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latest work: summer flows (soobin x reader)

latest repost: gold rush (yeonjun x reader)

also check out: project: matchmaker - teaser (soobin x reader)

btw guys i do want to say that i'm currently **trying** to get back into writing😖😖 i haven't written properly in months and as of now, i keep on hopping between the same 5 wips every time instead of being able to focus on something in particular😭 it's been very frustrating, but i think i wasn’t ready to give up on this blog and i still don’t think i am. i still feel attached to my works and especially some of the wips that i have in my drafts☹️ however, i often find myself being too harsh on what i write, which results in me daydreaming about my wips more than actually writing😭😭 or sometimes i feel too guilty to take time to write because i feel like i should be focusing on my studies or simply the more serious aspects of my life now, sometimes i also wonder if maybe i outgrew some things.

i don’t want this to sound too sad so to be clear this isn’t me bidding farewell or something, i think i just really felt the need to be open and let out some thoughts i’ve been holding onto. i do want to try to write at least one more new piece, but i have absolutely no idea when that would be and i was afraid that maybe people would end up feeling frustrated with the waiting😭

i was thinking of maybe continuing to repost some of my older works for now, so if anyone has something they wish for in particular, please feel free to let me know!!! i also plan on getting into the older asks sitting in my inbox, although i'm not sure if the people who sent them will still see them, as it's been quite a long while🥹

it's okay my beautiful lia i will try to take it as character development!!!!🤧 (i am one life lesson away from crumbling)

GOD I'VE MISSED YOU TOO:(💕💘💗💖💞💗💘💕 every time i talk to you i just feel a sense of comfort washing over me😞😞 AND YOU ARE SOOOOOO RIGHT IT DOES FEEL LIKE EXCHANGING LETTERS!!!!!🥹🥹🥹🥹 since we usually update each other on life and stuff every time i answer an ask i feel like i'm sending a pigeon back your way hehehehe

my sweetheart:(<333 it's okay, you don't need to search for an exact label to put on your feelings. graduation is a pretty big step so it can be quite overwhelming, but there's no exact way you should be feeling about it. so whether you're sad, nostlagic, proud, or a combination of all of the above, don't push any of those emotions away. for now, even if you're uncertain, just keep on walking forward, because bit by bit, the path becomes more clear🫂🫂🩷 and if you ever find it too tough to navigate, i'm here with you!!!!🥹💕

also, i don't know if you're familiar with anna laura, but her art has genuinely been such a big source of comfort for me the last few years. uni years are full of big and unexpected changes, but she inspires me to keep on getting though those chapters while still keeping that glimmer of hope in me

i have trust in you and i have trust that your graduation will go smoothly, 2025 will be our year fr!!!!!🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️💗💗

OH MY GOD ACE HIIIIIIIII I'VE MISSED YOU TOO POOKIE!!!!!!🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🩷🩷🩷🩷 i'm doing pretty alright now like not exactly great but not bad either i would say hehe!!

i'm already yearning for summer or at least for january to END ALREADY cause i feel like time is passing by agonizingly SLOW!!!!!😭😭😭😭😭 also i can't wait to finally have more daylight cause after 5 pm i can barely bring myself to do anything😖

BUT HOW ARE YOUUUUUUUU i hope things have been good lately!!!!! :(((((<333💗💞💖💘💗💕

MY LIA I'M SUPER HAPPY TO SEE YOU!!!!!!!☹️🩷☹️🩷☹️🩷 i don't even know how life is treating me akdbjdbsjn like i've been very busy and all my projects ended up going better than i expected, but now i've reached the point in time where i have to make some pretty big decisions regarding my studies and there's so much to take into consideration and it's scary and i just DON'T LIKE THINKING ABOUT IT😭😭😭😭😭😭 because of it i've been kind of unable to properly relax lately so i've been just anxiously sipping on coffee (which is absolutely. not. helping.)

HOW ARE YOUUUUUUUU how has life been for you my beautiful lia?? :(((((<333

HELLO OMG im blushing!!!!😖😖😖😖💗💕💞💖💞💘💖💞💕 thank you sooooo much!!!! :DD<333

anonnnnn i apologise if i’ve made you worry :((((( you're so sweet for checking up on me😭😭💖💗💘💞💖💖💕 what started off as me being inactive for a bit during the summer break ended in me being away for wayyyy longer andjdbjsbsj😭 it's mostly because of all the workload i had to deal with throughout the semester- things have been tough but still good, but despite my hopes i have to admit to myself that it’s very hard for me to find a balance between my studies and the blog :(

MY BEAUTIFUL LIA i’ve missed you tooo!!!!!!!!☹️☹️☹️💘💖💖💞💘💖💕💕💞💖💗 i'm so so sorry for responding this late, how are you doing?? :(((((<333

