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Hillo I'am aweirdfan

Hillo and welcome to where I post whatever the fuck I want. So be prepared. I can post all from DSMP til F1 to Blur and Gorillaz. So yeah.

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I would gladly talk about anything. Maybe even write something but that’s a huge maybe. I don't really write.

Here's the tag for all my art. Just know that i don't post my art very often.

Here's my blog with all my fanfic recs so enjoy

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If you ever need anything translated from english to danish. Just send it my way I would be happy to do so.

Here is chosohairbuns’ masterpost of Palestinen people who need money. Just a small amount is find or even if you can’t donate (like me) reblog so other with money can donate.

I am a person who stands with Palestine because what Israel does goes beyond reason. Because it’s horrifying and terrible and I am a person with empathy.

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(The last poll glitched many apologies)

Thank you to the people voting on this poll.

I have another question~ how would you feel if a writer who gets a lot of engagement on their writing was actually using AI to write those stories?

Would you want to know if there are writers suspected of using AI? Answer in comments.

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Cute moment from cota 2025

Ok but why do kids like stick to Marc Marquez is he a magnet or something 🤣

“the arts and sciences are completely separate fields that should be pitted against each other” the overlap of the arts and sciences make up our entire perceivable reality they r fucking on the couch

so i am going to put a break down of all of the things with pip to help other people understand

pip is personal independence payment. it doesnt change because of your job or how much money you make already. pip exists to give people money to pay for being disabled because being disabled is more expensive than being abled

for example, mike and john work at mcdonalds. mike has a disability. john doesnt. both of them make the same amount of money. both of them spend their work money on bills.

but mike needs a wheelchair, and he has to pay for his wheelchair repairs because he didnt get it on the nhs. mike wont be given more money from his job because hes disabled, so how does mike pay for his extra costs?

mike is given pip. this helps him pay for a lot of the extra things he needs, meaning he can stay in work because without his wheelchair he wouldnt be able to work at all and would lose everything. this is why taking away pip doesnt make people start working

pip is in two categories. daily living and mobility. there are questions in both categories and you get points for them.

for example (i cant give complex and specific examples, so this wont be accurate but it is similar to the real thing)

i can eat by myself - 0 points, i can eat with a bit of help - 2 points, i can eat with a lot of help - 4 points, i need to be fully fed by another person - 8 points

the other questions are things like do you need help getting dressed, do you need help going to the toilet, and they all look something like this but the points bits are a lot more specific than the example i gave

across the whole daily living category you add all your points up to the end, and if you get 8-11 points total you get daily living pip. if you get 12+ you get enhanced pip which means more money

so for example, mike got 2 points on every single question. this means he has 20 total points, so he gets enhanced pip meaning he gets the most money he can for the daily living section

the mobility section works similar, but i am leaving it out because thats not what the uk government want to change.

labours (they are in charge of the uk government) new change says that they want you to have 4 points on at least one question in daily living, and if you dont, you dont get pip.

so lets go back to my example mike, who got 20 points because of 2 points on every question, now has his enhanced pip taken away, because he didnt get 4 points on any of them.

but, for example, mike uses his mobility pip on the motability scheme. this means all of the money he gets for the mobility section pays for his adapted car, which also gets him to work. so he would use the rest of his money from the daily living section to pay for his wheelchair.

under labours new idea, mike wont be able to pay for his wheelchair, because his daily living money will stop. mike might have to choose between his car and his wheelchair. either way, mike cant go to work anymore. now mike cant pay for his bills, and mike is very poor and suffering.

up to a million people or more might lose pip entirely. this will mostly effect people with low support needs mental disabilities, and a lot of medium support needs people too.

this will also mostly effect people with mental illnesses. these people spend their pip on things like therapy, sensory toys, medicine, easy meals, snacks, lots of things.

there are NO RULES about what you spend your pip on, but most people still spend it on things they absolutely need

i was really scared at first that i would have it taken off me. it wont because im too severe and i get enough points. someone like me with high support needs wont be affected by this change but theres another change that will.

when inflation happens, it means everything costs more money. so for example mike needs to pay for his wheelchair repair, but inflation has happened so mikes wheelchair repair went from £200 to £300.

this is okay because pip rises with inflation, which means that when everything costs more money, mike gets more money from pip to make up for it

labours idea is to freeze that. so mikes wheelchair repair has now gone up from £300 to £500, but labour froze pip so mike doesnt get more money this time, and now mike cant afford to pay for his wheelchair repair.

now mike cant go to work, and might have to wait months to get his wheelchair repaired by saving up the money, so mike loses his job anyway because hes not there for months.

all of these ideas are very bad. there are other things labour can do to get money but they dont want to do them. instead they are targeting disabled people because they dont like us and they want us to work. labour says things that make regular abled people think that disabled people are the reason the uk is struggling. we need to fight this

don’t talk to ME about gay yearning. in 2020 during lockdown i lived alone on a boat for three months. i went ashore once a day to work in a marine bio lab. we all had to access the lab at different times so we were never together & risking infection. i was alone all day every day, from my boat to the lab and back to my boat. one day a woman anchored her boat beside mine. we passed each other ashore just once at the harbor and she hit on me and invited me back to her boat. i told her i’d love nothing more but i could not risk exposure because of my weak immune system. she said it was a shame but that she understood. that night i was watering my vegetable garden i grew in 5 gallon buckets up on my roof and playing music on my speaker. “american pie” came on and she climbed up on her roof and shouted all the lyrics to every verse at me across the water and we danced together on our respective roofs. she raised anchor and moved on a few days later.

so yeah i know what it is to die a thousand deaths in an instant while your heart beats on.

