DAY 1 of being Thankful, count to days to thanksgivng

Hello,

I come back to blogging. I'm just borrow my brother's laptop so i can blog more better than using my phone.. my phone is hard to blog ha ha.. so can you believe it today Nov 1st 2012, wow where is the time go?? it has flies too fast.. yesterday it was Halloween day, it was really good day and night.. I worked 6 hours shift at work it was very mellow day, so Devin Sr, My best friend also my starlights's daddy, came picked me up from work, so i can be able to go spend time with my kiddos on halloween trick and treating, so at 3 pm he came and get me we straight to slc, but we stopped to one of our greatest good friends pick them and kiddos up then stop get pizza to prodvice for our closest friends, finally arrived to Dc's parents house where all the friends meet us at.. so I finally able to face it and apozized to my one of best friend still consider still.. Cherilyn, her son look so much older and grow.. he sign more.. aww i miss these family. so we ate pizza and went to trick and treating, it was so much fun.. then left to friend House spend the night.. now today we got home in early AM, Because Devin Sr left to cincinnati ohio for a week. to help his uncle John moving to Utah, so I'm gonna say to tell him WELCOME TO UTAHASS!! in a week, ha ha.. i will have the kids for 11 days, while Devin Sr is in on mini vacation and help uncle john, so I'm excited to have them to hang out and spend time with me.. it gonna be so much FUN..

another good news.. i have a newest member in my Dad and mom side family, My brand new niece has born she was born Oct 25, 2012 3:05 AM 7lbs 4 oz 19 1/2 she is so precious and very beautiful she looks so much like her daddy.. she was born at home not at hospital.. my sister JeNeal is very brave do this. wow.. I'm very impressed with her.. wow..I'm waiting for her upcoming blog about her home birth experience.. also i forgot to add what her name, so Her name is EVALYN CLAIRE BROWN.. so WELCOME to world  Eva, I love you my baby girl niece,  lexi is surely proud being BIG SISTER and BIG HELPER!!!!.. will post picture soon..

now back today why is Nov 1st, 2012, I'm gonna do counting the blessing of being thankful since this month is November, so i did post on facebook and my igstram picture.. so today I'm being thankful is what is MY BEAUTIFUL KIDS MY STARLIGHTS,, im so thankful to have them in my life and I'm so grateful that god send me a beautiful kids ever i receive from him, and i thank ful for them to be part in my life and me being their mother.. i try my best to raise them in good life what taught them to be choose right path and right descion of life.. i really love them so much.. i gave them a life... so I'm thankful for their father to be part of father of their life..

Devin JR and Amber,

I really love you very much.. you guys are awesome.. even thought you guys fight alot.. i know you guys love each other.. you just grow so much.. i wish you guys go back to babies.. i couldn't go back and rewind the life.. now you growing up so become a respectful and good person to others.. so i love you guys!!! your dad and I will always proud of you guys no matter what,, and he and I will never stopping loving you guys, you guys are our world.. we love you so much..

so watch out for day two being thankful :-)

love, JaMay -\m/  p.s. my kids was halloween was Devin jr was ARMY and Amber was cute DEVIL..

Hello again.. now it FALL Season beings. and new blogg look

Hello Bloggers,

I'm Backkk.... I have been super busy lately, since I got new job and started working alot of hours!!! I don't work on weekends, because i have my kids with me on Every weekend i love it every minute of spending with them.. they are light of my life they rocked my life.. they are my everything!!!

