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do innies dream of electric goats?

and maybe we're doomed but oh my love which one of us is orpheus?

congrats to severance for becoming my second fav anticapitalist-media-referencing-greek-tragedies

also i'm such a gemma girlie. i don't mean in relation to mark or vs helly i don't care about any of that i'm a gemma girl forever. it's me and her. what if you thought you were eurydice until the last second until you turned around just in time to realize you were orpheus

but of course mark s feels nothing for gemma that’s what he was born to do

no dentist's office. no writing christmas cards. no taking flights. a world where every pain or minor annoyance is dismissed as your consciousness is replaced with a different version of you. a life without pain, or agitation, or monotony. and conversely, a life full of only that for every version of you who experiences the chores you wished to evade.

forget skipping work or school or birth. try everything. never experience anything that expires a negative emotion. the ideal consciousness sold as a product for the price of a version of you that you'll never meet.

but it doesn't matter. you carry the hurt down with you. in your hands, in your mind, your mouth. the grief mark experiences carried into his innie, gemma feeling the pain she experienced in the rooms even after she's been severed.

it doesn't matter. you carry it with you.

I was trying to make some covers and as usual I started with Valjean, This is what I came up with.

"I'm gay" "I'm straight" ok????? I am reaching, but I fall??? And the stars are black and cold???As I stare into the void??? Of a world that cannot hold??? I'll escape now from that world??? From the world of Jean Valjean??? There is nowhere I can turn??? There is no way to go on????😒😒😒

It is time for me to once again infodump about Javert. Javert. JAVERT! JAVERT IS A POOR ROMANI MAN BORN INSIDE A JAIL! He is unhoused otherwise, his only home is a LITERAL PRISON! HE IS NOT A PRIVILEGED ASSHOLE! I love Javert, but I know that a lot of people don’t - that being said, if you wanna hate Javert, you have to hate him for being A CLASS TRAITOR not for being some rich white guy. CUZ HE IS NOT THAT! The main reason why he is the way he is, is because he hates his identity and his past! He HATES his circumstances and he HATES what he was born into so he takes it out on those around him! When he tells Valjean “you know nothing of Javert, i was born inside a jail, i was born with scum like you, i am from the gutter too” that’s SO true and SO sad bc he hates himself SO MUCH for what he was born into AND he hates Valjean bc he SEES HIMSELF IN VALJEAN! It’s such a good portrayal of systematic injustice and internalized racism — that is, when you actually write Javert as the poor Roma man that he is. Javert deserves SO MUCH BETTER. He is not a bad guy and he deserves to be in heaven in the musical epilogue. He hates himself and he hates people like him, and most of all he hates the people that are like him who DONT hate themselves! And THAT’S the most important part of his arc and i just wish he could’ve been able to accept himself and the people in his position. He is so complex and morally grey and so beautifully written!

why this 🐺 so mad 😭😭😭

+ some extra sketches, as a treat

Reblog to let your followers know that they’re safe from jumpscares/screamers/etc from you on April 1st but they are NOT safe from getting boop’d like an idiot amen

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ok, little rant about a use of a leitmotif in les mis that i think has slipped under most people's radars!

so you the know the police leitmotif? the "tell me quickly what's the story/who saw what and why and where/let him give a full description/let him answer to javert!" tune that appears whenever somebody gets arrested?

now turn your ear to javert's suicide, specifically the "i am reaching but i fall/and the stars are black and cold" part. it took me a while to notice, but this whole section of the song is just a snippet of the arrest leitmotif:

but he never completes it. the snippet repeats and repeats. try as he might, he finds himself unable to sing the same old song of Justice and Law and Righteousness and Order. he's like a jammed cassette player spitting out the same second of music over and over and over and over again, unable to follow his old ways, but unable to let them go. he's stuck, but he will keep throwing himself against the walls of the cage.

javert is desperately trying to run on his old tracks of thought, but, as vicky h puts it, he experiences "the derailment of a soul, the shattering of an integrity irresistibly propelled in a straight line and dashed against God".

: )

i knew there was something i had forgotten to post

i think that ford in college (a closeted gay man at the beginning of the aids epidemic) would’ve written in his journal stuff like “dear journal ….. I’ve been having SICK and PERVERSE desires …..” and the perverse desires in question are to hold his roommates hand

now that my exams are over it’s back to javertposting

last slide is fanart of javert from the aussie AU fic A Good Officer by hoc_voluerunt on ao3, which is absolutely wonderful would highly recommend !!