darcy

literally do not let me come online til april.

the eldest daughter curse to be insane and egoistic like your father.

from one burntout student to another:

theres a kind of tiredness that sleep doesnt fix anymore. i dont know when i forgot how to just exist without feeling like i need to be doing something, something "productive", finishing a "todo list". even when im resting, my mind is running in circles, overthinking things that dont need to be overthought, worrying about things i can’t control.

i wish i could pause, just for a little while. not to plan, not to catch up, not to prepare for whats next, more classes, new lists- but just to be, just to exist, to breathe. but somehow, even the idea of slowing down feels like falling behind, i feel guilty even sleeping more than a few hours, feeling like i'm wasting time i could've spent it getting something else done.

if u feel the same, i hope u know that u're not alone. and i hope, even if just for a moment, u let yourself breathe without guilt. u deserve that much. u r more than ur deadlines, more than ur todo lists, more than the pressure weighing on u, the expectations of urself and others. its okay to rest. its okay to feel lost. and it’s okay to not have it all figured out right now. the world wont fall apart if you take a step back. and maybe, js maybe, u’ll find a little bit of urself again in the quiet.

okay chat, we're pulling an all nighter today or at least trying to. i will try to finish most of magnetism and do thorough revision of physical and inorganic chemistry.

here's the to-do list for this session

okay so if i finish at least three of them before 4 am i'm gonna reward myself by writing a chapter of my fanfic that has been BEGGING me to look at it. so we'll do that, then a mock and uske baad nini. yay joy.

all nighter toh nhi but i did end up finishing everything on the list a few minutes ago and i feel so so exhausted and sleepy. i think i'm gonna retire for the day. will see you tmwr byeeee.

there's so much work left i don't even have time to cry

okay chat, we're pulling an all nighter today or at least trying to. i will try to finish most of magnetism and do thorough revision of physical and inorganic chemistry.

here's the to-do list for this session

okay so if i finish at least three of them before 4 am i'm gonna reward myself by writing a chapter of my fanfic that has been BEGGING me to look at it. so we'll do that, then a mock and uske baad nini. yay joy.

soo jaun kya?

starting the day a bit late today. i'm gonna first attend the top questions for physical chemistry, then revise its notes and then do the same for inorganic. hoping to finish both before lunch and then hopefully move on to maybe magnetism or optics we'll see.

done with the physical and inorganic chemistry questions though i couldn't finish revising the notes, will do that now. which means physics will be delayed a bit.

why am i so slow 😭😭

ended up taking a 2 hour break 😀🔫

starting the day a bit late today. i'm gonna first attend the top questions for physical chemistry, then revise its notes and then do the same for inorganic. hoping to finish both before lunch and then hopefully move on to maybe magnetism or optics we'll see.

done with the physical and inorganic chemistry questions though i couldn't finish revising the notes, will do that now. which means physics will be delayed a bit.

why am i so slow 😭😭