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𝐁𝐚𝐛𝐲 𝐃𝐚𝐝𝐝𝐲

𝐒𝐮𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐲 : 𝐘𝐨𝐮’𝐫𝐞 𝐛𝐚𝐛𝐲 𝐝𝐚𝐝𝐝𝐲 𝐝𝐞𝐜𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐧𝐨 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐡𝐢𝐦.

𝐏𝐚𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠: 𝐁𝐚𝐧𝐠 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐧 𝐱 𝐟𝐞𝐦 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫

𝐆𝐞𝐧𝐫𝐞: 𝐕𝐞𝐫𝐲 𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐥𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐬𝐭 , 𝐬𝐦𝐮𝐭 , 𝐟𝐥𝐮𝐟𝐟

𝐖𝐨𝐫𝐝 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭: 𝟏.𝟒𝐤

𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠: 𝐍𝐞𝐠𝐥𝐞𝐜𝐭 (𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐥𝐲 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐲), 𝐛𝐫𝐞𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠, 𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐦𝐩𝐢𝐞𝐬, 𝐮𝐧𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐭𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐬𝐞𝐱( 𝐩𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐞 𝐬𝐚𝐟𝐞 𝐬𝐞𝐱!!!)

𝐀𝐮𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐫𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐞 : 𝐎𝐦𝐠 𝐲’𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐢 𝐬𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐢𝐤𝐭𝐨𝐤 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭.

(@Rafaela 🫧🩰: Bro is not the sneaky link bro is the baby daddy who fucks me every single day anytime and anywhere he wants)

𝐀𝐧𝐝 𝐢 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐤𝐞𝐩𝐭 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐜𝐡𝐫𝐢𝐬 𝐛𝐞𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚 𝐛𝐚𝐛𝐲 𝐝𝐚𝐝𝐝𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐬 𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐛𝐚𝐛𝐲 𝐦𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐚 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐛𝐞 𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐦𝐚𝐧.

𝐈 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐠𝐞𝐭 𝐛𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐚𝐭 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐧𝐞𝐫𝐬!!! 𝐈 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐞𝐧𝐣𝐨𝐲 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐠𝐮𝐲𝐬 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐝𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐨𝐫 𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐥𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐬 𝐛𝐞𝐜𝐚𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲’𝐝 𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐚𝐠𝐞 𝐦𝐞!!! 𝐄𝐧𝐣𝐨𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞𝐞𝐞𝐞 ( 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐈𝐒 𝐍𝐎𝐓 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐎𝐅 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃.)

You and Chris separated awhile after you had your baby. He wasn’t putting in as much work you’d like and just having the baby was exhausting. You’d wake up to your baby crying at the top of her lungs but when you felt the other side of the bed , only to be met with cold sheets , that’s when you had enough. You told Chris that you didn’t want to put up with him and his neglect so you just kicked him out. Chris understood but he didn’t get put out without a fight.

A few months after , your baby is now 5 months old. You and Chris had split custody.

You both live in your separate apartments as well. You can you guys have a great co-parenting relationship on the surface but deep down it still felt like you guys were together. You had your times when you missed Chris dearly and he had his times missing you dearly but both of you are so stubborn that you both won’t cave in.

You don’t know how many times you guys had fucked since you both broke up, you both just couldn’t let go of each other. Your daughter was the only excuse for you two to see each other.

For the past few months , Chris would have you pinned to his bed , fucking the life out of you, fucking you like he wanted to put another baby in you ; half the time it doesn’t seem like a bad idea to you but you snapped back into reality after your fuck sessions that are very much needed.

When you thought you’d tried to go back dating, Chris was very much against it Making excuse , like when you have your first date. It was Chris week to come get the baby , you were still getting ready for your date that was in a couple hours so you were multi-tasking ; gettting the baby’s bag pack , packing her snacks , getting her dressed , it was a lot. Then you heard a knock on the door , knowing it had to be Chris so you opened the door and seen your scrumptious baby daddy with his black beanie on , curly black hair sneaakinf out , fitted t shirt on and baggy sweats. If you weren’t going on a date in a couple hours then you would’ve had to take the baby to your sisters real quick.