Did you notice something different in my blog background and etc?? Thanks to my sister she made my headings etc.. it look so amazing thanks you sister, I really appreciate it.. it make my blogging look GOOD.. GOOD JOB sister.. your amazing and very inspiring seriously!! she is expecting baby REAL SOON but I don't think it will born on time.. I don't think so I'm hoping little Eva born on 18th to 20th. or even on her birthday mmm.. who knows.. I pray for her have a best delivery at her HOME since I read her blog.. she is nuts, but she is very brave lady ever I met!!! I cannot do that.. I would kill Devin for that painful.. haha..  she is amazing sister,I read her blog all time.. she made me to motivate how to live in the life!! since i read her blog it made me find something to DO.. 
            some of you don't know what I having issues (heath issues) it all about me!! not even Devin Sr.. problems or anything it how failed my marriages it not Devin Sr fault at all!!! it was all about me .. I figured out what is going on and Devin said you might have a some serious issues going on.. possible Bipolar depression, and i was like huh no way i laughed in few years ago.. now it happened consulting.. often. my mood changes alot.. like in 15 to 45 mins my mood goes ballistic.. it craazy.. I start noticed at MYSELF in las vegas before I moved back to utah, and i kept study at myself, oooohh Devin Sr is competly right.. i was like i hit a rock.. last week, it was hard and awful i fed up, I couldn't control my emotional, moods, i have keep secert from anyone not even my family of my own and my family not know about it that i have been secert that i hear small voices in my head.. it was pretty pure evil and not good thoughts the voices couldn't shut the hell up... it wont turn it off it keep going on going on.. i never felt a peace of my mind i always stressing myself,, i couldn't find my happiness i always sad but people kept asking me are you happy i kept say yeah i am .. but for your information i was happy marriage.. but not happy MYSELF ( JAMAY) itself person..

So ... I had talk with my sister whom you know who did this my blog, Jeneal I talked her everything always.. like forever we always tell each other alot things.. it sister thing, then i had to talk to my other friend Shellie, she said i might have same issues as one of her friend Brittany, also part mine of my friend.. too so Brittany texted me and asked me alot questions, and I answered all of her question,, so more likely i have PSTD, Bipolar and Depression.. and cant control the small voices in my head.. I kept it all not tell my mom or grandma or anything i hate when people going into my business or help me i not like that.. i feel i can do it.. but right now i cant do it.. all the once.. so I finally broke it down told Grandma Glenna, ( my mom's mom) she is amazing lady and i love her to death.. so I told her about it.. she was like ahh.. finally you come to me and get some help.. she told me why not tell mom i said no way.. my mom!!! mmm.. all in the years in my childhood me and my mom always butts in head.. always get in fights never get along till my son born!! now i wrote 5 pages letter tell her where i come from and what my issues are.. the reason i wrote her a letter, cuz i cant sign to her cuz she is rusty with ASL it my fault cuz i don't see my family in heber for long time.. i been living in ohio for two years and slc and etc,, now im back to Heber so currently live with Grandma during week cuz I CANNOT be ALONE or I GO CRAZY!!  on weekends i stay at my dad's with my kids easier!! more bed on kids.. with me on bed.. soon I'm getting a HELP  Thanks to my sister Jeneal who been patient wtih me talking through text she tries her best to be there for me even she not living in utah she living in FARAWAy...

so back the point .. on Monday on Sept 17th 2012, it was my SON 9th birthday.. oh boy boy.. where is the time goes.. i remember when he arrival out of me... by c-section *** PAINFUL C-Section*** whoa.. but you are the most beautiful baby boy.. has Beautiful Dark hair  and big BLUE EYES!!! so he is amazing good guy...  he is good son to us.. so HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!! i love you devin jr you are my blue eye starlight baby....

that all the folks..  watch out for next blog...

New blog from JaMay

wow it almost a month soon starting in next two weeks, so some of you guys know that we moved to las Vegas but only lived there for almost month, we end up moved back to Utah.. many going on and personal issues going on..

currently, DC and I are not together i not want to say it on this blog, so he and kids currently live salt lake city, Utah, they started their first day of school yesterday they rode bus and made a new friends so they are happy... i will see them on weekends i have them on weekends,  things will be okay i know that I'm just having faith on me and get all my strength back on feet's..

so Currently I'm living heber city, living at my dad's house and living with my brother !! right now I'm facing my own personal issues and i want my streght back and get more FAITH and i want to be close to GOD.. so i can feel his presences and guide me what is right path for me!! I'm all right.. i just have to keep my head up.. well.. yesterday mom and i went over to thrift store and got job interview see how it goes i feel it went well and will find out on Tuesday.. I'm hoping get this job finger crosses!!

yesterday, Mom,Grandma and I went up to N. Salt lake city visiting my sissy Caitlin and hang out have girls night out.. that what i really needed.. Thank you caitlin, mom, and grandma for all fun and dinner and get hair done and did talk my other sister Jeneal on my sister's ipad on facetime.. it was surely good see her and my beautiful niece lexi, it was great night!!!

