from an article titled 'pretend girlfriend? be careful you're not using your fag hag,' by eric wright, xy magazine, july 1999.
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Showgirls photographed backstage at Follies Bergere, Tropicana, 1969
Been thinking about Carol and this interaction she has with her sister, Elena.
They are talking about regrets they have, things they wish they could have done before the world began to end.
Carol says, "I wish I could have said no to more things."
Elena responds: "Jesus, Carol!"
And at first, I understood Elena's reaction. Carol doesn't...do much. She works at an office recreationally, for goodness's sake! Does Carol just want to live the life of a hermit, never changing or doing anything differently?
But then I thought about it more.
Her parents and sister are significantly more extroverted than she is, so it stands to reason that she'd spent massive chunks of her younger years being dragged along on their adventures. Carol is 42 years old. She had another job before the Distraction (being a middle school secretary) and has presumably done many other things. She's old enough, and mature enough, to know what she wants. And what she wants, is just to live a quiet and routine life and hang out with her friends.
Now that she's also old enough to reflect, I bet the reason she says she wishes she'd said no to more things is because she feels like she wasted time spent doing what other people wanted (her) to do, time she could have spent living her life on her own (seemingly unconventional or boring) terms.
Hell, they even say in the episode that Elena admires Carol's willingness to just do what she wants. Normally, when one pictures a person who does what they want, they picture a bold, free-spirit unrestrained by societal conventions. They don't picture someone like Carol Kohl, seemingly imprisoned in a cage of her own making.
But it's not a cage. It's a home she chose to make for herself.
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Back from my birthday hiatus, and um, wow... was not expecting this kind of overwhelmingly positive reaction to a simple QRT about how we used Dissolve Mode in our BG paintings on Carol and the End of the World (see last image) - since people seemed to have enjoyed that so much, I thought I'd put all the pages of the Carol and the End of the World BG Paint style guide I drafted in one post! TBH I'd been meaning to do this for awhile but kept forgetting since I have it in a different folder than the BG paintings themselves... I believe all the paintings are mine and all the designs are by Alex Myung unless otherwise noted. I wrote this pretty early on pre-vis, so some of these guidelines got a little massaged during production, but the broad strokes are definitely still there! This wasn't the only style guide on the show BTW! A couple of our other leads Alex Myung and Kal Athannassov also put together a BG and Character Design style guide that are super cool - unfortunately I don't have the files myself (nor would I feel comfortable posting work that's not mine) nor do I think they've posted them yet, so if you two were looking for a sign to do so, this is it!! Now you have everything you need to paint like a Caroler - thanks for looking!! Showrunner: @dan-guterman Art direction: @ellemichalka