brother of course .
A table full of millionaires , akumnandi .
My brother greets and I just look at each and everything except
his eyes.
Mbuso :"good evening Mr Mwelase . My name is Mbuso Zwide.
I'm currently doing 1st year in varsity , Corporate finance but I
also have a business on the side..." He does? Who taught him
how to speak like this?
I'm in a trance thanks to alcohol .
Mbuso is offered a seat at the table when Mnotho gets up .
Thule is the one asking all the questions and thinking of
possible solutions .
Mnotho :"Waze wamuhle MaZwide" Ain't no sexy beast formed
against me shall prosper.
The Lord prepares my hands for war .
Me :"thanks . You aren't too bad yourself" when he takes my
hand I can feel the stares from the stupid housewives so I
quickly pull away from him .
He gives me a questioning stare.
Me :"we've got audience"
He huffs and pulls me outside .
Me :"what am I doing here Mnotho?"
Mnotho :"I don't know. I just wanted to be in your presence,
even though you're drunk . It's better than not seeing you at all"
he grins .
His grin is annoying .
His sexy half shut eyes are frustrating .
I can just lick his skin and run off right now, who would stop
me?
Me :"yea. Can I go now?"
Mnotho :"I never got your numbers last time..."
Me :"cause I didn't give them to you in the first place" I say with
a bit of attitude .
Mnotho :"come here" haike haike , you can just take me on
right now and I won't mind .
Me :"who are you to order-" I abruptly feel his lips on me, his
hand squeezing my ass and I let out an involuntary moan .
This is the time he touches me and yes I do, I want more . He
pulls out from the kiss but still keeps his face close to mine.
Mnotho :"your lips taste nice making me wonder how you taste
down there" I feel a tingle on my nana.
He places a perk on my lips and then brushes my cheeks .
Feeling the cold metal on cheeks actually reminds what I just
did.
I just kissed someone's husband and enjoyed it . I willingly
walked in on another Mabutho .
I pull out and run straight to my car ignoring him shouting my
name .
Where the fuck am I going? Mbuso!!!
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*Mnotho*
.
.
Me :"Mami can we talk?" She finishes lotioning her feet and
seats on the couch making space for me as well .
Mami :"what did you do ?"
Me :"Who said I did anything hau?"
Mami :"the last time you asked to talk to me with the look you
have you ended up marrying Enhle without letting me know" I
huff a bit
Me :"can I have my best friend right now....not my mom" I
crouch until I out my head on her lap and she brushes my bald
head .
Mami :"ok speak child"
Me :"I met a girl"it goes quiet . I don't even want to turn and
see the look on her face .
She sighs and I know she's about to call me out .
If it's the truth you want then you'll get it from my mom
unfiltered.
Mami :"you like her?"
Me :"a lot. She makes me feel young mami. Makes me feel all
giddy . It's weird ."
Mami :"you willing to sacrifice your marriage for her?"
Me :"I don't even know where I stand with Enhle . We're always
fighting Ma . It's not healthy"
Mami :"Then close that chapter completely Mnotho . Don't
start another one when the previous chapter isn't finished .
You'll only confuse yourself . If this girl is worth having then
unfortunately she'll have to wait for you to sort this whole thing
out and then one day she can call you yours . Have you and this
lady done anything?"
Me :"only kissed" she just chuckles and goes to the wardrobe.
She comes back with a Durex pack .
She's had these since I was 20 and Thule was 13, back then the
trio was 10 so mom was too busy with them and she gave us
the condom as precautions because she didn't want to deal
with pregnant girlfriends.
Mami :"I know you know how to use lempahla but if you don't I
can teach you"
Me :"eeuw ma . No"
Mami :"yini? I used to bath you Mnotho..." We giggle and she
pulls me in her arms . She forgets that she's kind of short.
Mami :"you know what this is called in lighter terms ?"
Me :"love?" I don't even know what she's talking about.
Mami :"ubufebe Mnotho" I can't help but gasp.
Me :"haibo ma"
Mami :"nyanyo Nya Ini? Enhle is hell but don't do this to her.
Get out before you break her heart Mnotho . If you stay then
stay away from that girl"
Me :"Ma I don't know what to do and you're not telling me
anything" I roughly brush my face and she places her hand on
my shoulder .
Mami :"Because that is your decision to make Khehla lamama .
Be honest with yourself . Are you still in this marriage for love or
guilt... Are you just infatuated by that girl and is she reason
enough for you to risk it all" she pats me again and then leaves
leaving me with my thought.
I groan .
If i decide to be with Sena , I know it's going to mess up my
relationship with uMabutho but at the same my heart rejoices
at her sight and presence...from the very first glance .
Enhle... I don't know . Our home is a war zone .
Bafo :"money really can't give you happiness. Zibheke unjani?" I
just give him a blank stare .
Me :"ah baba."
Bafo :"What did your wife do? Only she can make you this
depressed" he giggles and I give him a blank stare.
Me :"have you ever cheated on Ma before?" He keeps quiet for
a minute and then bursts into laughter
Bafo :"majority of the men out there have cheated once but we
didn't fall in love." He laughs again and even holds his stomach .
Bafo :"Wena ugcwele uthando emehlweni . Unyile" he exits
while laughing .
The Lord could've given me Babomncan'Libalele as a father and
honestly I wouldn't have complained .
Atleast a sane father is better than this.
.
.
.
The minute I sit in front of the barman I realise how selfish this
is .
I might get drunk and the first person that will be called is my
little brother because his number is on speed dial .
I get up again and go straight home .
I find Enhle sitting in the kitchen staring at a bottle of wine like
it'll grow horns.
Me :"Hey baby" I kiss her cheeks and throw my bags on top of
the counter.
Enhle :"yea" she doesn't even look at me and that makes me
worried a bit .
Me :"tell your husband what's going on?" I bring her closer to
me .
Enhle :"I'm fine"
Me :"I know you Enhle . Now tell me what's going on" she turns
and grabs a bottle of water .
Enhle :"I think I'm pregnant" oh fuck my life. Fuck me harder!!!
.
.
.
*Mabutho*
.
.
.
I honestly thought she was joking about divorce or maybe I'll be
able to convince her to give me a chance...but no. Not this time
around.
These divorce papers in my hands make everything so surreal .
As my mother always says "kuyanyiwa kwa-For better or for
worse" .
Kubi kwa-through sickness and in health .
Trust me I know .
What's even more confusing is how chilled she is.
She's not even breaking down or anything dramatic. No . She's
smiling...and she wants everything . Everything I own she wants
.
Me :"I swear Mbuyiseni it's like she's found freedom"
Mbuyiseni :"what do you want her to do? Sit around and weep
while you go in with the rest of your life kodwa you the one
who did her bad?"
Me :"mxm. Uyinja" he just shrugs and continues reading his
script which is written in braille (sp).
Me :"how do you do it man? Aren't you supposed to say fuck
life or something?" His optimism has always mind fucked me .
He's one person you'd expect to be pessimistic because of his
disability but his not and I do it for him .
Mbuyiseni :"I could but it could've been worse . I still have life. I
want my name to be written in the history books . People die
without having used their gifts Mabutho and I refuse to be one
of those " I nod nonchalantly .
Me :"uyinja mfana ." I pick up his hand and forcefully fist bump
him . He hates fist bumps .
Mbuyiseni :"ngyazi . Nginswempu kakhulu" we both chuckle .
Me :"where's your hot PA?" She's always here somewhere so
her absence is most definitely felt.
Mbuyiseni :"she had a family crisis"
Me :"so you're really not going to ask her out or ask her how
she feels about you?" He huffs and throws the paper
somewhere .
Mbuyiseni :"I know how she feels because we kissed" I scream
a bit. Maybe this is his chance at love.
Me :"and? Did you smash?" He bites his upper lip and shakes
his head .
Mbuyiseni :"chickened out"
Me :"come on bro . She didn't need to know"
Mbuyiseni :"hay Mabutho what if I put it on the wrong hole
because..." *Sigh* "what- what if I'm not good as she expects
me to be . Or the condom bursts.
Me :"ok . Just let her know that you're a..."
Mbuyiseni :"I've never had sex before" he cuts me off . You're a
virgin oksalayo .
Me :"yes that so she can take the lead ."
Mbuyiseni :"we're not even there yet"
Me :"if you say so Virgin Joseph"
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*Sabatha*
.
.
.
I had to relocate to Mooi river because of all the noise around
my name .
I couldn't think so I took a coward way out.
It's such a pity that my failure and mistakes had to be publicised
. I guess that's the price I've had to pay. I've been in Mooi River
for exactly a week now and I'm visiting my grandfather and
grandmother/auntie , or whatever it is Auntie Sandy is. Abantu
abadala bayazidala shame.
When I get in the car my phone pings .
Mom just sent me a podcast.
I play it via aux on my way to Virdriet (sp) , where my placenta
was worried .
The minute it plays I hear , "Dear mntanam" and it brings me
back to when Ma used to make us sit and listen to Sbu
Buthelezi's letters every Sunday morning . I honestly used to
hate those , they were too sad for my liking and so were the
people that used to call on air before the reading of the letters
he used to write . Argh man that man will forever have my
respect .
I smile as I listen to the letter .
How does this woman always know what I want to hear?
"Dear mntanam' mina namhlanje ngize ukukwembathisa ingubo
yabanqobi .
Ngiyazi ukuthi ubhekene nahlobo luni lwempi .
Kodwa ngyafun'ukusho ukuthi nalena usazoyinqoba .
Ngikunqobela zonke izimpi ezikufikelayo empilweni yakho .
Wena Themba kimi njalo .
Thula .
Thula ungaziphenduleli .
Khumbula mina nginguthixo , ubuke ukusindisa kwami (My child
, today I came to give you clothes perfectly fit for heroes . I
know the type of war you face and you will conquer .
I fight all your wars and I prepare your hands for war . Just trust
in me .
Keep quiet and don't defend yourself .
Just remember that I am God and look at my grace...)" I think
this stands out for me . (I'll post this on the group for those that
want to hear the rest of the letter)
I can't help but drop a tear so I park on the side of the road. The
joys of being in Newcastle .
Her phone rings once and she answers .
Mami :"number 3" she giggles .
Me :"hey mamma"
Mami :"you got that podcast?"
Me :"yea I did. Thank you sthandwa sami . I don't know what I'd
do without you" it goes quiet a bit .
Mami :"it'll blow over you know" I just sigh because it most
definitely doesn't feel like it .
Mami :"I'm proud of you Sabatha. I know we rarely ever say it
because of our close to impossible requests but we're so proud
of all you. When you told me that you want to do this Yo' Yo'
thing , I thought you wouldn't have time for me but here you
are . Meeting up to my every need" she sniffs .
Me :"Don't cry mamazi . It doesn't matter how far I am , you
know I'll always make things happen for you. We all would" I'm
just hoping my father doesn't walk in the room while she's
crying because I'm telling you , shit will hit the fan . Tears of joy
or not
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oksalayo they are tears in his eyes and he doesn't want them on
his wife's face. Forget the fact that his wife is a cry baby .
Mami :"I am . That's why I want you to give me that farm you
bought in Mooi River . Why didn't you tell me about that?"
Haike haike . Yayibaxa .
Me :"everything except that. I was going to tell you"
Mami :"Hay phela you owe me Sabatha. All the beauty sleep .
The money for uniform, remember we used to buy you new
uniform after every 5 months? It's time to repay me" honestly
being born without your consent is starting to be a problem .
It's as if I had a problem with staying in my father's balls . Ok
that didn't sound right.
Me :"a car. Just not the farm ." I know she's rolling her eyes.
Mami :"I've got enough cars. Surprise me with a gift. If I don't
get surprised , you gift me with the farm" I can just bring
Aunt'Sandy to her eyes and she'll get the shock of her life.
I chuckle at the idea .
Me :"ok . Deal"
Mami :"What's happening with Thule and that crazy girl?" I
laugh lightly .
Me :"I'd like to know as well. Last time I checked they weren't
dating"
Mami :"Can you go fish for the tea?" Ah there she goes . My
mama can't leave without gossip. She chokes and dies,
according to her.
Me :"I'll try but you know how your son is. So I'll try the crazy
girl ." Honestly Funeka is a vibe. Crazy or not. I-stove esiku-6 .
.
.
.
*Thule*
.
.
.
I swear picking up Funeka everyday then going to the rank has
become part of my routine.
The commuters have kind of gotten used to her .
She's like my spokes person now .
Whenever people refer to me as "bhut'driver" she tells them
my name.
People bang the door , she cusses them on my behalf .
So weird but she fights most battles that aren't even hers.
Today she pitched up with a whole lot of papers and a laptop
and I'm glad to say she's been quiet throughout the ride .
I drop off people and go back to MTN rank, she's still quiet .
Ok maybe it's because I've gotten used to her speaking so much
.
I take a small piece of tissue paper and tickle her in her ear .
She just brushes off and focuses again .
I grab the paper and she groans .
Funeka :"ay uyadika wethu"
Me :"I just want your attention . I miss you now" she smiles a
bit . Is she blushing? Oh yes she is .
She quickly grabs her paper and goes back to it .
Me :"What are you doing anyway?"
Funeka :"I'm trying to register our business but there is a fee to
be paid Thule" she looks a tad bit worried.
Me :"Send me the details and I'll send the money"
Funeka :"It's quite steep"
Thule :"let me worry about that Funeka . You handle the paper
work and I'll hustle that money for us ok?" We fist bump and I
allow her to get back to ignoring me and shutting out the world
.
My phone rings.... Mbuyiseni? He rarely ever calls .
Me :"Gazi"
Mbuyiseni :"Gazi . I need your advice"
Me :"for the first time ever , I'll have to send you a bill for my
advice" I chuckle a bit . Haike angdlali .
Mbuyiseni :"How much?"
Me :"R2500?" He chuckles
Mbuyiseni :"yea whatever. I need your advice"
Me :"shoot"
Mbuyiseni :"I'm thinking of asking Lindy out right ..."
Me :"it's about dang time yhu. You're slow" we've beeeen
waiting . The poor girl has been throwing hints.
Mbuyiseni :"yea that's not the issue. We'll have to...you know.
And I'm clueless" imagine if the public found out about this .
This is actually funny .
Me :"What's your strongest sense Mbuyiseni?"
Mbuyiseni :"Hearing?" Yea he has the sharpest ear . Actually all
his senses work sharper than all of us combined , maybe it's
because he has to use more than we do .
Me :"the other one man"
Mbuyiseni :"touch?"
Me :"yea . Explore her body before trying anything . Learn your
way around it . Usually when you find a woman's favourite spot
her breath hitches , that is where hearing will come in . Just stay
alert . There's no rush"
Mbuyiseni :"I hope I don't fuck things up . I'm scared bro"
Me :"it's natural to be scared . I mean look at me , I lasted for
exactly 5 minutes on my first time so it's no biggie" just thinking
about it makes me want to laugh .
My phone vibrates informing me of an incoming call .
Me :"Gazi I'll call you just now . Bafo is calling me"
Mbuyiseni :"rather you than me" he drops the call .
Me :"Bafo zishani?"
Baba :"Your mother is in hospital"
Me :"What is she doing there? Must I pick her up?"
Bafo :"no . She fell when trying to get down the stairs, I think
she was running and then missed a step . There was so much
blood Thule and the doctors are saying something about a brain
concussion" flip!
Me :"send me your location . I'm coming "
Bafo :"I can't get ahold of all your brothers . Let them know" as
if I already don't have a lot going on.
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*Sabatha*
.
.
The drive to Virdriet is longer than it usually is because this one
time it is filled with nothing but my own thoughts.
I don't know wether to take Mnotho's offer since my talents
didn't get me anywhere or go back and try this music thing
again .
I pull out in front of the yard and go in .
Magcina (Grandfather's son ) is still in Med school .
Yhu Medicine is really not joking with him, especially after
taking a gap year that lasted him exactly two years .
Me :"aw Muntuz!!"
Gramps :"Muntuz umsunu we-dog" grumpy old man...well
sometimes he is .
I move to the lounge and he's sitting with a...creepy looking
man .
He has beads on his chest and ankles, iziphandla on both either
sides of his wrists .
His pale skin is not something you can ignore either.
Me :"bant'abadala" I greet politely and seat opposite the man .
Traditional healers naturally scare me .
The man :"Aw ndodana. Niyakhula boh." I don't know him .
I'd remind him that that's what food and water does if i wasn't
scared of him.
Me :"ubaba yena ngzothi ubani?"
The man :"NginguGagashe . I last saw you and your brothers
when you were just 3 years old . Usesengumajahidada" I
chuckle because what else can I do or say?
Gramps :"Sabatha what are you doing in my house?"
Me :"hau I'm visiting you Mkhulu" I guess sjava lied about the
fact that ekhaya akungenwa ngemali . Not my home . You
report before you come .
Gramps :"ONathi go around impregnating people , buka manje
sengibizwa ngomkhulu. In my prime" prime? Prime?
Me :"aybo ugugile ndoda"
Bab'Gagashe :"Akagugile , usekhulile nje" much to my
grandfather's satisfaction .
He nods in agreement .
Do you know what peer pressure is?
This is it in action .
Bab'Gagashe :"Let me leave Ngcongwane ndod'ayamadoda.
Sabatha it was good seeing you" he gets up and I meet him half
way to handshake him .
He groans .
My phobia comes out to play .
He arches his back a bit and tightens his hold .
Bab'Gagashe :"it's only the beginning . It'll get darker and your
generation will be non-existant until your mother rights what
had been wronged . She knows the truth, tell her to appease
the ancestors . Until then...things will stay the way they are..."
He groans again .
He takes out some beads from his neck .
Bab'Gagashe :"put this around her neck . It'll protect her for
time being but it is not permanent . Her grandmother is angry"
he puts the necklace on my hands, then whispers "everything
happens for a reason. There's always a deeper meaning to what
happens in our lives . When the time comes, remember that"
and then leaves.
Me :"what was that about?"
Gramps :"call your mother" I ring her a few times and her line is
busy
Gramps :"I've known Gagashe for more than 20 years and that's
enough to know that he's never wrong about these things .
Let's go"
Me :"Let's go where? To Joburg?"
Gramps :"No
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to China . Of course to Joburg you fool" mxm.
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.
.
*Mnotho*
.
.
.
"Bafo what are the doctors saying?"
Thule :"they haven't said anything . Mabutho just walked in" I
nod .
Bafo :"She'll be ok" he whispers to himself .
In all my 35 years of living, I have never seen my father like this .
He is the perfect example of hurricane Katrina.
He is a hot mess .
Funeka walks in with Lindy and Mabutho .
These two are always here when there's some sort of drama, I
need to discuss with Thule when he'll start courting Funeka
instead of looking at her like a fool that he is .
Funeka :"You guys look depressed"
Thule shoots him a look and she shrugs .
She is the pits .
Mabutho comes out looking hopeless .
Me :"Mabutho...speak hau"
He bites his upper lip and sniffs.
Baba :"Mabutho hay hay hay ." He shakes his head vigorously.
Mabutho :"Cha baba . Calm down. She's stable at the moment
but there a swelling on her brain . We'll have to wait for it to go
back to normal"
Thule :"oh so that's it? After that she'll be ok right?"
Mabutho :"At the moment we can't tell . We're still running
some more tests in her and she really hasn't been responding
much."
Bafo :"Mabutho I sent you to medical school to have answers
not to tell me you don't know . Go back in there and get me the
answers I want" he slowly turns back and goes back to the ward
leaving really awkward silence.
.
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FOLLOWING DAY
.
.
*Mbuyiseni*
.
.
Honestly I thought by now mom would've been ok . I waited
until visiting hours and no one was there to tell me she is fine .
Seeing my mother like this is breaking my father bit by bit . I
think it's safe to say he is at his worst .
San my dog leads me to the couch and I throw myself on it .
Lindy quietly sits on the same couch very far away from me .
The fact that she sat quietly shows me that she's quite tense .
She always throws herself on this couch .
Me :"ok what's up?"
Lindy :"me? Nothing"
Me :"talk to Landani" he giggles sweetly .
Lindy :"ok Uhm . Thing is- Uhm I really l-" my phone pings and I
hand it to her.
Me :"please read the message for me " she groans in frustration
. According to her I'm misusing my disability by doing this
because I can perfectly use a phone .
Yes I can it just gets frustrating sometimes .
Lindy :"Mom has woken up and she has something to tell us .
Get your ass here. Sabatha" I get up fast like lightening and San
is jiggling his tail next to my leg .
Lindy helps me get to the car fast and drives even faster to the
hospital.
I hope that rude receptionist won't tell us about visiting hours .
We walk in the ward I think .
The different scents make it hard for me to tell who's here and
who's not
Lindy places my hand on the cold metal . In an instant a warm
hand is placed on my hand .
Me :"Mami? You're ok ma?"
Mami :" I'm ok sthandwa Sami" that was fast
Me :"but the doctors....Mabutho . They said-"
Mami :"well they don't know your mother" a number of people
chuckle . I can spot Mnotho's chuckle .
Mami :"We can start right?" There is silence .
They were probably nodding .
Mami :"When I was young...about 8 years old my mother
dumped in my father's door step . Her reasoning is because she
didn't want to be associated with my grandfather . She thought
it was ok to raise another man's child but she couldn't raise me.
My father started playing the role of a mother so beautifully I
quickly forgot about her existence and mistakes. Obviously I
ended up taking his surname because he was my father
afterall..." I wonder where this is going .
My eyes are tired and are starting to be irritable.
She continues , "I used the wrong surname . Traditionally I still
belonged to my maternal grandmother, not to my parents since
ubaba didn't pay damages to the Mayisela family . Your father
sent lobola to the Ngcobos' , basically lobola was also paid to
the wrong family since I'm not traditionally part of the Ngcobos'
. A few years ago some man came with Lindiwe to my house. He
said my sins will be paid for by my children , I didn't take him
seriously because of the person he was with . That- that was
until Mbuyiseni lost his sight... That is when I realised that
maybe that man was right but I still couldn't do it . I couldn't go
back there , I didn't want to recognise them as family . I-"
Mnotho :"What do you mean ma? You mean you could've done
something about Mbuyiseni's sight but you decided to keep
quiet for your selfish reasons?" He roars .
Me :"15 years ma! 15 years you watched me losing myself .
Losing bits and pieces of what is normal but you still kept quiet .
You couldn't put me before your pride ma..." I remove her hand
from me .
I can't believe this!
I can't stop the tears that flow in my cheeks .
My own mother would do me like this .
Mama :"forgive me Mbuyiseni . Ngixolele Ngcongwane . I really
thought Lindiwe wanted money from me . I thought she-"
Sabatha -"Cha Ma! There's no excuse here . You put yourself
first and screw the world" his temper is something similar to a
ticking time bomb.
I wipe my tears fast and take a deep breath, doctor Suzman said
it works .
Me :"I hope you're happy with yourself Nsingizi . I hope you're
fine" I feel something slap my cheek so hard I almost fall .
Bafo :"Nsingizi Yani? Unyoko Lo okhuluma naye . She's not your
age mate" I clench my jaws and turn opposite where his voice is
coming from .
Ma :"Mnotho...i- I know where your mother is"
Mnotho :"no it's fine. I don't want to know her"
Ma :"I gave her money to stay away from you .I bribed her to
keep her distance from you in exchange for money"
"WHAT!" two voices chant at the same time .
Mnotho :"you gave her money?" My father's breathing does
not go unnoticed
Ma :"yea . " She says in between her sniffs .
They don't even move me .
My mother is just a tunnel of lies and secrets .
Ma :"Ngyaxolisa"
Me :"I don't want to hear it " I turn and leave .
Patting for the door breaks my heart even further today...my
mother could've stopped my situation but she didn't . What a
mother
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*Thule*
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My father is the first to leave and everyone else follows .
She turns to look at me with teary eyes .
I sit on the chair bafo was sitting on and hold her hand .
Me :"Why ma? Why?"
Ma :"You won't understand Thule . Nobody does. I'm being
judged right now and it's fine . I knew this day would come"
Me :"couldn't you put Mbuyiseni first Ma? You saw how much
he suffered because of this ."
Ma :"Pride and thinking you know better" she shrugs and I huff
.
Me :"if this ceremony is done, will he be able to get his sight
back?" She shrugs again .
This is frustrating.
Me :"Mnotho's mother yena? Why did you buy her ma kodwa"
she chuckles bitterly
Ma :"that one... I'd do that over and over if allowed the chance
to . I knew he'll hate me for doing that some day . I knew I'd be
the wicked witch of the west when he finds out but believe it or
not, I did it for him . He deserved a mother that would stay and
put him first , that's what I'm guilty of. Loving him and putting
him first. Tell him I said I love him like I did when we first met"
she hands me a piece of paper.
Ma :"That's where uLesego stays , that's his mother. He knew
him as Sis'Lesego"
Ma :"And dad..."
Ma :"Don't worry about that . My late uncle once said if his
mine then he'll find his way back home" this is a bit dramatic .
I chuckle and kiss her forehead .
Me :"Ngyakthanda sthandwa sami"
Ma :"Uthandwa yimi" I turn .
When I'm about to touch the door handle she calls my name
Ma :"Thank you" she gives me a mini nod .
Me :"always mami"
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I don't know wether to check on Mbuyiseni first or deal with
Mnotho .
Oh...
I dial Lindy
"Hey. It's Thule . Are you with him?"
Lindy :"Uhm yea . He's in the gym and he hasn't come out since
we got here Thule . He's been groaning and screaming in there"
she panics .
Me :"it's fine I'll be there in a few...hours? Can you please stay
with him until then?"
Lindy :"oh yea . It's fine."
Now it's time to find that bully .
I check with Enhle and his not there .
The barman that usually calls me when he's too drunk and he's
also not there .
Now I'm a bit lost ...
The park....he usually goes there to unwind . That's where his
been going these days , I also don't know why.
I drive there and yes his sitting under a tree on top of a rock .
His car is wide open so I close it grabbing his attention .
Mnotho :"What are you doing here Thule?"
Me :"No what are you doing here? Do you think the answers
you want will fall from the sky?"
Mnotho :"I should've known you'd take her side . You've always
been a meek and weak person when it comes to her"
Me :"if insulting me will make you feel better then give me your
toughest blows , I'm used to it. You don't realise it but I'm
always the one who takes your shit whenever you're going
through something because I care..."
Mnotho :"Well no one forced you, you can go be with your
family..."
Me :"Fuck you Mnotho . I'm supposed to be with Mabutho right
now but I'm here . I can't break myself into two..."
Mnotho :"Just go Thule"
Me :"you know what's funny? Mom has always put you first .
Nothing has been normal about your upbringing . You were
always treated better than us because she knew this day will
come . You've never had a curfew, your first car was bought for
you, you've never had to actually go out there and do anything
Mnotho because things were given to you . All of us had to
grovel or work for things but not you . Here...your mother's
address . I hope she brings you happiness ." I throw the piece of
paper at him then turn and leave .
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*Mbuyiseni*
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I punch the bag one more time
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this time it comes bag to hit me infuriating me even further .
I cuss and find my way to the door .
When I open her scent fills my nose and her sniffs are all I can
hear .
Me :"Why are you here Lindy?"
Lindy :"Because I care and you need me, you need someone" I
chuckle bitterly and walk towards my bedroom .
Lindy :"Don't shut me out Mbuyiseni , please" I can feel her
breath on my face so I move my face closer .
I perk her lips and we stay like that for a few seconds , then I
move .
My hands find their way to the back of her neck and I draw
circles on the back .
I can hear her breathe .
I move it down to her collar bone...
Me :"Can i?" She shakes then suddenly stops .
Lindy :"Uhm y- yea"
Me :"you sure?"
Lindy :"I'm sure Mbuyiseni" then he pulls me in for a deep kiss .
I move my hands slowly underneath her shirt to her chest and
her breasts fill both my hands , I squeeze and she gasps making
me remove my hand hastily.
Oops. My bad.
Me :"I'm sorry. I'm sorry"
Lindy :"it's ok"
She grabs my hand and puts them back .
I can't get over how soft and...perky they feel .
She unbuttons my shirt and then moves her hands around my
chest .
Why does it feel so good?
It this the time where I have to undress her as well?
Oh hell .
I remove her shirt not breaking the kiss .
She unbuckles my belt , i-stress . I-stress!!
My pants fall to my feet and she pulls me towards the bed , in
between....her legs.
Uhm...what am I supposed to do?
I don't want this to be awkward .
Oh her underwear!
I remove myself from her leg and remove it , throwing it across
the room .
She removes my undie as well and then I hear her gasp.
Thule said if her breath does something then it means I've
touched her sensitive spot , but I didn't do anything.
Is her sensitive spot on my undies?
Sex is weird .
My blood rushes when she touches uNgcongwane .
I suddenly feel hot.
Me :"Whoa whoa whoa Lindy . Wait" she shuts me up with a
wet kiss .
I try to put it in but...where am I supposed to put it in?
Sabatha said I'll easily find it .
I fiddle with it and lutho!
Lindy :"Breathe Mbuyiseni..." Then she directs me to her little
heaven.
I can't help but gasp when I feel the warmth of her home , it
totally engulfs me .
Me :"fuck!" I hear her chuckle .
I stay in the same place for a few seconds .
Lindy clears her throat , oh fuck! Mnotho once said you move
up and down.
I move uNgcongwane up and down and she lets out a loud
moan. Am I doing it right?
I move it for a few times and I feel myself build up.
My blood rushes and I move even faster.
I move faster until I release some liquid inside her and lose all
my energy .
Do I need to tell her it's my first time?
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*Mnotho*
I'm in front of a small shack and it is supposedly my "mother's"
house .
I really want to go in but Thule's text comes to my mind .
"You cannot buy a mother that wants to stay . You cannot buy
someone who's heart is in the right place" .
I take a leap of faith and knock .
I hope I won't regret this.
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*Lindy*
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I'm disappointed !
I'm disappointed in myself!
I'm disappointed in him!
When I saw his little man down there I thought he would be
able to get the job done kodwa I didn't even orgasm.
So much for my crush in him .
I just hope our cumless sex won't interfere with our relationship
because I sure as hell ain't doing this again with him .
5 minutes!
5 minutes !!
And throughout he was nervous !
It's either he's a two minute noodle or he was...
Neeeeah I mean it's thee Mbuyiseni Mwelase .
Girls have been throwing themselves at him .
Yes he's blind but...no man . He just doesn't know his business.
That's it!
He has been in that bathroom for more than 20 minutes now
on the phone with Sabatha .
His probably embarrassed, as he should .
I got embarrassed on his behalf when he couldn't find my hole.
With that five minutes I could've stalked Duduzani Zuma on
Instagram and still find time to watch porn .
How dare he waste my time?
After a few good minutes he comes back , his eyes are
bloodshot red.
Me :"You okay?" Why do I still care? Five minutes remember?
Mbuyiseni :"I'm sorry. It's just...I know I messed up" Uhm yea
you did .
Me :"no it's fine" he chuckles
Mbuyiseni :"you sound irritated so I know it's not fine"of course
I am
Me :"no I'm not" he chuckles again.
Mbuyiseni :"can I make it up to you,?" He sits on the bed, finds
my face and brushes my cheeks .
No bruh , I'd rather watch the PEP advert or Imizwilili.
Me :"nea it's fine . Want coffee" I can't exactly read his face
hence I don't know whether to pack my things and go or what
Mbuyiseni :"no I'm fine" so you don't make me orgasm next
thing you're mad? How does this work in the Mwelase world?
I get up and wrap a towel around me.
He gets in , runs his hands through the empty counter .
In a split second eh throws me on top of the counter and gets in
between my legs .
He kisses me , atleast he can kiss . His lips are soft and warm
you can kiss him all day .
He travels to my twins and kisses each side.
He travels down to my nana and actually does the things that
make the orgasm to happen .
He redeemed himself , but he still can't fuck ay .
When his done he grabs a towel and wipes me .
He smiles and the awkwardness is saved by my ringing phone .
I grab it...and it's my mother .
"Sowubona Ma"
Ma :"Yebo Lindani ninjani?"
Me :"Kyaphileka"
Ma :"you don't even call to check up on us"
Me :"I was going to call yazi"
Ma :"Ay suka . Sisi we need your help . We don't have food . The
food we bought at the beginning of the month sekwaphela and
izicathulo zikaBusi ziyaphela ngaphansi , you know how the
road is and ubaba said I should ask you to buy him medicine for
his cows . Ziyaphela seloku kwangena ihlobo" my ears ring !
They forget that I'm not a millionaire, I work for one .
Me :"Ma what happened to the R 400 I sent you on
Wednesday?"
Ma :"Aw ivele yaphela nje mntanam" that's another way of
saying uphisane ngayo. She's too nice and people know it.
Me :"Ok Ma I'll see what I can do" there's nothing I will see. It's
the 8th day on the month and I'm so close to being broke
because of the expenses back home .
I earn exactly R5000 after all the deductions.
I have to give my parents R2500 for food and water bills , R750
goes to Busi's school fees and my rent is R500 . Per month I
need R500 to get to and from work .
The rest of the money I have to buy food, toiletries and
probably clothes if I can on that month .
I've opted for lay-bying now .
Sizothini? I'm my parent's only hope , my parents can't and
won't find work anywhere .
Companies are looking for young minds with great innovative
ideas that match the time .
Until then , we'll pay black tax like crazy . Not because we want
to but because we can't watch our families starve .
We talk for a little while and drop the call.
He clears his throat .
Almost forgot that he is here.
Mbuyiseni :"Everything.ok?" You can sense the concern on his
voice.
Me :"Uhm yea"
Mbuyiseni :"you know you can always come to me if you need
anything right" if things were that easy.
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*Thule*
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Me :"I'm losing my mind Funeka . No one is willing to give her a
chance to explain . Mnotho is angry and Mbuyiseni wants
nothing to with uMa
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Sabatha says his going back to Mooi River and.he doesn't want
anything to do with this . Mabutho...he doesn't know wether
the sun is rising or setting" I huff . Why am I venting?
I haven't done it with anyone else other than mom and it feels
good .
She sides smiles.
Funeka :"you can't fix from the feet going up . Who's the one
person they can never say no to?"
Me :"UNsimbi nomkakhe"
Funeka :"let them be the one who call this meeting" i chuckle
Me :"I didn't know there was the human side to you"
Funeka :"Haike haike sundiqhela mfondini" I think I love Xhosa
coming from her . She makes it sound so sexy.
I throw myself next to her .
She's watching...Kim Kardashian? I don't know but I can spot
her because she is Sabatha's crush . He used to have posters of
her half naked in his room.
Me :"Why are you watching this thing?"
Funeka :"Do you have a TV?"
Me :"mxm"
Funeka :"Exactly . You'll watch what I'm watching . I registered
our business by the way . I'm waiting for response" I nod . She's
quite passionate about this and it's a beautiful sight .
Me :"Great . How far are we from the truck" we had to dip into
our investment and it doesn't even reach R200 000 which is
what is needed for the truck . It's frustrating.
Funeka :"Very far" I nod and look at the screen .
I think I get why Sabatha has a crush on this Kim Kardashian
lady , I mean look at that ass.
I lean forward to look at it clearer and the channel changes .
Me :"Sathane"
She gives me her middle finger and goes back to watching a
flipping cooking channel .
This quickly comes at me like lightening .
Me :"I've never heard you speaking about family" she frowns at
me and goes back to the TV screen.
Funeka :"There's nothing to speak about"
Me :"So you don't have family?" Why am I prying?
Funeka :"Oh no they're somewhere in the world , chasing the
next paper but I wouldn't count them as family . I don't know "
she shrugs .
Me :"Come on Funeka we all need people in our corner
especially blood..." She cuts me off
Funeka :"If they were so worried about me they would've found
me . They have all the resources . You don't know how it feels
like having to stumble upon your own feet and find your way
through life without help while your parents have everything
money can buy . I paid my own varsity fees for the first year
because my parents didn't even know I had finished Matric . I
couldn't talk to my mother about anything because I was scared
of her . I bought my own pads with my allowance money
because I couldn't run to my own mother and let her know . I've
went through this life thing alone with no one there so don't sit
here and tell me about what I need Thule . You don't know
anything!" She blinks her tears away but one falls . What do I
do?
I've never had a case of a crying girl before .
Oh yes I always hug mom so I bring her closer to my chest .
Me :"Funeka sometimes parents don't express love the same
way . Maybe to them showing you love is giving you all they
couldn't have growing up" she cuts me off and gets out of my
embrace.
Funeka :", That's the thing right there Thule , we keep on
excusing toxic and absent parents while young kids are dying ."
Honestly I don't think I get it, I don't get the whole concept of
being a strict parent to a point where your kids can't even talk
to you.
At this point I really don't know what to say because I don't
imagine myself doing this life thing without uBafo
nomfaz'wakhe .
I wipe her tears with my thumb and bring her closer .
I've never seen her weak and vulnerable , she always portrays
this ratchet ass bitch to the whole world and now I get it .
It can't be easy letting people walk over you so you learn how to
talk back and fight back whenever you need to because no one
has your back .
I can proudly stand here and tell you that I didn't fight half of
my battles but my brothers did,even when I didn't need them to
.
Me :"You're going to be ok . We can share my parents if you
want ." She giggles and nods .
Funeka :"Ndingayivuyela lonto" she wraps her hands around my
torso , does she realise what she's doing?
Why am I allowing her to lay on my chest?
Am I catching feelings?
Yeap, call me a Catchiologist because it's happening .
Funeka :"You smell nice"
Yea I'm a Catchisist .
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<Mkhulu please come to Joburg as soon as possible . Things are
a mess and I don't know how to solve them>
Sent.
I just hope he'll really come , Nsimbi is not really predictable.
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*Mnotho*
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"Why did you leave me Lesego?" She hands me a metal cup
with tea . I don't drink tea so I put it on the small table next to
me .
The heat in this shack is almost unbearable .
Lesego :"She threatened my life and yours Mnotho . She said if I
don't leave then she'll be forced to kill you because you are
what binds me and your father . I believed her because when
she came in our lives things changed and Nathi changed on me .
Suddenly I was the enemy" she lets out a gut wrenching sob , I
can't believe I actually thought uM...Nsingizi is a good person .
Not even once has she mistreated me so all of this is a
revelation.
I move closer to her and bring her in for a hug .
Lesego :"I was scared and I had to put you first mfana wami ."
Me :"I understand ma, I understand" I brush her hack and she
calms down.
Lesego :"I'm sorry "
I nod and go back to my...seat .
I look around the shack .
Me :"is this place safe for you?"
Ma :"it's not kodwa sizothini" she shrugs
Me :", you can come stay with me"
Ma :"no I don't want to impose"
Me :"I insist . You're my mother , I can't let you stay in a house
like this"
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*Liminathi*
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She looks so peaceful when asleep with her slightly pouted lips
and beautiful glowing skin .
She's always admired my skin and I low-key wanted hers , so
weird .
After years of marriage and grown ass kids and it looks like she
hasn't aged a day in my eyes.
"Get away from me" she says randomly .
Me :"Mamazi I'm sorry . I was just surprised-"
Nsingizi :"I know I was wrong but I just wanted you to have back
when it came to Mnotho, that's all it is . Instead you acted like I
separated you from your lover...maybe I did" the pain in her
voice as she says the last sentence pains my heart . I'd done
nothing but be loyal to her in all these years but it'll never be
enough to erase the time I was unfaithful .
Me :"I'm sorry MakaMnotho . Ngyaxolisa Mfazi wam. I just
didn't know how to react . I hate it when you keep things from
me ."
Nsingizi :"I'm sorry as well. I didn't have a choice babazi . I didn't
want her in his life back then and I still don't . Mnotho is the
biggest success story at the moment and I know your bitch will
cash in on it"
Me :"My bitch? " She rolls her eyes
Nsingizi :"Your ex wife" I chuckle .
Me :"He won't listen and you know that mamakhe . We'll have
to let him burn."
Nsingizi :"No Limi he'll listen if it comes you . I'm his biggest
enemy at the moment"
Me :"or we can tell him the truth" she shakes her head
Me :"or we can just let him take the wheel and watch him crash
the car . You have to let Mnotho male mistakes Simi , you can't
always be there to play hero . In this case I need you to do
things the way you would've done with uNqobi . We're out
there stressing about a 35 years old grown ass man with a wife
and we don't know what uMbuyiseni is going through ." She
bites her lower lip and faces the ceiling .
Nsingizi :"I'm scared Nathi . I'm scared of facing him . I'm scared
of seeing the anger he'll have towardse"
Me :"He'll never hate you . You know how he is" that one is the
most forgiving human being under the sun and yes we do tend
to misuse it sometimes . He's a mini version of Nsingizi , from
their lightskin to forgiving spirit and kind hearts . Laba
abanye...izinja one side . Especially Sabatha.
Nsingizi :"I hope so" she turns her focus to her phone .
Nsingizi :"Sanya"
Me :"Why?"
Nsingizi :"Nsimbi and Samu are in town"
Yha sinyile .
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*Mabutho*
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"Baby I'm begging you. I swear I'll never ever do you bad again .
All I need is one last chance ."
Ze :"That's I gave you the last time Mabutho and the one before
that. You always mess up and want second chances Mabutho .
Angyena uJesu mina. The divorce papers are being drafted as
we speak . You'll hear from my lawyer as soon as tomorrow
morning " she continues packing my bag . Yes I'm the one who's
being kicked out . It's not really a surprise , she always said that
should I mess up I'm the one who's leaving , not her.
Ze :"Ok . Everything's packed . Get out of my house "
Me :"Just like that ? 2 years of marriage down the drain?"
Ze :"I've spent that 2 years crying Mabutho so I don't get your
point"
Me :"yho Ze"
Ze :"Phuma Mabutho" wow .
I take the huge bag and the suit case and pack them in my car .
I grab the key .
Ze :"You better not scratch my car njalo weMabutho ."
Me :"So you really want all my possessions"
Ze :"My? Those things are mine. From these two cars to this
house . All mine. I'll let you keep that penthouse , I wouldn't be
comfortable using it since every one of your hoe has been
there" flip! How did she know about that Penthouse? UMa!
That woman is not loyal .
Abafazi!
I just nod and get in my car.
Now I have to get to this stupid meeting . As if I don't have
enough shit to deal with. Argh!
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*Mbuyiseni*
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I decided to use the M4 today because...why not?
My driver parks and opens the door for me , Sab quickly jumps
out.
Speaking of San, I hope Sabatha will be in this meeting . Last I
heard he said he is going to Mooi River yena akazingeni .
I hear noise on the left where the pool is so Sab follows the
noise.
When I walk in it suddenly becomes quiet .
Me :"San'bona kwaMwelase"
"Ndoda yamadoda" I can't believe he's actually here . I wonder
who called him .
Me :"Mkhulu ninjani?"
Nsimbi :"Hay Kyaphileka" and then it goes silent for a second .
Me :"Namuncu nje , kwenze njani?" I hear chuckles and scoffs
Me :"Yhu you aren't even laughing. I don't know is it me or
since I won the People's Choice award for Media personality of
the year you guys no longer laugh at my jokes" the person in
front of me scoffs , that has to my dad .
Bafo :"Ever since you became a millionaire their smiles aren't as
wide . I can see them son"
Me :"Ngzosuke ngibhoreke ngithenge iMaserati kunyiwe
makunyiwa" they laugh .they probably didn't expect me to be in
such a mood but I rode in my M4 today, who gets mad while
riding an M4.
That car's pipes are louder than it's hooter
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I mean! And I happen to own it .
Bafo :"Banyise fanono kababa" they burst into laughter . My
father can just make you sour Yaz, the hell is Fanono?
Me :"yhu hayke ubaba" he pulls my hand to the chair next to
him .
I quickly catchy mother's scents very close by and the sniffs are
hard to ignore as well.
Bafo :"Manje awusho how much is that watch?" He asks loud
enough for the whole table to hear.
Me :"Ah this one can buy each and every one of y'alls car but
it's still change to me"
Thule :"Saze safa" I chuckle .
"I can't believe you guys are letting Lo malambame to get away
with this stupid flex" nayi leyoSanamabishi.
Why am I in a good mood again?
Oh it's the M4 . Almost forgot .
Me :"Malambame? I eat prawns for breakfast . Moet is just
water . Angaz malambame yin leyo" they laugh again.
Sabatha :"I fed my dogs ama-prawns so I don't get your point"
there are whistles. Our net-worth is almost the same, I'm just
richer by 1,2 million and he doesn't need to know that because
he can help only five companies With Mnotho's help and make
that 1,2 million . Sabatha is really sharp .
Gogozi :"I stan Mzukulu. Louder please" we all burst into
laughter. Sabatha is always on a mission to teach uGog'Samu
these stupid Skrr skrr terms and ay siyaphasa iskole .
Usually mom would go "co-stan ke gogozi". Hence after that
loud laughter there is silence.
Me :"You don't Stan?" I whisper to her and she sniffs .
Nsingizi :"I do" I pat for her shoulder, run my hand down her
arm to find her hand and then I pull her towards the lounge
leaving the table in silence.
Fortunately I know this house so finding the couch is so easy .
Ma :"I love you" I chuckle . Didn't expect that one
Me :"I know mom but I'm so mad at you right now. I want to
hate you so bad. I want to cut you out of my life and totally
forget about you but I can't. I can't because you're my support
system . I don't see myself going a week without even a single
phone call from you" I huff.
Ma :"I'm sorry Mbuyiseni . I let pride get in the way . I was
selfish. My conscience deals with me each and every day"
Me :"was it worth it sthandwa sami?"
Ma :"Nothing will ever be worth you losing your sight
Mbuyiseni. I'm sorry baby. I'm really sorry" she sobs and I pull
her in for a hug .
Me :"I forgive you mami. Not like I have a choice, last night I
found myself jumping to my phone to call you and then I
remembered ukuthi I'm not talking to you" she giggles and pulls
out of the hug.
Ma :"What did you want to say?" I start telling her about my
first time and she shivers and scoffs through the whole story .
Ma :"Your father needs to teach you how to handle a woman's
body ..." Ok I really don't want to know how my father handles
my mother's body. No.
Ma :"You were supposed to tell her you a virgin nawe
Mbuyiseni so she knows she's supposed to take the lead and it
was insensitive of her not to help you with..."
Me :"Ok mom . I hear you" she laughs. Some sweet melody
right there .
Ma :"and we've contacted uLindiwe. The ritual will take place
on Saturday"
Me :"Will I be ok?"
Ma :"Gagashe said akazi naye." I nod . This is daunting
Ma :"I love you "
Me :"I love you too sthandwa. Let's go before they think I killed
you"
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*Thule*
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Ma and Mbuyiseni walk hand in hand and I hear a number of
sighs around the table .
Looks like we don't need uMkhulu after all.
Everyone relaxes as they join us .
Mbuyiseni brushes his Rolex and nods .
Oh no!
Mbuyiseni :"Yea no umuntu u-rich shame . This thing of having
millions in your account can be exhausting sometimes " What's
up with him today? Well him and Sabatha aren't exactly the
most humble human beings but today he's extra on the flex-
athon.
If Mnotho was here he'd finish this whole circus because we all
know, Mnotho is unmatched .
Bafo :"How much is that watch exactly my boy? It looks
expensive" He ALWAYS wants us to listen to these two .
ALWAYS.
It's the funniest shit but it's also very inspiring.
Mbuyiseni :"Ah it's just R120 000 , it didn't even dent my
account . I can buy you five of these timer and still have money
to buy that Maserati that is calling my name" I've heard enough.
I take out my phone and decide to text Funeka .
She's the one that downloaded me this app anyway. I didn't
need it .
Me : busy?
Funeka : not really . I'm working on this pitch for Amib Logistics
.
I don't know where my father got this "Amib" name but we're
ok running with it.
Me : Who are we approaching?
Funeka : heard of Scania trucks?
Me : No.
Funeka : It's Europe's number one truck manufacturer and
they're expanding to Southern Africa .
Me : Aren't we a bit too small to approach such a big company?
Funeka : With this holy water I sprinkle the spirit of negativity .
Phuma moyomubi.
Besides I'm still working on the pitch . By the time Raimo Lehtiö
gets to South Africa , I would've been done with it and tried
using it in South African companies . I'll try pitching for
MyGrowthFund.
How can I not catch? How can I not when she's so smart and
business minded ?
Me : Proud of you
Funeka : Proud of us.
I'm choking!! She said "us" guys, nizwile .
Mkhulu :"I wonder ukitazwa ubani?"
Me :"Haw Mkhulu so a person can't just smile for happiness's
sake?"
Mbuyiseni :"What bhuti did they deposit a million into your
account like they did with mine yesterday?" Yhu Nkosi
Mabutho :"Sixolele Mbuyiseni. Siyaxolisa" we all laugh but
abruptly stop when we see Mnotho walking in with a middle
aged woman .
My eyes move to mom and she has her eyes closed and biting
her lower lip .
UMkhulu is fuming!
Bafo :"Mnotho what is this woman doing in my house?" He
keeps his still face.
Mnotho :"I brought her here so your wife doesn't tell lies and
she can tell her side of the story "
Gog'Samu :"Your wife? Isn't this your mother"
Mnotho :"all of that changed when she threatened my mother"
he holds her hand and my father chuckles .
Mkhulu :"Your mother? Do you know what your precious
mother did? I should've killed her when I had the chance. I
should've killed her when-" Ma lays her hand on top of his to
stop him from talking . What did this woman do?
Nsingizi :"Lesego get out of my house"
Mnotho :"If she leave , I follow her" haike uMnotho .
Nsingizi :"Then both of you get out. I have done all I could
Mnotho and gave you all the love I have to offer, loved you like
my own and it seems like it isn't enough . Ngigeza izandla. If this
is how you thank me then it's fine. This one...will show you
flames . Uzosha Mnotho . Ungabuyi la" she clicks her tongue
and leaves.
We always upset uMa but she has never told us to leave her
house. Even when we hosted a party when the trio turned 18 .
She didn't and Mnotho was 27 back then .
Bafo :"You've never deserved my mercy . The only reason I
didn't do it was because of this one. Wena Mnotho your balls
are beginning to be a tad too big for you ngyakbona . Ayaksinda.
You think you're a man. Good luck ngalo . You'll need it" he
turns and follows my mother .
Sabatha :"Haike kwashuba fast"
Gogo :"Mnotho naloGogo wakho maniqeda ukusibuka please
leave" I move my eyes to Mnotho, he looks lost.
Like he wants someone to tell him what to do hence he stands
still and his shoulders fall .
Mnotho always stands tall with his shoulders aligned so this is
something new.
Mkhulu :"For someone who passed a Post graduate diploma
with a Cum Laude uyislima shame"
Sabatha :"I-CEO yonke"
Mbuyiseni :"i-Multi millionaire"
Mabutho :"I-award winning Businessman mnk"
On any normal day Mnotho would burst into laughter but we're
all just looking at these three with bored expressions .
Dad should've used a condom
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*Thule*
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.
.
Today I have a meeting with Mbuso , a young man I met at the
awards Mnotho took me to .
Apparently my ideas have actually worked and he wants to
thank me .
I'm not a billionaire yet so I took the opportunity at free lunch.
Plus a whole day at the rank with angry taxi drivers is no joke .
Don't judge me.
I'm sure you've also went to a date because of free food .
I walk in the restaurant and he booked a table very close to the
door .
I spot him and move towards him .
We first handshake and then sit .
He's quite a bright young man .
Mbuso :"My business has picked up . We made twice the profit
we've been making monthly and I've got you to thank"
Me :"Don't sweat it . My door is always open ."
Mbuso :"You know you can put all that business knowledge to
good use" see? He's smart.
Me :"I don't really know much. My business flunked and I had
to join the taxi business..."
Mbuso:"But now you're about to venture into Logistics.. ." Yea I
told him. I don't know why I trust this child so much . Maybe it's
because he hasn't judged me by my brother's timeline .
He continues , "people make a living out of Motivational
speaking and you'd be perfect for it . People need to hear what
you've got to share on business" I'm not even successful yet .
Me :"We'll revisit this conversation when I have something to
show people . Not now"
We order food while he goes on and on and on about his
friends, girlfriend(s) and his successful business.
Seeing him so excited about his business is so fulfilling ,
knowing that my expertise were put to good use makes things
so much greater ..
Why couldn't I have the same mindset I had helping Mbuso
when starting my business?
I wouldn't have lost like I did.
I lost everything . From my house to...
That's just a story for another day .
I shift my focus back to Mbuso who's been blabbering on about
how much of a thousandaire he is and his friends are now
hating.
Mbuso :"I'm telling you Bhut'Thule . People are switching . I had
this friend that suddenly went ghost when things were looking
up . Securing bags is the shit" ok I can't keep up with this
language mina . Maybe if he was having a conversation with
Sabatha , they'd click .
Me :"Ever heard of traffic people?" He shakes his head
reluctantly .
Me :"Ever met those people that are fine when y'all are
stagnant? They are just good with a life engayi ndawo . They
want to fail and drag you with them . They celebrate when they
fail just because you failed with them and the rest of the world
did too. They will stand in your path and they will delay your
road to your goal . Ungizwe Kahle, they delay . They don't stop
the rest of the journey . Ukuthi uyama noma uyahamba
nabambayo will be up to you . Steer clear from such people ,
they're dangerous . They come in different forms , sometimes
they come from within your family . Some are your best friends
. If you don't have them then you're yet to meet them , if you
don't then zinuke amakhwapha" he quickly gulps his juice
staring at nothing .
.
.
.
I've been knocking at her door for quite a while now , it kind of
irritates me a bit because I told her I'm coming and she should
get ready .
Me :"Funeka man!"
Funeka :"Yhu ndithe ndiyeza tyhin" she's still cheeky .
Me :"You better come out looking like Kim Kardashian because
you've been saying that" she lets out that mocking laugh , you
know that "Hehe" that is followed by one loud clap of hands .
Funeka :"Yet you fail to be Brad Pitt nawe after spending hours
playing taxi driver" mxm .
I huff and decide to sit on top of the rock facing her door .
Giving me time to carefully look at her house.
It's a simple four roomed house with a parking space on the left
and a huge tree on the front.
It's quite neat , definitely not what I expected from the crazy
Funeka Fakude .
She walks out with a towel wrapped on her chest . Her thighs
that have cellulite are quite visible , actually no they're out on
display .
My eyes automatically get stuck on them , they're much lighter
than her face , I mean amhlophe . It really doesn't help ukuthi
unesitho umntakaFakude.
I see small stretch marks quite visible behind her thighs when
she runs towards her wall...with a hose pipe.
On any normal day I'd flip but no my eyes are on the stretch
marks and the slightly visible booty.
I notice she also has cellulite on her butt but I can't decide as
yet since I haven't seen all of it.
Ok I have to snap out of it but her body has me in a trance .
I quickly shake my head when I see her drag the pipe towards
the short wall . She climbs on top of the wall and waters
whatever it is .
Funeka :"Rha nidlala umathandana outside my house? Why
won't you do it outside your father's house? Zondiqhela
umnqundu. Sukani!!" Ouk it's decided , she is Masterclass
Xhosa Crazy .
Two really young kids wearing school uniform run away looking
frightened
I can't believe she's this type of neighbor.
She turns to look and placing her hand in front of me to stop
me from speaking
Funeka :"Andizoqhelwa ziMillenials(sp) mna Thule."
Me :"Ok go get dressed" she rolls her eyes and turns to the
door .
I follow behind her .
Damn her thighs! So thick .
She turns to look at me and I just move my eyes to the phone
on my hand .
Me :"Hurry up already . We're going to be late and my
grandmother doesn't do well with late"
"Yea yea" she runs towards her room .
I like how small and intimate this whole house is.
Why does she have a portrait of a cow with horns in the dining
room? I'll never get over it .
Those bullets she calls decorations on the kitchen just gives me
creeps .
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.
When we walk in everyone is already here
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except for Mnotho and I feel a pang in my heart.
Funeka looks all dolled up, I rejoice a little when she locks my
hand with hers. When last did someone do this with me??!!
Funeka :"Molweni" she greets and a number of people chuckle .
My grandparents just smile , well Gogo smiles angaz
ngalendoda yakhe .
We sit down, she opposite me , next to Ze . I don't know how
that happened. I wanted her next to me .
Gogo :"Esakuphi lesbutubutu mzukulu?" I see Funeka frown a
bit
Funeka :"Aybo salukazi Isbutu-" a number of people who have
seen Funeka in action clear their throats loudly to stop her from
going any further .
She doesn't want to get on Samu's bad side . My grandmother's
still got it shame.
Me :"OwaseSoweto Gogo"Samu is no longer smiling . She's
looking at Funeka with a bit of frown .
Gogo :"I can tell." She drinks her juice .
My mother chuckles behind the glass of orange juice .
Ma :"I like Funeka" of course she likes her , they're the same .
I just roll my eyes .
.
.
.