This mrg i finally got skype on and did have conversation with my kids they are love of my life.. and did talk DC too... he and I are best friends.. there is no such hateful or angry for each other.. we just want provide what best for kids and their needs! Dc is wil always be my best friend no matter what where and what stuation we are in! we just be there for kids and kids comes first.. to focus on it.. things starting look good.. which is good.

that all i can say folks

stay tuned for next blogging!!! ( I'm trying my best)

the good news, I GOT THE JOB!!!!

       love you all  <3 class="goog-spellcheck-word" span="span" style="background: yellow;">JaMay

New chapter of life part 2

Part two since I'm using iPad I'm still awarded within 

Cont about my uncle, so he passed away, so my dad bought me a plane ticket to go Utah for funeral I stayed 4 days, it was nice to see whole family, also I was happy to see one of my old good family friend who still become good friends with my uncle, her name is Stephanie " Johnson " revelli her whole family was there at services it was good to see them also it was beautiful touching services I can't wait to see uncle bum and grandpa again even my deaf grandparents again 

So I flew back Cincinnati, 

Another news.....

My husband and I was talking about moving back west, so we made a final decision to move back west, cuz my job was not good due money mess up not right dc and I left our jobs and left the rental house, my house got broken twice and my kids didn't have really have a friends for 2 years so we moved to las Vegas nv to be close with families so my kids have been gone to sponake Washington visiting cousin Lexi and jeneal and Jordan they stayed there for 1 week half then drove to Utah for Caitlin wedding so my kids was represent for us!  The kids stayed Utah for almost 3 weeks but nice breaks but miss them like crazy"

Now I'm currently in Vegas and got house everything are looking good!!  The kids still in Utah we will get them when house is ready and found a awesome school for them, they won't start till August 27th


That all I can blogging so far!! Will post pic later since I have no idea how to use this iPad, haha my laptop is in storage not working correctly!!!

I'm hoping you have fabulous week and weekend. Enjoying reading my blogging I ll try my best to blogg more!

Jamay :-)

New chapter of life! Part 1

Hello, everyone

I know I have been blogger slacker major time oops, it has been 4 months, I haven't blogging for long time, because I'm out of ideas to blogging about what subject to talk about. Some of you guys know my sis jeneal, she is way master on blogging way better than me wow I'm very proud of her! There is many going on for the Densley family!!!

First at all, I wanna to say, I'm sorry I'm bad at blogging so this blogging is about new chapter of life for the Densley family,

The news, you all already know my sister jeneal she is prego she is having baby princess another GIRL on way she is due on Oct 28th 2012, Lexi she is so exiced to have baby sis, Im hoping the new baby will born  on Halloween since my sis loves Halloween since her birthday is in oct too. I'm thrilled excited to meet new niece , they live in sponake Washington. 

Another news is my younger sister, Caitlin she been dating this awesome boyfriend for 4 years his name Landon, they have been together for so long finally they knot the marriage on July 13th  I wish them to have forever lasting of happiness!  They living n. slc with their huge dogs the great Dane, 

Since these news are awesome, but since Caitlin got married dc and I was all planned go on road trip to Utah for her wedding. BAM!! Nope we unable to attend the wedding due the money was screwed over by st Rita  I was unable to get my summer hourly to fixed I was major disappointed  that dc and I unable attended there but I heard it was beautiful wedding! But congrats for Landon and Caitlin!

Now the tragic happened to my family member, my precious Uncle bummer, Paul duke, it hard for me to talk about it, the reason I'm finally got over grieve passed awat of my uncle, he was fighting cancer he had lung cancer he fought for 20 months finally he gave up the battle of fighting cancer, I guess cancer has always won which I really hate cancer I don't think that cancer will ever cured at all, cuz it happens to my grandpa Jerry smith, he was battled with stomach and colon cancer he passed away 10 years ago it made me really mad cuz I lost my 2 family member by cancer I hate cancer period!!!!! So anyway. Back to the point about my uncle bummer, he is such amazing person and greatest uncler ever I asked , he don't judge on people he kept himself very humble and he always give all of us great advices, also he given all his nephews and neices nicknames I don't know mine I'll ask my aunt about that, he raised 2 beautiful children, it breaks my heart when he willing go to see his baby girl Kaeli Rae to graduated from high school then 4 days later, he passed away on June 3rd in early morning, that night before he passed away, I had odd dream, that my dream says one of your family member will pass away which is my uncle I woke up from  last night before he passed away in early morn, my mom texted me said I have news to tell you I texted her back said good or bad news, mom said bad I oviversably knew it was my uncle passed away I was heartbroken I imiddmenrly crying it unavailable to believe that he is gome

MOVED NEW HOUSE !!!! and more news!!!!

