remembered this line from Beast and now I have to kill myself

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Dazai x Reader x Chuuya

It starts with laughter.

Not his own. Yours.

He hadn’t meant to stop here. Hadn’t meant to look through the window, hadn’t meant to see you.

But there you are.

Laughing.

Bright, full, unrestrained—

The kind of laugh that shakes your shoulders, that lingers in your chest, that makes you forget the world ever hurt.

And beside you? Chuuya.

Dazai should walk away. He should pretend he never saw. Should keep moving like it doesn’t matter.

But he doesn’t.

He stays.

Because some things are impossible to look away from. Because some wounds never really close. Because once, not long ago,

That could have been him.

You used to wait for him. Not because you were weak, Not because you were desperate,

But because—

You loved him.

And for a while, he let you. You waited through his silences, through his deflections, through the moments where he gave you nothing and expected you to hold on anyway.

And for a while, you did.

But waiting has a limit. And time always runs out.

Dazai remembers the night you left.

You stood there, hands clenched, eyes tired, voice quiet.

“You don’t have to love me.”

“You don’t have to stay.”

“But you can’t keep doing this to me, Dazai.”

You waited for him to say something. To stop you. To give you any reason to believe this—

Whatever this was—

Meant something to him.

But he only smiled. His most well-practiced lie.

“You deserve better.”

You had looked at him then—

Really looked at him—

And he had never felt so hollow.

For a moment, he almost said your name.

Almost.

And now?

Now you are here.

Laughing.

Living.

Loving someone who isn’t him.

Chuuya says something, something Dazai can’t hear, and you lean into him like it’s natural.

Like it’s instinct.

Like you belong there.

And Chuuya—

He lets you. No hesitation. No fear. No second-guessing. Everything Dazai never gave you. But you hadn’t always looked at Chuuya that way. Once upon a time, you had looked at him like that.

He remembers…

How you’d hum softly under your breath, a single line of a song repeating on your lips, over and over—until he found himself humming along without realizing.

How you’d dance around the apartment, not because there was music playing, but because you simply felt like it. And the one time you had caught him watching—

Really watching—

You had grinned and held out your hand.

“Come on, Dazai, dance with me.”

He had scoffed, rolled his eyes, but the next thing he knew? He was spinning you in circles. And when you had laughed—soft, breathless, bright—

He had wondered, just for a moment, if this was what happiness was supposed to feel like.

He remembers the small things. The way you’d pucker your lips in deep thought, how you’d mumble nonsense words to yourself while reading.

How your hands always seemed a little too warm against his skin. He remembers the way you never asked anything from him. How you would just sit beside him, close enough to touch, but never pushing, never demanding.

And somehow, that had been more terrifying than anything else. Because love, real love, meant losing something real.

And Dazai?

Dazai doesn’t survive loss.

He should be happy for you. Isn’t this what he wanted?

Didn’t he say you deserved better? Then why does it feel like his chest is caving in?

He wants to blame Chuuya.

Wants to make this easier by pretending

That his old partner stole something from him.

But the truth?

Chuuya didn’t steal anything. Dazai gave you away. Handed you over without a fight.

And Chuuya?

Chuuya just did what Dazai was too much of a coward to do.

For the briefest moment, he lets himself imagine.

What if it had been him? What if he had chosen differently? What if he had stayed?

Would it be his name you laughed with? His hand you reached for? His love you clung to like it was something safe?

Would you still hum that song under your breath? Would you still pull him into that silly, ridiculous dancing? Would you have stayed, If only he had asked you to?

But that’s the thing about regrets. They don’t change anything.

You are gone.

Chuuya won.

And Dazai?

Dazai is just the ghost of something that never had the chance to exist. So he does what he does best. He walks away. Because he always leaves first. Because he always lets go before something can slip through his fingers. Because he always runs before grief can catch him. But the thing about grief?

It always does.

Because sometimes, love is found in the smallest details.

