(OOC I'M JUST TOO LAZY TO TURN IT BLUE RN)

As someone who's actually been bitten by a dog (wrist/forearm)

Go as long as you can stand without washing your hair, you also don't need to use conditioner on your hair every wash, maybe every other. So that's less arm motion

Have someone braid it if you can to help lessen tangling.

Can't really help with sleep cause I got bad insomnia :/

(OOC I'M JUST TOO LAZY TO TURN IT BLUE RN)

As someone who's actually been bitten by a dog (wrist/forearm)

Go as long as you can stand without washing your hair, you also don't need to use conditioner on your hair every wash, maybe every other. So that's less arm motion

Have someone braid it if you can to help lessen tangling.

Can't really help with sleep cause I got bad insomnia :/

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i am so glad you have hair unlike him. I have seen your LT days. you def looked shitty without beard

my hair is fabulous.

grandchild.

Finally.

you have.. too many, mum.

I mean the legitimate kind.

And your teammates don't count either, they're my sons as well.

What about the impossible love child he had with Soap?

AHHH MY BABY GIRLL

grandchild.

Finally.

you have.. too many, mum.

spent too much time away from tumblr and thought anon was jokingly asking you out lol

awoop lmfao

How come ye never hug your mother Johnathan.

yes i do, mum..

(hug, happy mothers day everyone!!!)

if anyone knows how to make insurances cover medically necessary surgeries lmk. i need my tonsils taken out and because im almost 22 they think that i am electing to have this, when i am infact sick with my 5th tonsil infection since 2025.

i just want to work with dogs, and not worry about my tonsils getting infected and fucking up my finances. pls and ty.

as for the blog, i may come back, may not. still getting hate and its just annoying. its like these people have 100 alt accounts or its a bot. idk. im answering people's asks periodically between physical & mental health episodes and work along with free time. i havent really been active in the cod server either because of my illnesses and trying to balance work & free time and time with my bf and dog.

tldr: insurances are the worst thing about living, my disabilities are second especially my pesky autoimmune. i maybe returning, might not because adulting like a proper adult is hard!!

Permanent Hiatus..?

Hello all. This is probably my final post on this account.

You all deserve an explanation, so I'll give it to you here.

I have exhausted every last resource I possibly can to keep my finances in order. Unfortunately, I have two Hail Mary's left, and neither one of them look like they're going to be working out. I have called 211, and now, I am going to see if I can donate plasma for cash on Monday. It's probably going to be denied because of my health issues, and therefore I won't get any money. The 211 will also probably be denied, because there are others in my state (of North Carolina) that have lost everything to Helene, and all resources are (rightfully) going to them.

So? I have nothing left. There's nothing I can sell, and there's no way for me to get my medicine or feed my dog until my paycheck comes in, which will be held back because the first is always held back. I won't be able to pay my bills, or file my taxes because of my lack of money. If my car insurance lapses, I won't be able to have a valid license. If that happens, I can't work.

If I can't work, well, my boyfriend can't support me and my dog. We'll have to move back. However with the job market the way it is, I will not be able to get a job back at my grandparents either.

I now probably won't be able to go to college anymore since the department of education has been fully dissolved. So, possibly no more FASFA, and even if it's still around, it will either be left unattended with no employees to approve or deny the papers, or the government will dissolve it too.

All this to say, this is it. I'm at the end of the road, and there's nothing I can do. Either these Hail Mary's work, and I'm saved, or the very real possibility they don't, and what next is just suffering. There's nothing I can do, and nothing y'all can do. I can't fight my body, my mind and the government.

So, no. I'm not going to kill myself. I've come too far to do that bullshit now.

But is this a permanent goodbye to Tumblr and this amazing community?

... most likely so.

I've been trying to juggle expectations and the reality of my young adult life so far. Balance having fun and going to work, while trying to find a balance with my health. Now? There's quite literally nothing.

I've spent about 5 hours in the worst panic attack a person could experience, only for my emotions to go totally numb these past three hours. I'm crying, but there's no emotion. I'm smiling, with no emotion. There's nothing but a husk at the moment, and that terrifies me.

What it means, I have no clue. Could be a horrible panic attack or something worse. I don't know and I don't care at the moment.

But I do want to tell you all that whatever hardships you're facing in your life right now? That shit isn't your fault. Most of this was decided by old bastards centuries ago, and they left us in this dying system who is only fueling itself by our agony. That's a shared trait everyone in the world has. Whether you're an American, African, Arab, Asian, European, Slavic, Hispanic or Indigenous person.

Our pain is caused by people who profit from it. They won't ever stop until everyone rises against them. But that won't happen until the majority of humans are being negatively affected.

So, make community. Live fast, Love Hard, and Laugh Long. Triple L's. As for me, I'm going to cocoon myself and make the last years I have of my life count, because unfortunately, I will probably be one of the first deaths when the system starts to really crash down... And with how it's heading, my mortality is a ticking clock.

Thank you for everyone I've interacted with. Thank you for everyone who has sent me love, hate or just questions. Thank you to everyone who has made me feel the most miserable to the person that made me feel the most alive. Thank you to my friends, thank you to my community, and thank you for listening to all my rambles, my upset chatter, and me argue and fuss and fight and claw my way to where I am, thank you for seeing the kind nature in me and not ruining it and thank you for nurturing the love and respect I have for every one of you to new extremes.

Thank you all.

This is Cassie, playing Phillip Graves, signing off permanently as of Saturday, March 22, 2025.

All the fucking luck in the world to you, mate. I desperately hope things sort themselves out and your life goes back on track. You don’t deserve any of this shit. Goodbye, Cassie. We never interacted but It would have been lovely too.