At the risk of sounding anti-intellectual, I think that college should be free and also not a requirement for employment outside of highly specialized career fields

At the risk of sounding like an effete intellectual, I do actually think you should be allowed to just take college courses indefinitely

technically you can, if you don't care about degrees.

For paid, there's The Great Courses+/Wonderium. 20$ a month for unlimited courses.

When searching, the phrases you're looking for are Massive Open Online Courses (MOOCs), or you can do a general search of say, "free online college courses." Oh, and so you don't get surprised like I did, have an avoid: Hillsdale College is a conservative Christian site and not a valid MOOC place. Sign up with them and you will get things like THIS IS WHY THE LEFT IS TURNING YOUR KIDS TRANS AND GAY in your inbox.

@yourunderwaterskies I wanted to say thank you so much for adding these links, seriously, they've been life-changingly helpful to me-

And I also wanted to mention that humanitarian organisations have free courses too, like the Red Cross on international humanitarian law.

At the risk of sounding anti-intellectual, I think that college should be free and also not a requirement for employment outside of highly specialized career fields

At the risk of sounding like an effete intellectual, I do actually think you should be allowed to just take college courses indefinitely

technically you can, if you don't care about degrees.

For paid, there's The Great Courses+/Wonderium. 20$ a month for unlimited courses.

When searching, the phrases you're looking for are Massive Open Online Courses (MOOCs), or you can do a general search of say, "free online college courses." Oh, and so you don't get surprised like I did, have an avoid: Hillsdale College is a conservative Christian site and not a valid MOOC place. Sign up with them and you will get things like THIS IS WHY THE LEFT IS TURNING YOUR KIDS TRANS AND GAY in your inbox.

@yourunderwaterskies I wanted to say thank you so much for adding these links, seriously, they've been life-changingly helpful to me-

And I also wanted to mention that humanitarian organisations have free courses too, like the Red Cross on international humanitarian law.

"Why can't the freaks on AO3 just go and make a site for all the gross stuff and leave AO3 alone."

Because AO3 is that site. Because AO3 was that site long before you decided AO3 was better than the sites you bullied us off of before, and I can promise you if someone somehow comes up with a fanfic site you like better specifically for the 'gross stuff' you'll try to bully us off that too so you can benefit from it.

AO3's specific core purpose is to preserve fanfiction, yes, but it was also instigated as a host site for the fanfiction that kept getting yeeted off other platforms like Wattpad. Its designed to preserve all fanfiction, not just the fanfiction you, personally, think is 'allowed' to be written.

AO3 is the site for all the gross stuff the freaks make. We've been there just as long as you. We've been funding it just as long as you have. AO3 has specifically said you have a place here. The timeline was literally:

Wattpad/FF.net/LiveJournal purge fanfics > AO3 is born > The people who's fics got purged moved over to AO3 > AO3 gains popularity as the best functioning site > The people who pushed for the fics to be purged off Wattpad move to AO3 > The same people try to push for AO3 to purge fics.

AO3's source coding is open-access. You go make a polished, strict, rigid site where nothing 'icky' is allowed. You go make a site where you can control what is hosted. We already have our space.

AO3 was specifically made for the stuff likely to be purged from other sites.

It was built around "we need to own the servers" so we wouldn't have to deal with anyone else's judgment calls about what was acceptable in fanfic: Not corporate sponsors, not evangelical religious groups, not "save the children" activists... and not other fans who think that The Gross Stuff should be banned from public view, only shared via private email after you've sent in a request heavily laden with special keywords.

Some of the founders remembered when slash fanfic was kept under the table at the dealer's room, distributed with brown paper wrappers only to people who knew to ask for it specifically.

And they said: Fuck that. Our art is not a crime and we're not going to be ashamed of it. If you are ashamed to have your art next to it - there's a whole wide internet that's ready to host your G-rated genfic.

AO3 was built for the stuff that was unwelcome elsewhere.

Don't make me tap the sign but this is the sign:

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Close Look: Juan Sánchez Cotán, Quince, Cabbage, Melon and Cucumber" (1602)

           Although often viewed as an intrinsic category of European painting, still life painting only emerged as a major form of art in the early 17th century. Its popularization was mostly associated with the coming of the Age of Enlightenment, a cultural movement which lasted over a hundred years. The period was marked with major scientific achievements such as the invention of the telescope and microscope, allowing a truly empirical understanding of the physical world. The philosophy of the time glorified human rationalism and the empirical method. It was believed that through logic and empirical processes, intelligent human beings are capable of understanding the natural world and making changes.