You let him in and he grabbed his daughter out your hands.

“Hello there my beautiful little princess” he spoke with that damn hot Australian accent. Fuck you just want to jump his bones but you couldn’t give in.

Chris finally looked up to see you and he see that your hair was pin curled and you had your silky robe on. You looked gorgeous as always.

“Where are you going?” He asked while following you to your bedroom

“I have a date in a couple of hours Chris.” You said annoyed

Chris laughed “you won’t be going no where, love.”

“ I can and I will Chris.”

Chris sat your daughter down on your bed and grabbed your chin to bring it close to his face.

“ you won’t be going anywhere with anybody. This is still my pussy.”

You telling Chris that you were going on a date struck something inside of him. Just the thought of someone else inside your sweet wall , a feeling just for him to feel. He just couldn’t let it happen even if he had to put his pride aside.

The way that made your panties wet should be a crime. You always loved Chris’s possessiveness, it gave you a rush.

“Who are you to tell me where I can go and who I go with? Last time I check you were just my baby daddy Chris. You have no say in what happens with me. You just have to worry about our child.” You stated

Chris just sat there and stared at you for a bit. He thought about why you broke it off and he realized he neglected you and he now had no right to tell you anything or who you should be with because he had that chance. He neglected you right after you brought his child into the world.

Chris held the side of your face and tilted your head up

“ Baby… You know sorry can never take back the neglect I put on you but I want you to know that I’ll always love you and cherish you. You are my queen , you brought our baby girl into this world and I’m so grateful.”

Your eyes started to well up

“You know your going to have to work for my trust again Chris, you can’t say sorry and expect this to blow over.”

“I don’t think that baby, I just want you to let me in again. I regret ever letting you go.”

“I need to call my sister to come pick her up.”

After your sister left with your daughter, Chris waited no time to pick you up and take you to your bed. Chris was heavily kissing over your face while trying to rip your robe off, you were already out of breath and Chris wasn’t letting up no time soon. Chris was planning to worship you tonight ( and maybe put another baby in you.”)

Chris kissed all the way down your neck to your breast , cupping and swirling his tongue around each one. He stopped kissing when he got to your waistline, he pulled your panties down and starting kissing your mound. You moaned at the sensation, you haven’t felt this way in months. You grabbed Chris’s hair as he started licking and sucking at your sensitive pussy. Fuck it felt so good , you knew no other man could top Chris . None of these men could ever be your loving Chris.

“Chris , I just need you to fuck me please.”

“Anything my baby asks for.”

Chris grabbed both of your legs , spread your legs and held them above your head. You were in for a rough ride when Chris had you in the mating press position.

Chris sunk into you and you both sighed in pleasure. Fuck did you miss this feeling of Chris big fat cock splitting you open.

Chris started a unrelenting pace , automatically hitting that sweet spot that made your toes curl. Chris was slamming his hips into yours, not giving you enough time to breathe or recover in between each thrust.

You were already babbling, lightheaded, pin curls messed up , drool and tears coming down your face. Chris had fucked you dumb but he still thought you were the most beautiful woman on the planet. The beautiful woman that brought his child into the world.

Just thinking about the way Chris had knocked you up sent him over the edge. He picked up the pace , abusing your hole until you came hard on your sheets. Chris was still chasing his climax but after he felt you tighten around him, he bursted.

You and Chris’s mixed cum ran down his and your leg and into your sheets. He gently pulled out and laid your lower body on the bed and went to run a bath for you both.

All you could do was lay down and just rest your body while Chris cleaned up.

Once the bath was ran, Chris placed you in the tub and went to replace the sheets .

You thought , maybe you could give this another try. You loved Chris with all your heart and you were willing to try if he tried.