*Ze*
.
.
They need to find another term for crazy because Funeka really
exceeds the meaning .
In the minutes I've spent with her on this table I'm able to tell
that's she's blunt and honest , a really bad combo if you ask me
.
Funeka :"Why didn't you shoot him when he cheated the first
time?"
Me :"Shoot!? That's a bit extreme" she rolls her eyes .
Whispering in this table is an extreme sport.
Funeka :"You were supposed to remind him what will happen
should he do it again"
Me :"Come on Funeka . And risk going to jail"
Funeka :"he wasn't going to get you arrested hau" she gets up
slowly and pulls me .
We excuse ourselves from the table and she walks towards the
sliding door leading to the lounge.
We sit on the high chairs in the kitchen.
Oh ice cream!
We indulge .
Funeka :"So you're really divorcing?" I nod .
Funeka :" How old are you?"
Me :"21" her face remains blank . I thought she'd be surprised
or something.
Funeka :"you're still young Yaz yet look at what you're wearing"
I'm wearing a long skirt with a long sleeved shirt and a towel on
my shoulders to shot respect to my in laws oh and a green doek
.
Me :"What's wrong with what I'm wearing ?"
Funeka :"Aren't you divorcing?" I nod "Then why are you still
dressed like that? You're supposed to be exploring your fashion
sense since there are no barriers anymore . You're young , show
some leg , some ass , some titts . Ubemhle man" I just chuckle
as she says all of this and flicks her long wig .
Me :"Ubhuti uzothwala nzima la kuwe" she frowns
Funeka :"Which brother?"
Me :"Thule" she coughs a number of times while hitting her
chest.
Funeka :"You really want to kill me . I see you"
Me :"Hay stop acting lost Funeka. We can all see the vibe
between you two. "
Funeka :"You guys are really bad at reading vibes honestly" she
blinks and focuses on the tub again
Me :"Come on . You telling me you don't tell anything for him .
Not even a little thing? A tiny winsy thing?"
Funeka :"Ok so I'll tell you this and you better not repeat it" I
nod and she continues ,"today I tried seducing her and your
brother ..." She claps her hands once "dololo . I was in my towel
Ze, my shortest towel , showing my booty umuntu wandijonga
qha . I ended thinking maybe he didn't like my stretch marks
and cellulites"
Me :"Come on . His not like that" what am I saying? I don't even
know what he's like
Me :"What were you doing Wena? Phela Wena Funeka you can
be a bit extreme" she dramatically gasps and we hear someone
clear their throat
Gogo :"Maybe it's your loud mouth that put him off. No one
wants Ukhozi fm as a girlfriend"
Funeka :"Aybo Gogo you don't even know me"
Gogo :"And I hope things stay like that" she grabs the ice cream
tub from Funeka and leaves .
Funeka :"Does this old woman know me?" She asks with her
mouth hanging open .
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.
*Enhle*
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.
.
She's driving me insane!!!
She's driving me to the nearest mental institution .
She has been ordering me around since she got here and play
victim when Mnotho is here .
She reminds me of the movie Monster in law, she is that white
woman in black skin .
U-devil lomama.
I'm washing curtains today because they apparently have dust .
I have a maid and she sent her home early , fuck the fact that
I'm pregnant .
I hang them on the line carefully while she stands at the door
looking at me with a cup of coffee in her hands.
I thought I didn't like Nsingizi, but no I adore her !
Mam'Lesego :"Woza Koti . The windows have finger prints , ne-
dust" someone shove her wherever she comes from .
Me :"But Ma I'm tired . I've been on my feet the whole day and
I'm pregnant"
Mam'Lesego :"Pregnant not sick . The dishes are waiting for you
and I defrosted Beef for you . Mawuqeda nje nayo ikulindile "
I have never worked so hard in my life .
I wash the windows and wash dishes .
I'm only left with cooking.
Mnotho walks in and kisses me on my cheek
Me :"Baby we need to talk" he frowns a bit .
Mam'Lesego :"Makoti . Want me to help you with the beef
stew?" She asks with a conniving smile . Yhu rubbish yomama
le.
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*Thule*
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Me :"I don't like what happened in there"
Funeka :"What happened?"
Me :"Don't play dumb Funeka . Disrespecting my grandmother"
Funeka :"But you heard what-"
Me :"Uyingane Funeka . If you feel like you're too underrated
for my family , you are allowed to leave . You will never ever
speak to my grandmother like that . You won't even dream of it.
Syezwana ?" She nods playing with her fingers.
Me :"You can't speak anymore?"
Funeka :"I hear you and I'm sorry"
Me :"My grandmother is still in the kitchen , you owe her an
apology . Not me"
Funeka :"Aw kodwa Th-"
Me :"I don't want to hear it Funeka. You don't need to be so
defensive all the time , you're your own worst enemy ." She
nods and leaves slowly .
.
.
*Funeka*
.
.
.
Apologize? Mna?
I never apologize but this one time I really need to do it. I was
wrong .
I walk in and go to where the table was set and there she is
drinking tea in this heat.
Me :"Ma , Can I please join you?" She keeps quiet for a second
and points at the chair in front of her .
Me :"Uhm erh Ma . I just wanted to say I'm sorry for the way I
behaved throughout the dinner ...I I I just-" she holds her hand
up to stop me from speaking .
Gogo :"Why did you take offence when I called you
isbutubutu?"
Me :"I just have issues with my weight." I shrug
Gogo :"Yet you don't have an issue with walking around half
naked to get umzukulu wam?" I was hoping she doesn't hear
that .
Me :"Uhm no no no . It's not like that . I I i" she stops me again .
Gogo :"Don't explain into engezwakali . The problem is you
behave like a street mate" I gasp . Aybo.
Me :"I don't"
Gogo :"No man could actually ignore those thighs unless
whatever it is you were doing had his attention" I swallow my
own spit when I remember what I was doing .
Gogo :"Thule is soft . Has been soft and quiet since birth , do
you think he'd be attracted by your loud mouth?"
Me :"Hah Ma . I'm smart , beautiful and believe it or not but I'm
a good listener . I'm caring and I can keep secrets shame .
Actually he doesn't deserve me , I'd help him shine by my side "
Gogo :"Then stop using your mouth so much . Use those smarts
to get him . I'm not saying mshele but look good and smell nice
in his presence . Be sexy and still cover up . Ukhuluma kakhulu
man nawe ay" she sips her tea . Yhu this old woman is really
dragging me .
Me :"Yho bottom line , sorry Magriza"
Gogo :"Yeka ukuphapha nje wena sizozwana "
Haike haike I've met my spirit animal .
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*Mnotho*
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.
.
My heart stings as I look through Sabatha's videos and pictures
on his status .
They had a family lunch .
I love those .
They usually took place when Gogozi is in town.
The biggest part of me just wants to call uMa but I also can't
because of what I know .
How can I just erase her out of my life.
Whenever I think of her our last encounter comes to mind .
I have never seen her so mad
in my 34 years on earth I've never seen my mother so angry .
Enhle :"Mnotho I can't take it anymore !! I can't!!" I groan .
They just can't get along .
Me :"Ay ay Enhle!"
Enhle :"Don't nkway nkway me Mnotho . You bought that
woman into my house without even asking me!"
Me :"What do you want me to do Mbalenhle! She's my fucken
mother!!"
Enhle :"I want her gone Mnotho!! I have had it!! I can't be a
helper in my own house. I'm pregnant have you forgotten?" I
just want a break from my own life.
I have a nagging wife , dramatic mother and hectic business .
And I miss my family .
Times like these I'd be cuddled in Nsingizi's arms . I miss mami.
Me :"Gone? Stop trippin' Enhle! You don't own anything." She
gasps . Ok that was below the belt
Enhle :"wow Mnotho. Wow"
Me :"Mxm" I grab my key and exit the room .
Mam'Lesego :"You want food baby? The beef stew your wife
cooked had too much salt so I had to start afresh" someone give
me a fucken break .
I just give her a death stare and leave.
When I'm in my car all I can think of is the park so I drive there .
I park close to the tree and get off .
peace reigns .
Silence! That's all I need .
"Wasn't expecting to find you here" I haven't heard that voice in
forever.
Her scent quickly fills the space .
She smells like lavender , sweet but not too strong .
Me :"Same goes to you"
Sena :"This is my think space"
Me :"Think space? That is so child-ish"
Sena :"I didn't come here to be disrespected by you . Since we
share this space , let's just keep quiet and do what we normally
do when here..."
Me :"Great" she rolls her eyes and stares towards the playing
kids .
I huff loudly and she gives me a death stare . Mxm .
After a few minutes I groan .
Sena :"I didn't come here to listen to you groan either . Out
with it"
Me :"put with what" she gives me a "don't fuck with me" look
that seems to intimidate be A BIT.
Me :"I just found out that I have mom" she frown making me
roll my eyes then I start narrating the story of how I got to meet
my mother and where we're at now , leaving out the parts
about Enhle.
Sena :"So you chose a stranger over your own mother?" There's
a lot of judgement in her tone .
Me :"She's not a stranger , she's my mother" I snap and she
remains unfazed .
Sena :"Mnotho a mother nurtures , a mother cares , a mother
raises you right until one of you leave this earth. A mother will
put you first right until you kick the bucket . No mother can be
brought Mnotho . A mother will lay down their life protecting
YOU! Maybe if you heard that your ex mother killed your
current mother I'd understand but she took that money
willingly and didn't even try reaching out for months. The
problem here is you believed her menemene ndini. I hope your
ex mother cuts you off , who needs unfaithful people in their
circle?" She gets up and leaves. A card falls from the back of her
Jean.
It's her business card .
Been wanting these .
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*Mabutho*
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.
.
The plan was to leave the bar as early as possible but the clock
hits 22:00 and we're still here downing shorts .
Drinking with Sabatha is n extreme sport.
His always trying to prove to people that his the older one .
I-lat born yonke trying to prove to people that his older .
Life's struggles mnk .
Right now we're downright sloshed .
We finished two bottles of Sky Vodka now we're downing it
with Corona.
Sabatha :"Where are you from Dawg?"
Me :"I'm from Newcastle you?"
Sabatha :"Saaaame bro . How old are you?"
Me :"26 bro you?"
Sabatha :"I feel like me and you are a match made in heaven .
I'm 26 as well . Is your brother a rich multi millionaire?"
Me :"yea . Mine too. A rich mother fucker."
Sabatha :"Please don't tell me you're a Mwelase as well" he
nods and we both cheer and hug.
Me :"Nice to meet you bruh" the bartender just shakes his head
and serves other customers .
He doesn't have a twin .
Unexpectedly , out of nowhere Sabatha is pulled and falls on
the floor .
A bunch of women sorround him carrying sjamboks and sticks .
"You rape women Wena angithi?" I hear most of them ask
loudly .
Me :"Aybo he didn't rape no woman hau" I push them off and a
whip comes to my back . I feel my skin tear and I fall to the
ground.
We're attacked by a number of women until my body goes
numb.
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*Mbuyiseni*
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.
.
There's always something happening in this family . I had to
ditch work because my brothers were attacked by a gang of
angry women .
Sabatha attacked by women? Isn't the Lord great? The barman
told me that they're already at the hospital so my driver quickly
drives me there and luckily there isn't traffic .
Apparently it's all over social media as well.
The car parks and Steve opens the door for me .
Unfortunately for me animals aren't allowed inside hospitals .
I don't get why they'd call a dog as cute as Sab an animal? How
is that possible ? Mxm.
Steve accompanies me in and I find mom's scent first .
I'm so excited about this .
Me :"Mami what are the doctors saying ? Are they ok? Have
you seen them?"
Ma :"Oh yea . Apparently they were hit badly on the back and
legs , few bruises on the face" aw kanti it's not that bad?
There are footsteps approaching what I can guess is the
reception then it goes quiet .
Ma :"Boy let's go . The doctor has allowed us in" we move in .
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*Thule*
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.
.
I run in the hospital ward to find Mbuyiseni with uMa laughing
while the two patients lie there motionlessly.
I place my finger underneath... Sabatha's nose . Ok he's still
breathing .
Ma :"The doctors said they are bruised and-" well that is a bit
obvious .
I chuckle a bit .
Me :"Has someone given you guys a mirror?" Mabutho groans .
Kwaphela ukuba yi-hoe.
Ma :"Hay Nqobi leave my kids alone" I know this is serious man
but damn do they have to look so ugly ?
Me :"Mbuyiseni did Mom explain how the situation is?" He
shakes his head with a smile on his face .
Me :"Mom how is that fair kodwa Mbuyiseni is just as
concerned hau. " Mami squints her small eyes sending me
daggers.
If I was the one lying in that bed they'd do this and forget that
I'm older than them .
Me :"Hayke Mbuyiseni Sabatha's left eye is swollen and so is his
cheek . His lower lip is busted and he has scratches on his face.
Lo omunye yena , ngathi a truck ran over him , his face is
bandaged . His lips are swollen and I can't see his face ngoba
uvaliwe shame. In other news babi nje" Mbuyiseni just bursts
into loud laughter making the patients groan out of frustration .
Mbuyiseni :"Sabatha look at me. Oh kambe you can't , I'm
sorry" mom lightly slaps him on his thigh .
Mbuyiseni :"Mrapper is it too soon for us to sell tickets to your
funeral at Computickets?" Sabatha shakes his head . Shame .
Me :"He says no . His well on his way to the casket" We both
burst into laughter.
Ma :"Yey nina yekani abantwana bami. Hambani la" he pushes
Mbuyiseni off his chair .
Me :"Asambe bafo . You smell nice"
Mbuyiseni :"Yea . I hope you guys left your relationships at
home
thina who don't have bruises sisahamba" I chuckle . He's such a
flex .
Mabutho :"Makuyile mpumputhe noThousandiare" he clicks his
tongue and we laugh again.
Mbuyiseni :"Ok guys get up . Ugly people should guard this
hospital"
Me :"It won't guard itself. Niyathusa vele" I run and pull Mbu
with me when I see mom get up .
Mbuyiseni :"Babi vele?"
Me :"Bayathusa bafo"
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*Funeka*
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.
.
"I know how it feels to be the earth on an abuser's floods .
I know how it feels to represent a past you did not choose to
inherit .
My parents laid down holes of a broken home and my feet
followed..."
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https://youtu.be/gRUwWG_P-HE
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Today marks the 6th year I haven't seen my parents .
Today 6 years ago I chose me . I chose my sanity.
In a way I fought for myself the only way I knew how . Leaving .
I'm supposed to be celebrating but I can't because of what led
to me leaving.
It's never easy.
I've tried to block it out over the years but it always resurfaces
and it always leaves me weak .
I hate it.
I hate feeling vulnerable!
I promised myself I'd never people see me weak and I intend to
keep that promise.
I hear a knock and I already know who it is.
He's always here these days and honestly I don't want him here
today of all days .
I JUST WANT TO BE ALONE !
I WANT TO HOST A PITY PARTY AND I WANT IT TO BE LIT!!
I ignore him but he opts for calling my phone which makes a
loud noise letting him know that I'm inside .
We would've done just fine without social media ...ok maybe
sometimes .
Thule :"I know you're inside . Funeka open up!" He knocks with
each word .
God he's irritating !
I aggressively open the door and it hits the wall .
I give him a stare then turn back to my couch and continue
indulging on pizza .
The fault in our stars hits so much better when you're already
said .
That pre-funeral always leaves tears on my face .
I watch it because I don't want my past to be the reason I cry .
They don't deserve my tears .
Thule :"What's going on Funeka?" Doesn't he see what's going
on?
I'm hosting my pity party.
Me :"What do you want Nqobethule?" I snap with a frown on
my face .
Thule:"I don't know how you'll do it kodwa uzame
ukungangijwayeli kabi . This place smells like a freaking shebeen
"
Me :"If it makes you so uncomfortable then go . I didn't call you
here"
Thule :"mxm" he grabs the pizza on my hand and throws it
across the room .
He then lightly grabsy hand and pulls me up .
Thule :"Go and bath. Uyanuka" I want to argue but the
command on his voice plus the deadly frown makes me opt for
clicking my tongue and taking a bath .
Where does he get the audacity to tell me ukuthi ngiyanuka?
Mina Funeka Fakude? Hehe.
I put on my pj pants and my top then go back to the dining
room .
It's squeaky clean without a trace of the junk .
He's in the kitchen stiring the pot .
Me :"You can cook?" He frowns a bit . That frown makes him so
fucken sexy , you can just eat him up .
He nods and closes the pot.
He then leadse to the dining room and seats on the ottoman
with his legs on either sides of mine, locking me in.
Thule :"Udliwa yini?" I think today he channelled his "don't fuck
with me" attitude.
Me :"What? Me? Nothing. Why would I have something to be
bworried about?" I chuckle and he gives me the deadliest stare
making me move my eyes to my hands on my thighs .
Me :"I don't want to talk about it Thule" he looks at me with a
bored expression then takes his taxi keys.
Thule :"Whenever you need to talk you have my number" . He
gets up.
Me :"Where- Why are you going?" Like I didn't say anything to
him , he exits to the door .
Have I just kicked out another person out of my life? I really
thought he'd be one to be patient with me? What's so wrong
with me?
Ok ok...I don't have anyone else but am I ready to tell him?
What if his view of me change?
I quickly run to the door only to meet his back .
He slowly.turns around only to meet my tear drenched face .
Thule :"Why are you crying MaFakude?" Ok that's a first and it
sounds nice .
Me :"You're leaving me"
Thule :"You don't want to open up" I wonder why he likes
carrying people's burdens like he do .
I walk back in and he follows .
Thule :"Why did you leave home?" I gasp and frown and he
directs me to the old wrinkled picture on top of the couch.
It's a picture of my young self with my parents .
We used to take these monthly .
Ours weren't your normal family snaps.
Thule :"Why didn't you tell me what your father is?" I try NOT
to roll my eyes but I can just feel it coming .
Me :"Why does it matter?" He chuckles bitterly.
Thule :"Why did you leave home?"
Me :"I told why I left home" he shakes his head and gets up .
No no no he can't leave me no.
When he touches the door handle I blurt out .
Me :"I was raped ok!...I was raped . I was raped by my uncle . I
had to lock myself in my room for exactly 3 days without eating
anything anything and wait for my parents because I was scared
. I was 18 back then. I waited and waited for my parents and
when they finally did come they were too busy to notice that
anything was wrong. I decided to tell them over dinner and
*chuckle* I still remember my father's words so clearly in my
head "It's a good thing that was done done by a member of the
family , we can settle the issue amicably" . I was stripped off my
dignity. I felt dirty . I had to see him for two full weeks until I
decided I can't anymore . He'd smile or lick his lip each time he
saw me . My mother....she never breathed a word that one. I- i-
I just couldn't do it anymore" he holds onto me tightly and rocks
me back and forth .
Thule :"Did you get psychological help?" I shake my head slowly
.
.
.
*Enhle*
.
.
.
Me :"Musa I can't keep on doing this to him and this woman is
starting to pick up on the lie"
Musa :"Find a way to get rid of that woman Enhle man "
Me :"I'm losing him Musa I can just feel it . He's slipping away .
Last night he came back happier than usual. He didn't even eat
my food"
Musa :"We all know he's a family man . Just keep on reminding
him that you're pregnant and all will be well"
Me :"Until when? This plan is not definite"
Musa :"Have sex with him like crazy until you are actually
pregnant man Enhle . Yekela ukubhayiza" she then drops the
call .
I hear footsteps run from the door and disappear to the passage
. Fuck! Why did I put the call on loud speaker again?
I hurry to the door and there's no one .
If it's that woman then I might as well start packing
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*Mnotho*
.
.
.
After the conversation with Sena all I wanted to do is run to
mom's house and ask her what the story is but knowing Mami
she'll pour me with boiling water so I run to the only person
that uses brain cells in this family ... Thule
The phone rings longer than expected . After quite a long time
he answers .
Thule :"Bhuti"
Me :"Bafo . Kyaphileka?"
Thule :"Kuqonde njenge-ruler" there's silence.
Me :"Can I see you Gazi?" He chuckles for whatever reason.
Thule :"I'm in hospital" I panic
Me :"What- What happened? Why wasn't I told Nqobethule?
Are-" there are a number of voices with him laughing .
Thule :"Khawuphole apha e-head office" I roll my eyes until the
reach my brain.
A few weeks with Funeka and he's suddenly Xhosa? Izinto
ziman'ukwenzeka.
Me :"Mxm . Why are you in hospital?"
Thule :"Mabutho and Sabatha were attacked by a gang of angry
women" he laughs, I hear someone else laugh with him .
Sounds like Mbuyiseni.
Me :"Are they ok?"
Thule:"Oh don't worry they are just fine . Sabatha was talking to
the nurse and it looks like he's perfectly fine" they laugh again.
This phone call feels like a slap to my brain. Who was I fooling
thinking I can live without my family?
Not even the millions in my bank account can erase their
memory.
Me :"Can I come?" There is silence a bit and they speak
amongst each other .
Thule:"Should he come?"
Sabatha :"As long as he buys me a six pack of Corona on his way
here, I don't have a problem"
Mbuyiseni :"He's actually here to check up on you . He doesn't
have to bribe you to check up on you" I know Sabatha is rolling
his eyes .
Sabatha :"I think we all know Mnotho is miserable without me
that's why he insists on coming here"
Mabutho :"Get over yourself . He's miserable without all of us .
He has probably googled "How to be ok without my brothers?"
So many times" they laugh. These fools. Why do I miss them ?
Sabatha :"How to stop crying because of family divorce?"
Mbuyiseni :"How to continue breathing without my brothers?"
Mabutho :"And we all know what Google said , that is
impossible" they laugh again .
Me :"I can hear you guys , you know?"
Mbuyiseni :"That's the whole plan. But we're still delegating.
Close your ears" I roll my eyes .
Sabatha :"I just want Corona and a condom for that nurse . Wait
don't they have them here somewhere?"
Mabutho :"No they have to be here. This is a hospital after all"
Thule :"That's why the two of you are hospitalized. Anifundi
yaz"
Mabutho :"Mina I want some piece of booty. There's Tiny in my
house . He'll have to pick her up before coming here . Don't look
at me like that. She's not really tiny . I just want to release some
unwanted dirt in my scrotum" I'm not doing that.
Sabatha :"You're even calling your sac
a scrotum. We're not in a biology class. Amasende yhu hay . sa
se si so su . Sende. Awusiyeke ngama-krowtham" I chuckle a
bit.
Mbuyiseni :"If you're trying to impress Nurse sexy then loyo-
krowtham won't cut it"
Me :"ok I'm coming"
Sabatha :"Just bring some corona and some condoms bruh"
what type of patients are these.
Mabutho :"Don't forget Tiny" wasn't he married just yesterday?
.
.
.
After picking up Corona from the liquor store I also have to buy
a bag and stuff it with clothes on top to hide the alcohol .
The things these fuckers make me do . Nxn.
I get to the reception keeping a cool face...oh there are the
condoms .
The receptionist gives me funny looks .
Me :"Yini Sisi? Aren't these for free?" She blinks a few times .
Receptionist :"they- they are sir"
Me :"Manje ung'bukani?" She quickly apologizes and shys away.
Has she never seen someone take these condoms before?
Thule texts me the ward number and she directs me to where it
is.
There are only two beds in this ward , weird because the
opposite one has only one bed.
The parents aren't here and at the moment I'm grateful.
Me :"Yea nina" they all turn towards the door and then cheer
when they see me .
Mbuyiseni :"The lost sheep"
Mabutho :"The prodigal son"
Sabatha :"Ndodana yami edukileyo , buyela kimi ekhaya . Come
to papa . Come kiss dzaddy. Say dzaddzy Mnotho?" He pouts
with his arms open.
Thule :"What in the planet is wrong with the three of you?"
Trio :"WE ARE THREE-GETHER" they all chant and laugh .
Thule :"This family would've done just fine without the three of
you"
Sabatha :"You would've been the only son because the other
son was cancelled" I groan making them chuckle .
Mabutho :"Bafo , where's Tiny?" Is he serious? Oh yea he is .
Me :"Couldn't go to your house bro askies."
Mabutho :"Then you'll do what Tiny was supposed to do . I
hope you can twerk"
Me :"Unya kabi" they laugh .
I throw the condoms at Sabatha and he cheers .
I give each of them bottles of Corona and they pour the
beverage on a gold flusk .
Thule just pours it into Sabatha's coffee mug and drinks with a
straw .
Mabutho :"Way'dlala bafo. Welcome back to the family" they all
nod in agreement .izidakwa!
A...nurse walk in .
Is it appropriate for that uniform to be that short? No wonder
Sabatha is infatuated .
All her thighs are out on display.
Thule rolls his eyes while the rest chuckle.
Sabatha :"nurse I think there's something wrong with my chest"
that's whack .
The nurse moves to him.
Mabutho :"Where do you stay Sis' Nurse?"
Nurse :"oh I'm from Alex" Sabatha's eyes pop .
Sabatha :"Whuu hay andizi love , thanks." We all burst into
laughter but the nurse looks offended .
Me :"Please don't take any offence . His brain sometimes
doesn't work...sometimes"
Sabatha :"No wonder Ma divorced you . Uyaphapha" I give him
a death stare that quickly silences him . He can go on the whole
day if not stopped.
Speaking about that divorce...
Me :"Thule can we talk...outside"
Mbuyiseni :"Hau thina?"
Thule :"Nenzeni?" Mabutho rolls his swollen eye a bit .
We walk out and sit on the bench opposite the door .
Me :"Gazi do you know what happened between Mam'Lesego
noMa?" He huffs frustrated .
Thule :"I don't know bruh . This is also confusing"
Immediately we hear sweet giggles coming from down the
passage with loud footsteps.
Me :"You didn't tell me she was coming"
Thule :"You can't avoid her forever"
Me :"You shouldn't have taken that decision for me" they get
closer and closer to us making my heart beat out of my chest .
Bafo :"Bafana"
Us :"Yebo baba"
Ma :"Yea Thule" whoa . She's not even looking at me .
Thule :"Ma..."
Ma :"Are your brothers inside?"
Me :"Ma"
Ma :"Thule..." She doesn't seem fazed by my presence ,
understandably so .
Thule :"They're inside Ma" she walks in without looking at me .
Me :"bafo please tell me what happened. I feel like a fool
walking around with half truths" he sits down on the bench .
Bafo :"This isn't about knowing the truth Mnotho . It's you
siding with someone you don't know over someone who's loved
you with every fibre of her being"
Me :"I know baba and I'm sorry . Ngyaxolisa" it goes silent for
the longest time and then he releases a huge huff.
Bafo :"Your precious mother kidnapped Nsingizi and had her
brother rape her . Then she was pregnant with Nqobi and that
whole thing led to his premature birth after she was found . It's
by chance that uSomnyama survived" Thule rolls his eyes but
I'm still shocked by this revelation. What was I thinking?
Where am I going to start apologizing?
Me :"But why bafo? Why would she do all of that?"
Bafo :"Women do crazy things to keep men . Stay woke" then
he leaves us hanging and gets in .
Thule :"This is fucked up"
Me :"I know . That woman better get the fuck out of my house
singakaxabani yazi" he gets up and pulls my hand .
Thule :"Go and apologize. The two of you are making things
awkward for the rest of us" I huff and walk in .
She steals a glance and focuses on Sabatha again .
Me :"Ma can we talk?"
Mabutho :"What's so nice about talking outside? Khulumani
khona la" this one needs a punch on his temple .
Bafo gives Ma a stare and she rolls her eyes then leaves .
I follow suit .
Me :"Why didn't you tell me Ma?" She narrows her eyes and
says absolutely nothing .
Me :"Ma ngyaxolisa . I'm so sorry for being stupid enough not to
listen to you . I'm sorry for even listening to her . I'm sorry I
believed a total stranger over you mkami . Ngi...-"
Ma :"Whuu hay nawe nokxolisa okungaka . I think I get the
content of your speech" she rolls her eyes .
Ma :"my forgiveness comes with conditions" I should've known.
I look at her expectedly
Ma :"That RS5 Coupe . I want it" day light robbery!!
Me :"Kodwa Ma-"
Ma :"So you don't want my forgiveness?"
Me :"You can get the keys later endlini" she squels so loud and
does a mini booty shake while sitting down .
Ma :"I forgave you the minute I walked out of that door
Mnotho. One of my jobs is to forgive you khanda khulu
elingezwa." She pinches my ears making me groan and scream
loudly .
Live on air. In front of the people she pinches me.
Mxah .
She pulls back to the famo after pinching my poor ear.
Ma :"We-baby I have a new car ungibona nje" bafo chuckles .
Bafo :"Where did you get it? You know we don't have space in
the garage because of you right?"
Ma :"Umona baby . My precious son decided to give it to me .
Yey ngazala mina shame" we all laugh .
Sabatha :"She bribed you with it didn't she? I know her.
Forgiveness isn't free to her"
Ma :"Ukuzala ukuzelul'amathambo"
Bafo :"No cap" aibo and then?
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*Thule*
.
.
.
Ma :"Ukuzala ukuzelul'amathambo"
Bafo :"No cap" we all give Sabatha a bored look and he shrugs
his shoulders and sips on his flusk .
I think drinking under cover is the coolest thing ever .
Mnotho excuses himself to the 'toilet' with the bag and comes
back seconds later with a black cup .I hand him the straw and
he sits back .
Ma :"Phela aningaphuzi nodwa lo-juice wenu" bafo just
chuckles and shakes his head.
Mabutho :"Ay Ma this is for our private parts . It's strictly for
men" we all nod.
Sabatha :"Yea penis enlargement" ay man was that necessary ?
Is a person supposed to be this extra?
Mom's eyes pop .
Ma :"So you're telling me that all FIVE of you have small
penises? Haybo . Who did you take after ?"
Bafo :"Definitely not me mamakhe" he puts his hands up and
laughs .
Mnotho :"Ma . Kodwa nawe. "
Ma :"No I'm just shocked that all my children have tsibinkies .
Njani? Hay Sabatha unamanga. I saw you when you were 16
phela" Sabatha's eyes pop and he sits up straight , puts the
glass next to him .
Sabatha :"Ma!!! So wena you were looking at my..."
Ma :"Penis! No . I was just passing and you were lotioning.
You're my child phela"
Sabatha :"Invasion of privacy mama?" She just rolls her eyes.
All this because of Corona.
Mabutho :"Do you guys think we're related to Shaka Zulu
somehow?"
Bafo :"Stop drinking that men's drink Mabutho . It's not good
for you. Can I also have the drink. I am man after all...." We all
narrow our eyes looking at him and he smirks .
Bafo :"I can just call the police..." We give him a bored
expression .
"Or tell the matron" Mabutho rolls his eyes .
"Ok mkami let me tell you about this men's drink"
Mnotho :"Ok baba thatha. Everything's fine hau . Yini manje?
Ungalwi" he takes Mnotho's drink with a smirk .
We all roll our eyes.
Ma excuses herself to the toilet .
I'm the one closest to the door so I accompany her. It's been like
this since ages .
We always accompany her in public . One can count the number
of times they've seen mom without the five of us.
The intention was to guard her until we turned into her
husbands as well without even realising it.
It always irritates her until she wants to go shopping and none
of us want to accompany her .
She gets out after a few minutes and rolls her eyes when she
sees me .
Ma :"A person can't even find herself injibs nyana , aybo
sengisho intshebe nyana . You guys are always in my tail" I just
give her a smile and blow her a kiss.
Oh wait...!
Me :"Ma I need your assistance with something..." She narrows
her eyes.
Me :"Uhm...erh ma Funeka is not ok" she tilts her head a bit . I
see a trace of a smile but she presses her lips together and
takes a deep breath .
Ma :"You like her, don't you?" I huff
Me :"I don't know Ma . I want to protect her though I feel like
she doesn't need it. I want to take care of her . I want to build
with her Ma . She's the first person, after you to actually believe
in me . She invests with me , not in me . Makes me feel like a
man , I don't know how she thinks I'm going to make this
money for our truck but I'll make a plan . I feel like she's that
missing piece I've been looking for .She's amazing" this time her
smile reaches her ears and she places her hand in her mouth to
hide it.
Ma :"I didn't expect that you'd like a girl like her..." I can't help
the frown on my face and she giggles .
Ma :"You guys are total opposites. I'd expect her to date one of
the trio . You've been my laid back son that isn't bothered by a
whole lot of things , drama free and very quiet . Then you bring
me uphuma silwe kamakoti" speaking of that .
Me :"Ma Uhm . Can you....uhm can you talk to her for me" her
eyes pop
Ma :"Aybo Nqobethule ufuna ngikushelele?"
Me :"What? No mama. She's been through a lot ma and I don't
know how to go about helping her" she looks at me expectantly
.
Me :"She was raped. She's a loner ma
she doesn't have family and she doesn't want to go for
counseling"
Ma :"You weren't exactly supposed to tell me Nqobi . You don't
tell people such sensitive information , the fact that she told
you means she trusts you so I'll act like you didn't say anything .
One thing about being a rape survivor is you don't want to see
pity on people's faces Whenever you're mentioned so you keep
it to yourself. She'll tell me when she's ready but right now you
can give me her address ." I smirk a bit .
"She'll be umakoti wakwami soon and she's turning you into a
man so..." She shrugs and goes back to the family .
.
.
Me <I've got a proposal for Amib Logistics>
.
.
Funeka <premature much?>
.
.
Me <Come on . This will chip in more money . The Scania deal
seems far and we need a cash injection until then >
.
.
Funeka <I hate it when you speak something that makes sense .
Hit me!>
.
.
Me <Forestry> I type and switch off my phone . Izomudla yedwa
.
Sabatha has this huge forest on his farm and he was actually
going to burn it down and create a studio for young kids so I
figured why dont I take the forest and make some money out of
it it since the owner doesn't see it's use even after telling him
about forestry .
I pull Mnotho out .
Me :"I need your help" he smirks . Mxm .
Me :"I need you to lend me R75 000 . I'll give it back to you
before this month ends" he narrows his eyes . I used the word
"lend" for a reason .
Mnotho :"Where will you get it Thule? It's the 16th today"
We're R60 000 short from buying our first truck . Right now
we'll just need a normal smaller truck to transport the trees, if
madam allows me of course .
Me :"I'll worry about that Mnotho . Please help me" he nods
with doubt visible.
Mnotho :"You know you can hit me up if you're having financial
problems right?" I nod and we go join the family.
Now I have to buy machines , and find loyal customers . The
hardest part !
.
.
.
*Enhle*
.
.
.
Mnotho just sent me a text telling me to pack Mamezala's
bags.
Injabulo iphuma ngamakhala.
She's at the garden sipping tea so I gracefully pack her small bag
.
Finally she gets out of my house .
He probably got her a house .
Ngaze nga-happy.
I hear Mnotho's car pull up and I peep in the window.
Ok he doesn't look too happy .
He furiously gets out and leaves the car open .
I hurry down the stairs with Mamezala's bag .
Mnotho :"Ukuphi?" He roars . Ok I've never , ever seen this side
of him . EVER! Not even when I cheated .
I point him to the garden and he takes really long strides .
He disappears for a few seconds and comes back dragging
Mamezala with the collar of her shirt .
Ok what did I miss?
Me :"Haybo Mnotho that is your mother"
Mnotho :"Is her name Nsingizi?" I shake my head , "Exactly" she
throws her out
Mnotho :"I don't ever want to see you anywhere near me or my
family . Ufile kimi Lesego" the venom in his voice is the most
dangerous . The full on hate he suddenly has for Lesego comes
as a surprise .
He made this woman breakfast TODAY .
What happened?
Mnotho :"Don't come back here" he turns and goes back to the
house leaving me with ex Mamezala on the floor .
Me :"I'm sorry ma . I- he is just stressed about work" she gets
up with a little smirk on her face .
Mam'Lesego :"Here's what's going to happen pregnant fairy.
You're going to book me into a hotel until you find a suitable
pent house for me . You're then going to send me monthly
allowance, about R8000. Not too bad" yahlanya Lo.
Me :"Why in this planet would I do that?"
Mam'Lesego :"Keeping my mouth shut needs some convincing
phela Preggie" she emphasizes the 'preggie part notifying me
that she knows.
Me :"Fuck!!"
Mam'Lesego :"I know, it fucks all of us ." I grunt loudly .
Mam'Lesego :"and I want a car" she smirks . This is fucked up.
Me :"I don't work . Mnotho will.get suspicious if a large amount
of money is withdrawn"
Mam'Lesego :"I don't know but that really sounds like your
problem."
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*Funeka*
.
.
.
Thule's mother invited me for a spa date , but I have to pass by
her house to get her first .
I don't know why because Mnotho gave her a car .
I can't wait to give birth to 5 children if you get an RS5 as an
apology . My children will have to buy me Maserati shame .
Lamama wazala shame , I'll give it to her.
Thule :"Funii umama is calling me. She's waiting for you" he
shouts for the hundredth time .
I roll my eyes and look at myself for the last time.
I took the Gogo's advice and wore a sexy dress, just above the
knee with black heels .
It's a sweet pink dress that carves my body nicely and it pear
shaped on my chest , showing off my small cleavage . My
breasts are a disappointment but they look really sexy right
now .
My weave flows effortlessly on my back .
I don't have to look like poverty .
I grab a dramatic light brown hat and my sun glasses .
I put the hat on and hold the sun glasses in my hand.
When I walk in the lounge he gasps and cusses underneath his
breath with his mouth wide open .
I stand in the same position looking at him with a stupid smile
on my face. Someone slap me!
Thule :"You look- whoa. You look erh" he clears his throat and
swallows saliva. I grab my bag on the counter
Thule :"You look good. Your dress is good . Your dress I mean . It
looks good . On you. You look Uhm you look like my wife" the
last part catches me by surprise making me move my eyes to
my feet hiding the smile on my face .
In an instant his in front of me with his soft hand on my chin ,
he stares down at me and his hand travels down my arm still
maintaining eye contact .
I feel his hand clasp my hand and he bites his upper lip then
grabs the bag in my hand.
Thule :"We need to go. We're already late" you've got to be
fucken kidding me!! I thought we were having a moment.
Soze ndigowishe because of indoda yomZulu mna. No .
Ndibawela la drink eyomile but eselekayo . Maybe I should stick
to it and forget about men altogether.
"Nxn" I click my tongue and leave.
I bang the door as I sit down on the taxi and he strolls to the it
giving me time to undress him with my eyes.
Don't judge me like you've never done it before.
He's has the darkest skin in his family , I heard his mother say
his shade is that of his paternal grandfather.
According to Thule his grandfather is the Sanamabishi of all
things charming.
Anyway Thule has bow legs, well him and the rest of the family .
I guess it runs in the family , it makes him even sexier.
He just oozes confidence , it's so refreshing.
He gets in the car humming a stupid song
Me :"Sunxola Nqobethule" he smirks , then chuckles and keeps
quiet .
Thule :"Can we pass by the mall?"
Me :"It doesn't matter Nqobethule , do whatever you want to
do. Take me to the mall . Take me to Madagascar . Hell you can
take me to the moon . Whatever you want . You're always
starting shit and i-" I'm stopped by soft lips coming into contact
with mine .
He bites my lower lip making me gasp , that's when he gets full
excess to my mouth .
Our tongues dance to a beautiful rhythm and my hands find
their way to the back of his neck .
He slowly bites my lip and pulls out of the kiss .
He looks at me and says nothing for a few seconds .
Thule :"Now can we pass by the mall Funeka?"
Me :"Oh yea you can"
.
.
We passed by the mall to buy his mother a bottle of wine.
Apparently the queen doesn't drink wine that is less than 5
years old.
How old is 4th Street kanene?
We're parked outside the gate because he's ranking today and
he doesn't want his mother distracting him.
Thule :"I'll fetch you later on. Just tell me when you girls are
done"
Me :"Akho need Thule"
Thule :"I wasn't asking Funeka Fakude" the sweetness in his
voice makes this not even sound rude .
Can we face the elephant in the room, the kiss?
Me :"When are you meeting Mr Desando?"
Thule :"Tomorrow afternoon" I really think we have this one in
the bag after stealing a glance of his proposal to Mr Desando.
He said I mustn't get involved in Amib forestry , the logistics
side is my baby . Which is crazy because I'll be his boss .
Me :"Good luck" he nods .
Won't I get a kiss?
Thule :"I need to go Funeka"
Haike haike asfuna sifile amadoda shame .
Awasthandi tuu.
I grab the wine bottle and my bag slowly .
Still nothing? Mxm .
I bang the door and he shouts my name
Thule :"Umuhle MaFakude" then he leaves without me saying a
word . Bloody sexy thing!
I walk in the gate with the wine and my handbag . There are
two more cars, I guess she invited some people.
I knock for the longest time and Thule's father is the one that
opens .
Me :"Molo Tata"
TatuNathi :"Molo nawe Funiks" I wonder what Funiks is?
He opens the door wider and lets me in .
My eyes travel to his hand.
Uphethe la-drink eyomile but eselekayo.
My type of people.
He drinks it and then offers it to me.
Me :"No Tata I'm fine" I'm not fine . I'm thirsty.
TatuNathi :"good"
He takes a gulp at the drink and then groans .
No need to rub it in really .
TatuNathi :"Are you sure Funiks? You look thirsty." He hands it
over but it's already half .
My eyes are on the rest of the Savannah pack he has in his hand
.
TatuNathi :"Yhu hay Funeka . Ngiyakzama phela . Asiphuzi
sonke." He pulls the Savannah to his chest and runs off down
the passage .
How old is this man kanene?
I hear loud footsteps coming towards the door and it's Enhle .
She looks disgusted by what I have in my hand .
Has she never seen a girl drink Savannah before?
Enhle :"UMa said I should tell you to come to the lounge" she
didn't even greet me , hehe.
She turns and takes long strides towards the lounge .
She has a petite body with long sexy legs and you cannot ignore
them in heels and a short dress.
I walk in to find Mam'Nsingi already having a massage , only her
lower body is wrapped with a towel.
Enhle is seated with Lindy who is too occupied on her phone .
Me :"Good morning" Mam'Nsingi beams with a smile
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she's the only one that responds.
Mam'Nsingi :"Funeka . I've beeen waiting. I thought you weren't
coming . Please change , there's your towel"
Enhle :"Before you do so please make us some snacks"
Mam'Nsingi whips her head up to look at her .
Mam'Nsingi :"Don't you know where the kitchen is ?" They have
a back and forth until I decide to go and take make those
snacks.
The ingredients were already on top of the table .
I put them on the coffee table and attempt to go change as
well.
There are two more masseuse massaging Enhle and the absent
Lindy .
Mam'Nsingi :"No Sisi . I'm fine. Can you massage UFuni , I need
to check up on my marriage . Iyahlupha leyandoda" I chuckle
and she exits.
Enhle :"Can you pour me some wine Fanele" Thule said I should
count from 20 to 1 whenever I feel provoked , start afresh
whenever I miss a number.
I take deep breaths as I hear his voice in my head counting
down with me .
Lindy :"Her name is Funeka"
Enhle :"Yea that . Can you pour me some wine please" she's
provoking me.
Whoosaaa . Just keep breathing .
I pour her wine and full it to the brim .
Enhle :"Wine is not supposed to be this full but I really don't
expect you to know . You don't belong here . You and Thule are
good together , partners in poverty"
Lindy :"There's absolutely no need for that Enhle ."
Enhle :"Oh kambe nawe Personal assistant"
Me :"You won't stand there and disrespect our hustle when
you're nothing but a glorified house wife . I'm sorry to be the
one reminding you of this but you're nothing without Mnotho
uyayiva? NOTHING!! You don't even have a car of your own that
you bought with your money but you're able to look at me in
the face and tell me about how poor I am as if there's a
difference between me and you . Oh yea there is , I live in a
house I bought with my own money . Everything next to my
name, I bought . Something you will never be able to flex
about.
You don't even have a shack next to your name , can't even buy
yourself a shoe but uphaphela umntanomntu ngobayi-Assistant.
Hay sisi . Check yourself . You're playing yourself" I drink that
Savannah and exit to where Thule's father went .
I open the last door on the passage and his sitting on the chair
sipping his Savannah carelessly .
Me :"Can I join you?" He opens his one way to look at me,
chuckles and then nods .
I walk in, throw the shoes somewhere in the office and throw
myself in the visitor's chair .
He offers me the Savannah he was drinking .
This man is stingy yhu .
I huff.
TatuNathi :"Enhle?" I nod and groan .
Me :"I've been doing so well trying to keep my emotions in
check and she just had to push me off the wedge"
TatuNathi :"Hay you did everyone a favour . She was getting too
big for her boots that one" we giggle and click our Savannah
bottles .
Me :"UMa said she's going to look for you. Has she been here?"
He shakes his head with a frown . He looks so much like Thule .
Zi-type zami ke ezi .
We drink the bottles over light conversation and jokes here and
there .
He is quite a humorous man , very carefree .
Me :"I'm telling you Tata Thule does not want to change the
way he dresses. I don't know how I'll even convince him to were
a suit tomorrow" I groan .
TatuNathi :"The problem is you ask him and behind that quiet
facade is a very stubborn man . Tell him and stop asking him ."
Me :"I don't know what's his thing with skinny jeans and a black
t shirt ." He chuckles a bit .
TatuNathi :"Funiks as you grow older your priorities change.
Looking pretty in public becomes a luxury you no longer care
about as long as your family is fed . That's what I taught all my
sons, I think Thule took it a bit too far" we giggle .
"Whuu hay mina ngikhathele ilengane ." Mam'Nsingi flies in
with the door and grabs TatuNathi's Savanna and gulps it down .
Nathi :"Which child and what did they do mkami? I will go and
sort them out ." He says ever so gently and come .
Mam'Nsingi :"There are women in my lounge Mwelase and
again , they claiming Sabatha impregnated their daughter . That
child will be the death of me!!" Has Sabatha ever heard of
condoms?
.
.
.
*Sabatha*
.
.
.
Nothing is as comfortable as this hospital .
The nurses are extra nice with the view and Mnotho keeps
bringing the Corona .
While in the middle of a conversation with Mabutho a lady
walks in, oh her!
I don't even remember her name .
Nathina right?
Nathina :"Good afternoon" we both greet and Mabutho's smile
grows wide .
Salt is really murdering this one .
Mabutho :"Hey gorgeous" mxm .
The girl just blinks a couple of times and moves her eyes to me
making Mabutho groan with frustration .
Nathina :"Can we talk , privately"
Mabutho :"Aybo sisi his sick and I'm not leaving so khulumani
nje ngizwe" he says with the most serious face.
Nathina :"I'm here to apologize"
Me :"Apologize and go ke Nathina"
Nathina :"My name is Letty Sab" oh yea . I knew it has the letter
"T" somewhere .
Letty :"Uhm I'm sorry that I started that hashtag on twitter . I
was just really mad because of how you treated me Sab . I'm
sorry I lied and tarnished your image. I didn't think things would
escalate to this point . I just wanted you to regret treating me
like trash. I'm sorry"
Me :"So basically you're telling me that something that didn't
happen, actually didn't happen?" Why's she crying? Why do
women think they'll get away with everything just because
they're crying?
Me :"Sula sula sula Leleti. Sula lezonyembezi . Don't annoy me"
she roughly wipes them.
Me :"Now here's what's going to happen. You're going to
contact Mbuyiseni and tell him the truth on live television. He'll
organise everything" she gasps .
Letty :"But Sab-"
Me :"Please get out"
Letty :"I've got something else to tell you"
Me :"Talk and go"
Letty :"I'm pregnant"
Me :"Congratulations. Hamba keh"
Letty :"It's your baby Sabatha"
Me :"Hay sisi I shoot blanks mna don't traumatize me with baby
talks" Mabutho bursts into laughter.
Mabutho :"People like you Sabatha take sex too seriously . Like
le sex yenu that creates babies is the pits . It's probably that
slow boring sex y'all call "making love" when trying to be deep .
While some of us bang, y'all make love and create babies.
Ninesbindi Sabatha . Isibindi"
Letty :"my aunts are on the way to your house right now. I ran
away" Mabutho laughs again.
Me :"My house where? The one we were fucking at right?"
Letty :"No . Your parent's house" I'm dead .
Mabutho :"Ma is going to kill you . Unyile ntwana"
I get off the bed slowly and out on a jean that Mnotho bought
me for whatever reason .
Mabutho :"Uyaphi?"
Me :"I'm discharging myself. I'd rather be killed by these pains
than have my mother strangle me to death. No. I won't throw
myself in the lion's den"
I shove the hospital gown in the cabinet and wear a hoodie .
"Uyaphi ubaba wezingane?" My mother's shouts .
Bafo :"u-baby daddy" he chuckles. Some father's protect their
children , my father just laughs when we're in trouble . Mxm.
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*Mabutho*
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.
Mami :"uyaphi bhuti?" Funeka giggles behind my father .
She has a green bottle and drinks from a straw . Something tells
me that's not a juice judging from the way her and uBafo are
busy giggling and winking at each other .
Sabatha :"Cha mama . I was just- Uhm it's just- I want to go to
the toilet"
Ma :"Hamba . I'll wait for you" she sits comfortably on the bed
and Sabatha exits running .
Ma :"And who are you?" She asks looking at Letty .
Something's really strange about this girl but then again I don't
know her that well.
Me :"can I do the intro?" I ask Letty and she nods .
Me :"Ma lo uMa wengane"
Ma :"What's your name girl?"
Letty :"I'm Letty" Ma frowns.
We are all disturbed by Sabatha groaning in a wheelchair .
He is wheeled in by Nurse Sexy , they are followed by the
cheeky Matron.
Ma :"And then?"
Nurse :"Oh he fell and bumped on his swollen eye" really ?
bumped on his swollen eye my left cute ass.
Matron :"Ma'am since he's not ok I'd like you guys to excuse
him and let him rest for a while"
Ma :"But sister-"
Matron :" Hay mama ." Mom narrows her eyes and points at
Sabatha .
Ma :"Wena . Ocala aliboli" she then gets up and leaves .
Leaving Bafo and Funeka fighting over the bottle.
Bafo :"What type of daughter in law are you Funiks?"
Funeka :"Your son doesn't even see me so don't" I think I
underestimated her level of slosh-tivity. She is kak drunk .
Bafo :"ungfuzile umfan'wam" he nods with a drunk smirk
Funeka rolls her eyes .
This is rather interesting to watch. uBafo has never let another
female in unless they're family .
Not even Ze has held a conversation with uLiminathi Mwelase .
Funeka ends up giving bafo the bottle and he smiles with
victory.
She then moves to Sabatha who's no longer "in pain" because
uMa left.
Funeka :"Ngena la. Uyi-madafakha son" they fist bump and
then she leaves .
Bafo just giggles and leaves.
Me :"Ayke Lethiwe"
Letty :"It's just Letty"
Me :"ok fuck me harder . How far is your pregnancy ?"
Letty :"4 weeks" I nod .
Me :"Manje vele nishaya i-skoon? No condom nix nix?" Sabatha
gives me a death stare anf I chuckle. Oksalayo umithisile.
.
.
I open my eyes when I feel a shadow tower over me.
I'm introduced to Ze.
She's wearing a wig and makeup. She looks beautiful .
She blinks her long lashes a couple of times making me chuckle
.
Me :"You look different. Beautiful different" she gives me that
Colgate smile of hers that always sent me to my knees.
Where's Sab?
Ze :"thank you" we fall into awkward silence then she breaks it.
Ze :"I'm leaving Butho"
Me :"You know you don't have to leave because of is right?"
Ze :"Get over yourself Mabutho . I'm not leaving because of
you. I want to find myself . I want that girl I was before this
marriage happened" I won't lie , that did sting my heart .
Me :"I'm sorry Ze" she smiles tilting her head a bit .
She then pushes me lightly and I give her space to lie down with
me.
Ze :"I didn't come here to make you feel bad Butho . I just
wanted to say goodbye." I lay my head on her shoulder and she
brushes my short hair... like old times.
Ze :"regardless of how you did me , me and you shared fond
memories . Ones that'll forever live in our heart . No matter
how far I go
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no one will strip me of that"
Me :"The first night in our house"
Ze :"My first time in your parent's house" we both chuckle.
Me :"Ma still reminds of that . You were too loud"
Ze :"You were pounding me too hard hay"
Me :"I'm sorry sthandwa sami. I'm sorry I didn't treat you right.
I really love you"
Ze :"I've learnt that people change for who they want to change
for . You didn't love me the way I deserve because I'm not yours
to keep.
I've learnt that there are people you act right for before you
even approach them because their presence alone demands
you get your shit together and I wasn't that person. I didn't
require you to change. I mean look at your brother and Funeka .
They could be written the cutest love story ever known but
Thule is aligning all his ducks...' she sighs and shrugs.
Ze :"Just promise me one thing Butho"
Me :"Anything"
Ze :"promise not to do your next the way you did me" I nod.
Me :"promise me not to shrink yourself or dim your light to
accomodate a man . Promise you won't back paddle for a man"
Ze :"Why didn't you tell me this before our marriage?"
Me :"You didn't know this but most of the things you did used
to pat my ego . You did almost anything to make me feel like a
man , didn't even realise when it started being toxic" I feel her
shoulders move and I know she's crying.
Me :"I love you sweet cheeks. Don't be a stranger"
.
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*Mbuyiseni*
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.
.
Me :"Ma please forgive him . It was a mistake. Just a moment of
weakness"
Ma :"Awungyeke Mbuyiseni. Tell your brother to magically heal
that swollen eye of his because Friday we're all going to KZN for
that ritual" that gives us three days to sort out my schedule .
Sabatha sent me here to sweet talk Ma on his behalf for R5000
and it doesn't seem to be working.
Ma :"do you guys even realise that me and marriage are still
young. But you guys want to make us grandparents.
Grandparents Mbuyiseni!" She shakes her head with a bored
expression.
Me :"ok let's take it as teenage pregnancy"
Ma :"yini Mbuyiseni? Uyaphuza" ok this is fruitless . Sabatha
must take the hits like a man.
.
.
<Your parcel was delivered in my house. Come get it . I'm about
to leave> Mnotho.
Ok this is weird .
Me :"Ma let me bounce. I'm off to Mnotho's house"
Ma :"Hau I thought your father said he's in a board meeting
moss"
Me :"No it can't. He just sent me a text"
Ma :"o...k"
I kiss her goodbye and leave.
On my way to Mnotho's I try to call him but sends me straight
to voicemail.
The car comes to a stop .
I don't even wait for Steve to open my door , I just walk out and
whip my stick .
"Mnotho!!" I shout from the door and there's silence.
"Mnotho marn!!"
Deafening silence...
Then I hear Say yes by floetry playing somewhere close .
I follow the sound and it leads me to one of the rooms
The minute I open , Lindy's scent fills up my nose . What is she
doing here?
Me :"Lindy?" There are loud footsteps approaching .
Weird because Lindani walks like a cat but here scent quickly
reminds me of her presence .
She pushes me to the bed and gets on top of me.
Me :"What are you doing here? Mnotho is going to-" she stops
me with a sexually arousing kiss.
I then move my hands to her twins
Me :"they're a bit smaller today" we continue kissing . Why's
she not speaking?
Then my hand move down her paradise . Sabatha told me what
to do.
I play with it a bit and then shove my finger in unexpectedly
making her scream.
Aybo .
I shove whoever it is off me and she falls.
"The fuck bro?" That voice!
Me :"Enhle?"
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*Funeka*
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.
.
Today Thule is having his first meeting representing Amib
forestry and I know he'll kick ass .
Now I'm helping him get ready and I remember there's
something I didn't get to do.
Me :"When is this meeting again?"
Thule :"It's in less than an hour" less than an hour? I'll be able
to cover it.
Me :", There are some things you'll need for that meeting but I
need to fetch them from my house first. Don't go before I come
back ok?" I don't give him a choice , I just call an Uber which is
damn expensive and it drops me off outside the gate .
I knock a couple of times and end up deciding to walk in when I
hear people exchanging words totally oblivious to the knocls.
Baba :"We're not buying a house MaNgcobo forget it"
Ma :"kodwa the garage is full nje babazi"
Baba :"yes full of cars we kind of do not need"
Ma :"The problem is not with my cars. The garage is too small"
Baba :"Oksalayo we are not buying a new house" some people
have nice life problems.
"Hello" I shout loud enough for both of them to hear me . I'd
really love to stay here and listen to them fight but I'm a woman
on a mission.
"Hello. Bye" Mam'Nsingi is already on her away with her bag .
Aybo I need her help .
Me :"Ma I need your help" she just shakes her head.
Ma :"It's going to have to wait . I'm already too stressed" she
exits leaving my jaw on the floor .
Me :"Tata I need your help"
Tata :"Oh so I'm your second option mina? You were here for
uSimi . Go back home and come back when you here for me "
aren't they one or something?
He leaves as well. Ayke .
