An alternate experiment bags tensed instinctively as one moment he was standing in the next he was not to clean off his feet slammed to the cold hard floor of the true lab Kestrel was standing over him unsteady on three legs the third which was still wrapped partly just a bad bruise and scratch nothing more but still she kept weight off of it understandably. He flinched closing his eyes expecting for something to happen but instead he felt rain!? You look down on his left coat what was stained with neon green liquid determination. Kestrel snarled up above him you'll pay you'll pay for everything that you put me through my children and the innocent countless others that you did this to she hissed. He was taken back by the roughness of her voice it wasn't anger but he realized where the liquid was coming from tears her tears she was crying and sniffling she looked at him her eyes were not filled with hate but empathy and what looked to be grief and sorrow. That weird amulet that was around her neck which swung to and fro almost hypnotically but not blue tears he noticed for coming from it as it was blinking rapidly. He was drawn back to kestrel's attention however when she spoke. You think I wanted to do this you think I wanted to become this I didn't want to hurt you I never wanted to hurt you she whimpered. I just wanted to protect my children that the only family I have I lost my sister and it's all my fault she sod I'm not like them I don't want to be I might be a player and I might be a creator but I'm not like them she sobbed he realized she was having more of this internal dialogue with herself. But those words that she spoke I lost my sister and it was my fault broke him is the realization of everything that he was doing in his actions hit him like a train. It was not an empath but he could read people pretty damn well by now I realization that he was doing the same thing that he had had to do that horrible day all those years ago by now images of his brother pleading pleading for him not to erase his memories before he finally gave into the trance flash through his mind he was doing the same thing to another to another who we saw in that moment not some hellspaw not a threat not a Creator not a player but a mother who was desperate to do anything to protect her children and someone who understood his pain tenfold way too much. Who he had broken mentally to the point of tears who despite it all was terrified of him and was still trembling even as she held her ground. It was clear by the Saab in her voice and how it cracked she had experienced a lot of grief before and he was not helping it. He had broken her to this point that she felt that she needed to do this and that realization alone made him feel absolutely terrible he wouldn't have wished the hell that he went through on anyone. And he had just inflicted that hell on another soul tenfold and wanted nothing more than just to protect her own children and even to an extent was trying to hold back and protect him. If that realization bags eye lights went out and neon pink tears began to flow from his sockets what had he done what had he done!?
An alternate experiment whichever number part this is. You felt deep down in your soul the secret that no one else knew the two parts of the guardians essence the parts of their soul that they had given you as you had given a little part of yourself to both of them into their own souls it was part of your deal after all the thing you had offered in return. You felt a metaphorical tendrils of your own or a mixed with dreams and nightmares lashing out protecting your soul desperately from bags influences what not many new was that deal you had made long ago forever mutated your soul you couldn't do it to the extent the guardians did but you could indeed and needed negative and positive emotions to feed you too much of it could be catastrophic as much as too little but it could at least stave off your hunger for the most part kept you alive when nothing else did and right now you had not had enough of the ladder negative emotions you were ravenous for them. That's when you felt it a crack a lapse and bags judgment regret and your soul your aura ate up those negative emotions greedily you are starving. Like an escape tunnel you felt your soul calling out for help that's when the response you were given shocked you it was the human souls the ones that bags had kept dormant slowly but surely you since they were Awakening cracking the containers that had held them for so long and in the middle you could feel her. C Chara!? Just as you can feel frisks soul trying desperately disturb his body you felt flowers anger and determination the little bit of it that was within him bags was too busy trying to keep you in the trance trying to keep you compliant hold you to his will to notice. You felt through the underground things beginning to shift and change ever so slightly you felt that some monsters had broken out of his influence specifically the species that you shared kinship with in species the gift trots you felt them angry just as angry as you were teeth Jaws lashing and gnashing together but still they hid in their trees. You felt the souls of the Damned and truly forgotten giving you their strength giving you their power this had gone on for long enough you could free all the monsters from the underground of bags influence anyway but you can't not yet the positive emotions and that empathetic part of you you would not destroy everything that he had built not to mention what it would do to the monster psyches for now and papyrus at the end of the day he was still a Sans still a virgin of the skeleton that you saw as a brother and if things had gone South you could very much have seen your sans going down this road there had to be a better way so you would leave them for now that didn't mean you were giving in though feeling the determination and just like that your head broke above the metaphorical water and you took a breath. You heard yourself as you snapped back to reality it was a desperate no you realize you were screaming it at the top of your lungs bags seen taken back by this and covered his non-existent ears and winced your cry had echoed through the true lab you realize there were tears running down your face you were free free of his control you're tired eyes locked with his as your amulet did the latter whispering to you sister be on guard you nodded in agreement to your soul sister. You stamped your foot hard on the ground the one that wasn't wrapped up your anger was immense but it sounded more of a desperate plea of a Sos then you would have liked. Kestrel wing no!!! I won't let you do this I won't let you take everything from me I won't lose more of my family. I have worked too hard and too long for you to just take it all away from me you hissed
