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Blue Eyed Cutie Patootie

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Blog dedicated to one Castiel Winchester Kline Novak.
I’m a Cas girl first, human being second.
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I have some thoughts about this one particular moment

I have never, NEVER seen so much emotion and depth just poured into one little sentence.

What makes it so devastating is when you realize this is a child, who was born into a world so dangerous, he had to grow up too fast (literally) and he’s meeting the man he chose to be his father for THE FIRST TIME.

How do you miss someone you’ve never met before?

Simple, when all you’ve experienced since the moment of your birth, is hostility, contempt and suspicion. All jack has at this point is two men, one wants to kill him. The other wants to use him (albeit a bit more kindly than the first). He doesn’t know what he wants in the world but he knows what he doesn’t want and it’s everything he’s getting from the Winchesters. So he misses the only two people in the world who ever loved him. He can’t have his mom, so he misses Castiel because he misses being ‘SAFE’. And safe is what Cas made him feel before he was even born.

I will never get over how soft and utterly relieved but at the same time TIRED Jack sounds in this moment. To finally have someone in his corner. To watch his back. So he doesn’t have to always be on guard anymore. And I can relate with that. I do relate with that. And that’s why this moment always makes me cry. Cas and Jack deserved to go some place far away and should’ve got to live in a lakeside cabin in southern France and been a family.

#supernatural#castiel#jack kline#jack and cas#Jack and Kelly#kelly kline#cas and kelly#destiel#spn#deancas#sam winchester#misha collins#alexander calvert
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Whatever you do, do not think about how all Kelly (and later Cas) wanted was for Jack to have a good, normal life and they both literally died for him, to make sure he was born and he was safe and loved and protected

but instead Jack never had a moment’s peace in his very short traumatic life until he gave up everything to save the world

and only found a measure of peace when he was back in heaven with both Kelly and Cas

whatever you do, don’t think about that

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cas is truly the character of all time to me. he’s an angel. he’s autistic. he’s a father. he’s a cunt. he’s serving cunt. he’s throwing his phone in the ocean. he’s sacrificing himself at the drop of a hat. he’s making bad unilateral decisions. he was one of heaven’s best soldiers. he killed like half his species. he broke out of heaven’s control and became the embodiment of free will. he’s defying god’s plan. he’s head over heels in love with a guy who dresses like a lumberjack. his dad hates him. he’s deploying the tactical poor little meow meow eyes to throw his brother in law under the bus. he’s been lobotomized dozens of times. he’s wearing a trenchcoat!

#he’s THE CHARACTER of all time#like no competition hands down#i love him so much. i adore when he’s bitchy and blunt and doesn’t give a fuck#cas#destiel#castiel#spn#supernatural#misha collins
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Every episode of Supernatural they ask, "How will we defeat this new and unique monster?" and the answer is "shoot them with guns," mostly.

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when im laughing but then i think about how deeply tragic Jack Kline's birth / upbringing was and suddenly nothing is funny anymore

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im falling down the Jack Kline deserved better rabbit hole again and someone save me because I have some THOUGHTS

-Jack was experiencing trauma before he was even born when Kelly tried to kill herself before she thought her baby would destroy the world and Jack had to bring her back to life

-Lost his mom in childbirth

-Lost his dad (his chosen dad) the same night

-Had to literally grow up too fast

(It hits differently when you see a smol bean Dean trying to grow up too fast but the fandom doesn’t allow the same courtesy to Jack for some reason)

-Shot at/stabbed/threatened consistently in the first 24 hours of his life and then continued for months

-constantly got told he was evil/bad/satan jr/who brainwashed the two people who actually loved him (iconic gaslighting here. 10/10.)

-self-harm; literally stabbed himself a bunch of times and got told ‘ill kill you myself’ by dean (that one hurt me personally)

And that’s just the first 6 episodes of his appearance. The next three seasons will need their own full posts.

Everyone on this show has trauma but I don’t think anyone’s trauma was dealt with such callousness as they did with Jack and that makes me SO mad

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as someone who's lived a very long independent, self-reliant life with no one to fall back on just like our favorite green-eyed grasshopper, i just want to read fics where dean just sits back for once in his damn life and lets Cas take care of him. where he lets himself be protected, defended and loved.

Give me all your recs. help a sister out. bonus points if its john Cas is protecting dean from.

#supernatural#castiel#spn#destiel#dean winchester#deancas
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“I’m going to be the one to watch you murder the world” is an insane line

the way cas says he’s still gonna be there with dean even when he becomes a monster and everyone else is long gone is absolutely wild.

Especially since dean has insane abandonment issues and was convinced that everyone’s gonna leave him eventually

And it’s the way he didn’t say he’d have to kill him, he just said he’d watch

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once it clicks that cas saved dean from hell and then dean saved cas from heaven and that naomi was cas’s alastair you can never unsee the thematic parallel of heaven’s weapon and daddy’s blunt little instrument. vomits blood

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Being a pro censorship ao3 user is so insanely cringe. Either use the (incredibly effective and well designed) filtering system to avoid seeing the shit you don't like or stop complaining. Leave the pro censorship rhetoric to Wattpad or smth

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You should be able to rot in bed for 2, maybe 3 hours after waking up before it starts affecting what time it is. If I wake up at 8:30 and lie in bed for 2hr it should still be 8:30 when I get up

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something I learned in film class is that the camera makes people look as if they’re standing further apart than they actually are, leading actors to have to stand uncomfortably close to each other to make it appear natural on screen. so my question is how fucking close were you standing to jensen ackles misha

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