Itโs like a full-blown addiction, but instead of drugs or booze, itโs this fictional guy whoโs got her wrapped around his finger. She knows itโs fucked upโknows sheโs out here daydreaming about someone whoโs not even realโbut who cares? This guy? Heโs everything. Heโs charming in the worst ways, flawed in every possible sense, but thereโs just something about him that has her hooked. He doesnโt even know she exists, but sheโs ready to fight anyone who says a word against him. Seriously, sheโll defend his honor like itโs a fucking life-or-death mission.
Heโs a goddamn trainwreck, but heโs her trainwreck. Sheโll put up with all his baggage, his emotional scars, his dark sides, because somehow, that brokenness makes him feel more real to her than any real guy could. Heโs messed up, but sheโll fix him in her head every single time. Maybe itโs that thrill of knowing heโs dangerous and untouchable that makes him even more irresistible. He might break her heart in a hundred ways, but itโs the kind of heartbreak that makes her feel alive, even if it hurts like hell.
And itโs never gonna happen, right? She knows that. Heโs not gonna waltz into her life and sweep her off her feet. But it doesnโt matter. Because she gets to have him on her termsโno messy reality, no awkward first dates, no risking her heart for real. Heโs always there when she needs him, in that perfect little bubble of fantasy sheโs built for herself. And maybe sheโs a little crazy for it, but at least with him, sheโs never disappointed. Every time she replays his scenes, reads the fanfics, imagines their future togetherโit's like a high she can never quite shake. She knows it's all just a mindfuck, but sheโs never felt more alive.