Memories pleasant ones swim by your mind's eye ones of you and your children the children you had now peacefully sleeping and feeling safe you had saved them they now knew what it was like to be part of the family to have someone who cared for them unconditionally all equally you remembered a vision you had about multiple futures that if you went down this path may or may not happen three smiling faces you felt love for them only a mother could you wish you could have known their names or their faces what you did know of that vision was they were smiling at you you hope one day you would see them again in reality maybe one day that future would be a reality how wonderful would that be you thought at the time. You were slipping tumble and down into the metaphorical tides grounding desperate for help you didn't want to go like this you didn't want to give him your mind but that's when you felt alert in your soul which made your heart feel like it had shattered mini multiverse away you felt the ache in your soul only a mother could feel it wasn't exactly a thought it wasn't exactly that you heard them out right but you heard them in their soul their heart. A word that you had never thought you would hear that word from paper jam of all the out codes. He already had two loving fathers. You told him long ago just because you had taken in an adopted and we're raising some of his siblings did not mean he had to call you mom if he didn't want to you were fine just being friends with him you were fine just co-parenting with him the younger of a siblings so so much stress and strain didn't have to be on the young out code he was only an adolescent after all the teenager it was unfair for him to have to do all that alone when his parents couldn't. But that lurch in your soul at that one word if you could put it into words you would have thought that you felt sorrow from his soul it was a Sod the word the word was was mom!!! That's when your soul surged with new clarity you felt pride in your son love positivity but on top of all of that you felt anger anger that bags had tried to take all that away from you and then that's when you felt nightmares presents it wasn't him exactly more just an echo that was sent through the soul Bond you shared with him in his group and his desperate pleading for you. The shadows moonlight the shadows are not something you ever have to fear you are my Word show him the might of the Kingdom of the night. Remember my dear you are mine and I am yours!!! I only want you to do the one thing you're good at fight. You felt beneath the metaphorical waves you felt nightmares negativity the aura which was surrounding giving you energy and protecting you you felt like he had reached out a hand all you had to do was take it just like you had done on that night the night you had made the deal and joined his group so long ago by now. And so you did.
Part 5 in alternate experiment
Stone memories danced in your vision of lifetimes you had lived without living and at the same time had lived everything that had gotten you to this point everything that you had lost everything that you would loved everything you had gained no matter the cause no matter the circumstance no matter the situation in situations just like this so many had lost so much their lives are worse are there on free will and it angered you it wasn't fair!!! As you remembered flashes of a sweet purple-eyed skeleton flash before your mind so full of youth innocent and kind is broken body as he was beat to a bloody pulp for something and conditions beyond his birth he couldn't possibly have controlled. Your sister's broken and burning body as she screamed for help that never came. The cries of your children the ones you had left behind not willingly tears you felt fall down your face is he realized the children you had now would never meet their eldest siblings possibly never. Futures that should have been but never even had the chance to form realities that should have been outcomes that maybe would have happened if things had gone differently. Friends and family of those you cared for gone by tragic means beyond your control the Lost air to dream tale that no one would even remember her name. You felt all this anger grief and more for those of the truly forgotten and fallen but at the center of all of it which kept you seen you felt peace of a brutal understanding of survival he felt positivity in the memories of those you loved those who were friends and family to you that you hope to see again if you ever make it out of this alive or not some mind control meat puppet. The memory of your mentors want a fellow man of science the other in ancient and grumpy guardian and the one that you had learned to look at as a brother Sans they had all done their best giving you family when you had nothing reminiscing on those memories you smiled tenderly you wanted them now he wanted to go home you were scared but under all of it you felt the bubbling urge of defiance
Part 4 of an alternate experiment credit goes to the artists I don't exactly remember their names but credit nonetheless. Visions and flashes of memories swirls of dreams flooded your minds eye as you were thinking further beneath the metaphorical tide memories of your own that were and were not other worlds other lives you had lived not to mention the lives you had lived in this life flash through your mind good and bad memories regrets and fears hopes and dreams. Is this how it ends you thought frisk had tried his hardest to resist and in the end he had failed what made you so special how could you resist in the face of something so many others had tried and failed to do.