Oh there are the keys . They'll have to forgive me , I don't have
much of a choice .
I grab the RS5 Coupe keys
.
<I'm very sorry but he really needs this. Please go easy when
you scold me , my parents abandoned me. Funeka>
.
Not like Nsingizi will go easy on the scolding but it had to be
done .
I park outside Thule's uncle's house . Some time I need to ask
how much he lost on his last business for him to end up in his
uncle's house but I knows his not ready for that conversation .
His mood turns sombre each time I try to initiate conversation
so I let him be .
My jaw is on the floor when I see him in a pair of jeans and a t-
shirt.
"Why are you testing me? You're really testing my patience"
Malum'Mningi just chuckles and exits . What a sexy grown man
he is .
Thule :"Those pants are a bit too tight Funi" he thinks his going
to butter me up by calling me Funi? Mxn .
Me :"Thule you're not going to the rank you're going to a
business meeting please" I give him my puppy face and he looks
at the ceiling to ignore me . Yhu .
Me :"Ok let's compromise. Keep the jeans but wear the t-shirt
and blazer" I don't know what his problem is because that
blazer shaped his arms nicely sies! Those arms!
He groans and then changes RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME!!
Rhaa. I've seen his uncle drinking Savannah so I hurry to the
fridge .
With all the problems and umgowo in my life I'm happy to say
that I've found the perfect coping mechanism in Savannah dry.
Yhu nina ayimnandi lanto.
"You were really thirsty" thirsty for you yes .
He points at the Savannah bottle with his head when he sees
my confused face.
Me :"Uhm eh yes I am . Was ." He smirks and walks back .
Ingase amadoda xa eneChance ake akhaphane ahambe ayonya
wonke.
I walk back to the lounge and he looks ready to leave.
Me :"Uhm Thule look. Please don't get mad...Uhm I kind of
borrowed your mother's car for you without the both of y'alls
permission" the blank stare on his face makes all of this such a
nightmare . Now i regret taking it, actually no I don't.
Thule :"Why Funeka?"
Me :"I just want everything to go well Thule . I don't want him
to look down on you because of the car you drive . I just
borrowed the car for a few hours and then I take it back" there's
a trace of a smile on his face which gives me hope that not all is
lost.
Thule :"Thank you" are his eyes glassy? Maybe I'm just
hallucinating .
He pulls me to his chest and the minute my head hurts his steel
chest I know I belong.
I take in his scent and the feel of his arms on my body aybo .
"You're amazing" he whispers so close to my ear while letting
out his hot breath on my neck .
"You too" he pulls out of the hug only to state at me, at all of
me making me shy.
Thule :"me and you have to talk after this meeting. I think I've
found the one that makes my heart skip beat"
Me :"you've found the one that gives you heart problems and
you're willing to keep her? Nesbindi" he chuckles and kisses my
cheek then leave.
Thule :"She can give me heart problems for the rest of my life
it's fine"
"Anise-cosy!! Kunuka Uthando nje la" Mabutho or is it Sabatha
shouts from the door, oh it's Sabatha with the dreads .
Thule :"What are you doing here? Aren't you supposed to be
nursing your swollen eye?"
Sab :"The nurse couldn't keep us any longer shame. .."
"Unamanga . She was found in the bathroom with that nurse
basikhomba indlela . Sabatha is a nuisance" Mabutho walks in
dragging his luggage. We all laugh.
Malum'Mningi walks in down the stares, hay man muhle la
bhuti aybo!
Malum'Mningi :"What are the patients doing in my house?" He
sounds amused more than anything . If I knew him I'd say he
does get lonely in this big ass house on his own and is glad to
get visitors, even if that visitor is Sabatha but who am I ? I don't
know him that well .
Sabatha :"Malume I just need a place to crash for a few days
until umama calms down" he chuckles then nods . Some men
age gracefully
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I hope Thule ages like this fine specimen.
Thule :"You'll be ok?" He whispers next to me and I nod .
His hand is still.on. my waist , mhle uThixo . I see you God
working overtime.
He slowly let's go of me and then leaves .
Malum'Mningi :"So what's the plan with you two?"
Mabutho :"Mina I'm thinking of moving here permanently .
Ungangilwisi ngishiywe umfazi" he drags his bags and leaves to
the bedroom ignoring Mningi's stare .
Mningi :"Wena?" To Sabatha
Sabatha :"I'll make a plan, you'll see . I just need to think first"
Mabutho :"I hope you won't hurt your poor brain" he walks
back in and sits next to me on the kitchen counter . People in
this family are so mean.
Mningi :"Plus we all know thinking has never been your strong
point" Sabatha's jaw is on the floor.
Me :"Come on guys , I'm sure he'll come up with something"
Mabutho and Malume chuckle.
Mabutho:"you don't know Sabatha Wena. This one has proven
multiple times that his head doesn't work" this is wrong though
.
Mabutho :"one time back in high school , he didn't study for a
test so he wrote my name on the script and I had two scripts .
Sabatha went to the principal running saying I wrote my name
on his script , I found myself getting a 10/100 ngenxa
kaSabatha. Lo yena" he claps hands once .
Mningi :"And the time he wrote "Jesus is the answer" on the
answer sheet"
Sabatha :"Isn't he the answer kanti?"
Mabutho :"Mxm. Ok keh What about the time you wrote
"tralse" on that true or false question"
Sabatha :"I felt like the statement was a bit of both hau" he
shrugs like nothing is wrong with writing "Tralse". Who's child is
this? They laugh and fall in comfortable silence ..
When I bring my head up they're all staring at me.
Me :"Tshin yintoni?" Sabatha nudges me a little with a naughty
smile.
Sabatha :"so? Niyajola vele?" I can't help but smile.at.the
question
Me :"Sapha iSavannah uyeke undibuza ubuvuvu apha" I take
the bottle and pour the beverages on the coffee mug.
I'm way too comfortable in this house I need to go back home.
Sabatha:"Uyalivithiza uNqobi . Just saying" Mabutho and
Sabatha fist bump. Are they serious?
Malum'Mningi sees the terrified.look on my face and tries to
reprimand them.
Malum'Mningi :"Don't listen to them . They are just bluffing"
Mabutho :"Ungasikhulumeli Malume . We've seen this and yey
sisi if you're dating , anytime is sex-o'clock" he sips my
Savannah. Ba-serious?
Sabatha :"Angikhulumi kakhulu kodwa nje uNqobi-"
Mningi :"Ay marn nina" he cuts Sabatha off and he just shrugs
Sabatha :"If he walks through the door..."
Mabutho :"You better be ready"
Sabatha :"You touch his junior by mistake..."
Mabutho :"If you know, you know"
Sabatha :"he calls you in the middle of the night..."
Both of them :"IT'S SEX-O'CLOCK MNTASE" tf?
Mabutho :"And we're not joking" the uncle just shakes his head
and pats me on my shoulder.
Malum'Mningi :"Just be glad Mbuyiseni is not here" he exits .
.
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.
.
I'm so sick of these two .
No not in a bad way . As much as they're really annoying me
right now I know I'll miss they're asses when I'm in Soweto.
No wonder they're both in the entertainment industry , you just
ignore all your troubles when they're around.
They made me realise what I've missed out on being the only
child at home.
Mabutho :"Are you thinking about Nqobi's stroke game? Is it
lit?"
Sabatha :"You know the answer mfondini" another thing do is
throw in Xhosa terms wherever they see fit . I've been trying to
teach them isiXhosa but their Zulu heads don't want to learn
anything else.
We're both startled by the door roughly opening. Yhu Yehova!
Nsingi walks looking as scary as ever and she throws her bag
somewhere around the house.
Mam'Nsingi :"Can all those who have wrong me come closer"
she grabs a spoon and I see Sabatha jump and hides behind me
.
A spoon? Really?
Mam'Nsingi :"Can we start with the one one-toto angazi
uzoyenzani so he goes around impregnating the whole of South
Africa" she's so calm it's a bit funny seeing Sabatha squirm.
He was busy telling me about Thule's stroke game but his
scared of i-spoon.
Walking is seeing .
Mabutho :"Don't ever make a mistake of belittling that spoon .
It shaped your man. Super powers right there" he whispers low
enough for me to hear .
Mam'Nsingi :"Wozani la. Nobabili" Sabatha pushes me . Aybo .
I frown and drag him to where I'm at then go back to where we
were seating.
He pulls my feet and I land on my butt .
Yea no they were right , his brain really doesn't work .
Mam'Nsingi :"I don't have the whole day"
She is disturbed by her phone .
She fiddles on it for a couple of seconds and then throws the
spoon on the floor.
Mam'Nsingi :"Enhle was hospitalized. I see you God. I'm in such
a good mood I don't feel like fighting anymore"
Me :"Aren't you worried about what.put her in hospital?"
Sabatha gets up and sits next to his mother
Mam'Nsingi :"intando kaNkulunkulu put her in hospital .
Actually Hamb'o-dash(a) utshwala siphuze Funeka" is she
serious?
Mabutho :"Atleast we'll get a break from that ironing board
yhu" are they serious? Seems.like it .
Mam'Nsingi :"Aybo Funeka , utshwala!" What type of family is
this?
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*Thule*
.
.
.
WE GOT THE CONTRACT!!!
I think when Mr Desando said he'll have to get his hand on this
pie all I wanted to do was run to Funeka and squeeze the life
out her .
The contract is being drafted as we speak.
I had his attention at first glance when I parked that RS5 and he
saw it .
He had some type of respect for me .
I had 15 minutes to get his attention , pitch for Amib Logistics
and the branch that is Amib forestry we're hoping to grow but
all of that stretched to 30 long minutes talking cars and then
business . By then he was already impressed to a point he
wanted to buy Amib Logistics it's first truck and I think that's the
epitome of this meeting because it totally wasn't planned .
We can use the money for the truck for the machines , if my
calculations are correct I have R20 000 I can use .
I grab my phone and call the only person that can and will come
through for me in this type of thing .
Me :"bafo"
Sabatha :"Yo' blood" Lord save me
Me :"I need your help"
Sabatha :"Sup' bro?"
Me :"Please be serious for once. You with Funeka right"
Sabatha :"Obviously"
Me :"Leave the room..." It goes quiet for a few minutes "I need
your to help me with this. Mnotho is unavailable"
Sab :"Ok. Sabatha to the rescue." I hope I won't have to regret
this .
This is Sabatha we're talking about.
.
.
.
*Funeka*
.
.
.
I tried waiting for Thule at his uncle's place but he took his own
sweet time and by the time I had to leave his phone had been
switched off now I don't know how the pitch went .
It's frustrating a bit but each time I have to remind myself that
he has every right to switch off his phone , I'm not his girlfriend.
I call him for the hundredth time and the subscriber is still
unavailable.
Sadikwe.
.
.
[The following day]
.
.
I just want a chilled ass day filled with Keeping up with the
Kardashians.
Boring yes I know but it's all I want right now.
There's a loud knock on my door .
I grab my gown and when I open , Sabatha stands there with a
rose on his hand . Oh and a silly smirk.
Sabatha :"Ngithunyiwe" he gives me the rose .
There's a note on the side .
.
<I've found her. I've found my heart>
.
Sabatha :"doesn't make sense I know but that's what he wrote.
Tried telling him it doesn't make sense but who listens to
Sabatha?" I just roll my eyes and smile at it .
Sabatha :"Take a bath. Wear a dress and flip flops and let's go" I
wasn't planning on leaving and I won't pretend like I am
because of him .
Sabatha :"I work with time ke mna sisi. So hurry" he pushes me
off and I go to my bedroom shook to the core .
I'm losing my touch shame .
People have the audacity to push me now? Hehe.
I take that stupid bath and when I walk out there's a maxi dress
and push ins placed on top of my bed and no. I didn't buy
them..
Me :"Sabatha what is this?"
Sabatha :"Ngithunyiwe" his tone just screams "don't even
argue" so I wear the dress and push ins .
They're quite comfy I must say.
I put on my bob Brazillian wig and I think I look ok .
I walk in and Sabatha looks more than comfortable on my couch
.
Sabatha :"This outfit would look so good with a doek. A true
Mwelase Makoti" I just roll my eyes.
Me :"Suyibaxa"
Sabatha :"Ok let's go play with other kids . He gets up , grabs my
house keys and his car keys .
We both exit and he locks .
When I'm at the gate a young boy runs towards me , hands me
a rose and then run a off .
.
<Othandiweyo wam> the card reads.
I stare at Sabatha and he shrugs .
My smile feels like it's permanently plastered all over my face
and I can't stop it, I like it.
I walk to the car with the rose and a huge smile.
We drive to the mall with Sab's latest single .
He tells me it's not doing as well as he expected because of the
rumours surrounding his name .
I can't help the pity that is laced in my voice but he tells me that
sometimes
well most of the time tragedy comes with lessons.
.
.
We walk in Zara and he tells me to choose whatever I want .
I go wild because , 1 this comes from an entire millionaire and
2. This is a once in a lifetime opportunity.
I'm stuck between a white shirt and a black dress. Sabatha has
this bad habit of just disappearing. Where is he right now?
"Take white . It'll go very well with that Jean" she points at my
basket and I think she's right .
She then goes onto help me choose the perfect jewellery .
She's a pro at this .
Me :"I'm Funeka. Funeka Fakude. Excuse me , I always feel the
need to mention my surname" she giggles and nods . She has
the most perfect body it makes me insecure a bit .
Girl :"my name is...just call me GC" we handshake.
Sabatha pitches up from nowhere and stares at GC . He seems
gobsmacked for a second but it quickly goes as soon as it came
and the cocky Sabatha took place.
Sabatha :"do I need to introduce myself?" GC just giggles and
shakes her head then leaves ignoring Sabatha's question.
GC :"It was nice to meet you." I nod and She leaves.
Me :"That was whack . Your macking game is on zero . I'm
worried about you" he just goes to the till and I follow like his
puppy .
The cashier hands me another rose.
.
<Uthandiwe> it reads . this time my eyes roam around the room
hoping to land on him but the cashier chuckles and shakes her
head .
.
Sabatha has been dragging me from shop to shop , helping me
choose clothes and actually playing fashion police on some of
my outfits .
I think it's safe to say I had an amazing day.
We go back to the car with my shopping bags , I feel like that
bitxch.
On top of my sit there is a beaded bracelet .
The colour of the beads look faded a bit .
They have lost their colour but it still looks nice .
I hand the bracelet to Sabatha who ignores me like he ain't hear
me .
Mxm.
I keep it in my hand until we arrive home .
From the gate there are rose petals leading to the door.
When I see them I can't wait to get out of this car.
Sabatha :"ukuphapha sisi" mxm .
He parks and I run to my house.
I feel like I ran into a bouquet store .
My lounge is filled with red roses and my couches are nowhere
to be found .
Thule stands in the middle of the room in front of a picnic set
up .
Why am I crying? Argh .
I can't get over the roses around him.
I walk slowly to him and jump a few roses Maki him chuckle .
He hands me some papers and what's written there makes me
bump with excitement.
I hug him and he twirls with me still in his arms .
Me :"You did it". Thule :"No , we did it"
I pull out of the hug and look around for the millionth time.
He sits down and I join him.
Thule :"I'm tired of being a bachelor MaFakude. Not when I
know there's a beautiful woman in front of me" he takes the
bracelet and puts it in my wrist
Thule :"Cela ube intombi yami smomondiya"(can you please be
my girlfriend , beautiful)
Me :"Uyabheja?" he chuckles then throws his wallet, his phone
and taxi keys at me .
I laugh lightly.
Thule :"Anything else?"
Me :"Do you eat puxxy?" He laughs loudly .
Thule :"Want me to show you?" I just giggle .
Me :"So all of this because you want me to be your girlfriend?"
Can he ask me to marry him , I want to see something
Thule :"you're worth all the trouble"
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*Mnotho*
.
.
.
Me :"I'm not going to jail because of that...girl Mbuyiseni" I
roar. Why am I even mad?
She earned that hospital bed.
She honestly had it coming.
Using my blind brother to get pregnant? How desperate can
one be?
Mbuyiseni :"I know . I know. Just calm down bhuti"
Me :"Calm down? I can't afford to calm down. If this reaches
the media , I'm as good as dead. You know we work with
reputation in business"
Mbuyiseni :"Once you lose it
Advertisement
it's gone"
Me :"You're not making things better"
Mbuyiseni :"And screaming at me does?" His sarcastic tone
annoys everything in .
Mbuyiseni :"I think I've seen you enough to last me a life time . I
need to see Sab and Mabutho" apparently they can't survive
without each other . "It's a triplets thing" they'd say . Mxm.
Me :"But we don't have a solution"
Mbuyiseni :"I'll think of something. I need to be in studio" mxm
. He speeds up from the couch and leaves.
.
.
.
*Sena*
.
.
.
Ok flue is really playing with me.
I couldn't even go to work , I hope that Cruella the CEO doesn't
fire me .
Mbuso just left to varsity and apparently his business is
booming .
We eat Thule Mwelase.
We bath Thule Mwelase .
We drink Thule Mwelase.
Even the air we breathe is flavoured with Thule Mwelase.
He is everything we talk about .
Whatever happened to Mnotho .
Thule took over and his praised by how much of a genius he is .
Sakhathazi.
My phone vibrates from under my pillow .
.
<Can we talk?
-Mnotho> what in this planet?
.
<Where the hell did you get my numbers menemene?> Me
.
<I actually sorted things out with my mother so I'd appreciate it
if you refrain from calling me out> Mnotho
.
<Good for you. Now leave me alone> me. I sit there and stare at
my phone . Why in this planet am I bothered?
.
<Can I see you?> Mnotho
.
<Nope. I'm sick. Rain check?> Yhu hay Senamile rain check
Yani?
Such a pity we can't delete texts .
.
<What's wrong?> Why do you care?
.
<Flue>
.
<Do you have medication ? I can send you some> Mnotho
.
<I'm fine. Med lemon will kick in soon> this time he really
doesn't reply . Mxm .
Why am I interested?
His probably busy with his wife right now.
All the good men are taken.
I'm not saying Mnotho is a good man but Argh you know what I
mean.
I doze off with my phone still in my hand only to be woken up
by someone who knocks at the door like a bloody policeman.
I go to the door guns blazing only to find a...very neatly put
together looking man. If that makes sense .
He is wearing a white coat and has glasses on .
Very shiny shoes and a huge cabinet filled with...pills I think.
Me :"Good morning" I greet and cough lightly .
Man :"Morning ma'am. I was sent by Mr Mwelase to bring
some medication for you and check your vitals"
Me :"Some you say?" I point at the cabinet that has pills.
Man :"He said I must bring my pharmacy to you"
Me :"You're a pharmacist?" Dumb question yes I know but I'm a
bit dumbstruck . Excuse me .
Man :"obviously" how rude .
I don't know why but this act kind of puts a smile on my face.
.
.
.
*Mnotho*
.
.
.
On the earliest morning we have to leave to eMzamo my
mother's home town for this ritual happening back home and
the paying of damages.
I keep on checking my phone expecting a thank you text from
Sena but nothing . Not even a "ngiyabonga wenja" .
Just silence which seems louder than that text that is non-
existant.
I groan and bang the phone on the table startling my mother .
Bafo :"Drama. I didn't have this much drama when I was your
age" he shakes his head and heads off . Someone borrow me
their father .
I feel like as uBafo grows older I realise who Sabatha takes after
.
It's as clear as daylight .
Mami :"What's happening Currency kamama?" Oh no. Not that
name again.
Me :"Nothing I can't handle ma" she gives me a bored
expression then tilts her head.
Mami :"talk to me" she drags me to the couch and lays my head
on her lap .
Yeap even 35 year olds like being babied and that's one thing
my mother hasn't stopped doing.
Me :"i...beat up Enhle" she tries to push me off but I hold her
legs so tight she decides to smack the back of my head then
pinches my ear
Mami :"You beat up women?" I try to shake my head and she
lets go .
Me :"Cha ma . It's just that she lied. She knew I wanted out of
this marriage so he faked pregnancy to make sure I stay and the
on top of that she pretends to be Lindy so she can sleep with
Mbuyiseni hoping she'll get pregnancy..." It goes quiet and I
hear her clap her hands once
Mami :"nisilethela imihlolo shame" I chuckle a bit.
Me :"on the other hand Sena doesn't even notice me"
Mami :"Sena? Where have I heard that name?" Flip!
Me :"There are plenty of Senas out there ma . Focus . She
doesn't want me. A whole millionaire" she giggles sweetly.
Mami :"I've always told you that it's not about money but you
decided to listen to your father." She shrugs .
Me :"Honestly ma . I don't want your "I told you also" I just
need a solution"
Mami :"please don't bring me another flat assed Makoti. I don't
know where you get this thing because I don't have a-" I stop
her Before she goes on any further
Me :"Ma!" She goes quiet for a few minutes.
Mami :"Go in for the kill and then reverse"
Me :"huh?"
Mami :"tell her how you feel and then pull back . No one likes
seeing her pursuer living their best and totally ignoring you. It
does something to your ego"
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*Mnotho*
.
.
.
I'm standing right in front of this door in hope that what I am
about to say doesn't ruin our relationship.
Argh it's now or never.
I knock softly and he opens after a few minutes wearing
sweatpants and nothing on top ..
Mabutho :"Oh I thought it's Tiny" I suppress the need to roll my
eyes.
Me :"Explains the bare chest" he brushes his chest with a smirk
on his face .
Me :"Nomkhaba" he instantly narrows his eyes like mom does
making me laugh .
Me :"Anyway I'm not here for that. I want to talk to you"
Mabutho :"Hay bhuti it's late" that "bhuti" he said was just to
shut me up and not recognise the fact that he just disrespected
me .
Mabutho's always been the sly one , Sabatha the one who's
blunt and Mbuyiseni...a Mama's boy . You could never get to
him .
He'd disrespect and go cry to mom before you do . Very
dangerous.
Me :"I know it's late . Sit down" he groans and sits opposite me
.
Me :"I'm here to confess and apologize-" he stops me then goes
to the kitchen .
I wonder where Malume is and why he allowed this bunch to
visit him .
Sabatha doesn't visit my house ,well he doesn't sleep in my
house and I'm absolutely fine .
He's a piece job .
He comes back and sits with a bottle of Corona then gives me
one as well.
Me :"So Uhm. Remember that girl you kind of impregnated.
Your side chick" I see him cringe a bit but hides this with a
smile.
Me :"You know you have to forgive yourself right? You made a
mistake Butho and you have to ask for forgiveness and forgive
yourself"
His shoulders fall. He's no longer that boyfriend waiting for Tiny,
he's my little brother who ripped off a page of my textbook by
mistake and sat on the piece of paper to hide it from me .
Except on this instance that piece of paper are his emotions.
I hate that I'm about to do this but I have to.
Mabutho :"Kunzima bhuti. Living with this guilt . It feeds on my
conscience. I've never seen her since that day and don't think I
really want to." Now what do I say? Thule is the only one who's
good at this, maybe it's because he has lived with umalume for
so long. His well of wisdom is filled to the brim .
I just move closer to him and hug him while.
We fall into comfortable silence and he
Me :"Bafo I've got something to tell you" he looks at me
expectantly and I take a gulp on the Corona .
Butho :"Khuluma bhuti"
Me :"Firstly I want you to know that I'm sorry and I didn't mean
for any of this to happen." I see him roll his eyes there for a bit.
Mabutho :"I pay Sena's cell phone bill bhuti" he blurts out
leaving me shocked to the core.
Me :"Uhm i- . Why did you keep quiet?"
Mabutho :"Was waiting for you to tell me ." He shrugs.
Me :"You mad about all of this because I want to make sure that
she's mine and I want to know that you got my back?"
Mabutho:"if I'm not comfortable?"
Me :"I back off . You know this" he looks at me shortly and then
nods.
Mabutho :"I don't think I loved her man. Right now I'm just
feeling guilty where she's concerned. " I feel like punching him
for even hurting her but he's still my brother.
Me :"so can I?" He chuckles a bit
Mabutho :"Yea but good luck . That one's a hard but. Very hard"
Me :"I think I know that now. " I groan and throw myself on the
couch .
Mabutho :"You'll need my luck there bruh" he chuckles and
tosses his cider aside.
When I'm about to drink he grabs the cider from my mouth and
drinks .
Mabutho :"You don't deserve my Corona . Utshontha
omakhwapheni" I throw the lid at him and he chuckles.
We are disturbed by Mbuyiseni who walks in .
We can't even keep quiet to fool him because of our scents. He
throws himself in between us and lays his head on my shoulder.
Mabutho :"Udliwa yini? What's eating your insides?" I look at
him with a bored expression and Mbuyiseni huffs .
Mbuyiseni :"I'm bored"
Me :"Really ? You're walking like you've been tasked with
finding the cure for HIV because you're bored? Don't bore us ."
Mbuyiseni :"No. There's no spark between me and Lindy
anymore. I think everything was just sexual
I don't know but everything is awkward now ." He huffs .
Mabutho :"These things happen bafo don't get so hung up on it
. Maybe you should just be sex partners if it doesn't work"
Mbuyiseni :"Yea . I was hoping we would work out but..." He
shrugs and hugs me.
He'll never change . He's always displaying his affection for
someone . Such a softie , just like mom.
"Mbuyiseni do you know of a lady called GC?" The sucker
doesn't even greet .
Why are we squeezing ourselves in a two seater couch when
there's a lounge with a long ass couch right opposite us .
Mbuyiseni :"Oh yea. I've interviewed her once on my show..."
He looks at him expectedly.
Sabatha :"And...what does she do?"
Mbuyiseni :"She's a slay queen I guess" he shrugs . That doesn't
seem to sit well with Sabatha there .
Sabatha :"Explain hau" he snaps. Ok that's a first .
Mbuyiseni :"What am I supposed to explain . She's a slay queen.
Influencer or whatever it is she does. Why are you- oh no!" He
smirks and then roars with laughter .
Mbuyiseni :"A slay queen?!"
Sabatha :"For someone in the entertainment industry you
sound dumb as hell. People do make a living out of Social
media" Mbuyiseni just shrugs .
Mabutho :"I'm so disappointed to even call all of you my
brothers. Maybe I should call dad and let him know about all of
this. Mnotho doesn't know how to approach a girl, Sabatha
stalks girls instead of courting her omunye yena expects sparks
to fly but he doesn't initiate conversations around umjolo .
What the hell is happening with you all? Atleast Thule is doing
something right whuu. Where's Tiny? Abanye bethu badinga
ukuhlaba" he gets up and leaves .
Sabatha :"Nxn"
Mbuyiseni :"Uyanya lo"
Me :"He's right though. If Bafo found out about this , he'd
surely smack us" we all sigh .
I untangle Mbuyiseni's hands off me and move to sleep on the
fluffy carpet. I take off my jacket.
Malume will forgive me. I'm going through a divorce.
Mbuyiseni :"Can I sleep with you? I'm stressed I can't sleep in
my own" I chuckle a bit
Me :"Dude that doesn't sound right. A bit gay-ish don't you
think?"
Sabatha :"It'll be a whole lot worse when I tell you that I'm
joining you as well" he doesn't wait for me to respond and
removes the table to the other side. Who told him this is his
house ?
Mbuyiseni is in the middle .
I give them my VERY EXPENSIVE jacket that they use as a pillow
and I use my arms .
I'll deal with Sena later .
In a few seconds Mbuyiseni's arm is around my waist . Does he
have to sleep like this?
.
.
.
*Thule*
.
.
.
I rush to Funeka's house before going home and she's in a gown
un-plaiting her hair .
She looks so different without a wig on.
Still beautiful though .
I doubt she ever looks ugly....oh yea when she's crying.
I place a perk on her lips and walk in .
She hisses a bit.
Probably expected that kiss to be longer .
I chuckle and place the wings on top of the table .
Me :"You look beautiful" she blushes and stares at the floor.
It's so funny seeing my blubber mouth quiet and turning pink .
Yes I said MY.
I sit down and she stands in front of me .
Before I can even stop myself I grab her butt and pull her to me.
She stares down at me and when I look into her eyes I recognise
the amount of power she has over me.
Me :"I've been looking for a place to rent" I whisper close to her
.
I can feel her hot breath on my face.
I move my hands to the front of her gown and her breath
hitches.
Me :"Ngyakhuluma MaMtolo" I move the gown aside and brush
her thigh slowly .
She gets goosebumps and I stop.
Me :"Funeka" I raise my brows and smirk
Funeka :"How do you expect me to concentrate while you're
touching me?" I pull her to sit next to me.
Me :"ok I'm not . I've been looking for a place to stay"
Funeka :"What's wrong with your uncle's house?" I sigh
Me :"I've got you now , I can't keep bringing you to another
man's house" she chuckles then lays her head on my shoulder .
Funeka :"Will we cope with the rent?" I love how she includes
herself in my problems. Makes me feel like I am not alone in
this life thing.
Me :"The taxis will cover the rent . I'll figure out what to do with
the furniture" she bites the inside of her cheeks in silence .
Funeka :"or you can just move in with me"
Me :"get that out your head if you still want your boyfriend to
have a dick" she frowns "your father in law will castrate me" she
put her left hand in my face .
Funeka :"There's nothing here bruh"
Me :"There's something on your right wrist and that means a
lot to me more than any ring. That is mom's." She gasps.
Her jaw is on the floor.
Me :"I don't know what you think this is but I'm not letting you
go . The second i have a million in my bank account me and you
are as good as married" she blushes the deepest scarlet .
Funeka :"the grails we'll send off to China plus the Mr
Desando's deal will bring in a lot of money. What if that's in five
months?"
Me :"Impossible but should it happen then me and you are
getting married the following month" she chuckles then nods
Funeka :"Where do you want to relocate?"
Me :"Anywhere close to you" I bring her close to me and take a
whiff of her hair.
Me :"Baby when did you say you're washing your hair?" She
gasps and I chuckle.
Funeka :"I was waiting for you." She gets up and pulls me to the
kitchen .
There's one small basin on the floor and two buckets with warm
water .
I pour shampoo on her hair and gently massage her scalp.
Thank God her ass is far away from me but seeing it so high up
in the air just does things to me .
I rinse her hair .
Remind me to buy her a salon when I'm well off .
I can't do this for the rest of my life .
It seems like I complained too soon because after washing her
hair and helping her blow dry I had to paint her nails
with...paint I think .
It's the first thing I'll buy her .
Blow drying is not my thing but I'll do it all over again to see her
smile and giggle to my faults.
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MISSION : FUNA UMFAZI
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.
*Sabatha*
.
.
Me :"Ok bafo where do I start?" He groans and throws himself
on the couch .
Why's he frustrated ? He's the one that suggested that we help
each other moss.
Doesn't matter how frustrated he is because I still need his help.
I doubt GC is an ordinary girl.
After going through his Facebook page and wall I realised I'm in
for one huge fight .
Her bio is written "amadoda ngo-snoopy" and her wall reminds
you how much she doesn't need a "creature with a third leg" .
Yea no amantombazane.
Mbuyiseni :"There's a shoot happening..."
Me :"That won't work . We don't want me to be attacked again
now do we?" Mbuyiseni rolls his eyes .
Mnotho grabs his phone and stalks GC one more time , this girl
has 150k followers on Instagram .
She looks like a fire emoji on each and every picture .
Mnotho :"Wait she just dropped her location.." we all jump to
him and she just checked in at Sunninghill, the one in Hyde
park" I grab the keys and we all run to the car .
It's only when we're inside we realise that I'm not dressed
appropriately .
Mnotho hands me his jacket and it smells like him . Yuck!
I change my shorts to Mbuyiseni's faded jeans, he's never
getting these again.
Thule hands me his cap to "hide my hair" yho.
I only share my shoe size with Mabutho so he gives me his
pimped up Vans after a whole lot of begging from all of us.
"Good luck/ungafathuzi" they all chant at the same time .
I give them fist bumps and I run in.
I walk in the hotel and she's with two other girls .
Her face is on her phone and if I'm not wrong she looks rather
bored while the two girls seem engaged on the conversation .
"Don't overthink Sabatha , just do it" I whisper to myself.
Not like I have much of a choice .
My brothers are right outside and if I come out without this girl
then I'm as good as brotherless.
"Do it" I shout to myself one more time.
I move to her table , grabbing every girl's attention except for
GC's.
Me :"Hello ladies" I greet and the dark skinned one bats her
long eye lashes and flips her curly wig. She's beautiful yes but
GC...damn!
Girl 1 :"Hello Sab" her voice is annoyingly sharp .
Very squeky , rabbit type of squeky.
I nod . Mnotho said actions speak louder .
Me :"Mzala awsangiboni?" I pat her and cross fingers that she
actually follows the sudden plan.
My brothers always say I'm a premature planner and I think on
this instance they're right.
She frowns a bit but quickly hides it with a smile .
GC :"Hau what are you doing here MZALA" I don't know her but
I can see a fake smile .
Me :"I came back to Joburg last night but I was on my way to
your house right now so we can catch up" she grins and grabs
her bag .
GC :"Ladies...it was so so nice seeing you but I have to go catch
up with umzala" girl 1 shrugs but Girl 2 looks disgusted.
Probably because of my recent scandals .
Girl 1 :"I didn't know Sab...thee Sab is your cousin"
GC :"you don't know me at all" I grab her hand and she tries to
untangle making me tighten the grip on her .
Me :"Mzala they're still looking.." I wear a fake smile and turn to
look at the friends who are still staring .
She groans .
Where are we going exactly?
The car is parked right opposite the hotel and the girls were still
definitely going to see this .
What was the plan again?
I can see Thule's head from here . What a peanut .
GC :"Where are you taking me?" I don't know.
Me :"To the car"
GC :"I can use an Uber , thank you" I give her a blank stare and
she keeps quiet.
Mnotho was right . This actions thing!! I've been sleeping on it .
I open the driver's seat and Mnotho keeps his straight face
looking at me .
Normally he looks scary .
On a scale of 1-5
he ranges there by 3,8 on a normal day but today he's
comfortably sitting on a 4,1.
I know this was not the plan .
Me :"bhuti the Uber is on its way" he frowns and chuckles .
That "you're treading on soft water" chuckle.
Mbuyiseni :"oh yea we're already late anyway" he opens the
door and everyone stares at him .
He motions that they exit with his head .
They all exit with Mnotho in a vest , Mbuyiseni in shorts and
Mabutho in flip flops . Thule is the only one who looks decent.
Mnotho throws the key at me and I mouth a "sorry" which he
blatantly ignores and gives me a middle finger .
We drive off with my brothers scolding Mbuyiseni , I know he'll
want a Hublo watch as compensation for "his poor ear" . Mxm.
Though I do owe him.
Me :"So mzala where can I drive you?"
GC :"Auckland park" she goes back to her phone.
She gasps and clasps her mouth.
Me :"What? What's wrong?" She opens and closes her mouth
GC :"Lisa posted something about me and you and it's gaining
so much traction. The brand I am working with says they can't
be associated with someone who supports...Uhm erh yea" I
park on the side of the road for some reason.
Me :"Rapists . You can say it . That's what everyone thinks I am
regardless of what I say I'll always be labelled as the rapist.
That's all I am ..."
I feel her soft hand on top of mine totally calming me.
GC :"That's not all you are Sab..." I chuckle
Me :"It's Sabatha to you, Sab to the rest of the world." She
chuckles and nods .
We're getting somewhere.
Me :"I didn't rape those girls . I swear I didn't GC..."
GC :"I believe you . It's Mgcini to you and GC to the rest of the
world" I chuckle. Mgcini pho? Yea no.
Me :"Nice to meet you Mgcini." It's like she got an awakening ,
she suddenly looks at her watch and groans .
Me :"Sup'?"
GC :"I'm supposed to pick up my daughter at my neighbours
before she leaves and it's getting pretty late" baby? Daughter?
Me :"Daughter? You have a child?" Are my eyes popped out? Of
course they are.
GC :"Yea. 6 months old little girl . Guess it isn't so nice to meet
me now is it" she shrugs and moves to her phone.
I need to have a conversation with mom about this .
Me :"Does she have a dad?" She quickly looks at me a bit
shocked but still keeping a smile.
Mgcini :"Sperm donor yes , loyo-Snoopy fled the scene the
second he found out about her" I chuckle at the word "snoopy"
Me :"Can I fill in his shoes. We can co-parent " impulsive. That's
what I am.
She laughs and then shakes her head.
Mgcini :"You're unbelievable"
.
.
I dropped GC off at her house after meeting the Betsy cute Saint
.
She has the most beautiful big eyes and pouty lips.
She gave me baby fever .
I need to take that Lethiwe to the doctor and get a scan of the
little minion.
"Morning family" I greet and they all give me the "don't fuck
with us" look .
"Why nimuncu?"
Thule:"So you won't even ask how we got here? You left us
stranded without a phone to even call that stupid Uber" aw
shame. Me :"I'm sorry family"
Mabutho :"I'm guessing all went well" I nod and give them a
thumbs up.
Mabutho :"Great. Mnotho you're next . I expect you to have
proper game and don't do what Sab did" Mnotho just rolls his
eyes and lays back .
Mabutho :"Give me my kicks me bhuti ." Hay hay not happening
I run to the room and he's already on my heels
I wonder how they got home shame my poor brothers
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*Thule*
.
.
.
Today we are finally leaving to Dannhauser for this ritual .
The tension is thick in the air , everyone is wondering if this will
change Mbuyiseni's life .
Will things stay the way they are or will he get his eye sight
back?
My problem is I have a meeting with Mr Desando tomorrow
morning and obviously I might not be able to make it .
It is a bit crucial because I will have to meet up with the workers
he has recruited for me as a favour because he's been around
this forestry industry which is a bit closed.
There's only one person who know Amib Logistics and Forestry
like the palm of her hand .
Funeka is more into managing , admin and all of that but
leading....she hates it so this is me taking my chance .
I call her and she picks up on the second ring.
Funeka :"Hello" her voice sounds...down I think.
Me :"Just hello Funeka Fakude?"
Funeka :"Hey baby" she sighs .
Me :"What's going on?"
Funeka :"I just- I'm not feeling so good" I can't help but panic
Me :"Sthandwa Sam can I come right now?"
Funeka:"No. It's just one of those days . I'll get over it . My
therapist said I should go through all the emotions"
Me :"what's on your mind?" I comfortably seat on the bed . I
hear her sniff and my heart breaks as I can't even touch her or
even wipe her tears .
Me :"Don't cry sthandwa sami, you're hurting me" I know this
sounds a bit selfish but it's also me speaking my mind.
Funeka:"I'm sorry Nqobi, it's just- it's hard. I feel like I've sunk in
this deep hole and I feel so undeserving of your love. After
everything that has happened you're here loving me like no
other and I feel like you'll leave me eventually.." she breaks into
loud piercing cry.
I clench my jaws a couple of times until she calms down .
Me :"Baby please stop crying" she quietens down still releasing
soft sobs .
Me :"MaMtolo..."
Funeka :"Baby..." She sniffs
Me :"Look at your wrist on your right and tell me what you
see..." She keeps quiet for the longest time .
"I'm waiting MaMtolo. What's that on your wrist"
Funeka :"Ucu baby"
Me :"And it belonged to who?"
Funeka :"Your mother"
Me :"And it's who's right now?" She chuckles. There's light!
Funeka :"Mine."
Me :"good. I would never give you something so valuable to
me...to my family only to string you along. I don't think you
understand the change you've brought into my life MaMtolo
nor do you understand the amount of power you have over me
, the power you possess . While others bring shit to the table ,
you dragged the table to this party . Your past can never define
you, we're on this healing journey . We're a work in progress.
None of us is complete but we complete each other. There was
a period where I did not see my family for months, did not have
shelter and pushed everyone away . Even in my lowest , they
still saw me deserving of their love and affection. They didn't
pull me out of my dark hole , but they gave me reason to.
Soo...baby wam tomorrow you have a meeting with Mr
Desando , I'll deposit some money into your account , go to the
mall...spa...pamper yourself , buy some clothes and send your
boyfriend pictures with a wide grin." I don't know why I'm
holding in breath .
Funeka :"I accept the money proposal but I'm not going to the
meeting"
Me :"Don't stress me . Who will?"
Funeka :"Wena Mr CEO"
Me :"I think we still have to revisit this conversation one day.
You know one day I'll leave Amib Logistics and you'll have to
take over right?" She groans .
Funeka :"Hay hay baby . Leave to where? I'm fine as MD. I don't
see a problem"
Me :"You don't see a problem but I do. No wife of mine will
work for someone, not even me . I'll leave because I believe in
you and your dreams.
I haven't done much for AF and you know it , I don't understand
why you're hiding behind me while you're putting in the work.
Amib Logistics and Forestry is your baby , get used to it because
I won't be here for long" she groans again. Sometimes we all
need a push when we get comfortable , the power of water is
realised when it moves. You'll never know how powerful water
is when it's still
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it's only when hurricanes and floods come do you realise the
power it possesses.
Me :"So should I email Mr Desando?"
Funeka :"You're very annoying but yes. Send me the
documents"
Me :" Mangi will bring the taxi keys and some money ok?"
Funeka :"Ok"
Me :"You're the best"
Funeka :"Yea whatever. Send me that money" she drops the call
leaving me to giggle on my own.
Someone clears their throat grabbing my attention .
It's Mnotho.
He stands there with his hands in his pocket and two of his top
buttons unbuttoned.
Mnotho :"You love her don't you?" I nod with my automatic
goofy smile.
He throws himself next to me and my bed moves , yea no
Sgonondo .
Mnotho :"So...how does it feel? Being in love?" He places his
under his chin and smiles .
If only the world knew how goofy and idiotic "The fixer"
is...maybe just maybe they'd let loose in his presence.
Me :"You've been in love Mnotho so don't bore me"
Mnotho :"Yea but I didn't trust Enhle with my Finances . She
was a glorified house wife . It's been a dream of mine to be with
someone who shares the same dreams and aspirations as mine,
well not exactly but a successful person as well" he shrugs and
sighs .
Me :"it's not late hau. You're not that old Mnotho , you can still
start over ."
Mnotho :"I really thought at age 35 I'd be cuddling with the love
of my life in our penthouse with our little minions playing
around but look at me."
Me :"Not everything goes as planned. That's what makes life
interesting. By now I thought I'd a millionaire but look at me-"
"I think the problem we made when raising you boys was
thinking life is easy and everything comes easy. Look at your
mother, that woman didn't go through the most . She went
through everything , there's nothing your mother missed but
she's still here smiling like life didn't knock her down like crazy.
Look at me...when I met your mother I had to get my shit
together and prove to your grandfather that I can take care of
his daughter . Life doesn't go expected. Life knocks you down, it
won't go easy on you, it won't give you a break to recoup. If
there's ever a time where you feel like life has really knocked
you off the ring , you better have each other's back ." We fall
into loud silence processing the words uBafo just said.
Mnotho :"In all my years living with you and being your son, I
have never heard you saying something that makes sense .
Ever!" I laugh but that's true. Ubaba has never had sound
advice , he has laughed throughout our tragedies.
Laughed when we circumcised ,
Laughed when we told him our relationship problems .
Everything's funny to him , he always says "it could've been
worse" and shrugs .
No matter how sticky things are but he makes them seem light .
I think that's how he takes life . I hope I get to be like that for
my kids one day , it's super cool .
.
.
.
*Sabatha*
.
.
.
I'm supposed to be on my way to Dannhauser but I brought
Saint these toys and need to drop them off before I go.
I know my brothers will scold me but I have to go .
I knock at the gate a couple of times and she comes to the
wearing a gown and a panty hose on her head without make up
.
She still looks beautiful but funny when she doesn't have the
wig on .
Maybe it's because I've never seen her without one on the
Gram .
Me :"You look ugly"
GC :"Oh thank you sir. You don't look too bad yourself" she rolls
her eyes and opens the gate .
Me :"Where's Saint?"
GC :"She's asleep . She kept me up all night" she groans and
walks in front of me to the house .
My eyes move to her booty as it jiggles lightly under that gown
.
So sexy . Damn!
Me :"Sorry . Can I make you coffee?" She shakes her head .
GC :"Did you check out social media? We're still trending. I'm on
191k likes now"
I throw myself next to her
Me :"Is it good for business...your business?"
GC :"Yea . As much as people are bashing us they still want to
see and follow me. I lost a deal yesterday but got another one
today so...I see no difference" she shrugs and I nod slowly .
GC :"So what's your next game plan?"
Me :"Doing what my brother has been begging me to do.
Accounting" she nods
My phone rings from my pocket . Of course she was going to
call .
"Ma wami"
Ma :"Ukuphi wena?" No hello , no nothing
Me :"I'm with your grand child and future daughter in law" GC's
cheeks instantly turn red because of blushes.
Whatever happened to amadoda ngo-snoopy.
Ma :"Unaloya Leticia? Whu hay you've disappointed me. Imbi
intomb'yakho but it's ok I'll accept her for the sake of peace" I
have to keep a smile on my face for GC's sake and act like my
mother isn't firing shorts in my ear .
Me :"Oh ok Ma I'll tell her . Give me a few minutes I'll be there"
I drop the call still smiling .
Yea no kunzima ukuba yindoda. Don't take that lightly .
Me :"My mom says hi" she chuckles lightly and nods .
Don't judge me, I had to say something.
I know she has questions but I won't address them until she
brings it up making all of this a harder for her.
Saint is sleeping on the floor looking so beautiful and cute .
Ever layed your eyes on someone and feel totally complete, like
she is enough ? You know that feeling?
That's what I feel looking at Saint .
Me :"Uhm ok . I'm going back home for the weekend . I just
brought toys for Saint" she blinks a couple of times and breaks
into a beautiful smile, revealing her crooked teeth.
GC :"Were you serious?"
Me :"What? About co-parenting? Yes. I used to help my brother
with his kid" I used to help Mnotho with Thingo...well not really
help help because I used to feed her and then overdose on
Panado but it's still help.
GC :"I don't trust you"
Me :"You don't have to . Take my number in case you need
anything" I type my digits on her phone and she still keeps her
silly smile .
I pull her up so we can get the toys .
She gasps a bit when she sees the plastics .
Me :"What? Did I go a bit overboard?"
GC :"A bit? You bet. I won't have place for all this in my house" I
sigh
Me :"Ok keep the doll house and the teddy-"
GC :"No the doll house is the problem. It's too big Sabatha"
Me :"Ok Keep the teddy"
GC :"No . She won't even see all these things . She's 6 months
old for goodness sake" I roll my eyes .
Me :"ok ok . But you're keeping the rest of the toys"
GC :"No . Three plastics of toys Sabatha ? Are you crazy?" I give
her a blank stare.
GC :"ok you're not crazy but this is too much"
Me :"Ok . I'll just keep this in my house for when she sleeps
over" she beams with a smile .
Why does seeing her smile make me feel giddy?
Was this part of my brother's plan? We'll have to discuss this .
GC :"You're crazy do you know that?"
Me :"I've been told . Kiss Saint for me or better yet pass this kiss
for me" I steal a perk on her lips and she stands there with her
hand on her lips .
I place one of the plastic on the floor and jump in my car.
Me :"Oh and Mgcini...a tree house will be sent for my princess .
It's not yours so you can't complain" she gasps and I speed off.
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*Narrated*
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.
.
The tension is thick in the air as Nsingizi packs to her mother's
house in Dannhauser having to leave her children for two days .
Anxiety eats away as the day goes by and she finally has to
leave .
Gagashe made it quite clear that she is to spend the night at her
maternal home and have imbeleko done for her on this very
day .
She drags her bag to Mbuyiseni's hut , he's the sole reason she
does this and her heart breaks seeing him unable live like all his
sons .
She knocks patiently , Mbuyiseni gets up slowly and drags
himself to the door .
He had asked that he stays alone for a while because of how
overwhelming his family can be.
He takes a whiff of his mother and he calms down instantly .
According to him , his mother carries some sort of calm aura .
She can be in the room but not be in your space which is quite
different from his father who always announces his presence
even when he knows he's there .
Nsingizi :"Mfan'wam" her voice breaks .
Mbuyiseni :"Ma wami" she removes her hand from the suitcase
and cups his face.
Her hands tremble against his face totally alarming Mbuyiseni.
Mbuyiseni :"Ma don't do this please..." Her tears fall and she
tries to take deep breaths so he doesn't get alarmed .
Nsingizi :"I'm so scared Khehla lamama. I'm scared" he pulls her
closer and hugs her weeping mother.
It has always baffled Nsingizi how forgiving and optimistic her
son is but she's always reminded of the sweet Aunt'Nonhle who
welcomed her to the Mwelase family and as much as she hates
to admit it, his father in law Mntukathenjwa also does have a
good heart regardless of how much of a Casanova he is in her
eyes.
Me :"Everything will be ok sal'kwazi sam" Nsingizi pushes him
off and he chuckles.
Nsingizi :"usho mawungasafuni ukuba ingane yami" she fixes
her shirt
Mbuyiseni :"ngyadlala gogo wezingane zami" she scoffs
Nsingizi :"let's thank the sky daddy you don't have them so I'm
nobody's grandmother"
"Sky daddy ? Where did she get that one?" Mbuyiseni wonders
.
Mbuyiseni :"yet ... remember Letty?" Nsingizi rolls her eyes .
Nsingizi :"What's her story?" He just shrugs .
Nsingizi :"So you want me to drag it out of you?" Her
Mam'Gobhozi is out to play .
The only child she could easily get all the gossip from is her little
big Mbuyiseni.
Mbuyiseni :"There's nothing to drag ma"
He quickly turns and goes back to his bed .
Nsingizi :"Heeeh Mbuyiseni usuyangifihlela?" She asks probing .
Mbuyiseni promised his brothers not to tell or say anything to
Nsingizi .
He was specifically warned not to because he's known to be a
mommy's child, something he is not willing to shake off .
Mbuyiseni :"Cha ma , can we please drop this!" She rolls her
eyes and sings
Nsingizi :"Uzongena kanjani nemithwalo?
Uzongena kanjani?
Ayingeni " she sings leaving Mbuyiseni's cheeks wet with tears
Mbuyiseni :"Who said I'm dying ma?"
Nsingizi :"Didn't say you are . Was just singing the song" she
turns , draggs her luggage and leaves to Dannhauser .
Mbuyiseni :"What a mother I was given."
.
.
.
A goat was slaughtered when Nsingizi arrived , it was going to
be eaten the following day for Imbeleko which was not done .
Bab'Gagashe was facilitating the ceremony and consulting
ancestors if there was anything wrong being done .
Today is the day when the damages will be paid .
Nsingizi's stay at her paternal home hasn't been a pleasant one
.
In between getting snide glares from aunts and cousins
whispering when she enters the room she had to sit with her
"grandparents" who supposedly care.
She had to soldier on .
She has been slaving around the kitchen with the help of one of
her cousins because the others refused to help .
"She thinks she's better than us this one . We'll see"
"If she agreed to do this 15 years ago , none of this would've
been necessary. Look at her now" they kept on whispering...
though loud enough for her to hear .
She sighs deeply when she hears Bab'Nsimbi's soft yet horse
voice . It has become even softer with the years , the cold tall
man is no more .
Having grandsons has changed him... for the good.
"Skhulekile ekhaya !"
There's a trailer with three cows right outside the gate .
There's one that'll be slaughtered and eaten right outside the
gate and one that'll serve as an apology and one that'll be kept
by the Mayisela family .
"Skhulekile kwaMayisela,
oMbucu
Mbonane
Shibhela
Umfana wethu uphihlize amaqanda alay'khaya,
sizoshweleza(our son impregnated one of your own and we're
here to ask for forgiveness)" they shout
When Nsingizi's grandfather feels like they've shouted enough ,
he allows them in .
Much to Zaba's annoyance .
After they are allowed in, everything is a smooth sailing.
The cow and slaughtered and eaten right outside the Mayisela
premises .
After eating , Zaba doesn't want to spend another minute in
Dannhauser so they all leave to eMzamo to prepare for impinda
with Nsingizi.
The boys go with Bab'Gagashe to KwaMdakane , their home .
When they get there Bab'Gagashe consults the ancestors and it
looks like everything went well.
There's a moment of silence where the boys look at Mbuyiseni
expecting a miracle to happen.
Bab'Gagashe :"There are some things that ancestors will not
lend a helping hand , not because they can't but because
they're part of one's destiny" he says answering every one of
their questions .
Mbuyiseni sits there and blinks...and blinks ...and blinks .
The biggest part of him just wants to reverse time and go back
to where he had no hope for his eye sight .
This stupid ceremony gave him new hope
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that once again he will see .
Bab'Gagashe :"it might happen, it might not. Idlozi lenza izinto
ngendlela yalo, no one can interpret the next step" Mbuyiseni's
shoulders slowly fall and he bursts into a gut wrenching cry
alarming all his brothers.
For a second they're in a trance , because they have never seen
him break down like this but Mnotho is the first to kneel in front
of him and hug him for dear life
Mnotho :"Kuzolunga bafo. We'll get through this"
Mbuyiseni :"It's so easy for you to say Mnotho , you're not the
one who has blurry dreams because you don't remember how
something as little as a spoon looks like . I keep on trying to see
mama's face but it gets blurrier by the day . I want to see her
smile , I wanted to see her proud face when I received that
award but I can never do that. It'll never happen . I'll always get
deals not because of my potential but because bayangizwela .
It's hard bafo , it's so hard..." He sobs and the three others join
the hug .
They are left gobsmacked because they didn't know Mbuyiseni
felt like this , in their eyes he had his ducks in a row more than
all of them.
.
.
.
*Funeka*
.
.
.
I decided to get over myself and go out .
I'm going shopping so I decided to hit up GC for lunch and lucky
for me she agreed with no hustles .
I stare at my man's card, yes MY man because NDIYAJOWLA
what about you?
I put on my yellow jumpsuit and a Bob wig, pair it up with black
flip flops then I'm good to go.
I text GC when I'm at Festival mall and she sends me her
location.
I move towards Nando's and she's sitting outside .
When my eyes land on her , I just want to go back home.
She has her make up on fleek , eye lashes on point, 32 inch
popping .
Ay u-girl isn't here to play .
She sees me and gets up to hug me .
GC :"You look so pretty"
Me :"You look so dolled up" she bats her long artificial lashes
and fleeks her wig .
GC :"Izinto zakhona" I giggle and join her .
GC :"I actually had a meeting here, hence I'm early . I am never
early ." She collects a couple of documents and we order juice.
Something catches her attention on the phone .
Oh she's one of those?
Me :"That's rude , you know?" She sighs and puts the phone
down.
GC :"I'm sorry , it's just that my....baby daddy hasn't called this
entire weekend" come to think of it...
Me :"We're on the same boat sis. Haven't heard my boyfriend's
voice since Friday"
GC :"I should've known he was just another Snoopy. I almost
updated my bio . Why hay amadoda!"
Me :"Snoopy?"
GC :"Zinja lezinto" ok she's Zulu!
She picks her phone and fiddles with it for a few seconds
GC :"I hate people who don't update their socials argh" she
groans and bangs the phone on the table.
She's a gone girl! She has it bad!
Me :"You know you look desperate right?"
GC :"No. I just want him to fetch his gigantic tree house she
brought for my daughter . A tree house in Soweto? Who's ever
seen that? A tree house for a 6 months old baby? Doesn't he
know of our Nyaupe boys? I knew he was stupid" I don't think
she knew but who am I to speak? Ndiyajola mna and my love
didn't disappear on me .
He told me he won't be available the entire weekend and I
believed him when I saw Sabatha's status on WhatsApp . Phela
you can't trust a man , in GC's wise word "ngo-Snoopy".
GC :"Can we go to Spur. I want alcohol . I want Pharoah's
blood..."
Me :"Isn't it, Pharoah's tears?"
GC :"Yes that Nceku yenkosi. I want proper alcohol."
Me :"Didn't you say you have a child? Aren't you
breastfeeding?" She groans and sinks in her seat .
GC :"Fuck them kids . Don't have a child . It's similar to MMM,
it's a scam"
31
*Thule*
.
.
.
The ride back to Joburg is half as intense as the two hours we
spent in the hut .
No one's laughing or rejoicing but there's conversation .
Baba noMkakhe refused to drive with us , apparently we have
problem and chaos following us . I think we all just know that
mom is a bit too emotional to be with Mbuyiseni in the same
car .
Sabatha :"We don't have to be so depressed you know? No one
died" why does he have to be like this.
Mabutho :"That's insensitive Sabs"
Sabatha :"No guys . Mbuyiseni is still here with us , he can't see
us but he's still here and if that isn't reason enough for us to
celebrate then I really don't know. I don't understand why we're
mourning him when he's here . We've done this before , we
can't do it again." Oh well the fool does have a point .
Mbuyiseni chuckles and brushes Sabatha's head after a while of
searching for it
Mbuyiseni :"You're so clever sometimes number five" they all
chuckle
Sabatha :"I know. Want to see my daughter?" He takes out his
phone and obviously we're all surprised because last time I
checked Letty was still pregnant.
