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a great many people are going to die and there is very little at all I can do about it. the cracking noise is my heart breaking. that whistle you hear is the steam coming from the boiling kettle of my anger. a little mustard seed in a fistful of dirt is my hope for a better world.
i enjoy this site less & less and get less & less out of it (and don't do anyone any good by being on it) these past couple months. in fact it's heretical to say but i almost enjoy being on here less than being on twitter a lot of the time. this blog is now four years old (well it's older, but I only started using it in 2020) and most of the people I used to check on while I was off tumblr (between 2018 and 2020) and first followed again on here are not super active anymore or are outright gone. I've gotten a certain number of new followers lately and frankly attention on this site is pretty bad unless you're just posting jokes. i feel much more on edge about what i post, I'm back to being a shit broke student so I can't even really help anyone out, and I think a lot of the positive personal growth and insight as well as intellectual benefits (which, if you can believe it, did actually exist) have either outright stopped or hit severe diminishing returns (and I don't find most of the jokes that fun). every minute i'm on tumblr instead of reading or writing or doing something real feels wasted.
i like and respect a lot of you and i wish it felt like there was a good space online to get something out of discussion but it honestly doesn't right now. tumblr's passive interaction is pleasant and less intense and intimidating than direct interaction. I kind of want to maintain a pseudonymous internet presence & i don't post on twitter for obvious reasons so i might try to reboot my neocities.... my goodreads is generally pretty up to date and mutuals can def get that if they want it for whatever reason (it'd be pretty easy to deanonymize me from but honestly you could do that from here if you really cared). and also discord if you're into that.
i'm probably not going to delete the blog but hopefully before 2025 begins i'll be more or less inactive. but you'll probably see a post of some kind before then.
i was gonna make a post about how christmas is when i feel the most single & the worst about being single, and then I was going to provide the caveat that i haven't felt so strongly about this whole thing lately, but then also i feel like a lot of my desires have fallen by the wayside or been hollowed out recently. maybe in a good way or maybe not.
once again drawing our ancient cousins, this time estemmenosuchus of the permian era
i swear there used to be an archive.org subsite feature - or perhaps it was hosted somewhere else - that had all major tv stations from the day of 9/11 in stacked timelines from 8:00am, that you could watch and scroll horizontally. so you can see the sort of transitional areas which to me are the most interesting parts.
@horrorsequel i need you to know that you are a hero to me for these tags on my other post this shit had somehow become lost media to me
(the link, for those interested)
i swear there used to be an archive.org subsite feature - or perhaps it was hosted somewhere else - that had all major tv stations from the day of 9/11 in stacked timelines from 8:00am, that you could watch and scroll horizontally. so you can see the sort of transitional areas which to me are the most interesting parts.
watching footage of news broadcasts from 9/11 (as I often do) and on CNBC the guy says "this is one of the towers of the world trade center in manhattan... which is clearly heavily involved in a smoke situation... and one would assume there is fire." which is a way of formulating that sentence that i just love
WNYW was the first TV station to start broadcasting about the events and they actually cut direct to the camera team while in the middle of a commercial for zoolander. so it hard cuts from ben stiller comedically hitting his head on something to the north tower on fire.
automated text reply that just says YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY PERSON I AM LETTING DOWN
I should just move between shitty apartments and jobs across the world forever until I die at 40
watching footage of news broadcasts from 9/11 (as I often do) and on CNBC the guy says "this is one of the towers of the world trade center in manhattan... which is clearly heavily involved in a smoke situation... and one would assume there is fire." which is a way of formulating that sentence that i just love
WNYW was the first TV station to start broadcasting about the events and they actually cut direct to the camera team while in the middle of a commercial for zoolander. so it hard cuts from ben stiller comedically hitting his head on something to the north tower on fire.
watching footage of news broadcasts from 9/11 (as I often do) and on CNBC the guy says "this is one of the towers of the world trade center in manhattan... which is clearly heavily involved in a smoke situation... and one would assume there is fire." which is a way of formulating that sentence that i just love
Obligatory highland~