Once Chris was done , he came and sat down behind you in the bath and started to bathe you.

“I think…we should try this again. We both still feel strongly for each other and our daughter seeing us together while she’s still a baby is great for growth but you need to be willing to change, I’m not the only parent. I get that you have work but I have work as well Chris.”

“ I do plan to be better for my daughter. Be better for you. I want this, I want our little family together.”

You yawned

“We can finish this conversation tomorrow, I just need to rest right now.”

Chris carried to the bed and laid you both down , you both didn’t care for clothes. You both needed to feel your skin on each other.

Hopefully, you both could get it right this time.

(@𝐃𝐞𝐥𝐮𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐝𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐏𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐝𝐨 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐚𝐥 𝐦𝐲 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤 , 𝐫𝐞𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐭 𝐢𝐟 𝐬𝐞𝐞𝐧!!!)

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PART 20.

<< previous chapter || next chapter >>

series summary: you and chan get matched up on a forum for people who suffer with insomnia and spent most of your sleepless nights texting each other. neither of you expected to fall in love..

pairing: bang chan x reader

tags: smau, written part, fluff

a/n: aaaaahhhh finally a new chapter! So sorry for the wait my darlings, I hope you enjoy this fluff <3

It's surprisingly easy to get to Chris’ hotel room unseen. There's a car with tinted windows waiting in the underground parking garage and because of Chris’ fame you're allowed to park at the back of the hotel and use the staff entrance. 

Chris holds your hand the entire ride and it's just as easy to talk to him as it was on facetime or through texts. He immediately made you feel comfortable and safe.

'I still can't believe you're really here,' Chris murmurs when the doors of the elevator close behind you. 

You smile up at him and squeeze his hand, your fingers still interlaced with his. 'I'm here, it's real.' 

'You sure? I could be dreaming,' Chris says, pulling you closer. 

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Signed, Sealed, Delivered | Bangchan
500+ followers special 🎀🐥
Trope: Slow Burn, Idol x Fan, Comfort & Healing, Love Through Letters Warnings: Mentions of insecurities, body image struggles, self-doubt, chubby!reader, NO PROOF READING WAS DONE Word Count: 9068 words {Reading Time: 33 mins-ish} Songs to listen to while reading: My pace, youtiful, connected, mirror, you can STAY, hold my hand, grow up, hellevator, side effects, social path, cheese, time out, aliens, 19, 24 to 25, haPpy, stars and raindrops, sorry, I love you, I hate to admit, RUN, lonely st. , winter falls, railways Synopsis: What starts as a simple fan letter to Stray Kids thanking them for their music turns into an unexpected connection with Bang Chan. Through heartfelt letters, you share your deepest thoughts, fears, and dreams—never expecting him to truly see you. But when fate brings you face-to-face, you realize some words are meant to be more than just ink on paper. Author’s Note: This story is for anyone who has ever doubted their worth or felt like they didn’t belong in a love story. Chan’s warmth and kindness are a reminder that love isn’t about appearances—it’s about feeling seen. I hope this brings you comfort and a little bit of hope.
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Fading Love (Pt 2)- Lee Know

summary: as the distance between you and minho grows, secrets remain unspoken, and misunderstandings spiral out of control—until one final confrontation threatens to shatter everything for good

pairing: lee know x fem!reader, bsf!changbin x reader

genre: heavy angst

word count: 4290 words

warnings: mentions of divorce, pregnancy, emotional distress

a/n: wow my longest fic yet, it's filled with angst and no comfort (I'm sorry, ily)

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The second the door shut behind Minho, a heavy silence settled over the apartment.

It felt unreal. Like a nightmare you were waiting to wake up from.

As you sat frozen on the cold floor, arms wrapped around yourself, the weight of his words pressed against your chest, suffocating, relentless. I want a divorce.