Mnotho nods reluctantly ...
Sabatha :"Mbuyiseni dawg she's like the cutest little thing you
can ever imagine . She actually looks like her mother, cute
pouty pink lips and plumpy cheeks . The baby hair on her face
was just a cherry on top , I swear she's the cutest thing" all of us
are too shocked to say the least .
Do babies grow that fast? I thought Letty was just a couple of
weeks pregnant...wait maybe it's an Edward and Bella situation
.
Mabutho :"Do you smoke? You know Bafo will kill you right?"
Sabatha rolls his eyes and shoves the phone to our direction
showing a cute little baby in pink .
She moves a bit and blows bubbles in her mouth with her eyes
closed.
This child is giving me baby fever haybo.
Mnotho :"Did you steal someone's child? I mean I wouldn't put
it past you"
Sabatha :"Your lack of faith in me is repulsive bhuto. Remember
GC? She has a daughter"
Mabutho :"Manje wena ungenaphi?"
Mbuyiseni :"An African Proverb"
Sabatha :"Whu hay Stevie wonder uyaphapha shame" I laugh
lightly.
When are we getting to Joburg ? I want to see my woman .
Sabatha :"We're co-parenting" he moves his eyes to his phone
and makes funny faces while looking at it .
No one says anything, good.
He'll do what his brain tells him anyway.
Me :"So what will you do about Letty?"
Sabatha:"I was about to ask Stevie wonder here to interview
her and I'll take care of the kid should it be mine"
Mnotho :"Is it yours?"
Sabatha :"I kinda sorta lost control and nutted in her"
Mnotho :"That's because you were thinking with the wrong
head . Had you thought using the head that actually has brain
cells then you'd know that you use a condom when it's a
stranger. A condom Sabatha" He frowns and clicks his tongue.
It's moments like these where he scolds us instead of our
parents we're reminded that he's actually the deputy parent.
We always seem to forget.
Sabatha :"It was a mistake kodwa Bhuti"
Mnotho :"Mistake yokunuka" we all chuckle .
I mean Sabatha's 25 years old so what's the biggie?
Sabatha :"Atleast mina ngimithisile , Wena awunantombi" we
all burst into laughter except for Mnotho who gives Sabatha a
snide glares.
Mnotho :"Atleast I'm single Wena your credits will bounce
soon" Sabatha narrows his eyes and we laugh at him because
seemingly he doesn't have a come back .
Mabutho :"Speaking of your potential ntombi, how will we
tackle that?" There's long silence and I decide to lay back on the
car seat .
When the silence gets too much I raise my head to look at them
and their eyes are set on me .
Me :"Haybo what are you looking at?"
Mbuyiseni :"How is Mbuso's business doing bafo?"
Me :"It's going I guess... Why are you-
Mbuso...Sena...niyahlanya" I laugh lightly and shake my head.
Mnotho :"Come on Gazi . it's the only way . Please" he brings
his palms closer and I groan .
Bloody parasites.
Me :"What do you want from me ?" I groans and close my eyes
for a second .
Mabutho :"You will invite Mbuso the brother and insist that he
comes with an elder . Then Mnotho will magically bump into
you , you will drag Mbuso somewhere. Umdala phela nawe" can
someone remind them them that I'm 2 years older than them.
Me :"Ay we'll revisit this tomorrow , I just want to get to my
woman" Mnotho chuckles
Mabutho :"Let me call Tiny.."
Sabatha :"the driver will drop me off eSoweto right? I want to
see my baby mama"
Silence...good .
Mbuyiseni :"Go see your baby mama Wena baby boy..."
Mnotho :"So no one's going to address this...? Why are you
including a baby in this Sabatha because we all know how you
Male Jezebel" Sabatha dramatically gasps and puts his head in
his chest .
Why is Mnotho bothering? Baby boy does what he wants .
Sabatha :"I won't do them dirty bhuto you'll see . I'm a man
now. I'll bring Saint to you and you'll understand why I'll collect
all my morals. She looks like her mother so much..."
Mabutho :"Yhu hay Sabatha we understand , give us a break"
Sabatha :"Stevie wonder , what's happening with you and
Lindy?"
Mbuyiseni :"She's changed . Maybe it's because I flunked first
time but she's definitely different. More professional now , even
after telling her it was...Uhm my first time" he shrugs .
Normally we laugh at Mbuyiseni's sexual life, or lack thereof but
today we can't because the sadness in his voice is hard to miss .
Mnotho :"Lose her . She's not yours." He lays back on the seat
and Mbuyiseni places his head on Mnotho's shoulder .
Mama's child.
Sabatha :"Bhuto some people find sex important in a
relationship so maybe if Mbuyiseni tries to..."
Mnotho :"Hay Sabatha. If she wanted a relationship with him
then she would've talked about her needs . It would've bruised
his ego but it's better than what she's doing right now.
She was absurd for thinking that he knows on his first time .
Yahlanya Lo nxn" ok he really doesn't like her .
Mabutho :"You communicate these sort of things and people
know what's expected of them in relationships . If Mbuyiseni
told her that it was his first time and she's still cranky then she's
the crazy one haybo . How must he know if she doesn't tell
him? And this isn't even about Mbu's blindness , even with a
person without a disability...you tell and guide someone about
your sexual needs"
Mnotho :"Dakiwe nje lo"
.
.
.
*Sabatha*
.
.
.
My brothers just dropped me off in front of GC's house .
The tree house is hanging on the tree
I chuckle at the sight . I thought she'll get rid of it.
Oh the gate's not locked? Ok.
I walk in to the back door and knock for the longest time...until
she decides to open .
Me :"You look horrible..." She pouts and folds her arms
Me :"You look cute..." She bites the inside of her inner cheeks
and huffs
GC :"What are you doing here?"
Me :"To see the mother of my child and my child" she blushes
and her cheeks turn red .
Me :"She blushes. My work here is done" I say with a monotone
and a smirk.
GC :"You're annoying. Get in" she opens for me .
GC :"So what have you been up to? Why aren't you on social
media?"
Me :"I'll only answer one. Choose!"
GC :"First one . I expected a call from you atleast"
Me :"Why didn't you call?" She shrugs.
Me :"My brother had to do a ceremony so we all had to go . Can
we not become a typical coup- typical parents . Can we keep
our commucation channel open?" she nods slowly .
I get up and make coffee for her , she looks like a mess .
GC :"Thanks . I couldn't even close my eyes today , Saint kept
me up" when she's about to take a sip of her coffee, Saint cries .
She groans . Me :"Sit . I'll try to calm her down"
She nods reluctantly and sits down gladly .
I go to the room, they share a room and it's a total mess .
Saint is in between heeps of clothes.
It seems like GC emptied her wardrobe to fold her clothes again
After a while of me shushing the princess , she finally calms
down .
There's a bottle next to her so I feed her with little difficulty
thanks to Mnotho's Thingo .
Saint reminds me of Thingo's first few days .
How obsessed we all were with her.
I snap back to earth when she princess slaps me a bit .
Me :"Oh we slap daddy now? I'll take you to MMA classes as
soon as you walk . No scratch that , we'll start martial arts when
you turn one . These vultures are always lurking . Lezinto ezimbi
lezi" I tickle her and she burps instead puking a bit .
GC :"Don't turn my child into a fighter please..."
Me :"She has to learn how to fight . The world isn't kind on girls
out there, nowhere is safe" she nods and throws herself on top
of the bed .
Me :"Tell you what...me and Saint are going to the mall for a
few snacks and you'll take a bath, and clean this room" she folds
her arms and scoffs.
GC :"Whatever . Hambani. Fuck them kids and baby daddies"
Me :"Yahlanya. Do you have a seater for her?" She nods and
points at the wardrobe. She doesn't even have a car .
GC :"One of my Instagram followers gifted it to me" I nod and
grab the seater .
Me :"Say goodbye mama you look like a man without a wig" GC
gasps and I run off with Saint .
Me :"Did you see mama looking like a man in this relationship?"
I put her on the car seater and we head off to the mall.
Luckily she isn't irritated by crowds and the noise .
We move to a shop that sells chocolate and the lady there is a
little bit too nice for my liking.
Lady :"She looks so cute"
Me :"She took after her mother" she smiles awkwardly.
I sanitize my hands and feed Saint some soft/melted chocolate.
Lady :"I don't think that's a good idea"I just chuckle and take a
variety of chocolates on the shop for GC . I'm sure she'll be mad
at me when we come back .
While we on GC, why haven't I thought about sexing her yet?
I place Saint down next to this kid that's playing with a car on
the couch , he's probably five years old or something.
I remove my eyes from her for a few seconds , next thing this
baby boy is playing with my princess. IMIHLOLO!
Me :"Hay wena, remove! Remove your hands from my child
haybo. Why are you touching her? What's wrong with your
hands? Uyazithanda lezandla zakho? Ngizozikhipha if
azibambeki. Haybo why are you touching my child?" I pick her
up and the little boy looks at me shocked .
Little or not , he has a dick so he isn't allowed to touch my
child.
I take Saint and we go to Chicken Licken for some wings .
The que is none existent when your name is Sab so I'm
attended as soon as I get in .
Few minutes later they give me my wings and I sit for a bit with
the princess in my arms .
WHY AM I COMING ACROSS WEIRD CHILDREN TODAY? WHY?
This girl has been staring at me since I sat down .
I pick up the wing and her eyes move with my actions .
Me :"You want wings baby girl?" She nods . She has neat hair
tied into a nun and wearing a purple dress . Very cute .
Not my type of cute though.
Me :"Who are you with?" She points at a woman who's sitting
in her phone .
I carry Saint with my one hand and hold the little girl's hand to
the mother .
Me :"Excuse me ma'am..." She turns to look at me and then her
eyes pop , that filled by the ridiculous smile on her face .
Miss :"Ye- yes Sab"
Me :"Uhm ma'am , your child wants my child's wings . Can you
please let the baby daddy know so she doesn't go around
asking us for wings . Nathi sizele phela"
I nod and we leave. Oh I have to book a slot at Ukhozi FM for
Letty.
I have to get all my ducks in a row .
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*Lindy* (as requested)
.
.
.
Today Mbuyiseni has to interview Dan's baby mama ,nobody
knows for what reasons.
It's top state secret , I tell you .
Apparently Sabs couldn't get a slot at Ukhozi FM , it was already
too late but if you have a brother who has a production
company and is in the entertainment industry , your ur baby
mama can get interviewed anytime of day .
She'll be interviewed by Mbuyiseni on Ziyawa , they were
offered only 10 minutes to do whatever it is and offer whatever
information .
My phone beeps .
.
<Lindani your brother's fees weren't paid , he was sent back
from school. Didn't you pay kanti?> Mom .
.
I did request that they send my little brother to a public school
but they were still working back then so they could afford but
look at us now , look who's drowning in debt .
I huff and throw my phone on top of the bed then continue
with what I was doing , choosing clothes for Mbuyiseni.
Oh , we haven't hooked up since that day, I don't want to set
myself up for disappointment once again .
It's a Friday he's shooting Ziyawa , which is a live show and then
having lunch with his parents so I opt for a hoodie and jeans
and Yeezy kicks .
Me :"Mbuyiseni I'll leave these on top of your bed"
Mbuyiseni :"Don't leave . We have to talk" he shouts from the
shower .
I've been avoiding this "talk" for weeks .
I sit on the bed and slide on social media .
Apparently Sabatha has a daughter...since when ? I don't know
but he's trending and this time people are attacking the little
reputation he still has left .
I'm going to that late lunch today , I want to know all the juice .
This family has scandals for days .
Mbuyiseni comes out the shower with nothing but his towel on
his lower body , the other one hangs on his shoulders .
He looks like a sin .
He looks like sex on feet, pity his sex game doesn't keep up with
his looks .
Don't judge me if you've never had a guy make you travel from
Soweto to the burbs only to last two minutes in bed , don't!
Mbuyiseni :"Stop staring at me. It's rude" he smirks and moves
towards me.
When he's right in front of me he pats the bed for a second and
finds his hoodie then puts it on .
I can see the bulge on the towel .
Mbuyiseni :"I know about your financial situation and I want to
help you..." So we're going all the way there?
I really want to reject the offer but I'm thinking of my little
brother and my parents back home so I can't .
Me :"Help me how and what do you want in return?"
Mbuyiseni :"I'll pay for your little brother's fees and a R3000 for
food and everything" I find myself landing on his arms.
Me :"Thank you. Thank you. Thank you" he chuckles and
brushes my back .
He has such a good heart, it will be his downfall.
I think it's time we have the talk, if he'll help me financially then
dating him can't be that bad .
KuseGoli la .
Ulahlile Lo
.
.
.
We're about to shoot the first segment of Ziyawa and whatever
it is has this poor woman sweating coins and papers...but
Sabatha? Sabatha's seating there chilled , without a care in the
world .
I seat next to him and his scent engulfs me .
He's a bit more serious these days, wouldn't tell you why.
I take a peek at his phone and there's a cute babyl on the
screen.
Me :"She's very cute. Who's baby is she?" He shifts his eyes to
me for a second and then goes back to his phone.
Sabatha :"Mine" ok that is a bit cold.
Me :"So the rumours on social media are true?"
Sabatha :"Key word : rumours"
Me :"But you just said-"
Sabatha :"Awume Lindani tu" yho .
I just seat back on the chair and watch as the people on set
prepare.
I move to the toilet for a bit because this is taking forever and
Sabatha doesn't seem to want to engage on a conversation
whatsoever.
I kill time on Twitter and yea no, he's being dragged for days on
end .
Funny thing is, he's never replied to even on fetch . He's just
quiet
I get up and move back .
When I walk back in , people are tense on set and the girl is
crying .
What did I miss kanti?
Sabatha is smiling at his phone , unaffected by all this tension .
Mbuyiseni :"Letty what drove you to a point where you accuse
him of rape?" He's face is not angry but his voice is full of
annoyance .
Letty :"I just wanted him to notice me"
Mbuyiseni :"So you thought trashing his career is the best way
to go about this?"
Letty :"I admit I was wrong . I shouldn't have done what I did ,
that's why I came here today ...to apologize . Sab , I'm sorry for
destroying your career . It was never my intention..." She stares
at Sabatha...which Sabatha? The one we're with is busy
laughing on his phone really unaffected.
When she notices that he's not budging she moves her eyes
back to Mbuyiseni.
Mbuyiseni :"You know that you can be arrested right?" She
nods .
Mbuyiseni :"Femicide is rife in South Africa. Do you know that
there are woman who are raped everyday and their stories are
being questioned because of women like you . I just-" he takes a
huge breath when he realises that his going off the rails and
then links to an ad break.
.
.
.
*Sabatha*
.
.
.
After that interview I dragged Letty to the doctor and yeap...the
bitch really is pregnant.
The doctor just gave me a scan of the little prince and I'm in a
trance.
I still can't believe sex guys .
I can't believe that thing.
Sex made me a parent.
I move my eyes from the scan to Letty and she's staring at me
with a fond smile.
Me :"Ungbukani?" Her smile disappears, good.
The doctor clears her throat and I just roll my eyes .
Uyaphapha Lo but she's carrying my child so I have to play nice .
Me :"Sorry Doc" she nods . Such a beautiful mature woman .
Letty gets up and she's given her prenatals and instructions .
When they're done we are on our way.
Where do I drop this one off?
I drive to Hyde park where she stays .
Letty :"Can you come in so we can discuss some things about
the baby"
Me :"What's so hard about discussing that here?"
Letty :"I just- . Please Sab. I just want us to iron out a few
things" I roll my eyes and get off .
She leads me to her flat and I seat on the chair .
This flat is a bit cozy and intimate.
Very cute .
Wouldn't expect her to live in a place like this .
I'm on the phone chatting to GC and I hear someone clear their
throat behind me.
She stands there stalk naked , I can see her cute little bump .
She Naomi Campbells towards me and kneels .
I'm in a trance , I'm confused.
In a blink of an eye my pants are on my feet and she jerks Junior
with both her hands while twirling her tongue on the tip .
She removes her one hand and blows me .
I groan when Junior fills her mouth and meets her warmth.
She's too slow , I want to cum .
I hold her head still and I move inside her mouth.
Each time my tip comes into contact with her throat feels like a
new high.
I go faster still holding her hair and cum in her mouth.
She swallows and gets up.
When about to touch junior again , I stop her .
Me :"That won't necessary thanks . Uzoze uthi I raped you .
Besides that
I'm about to have a long dry season so I needed that-" my
phone beeps.
Fuck! I still have to fetch GC.
.
.
.
*GC*
.
.
.
I've been on the phone with Sabatha the whole day , blushing
and turning pink like a fool.
Saint just woke up and her supposed father is on his way.
He's been a good dad thus far but you never know with
oSnoopy guys , bayaphoxa .
I bathe the princess and she keeps on making these baby noises
.
Someone knocks on the door and I know it's Sabatha. He said
he was close by hence I decided to bath Saint . I don't even
know what he's doing here.
I can't even rush to my room and grab a toilet.
I'm in a thong and a crop top with socks .
It seems like I don't have a solution to this so I shout "come in"
Sabatha :"Mgcini!" Oh I hate that name.
Me :"Bathroom" he's here in a second.
He gasps dramatically when he comes into contact with my
back .
I can feel the stares on my ass.
Me :"Can you give me Saint's towel"
Silence.
I look at him and he's staring at my ass biting his lower lip.
Me:"Aybo Sabatha!!"
I turn and of course he's staring at my coochie this time.
His bulge down there is more than impressive.
Mxm get your head out the gutter
I shove Saint in his arms and go to my room , wear a Jean and
grab a towel for Saint .
When I come back he's playing with Saint , but the bulge is still
there .
Very impressive.
I clear my throat and open my arms to receive Saint .
Sabatha's eyes are roaming around the room , definitely
avoiding contact with me.
I take Saint and lotion her then dress her in black pants , white
t-shirt and black jacket.
That's what Sabatha bought her yesterday, black clothes . Show
me a child that wears black at 6 months? Looks like mine will.
I give him Saint and they move to the lounge .
I don't understand why he came here if he'll come here , look
guilty and avoid conversation with .
I change into a pair of mom jeans and a silky t-shirt and my pair
of kicks .

I call them Bathu.com (I didn't have another word 😂😂

askiesini) because I designed them and had them made .
When I walk in he looks at me with the same look he had in the
bathroom, full of lust . But I'm dressed!!
Sabatha :"You look beautiful" he's voice is so low and deep , so
intimate.
Me :"thank you" he's eyes move back to Saint .
Why's he avoiding contact kanti?
Me :"Sabatha what's wrong?" He clears his throat and plays
with Saint's cheeks .
Sabatha :"Nothing . What can be wrong?"
Me :"You're not looking at me . You're not talking to me . What
did I do?" Thank God my followers don't leave in my house
otherwise they'd be disappointed in me .
Sabatha :"Nothing. You did nothing"
Me :"Then what did you do? Clearly something happened"
again he ignores me. Mxm
Sabatha :"Pack an overnight bag for you and Saint . We going to
my house"
Me :"I think the right was to ask me if I want to go with you and
aren't you staying with your uncle?" He gives me a bored look
and tickles Saint .
Sabatha :"Pack the bag Mgcini . Cela singaxabani" HE'S FUCKEN
IMPOSSIBLE today.
I sit down and cross my legs and arms on my chest.
He chuckles and puts Saint down then walks to my room .
15 minutes later he comes back with a huge bag and Saint's bag
.
Me :"I'm not going anywhere with you . I'm not your girlfriend ,
you don't get to tell me what to do Sabatha" he places his hand
on his neck and tilts his head to look at me .
Sabatha :"Mgcini wozala" he just can't say please , can he?
I just sit and stare into space .
He gets Saint and goes to my bedroom .
When he comes back he grabs my arm pulling me up and I fall
on his chest .
In a second his hands are on my ass .
He rubs my booty lightly and goes to my zip .
Ngi-weak!!
I am weak!!
Ngi-hopeless.
Don't bet on me , it's a trap.
He pulls my one leg to his waist .
It's only when my jeans touch my feet I realise what's about to
happen .
Sabatha :"What were you saying Mgcini?" I want to reprimand
him about that name but I also want to stop him . I'm turbulent.
He bites my lip lightly and brings me into a kiss .
His hands go back to my ass and he keeps bringing me closer to
his dick .
My coochie waters when I feel his junior directly on my coochie.
I find myself rubbing my coochie against him and the feeling is
something out of this world .
Sabatha :"Ngiyabuza Mgcini . What were you saying?"
My coochie is dripping and I think he knows as well.
He pulls me into a deep , serenading kiss again .
Yea no ngi-weak sies!
He presses his junior directly against my clit and I feel a wave of
pleasure totally engulfing me .
It takes over every corner of my being and my body shakes .
He holds me still until I calm down .
When all my ducks are in a row , I am embarrassed.
My followers would unfollow me if they knew how much of a
weak bitch I just became .
What happened to the GC that called men oSnoopy?
Sabatha :"Look at me" look at who? I'm not doing that.
My face is on his neck and he's still as horny as ever .
His dick is steel hard and I'm not about to blow him while I
don't know where we stand.
Sabatha :"If you don't look at me , you'll do more than just
shake . Ngbuke" there's more?
As much as I still want to find out , not today .
I slowly face him and he has a silly smirk .
Sabatha :"I love your face when you cum"
Me :"Fuck you"
Sabatha :"I'd love to but Saint is on the other room and we'll
need more than the 30 minutes we have"
Me :"You're annoying" he chuckles .
Why am I still on his arms again?
Flip, why am I still half naked?
Sabatha :"Sacela ube yintombi yami muntomuhle?" Ok I didn't
expect that.
I'm a blushing mess .
I have to meet up with Funeka and discuss my latest escapades.
I'm disappointed in myself.
What do I have to lose? Plus I want to know what else I can do
besides shaking.
I nod .
Sabatha :"Words sthandwa. Words"
Me :"Ngizoba yintombi yakho Sabatha"
He chuckles and kisses my forehead .
Sabatha :"I don't think we should do anymore touching ntombi
Yami" he points at his dick and yeap. Still hard.
I chuckle and get out of his embrace .
Sabatha :"Get dressed we're late" late to where?
.
.
.
.
We've beeeeen driving and Saint is starting to be agitated and
quite frankly I don't blame her .
Sabatha doesn't even want to tell me where we're going.
He might be kidnapping me for all I know .
He finally comes to a stop in front of this house with a huge
yard and an open plan house . There's a taxi parked in front of
the gate hence we can't get in .
Sabatha :"Nesdina uThule yeses" he groans .
Me :"Baby where are we?"
Sabatha :"In my parent's house" my eyes immediately pop .
He's losing his marbles.
Yeap , it's the only reason . No human being would introduce a
girl to his parents on the first day . No one!
Me :"Are you insane?" Sabatha :"Usho kimi njalo?"
Me :"Hay Sabatha you won't use that time with me when you
didn't even tell me"
Sabatha :"What difference would it have made ngoba vele
ubuzoza" that's it. I'm done with him.
Sabatha :"Asambe sthandwa" I fold my arms and sulk.
Sabatha :"Do I have to fuck you into doing everything?" Why is
my clit twitching? Haybo wena behave!
Me :"It's too early Sabatha ."
Sabatha :"Ok I can introduce you as a friend then when you're
ready , I'll introduce you but be warned my mom can read these
type of things"
Me :"Let's take the risk. It's too early" he nods and leans in to
kiss me , I give him my cheek and he chuckles .
Sabatha :"I don't deserve a kiss?" I shake my head and he
smirks .
He grabs Saint's bag and we walk in .
My palms are sweating for whatever reason .
He just waltz in and shouts , "Mamana your favourite son is
here" he sounds like such a child .
Voice :"Your favourite parent is near the pool" a female voice
shouts .
He puts Saint's bag on top of the couch and takes her from me .
I love how fond he is of me, and I hope he is not doing this to
buy my love .
He tries to touch my hand and I yank him off.
He gives me a reprimanding look and I just fold my arms on my
chest. When we walk in , my arms fall to the two people I know
Funeka!
She looks at me shocked and yeap, I reciprocate the look
because wtf ?
Funeka :"Babe what are you doing here?"
Me :"I'm with Sabs" she gets up to hug me .
There's a light skinned woman who's been looking at Sabatha
with eyes narrowed , after a while she closes her eyes and
groans.
Woman :"Hay Sabatha . Ungazongilinga. Who's child is that?"
Me :"Mine" I raise my one brow waiting for her response . You
can shit on my head , but not my child .
She nods .
Sabatha :"Mom this is GC my...friend and this is her child , our
child Saint" her eyes are already on Saint.
She gets up and takes Saint from Sabs .
Mom :"She's so cute oh my god. I haven't had a girl child in my
arms in ages"
A dark skinned man with a bushy beard gets up and stands
behind Sabatha's mom .
Sabatha :"Bab- Uhm GC this is my father...Nathi"
Bab'Nathi :"Nathi yani? Call me Daddy Cool" what the fuck? I
burst into laughter
Mom :"Daddy cool woknuka"
Bab'Nathi :"She doesn't Cav this one"
Me :"She's sleeping on you" we fist bump, I stiffle a giggle . He's
definitely Sabatha's father .
Sabatha :"You know Funeka. That is Funeka's business partner ,
uSomnyama-"
Funeka :"USomnyama ikhanda lentombi yakho"
Me :"Hay hay Funeka . Ungangisukeli" I blurt out and everyone
giggles .
Sabatha gives me a "uyalayeka" look .
Batha's mom :"Let's do the introduction again...no lies this
times" Sabatha chuckles and looks at his feet .
My eyes move around the table .
I should've guessed when he told me we're at his home that
he'd be here .
My crush! Mbuyiseni . I've been wanting to work with him but
I'd be told that I can't afford him . Mxm .
There's a lady next to him and she's been staring at Sabatha for
longer than 5 seconds, yes I was counting and I don't like how
long her stare was.
Sabatha :"Mom this is my girlfriend of exactly 3 hours" there's a
bulky man in a suit who just chuckles and shakes his head .
Bhut'Sgora :"This is so like you"
Sabatha :"Leave me alone Mnotho" oh he's Mnotho? Sgora is
more befitting .
Bab'Nathi :"Nice to meet you girlfriend of three hours" I nod
"Girlfriend?" Someone shouts behind us .
A woman with a baby bump stands there with her hands on her
waist .
Pregnant fairy :"Aybo since when? You forgot to tell me all of
that when you were deep inside me. You forgot our baby's scan
Sabatha" aybo . He closes his eyes for a few seconds and then
opens to look at me .
Peyiye mjolo we-3 hours.
My shortest relationship.
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*Funeka*
.
.
.
This one is for the papers. It deserves a glass of wine .
This type of drama is something beyond me and the fact that
I'm not involved makes it all sweeter.
I go and grab a seat next to Thule .
He grabs my coffee mug (he had filled it with Savannah but the
family doesn't need to know) and gives it to me.
I give him a perk on the cheek and sip lightly.
Sabatha turns to look at GC and she scoffs .
Sabatha :"Baby can we talk?" GC folds her arms and just stares
at him .
Thule :"R50 says she'll slap him"
Me :"R50 , she won't" we fist bump and I take a sip.
GC :"Talk? Awusanyi. Ma , can you please give me my daughter
and I can go" Thule's mother seems very much absent in all this
altercation.
Saint has all her attention .
GC :"Ma!" She kisses Saint all over the face and then she hands
her over .
Sabatha :"Will you just listen to me Mgcini!" I've even for
forgotten about that name. She forbade me from calling her
Mgcini...for whatever reason .
GC :"UNGA-NGI-THE-THI-SI !!" She shouts through gritted teeth.
Mnotho :"Chisa som-GC Nah!" The hell is wrong with him
today?
I giggle again and sip my Savannah !
Sabatha just gives him a death stare .
Sabatha :"Uzongthola ngaphandle Mgcini . Give Saint to mom"
he leaves and Thule places a R50 note on my hand .
I wink at him and he rolls his eyes. .
Sabatha exits leaving GC very conflicted .
I get up and give her my magic cup . I-cup full of happiness.
I-cup yabelungu.
Me :"Do you want to leave? Don't think about it. Give me an
answer from the top of your head"
She shakes her head so I make things easy for her and grab
Saint .
Mabutho then pushes her to the lounge , comes back and then
takes Saint from me .
Me :"Aybo I want to play with her as well"
Mabutho :"Bhuto please intervene. Ufuna ingane" he keeps on
playing with Saint totally ignoring me .
Thule giggles and pulls me down.
Now I wish I was a fly and I could hear what's happening in the
lounge.
Mam'Nsingi :"Funeka let's go fetch the refreshments. Wena
ndlovukazi sit down, your boyfriend will attend you after
attending his girlfriend" Letty pulls a chair and sits.
Wait what refreshments? Thule's father has 4 six packs of
Savannah and there are Corona bottles all over this table .
Refreshments Yani?
I just follow her anyway and she leads me the kitchen .
Mam'Nsingi :"Funiks do you have an inner James Bond?"
Me :"James Bond? My things that"
Mam'Nsingi :"Good" she pulls me towards the passage that
leads directly to the lounge , there's a mini table and two tables
.
We look at each other, giggle and then crawl behind the chairs .
This one is a perfect spy , I don't even understand why we're
doing this because GC was going to tell me and I'm positive
Sabs would've come crawling to his mama. All these boys are
mama's boys .
I think it's the thrill of it all.
GC :"Yaz you're standing there spewing nonsense . You haven't
done nothing but stand there and make assumptions about me
Sabatha. ME! Why ungicabangela?" Yey this girl is fire. uMlilo
kaDJ Zinhle.
Sabatha :"I was just scared ok? I was scared mami. I haven't had
a relationship in forever so when my brothers helped me get
you , I vowed I'd do everything to keep you naNkosi . Ngyaxolisa
Ntombi yam" Mam'Nsingi nudges me and we do a silent high
five then giggle .
Don't blame us , Sabatha doesn't look like the type that asks for
forgiveness.
GC :"Did you sleep with her?"
The silence... IT'S DEAFENING!
GC :"It better be the last time . I don't like sharing" wait...I never
used that line on Thule . I hope he knows haybo.
Sabatha :"Right back at you naNkosi"
GC :"I don't share this... Specifically" we hear loud perks and
yea no...we expected more drama . Not this.
We crawl back to the passage and Bab'Nathi stands on the
other end with his arms folded on his chest .
Funeka :"Oh mntanam askies" Mam'Nsingi pulls me to her
chest , bare in mind that we're still on our knees.
Me :"I'll be fine ma" she pulls me out of the hug and it's taking
everything in me not to burst into laughter.
Bab'Nathi just rolls his eyes then opens his hands for both of us
to use to get up.
I don't know why but I find this act one of the sweetest things
anyone has ever done .
I expected him to help his wife only .
Why am I even dwelling on this?
We get back up and Mam'Nsingi places his elbow on my
shoulder and her other hand on her waist.
Bab'Nathi :"Cut the theatrics nkosikazi. What's the latest?"
Mam'Nsingi :"Heeeh baba. Your son?"
Bab'Nathi :"Wenzen uBaba wezingane?" He comes in between
us and wraps his arms around both our shoulders .
Why is this family so affectionate ? It's sickening!! It makes me
well up.
Mam'Nsingi :"Useyabihlika lapha . Umbona nje he doesn't own
himself . USom-GC owns everything. I don't know which part
she owns kodwa she said she doesn't share"
Bab'Nathi :"som-GC didn't come here to play" so 'som-GC' is
officially her name?
On a scale of 1-5 how crazy is this family?
Mam'Nsingi :"Ngyaktshela baba kaMnotho. I just want a glass of
wine and wait for GC girl to come and set the record straight
with Leticia over there" why is she so excited?
Bab'Nathi :"It's Lethiwe namfazi"
Me :"It can even be Lethu" they both look at me and nod .
Ghosh I was just joking .
.
.
.
I sit next to my boyfriend and drink from my cup .
Thule :"That's the last drink you're having Funeka" I scoff and he
gives me a mean, still face .
I don't care , he doesn't get to control me to that extent haybo.
Me :"This is the first of many Tatam, thanks" he frowns , a
deadly frown .
Thule :"Don't test me Funeka , you've had enough"
Me :"I'll tell you when I've had enough . I'm not Saint , I'm not a
child . Most importantly , I'm not your child Thule" I get up and
sit next to Mabutho and Mnotho.
Mabutho :"Well... you're fuming"
Me :"Your brother doesn't want me to drink"
Mnotho :"Haw manje? Dash(a)" there's orange juice on top of
the table so I take it and pour it into a cup .
I like the drunk Mnotho , he's not as uptight.
Thule looks at me a little impressed with himself.
No one told him about me.
He goes back to conversing with his mom .
When his attention is not on me Mnotho grabs the glass and
pours vodka on it.
He hands it back to me and my throat is more than ready to
receive the alcohol.
GC and Sabatha walk in hand in hand , Sabatha looks so
smitten, very cute
Sabatha :"Can I have everyone's attention?" Of course he has
our attention , you'll always have my attention if you bring new
hot tea .
Sabatha :"Mama firstly I'd like to apologize for disrespecting
your house like this today...."
Mnotho :"Yaloya uGC never . I know Sabatha , he'd never
willingly say something that makes sense
he's bewitched" someone give Mnotho alcohol all the time.
Sabatha :"Cha uyaphapha Sgonondo..." He moves his eyes to
Letty and I sip my drink.
"Sisi I'm sorry if I led you on in some way but me and you can
never be. If there's anything you want to discuss about the baby
please contact my mother until the baby is born. I'll still go to
the doctor with you but my girlfriend will be with me and
please..lose my number" wow. The entire table is in silence , I
mean what the actual fuck?
They both sit down and Mnotho laughs a little, Bab'Nathi joins
him and in seconds the table roars with laughter , Sabatha
included.
.
I wonder if GC and Lindy know each other , they've been giving
each other uncomfortable glares ever since Mgcini sat down.
Oh I'm on my third glass, all thanks to Mnotho.
I grab my phone and text GC .
<What's going on with you and Lindy?>
I stare at her for the longest time until she notices and when
she does I point at her phone . She reads
<I think she wants Sabatha>
<Uhm ...no she doesn't>
<Maybe I'm seeing things but she's been staring at us, him
specifically>
<Nea you probably seeing things> she gives me a thumbs up
and I down what's left of my drink .
I pour orange juice and give my glass to Mnotho who pours the
holy water .
I'm always sitting with Mnotho in these family things .
I take a sip and Mam'Nsingi tells me about desert that's in the
kitchen .
I get up and stumble a bit , Mnotho gets up with me so people
don't notice . He holds my hands and we follow his mother.
"Makoti uyisdakwa" that's the first thing she says and then she
laughs at her own jokes .
Mnotho exits .
Mam'Nsingi :"So? What's happening with Lindy and Som-GC?"
Who's mother is she?
She takes out a bottle of wine and pours me a glass. Haike my
type of girl .
Me :"GC thinks Lindy is into Sabatha" she keeps quiet for a few
seconds then claps her hands once .
Mam'Nsingi:"Let me go fill in my husband" she runs off and I
pour myself another glass.
Where did she buy this wine? I want it as well.
When I'm about to drink , someone snatches the glass from my
hand and it falls.
I'm about to shout when I see Thule standing there with his
nose flared and a frown so deadly , if looks could kill I'd be at
the motuary no cap kwashoNathi.
Thule :"What did I say to you Funeka?" Where's my feminist
cap? I can't find it .
Thule :"Asambe" uuuhm no. Not when you look deadly like this.
Me :"No baby i- I want to-"
He clicks his tongue and pulls me .
I literally stumble and he chuckles.
The way he's so mad right now , my only worry is him laying his
hands on me . because I've never seen him so mad .
He scoops me up and my hands move to the back of his neck .
Me :"Umhle ke yeva?" His jaws clench and I just shut my hole.
He passes his taxi to Sabatha's car .
He drops me in front of the passenger door and goes around to
the driver seat and I'm still on the floor .
Thule. :"You'll get up from that floor or you'll need motivation?"
I underestimated how mad he is ... Mans is really mad angry.
I slowly get up and opens the door .
.
His driving towards Naturena and I think I've lost my voice . I
really want to ask why but his been clicking his tongue and
shaking his head whenever I try to speak .
I should've taken that bottle of wine to get through this .
He parks in front of a little big house and gets out.
Thule :"Asambe" then he walks in the gate .
Me :"Lord you've never forsaken your own" I leave these stupid
heels in the car and follow him .
The door's already open so I walk in .
I walk in to a fully furnished house with my picture on the wall .
I look so pretty over there . I look pretty everywhere .
"Funeka!" He roars from one of the rooms .
I follow his voice , he's sitting in front of a picnic set with candle
lights all over the room .
This room just looks beautiful .
I clasp my hand around my mouth when I realise what he was
planning to do .
Me :"Baby I'm sorry"
Thule :"Yea you'll be sorry, just not yet . Go take a shower" will
he beat me up?
Laying your hands on me has always been a tie breaker for me.
There's no going back from that.
Thule :"Ngithe hamba uyogeza Funeka. There's the bathroom!"
He points at a door opposite this room and I scurry off.
Who's house is this?
I take a quick shower and he walks in.
I close my eyes for a few seconds not knowing what to expect.
I open my eyes after a few seconds of not receiving anything ,
he throws a towel to my face .
Kasandiqheli uNqobethule today.
I dry myself with the towel and then walk back to the room to
get dressed .
I can feel myself getting sober and this was really not in my
plans .
Stay away from Zulu men, it's a trap ladies.
I find him sitting on the bed so I join him .
Thule :"I'm conflicted . I want to beat you up so bad you won't
be able to walk for the next day but I want our first time to be
romantic" beat me up?
Me :"Beat me up Thule? I never saw you as that type . Who the
fuck do you think you are? Even thinking that you could put
your dirty hands on me-" I'm cut off by a hungry kiss and he
gets in between my legs .
I try to touch his cheeks but he pushes my hands off .
He breaks off the kiss and orders "kneel on the bed" I stare at
him with a frown on my face .
Thule :"Awuzwa Funeka inkinga yakho . You don't listen" he
turns me around and I balance with my arms on the bed .
My coochie is on his face in seconds .
He licks it a few times and I'm dripping!!
The sound of his jeans as they hit the floor is enough to make
me have goosebumps .
I feel his junior rub my clit a couple of times and he bangs me
unexpectedly making me scream . My arms instantly became
weak and I fall on my face .
Me :"Thule..."
Thule :"You get drunk to a point where you can't even walk in
front of my father Funeka? My father? In my mother's house?"
He roughly pulls me back up and goes in hard again with his
hands on my shoulders.
He strokes me two times , his grip on my shoulders loosens and
I fly off to the opposite side of the bed .
Me :"Baby I'm sorry"
Thule :"Wozala Funeka" i feel warm liquid on my cheeks and
quite frankly I don't blame myself . This person just fucked me
to fucks and back .
Me :"Mwelase I swear I'll never do it again"
Thule :"Vele you won't do it again , I'll make sure of that . Come
back here" I bite my nails and he chuckles bitterly.
Thule :"If I dare fetch you from there Funeka uzokhala Yaz"
Newsflash : I'm already crying .
I walk back to the bed and kneel.
In a few seconds he's going in and out of me mercilessly ,
spanking my behind every chance he gets .
His grip on my left thigh is the only thing ensuring that I don't
run off , otherwise I wouldn't be on this bed with how hard his
hitting it .
He goes even faster and the sound of our bodies slapping fills
the room .
I can feel myself getting to the finish line and he goes in faster
and harder , if I get out of this and I can still feel my pussy y'all
better respect me.
I feel a wave of pleasure take over my body and my legs shake .
My legs can't take me anymore so I fall flat on the bed , does
that stop him? Of course not. He goes in for an extra 10 minutes
and he groans behind me while going in faster .
Yes I'm lying on my stomach .
He cums and lies on top of me for a few seconds .
Thule :"Uze uphinde Funeka. Uzongthola kahle" he pulls out
and I wince in pain .
He disappears somewhere around the house and comes back
seconds later with a towel.
He wipes my coochie with the towel and exits again.
My hand moves to my coochie and yea it's still in one piece...I
think . It really doesn't feel like it.
His phone rings inside his jeans , I take it out... it's Mabutho.
Me :"Thule just left the room" I don't even have time for
formalities . I'm too drained.
Mabutho :"No we were looking for you. Are you still in one
piece" there are giggles on the background .
"When Thule got up from this table he was fuming , so we were
checking if all your limbs are intact" that has to be Sabatha.
Me :"yea. I'm ok"
Mabutho :"I told you he wouldn't fuck her. Give me my money"
they made a bet? These morons!
If this is how Thule fucks then... I'm not leaving!
I drop the call and lie on my back with my legs wide open . My
coochie is burning.
He walks back in and his eyes fall on what's between my legs .
Me :"Forget it"
Thule :"Didn't say anything but keep your legs open like that,
uzobhebheka" this heffer!
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*Mnotho*
.
.
.
Thule invited Mbuso and Sena for breakfast at The Deli , some
coffee shop in Hyde park .
This is my only shot .
Thule promised me I'll find Sena there and both of them
would've been long gone . If I mess this up my brothers will
have a feast with me .
This coffee shop is quite annoying with it's glass wall . I don't
see myself living in a glass House . I'd rather burn my money
than living in a glass house , I wouldn't be comfortable.
I can see her from the outside.
I take one deep breath .
Maybe I should've allowed Sabatha to write down that script for
me because with each step I take my heart beats even faster.
I walk in and yes, I do . I turn heads .
I turn to look at her and I see her roll her eyes . I hate it when
people do that and my brothers do it a lot.
Why am I even thinking about those those suckers?
I walk straight to her and she sips her tea still maintaining the
eye contact.
Very daring ..
Me :"Saw'bona Ntokazi"
Sena :"Saw'bona bhuti" ok this won't go as planned . What was
planned again? Why's she so nice when she rolled her eyes
literally two seconds ago?
Me :"Kunjani sphalaphala" her eyes widen for a few seconds
and I see a foreign smile on her face .
Sena :"Ngyaphila . Can I be of any assistance?"
Me :"I can't sepak while standing over you like this . Can I join
you ? I promise I won't be a nuisance.
She tilts her head a bit then moves her eyebrows and points at
the chair.
What's the game plan?
I pull the chair and sit .
The cup in front of her is almost full so I grab it and take a sip.
Me :"I want to thank you for the amazing advice you gave me
the last time we were together , though I didn't like how you
ran off..." She chuckles and nods .
Me :"I went to my mother and got to hear her truth . I almost
lost the woman that loves me for someone I don't know"
Sena :"Don't make the same mistake twice..." She has such a
deep voice for a girl . Very beautiful if you ask me .
I dislike those squeky girly voices , they're very annoying.
Me :"I won't . There's one thing I don't want to make a mistake
of...."
She nods expectantly.
Me :"Let you go . I want you to be mine and vice versa" I see
her cheeks turn red and I know if I press the right buttons , she's
as good as mine .
Me :"Look at me Sena...." I can just touch her chin to look at me
because I can see she's smitten but one thing my father always
reminded me is not to touch when courting someone.
It doesn't matter how much she looks like a gone girl but don't
touch until you get permission to.
I think us as guys we tend to mize how broad consent is but
we're not there yet.
She looks at me but this time fails to maintain the eye contact.
Me :"All I need is one chance Senamile , only one and I swear I'll
never bother you again. Should you not like it then I will stop
courting you"
Sena :"You're married Mnotho . Why are you doing this? You
want to promise me heaven and earth then not deliver...I refuse
to be that girl " her eyes are staring at my left hand.
Shit! I forgot to remove this thing .
Me :"I haven't made any promise other than me being yours
and do believe me , it'll happen but first I need you to go on a
date with me"
Sena :"You are married Mnotho" she says through gritted teeth
.
I remove the ring and get up to the rubbish bin at the corner of
the deli , throw it in there and then go back .
Me :"Now I'm not . Can we go to that date?"
Sena :"You're crazy"
Me :"Crazy about you? Yes , most definitely"
Sena :"When and where?" FINALLYYYYY!!
.
.
.
*GC*
.
.
.
I just came from a shoot with a Royale couture and their latest
range is to die for .
I'm also expecting new hair from Kyls hairnova a little later from
there I'll fetch Sainty from this grandmother wase-next door. .
Right now I'm meeting Funeka for lunch and I'm so excited .
I put on my black Bathu kicks with black jeans and black hoodie
.
I take a snap and post
'black as my favourite colour'
In 5 minutes I'm already on 250 likes . Good.
Uber is here in a minute .
On the way to Newscafe I decide to cyber stalk Sabatha , creepy
yes i know but he's my boyfriend so allow me .
Majority of these pictures , he's half naked or wearing a suit
and he looks like a flipping temptation.
The Uber comes to a halt so I jump off to Newscafe .
Funeka is sitting at the corner looking... dramatic with her huge
sunglasses and the dramatic hat. I know Funeka doesn't need a
stylist but right now... I'm not too sure.
Me :"And then girlings? The huge sunglasses" she huffs deeply
and I sit down .
We order drinks and she removes the sunglasses .
Her eyes are bloodshot red .
Me :"Aybo Funeka and then? Do you have a eye infection?"
Funeka :"If that eye infection is called Thule? Then most
definitely I do have it"
Me :"Did he beat you up ? You should open a case Funeka" she
rolls her already red eyes and sips her orange juice.
Funeka :"He didn't beat me up man GC , Yeka ukubhayiza. I
didn't sleep"
Me :"You didn't sleep because of him? What did he- ooooh you
bitch! What did he do to you?" I smirk a little and she scoffs.
Funeka :"He kept me up all night. I wanted to cry throughout
the night GC . Yeses"
Me :"Girl girl! Was he that good?"
Funeka :"He was too good . Too much stamina. Too much of
everything GC" she groans and in that moment I realise
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I haven't talked sex with Sabatha .
Me :"You're undergoing what we call a radical sex
transformation..." Is there such? I don't know but Funeka
doesn't have to know that I don't know .
"You forgot that you're dating a taxi driver . These people are
well known to stallions in the bedroom . Bayachatha labantu .
Osoma-driver fuck you k'shiphe utsotsi" she bursts into loud
laughter drawing attention to us .
Such a ball of positive energy
Funeka :"I'll remember that next time. When I get to his house
I'm turning it upside down , ngifuna le mbiza angeke" I giggle .
Akasalayeki .
Me :"Sorry oe. While some of us were being babied-"
Funeka :"Stop. You're annoying" I giggle and she receives a call.
It takes her approximately a minute and she drops the call and
groans.
Funeka :"I have to pass by his uncle's house and I'm not
psychologically ready for those triplets"
Me :"Speaking of those triplets.... Mbuyiseni"
Funeka :"Still think you are seeing things though"
Me :"Yey Funeka you didn't see what I saw... that girl? I don't
trust her. I have a plan but I'll need your help" as much as she
wants to say no, Funeka likes drama and living on the edge.
Funeka :"What's the plan?"
Me :"I have a friend of mine and she's such a sweet person , too
sweet if you ask me . We can set her and Mbuyiseni on a blind
date"
Funeka :"Doubt that'll work"
Me :"Stop thinking . Mbuyiseni needs to get laid, it doesn't
matter who the brick layer is but he needs to get laid and that
lady better play far away from my man"
Funeka :"My man? Halalaa"
Me :"I know you know because I saw two heads behind the
chair. The things you and your boyfriend's mother do" I clap
hands once and laugh.
Funeka :"It was Mam'Nsingi's idea. Not mine" I've been
wondering if her vibe is real , she seems like the most important
part of Sabatha's life so I really hope I don't step on her feet.
Me :"Is she like that with all her son's girlfriends? Carefree I
mean..."
Funeka :"I wouldn't know man but from what I got from uThule
, she doesn't care much about blood but the bond and loyalty .
Apparently she helped Mabutho's ex wife divorce him because
he was a serial cheater"
Me :"Helped how?"
Funeka :"Haybo angazi"
Me :"You're a bore . Who has all the freshest gossip in this
family and doesn't mind sharing?"
Funeka :"The parents . They know everything" my phone beeps
.
<Baby please fetch Saint and come with her . My mom wants to
see her> kusemnandi ukuba u"mom"
Me :"I'll have to fetch uSaint and them and then go to Hyde
park with you. Sabatha noma wakhe ay"
.
.
.
We on our way to Sabatha's uncle's house and faith doesn't
want to sleep .
I'm so annoyed .
I know you're probably going to roll your eyes when I say this
but , fuck them kids .
Do not have kids , better yet stop having sex haybo.
The Uber stops at the gate and w walk in .
I've been making fun of Funeka's walk today , she doesn't want
to take long strides apparently it feels like she's being separated
into two .
Her boyfriend is here , the taxi is here . He's parked outside the
gate , true taxi driver style .
The gate opens and we walk in...abelungu bafethu . There's
nothing they can't do , if they could raise people from the dead
they'd probably do it .
Sabatha's mom is the one to open the door and her eyes are
not at either me or Funeka....just Saint .
She takes her from my arms and walks back in .
Whatever happened to greeting .
Seems like Funeka knows her way around this house so I follow
her with her slow walk.
We walk in and they all stare at us , these dark skinned people
are creepy . When do they work?
We politely greet and Sabatha opens his arm for me to come
and seat next to him .
Funeka seats next to her man and she seems annoyed a bit .
There are giggles around the room and honestly.... I'm lost .
Sabatha's father walks in with Saint and the mother has a bottle
of wine and three glasses .
She is the ghyel!
She hands me one and pours .
She hands Funeka another and she looks at her boyfriend .
Ok....
Funeka :"no Ma I'll have juice" the loudest roar of laughter fills
the entire room.
Mabutho hands Sabatha a couple of notes and they fist bump.
Sabatha's mom :"Hau sisi why? Don't mind USomnyama"
Funeka :"No mama. Amakhaya awafani" she says so low and I
just want to laugh
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*Mabutho*
.
.
.
I really want to shout at my grandfather (Nsimbi) for hyping me
up when I said I want to do medicine.
How could he do me like that?
Someone was supposed to tell me that doing this wasn't going
to be easy.
Telling family members that their loved one couldn't make it
and seeing the sorrow in their eyes isn't the easiest of things.
I just announced to this lady that his father's heart rejected the
heart donated to him and he gave up in the early hours of the
morning. She looks shattered .
This is not part of my job description but I bring her closer and
tighten the hug a bit .
I can't believe I'm about to say this but she smells heavenly.
Me :"Everything will be ok..."
Ntsikelelo :"Nothing will ever be ok . I'm all alone . I don't even
know where to start with this funeral" it's the number of losses
in this hospital that make me appreciate my parents a tad bit
more .
It brings tears in my eyes knowing that my parents won't always
be there , their presence in my life is not a forever thing .
Me :"Don't you have relatives to help you?" She shakes her
head and I take a whiff of her hair....geez Mabutho get your
heard out of the gutter .
Ntsikelelo :"No . They have never been a part of our lives . It's
always been me and daddy"
Me :"I'm sorry"
Ntsikelelo :"it's ok . Life doesn't go according to our rules. I have
to go" she gets out of the hug and wipes her tears carelessly.
Me :"Where do you stay? "
Ntsikelelo :"Medeowlands , SOWETO"
Me :"I can take you there."
Ntsikelelo :"There's no need , I'm fine"
Me :"I'm on my way to see one of my brothers e-rank so it's not
a train smash ." She nods .
.
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*Mnotho*
.
.
.
Today I have a coffee date with Sena...her idea . Apparently this
was her wayof ensuring I don't spend money on her, as if it'll
not happen in the future.
I just picked her up at her house , the gasp when she saw my car
still is the funniest thing she's ever done in my presence.
Ronan Keating's If tomorrow never comes starts playing and I
automatically steal glances at her . What a work of art!
"If tomorrow never comes ,
Would she know how much I love her .
Did I try in every way , to show her every day that she's my only
one" [I don't know if these lyrics are correct )
I steal a glance again and her cheeks have turned pink. Look at
God!
Sena :"Stop staring at me and drive Mnotho" I chuckle a bit and
whistle the song while staring at the road .
The song immediately comes to a stop .
I stare at her and she shrugs .
Sena :"I don't like that song"
I chuckle and nod.
I'm not going to no coffee shop , I have a coffee machine in my
house .
I put in the code and drive in . She has a deadly frown on her
face.
Sena :"What am I doing here?"
Me :"We're going to have a coffee date without the coffee shop.
Come"
Sena :"I would've appreciated it even more if you told me about
the change of plan" oh my darling this has always been the
plan.
Me :"I'm sorry. I just wanted a day away from staring eyes" she
nods .
I get out the car and open her door.
Me :"Stop looking so nervous. We're just going to have coffee"
Sena :"In your wife's house Mnotho "
Me :"Wife? Am I wearing a ring?" She rolls her eyes at me
Me :"this is my house Senamile"
Sena :"You stayed here with her" how do I get out of this one.
Me :"No. We used the one in Kempton park" she nods and gets
up slowly.
I close the door after her and we walk in .
Did I tell you how much I don't like this house? It's annoying.
Walls are grey and a bit of white, wooden floor and a touch of
black .
Very boring. Very Enhle.
I lead her to the kitchen , I made sure it's sparkling clean .
Her eyes pop and I chuckle again.
She cannot hide her emotions can she? She'd suck at a poker
game .
Me :"Please feel free . I want to change my clothes" she nods
not even looking at me .
I just want her to take it all in so we can have a conversation
without her staring at the walls .
I walk up the stairs and go change into sweatpants and a vest .
I walk back in and honestly I don't know what she's trying to do
.
She's looking at herself in the fridge, I don't blame her ....you
wouldn't even tell that it's a fridge . You'd probably think it's a
mirror.
I clear my throat and her eyes move from me to my pants .
Haybo .
I just want to burst into laughter .
And yes I'm not wearing an underwear
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I just want my junior to breathe a bit
Me :"My face is up here Senamile" she clears her throat and
looks at me in the face .
Sena :"Why aren't you dressed?"
Me :"What can you see?"
Sena :"That coffee? Let's make coffee please" I giggle and nod.
Her eyes can't seem to leave my pants .
She's standing in front of the fridge so I move closer to her and
open it .
Her breath hitches when her face hits my hard chest. I just want
to take her on right here right now.
I take the milk and walk back to the counter .
Actually fuck this coffee , I want an ice cold Corona.
I take the beer and down half of it .
She's making coffee and her back is facing me . Her ass is out to
play in that tight dress .
I just want-
Me :"Fuck this!" I throw the bottle somewhere on the floor and
move to her .
I turn her around and place my hands on her waist.
Me :"Tell me to stop Senamile" she bites her lower lip sending
me to a frenzy.
Me :"I want you. If I kiss you I won't be able to stop myself...."
She stops me with a very hungry kiss. Wadla Mwelase!
.
.
.
*Funeka*
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.
.
Today has been about work work and more work.
I'm even thinking of getting Amib Logistics a small office to
accomodate me and Thule for now. My little house can't take in
all these papers and people walking in and out.
My phone rings a bit and the caller ID is unknown.
Me :"Hello"
"Yea sisi. Angina-airtime . Southern Sun the one in Hyde park ,
be there in 20 minutes . Everything booze . Akuna-testesterone
"she drops the call. who's mother is she? Why is she such a
special case? I know damn well she has airtime . Thule's mother
is the pits .
I ring Thule and he answers after a few minutes .
There's a lot of noise wher ever he's at .
"Nqobethule!!"
Thule :"Sorry baby. There's a lot of noise e-rank today"
Me :"Is everything ok sthandwa?" There's a lot of noise then it
goes quiet .
Thule :"Phephisa ntombi Yami . Osomatekisi seem to be
disagreeing on some things today that's why it's rowdy"
Me :"Please get out of there , you know how taxi drivers can
be"
Thule :"It's nothing big nje ntombi yami . How can I help you?"
Ok here goes nothing .
Me :"Uhm love your mother invited me to meet up with her
and I think there'll be alcohol there..." I can't believe this is me .
Ndidlisiwe ndiyayazi .
Thule :"I'm sure there'll be juice there . Cela singaxabani
MaMtolo"
Me :"Kodwa baby I'll ensure that I won't drink as much . I'll be
more careful" it goes quiet then I hear him sigh .
Thule :"I hope I won't have to make you go to sleep crying
MaFakude" well I wouldn't mind , I just don't have the energy .
Me :"You won't mntuwam ."
Thule :"Look MaMtolo I have to go . Ngiyakuthanda yezwa?"
Me :"Nam ndiyakthanda Mwelase" he immediately drops the
call . Wasn't that moment supposed to be sweet? I mean it was
the first time I told him I love him and vise versa, what am I
saying? I'm dating a Zulu speaking , Uzzi wearing taxi driver
nothing's normal about this one .