          As a result, the era produced two major themes, first a notion of human empowerment, and second, an enthusiasm for the natural world. These two themes were the forces that propelled still life painting into popularity. In particular, there was a great interest in the ordinary, that common everyday people and things embody a potential greater than what they appear to be.

          This still life painting, Quince, Cabbage, Melon and Cucumber, by Juan Sanchez Cotan is a good representation of the ideas of era. Cotan is a Spanish painter living in the late 16th century. In life, he was a religious man who later entered the Carthusian monastery in his forties. As an artist, he was heavily influenced by the distinctive Baroque styles of Caravaggio—the ordinariness of the subjects, the sense of movement, and the chiaroscuro, the bold contrast of light and dark. Although at the time, still life painting was becoming widely popular throughout Europe, especially with prolific influences from Dutch and Flemish painters, Cotan’s still life works distinguish themselves from the rest. The Quince, Cabbage, Melon and Cucumber is a unique combination of a Baroque style painting, a great enthusiasm in the fine details of the ordinary, and an underlying mystical sense of spirituality.

          The painting is undeniably Baroque in quality. The most prominent Baroque feature of the painting is the chiaroscuro, the extreme contrast between light and dark that separates the subjects from its surroundings. Here, the five fruits and vegetables are illuminated, almost washed out, and brought out to the foreground by a strong directional light casted diagonally from the top left of the painting. The powerful light, however, has no effect on the background which appears to be an impenetrable wall of darkness. Through this application, Cotan not only creates an extreme contrast between the subjects and the background, but also hints at the ambiguity of space. Although the space where the vegetables occupy is flat and shallow, the thick darkness of the background seems to extend deep beyond the painting, suggesting at a larger, more expansive space but hidden from view—another distinctive feature of Baroque art. Finally and most importantly, there is an extraordinary attention to detail, suggesting an enthusiastic interest in the ordinary. The vegetables and fruits are rendered with great realism, capturing every bumps, folds, and imperfections, unlike Dutch still life paintings which often feature flowers and are more ornate and decorative in appearance.

          Arguably the most fascinating feature of this painting is its composition: the powerful, organized, and elegant curve. Not only does the curve extend from top left to bottom right, it also seems to come forward in space as it descends, ending with the cucumber which seems to protrude out of the image plane. It can be seen as a feature of Baroque art: the strong Baroque diagonal and the movement through space that suggests a space more expansive than what is contained inside the painting. The long arch is extremely graceful and at the same time peculiar, as the shapes are so precisely and artificially arranged. The perfection of the curve is almost mathematical in appearance, taking the shape of a hyperbola, calling out to the rational and empirical thought of the time. As a whole, the composition creates a powerful effect of the painting. It gives off an unusually mysterious quality, a quality which draws the attention and curiosity of the viewer. It is as if there is more to the fruits and vegetables than what meets the eye. This sense of mystery hints at an important aspect of Cotan’s life, which is his Catholic spirituality.

            Finally, there is a more subtle but extremely profound aspect of the painting which cannot be ignored: the implied sense of movement. This sense of motion isn’t different from one seen in Clara Peeter’s Still Life with Flowers, Goblet, Dried Fruit, and Pretzels, a Baroque sense of implicit motion, a sense of objects caught at just the right moment, about to come to rest or about to be set into motion. For this painting in particular, that sensation is of precariousness, an anxious anticipation of the uncertain, of something about to topple and fall over the edge. What causes this anxiety is the tension between the precise curved composition and the subjects. Although frozen in stillness at the present moment in their divinely perfect arrangement, the objects are subject to shift and descend into chaotic disorder in the next. The curve imposes an organized order on the fruits and vegetables, an almost mathematical perfection which was only achieved at precisely the time of this painting, but the objects are movable and soon will inevitably lose their exact position in space. At the center of the painting stands the only object that is truly stable, the dissected melon, safely grounded on the square frame. For others, their positions are perilous and their stability is at risk. On the left side are the slice of melon and the cucumber, precariously teetering off the edge of the frame. Their positioning implies a vulnerable sense of danger, as if the next moment they will roll over and fall off the frame into the viewer’s space. The shadows they cast moreover emphasize and foreshadow their imminent fall. On the right side, the massive cabbage and the quince also dangle in a precarious state. The anxiety, however, does not come from their imminent drop, but from their delicate and exposed configurations. Dangling only by a single thread, they are subjected to sway and turn in the winds and motions of the living world, losing their place in the perfect hyperbola.

           As one of the earliest masters of still life, Cotan is able to create a painting of great intrigue using only simple and ordinary objects. With gestures of subtle movement and a composition that suggests mystique, he is able to capture our curiosity and invite us to contemplate extraordinarily ordinary subjects: a quince, a cabbage, a melon, and a cucumber.

By: Nop Jiaranthankul

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