HELLO!!! EVERYONE,

I know i have been slacking with blogging, i been busy with work and looking for new place to move, the old house had alot problems, so we moved into new house after valentine day, found a place still in cincinnati, but 10 mins away from work still moved to south i wanted moved to north, but too epensive, so we found a house it a RENTAL HOUSE!!! not half house or apartments or duplex or whatever to share house with others it alone house, whole house, but good news it same landord, thank god it alot easier, this new house i live in spring grove, still in cincinnati, but out of lockland, they are crazy people!!! bad school for my kids, so the house that we moved into it 4 bedroom and 2 bathrooms, and NICE KITCHEN minus no dishwasher (bummer.... i hate do hand dishes it so gross but i have to do it.. but nice to save electric for dishwasher, but nice kitchen ill be okay through)

House is beautiful very antqiue house inside.. nice stairscase, have basement, more cleaner than my old house!!!! I will post a picture!!! so my kids finally got into new better school the school is rating 5 out 5 ratings in cincinnati, the school is acdecmany school kindtertan to 8th grade, it really good school they had their first day on wedesday, they love it.. and more changlled, way better than lockland, the lockland elemtrary school rating 3 to 4.. so im glad we found a good school.. my kids is so much happier, good teachers!!!

for me and Dc, we still currently work st rita school for deaf, school soon over in 2 1/2 months unbeleive not relazied how the times went fast, on valentie day we had dinner and dc is basketball coach asst. had tournment that day.. so we had simple dinner at IHOP it was good my gift was from him is candy and new wedding rings i havent wore wedding ring for almost 7 years since amber was born, my ring broke it was thin... so this new ring is beautiful it worth to have it.. I finally wore it everyday i feel so beautiful and married.. and sexy... to scare mens away im tired of men check me out if i dont have my wedding ring.. it anoying so i been begg dc for rings for many years finally my wish came true!!

For DC since i said he is basketball coach asst. had tournment, his team won for 3rd place.. good job St rita boys and Jimmy and DC.. you did awesome job! ! try again next year for champion!!

the last thing, wanted to let everyone know we have new addition in our family which is CAT we got cat her name is Zebra Densley, we had her when she was 8 weeks old, she is beautiful cat and very MELLOW CAT!! wow amazing cat.. will post picture..

so febuary is ENDING next week here comes MARCH.. which is MY DAUGTHER BIRTHDAY and ANNIVERSAY of my grandpa death, and my sis in law birthday and ST PATTY DAY!! alot things are coming up

ALSO FOR FEBUARY wanted to TELL My MOM in LAW HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! her was on 20th which is recent.. she did had good birthday!!!

keep blogging enjoy reading.. i will blogg more in march!!!!

pS.. sorry my picutre is top up there im not pro as my sis jeneal and her blogging JENEAL HELP ME HELP ME become my blogg page awesome.. love you

Thoughts about SKYDIVING

Hello,

I hope you have good weekend!! today i was looking through facebook of mine account i went look through my sister Caitlin and Quinn's their skydiving, they went skydiving with my mom and my mom's friend Jen and my brother and her fiancee and some Quinn friends, for FUN.. when i saw these picture it looked so scary and FUN SAME TIME.. I asked my sister Caitlin if they were fun or scared!! cuz they had jump out from airplane she has partner with it.. i looked the picture and EDIT it.. it turned awesome!!! it look like you free and feel peaceful.. i want that.. i was thinking I should go ahead skydiving have my husband and my sister JENEAL and Jordan to come do it.. together.. since Caitlin and Quinn and Mom did it.. so it our turn to do it to beat our fear.. maybe have dad involved too.. mmm.. it made me thinking about more more about it.. i was thinking can do it on my 30Th birthday cross off my bucket list.. is SKYDIVING jump out of airplane also my Friend Kilee did it too.. she did many times and she sky diving by herself before... .. so i will post the picture tonight what i edited the picture or you go into facebook look Caitlin or Quinn's picture that i tagged..

mmm
JENEAL what do you think ??? have you and Jordan do it ?? let me know.. love you sister

have a great day!!!