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Fading Love- Lee Know

summary: as your marriage begins to crumble, you hold onto hope that a newfound joy might bring you both closer again

pairing: lee know x fem!reader

genre: angst, married couple

word count: 645 words

warnings: mentions of broken marriage, pregnancy, nausea

a/n: got sudden inspiration of this idea, so jotted it down quickly 🫣

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You felt the shift almost two months ago.

At first, it was subtle, Minho stopped initiating kisses. When you leaned in, he only gave you a peck, never deepening it, never pulling you closer like he used to. The teasing remarks that once made you laugh were completely gone. Now, your conversations were short, filled with empty pleasantries instead of warmth.

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stupidly perfect - (best friend!bang chan x reader) part 2

pairing: bang chan x reader

summary: after a nasty scare, you talk to felix and hyunjin about what happened. the distance between you and chan grows, until...

genre: angsty angsty, idol!au, mentions of hospital, blood, cuts, bruises, no graphic descriptions, mentions of needles (blood withdrawals), mentions of food and drink, han and jeongin want to be medical professionals, seungmin is far too honest (he loves them really), chan loses his shit, i'm not sorry for the ending :]

a/n: the long-awaited part of 'stupidly perfect'! everyone cheer . div by @ferretmilkshakezzz

The room is cold; it's the kind of cold that you only experience in hospital. That starched-white, stiff, sterilized cold that seems to sink into every fibre of your being, turning it to ice, until all you can do is sink further into the pristine sheets, trying to find some semblance of warmth.

Warmth.

It reminds you of Chan all over again; the pining, the admiring, the restaurant, Chae. Crying in the bathroom. Confessing. The car.

It's been two days since the accident; your cuts and scrapes are beginning to scab over, but you're still not allowed to leave. They woke you in the hospital in a daze, took one look at your battered body, and that was that. One week of staying in hospital, then they'll see what they can do about letting you go home.

You sigh. Turning onto your side with some difficulty, you survey the familiar white blandness of the room.

It's empty enough; the door in the corner has a pane of frosted glass over it, and a couple of switches by the frame. There's a white table and two chairs placed near the wide window, and the monitors surrounding your bed are a sterile light grey, beeping and flashing.

White, white, white.

Huffing and turning to your left to look out the window instead, you find a slightly more interesting sight; raindrops slide down the glass in a constant, heavy drizzle, and you can just make out the tall, surroundings buildings nearby. The sky is grey, and you think then that maybe the world really has lost its colour. It only felt that way at first; now you can't help but wonder if your world is turning to greyscale, void of colour and life and love.

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oh my god I’m stupid I requested 8, 9, and 39 for the SKZ prompt list but I forgot to ask for which member. Bangchan pretty please 🥺👉👈

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hihi this took so long sorry >< . . . this is a lot more angsty than anticipated but i hope it works. i wrote it a little differently that i normally would, but here you go, love~~

stupidly perfect - (best friend!bang chan x reader)

pairing: bang chan x reader

summary: chan has never noticed how you feel for him, and one fateful evening, you let it all spill.

genre: angsty as hell, idol!au, reader lowkey enters their villain era, mentions of eating and drinking, overexcited maknaes, chan is kinda oblivious in this fic ngl, supportive felix, itzy mentions (yeji, ryujin, chaeryoung if that counts ig), this is super sad tbh

a/n: this took a while tbh . . . div by @ferretmilkshakezzz

⛓️ prompts: 8. "Take your time. I'm not going anywhere." / 9. "You can rest now." / 39. "I can't keep pretending I'm fine."

"Y/n, do you wanna come to that ramen restaurant with us later?" Jisung tugs at your arm, skipping alongside you. "We've been wanting to go for ages, and we all finally have schedules off tonight."

"Yeah, come with us," Jeongin adds. "It'll be fun."

The maknaes are tagging all around you as you walk down the hallway, trying your best to keep a hold on all the papers you're carrying. It's difficult when they're fluttering around you like overexcited birds.

