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raised in the institution of dreaming

@the-everqueen / the-everqueen.tumblr.com

horse / latinx / any pronouns / 30 / in my bichote era
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i feel like the people offering me "advice" about the job market don't understand: i am AT CAPACITY. i am doing my very best rn. i cannot sell myself harder or more effectively, and in fact the longer i go stacking up rejections, the LESS i believe i have marketable skills, the LESS i feel motivated to put myself in the meat grinder that is ai-screening, the LESS i am going to be able to actually work if i DO land a job, because i am fucking. burned. out.

#year of the job market#cried most of today because#i do genuinely think i'm doing what people say to do!#i don't know what else i can do here besides go back in time and make better choices#sorry but nine months into this i DO need a pat on the head and a ''wow you worked really really hard''#and it FUXKING sucks for ppl to say ''i know this is hard'' when THEY have fuxking full time jobs#like sorry but i DON'T think you actually get it#the amazon warehouse is not even gonna have a half-decent grunt worker in a hot second#i'm so discouraged. i'm so anxious all the time. i'm so tired.#just six years ago my odds would've been 1 in 3 at least.
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Reblogged unreal-unearthing
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It really says something that a lot of monogamous people consider polyamorous and aromantic to be "opposites" but every polyam person I know took one look at aromantics and said "they're just like me for real"

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Poly folks x aro folks in the sense that "alloromantic heterosexual monogamous people view love and sex as an entirely different entity than me, and that makes life kinda strange"

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I feel called out, I only ever want to see poly or aro characters in the media I consume.

#this#poly-aro solidarity!#i'm currently really upset about how much of my field is designed#with the assumption that you'll have a live-in partner who supports your decision to go into humanities#and ppl think it's totally normal and ok to ask me invasive q's like#''are you going to move in with your partner if you don't get a job''#and ''when will your partner come live with you''#and ''can't your partner help support you while you're on the job market''
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i'm so anxious i can't fall asleep and i feel like i'm going to s c r e a m at any given moment but i don't know whether it's worse to get a definitive "no" or stay in this state of limbo for another week

#sobre mim#welcome to academia#year of the job market#please please please let me get what i want#<- song that is playing on loop in my brain. is the prayer of my heart.#i want a ''yes'' so badly#but also it's been two weeks since the interview and that does not seem to bode a ''yes''#i want stable employment i want to get to do the thing for a while longer i want to go home
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Reblogged neoyorzapoteca
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PLEASE BRING STRANGE THINGS

Please bring strange things. Please come bringing new things. Let very old things come into your hands. Let what you do not know come into your eyes. Let desert sand harden your feet. Let the arch of your feet be the mountains. Let the paths of your fingertips be your maps And the ways you go be the lines of your palms. Let there be deep snow in your inbreathing And your outbreath be the shining of ice. May your mouth contain the shapes of strange words. May you smell food cooking you have not eaten. May the spring of a foreign river be your navel. May your soul be at home where there are no houses. Walk carefully, well-loved one, Walk mindfully, well-loved one, Walk fearlessly, well-loved one. Return with us, return to us, Be always coming home. - Ursula K. Le Guin commonplace

#there was poetry#my sky my home
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