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❀ A blog on my story, Lupania. The blood, sweat and tears will all be shared to look back on. Look at my pinned post if you want more info than this idk. Oh, you call me oso for short :) ❀

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(If you are looking for a specific character or whatever, I try to tag everything accordingly. Ex: you want some post of my character, Nidrä, there’s tag of her name for her posts)

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Ok I should make a somewhat serious post on this. Not really serious, don't worry.

I go a lil crazy for this day but it's a perfect day to spread awareness of misconceptions that comes along asexuality or just celebrate fellow aces. Just like anything under LGBTQ+, asexuality gets challenged by the heteronormative everyday and makes it hard for people to truly understand their sexuality. I won't speak tooo much on my experience, but I'm pretty sure people can imagine words that are said lol.

Here's a reminder to take the time to hear out fellow aces if you are curious on this topic, there's so many post on here that'll do a wonderful job sharing experience and info. So yea, INTERNATIONAL ASEXUALITY DAY WEEEEE

Sorry for typos!!

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YOU ARE STILL ARO/ACE IF:

- you experience rare romantic attraction

- you experience rare sexual attraction

- you experience romantic/sexual attraction but do not desire a relationship

- you don't experience attraction but desire a relationship

- you feel tertiary attraction AND sexual/romantic attraction

- you used to be in relationships and had attraction, but don't anymore

- you have libido, enjoy sex, etc.

- you are completely repulsed

- your aro/ace identity/intensity fluctuates

- you don't know how to label yourself

- you don't want to label yourself

- you enjoy romantic/sexual content

- are aro/ace due to trauma

- are indifferent rather than repulsed

- you use multiple labels

- you feel romantic/sexual attraction, and fantasize about being with that person, but wouldn't actually date them or do things with them

- you are aro/ace but identify with another label off the aspec

- you crush on people, but it stops there and you don't wanna date!

- you fantasize about sex/romance, not just fictional but in real life, but once it's about to happen or it comes up, you don't actually want it

- desire a relationship but can't feel attraction

- can't differentiate between attractions

- can't differentiate between attractions due to being neurodivergent

- are on the aspec due to being neurodivergent

- you have 'contradictory' labels

- you feel non-tertiary attraction sometimes but don't use a label that describes that, just using plain old aro/ace instead! keeping it simple :3+<

- if you identity as aro/ace!!

Made this post bc of my aroace crisis and feeling kinda invalid/left out being grayromantic asexual but still experiencing rare romantic attraction (please ask for more to add to the list!)

THIS IS TO ALL MY ORCHIDROMANTICS/SEXUALS, GRAYROMANTIC/SEXUALS, CAEDROMANTIC/SEXUALS, APOTHIROMANTIC/SEXUALS, LITHROMANTIC/SEXUALS, MYRROMANTIC/SEXUALS, DESINOROMANTIC/SEXUALS, REQUISROMANTIC/SEXUAL, RECIPROMANTIC/SEXUAL, CUPIOROMANTIC/SEXUAL, ANGLED AROACES, IDEMROMANTIC/SEXUALS, NEBULAROMANTIC/SEXUALS, NOVIROMANTIC/SEXUALS, PLACIOROMANTIC/SEXUALS, FRAYROMANTIC/SEXUALS, DEMIROMANTIC/SEXUALS, ZINNIAROMANTIC/SEXUALS, ICULAROMANTIC/SEXUALS, AMIDS AND ANYONE ELSE WHO FEELS LEFT OUT.

AS AN ARO/ACE PERSON, IF YOU ARE ON THE SPECTRUM, STOP INVALIDATING PEOPLES' IDENTITIES. WE NEED ASPEC SOLIDARITY, NOT DISCOURSE. IM NOT SAYING "oh, just tolerate them! we have bigger problems than.." NO. ACCEPT THEM. SUPPORT THEM.

(Ily also just aroaces that are more recognized, but I want the people who feel left out to know they're loved)

OP rarely feels romantic attraction but only uses aroace to describe their identity! I used to use grayromantic but less labels :3

Why Did Art Stop Being Fun?

I've been seeing this pattern of mine. Back then, I would mainly doodle, draw art of teddy bears and strawberries.

Now to feel fulfilled with what I'm doing I have to do something big and something different every time. Which in the long run, it's a good this because it means I've gotten more experimental. However it now means anything fun I do I just feel like shit, like it's not good enough. Try new art challenges, it's fun for a short while then I just think "I could've used this time to create something actually purposeful" or if I do something that's in my comfort zone - "I could've used this time to practice on a weakness of mine"

I think I feel like my time is more limited than back then, which is stupid cause I'm young so I have a lot of time still. Idk, drawing has become such a chore, but i always have this need to drawing everyday, so AAAA yk? I just miss the joy of strawberries and teddies lmaoo.

This is a common issue artists face, I'm pretty sure. So I know its not too serious. I think what I'll try is stay on making more fun art to fall in love with it again.

(Don't wanna edit, sorry for typos!)

So hey berry, I've been watching lots of historical stuff cause I’m boring but realized lots of parallels from cool historical woman and my characters.

Anjita - Olga of Kyiv

Zedina - Joan of Arc / Jeanne d'Arc

Marva - Policarpa Salavarrieta, “La Pola”

I’m not saying they’re exactly like these women but there is definitely a similar vibe. Anyway that’s all I’ve been wanting to stop by for, I’ll let you do whatever you are doing. Adiós :)

Nidrä is nonbinary!! 💛🤍💜🖤

Yes berry pie, you read that correctly, Nidrä is nonbinary.

I thought I was going to let this unravel much MUCH later on but I'm like 'omg that'll take foreverrrr' and want to let it be buried here so I have evidence that it was NOT pulled outta my ass.

So yea Nidrä uses he/they/she pronouns. Their pronouns are assumed by many in the story but never offically confirmed by the character or anyone else. Since two of the main cast call them a she, that does seem like the main one (although Nid's least fav). (Yes ik it is a lil icky the binary assumption the other characters have, but it does very slowly go away)

This all happened cause I kept flip flopping their gender and that point like fuck it, yk?

I might make them more androgynous and also offically use they/them in my notes from now on. However, it does not matter what pronouns is used on them

"Oh I forgot about that"

Dude, someone liked some of my older art, and I'm cringing so hard. Like even if its not bad art, I just dislike it hehshshehd.

I think I'm going to redraw lots of my older stuff, no matter how small that info is and private the old art (i already did a bit? Maybe I'll keep it, idk. OH I willl I'll leave the "funner" stuff untouched, even if I dislike it. I still like to show how far I've come ykyk.

Am I dramatic, yes, but who's going to stop me?

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