You'd taken the job at JYPE around four months ago; it was decided after a very long period of doubting and worrying that it wouldn't work out after what happened at your last workplace. But your best friend, Chan, had been super supportive throughout the whole thing, even offering to help you move into your little apartment down the road from the company. He'd brought some of his friends to help with the heavy lifting, and from there, you'd pretty much been adopted into the group he'd formed and was the leader of.

Not like you had a choice in the first place.

But you didn't mind; you'd been worried partly because of the fact that you wouldn't have any friends when you'd moved to this part of Korea; Chan had managed to inadvertently solve that issue without trying. Now, the four excitable boys skipped and bickered around you as you set down the papers on your office desk. Wiping the minimal sweat from your forehead, you sighed and pried Seungmin away from the trinkets neatly lining your bookshelf.

"Who else is going?" You ask as Jisung whines about you coming to the restaurant for the umpteenth time.

Seungmin shrugs, interrupting his friend. "All of the members, you, and a couple of the girls from our dance crew."

You feel your heart sink just as your brain tells you to agree; it's been ages since you went out with the guys, and you honestly couldn't wait for a break. Work was always stressful around comeback season, but you'd all settled into the rhythm of it soon enough. Spending an evening out with eight of your best friends eating some soul food sounded like a good idea. A better idea than spending the evening on the couch in your apartment, eating ice cream in complete silence. Alone.

You bite your lip, anticipating. "Which of the dance crew girls?"

Jeongin shrugs from the sofa, swinging his legs over a disgusted Seungmin's lap as he lounges back. "The usuals; Yeji, Ryujin, Young-hee, and Chae. Why?"

"No reason," you say, turning back to the bookshelf to unnecessarily reorganise something, fiddling with the solid fabric spine of one of your books. "I'll let you know if I'm coming. Now, clear out."

Your last comment doesn't bother the maknaes at all; they know you don't like your office being messed up, so they call goodbyes, and Jisung sneakily pokes your side as he filters out the door. Felix, however, remains.

You try to ignore the sinking feeling in your chest and keep a neutral expression as you turn the dark-haired boy. He looks so different from his usual blonde-haired countenance; however, no less beautiful, and not for the first time do you hold yourself back from carding your fingers affectionately through his hair.

You exhale. "Do you need something, Lix?"

He sits down on your chair, swinging it backwards and leaning his forearms across the back. An air of resignation flows around him. "You're not coming tonight, are you?"

You bite your lip. "I'll see."

His voice is quiet. "You've said that since Chae started hanging around us. Is it because of her?"

You scoff, dropping a pen. "No. Why would you think that?"

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𝐆𝐡𝐨𝐬𝐭 𝐏𝐫𝐨𝐭𝐨𝐜𝐨𝐥

Pairing: ex!FBIagent!Chan x FBIagent!afab!reader, slow burn, strangers to reluctant allies, nonidol au

Synopsis: he died. Everyone believed he did. But you found out. And whether you like it or not, keeping you alive is now his job.

Warnings: violence, onomatopoeia, switching btwn chris and chan (but its the same person), russian (there will be translations), mullet chan...

a/n: I liked this piece a lot actually, and I hope you do. dw, there will be more parts (relax...), uhh my longest so far? 5k words? yeahh..if you have extra eyes for errors, no you don't.

Christopher Bang is dead.

The world had been convinced that Christopher Bang was dead.

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♡ ʜᴏᴛ ɢɪʀʟ ᴘʟᴀʏʟɪꜱᴛ: ʙᴀɴɢ ᴄʜᴀɴ ♡

♡ Pairing: bartender!bang chan x chubby!fem!waitress!reader

♡ Genre: smut/fluff

♡ Summary: Chris has had a crush on you ever since his best friend hired you but he's never had the courage to do anything about it, too intimidated by you to say a word. Little does he know, you've had your eye on him too and tonight's the night you plan to give him a taste of what he's wanted so badly.