I'm already in a good mood just by thinking of the fun I'll have
with Mam'Nsingi . I don't know how she made me so
accustomed to her to a point where I don't even dwell on my
parents.
I ditch my work and take a quick bath.
.
.
Why didn't GC tell.me that she'd be here?
I hurry to their table and they cheer as soon as they see me .
Ok it looks like they're already sloshed and since when are
these two friends?
Me :"When did you guys start drinking ?"
GC :"30 minutes ago . You took your sweet time" she takes a sip
at her Pina colada .
Mam'Nsingi :"So...what are your intentions with my son's?"
Me :"Isn't it supposed to be the other way around ?"
Mam'Nsingi :"Hay you think I'd ask those peanut heads
important questions? I'm asking you guys because it seems like
you two will be here Wena som-GC because of Saint and Wena
Funeka because Thule is the loyal type . I know my sons..." It
goes quiet for a bit and she sighs .
Mam'Nsingi :"I won't always be here . I need to know that I
leavey family in good hands . All I've ever done was try and keep
this family together. All I've ever done was for my kids .I want
you to be of the same breed as me but with different goals , I
want to read about you on papers . I want to see you flourish . I
want to talk about you during stokvel meetings yhu hay, I'm
tired of talking about my son's haybo. If any of of those peanut
heads ever tell you that you're too successful , say fuck you and
leave . Do not back paddle for a man. Nibe-successful man. I
need to know that you guys will get rid of every demon that'll
dismantle this bond amongst all of you." Ok that was a bit
unexpected .
GC :"Speaking of demons...is it too early for me to do
something about Lindy?" Yea no she's too drunk .
Mam'Nsingi " get rid of the devil my child" i laugh loudly and
order my drink .
GC's phone beeps , this one is always busy doing something in
this phone . Her entire life is on social media.
She gasps , grabbing our attention.
GC :"Funeka where is Thule ranking?"
Me :"MTN rank , why? What's going on?" She throws the phone
my direction and the headline leaves me cold with fear .
.
"A shootout between taxi drivers at MTN rank claims Nine Lives
and counting..."
I grab my phone and call him but it rings unanswered. I don't
want to think of the worst but I can't help myself
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*Funeka*
.
.
.
I'm panicking .
I don't want to cry .
Ok Funeka get your shit together .
He's fine .
He's fine . You just spoke to him right now .
Mam'Nsingi is driving to the rank as fast as she can and I still
feel like she's not fast enough. I want to get up and push this
flipping car .
Me :"Ma can you please drive faster?"
Mam'Nsingi :"I'm driving as fast as I legally can"
Me :"Can we try illegal please"
Mam'Nsingi :"mxm" why's she so chilled about this when I'm
panicking.
.
.
She parks close to where taxies to Kempton park are found .
The three of us run to where he usually ranks.
The first thing I see is a copy of my boyfriend.... Mabutho with a
bloody t-shirt.
I stand frozen for a few seconds and I feel someone slap me
multiple times .
GC :"Sis get your shit together ." She wipes my tears and tucks
my hand into hers .
She then pulls me towards Mabutho .
Me :"Who's blood is this bhuti?"
Mabutho :"It's not Thule , Funeka . I was with a girl and she's
the one who got shot . This... is her blood"
Me :"Where's he?"
Mabutho :"he accompanied this girl to hospital and I had to
assist with the others that were shot" we all heave a sigh of
relief .
Mam'Nsingi hurries to the car and comes back with a t-shirt.
It fits him perfectly.
Am I the only one who finds this absolutely weird that she still
has their clothes even when they're this old .
Mam'Nsingi :"You'll understand when you're a mother" I just
chuckle and nod .
I just want to cuddle with my man . That's it.
.
.
.
*Mbuyiseni*
.
.
.
I'm supposed to be walking into a meeting with burnt onion and
our partnership but instead I receive a call that someone was
shot and we're supposed to be there .
I mean how is that any of my business ?
I mean Thule wasn't shot so what am I doing there? My mother
is just full of drama .
I huff and request that Lindy cancels the meeting.
Lindy :"You're going to allow your mother to pull you by your
nose until when?" Ok that was a bit unexpected.
Me :"Pull me by my nose? My mother doesn't do that"
Lindy :"Oh please . Whenever she says jump , you ask how high
. You never question her"
"Question her for what? Hay sisi you have issues in your life
please use this door" a voice roars from across the room . I can
instantly feel the pressure in the room rise . Only Mnotho can
do that. Such an uptight man.
Lindy :"Erh bhuti....I didn't mean- I was just-"
Mnotho :"Leave . I want to talk to my brother"
Lindy :"Uhm ye-yes . Uhm babe please don't forget that thing I
asked for" I hear the door close .
Me :"Aren't you supposed to be in hospital?"
Mnotho :"What did that one ask for?"
Me :"Some money for her mother's medical bills" it goes silent
for a few seconds and I hear a sigh.
Mnotho :"She has changed . Something about her is different or
maybe this has always been her we were all oblivious of that
fact . I don't like her"
Me :"She's not for you to like bhuti" I spit before I can even stop
myself.
Mnotho :"I know . The four of us promised to be your eyes
where you can't see, help you navigate what's physical . And
this girl.... I'm warning you bhutomncane. She's not it ." His
voice is so calm ... annoyingly calm . Why isn't he shouting
atleast?"
Me :"She's the only one who has loved me with my disability .
No one can ever do that. No one can handle the baggage I come
with bhuti . Getting up an hour before me to prepare a bath for
me , helping me choose my close , going everywhere with me.
No one can ever love me like that-"
Mnotho :" The problem here is you've been too sheltered
Mbuyiseni . Beyond those tall walls of your house you're not
just "The blind Mbuyiseni". You're every girl's crush , you're in
every girl's dream. They'd do a lot just to get you to wave at
them . No one cares about how blind you are-"
Me :"Yes that's because they don't know how much it entails"
Mnotho :"Mxm" I hear something screech on the wooden floor
and someone grabs my left arm .
Mnotho :"Let's go to the cafe without any woman and I'll show
you something" I grunt and he roughly pulls me to...the lift .
I hate lifts . The number of colognes in the air plus people
standing so close to you is not my type of fun.
The few seconds in the lift is almost unbearable.
He lets go of my hand and gets out the lift . Finding his scent in
front of me is the hardest task I've ever had to do . I've never
had to find any of my family's scents amongst a ton of others so
this is quite a task for me .
I follow this usual scent in hope that my nose is not leading me
astray .
Me :"Mnotho?"
Mnotho :"See? You're not dead yet ...follow me. Oh there's the
table" I take slower , calculated steps and stop when I hear him
drag the chair on the floor. He'll never stop doing this , would
he?
I pat for a chair as quickly as I can .
Honestly as much as I can't see I still don't want attention on
me... unnecessary attention at that.
I sit down slowly and I feel like it's only me and Mnotho . The
room is awkwardly quiet .
Me :"Are we alone?" I hear him chuckle and he says "Definetly
not."
He orders two blue berry muffins for the both of us and coffee.
Mnotho :"Someone is coming..."
Me :"Someone ya-" a very sweet disturbing scent fills my entire
space . It's waay too strong for my liking .
"Uhm erh hy. Sorry to disturb bhuti but Mbuyiseni can I please
take a picture with you?" This catches me by surprise .
I've tried by all means to stay away from my fans as much as I
can . I rarely ever have confrontations with my fans . It's a once
in a lifetime type of thing because I always have a guard or
something.
Me :"Uhm yea . By all means" I feel arms wrap around my
shoulder.
I do the first thing that comes to my mind...smile and I hear a
snap .
I thought she's almost done but she takes 5 more and the last
one she kisses my cheek , much to Mnotho's amusement.
"Please carry on doing a great job . Actually you know you can
be the next Quinton Nyathi
you're cute like him . Actually you're cuter . No you and your
brother can take the entertainment industry by storm. Actually
please tell him I believed him when he said he didn't rape that
weird looking girl. The cheek..." She rambles on and on . Why
can't she just stop?
Me :"I'll tell him to DM you , what's your name?"
"Nancy. But I want you to DM me . I wouldn't mind a piece of
this caramel skin" yhu this is getting too serious too soon .
Mnotho :"I'll make sure he DMs you sis wam . It was nice
meeting you" she kisses me and runs off .
Mnotho :"Did you hear her talk about your eyes? Don't let your
disability make that girl take you for a po*s . You're much more
than just your eyes bhutomncane . Your third eye sees more
than just human nature...it reads auras. Tap into that
mntakaMa. I will never allow you to lose plot because you don't
think you're worthy of being loved . I will never allow you to
bend over backwards because you're scared of losing someone .
Now let's go to that one who got shot ." I giggle and get up .
I feel his broad arms snake my neck and he leans his head over
mine .
Then they say I'm the most affectionate person....they don't
know how affectionate this one is .
.
.
.
*Mabutho*
.
.
.
I really want to run to that operation room and intervene but I
stand still and sit with these bunch of maniacs who have come
into this place and made it their own.
My main worry is having to bury that young girl while she hasn't
even buried his father.
I shouldn't have forced her to come with me .
I pace up and down .
Sabatha :"Ubanga iminciza mfana" I give him a death stare and
he chuckles.
Someone might die and he still chuckles?
Can he take me...this seriously? For once.
He just lays on GC's shoulder and they look at something on her
phone .
Funeka is all cuddled up in Thule's arms at the corner of the
room . This is just lover's paradise...very annoying.
Mnotho and Mbuyiseni walk in laughing... finally people who
don't have girlfriends in this place.
They ignore everyone and sit right next to the couch on the
floor still engaging in their conversation.
So no one will attend to me? Wow .
Can we exchange families because this is not what I signed up
for.
A doctor walks out in white coats and I rush off to hear what he
has to say.
This stupid family is not even interested, why are they even
here?
Me :"Doc is she ok?"
Doc :"Yes , she's awake . I'll allow her family in but I'll have to
ask you to excuse her as she needs to rest" I don't wait for
another second, I rush in and find her laying on the bed and
staring at the ceiling.
How dare she look so beautiful even after being shot?
Me :"You ok? Damn you had me worried sick Ntsikelelo ." I hug
her unintentionally before I could even stop myself .
Ntsikelelo :"I'm fine. I'm fine Dr Mwe- Mabutho" I chuckle and
pull out of the hug .
Right then my useless family walks in all jolly with balloons and
one huge teddy. Oh they're not so useless afterall.
I turn to look at Ntsikelelo and she looks shocked.
Me :"This is my family . They wanted to make sure that you're
ok" she nods and looks at them with wide eyes .
Bafo :"I'm Nathi...his uncle" erh this guy? My uncle since when?
We all giggle and he takes her hand and kisses it .
I see Ntsiki blush a bit.
Bafo :"See Mfazi? I still have my game on a hunnid" my father is
going through a midlife crisis , him and his wife . They're going
through something and it's huge.
Me :"Ntsiki that's my father and the Mfazi he was talking about
is my mother . The other four are my brothers and their
girlfriends..."
Funeka :"girlfriend? Uhm no. Partners . Aybo don't disrespect us
Mabutho"
GC :"Wives even "
Me :"Hayke loyo yena they've been dating for a week kodwa
useyaphapha "
GC :"Sisi don't date Mabutho. It's a trap" I run towards her and
she hides behind Sabatha. She has a big mouth this one .
.
.
.
*Sabatha*
.
.
The visit to the hospital took longer than expected . The girl is
fine and I just want to hang with my two girls and probably get
to fuck the bigger girl .
The drive to Mgcini's house is longer and filled with her taking
pictures of us...ok not of us exactly because she only shows
people my legs or arms or cap just not my face .
Nothing much .
I'm a glorified side chick. Ngifihliwe.
We pick up Saint from this woman who stays e-next door and
go to the house . I don't know why she refuses to come to my
house , it's mind baffling.
Saint falls asleep as soon as her little head hits the pillow.
I really need to buy her more clothes, this vest doesn't go well
with this jacket .
GC undresses right in front of me , she's left with a thong and a
short .
In which part of the universe is this fair? Which part?
This has to be the moment .
I face her back and move closer to her .
Her ass is directly on my dick so I push my hard member closer
to her .
Her head automatically lays on my shoulder and I kiss her
cheeks .
Yeap it's happening!
I'm getting laid!!
I turn her to look at me and we share a deep kiss .
She's the dominant type, she just shoved her tongue in my
mouth .
I chuckle a bit and continue giving her mindblowing kisses .
Her hand moves to my pants and she grabs my package.
My breath hitches a bit and I jump .
Why do I feel like my masculinity will be questioned in this
relationship?
I remove the damn shirt and right then my phone rings .
I ignore it and carry on kissing her.
It rings again and I'm so annoyed .
GC :"Answer the phone Mwelase" that's a first.
Me :"No . They'll give up eventually" i rings again and I just
groan out of frustration.
Some people are annoying .
What happened to booking phone calls?
Nxn
"Yea" I answer the stupid phone .
"Sabatha I'm having cramps . Something's wrong with the baby"
yhu yhu I'm being tested. For the love of God I'm being tested ,
ngise-Israel ngiyalingwa.
Me :"Sisi am I my mother?"
Letty :"No but-"
Me :"Exactly. Call my mother" I groan and throw the phone
somewhere in the couch .
I try to grab GC
GC :"Angsekho lapho mina . Umthondo wakho awunamahloni. "
She bends and gets her shirt on the floor.
Bloody fucken Leticia
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*Sabatha*
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.
.
I decided to stay over and cuddle with my little princess . It's so
funny how she just warmed her way into this heart of mine .
Not even once have I ever seen myself as a father but I sure as
hell wouldn't mind being called a father of two .
I think it's safe to say life is blissful...except for my bank account
.
Right now I'm relying on the small jobs Mnotho keeps on
passing my way from his associates.
It's not bad for a normal person but for a guy that would buy a
car for fun's sake then... poverty and I are mates.
Baby mama walks in . She's wearing a short gown and a towel
on her head .
Is it legal to be so sexy so early in the morning? Wow .
I place Saint on the couch and move towards her .
She has her legs and arms crossed , leaning on the door frame.
Me :"Well you look sexy MakaSaint" she scoffs and then hands
me her phone .
That scoff? I definitely did something wrong.
GC :"Please take pictures of me" she on her heels .
I take Saint with me .
Me :"Mama's mad at daddy. Kuyanyiwa" I play with her and
nose and she giggles much to the annoyance of her mother .
What's wrong with her today .
Who gets mad so early in the morning?
She strikes a few poses and I have to say, I don't like this at all .
She has her legs open . Yes you can't see her underwear but her
legs? She lives little for you to imagine .
I don't like this .
I take the pictures and she comes towards me .
GC :"Sabatha this is not how you take pictures. These things are
blurry man!"
Me :"You will not shout at me in front of my daughter. I don't
know what your problem is but when you want to tell me you'll
find me in my house with my daughter" I see a deadly frown
form in her face and she throws the towel she has on her head
right across the garden.
GC :"Your daughter ? Go make your own b-" before I can even
stop myself , my right hand lands on her cheek .
As soon as she lands on the floor it registers what I just did to
the woman that I have grown to love and what I just subjected
my daughter to.
She may not remember this tomorrow but I did it...right in front
of her .
I place her down and kneel in front of her .
Me :"baby I'm sorry . I really didn't mean to. It just slipped . I
swear I'll never do it again" I sound like an abuser don't I?
Silence fills the entire space. It's like she's in a trance .
Me :"MakaSaint..."
She turns to look at me slowly and I wish she hadn't because
what I see has me wetting my pants .
GC :"Get out of my house Sabatha" she says through gritted
teeth.
Me :"Baby it was a mistake that will never ever happen again .
Ngyaxolisa sthandwa sami" she chuckles and shakes her head .
GC :"You don't know me . No one told you about me . You think
you can lay your hands on me? Me Sabatha?" I feel something
hit me on my forehead and then there's dust.
It takes a while for it to register that she just threw a pot plant
at me .
Saint's cries are piercing to my heart, they're very hard to ignore
so I pick her up...as dusty as I am.
As soon as she keeps quiet Mgcini grabs her from me .
GC :"Get out of my house and never ever set foot here. Stay
away from me and my daughter"
Me :"Don't fight using Saint Mgcini. Sizoxabana" she chuckles
bitterly and pushes me out .
Fuck!
I curse as soon as I'm ouside her house and the door slams on
my face.
Why did I even snap?
I don't know how I'll go about fixing this .
Usually I'd think about running to my brothers but I know
Mnotho will kick me right into a coma , Mabutho will book a
behavioural therapy session for me. Mbuyiseni will most
definitely ask "Pho mina ngenzen?" That's his answer lately . He
doesn't involve himself in anything.
Thule!!
He'll give me a mouthful but he'll still come up with a solution.
I'm sure the condom bursted when it came to Thule, he was
very much needed on earth .
.
.
.
By absolute luck he's here instead of the rank .
This place is quite simple
a two bedroomed house with a kitchen and a dining room .
He hasn't told the parents about it.
We were all so excited about this .
Maan he has been waiting for this !
If there's one person I know who's had it rough... it's my
brother.
Anyway we're not there.
I run in to find his head laying directly on Funeka's...secret
business . This has to be a comfortable position , I need to try
this with GC whe- if she takes me back.
Funeka :"Dude you're really weird" it's only then I realise that
I've been staring at them for too long
Me :"I'm sorry. Bhuti can we talk?"
Funeka :"So you're not even going to greet?" I sight and give her
a bored expression.
I think she reads the tensions and quickly exits the room .
I sit opposite him , in a couch VERY close to the door. Thule can
surprise you sometimes .
Thule :"What did you do Bhuto?" He sits up straight and places
his elbows on his knees .
The way he's staring at me has me rethinking my decision of
coming here.
Me :"Bhuti please don't judge me" as if that'll help.
Thule :"I don't have all day . My woman is waiting for me" I take
a few deep breaths and narrate what happened detail for
detail.
He nods after some time and rubs his eyebrows with his thumb
.
Thule :"So you're saying you hit her while you were holding
Saint?" I nod reluctantly. This couch is suddenly hot.
He looks at me and tucks his head.
Thule :"I don't want to lie to you mntakababa , I'm going to give
you a few slaps . I don't want to catch you off-guard like you did
uMakaSaint ." My first instinct tells me to run but I'm reminded
that maybe I deserve it.
Me :"But bhuti you said you won't judge me"
Thule :"Then I'm going to try and slap you without judging you
." That doesn't even make sense .
He gets up and tucks his hand in his pocket and before I know it
two slaps strike like lightening on both my cheeks .
I just want to cry .
He gives me a punch that bores a hole on my insides....I think.
Another one lands on my cheek making me groan.
When I'm on the floor , I see Funeka stand by the door shocked
.
When he's about to kick me Funeka stands in front of me and
whispers something to him .
Thule :"Suka MaMtolo and let me be beat the abuser out of
him" abuser? The word stings .
She keeps on whispering some things to him and he ends up
sitting down .
Thule :"Sukuma Wena!" What happened in the few seconds he
was hitting me .
He said he won't judge me moss .
Funeka gives him a look and then she exits again .
I go back to the couch and he huffs .
Thule :"I'm disappointed in you. Mama raised you better than
this Sabatha . Bafo taught you better than this"
Me :"I know bhuti . I just lost it. Before I could even stop myself
I had done it . She kicked me out and judging from the way she
looked at me there's no coming back from this " he huffs and
roughly brushes his head .
Thule :"Just give her time . She's not going to forgive as easily.
Hell I don't see Funeka forgiving me if I laid my hands on her"
he shakes his head . How long exactly is "give her time"?
.
.
.
*Mabutho*
.
.
.
I just got off from work and I am beyond exhausted.
Mbuyiseni's house is closer to my house and I still have to swing
by Ntsikelelo's ward? Hay I'll see her later yhu .
I'm dog tired .
I still think medicine is the most overrated field . No one
mentions the crazy work hours and the supposed money? It's
all factitious baby.
The drive to Mbuyiseni's house is such a drag . I just want to cry
.
.
.
I park in the driveway and make my way in .
Mbuyiseni said he's shooting his new show so I don't bother
knocking .
"Is anyone there?" I hear a voice shout from the kitchen.
I move forward to check what's up and I'm stopped by
something metallic which hits my entire face.
I stumble a bit and cuss .
Lindy :"Oh my god I'm sorry Mabutho. I am so sorry . I thought
it was a thug or something" she runs off to one of the cupboard
and brings a first aid kit.
I don't even have the strength to fight her or even shout at her.
She pulls me to sit down and comes in between my legs.
My face is in her hands as she dabs and wipes the blood in my
nose .
I don't know but for whatever reason my eyes moves to her
twins that are out on display.
She notices and fixes her towel , totally exposing her thighs.
Suddenly the room is thick with sexual tension .
We're both trying so hard to fight it but it's there .
I place my hand on top of my suddenly visible boner and wait
for her to finish.
She dabs very close to my lips and gives me a stare contest .
My face moves closer to her and I place a perk on what I find to
be soft lips .
Lindy :"No. We can't do this . We can't do this to Mbuy-" I bite
her lower lip and she gasps , giving me a chance to shove my
tongue inside her throat.
I unwrap her towel and her titts come out to glory .
.
.
I'm woken up by a door banging and my brother stands there
red with anger .
Lindy yawns besides me and follows my eyes to look at Sabatha.
She gets up nervously and wraps the sheet around her chest
yhu nangu uBrooke Logan/Forester/Spencer.
Me :"Bafo" he shakes his head . His face is filled with nothing
but disgust.
Sabatha :"Uyinja Mabutho . I know you're a how but I never
thought you'd stoop that low....this low . Yeses uyanginyanyisa"
Lindy :"Sabatha please...please don't tell him about this"
Sabatha :"No I'm not but you will" he turns and bangs the door
on his way out .
I'm screwed .
Tf did I just do?
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*GC*
.
.
.
He slapped me?
The soreness of my cheek remains a constant reminder of
ukuphapha kwami . Why did I even allow him to sweep me off
my feet ? Damn he is one sly motherf**er.
Why is he not calling me ?
Who said I'm done cussing at him?
I groan when I hear Saint crying.
I bathe her and change her into a Black dress with white
sneakers and a black leather jacket.
I wonder where he got all of this black from?
I push back any thought related to him and focus on this...
getting ready for this brunch with Funeka .
When I'm done I drop off Saint at Gog'Ncedi's house and off I go
.
I go through his social media and the damn post is still there .
'I'd rather have hoes than make babies' . Who the hell does he
think he is ?
He goes around calling himself Saint's father but he rather have
hoes than make babies nxn .
I take a few deep breaths when I notice the Uber driver looking
at me weirdly .
He probably thinks I'm a crazy woman .
Driver :"Ma'am you ok?" I nod multiple times . Why am I still
caught up on him?
I'm supposed to be over him by now .
The car comes to a stop and I jump off not forgetting to
unnecessarily bang the door .
The walk to the deli feels as daunting as Mandela's walk to
freedom.
I spot Funeka at the corner of the room , she's such an anti-
social. It's quite weird that we actually get along.
I sit down and throw my bag on the chair right next to me.
Funeka :"Whoa. Who stole your cat? Why's everyone so mad
mad today?" The waitress comes close to our table. I tap on her
shoulder .
Me :"Letha okune-percent girl" her eyes pop and she giggles.
Me :"Bottle of red wine sis" she nods and walks away.
Funeka :"isn't it too early for alcohol-?"
Me :"Save me the lecture . I'm not in the mood. Where's this
damn waitress ?" I look around and huff .
Funeka :"What's eating you?"
Me :"Your brother in law" she smirks and I just roll my eyes .
She's crazy .
Me :"Not like that . He...he laid his filthy hands on me . On me?
Men are dogs, all of them nxn"
Funeka :"I'd really expect that from Mnotho or Thule because
they're very intense but not Sabatha. Wow. He sold me
dreams."
Me :"He sold everyone dreams . " Actually why does he get to
carry on with his life and I get to drink my problems...problems
he created away .
I'm so absent on this brunch , my mind is already at his door
step cussing at him .
Before I know it, I've finished the bottle of wine .
Yea now I need to see that son of a gun.
Uzongthola Kahle .
.
.
.
*Mnotho*
.
.
.
I have a coffee date with Sena , it's kind of lazy but it's what she
suggested so ay.
Woman confuse me all the time . My parents have been
married for more than 25 years and I think Bafo is still confused
by my mother.
I decided to sleep at home last night and I woke up to them
bickering about the dust bin and a whole lot of things uBafo is
not doing.
It was actually the funniest thing because they were so serious
.
I chuckle at the thought of my parents and carry of buttoning
my shirt .
My mom walks in while I put on my shoes , I don't know how
she does it but she hasn't aged one bit. Like whoa show a little
bit of stress woman , have wrinkles or something.
Ma :"Work?" I grin while shaking my head .
Me :"Date"
Ma :"With who?" Gossip monger.
Me :"You'll see her soon and you'll love her...." I hope.
Ma :"I love everyone you boys bring me"
Me :"Enhle? "
Ma :"Ay don't tell me about that Satan" I chuckle . She takes my
tie from the bed and helps me with it .
Me :"Ma ngimdala Yaz" I thought she'll take that as a joke but
she has an intense look on her face with an undetectable smile .
Ma :"You'll always be my little boy . Out of all my children,
letting you grow into your own man has been the hardest. I
wanted to shield you from everything that may cause you
harm...." She chuckles and continues "the number of fights I
had with your father regarding sheltering you are countless . In
my eyes you're still that little bit that brought me and my
husband together . I forget that you may one day have to take
over from your father's reign..."
"You'll need a strong ass person by your side...." A voice roars
from across the room . We both look at the old man and he has
his arms folded leaning on the door frame, looking at Mom with
so much adoration .
If I marry someone and I don't have this look on my face when I
speak to them...then I played myself
Bafo :"I wouldn't have done half the things I've done without
your mother . She has made all the tough decisions over the
years and I remained on the sidelines as the father who's a
clown..." I chuckle because that's honestly how we view my
father . We never take him seriously .
Bafo :"You would've turned into iphara if it wasn't for uNsingi
Nsingi wam" what the hell is that?
Ma :"I can still divorce you , you know"
Bafo :"Come on mama, I know you love this name hau" my
mother's cheeks are suddenly red and I chuckles .
Me :"Yhu hay mama"
Bafo :"Uyangthanda. Let's go out for breakfast mkami" Mom is
a blushing mess
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they leave me chuckling and shaking my head . My parents are
"the pits" as Sabatha would call them .
.
.
.
I've been sitting on this table for about 15 minutes now waiting
for Sena and I'm very close to giving up .
I order another cup of coffee .
"Starting without me?" I bring my eyes up to look at her
gorgeous self .
She has a short hair on with that shiny Vaseline thing on her lips
.
Me :"Well you did take your own sweet time"
Sena :"Fashionably late Mnotho..." I chuckle and nod .
She sits down with a smile on her face, I wonder what made her
so happy.
Me :"I'll remember that next time" she orders her coffee"
Sena :"So tell me about Mnotho" I take a deep breath and
chuckle at my own stupid thoughts.
Me :"Mnotho is a 35 years old divorcee. A big brother to 4
people , a CEO of Amib holdings and MD of a venture capital
firm. Oh and your soon to be boyfriend" she chuckles... well
more like blushing.
Me :"You're beautiful" her hand is suddenly in her face hiding
all that beauty .
Me :"Don't. I want to see your face when you let emotions take
over" she gasps and I laugh .
Me :"Umuhle Senamile"
Sena :"Ngyabonga bhuti" I chuckle at that "bhuti".
Me :"I'm not your brother Sena . But I'll take that for now" the
waitress brings her tea .
"Is she reason you left me Mnotho?" A voice I know so well
roars from across the room .
She moves closer to our table , I see Sena roll her eyes.
Enhle :"You couldn't even fight for our marriage Mnotho. It's all
because of this rubbish..."
Me :"I'm not in the mood for you and your theatrics Enhle so
please leave"
Sena :"no , it's fine . I'll leave"
Me :"No! Fuck that, you're not leaving. She'll leave. Enhle get
the fuck off my face" I snap and she jumps.
Sena's hand is on top of mine and somehow that calms me
down a bit .
Me :"Hamba Enhle!!" She jumps again and is on her heels to
the door.
Sena :"You wear your emotions on your sleeve, that's not
good...." She shakes her head and chuckles.
.
.
.
*Sabatha*
.
.
.
The security guard just told me that a very drunk Miss Mgcini
Zondi just pulled up at the gate .
I walk there hoping and praying she doesn't have Saint with her
otherwise...oh so help me God .
She's standing by the gate with a bottle of red wine on her hand
and my heart sinks .
All that is because of me , I drove her into that bottle .
I walk closer to her and she greets me with nothing but a slap ,
the security guard gasps .
Ok I deserve that.
GC :"You think you can make me love you and then treat me like
trash huh?" I see a little bit of sunshine when she mentions that
she loves me.
Me :"Can we talk inside the house MakaSaint?"
GC :"No. You don't get to tell me where we'll have this
conversation when you didn't have the guts to initiate it" she
burps and giggles .
I can't have a conversation with this person . She can forgive me
today and wake up tomorrow having forgotten the entire
conversation.
Me :"I'm sorry baby but can we go inside then you'll be allowed
to freely scold me" she stumbles upon her own feet and falls
.urgh.
I carry her to the house and place her on the couch .
GC :"Yaz Sabatha uyinja.... you're no different to Saint's dead
beat father . Zinja zonke one side..." She mumbles for a couple
of minutes about how much of a rubbish I am and ends up
falling asleep.
I carry her to my bedroom .
Luckily Saint's wipes are here so I use them to remove this make
up , she does this all the time before she sleeps.
I remove the wig and undress her .
Now I have to get to Soweto and fetch Saint? What a way to
end my day .
.
.
.
I'm woken up by Saint's piercing cries . I sometimes forget that
she requires so much attention .
Her mother is dead asleep next to me so I wake up and attend
to the sleeping beauty myself .
She doesn't look like she'll sleep anytime soon so I grab her
bottle , nappy and a blanket to the lounge.
We watch a little bit of TV , a lot of Sofia the first . I doubt she
even understands this or does she?
I'm disturbed by GC who comes running down the stairs with
my phone on her hands.
GC :"Uhm baby your phone was ringing" baby? I must be having
hallucinations.
Me :"Oh . Who was it?" Why is she on the brink of tears? She
looks nervous for some reason.
Me :"Mgcini what's going on?" She moves slowly towards me.
GC :"Uhm erh Sabatha...."
Me :"Khuluma man!!" I snap and she jumps a bit .
Me :"I'm sorry ." She nods and the tears fall .
Me :"Baby you're really worrying me . Please tell me what's
wrong"
GC :"There was an accident in Hyde park yesterday..." Ok?
GC :"Your parents were involved in a car accident...."
Me :"Flip! Mnotho is closer to Hyde park m I'll call him so he
can check up on the situation. Wait which hospital are they in?"
I get up and wear my flops .
Me :"Which hospital Mgcini?" I bring my eyes up and what I see
feels like a dagger in my heart . The hopelessness in her eyes.
The sorrow that is her face .
It feels like a hole has been punched in my soul and I cannot
breathe.
GC :"There were no survivers"
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"If the storm comes, if we burn out
If the wells run dry ,
You're my reason to believe in another life ." -Beyoncé
.
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*Thule*
.
.
.
Is it so wrong that I don't want them to be with me in spirit ?
Is it so wrong that I want my mom to see my house and have
her waking Funeka up in unGodly hours just because she gave
birth to me .
I want them here....not in spirit .
I want uBafo to try and kiss me again , I swear I won't run and
tell him I'm a grown man.
I want to make him his strong coffee and actually forget that it's
bad for his health. Atleast I would've been borrowed 2 more
seconds with him .
It feels like all the walls are closing in , like I've hit a dead end.
What am I supposed to do with the money I've been saving up
to buy her that M4 she's been pestering me about?
Mnotho is a mess , he's been in his room since we found out
of...yea that .
Mbuyiseni...I don't know how to explain it but it brings tears in
my eyes .
I'm trying to be strong . God knows I'm trying but I'm failing
dismally., I know the cracks will show one of these days .
I get up slowly and have a shower , someone has to do it.
Walking in ...I find Mbuyiseni reading , his newfound escape.
His laughing , like he doesn't have a single problem in this world
.
Me :"What are you reading?"
Mbuyiseni :"just a book" he shrugs. I'm worried about him , he
hasn't said or done anything showing that he's grieving . I want
to be there for him but he has shut everyone out with his smile
.
Mbuyiseni :"Stop doing that . I don't know why you guys are
falling for Bafo's pranks. You know this is one of his stunts" he
giggles and I can't help the way my eyes water at my brother's
denial .
Me :"Mnotho identified both their bodies" he shakes his head
vigorously.
Till this day I think Mnotho is the bravest amongst us , I don't
think I would do it .
Seeing the shell that held life for so long ,having to erase all
those memories for that mini second and recognising it for
what it is...a shell .
Mbuyiseni :"Stop filling my head with nonsense . Mom would
never leave me . She promised me. She'd never do that. No."
For the first time I see his eyes water .
Me :"Mbuyiseni...."
Mbuyiseni :"Hay bhuti . She's alive . They're both alive. They'll
walk in any minute now and they'll tell us they were joking.
You'll see" he giggles through his tears and I no longer know
what to do. I don't know what to say anymore .
Mnotho's more equipped when it comes to Mbuyiseni , he gets
him . I don't know how but their bond is stronger than mine
and Mbuyiseni's.
The door bursts open and I see a smile creeping up on my
brother's face.
It's Mam'Mihle
Mbuyiseni :"See ? I told you they wouldn't leave us. Ma!" He
shouts and Mam'Mihle stands there hugging herself with tears
in her eyes.
Mbuyiseni :"Ma! Mama they fell right into the trap
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all of them thought you were dead..."
Silence .
Mbuyiseni :"Ma please talk to me..."
Silence
Mbuyiseni :"Ma tell them you didn't leave . Bhuti why isn't she
responding . Ma!" He bursts into the loudest cry . The chair his
sitting on can't take all his weight so it breaks.
I try to catch him before his body hits the floor.
I swallow my saliva and lie...
Me :"It'll be ok Bhuto . It'll be ok" he shakes his head and holds
on tight to my arm.
Mbuyiseni :"It'll never be ok. Nothing will ever be ok bhuti. "
Right then , tears flow because I know there's a lot of truth in
what he just said. Things will never be the same.
I just want to be borrowed two more minutes in mom and dad's
arms , I just want to be borrowed another day .
How is that too much to ask?
I've seen the look in my brother's eyes before...the
hopelessness , quitting before the finish line. That's how he is
towards his sight and I'm afraid that's how he is towards life
now.
Mbuyiseni :" I'll never get to see her will I? I can't even see her
in my dreams bhuti , everything about the way her face looks is
blurry. Getting my sight back is close to useless . I wanted her to
be the first person that I see...but look at me now"
.
.
.
*Mabutho*
.
.
.
"UMa ngisuka kuwona lomhlaba , omdala
Ngizohamba nginokujabula .
Ngob'uJesu uzongingenisa ngale endaweni lapho ngophumula"
.
They sing mom's favourite hymns with such delicacy and peace
, I can't help but well up.
I see her humming this song while making breakfast for us right
through high school . I see her waking one of us to have
breakfast downstairs because apparently we had let varsity get
to our heads and we no longer know the house rules , and she'd
hum this song while serving us breakfast no matter how grumpy
we were .
Mnotho has his hands on his back with his eyes facing his feet ,
not a care in the world as to what's happening in the outside
world .
Everyone was expecting him to step up in the planning of this
funeral but his been so closed off we had to do what we
thought was best.
"Sicela ozokhulumela amadodana abo" it goes quiet .
We're sitting on the front row so we can feel all the stares .
For the first time since Mnotho got here he brings his head up
and stares at me , then motions with his head that I should go.
I send him a questioning look and he shakes his head then goes
back to staring at his feet. .
Am I the only one worried about him ?
I feel like he's sinking into this deep hole and we won't be able
to pull him out.
I get up slowly and walk to the front .
All of them look at me expectantly to say the right words but
nothing's coming out .
I take a deep breath and try this again....
Me :"Someone asked me that if I was given one more second
with my parents what would I say , I sat there for the longest
time and thought of the right answer and nothing came to mind
. I wouldn't say anything . I wouldn't want to ruin the moment
because if I were to say something I'd probably ruin the
moment , I'd scold them for leaving us and making us live on
stolen moments with them . So I'm trying to find the right
words to say goodbye to two people that have me life . Trying to
say goodbye to two people that have never judged me , not
even for a single second ...." I can't believe I'm about to say this
but I owe it to myself to let them go .
"MaMwelase...thank you for loving us even when we do you
wrong. Thank you for consistently giving us the truth of life
even when we needed things sugar coated. Bafo i..can...can
never thank you enough for your presence in our lives. Thank
you for teaching us respect... regardless of the gender . I doubt
I'll be able to do the rest of my life without you but I'll try...."
Mnotho scoffs and exits the hall grabbing everyone's attention .
We all look at Thule but he shrugs us off.
"I hope we'll get to meet again babazi . I hope I'll get to feel
your love once again...one day....some day....some way . Maybe
we'll meet in spirit . Maybe we'll meet in one of my dreams , I
pray the memories we've made never leave my brain . Please
watch over us ." As soon as I'm done I go back to my seat and
there's one question lingering in my brain...."Where to from
here?" .
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*GC*
.
.
.
I've been trying , I don't know what else to do .
All Sabatha does is lock himself in his room with Saint .
Atleast if Saint could talk I'd ask what's happening but he's
pushing me and everyone away . I've tried contacting his
brothers for the past week but they're just a different mess ,
there are levels to the Mwelase mess and for the first time I
really don't know how it'll be fixed. I don't know if it is my place
to try and fix them ,ngifika izolo .
He's laying on the bed with Saint on his chest . I've been giving
him space for an entire week but nothing's changed instead
he's sinking and I won't stand by the side and watch .
I try to take Saint and I see him jump up looking frightened.
Sabatha :"oh I thought- you scared me" I see him take a few
deep breaths and lays back on the bed .
I place Saint on the cot in the corner of the room , I found it
here. The way he baby proofed this entire house to make it
comfortable for me and my daughter warmed my heart .
He truly is an amazing jerk
When I come back he's already in bed making me face his back
.
Me :"Sabatha..."
Silence .
Me :"Mwelase..."
Silence .
My patience is wearing thin.
Me :"I didn't leave my bed in Soweto to sleep in yours because
it's more expensive so if you don't want us here , we can gladly
leave" he turns slightly and stares at me .
If looks could kill , I'd be seven feet under .
Me :"No you don't get to give me that look..."
Sabatha :"Do you have a particular reason as to why you're
waking me up?" I throw myself next to him , he just sits there
unbothered.
Me :"I just- I don't know what to do anymore Sabatha . You're
shutting me out . I feel like I'm losing you" I see his eyes soften a
bit and he pulls me to his chest .
Sabatha :"You won't lose me MakaSaint ... Just give me time" I
get up and sit on his lap in a squat position.
My titts are directly on his face .
It's so funny how we haven't had sex yet... I'm such a sexually
active person .
I pull his face and place the it on my chest .
I hug him tightly and his hands make way to my ass .
Me :"Please let me in... stop shutting me out" I whisper and I
feel hot breaths on my chest which spread through my entire
body .
I start grinding on him and he hisses .
He squeezes my booty bringing me closer to him .
Me :"Sabatha..." I grind on him. The sexual tension is too much
for him to bear so he pushes me up a bit to undress his pyjama
pants .his member springs up and I don't have time to dwell on
it.
Sabatha :"I'm scared I'll lose you too ... I'm scared of losing you
and Saint..." I feel water on my chest and sniffs coming from
him .
I get up a bit and push him in...
I haven't been so full in a long as time so I can't help the
ungodly moan that escapes my mouth .
After a few seconds I start moving and he groans .
Me :"Then let me in baba kaSaint" he holds my thighs , a very
tight grip and I can't move. His shoulders move and the warm
water on my chest is too hard to miss.
I try to bring his head up to look at me but he shake it and I
start moving.
Not even once does he look at me , his face is buried in my titts
with tears.
Sabatha :"you make me weak"
Me :"I've never seen you weak "
Sabatha :"That's the whole point" in a few seconds his right on
top of me and I have my legs spread out like a Nandos chicken.
His strokes dear Lord! His strokes!
Sabatha :"Death showed me that there is so much I cannot
control . Like the way my heart beats when I see you and Saint .
I want to protect you even from myself ..." Whatever problem
you're having in your relationship , sex is the solution I promise
you.
Me :"I don't need pro... protectioo-" he goes in harder and I
can't continue . I bet you he did that on purpose. I feel the pace
going faster and I'm tempted to open my eyes and look at him
as he cums .
He has his eyes closed and slightly biting his lower lip . I can still
see the traces of tears which kind of dampens my mood , I don't
want to see him sad .
I'm brought back to earth by his loud groaning and his fast pace
. His face is probably the most beautiful thing after Saint , ok he
looks ugly but...you know what I mean.
He chuckles while inside me
Sabatha :"I'm sorry..."
Me :"There's always a next time..."
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*Mabutho*
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.
.
I've been so cooped up at Amib holdings because no one can
reach Mnotho and someone has keep the boat afloat.
I'm not so good with this whole business thing but I've been
working closely with Bafo's PA and she's proven to be a a big
asset to the company.
On top of my already needy job I have to make hours for Amib
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I AM NOT COPING .
I drive to the first person I know can do this with his eyes closed
. I haven't seen any of my brother's in exactly a week , I don't
know how to feel about that.
Oh I know... incomplete.
I knock at his door for almost 15 minutes without receiving a
single response .
I call him one more time and of course he ignores me .
I decide to walk in through the garage which is open . Very
weird , even for Mnotho ... especially for him since he has 4 cars
worth over 15 million .
I walk in and the first thing I see are the countless bottles on the
floor and my drunken brother laying on the floor with an empty
bottle at his feet .
Me :"Mnotho!" He groans and ignores me.
Me :"Bhuti!" I shake him and he opens his eyes a bit.
Mnotho :"Yea Bhuto..." He gets up in his drunken state and
almost falls .
I try to catch him and he stops me .
Mnotho :"Stop! Why you acting like you suddenly care? I have
no one ! Oh wait I have a dead beat mother who doesn't care .
I'm alooooone" he sings .
Me :"What do you mean you're alone? You have me , you have
us bhuti . Nothing is going right without you . We need you...."
He burps and giggles.
Mnotho :"you...you need me? Wow what a yeses." He giggles
and burps one more time .
Ok this is beyond me .
His phone is on top of the coffee table so I grab it and scroll
through the contact list .
"Lonely . I am so lonelyy. I have nobody... I'm on my own!" He
keeps on singing and my heart constricts . I've never seen him
this broken even with the death of Thingo .
°
<Hey , this is Mabutho . Mnotho's brother . I contacted you
regarding my brother , he's not ok and I was wondering if you'd
like to come and see him....>
°
<When and where? I'll be there> Sena .
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*Thule*
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.
.
As soon as I close my eyes I keep on seeing their coffins go
down . I can't eat , I can't sleep and I'm not in sync with my
emotions .
Nothing makes sense .
The only thing I feel is anger , I can feel it boiling when I hear my
mother's name being mentioned and Funeka does this a lot
hence we've been having a lot of fights lately.
She's been consistent when it comes to backing me up and
giving me support .
We're about to have a fight , I just know it .
She walks in with the family album and I secretly huff .
Funeka :"your aunt gavee this to show you guys . Apparently
their love story is here somewhere" she joins me in bed and
places the album on my lap .
The very first picture on the album is my arents on their
wedding day .
I just close the damn thing and throw it across the room .
Funeka :"Haybo Thule , we're supposed to-" I grab her and kiss
her hungrily .
She's trying to keep up but I'm fast and it's rushed .
In a matter of seconds her clothes are on the floor and she's
just letting me undress her .
Right when I'm about to undress I scold myself .
"she's Funeka , not some random bi**ch."
I'm too angry , I can't do this to her .
I place my forehead on hers for a moment , place a perk on her
lips then get up .
Funeka :"Thule where are you going? Thule!" She keeps on
shouting .
I need to let out my anger the only way I know how and it can't
be on her .
°
<Samke , it's Thule can we meet up?>
°
<Haven't changed my address .> Samke
°
<I'll see you just now>
°
I turn and go straight to Honeydew with nothing but anger filled
thoughts .
When I get there I knock hurriedly and she comes out wearing a
sexy lingerie .
We're not going to need all of that.
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*Sena*
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He's not ok?
I don't imagine that man not having his ducks in a row. He looks
like a person who has his shit together even when the world is
cracking but grief changes people .
Maybe it's because he wasn't able to say goodbye that makes it
all difficult .
With me and Mbuso , we said our goodbyes and gave out all
the love . Nothing was left unsaid , but then these situations are
totally different .
His brother sends me his location and tells me I won't find him
there.
I catch an Uber and it drops me right outside the house , a big
black house . Imbi lendlu , it's like ghosts live here. It's black
with tons of trees sorrounding it . I'll say it again , YIMBI!
His brother sent me a code to use to enter so I use it and make
way to the house .
The road from the gate to the house can make anyone lose
weight , forget Herbalife... Mnotho's house can get you that
waist you want .
I knock on the front door and I'm flat out ignored .
The garage door is open so I use it .
I take a moment to admire all the cars in here , how much
money does this man actually have?
The garage leads to a passage going to the lounge.
Mnotho is lying on the couch, this house stinks of alcohol .
There are tons of bottles on the floor and the owner is busy
snoring .
"Mnotho!"
"Mnotho!" I shake him roughly and he opens his one eye.
The confused frown on his face makes him look cute . He sits up
and rubs his eyes for the longest time and then looks at me
again.
Mnotho :"Ngisadakiwe?"
Me :"yea and you still stink . Go take a bath" he throws his body
back on the couch and mumbles "leave me alone"
Me :"get the fuck up..." He frowns while looking at me .
Me :"ok sorry , go and take a bath Mnotho"
Mnotho :"It better be the last time you talk to me like that" he
gets up slowly and exits the room .
Damn that man's demeanor is scary
After a few minutes I can hear the water running .
I waltz around the house search of the kitchen and when I
finally find it, I'm already tired .
I look through the drawers and find the plastics I'm looking for .
I start by throwing away all the empty bottles , I've dealt with
this before with my uncle so I'm used to it .
He comes back when I'm in the middle of pouring this whiskey
down the drain .
He quickly runs to me and grabs it.
Mnotho :"are you fucken crazy? Do you know how fucken
expensive that whiskey is?" He shouts loud enough for the
whole of South Africa to hear.
Me :"uyangirasela" I open another bottle of wine and pour it
down the drain .
Mnotho :"Are you crazy? No actually are you deaf?"
Me :"No, you are the one that's crazy. Look at all that you've
built , you're willing to let it all come crashing down because of
an addiction you can control? "
Mnotho :"What does it matter? None of this matters without
my parents" why are we shouting at each other again?
Me :"none of it matters? Mnotho you have brothers that are
waiting on you to shout the next instruction because they don't
know which road to take next . Who do you think is running
Amib holdings when you out here drowning your sorrows ?
Your father's hard work ! Get your shit together , there are a lot
of lives counting on you now . You're a leader , tap into that
divine power that lives in you" I see him bite his inner cheek
and huff in frustration.
I grab the bottle in his hand and pour it down the drain .
I open the last bottle and hand it over to him .
He stairs at it then at me.
Mnotho :"I need you"
Me :"I'll have your back whenever you need me"
Mnotho :"I don't want you having my back , I need you by my
side..." That catches me by surprise hence I take a ten seconds
breather .
Me :"I don't want to date a drunkard..."he chuckles
Mnotho :"what do you want to date?"
Me :"a multi millionaire . An RS4 driving man . A venture
capitalist. I want to date the man all ladies want . A tall , dark
skinned god who knows his business . Definitely not a drunk" he
chuckles and then grabs the bottle , pours it down the drain .
He pulls me to his chest
this man is tall!! Good God!!
He lifts up my chin to look at him.
Mnotho :"I can be that man" he smirks .
Me:"You're not ready for me Mnotho . I said a man who knows
his business , I want a man who'll come to me totally complete
with himself . A man who knows what he wants and why he
wants it . A man who knows and recognises the power he has , I
have a younger brother I have to raise . I don't have time to be
teaching a man of his greatness and patting his ego ...." He
chuckles again , not breaking the contact.
Mnotho :"Give me time"
Me :"I'll wait for you"
.
.
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*Mnotho*
.
.
.
How can one human being be so flipping perfect that you want
to change your ways for her?
Nothing is as attractive and sexually stimulating as a woman
who knows what she wants and won't settle for less .
I watch her as she walks to the gate , her ass looks mighty in
that dress . The type of ass you want to spank and watch as it
jiggles . Damn!!
"Whuuuu!!" I find myself screaming and she turns to look at me
then shakes her head and proceeds.
The first thing I do is lock the garage and dish up for myself .
Yea she also cooked ...see why I need to wife her as soon as
possible? Umkhulu udinga umakoti.
While I'm busy eating the door roughly opens and Thule barges
in looking like a full blown mess . He intentionally passes me
and goes to where I usually keep my alcohol .
He groans when he notices that nothing is there .
Thule :"Where's alcohol Mnotho?"
Me :"Sawubona bhutomncane , unjani?" He frowns . I've never
seen him so unsettled in my entire life .
Thule :"Where did you hide alcohol?"
Me :"Why don't you try sitting down , properly greeting me and
then tell me what's eating you instead of behaving like a
psycho" he quickly calms down and sits opposite me on the
counter .
Thule :"I fucked up..." I push the plate away from me and lean
back on the chair.
Thule :"I slept with Samke" silence takes over and I just want to
choke the life out of him .
Thule :"Say something...."
Me :"What do you want me to say Nqobethule. You knew what
you were doing and sacrificing"
Thule :"it was a mistake" I chuckle a bit .
Me :"Do you love Funeka?" He answers without hesitation
Thule :"With all that I am" I shake my head a bit
Me :"You wouldn't go back to Samke if you did . After
everything that girl has done to .
.you and you still go back there ? You're a fool"
Thule :"You wouldn't understand Mnotho . No one will!"
Me :"Because there's nothing to understand , you left Funeka in
your bed to go and entertain your ex . Nothing is hard there. I
have zero respect for a man who can't say no to pu**y . None!!"
He's about to respond when I'm disturbed by my phone
beeping .
.
.
<Mkhulu Zaba said we should get out asses in KZN tomorrow .
Please pass the message to your brothers if you see them ,
they're not answering my calls. > Mabutho .
.
.
Oh he's definitely mad at all of us and I don't blame him . He
had so much responsibility and no one pulled through .
.
.
<When last did you see Mbuyiseni?"> Me
.
.
<I don't know > Mabutho . Mxm
.
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"When last did you see Mbuyiseni?" I ask the sudden cheater
over here .
Thule :"I don't remember" mxm .
I grab my car keys and leave him there .
I did need that wake up call from Sena . Everyone is falling
apart.
Since Mbuyiseni's house is closer , the drive takes a mere 7
minutes .
I drive in bumping into Mbuyiseni's G63 reversing out the
garage, it's not Mbuyiseni's driver..... it's Lindy .
The car comes to a stop and she gets out with a bag .
I make way to her...her grip on that bag has to hurt somehow .
Lindy :"He- Hey Bhuti..." She takes a smile and I still keep my
poker face . I don't like her , her entire aura just screams
desperation and money.
Me :"Where's my brother?" She stutters for a bit and swallows
her own spit.
Me :"My brother Sisi. Where is my brother?"
Lindy :"inside the Uhm . He's inside ..." Something's off about
her . Maybe it's because I don't like her .
She gets back in the car and leaves .
I walk in and shout his name making way to his room .
I find him right outside the bath tub naked .
"Mbuyiseni!" He whips his head towards my voice and frowns .
Mbuyiseni:"Bhuti?"
Me :"please don't tell me you just took a bath on your own
Mbuyiseni ! You know how dangerous it is for you . No one is
willing to use their head in this family! No one!!"I help him get
back up and hand him a towel .
Mbuyiseni :"where's Lindy?" Really?
Me :"She left "
Mbuyiseni :"She took everything bhuti . My cards and all my
money " I can't help the frown that lands on my face .
Me :"You gave her your pins?" He nods .
Me :"I told you about this girls and like always you didn't listen
to me . Maybe you'll learn your lesson if you sleep in the street.
Uzozibona" I hand him his clothes and he gets dressed after
lotioning his body.
Mbuyiseni :"You're not going to help me?"
Me :"No! Angithi uyislima wena. We're leaving to KZN
tomorrow , I'll pack your bags and leave them on the counter.
Oh and I'll order food for you since you're broke now" I leave
him in bed and pack for him .
When I'm done with everything I check up on him and he's in
bed...sleeping . He sleeps like a little baby with his knees on his
chest and arms folded .
I put a pillow under him , remove his shoes and place his
favourite fleece blanket on top of him .
.
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<Toolz , look for Lindy . Find her and bring her to me >
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*Thule*
.
.
I don't know what to do .
Do I tell her and risk the chance of losing her or do I keep quiet
and wait for Samke to strike because I know it's coming.
She walks in with dozens of files written 'Amib forestry and
trucking' . This girl is out there securing our future and I'm out
here doing her dirty . I can't believe myself .
She places the files on the dressing table and stares at me in the
mirror .
She then tilts her head and znarrows her eyes .
Funeka :"What's eating you?"
Me :"Me? Nothing my love" she frowns and turns to look at me
.
Funeka :"Your love? You have never called me that before "
Me :"There's a first time for everything" she giggles and comes
to sit next to me on the bed .
Funeka :"What's happening baby? You've been distant since you
left me here yesterday" let me just let myself burn . I know I
won't be able to live with myself if she heard this from Samke .
So here goes nothing .
Me :"Uhm baby , I messed up. Big time" she sits properly and
places her head on my shoulder.
Funeka :"What did you do baby . I'm sure we can fix it if we put
our heads together..."
Me :",Please don't leave me MaFakude . It was a pure mistake
and it'll never happen again sthandwa sami" I feel her body
stiffen beside me .
Funeka :"What did you do Nqobethule?" Her tone and aura
suddenly changes .
Me :"I slept with someone else"
Silence!
It's so loud and deafening . She hasn't moved her head from my
shoulder and I'm more than nervous . Funeka is crazy!
Funeka :"When?"
Me :"Yesterday" she chuckles bitterly and removes her head
from me .
Funeka :"So you left here and went to fuck another bitch while I
was there Nqobethule? It's not like I said no we can't fuck but
you left! YOU LEFT Thule. Is my pu**y that loose? Do I not ride
you enough? "
Me :"baby I'm sorry . It was selfish of me and I'm sorry" she
clicks her tongue and gets up, I run after her and grab her wrist .
Funeka:"don't. Touch. Me. Don't touch me with those hands
that were holding her Nqobethule. You promised to take care of
my heart Thule , is this you still keeping your promise?"
Honestly I don't have words for all of this . I don't!
I don't have answers .
My heart constricts as I see her tears .I attempt to wipe them
but she quickly smacks my hand.
Funeka :"Don't you dare Thule...Don't!"”
Me :"Baby please for-"
Funeka :"Shut the fuck up! Was I not enough for you?"
Me :"You're enough baby . You're more than enough for me"
Funeka :"Did I not love you enough?"
Me :"You did...you do."
Funeka :"Did I do something wrong?"
Me :"No I will not allow you to do that to yourself . It was just
my selfishness"
Funeka :"Then you don't deserve me. You've lost yourself a
good woman " she yanks her hand off mine and leaves .
Fuck!
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*Sabatha*
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"Mgcini ngithe angiyi lapho!" I can't just leave my family like
that . No I won't!
GC :"Come on baby please this is for family . You need this ,
obhuti bakho need this as well . I've never known you guys to
be so detached from each other and be fine with it"
Me :"I'm not leaving . I don't care what you say , what if I leave
and something happens to Saint , to you guys . No !"
GC :"Ok ke , leave with Saint..."
Me :"And you?"
GC :"I can take care of myself and you know it Sabatha, just go
home baby" she comes closer to me and kisses my temple .
.
.
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We're in a taxi , Thule's taxi on our way to Newcastle and the
journey is as awkward as you can imagine .
Mbuyiseni has his head laid on Mnotho's shoulder with his eyes
closed. I'll never understand their weird connection and need to
be so close to each other .
Mbuyiseni and Mnotho are legit conjoined twins , it's weird for
guys.
Thule hasn't said a single word , I guess his eyes tell a story .
Mabutho...well he just has his earphones on .
My princess is the only one making noise .
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*Mnotho*
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.
The minute we walk in we find Mkhul'Zaba with Mkhul'Nsimbi
and we all know it's not good .
Mabutho :"Mnotho you'll do all the talking and the protecting"
this is actually the first time he has said anything to me in the
last few days .
