Strong believer that the eldest daughter trope is the same as the only daughter trope.Its only the movies where the only daughter is the apple of their parents eyes. She will be her mother’s best friend,she will comfort her of the sorrow that the father gives her,she will be her therapist,she will be the one to fight the tough battles with her dad but will still always come back to them simply because she knows how it’s her,only her that the both have at the end of the day.
-nipuna
The things no one tells you about being an only child-
You're so soul-crushingly lonely all the time. You feel like you're missing out on some fundamental part of being human, yet everyone tells you you're lucky. When your parents fight you're either dragged into it or completely isolated- there's no one to relate to. You're told your "mature" but it's just because you spend all your time around adults. You love your friends like family but you know they'll always love their siblings more than they love you. You have so much pressure on you all the time- you're expected to be the golden child. Yet you're also treated like a baby. The attention is on you 24/7 but you're still lonely. You're convinced your parents are always right and your points are invalid because there's no one to take your side. If your parents want more kids but can't have them, you feel like you're not enough. Your parents are your only family, your everything, but they need time without you. You're the third wheel in their relationship. You're paralyzed by the fear that someday they'll die and your entire family will be gone. You feel unable to make close relationships with people your age.
You feel all of this and more, but sure, you're lucky because you don't share a room.
being a only child is like. I'm the eldest. I'm the responsible one. I need to live up to their expectations. I'm their baby. I know everything. I don't know anything that matters. I'm their golden child. I'm their biggest disappointment. I'm nothing like my parents. I'm the worst version of my parents. I'm the exact copy of my parents. I miss them. I can't stand being on the same house for more than a week. They love me. They regret me. I get everything they can offer. I get their whole attention. I can't do anything wrong. I can't fail. I inherited every flaw they have. I'm a mistake. If they fight it's my fault. Everything is my fault. I'm not that important. I'm everything for them. They don't need me the way I need them. They raised me and can't look at me on the eyes without seeing their mirror. They can't accept I'm not like them. I'm nothing without them. I'm my own person. I can be everything I want to be. I can't cross their beliefs. When they die I'll be alone. I have been alone since I was born.
Growing up I was feeling like I'm perpetually in trouble for everything, I was responsible for siblings, etc I was living in a situation where even if I did everything right it would be so easy to be in trouble and be screamed at, makes it really hard to shake that feeling of "I'm in trouble" in the real world has an adult, because I want to need more than anything to never feel that feeling again and yet, that feeling lingers around so many things, that's going to take years to shake that off 😔
Nobody tells you how WEIRD and WRONG and OFF it feels when you actually tell your parents the truth, when all you do is lie and pretend because that's what you have to do to survive, occasionally the opportunity arises where the safest thing for you is to actually tell the TRUTH, I feel like nobody talks about how incredibly wrong that feels
Entre existir y vivir.
nobody talks about how exhausting it is to be the person who always has to adapt
14 de Noviembre 2024.
Yo siempre voy a estar bien, aunque no pueda dormir, aunque me duela la cabeza y no tenga apetito, aunque sobrepiense las cosas, yo siempre estaré bien. << Judith Pizano >>
Please make art. You don't have to bare your soul or make a masterpiece, you can be silly and you can be derivative if you want. You don't even have to show it to anyone. Just please make something, it's so good for you
Amen. Write the fic. That's right, I'm talking to you. I know about the dozens of ideas that run through your head every day. Guess what? Someone wants to read your fic. But you'll never know if you don't write it!
First chapter of my fic is dogshit and I think plenty of people never went on from it. But I did, and I'm glad I did because it's making people happy now. So write your dogshit first chapter.
