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zel i miss u come back 💔💔😿 besides that i miss you n i hope you're doing super amazing bc you are such a stunning and amazing person and you seriously deserve the best in life</3 i hope u are doing everything u dreamed of rn and if u aren't i will beat up life cus u only deserve the best😻😻
i always log in every once in a while just because and your monthly messages never fail to make me smile :") you're such a kind person and never stop being how you are !!🫶🏻 i'm doing very good!! i have a lovely boyfriend, with lovely friends, and i'm working now and then !! i hope you're doing good lovely and i MISS YOU SO MUCH! my birthday is in five days, so this week i'll be celebrating with friends. hope you have a lovely week cutie !! 🫶🏻
hello everyone.
long time no see (as per usual). i've come on here quickly to explain my absence. as i'm sure all you probably aren't aware i have bpd, borderline personality disorder, and it causes me great struggle every single day. it's completely wiped all of my passion and interest in writing and it does seriously upset me but it's out of my control. i've gone through a very painful breakup, and just suffered horribly with my mental health. i don't see me making any content on this account again, i'm not as interested in seventeen, or any other kpop group anymore (just a casual listener lol). but i had my fun on here while i could! i have very sweet followers, very sweet mutuals who i'm so glad i met! i hope you are all well and keeping yourselves healthy and happy. but there is my reason for completely abandoning this account, and like i said i don't really think i'll ever come back to it. love you guys bye!
WEDDING SINGER. JEONGHAN
( a scrapped draft i'll never finish, sorry abt my disappearance lol )
It’s the second wedding Jeonghan ever recalls attending in his entire life. There was his Auntie’s wedding when he was much younger, and the only memories of the event were fed to him through old film, where he stands in a dainty suit — baggy and un-ironed, his stubby and mucky fingers try & grab the uncut cake and his mother still remembers the scolding she gave him. Jeonghan is much older now, and sits on a table at his best-friend’s wedding instead, and he doesn’t think he’ll grab at the cake this time around — if he stops glugging down the cheap wine being served, that is.
The table is empty, only Jeonghan sits, swirling the last of his drink in it’s glass. He considered socialising but he stops himself — the bitter feeling of loneliness may have him say something he shouldn’t, or doesn’t mean. It’s only normal, he thinks, having to watch happy couples sway and dance to the music he seems to drown out quite easily. There’s a few people Jeonghan thinks shouldn’t be on the dancefloor, they trip over their feet and have poor rhythm, but ultimately have a smile on their face, and it fuels his bitter mood even more. Jeonghan thinks that maybe, if he had someone to bring he could also dance like a buffoon in front of everyone’s watching eyes, and still smile and laugh.
But he doesn’t, and he sits alone, slightly tipsy with a growling stomach. He stands up with wavy legs and makes his way through the loud crowd of people happier than him. The buffet is somewhat empty now, and he knows people have taken the best bits, but his stomach has probably began to eat itself by this point. He grabs a paper plate, and a splash of someone else’s wine stains the rim, but he doesn’t care enough to grab another. In front of him chicken is displayed, but it’s grey and dry-looking, and it suppresses Jeonghan’s appetite almost completely.
Jeonghan sits at the empty table again, a few broken salted crackers with cheese lay sadly on his plate, next the chicken he regrets picking up. There is a shuffle, and the chair next to him scrapes against the floor.
“Do you mind if I sit here?” A voice asks. Jeonghan doesn’t even look at first, his eyes bore into his plate as he nods mindlessly. Then, the aroma of cake fills his senses, sweet vanilla cake with sickly amounts of buttercream. The cake that was cut hours ago. Jeonghan’s eyes draw up at this, his eyes land upon a girl, visually no younger no older than him. She shovels a forkful of the cake into her mouth, oblivious to Jeonghan’s concerned stare. Had she really been walking around with a plate of cake for hours? Was it not dry and disgusting yet? She seemed to enjoy it at least.
Perhaps Jeonghan wasn’t aware of how unsettling his stare was, maybe just for the girl at least. In the corner of her eye she watched him watch her and wondered what could possibly be so entertaining or alarming about eating cake. Her chewing slowed to a halt, and she turned to look at him.
feeling heated, i hope riki learns to grow up and mature and stops constantly fat-shaming sunoo. it's so disappointing, and the older members who should know better need to rlly think before they speak too. sunoo is always seen as the one not eating and he's said before how little he eats now. i've had enough of his own members treating him like this.
Anonymous asked:
hey there, it's aeris!! i've been thinking of writing a longer thing inspired by your text message posts of someone else getting y/n flowers. i know the idea isn't uncommon, but i figured i'd still get your okay first since i didn't want to write it until i saw yours - @ravixen
of course that's fine! :-)
moots and followers, do this carat picrew 🥹
Anonymous asked:
hi zelda! what’re your fav songs atm? :))
hello anon! hmmmm let me list them
freak on a leash - korn, love theory - taeyong, tek it - cafuné, 1000 tears deep - matt maltease, safeword - tv girl, kissing you - girls generation, darl+ing - seventeen, it’s only sex - car seat headrest andddd teddy bear - nct dream! :)