Me :"Uyanya . We'll just put Saint on the front line or
something"
Sabatha :"Udakiwe Mnotho" these children lack respect . An
entire big brother, Udakiwe? Hehe.
Sabatha leads the way and we all walk in .
We greet and Mkhul'Nsimbi looks at me intently .
Mkhul'Nsimbi :"Get out of my house ." We all stare at each
other in confusion .
Mkhul'Nsimbi :"Mnotho you know the situation is bad but you
let your brother lead you? Inkosana umholi , get out of my
house until you know what your role is in this family." I reverse
slowly waiting for my brothers to come with me but the
professional mamenemene don't move a single muscle .
Nsimbi chuckles and shakes his head .
Now what am I supposed to do ?
I play Thule's music via aux and Ntencane blasts the entire car .
Actually Maskandi is not that bad .
Someone knocks on the window roughly and Nsimbi stands
there with two walking sticks .
I open the window a little , I open it enough to hear his voice .
This man is still strong , he can just slap me for whatever reason
.
Nsimbi :"Cima loyo dodi . You're making noise" someone
remind this man I'll be 36 years old in two months .
Like a good person that I am , I switch off the radio . Not
because of him , but because it's making noise anyway.
Ok let me not pretend like I was going to defy him or anything.
Nsimbi :"Wakhamisa...follow me" I love my grandpa neh...but
this man is disrespectful actually bayadelela abazali sometimes .
He starts walking and I get off the taxi and follow suit .
He hands me a walking stick and I walk besides him .
There is silence for the longest time and then he speaks ....
Nsimbi :"Uyazi ang'zwani namasimba angithi?"(you know I
don't take shit right?) What a good way to start a conversation .
Very nice .
Me :"Yebo mkhulu"
Nsimbi :"Manje amasimba Ani lawa engiwabonile?" (Now
what's that shit I saw today?)
I just huff a bit and keep quiet .
Next thing somethig hits me hard at the back of my head and I
run off .
I did say something about this old man and his strength .
Nsimbi :"Utshwala bugcwele ikhanda Mnotho"
Me :"Cha mkhulu"
Nsimbi :"So what makes you think you can put your brother in
the firing line to spare your life?"
Me :"Mkhulu honestly I didn't notice , and uSabatha having to
walk in front is something we have never taken notice of"
Nsimbi :"You'll never notice because uhlale Udakiwe . Even your
answer is dizzy . Your parents are gone Mnotho , like it or not
but all their burdens will rest on your shoulders . Remember
how your brothers used to run to your father for everything ,
now they'll run to you and on each turn you have to come
through for them ..." The sound of that on it's own just freaks
me out , the last time I was responsible for another human
being she died of food poisoning . I'm scared I will fail umkhulu
like I did my daughter .
Me :"Ngyakuzwa mkhulu"
Nsimbi :"Ungangizwa kuphela Mnotho , understand this and let
it dwell in your drunk brain cells . Usumdala Mnotho ,
usuyindoda . This is the perfect time to prove it , a man protects
what is his , you don't wait for a woman to bring warmth in this
home , let love , blood and loyalty remind you why you'll always
have their backs no matter what . Ngthembe wena" he pays me
on my shoulder and descends the mountain , leaving me at the
peak.
This is it huh?
This is my life .
.
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*Thule*
.
.
I've been trying to call her since I got here and here and yes you
guessed that right....she is not answering my calls .
I'm so close to losing my brains here .
I can't lose her , not right now .
Gogo or Aunty'Ntando as she would like us to call her
walksin humming a song .
She greets and I acknowledge her presence and go back to
trying to call Funeka .
It rings two times and goes to voicemail.
Fuck!
"Baby can you call me back or atleast send me a text just to
show me that you're fine . *Sigh* MaFakude ngyaxolisa
sthandwa sami . I just want a chance to explain . If only you can
just talk to me. Please call me baby , ngiyakcela . Or you can
send a please call me, I'll call. Just-" someone grabs my phone
and she ends the call .
Ntando :"Yhu usezwile. What did you do?"
Me :"I just made a mistake , now she won't listen to me"
Ntando :"Mistake level bani? You can say you mistakenly put
cheese on her and you know she doesn't eat dairy or you can
say you thanked her for nudes you got Kanti they don't belong
to her . These are all mistakes , which one did you make?"
Me :"I cheated on her"
Ntando :"Wiyboo Jereva!! Imikhuba weeeh mama! Yhu haybo
ngane who taught you that nonsense?" The horror on her face
is so visible , I just want to burst into laughter.
No one is as dramatic as Ntando , none! But she's right this time
I fucked up !
Me :" it was a mistake "
Ntando :"Hay Nqobethule you knew what you were doing ,
phela when having sex you don't just jump into it . There are
kisses and foreplay . You're telling me that in all of that
awukhumbuli ukuthi you have a woman?" I honestly don't an
answer to this .it was just a dump decision I really regret.
Ntando :"Do you love this girl?" For the love of God
Me :"Yes! Yes I do "
Ntando :"What happened in your psyche when you saw her cry
because of you?"
Me :"it hurt . I never knew that I can cause someone so much
pain and I end up being the one who hurts again . Leaving her is
hurting myself and I only got to see that now. I fucked up"
Ntando :"I see you complaining but I don't see you fixing
anything . what are you doing here? I swear to you if your
grandfather did what you did to me and then leaves... he'd find
me in another relationship"
Me :"Haybo Gogo"
Ntando :"Yini? Phela I'm still popping. I'll glow until I die, you'll
see" Jehovah! I giggle a bit .
Sabatha runs in with his phone in his hand.
He watches whatever it is he's watching while tapping me on
my shoulder dramatically .
Me :"Yini wena?"
Sabatha :"Your girlfriend is a boss ass bi**h for sure" I get up
quickly to watch a video of Funeka throwing eggs and toilet
paper all over my house .
Sabatha :"This is nothing . If you could see what she did on the
inside! Yho your TV is none existent ,bed is burnt . Everything is
gone" he giggles lightly .
Ntando :"this girl...I like her" she leaves .
Where did he even get this video ?
Sabatha :"GC" oh kambe they're "friends"
Sabatha :"You'd be so lucky if she doesn't burn this house
down. What were you thinking cheating on Funeka? Not even
dick can tame an angry and hurt woman, especially not a
Funeka " yea no I sure messed up .
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*Funeka*
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I throw the last egg on the damn door and fall on the floor .
I can't even stop the tears that are in my eyes .
GC CES and sits next to me .
Me :"You know what hurts the most?"
GC :"What?"
Me :"Even after doing all of this , I still love him ."
GC :"No one expects you to hate him in two seconds Funeka ."
and a thought crosses my mind
me :" I think I know what I should do . Her mistress , yes . The
damn bitch" I get up quickly and GC gets up as fast as I do .
GC :"I won't sit around and allow you to do that Funeka . Your
man did you wrong . He left you there on your bed to go and be
with her . She didn't come to your house . She's not your enemy
, if you looking for somebody to blame look at him and leave
that woman alone ." Why does she have to make sense ?
Me :"I love him Funeka , how do I take all this anger and hurt
and direct it to him? How do I direct all this anger to the man
that I love and adore so much ? How do I suddenly see him as
the enemy ." It's only now when I'm caught up in this situation I
realise that it's so easy to see the mistress as the enemy
because of the love you have for your man that can never allow
you to view him as such .
GC :"One step at a time my angel. He never deserved you"
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*Mnotho*
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Me :"Thule the CEO chair at Amib holdings is waiting for you-"
he cuts me off
Thule :"Hay . No I'm fine where I'm at"
Me :"I didn't ask you , if you don't take it who will? I can't even
relax as it is Thule" he groans and mumbles whatever , I don't
care he'll take that seat he so deserves .
Me :"Sabatha the CFO chair is also yours"
Sabatha :"Aw cha kodwa bhuti sengitheni? What did I say that
makes it seem like I'm seeking a job?" I throw him a dagger and
he drops his eyes .
Me :"I don't know if you noticing kodwa uSaint uyakhula and in
order for babies to grow they need food , in order for you to
buy food you need a money . In order for you to have money ,
you need to work. Asingaxabani , I need the both of you at work
on Monday. Mabutho can you move in mom and dad's house?"
Sabatha :"abanye bayacelwa" he mumbles
Mabutho :"yea sure . My apartment is getting too small
anyway" ok. What else?
Me :"The cars? "
Thule :"Don't so anything to them yet" this is what happens
when your parents didn't make a will .
I'm just glad my father taught us more about hustling and
making our own name otherwiSe , we'd also be scrabbling
about their estate .
My eyes move from the documents in my eyes to umkhulu on
the door .
He nods , then smiles at me and exits .
Why did they call us here again?
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I have two tasks at hand , helping Mbuyiseni find Lindy which
will come in last and helping Mabutho move to the house .
I have called all of them to come and help us move and this is
the perfect time for Mbuyiseni to remind us that he's blind and
he can't pick up a box he can't see .
Mxm .
We pack everything from Mabutho's house and move to our
parent's house using Mbuyiseni's van . Atleast he contributed
something .
The van with the furniture got to the house faster than we did.
When we get there there's a car parked right outside the garage
leaving a frown on my face .
No one just walks in here , you need a code.
We all run to the house and to our surprise Mam'Mihle and
Babomkhulu Liba are relaxing on the couch.
We all heave sighs of relief .
Me :"You scared us . You should've told us you're coming" they
both chuckle
Mam'Mihle :"Phephisani" they both sit properly and we join
them .
Mabutho :"Konke kuhamba kahle?"
Liba :"everything's fine"
Mabutho :"Ekhaya basaphila?" Whuu hay this petty talk is
annoying , I want to get to the core of why they're here .
Liba :"Cha kyaphileka"
Mam'Mihle :"Can I make you guys tea?" Like they all discussed
it , all my brother's eyes are on me and I can't help the
confusion on my face .
Make us tea? Sizoke sizwe.
Thule :"Yebo Ma" she gets up and exits .
Me :"Hau babomncane why didn't you say you were here? We
were in Newcastle yesterday Yaz"
Liba :"Ah it was a spare of a moment thing ." I nod and my eyes
move to Mom's gallery wall and something happens to my
temple when I don't see a single photo of my parents , not even
our pictures .
I get up and herd to the wall .
Me :"Mabutho did you remove the pictures!?" I roar and I see
him jump a bit.
Mabutho :"Haybo bhuti I didn't-"
Liba :"Oh I did . I didn't want things that'll remind me of uBafo
since I'll be staying here"
All of us :"YOU'LL BE STAYING HERE?"
Liba :"Yea . I have to make sure that my brother's hard work
doesn't go down the drain"
Me :"Babomncane utshele ubani ukuthi you'll be staying here
nakhona if you don't want anything that will remind you of your
brother then you should've removed the walls because he built
this with his hard work . Singaxabani , I want those pictures
back there when I come back " I grab the van's key and speed
off .
People know how to frustrate me .
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"I like it when money makes the difference but don't make you
different" -Drake
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Mnotho
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Ngyalingwa ngiseJerusalem , or is it Egypt ? I don't know but I'm
being tempted wherever Peter or John was .
Ngiyahlolelwa .
I go to the first place that comes to my mind.
She said she'll always be there right?
I drive to her small RDP house somewhere in Mofolo , houses
here look almost identical hence I have the hardest time
locating where exactly I once dropped her off.
I remember she stays at a corner somewhere .
Oh there's the kid .
I call him over and the second his eyes land on me he has a
gobsmacked look , good God I don't have the energy for this .
Not today.
Mbuso :"Eh good mor- afternoon Mnotho ...I mean Sir , good
afternoon Sir"
Me :"Just stick to Bhut'Mnotho Mbuso . Is your sister around?"
She looks kind of shocked a bit but quickly gains his composure.
Mbuso :"oh no Uhm she's at work " flip! I should've called .
Me :"Where does she work ?"
Mbuso :"She's a waitress at The Dine , at Vilakazi street" his
voice is laced with embarassment for some weird reason .
Me :"Do you speak like this each time you're asked about your
sister's occupation or is it just me?" He shakes his head and
stares at absolutely nothing on the ground .
Me :"that job puts food on the table , clothes on your back and
ensures that you at varsity . Next time when people ask you
what she does , you better stand tall ok?" He nods with a huge
grin .
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I park right outside the restaurant and call her .
Sena :"I can't speak , I'm at work ."
Me :"What time to you knock off"
Sena :"6 o'clock Mnotho. Bye" she drops . How rude!
But then 6 o'clock gives them enough time to get rid of those
bloody pictures.
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Where's this woman? I've beeen waiting here.
My phone beeps , it's Toolz.
Toolz :"I found her , she's at the basement" urgh I totally forgot
about that
Me :"Just take anything that belongs to Mbuyiseni from her . I
have a lot to deal with. "
Toolz :"Sure boza" I go back to listening to Floetry's Sunshine , I
can't believe they're never going back together again . Like
never never? Nix nix ?
And then there's Anthony Hamilton with his Pray for me .
This song actually reminds me of my ex , yey this one had me on
my feelings one time .
I'd lay on my bed , stare at the ceiling and let all the feelings
take over . Damn I was a dramatic child .
Yhuuu Brandy yena , I don't even want to talk about it .
Ever listened to Brandy or Boys II men on a rainy day and you at
the window staring at nothing thinking about the love of your
life? That shit hits haybo.
After a century she comes out .
She frowns a bit staring at my car , people think I frown a lot
but they don't know this one .
Sena :"What are you doing here?"
Me :"I'm here to pick you up?"
Sena :"Haybo Mnotho" lol she has a deep voice for a girl , this
Batman!
Me :"Get in Funeka . I don't have all day" she rolls her eyes and
jumps in .
Sena :"how long have you been waiting here? "
Me :"Long enough to know you work ridiculous hours"
Sena :"Well we can't all be CEOs , someone has to serve people
of your likes" I can't lie but that absolutely shuts me up . I've
eve felt guilty for having money before
Sena :"No offence"
Me:" none taken " a lot of offence taken.
Sena :"What are you doing here?"
Me :"I don't know . I wanted to see you for my own sanity" she
nods.
Sena :"What happened?" I was hoping she wouldn't ask so I
would've have to disclose.
Me :"You mind if we don't talk about it?" She shakes her head
and leans back on the seat .
Me :"You look tired"
Sena :"Serving people...rich people who think they are entitled
to everything ain't no joke" ok I have to drop this Batman at her
house because I feel attacked each time she opens her mouth.
As soon as I park outside her house I heave a sigh of relief . This
woman can talk
Sena :"You're not coming in?" I shake my head , I see a bit of
disappointment on her face and that brings a grin on my face .
Me :"I'll come tomorrow" she pouts a bit and nods then exits .
When she's outside she peeps her head through the window ,
"It's going to be alright . It doesn't have to make sense but one
day it will . Keep going" she turns and leaves .
She always has the right thing to say doesn't she?
Anyway I'm giving those two a week , if they don't leave then
we'll have a problem
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Me :"Angeke Mbuyiseni . It's short notice and you know how I
feel about interviews" I'm with all my brothers and for some
reason they're ganging up on me .
Sabatha :"But bhuti we'll all be there , the spotlight won't be on
you . Plus GC won't ask you difficult questions....please" so
Mbuyiseni has this live show airing tomorrow and he wants to
all of us to be there, to be interviewed .
I don't make money from media so I've never felt the need to
be interviewed.
Ugh I hate this!
Mbuyiseni :"So bhuti you don't want to support my dreams?
Mom would be so disappointed, she always made sure be
there-"
Me :"Shut up Mbuyiseni , I'll do it"
Mbuyiseni :"Thank you booty" I side eye him and he quickly
hugs me.
Me :"Let go of me Wena" he squeezes tighter and I roll my eyes
.
Mabutho joins the stupid hug and before I know it , all of them
are on top of me giggling like little kids .
Me :"Your parents really did a number on me"
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*GC*
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I look at myself on the mirror one more time and oh my God my
eyebrows !
My eyebrows are skew . I grab an eyebrow pencil and Funeka
grabs it from my hand .
Funeka :"You're beautiful and your eyebrows are perfect"
Me :"You think?" She nods and sniffs .
Urgh my baby is really upset.
Me :"I swear if I lay my eyes on that Thule he'll know me well"
Funeka :"No don't... don't let this ruin this opportunity for you .
You're going to go there and interview Thule like you would any
other person . " I grunt and nod .
I'm going to twist his balls after that interview that's for sure .
Funeka :"Now go kick ass"
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Me :"Everything will be perfect if your brother stays away from
me , everything will be just fine" he rolls his eyes . He does this
a lot these days
Sabatha :"Kanti baby why are you getting involved?" I throw
him a dagger and he sighs .
Me :"Have you seen Funeka ?" He shakes his peanut head
Me :"Thula ke Sabatha, actually you're a hypocrite Wena
Sabatha. You just chose your brother's side, kanj-"
Director :"We'll be on air in exactly a minute"
Me :"We're not done wena" I get up and leave them .
Director :"You're on the dog box?"
Sabatha :"I'm always on the the dog box. I don't even know
what I did" he whispers and the director laughs . Mxm
As soon as my eyes land in Thule I want to shove my shoe up his
ass and have him sniffing my toe the whole day , ok that doesn't
sound right but I want to kick his ass.
I take a huge breath and sit on the single single couch opposite
the professional mamenemene.
I say a silent prayer and the director counts down .
"Good morning South Africa , I'm Mgcini Zwane , I'll be your
presenter for the day . Well there's something a little different
about today's show , we'll be talking...secrets. mmhm secrets
men keep from us woman and today we're joined by the MD of
Fix & Co
recently appointed CEO of Amib Holdings , CFO of Amib
Holdings , Producer of Real Talk , my boss and we'll be joined by
one of the most expensive cardiologist in the country . And no
we're not talking about cardiovascular nerves here , the
Mwelase brothers are here to let us in on the secrets guys keep.
Can we welcome them on stage please" the audience gives
them a standing ovation and girls scream their lungs out ,
bloody thirsty thots .
I sit down on the couch and they do the same.
Me :"Welcome to the show guys , are y'all good?" they all nod
with fake smiles . They're annoying all the fucks out of me right
now , can't they do this for Mbuyiseni?
Me :"thank you for joining me . Today we're going to talk about
things men don't like to talk about and maybe they'll tell us why
they don't want to tell us , or you . We'll start with finances ,
have you ever had to turn down a lady because she did not
meet your "financial standard"?" Sabatha better think about
this very clearly.
They all chuckle and stare at each other
Mnotho :"No. Everything I've ever done , I got from my father
and he has never made relationship or love about money" the
thirsty thots clap and scream the loudest
Mabutho :"Honestly ....yes . I've been with a girl who wanted
me to provide for her before so I didn't want to set myself on
that trap before" I nod and move my eyes to the dark skinned
cheater
Thule :"No. Have never" mxm
Mbuyiseni :"I've never but next time I will" all his brothers
chuckle , Sabatha didn't tell me this new scoop . Me and him
need to have a session .
Me :"What do you mean?"
Mbuyiseni :"I mean next I'll go for hard work and forget about
the money in the bank" honestly this man is gojas! His thick
eyebrows and pouty pink lips . Indoda!
Me :"Next time? So Mr is back on the market?" He blushes a bit
, his skin will always sell him out.
Mbuyiseni :" maybe" I chuckle and nod
Me :"Mnotho quickly before we link to the ad , can you tell me
why you think men have self esteem issues when it comes to
issues related to money in relationships?" He narrows his eyes a
bit thinking , such an upright man this one
Mnotho :" We've made everything about money so much that
when you don't pull through you think you're a failure .
Providing isn't only about the money . There are a lot of kids
out there that get financial support from their fathers but don't
know an hour of their time . What men don't understand is you
may not have the money but you can still show up , with love
and support . " but kids don't wear love and support papa.
The men in the audience clap for Mnotho, they probably don't
even show up these ones .
Me :"we're gonna go a little deeper after the ad break and get
some views from the audience . See you after the break"
The break is spent with me going through my questions and
fixing my make up .
Before I know it the 3 minutes is over and we're back on air .
Me :"Good morning Mzansi today we're joined by the Mwelase
brothers and we're discussing things men don't want to talk
about or rather secrets men keep from women. We have Sabelo
from the audience who has quite a mouthful to share . Can we
move the mic to Sabelo please...."
Sabelo :"Erh good morning sisterr , erh nna I've been married
for 5 years and in those years I've been working for two . My
wife has been paying bills for all these years and also supporting
me in my business . She'd come from work and also help me sell
to customers in my mini van . She was pregnant back then . I
could not let that discourage me for a minute , instead it fuelled
me to work even harder to try and provide for my kids " he goes
back down and gets a standing ovation from the audience . An
incredible man .
Me :"What you don't realise is your children got to have
something that man children do net get . Which is a bond with
a father who is present . Other children draw their father , ask
my daughter" I chuckle a bit and move my eyes to Sabatha and
he is fuming .
Me and my big mouth .
Me :"According to research , the second biggest war man are
waging is making friends" the conversation on friends involves
the audience more because it's no secrets that all these men
don't have friends , they'll tell me "my friends are my brothers"
mxm . Amamenemene.
We get to the part I've beeeeen waiting for , sex!
I want to make these men uncomfortable.
I've never imagined talking sex with Mnotho so why not?
Me :"So Thule , what is one thing men keep from woman when
it comes to sex?" He chuckles a bit
Thule :"There are a looot of things" that "a looot" is making me
suspicious.
"That men find it hard to differentiate between love and lust.
That list is more than just sexual attraction but also selfish
desire of wanting and never getting satisfied . Here's one thing
men know but will never admit , no matter how much you love
a woman the lustful thoughts will never leave" the deadbeat
fathers and cheaters clap there by the audience. So that is how
this one cheated on Funeka? Lust? Ungayithembi indoda yeyi.
My eyes move to Sabatha and his eyes pop .
Sabatha :"No baby his lying , no lustful thoughts here , none
whatsoever!" The audience laughs again .
I chuckle and ask the Leader of cheaterville , Mabutho .
Mabutho :"Uhm the feedback we usually give ladies after sex .
Sometimes it's not as great ." Haybo not as great?
Me :"It ? What is it?"
Mabutho :"The sex . Sometimes you find like really loose
Uhm...things . You just go in there and you're like where are the
walls? So you have to lie , you know "you're the best thing I
ever had" " They all laugh and honestly where's the joke? Why
are they making their dick sizes a female problem? Haybo.
Me :"Wait now you're making me curious , baby is there
something you haven't told me about our sex life?" Everyone
laughs and I move from the couch to squeeze myself next to
Sabatha and Butho .
Me :"Anything you want to say baby ?" He smirks with that
frown of his
The laughter dies down and he speaks
Sabatha :"It's better in the morning and I like it from the back in
the evening" there's a lot of noise and whistles going around .
I want to jump on him right now .
I chuckle a bit and take questions from the audience directed at
the Mnotho and the guys .
Guy :"What do woman want when she mad and she don't tell
you what's wrong? What do they expect us to do?"
Me :"I expect you to read my mind , that's what I expect" they
laugh and Sabatha takes the question , I hope all his brains are
working Yaz. Don't embarass me
Sabatha :"When a woman is mad at you and she does not tell
you what she's mad about , she wants you to find out what the
problem is and fix it . It also means that you will be showing her
that you love her and you also do not mind that she is crazy"
Oh god , boyfriendically I could've done better
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"wake me up when it's all over , when I'm wiser and I'm older" -
Avicii
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*GC*
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I just got out of a meeting with Mabutho and yes...I got the job .
Put "TV presenter" next to my name .
Mama can you see me? I'm making it big like you had said , I'm
chasing after everything they took from you . Are you proud ?
I take a walk to the toilets just for a breather .
"After so many no's . So many rejections and after doubting you
, you didn't give up on me God. Thank you" he never
leaves....even in place of doubt . The big break is coming !
The only song that's playing in my head right now is Mahalia
Buchanan's Ngiyabonga .
"Ngiyabonga Jesu wami , ngiyobonga naphakade .
Nkosi yami enomusa , ngiletha izibongo" .
Ok ok ok get it together Mgcini ! Get it together sis .
I wipe the tears as fast as I can and open the door only to meet
my menemene sitting outside the door looking...worried? I
don't know . I never know with this one.
Me :"What are you doing here ?" He gets up , dusts himself off
and pulls me to his warm arms .
I hate how much he always knows what to do at what time.
Me :"It feels like a dream Sabatha....it feels so...I don't know .
Like someone will wake me up and tell me it's just a joke"
Sabatha :"It's not a dream baby. This is all your life's hard work
paying off. This is all your sweat trying to juggle pregnancy and
putting bread on the table. I'm proud of you my baby". He
squeezes me tighter and I just sniff on his chest.
Ok I love this man .
Me :"I love you?" He chuckles.
Sabatha :"I'm convinced you do" I punch him lightly and we
laugh .
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After our little moment we exit only to also bump into
Mbuyiseni who stands outside the door . Hay marn I've said this
before and I'll say it again , this man is gojas! Not more than my
man but he's trying yena shame .
Of course I won't say he's more handsome than my man but I'm
sure you get it.
Mbuyiseni :"I already have an idea for next week's show and I'll
need the two of you. I'm off to Durban so if you need me , hit
me up " yhuu hay hay hay , that can't be a good idea.
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We got home...my house to find Funeka still in PJs playing with
Saint.
Sabatha greets , takes Saint and they leave to McDonald's I
think.
Me :"Ok come sis, come talk to your sister. Tell Dr Phil ukuthi
what's wrong?" I know what's wrong and I feel like she won't
take a decision because her mind and heart are in conflict with
each other .
Funeka :"I miss him...I find myself picking up my phone to call
him and stop myself again"
Me :"Why are you stopping yourself?"
Funeka :"No , what if he'll cheat again Mgcini? What if he'll take
me for a poes again? I can't get dribbled two times by the same
person haybo" I want to laugh at that haybo but this is not the
time .
Me :"Men cheat! All of them! All these animals will cheat on
you , either you'll stay single or you'll choose your poison . You'll
change boyfriends until when because of cheating? Ungizwe
Kahle I'm not saying go back to him but I'm saying even your
next might do you dirty , think about that" drops mic .
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*Funeka*
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Ok I've been dreading this the entire time but it's time I do
this.
I remove his number from the reject list and text him .
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"Come fetch me at GC's house right now"
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In less than 10 minutes I hear knocks and the dribbler , the guy
with the soccer boots , the grater of my heart is standing
outside the door. Why does his sweaty black skin have so much
effect on me?
Ok fuck this.
Pyjamas and all...I push him outside and I close the door behind
me.
He's gorgeous face aggravates me so much but at the same
time makes me weak . So frustrating.
Thule :"Sthandwa Sami..."
Me :"hlukana nami bhuti. Sundithethisa (leave me alone bro ,
don't talk to me)" he looks confused . Should I slap him? Ok
cheater or not, it's still Thule.
I click my tongue and go to his car .
He walks to the car looking nervous as hell.
When he gets in he huffs , or is it a groan ? I don't know .
Thule :"I don't know what to do anymore sthandwa sami .
Please tell me what to do and I'll do it without hesitation . I just
can't lose you , ngenze njani MaMtolo?"
Me :"Ndithe sundithethisa Nqobethule. Just drive" he spends
another second thinking then he starts driving . Good .
I'm really an impulsive reactor.
Moral of the story : never operate in a place of emotions. Look
at me now , where am I going with him?
Me :"Hay stop the car" he stops next to a dumping site and
sighs .
Me :"Hay bhuti you don't get to sigh here . You cheat and sigh?
Haybo the audacity" he bites his inner cheek and pops his
knuckles .
Me :" Can you stop doing that , iyadika" he throws me a dagger
and then shakes his head .
Me :"Take me back" he forwns a bit and drives...where he was
going .
Me :"Thule I said....where are you taking me?"
Thule :"I'm not losing you over this Funeka . Ngyaxolisa nje
sthandwa sami. Angsazi mina Funeka. Angsazi ngempela" he
huffs ....oh we're going to his house.
He parks outside and we both walk in to what used to be
home.
I seat on the ottoman and stare at him on the couch .
Me :"What did I do to you? Why did you go to her? Why her
and not me?" He bites his cheeks .
Thule :"You want the truth?" Here goes nothing. I nod .
Thule:"I couldn't be as relentless as I was with her . I want to
make sweet love to you , I don't want you to see me as an
animal that I turn into when I'm mad and release my sexual
tension. It sounds selfish . I know I broke your heart kodwa
ngyaxolisa MaMtolo , ngiyakcela" I can't help my tears .
Me :"What if- What if the tables were turned Thule
would you forgive me?" He closes his eyes for a second and
sighs.
Me :"Exactly...Now tell me how do I forgive you Thule? How."
Thule :"Please allow me to gain your trust back... that's it
MaMtolo . I just need you to give me a yes." I chuckle a bit .
Me :"I'll give you that yes on one condition"
There's a hint of hope in his eyes....and a smile .
Me :"I want her picture on this table"he frowns a bit and then
his eyes pop as he recognises the seriousness in my voice .
This may seem childish but truth of the matter is I am going to
forgive him eventually , it may not be now or tomorrow or next
week but eventually I will because of the love I have for this
man .
I can't forgive him without teaching him a lesson , I want to see
him squirm each time he's asked about the picture . I want guilt
to bury him each time we have dinner and her picture stares at
us until I forgive him. Until I am 100% sure I have forgiven him
and the thought of her doesn't trigger me like it does now .
Thule :"But that is absurd"
Me :"Then you don't want my forgiveness Nqobethule. Take me
back" I get up and he sits still thinking hard.
When I make my way to the door...he shouts
Thule :"I'll do it. For whatever reason muntuza I'll do it ." I turn
and he's looking at the empty table .
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*Mnotho*
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It's another day of nothing but work and grinding for the next
meal .
I want to drive to Mofolo to get Sena since this is her off day but
I'm disturbed by my PA who comes in running .
Me :"What's going on Mary?"
Mary :"Yhuu hay boss you won't believe this...." She walks in
and sits on the visitor's chair . She is probably the only person in
this office who is so comfortable with me .
Me :"Need I ask you again?" I have a packet of sour worms and
she grabs them .
Mary :"Your uncle is in Amib Holdings right now"
Me :"My uncle? What uncle manje?"
Mary :"Your father's brother . He is at Amib Holdings , a friend
of mine works there and she told me he's been firing left right
and centre . People are getting written warning . It's really
shubbed " what?!
I grab my phone and call Thule , it rings a few times and he
answers .
Me :"Where are you?"
Thule :"Haybo you don't greet now ?" He's working on my last
nerve , he really is .
Me :"Why aren't you at work Ngikulindile? Didn't I tell you that I
want you at work on Monday?"
Thule :"Cha kodwa bhuti..."
Me :"So I'm lying?"
Thule :"Cha bhuti you're not it's...."
Me :"So why aren't you at work Thule? When I was talking to
you ububona ngathi ngiyanya nje? I'm a fool neh?"
Thule :"Kodwa bhuti you're not being fair"
Me :"Not fair? Ngazonginyela Wena . I have so many things I
have to overlook including all our parent's businesses I have to
spear hold single handedly and you telling me I'm being unfair?
Life is unfair , deal with it. I want you at the Amib building to
put out that fire or uzokhala Nqobethule . I'm too soft on you ,
you shit on my head nxn" I drop the call and huff.
I don't need this , I really don't.
.
.
.
*Makhosi*
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.
.
"K'sele mina
K'sele mina ngedwa nje
Nang'owesibi uyamlandela
Nang'owesithathu uyamphelezela
Bonke bashadile
Usis'omdala useshadile...."
They all sang their subliminal sing directed to me . Mxm .
Who cares about marriage in this day and age .
Imagine willingly walking in a soccer field without soccer boots
on , you'll get dribbled my dear .
I just roll my eyes , take the blanket I was given as a gift yoMabo
and go back to my room .
So what my sisters are all married? Maybe I was not made for
the institution of marriage . Yes , that's what I have decided .
I take a sip of my strawberry lips which I have poured in a coffee
mug , I miss varsity .
I drank i-percent lami with my chest .
I've been living on the edge ever since I got that degree , I don't
know why I didn't repeat the course like other children , now
look at my life? I'm sitting here waiting for my father to find a
suitor for me .
I grew up knowing that this will come but it doesn't make the
situation any lighter , maybe I'll be someone's second wife .
Maybe I'll be the first but the second is definitely coming.
The only difference with the way my father will do things this
time is with me , he'll ask if I actually want the person because
he knows me . My mouth runs like diarrhoea , he doesn't want
his daughter being called "umabuya emendweni" only because
she couldn't keep her mouth shut .
So funny because he intentionally raised me to be strong willed
but each time the wits are at his end , he gets annoyed.
My mother runs in with the door and I close my eyes for a
second.
Ma :"Manje why are you sitting here? Why aren't you
celebrating with your sisters ? Don't be jealous. Angithi you
have a loud mouth so finding a suitor for you is ten times harder
than your sister...." And she goes on and on and on...she can go
on for days this one .
.
.
.
I have been called into the ancestral hut so I wear my my long
dress and a dork , as per my mother's instructions .
I bend my back a bit as I walk in and sit on the reed mat on the
right .
There are three old men and another one sitting opposite me
and my father sits comfortably on his throne.
Daddy :"Ndodakazi , these men are from the Ngwekazi kingdom
, they came here to accompany Zwelibanzi who has asked for
your hand in marriage . And as I had told you and you agreed
that you do want an arranged marriage , I agreed and they paid
all your cows today" he says proudly and my lip is on the floor .
Imihlolo sometimes come in form of arranged marriages .
Me :"Kodwa baba...hehe ay" I chuckle a little because of
disbelief .
My eyes move to the so called husband, he's wearing geeky
reading glasses and scotch pants , even my father doesn't have
those .
He looks so.... innocent yhu.
Me :"Can I be left with my.... husband?" I say looking at my
father and he smiles proudly.
They all exit and I'm left with the nerd .
Me :"So you're serious about this marriage thing?" He nods like
a fool.
Someone give me that bottle of strawberry lips haibo .
Me :"Can you even have sex Wena?" His eyes pop . Where did
my father get this little fool?
Me :"Can you go down on a woman? Where is the clit? Show
me where my clit is?"
He gasps and I just want to roll my eyes.
Me :"see? You're not ready for marriage . Find out where the
clit is , where the g spot is and we'll talk . For now I need you to
organise me a flight to Durban without letting our families know
. You're my husband angithi? Couples have secrets" he nods his
peanut and I just want to smash it on the floor .
What's his name again?
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"I want my baby to have your eyes , I'm going against my own
advice" -Bryson Tiller ,Finesse
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.
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*Thule*
.
.
.
I can't believe I'm adulting but my brother just ordered me like
a little kid.
Mxm .
Funeka walks in the bedroom disturbing my train of thought.
I try to follow her eyes around and I don't see the spark
anymore , that little shine that her eyes usually have . Is that all
because of me?
Me :"MaMtolo..." She looks at me with her brows arched .
Me :"Ngiyaxolisa sthandwa sami . It was never my intention to
hurt you like this ..." She brings her hand up to stop me from
speaking.
Funeka :"stop... just stop Thule ." There's a moment of total
awkwardness and she sits down in front of the mirror.
When I bought this house I envisioned her sitting right there
brushing her face with that brush that makes her brown .
Funeka :"Don't forget that picture , I want it at that table on the
afternoon" honestly I don't know why she's doing this ..
I don't understand why she insists on hurting herself.
I just nod and carry on dressing up.
Me :"Can you go to the rank for me today , I'll be at AH the
whole day..." She shakes her head
Funeka :"I'll be travelling to Memel today...."
Me :"To do what? When we're you going to tell me?"
Funeka :"I have a forestry business Nqobethule" I miss her
calling me Thule....just Thule.
I just nod because I don't know what else to do or say . There's
this sudden drift between us and I don't know how to fix it .
I grab the laptop bag and move towards her . We stare at each
other in the mirror and I know not to come close so I just kiss
the back of her head and exit .
I fucked up!
.
.
.
I make way to the office and I get really weird stares from staff
and I almost want to ask what's going on.
I pass the reception since she looks like she's busy with
something.
Things are awkwardly quiet here .
Stefani is outside the door like always , I greet and she's
acting...weird I guess.
Why's she here? I didn't tell her that I'm coming ....Oh
Mnotho.
If she's here then the office is probably open so I greet her and
head to the office.
As expected it's open but what I find doesn't sit well with me.
Babomkhulu is sitting comfortably on my father's chair looking
at some paper .
Me :"Babomkhulu" I greet and only then do i grab his attention
.
Liba :"Ndodana. I've been waiting for you and Mnotho , you and
your brother's will run my brother's company into the ground .
Not even one of you will respect this company enough to come
to work early . When I got here it was a party , all the workers
were socialising . Not working...." He rants .
Me :"Well I'm here now , better late than never "
Liba :"Good . I want the keys to this drawer , ay nobafo he was
secretive" I walk towards the table . I wasn't given any keys , if
there's someone who knows about this it'll be Mnotho .
Me :"I doubt that whatever is in there has nothing to do with
you , can you excuse me i want to sit" I see a trace of shock and
disbelief in his face but he quickly covers it up well .
Liba :"Oh I thought we were still going to have a family meeting
as to who will take what in the family business since your
parents didn't have a will"
Me :"Mnotho has already decided and we all agree ,askies
madala" I don't agree but he doesn't need to know all of that .
Liba :"Seniyaziphatha nina Thule? Decided and told who? Does
umkhulu know?"
Me :"You're asking the wrong person .with all due respect but
you know where Mnotho works , can I do what I came here to
do?" He chuckles and shakes his head . Bloody opportunist!
I don't understand someone who celebrates someone else's
hard earned sweat. He was watching from the sidelines when
my father lost everything and Mnotho had to entervene , all of
them watched and didn't do anything .
That man had to try and keep 6 mouths fed legally , they all had
their lives on lockdown .
.
.
.
*Mnotho*
.
.
"it ain't about how fast I get there , ain't about what's waiting
on the other side ,
It's the climb" - Miley Cyrus
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.
.
Me :"Ok I'm sick of this hide and seek game you want us to play
. Ngimdala Senamile , I'm sure you also know what you want .
Here
now I want you to make a decision... Uzoba ngowami or...."
Before I can finish my sentence I feel her lips on mine , my
hands find way to her full waist.
Actually.... I've never dated full figured women , and I feel I'll
have a thrill here .
My hands move to her very thick behind , I give it a squeeze and
I feel all my blood rush to my member .
She pulls out of the kiss and I groan a bit.
Sena :"Ok let's not get carried away now ." She points at my
hard member and giggles .
Me :"You're enjoying this aren't you?" She blushed .
Sena :"It's nice knowing that I'm attractive" she bites her lower
lips and my mind goes on a frenzy.
Me :"The day I get you Sena , I won't stop until I see tears on
those cheeks" I say with my eyes closed .
Sena :"Oh please...tears? Maybe you're giving yourself too
much credit" I chuckle and open one eyes .
Me :"Sizoke sibone ntokazi"
.
.
.
Nothing is as annoying as trying to hold all of these businesses
together .
I need a flippin' break !
Thule runs in with my door and I throw a dagger at him .
Me :"Phuma!"
Thule :"Kodwa bhuti-"
Me :"Hlala ke Thule" I fold my arms in my chest and stare at him
.
The fool rolls his eyes and exits .
In a few seconds there's a knock , he was probably still debating
with himself.
Me :"Who's it?"
Thule :"It's Thule"
Me :"Come in" he walks in annoyed as hell . I also would be too
.
Me :"Do we have an appointment mnumzane?"
Thule :"Quit playing man . Is there a key for that drawer in
Bafo's office?"oh kambe there's that . Where did he hide that
key kambe?
Me :"Yea there is but I don't remember where it is ."
Thule :"Hay Mnotho think"
Me :"you won't need whatever is in there Thule. When you do ,
I'll show it to you" he narrows his eyes like he's thinking.
Me :"Have I ever led you astray?" He shakes his head "then
trust me" I don't even know what is in there , I just have to trust
my father right now.
.
.
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*Makhosi*
.
.
.
Finally I get to see the big bad world with my own eyes.
Finally I set foot Kwelikabhanana , as my grandmother would
call Durban .
My "husband" booked me into a hotel , he's not so dumb
afterall.
I check in and head to my hotel room .
Honestly I don't know what the plan is coming to Durban but I
just need to be here.
I get in the lift with two other guys . The other one is a black
James Bond and the other onne track suits , he's a Snoop Dogg.
I greet and James Bond greets back.
Mxm Snoop Dogg uyazi phone(ela) .
I just decide to brush him off .
The lift comes to a stop and I get to my room .
Finally!! A piece of freedom!
Here I'm not royalty .
Here I can be myself , I can either be a ghetto girl or I can be a
spoilt brat .... it's all in my hands .
That freedom of choice.... it feels so brand new .
.
.
"These streets will make you feel brand new , their lights will
inspire you"
.
.
.
I want to do things a bit different than I usually do them. I want
to be an independent woman.... whatever that is but I want it .
I want to walk down the streets in heels and a suit .
The receptionist directed me to some shop down the road for
really nice , affordable clothes for summer so I run there .
True to the wordthey help me with my entire wardrobe and
opposite them is a show that sells hair so I run there .
I buy the longest wig I set my eyes on and hurry back to my
room .
I just wasted money didn't I? Kodwa ngiwumfazi womuntu mina
and indoda other the card is limitless.
I put on a brown bikini and the wig , I'm ready for the beach .
I grab a bag bought. , put in some food and go.
The beach is bit quieter than I had expected....flip it's a Monday
.
Ooooh there is Snoop Dogg , he's a wearing a short today and
he has really nice legs . There's a big dog next to him and yeap
he's bare .
Me :"Excuse me sir..." He doesn't turn but the dog does and I
want to jump so far away from him .
Snoop Dogg :"he doesn't bite" I almost roll my eyes . He's
wearing the same sun glasses even today , cocky mother**** .
He releases the dog and it runs the opposite direction.
I sit next to him , luckily I have my towel wrapped around me so
I'm not so self conscious of my body .
Me :"Can I sit with you"
Snoop Dogg :"I believe you already have ."
Me :"I'm sorry, I should've asked"
Snoop Dogg :"Not to be rude or anything but this is my alone
time so if you aren't asking for directions or anything please
excuse me" he gets up slowly and in a sudden the dog is next to
him .
He's so rude . That's not how you talk to people. I get up as well
and follow behind him .
He has broad shoulders , the kind you want to cry on .
Snoop Dogg :"Sisi please stop following me . Ubanga iscefe"
Me :"Yhuu manje uzokwenze njani because I want to follow you
around the whole day? Uyabona ukuthi kmele ube-strong?" He
chuckles and walks very close to the dog....weird.
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"Forever and a while , in my heart you'll stay" -Major
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*Thule*
.
.
.
After a long ass day all I want is to just lie in the shower doing
absolutely nothing at all . Nothing compares to the feelingyou
get when your body's under water , it remains unmatched .
I throw my laptop bag on the couch and take a moment to stair
at the picture on top of the table .
"Fuck!"
It kind of disturbs me a bit so I just turn it upside down . Is it
really necessary for this picture to be here?
My train of thought is disturbed by a knock on the door .
Next thing Sabatha and his girlfriend are flying in with my door
without waiting for my response .
Sabatha :"Morning ! Morning family!!" They can be very
annoying , believe me and this happens to be one of those days
where I just don't need to see them.
I groan a bit and I see GC roll her eyes with the corner of my eye
.
Me :"what are you doing here Sabatha?"
Sabatha :"we're here to visit you" all along the girlfriend hasn't
said anything . She's been on her phone totally ignoring us.
I'm about to say something when I see Funeka pop up behind
them .
GC rolls her eyes , I'm sure she saw her medulla oblongata
there...then she hugs Funeka really tight .
Funeka :"Why aren't you guys walking in?"
Sabatha :"Your man doesn't want to let us walk in" Funeka just
shakes her head and walks in , they follow ..
She didn't greet me.... I sigh .
Is this how the consequences of cheating are supposed to feel?
Cause I don't understand why anyone would want to do this to
themselves again. I follow behind them slowly and they're all
seated in the lounge . I sit on the armsrest on the single couch
Funeka is sitting on .
My hands make way to her hair and for the first time in forever ,
she lets me .
This damn picture is up again .
Sabatha gives me a look , a "wtf" look .
Like she was told...GC grabs the picture and stares at it for a
while .
GC :"I've never seen this face before , who's she?"
Disappointment
Shame .
Guilt.
All of them eat away at me as MaFakude stares at me and says
"explain to GC baby.... who's she?" I open and close my mouth.
Not even a single word leaves my mouth .
What do I say? GC giggles a bit then goes back to her phone .
This is fucked up!!
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*Mnotho*
.
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Oh found it!! I heave a sigh of relief.
I've been trying to remember where exactly I placed this key
and then I remembered that dad gave it to me when I was in my
office .
My phone beeps totally disturbing me .
.
<Libalele just told me ukuthi niyaziphatha lapho Mnotho. Since
when do you make decisions without informing me as the elder
. This is something we should've discussed as a family . I'm
coming back there ngathi all of you are losing the plot>
mkhul'Mntukathenjwa
I hope by "all" he's also talking about his son because I'd rather
die than have them grab my father's legacy right under our feet
.
.
.
I'm finally done for the day and I'm on my way to Sena. For
some reason she refuses to come to my house , I've tried all my
tricks and there's always a new excuse with her .
She comes out with her black and white uniform showing off
her curves .
The day I get this woman...shit WILL hit the fan .
She gets in and heaves a sigh .
Me :"Long day?"
Sena :"and emotionally taxing as well" so she's not going to kiss
me? I thought that's what lovers do when they see each other
nje .
Sena :"And then? Ungibukani? (What's are you staring at?)" Oh
it doesn't seem like she's like the rest .
I just chuckle and shake my head .
Who gave birth to this stubborn person?
.
.
*Mbuyiseni*
.
.
Whoever this girl is... I'm going to kill her .
I swear I will.
Me :"Sisi what's your problem?"
Crazy girl :"me? No I was talking about these grapes , you
should try them . They're almost as sweet as the ones we have
at home ." She's like a bad rash but for some weird reason she
smells heavenly...like baby powder .
For some reason I don't think she even knows who I am with
how much she doesn't care that she's annoying me .
Me :"Why won't you leave me alone?" I hear her giggles and
honestly....they annoy me.
Like some squiky mouse .
Crazy girl :"I need you to apologize for the way you spoke to me
and help me find a job" I can feel her stare on my face and I
know she doesn't know what I can't see .
She is Masterclass Zulu crazy , who follows someone around the
whole day for an apology?
Me :"I'm sorry Sisi" I just need to stay away from me , this
gender has proven to me countless times that they're not be
trusted.
I'd be booh booh the fucken fool if I allow another one in my
space again.
Crazy girl :"The other part ? The job part"
Me :"Oh now that is pushing it"
Crazy girl :"Come on please ...I swear I'm the opposite of this
person . First impressions don't always have to last" I giggle a bit
.
Me :"ok I don't have a PA and I...." Next thing this huge weight
is on my body , hugging me .
That is way too much hugging and conversations for a day .
Me :"get off me man
I'll be your boss"
She gets off me just as fast as she came and squeals , does she
have to make so much noise?
Me :"What's your name?"
Crazy girl :"Makhosi...Just Makhosi"
Me :"I'll be your boss I'll get to know your identity you know?"
There's a bit of silence and then I can feel the shadow that
keeps on passing in my eyes.
I'm blind but I can feel when something is a bit too close to my
eyes .
Me :"Stop doing that!" I command a bit louder and aggressive
than normal .
I give her my business card , "those are my contact details , I'm
flying back to Joburg tomorrow night so you better sort
everything out" I slowly walk away from her .
"Yhuu are People from Joburg so uptight. Ngazizwa ngisaba"
she says so low .
Me :"And that mouth...if you want that job , you have to learn
to keep it closed" there's silence . I assume she nods so I
continue walking .
I wonder if she realises how much her life is about to change by
being my PA .
I have to make use of the fact that she's so clueless and in need
of a job , she'll see when she's inside shame .
My phone vibrates a bit and it reads the message .
.
<Come back home . Mkhulu is coming tomorrow morning and
he wants to see all of us> Mnotho .
.
Another family meeting ? I'm getting tired of these family
meetings . Nothing good ever comes out of them.
I'll just have to book her a flight from Joburg .
.
.
.
*Mabutho*
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.
.
[THE NEXT DAY]
I want all this constant bickering to stop.
It's not helping anyone me it doesn't seem like it's going to stop
anytime hence I'm off to the family meeting in mom's house .
The cars are already here so I know they're just waiting on me .
As soon as I walk in all their lazy eyes dart at me .
I thought Mbuyiseni was in Durban .
His sitting on the couch half as annoyed as I am , Sabatha is just
uninterested but Mnotho and Thule? They are ready for war .
I greet and sit next to Sab .
He has his elbow on his knees , balancing his head on his palm .
And guess what? His looking through Saint's pictures on his
phone totally unbothered by what's happening around him .
Babomkhulu :"Can we start baba" everyone settles down.
Mkhulu :"I've heard through grapevine that you boys have been
trying to exclude your father in the family business . Who gave
you that permission? Who told you boys that you can just take
over , i-" Mnotho's hand is up stopping him from speaking.
Mnotho :"Mkhulu I will say this with utmost respect...this...my
father's business has never , never in this life have been a family
business . Don't make that mistake . He single handedly took
the bull by the horn while you all watched by the sidelines .
Since they didn't leave a will , we are granted by the law to
share his assets amongst ourselves...their children" he looks
straight at ubabomkhulu who suddenly wears a smirk .
Babomkhulu :"since the assets will be shared , I think it's fair
that they be shared amongst ALL of my brother's
children...Senzelo ngena!" The door creaks and all our eyes
move to the direction of it.
What we find makes my blood run cold .
Mnotho's carbon copy walks in , I see a trace of frown in all my
brother's faces.
Babomkhulu :"Boys meet Senzelo... he's your father's son . He
didn't know about him unfortunately, he's Jabu's son" Jabu? I
don't remember ever hearing of that name but I see Mnotho
wear a deadly frown and I know it's not good .
Senzelo :"Nice to finally meet you my brothers... Now let's get
to the reason we're here...the businesses" all of us are too
shocked to say anything .
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“Konke enginako ngikusebenzele
Ngisebenzela abantabam” – amagez’amahle
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*Mnotho*
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“Ndodana
.
First and foremost I know I owe all of you apologize for leaving
you with so many unanswered questions , kakhulukazi wena
mkami .
.
My heart is in pieces as I write this , I can’t believe I was selfish
enough to sleep with someone who wasn’t you . I know I didn’t
do right by you and nothing can ever compensate for that.
.
My sons , your father cheated on your mother and as a result
you have a brother somewhere in the world . Your father took a
coward way out and was never really present in the child’s life ,
don’t be like your father .
See that woman you call a mother? I have never deserved her
love but she gave it to me even when I did her wrong .
.
.
I want you to grow up and be better versions of me , be a
husband your wife can call a committee meeting just to brag
about .
Be a good example to your children , show them that a man
stays , a man provides , a man protects , a man loves , a man
breaks down and a man cries but not even once do you tap out
and ditch responsibility .
Show people out there that you can be rich and not get your
riches from crime but hardwork , believe me that is the biggest
flex I never got to have but that is a story for another day.
I’m hoping I don’t have to right a will because none of all these
riches have been mine for a while now .
Nsingizi unakekele igazi lam . I know it comes as a shock but all
those documents you kept on signing were for Amib holdings
and everything is in your name .
Ngyaxolisa sthandwa sami . No money in the world can make
you forgive me because I know that was the last chance I had .
I’m so happy I got to spend my last forever with you , i’m happy
you got to carry my last name .
I’m glad I wasn’t making a mistake when I told myself that I can
take on this life thing with you besides me .
.
Mnotho nebutho lakho…
You have made me proud . there are so many things I regret in
my life but having you as my sons isn’t one of them . You’ve
made each and every moment a memory I hope you’ll keep.
You’ve made forever seem like a minute .
One second I was seeing Thule for the first time , next thing
Sabatha is graduating .
All of you are my most precious possessions , you’ve made me
proud of calling you a father .
Ngiyohlezi nginithanda . whenever you feel lost just remember I
live somewhere in your hearts , you don’t have to look for
something materialistic but search where our memories live .
Soon you’ll forget about me , from the way I smell to the way I
make my coffee and when that finally happens…don’t feel guilty
. Don’t stop living because of me . The smiles on your faces as
you take on life will always keep me company up above.
Nisale ngemfudumalo .
Liminathi Mwelase .”
.
.
There’s nothing but silence in the room , as I had predicted
when I found the letter as well .
Sabatha is in GC’s arms , I don’t know when she walked in by
the way but I’m glad she did .
Thule look a bit absent but I’ll deal with that later .Mabutho?
Stuck in his head .
I think this letter makes our parent’s death so surreal . That this
is it , uBafo just said goodbye for the last time and the last
things we have of him are nothing but memories we have made
over the years .
We’ll never meet ever again .
I see a tear drop on Mbuyiseni’s eye and he lets it . The biggest
part of me wants to jump to him and wipe it off but I remember
mama’s famous words “there are some wells in our hearts that
are supposed to be filled with tears in order for us to heal” .
This is one journey he has to go through on his own .
Babomkhulu :”I still don’t believe this stupid letter how are we
supposed to know that you didn’t fabricate this?” urgh give me
a break
Me :”I knew you would say that hence I took the liberty of
asking for some legal documents from his lawyer verifying this
and here they are…” I hand it over to him and he grabs from me
.
He can’t even hide the disappointment he feels , it’s written all
over his face .
Me :”Since everything is written under Nsingizi Mwelase’s
name and Senzelo is not her husband I don’t really think he’ll
get anything . us as the rightful heirs will keep on doing things
as we have been doing all along . Bbamkhulu I’ll wait for you to
tell me when you’re moving out of my father’s house .
singahluphani” I grab my car keys and phone hen get up .
My eyes move to my supposed brother and what’s that I see? Is
it pain? I don’t know…i’m always wrong when it comes to these
things .
.
.
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*Mbuyiseni*
.
.
.
I’m having that “this is it” moment and t feels like a hole in my
lung . I still can’t believe they are gone and I’m supposed to do
another lifetime without them . it already feels like they’ve
been gone for way too long .
An unfamiliar scent suddenly fills my nose , taking over the
entire space . There are a couple of footsteps going outside and
I just sit still.
Voice :”What type of man was he?” I’m guessing that is my
“brother”
Me :”A good father , an even better brother and an amazing
friend . He made mistakes like everyone else but he was good
person .” there’s silence and I have to guess that he was
nodding .
Senzelo :”Ouch”
Me :”What? What’s wrong?”
Senzelo :”No I understand you not willing to touch me , I
behaved like a jerk”
Me :”Oh no I didn’t see that . I’m blind” I hear him giggle and it
dies down
Senzelo :”Are you serious?” I laugh lightly and nod my head .
Senzelo :”Whoa I’m sorry , I really didn’t know”
Me :”No , it’s fine . you don’t really know me” there’s silence
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giving me a chance to review what I just said . “Flip , that didn’t
sound nice”
I hear him huff . It’s going to take me forever to get used to his
scent , it’s a bit too strong .
Senzelo :”They hate me , don’t they?”
Me :” Currently you look like an enemy , they don’t have a
single hating bone in their body…Mnotho is a bit overprotective
of all of us so I don’t want to lie to you , you’ll have a hard time
with him .” there’s silence , then a chuckle
Senzelo :”so you don’t see me as an enemy?” I just chuckle and
shake my head .
Right when I’m about to say something , my phone disturbs me
.
Me :”Hello”
Voice :”Hello bhuti , I’m in Joburg yazi…” it can only be the
talkative Miss Makhosi .
Me :”Now how can I help you sisi? Am I HR?” I hear her
mumble “yhu lobhuti” in the background .
Makhosi :”Bhuti I don’t have a place to hide my head tonight”I
should’ve nown , you give a person your hand and they want
the entire arm .
Me :”Where are you Makhosi?”
Makhosi :”uuhm i…I where am I ? I’m in Jozi”
Me :”Where ? Jozi is huge . What do you see in front of you”
Makhosi :”a building . a very long building . I think this takes up
the space of my entire village . I wonder how the view looks like
from above….”
Me :”Ok ok Makhosi , come back to me . What does the
building look like?”
Makhosi :”blue , or is this green ? I don’t know .i was never
good with colours ke mna . green nd lime green are the same
thig to me . Just like maroon and red“
Me :”Are there taxis nearby?”
Makhosi :”Yea . These taxi que marshals are quite rude yerr
yeses” and she goes on and on and on and on , it seems like she
can’t stop and I will have my hands full .
