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caved and started writing a modern jayvik murder mystery longfic!! probably around as angst heavy as butterflies and hurricanes but more comfort forward!
Anonymous asked:
Just wanted to drop in and say that I am obsessed with January Rain!!!!
It is honest to god one of the first modern au fics that i have read that actually feels like both Viktor and Jayce are in character and the plot you have building is just SO delicious.
I love the attention to detail you have put into Viktors job; it really feels like i am a fly on his shoulder watching it all play out. I am really excited to see where you take Jayce’s character and his trauma because he is also my favorite character and I also like throwing rocks at him hehehehe
I cannot wait for the story to play out even more, thank you for writing this!!!!!
Anon!! I don't know what to say! Thank you so much for your kind words I'm sudnsjdnsjdndnd. This fic means a lot to me because it's my fave genre and it's also a big project, and everytime somebody reads it or likes it I get really giddy.
Research for this fic has taken me to places I don't wish to re-visited, but I'm trying to stick to as much realism as I can 😭
Regarding Jayce's trauma - I AM EQUALLY EXCITED. Shaking in my chair. I can't wait. I'd say sorry in advance, but I'm actually not sorry.
Thank you so much again!! Updates are slow right now because I have an absolute insane amount of exams, but in March I'll be a little bit more free to write
Anonymous asked:
help!!!! this is serious butterflies and hurricanes is hands down the best jayvik ive read so far it made me froth at the mouth rattle the bars of my cage bite my fist off vomit blood tear my hair out call a medic now!!! a beautiful fic, a beautiful fic🤲✨
Anon my HEART. Catch me crying. Thank you so much I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT TO SAY THANK YOUU
Saw a post on this and can’t get it out of my head. Cue rambling :3
Jayce and Viktor worked together for 7 years. At least 5 were probably spent with only each other seven days a week during all waking hours. I don’t think either of them really have any other friends too. Like I’m close enough with friends I see a few times a week over 4 years. No wonder they’re so codependent.
Thinking about the fact when they get fed up with each other or argue they don’t have other outlets to turn to. Like Jayce has Cait, but Viktor seems to be pretty much on his own.
Do you think the pressure and expectation and emotion of having to get along was part of why things fall apart. Jayce found other people and was stoked about having more balance in his life, whereas Viktor was frustrated by being ‘left behind’ by the one person he considers himself close with.
I feel like it makes it worse when they fight or when viktor’s dying because. They love each other a fuck ton but also have issues. But they might not get a chance to work through those. So theyre stuck in this weird place of needing each other and needing space at the same time.
Do you think they end up in a place where they love each other but don’t like each other :(
They both deffo cry about it in the middle of the night
DUDEEE that's so painful. Them ending up as loving each other but not liking each other - I feel like it's a valid point to make that's kind of where they were at the beginning of season 2. "Our paths diverged long ago. It was affection that held us together."
To me the turning point was Jayce entering politics and going down the same path that put the systemic oppression of Zaun in place, although he comes around in the end and realizes that violence isn't the answer. But Viktor would have felt it, Jayce growing distant and also - here's where I enter theorizing territory - offhanded comments about Zaun. Because he doesn't even think about Viktor being Zaunite, although it's such an integral part of Viktor's identity.
As somebody who grew up as a marginalized minority, most comments aren't even intended malicious, but all of the little remarks start adding up and boy does that breed resentment. When you're reminded you're other every single day.
#ironcy answers#I'm just rambling I don't know if this makes any sense but!!#Like. It all culminated in the bridge scene. Jayce genuinely doesn't think about Viktor being from Zaun. Considers him an exception.#Although he obviously apologizes immediately and I think Jayce would NEVER intentionally be discriminatory towards Zaun#More like “Viktor why didn't you just get treatment for your leg” like Jayce we did not have those possibilities#Or “Why can't you join me in presenting my research” because Pilties would laugh at me! Because Pilties would not take me for full!#Because of the accent#The disability#jayvik#jayce talis#viktor arcane
One thing I would love to read more about in fanfic is Jayce's anger post pain cave. We see him be both physically violent (killing Salo) and verbally aggressive (snapping at Mel) and I've not read much exploration of that aspect so far!
I think it's very enticing though, because Jayce would be horrified if he ever snapped at Viktor or hurt him accidentally.
