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Summary: As if her parents’ heavy drinking and her father’s abuse—which nearly killed
her half-brother, Iggy—were not enough, fifteen-year-old Mara is caught kissing her
girlfriend, Xylia, by the preacher’s son and becomes terrified that her own life is at risk.
[1. Family problems—Fiction. 2. Brothers and sisters—Fiction, 3. Child abuse—Fiction.
4. Alcoholism—Fiction. 5. Lesbians—Fiction. 6. Christian life—Fiction.] I. Title.
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For my precious parents,
who taught me the way of love
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make up for cheating on him all those years ago when they
were engaged. As far as I can tell, it’s not working. Daddy
still hates Momma most days.
When I heard about how Iggy was made in a smelly
barn and not a sacred marriage bed, it made me want to
throw up. It’s been almost a year, and I still feel like barfing
at the thought of Momma and this man humping away
in the hay, their bare, pasty skin all covered in goose pim-
ples and sweat. I can’t stop thinking about it though, even
when the sick taste is in my mouth, and my throat is as
tight as a fist full of quarters. I think about it before I go
to bed, as the floorboards are creaking and Daddy is grunt-
ing and Momma is making no noise at all. I think about it
in science class when Mr. Farley talks in his deep, garbled
voice about stamens and pistils, and shouldn’t we all know
not to giggle at these lessons by now, shouldn't we think of
flower reproduction as a gift from the good Lord and not
fodder for dirty, hell-spawned thoughts? I think of it when
Iggy wonders why Daddy hates him. But I never tell Iggy
what I know.
Sometimes when | imagine Willy Macyntire, he looks
like Bugs Bunny, buck teeth and all. Sometimes he looks like
a movie star. Sometimes he looks like the devil. I’ve never
seen him, and I never will, because Momma said even before
beauty of the broken
she knew she was pregnant, Daddy took his rifle to Willy’s
house and told him to leave town or he’d kill him. Willy left.
When Daddy says he'll kill you, you believe him. His eyes
get flat and shiny, like asphalt on a hot day. They go dead.
Sometimes knowing is torture. You wish you could hide
your secret away in a dark, cobwebby shed, shut the door,
and break the key in the lock so no one can ever get in
again. You wish that you could go to sleep and have your
last thought be anything but the buttery light of the New
Mexico moon sneaking in through the cracks of an old
barn’s walls. But you can’t erase the knowing, and you can
never tell your secret. If there is one thing this world has
taught me, it’s that no matter how bad things get, they can
always get worse. Secrets should stay secrets. It keeps them
tolerable. Telling secrets turns them into full-on hell.
I think all this as I stare at Iggy. We’re lying under the
porch. It’s so hot, sweat is trickling from the sandy tips of
Iggy’s hair and zigzagging over his freckles, mixing with the
tears that keep sneaking out of his rust colored eyes. He’s
trying not to cry, I can tell. He never cries anymore. Not
even in front of me. But today Daddy said he was gonna kill
him, and today we believe him.
“He'll never find us here,” I whisper. When I touch Iggy’s
arm, I notice how small and white my hands look. My fingers
TAWNI WATERS
“Get out here now, boy, or I’ll whip you double good!”
shouts Daddy. Iggy looks at me, and I kiss his cheek. My eyes
beg him to keep his mouth shut.
“I’m under here,” he says. He starts to roll away from me.
“No, Iggy. No!”
Daddy looks under the porch. I’m not sure whether
he is a man or a demon as he stares at Iggy. That blue
vein is bulging. “You been hiding from me, boy?” When
he grabs Iggy by the arm and yanks him from his hiding
place, I wish that I had a fiery angel sword. I have only
my small hands, so I crawl out and stand there trembling
while Daddy stares Iggy down, breathing hot and heavy
and slow. Daddy’s holding a warped two-by-four.
“You hiding from me, boy?” he asks again.
Iggy balls up his fists. He stares right back at Daddy, into
his dead eyes. I can’t believe how brave he is. The bees are
still buzzing in Iggy’s throat, long and low. “I didn’t take
your hammer, Daddy,” he says.
Daddy lifts the two-by-four. “Come again?”
lay has never been in a fight before. Not really. He tried
to stand up to Daddy that one time, but other than that,
Momma's right. He’s a gentle giant. He fishes. Chops the
heads off the chickens so I won’t have to. But mostly he
hates to hurt anything. Right now though his face has that
beauty of the broken
Language: French
II
JUSQU’AU DIX-HUIT BRUMAIRE
PARIS
C. MARPON ET E. FLAMMARION, ÉDITEURS
1 A 7, GALERIES DE L’ODÉON ET RUE ROTROU, 4
1880
Tous droits de traduction et de reproduction réservés.
PARIS. — IMPRIMERIE ÉMILE MARTINET, RUE MIGNON, 2.
PRÉFACE
DES JUSTICES DE L’HISTOIRE
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XIXE SIÈCLE
LIVRE PREMIER
ANGLETERRE
CHAPITRE PREMIER
LE PREMIER PITT. — LA GUERRE ET LES EMPRUNTS. — LE