I ask my driver Steve to go get her and drop her off at my house
. I hope by the time I get there she’ll be too tired to talk .
.
.
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*Thule*
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.
.
I’m sure not even the mortuary is not as cold as this house . The
cold shoulder she’s giving me is unbearable I just can’t .
Me :”Ok sthandwa sami we can’t live like this , I asked for
forgiveness and you said you forgave me but instead of things
being better , they’re deteriorating everyday . I don’t know
what to do anymore”
Funeka :”Yu can’t rush the process of forgiveness”
Me :”I know I can’t but you’re also not willing to forgive me”
Funeka :”Ufuna ndithini mna Nqobethule”
Me :” I wan ]t you to tell me that you still love me because
that’ll give me hope . I want you to tell me that you want to
forgive me and actually mean it . I want you to tell me that you
want me to sweat for your forgiveness so that I know that I
have to do something . i-“
Funeka :”I don’t need to tell you that Thule , umdala . you’re
supposed to figure it out on your own. The problem is I let you
take control of this relationship and you got comfortable . I
want a man that is attentive , I want someone who listens ,
someone who truly cares . It’s not my job to figure out how
you’ll show me all those things .” I should’ve kept quiet , now
I’m beyond confused .
Mabutho should know about these things .
.
.
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*GC*
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I’m going through Sabatha’s social media and my boyfriend
actually replies to thirsty girl’s DMs on Instagram? I can’t
believe this .
How dare he? Not on my watch .
On this one comment he out an entire heart with a lock , hehe
amadoda ayaqhela shame .
Me :”SABATHA!!!!”
“yhu baby uyarasa , I’m trying to put Saint to sleep” oh kambe I
still have a daughter . yea no sex guys , condomize please .
He comes back and gives me a bored look .
Sabatha :”Why’s my phone on your hand?”
Me :”Because what’s mine is yours . Why are you locking hearts
in people’s comment sections wena? You’re single on the TL
wena huh? I’m the clown here?”
Sabatha :”A clo- You know what? Just give me that” I give him
his phone and stand next to him .
His deleting the comment and any other he has made
complementing a girl .
Singadlala amadoda , the only thing I’m supposed to be seeing
abo-“sure bhuda” as a comment , not abo-“You look beautiful”
with locked hearts nogal? Yadelela uSabatha .
He’s never commented on a single picture of me mara he’s
locking hearts on girl’s pictures.
Me :”Hay Sabatha . Susa nalo wamabele . What do you talk
about with her? Her gigantic boobs? Unfollow her please” he
just does as I say without saying a single word.
Sabatha :”Yangjwayela wena Mgcini nxn”Is he serious? Flip , he
looks serious. he leaves to the kitchen and comes back with a
bottle of water .
He unburtles his belt still staring at me .
Sabatha :”Uyivuse leyangane , uzokhala” next thing I’m laying
on my bed like a nandos chicken.
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“Love.
You better show me some love” – Jhene Chilombo
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*Mabutho*
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Today I’ll be moving back home . I really hate that it’s me but
someone has to do it , it’s not like the roles given to my
brothers is a fun one to each of them so I guess I have to take ]
one for the team .
Thule sent me to go check on Mangi and collect his money .
Why’s he still in the taxi business? Beats me .
An entire CEO worrying about taxi drivers , I don’t know what
his problem is honestly and I don’t think I want to know
because it’s weird .
I text Mangi and he directs me .
I always find it amazing how this place is never quiet , atleast
when I come here….it’s always filled with people .
“sawubona skhulu(boss)” I just nod at him and he hands me the
money .
Mangi :”It’s all in there mlungu wam…” calling me ‘mlungu’
because I’m your boss has always left me baffled a bit .
So the only representation of people in high places are
supposed to b white?
I mean I’m here…as black as my mother’s couch and you still
call me mlungu ?
I nod again and look through the money . I don’t have the
energy to educate him on the blacks that are out here making
marks and kicking doors for the next generation regardless of
their skin colour .
While I’m still counting a sweet voice suddenly fills my ears .
It’s sweet and all sorts of angelic .
Because of it , I bring my head up and she’s trying to talk to
Mangi who flat out ignores her .
She seems frustrated all of a sudden and she looks…beautiful ,
if there’s such .
Mangi :”Sorry grootman , wena…you’re making noise. Can’t you
see I’m busy?” she rolls her big eyes and brushes her very huge
Afro . I wonder if all that hair is hers . Women have tricks these
days .
Me :”No
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you can carry on . I’m still busy here” I still want to hear her talk
some more .
She huffs and goes back to Mnagi .
Did she just brush me off?
Wow .
They whisper quite distant from me and he comes back after a
while .
Me :”Wu-ma’am yini?(Is she your girlfriend?” he bursts into
laughter
Mangi :”Ah lo? Le-kwerekwere leli? No way . She’s pretty yena
but no way. You don’t know what they come with from their
foreign countries-“ I stop him with my hand before he repulses
me even further .
Me :”You appear more and more stupid each time you open
your mouth . This country doesn’t need people like you . What’s
her name?”
Mangi :”Tadi…Tadiwa” I nod and put the money in it’s little bag
Me :”It better be the last time I hear you talking like that about
anyone . Yanginyanyisa” I cluck my tongue and leave .
Tadiwa? I want her number…just to hear that voice one more
time
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*GC*
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He wants to kill me .
The plan is not for us to have sex but for him to rip it off .
I’m sure it probably won’t work after this . It’ll be numb .
This freaking wig is all over my face .
Great , just great! Exactly what I need .
I remove the strands of hair that has suddenly became wet
because of my sweat .
Yea kyasebenzwa today .
He comes back to my face and stares deep in my eyes and
moves oh so gracefully .
Lord thank you for this man’s waist . The way he’s moving on
top of me…it’s like he’s dancing to a certain song .
The sweat on his forehead is enough to make me want to reach
my high .
I remove the hair again .
Next thing he removes the entire wig and throws it somewhere
in the room .
Sabatha :”Focus!” he commands and starts moving .
All I can do at this point is nod so I do exactly that.
“I’m tired baby please come already….” I beg .
He gives me one long stroke making me thing he’s about to stop
and starts again .
This time my ass is up in the air with my chest in the bed . As he
bangs my poor ass he pushes me to the bed and in a moment
I’m lying on the bed with him doing all the work .
No, I’m tapping out this man is not what I signed up for .
Sabatha :”Ngithe dunusa Mgcini . Noma nasembhedeni kusese
nguwe indoda?” I shake my head furiously while trying to look
at him .
Sabatha :”Dunusa ke”
Me :”But baby I’m tired”
Sabatha :”Mgcini…” the way he just said my name….like there’s
a warning to it so I quickly jump to my knees and obey .
My poor followers…if they knew a man makes me kneel like this
kunganyiwa .
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*Senamile*
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.
.
I just left work literally 10 minutes ago with my picnic basket .
Lucky today there were more left overs and the table I was
serving gave me a nice tip so I was able to put together this
picnic basket .
It’s honestly all I can afford with Mbuso’s fees on my back .
I know Mnotho is going through a lot and probably thinks all
those late night phone calls are enough because that’s the only
time he can gets to himself and me because of my hours at
work .
He’s going to be here in a minute so I dish up for Mbuso and
leave his food in the microwave .
My phone vibrates and he’s outside .
He probably thinks we’re going to seat in his car like we usually
do . This man needs to get his head back in the dating game
because there’s no hope here .
I get to him and put the picnic basket at the bac .
He looks a bit taken aback
Me :”We’re going to have a picnic today”he’s mouth opens for a
second and then guilt washes all over him .
Mnotho :”I’m so sorry baby , I know I haven’t been the best
partner to you . Heck I haven’t put in any effort into this
relationship . It’s just-“ I put my hand up to stop him
Me :”When I said I wanted a man who has his ducks in a row I
didn’t make a mistake . You have come to me numerous times
to tell me how everything is too much for you , it wouldn’t be
fair if I expected you to be the perfect boyfriend as well .
Sibadala Mnotho , we have bills to pay . I know you won’t
always be available at the click of my finger as long as you have
let me know that you’ll be busy…”
Mnotho :”But I can atleast try sthandwa sami”
Me :”You can but when you can’t or won’t be available , you let
me know sgora sam” he chuckles a bit and shakes his head .
Mnotho :”Must’ve done something right edlozini lasekhaya .”
he kisses my forehead and starts the car .
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“Impilo ishokwe ngezitini” - Sthandiwe Madoba
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*Funeka*
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How could it be that I really want to hate him but I’m being
drawn to him each and every day .
There are a number of times where I felt like removing that
girl’s picture in the lounge each time we have dinner but the
guilt that eats him and is even visible on his face tickles me a bit
, as much as I want to move on as well.
He walks in with a tray…breakfast in bed I guess .
Walking is really seeing…this is my Thule?
Oh there’s no smile on his face….still him .
He places it besides me and pushes me off to sit , he could’ve
just asked me to move a bit .
Thule :”I made you breakfast MaFakude”
Me :”I can see Mwelase” I can see a smile forming at the corner
of his mouth but he just chuckles instead. Such a beautiful man.
Thule :”I have come to realise that there are some promises I
haven’t kept when it comes to us…”
Me :”Can we not talk about that please , not today please . I
haven’t even had breakfast”
Thule :”Awufuni ukungilalela Funeka . Let me show you
instead…” in a second he’s on top of me kissing me like he has
never done before .
His kisses still get me I don’t want to lie but we can’t have sex ,
well not now atleast . He’ll think he’s off the hook and stop
making breakfast hay .
My hands are on his chest trying to push him off but instead of
him getting off he moves his waist making me feel his boner .
It’s sitting directly on my coochie .
I’ve been delivered .
No dick formed against me shall…. Shit!
Mans is slick, he’s gently massaging my clit like he has all the
time in the world . What happened to my pyjama pants?
He moves from my face going to my lower body.
Is this really happening?
I thought that man was serious in the video when he said
“amadoda amaZulu awayikhothi leyanto”. I guess he wasn’t
talking about my man because he’s looking at my coochie like
it’s his last meal .
He strokes my coochie one time with his finger while staring at
me and oh Lord I have to admit , that is the sexiest thing he has
done thus far .
He licks his upper lip slowly and then bites he’s lower lip .
Me :”Stop staring at me and eat me Thule” I sound desperate
but who cares because I know he doesn’t.
He chuckles still keeping his normal serious face on , what
happened next felt like an out of body experience I swear .
He ate my coochie like he hasn’t eaten anything for daaaays.
The feeling…the wave of pleasure that suddenly took over is not
one I want to let go of .
I grind his face and he holds me down with both his hands on
my waist .
Lol I guess some things will never change .
His lip on my clit is going faster and his finger on the coochie is
not really making things easier .
Thule :”Let go mfazi wam” I shake my head . It feels too good, I
can’t let go of it just yet .
Thule :”I’ll make you cum again and again…Let go Funeka” he
gives me one last lick and all the walls of Jericho come tumbling
down . I did say I’ve been delivered.
I see something shoot to him wetting his entire face , tf?
The hell just happened?
Me :”Did I just pee on your face?” I’m not even embarrassed . I
can just blame him for having sex with me before going to the
toilet for my morning pee.
He gives me such a smirk , I’ve never seen this one since I’ve
known him .
Thule :”No , you just made me feel like a man”
Me :”by peeing on your bed?” he chuckles and kisses my
coochie then exits the room to the bathroom .
This man is as weird as they come .
What did I do? Anyway I don’t care , this better be the first of
many times he makes me feel like that .
.
<hay sisi I thought I was mad at him kanti nooo marn , I was
sexually frustrated> me to Gc
.
I couldn’t wait to tell her . after a few minutes my phone beeps
.
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<right now I wish I was sexually starved . I can’t handle him
Funeka> she even put crying emojis . She’s always been
dramatic this one .
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<Hay he can’t be that bad> me
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<I slept at four o’clock Funeka and even then , he was still inside
me. Ever did iWoman on top and your back burns and you’re
still on top? Ever begged your man to cum for your own good
because dog style is not for the faint hearted. My muscles sis>
Gc .
Ok that was too detailed .
.
<lol askies you’ll get used to it , right now you’re overwhelmed .
You should do yoga and you get used to stretching.>
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<Might as well . I feel like I opened a can of worms for even
having it with him> if I don’t ignore he now she’ll go on and on
the whole day .
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*Makhosi*
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Being in Joburg has to be the next best thing after sliced bread .
My “boss” is never here .
He dropped me off , asked Steve to accompany me to my room
and that was the last time I saw or heard of him .
I’ve even made myself at home .
I hope he won’t mind my big picture on the wall .
I don’t think he’d mind though , he seems like a really cool
person who doesn’t talk a lot and is not attentive .
I clean my room and the rest of the house since I have nothing
to do .
Make breakfast with whatever I find in the fridge which is bacon
Russians and eggs.
He walks in when I’m sitting in the kitchen counter and I quickly
jump off .
I take a look at him as he locks the door slowly , taking his time
.
I steal a glance at his manly jawline , his appetizing full lips and
those manly arms . I wonder how it feels lying on his chest
….some girls are blessed huh?
His legs? His bow legs? H Because of them he can get it any
time of day, well he would if he wasn’t my boss .
Mbuyiseni :”Good morning ma’am”
Me :”Morning sir” he turns to face me still not moving from the
door .
He wears shades indoors? He must be serious about his “drip”.
Mbuyiseni :”I trust you’re well” I nod and he does the same .
So he’s not going to take them off? Yho ok .
Let me mind my own , this silence is getting a bit awkward
anyway .
I continue eating and in a flash he’s next to me handing me a
paper .
Mbuyiseni :”Those are things I expect you to do”
I read through the paper and he eats my bacond minding his
own spaza shop.
*take out clothes for me
Ukunya loko , why can’t he do that for himself.
*prepare breakfast for me before 7 am. If you can’t cook then I
can pay for your cooking classes .
*wash my clothes every Saturday
What am i? his wife?
Mbuyiseni :”Other than that….you’ll be shown at the office how
I run my ship”
Me :”Erh sir , I do have complains about some of the things
written here”
Mbuyiseni :”The things I listed there are things I cannot
negotiate on so if you have a problem please do take the first
bus back to kwaMashu” Mashu? Hay this man is rude rrhaaa.
I huff and take the last piece of bacon on the plate .
After a few minutes his hand is back on the plate patting
through it .
I see his face change a bit , I see frustration all over it .
Can’t he see there’s nothing left on the plate?
He groans and in a blink of an eye the plate is on the floor…in
pieces .
He storms off , bumping into some things and cussing .
The hell just happened?
My phone rings totally disturbing me.
It’s the ‘supposed’ husband . hay ngiphefumle kuphi ke?
I just can’t seem to get him off my face .
<Give me time . I’ll be back in a week> he should joing King
Mswati in husbands that have had run away brides because I’m
not about to marry a geek and have the longest ‘forever’ with .
Ngingafa nini?
After a few minutes of me preparing lunch someone bangs the
door really catching me off guard .
For a few seconds I’m waiting for Mbuyiseni to appear and
come and attend to his guest but nothing so I just go to it .
An amazingly handsome man stands on the other side of the
door . He has arms and a chest for days…Mbuyiseni is definetly
a small boy compared to this man . an entire John Cena .
And that suit…goodness . I just-
He chuckles and clears his throat totally waking me from my
world of lust . Sis needs to get laid and fast.
John Cena :”I left my wife outside sisi , she’d kill you for even
looking at me like that” I roll my eyes a bit
Me :”Of course you’re married” he chuckles again and shakes
his head.
John Cena :”I’m here for my brother”
Me :”Your brother?”
John Cena :”yea…Mbuyiseni” No way! Actually come to think of
it they do look alike a bit , he’s the darker version of him .
I move from the door and he walks in to the room Mbuyiseni
disappeard to .
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*Mbuyiseni*
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Yes she probably was going to find out that I am blind but for a
second it felt good having someone who didn’t see me
differently
My thoughts are disturbed by someone who walks in .
It’s Mnotho….his masculine scent always fills the entire room ,
not In a bad way though because it’s enticing .
Mnotho :”Where in this planet did you find her?”
Me :”Who?”
Mnotho :”The girl in the kitchen . now that is fire, where did
you find her? Damn!” Pity I can’t see her
Me :”I don’t think Sena would appreciate you saying that”
Mnotho :”I’m just saying , I can’t exactly remove my eyes now
can i? But yoh hay” like hello I called him here for me
Me :”Ok keh Mnotho”
Mnotho :”Is she the lady that made you so down?” finally!
Me :”Yea I kind off did not tell her I can’t see so I embarrassed
myself in front of her…” he huff and throws himself next to me
on the bed.
Mnotho :”Why didn’t you tell her gazi? If you’re going to work
with her…eventually she was going to know…Mbuyiseni I
thought we’ve passed this stage already” he says so low , I can
tell he doesn’t want me to misinterpret him .
Me :”I know. it just felt nice having someone who talks to me
without her voice laced with pity . I just felt normal
again....being with someone who didn’t want to offer me help
carry things, or hold my hand. I just-“I stop talking when i can
feel the tears form at the edge of my eyes.
He pulls me to his chest and I lay there for a bit .
The door opens but I do not hear any footsteps . Mnotho moves
his head a bit , tilting it to the door…I guess
Mnotho :”Can we help you?”
…”I thought you said he is your brother?” I can spot the
disbelief in her voice and it’s the funniest thing under the sun.
Mnotho :”Yea sometimes he’s my my boyfriend . I still can’t
decide” Mnotho pulls my head to his chest and I just lay there
with my eyes closed .
I don’t want her to see my eyes, I don’t know but Sabatha has
told me that I look red when I cry and so do my eyes .
Makhosi :”Hay amadoda…*claps hands* just when I thought
I’ve seen it all . what do I do with your girlfriend in the
kitchen?”
Mnotho :”Tell her I’m coming , I’m still busy”
Makhosi :”Yhu hay your audacity is in the wrong place .
unesbindi bhuti wam” the drama she has reminds me of mom .
she sounds horrified .
When she closes the door I can’t seem to ignore the chuckle
Mnotho lets out .
Me :”You like her don’t you?”
Mnotho :”Yea I don’t know there’s something warm and
welcoming about her . something Nsingizi like….It’s weird”
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“just call on me brother when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on .
Lean on me when you’re not strong” – Bill Withers
*Makhosi*
I knew the only thing men are useful for is that thing between
their legs but never in my life did I think they’d go as afr as
leaving their wives in the car for another man?
Zange! Zange ndake ndayiva!
This is even triggering my inner Xhosa .
The lady seats on the high chair looking beautiful and all .
I feel sorry for her shame…men are nonsense honestly .
Me :”he said he’ll be out just now” she nods .
I open the fridge and the first sweet thing that has i-percent is
Brutal fruit .
I open it with my teeth and throw the lid somewhere in the sink
. Princess or not but I’ve been a people’s person and I have
shared a bottle of Heineken or two with the people .
I move my eyes to the lady and she has a judgemental face on .
Yeap…I don’t like her . why’s she judging me ?
No wonder her boyfriend is doing her like this , uyaphapha.
Me :”yini sisi do you have something to say?” I see folds form
on her temple and she shakes her head .
Me :”Good” I drink Brutal fruit straight from the bottle .
I was going to be a lady about it and pour it in the wine glass
but no…I’ve always drank it from the bottle so why change
now?
I burp loudly totally throwing her off .
Ok that was a bit gross but I’m not going to apologize .
Rude miss:”That was really rude and unnecessary” the door
opens and I don’t pay attention to it .
Me :”No , it looks like you are unnecessary”
Rudey:”Do you have a problem with me?”
Me :”Haibo wenja I don’t even know you . but it looks like you’ll
know me soon” she gets off the chair and mives towards me
Rudey :”Who do you think you are?” I don’t know how to fight
but I can just break this bottle and stab her with it .
John Cena is just standing there with his boyfriend looking
shocked . Mbuyiseni wears a frown on his face , he looks sexy to
be honest .
Like this is a good time for him to stop his wife from getting to
me because one of two things will happen…either she’ll get
stabbed or I’ll get the beating of my life , she is thick . She can
just sit on top of my face and win this whole fight . I can’t
believe I even thought she was beautiful . mxm.
She gets closer and I drink my brutal fruit faster
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I think his cheating husband notices what’s going on because he
quickly let’s go of Mbuyiseni and runs to stand in front of her
Good . My nails cost R480 including these crystals and this
wiggg! Hay hay , I love my life thank you very much.
John Cena :”Ok whoa whoa ladies” he pushes her off and I’m
grateful .
I need another one .
I open the fridge and grab another one .
My boss will forgive me but I’m a bit traumatized .
“mnkr” I hear her say . I’m quarter to stabbing this girl I swear .
Me :”Yey MaMfundisi phuma kimi sathane” I shout and she just
pouts . bloody nonsense .
I storm off to my room and just chill there for a second .
That lady just wants to test my faith in you Lord .
I breathe a couple of times and fix my wig just to throw myself
in the bed .
Mbuyiseni walks in after quite a while and he has a smug on his
face .
Me :”please don’t . don’t talk” he just chuckles and walks
towards me slowly .
Mbuyiseni :”can I…” I nod . there’s awkward silence so he lies
next to me . I am seated right next to him and I can’t help but
notice his features . from the big ears to the cute nose , one
thing that actually stands out is the jawline .
Mbuyiseni :”I have something to tell you since you are too slow
to notice…” I’ll just let it pass for now “I can’t see , I’m….blind”
I giggle a bit but quickly stop when I see the serious look on his
face .
Me :”You? You’re not joking?”
He shakes his head .
Me :”But…but you don’t have a stick….and wait…you ate my
food…”
Mbuyiseni :”I can do almost everything on my own except for
those things I asked you to do” I nod and then remember he
can’t see.
Me :”Oh ok” ok that really didn’t sound right “ I hear him huff .
Me :”Is this your house…car?” he nods again .
Me :”You’ve done well for yourself”
Mbuyiseni :”Not bad for a blind man who couldn’t see anything
but his dreams” sadness is laced all over his voice and you can’t
really ignore it .
I don’t know what to say but I pull him in for a hug and he
doesn’t resist .
I’ve been waiting for this man to pitch for forever now . I made
us dinner .
We fell asleep in my bed but when I woke up I was all alone .
I really hop him falling asleep in my arms won’t make things
weird or cause any unwanted tension.
‘Mbuyiseni!” I shout from the kitchen .
There’s no way he can’t hear me .
Or maybe he left.
“Mbuyiseni man!”
Deafening silence.
I go to his room , knock a couple of times and then walk in .
There’s no one but the door to his en-suite bathroom is open .
I hope I don’t find him naked, not that I’d complain because
that’d be a sight for sore eyes but still .
I take a deep breath and peek .
Jerevah!!
I find him sitting in the tub with a razor blade in his hand .
He looks…unconscious .
I get out of my trance and kneel next to him .
“Mbuyiseni ungibonisa ini kodwa?” I can’t help the emotions
that suddenly take over nor can I stop the tears .
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“Look at how far you have come
And look at all that you have going
Look at who you have become
Baby you gotta keep going
Rest your weary heart
Dry your teary eyes “ – Jhene Aiko
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*Makhosi*
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My heart is pumping .
I kneel next to him and throw the razor very far from us .
He opens his eyes a bit .
I slap him a bit and he opens then closes them again .
“Mbuyiseni vuka” I sniff a bit .
“Jehova what am I going to do? Mbuyiseni vuka bandla” I slap
him one more time .
The blood dripping from his wrist isn’t making things less
anxious for me .
Mbuyiseni :”Why…why are you here?” his speech is kind of
slurred a bit but I manage to hear him
Me :”Thank God , let me call an ambulance” He grabs me with
his left hand .
Thank God for this foam or I’d be seeing everything .
Jeesh what am I thinking?
Mbuyiseni:”Don’t .”
Me :”But…but you’re bleeding” he just shakes his head .
What do I do? I can’t exactly leave him like this .
Me :”Get up” he’s brows rise a bit .
Mbuyiseni :”I’m not dressed”
Me :”I know . I won’t look.” The biggest part of me knows I’ll
take a peek .
He tries getting up using the other hand but he groans .
I just sigh . why would he do this to himself .
With all this money and freedom , he does this?
I grab the towel and close his lower body as soon as he gets up
.
I can’t believe I actually did not take a peek . if God doesn’t
allow me in his kingdom then he probably never wll.
When he’s standing on his own he moves my hand and moves
to his bedroom . Ungrateful this one .
I drain the water in the tub and clean the blood on the floor .
When I’m done with everything I leave to his room and he’s
curled up into a ball on the bed but the hand is stretched out
far from him .
It doesn’t seem like he’ll attend to it any time soon so I get the
wipes I saw in the bathroom and seat next to him .
Me :”Can I ?” he nods
I gently take his hand and wipe off the blood .
God knows how much I hate blood and I’m out here wiping his
off , mnkr.
“There, all done” he nods again . That’s all his been doing .
I hurry to dish up for him .
He’s done in exactly 10 minutes , he doesn’t even thank me .
Oh kambe it’s part of my job description.
I take the plate and when I’m about to leave he calls my name .
Mbuyiseni :”please…please don’t leave me”the way h begs , it’s
like he’s about to cry .
There’s desperation in his voice and surprisingly it tears through
my heart .
I stop in my tracks and go back to him .
Ok now what happens?
I take out my flip flops and lean on the pillows .
In a minute his head is on my lap , ok this content I definetly did
not sign up for but I love to see it .
My hand unintentionally go to his head .
He has a brush cut and waves , it looks good on him with his
light skin .
This man is really handsome .
He hugs my laps and lies comfortably on them . Does he realise
his head is directly on my moist coochie? Does he realise that
I’m human? He wants to turn me into a rapist or something .
Mbuyiseni :”What’s your favourite colour?” he randomly says.
Me :”Black, yours?” fuck! I shouldn’t have asked that .
He’s blind Makhosi for goodness sake .
I feel his chest move…oh he’s…giggling? He can’t be.
Mbuyiseni :”There’s only one colour that is dominant in my
house….” I chuckle .
Me :”Come to think of it…there’s a lot of black in this house and
a touch of black”
Mbuyiseni :”That is how my dreams look like… nothing’s ever
clear enough”
Me :”Dream? Blind people dream? Oh my God that didn’t come
out right” there’s silence for a few seconds and then he speaks .
Mbuyiseni :”I wasn’t born blind . I started having a problem
with my sight at 9 and when I was 10 years old…I was
completely blind . It was very fast , doctors couldn’t do anything
about it ….” His voice is lost in thought I can tell.
Me :”Did they diagnose you ? have you took a step now?”
Mbuyiseni :”I’ve done everything Makhosi” I like the way my
name rolls off his tongue .
Me :”Is it the reason you did…that?” silence takes over so much
that I think he fell asleep .
Mbuyiseni :”I didn’t want to kill myself Makhosi”
Me :”Mbuyiseni that’s not what I saw”my voice breaks a bit and
I hear him huff .
Mbuyiseni:” I’m sorry you had to see that “
Me :”If you weren’t trying to kill yourself then what was
happening . Why were you doing that to yourself?” There’s a
long minute or two of silence and he gets up to sit on his butt
facing me .
He takes off his t-shirt, how could I have missed that?
A tear drops from my eyes . my lower lip shivers lightly and I
reach to the scars on his arm .
I move through them .
Some of them are brand new and some are still healing . the
scars go right up his arm . his hand navigates to my face using
my hands.
Mbuyiseni :”Don’t cry. I’ll be ok”
That just tears right through my heart and the tap opens .
Mbuyiseni :”Stop…please .” he pulls me to his chest
Me :”Just promise me you’ll stop doing this to yourself
Mbuyiseni this is not life…you can’t survive like this”
Mbuyiseni :”You don’t get it . Me and you have different
definitions of survival . To you surviving is getting by , breathing
as much as you can…as long as you still alive . Mine is to cut
through my flesh and feel the pain I’ve suppressed over the
years” my heart just breaks for him . He seems to think that this
is normal .
Me :”Mbuyiseni ngyakcela . I’ll help you through this . you can’t
keep on doing this to yourself . please…I’ll help you through it
please…” he gives me a tight hug , totally ignoring me .
He’s hurting me .
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*Sabatha*
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.
I just came out of a meeting going to Mbuyiseni’s house but
now I’m waiting for GC .
She had a meeting with the show’s executive producer and now
she’s late .
I sit on the one couch and Stephanie gets out the lift .
She Zozibini Tunzi her way to me with her stick legs .
I’d break her in bed this one , she wouldn’t be able to walk .
Stephanie :”Evening sir…waiting for a cab?” doesn’t she know
that I have a car? Even though it’s not with me right now .
Me :”kind of”
Stephanie :”Well can I help you wait with you?” this one? This
one will definetly get me in trouble . she obviously doesn’t
know Saint’s mother this one .
Me :”Yea sure” she removes y hand on the arm’s stand and sits
there totally exposing her thighs .
Ingilosi yobufebe Jehovah.
Stephanie :”I thought you have a car Batha…” I’m Batha now?
Uzoshaywa lo.
Her hands move to my shoulder , I really don’t want to
embarrass her so I just let her be .
Me :”I do but-“ we’re both disturbed by someone clearing their
throat and GC stands there with Saint in her hands .
GC :”Let’s go” she totally ignores Stephanie and turns on her
heels .
Me :”ok I have to go
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see you” I run after Mgcini and when I get to the car she’s
already getting rready to leave .
Me :”ok baby I know that looked bad but I swear it’s not what it
looked like” she bitterly chuckles and starts driving .
Me :”GC say something . your silence is scaring me”
GC :”As you should” yho the look she gives me makes me
squirm .
GC :”Have you watched The Acrimony my love” I nod with a
frown because what does Tyler Perry have to do with this .
GC :”My level of crazy is just like Melinda’s . Test me Sabatha
you’ll find out . Test me wena” she continues driving like she
didn’t say the sexiest yet scariest thing she’s ever said .
Me :”you look cute”
GC :”I stab a bitch . khuza iy’ntombi zakho . we’ll bury you”
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Honestly today I’m just being tested left right and centre .
We get to Mbuyiseni’s house and the first thing that opens has
my jaw on the floor . Her big eyes just sparkle and her lips are
just cute , all pink and pouty .
I feel a punch on my side…GC throws me a dagger and I quickly
pull myself together .
“sorry” I mouth to her .
This girl leads us to the dining area where she seats next to
Mbuyiseni .
Ok this is weird…he didn’t tell me about this .
Last time I checked we were looking for the PA , now he has a
flame sharing a blanket with him? Wow .
We are introduced and we find that her name is Makhosi , she’s
his new PA .
I don’t know if I’m reading too much into this situation but
there’s definetly something happening there .
Me :”Bafo can you help me with something in the study…”
Makhosi:”Uhm what do you need help with ? He can’t do
certain things….he’s tired”
GC :”useyidlozi yini usumkhulumela?”
Makhosi :”please….sisi take a deep breath . ungangijwayeli
ikaka please sisi wami , you don’t know me from a bar of soup
so let’s not do each other like that” ok that escalated real quick
.
Me :”No , it’s fine bafo , we’ll sort it out over the phone .
nothing hectic” if we leave these two here , they’ll murder each
other .
He nods .
She’s very protective of him , if they’ve known each other for a
while then I’d accept it but it’s literally been a second , like she’s
protecting him from something or maybe it’s a someone.
I’m not sure yet but I’ll find out soon .
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.
My girlfriend’s totally mad at me .
She hasn’t said a single word since we got home…her house .
She just ignores me and get’s inside the covers .
I don’t know what’s going on , I really thought we were over the
Stephanie issue .
I thought she threatened me enough .
Me :”Mgcini.” I call her and of course she blue ticks me .
Me :”Mgcini , I’m not talking to myself . ungangenzi uhlanya”
my voice is a bit firmer this time because she’s frustrating me a
bit .
Why must we go to bed together when she’s so mad at me and
I don’t know why.
GC :”Don’t . you do not get to use that tone with me after today
Sabatha . you don’t”
Me :”Kanti what happened GC ? I thought we buried that Steff
thing” She clucks
GC :” She has even upgraded to being call Steff . great “
Me :”Kodwa baby mina I don’t get you , I thought we were over
this thing”
GC :”We were until we got to Mbuyiseni’s house and you were
drooling over that girl . Sabatha you’re turning me into
someone I’m not…” her voice breaks and then she sniff
Me :”Kodwa baby…I didn’t notice . I really thought-“
GC :”No you didn’t think . you don’t think. You’ve made me
question my beauty Sabatha . You’ve slapped me . Made me
feel less of a woman . Made me feel like there’s more I can do
to enhance my beauty because obviously there’s something I
don’t have . I’m losing myself Sabatha , I don’t want my
daughter to find pieces of myself . I want to raise a queen ,
who’s walls will remain unshaken . hell I was even fighting that
poor girl for your wondering eye….what am I turning into?” I
have to apologize because I don’t like the direction this
conversation is taking . I don’t think it’ll end well .
Me :”I didn’t know you felt like this” there’s silence and she
sniffs again .
GC :”I want to date someone who’s eyes will always stay on me
not on me and a hundred other girls . I deserve that . You’re not
there Sabatha . Your eye is still wandering around , I hope you
find what you’re looking for . unfortunately I won’t be there
with you”
Me :”Haybo Mgcini . Just beacause I looked at another girl?”
Gc :”God! You don’t even see anything wrong with it Sabatha .
you don’t respect me that’s why we are here today and I’m
sorry but I’m jumping the train”
Fuck! I was never ready for this .
GC :”You can see Saint as much as you want . It’d be unfair of
me to rob her of your love. Ngyakthanda Mwelase”
Me :”then why? Why are you doing this Mgcini ? We can work
through this”
GC :”No , you have to. By yourself”
Me :”Will you wait for me?” there’s silence and it buries me .
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"hello
And I thought about you today
And I thought about the things you used to say
And I thought about the things we did..." -Jermaine Cole .
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*Funeka*
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Today's there's some family lunch happening at Nsingizi's house
and I just dread going there knowing she won't be there .
It pains me knowing she won't be there to pour wine on my
coffee mug , she won't be there to make me channel my inner
James Bond.
What a character she was !
My phone beeps , it's a text from Mgcini .
.
<We broke up last week and I miss him> haybo just like that?
One week later? No details . Nothing?
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<haybo GC what happened?>
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<Nothing big . I just had to free him . She's not ready for the life
I have planned> GC
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<We'll meet for lunch and you'll tell me all about it . Amadoda
ikaka Yaz mnkr> Thule walks in and I place a perk on his lips .
He smells fresh .
"Haike baby soze ukholwe..." He stops whatever it is to give me
full attention .
He likes gossip but he'll never get to admit .
Thule :"what happened?"
Me :"GC and Sabatha broke up" his eyes pop and he claps his
hands once loudly .
Yes he's a bit dramatic.
Thule :"Why ? He hasn't told me"
Me :"Maybe he doesn't want to tell you yet" I shrug and he
nods .
He looks a bit worried for some reason.
Me :"Don't worry about him . Maybe he wants time to come to
terms with it on his own. Besides he's coming to the family
lunch right?" He nods hesitantly with a sexy frown on his face .
He is all kinds of handsome , I can't believe he's mine .... that's if
he hasn't cheated on me .
We're at a good space now , we're working on us each and
every day and I can't say it's rosy everyday .
Some days I just want to kill him , some I want him cuddled up
in my arms the whole day .
I allow it , the emotions that come with my healing process and
I'm glad that he doesn't fight it as well .
Whenever I'm in those moods he gives me space and if it's his
dick I need...then that's what I get .
Oh...oh and sex with him? It's an experience each and every
time .
There's this thing he does with his hips , I swear it's never been
done before . I'm sure it's not even legal .
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*Makhosi*
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Me :"Your greatest regret?"
Mbuyiseni :"Moving out from home"
Me :"Why do you regret it?"
Mbuyiseni :"No you're changing the rules" He refused to go to
therapy and I can't just seat around and do nothing so I'm just
getting him to open up to me as much as possible .
Me :"Ok ok , ask..."
Mbuyiseni :"What were you doing in Durban ?" Do I lie? Urgh
fuck this .
Me :"Was on a holiday" he chuckles a bit showing off his
beautifully aligned pearls .
He's a masterpiece I swear ,every girl's dream in a way
Mbuyiseni :"You're insulting my intelligence but it's fine.. I'll
take it . Ask madam"
Me :"What's your greatest achievement?" I see a smile form on
his face. Totally breathtaking
Mbuyiseni :"Buying mom her dream car. Pity I couldn't see her
face or those tears"
Me :"What makes you so sure that she was happy?" He laughs a
bit .
Mbuyiseni :"do you know my mom ? Her voice hides nothing.
From anger to worry.... it's all in her voice'
Me :"Mbuyiseni you're speaking about her in present tense...."a
frown forms on his and he gets up leaving me on the couch .
Mbuyiseni:" get ready... we're off to mom's house" he bangs
the door to his room leaving me shaken .
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*Funeka*
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This lunch is quite interesting .
There are new faces I don't know and have never seen before .
Mnotho came with a woman and so did Mbuyiseni . For some
reason these two seem to be beefing , they've been exchanging
looks ever since I got here .
Now this is the content I signed up for , I love to see it .
I need a bit of drama in my life to be honest .
Me :"Baby...Uhm can I drink a bit... please." I say through gritted
teeth
He gives me a look and then nods .
I can't believe this is me yaz .
*Clap hands once*
I jump up my seat grabbing a couple of eyes .
I hope that Savannah is somewhere here .
"I put it in the fridge Funeka" Mabutho shouts and a couple of
laughs echo behind his voice.
Flipping fool .
As his word...the Savannah is sitting there looking ice cold and
ready to drink .
The girl with Mbuyiseni walks in looking as innocent as ever and
greets .
Girlina :"Hey , I'm Makhosi . I'm with Mbuyiseni" I giggle
Me :"I kind of figured that one out. I'm Funeka , I'm with Thule."
She giggles , she's so cute .
Makhosi :"Do you have more of that?" She points at my
Savannah with her eyes.
Me :"You drink?" I can't hide the shock in my voice
Makhosi :"Why do you look so shocked?" I shrug . She looks so
innocent , she looks like she's into books or something with
those nerdy glasses .
Me :"Nothing... there's some in the fridge babes . " She semi
runs to the fridge and hugs the Savannah bottle making me
laugh.
There's something welcoming about her
so warm .
Mnotho's girl walks in , her eyes are on both me and Makhosi .
I shrug because I don't know her .
The girl :"I thought you guys were preparing food for lunch" so
she's not going to greet? Haybo . What are we ? Tombstones?
Me :"I hope I'm not included ,my boyfriend paid for these nails
and it wasn't cheap" yes these days he hasn't been pulling up
his socks , he bought new ones I swear .
He eats me out , spends on me and reminds me why I fell in
love with him .
Makhosi :"Lucky you , I paid with my own money . My heart still
aches" I giggle a bit .
Me :"Mr D food it is..." She stands there looking all shocked .
She looks a bit funny with her tiny eyes , besides the attitude
she really is beautiful .
We both leave her in the kitchen and go back to the lounge .
Mnotho looks at me questionably and I shrug .
He pulls me away from the people to the passage , but we can
still see them .
Mnotho :"What happened in there?"
Me :"Who's that girl Mnotho?" I see a smile form in his face .
You got to be kidding me .
Me :"Mnotho are you in love?" He bites his inner cheek and I
burst into laughter because what the frik frak , Nik Nak zig zag is
this?
Mnotho :"I like her hence I need you to work with me here ...
please Funeka" he begs .
Me :" ok but she's a piece of work . Sis just walked in and
started telling us to cook? Haybo"
Mnotho :"She didn't mean any bad Funeka i-" I'm disturbed by
the door that suddenly opens grabbing everyone's attention .
GC walks in looking as beautiful as always .
Actually she brings a whole new definition to beautiful I swear ,
she has her pink hair on looking really pretty m
Yeap we all feel under dressed because I see Makhosi squirm a
bit.
Mnotho nudges me a bit and points at Sabatha with his eyes .
His jaw is literally on the floor , his mouth wide open and we
just giggle.
His expression is the funniest thing , it's like he's seeing her for
the first time .
She greets , no matter how poppin she looks....her voice sells
her out .
She then moves towards Sabatha and puts Saint on his lap .
They whisper some things to each other and from here I can tell
she's so close to bursting into tears .
Mnotho :"Didn't they break up?" He whispers and I nod .
Mnotho :"manje?" I think that is the question on everyone's lips
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They get up and we both run to the nearest room and leave the
door wide open .
Me :"hay hay Mnotho I'm about to fall phela" his entire big
body is on top of me with our two heads peeking out .
Mnotho :"ssshhh" he puts his forefinger on my lips .
Eeeuwww .
GC :"I waited for you to call last night..."
Sabatha :"You said I must give you space Mgcini" he calls her
Mgcini? Love is blind and deaf .
She sulks a bit and stares at the floor .
Sabatha :"I'm keeping my distance , am I wrong?" She just
shrugs him off .
He pulls her in for a hug and they are honestly a nice sight .
Where's my boyfriend? I'm stuck here in this corner with this
body builder.
Sabatha :"It's taking everything in me not to pick up my phone
and call you but I'm trying to respect your decision. " She nods
and pulls out of the hug .
Sabatha :"I miss you . Nothing's the same without you .
Ngyacela baby" this is the second time I hear him beg her and it
keeps on getting better and better each time , especially when
he branches to isiZulu .
She shakes her head obviously crying because she's turning into
such a cry baby these days .
GC :"Not when your eyes are on me and a hundred other
bitches. No" what? Did she see how he looked at her when she
walked in?
Mnotho :"yho abafazi" he whispers low enough for me to hear
and I hit him lightly on his arm giggling .
Gossiping doesn't look good on him , it's funny .
Sabatha seems to have lost his voice because he just stares at
the floor and huffs .
Sabatha :"What do I have to do to prove to you that my eyes
are solely on you?"
GC :"that is for you to know Sabatha , I won't wait forever . I'm
too beautiful for the shit you're serving me . If you won't love
me right then give other men a chance" she blinks away her
tears and leaves .
I knew this lunch will be an interesting one .
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"I've always been a go getter
There's truth in every word I write
But still the growing pains are keeping me up all night " - Alessio
Cara .
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*Funeka*
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Right when Mgcini leaves this big fool shifts and I fall on the
floor flat on my chest .
Me :"Really dude?"
Mnotho :"You were balancing with me phela hay"
Me :"You should've told me hay man Mnotho . You don't have
manners shame...." We're both disturbed by giggles and we
remember that we weren't even supposed to be here .
GC :"Really Funeka? Nawe Mnotho ? I didn't expect this from
you" Mnotho bats his eyelids like a fool and clears his throat .
I'll take this gossip monger crown with my chest , I'm not
Mnotho .
Mnotho :"d.do you want to join us for lunch makaSaint?" She
chuckles and shakes her head
GC :"No bhuti ,I was just dropping off Saint...."
Sabatha :"No...please..." Shame if I didn't hear that little
argument they just had , I'd feel sorry for him .
Madam Mnotho walks towards us with a towel on her hand .
She looks like a wife , she fits in the kitchen this one .
I know it sounds a bit chauvinistic but it's true .
It's only when I see her do I remember that I have my arms
intertwined with his and I pull off quickly .
He turns to look at me with a frown and pulls that dangerous
Mnotho frown .
I shake my head and we turn to look at who I've come to know
as Sena .
Sena :"Lunch is ready , I've set everything at the table ." She's
acting very normal , I'm praying she didn't see anything.
Sabatha nods and pulls Mgcini with him .
I follow then and Madam calls for me.
Damn I knew she saw that .
I stomp my feet loudly and huff , I don't have energy for this .
Mnotho places his hands on my shoulder and then leaves .
So he's not going to protect me against his wife looking
girlfriend... beautiful one at that .
Does she have to be so beautiful? Hay hay ftsek man .
Impilo ifana ne tapeiti shame, i0.1 MB .
We're just accompanying some people in this life.
Sena :"I know I was wrong back there but now you're just being
plain disrespectful" her voice is kind of stern making it hard for
me to sulk so I just told my arms and stare at her.
Sena :"I know I came off as rude to you earlier on , I can be a bit
judgemental sometimes making it hard for me to connect with
people but that doesn't mean you should stop having a
relationship with Mnotho .I got into the relationship knowing
that he has people depending on him . He's a brother and a
father before his my boyfriend. I know and understand that he
doesn't belong to me alone . I know he formed some sort of
relationship with you and that's ok, nothing has to change
about that...."
Me :"Ok maybe you're not too much of a bitch..." She scoffs
Sena :"Well it's better than being a big bitch" I chuckle and
snake my arm onto hers.
I shrug and we both giggle .
Sena :"So...can you let me in on the family gossip?" I told you I
wear the gossip monger crown proudly right?
Me :"Oh Don't worry you're with the right man for that . He'll
sort you out , he knows almost eeeveryything about this family"
she giggles and pulls me to the table with everyone else .
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*Sabatha*
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"How do I get her to talk to me atleast?" I can't believe this is
me totally clueless about a girl .
I'm a joke honestly.
Mabutho :"Apologize"
Me :"Oh because you think haven't done that already?" I
whisper back
Mabutho :"No apologize and means it Sabatha . Right now
you're only sorry because you realise she doesn't take your bull
shit and you're losing her . You want me to take her? Since
that's what we do in this family huh?" He bangs his cutlery on
the table , gets up and leaves all of shocked to the core .
I guess we had all forgotten about that . I thought Mnotho said
he was fine with it .
Mnotho roughly rubs his face and gets up .
Me :"No bhuti . I got him" he nods slowly and sits down .
I drive behind him and his going straight to the hospital , I
thought he said he doesn't have a shift?
As soon as he parks I'm right behind him , he frowns a bit and
waits for me .
Mabutho :"I'm fine Sabatha , I just wanted some air . One of my
patients got into some kind of injury and I have to check it out ."
Me :"I'll wait..." Mabutho has a tendency of excluding himself
from the family so much so that he can even be present and it'd
be so easy to forget him.
It's one amazing thing he got from dad , he can be right next to
you and you won't feel like he's up in your space...you won't
feel like his crowding you . It's absolutely incredible .
I want that as well .
Mabutho :"It can take a while Sabatha"
Me :"I said I'll wait Mabutho" he rolls his eyes and walks in .
The hospital is pretty busy so he leaves me at the reception with
these two sisters .
I don't even want to think of complimenting the shorter one
,my.... girlfriend might get signals wherever she is and pop out
my eyes .
She looked really beautiful today with that pink wig
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it really complimented her skin colour and that lip gloss made
her lips totally pop .
I wanted to pull her and kiss the living shit out of her but I
couldn't , I had to respect her decision and give her space
though she still wanted me to call her .
Now I'm conflicted, what do I do tonight ? Do I call her?
I'm starting to think woman are confusing because they are
confused themselves.
What can I do to earn her forgiveness?
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This fool comes back after a while and doesn't even come to me
but the two other ladies s
Mabutho :"I noticed that there was a slight reduction in the
intensity of the electrocardiogram . Reduced cardiac output
would stress other organs causing them to shut down. Hence
we had to do an echocardiogram"
Lady 1 :"Did it work ? Uhm is h-he fine?"
Mabutho:"He's fine . We have to let him rest for a while ,
hopefully by tomorrow he'll be fine" What? This fool is clever
?like seriously clever clever?
I thought it was all an act.
I chuckle a bit and clap my hands once .
Nsingizi left too soon without seeing this , she'd be so proud .
Mabutho :"I'll be with you in a second" he says and leaves .
I've never been so proud of my womb mate .
Me :"he's my brother..." I point at him and these women look at
me weirdly .
Me :"What? Can't you see we look alike ? Don't be jealous" I roll
my eyes and go back to my phone .
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*Funeka*
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"Don't bore me Thule please . I didn't think he'd-"
Thule :"You didn't think . That's it bhuti. The least you could've
done was ask him if he's fine with it ."
Mnotho :"Why exactly are we tiptoeing around his feelings
when he's the one who did Sena wrong?"
Mbuyiseni :"Bhuti that is none of your business though . That is
something Mabutho and Sena should've discussed , alone . That
is not your card to play with. In this case you were wrong ." I
love how they all call him 'bhuti' even when they're
reprimanding him .
I love how equal everyone is .
Sena :"It's fine . I'll talk to Mabutho myself , this conversation
was log overdue anyway" we all get up and stare at her.
Sena :"When now?"
Mbuyiseni :"There's no time like the present" I giggle a bit .
I wasn't going to stay behind anyway .
If only Thule's dad was here, he'd definitely top me up with
alcohol .
Was always a mood that one . .
We all hurry to Thule's taxi parked in the garage .
Makhosi told me she and Mbuyiseni are just friends but I bet
my nosey ass there's something there .
Sena :"Is it always like this ? "
GC :"No . Never . It's just your arrival..."damn she even came
with Saint? Sabatha won't like this one bit .
Me :"No...that sounded wrong . They're all just going through a
lot of things , it's never like this " I sit in the back seat with the
ladies , giving Mnotho the front seat with today .
No Taxi Queen today .
The drive to Nsingizi's house is the longest and most dreadful
but luckily with find both Sabatha and Mabutho's cars here .
We find the two fools in the lounge watching Teen Titans , Thule
is the first to throw himself in between .
I thought he said he wasn't into anime? Yhu amadoda .
Mbuyiseni slowly finds his way next to Sabatha . Mnotho is on
the floor , in front of Mabutho .
So they'll just leave us like that?
We're all standing behind them in shock .
GC :"Trust men you'll see yourself moping the grass"
Sabatha :"How can we help you bosisi" that question honestly
slapped.
Thule is not even looking at me at this point , they're all just
watching the episode .
Yho hah ah .
GC is the first to give up and joins Mnotho on the floor and we
all do the same .
What happened ? I thought we all subconsciously agreed that
we were in a bad mood?
.
After the episode of Teen freaking Titans , I can't believe
this...Mabutho gets up grabbing all our attention , Sena follows
after her.
We all stare at each other. I think we all want to know what's
happening but we can't all go .
Them :"FUNEKA!" Great!
I get up and tip toe behind them .
Mabutho :"My brother Sena? You're going to use my brother to
get back at me?"
Sena :"I'm not that petty Mabutho and you know it , your
brother said you were fine with it kanti what's happening
now?" There's profound silence
Mabutho :"Are you really going to act like we never happened?
Like our babies never happened?"
Sena :"Don't!" Ok that was so loud "Don't you ever talk about
them Mabutho . Don't you dare! You lost the right to call them
yours when you gave me those pills Mabutho . They are mine!
Mine! You took the chance of me being a mother from me
Mabutho!"
Mabutho :"Oh don't you put all the blame on me. You took
those pills , you willingly took those pills . I didn't push them
down your throat" there's a loud sound that follows after . yhu
that got too serious too soon .
Sena :"Wena...Wena... Mabutho" she sounds like she's crying.
Sena :"I agree . I killed my babies by myself , you killed me and
every chance of happiness I thought I had but I'm fine now . I'm
finally happy Mabutho . I'm sorry that it has to be with your
brother but it is what it is . Please allow me to be Butho..."
Mabutho :"What if I don't want to allow you Senamile? What if
I want you back baby ?" Should I budge in? Hay Mabutho
nobumenemene .
My dad was right , no woman is as beautiful as your ex in
another man's arms .
Sena :"Ftsek Mabutho . Argha maarn..." Now this? This I wasn't
ready for.
I tip toe back to the lounge.
As soon as I walk in their eyes are immediately on me .
Mnotho :"and.... what's happening?" Oh my brother you don't
want to know .
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"Be the best memories
I hope that you remember me
These will be the best memories
Ooooh ohho ooooooooo
Cause in the end all you really have is memories" - Big Sean
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*Sena*
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.
"Mabutho please don't ruin this for me . I love your brother and
we both know you never loved me so please don't stand in our
way please...." I see him huff and his hands go through his fade ,
messing it up a bit.
For a second I see the man that once had my heart at the palm
of his hands , I see the beautiful jaw that totally caught my eye .
His hands...how they used to feel against my cheeks , but all of
that is just a dream now because I have a man who makes me
horny just by his sight . A man that loves me with my mistakes .
Come to think of it me and Mnotho have never talked about the
graveyard that is my womb .
Me :"Please let go of me Mabutho . We had our fun but it's
over, me and you can never be . Not after what we've been
through , we've put each other through hell and that's not fair "
There's deep silence that suddenly takes over . It feels
foreign...weird to say the least.
Mabutho :"I never deserved you from the first place . The
biggest part of me knew that hence I allowed my brother to
make you happy , do something I couldn't do for you. I'm sorry
Sena . I'm sorry I fed you dreams , I'm sorry I toyed with your
heard. I'm sorry for the lies and lastly I'm sorry for our children.
I wish there was more I can say but...." He sighs and shrugs .
I wipe my tears because that is all I've ever wanted from him...
for him to recognise that he did me wrong and apologize .
In a second I feel his arms around me and he whispers "I'm
sorry " for a good 2 minutes .
.
After the crying sessioni leave him to his thoughts and go back
to Mnotho .
He looks at me with nothing but worry but I slowly shake my
head to stop him from asking about it .
My eyes go to the rest of the family and they're all busy with
something or engaging in a conversation .
I wish I had this .
My babies would've had this as well if I wasn't so stupid .
Me :"I want babies. I want a baby Mnotho"I whisper to him and
he wipes a tear on my face .
I didn't even notice that I was crying.
He then kisses my damp cheeks .
Mnotho :"We'll talk when we get home Themba lam" I nod
shyly and hide my head in his chest.
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*Makhosi*
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This family is hectic to say the least .
If they aren't gossiping then the ladies are getting drunk .
It's bad . It's just shubed.
The other two come back from the kitchen , the rude lady has
red eyes and so is the handsome .
All of them look alike , I'd like to believe the parents have really
nice genes.
Mbuyiseni has been on his phone for quite some time making
me a bit self-conscious since I don't know any of these people .
Suddenly he gets up from the couch to the door and shuts it
close behind him .
Funeka :"weird" I'm glad I'm not the only one who recognised
that .
GC :"What's up with your man?" We've been speaking a lot
today , I think because of the alcohol and we've decided to buy
the hatchet . Plus she seems like a really nice girl.
Me :"My man? What do you mean my man? He's my boss . He's
just a friend"
Sabatha :"He's your friend or your boss ...which one is the real
one?"
Funeka :"Yes don't insult our intelligence" they all look at me
enquisitively .
I giggle a bit.
I've never seen such .
Me :"Can you excuse me. You all are too much" I run off to the
door Mbuyiseni used leaving them laughing loudly .
Me :"What's going on?" He jumps a bit totally convincing me
that he's up to no good.
Mbuyiseni :"You scared me" he turns to me giving me that
signature smile.
I have to get my head out of the gutter because he's definitely
out of my league .
It wouldn't happen even if I wanted to .
Me :"What are you up to?"
Mbuyiseni :"I'm waiting for someone and he seems to be taking
his own time getting here" he folds his arms on his chest and his
muscles pop.
For the first time and only time I thank God he's blind because
I'm so close to wiping off my drool .
Mbuyiseni :"Your stare is making me uncomfortable"
Me :"M.Me? No . No I'm not staring at you or anything" he can
feel my stare? Of course he feels stares dummy , you feel them
too .
Me :"Sorry. Who are we waiting for?" He chuckles a bit and
shakes his head .
Mbuyiseni :"You don't have to watch over me all the fucken
time Makhosi! I'm an adult . Just because I let you in doesn't
mean we're friends . I'm still your boss and you? My
subordinate. Don't forget your place"
Me :"I'm sorry sir . My only sin was caring about you and I
swear I'll stay in my lane" I won't say that didn't hurt but as for
staying in my lane? I won't do .
He needs someone in his corner and if it's not me then I'll have
to let his eldest brother know of what's been happening.
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*Mbuyiseni*
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I hate that I was so rude to her but I hate that she's warming
her way to my life.
I hate that she's getting so close to comfort , it's a bit
uncomfortable .
I growl and then my phone beeps , it's Senzelo.
My brothers will probably hate me for this but he deserves a
second chance , he also deserves the type of love and support I
get from my brothers . He deserves a taste of the unconditional
support from siblings.
.
<I'm outside bruh> Senzelo
.
He's with.... someone. A little girl...judging from the squeaky
voice.
I'm not a spiritual person but I swear his aura and deep voice
can scare the living shit out of anyone .
Me :"You're finally here...with the way you're shaking I'm
guessing you haven't told them yet..."I nod and he chuckles .
Me :"Come on they'll be fine , you'll see"
Senzelo :"I doubt it but it's ok. I have my daughter with me , her
name's Si.... Asanté . Baby this is your uncle"
Asanté :"Really? Like your brother? Blood brother?"
Senzelo :"Yes Siyabonga my blood brother"
Me :"Siyabonga?"