An alternate experiment part 2 you feel adult in your soul bag says use this power on it which before had barely any effect but that was just because he were resisting the thing is though you're wounded you're tired and you have gone far too long without decent sleep giving the last of your strength and efforts toward your children to protect them your mind is tired weakened by this you can feel yourself slipping. Bags cood in a mocking grin that's it my dear just give in sink deeper no need to be so tense so rude just relax no need to resist something so comforting. You feel drool at the side of your mouth is your tongue walls to one side. You feel the warmth cover you that you have seen in memories which are and are not your own but instead of feeling it soothing and relaxing you feel the icy cold tendrils of fear. Like you were being swept beneath a tied but instead of feeling the Bliss it is there but still you fight you feel like you're drowning thinking beneath the tide you feel the metaphorical water fill in your lungs you're struggling to breathe start going to resist you're scared so very very scared. You feel a tear slip down your cheek as bags cood but that same s*** eating grin which made you want to claw his eye out. Bags oh you poor thing you need to be so scared my dear there's no need for tears just rest and sleep he wipes away your tear rubbing the bottom of your skull which for your kind would have been something comforting but in this case you feel a shiver go down your spine you're sinking deeper the water is tight against your lungs it hurts your mind's waning desperate to break the surface of the water. You can see your soul there floating just a few feet in front of you summoned by him as it flashes different colors showing him trying to use his power in you to resist your soul feels like it's being tugged in many different ways it hurts and the blood of nim oh stars how it hurts. Shadowy figures unbeknownst to bags dance just outside of your vision they're angry hungry you hear their whispers some what you cannot make out but there are a couple you can something along the lines of don't resist resist fight. That was lost souls along with the ones inside your chest they want you to fight they want you to be free just as much as you do but at this point your mind and body is exhausted you feel yourself sinking deeper still desperate to hold on to your own free will.
An alternate experiment. You are Kestrel you are in the bells of the true lab location negla insomnia tale. You have been captured by none other than Dr bags. You are currently in the medical Bay part of the lab true lab under a makeshift caught of multiple of the mattresses moved together to fit your immense size which comfortably sits on all of them they're bandages around right eye and right forearm. Injuries sustained or fighting bags tooth and claw for whatever reason he's influence is failing he's astonished by this and somewhat terrified your children who are currently recovering and locked within a felt makes yourself at the back of the true lab. Bags why can't I get inside your head worm!? He clears that you irritated visibly irritated and impatient by this. You return his glare back to him 10 fold. Your tail lashes in anger you want to do more but your body feels like jelly and you can't move much to your frustration and terror internally this is not because of his influence but merely because you have gone too far and too long without proper rest and proper nutrients your limbs feel sore your wings and four limbs feel like lead. A low growl escapes your parted muzzle. Bags why won't you just give in I'm doing this for a better happily ever after a better happy ending for everyone's sake so just give in. Your green eye light bores into his soul tongue flicking in and outward as you cut him off. Kestrel wing save me your for the greater good garbage!!! Greater good greater good? Greater good for Miss snowdrake, how about mettaton and nestablook who you scared into silence, or what about frisk and flowey!!! What about the innocent children souls what you have forced into a dormant state. What about toriel who still thinks her child is living their best life out there who misses them greatly waiting and waiting and ruins of her home for a child that will never come home. What about their fallen sister Chara!!! Whose memory you mocked by these cruel experiments!? Bags shut up hold your tongue you don't know what you're saying!!! What I did with snow Drake was an act of Mercy. You feel the heat of your aura hot green tears run down your face is you feel your soul flare with the termination and defiance. Y you killed her you scream out!!!. As memories that weren't your own but we're still very much your own at the same time flash through your mind things you shouldn't possibly be able to know of. The determination experiments in this universe and how it went horribly wrong with the first test subjects you feel the anger boil and warm your belly your soul your chest every part of you as you remember her fragile form killed into nothing more than dust somehow despite being an amalgamate. Is this what pap would have wanted!? He is still looking for frisk. He doesn't even know why you feel yourself sob is the better feeling of regret and grief digs its unforgiven claws into your mind's eye. And best my dear scientist you taunt spitting out the word like it's a fell piece of food. You managed to fool the entirety of the underground into a warped blissful messed up fantasy. And at best you have brainwashed them so much and for so long they can't tell the difference of their own minds anymore what's your influence or what's their own will which is a fate worse than death which is a fate worse than any genocide run you hiss. At The mention of this dags eye lights went out enough he screamed to be continued.
Trying something different with this post this has nothing to do with new hope tale or bags fighting Kestrel to protect her daughter Rose this is merely a one shot that I'm putting in the form of these posts to tide you over till I finish that animation for anyone who cares if anyone's even reading this. But I did make some visuals so please sit back and enjoy credit goes to the artist of doctor bags Toby Fox and everyone else You know who You are ☺️👍