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the fact diagnostic status informs what experiences you have does not change the fact at the end of the day, the way society treats disabled and neurodivergent people is traumatizing.
the details may be different, you may not experience what someone else has, you may have struggles someone else doesn't have, and literally none of it makes anyone's pain less real or deserving of support.
another person's story isn't an attack on your own and using your story to silence or minimize another person's is cruel. there is a difference between these things and i just wish more people* realized that. instead of justifying shitty behavior.
we could be lifting each other up instead, with a mix of humility for our differences and pride for who we are/our common struggles. that's how actual progress is made, whether it's individual healing or societal change.
*and no, i am not nor have i ever been exempt from this. no one is. that is the point.
all your stuffed animals love you. they're not sad if they're in a box, or on the floor, or not held/played with as much. they understand. they know that you might need another stuffie more, or that you don't have enough space. they're just happy to be with you, and if you ever give them away, they'll be happy there too. stuffies are for comfort. they understand. they love you too. it's okay.
shoutout to the mentally ill adults who survived childhood, started getting their shit together, only to become even more mentally ill because it turns out you're physically disabled too. i can't be the only one.
if you have a similar experience and feel alone, i'm in this with you friend. you're doing your best and i'm so glad we made it. let's keep going together, cause we never have to do anything alone β‘
Sometimes I wanna play a game but need something simple but interesting... So I wanted to share my favorite itch.io games (click the link if you don't wanna read the post, I'll update it as I play more!). Some of these games mean a lot to me and have helped me through rough spots. They're all free to play on your web browser <3
Six Cats Under by Team Bean Loop "A little point-and-click puzzle game where you rescue your herd of cats by directing them with your poltergeist powers."
Good Morning! by cnnmon "A short morning routine simulator about starting your day right. Play through a few colorful minigames and puzzles until you're ready to take on the day."
Lookouts by paranoidhawk *** "A romance visual novel about two gay trans masc outlaws in the old west, finding refuge in each other, and a little hope for a better life."
Goodnight Meowmie by DDRKirby *** "A narrative game combining elements of both the virtual pet and horror genres."
Goodbye Doggy by Picogram "A browser game made in HTML5. Help your family cope with your death as a ghostly dog!"
Soft Underbelly by Rosa *** "A browser narrative game made in HTML5. Take a break. Talk to your cat about friendship, trust & care."
Purrgatory by Niv *** "A visual novel about passing time in an afterlife where nothing really matters. explore a whimsical point-and-click world, befriend seven charming characters, and remember β furever's not so bad!"
B-e-e-t-l-e by Loafy Co. "A typing game minus the chaos and the anxiety. Type at your leisure and enjoy a chill, relaxing adventure filled with retro scenery."
Happy Cat Tavern by Courier Cat Studio "A cat themed typing game" -- tip: for calm playing, use practice mode! there is still a word & time counter though, you're not on any time limit or combo constraint <3
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Anyway that's all. Asterisk'd (***) are my top favs. Have fun, explore itch.io, and mind the trigger warnings where applicable <3
Affirmations bc i'm disabled & struggle with internalized ableism:
I am doing good. My goals are mine, and I don't need to compare myself to other people.
I am inherently worthy as a human being, regardless of my productivity (or lack thereof).
I am allowed to rest, and it is okay that I need to rest almost 24/7 because of my disabilities. Rest is not a break to be earned; it's a need, and everyone's needs are different.
I am allowed to enjoy things simply because they make me happy. My joy is a human need, not something to be commodified.
I have so many strengths: thoughtfulness, compassion, gentleness, creativity, etc. These are the core of who I am.
I am loved and cared for. There are so many people like me across the world, and any time I feel lonely, there is another disabled person somewhere feeling the same. In the same vein, there are disabled activists who are fighting for us; being a voice for people who can't make their voice heard, or don't even know it's an option.
I am not alone <3 And neither is the person reading this. We are worthy, valued, and important. No ifs, ands, or buts.
aight so these may actually be PNES. not gonna say anything more than that right now since evidently it distresses us.
i dont know if it is PNES but um. it's my best guess right now. yeah. the symptom is getting worse lately.
i need dedicated trauma therapy so bad. like so bad. gonna talk to my peer counselor about it. i cannot do this anymore.
your life is worth living no matter what this capitalist hellscape tries to tell you. your interests are important. your joy matters. your impact on others stretches far further than you could ever know. you are not forgotten, and as long as you're on this earth, you are never truly alone. i hope one day you feel all the safety, passion, and support you deserve.
until then, just try to remember... this pain is not meant to happen. it's not your fault. the world we live in can be better. it needs to be, and someday it will be.
4, 8, and 17 for the plural ask game? giving ya options <3
aa ty for asking!
4) Are there any activities your system members like to do together? Collective hobbies? Talk about those!
We listen to music together! I don't really remember much else, but today I colored with another part. It was a really calming experience.
8) Does anyone in your system have roles? If so, what roles?
Yes! I'm the host and likely a persecutor-protector. My co-hosts have also been persecutor-protectors. There's Penelope, Celestia, and Eve who are insiders and internal-self helper/manager types. There's Clarie who's a caretaker (fronter) and Candace who is an internal caretaker (insider). There's some littles and teens. I also consider myself to be a median subsystem and, from what I can tell, my parts primarily hold emotions & memories but do have their own names/genders/etc. There's probably more but uh yeah.
17) Does your system have a headspace? Are there multiple of them? What are they like?
We do!! There are zones to it. The fronting/co-con space is a black void. Then the inner world can be accessed by a door that appears there, kinda like Monsters Inc. Above the void is the whitespace, which is where Eve manages everything (she's the head of that role). The inner world consists of our home (a teal and purple victorian house, in a field), a fairy forest, and a castle. It's almost always daytime there, and the castle is protected by a white horse named Westley. He's not an alter and IDK how to explain that even though he can talk like any of us can. I don't really go to the fairy forest or castle a lot though.
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Glad these are mainly ones I can give a good answer to lol
hey i think yr inspiring and i just wanted you to know that this lil anon looks up to you for the progress you've made. your blog has made a difference in my life, i feel less like i'm the only person going through it ya know? :)
i love this website. thank you so much. u are not alone !! and i am grateful that others see my progress :')
You All Seemed To Enjoy Our Last Ask Game,So Here's Another One! Feel Free To Ask Us These Questions As Well!
π - Do You Have Any Headmates That Speak A Langauge Other Than What The Body Would Normally Speak?
π - If Your System Had A Theme Song,What Would It Be?
π - Is There Anyone In Your System That Has A Wildly Different Clothing Preference Than Everyone Else?
π₯ - Who Is The Worst With Money?
π - Who In Your System Is The Most Chaotic?
π - Does Anyone Is Your System Practice A Religion Different From Others In The System?
π - What Is The Most Unique Pronoun Set Someone In Your System Uses?
π₯ - Who In Your System Has A Flair For The Dramatic?
π - Is There Anyone In Your System Who Is Particularly Skilled In Something Others Are Not?
π« - Is There Any Type Of Headmate That Your System Is Particularly Heavy On? (Introjects,Non-human,Etc)
β€οΈ - Does Anyone In Your System Have An Interest Or Favorite Thing That Everyone Else Hates?
𧑠- Does Your System Celebrate Holidays Amongst Yourselves? (Buying Eachother Gifts For Christmas,Etc)
π - If You Had To Describe Your System In One Word,What Would It Be?
π - What Is One Piece Of Advice You Would Give To Someone Just Discovering Their System?
π - If You Were To Choose An Animal To Represent Your System,What Would It Be?
π - Are You Open About Being A System Outside Of Online Spaces?