Senzelo :"Yea that's what I named her but 14 years later
someone realised she doesn't like it"
Asanté :"It's boy's name daddy " I know she probably rolled her
eyes with the way her voice sounded.
Me :"Well nice to meet you Asanté..." I bring forward my hand
and she grabs it .
Me :"Firm grip you have over there missy"
Asanté :"I know. Been practicing for quite a while" she releases
a sweet giggle .
Me :"We can go in" I hear Senzelo huff deeply.
I'II really hope I'm doing the right thing.
If this doesn't go according to plan then I'll have to apologize to
both my family and Makhosi .
I keep on unsettling my own life I swear .
I walk in first and they follow.
They both walk like cats. I can almost miss their steps
so light .
It's a bit weird....I wonder if They realise .
I find my way to the lounge and there's immediate silence .
Mnotho :"Mbuyiseni man! What the fuck are you doing in my
mother's house wena?" He roars at the top of his voice totally
reminding me of our father .
I swear each and everyday I find a new trait in each and
everyone of my brothers that reminds me of my dad .
From Mabutho's non-chalant nature, to Mnotho's over
protection , Thule's quietness and enquisitiveness , Sabatha's
carefree nature and smarts, it makes me realise that maybe I
didn't really lose dad entirely . He still lives through his seeds .
That's why I bought Senzelo here today , he deserves that too .
It's true ,one of the two things that can outlive a man is his
seeds .
Me :"Bafo please...just Listen to what he has to say, then you
can kick him out . Please" I beg standing in front of him .
Mnotho:"I don't want to hear anything Mbuyiseni . Have you
forgotten that he wanted to take everything from us? He
wanted to take this house from us , he wanted to take our
home and you want me to listen? Are you insane Mbuyiseni?
Phuma Wena" he moves from my hand and there's commotion
.
People calling on Mnotho.
All of a sudden there is a loud groan followed by silence , oh
and that little scream from Funeka which seemed to echo away
with air .
Senzelo :"yey! I will take any crap from you but I will not take
disrespect from you. Especially not in front of my daughter !
Ungijwayezwa ubani Wena?" I hear a chuckle in front of me , I
think it's disbelief from Thule.
Mnotho :"please leave before I hurt you"
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*Funeka*
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.
We're all standing here watching this film unfold and shocked is
an understatement.
No one has ever dared to hit or even shout at Mnotho because
of both his body and his MMA skills....but baby boy doesn't
know about them maybe that's why he's shouting at him like
this .
He pushes off Mnotho and something weird happens after .
He starts chanting and hitting his ear , the way his hitting his
ears is a bit scary . I'm hoping he doesn't bust his ear drum or
something.
In a second his on his knees clapping his hands .
I-ntsomi.
Do you know a film ?
Senzelo :"Your union will never be blessed until you do what's
right . Mabutho.... the only thing standing in the way of you and
your happiness are your children. Your grandmother is the
ancestor guides you but there's only so much she can do until
you listen...." Ok this is some weird Sangoma masterclass shit
I've never come across .
Now what happens ? He tells all our futures? Just like that?
He turns to look at Mbuyiseni....no fucken way!
I'm right next to Mbuyiseni , after him it's me? No way! I take a
step back and bump into Thule's chest .
I think he can tell I'm scared hence his entire arm is wrapped
around on my own chest then kisses my cheek.
That's one thing he does these days , showing me affection .
For some reason he's not my typical Nqobethule these days .
Damn I just zoned out , what did he say ? Everyone looks shell
shocked .
Senzelo :"The only thing standing between you and your sight is
that ceremony. your great grandmother has been guiding you
but took a step back . There's too much commotion around
your existence. Your great grandmother feels like she isn't
appreciated enough for your fortune and existence. Uyingane
yethonga . Do that ceremony and things will change" Mbuyiseni
looks freaked out and I don't blame him .
This is a lot to take in if he's right .
He turns to Makhosi and I swear this girl is my starring , loving
her is my spillion. I swear...
He bows and chants some clan names we don't know...Sokalisa
is a clan name right?
Senzelo :"Nkosazana . I'm honoured to be in your presence"
Makhosi claps her hands two times
Makhosi :"Thokoza Mkhulu" for some reason she doesn't look
shocked or shaken by all of this and wait....why did he call her
Nkosazana?
I think I'm not the only one baffled by this judging from the
frown in Mbuyiseni's face .
After the weird encounter he gets up and stands next to the
little girl he came with .
Senzelo :"Sorry for disturbing you . " He grabs the girl's hand
and leaves.
Wow.
You have to admit that this has been a weird day , from Sabatha
and GC fighting to Sena seemingly not being a bitch to that
confession from Mabutho to izangoma here.
A really weird ass day!
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*Mnotho*
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I bang the door and take really long strides to the door .
I'm mad!
God damnit I am confused to say the least.
It's only when I walk in I realise that Sena's not following me.
And...this woman!
She's sitting comfortably in the car on her phone .
Me :"And then?"
Sena :"Who'll open this door if you don't?" Come to think of it I
shouldn't have introduced chivalry in this relationship now look
at this ? Sis can't even open her own door.
Abafazi bazokuxaka serious.
I open the door and leave her with the key .
She'll see herself out .
Oh my beer is still here?
I down it in one go and she walks in looking livid .
Sena :"We Mnotho angenziwa njalo mina . Respect is a two
way street . You treat me the way you want me to treat you .
Hay lododi wakho"
Me :"Sena..." I make surey voice is just as equally stern . She's
stubborn , she's a rare breed in my world .
Except for my family , no one ever goes against my word .
Sena :"Hay Mnotho you will not dismiss me like that"
Me :"Sena I'm warning you" I shout and I see her startle a bit
but she quickly brushes it off like it never happened .
She's too stubborn for her own good .
Sena :"You're shouting at the wrong person right now"
Me :"Who am I supposed to shout at huh? Who? My dad for
ruining our family by whoring ? The bloody opportunist who's
feeding my family lies? Who?" She stares at me for a few
seconds , her shoulders fall and she throws her bag somewhere
around the house and she slowly makes her way towards me
then pulls me to her welcoming chest .
Sena :"Your father raised you to take over from him , to lead .
Now...now it's time for you to think like one . At this point, fuck
your emotions . Fuck how you feel ! Lead Mnotho . What do
you have to lose? You know your brother , do you think he
wants to go through with this?"
Me :"he wants his sight more than anything in this world"
Sena :"Then do right by him . If he was lying , then you'll be
there to hold Mbuyiseni's hand through it . Like you always have
. Leaders make mistakes too. Perfection is an illusion ."
I hope I don't regret this.
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*Makhosi*
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.
.
The rest of Mbuyiseni's family slept here and so did his other
brother.
I can never get used to how diviners can quickly spot that I'm of
royal blood .
It always feels new .
He walks in while I'm making breakfast .
He looks like Mabutho....the eyes and lips . You can't deny it .
Senzo :"Nkosazana..."
Me :"Mkhulu..." I bow a bit and he chuckles then moves to sit
on the high chair .
Senzo :"You're going to keep up with this...act until when?" I
should've known .
Me :"What act?"
Senzo :"You can disrespect me but not those above me
MaButhelezi . Uyafunwa ekhaya. Nothing good will come out of
this until you fix what you left behind . It'll come back and bite ,
I hope it won't be late" he bows and then turns to walk out
bumping into GC.
Right then he groans and hits his ears again
"Akukho. Kudaliwe. Kudaliwe" he keeps on chanting holding
GC's hand .
Sabatha is standing at the door outside their room looking at all
of this with a frown on his face.
"Akukho engingakwenza . Kubhaliwe emazulwini" he says , a bit
softer this time with so much emotion still holding onto a
freaked out GC's hand .
She looks a bit funny .
It all happens so sudden like I dreamt it into existence. Senzelo
quickly recovers but GC groans so loud holding onto her
stomach . Both Sabatha and I run towards GC with Sabatha
pushing Senzo off .
Sabatha :"Baby what's happening?"
GC :"Kub'hlungu" she points at her lower abdomen .
It's probably period pains .
She screams squeezing Sabatha in the process. I've never seen a
person so scared of the unknown .
Sabatha :"Baby...GC . Sthandwa Sami you're bleeding" there are
traces of blood flowing down to her leg.
I'd say she's on her period but it's too much blood . Sabatha
scoops her in his arms totally disregarding the blood and carries
her to the car .
It's only then I notice Mbuyiseni standing there with his arms
folded on his chest.
Me :"Is your family always like this? "
Mbuyiseni :"If you mean chaotic then absolutely" He leaves to
talk to Senzelo a bit , then they both part ways .
Mbuyiseni :"Get ready . We're off to the hospital" there's no
please? Actually when am I starting work here?
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*Sabatha*
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"Sengikuxolele .
Ngikunikele konke kuJesu kodwa ngeke ngikukhohlwe
Usethule..." -Deborah Fraser.
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I've never been so scared in my life .
Seeing her groan out of pain made me feel helpless as I couldn't
take it from her .
I couldn't take her pain . As soon as I'm outside the hospital
there are a couple of nurses that take her from me and rush her
to the ER .
My shirt is bloody and I have a bunch of people staring at me .
I hope she'll be fine .
I pray she's fine .
I just need one more chance with her .
Just one to treat her right and stare at her like she's the only
thing that makes sense , well she probably does .
I'm joined in the reception by the rest of my family , including
Mnotho and Sena and the long lost brother. I wonder what
happened to his daughter last night .
Funeka hands me a clean t-shirt, I change at the toilet and
quickly go back .
There's a doctor addressing them .
I hurry to them and he turns to look at me.
Me :"What's going on ? Is she ok?"
He sighs and shakes his head .
Dr :"she was pregnant. We're still doing tests tests on what
might have caused the miscarriage because right now there's
no sign of a baby on her womb . Only blood clots , showing that
there was pregnancy . The nurses are still busy with her right
now , cleaning her womb . I'll have to sedate her after and only
then you'll be b to see her" he says "sorry" and then leaves me
to my shattered spirit.
It feels like a dream when I had it all , loving parents , a
successful career and now...a family .
It feels like a freaking dream used to make me feel bad for what
I could've had .
Was there anything I could've done?
Was it because of that night I listened to her cry herself to
sleep? I've been allowing her to do a lot of that lately...cry.
That usually causes stress and I did , I stressed her out to the
point of us losing our little baby .
We never even got to see him or her.
He's existence is a reminder of what could've been .
It's only when Thule wipes my tears do I realise that I've been
standing here for too long and I'm crying .
I'm in his arms and he hugs me so dearly , probably the same
way ubaba would've had . Difference is
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he's not my father .
He reminds me of him kodwa akuyena and I think that on it's
own hits me the hardest .
It's in that moment I realised that pain....it doesn't care about
Life Sciences . You'll feel your heart at the pit of your stomach ,
sometimes it touches your kidneys . Pain defies biology ,
nothing ever makes sense.
I'm not ready for the real world without my parents am I?
Will I ever be ready?
Will I ever get to a point where wheent to face off the world
without my parents cheering me on?
Thule :"kuzolunga bhuti. Kuzolunga mntakababa" he hushes me
quietly.
Ms :"There was so much blood bhuti. Kub'hlungu. Haven't I lost
enough? Inhliziyo ayisakwazi ukubekezela" a gut wrenching sob
escapes my mouth and my brothers join the hug .
Mnotho :"You're strong enough Sabatha...you don't feel it now
but you are"
Me :"Isn't that what we were told when we had to see both our
parents go down the grave. Isn't that what we were told when I
became an orphan in one night . Remember that night? It feels
like I'm reliving it , I remember the pain I felt. I couldn't locate it
but it was there and it was eating away at me . The punch in the
gut , it's all coming back . It doesn't feel brand new . 'stay
strong' they said as they carried on with the rest of their lives .
Ngikhathele bhuti . I'm sick and tired of being strong..."
Mbuyiseni :"Then break down bhuti , we'll take it . We'll pick up
the pieces as long as you don't shut us out" I hear him sniff
Senzo :"You need family in times like these" I don't know why
but I feel anger boiling from the pit of my stomach and I charge
towards him but he pushes me so swiftly and I land on the floor
.
Me :"You! It's your fault! You got here nobungoma bakhonand
ruined all our lives. We never had all these problems"
I've noticed that he constantly has a frown but now he has a
deadly frown , his aura is scary ...not dark but scary .
Senzo :"Me? My fault ? All of you buried your parents like dogs ,
nayobangcwaba and left them like that . Don't you think it's
because they are not with the ancestors? You didn't do
umsebenzi wokugeza , anibakhuphulanga and you say it's my
fault? Niyokhala zome izinyembezi . They won't come to you in
form of a dream , you'll lose everything. Lungisani umsamu and
only then will things make sense . Angithi you all think you
know everything . I'm sorry about your child kodwa
ungazongidakelwa" the venom he spits has everyone in a mini
trance .
Mnotho :"How do we fix it?" Mnotho shouts after him as he
turns.
Senzo :"Go back home"
Mnotho :"Isn't it your home as well?"
.
.
.
*Thule*
.
.
.
We had to drive back home on Friday to do this ceremony
wokugeza . Convincing Sabatha to leave GC behind was a job
and a half .
GC said we should allow him to come with Saint though,
apparently she keeps him sane and calm and I don't want to lie
but that's true.
He's been quiet since we got here , all his attention is on Saint
totally brushing off the rest of the world. No one knows what to
do or what to say to get through to him .
He has her on his chest and she pushes him off , I think she
wants to play or something .
They've been together for a while now and she's just learnt how
to crawl and we all know how they are .
Me :"I think she wants to play bhuti" he just throws me a
dagger and goes back to cradling her even when she doesn't
want to stay still .
It's then that I realise that he's scared.
Me :"Nothing will happen to her Sabatha , she's right in front of
us ." He slowly puts her down still looking at me for
reassurance.
I nod and she goes wild when her toys are placed in front of her
.
Even though she's no longer on his chest , he's still so wary of
his actions with his hands spread out to keep him safe from the
littlest things that might cause her harm .
Will I be like that when I finally have children of my own one
day?
Me :"Sabatha we should slaughter the goat so long , Senzelo
and Mnotho are an hour away" he nods and gets up slowly
without saying a word .
.
.
"Nqobethule!" I hear someone shout just as I place the
slaughtered meat emsamu .
I place everything as instructed by Senzo and go outside.
Me :"Who's calling me?" I ask and no one pays attention to me
but they're all shouting and looking for something , or
someone?
Me :"Mabutho kwenzenjani?"
Mabutho :"We can't find Saint" ok I'm dead.
Sabatha will kill me.
I joint the wild goose chase and search for Saint .
Right then Mnotho's car pulls up and Senzelo is the first to open
the door .
I wonder what the ride was like , they don't get along . They
can't even fake it , it's a bit funny to watch
He gets off and walks straight to the graveyard a bit far from
home .
Everyone who was looking for Saint is standing there looking at
him in surprise .
And right there on top of Nsingizi's grave he finds Saint .
Sabatha goes crazy and runs to them .
It seems like the little princess is asleep.
Mabutho :"She slept on top of mom's grave?" I think it seems
morelike a question than a statement .
It does seem odd .
She's starting to crawl not a pro .
How does an entire baby crawl state to the graveyard without
anyone seeing her ?
I see tears in Sabatha's eyes . he squeezes her tightly and takes
in her scent .
Senzo :"Have they met before?" I'm guessing his talking about
mom and Saint so I nod and he smiles and then walks off .
He asks where umsamu is and then requests we meet there .
Don't Sangomas have to have a bag of bones or something ?
We all walk in and sit around the hut .
He's sitting in between me and Mnotho and I swear this will
take some time to get used to .
Senzo :"This will be simple , after the sun sets we'll go to the
mountain siyogeza ngenyongo and that's it ."
Mabutho :"Does that mean we'll dream of uMa?"
Senzo :"I was only saying that . I can't say for sure that you'll see
her . I can't command her to . "
Mabutho :"Then why are we doing this? " There's a long silence
of Senzo and Mabutho having a staring competition .
After a while Senzo speaks.... "Your great grandfather uDlozi
isithunywa sakho...he wants your wife back..." There's a
confused reaction from each and everyone of us .
Mabutho :"What wife? What do you mean? I don't have
isithunywa mina"
Senzo :"We all have spirits guiding us , living through us and
continuing to fulfill their purpose through us . UMkhul'Dlozi is
angry you allowed her to leave and he wasn't yours to begin
with. He wants her backand he wants you to take another wife
for him"
Yhu hay !
Mabutho :"Mtshele udakiwe"
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eMama noBaba ngihlangabezeni.
Sengiyikhethile indlel'eza kini.
Kuyoba nini ngiphila kabuhlungu"
.
(lol please do excuse me guys , I'm going through this crazy
phase where I find Maskandi really nice . Kuzophela and we'll go
back to quoting oSabrina Claudio lol)
.
.
.
*Mnotho*
.
.
.
We all see Mabutho chuckle and shake his head .
It's too hard to believe how our lives changed overnight after
being introduced to him .
Like he just turned our lives upside down and I'm on the side
watching it all.
At this point I just want to be with Sena , atleast get a peak at
her brain but Senzelo here advices us not to bring "girlfriends"
at our ancestral home so she had to stay behind.
Mabutho :"I'm not doing that." Senzelo chuckles and nods .
Senzelo :"You do have a choice...." I hear a few sighs of relief
around the house . He continues "You can appease and tell him
you can't do it but that doesn't mean he won't want a wife
anymore but he'll want one from your seeds . He might come
down on him hard until he gives in , do you want your son to go
through that? Don't you want to carry your own cross? It can't
be that hard , there are so many female spirits sorrounding
you...." He shrugs and I find myself chuckling because of how
true that is .
Mabutho has never been about monogamy , now it's only a
matter of making things official . Even when he got married , he
had a girlfriend on the side .
Senzelo :"It's your choice . " he shrugs and goes back to jiggling
his leg in total silence .
At this point we're so clueless about his calling so we don't
know if this is the time to talk or he's listening to his spirits. I
have noticed though that there's something that happens in his
ears each time he has a.... meltdown? I don't know .
Senzelo :"It doesn't come when I want it to . Abadala benza
izinto ngesikhathi sabo" this is the second time I'm hearing this
and it sounds different each time .
Thule :"So you're really a Sangoma?" I think we've already
established that but he answers anyway.
Senzelo :"There are different types of healers , all depending on
the spirits that guide you...mina nginabalozi . Sangomas use
bones and herbs for healing , we use whistles and prayer" a
whistle heals ? Hay imihlola .
Senzelo :"I hear whistles totally blocking my ears , that is how
my ancestors communicate with me"
Thule :"so uyisangoma?" He sighs and everyone chuckles .
Senzelo :"Mbuyiseni...can we talk ?" Like he's beeen woken up
from a trance
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he whips his head to where the sound of the voice comes from
.
His head wasn't even here.
They get up and leave us to a ball of silence . I think it's because
of the big elephant in the room .
No one knows how to approach this...
Sabatha :"I'll be fine...I just need time" we nod and he kisses
Saint's head .
.
.
.
*GC*
.
.
.
I've been in hospital for a few days now and I think I'm
beginning to make friends with these walls.
One minute I want to pull my hair off the next I'm angry at each
and every thing .
I don't know how I feel , I don't know how I should feel.
Funeka walks in with a bunch of flowers .
I smile at the company I'll get to have , I made some stupid
excuse to my uncle and I got off quite easy .
Me :"I never saw as the flowers type?" She chuckles and rolls
her eyes in true Funeka style .
Funeka :"They don't allow a bottle of wine in hospital and I
couldn't come empty handed so I took the flowers" she shrugs
and sits besides me .
Funeka :"Have you eaten nontombi?" I nod and she sighs.
Funeka :"How do you feel babe? How do you really feel?"
Me :"I don't know . Inhliziyo yami ib'hlungu. My child was
reduced to mere blood clots , I bled her away . I closed my life
in a pad and tree it e-dustbin . Nothing could ever compare to
the pain I felt . Nothing . There's this hole that has been
punched to my soul and it's wife . There's a space in my heart
that isn't filled angaz ngobani . I'm just incomplete..."
Funeka :"I won't lie and act like I feel you but why don't you try
talking to someone who does. Have you tried talking to
Sabatha?" I haven't had a conversation with him since I got here
.
I've ignored four of his calls and he ended up giving up .
Quite odd... especially for Sabatha , ungukhanda limtshelo
kwakhe.
I shake my head
Me :"How is he?"
Funeka :"I'm not sure but Thule says he's distant . Only talks to
Saint and they don't know what to do . I really don't know, why
don't you try finding out?" She hands me my phone and u
hesitantly take it .
I dial his number ... I laugh at myself when I realise that I still
know it off by heart.
It rings only one time and he answers .
There's silence , pregnant silence so much so that I have tears in
my eyes .
Me :"I'm sorry" I sniff .
Sabatha :"Haybo Mgcini it's not your fault . Maybe we just
weren't ready for her yet ..." I chuckle
Me :"She? No way . It was going to be a boy. I don't want
another girl hay" he chuckles which makes me smile a bit.
Sabatha :"No. Saint needs another sister . I don't want boys , if
you give me a boy then we'll work on another one" I chuckle
and then keep quiet . We're not back together .
Me :"Sabatha please..." I hear him sigh.
Sabatha :"Mgcini please....angsakwaz manje . I feel like I'm
going crazy without you . You don't want to know how many
times I've picked up my phone to call but didn't because I want
to respect you. I've spent days trying to look at other woman
and the only thing that'd pop up in them is the fact that they're
not you . Baby I see them and they're not you . They don't make
me laugh . They don't challenge me at any point and... they just.
They're just not you sthandwa sami..." I hear him huff , he's
probably frustrated.
Me :"Sabatha that's not you, you're just-" I hear him groan and
stop
Sabatha :"Mgcini awkame. Angsaz ngempela . I want you next
to me every second of every minute . I don't want one more
hour know know that you're not mine . Fuck I want to give you
my last name and everything that I own . Nothing makes sense
without getting a piece of your love . I want you to carry my last
name , you and Saint..." Ok he said quite a mouthful but ...
Me :"Your last name?"
Sabatha :"Yea I want you to marry me" want? Not aks?
Uyanya .
Kunga-shifta umsunu.
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"how can we not talk about family when family's all that we got
.
Everything I went through you were standing there by my side "
.
.
.
*2 months later*
.
.
.
*Funeka*
.
.
.
Things have changed over the past few months , and changed in
a pretty good way between me and Thule .
He legit went from my Zulu speaking taxi driver who knows
nothing about romance to an entire dream who delivers flowers
to our offices without fail .
Yes we decided to rent office space a month ago since OUR
house had turned into one .
And yes siyakipita .
GC warned me of how comfortable I've made him feel because
he won't see the need to marry me and honestly?
I'm fine with the way things are , I just need his commitment
not a piece of paper to validate that .
I've loooong realised that marriage is not really made for me
with the way we live at our house .
Honestly sometimes I just want him to get the hell away from
me because I want my space so bad and that's what he
does...gives me my space no questions asked .
The biggest part of me appreciates it when he listens but lately
his been asking me questions about marriage.
He wants to know at what age I want to get married , if I
foresee children with him ,and honestly? I'm scared .
Marriage was never a part of my plans. It had been ruled out
the day I found out about my infertility , it was a result of my
rape .
I don't want to jump into marriage and then Thule switches up
on me when he finds out I can't give him a son .
I'd rather stay like this without a paper binding us together but
our love for each other .
Thule :"Your diet and appetite has changed sthandwa sami"
there he goes . Our conversations these days always come
down to this . The impossible possibility of me being pregnant .
I hate that I have to get reminded of both my rape and the
impossibility of me ever being able to achieve every single day.
Me :"That's because I work too hard Nqobethule"
Thule :"Are you sure it's not because there's my little seed
growing in-" I just push the plate of food far from me and wipe
my mouth .
Real Hollywood tendencies right there .
Me :"Khawume Thule please . Ndiphefumle phi mna
Nqobethule? Baby this , baby that . Umtshato this , umtshato
that. Ndiyeke please" his face is suddenly so hard to read after
my outburst .
He tilts it a bit and narrows his eyes
his worried ? Yes that's the face .
Thule :"Kwenzakalani Funeka?" Funeka? My name is MaMtolo
mna bhuti.
Me :"Nothing" I fold my arms on my chest and look the
opposite direction .
As guessed his finger is on my chin making me look at his now
frustrated face .
Thule :"You can't say it's nothing when you've just shouted at
me like that...awkhulume Funeka" so there's no please? Yea no
this conversation took a left turn .
Me :"Nothing . What do you want me to say kanti?"
Thule :"Hay you always get this agitated each time I bring the
babies topic up . Kwenzakalani kanti?"
Me :"I don't want kids and I don't want to get married Thule.
Are you happy now?" I didn't mean to sound so angry but each
time we talk about this , it annoys me even further .
He's shocked to say the least hence he takes his keys and leaves
but then stops at the door , "then I wonder what you're doing
here if you don't see a future with me." So foreseeing a future
with him is having babies and getting married? Yhu hay miss me
with that bull.
He leaves me to my silence.
.
.
.
*Makhosi*
.
.
.
It's been one hell of a two months .
A lot of ups and down but we're good .
We move. After he came back home there were a lot of
nightmares that followed after his little visit back home .
Well I wouldn't call them that but he said he kept on seeing
weird creatures and sounds.
It did take a toll on me and seeing him that vulnerable gained
him a special place in my heart .
In the past month quite a lot of things have taken place and I
caught feelings .
Ngiwa-catch(ile).
Ngawabamba .
We've spent some intimate moments where I spent a night in
his chest , nights actually .
There was a time where we didn't go to the studio just to laze
around because he was going through one of those days where
social anxiety was at it's peak .
I found it weird on his first episode where he was totally
agitated by even his fans and the first thing on my mind was I
give him space but surprisingly he just wanted to be cooped up
in his space with someone he's familiar with .
He's a weird character , weird in a good way .
He's the type of weird you want to keep close , kind of the
reason I let my guard down a bit .
He was the reason .
Mbuyiseni :"You will bore a hole into that cup . Earth to
Makhosi" he waves his pretty hands in front of me .
Ever caught feelings so bad that everything about a guy is
attractive , even the way he frowns? Especially the way he
frowns .
I remember last week the stage director messed up some things
and the entire show was a mess .
I have never seen him so angry and sexy before even when he's
naked .
The way his frown forms and his jaws clench....mmh I could just
eat him up or something.
Me :"I'm just thinking"
Mbuyiseni :"About?"
Me :"My life"
Mbuyiseni :"What about your life?" He sits next to me . He's
sitting inches close to me .
I can smell his rich cologne and minty breath from here and I
want to drown in it.
Me :"how I'm no where near my dream . A journalism degree
but here I am with nothing to show for it ."
Mbuyiseni :"What do you want to have to show for it?"
Me :"A house atleast . Or a car . ISkorokoro nyana nje"
Mbuyiseni :"Can I buy you that skorokoro because I don't want
to lose you ."
Me :"You don't want to lose?" He chuckles sexily with his lazy
eyes half closed
Mbuyiseni :"Yes . I don't want to lose you in my life Khosi . I
don't waby to lose all that positive energy . Losing you would
really hurt me" whoa a mouthful .
Is it too soon for me to shoot my shot.
Is it wrong if i-
I turn to find his face so close to me , probably following my
breath .
He brushes his lips with mine and lays a wet perk .
We're disturbed by a bang on the door .
Talk about bad timing.
He groans and gets off the chair to the door .
After a few minutes he calls for me and I walk there to find the
shock of my entire existence .
My supposed husband with my father .
Abantu bayakwazi ukukwenza umphefumulo. Nxn.
Me :"Baba... Sokalisa" you can't mistake the shock in my voice.
Babazi :"Makhosini wakwaButhelezi . Ufunani la?"
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*GC*
.
.
"And when I couldn't sleep at night,
Scared things wouldn't come our right
You would always sing to me
Caterpillar in the tree,
How you wonder who you'd be
Can't go far but you can always dream
Don't you worry hold on tight
I promise you there will come a day , butterfly fly away .
Got those wings now you can't stay
Take those dreams and make them come true ." He's singing to
a sleeping Saint .
That is their routine these days , i didn't even know that
Sabatha can sing .
I've seen my boyfriend coming back to the land of the living
because of spending so much time with Saint .
I don't know how my forever crying daughter does it but she
calms him down .
Over the past couple of months the has registered his recording
company , iNsingizi Records .
On the night he launched it I saw my boyfriend break down ,
tears and all .
He had his mother's picture on the day , curled up on the floor .
I know I got to meet the powerhouse that is Nsingizi but I wish I
had had more time to be with the woman who raised the love
of my life .
To thank her , to thank them .
Sabatha does the sweetest things like pain my nails like a
technician , plait my hair and I'd obviously ask who taught him .
His answer would always be the same , "Mfazi kaBafo taught us
, wathi our wives will thank her one day " .
In all my years of umjolo I had never seen such but I am glad I
did .
Maybe I can teach my daughter that men actually do break
down .
Me :"I can't wait for her to sing First man to you" he rolls his
eyes to the back of his brain with a disgusted look .
Sabatha has it hard to accept that Saint will grow up and
actually date .
Weirdly enough I can't wait for her to.
I know there'll be days where she doesn't want to speak to me
but I can't wait for the raw conversations I'll have with her .
Sabatha :"My princess would never do that . Saint won't date ,
you'll see" I chuckle sarcastically because I'm sure that's what
my father said as well until I called them last year and told them
I was pregnant .
Dark times .
Me :"Ok Sabatha . Whatever you say" I exit to my room and he
follows me to the bed to cuddle .
Me :"Ngyabonga Mwelase" there's silence for a good minute .
Sabatha :"ok baby I'm worried . Are you ok? " I elbow him and
he groans then pulls me to him .
Me :"I'm serious sthandwa sam . Thank you for loving me with
my package , for loving my daughter like your own . There aren't
a lot of your kind out there . I just wish single mothers can
realise that choosing men over blood is bizzare when there are
men like you . Ngyakthanda sthandwa sam" he squeezes me
tight and pulls me to him .
Sabatha :"Ngyakthanda nam baby kodwa my daughter is not a
package . She is part of this crazy love story , she solidifies what
is already here , uthando lwethu. Thank you for seeing beyond
the lies baby wam" we haven't had these type of conversations
and yea...I missed him .
Me :"How is the investigation going? You're not getting back to
me Sabatha . Where was Letty last seen kanti?"
Sabatha :"They said Alexandra . I don't know what Letty wants
from me , I'm so tired of running after her , I just want my child
mna" he huffs .
This is really taking a toll on him and I hate it .
He really doesn't entertain the topic of Letty because that's
when he realises that time is not standing still and her little boy
out there is growing up without him . Probably without a father
figure. .
In a minute Sabatha is asleep
he's even snoring .
He's probably uncomfortable so I remove my head from his arm
and remove his shoes .
I take a snap and post it on my insta story , yeap I just went
public with our relationship in this very second .
There are a lot of people congratulating us , some saying we
look good together LIARS!
And obviously there are some devil's toe nails saying I'm a slay
queen in it for the money , why I'm with him when he is getting
all his ducks in a row and his recording company is doing well.
They don't know how I carried this man on my back for the last
month because Sabatha being Sabatha he invested all his last
cents to his company without thinking of tomorrow.
I was there when he had zero rands and we laughed about his
bank balance .
Yes I did transfer R5 000 into his bank account and I was left
with R2000 , mina wonke .
Ngiyidlisile mna i-team .
Ngiyi-dlise day one when I left my friends for him and I didn't
even know him from a bar of soap.
So I mize the gold digging tweets that are seemingly trending .
How did this get from Insta to Twitter? Yho abelungu .
My followers are increasing , I chuckle.
<Cela ingane yam Ntokozo . I'm good and ready to be a father
now . How the hell do you allow him to raise my son when I'm
alive? Ngfuna ingane yam>
Imihlolo we-A grade .
Top class .
I laugh a bit and clap my hands once .
And he claims his child over a DM umsunu.
<Are you insane? Is your memory lost? I aborted your child
bhuti . Angithi that's what you wanted?> Me
.
<I saw her on your Instagram and ngiyamfuna Ntokozo> Andile
When last was I called Ntokozo?
.
<Ungazongbhebha umphefumulo Wena . Out here asking for a
child when you don't even know how much iPurity is , what do
you think "your child" has been eating since birth ? Ucabanga
ukuthi ugqokani? Ugqokiswa enye indoda because you are not
man enough angithi Wena . You need time to be ready to be a
parent . Yaz uyadakwa Kabi Wena. Udakwa uchame> Me
I wait for another text from him and it's quiet .
Cabanga sengidlalwa i-sperm donor .
I raised that child by myself until Sabatha . Who does he think
he is ?
Uyamfuna? Haybo e-never never mano.
.
<Kambe unjalo . Awushintshi> Andile
.
<You'll draw that child Wena . Ungijwayela ikaka moss> me
.
It's so easy for one to be out there telling single mothers to
allow baby daddies a chance when they pitch up years later
after the sleepless nights with your little baby and all you need
is help . Any sort of help .
Don't judge single mothers if you've never had a crying baby ,
your baby cry all night with you and you've exhausted all your
options and opt for crying with them because their cries are
piercing right through your heart .
I don't understand men , you can literally be anything you what
to be and you opt to be a dead beat father? Yikes.
Single mothers honestly need to be celebrated .
Mother's in general!
.
.
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*Makhosi*
.
.
.
I'm fucken frustrated .
What are they doing here?
Right before my kiss? Really?
Do they know how long I've been waiting for that kiss?
How long I've been dreaming of even touching those lips? Hay
man!
Me :"Baba what are you doing here?"
Baba :"What are you asking me wena? We've been looking for
you ekhaya making us your fools..." I act shocked a bit but this is
my father , he knows me like the back of his hand .
As much as my father is a hard man , we have the best
relationship which explains why he has bended the rules
whenever it comes to me .
A Loyal Princess is supposed to be married at this age but look
at me ... I'm gallivanting.
Me :"I talked to....ulokhunja hau." Kambe what is his name?
I just point at him and my father frowns , well he constantly has
a frown but now it's a bit tense .
Baba :"Look at yourself ? You don't even know your husband's
name..." I was hoping he doesn't mention that in front of
Mbuyiseni .
I close my eyes for a mini second and his voice roars .
Mbuyiseni :"Can you all wait asecond and tell me what the hell
is happening in my house? Who are you?" He's staring at my
father . The last voice he heard .
But no , the supposed husband had to speak .... What is his
name man?
Lokhuza :"I'm here to fetch my wife"
Mbuyiseni :"Why are you looking for your wife in my house ?
Kthiwe sifihla abafazi yin laykhaya?" He asks with a deadly
frown now looking at peanut head
Lokhuza :"No but she-"
Mbuyiseni :"Then leave my house . You can't walk in here and
make noise as if akekho umnikazi. Leave my house please"
Lokhuza :"I'm not leaving without my wife"
Mbuyiseni :"then you need motivation" I was never ready for
this ...he points an entire gun at peanut head .
He has a gun? A gun? Does he know how to use it?
How is he so sure he's pointing at a head?
This blind man can see I swear to you.
Mbuyiseni :"Ngiphumele ngomuzi" he spits and I see peanut
head shudder .
I was never ready for this .
I have never met this Mbuyiseni .
I'm new to this .
My father is looking at this interaction with an intense look on
his face and arms folded on his chest.
Baba :"Wena..." He points at Mbuyiseni "it better not be ukuthi
niyakipita la ngoba uzwukhomba onotshwala . Me and you have
to talk . By 9 am I want you kwaMhlabuyalingana for our
meeting" 9 am? It's flipping 20:00pm right now . What? He
thinks he has a private jet? Yhu.
At this point Mbuyiseni has lowered his gun and listening
attentively.
When you don't know him , it's easy for you to think he can
actually see you with the way his "eyes" follow the voice , I
think he just does involuntarily
My dad points at...lomfana and continues "Wena...fetch your
cows bright and early tomorrow morning . My daughter can't
marry someone who shakes and shudders at the sight of a mere
gun . Go look for your balls , you won't handle my daughter" my
ex husband's eyes pop and I stick out my tongue at him and
laugh.
My dad turns and doesn't say anything to me .
Baba :"Wena mfana wesbhamu...I want my daughter ksasa
oksayo"
Me :"Hay baba"
Baba :"Awufuni yini Makhosini?"
Me :"Ngyafuna babazi"
Baba :"Good . I want my porridge before 12 o'clock" God kill me
now!
They all leave me and Mbuyiseni to a ball of silence .
He's angry , he's mad angry.
Mbuyiseni :" what the fuck just happened Makhosi? Who the
hell was that?" I'm too excited for this .
Me :"oh that? My dad's and ex husband. Let's go pack" I run off
to my room in a good mood .
I'm happily divorced.
Mbuyiseni :"How will I handle you?"
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*GC*
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.
I have a meet up with Funiks and I'm all sorts of excited since
we haven't done this in ages.
I'm the first one to get here and I order .
My waitress is so excited to see my and she's trying her level
best to stay professional .
Sis :"m.my name GC...I mean you are GC and I'm Zee . I'm
Zinhle. Ooh my Good" I want to laugh but I don't want to alert
the boss who's standing there looking at all of this.
Me :"Hello Zinhle . Awumhle ke ntombi"
Zinhle :"Utsho?" I nod and she grins
Me :"What do you use on your skin? My skin is breaking out"
she beams and grabs a note pad . I guess now we're keeping
appearances to the bosses .
I grab the menu and play along .
Zinhle :"Amaphilisi mntase .Vitamin C. Immune boost"I chuckle .
I'll definitely check it out .
I order and Funeka runs in after ten whole years .
Funeka :"Sorry... traffic" what traffic? Mxm .
She orders and our food comes .
Me :"So? How have you been doing?" She blatantly ignored me
and checks her phone for the hundredth time.
Me :"Are you expecting a call ? Because you're being so rude
right now " she huffs and places her hand on her chin .
Funeka :"Thule didn't sleep at home last night . He hasn't
answered any of my calls "
Me :"Why? What happened?" She spends a few minutes to
thinks and blurts out
Funeka :"I told her I don't want to have kids and get married"
Me :"Why? Marriage is a beautiful thing baby"
Funeka :"I can't have kids Mgcini and I'm scared that should I
get married to him he will want kids from me and I can't . I want
to but that choice was taken from me when I was raped . My
womb can't carry kids to term" my heart breaks at this
revelation making me appreciate the little family me and
Sabatha are trying to make .
I see a tear in her eye and I wipe it off .
Me :"Did you tell him that?" She shakes her head with full
blown tears now .
Funeka :"I didn't get a chance"
Me :"Text him . Text him what you just told me now" she shakes
her head .
I know it's not my place but I grab her phone and start texting
<I can't have kids and I'm scared that should we get married
you'll want that from me and I can't. I want to but I can't , that
choice was taken way from me when I was raped . Mywomb
can't carry a baby to full term . Ngiyaxolisa sthandwa sam"
I wait a few minutes and it pings
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"Inkanyezi isamile emkhathini
Nelanga lisaphuma eMpumalanga
Nezingane zilala zidlile
Kushukuthi uMdali usasibhekile
Uyen'obheku Israel akazeli akalali
He's the King of kings
He will never disappoint
He knows our very need" -Mondli Ngcobo
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*Funeka"
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He said he'll be home but here I am facing these walls .
Maybe he changes his mind .
Maybe he's re-thinking coming here because he knows he w-
He comes running and I sigh because of relief but I'm honestly
still on the edge because of what he will.
Thule :"I'm sorry" is the first thing he says totally bringing tears
to my eyes because of the intensity of his tone .
I just nod and he comes to kneel in front of me .
Thule :"MaFakude ngyaxolisa...." He takes out a small black box
from his pocket .
Thule :"I still want to marry you ndoni yamanzi" that's a first .
He has never called me by that name .
I just shake my head while wiping my tap of tears
Me :"I cannot make your dream of having a family come true
Thule , and that'll eat me for the rest of our living days .
Andizokwazi mntuwam . You deserve someone-" he cuts me off
Thule :"Don't tell me what I deserve if it's not you . Don't piss
me off" his voice is stern . Reminds me of the first say we met .
Thule :"I talked to Mabutho just now and baby we do have
options . I know you have your periods so that means your
ovaries are just fine so we can opt for surrogacy instead or even
adoption ." I can't help but spot the positivity in his voice and it
easily rubs off on me .
There's a possibility that I can have a baby? A mini me with
traits of the man of my dreams? It feels like a dream .
Me :"I can have a baby?"
Thule :"Yes baby you can have one. Or two or maybe five" I
giggle and fall to my knees as well to hug him .
He's given me hope .
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*Mbuyiseni*
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I woke up early so I can get this one to her father on time .
I can't get an answer out of her with the amount of excitement
in her voice
According to her , she's "happily divorced and I can't ruin her
moment" .
Someone help me .
I can't with her .
She's been playing this song , Qolo lami dancing and going crazy
in the car with me .
Apparently she's been waiting for the opportunity to drve my
car and she couldn't miss it when I offered .
Now it's just the two of us now and she's been telling me about
kwaMhlabuyalingana since we left .
My phone rings totally disturbing me and savinge from
Makhosi's blabbermouth .
It's Senzelo .
Me :"Bhuti"
Senzelo :"Yea Mbuyiseni . Unjani?" over the couple of months
we've been talking he's been opening up a bit but there are
moments where he goes all Nathi on me .
He said he wants to open a practice but he doesn't want to
contact Mnotho with the land kaMa noBaba back home .
I don't know what their issue is but they don't talk at all .
We get over all the small talk with Makhosi humming and all .
I think Senzelo's gotten used to it hence it's easy for us to
continue our conversation with all her unnecessary attention
grabbing stunts .
Senzelo :"Heh Bafo I've been encountering a problem here since
the cleansing ceremony..." I feel so special . He's never confided
in me , in anyone .
Me :"What's up?"
Senzelo :"I've been trying to connect to ubaba but I can't find
him . I've consulted uGobela about it and we've exhausted all
our options. We're even thinking maybe we can't find him
because he's not there"
IMPOSSIBLE.
Me :"Angaz mina Bafo . Maybe there's something we haven't
done that's why engafuni ukuziveza"
Senzelo :"It can happen but I doubt it zalo"
Me :"Please contact Mnotho maybe he might know what
wasn't done . Ubaba used to tell him about these things"
He chuckles .
His not going to do it .
He's so flipping stubborn.
Senzelo :"Uyadakwa kanti"
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.
As soon as the car comes to a stop at exactly 8:50 am Makhosi
heaves a sigh , early enough for the meeting .
We find him right outside what Makhosi says isigodlo .
This place is too big for one person .
There are a number of houses secluded from each other but
still in one homestead .
Makhosi greets everyone and escorts me to the King's office .
There are a number of whispers as we move along .
I wonder if Makhosi's father noticed if I can't see .
Will he say no to me dating her because if it?
As soon as the door opens I know there's no turning back .
Buthelezi :"You're right on time . Makhosi excuse us"
Makhosi :"Kodwa baba
Buthlezi :"So you don't want to?"
Makhosi :"Cha baba I do " she leads me to a seat totally blowing
up my cover Then leaves.ow
ow I have to explain why she did that.
There's silence for a few seconds then he speaks .
Buthelezi :"I had an application printed out for you to answer
but I noticed you have a problem with your sight we'll have to
do it orally , agreed?" I nod to whatever application he's talking
about .
Buthelezi :"Good...now first question , explain to me what
"don't touch my daughter means?" What?
Me :"Uhm I don't know . It means I mustn't touch her at all"
Buthelezi :"Explain what "no" means to you" ok I was never
ready for this test.
Me :"It means I must stop"
Buthelezi :"do you fully understand what "no sex before
marriage" means?" Hehe lol.
Me :"Oh yes completely sir"
Buthelezi :"Where would you least like to be shot ?"
Me :"My ears"
Buthelezi :"Let's say my daughter comes to me crying because
of you . In The unfortunate events of your death , where would
you want your Ashes to be scattered?" This man is freaking me
out.
Me :"In my mother's garden maybe?"
Buthelezi :"NC NC NC mnkrr . Where do you see yourself in a
year IF you grow up?"
Me :"Grow my company and maybe work with Netflix"
Buthelezi :"Yho Jehova. Which is the last bone you want to be
broken?"
Me :"My skull?"
Buthelezi:"Do you own a van? A couch ? A bed? anythin softer
than a wooden stool?" Do I lie?
Me :"I don't sir"
Buthelezi :"Who's house was that ?"
Me :" I don't own it . I'm just renting "
Buthelezi :"Mmhm . Are you cohabiting with my daughter?"
Me :"N.no sir . She was only visiting me" are all these lies
necessary?
Buthelezi :"Because if you move in with my daughter , you have
my permission to die" I chuckle a bit .
Buthelezi :"Some people say it's hard to kill a human being and
it probably . But try messing with my daughter and see how fast
my gun fires when my princess cries ."
Me :"Cha , I won't hurt her"
Buthelezi :"I have a few simple rules , very easy to follow .
•No sex .
I know you've probably been told that a relationship without
sex is close to impossible
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you need protection and all . When it comes to sex with
Makhosini , I'm the protection and I'll kill you.
•No late meetups .
•You take my princess you bring her back before the clock hits
23:00 .
•You don't touch her in front of me , you don't look at her , not
even a glance mfana uyangizwa? I don't want your hands on
anything beneath her neck , if you cannot keep your hands to
yourself I'll remove them.
•If you are fetching my daughter and she takes more than an
hour to come out , don't sigh and be fidgety . If you want to be
on time , she's not your cup of cake .
•I know you might have been told that in order for us to get
along we have to talk about sport , politics and all that crap.
Please do not do that . I only want to see your face when you
fetch my daughter and bringing her back before 23:00 . You'll
find me on the patio each time you go out .
•I have no doubt you are a popular fellow and probably have
girls running after you but now you're with Makhosini and you'll
date until she feels she's fed up with you . you will wait for her
to say it's over . If she cries , I will make you cry . Sizwene
mfana?" I nod .
A door opens and I immediately catch Makhosi's scent .
Thank God . This man was so close to eating me .
Makhosi :"Baba I hope you didn't ruin things for me" to think
we haven't made things official makes all of this funny .
Buthelezi :"It's my job to ruin things for you" I sense mockery in
his tone hence I chuckle .
Buthelezi :"But I didn't . "
Makhosi squeals and puts her hand on my thigh .
Nangu engixaka .
The rules! I try to yank her hand off .
There's movement and I feel another hand on my right thigh
Buthelezi :"I forgot , there's another rule . What you do to my
daughter , I'll do to you . Since she's grabbing your thigh , why
don't we all grab thighs?
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Season finale !
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“My love where are you?
Whenever you ready . Whenever you’re ready
Whenever you’re ready
Can we, can we surrender.
I surrender” –Natalie Taylor
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*Mbuyiseni*
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.
Today is our first official date night and apparently I have to get
her from her home which is slightly nerve wrecking with the
way her father keeps clearing his throat each time I try to fiddle
with my hands .
I think subconsciously he keeps on reminding me of one of the
rules…of not being fidgety each time her daughter is not being
late and honestly I can’t help it .
Buthelezi :” Instead of sitting there and drinking my water why
don’t you try being useful and fetch my cattles from my grazing
land? Ungiqedela amanzi la nxn” I quickly place the glass of
water right next to me , not spilling a drop of water .
Right when I’m about to get up I hear loud footsteps and that’s
definetly her .
She walks like a fucken giant .
I catch a whiff of a new scent and I can’t help but groan because
this is one of the reasons I hate being in a different place and
meeting new people….the different scents and voices take
forever to get used to .
“I changed my perfume Mbuyiseni” she squels and giggles .
She enjoys torturing me doesn’t she?
I chuckle a bit and walk slowly towards her voice .
Buthelezi :”I won’t remind you of those special rules we talked
about Mwelase , my gun will have to do the talking” I stand still
probably a few feet from her because her scent is so strong on
my nose .
Me :”Kuzwakele Sokalisa” I hear Makhosi grunt and I can’t help
but chuckle .
Buthelezi :”Good . I want her back by 21:00 . got it?”
Makhosi :”Aw kodwa baba , 21:00 is too early . It’s already
19:30 “
Buthelezi :”If you won’t listen to my rules , hlala phansi
Makhosini” I’m yet to get used to someone calling her
Makhosini .
Me :”Kodwa ba-“
Buthelezi :”Don’t you dare . Not in my house . You’re not in a
movie or romantic book where you think challenging me will
make me think you’re good for my daughter . I’ll kick you out
and you won’t ever hear from my daughter . Try challenging me
Mwelase with my sperm and you’ll see me” I chuckle at the
mention of sperm .
This man is all the levels of unnecessary , kind of reminding me
of ubafo.
I think he would’ve been this kind of father if we had sister .
Me :”Ngyakuzwa Buthelezi”
Buthelezi :”Good . 21:00?” I nod and I hear footsteps which are
as loud as Makhosini’s walk off . So it’s a family thing? They all
walk like that? They make that much noise when they walk?
I release a sigh of relief and Makhosi chuckles.
Me :”That was intense. I didn’t think he’d let me leave the
house still alive “
Makhosi :”Don’t mind him . when you get to know him you’ll
realise that deep down he’s nothing but a sweetheart” it must
be very very deep because it seems like we’re talking about two
different people .
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*Mnotho*
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Is this what happiness is supposed to feel like ?
I think this is it .
Now it is made clear why me and Enhle never worked out , she
is the reason .
She walks in in her towel with her hands on her waist giving me
a dangerous glare .
She’ probably mad at me because of last night , I really didn’t
give her a chance last night .
I’m really fucked .
She fucked me up for even the next girl , which I don’t think
there will be with the way things are going .
“nxn” she clicks and I can’t help the dangerous chuckle that
leaves my mouth.
Me :”Sizoxabana Senamile , ngeke uthande mase sixabene .
uzokhala” I spit as calmly as I can .
She swallows and drags her beautiful body towards.
me :”Why are you sulking?”
Sena :”My coochie is burning” I pull her tome and give her a kiss
on her temple .
Sena :”Want me to kiss it better?” she covers her face with her
hands .
I’ll never get over her innocence .
How she refuses to get used to my mouth is beyond me .
I chuckle and remove her hands , staring at her soil brown eyes
.
Me :”Do you want me to kiss it better?” she shakes her head .
Me :”Words mkami” she rolls her eyes and I chuckle because I
know why .
She flashes her thick left hand to my face
Sena :”I don’t see a ring here” me :”Uyayifuna yini?” I guess my
question caught her by surprise because she opens and closes
her mouth but doesn’t seem to utter a single word .
Sena :”Hay man Mnotho”
Me :”Cha ngyabuz sthandwa . uyayifuna yini?” she swiftly gets
off me leaving me laughing .
Me :”Uyaphi. You didn’t answer my question” she stops to tilt
her head .
Sena :”What do you think?” so she wants a ring? I’m afraid
that’s what she’s getting because she thinks she’s testing me .
.
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<Something is wrong with your parents. I can’t seem to connect
with them in the after life . Not that it’s any of my business but
you better look into it before it bites all of you> senzelo .
.
I’m shocked at the fact that he even texted me .
I don’t know how many times Sena has begged me to text him
and try to connect with him but I just couldn’t .
But here he is texting me . I don’t even know what to say at this
point .
“I hope you’re not thinking about some girl Mnotho” she
throws herself next to me and grabs my phone .
So we share this phone now?
Sena :”What are you thinking?’’
Me :”I don’t know what to say to him . I didn’t expect his text”
Sena :”Mbuyiseni told me he wants to practice .”
Me :”Hay Sena , I am not giving him my father’s land for his
voodoo nonsense” I see her brows crease and her mouth open
.
Sena :”Because of a few degrees and a few millions you think
are above him? The sooner you realise that he is richer than
you in more ways than one you’ll want to be part of the people
that helped him help others . Instead of using money , he is
using his gift to serve the energy of his soul, his calling . His gift
is beyond him , that “voodoo nonsense” is allowing him to live
from the heart . Mnotho get this , you can be hit by an egg in
the face and die tomorrow . someone WILL become a
millionaire like you were , someone else will drive that
expensive car , someone will live in this expensive house , but
uSenzelo…people may not remember that car he drove , the
house he lived in but they will remember him …they will
remember the lives he touched , the lives he influenced
through his gift . uzenza ncono wena? Because you have
money? The world is in need of enlightened black people to
take charge of our inevitable destiny
I won’t allow you to stand in Senzelo’s way . That’s his father as
well , I don’t know where this entitlement comes from nxn” she
storms off totally pissed at me .
Ok that really didn’t come out right .
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[a year later]
<this period will be narrated on *a soulmate redefined* >
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*Thule*
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Me :”I had always been one who couldn’t really shout that
ngimuhle , I was always the darkskinned guy at the corner with
little to say . I understood that beauty was debatable and I
hated it . so I figured , I’ll just be the guy who’s a freaking whizz
in Mathermatics , knows Business management like the back of
his hands and there was no way they could argue about that .
The numbers don’t lie.
I was sitting right there with everyone else when my brother
was called to receive this very same award . He made me stand
up and told everyone I was next . I didn’t even have a plan back
then , I had lost everything . I opted to selling what my company
was worth and dive into the Taxi industry…” there are a number
of laughs and I can’t help but chuckle .
“It seems crazy now thinking about it but that hasty decision
bought me the love of my life , who came along with this crazy
idea if starting a company . At that time she had also lost her
job and had opted for joining me and count my money in the
taxi . I was never ready for her , the kind of shift she brought in
my life. I was ready for a girl that was going to build me like the
rest had been doing , but there she was ready to build with me
caring less how much I’ll be doing this for the third time , I was
doing it with her for the first time . Everything makes sense now
, it all fits in divine order . I wouldn’t change the nights I spent in
my office refusing to go back home and facing my father
because they bought me right here .
Funeka…cela usukume sthandwa sam…” she gets up slowly in
her gorgeous sparkling dress and there are a number of
screams in the room .
Me :”Baby I wouldn’t have done it without you , I’m sorry I took
this long but I can’t spend another day seeing your left hand
without my ring on it . Can you make me the happiest man in
this room and agree to be my wife” I swear if she says no I’m
dropping dead on this floor to avoid embarrassing myself any
further .
I see her nod a multiple times and the room erupts with
screams .
Kwathi huuu.
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After the award ceremony we all went home , to the grave yard
.
I think everyone’s too excited to even realize we drove through
through the night.
It’s 7:00 am now and the six of us are standing right in front of
dad’s grave , yes Senzelo is here . he stays at home full time
now.
This reminds of this status I read from a friend .
<Ngikthanda ngisho usungasekho phambi kwawami amehlo.
Ngikthande ngisho sezing’netha ngingazi ngizokhala kubani.
Ngiyazibuza uma ezinye izingane zithandazelwa abazali bazo
ukuthi ziphephe , thina sithandazelwa obani> Mbali.N
grief/loss is crazy . it literally comes down on you in your
happiest times and you wonder if your loved ones are happy
with your decisions .
Me :”I did it Bafo . I finally have it on lockdown. Thank you
Timer , thank you for being my best friend more than my dad .
There was never a time where I felt like I was navigating life
alone when you were there. Ngiyabonga . Imsebenzi yakho
iyabonakala”
Mabutho :”Ngyakukhumbula mfethu . It feels like yesterday
when I bunked school just to play at Amib holdings with you”
Mbuyiseni :”I met someone who reminds me of you it’s crazy .
It seems like a dream ukuthi awusoze ubuye”
Mnotho :”Ma….” We all chuckle a bit because we kind of
expected it . He will never change . He will always be ingane
kaMa
Mnotho :”Shut up nina . Ma , ngithole ubambo lwami . I think
I’ll make her my wife .” Sabatha :”Cha Ma , he’s stalling . Sena
has him by the balls . She’s our staring.” He fist bumps with
Mabutho and we all laugh . she really is our wing woman .
Senzelo :”I wish I met them . Maybe your mother would’ve
accepted me and I wouldn’’t have shifted from one orphanage
to another . Maybe some things wouldn’t have happened .
Ngyakuxolela baba .” There’s intense silence and Mnotho hugs
him .
And then he calls himself tough guys , hihi . an entire lol.
“I’m glad I’ve lived long enough to witness this , all my sons in
my house . I can’t believe I almost missed it” that voice!
We all stand there horrified to the bone .
Sabatha’s eyes are about pop out of the socket .
WTF!
There he stands with his wife in his hands . How ? we buried
them . I made sure of it !
In a second Mabutho is on the floor , he fainted?
Senzelo has his head tilted and arms crossed on his back , not
really surprised but acknowledging the entire thing.
Senzelo :”I was wondering when you’d pop up?”
Mbuyiseni :”Ma…Mamam is that you?” he pulls his hand from
Sabatha and navigates to them .
I’m done with this . whatever is going one here? I don’t want to
be a part of it .

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