Girl, help, I tried to unfollow mutual AND THEY DMED ME ASKING IF I MEANT TO

I don't think I can ever be supported as much as I support some people

Do I do too much to try to help people succeed? I think I forgot to support myself into success

Posting this on my second account bc I might delete it

Is it bad that I don't like when ppl make their own Timothy skinny? In my head he's a bigger character since that was how he was designed in 2012. It feels off when I see people making him thin

I do get not being able to draw bigger bodies, I mean, look back at Childhood Dreams start, I didn't know how to at all. I'm still no expert but I'm trying. I don't mean people who can't draw them looking right, I mean people who straight up make him a twink?

That feels so weird and wrong to me, I get he was only in 2012 so we don't have much to go off of, but still. I can't help but get a little sad when people make their Timothy skinny :(

Artist I really like: omg, I love your art, I see it on Tumblr a lot

Me, looking through my notifications and not seeing they liked any of my art at all and they don't follow me: haha, thanks

I see so many ppl just rebloging with the previous tags, like, dawg that ain't your art that's literally mine?? Look at the dang tags you took??

random 1 am thoughts

Hearing someone snort while laughing is so pure for no reason, it makes me happy for some reason

It's so strange

I saw a video talking about friendships and stuff and they mentioned putting time into friendships and not getting it back and only years later getting friendships that put as much effort as they put in

I'm so glad I finally have people who are like that, but I can't deny the times when I closed up out of fear because they put in effort and I didn't think I was worth that effort

Sure, I was putting in that effort too but why was I so scared when they put in the same effort?

God, I wish I wasn't too scared to talk to them again, here I am, posting this on my alt knowing they won't see this because I'm a coward

This update's probably going to be like 9 pages, maybe more

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Woah, turns out, birthdays do mean a lot to me, I didn't even know

I looked back at last years post for my birthday, it barely got attention, I didn't do anything for that birthday, I was just sad the entire day

Today, I had to change my plans around constantly and I only did one thing I kind of wanted to do and I had the bar low, I'm a bit happier this year since some important people did wish me a happy birthday, but it really does hurt that several people I thought were my friends didn't even acknowledge me at all

Checked instagram a while after posting "hey I hate this place find me on Tumblr"

Several new followers, all liked that post

I think my fear of being forgotten got stronger because a couple years ago I asked my friend what August 9th meant to them and they told me it was the anniversary of them meeting their best friend

I introduced them at my birthday party

I'm so glad that this blog is normal compared to my main right now

A family member saw my laptop covered in stickers and was like "oh god, why would you do that?"

I just stared confused like "it's not your problem??"

"But I have to look at it"

"look away???"

Like, mind your business, it makes me happy to barely see the original color of my laptop, the turtles and avatar bring me joy so LEAVE

I love listening to people rant about their (male) exes bc every time they get frustrated and say " men suck" and I'm like :( and then they're like "YEAH YOU SUCK CHAOS, I HATE YOU"

It always gets a laugh from me and them, we both know they're not serious, we joke like that all the time

I'll be like "YEAH MEN DO SUCK" and then point at myself in the mirror like "And you're one of them >:("

Someone pointed at my headphones and was like "are those Rise stickers??"

We talked about the movie and new comic and I almost cried from happiness