“Bruce is watching”

I’m drunk, but I’m aware

“Bruce is watching”

You laugh, you think I’m funny

You’re drunk, but you’re aware

“We can’t, Bruce is watching”

That doesn’t stop you

You said “I thought ‘we could probably do this’ ”

As you put me into my car the next morning

I feel cold, alone; suddenly I’m empty

Was this what I thought it was?

It couldn’t be, “he’s my best friend” I tell myself

“He wouldn’t do that if he didn’t think you wanted to”

I am my own gaslighter

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You’re on cloud nine, that was your first time

“We can’t, Bruce is watching...”

It’s forever burning in my brain. Is it in yours?

You told me I deserved better for years, you were my best friend

Were you better? Were you the better person for me?

Where are you today? Another year has passed

Does a better person ignore a “no, we can’t?”

Six years later and I’m still in that dark room

You’re on top of me, and I’m begging you no

“We can’t, Bruce is watching”

You thought I was funny

A Bruce Sprinston Poster will forever haunt me

Does it haunt you?

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That was your first time

But you knew it wasn’t mine

I told you my first time wasn’t my choice

“We can’t, Bruce is watching”

I guess this wasn’t my choice either

Will it ever be?

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You’re now getting married

I sit on my couch and think about that poster

Years of CD mixes passed back and forth in my brain

Every concert, every show

Music doesn’t save me the way it used to

You took that from me

But you still go to concerts every week

One song can take me back to you and that dark room on campus

“Bruce is watching”

But you just think I’m funny

- C