Genya and watermelon

I finally got a job 🥳 I'm excited and nervous kfksjf Nervous coz wow what if I do a bad job. And i just feel like the transition of being an actual adult is weighing on me. I'm not gonna go into details but I do hope I can cope with this in a healthy way :'))

Also excited coz LESGO I HAVE MONEY TO BUY THAT OPH LUCA SKIN HE SHALL BE MINE 🧎🧎🧎 And I guess I can finally buy stuff without much guilt-

Sethoscara modern au!!

I just like the idea of Scara making a disgusted face at Sethos music choice/ spotify playlist HAHAHAH Anyways, imagine Sethos listens to Justin Bieber. And Scara would gag when he finds out, especially when he sees it's the My World album. And then Sethos would defend, "He's not that bad! I think you'll like something from the Justice or Purpose album!!" Scara would make an even more disgusted face. "You know all his albums??" Sethos would just nod, "Yeah!" and proceeds to play 'I'll Show You'. Scara listens to it judgingly, "I suppose this is... okay." But if they're in the car together, and Sethos plays some songs from the Believe album, maybe Scara will make Sethos walk instead.

Pmdd is so freaking exhausting. Like i know my tendency to self-desctruct rn is coz of pmdd but like, it's still so hard to control the thoughts?? And i'm so urrrgghh why tf does this even exist. I so badly wanna talk about it with someone but also telling ppl "i wanna kms" is like so dark and i don't wanna ruin ppl's mood. And i'm almost sure ppl would think i am being dramatic about it when they see me all okay again 1-2 weeks later. Like how do you even explain this to ppl? How do i tell ppl that I don't wanna push them away, nor do i enjoy isolating myself but all this happens coz my mind/emotions decides to dysfunction 2 weeks before period?

This whole degree application thing is stressing me out sm. I don't feel like taking it anymore, but i can't get a job with my current education. And going through pmdd makes all of this even worse. I'm fucking exhausted

Okay you know what, I wanna try watching Nana fr this time

HELP I WAS READING THOSE Y/N FICS. AND SUDDENLY IT SAID I HAVE A DICK. I DIDNT KNOW IT'S A MALE READER. I am cackling

I'm obsessed with the idea of scara who plays electric guitar and would upload a guitar cover on YouTube maybe once every two months. Tho I feel like he'd upload just shorts. Idk

And one day, after not uploading for over a year, he suddenly uploads a cover of "All I wanted" by Paramore.

It's simply his way of expressing how frustrated he is thinking that the guy he's crushing on, Sethos, probs don't feel the same way.

Yes, I'm still into the idea that scara can't tell if he's somebody or not to Sethos thanks to how friendly Sethos is with others.

Anyways, within the first minute after he uploaded the cover, he receives a notification. A comment on his new video.

"That's.. quick..?"

Since he rarely uploads, his vids are not popular. So basically, he's one of those small creators with maybe about 300-400 views max.

The comment reads, "And all I wanted was you too"

Scara is just slightly like "??" but when he reads the username, his heart definitely pounds like crazy.

Silence_basileos315. No profile picture.

It's an empty account on YouTube.

Obviously now the username doesn't give a sure answer of who the owner is. But it makes his mind drifts to Sethos.

"But that's not his username"

BaSethos is the username that would pop up on every single one of Scara's videos, leaving a comment of support.

Even so, Scara is sure this anonymous account is Sethos.

He's definitely seen the word Basileos somewhere…

Too exhausted to solve this mystery, he decides to just get on his PC and throws himself at games.

The moment he's on the main screen, he just has this huge urge to check out his friendlist. He never brothered to see who is online, or who unfriended him. But today? Oh, that friendlist is like calling out his name for attention.

Annoyed, he decided to satisfy the itch by just giving it a quick scroll. And he found his answer.

"Basileos: last online 6 months ago"

That's when his memories starts coming together. Sethos once wanted to try out the game Scara likes to play.

But he only played it for a short while. Dude is just too attached to irl to be glued to an online game. So he left the game. And "Basileos" was his alias.

"And 315.. is his birthday then…?"

Scara couldn't stop thinking about that comment. If it's really Sethos, what does he mean by that comment? Does he feel the same way? He could have just commented using his usual account, and yet he chose to go anonymous.

Over the next few days, Scara keeps thinking of how to bring up about this to Sethos. But he couldn't find the right way to ask.

The more he keeps delaying to ask it, the more it's making him nervous.

Until one day, he just couldn't stand it anymore. The anxiousness in him that's eating him up every single day.

"Was it you?"

Scara suddenly pops the random question while they're hanging out.

Sethos wears a puzzled look on his face.

"Basileos. Was that you?"

The way Sethos' eyes widened for a second before recomposing himself quickly is enough to tell Scara the answer, even if Sethos choose to deny it. He has evidence anyway that the account most likely belongs to Sethos.

"Your username on (game name) was Basileos. So you must be Silence Basileos 315. Am I correct?"

Sethos' eyes darts away. As if ashamed.

"Shoot… I forgot I used that as my name on that game…"

And that was all Scara needed to boost his confidence in pushing this conversation further.

"My deduction is correct then?"

Sethos holds a bashful smile. But his eyes still refuse to meet Scara's.

"You got me, Mr. Detective. And I thought I was being discreet enough"

Scara could feel his cheeks starts getting warmer. Good thing Sethos isn't looking in his direction.

"You really should have used random numbers, or gibberish words if you really wanted to be that anonymous"

He can see how Sethos starts to fidget with his hands slightly.

"…I guess apart of me wanted you to know it was me. Maybe"

Alright, one more question. Final one to confirm everything. The pace of his own heart is picking up rapidly.

"So. Did you mean it? The thing you commented."

For the first time, Sethos is taking a while to answer. His lips twitching, as if about to say something but is debating on it. And finally, his lips parts open.

"Yes"

Oh. That was easy. And short. Kinda unexpected. But all that aside, Scara definitely feel like his chest is about to burst. --Continuing later, if i know how to lmao-

Ueeeggghh I'm cringing so hard at myself for how badly I just crave intimacy. Like no I don't mean seggs. I just want the silly mushy stuff. I wanna feel loved and to just be freaking pampered and receive those silly sweet words. I'm gonna bang my head against the wall

Genuinely so jealous of the way my friends speak about their crush. Like omg I wish someone speaks about me that way tooooo

When will someone ask me to be their valentines

Tab charged. Time to draw. But what do I draw. Should i attempt drawing kinich's hair again... Ueehh...

Cynari is starting to consume me. I like that cyno is a person feared by others thanks to his position. And he is strong too. Like yeah, you do not wanna get on his bad side, or you face the consequences. But this general, this man that's feared by others, is scared of his wife. Like wdym he was willing to cancel his tcg plan during a campout just coz he knows Nari is gonna get pissed off. Dude is so pathetic for his wife and I love this 😭😭

Broke down until like 4 am last night while watching TikTok. But it's so funny coz every few vids, a scara edit would pop up and I'd pause crying and be like "hahaha that's a good edit. I like" and resume back to crying