ANNA hiiii!!! :((((((💖💗💘💖💗💖💗 it’s been a long while indeed i’m really sorry:( life keeps getting in the way unfortunately- uni especially (as always😭) so to be extremely honest with you i’ve been spending a lot of my time lately anxiously thinking and trying to make choices about the future andjdjdj but step by step i’d like to hope that i’m heading down the right path😖

how are have you been also?? i really hope you’re doing well!!🫂🫂🩷🩷

my comforting kitty anon I MISSED YOU TOO MY LOVELY!!!!:((((((💞💖💞💕💗💘💞💖 thank you always for the reassurance and for being here for me, i'm extremely grateful to have you- just like all your kitties your asks also radiate so much warmth to me!!!☹️☹️ for me the holidays are basically now starting, which is why i might still be busy these next few days:0 i got home quite late because of uni so i'm still struggling to make up for the lack of sleep😖

and happy belated birthday my dearestttt, hope your day was filled with lots of love and cake, cheers to 20!!!!!🥹🥹🫶💖💕💘💘💗 i only turned 20 back in june but so far i would say it's a really nice age!!! it might feel a bit intimidating (or at least that's how it feels at times for me), but i feel like it gives space for so much healing and growth!!🫂🩷

heyy guys, it’s been a reallyyyy long time🥹🥹 it’s the night before christmas for me currently, so i don’t know if a lot of people will see this, but i felt the need to come here for a little bit and wish you all a warm and cheerful holiday season!!!🫂🫂🩷 for me, 2024 has been a year full of ups and downs, so i really hope that now, as the end of this year is approaching, your heart will be able to find some rest and still look at 2025 in a hopeful light. originally, i had an even longer post prepared, but as i will still be quite busy over the holidays and therefore won’t be able to come over here for a little while longer, i decided it’s best to keep that for a later time

for some reason, i do feel pretty anxious writing a post after so long bsjdbsjbd and i hope i’ll be able to properly catch up with you guys soon!! :(<33

????????????? huh.

poker face but your what is what.

kang taehyun please care to explain this behaviour.....................? please. LIKE????????????????? I KNOW YOU'RE A MENACE BUT WHERE'S THE DECORUM?!,@;?×,+?+?!???!+??!

COMFORTING KITTY ANON HIIIIII i've missed you OMG!!!!!!🥹🥹🥹💞💓💞💖💕💘💓💞 thank you so much my lovely!!! :((((((<333🩷🩷

i think that's the best and only way to spend the summer tbh🤭🤭 every single year i set in my mind that i have to be doing something productive, but then can't keep up with it and fail😭 however, you know what!!!! summers don't have to be productive- we'll be working enough the rest of the year anyway so we do deserve some proper, uninterrupted rest😌 in a way i'm also saying this as a reminder to myself actually andbsjbs my anxiety has been getting the best of me lately and this might sound random but the phrase you've said: "it's ok!! because i've decided it's ok😼!!" is actually bringing me so much peace😞😞😞💕

THAT SOUNDS LIKE SO MUCH FUNNNNNNN!!!!!🥹🥹🥹💕💕 hope ypur friend had an amazing birthday!!!! :DD<33 that cozy cabin again plus the sauna!!!! and FISHING!!!!!! how was that did you catch anything?? :000 i've never tried it myself so i'm super curious!!! :D💖💖

also the mosquitosssssss!!!!!😭😭😭😭😭😭 there's not a single day where they don't target me😭😭 it's even more fun when you're on the verge of falling asleep and all of a sudden you hear that high-pitched buzz 2cm away from your ear😟

OH AND I FORGOT TO ADD!!!! i'm editing this after posting rn so i hope you're still gonna see this part too😖 i used to love the pirates of the carribean as a kid!!!! i don't remember which part it was (it might have not been the 1st one) but there was one character with an octopus (?) head that absolutely terrified me😭😭😭😭😭 orlando bloom made it all up for the scare though🤭🫶

right now the fic is already over 1.5k words and it's still not done!!!!😵‍💫😵‍💫 i mighttt be overdoing it but i can't help it!!!! i often feel the need to expand on certain things as i write so my fics almost always end up longer than i originally estimated🫣

and GOD the killa soobin will ALWAYSSSSS be the death of me!!!!!!😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 i have yet to get used to that choreo.........every time i see it i swear i melt faster than a piece of butter on a hot summer day😟😟😟

INDIVIDUAL PACKAGES😭😭😭😭😭😭 hehe you're right!!!! and i think that makes them even better😋

IT REALLY IS SO MUCH FUN I HIGHLY RECOMMEND THEM!!!!! :DD like i honestly can't remember the last time i drew this much, it's incredible!!!!😭😭😭😭💓 i'll dm you some pics right away😋🫶🫶

POOKS PLEASE DO FIGHT MY SLEEP AWAY I'M BEGGING!!!!!😭😭😭😭😭 i've also been going to sleep during vacation earlier than before, like around 11-11:30 pm, but then during the day, after every single meal, i feel like taking a nap😭 i get SO sleepy??????? i'm only 20 but is my age already catching up to me..........????????😟😟 cause i don't know how much longer i can blame my exhaustion on the weather😖

AND THE CATS!!!!!!!!! GOOD LORD MY HEARTTTTTTTTTTT😭😭😭😭😭💖💓💘💕💞💓💘💖💞💘💓 so silly and so!!!! precious!!!!! thank you SM for showing me these cuties omg!!!!🥹🥹💕💕