⋅.˳˳.⋅ॱ˙ ˙ॱ⋅.˳˳.⋅ॱ˙ ˙ॱᐧ.˳˳.⋅ ⋅.˳˳.⋅ॱ˙ ˙ॱ⋅.˳˳.⋅ॱ˙ ˙ॱᐧ.˳˳.⋅ ⋅.˳˳.⋅ॱ˙ ˙ॱ⋅.˳˳.⋅ॱ˙

I actually can’t that was such a beautiful and perfect ending for our four protagonists.

Telemachus getting a moment to be his own but finally getting to reunite with his father and receiving that validation. His own father acknowledging his STRENGTH and reciprocating the great amount of longing and love.

Athena realizing that the way she led Odysseus astray was wrong, that Odysseus was always a true warrior of the mind. That the way she led him turned him into a brutal monster and not the cunning warrior she was looking for. Her realizing that her actions led to him becoming RUTHLESS, and that ruthlessness comes at the cost of empathy. Then finally her graciousness in accepting that she has to let Odysseus be, and that the world he used to chase is now in her hands. Athena learning the greatest lesson from her most prized pupil, EMPATHY.

Penelope getting her moment of pure strength and authority when finally in the presence of her equal and her life partner. Telling Odysseus that all those things he had done, fighting to get home to her, it doesn’t matter. They both did what they had to do. She is frustrated at the idea he thinks she could deny him her love, because everything she has done, everything they have both done has been for LOVE.

And finally Odysseus. Haunted by the things he has done, but finally after so so so long he is finally on the upperhand in his own home. Slaying those who threaten those who he loves. Reuniting with the son who is a vision of him, but softer, kinder, still his boy. Then confronting Athena as an equal, standing his ground and telling her that it does not matter if she has come around, she isn’t apart of his agenda anymore, so he dismisses her. Not out of anger, but out of an exhaustion for the games of gods, the world isn’t his concern anymore, not after all he’s done. His last goal is to reunite with his wife. And when he finally does see her, he apologizes for years of wrongdoing, begging her to still love him thinking that he has lost sight of who he is. Then when he thinks that she is betraying the love he literally carved for her he speaks up and pours his heart out to her, revealing that underneath all his grit and tragedy he is still himself. He is still ODYSSEUS, king of Ithaca, but more importantly husband to PENELOPE.

EPIC was truly a journey which was such an honor to watch. From the first snippets of songs on tiktok, to this. The finally of our heros, and the truly epic conclusion of the journey we have been on.

I cannot wait to see what this amazing man comes up with next.

ᡣ𐭩 TO THINK THAT WE COULD STAY THE SAME

FEATURING: osamu dazai

SUMMARY: after your night out goes terribly wrong in every possible way, you find yourself at a strange house. you don't know if this is real or some elaborate trick of an ability—worse, you don't know which will hurt you more in the long run. you don't know how you're supposed to survive this. if you can survive this.

SEE: TWO SLOW DANCERS SERIES MASTERLIST

𝐂𝐡𝐞𝐜𝐤 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐦𝐲 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤𝐬!!

Smau masterlist!!

drabbles/oneshots

₊‧꒰ა running into the sun — dazai osamu

𝓈𝓊𝓂𝓂𝒶𝓇𝓎. you wonder if dazai ever takes a break away from the port mafia. 𝜗𝜚 3.2k words

𝒸𝑜𝓃𝓉𝑒𝓃𝓉𝓈. pm!dazai + pm!reader, f!reader, slightly au, fluff, flirting, swimming, romance, friends -> ???, romantic tension, unspoken feelings, hopeful ending, erm idrk how to explain this

𝓃𝑜𝓉𝑒𝓈. this can take place in my pm boss dazai universe (which is slightly different from beast so i don't say that lol). but the other works don't need to be read ofc. i also don’t know abt this color for the format but i’ve already messed w it too much >:(

“Don’t you ever get tired of it all?” 

That’s how it started, on a Saturday afternoon. Too late in the day for anyone to be doing any work, yet Dazai had been in his office, bent over some paperwork. You weren’t sure what he’d been doing — or if he’d even been doing anything at all. Still, he seemed focused enough, his eyes pinched together tightly. 

You perched yourself on one of the dark, leather chairs that was before him, and leaned forward onto his desk with a painted smile. 

Dazai had only blinked, amused by your intrusion. 