Also all of the self-directed violence. Chef's kiss. I want to put Jayce under a microscope and study him. I want him to fill out questionnaires. (I will put the nerd stuff in the tags bear with me)
#RIGHT so another reason why i loveee arcane's portrayal of mental health issues is how they show his ptsd#irritability/anger/aggressive behavior is like. a whole ass diagnostic criterion and he EXHIBITS it#also anger-related issues often have very negative effects so they are often a primary concern for patients with ptsd#and i just think jayce struggles with a lot of guilt as is so imagine how much worse he'd feel when he finds himself constantly on edge#snapping at people#and it's impossible for him to calm down#thank you for coming to my tedtalk#jayce talis
Anonymous asked:
literally can't thank you enough for your colossal contribution to jayce whump you're one of the real ones I almost exploded from joy when I discovered your account please never fall ill to the ao3 author curse i love you 🙏🙏🙏
Thank you so much anon!! I am very glad to provide Jayce angst. He's my favorite character, therefore unfortunately he has become my target. 🩵
just read all youve got posted of january rain and WOWOWOWOOWOW. left a comment there too with better worded thoughts but im so into it. then lo and behold i check out the rest of your stuff and you wrote lily of the valley too?? :0 !!! i love that one so much. the best written hanahaki ive ever read, and its a genre i dont normally like but your fic sold it 1000%. and now im all into your crime detective fic GAH youve got such good concepts. about to go read through the rest of your jayvik stuff, from what ive seen so far, you should be very proud of it
Thank you so much january rain is my fictional child and I'm having!! So much fun with it!!! I appreciate it so much ;w;
Anonymous asked:
Hey, I just wanted to let you know that your fic butterflies and hurricanes is probably one of the best jayvik fics I've read so far and it is criminally underrated in this fandom, i love it sooooo much, please never stop writing
This is so so sweet I'll cryyyy please!!! Also honestly I. I've only ever written for small or inactive fandoms so the attention butterflies and hurricanes has gotten is CRAZY to me
Chapter 3 of murder mystery + snippet. For every ableist take I see on Twitter I triple down!
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He's good at his job. And Viktor knows he's good at his job. Which makes it all the more frustrating. But he swallows down the bitter taste in his mouth and ignores the whispers behind open doors. If he were them - his colleagues, his students, the officers - he'd be curious too.
He'd want to know why a man in his thirties can barely walk up a flight of stairs without gasping like he's just run a marathon. Or why he slouches more the further along the day goes, or why he looks so sickly pale he rivals the bodies in the morgue.
He can't really blame them.
He just wishes they'd do it quietly. It's not his hearing that is impaired, after all.
just finished readings butterflies and hurricanes. absolutely blew me away - a brutal read to be sure, and you definitely don’t shy away from making the reader feel uncomfortable/pity for jayce. BUT so worth it and i really loved it!!! amazingly written and the ending was just *chef’s kiss*. you are crazy talented!
thank you so much op ♥️
honestly in my mind it wasn't as brutal a read LOL i only figured out with people's reaction to the fic that it was probably a lot angstier and gory than what it was in my mind. some of the comments on the bookmarks are hilarious
#ironcy answers#The amount of times I've apologized for emotional damage HAHAHAHA#in my mind. this is a happy ending. because they're together and they love each other#and I swear I don't really fuck with bad endings. I once wrote a fic with major character death and it made ME want to die#so yes my fics will be horribly angsty and hopefully I'll break a few hearts in the process BUT in the end it will turn out semi-well#lmao somebody left a bookmark comment that was like “you lied about the happy ending” I DIDN'T I DID NOOT
Anonymous asked:
Sorry for the anon, I’m shy. But, there are not enough words in the English dictionary that could express my gratitude for butterflies and hurricanes, lost in my head, a very Lusenna christmas, and now january rain. Not only that, there aren’t enough praises to sing about these works. From the way you masterfully utilize atmospheric writing to the way you write the characters to life. They feel like people you could meet on the street. The way you take so much care in how you articulate the complexity of mental illness, mental health, and disability in your stories continues to draw me in. It’s very difficult to find stories that honor the ugly reality of these things, highlighting the very real struggles, and the complexity in how these impact the way we show up in the world. Very often we are compelled to beautify things we’re uncomfortable with. There’s so much more I could say! As a person who actively continues to struggle with anxiety and depression, these are beautiful works and I’m so happy to have read them and to read what you write about next. (P.S. As a future social worker, I get similar vibes from you!)
Never apologize for being shy anon ♥️
Oh I'll cry!! Thank you so much for your kindest words. Ahshdbdnfnf I don't know what to say, they mean a lot, sending you hugs.
Also this ask lets me touch on something that's always in the back of my head and I really think you've nailed it. People tend to be uncomfortable with certain aspects of mental illness and disabilities. In my experience, only certain symptoms are okay to exhibit and talk about and I hate that. So in my writing I will never try and dull down the struggles Jayce and Viktor face. Especially when it comes to that.
Thank you for the ask, and I'm sending you a ton of love and hugs ♥️