♡ Word Count: 4k-ish

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「𝚖𝚘𝚘𝚗𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚎」

➥ Bang Chan x Reader (f) — 9.6k (~40 min. read)

Exes to lovers, Smut with feelings

The author chooses not to issue tags for everything that takes place in this work to preserve tension and some element of surprise where applicable. By continuing, you accept to read at your own risk. Read full disclaimer here.

⚠ — Angst with fluff frosting, explicit sexual content

Right person, horrendous time.

He is always going to be your prince charming no matter how many years pass by, but it's getting a little tiring to look for him in everybody you meet. When you least expect it, he makes a comeback in your life albeit simply as a colleague.

Can this be a sign?

Like I said, I'm on Ex!Chan brainrot.

And for those I've dragged along, please read this. Obsession doesn't even begin to cover it—it's indescribable and will be living rent-free in my head for God knows how long.

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Skz fake texts & story - pulling back from your relationship

Bang Chan x y/n reader.

Finding yourself dipping back into a depressive episode, you try to see your busy boyfriend despite his crazy schedule. Maybe he can make time for something like this?

Themes/warnings: angst, depression

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Anything Else, Sweetheart?

Rich!Chan x fem!reader

18+ MDNI!!

Word Count: 1.3k

Warnings: pet names (baby girl, baby), use of the word slut, clit play, slight praise, unprotected sex (Wrap it before you tap it), pull out method, let me know if I miss anything!! WAS NOT PROOF READ OR EDITED!!!

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Not Enough- Bang Chan

summary: there's mutual feelings, but sometimes, love isn’t enough when their dreams for the future don’t align

pairing: bang chan x reader

genre: angst

a/n: this was requested few hours ago, but this sparked inspiration in me so I had to write it right away!

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He calls you clingy: Christopher, part 2

Bang chan x reader

Warnings: angst with a happy ending. The members are not happy with him

I do not, nor do I give anyone permission to, post my content on any other website. If you see it, please report it.

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Everything is gonna be okay

Member: Chan x aFab!Reader

word count:

T/W: Post-Partum Depression, Colicky Baby, TRAUMA, mentions of therapy, mentions of bringing a baby to the hospital, DAD!Chan, mentions of a messy house.

A/N: MAN ITS BEEN A MINUTE BUT IVE DECIDED TO DO A BIG BURST UPLOAD AND HERE IS NUMBER 1. I MISSED YALL SO MUCH AND I HOPE YOU ENJOY.

"Wah!!"

Chan hears as he stands outside his front door. He sighs as his hand hovered over the knob. As he shuts his eyes he takes a deep breath, his daughter's piercing screams ring through the night. How could such a small dainty being's lungs carry so much power? He questioned to himself.

At first, he had panicked. His heart had sunk into his stomach and urgently rushed his daughter to the hospital after minutes, hours, and days of her crying. They had come to understand that the baby was simply colicky. Her temperament and overt fussiness became a part of his everyday life. He hadn't anticipated this when they first saw that positive on her pregnancy test. Life hadn't prepared them for this and for some reason they had skipped that chapter in the baby book due to their parent's words about their lack of colic as babies.

As he unlocked the door and made his way into his home; He scoffs to himself as he sees the utter disarray his home lay in. "Y/N" He calls as he takes a calming breath. He felt his blood boil as for the fourth time this week he had come home to chaos. He couldn't understand what was going on. He tried his best to support his wife, and he truly did, but he didn't understand how cleaning up after yourself was so difficult. He heard his daughter's cries continue to ring through the home and rushed upstairs.