“Well, I get tired of a lot of things,” he mused, dragging his dark eyes over your form. “For one, you turning up here unannounced. You’ll have to be more specific.”

Chuuya who had an ability that enhanced other people's abilities before undergoing ability experimentation that turned his ability into a permanent singularity and caused the creation of an ability life-form (Arahabaki). A little boy in the middle of a war who developed an ability that would make him able to help others be stronger, safer. A power that was always meant to be used with other people, an ability that was has to be used in a group.

Chuuya being a character that thrives when surrounded by people. Chuuya being a character whose motivations are more often than not for the sake of other people. From a little boy who attacked someone bigger and older than him to defend his family's honour, to a teenager that decided to use his power to defend his peers and avenge his fallen friends, to an adult who steps in to save his organization and his city.

An ability that was meant to support twisted into an ability meant to attack. An ability meant to be used on others forever forced to only work on himself, granting him immeasurable power, but isolating him because of it. An ability that should have surrounded him with friends and teammates to help the most, but instead forced him to stand on his own and take all the responsibility for himself.

yeah, sure, Chuuya's amplification vs Dazai's nullification is fun, but that's like the cherry on top of the thematic sundae that this scenario would imply

#Chuuya who was naturally someone who wanted to protect and help others#having that twisted against him#forced to be useful for discarded#Be a successful experimental weapon or die#Be loyal to the sheep above his own personhood or be betrayed#and even in the mafia you have to be useful#lets not forget what almost happened to Akutagawa when he was injured#A boy who only wanted to help people being given the power to do just that#and being used and feared his whole life because of it

ᡣ𐭩 I BITE MY TONGUE, IT'S A BAD HABIT

FEATURING: dazai osamu

SUMMARY: dazai doesn't care about stupid holidays, but when he sees everyone but him being gifted chocolates from you, he starts to find himself severely bothered. it's the principle, he tells himself—nothing more, nothing less, just the principle.... right?

[ 𝐌𝐀𝐈𝐍 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓 ]

[ 𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐥𝐮𝐝𝐞𝐬 - works from jujutsu kaisen only, ranging from fluff / hurt/comfort / darkfics / something in between <3 listed from longest to shortest. ]

Dazai's attempts at roleplaying throughout the light novels:

Fifteen

Stormbringer

Dead Apple

─ ⊹ ⊱꒰☆꒱⊰ ⊹ ─ ─ ⊹ ⊱꒰☆꒱⊰ ⊹ ─ ─ ⊹ ⊱꒰☆꒱⊰ ⊹ ─ ─

SATORU GOJO - RYOMEN SUKUNA - Toji Fushiguro - Geto Suguru - Choso Kamo - Aoi Todo - Yuta Okkustu ୭

Satoru Gojo - Nanami Kento - Yuji Itadori - Aoi Todo - Noritoshi Kamo - Inumaki Toge - Geto Suguru ୭

SATORU GOJO - RYOMEN SUKUNA - Nanami Kento - Geto Suguru - Megumi Fushiguro - Toji Fushiguro - Maki Zen’in - Noritoshi Kamo - Shiu Kong - Hiromi Higuruma ୭

NANAI KENTO - Megumi Fushiguro - Maki Zen’in - Yuji Itadori - Yuta Okkustu - Inumaki Toge ୭

Inumaki Toge - Yuji Itadori ୭

Ryomen Sukuna - Geto Suguru - Satoru Gojo - Maki zen’in - Megumi Fushiguro - Toji Fushiguro - Shiu Kong - Nanami Kento ୭

RYOMEN SUKUNA - Toji Fushiguro - Geto Suguru - Maki Zen’in ୭

GETO SUGURU - Megumi Fushiguro - Ryomen Sukuna - Toji Fushiguro! ୭

SATORU GOJO - RYOMEN SUKUNA - Toji Fushiguro - Shiu Kong - Geto Suguru - Choso Kamo ୭

Ryomen Sukuna - Toji Fushiguro - Satoru Gojo - Megumi Fushiguro - Inumaki Toge - Choso Kamo - Geto Suguru - Shiu Kong ୭

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woah... eye reveal in the manga..? thats crazy...

(had fun mimicking the manga's style)