"Babe!" He called out to his wife frustratedly as he shoved open his daughter's bedroom door, expecting Y/N to be inside. He's greeted by his daughter seated in her large octagonal playpen. Her eyes were large and tear-filled as she sat with building blocks in her tiny hands and a beaming smile on her lips. He let out a sigh of relief as he reached for her and she extended her arms toward him. "What is it now, darling?" He asks with a calming tone. "I just got home and I bet your mom has been with you" He states as he picks his daughter up noticing the partially finished bottle and empty plate on the dresser. "You ate..." He remarks as he feels her diaper and finds it empty and double checks the yellow line noticing she doesn't need to be changed.

"Hmmm...." He purses his lips as he presses on her tiny stomach gently and notices how hard it is. "Gas...." He says in delight. As he tries to burp her to no avail and soon flexes her legs trying to relieve the pressure in her stomach and gaining success. "Okay, Daddy's got to go find your mom..." He explains as he places his daughter back in her playpen with a small peck to her cheek. "..So we're going to sit for a second and daddy will be right back, darling" He hands her a stuffed animal before exiting the room leaving the door wide open.

Making his way to the bedroom he calls out for his wife only to receive no response. Hearing the shower from the connected bathroom, he crosses the room and knocks. "Baby?" He questions. "Why was Kali's door closed? It's a crazy mess in here" He states calmly as he leans against the door. Only a small knocking and the sound of the shower can be heard in response. His frustration grows and his patience wears thin "Y/N, you can't just sit in the shower while a 7-month-old screams bloody murder. I get you're overwhelmed but come on" He sighs hoping to get a response. The only sound that can be heard is running water and the knocking which was more rhythmic thumping now that he was in the bathroom.

Chan furrows his eyebrows as he rips open the shower curtain "Y/N, I'm Tal--" His words get stuck in his throat as he sees her sitting in the shower. Her lips were a bright blue as she hugged her knees to her chest. Her head repeatedly slammed backward into the marble-tiled wall. Every time she pulled away Chan noticed a bright red substance on the tile and a copper smell in the air. "Babe!" He exclaimed worriedly. His hand quickly rested on the back of her head creating a cushion between the wall and her head; as he pulled her into a bone-crushing hug. Reaching forward to turn off the cold water he notices it turned on to the highest setting.

"I-Its okay.... y-you're gonna be okay" He comforts as she finally looks like she's snapped back to reality. "Chris?" She questions confused. "When'd you get home?" Y/N asks obliviously. Chan stares at her worriedly, soaked head to toe, his hand-painted with her blood. "Y/N please don't be offended when I say this but you might need help..." He states sadly. The doctor's words from when they brought their daughter home from the hospital ring through his mind.

"Any signs of dissociation, bursts of aggression, or any changes in behavior, please look into therapy as those are signs of Post-Partum Depression..."

He didn't think it would be something that he had to be concerned with. She never showed any signs of it until now, well not that he realized. Maybe her being a little distant from the baby was a sign? Could he have missed the signs? What should he do? Was he being too insensitive? Was this the wrong time to talk about this? His worries are washed away when he hears sobs choke out of her mouth. Her hands cover her eyes. "I do!" She cries "This is so fucking hard, Chan. I love my daughter. I know I love my daughter but when she doesn't stop crying when it just happens for hours and hours, I want to lose it. I just want it to stop" her sobs grow harder at every word. "I love her but I hate her. I'm such a bad mother, how can I hate my kid? What's wrong with me?" Chan responds before she can say anymore.

"Nothing, there's nothing wrong with you. You just need help and a break. I'll take a few days off to help with Kali and you can just go out and do something to get your mind off me and the baby and we can make you an appointment with your therapist and figure this out it's okay, Babe. You're a new mom PPD is a real thing. You're going to be okay. You'll get closer to Kali you have her entire life." He soothes as he helps her off the ground. "but first let's get you to a doctor. I'll call my sister to watch Kali and we should get you dressed okay?"

No matter how his feelings betrayed his words he could never let her know. He felt his heart sink into his stomach as tears built in his eyes as he held his dear wife close.

"Everything is going to be okay..."

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